#feel free to ignore this post i just need to talk into the void

[nartatoalevy]

it's absolutely mortifying to me knowing some people who treated me absolutely terribly have nearly ruined one of my favorite hobbies for me; to the point where hearing about it right now just fills me with dread. I desperately want to fall back in love with this thing and have fun again with it, but for the time being, I'm just... not. Even creating for it has become hard.

[charmedreincarnation]

Hey guysss! A lot of people have been asking for me to make a challenge for a while now. I honestly didn’t want to, not because I’m against them or anything but because the law will be different for everyone. Sometimes, it feels like tumblr needs a reminder - you are the only person who knows what you need to do to succeed. I wish I could imprint this realization on everyone's minds. I’ve also gotten so manyyyy asks about things that genuinely just feel like your doubts repeating in your mind constantly so I’m gonna talk abt my beliefs bc y’all are spiraling really hard. I get it you want your desires for Christmas and new years. It’s okay take a breath, you're alive and will be okay.

Firstly: at the beginning I used to spend countless time spiraling into depression, constantly changing my methods every time I saw a new success story, and every time I found a new foolproof' tumblr method. Methods that were supposed to guarantee results in a day so when they didn’t I felt rlly useless. It was annoying, to say the least, and I don’t want to help others do the same thing, but really all I can do is reiterate what I always say and hope you apply it to everything!!

A lot of you guys wanted something that didn’t involve the void state, so that’s what this will revolve around! But feel free to make this void orientated if you desire, and I’ll also add a void section so all my babies can eat!

Ok so you’ve over consumed, you have dropped the void, and now have switched to just assuming and knowing that you would wake up with your dream life - embracing states. Great! At first, it will seem like you're doing nothing but you aren’t! For example, I knew I was dwelling in the state of wish fulfilled when I went to work without shedding tears, when I looked in the mirror and didn't think I was ugly because, well, I'm beautiful! I didn't care abt not performing well on a test because I could revise my past etc. this isn’t to say ignore the 3D: don’t do that, please try and make sure you’re safe and okay. But know life is malleable. Slowly, things that used to bother me—my parents, grades, anxiety, self-deprivation—started to fade away. Even though my dream life hadn't reflected in my 3D yet, I felt the switch. That's when I decided, I know what to do.

I also remember finding this cute website a long time ago that I want to share that summarizes it in such a great and simple way.

So Before I knew or understood what LOA was, I found this gem of an article on I am Love'- "How To Shift Into A State & Stay There". I think I have a post abt it somewhere on my blog but I’m too lazy to find it so here it is again.

Basically it explains that the essence of shifting into a desired state and staying there. What resonated with me was her choice to dwell in the state of knowing that her desires are hers, no matter what.

The way she used colloquial language made the content relatable and easy to understand. It's like having a conversation with a friend who's guiding you through hard concepts with “dumbed down” language because at the beginning states made 0 sense to me.

Posts like this really helped me particularly because when I discovered Neville, it required three attempts on my part to not only intellectually grasp his teachings, but also to truly comprehend him as a whole, given his non-contemporary speaking tbh.

I recommend it if you find yourself stuck or not really grasping the law yet (which is more than okay) but, if you're looking to understand the loa better or just learn more give this article a read.

There’s also a particular quote from Neville that really got me to dive into his work after finding this article and it was- “The being that you really are, descended to the weakness of the flesh, causing you to experience the state you are now in. Contemplate another state, and the same being who brought your present form into being will restore and make alive the other state, the state desired. This he will continue to do until his purpose is fulfilled. That purpose is to follow a certain pattern back into the unity of being. You see, in the beginning we were drafted. We did not volunteer to fall into these states. We were made subject into futility, not willingly but by the will of him who sent us. But when we return we will discover that we are the very being who subjected us. We are now the sons, destined to return as God the Father!”

Now that you understand and are ready to apply state, Here’s a routine I’ve created to hopefully help you guys! It is very simple and not time consuming at all.

Scripting and writing: I love writing and feeling like the author of my own story, literally bringing my creation to life. I would write when I felt like it. Whenever I wanted to dwell in my state, I would simply write, "I have my dream life." It's so simple, yet it embodies everything I need. If you’re more of a picture girl, use Pinterest instead. Or both if you prefer it doesn’t matter.

Edward arts' "I am creator meditation": Again, do this whenever you like it. It's one of the few meditations that didn't bore me to death and seemed to work with my ADHD. I also love reading, so I would read his pdf whenever I felt like it and take mental notes. Reading his work was a reminder I was doing everything right, it resonated with me very well.

During doubt and overstimulation: When things get overwhelming, close your eyes and let the emotions pass. They’re just thoughts! repeat the words "I am" until your heart returns to its normal rhythm. It's a simple yet powerful way to ground yourself amidst the whirlwind of emotions. And guess what? You can use this technique for doubt too! So the next time you're feeling overwhelmed, remember the power of "I am". It's a gentle reminder of your existence, your resilience, and your capability to be whatever you want despairs any emotional turmoil.

Thank god: (yourself!!) When reminded of your desires. Thank you god. When you see your desires, (eg:Pinterest, online or you’re just reminded) thank you god! When you see an image of your desires, thank you god! When you dream or think about your desires. Thank god! Always thank the person fulfilling it aka you ;)! If you’re religious just thank the god you actually follow.

Nightly reflections: At night, ask yourself , "What would I do if I woke up in my dream life right now?" repeat this question throughout the night. Then, imagine whatever scene you want. What would you do if you could not fail? What would you do if you had all the money in the world right now. What if you looked in the mirror and saw the most ethereal being and it’s just you? What about if you woke up in your dream house with your dream family and pets? This is inspired by one of the first shifting methods I created that helped me fulfill my imagination before I knew what that meant. When you’re ready to sleep just remind yourself it is done, and drift off into your desires.

As I've always said, I've been a great daydreamer. I knew exactly what I wanted my life to look and feel like. I envisioned my walk-in closet filled with luxurious outfits, waking up in my dream room on a soft mattress with my pets purring nearby. I saw the decor reflecting my personality in every corner of my large, and pretty room. I imagined walking into my bathroom, seeing all my cool Sephora products lined up for my skincare and shower routine. I love taking care of myself because I know I deserve it. I saw myself looking in the mirror, knowing I'm "that girl" who turns heads wherever she goes.I visualized going downstairs in my boujee dream house,and seeing my family stress-free, smiling, and eating well. I saw plans being made on my phone, my friends were excited to see and talk to me. I went to my kitchen, filled with expensive ingredients ready for me to cook meals for my loved ones - because I love cooking. I saw myself checking my bank account and seeing multiple seven figures in my savings, checking, and investment accounts and opportunities easily presenting myself to make more if I wanted. I saw myself running errands in my car, shopping, getting Starbucks, having expensive lunch with friends, and making a trip to Target. Despite the simplicity of the day, I would come home and be like, "Ugh, what a long day!"like that one khloe kardashian meme. What if all this happened today? Visualize and feel the scenes so clearly that it felt like it's already happening.. not just in your imagination.

Most importantly: Define the law for you! Stop parroting bloggers and intertwine your own beliefs with the law. The only principle of the law is that through persistence assumption will harden into a fact. Other than that anything goes except for facts that are wrong.

Here’s old notes I found in my phone lol just so you know what I mean by define the law for you: ignore the writing I was kinda dumb and new to the law 😭😭

Now this is for my void babies if you made it this far.

Read this post.

This is it copied bc the links are wonky sometimes

“My previous method is based on the persistent assumption, which a lot of people don’t know how to do right and it might take some time even for those who have the right self-concept and the mindset, so today I was in the process of manifesting this method.

And I was successful!

This method is for everyone. It’s the easiest Void method.

Do you know that you get into the Void state at night automatically? At that time the whole perceived world disappears for you. Every single perception and assumption you have disappears while your consciousness in the calm and natural Void state.

Use it to your advantage. Now that you know about the Void that you enter when you sleep, the perfect state to manifest anything that you wish to perceive, with no “resistance”, no illusions of annoying solid things around, you only need to remember your scripted starting point in your DR and practice watching it all coming out of the Void.

Practice that scene with your eyes closed, say to yourself:”That is what I perceive. Next time I’m in the Void, I’ll experience this”. You won’t even need to be fully aware of yourself that way when you get into the Void while you are asleep. Your subconscious would do all the work as it now would have the instruction and a clear image of you expecting it.

Personal experience: as I was receiving information on this method, I almost stepped into my DR! I wasn’t even in the absolute void state, I was only creating the scene for this method and I felt it materialise with my senses!

I have great feeling that it’s going to give fast results for others! Try it, teach your subconscious what it needs to bring forth while in the Void, let it do your work for you!”

Lastly, I’m gonna talk abt my beliefs real quick bc the fear of shifting vs manifesting makes me sad for y’all. I understand you don’t wanna leave behind the people you love and that’s not fear to feel ashamed of having! I personally hate the npc mindset a lot of have people have adopted. The only thing we know for sure is that assumptions create realities, and consciousness is the real reality. Everything else boils down to assumptions, except for principles. For example, shifting is not lucid dreaming, even if you assume it to be. That is the principle. I’m just going to copy what I told my mutal bc I’m lazy and need to finish Christmas stuff 😭😭 but Our imagination and the 4D realm are products of our consciousness, which is indeed real. Our view of reality is shaped by our consciousness, since we can't experience everything all at once.

Unless, of course, you shift into a super omnipotent god. Even then, you’d probably still struggle with the concept of infinity because, well, infinity is infinite. And it’s constantly a never exnding expansion. As humans, we're finite beings, and our understanding of the infinite is naturally limited. Because you can’t and won’t ever experience everything at once, infinity is always expanding. Our awareness can be thought of as fragments of consciousness; it's like being a drop of water in a massive ocean. Even though our perception is limited, the infinite is always there, always existing. We simply adjust our awareness to perceive this infinite reality.

And through our consciousness, we are able to tap into other realities or 'multiverses', which give us a broader understanding of existence. This exploration of consciousness and the multiverse is a significant part of my journey into the world of manifestation.

The law of consciousness explains why, when you "shift" or change your perspective, you don't physically move. It's all about altering your state of awareness. This is also why time doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. You can become aware of any time or day you want, as long as you choose to be aware of it. It's like having a mental time machine. This law is why infinite universes exist. As long as you can be aware of it, you can assume and embody the state of that person. Whether that's someone with a billion dollars on Earth, or a person who lives in the Attack on Titan world, it's all about your awareness.Our awareness is just a fragment of the larger consciousness – hence the idea of the multiverse. Each universe is a different fragment, a different state of awareness. And we have the power to “shift” into any of these states, therefore shifting into any of these universes.

I’m telling you this bc there’s no need to be afraid of manifesting or being in a reality with robotic versions of the people you love. Ariana grande and Marilyn Monroe for example talk about loa without acknowledging it and we see their success. Neville Goddard and his followers saw each other’s manifestions and I manifest for my friends and they mnaifest for me.

Take a deep breath and let go of the tik tok clone mindsets y’all have they don’t exist. You can manifest and assume anything you want in your imagination. Y’all literally want to manifest things like millions of dollars, revising deaths, living in new countries, having immorality in your waiting rooms, and never aging which is all possible of course. So be for real, why assume and know that you can achieve all that, but it won't manifest exactly how you want? I've also wondered about what happens to the "old version" of people when they manifest their dream life. As far as I'm concerned, they dont exist because you choose not to be aware of them.

I really want to talk about this too, as I've received similar questions and, oh my god, I thought I was alone. I've always been a bit delusional and lived in my head, but when I became conscious of the law, did anyone else feel a sense of self-embarrassment? I don't know what that was, but I'd genuinely feel my soul wanting to throw up envisioning my desires that aren't mine, even though I've always been a daydreamer. It's kind of like when you feel you can't have them or it's strange to envision yourself with something you can't have, so you just purge yourself. 😭

I was thinking back to why that happened and laughing at myself because we need to be serious right now. Why are you getting sick by your own mind? Imagine if Van Gogh, anytime he pulled out a canvas and held a brush, was jump-scared by the brush. Picture him holding out the brush and just staring at the canvas crying because "well, the painting is going to suck 😐," "I don't know what to paint☹️☹️," "I already know it won't be like what I envision in my head 😡😡." Like, bro, the canvas is blank, just fucking paint. That’s why I really like his quote that's like...

“If you hear a voice within you say you cannot paint, then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.” So If you’re scared of failing, if you’re scared of your desires, or scared of how it will come to fruition, for that reason alone is more so to and manifest it anyways.

But happy holidays guys! make some tea, scroll through Pinterest, read a good book and watch some Christmas films and remember if you can imagine/think your desires you can embody them bc where are you getting it from??

Here are some helpful documents I have read plus a cute vid I saw on insta reels : (let me know if the links are being weird)

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[massivechestplate]

Is anyone else tired over recent events? Not in a sleepy way, but in that bone-deep depression way?

Bit of a long post about the general Gacha game-sphere. Needed to get this off of my chest, might as well scream into the void.

I ask this as someone who flirts between these gacha games out of boredom mostly. They're free, they're phone, they got Story, and I'm not spending a cent on them personally, so that's why I play them.

But every fucking day it seems we got another controversy. Bad VA this, fired an artist that, White_Pharaoh.png being handed out like fucking candy on Halloween lately.

And then we discuss on how Its Bad, and we all know Its Bad, people discuss on what to do, Boycott, torch the franchise and run, stay and try to fix it, ignore it because it's been your Comfort Media for the past 3 years, all that stuff. And it's hard. And a lot of those choices always feel half-assed.

I've been around a bit, I've seen it. I was around when Fate Grand Order had LB7, Wandjina, and all the other shit on 2023 JP hit, and there was talk, some talked but stayed, others left but chose to still engage with Type-Moon works, some might've left completely but I never heard of them.

I was around when Project Moon fired Vellmori, and there was betrayal, some deciding to leave, others staying because Project Moon wormed into their hearts and they decided to stay even knowing what was happening. Knowing what it was now built on and where the lines were drawn.

