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Random world-building things I have in Gala (the world I use for my writing):
Day 5:
In gala, when you finally kick the bucket, your afterlife can be a few different things. Most of the time, you will be collected by Pine (goddex of the afterlife and order) and taken to The After, which is a pretty general afterlife that will keep your soul confortable untill it is de solved or repurposed.
You can run from Pine, either becoming a wandering spirit or soon becoming reincarnated
Or- you get shot out into a dimensional inbetween called The Side, and you have to spend the rest of your afterlife avoiding monsters and overall having a Not Great time.
#day 5#feeling kinda sad today#but how are y’all?#I hope y’all are doing well#please remember to drink water#and have a snack#wishing everyone a good day#random worldbuilding#okay bye
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Thinking about Mass Effect, as you do, and how I'm kind of sad that the way it's been engraved in pop culture has more to do with the way internet reacted to it at the time than what the actual game is about. Yes sure, it's about romance (and not that much all things considered) and it's pulpy (but not solely because of hot lady aliens), but it's also intricate worldbuilding that touches on a lot of sharp ideas, and a complicated tug-of-war between a genuine and vulnerable belief in reconciliation and community VS post 9-11 US military propaganda and steadfast belief in heroic exceptionalism, and the melancholic yet energizing mood, and the daring narrative systems, and so so much more than the 'We'll Bang OKs" and the "There's No Shepard Without Vakarian" and the whole ME3 ending situation
It's all there, but I'm sad the impact of the series is often reduced to (what I think is) the least interesting parts of its sum
#mass effect#mass effect meta#and what I'm the MOST sad about#is how bioware internalized a lot of that I think#I think Mass Effect 3 and especially the Citadel DLC suffered from trying to pull itself in the shape of what the fandom expected#it's why I'm so ambivalent about Mordin's seashell bit --which I do find kinda cheap in its attempt at being an obvious crowdpleaser#and it's why a lot of the Citadel DLC jokes don't land as well as they could have for me#AND why I didn't react that well to Andromeda either#which to me forgot a lot of its strong worldbuilding foundations and sincerity#and ended up feeling so very... “liberal” to me --if you can forgive my semi-judgmental wording#as in: gestures at inclusion and would do pronoun rounds probably but will never lift a finger to criticize actual systems of power#it's “nicer” and people are more fun but the colonialist project is never sincerely questioned by the narrative#elon musk-like “genuises” are given a god-like aura#species become mostly tired and watered-down versions of their archetypes...#I don't know. I'm sure a lot of people will disagree but yeah I was thinking about this today
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neighborhood watch
#boyd cooper#psychonauts#nightmaretheater#OUH my god. i am so impredsrd by myself today.#little known fact hes. Okay hes. i have alot of fsvourite charscters… hes up there. Okay?#(i like crispin more but. hes intruiging to me)#but lik. Ugh. i still feel like i cant draw him becauee of the meme incident… sad…..#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹hes so silly tho#his vibe is like a bitcrushrd video of a cat jumping at the sight of a cucumber#okay . The delirium is winning a little. i cannot type tigjt rn. HHmmgmgmgmgmgmm#time taken was like.. 8 hours?#sighs. One day i will have created atleast one detailed rendering of every character. then the mission will be complete /nsrs#i was going for a more movie poster aesthetic but then i just kinda went… nah….#no music to post becasue its painfully obvious#me 🤝 this specific color palette#okay i need to get dressed… hold on#I HATE LETTERING I HATE LETTERING I HATE LETTERING I HA#i meant to post this like an hour ago but then the king crimson music absorbed me sorru
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#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#floyd leech#suntails#adding tags retroactively bc i dont want to be too worrying. so ppl know my brother almost tried to . and i had to take care of it#and i got a 900 dollar medical bill today. and im unemployed. so it um. kinda broke the last straw. and twt has been miserable to touch#got in a small fight w my friend and i felt physically sick and ive been having little mini breakdowns like 3 times a day and im not used t#i dont get sad like this. i dont GET soul-crushingly upset. i dont get nervous. i normally j shut down and get thru stuff so im rly lost#sry for the vent i dont intend for it to act as such. i j wanted to give context for whats been going on bc a lot of ppl here r tumblr-Only#i rly liked this when i drew it bc i love silly meme outfits. i drew minions a lot when i was into hq so it felt like returning to my roots#im sure when i feel less empty ill be happy w this again
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Not to me. Not if it's you.
