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starry-bi-sky · 3 months ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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tubbytarchia · 1 year ago

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I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him)#But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but)#And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

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occasionalsnippets · 1 month ago

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I wouldn’t be surprised if yandere au does happen tbh, FD!Mc is a very important person in their lives who saved them from their canon fate

The tipping line between the concept being yandere or not is pretty thin.

The Batfam have it pretty easy, all things considered. You won’t leave Gotham for long periods of times, not when you’re still running Drake Industries and even with that aside, as long as they have Tim, they’ll have you.

Even if you haven’t accepted everyone else as family, accepted that they want- need you to stay, Tim is still your absolute, uncontested, number one priority. There’s no way you’d leave him with the Waynes without at least checking in every so often. So, really, most of the yandere-ness is already satiated by just how often you come by and by the sheer everything you’ve done to help them all.

But still, it’s not enough. You still leave at the end of the week. You’re still distant, watching on as though you’re an outsider. You still won’t call anyone other than Tim your sibling.

It’d be easier if you could stay forever. So what if there are papers you left at the Drake manor that you need for your next meeting? They can go and get it for you and while they’re at it, why don’t they just bring everything back home, back to the Wayne manor where you belong.

You’re the one who dug your way in, mended the splinters and carved a place for yourself in this family so should you really be surprised when they won’t let you leave?

(Tim is definitely still collaborating with everyone to get you to stay even if he was a bit unenthused at the prospect of sharing you at the beginning. But… if you ever wanted to drop everything and leave, he’d help and vanish with you too. Though, of course, that’s require you to realize something is wrong first…)

I guess the main thing about the au being yandere is the suffocation. In the normal au, they’d at least respect your choices and let you do your own thing but if they’re yandere, there was never really any choice at all.

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doomedclockworkdotmp3 · 3 months ago

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heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

#my art #digital art #digital painting #fanart #resident evil 7 #ethan winters #goddd PLEAAASEEEE #i havent known if i was gonna post this or not multiple times in the process of drawin this. but ultimately i spent too much time on it to #NOT post it. embarrassment be damned #but at the same time what am i even doin yknow. what is this what is goin on pleaaseee PLEASEEEEE #I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT RESIDENT EVIL!!! I DONT KNOW N O T H I NG I KNOW LESS THAN NOTHING #HOW?? HOW DID I GET HERE??? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN???? i know exactly the answer to all those questions but it still boggles me how fast this #happened. usually it takes WEEKS if not MONTHS for me to start makin fanart. this was faaasttttt TOO FAST and im like. genuinely constantly #thinkin about this game. im ALWAYS thinkin about this game. part of why this took me so long to do is cause i always wanna play re7 or thin #about re7 in a strange and deranged way. ive actually genuinely been SICK WHAT HAPPENEDDDDDD #im losing it!! anyways this took me a looonggg ass time and i redrew it soo many timmmessss #i did like. 3 lineart passes. the album version i did 3 shading passes. i really struggled!! and ultimately i dont know how i feel about it #like i kinda resent it. for takin so long and makin me suffer so much #never again. never again will i spend that much time on a drawing. i HATE when drawins take a long time. i HATE that. it makes me madddd #ive been insane. ive been so insane. and im not gettin better like i cant sleep sometimes cause im thinkin about this game and this guy and #that gal like i think about them!! so! so much!! oh my god!!#in the time it took me to finish this ive done like 10 sketches for other pieces like. and ive had like 3 ideas ive written down.#and like 50 that i havent written or sketched.#IVE WRITTEN POETRY!! P O E T R Y !!!#i write the occasional poem when im feelin some kinda profound emotion but i NEVER write poetry about media SOBBING #anyways thats the post i think this is the beginnin of the end so lets hold hands and pray. ugh sorry if i get sick. im shakin.

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napping-sapphic · 1 year ago

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Sooo NONE of you want to fall deeply unhealthily in love with me rn……?