And I'm here now in the midst of the Hoyoverse shittery round 2, I don't think I need to speak at length on that. We've all seen it.

And all the time every potential choice to take feels half-assed?

Do you leave, abandoning the franchise as if leaving without fighting to improve something makes you good, preserving your own morality at the cost of never making anything better? The lack of evil substituting for substantial good?

Do you boycott? If so is it purely not spending money or not even logging in? Does it even make a difference? After all, when do these oversea companies really listen to anyone outside their country of origin? Is it enough to stop on that one specific game and still buy other works, or do you condemn the whole?

Do you continue on as normal, to indulge in the media? To continue what brings you joy and comfort? Is criticizing and acknowledging the faults enough or just lipservice?

Are we arrogant to impose our values on others, hating foreign companies not conforming to our beliefs? Or is this completely reasonable, every scathing speech and point completely justified and never bordering on some level of sinophobia?

And just... it's hard. Hard enough trying to be a Good Person normally but here? In this space? Part of it feels natural and some action is necessary for the Good of Everything, the other part feels like a big fuss over something ultimately small and meaningless.

And it hurts. You give out pieces of yourself to these stories, let it become a part of you, then become forced to tear it out of your heart just to be Good. And when I say that I don't mean in that internet point "I'm a good person way" but the way of being Good with yourself, proving only to yourself.

And it doesn't help that plenty of us have devolved into humanity's good old passtime of tribalism, mockery, and a lack of empathy for The Other. Everyone's been taking the piss out of the other gacha players for the stuff their games pull as if their own games haven't done the same. Some of it might be in good nature, over exaggerated and self-deprecating, a joke or criticism, but its honestly become indistinguishable from genuine malice and contempt.

And...

I'm tired.

Tired of seeing this. Tired of dealing with it. Tired of wondering what to do, what's the best choice, what choice even is there.

Part of me is honestly tempted to just not care. To accept that I'm a bad person by playing these games and going through with it anyways because I'm so tired and cynical that hedonistic indulgence just becomes more worth it than trying to be good. At most accept a Gacha-game that's a 'Lesser Evil' compared to another, if that even counts.

Because it hurts. Because you let these stories change you, touch you, let them into your heart, and then have to tear it out with your own two hands and pretend it doesn't hurt. And you can't feel like you can mourn what you lost, because someone will come in and start raving about how it's dumb you even cared to begin with.

I've seen arguments for every option, from people I don't respect and people I do, strangers and prominent community figures. I've warred with the argument of "Morally Pure Media doesn't exist, don't beat yourself up over it" and wonder just how absolute that statement should be.

And I don't know.

And all I want is to go to sleep, and wake up and have it magically be better.

[chillenby]

It's 2 am so um sorry if this doesn't make much sense..

I know a lot of people hate Jimmy and rightfully so. I mean he's a bad person, raped Anya, was too much of a coward to face his own actions so he decided that he should write a tragedy, then fails at it, only to be the reason why everyone died one by one and then finally killing himslef and giving Curly extra 20 years to be saved to once again avoid conciquences and to be the 'hero' he so much wishes he could be. He is selfish, greedy, a bastard and genually an awful human being. I understand that fully.

And yet, he is my favorite character along with Curly (and I don't mean only the pre-crash 'hot' Curly, but also post-crash Curly). You know why? He's so complex and interesting to think about. From psychoanalysis to just trying to figure out how he would interact with characters outside of what we see in the game.. it's all interesting. And it doesn't help that he is the reason for what happens in the game and I cannot explain how much I love the plot (the best way to describe it is that Jimmy is the core of this game, he is connected to everyone and everyone connects ro him, so in my mind, if I want to appreaciate this game fully, I need to extend it to that asshole, because we out him there would be no plot or those hard hitting messages). I love him as a character, I love how fucked up he is, I love that we play as him, I love his dialoge scenes and lastly I love his delusions because I love metaphores and I love that he is one of those characters that makes me think.

I know people shit on him and you know what? Fair. I sometimes do that to characters that've done nothing wrong, but I think they're cunts. But it sometimes just saddens me how people just ignore him or just make stupid jokes like 'sorry you had ro draw Jinglebells'. I know they are jokes, but I don't know, I'm tired of seeing them everywhere and being fed a lot of 'I hate Jimmy' stuff.

I mean there are Jimcurly fans which have amazing art and they sometimes get one thing correctly (in my tastes, this is all a personal opinion and I just want to yell it out into the void called internet) is that it hurts. Jimmy hurts people and hurts Curly, and in a lot of fics and art Curly just lets him. And I like that, as much as usually I like silly and wholesome stuff, for this game specifically I want it to hurt. I hope it hurts. Because that's the theme of the media, it's hard to consume and it hurts, it's dark and fucked up, it talks about our society and the people in it.

...

Also the aus and stuff can be fucking wild. Like there are amazing ones like surviviors au comic where instead of crashing the crew is stuck in a wormhole (I love it so much, genually can't stop thinking about it and rereading it, so beautiful and so good, didn't knew that was exactly what I needed until I read it) and like anti-tulpar (which I'm just receantly getting into and it's odd but in a good way, it's funky). But one the other side we have like lobotomy au and hypno au (the hypno au I read is like on the fence of being uncomfortable and not too bad, since the hypno used makes Jimmy docile and truthful, but on the inside he is still the same person, and like I read a smut and I was left wondering is it rape or not..). I just found out about lobotomy au and as much as I like fucked up shit that to me feels like crossing the line especially since I heard that it's usually used in a sexual manner(I don't have twitter so luckily I managed to escape most of it, but I heard a few things and I have certain opinions I just want to yell out, but if my info about this is wrong feel free to inform me :)). On that I have only one opinion, what is wrong with people? Like I get it, he is a bad person and has done awful things, but to do something to dehumanize him to the point of not being able to have deeper thoughs and not being able to take care of himself, then put him in a sexual manner where he gets practically raped since he can't consent? Why? Do people actually find this attractive or is it some type of letting out your anger? I think it's fucked up

But yea.. if anyone reads this thanks I guess? I just needed to spew out all my thoughts and make them make sense. Form them into proper words and ideas instead of unprocessed junk

So as a closing thought, please apreaciate Jimmy more and make more complex jokes. (Or at least don't like hate on this post too much aand don't post those stupid jokes under this post too much, I'd make my day if none of that would happen)

[olderthannetfic]

I found myself rereading an old discussion about AO3 commenting culture (ye olde "Authors aren't owed comments" vs. "Readers aren't owed fic either" wank). And you know, it strikes me that a lot of the drama in such discussions is rooted in the fact that people only ever seem to engage with the worst things the opposite side says. And of course that leads to miscommunication, because the extremes are not generally applicable to most people.

Like, for instance. Someone going "I comment so regularly I practically gave myself burn-out commenting". Authors complaining about people who act entitled to stories aren't talking about you, I promise. They're talking about people who genuinely can't be bothered or go on flippant "Why don't you just write for yourself?" rants, while still enjoying other people's work. Ditto on the other side: people get offended at being called entitled authors, but odds are good the person isn't referring to you, who would simply like to not shout into the void, odds are good they're referring to the asshole authors they've met who'd throw hissy hits over comments that weren't phrased exactly to their liking, because yes, people like that do exist so it's simply flat out wrong to say "Just comment, authors are always happy to see comments, no matter how short! :)"

Also, a particular comment jumped out at me:

"It's not a consumer's job to compliment a promote an artist's work"

I generally agree that acting like people are owed comments is useless and stupid, but if I had to pick a phrasing that sums up my misgivings about common commenting culture, it's this. So many people seem to act like authors are getting a paycheck for this and don't need any additional motivator.

The other thing that bugs me is when people talk about all the reasons they don't comment (low spoons, anxiety, tired, etc.), but ignore the fact that authors have to deal with all of the above, too. And not just in fanfic. It seems any time there's any kind of social conflict being discussed (like, say, replying to a friend's messages in a vaguely timely manner) a ton of people will trot out excuses for why they can't do [insert what's generally seen as the vaguely courteous thing to do], but inadvertently act like that makes them special and like they're the only ones who have these legitimately valid excuses.

This started in one place and led to another, sorry. I guess I'm just frustrated with the Tumblr mental health culture of "I have a semi-specific reason I struggle with this so I'm not even going to try". I think people overcompensate too much for "Just don't be disabled!"-style ableism and swing too hard in the embraced helplessness direction.

Back to fanfic, every time I see the "I can't do it because of X" thing in the context of commenting, I can't help but think of how many authors also deal with depression, anxiety, self-esteem issues, low spoons, etc. and how easy it would have been for them to give up, but they got through it and posted the fanfic anyway, and how often they're then met with silence because the prevailing attitude among their audience is e.g. "I read this before bed and was too sleepy to comment, and too forgetful to comment the next day". I think about some of the fic I've written, often fic written when I maybe should have been doing something else, or fic written at the cost of sleep, or hyperfixating at my keyboard for six hours instead of going for a nice hike with my family, and it's hard not to get a little bitter, you know? Talking about legitimate reasons for why commenting is hard just so often comes across as "You're free to make sacrifices to write the stuff I read, but I won't make any"

I also feel a bit bitter that it's impossible to even discuss these things in a vacuum without someone going "Discussions like this are why I've stopped commenting", as someone inevitably will in the notes of this post. "Just shut up and make your Content(TM) and don't complain about anything", is what it feels like.

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The entire phrasing of reward and owing is stupid.

The reality is that lots of people won't produce work unless they feel like someone cares. No amount of moralizing or excuses will change that.

It's also the reality that posting to the masses on AO3 or tumblr will result in maybe one like or other interaction per hundred hits if you're really, really lucky. The rate has never been much better than that, and it never will be. It's often very much worse.

If one personally wants to encourage people, sure, go out and do that, but any call to action that ignores the above two realities is like fighting the tide.

I do think "It's not my job to promote you" typically comes up in the context of meltdowns about letting artists "languish in your likes" instead of being reblogged onto your actual blog and/or contexts where the artist/author/etc. is selling their work.

Here's the thing: people who never comment do not count.

They think they're part of a community. They're not. If you don't participate, you're a ghost.

When some author moves to a more enclosed space, a lot of people who saw themselves as part of something are suddenly left out in the cold, wondering why. But the fact is, if you don't pay the entry fee of socializing with others, you're nobody to them.

The entitled randos don't matter. If they bug you enough, take your toys and retreat to a discord with your friends.

[mikeyss1ut]

Thank you for telling me. Now my request.

Wednesday and her gf get into a fight. She's cold as always but WAY meaner and cold as ice, gf tries talking to her in class or out in the hall? Brushed off, ignored. (But lowkey hoping y/n begs for forgiveness, even if it wasn't her fault) but to her surprise, y/n goes "fine whatever!" And gives her the same rude attitude.

They ignore each other until Wednesday breaks..

Can't think of anything? I'll understand don't worry!

- 🌻

I did not see this my precious sun flower I miss you dearly you have not returned home in a while. It’s been way to long that I haven’t spoken to you . Do feel free to speak to me again my love.

“Wednesday, please I swear I didn’t mean to tell them about us! You know it was an accident!” You cried

“Listen, I did not want those ruin imbeciles knowing about us because then we will end up on a pointless provision post on some social network app with abnormal humans praying on our rise or downfall. And I don’t want that you ruined it now. Stay away from me we could have made this work if your soul sucking soul didn’t have to be so needy to me. Which honestly if the buckled shoe fits y/n your so love all the time it disturbs me and crushes bones in my body I didn’t know existed. Leave.” Wednesday said. No emotion which when she was taking to you she at least had some form of emotion. She was colder than ice saying that statement tears dripped down your frame as you ran out. She didn’t mean it , it didn’t hit her that everything she said was a lie to make you hurt or beg until you walked out. And for a second she felt - sad?

The next day she ignored you even though she wanted to talk to you . She was trained that way and she was never gonna be . That was just that.

You, sweet innocent you even stayed getting mad. How dare she not respond to you after being nice about it and even trying to be nice to Wednesday after the names and things she said and called you.

You ignored her for days. Until Wednesday couldn’t handle it anymore. That’s saying something.

She wasn’t sure what to say?

“I’m sorry.”

No she doesn’t say sorry.

“It’s my fault.”

It was her fault but in a way it wasn’t. She couldn’t say that.

“I love you.”

No. No way to lovey for her .

Screw it say whatever comes to your mind when you see her again.

She knocked on your dorm. You opened. Then closed it again. Wednesday began to walk away but she was done avoiding you when she loved you as much as she did . It was that moment she knew what to say.

She walked back to the door. But didn’t knock.

“Y/n? I know that you don’t want to talk to me right now. But I’m not sure I can live without you. I lay in bed at night cold, colder than usual from knowing I no longer have you in my life. There’s a void in my heart that needs your space. Your hugs when I let you. You ranting on to me about things I don’t care about until you care about it. I don’t know what to do without those little things I enjoy about you. I still have your necklace you gave me. The blood vile necklace I hold on to it when I think of the possibilities of what I would be doing if I was with you at that moment.” She says. She cringes at what she says but still does not regret it.

You open the door and for the first time in your life and hers.

She hugged you.

This is iffy for me I feel like I didn’t write Wednesday well but I don’t care. Also if your read my other Wednesday fics you might have caught onto the blood vile necklace You gave Wednesday in my other one shots<3333

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Redemption Over Obsession (A Helluva Boss Fan Fiction)

"You're the one who's going to save me, baby," Blitzø cooed into the microphone, his eyes gleaming with hope and desperation. The room was dimly lit, the only source of light coming from the flickering candles on the floor. The shadows danced across his face, painting him as both the hero and the villain of his own tragic love story.

Stolas looked up from his book, raising an eyebrow at the sudden outburst. "Could you keep it down?" he murmured, not looking away from the page. "Some of us are trying to read here."

Ignoring the sarcasm, Blitzø took a deep breath, his chest swelling with determination. "You're mine, Stolas," he declared, voice echoing through the room. "And I'll do whatever it takes to get you back."

