#feeling lonely and unlovable

[libiskus]

she makes me go weak in the knees

[wishing-for-deathx]

There I was again, falling, falling so hard and not even realizing it. And there you were, realizing that you didn’t want me. Oh how it hurts to be back on the floor struggling to breathe. That sinking feeling in my chest, bloodshot eyes, the panic attacks, the self hatred. The never ending reminder of just not being good enough for anyone. How did I let myself believe it would be any different this time ?

I’m not made to be loved.

[heavenlyyshecomes]

I once read this post by a woman saying during the holidays she went upstairs to close a window and could hear the sound of people laughing and children playing below and in that moment realised that she will never really truly be a part of that and will be alone forever and that story has haunted me forever bc same

[szaryherbatnik]

Oh i missed drawing in a sketchbook hello new sketchbook hello farryn

Just some random birds and shep because he blessed my sketchbook

[mypersonalventaccount]

..but why did you go from messaging me every day, several times a day, checking on me, showing interest in me and reassuring me to suddenly distancing yourself from me, messaging me less and less until you just. stopped..? am i really that disposable, replaceable.. unlovable? just say so..

it's not like I ever felt any different anyway..

[iifly-with-meii]

im the issue

i understand now

[stiffyck]

Okay what if the winners got to meet previous versions of themselves through the life games.

Like grian meets no one. He didn't have any previous "versions".

Scott meets 3rd life Scott.

Pearl meets 3rd life and last life pearl.

Martyn meets 3rd life, last life and double life Martyn.

Scar meets 3rd life, last life, double life and lim life him-

This whole thing was an idea that I got just because I was thinking about ll and sl scar because they were both so lonely like wtf and I just though about a scene that would be so. Grips chair.

Ll: "We won?"

Sl: "Yeah"

Ll: "Did we have allies? Friends?"

Ll scar probably thinks sl scar won only because he had allies to support him. He knows what its like being lonely and he hopes no one has to go through that loneliness. And he wants to be optimistic for once that sl scar, future him, gets allies, gets friends.

He tries to hope and then he sees the look on sl scars face. Or maybe sl scar tries to lie- maybe he tries to say they had allies.

Ll scar sees right through him. He's him after all. Maybe he's always gonna he lonely anyway

[lufronus]

Maybe in the end the only lovable thing about me is what I can give others. Maybe that's the only purpose I'll ever have. Maybe that's the only thing about me that's good enough

[ihat3ev3rything]

replaced the tears with drugs.

[the-lark-ascending69]

Ik everyone loves platinic with capital p stobin, everyone loves their friendship, i'm not Not Like The Other girls there, I adore them too. But i've seen a few ideas that I don't necessarily strongly disagree with, but that I'd like to suggest an alternative perspective to.

Mainly, the idea that Robin would be a Bros Before Hoes kind of lesbian. Not an unreasonable idea, not a bad idea - but consider Robin watching Nancy break up with Jonathan, Steve gravitating back to her side, they spin around each other, he tells Robin he still loves her, and for a moment, it looks like Nancy loves him to. And Robin bites her tongue and it burns because ever since she met Steve, this is the first time she feels she needs to hide again. To not tell him she's in love. But she's only human and she can only take so much shameful jealousy and longing, and one day she cracks and screams everything to him. She yells with tears in her eyes, wildly gesticulating with her hands, that Steve doesn't understand Nancy, that he should be able to see Nancy would never be happy following his dream, and she hates to say it, hates even more to think it, but in her darkest moments, she lets herself realize she'd be able to give Nancy the life she wants if Nancy looked at her - and she feels predatory and gross for thinking that way, but having a real fight with Steve for the first time, she she says things whose aftertaste later feels monstruos in her mouth - that is he stupid? and does he not know Nancy? and she doesn't care that he's known her for much longer, and no, she's not stepping out of line, he is, and he asks why does she feel entitled to have an opinion on his relationship or what Nancy chooses, and she almost snaps and says "because I... I'm her friend". Steve is not stupid, actually. Okay, he is, but he knows Robin, and it took him a moment - he's slow like that - and it dawns on him, that his best friend is in love with his girlfriend, and she's fighting him for her.

[pondblossomm]

oh to feel so unworthy of love, that your chest feels like an endless cavern, a long stretch of darkness that goes deeper than the unknown

- Myself

[batdevil19]

Sometimes i feel my chest hurting cause of these feelings stacked inside but then I remember I only get more hurt when I talk about them.

Fox D.

[goblincrimes]

this has been the best and worst year of my entire life. i moved into an apartment with my best friends. i had the messiest breakup of my life. i smiled n laughed harder than ever before. i shaved my head, and i started seeing myself as hot for the first time. i started reading again. i went to a wedding. i cried more in the past month than i have in the past 27 years. i played a heinous amount of world of warcraft. i listened to a lot of really good music. and i'm still alive. i really didn't think i would be. there was a time where i had no intention on living past 18 years old, and i very nearly went through with that, and yet here i am, just shy a decade later, still stickin around just in case something funny happens. despite everything i'm really glad i'm still here. there are a lot of really cool people in my life and i love all of them very much. i don't think i really got a lot done this year, but i have really high hopes for next year. im thinkin by this time next year i'll have a better idea of what i want out of this life, and i'll be a lot closer to it than i am now. i love you all, thanks for stickin around.

[jadeprismm]

Last ever selfie?

[snobgoblin]

i think maybe I've figured out i don't actually want to have a kid after all i think what I wanted was to see if i would be able to raise someone kindly and erase a little hurt from the world or some shit like that

[mypersonalventaccount]

how come everyone else is worthy of your love, your time, your effort.. your little acts of love.. your attention.. and i am not? why am i always the excluded one?

why does rarely anyone want to be my friend or ends up leaving or avoiding me eventually? why am i never anyone's favourite friend?

am i really that difficult to be around?