#:(#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #sorry i watched too much Media™️ again #the insanely (literally) in love trope got to me #you could just like become a little deranged about me #as a treat #no yeah you’re right realistically that would suck #i GUESS we’ll have to settle for you falling healthily and normally in love with me rn #👀#im gay and i like sleeping #scheduling my 2am feeling insane posts for my feeling chill era time of the day #nothing could go wrong

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vcrnons · 1 year ago

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cant believe i lost all my marbles over vernon’s legs and. completely. forgot. to include. this masterpiece. begging for forgiveness.

but then. see also.

and so i must ask. if the man is not a seat. why am i sat.

hi j i need to tell you that i was just trying to take a nap on my day off but because of YOUR post earlier all i could do was have Thoughts about hansol vernon chwe (specifically….his legs). so i guess my question is how could you do this to me and what do you have to say for yourself

what i have to say for myself is—

i’m really sorry

very truly apologetic

i cannot tell you how much i regret my behaviour

and i would like to take this opportunity to say

that i, from the bottom of my heart,

would never want to cause anyone any distress. especially not over his fine ass legs. and i am sorry.

(and as a bonus. i will allow NOBODY to forget that hansol vernon chwe also. has. ass)

#shut up j #vernon #HOW COULD I FORGET. THE FUCKING. JORTS.#I was abnormal for WEEKS over that combo it was unironically so fucking deadly to me #THOSE BOOTS. THE PLATFORM. FUCKING. JESUS #at this point I was in no svt fandom spaces either so my best friend had to listen to me screeching the entire time #I do genuinely mean weeks btw. we were sending each other the same pictures every few days and BAWLING over them #feeling deranged again #this hit me out of nowhere on my lunch break and the way I yelped ;-;#the freckle on the inside of his knee.#I think about it daily. I’ll never be normal about his freckle. know that. remember it.

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soundleer · 1 month ago

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infatuated constriction

#soundleer's art #sprunki #im in a mood for darkcult. wonderful time to be a multishipper lol #had a vision where black wraps himself onto jevin like a serpent and securely holds his constriction with his legs-#the way i can actually feel myself getting constricted as i was drawing this idea though... im not deranged nuh uh-#yea ill confess it: this was kinda self-indulgent... oops-#then again so is every art i draw of them... no wonder why the ship grew into me #sprunki jevin #sprunki black #jevin x black

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dracanboys · 5 months ago

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hi welcome back to my monster hunter mind palace everyone

#REPOST SORRY. Posting it at 4 am was deranged And half asleep i uploaded a very lq version. Oops #ff7 #cloud strife #monster hunter #i dont feel like adding all my prev tags again but something something normal boy cloud strife and his well adjusted boyfriendpal zack fair #who are doing really really normally in this au. trust me. smiles #ff7 monhun au

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duckydrawsart · 5 months ago

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└ better off without me | driver & irene [wip]

A vidlet I've been chipping away at. But I don't have enough scenes to edit the chorus how I intended, so I'll probably have to scrap this half 😅 Sharing it here anyways so my work isn't wasted.

#drive #drive 2011 #driver x irene #driver #driver irene #ryan gosling #carey mulligan #fancam #fanvid #the brain worms they give me never cease unfortunately #I'm always thinking about Driver coming back to her yrs later...the heart wants what it wants #anyways I'm very happy that school is starting so I can have more time again #hopefully get some art done and other creative projects #it's been too long. I feel itchy and deranged #cw flashing #cw flashing lights

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demigod-of-the-agni · 11 months ago

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the silly...

taken from this post from the spiderversemovie account on instagram

#i'm like very deranged over the boy. he is my everything #give me one blurry pixel of him and i will juice the hell out of it until i go into pavitr withdrawal again #i miss my son #the only reason i follow this account is because i am delulu and think i can get a pavitr short film or some shit if i beg hard enough #it is not working. please help me #i feel like the meme where the guy goes “hello. how are you. i am under the water. please help me. here too much raining weahaahah T-T”#pavitr prabhakar #spider man #spider man india #atsv pavitr #atsv #across the spiderverse #agnirambles

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canayams-art · 5 months ago

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One of the things I like about Pei Xiu is that for all of his being a god of slaughter or whatever his personality temperament and habits are far from that violence. Guy who developed a reputation around one (1) incredibly bad day in his life that happened to follow him into immortality. Meanwhile he’s so soft spoken and calm. I don’t blame that guy for wanting to dip out from heaven the moment the opportunity was presented.

#yams thought #pei xiu #once again I just think he’s neat #and the more I think about him the more deranged I feel

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desultory-novice · 1 year ago

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Does Adeleine sometimes carry/cuddle Elfilin and pet him?

Because if she does, it would be pretty funny if she was able to win Elfilis over because she was able to find Elfilin's best scratching spot! (Probably behind the ears)