The air grew thick with tension as Blitzø's obsession took a darker turn. His eyes narrowed, focusing on the book in Stolas's hand, which had become a symbol of their fractured relationship. "You're not going anywhere," he said, his tone shifting from desperate to menacing.

Stolas sighed, closing the book with a thud. He'd heard this before—the same old lines, the same old promises. But this time, something in Blitzø's voice sent a shiver down his spine. He placed the book on the nightstand and turned to face him, his eyes cold and calculating. "What's your plan, Blitz?"

Blitzø expresses his obsession with Stolas after the post-breakup, speaking into a microphone in a dramatically lit room. Stolas, reading, is unimpressed by the display. Blitzø insists on their connection and hints at extreme measures, causing Stolas to feel a new level of unease.

Blitzø stepped closer, a wild grin spreading across his features. "Oh, it's simple," he said, his eyes gleaming with a madness that had been brewing for weeks. "We're going to run away together. Just you, me, and our little baby."

Stolas's heart skipped a beat. "Baby?" he repeated, his voice barely above a whisper. "What are you talking about?"

Blitzø leaned in, his breath hot on Stolas's neck. "Our love child," he murmured, his hand stroking Stolas's stomach. "The perfect little demon that will seal our bond forever."

Stolas's eyes widened in horror. "That's insane," he said, his voice trembling. "I'm not having a baby with you."

Blitzø's smile grew even more manic. "Oh, but you will," he whispered, his hand sliding to Stolas's wrist, his grip tightening like a vice. "You'll love it. You'll love me again."

Stolas tried to pull away, his eyes searching for an escape route. But the room seemed to close in around him, the shadows whispering his fears back to him. "Let go of me," he demanded, his voice firm despite the panic rising in his chest.

"Or what?" Blitzø challenged, his grip tightening. "You'll leave me again? For him?" His gaze flickered to the picture frame on the dresser—a snapshot of Stolas with his new boyfriend, the one who had so easily filled the void Blitzø had left behind.

Blitzø reveals his plan to kidnap Stolas and have a child together, believing it will mend their relationship. Stolas is horrified, rejecting the idea and demanding Blitzø to release him, but the latter's grip tightens, driven by madness and anger towards Stolas's new partner.

Stolas's eyes narrowed, his resolve hardening. "I won't be forced into anything," he stated, jerking his hand free. He stepped back, creating a space between them that felt as vast as the abyss. "You're not thinking straight."

"Thinking straight?" Blitzø echoed, his laughter sharp and brittle. "I've never been more clear-headed in my life. This is what we need to fix us, Stolas. A family."

Stolas backed away, his wings fluttering anxiously. "That's not how this works," he said, his voice rising. "You can't just decide for us both."

Blitzø's smile fell, and in its place grew a cold, determined look. "I've seen the way you look at him," he spat, pointing at the picture. "The way you laugh with him, the way you touch him. It's like you've forgotten what we had."

Stolas's eyes never left the photo, his heart aching at the sight of the happiness he had once shared with Blitzø. But he knew it was gone, shattered beyond repair. "I've moved on," he said softly, meeting Blitzø's gaze. "You need to do the same."

The room fell silent, the only sound the crackling of the candles. Blitzø's eyes searched Stolas's, looking for any hint of love or longing, but all he found was resolve. The realization hit him like a ton of bricks, and his expression crumpled. "You don't love me anymore," he murmured, his voice cracking.

Stolas took a deep breath, his eyes filled with a sadness that mirrored the one in his heart. "I care for you, Blitz," he said gently. "But what we had... it's not there anymore."

Stolas rejects Blitzø's plan, asserts his autonomy, and confirms that he has moved on. Blitzø, seeing the finality in Stolas's eyes, realizes that their love is irrevocably lost, leaving him devastated.

Blitzø's grip on reality slipped further, the room spinning around him. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Care?" he scoffed, his voice filled with pain. "That's not enough for me. I want love. I need love."

Stolas's expression softened, his voice tinged with regret. "I know you do, Blitz," he said. "But you're not going to find it by forcing me to stay."

Blitzø's eyes searched Stolas's, desperation pooling in the depths of his soul. "What if I can't live without you?" he whispered, his voice cracking.

Stolas's wings drooped, the weight of Blitzø's pain settling heavily on his shoulders. "Then you need to find a way to live with it," he said firmly. "You can't just take what you want because you can't handle the alternative."

Blitzø's eyes flashed with anger, the flames of his obsession flickering higher. "You think I'm weak?" he snarled, taking a step forward. "I'll show you what I'm capable of."

Stolas held his ground, his own anger rising to meet Blitzø's. "You're not going to win me back with threats," he said, his voice low and dangerous. "If you can't accept that we're over, then you need to leave."

Blitzø's grip on the microphone tightened until his knuckles turned white. "I won't let you go," he said, his voice a harsh whisper. "Not to him. Not to anyone."

Blitzø's desperation leads to anger as Stolas refuses to be forced into a relationship, advising Blitzø to find a way to live without him. Stolas maintains his stance, prompting a darker, more intense obsession from Blitzø, who vows to never let Stolas go.

Stolas's eyes narrowed, his own anger now a living, breathing entity in the room. "You don't get to decide that," he said, his voice icy. "I'm not a possession, Blitz. I'm a person. And I won't be treated like I'm something you can just claim."

The silence stretched between them, thick and tense. Then, with a roar of fury, Blitzø threw the microphone across the room. It shattered against the wall, the sound echoing through the apartment like a gunshot. Stolas didn't flinch. He'd seen this side of Blitz before, the one that lurked beneath the charm and the jokes, the one that had driven him away in the first place.

"You think you can just walk away?" Blitzø yelled, his eyes burning with a fiery rage. "After everything we've been through? After everything I've done for you?"

Stolas stood his ground, his wings spread slightly in a show of his own power. "I'm not walking away from anything," he said calmly. "I'm walking away from you, and the toxic mess you've made of us."

Blitzø's laugh was hollow, filled with a desperation that made Stolas's stomach churn. "Toxic?" he repeated. "You think that's what we had? That's a lie you've been telling yourself to justify leaving me."

Stolas's wings snapped taut, his patience wearing thin. "I'm not the one who's lost their mind," he retorted, gesturing to the candles and the chaotic scene Blitzø had created. "This isn't love. This is obsession."

The confrontation escalates as Stolas asserts his autonomy and refuses to be controlled. Blitzø's anger boils over, leading to the destruction of the microphone. Stolas maintains his resolve, calling out Blitzø's behavior as obsession rather than love.

Blitzø's madness deepens from the post-breakup, revealing a twisted plan to kidnap Stolas for marriage and a child. Stolas, horrified, confirms their relationship's end and refuses to be controlled. Their confrontation escalates, with Stolas calling out Blitzø's obsession. Blitzø, devastated and enraged, vows never to release Stolas.

Blitzø's expression darkened, his hands clenching into fists. "Fine," he spat. "If you won't come back to me willingly, I'll just have to make you." He lunged for Stolas, but the latter was quicker, darting to the side and out of reach.

The room erupted into a chaotic dance of flailing limbs and snarled curses as Stolas tried to evade Blitzø's grasp. The candles toppled, setting fire to the curtains, the flames licking the walls with a hungry ferocity.

"You can't do this, Blitz," Stolas panted, his wings beating a frantic rhythm against the smoke-filled air. "You can't just kidnap me and expect me to love you again."

But Blitzø was beyond listening. His eyes gleamed with a crazed determination that was both terrifying and heartbreaking. He cornered Stolas, his hands outstretched, the flaming curtains casting a hellish glow on his features. "You're mine," he growled, his voice low and guttural. "And I'll never let you go."

Stolas's wings flared, knocking over a lamp and sending it crashing to the floor. The light flickered and went out, leaving them in the flickering embrace of the fire's light. "You're not thinking clearly," he pleaded, his voice strained with fear and sadness. "Please, Blitz, stop this."

But Blitzø was beyond reason. His eyes burned with an intensity that was almost tangible, his mind clouded by a desperate love that had turned toxic. "I'll do whatever it takes," he snarled, his hand shooting out to grab Stolas.

Blitzø's obsession leads to a violent confrontation where he attempts to force Stolas to stay, culminating in the apartment catching fire and Stolas's desperate pleas for Blitzø to let him go.

Stolas managed to dodge, the fabric of his shirt tearing away in Blitzø's grasp. He stumbled backward, his wings fluttering wildly to keep him upright. The heat from the fire was intense, the smoke thick and choking. "This isn't love," he gasped, his eyes watering. "This is madness."

Blitzø's smile was cold, his eyes never leaving Stolas's. "Maybe it is," he conceded, his voice low and dangerous. "But it's the only way I know how to show you what you mean to me."

The fire grew louder, the heat more intense, as the room became a prison of flaming rage. Stolas searched for an exit, his eyes darting around the room, but every path was blocked by the inferno that had once been their shared space. "You're going to get us both killed," he choked out, the smoke filling his lungs.

Blitzø stepped closer, the flames casting an eerie light on his face, making him look like a demon from Stolas's worst nightmares. "I'd rather burn with you than live without you," he murmured, his hand reaching out again.

Stolas's eyes darted around the room, searching for anything that could serve as a weapon or a means of escape. His eyes fell on the nightstand drawer, slightly ajar. He knew what was inside—his own personal knife collection, a macabre assortment of sharp instruments that had been gifts from various admirers over the centuries. Without a second thought, he reached in and pulled out the nearest one, the cool metal giving him a small sense of comfort in the face of the overwhelming heat.

Stolas evades Blitzø's grasp in the burning apartment, with the latter admitting his actions are driven by madness. Stolas sees his knife collection as a potential escape tool.

Blitzø's eyes followed the movement, his smile faltering for a moment before it grew wider, more twisted. "You're not going anywhere," he said, his voice low and deadly.

Stolas's grip on the knife was firm, his wings fluttering to keep the smoke at bay. "Let me go," he said, his voice steady despite the fear that clawed at his insides.

Blitzø's smile never wavered, but his eyes flickered to the knife with a hint of concern. "Don't be ridiculous," he said, taking a step closer. "We're going to be fine. Just come with me."

Stolas's heart raced as he backed away, the flames now dangerously close. "I'm not going anywhere with you," he said, raising the knife. The fire reflected off the blade, casting a crimson glow across the room.

Blitzø's eyes narrowed, his smile fading to a snarl. "You'd really hurt me?" he asked, his voice filled with a mix of anger and disbelief.

Stolas's hand holding the knife didn't waver. "If it means my freedom," he said, his voice cold and firm, "yes, I would."

Blitzø's expression twisted, the reality of the situation crashing down on him. He took a step back, the flames reflected in his eyes. "You'd choose him over me?" he roared, his fists clenching.

Stolas's grip on the knife tightened. "I'm not choosing anyone," he said firmly. "I'm choosing myself."

Stolas finds a knife for defense and stands firm against Blitzø, willing to fight for his freedom. The confrontation escalates as Blitzø questions Stolas's loyalty, and Stolas asserts his right to choose himself.

The words hit Blitzø like a sledgehammer, knocking the wind out of him. He stumbled back, the fire's heat now a reflection of the pain searing through his chest. "How could you?" he choked out, his eyes glistening with unshed tears.

Stolas's own eyes were wet, a sheen of sadness reflecting the flickering flames. "This isn't about choosing," he said, his voice breaking. "It's about letting go of what's toxic."

The room grew quieter, the crackling fire seeming to muffle Blitzø's sobs. Stolas's wings drooped, the weight of his words heavy on his shoulders. He took a deep breath, tasting the acrid smoke in the air. "You need help, Blitz," he said softly. "Real help."

Blitzø's eyes searched Stolas's, looking for any sign of relenting, but all he found was sadness and resolve. He turned away, the firelight playing off his horns as he sank to his knees. "I'm sorry," he whispered, his voice barely audible over the roar of the flames. "I never wanted it to come to this."

Stolas felt a pang of pity, his hand dropping slightly. "I know," he said, his voice gentle. "But you need to accept that we're over. For both our sakes."

Stolas maintains his stance, clarifying that his decision isn't about choosing someone else but about self-preservation. Blitzø is struck by the finality, breaks down, and apologizes, with Stolas expressing pity and reinforcing the need for their separation.

The room was a maelstrom of fire and shadow, the heat suffocating. Blitzø's shoulders heaved with the weight of his sobs, his form outlined by the flaming curtains behind him. The fire had spread, engulfing the room in a fiery embrace that mirrored the chaos of their relationship. Stolas knew he had to get out, to save himself from the madness that was consuming them both.

He took a tentative step towards Blitzø, the knife lowering slightly. "Let's go," he said, his voice softer now. "We can get out of here. We can get you help."

But Blitzø was lost in his own world of pain and anger. He looked up, his eyes wild and unfocused. "Help?" he spat. "You think you can fix me?"

Stolas took a deep breath, the smoke making his eyes water. "I don't know if I can," he admitted. "But I know you can't do this alone."

The fire grew louder, the heat becoming almost unbearable. Blitzø's form was now nothing but a silhouette against the blaze, his eyes burning with a fury that seemed to fuel the flames. "You're just like everyone else," he screamed, his voice hoarse from the smoke. "You want to control me, to change me."

Stolas's own wings were singeing, the pain a stark reminder of the reality of their situation. "This isn't about control," he yelled back, the knife still clutched in his hand. "This is about saving you from yourself."

The fire spreads, creating a dire escape situation. Stolas tries to reason with Blitzø, offering help and understanding, but Blitzø's madness remains entrenched, seeing Stolas's concern as controlling and rejects it, trapping them both in the burning apartment.

Blitzø's expression grew feral, his eyes glowing with a fiery intensity. "You think you can save me?" He laughed, a sound that was more a sob than anything else. "You're the one who broke me."

The words were a knife to Stolas's heart, but he knew he couldn't let Blitzø's madness consume them both. He took a step forward, the knife now held firmly in his grasp. "Please," he begged, his voice thick with smoke. "Let's go."