#TIME TO CRY ABOUT THEM AGAIN#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH OKAY#THEYRE EVERYTHING#THEIR DYNAMIC IS FHDDBZNNSBDJDND#was feeling kinda down today so im putting all that sadness to my blorbo#andhera#prince andhera#binx choppley#gwyndolin thistle hop#binxhera#acofaf#a court of fey and flowers#omar najam#surena marie#dimension 20#d20#college humor#dropout#dnd#art#artists on tumblr#dungeons and dragons#romance#aabria iyengar#drawing#illustration#draw#nor's art
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Splatter splatter feat Tobs
#feeling terribly under the weather today#kinda sad and angry#but wanted to push out a drawing today#tobs#creepypasta ticci toby#ticci tobi#ticci toby#creepypasta toby#ticcy toby#toby rogers#creepypasta#creepypasta fanart#creepypasta art
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working on something BIG and SAD because I enjoy feeling pain
#artrodent#wip#tma#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#jmart#feels kinda weird to have this many tags in some weird lil wip but I felt adventurous today#i’m listening to sad songs in my jmart playlist :( why do I DO THIS TO MYSELF#anyway I tried out a new brush for this one :) it’s nice
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some people in this fandom are going to be really disappointed when winds of winter comes out.
you guys. you cannot treat the POV characters as stepping stones for other characters/other POV characters.
the POV characters must have a fitting end according to their character arcs, themes, foreshadowing, etc.
to clarify, the POV characters chapters are about THEM. their storylines are about THEIR journey. you cannot use their hundreds of pages of character development as a brick to build the castle your fav will live in.
this is especially true for the key 5 and for the other younger POV characters. their endings have everything to do with them, they do not revolve around your fav.
us readers out-of-universe reasons for wanting x or y characters deaths does not matter. what actually matters is if you can support your theories with textual evidence from the chapters of the POV character that you want dead.
#i dont think there’s anything in the books that supports a theory of a member of the key 5 dying permanently#i think you could make a case for dany temporarily dying like jon for her third death and rebirth. but that’s it.#maybe winds of winter will set up the permanent death of one of the younger POV characters.#but so far there’s really not enough evidence to be sure of x or y characters deaths#and if you want their deaths based on ‘feels’ or due to unobjective reasons then i’m afraid that you will be unhappy#wanting a marginalized characters death especially as they’re igniting hope/recovering from abuse/trying to make change is very gross#i want to say that i totally understand what it’s like to be put off from a character due to that characters fandom#(happened to me with the sansa stans on here. they’re real nasty)#but the best thing to do is to distance yourself from that portion of the fandom and to try to not let your hate color ur opinion#i’m acting kinda self righteous sorry guys 😞#just a bit sad cause i’m seeing a lot of jon hate today <\3#asoiaf fandom critical#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire
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Another wip! It's kind of almost done :)
#sha gojyo#saiyuki#wip#gotta tag talk for a sec -#idk if it's weird or inappropriate considering the smiley mood of the wip but I just kinda need to#cw: death I guess#life's so so bizar right now - just. incomprehensible in a way#I don't know how to describe what's going on in my head#with my dad being on his death bed#on one hand it's all consuming and on the other. like. life is still happening? I worked today. did work things#I'm working on this light-hearted little comic and it feels almost rude to keep drawing it#like whatever I make should be sad or angry or whatever#or not at all#but this is still what I wanna draw#I keep thinking about fucking Inktober bc it's something that brings me joy normally#but I will absolutely not be able to do it and it's so so so unimportant in the grand scheme of things#I have sketches that I like so idk they'll get finished eventually#got a message about a commission I would love to do but the deadline is in around December#and I just can't know if I'll even be able to do#it's just impossible to imagine my dad pretty much definitely not being here in two months#let alone what life will be like and what *I'll* be like#it's so weird#danikunst#fanart#described#1
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I'm not in eclipse path of totality, but my area of Texas is going to get around 99.2% coverage (or so staff at our state park say...)
It's cloudy as all hell, but it did make for a pretty cool picture.
#solar eclipse 2024#the guys helping us clear our yard are also looking up now and then#I'm kinda sad I'm feeling like garbage today bc i work up in austin and theyre getting full coverage there...#unfair. extremely unfair. the human body is a nightmare.