But Blitzø was beyond reasoning. He lunged at Stolas, his eyes wild with rage and despair. Stolas reacted instinctively, the knife flashing in the firelight as he swung it in an arc to keep the other demon at bay. The blade sliced through the air, a silent scream in the chaos of the burning room.

Their eyes met for a brief moment, the fury in Blitzø's gaze freezing Stolas's blood. Then, with a roar of pain, Blitzø stumbled back, clutching at his chest where the knife had found its mark. His wings crumpled, and he collapsed to the floor, the flames closing in around him.

Stolas's heart felt like it had been ripped from his chest. "No," he whispered, dropping the knife and rushing to Blitzø's side. The fire had spread too quickly, leaving them with only moments to escape. He reached out to his ex-lover, desperation and regret mixing in his eyes. "I didn't mean to..."

Stolas's pleas for escape are met with accusation and madness from Blitzø, resulting in a violent lunge. Stolas defends himself, accidentally wounding Blitzø, who falls to the ground as the fire surrounds them. Stolas, overwhelmed with regret, tries to help despite the imminent danger.

In a fiery confrontation, Blitzø attempts to force Stolas into marriage and parenthood, but Stolas resists, finding a knife for defense. Blitzø, though broken by regret, is too consumed by madness to leave, trapping them both in the fire.

But Blitzø was already gone, his eyes lifeless, his body swallowed by the hungry flames. Stolas watched in horror as the man he once loved was consumed by the very madness that had driven them apart. The room was now an inferno, the heat unbearable, the smoke choking. The knife lay forgotten on the floor, a tragic symbol of the love that had turned to ash.

With a strength born of desperation, Stolas pushed himself to his feet and stumbled towards the window, the only escape route left. His wings were seared, his skin burned, but the thought of leaving Blitzø behind was unbearable. He reached the window, the glass shattering under his touch, and threw himself through it, the cold night air a stark contrast to the hellish scene he left behind.

He hovered outside for a moment, watching the flames lick the sky, his heart racing. The pain in his chest was nothing compared to the anguish in his soul. He had tried to save Blitzø, but in the end, his love had only brought them both to ruin. The fire trucks were already on their way, their sirens piercing the night, but it was too late for the apartment—and possibly too late for the man he had once cherished.

With a heavy heart, Stolas flew away, leaving the burning building and the shattered remnants of their love behind. The wind stung his burned wings, but he didn't care. The agony was a reminder that he was still alive, that he had escaped the madness.

Blitzø succumbs to the fire, leaving Stolas distraught. Despite his injuries, Stolas escapes through the window, watching the apartment burn as he flies away, painfully aware of his failure to save Blitzø and the end of their love.

He found refuge in an alley, his breaths coming in ragged gasps. His eyes were haunted, the image of Blitzø's fiery end seared into his mind. He had never wanted it to come to this, but he had been backed into a corner, forced to fight for his own freedom. The weight of his actions settled on him like a leaden cloak, suffocating him with guilt.

Stolas knew he couldn't stay. The fire would attract too much attention, and he had to get help for Blitzø. But as he took to the skies again, the wind carrying the acrid scent of burning demon flesh, he couldn't shake the feeling that he had just made the biggest mistake of his life.

He flew straight to the new love's apartment, his mind racing with a plan to save Blitzø. He had to tell someone, had to get help before it was too late. He pounded on the door, his heart hammering in his chest.

The door swung open to reveal the "Better than Blitzo" guy, eyes wide with shock. "Stolas?" he gasped, taking in the sight of the injured demon before him.

Stolas didn't have the strength for pleasantries. "Blitz," he panted, his voice hoarse from the smoke. "He's hurt. We have to help him."

The new boyfriend, whose name Stolas had never bothered to learn, took in the frantic state of the demon before him. "What happened?"

"He's lost it," Stolas choked out, his wings trembling from the exertion. "The apartment's on fire. We have to get him out."

After escaping the fire, Stolas is overwhelmed by guilt and seeks refuge in an alley. Determined to save Blitzø, he flies to the new boyfriend's apartment, revealing the dire situation and begging for assistance to rescue Blitzø from the burning apartment.

The human's expression shifted from shock to concern, his eyes flickering to the fiery skyline. "Okay," he said, his voice steady. "We'll call the fire department, and I'll grab the first aid kit."

Stolas nodded, his breathing shallow and pained. "Thank you," he murmured, his voice a mere whisper.

The human's apartment was a blur of movement as he rushed to the phone, his panic palpable as he dialed emergency services. Stolas hovered by the door, his wings useless at his side. The pain was intense, but his concern for Blitz was even greater. He could feel the burns deep in his muscles, but he pushed aside the agony, focusing solely on the task at hand.

"You need to get to a hospital," the human said, returning with a first aid kit in hand. His eyes were filled with a mix of fear and pity as he took in Stolas's injuries. "You can't stay here."

Stolas nodded, his thoughts a tumultuous storm. "I know," he murmured. "But Blitz..."

The human looked at him, his expression a mix of anger and understanding. "I'll call for him too," he said firmly. "But you can't go back in there. You'll only make it worse."

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving the flaming horizon. He knew the human was right, but the urge to rush back into the inferno was overwhelming. The sirens grew louder, a cacophony of despair echoing through the streets.

The human took Stolas's hand, his touch surprisingly gentle. "We'll get him help," he assured, his voice steady. "But we have to do it together."

Stolas is met with concern and aid from his ex-boyfriend's new partner, who helps him contact emergency services. Despite his injuries, Stolas's main concern remains for Blitzø, and the human agrees to help. They form an uneasy alliance as the sirens grow closer, with the shared goal of saving Blitzø from the burning apartment.

Stolas nodded, the reality of the situation finally setting in. His love for Blitz had led them both to this point, and now he had to trust in someone else to save him. The sirens grew closer, the wailing a stark contrast to the silence of the alley.

The human helped him to the nearest hospital, the journey a blur of pain and guilt. Stolas could feel the burns on his wings and skin, but the emotional agony was far worse. As they approached the emergency room, the human spoke firmly. "I'll stay with you," he said, his grip tight on Stolas's hand. "We'll figure this out."

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving the burning apartment in the distance. "Thank you," he murmured, the words feeling inadequate.

The human's grip tightened. "You don't have to thank me," he said, his voice gruff. "We're in this together now."

The emergency room was a blur of white lights and concerned faces as they rushed Stolas through the doors. Nurses and doctors flitted around him, their movements a frenetic dance of care and concern. Stolas felt detached from it all, his mind replaying the events of the night over and over. The smell of antiseptic and the sound of beeping machines did little to soothe his frayed nerves.

As the medical staff tended to his burns, the human remained by his side, his hand never leaving Stolas's. "What's your name?" Stolas managed to ask, his voice hoarse from the smoke.

"It's Brandon," the human said, his grip firm but gentle. "Yours is Stolas, right?"

Stolas and Brandon, driven by the urgency of saving Blitzø, head to the hospital. The pain of his injuries is overshadowed by his emotional turmoil. Upon arriving, Stolas expresses his gratitude to Brandon, who reassures him of their shared commitment to help Blitzø. They stand together in the chaotic emergency room, a bond forming amidst the tragedy.

Stolas escapes the burning apartment and seeks help from his new boyfriend, forming an alliance to save Blitzø. Despite his own distress, he is consumed by guilt and a desire to rescue Blitzø, leading them to the hospital.

Stolas nodded, the sound of his name on Brandon's lips strange yet comforting. As the medical staff worked on him, he couldn't shake the image of Blitzø's lifeless body in the fire. The flames had been a symbol of the fiery passion that had once bound them, now a destructive force that had torn them apart.

"We have to save him," Stolas murmured, his voice barely audible above the medical chatter.

Brandon's grip tightened around his hand. "They're doing all they can," he assured, his eyes reflecting the same fear and urgency. "But you have to focus on yourself now."

Stolas nodded weakly, the pain from his burns becoming more pronounced as the adrenaline started to wear off. The world around him spun, the walls closing in with every shallow breath he took. He could feel the weight of his failure pressing down on him, a crushing burden that seemed to grow heavier with every passing moment.

The doctor's voice pierced through the fog of his thoughts. "You're lucky to be alive," he said, his tone a mix of amazement and concern. "Those burns are severe, but we'll do everything we can to help you heal."

Stolas nodded, his eyes glazed over with pain and regret. The room was spinning, the antiseptic smell making him nauseous. The reality of what had happened was setting in, the gravity of his actions weighing on him like a mountain. "What about Blitz?" he croaked, his voice a mere whisper.

In the hospital, Stolas is overwhelmed by the reality of the situation, his thoughts consumed by Blitzø's fate. Despite his severe burns, he remains focused on saving Blitzø. Brandon, also concerned, reminds Stolas to prioritize his own health. The doctor informs them of the seriousness of Stolas's condition, but Stolas is desperate for news about Blitzø's rescue.

Brandon squeezed his hand. "They're on their way to the apartment," he said, his own voice tight with tension. "We have to trust they'll find him."

The words were like a knife to Stolas's heart. He had hoped, prayed, that Blitz had somehow escaped. But deep down, he knew the truth. The fire had been too intense, the smoke too thick. "I have to go to him," he rasped, trying to sit up.

Brandon's grip on his hand tightened. "You can't," he said firmly. "You're in no condition to leave."

Stolas's eyes filled with tears, the guilt threatening to consume him. "But I can't just stay here," he choked out, the pain in his voice raw and palpable. "He needs me."

Brandon's gaze was steady, his voice calm despite the chaos in his own heart. "You're no good to him dead," he said, his grip unyielding. "Let them do their job. We'll find out what happened as soon as we can."

The doctor's voice grew more insistent, the urgency in his tone cutting through the fog of pain and guilt. "Sir, you need to stay still," he said, his eyes focused on Stolas's injuries. "We have to get these burns treated before they get worse."

Stolas nodded, his body feeling like it was made of lead. He watched as the doctor and nurses worked tirelessly, their movements a blur of white coats and medical equipment. The pain was a living, breathing entity, wrapping around him like the very flames that had engulfed the apartment. Each touch was a reminder of his failure, of the love that had burned out of control.

Brandon informs Stolas that rescue efforts are underway at the apartment. Despite his desperation to join them, Stolas is held back due to his injuries. The doctor emphasizes the need for immediate treatment, and Stolas, though filled with guilt, submits to the medical care, haunted by the fear of his failure to save Blitzø.

Brandon remained a steadfast presence beside him, his hand never leaving Stolas's. He spoke in hushed tones, updating him on the fire department's progress and the state of the building. The words barely registered, lost in the symphony of beeping machines and the hiss of oxygen tanks.

"They're saying the fire's under control," Brandon said, his voice strained. "They're searching the building now."

Stolas nodded, his eyes squeezed shut against the tears that threatened to fall. The pain in his wings was a constant reminder of the horror he had just escaped. "I have to see him," he whispered, his voice barely audible.

"We will," Brandon promised, his voice soothing despite the chaos around them. "As soon as you're stable, we'll go."

The hours ticked by in a blur of pain and anxiety. Stolas felt like he was trapped in a nightmare, unable to wake up or escape the crushing weight of his guilt. The sounds of the hospital—beeping machines, the murmur of nurses, the occasional wail of a siren—were a stark contrast to the fiery hell he had just left behind. Each moment that passed without news of Blitz was an eternity, the silence echoing louder than any scream.

Finally, a doctor approached, her face a mask of professionalism but her eyes filled with a gentle concern. "The fire has been extinguished," she said, her voice a lifeline in the sea of despair. "The search and rescue team is still inside."

Stolas, unable to leave his hospital bed due to his injuries, is updated by Brandon on the fire's status and the ongoing search for Blitzø. Despite the pain from his burns, his focus remains on finding Blitzø, and Brandon offers comfort and reassurance as they await news amidst the hospital's chaotic backdrop.

Stolas's chest tightened, his breath shallow and painful. "Is he...?" he couldn't bring himself to finish the question.

Brandon's grip on his hand grew stronger, his own eyes reflecting the hope and fear that danced in Stolas's. "They haven't found anyone yet," the doctor said, her tone carefully measured. "But the search is ongoing."

The words hung in the air, heavy with unspoken dread. Stolas closed his eyes, his breathing ragged. The pain in his chest was a constant throb, a dull ache that seemed to pulse with every beat of his heart. He knew what it meant if Blitz wasn't found. He had killed him, not with the knife, but with his own obsession.

Brandon's hand remained a firm presence, a lifeline in the storm of emotions threatening to drown him. "You need to stay strong," he murmured, his voice a gentle reminder of the world outside their shared tragedy. "For Blitz, for all of us."

Stolas nodded, his eyes still closed, the image of Blitz's charred form playing in his mind's eye. The doctor and nurses moved around them, their movements efficient and practiced. They had seen tragedies before, had patched up lives shattered by events beyond their control. But Stolas couldn't shake the feeling that he was the one who had lost control, that he was the one who had brought this horror upon them all.

Stolas agonizes over Blitzø's fate, unable to voice his fears. The doctor delivers an ambiguous update on the search, leaving Stolas and Brandon in suspense. Stolas grapples with guilt and despair, while Brandon urges him to stay strong, emphasizing the need for hope and resilience as the hospital staff tends to his injuries.

At the hospital, Stolas is treated for burns but remains obsessed with Blitzø's fate. Brandon provides comfort and updates on the rescue, as they form a bond amidst the chaos, though Stolas is haunted by his failure to save Blitzø.

The minutes stretched into hours, each second an eternity of doubt and dread. The hospital's sterile embrace offered no comfort, the very air thick with the scent of burned flesh that clung to him like a haunting specter. The pain in his wings was a constant reminder of the fire that had torn through their lives, leaving nothing but ash in its wake.

Finally, a firefighter burst through the doors, his gear singed and face smudged with soot. His eyes scanned the room before locking onto Stolas. "We found someone," he said, his voice gruff from the smoke. "A demon. He's alive, but barely."

Stolas's heart leaped into his throat, hope and fear warring within him. "Take me to him," he rasped, pushing himself up despite the pain.

Brandon's eyes widened. "You can't," he protested. "You're not stable."

But Stolas was beyond listening. He pulled free from the hospital bed, his wings unfurling with a painful crackle. "I have to," he murmured, his eyes never leaving the firefighter. "I have to see him."

Brandon nodded, his own fear and concern etched on his face. "Okay," he said, his voice tight. "But I'm coming with you."

A firefighter delivers hopeful news of Blitzø's survival, though barely. Overriding Brandon's protests, Stolas, driven by a mix of hope and fear, insists on seeing Blitzø despite his own unstable condition. Brandon, understanding his urgency, agrees to accompany him, their bond strengthened by the shared concern for Blitzø's fate.

The doctor's protests fell on deaf ears as Stolas stumbled out of the hospital bed, his wings flapping weakly. Each movement sent a fresh wave of pain through him, but he couldn't ignore the hope that burned brighter than the fire that had tried to claim him. Together, they followed the firefighter through the chaotic halls, the smell of smoke and burned flesh a haunting reminder of the night's events.

As they approached the emergency bay, Stolas's heart sank at the sight of Blitz lying on a stretcher, his body covered in burns, his eyes closed. The medical staff worked feverishly around him, their faces a mix of determination and sadness. The firefighter nodded to the doctor, who immediately took charge.

"Is he...?" Stolas couldn't finish his question, his voice catching in his throat.

The doctor's eyes met his, filled with a solemn gravity that sent a cold shiver down his spine. "We're doing everything we can," she said, her voice tight with the tension of the situation. "He's in critical condition."

Stolas stumbled forward, his legs threatening to give out beneath him. He could see the extent of Blitz's injuries now, the burns covering almost every inch of his body, the smell of charred flesh making his stomach turn. The demon's eyes fluttered open, and for a brief moment, Stolas saw the pain and confusion in them before they fell shut again.

"What have I done?" Stolas whispered, his voice barely audible above the bustle of the hospital.

Despite his own precarious condition, Stolas insists on seeing Blitzø, who is found alive but critically injured. The doctor confirms Blitzø's critical state, and Stolas is overwhelmed by the sight of his ex-lover's severe burns. Struggling with his own pain, Stolas confronts the reality of his actions and the consequences they have wrought.

The doctor looked at him, her expression a mix of pity and understanding. "You did what you had to," she said, her voice gentle. "Now let us do our job."

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz's still form. Brandon stepped up beside him, his hand on Stolas's shoulder. "We're here for you," he murmured.

The doctor's words echoed in Stolas's mind as he watched the medical team work tirelessly to save Blitz. The room was a symphony of beeps and murmured instructions, the rhythm of life-saving measures a stark contrast to the chaos that had brought them here. He knew he had pushed Blitz too far, had let his obsession drive him to madness. The love that had once been a beacon had become a destructive force that had ravaged everything in its path.

Brandon's hand remained a steady presence on his shoulder, grounding him in the present. Stolas felt the weight of his own actions pressing down on him, the guilt a heavy cloak that threatened to suffocate him. "This isn't your fault," Brandon said, his voice low and firm. "You tried to help him."

Stolas couldn't bring himself to look away from Blitz, his mind racing with a tornado of regret and pain. "But I hurt him," he murmured, his voice thick with unshed tears. "I never wanted this."

Brandon's hand tightened on his shoulder. "You didn't do this," he said firmly. "His madness did."

The doctor reassures Stolas that he did what he could, as he watches the medical team treat Blitz. Despite his own guilt, Brandon provides comfort and clarity, reminding Stolas that Blitz's madness is to blame for the current situation, not his own desire to help. The gravity of the situation and the depth of Stolas's regret are palpable as they await news on Blitz's condition.

Against medical advice, Stolas, driven by hope and fear, insists on seeing the critically injured Blitzø. Brandon supports him, and together they face the reality of Blitz's condition, with Stolas beginning to understand the consequences of his actions.

After their breakup, Blitzø spirals into madness, vowing to marry and impregnate Stolas. Stolas resists, and in the ensuing fire, he escapes and joins his new boyfriend, Brandon. Despite his fear, Stolas feels guilty and insists on seeing the severely injured Blitzø at the hospital, where he confronts the grim reality of his situation.

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz's still form. The demon's chest rose and fell in shallow, erratic breaths, a testament to the battle for life raging within him. Each breath was a knife in Stolas's own chest, a reminder of the love that had gone so wrong. "I need to make it right," he murmured, his voice barely audible above the hospital's cacophony.

"You will," Brandon assured him, his voice a steady pillar of strength. "But first, let's get you both through this."

The doctor's voice grew more urgent as she called for a blood transfusion. Stolas watched, his heart pounding in his chest, as the medical staff worked tirelessly to save Blitz's life. His own injuries felt insignificant in comparison to the horror that had unfolded. The sight of Blitz, broken and burned, was a stark reminder of the love that had gone so wrong.

"Is there anything I can do?" Stolas asked, his voice shaking with fear and desperation.

The doctor looked at him, her expression a mix of pity and professionalism. "For now, just stay out of the way," she said, her eyes flicking to his own burned wings. "Your presence is enough."

Stolas nodded, stepping back to give them room. His heart felt like it was being torn apart as he watched the doctors and nurses fight for Blitz's life. The beeps of the machines grew louder, the rhythm of their work more frantic. Each second that passed was an eternity, a symphony of hope and despair that played out before his eyes.

Stolas remains fixated on Blitz's critical condition, feeling guilty for his part in the tragedy. Brandon continues to offer support, urging Stolas to focus on the present. The doctor advises Stolas to stay clear, emphasizing the severity of Blitz's condition and the importance of the medical team's work. The atmosphere is tense as the hospital staff fights to save Blitz's life, with Stolas powerless but hopeful.

As the medical staff worked, Brandon pulled him aside, his grip firm and reassuring. "You need to rest," he said, his voice a whisper amidst the chaos. "You're in no condition to help him."

Stolas nodded, his body trembling with the effort of standing. The pain in his wings was a constant throb, a stark reminder of the events that had led them here. He allowed Brandon to guide him to a chair, his eyes never leaving Blitz's prone form. The demon looked so small and fragile, a stark contrast to the fiery passion that had once burned between them.

As the hours ticked by, the hospital's lights grew dimmer, the sounds of the medical machinery a constant backdrop to their vigil. Stolas felt like he was drowning in guilt, the weight of his actions threatening to pull him under. He had never wanted to hurt Blitz, never wanted their love to end like this.

Brandon's hand was still in his, a silent testament to the bond that had formed between them in the face of tragedy. Stolas looked at him, his eyes brimming with unshed tears. "I'm sorry," he murmured, his voice cracking with pain.

Brandon's grip tightened. "You don't have to be," he said firmly. "You're not to blame for his madness."

Brandon insists Stolas rests, acknowledging his condition. The gravity of the situation weighs heavily on Stolas as he reflects on their tumultuous past. The bond between Stolas and Brandon grows stronger as they share the burden of the tragedy. Despite his guilt, Brandon reassures Stolas that he isn't responsible for Blitz's madness, offering much-needed support during the painful vigil.

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz. The demon's chest rose and fell in a shallow, erratic rhythm, each breath a miracle amidst the chaos. The doctor's voice grew more insistent, calling for a surgeon as the situation grew dire. The world around them faded away, leaving only the stark reality of the fight for life and the heavy silence of regret.

As the doctor stepped back, a surgeon took her place, his movements swift and precise. The room grew colder, the air thick with the scent of fear and anticipation. Stolas's hand tightened around Brandon's, his knuckles white with the effort of not giving in to his own pain. The human's eyes met his, a silent understanding passing between them. They were bound now by the horror they had witnessed, by the love they had lost.

The surgery seemed to stretch on forever, the tension in the room a living entity that grew more oppressive with each passing moment. Stolas felt as though he was trapped in a nightmare from which he could not wake, his thoughts a tumult of regret and sorrow. He had pushed Blitz to this point, had allowed his obsession to control him. The demon had been right all along; he had never truly loved Stolas.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity, the surgeon stepped back, his face etched with exhaustion. The doctor approached them, her eyes heavy with a burden she was about to lay upon Stolas. "He's stable," she said, her voice devoid of any emotion that might give away the outcome. "For now."

The doctor's urgent call for a surgeon underscores Blitz's precarious condition. The surgery's tension solidifies the bond between Stolas and Brandon. Despite the fear and regret, Stolas recognizes his obsession led to this tragedy. The doctor's update on Blitz's condition is grim but offers a glimmer of hope, leaving them in a state of suspended anxiety.

Stolas is plagued by guilt over Blitz's critical condition, while Brandon provides unwavering support. The doctor advises rest, but Stolas is consumed by his past with Blitz. Their bond deepens as they await surgery results, with Brandon reminding Stolas of his lack of culpability in the situation. The surgery's outcome remains uncertain, leaving them in a state of intense anxiety.

Stolas felt his chest tighten, the hope that had been flickering within him threatening to be snuffed out. "Can I see him?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

The doctor nodded, gesturing for them to follow. The ICU was a stark contrast to the chaos of the emergency bay, the beeping of machines a solemn reminder of the lives hanging in the balance. Blitz lay in a hospital bed, his body a patchwork of bandages, tubes, and wires. His eyes were closed, his breathing shallow and labored.

Stolas felt his heart shatter anew at the sight of him, the reality of the situation setting in like a cold, hard stone in his stomach. He took a tentative step forward, the pain in his wings a constant, throbbing reminder of what he had done. "Blitz," he whispered, his voice hoarse from the smoke and the screams that still echoed in his mind.

Blitz's eyes fluttered open, the green irises clouded with pain and confusion. He looked around the room, his gaze finally settling on Stolas. For a moment, there was a flicker of recognition, but it quickly faded into a vacant stare. "What happened?" he croaked, his voice barely audible.

Stolas swallowed the lump in his throat, his hand reaching out to touch Blitz's bandaged arm. "There was a fire," he said, his voice trembling. "You're in the hospital."

Blitz's eyes searched Stolas's face, his brow furrowing as the fog of painkillers and trauma began to lift. "I remember," he murmured, his voice weak. "Why are you here?"

With trepidation, Stolas asks to see Blitz and is led to the ICU. Blitz's condition is critical, and Stolas is overwhelmed by guilt upon seeing him. When Blitz regains consciousness, he is confused but recognizes Stolas. Despite their painful history, Stolas is the first person he sees, illustrating the depth of their connection.

Stolas felt his heart stutter in his chest. "I... I'm here for you," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I'm so sorry, Blitz. I never meant for any of this to happen."

Blitz's eyes searched his, the pain in them fading into something softer, something that looked a lot like regret. "I know," he murmured, his voice a mere whisper. "I pushed you too far."

Stolas felt the weight of his own guilt crushing him, the tears finally spilling over. "No," he choked out. "It was me. I should have seen the signs, should have stopped."

Brandon stepped forward, his voice firm. "You both need to rest," he said, cutting through the heavy silence. "The doctors have done all they can for now."

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz's face. "I'll be back," he promised, his voice barely a whisper. "I'll be here for you."

The demon's eyes closed again, his breathing shallow and uneven. Brandon's hand on his shoulder was the only thing keeping him upright. "Come on," the human said gently, guiding him out of the ICU. "You need to get checked out too."

Stolas nodded, his legs feeling like they might give out at any moment. He allowed Brandon to lead him back to his own hospital room, his mind racing with the events of the night. The doctor checked his burns, applying fresh dressings and administering pain medication. His body was a canvas of agony, a stark reminder of the fire that had ravaged both him and Blitz.

In the ICU, Blitz acknowledges his part in the situation, sharing a moment of mutual regret with Stolas. Brandon intervenes, emphasizing the need for rest and medical attention. Stolas makes a heartfelt promise to be there for Blitz before reluctantly leaving. The doctor's care for Stolas highlights the physical toll of the ordeal, mirroring their emotional turmoil.

As the drugs began to take effect, Stolas felt his eyelids grow heavy. Despite the pain, he fought the urge to sleep, his mind racing with fear for Blitz. "I can't leave him," he murmured, his voice slurred.

Brandon's hand remained firm on his shoulder. "You have to," he said, his tone a mix of compassion and firmness. "You're no good to him if you collapse. Rest, and I'll stay with him."

The words were a balm to Stolas's soul, the exhaustion overwhelming him. He nodded, his eyes drifting closed. "Thank you," he murmured, his voice barely a whisper.

Brandon's reply was lost to the fog of sleep that descended upon him, the world fading into a sea of pain and regret. When he awoke, the room was dim, the sun's first rays peeking through the blinds. His wings, though wrapped in bandages, felt heavy and foreign. The pain was a constant companion, a grim reminder of the horror he had witnessed.

He pushed himself up, his body protesting with every movement. The hospital room was quiet, the beeping of the machines a gentle lullaby. His eyes searched for Blitz, fear gripping him that he had lost him during the night. But then he saw him, still in the same hospital bed, the same array of tubes and wires attached to his body.

Blitz's eyes were open, staring at the ceiling, lost in his own thoughts. The sight of him brought a rush of relief, followed by a fresh wave of guilt. He had done this to him. His obsession had driven him to madness, had almost taken Blitz from him forever.

Despite his exhaustion and pain, Stolas is plagued by guilt and fear for Blitz. Brandon's assurance allows him to relent and rest. Upon waking, he finds Blitz still alive but heavily bandaged, and the reality of his actions sets in, amplifying his emotional distress.

Stolas's voice was barely above a whisper as he called out, "Blitz?"

Blitz's head turned slowly towards him, his eyes still clouded with pain. "You're okay," he murmured, the hint of a smile playing on his cracked lips.

Stolas nodded, his own eyes brimming with unshed tears. "Barely," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "How are you feeling?"

Blitz took a shallow breath, his chest rising and falling with the effort. "Like I've been to hell and back," he murmured, his voice raspy. "But I'm alive."

Stolas felt the weight of his guilt settle heavily on his shoulders. "I'm so sorry," he whispered, his hand shaking as he reached for Blitz's. The demon's skin was warm, a stark contrast to the cold bandages that covered him.