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I think a lot of the reason I sorta stepped back from this place was recognizing you can do everything 'right' as a female OC but it just does not feel like enough. You can have constant pretty graphics, pretty prose, try to extend outwards but after awhile you do feel like banging your head on a wall. It's jarring to see whenever I hop onto my Satoru or multimuse, there is a complete interest primarily cause they're male dominated. It's demotivating while also making me think I've sunk in four years with Sayuri, the people who are interested in her I cherish so deeply, but continuously having to assert she is my main muse also gets me exhausted. What's ironic is the traits of her being petty, cold, or nasty are often liked on male characters which makes no sense ???? The community talks about being different or treating female OCs / muses with respect yet can't seem to act upon it.
#OUT.*#// today it's kinda made me sad recognizing this#// while also feeling like there is this competition or constant need to make her 'approved'#// like I don't understand the mentality and I do feel it's become worse as prior when I started her
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got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar
#my art#wc oc#squints. its been a dogs age since ive posted anything wc oc related#oc#BUT YA!!!! these guys are old. i think i made cicadahop 2018-2019 but i could be wrong/i have no way of checking haha#and scallopstar was made 2020.? i think? both are vaaastly different#if i were to play them today i think id keep a lot of things the same for cicada. shes just a silly girl who wants to make friends and#and be kind. as for scallopstar. i think id change a lot#one reason: ive gotten a lot better (I HOPE) with storytelling now that ive been playing dnd for a well over a year#and since i also run two different campaigns. two: i have more experience writing a character with an arc that turns them into a villain#three: i was really going through it at the time so. erm. LMFAO plus i was like 16 so ANDKJFGNJDFHBGJH#but yeah!!! kinda crazy looking at my old art and seeing how much ive improved#also a weird feeling to draw them again but not a Bad weird feeling. been doing a lot of reminiscing#thank god we can copy/paste tags bc if i had to rewrite this all id be so sad HAHA#the crop was weird so i wanted to fix it before it was too late lol#since these 2 are ocs im not gonna indicate this was a request the same way i will with the other requests lol
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2023 United States Grand Prix - Sprint - Fernando Alonso
#making these as cope for the mental damage i received today#I HATE THIS OLD MAN!! STOP MAKING ME SAD!!!#and also stop looking so fucking sexy while you're depressed god damn#ASTONNNNNN FIX YOUR CAR!!!!#my fav moment of this wknd actutally was when my dad(known fernando stan) texted me after quali:#'they brought upgrades? more like fucking downgrades.'#im havinf fun dw!!! it just sucks a lot that my guy isnt doing well :(#killing myself out in the heat and my guy isnt even in the top 10 UGHHHHHHHHH#also guys the america hat is so ugly and expensive...but i kinda want it...should i buy it#i need to buy some nando or osc merch to feel fufilled this wknd hahaha so lmk :)#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#2023 us gp#2023 us grand prix#2023 united states grand prix#223 united states gp#fa14#we do a little bit of f1
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ai has become such a blurred concept that anytime people hear something uses ai nowadays they immediately distrust it and think it's inherently evil and gonna steal all their data
there's a difference between some rich fuckers trying to train ai without your consent and some discord bot that just finds patterns in speech and says garbled funny shit back at you
#chips and gray im sorry if yall see this and immediately think im talking about you guys i kinda am but i promise im not like actually mad#or dislike you guys you're all justified#chips i love you#i just find it a little sad that anything ai nowadays is completely distrusted even when given evidence that there's no malice behind the a#it was just made for fun#miles posts#sorry for my probably unpopular opinion i was feeling fucked today
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i dont know what to feel about today
#nobody warns you about what it's like to experience Mother's Day when your only pregnancy ended in miscarriage a few months ago#i dont feel angry or upset or envy or anything dramatic. just a very quiet and mild sadness.#part of me feels like i should have stronger feelings about it#seeing friends/family talk about what they did to celebrate their motherhood today and kinda just feeling like... hey... thats great...#it just feels ''off''#the weird awareness that if i was still pregnant right now i would be celebrated too and just not sure what to do about that knowledge#people are not meant to become a parent and then go back to not being a parent#an odd limbo of being a mother but also not a mother
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i miss her…
#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all#but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up#a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less#and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads#anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time#he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often#my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know#i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona#i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye#oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man
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