Blitz's eyes searched his, the depths of his pain clear in their emerald depths. "It's okay," he said, his voice barely above a breath. "I know you didn't mean it."

Stolas nodded, the lump in his throat making it hard to speak. "But I did it," he said, his voice cracking. "I hurt you."

Blitz's hand, bandaged and weak, reached out to cover Stolas's. "You didn't," he murmured, his eyes never leaving Stolas's. "You tried to save me."

Stolas felt a tear slip down his cheek, the warmth of Blitz's touch grounding him in the present. "But I didn't," he said, his voice trembling. "I should have seen how much I was hurting you."

Blitz squeezed his hand gently. "It's not your fault," he whispered. "I... I know I pushed you too far."

Stolas and Blitz share a poignant moment in the hospital, where Stolas expresses his guilt and regret. Despite his own condition, Blitz assures Stolas that he understands and forgives, creating a fragile bond of comfort between them.

In the ICU, Stolas is confronted with Blitz's critical condition, feeling immense guilt. They share a moment of mutual regret, and Stolas makes a promise of support. Brandon's intervention allows Stolas to rest, and upon waking, he finds Blitz alive but heavily bandaged. The two share a poignant conversation, with Blitz offering forgiveness, which deepens their complex emotional bond amidst the chaos.

The room was silent, the only sound the steady beep of the heart monitor. Stolas felt his chest tighten, his heart feeling as though it was being squeezed by a vice. "What happens now?" he asked, the words barely escaping his dry lips.

Blitz's gaze drifted to their joined hands, his own bandaged fingers twitching slightly. "Now," he murmured, "we heal."

The simplicity of the statement hit Stolas like a ton of bricks. He had been so focused on the horror of what had happened, on the guilt that threatened to consume him, that he had forgotten the possibility of healing. "How?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

Blitz took a deep, pained breath. "We talk," he said, his eyes never leaving Stolas's. "We figure out what went wrong and we move forward."

Stolas nodded, his heart heavy with the weight of their shared history. "But what about us?" he asked, the words slipping out before he could stop them. "Can we ever be...?"

Blitz's gaze remained steadfast on their joined hands. "I don't know," he said, his voice raw with honesty. "But we can try."

The words hung in the air, a lifeline thrown into the abyss of doubt that had consumed Stolas. He nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz's. "We'll do it together," he murmured, hope flickering in his chest like a candle in the dark.

The doctor stepped into the room, her expression serious. "You both need to rest," she said, her eyes flicking between them. "But it's good to see you talking."

In the hospital, Blitz and Stolas tentatively discuss their future, acknowledging the need for healing and the possibility of rebuilding their relationship. Blitz suggests communication as the first step, and Stolas clings to the hope that they can move forward together. The doctor's intervention emphasizes the gravity of the situation and the importance of their recovery.

Stolas nodded, his gaze never leaving Blitz's. "We'll talk more," he promised, his voice filled with hope. "But first, I need to know that you're okay."

The doctor checked Blitz's vitals, her movements efficient and practiced. She spoke in a calm, professional tone, explaining the extent of his injuries and the long road to recovery ahead. Stolas felt his heart drop with each word, the reality of the situation setting in. "He'll need extensive care," she said, her eyes meeting Stolas's. "But he's a fighter."

"I'll be here," Stolas vowed, his grip on Blitz's hand tightening. "I won't leave his side."

The doctor nodded, a hint of understanding in her eyes. "That's what friends do," she said, her voice gentle. "But remember, Mr. Stolas, you need to heal too."

Stolas nodded, his gaze never leaving Blitz's face. "I will," he murmured. "For him."

The doctor finished her examination and left the room, the door clicking shut behind her. The silence was filled with the soft beeping of monitors and the sound of their own shallow breaths.

"I'm sorry," Stolas said again, the words feeling inadequate. "I never wanted this."

Blitz's hand squeezed his slightly, the warmth a stark contrast to the cold reality of their situation. "It's not your fault," he repeated, his voice hoarse from the tubes down his throat. "We both made mistakes."

Stolas felt a tear slip down his cheek, tracing a path through the soot and ash that still clung to his face. "But I'm the one who... who did this to you."

The doctor delivers a sobering assessment of Blitz's condition, emphasizing the need for care and recovery. Stolas promises to be by Blitz's side, but is reminded of his own need for healing. Blitz forgives Stolas and accepts shared responsibility for their tumultuous past, offering a glimmer of hope for reconciliation amidst the hospital's cold reality.

Blitz's eyes searched his, a hint of the fiery determination that had once fueled his obsession. "We're in this together," he rasped, his grip on Stolas's hand growing stronger. "We'll get through it."

The days in the hospital turned into a blur of pain, recovery, and tentative conversations. Blitz's condition gradually improved, though the burns that marred his body were a constant reminder of the fire that had almost claimed him. Stolas never left his side, his own injuries healing slowly as he focused on supporting the demon he had hurt.

They talked about everything that had led to that fateful night, their words raw and honest. Stolas spoke of his obsession, his fear of losing Blitz, and his desperation to hold onto what he thought was love. Blitz, in turn, confessed his own fears of abandonment, his desire for a family, and his own role in pushing Stolas to the brink.

Slowly, through the pain and the tears, they began to understand each other in a way they never had before. They spoke of their hopes, their regrets, and their love—twisted and broken as it was. They talked about the future, one that didn't involve marriage or a child, but one of friendship and support. A future where they could heal together.

Through their hospital stay, Blitz and Stolas engage in deep, honest discussions about their past. They confront their fears and mistakes, leading to a newfound understanding and acceptance of each other. The concept of a future friendship and mutual support arises, offering a path of healing beyond their romantic entanglement and its destructive end.

In the hospital, Blitz and Stolas consider the future of their relationship, agreeing on the need for communication and healing. Blitz forgives Stolas, and they share responsibility for their past. The doctor's serious prognosis underscores the gravity of the situation, prompting a commitment to support each other's recovery. Through candid discussions, they explore the possibility of a friendship beyond their tumultuous romance, fostering hope amidst the harsh hospital environment.

At the hospital, Stolas's guilt over Blitz's condition grows while Brandon comforts him. Despite surgery, Blitz's fate remains uncertain. Upon waking, Stolas sees the bandaged Blitz and receives his forgiveness. They contemplate a future friendship as Blitz acknowledges his own role in their tragic past.

The hospital room became a sanctuary of sorts, a place where the outside world didn't matter. Only the two of them, their shared past, and the fragile hope of a different kind of future. Brandon, ever the silent guardian, hovered in the background, offering gentle words of encouragement and a strong shoulder to lean on when the weight of their conversation grew too heavy.

As the days turned into weeks, the hospital's sterile walls began to feel less like a prison and more like a shelter. They had each other, and for the first time in what felt like an eternity, Stolas felt like he could breathe again. The air was thick with the scent of antiseptic and pain, but there was also a hint of something else—forgiveness.

Brandon had become a constant presence, his gentle nature a balm to their bruised souls. He listened without judgment, offered advice when asked, and held them both together when they thought they might fall apart. His love for Stolas had grown into a fierce protectiveness, a bond that had been forged in the fires of their shared trauma.

One evening, as the sun set over the city, painting the hospital room in shades of gold and pink, Brandon sat in the chair beside Stolas's bed, holding his hand. They had just finished another round of heart-wrenching confessions, their eyes red from crying. "You know," he said, his voice a soft whisper, "you guys might be able to fix this."

Stolas looked at him, hope sparkling in his eyes. "You think so?"

The hospital becomes a safe haven for Blitz and Stolas, with Brandon providing unconditional support. Through weeks of candid conversations and emotional catharsis, they begin to forgive each other. Brandon, evolving from new boyfriend to confidant, suggests that their friendship could be salvaged, igniting a spark of hope in Stolas that a different type of bond could emerge from the ashes of their love.

Brandon nodded, his gaze flicking to Blitz, who was asleep in the next bed. "If you both want it," he said, his voice earnest. "You have to be willing to work through the pain and the anger."

Stolas sighed, his eyes never leaving Blitz. "I do," he murmured. "More than anything."

Brandon gave his hand a gentle squeeze. "Then you will," he said, his voice filled with certainty. "But it won't be easy."

Stolas nodded, his eyes never leaving Blitz. "I know," he murmured. "But I'm willing to try."

Days turned into weeks, and the hospital became a second home for the three of them. The nurses grew accustomed to their constant vigil, the quiet support they offered each other, and the gentle way Brandon cared for Stolas. The burns on Stolas's wings slowly began to heal, the pain dulling to a constant ache that was a stark reminder of the fire that had brought them to this point. Blitz's condition improved, though the scars on his body were a stark reminder of the price he had paid for Stolas's obsession.

Their conversations grew less about the past and more about the future, a future that now included Brandon. He had become an integral part of their lives, a source of comfort and strength that neither of them could have anticipated. Stolas watched him with new eyes, his feelings for the human evolving from gratitude to something deeper, something that felt more like home than the fiery passion he had once felt for Blitz.

Brandon's unwavering support allows Stolas and Blitz to confront their pain and anger, suggesting reconciliation. Their hospital stay evolves into a shared experience of healing, with Brandon becoming a central figure in their lives. Stolas's feelings for Brandon deepen beyond gratitude, forming a new emotional foundation that contrasts with his tumultuous history with Blitz.

The doctor's words echoed in Stolas's mind—they both needed to heal. And so, they took it one day at a time, their bond shifting from one of obsession to one of friendship and mutual support. They shared stories, laughed at old memories, and even allowed themselves to grieve for what could have been.

One day, as the sun set, casting a warm glow over Blitz's bandaged form, Stolas took a deep breath and asked the question that had been haunting him. "Do you... do you still love me?"

Blitz's eyes fluttered open, and for a moment, Stolas was afraid he had overstepped. But then the demon's expression softened, and he reached out a bandaged hand to cover Stolas's own. "In a way," he murmured. "But it's not the same love it was before."

Stolas nodded, understanding in his eyes. "It doesn't have to be," he said, his voice a whisper. "But I need to know if there's a chance for us."

Blitz took a deep, pained breath. "There's always a chance," he murmured. "But it's going to take time."

Stolas nodded, his heart racing in his chest. "I'm willing to wait," he said, his voice filled with determination. "For you, for us."

Blitz's eyes searched his, the depth of his feelings clear despite the pain. "Thank you," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "But we need to focus on healing first."

Stolas nodded, his hand trembling slightly beneath Blitz's touch. "I know," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "We'll get there."

Stolas and Blitz confront their evolving feelings in the hospital, acknowledging the shift from passionate love to friendship. Despite the painful past, they express a willingness to rebuild their relationship with patience and understanding, with Stolas committing to waiting for Blitz's healing and growth before pursuing any romantic future.

The hospital environment allows for healing conversations between Blitz, Stolas, and Brandon, with Brandon acting as a catalyst for reconciliation. Stolas's feelings for Brandon grow, creating a new emotional dynamic. They all accept the shift from romantic love to friendship, with Stolas committing to patience and understanding as Blitz heals and grows, indicating a potential future together beyond their tumultuous past.

The days grew longer, the shadows of the past slowly receding as they focused on the present. The hospital walls, once suffocating, now felt like a cocoon, a place where they could heal and grow. Brandon was the glue that held them together, his unwavering support a beacon of light in the darkness.

One morning, the doctor entered with a more optimistic air than usual. "Blitz, we're going to start physical therapy soon," she said, her voice cheerful. "It's going to be painful, but it's crucial for your recovery."

Blitz nodded, his gaze drifting to Stolas. The demon looked so fragile, so broken, and it was all his doing. He had never meant to hurt him like this. The guilt was a heavy weight in his chest, but he knew he had to move forward, had to heal, not just for himself, but for Stolas and Brandon too.

The first day of physical therapy was a grueling ordeal. The therapist was kind but firm, pushing Blitz's body to its limits. Every movement sent shockwaves of pain through his burned muscles and tender skin. Stolas hovered nearby, his face a mask of anguish as he watched Blitz struggle. Brandon held Stolas's hand, whispering words of encouragement in his ear.

After hours of painstaking effort, Blitz lay back on the hospital bed, panting. His eyes, filled with a mix of pride and pain, searched for Stolas. "I'll get through this," he murmured, his voice laced with determination.

As hospital life becomes a routine, the trio finds strength in their newfound friendship. The doctor's announcement of physical therapy marks a significant step in Blitz's recovery process. Despite the pain, Blitz is motivated by his regret and the presence of Stolas and Brandon, who stand by him, symbolizing hope and growth amidst the difficult journey ahead.

Stolas nodded, his own eyes brimming with tears. "I know you will," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "You're the strongest person I know."

The therapy sessions became a daily ritual, a testament to Blitz's resilience and Stolas's unwavering support. Brandon was always there, his presence a gentle reminder that love didn't have to be destructive, that it could be a force for good. They watched as Blitz slowly regained his strength, the anger and obsession of their past replaced by a quiet resolve to move forward.

One afternoon, as Stolas helped Blitz sit up, the demon's eyes searched his face, a question lingering in the air. "Why are you still here?" he rasped, his voice still strained from the tubes that had been his constant companions.

Stolas paused, the cloth in his hands hovering over Blitz's bandages. "Because I love you," he said simply, his voice filled with conviction. "But not in the way I did before."

Blitz's eyes searched his, the pain in them now mixed with something else—understanding. "I know," he murmured. "It's different now."

The days grew into a rhythm of pain and progress. Blitz pushed through the therapy with a stubbornness that surprised even the most seasoned of the hospital staff, his eyes never straying from Stolas's face. Stolas, in turn, grew stronger alongside him, the bond between them reforming into something new—a friendship that was steadfast and true.

Through the rigorous therapy sessions, the bond between Stolas and Blitz evolves into a deep friendship. Stolas's love transforms from obsession to a steadfast support, and Blitz recognizes the change. Their shared experiences in the hospital strengthen their connection, allowing them to move forward from their tumultuous past into a new phase of their relationship.

One evening, as the light outside grew dim, Brandon approached the hospital room, his eyes filled with a gentle excitement. "Guys, I've got something to tell you," he said, his voice carrying a hopeful lilt.

Stolas looked up from his book, his wings still heavily bandaged, and Blitz's eyes fluttered open, the pain etched into his features despite his attempt to hide it. "What is it?" Stolas asked, setting the book aside.

Brandon took a deep breath, his hand trembling slightly. "I've found a place for us," he said, his voice filled with excitement. "A place where we can all live together and help each other heal."

Stolas's eyes widened, hope sparking in his chest. "Really?" he whispered, his voice filled with disbelief.

Blitz's gaze met Brandon's, a silent question passing between them. The human nodded, his smile warm and reassuring. "It's a safe place," he said. "A place where we can all start over."

The idea of a fresh start was tempting, a beacon of light in the dark tunnel they had been navigating. "What kind of place?" Stolas asked, his voice tentative.

"A house," Brandon said, his eyes shining. "It's a bit of a fixer-upper, but it's got plenty of room for all of us."

Stolas's heart skipped a beat. A home, together. It was more than he had dared to hope for. "Are you sure?" he asked, his voice tentative.

Brandon nodded, his smile widening. "I've seen it," he said. "It's not much, but it's a start."

Brandon surprises Stolas and Blitz with the news of a potential new home, a symbol of their newfound friendship and a place to collectively heal from their past. Despite the challenges ahead, the offer of a "fixer-upper" house represents a fresh start, a shared space where they can all recover and build a future together.

The thought of leaving the hospital, of stepping into a new life, was both exhilarating and terrifying. Stolas felt his heart race at the prospect of creating a future that didn't involve the constant ache of guilt and regret. He looked to Blitz, searching for a sign of what he was feeling.

Blitz's expression was unreadable, his eyes flicking between Stolas and Brandon. After a moment, he nodded slowly. "Okay," he murmured, his voice still weak. "Let's do it."

The decision was made, and the wheels were set in motion. Over the next few days, Brandon handled the logistics while Stolas focused on helping Blitz with his therapy. The doctor agreed to release Blitz under their combined care, trusting that the three of them had formed a strong support system.

On the day of their discharge, the hospital room was a flurry of activity. Nurses and orderlies bustled in and out, preparing Blitz for the transition to his new life. Stolas hovered anxiously, his eyes never leaving the demon's face. Despite the pain and exhaustion, Blitz managed a weak smile, the corners of his eyes crinkling in a way that made Stolas's heart ache.

The trio decides to leave the hospital and move into the new house Brandon found, symbolizing their commitment to a shared future. Blitz, though weak, agrees to the plan, and the three prepare for discharge. The doctor trusts their bond as a support system for Blitz's ongoing recovery, and Stolas remains attentive and hopeful for their life together outside the hospital walls.

The trio forms a strong friendship during Blitz's hospital stay, with Brandon offering a new home as a symbol of their commitment to healing. The doctor supports their plan to move in together post-discharge, recognizing their bond as crucial to Blitz's recovery. Through physical therapy and shared experiences, Stolas's love for Blitz transitions from obsession to support, and they all look forward to starting anew in their "fixer-upper" house.

Brandon, ever the organizer, had packed their meager belongings and arranged for a car to take them to their new home. He hovered near the door, his excitement palpable. The house was a modest two-story building in a quiet neighborhood, the kind of place where the most exciting thing that happened was someone finally mowing their lawn. It was a stark contrast to the chaotic world they had known, but it was exactly what they needed.

As they stepped out of the hospital into the fresh air, the three of them took a moment to breathe in the scent of freedom. Stolas's wings, though still weak and bound, fluttered slightly with the excitement of a new beginning. Blitz leaned heavily on his crutches, his body a testament to the fire that had almost claimed him, but his eyes were bright with hope.

The drive to the house was quiet, the tension in the car thick enough to cut with a knife. Each of them was lost in their own thoughts, the weight of their past heavy on their shoulders. But as the car pulled up to the small, unassuming house, Brandon's excitement was infectious. "Welcome home," he murmured, his eyes shining with happiness.

Brandon organizes their move to the new house, which stands as a symbol of their newfound freedom and a stark contrast to their past lives. The trio leaves the hospital, with Stolas's weak but fluttering wings signifying hope and Blitz's recovery. Upon arrival, Brandon's excitement for their new home spreads among them, offering a glimpse of happiness amidst their heavy contemplations of the future.

Stolas helped Blitz out of the car, his own steps unsure. The house looked welcoming, the lights in the windows a warm beacon of hope. They made their way up the cracked sidewalk, the sound of their shoes echoing in the quiet evening. The door creaked open, revealing a living room that was sparsely furnished but clean. The scent of fresh paint and possibility filled the air.

Brandon led the way, his eyes alight with excitement. "This is it," he said, his voice a mix of nerves and anticipation. "Our fresh start."

Stolas and Blitz exchanged a look, the weight of their shared history heavy between them. But there was also a spark of something new—a tentative hope that maybe, just maybe, they could find peace here.

The house was a mess, a far cry from the luxurious penthouse they had once shared. The walls were bare, the floors uncarpeted, and the furniture second-hand at best. But as they moved through the space, their eyes fell on the small touches Brandon had added—fresh flowers in a vase, a hand-painted "Welcome Home" sign above the fireplace, and a fridge stocked with food that wasn't hospital fare.

"It's perfect," Stolas murmured, his voice thick with emotion.

Blitz managed a weak chuckle. "It's a dump," he said, his voice hoarse. "But it's our dump."

The trio arrives at their new house, which is a stark contrast to their past life. Despite its unassuming and imperfect exterior, the interior holds a promise of a new beginning with Brandon's personal touches. Stolas and Blitz share a moment of hope, acknowledging the potential for peace and growth in their new shared space.

The three of them stood in the middle of the living room, the silence stretching out like a tightrope between them. Then, slowly, they began to laugh—a sound that was both painful and freeing. It was the first genuine laughter they had shared in what felt like forever, a balm to their weary souls.

Brandon took charge, showing them around the house with an enthusiasm that was contagious. Each room held the promise of a new beginning, a place where they could leave the ashes of their past behind. Stolas helped Blitz up the stairs, his heart swelling with a mix of guilt and gratitude as he saw the effort it took for the demon to ascend.

They reached a small, sunlit room with a view of the overgrown backyard. "This will be your room, Blitz," Brandon said, his voice gentle. "We can work on making it more comfortable."

Blitz nodded, his eyes scanning the bare walls. "It's a good start," he murmured, his voice filled with a tired resignation.

Stolas helped him into the room, his own guilt heavy in the air. "We'll make it better," he promised, his wings brushing against the doorframe as he moved to the window. The sun cast a warm glow across the space, highlighting the dust motes that danced in the air.

"We'll all work on it together," Brandon said firmly, his eyes meeting Stolas's in the mirror of his resolve. "We're a team now."

The trio shares a moment of laughter in their new home, symbolizing the start of their new life together. Brandon shows them around, assigning Blitz a room to recover in. Despite its initial state, they are optimistic about improving it and their lives together. Their unity is emphasized as they make plans to transform the house, signifying their commitment to each other and their shared future.

The trio leaves the hospital for their new "fixer-upper" home, which Brandon has made more welcoming. The house represents a new chapter, and their optimism grows as they plan renovations together. Stolas's wings hint at a brighter future, and their unity is reinforced as they envision the home's potential, signifying their dedication to a shared life.

During Blitz's hospitalization, a strong friendship forms between the three. Stolas's love evolves from obsession to support, and they decide to live together post-discharge. The doctor approves, recognizing their bond's importance in Blitz's recovery. They move into a "fixer-upper" home, symbolizing their commitment to a new life and shared growth.

Stolas nodded, his gaze lingering on Blitz's reflection. The demon looked so small, so fragile in the hospital gown, his once proud posture now stooped with pain. But there was something in his eyes that hadn't been there before—a spark of life, of hope.

They spent the next few weeks settling into their new home, each day a mix of hard work and gentle care. Brandon proved to be a surprisingly adept nurse, his dedication to Blitz's recovery unwavering. He helped with the wound care, the exercises, and even the more mundane tasks like cooking and cleaning. Stolas watched him with a mix of admiration and something else—something that felt suspiciously like love.

The house slowly began to take shape, the bare walls filling with art and the empty spaces with furniture that had been scavenged from garage sales and donated by friends. They worked together, the three of them, creating a space that felt less like a hospital and more like a home.

Blitz's recovery was slow, each day a battle against the pain that threatened to consume him. But every small victory—his first step without crutches, the day he could shower by himself—was celebrated with quiet cheer. Stolas was there every step of the way, his gentle touch and soft encouragement a constant in the sea of pain.

As they adjust to their new life, the trio's bond strengthens. Brandon acts as a dedicated caretaker for Blitz, whose recovery is depicted in a series of small victories. The house transforms into a home under their collective efforts, symbolizing their progress from a hospital setting to a place of comfort and belonging. Stolas's love for Brandon grows, and his nurturing nature towards Blitz remains constant, contributing to the latter's healing process.

As the weeks turned into months, the scars on Blitz's body began to fade, but the ones on their hearts remained. They danced around their feelings, unsure of the new dynamic that had formed between them. They were friends, yes, but the love that had once burned so brightly had transformed into something more complex, a tapestry of regret, hope, and a newfound respect.

Stolas found solace in the quiet moments, the gentle brushing of Blitz's horns, the way his eyes lit up when he talked about his dreams for the future. He watched Blitz regain his strength, his fiery spirit slowly returning, and felt a sense of pride that was as unexpected as it was profound. Their conversations grew longer, the silences between them no longer filled with the echoes of their tumultuous past but with the quiet understanding of shared experiences.

Brandon, ever the peacemaker, noticed the change in their relationship. He knew that the love between Stolas and Blitz was something he could never fully understand, but he saw the way they leaned on each other, the way they found comfort in their shared pain. And so, he stepped back, giving them the space they needed to navigate the complexities of their healing.

One evening, as they sat in the backyard watching the sunset, Stolas spoke up, his voice tentative. "Blitz, I know we've talked about this before, but I just want to make sure you're okay with all of this." He gestured to the house, to Brandon, to the life they were building together.

Over time, the trio's relationship evolves, with the emotional scars of their past persisting. Stolas and Blitz find comfort in each other's company, sharing moments of tenderness and understanding as Blitz regains his strength. Brandon, aware of the intricacies of their bond, provides them space to heal. A pivotal conversation arises when Stolas expresses his concern for Blitz's feelings about their new life together, indicating the depth of their friendship and shared experiences.

Blitz looked at him, his eyes a mix of pain and something softer. "I'm okay," he said finally. "I mean, it's not what I ever expected, but... it's not so bad."

Stolas reached out, his hand hovering over Blitz's. "I'm sorry," he murmured. "For everything."

Blitz's eyes searched his, and for a moment, Stolas saw the flicker of the demon he had once known—the fiery passion and intensity that had been the cornerstone of their love. But it was followed by a tired smile, one that spoke of acceptance and growth. "You don't have to be," Blitz said, his voice gruff. "We're here now, aren't we?"

Stolas nodded, his heart swelling with a mix of relief and love. He looked over at Brandon, who was busy tending to the small garden they had started. The human looked up and met his gaze, a knowing smile playing on his lips. He had become the anchor in their storm, the constant that held them together when the waves of their past threatened to pull them apart.

As the days grew longer and the nights shorter, the house took on a life of its own. The garden grew lush and green, and the walls of their new home were adorned with memories of their past, both good and bad. It served as a reminder of how far they had come, and the distance they still had to travel.

In a heartfelt conversation, Stolas and Blitz acknowledge their past and the unexpected nature of their current friendship. Blitz accepts their new life together, and their shared growth is reflected in their interactions. Brandon emerges as a stabilizing force, and the house evolves into a sanctuary filled with memories, symbolizing their collective journey toward healing and acceptance.

The trio's relationships deepen as they turn the house into a home. Brandon's care and Stolas's love contribute to Blitz's recovery. Stolas and Blitz share tender moments of understanding, acknowledging their past. Their friendship grows stronger, and the house becomes a sanctuary symbolizing their journey toward healing, with Brandon acting as a stabilizing force in their lives.

The three of them had developed a routine that was both comfortable and strange. Stolas would help Blitz with his physical therapy in the mornings, pushing him to his limits, while Brandon took care of the household chores. In the afternoons, they would sit together in the living room, sharing stories and laughter, their bond growing stronger with each passing day.

One afternoon, as Blitz worked on a painting that had been left untouched for months, a knock echoed through the house. Stolas answered the door to find a delivery man holding a large, nondescript box. "It's for you," he said, nodding towards Blitz.

Curiosity piqued, they brought the box into the living room. Blitz looked at it warily, his hand hovering over the cardboard. "What is it?" he asked, his voice a mix of suspicion and hope.

Stolas carefully opened the flaps, revealing a sleek, professional camera. "It's from your art school," he said, his eyes wide with excitement. "They want you to come back and finish your degree."

Blitz's hand trembled as he reached for the letter that accompanied the camera. The words swam before his eyes, but the gist was clear—his teachers had seen his potential, had faith in his recovery. "I can't," he murmured, his voice thick with disbelief. "Not after what I've done."

Stolas took the letter from his hand, scanning the words with a frown. "They understand," he said gently. "They want to help you, Blitz. They believe in you."

The trio establishes a routine of care and companionship, with each member contributing to the household and supporting Blitz's recovery. A surprise delivery brings a lifeline from Blitz's past: an invitation to return to art school. Despite his initial doubt, the gesture from his teachers, who offer understanding and belief in his potential, marks a significant step in Blitz's healing journey and opens new possibilities for his future.

Blitz stared at the camera, his heart racing. He had always loved art, had dreamed of a life where he could create without the burden of his family's expectations or the chaos of his own emotions. The thought of returning to school, of being around people again, was both thrilling and terrifying.

"You should go," Stolas said, his voice gentle. "It's what you've always wanted."

Blitz looked up, his eyes searching Stolas's face. He knew the demon was right—this was the chance he had been dreaming of. But the fear of failure, of letting everyone down again, was a heavy burden. "What if I can't do it?" he whispered.

Stolas took his hand, his thumb tracing comforting circles on the back of it. "You're stronger than you think," he said, his voice firm. "We're all here for you."

Brandon nodded in agreement, his eyes filled with encouragement. "You've come so far," he said. "And we'll be right here, supporting you every step of the way."

With a deep breath, Blitz made his decision. "Okay," he said, his voice steady. "I'll do it."

Their excitement was palpable as they helped him set up the camera, the clicking of the shutter a metaphorical leap into the future. Stolas couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy at the idea of Blitz leaving them for school, but he pushed it aside. This was what Blitz needed, what he deserved.

Despite his fears, Blitz decides to accept the offer to return to art school, driven by the encouragement of Stolas and Brandon. The camera delivery represents a beacon of hope and a chance to pursue his lifelong passion, prompting a significant decision to move forward. The support from his newfound family underscores the depth of their friendship and shared desire for his success.

As the days grew closer to the start of the semester, the house buzzed with a new energy. Blitz was a whirlwind of nerves and excitement, pouring his soul into his art as if it were a lifeline back to the world he had almost lost. Stolas watched him work, marveling at the way the light danced across the canvas, bringing to life the emotions that lay dormant in the demon's heart.

The night before his first day of classes, they gathered around the kitchen table, a map of the school sprawled out before them. Brandon's finger traced the path from their house to the art building, pointing out the quickest routes and the best places to grab coffee. "You've got this," he said, his eyes shining with belief.

Stolas felt his heart clench at the thought of Blitz leaving. "I'll miss you," he admitted, his voice thick with unshed tears.

Blitz looked at him, his expression softening. "I'll miss you too, Stoli," he said, using the old pet name that sent a shiver down Stolas's spine. "But this is a good thing. For all of us."

The first day of school was a blur of nervous excitement. Stolas and Brandon saw Blitz off, their words of encouragement hanging in the air like a protective shield. They watched as he disappeared into the sea of students, his crutches a stark reminder of the journey he had endured. Stolas felt a pang of regret, his wings tightening around his chest.

The trio prepares for Blitz's return to art school, filling the house with excitement and anticipation. Stolas, while feeling a sense of loss, recognizes the importance of this opportunity for Blitz. The moment of departure underscores their growth as a supportive family, with Stolas's use of the pet name "Stoli" hinting at their evolving relationship. The scene at the door captures the tension between fear and hope as they each face the new chapter ahead.

A delivery from Blitz's art school with an invitation to return marks a turning point in his healing. Despite fears, the support from Stolas and Brandon encourages Blitz to accept the offer. The house becomes a flurry of activity as they prepare for this significant step in his life, with Stolas calling him "Stoli," revealing the depth of their bond. Their shared excitement and fear highlight their growth as a family unit.

The house felt eerily quiet without Blitz's boisterous presence, and Stolas found himself wandering the halls, lost in thought. He picked up a paintbrush, the bristles still damp with Blitz's determination, and traced the contours of a forgotten canvas. It was as if he could feel the echoes of their shared past, the love and anger that had once consumed them.

In the kitchen, Brandon brewed a pot of coffee, the aroma a comforting embrace in the stillness. He looked over at Stolas, his eyes filled with understanding. "You know he's going to be okay," he said, his voice soothing.

Stolas nodded, but the doubt lingered. "I know," he murmured, his grip on the paintbrush tight. "But it's hard to let go."

Brandon stepped closer, wrapping an arm around his waist. "You've been his rock through all of this," he said. "He'll be fine. And we'll be here for each other."

Stolas leaned into the warmth of Brandon's embrace, his eyes still on the canvas. "I know," he said, his voice barely above a whisper. "But it's just... different."

Brandon nodded, his hand coming up to rest on Stolas's shoulder. "It is," he agreed. "But different doesn't have to be bad."

In Blitz's absence, the house feels empty, prompting introspection from Stolas. Brandon's comfort highlights the changing dynamics within their relationship. The moment of shared vulnerability and support acknowledges the challenges of change, while also affirming the strength of their bond as they navigate the new landscape of their lives without Blitz's constant presence. The conversation emphasizes growth and the acceptance of the new normal.

The next few months were a whirlwind of change. Blitz threw himself into his art, his passion for creation consuming him in a way that was both exhilarating and exhausting to watch. Stolas and Brandon supported him from the sidelines, attending his art shows and offering gentle criticism and encouragement. The house remained a bastion of their newfound peace, a place where they could be themselves without fear of judgment or repercussion.

But as the days grew shorter and the nights grew colder, the tension between Stolas and Brandon began to simmer beneath the surface. They had always known their feelings for each other were complicated, but with Blitz's departure, the unspoken truth grew louder. They were in love, and it was a love that transcended the boundaries of friendship.

One evening, as they sat in the living room with the warm glow of the fireplace casting shadows on the walls, Brandon took a deep breath. "Stoli," he began, his voice tentative. "I need to talk to you about something."

Stolas looked up from his book, his eyes meeting Brandon's with a mix of curiosity and wariness. "What's up?"

Brandon fidgeted, his hand tracing the edge of the couch cushion. "I've been thinking a lot about us," he began, his voice low. "And I know we've talked about taking things slow, but I... I can't help how I feel."

As Blitz immerses himself in school, the house remains a haven of support and growth. Stolas and Brandon's relationship evolves, with the unspoken truth of their love becoming more apparent. The conversation by the fireplace marks a pivotal moment where Brandon confesses his feelings, pushing the boundaries of their friendship and setting the stage for potential romantic developments within the trio's dynamic.

Stolas set his book aside, his heart racing. He knew what Brandon was trying to say, had felt the same unspoken tension coiling around them like a tightly wound spring. "What are you saying?" he asked, his voice a whisper.

Brandon took a deep breath, his eyes searching Stolas's face. "I'm saying that I love you," he said finally. "And I want us to be more than just friends."

Stolas felt his breath catch in his throat. The words hung in the air, heavy with meaning. He knew that this moment had been a long time coming, but hearing it out loud was like a punch to the gut. He had been so focused on helping Blitz that he had pushed his own feelings aside, afraid of what they might mean.

He looked into Brandon's eyes, searching for any sign of doubt or hesitation. But all he saw was sincerity, a raw vulnerability that made his heart ache. "I love you too," he finally said, the words tumbling out of his mouth in a rush. "More than I thought I could love anyone."

Brandon's smile was like the sun breaking through the clouds. He leaned in, his hand cupping Stolas's cheek, and kissed him softly. It was a kiss filled with promise, with the sweetness of a future that had once seemed so far out of reach. Stolas melted into it, his body responding to the touch of the man he had come to love.

Brandon confesses his love for Stolas, desiring a romantic relationship beyond friendship. Stolas, initially caught off guard, admits his own love. Their mutual confession leads to a tender kiss, signaling a shift in their relationship dynamics and a newfound hope for a future together.

The kiss deepened, their tongues dancing together as they explored the new landscape of their relationship. Stolas felt his wings unfurling, the feathers brushing against Brandon's skin, sending sparks of desire through his body. They pulled away, breathless, their eyes locked.

"We should tell Blitz," Stolas murmured, his voice thick with emotion. "He deserves to know."

Brandon nodded, his thumb tracing the line of Stolas's jaw. "Yeah," he agreed. "But let's give him some time to focus on school first."

Stolas nodded, his hand sliding into Brandon's. "You're right," he said, his voice a gentle whisper. "We don't want to overwhelm him."

The next few weeks were a blur of stolen moments and whispered confessions. They learned each other's rhythms, the way their bodies fit together like pieces of a puzzle that had always been meant to be solved. Stolas had never felt this way before, a fierce love that burned in his chest like a star. And with every touch, every shared glance, he knew that Brandon felt it too.

But the looming shadow of their secret grew heavier with each passing day. They knew they couldn't keep it from Blitz forever, but the timing never felt right. They didn't want to distract him from his studies, from the new life he was building outside the confines of their tumultuous past. So, they waited, their love a quiet flame that grew brighter with every shared smile, every gentle touch.

After confessing their love, Stolas and Brandon share intimate moments, yet decide to keep their new relationship a secret from Blitz to avoid distracting him from his studies. Their bond deepens, but the secret weighs heavily, illustrating the complexities of their evolving family dynamic.

Blitz, for his part, seemed oblivious to the change in the air. His focus was solely on his art, his eyes alight with a passion that had been dulled by their tumultuous history. He talked about his classes, his newfound friends, and the freedom that came with being out from under his family's thumb. Stolas and Brandon listened with pride, their hearts swelling with every victory he shared.

But as the winter months grew closer, the tension between them grew tauter. Stolas knew they couldn't keep their relationship a secret much longer. The guilt of hiding their love from Blitz was eating away at him, especially as they grew closer as friends. They had to tell him, to lay their hearts bare and hope that he would understand.

One night, after Blitz had returned from a particularly grueling day at school, they sat him down in the warmth of the living room. Stolas's wings fluttered nervously, and Brandon's hand found his, offering a silent gesture of support. They took deep breaths, their eyes locked on Blitz's face, which was a canvas of confusion and curiosity.

"What's going on, you guys?" Blitz asked, his voice tinged with weariness.

Stolas took a deep breath, his heart hammering in his chest. "We have something to tell you," he began, his voice shaky. "It's about us. Brandon and me."

Blitz's eyes widened, his expression a mix of surprise and concern. "What is it?" he asked, his gaze flicking between them.

Brandon took the lead, his voice steady. "We've fallen in love," he said, his thumb caressing the back of Stolas's hand. "It's been happening slowly, over the past few months, as we've all been healing and finding our way."

Blitz stared at them, his eyes unblinking. For a moment, the only sound in the room was the crackling of the fireplace. Then, a slow smile spread across his face. "Well, fuck me sideways," he murmured, his eyes shining with something that looked suspiciously like happiness. "I never saw that coming."

Stolas felt his shoulders relax, a weight lifting from his chest. "You're okay with it?" he asked, his voice hopeful.

Blitz leaned back into the couch, a smirk playing on his lips. "Why wouldn't I be?" He chuckled, a warm, genuine sound that filled the room. "You two are perfect for each other. I could see it from the start."

Stolas's eyes widened in shock. "You... you knew?"

Blitz shrugged, his grin growing wider. "I'm not blind, Stoli. Plus, the way you two look at each other, it's like you're sharing a secret the universe is dying to know." He took a sip of his coffee, his eyes never leaving them. "But you guys are happy, right?"

Stolas nodded, his eyes glistening with unshed tears. "More than we've ever been," he admitted.

Brandon leaned in, his voice earnest. "We never wanted to hurt you, Blitz. We just didn't know how to tell you."

Blitz's smile softened, and he reached out to pat Stolas's knee. "I know that," he said, his voice gentle. "And I'm happy for you. Really."

The tension in the room dissipated like smoke, replaced by a warmth that made Stolas's wings flutter with relief. "Thank you," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion.

Blitz leaned forward, his expression serious. "But I need you to promise me one thing," he said, his eyes piercing through the haze of their confession.

Stolas and Brandon exchanged a nervous glance. "What's that?" Brandon asked, his voice a soft murmur.

Blitz's eyes searched their faces, his expression earnest. "Promise me that you'll never forget what we had," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "The good, the bad, it's all a part of who we are. And I don't want any of us to lose that."

Stolas and Brandon nodded in unison, the gravity of Blitz's words settling in their hearts. They knew that their past was a tangled web of love, anger, and regret, but it had shaped them into the beings they were today. They had all suffered, grown, and learned from their experiences, and their friendship was the strongest it had ever been.

"We promise," Stolas said, his voice thick with emotion. "We'll always cherish the memories we've shared, good and bad. They've made us who we are."

Brandon squeezed Stolas's hand, and the demon felt the truth of his words resonate within him. Their past had been a tumultuous rollercoaster, but it had led them to this moment—to a place of healing and growth.

"But what about us?" Stolas asked, his voice tentative. "Where do we go from here?"

Blitz's smile remained, but his eyes grew thoughtful. "Well, we're still friends, right?" He took a deep breath. "I think we need to figure out what that looks like now. We can't go back to the way things were, but we can move forward. Together."

They sat in silence for a moment, the crackling fire the only sound in the room. Then, as if a dam had broken, words began to spill from their lips—memories of the past, hopes for the future, fears and insecurities laid bare. They talked until the early hours of the morning, their hearts open and raw with the weight of their confessions.

As the embers of the fire began to die down, Brandon spoke up, his voice filled with a newfound resolve. "We can make this work," he said, his eyes shining with determination. "We're stronger together than we ever were apart."

Stolas nodded, his gaze moving between Blitz and Brandon. "We're a family," he said firmly. "No matter what happens, we're in this together."

Blitz's eyes sparkled with unshed tears. "Alright," he murmured, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "A family it is."

The weeks that followed were a delicate dance of redefining their dynamics. They were no longer just roommates, but a trio bound by love, friendship, and a shared history that was as complex as it was painful. Stolas and Brandon grew more open with their affection, their touches and gestures a silent declaration of their newfound relationship status. Yet, they remained acutely aware of Blitz's feelings, ensuring that their love didn't overshadow the friendship that had been the foundation of their unconventional bond.

Blitz, for his part, threw himself into his art with renewed vigor. The scent of fresh paint and the scraping of palette knives against canvas filled the house, a constant reminder of the healing power of creation. He painted with a frenzy that both Stolas and Brandon found mesmerizing, his brushstrokes speaking volumes about his tumultuous journey. His pieces grew bolder, more vivid, and the pain that had once been so palpable in his work began to give way to something more profound—a sense of rebirth.

Stolas watched from the sidelines, his heart swelling with pride. He knew that Blitz was still navigating the choppy waters of his emotions, but he saw the growth, the way the demon was slowly letting go of the anger and hurt that had defined him for so long. And as he watched Blitz, he felt a newfound sense of purpose. He had always loved the idea of a family, but now, with Brandon by his side, he saw the possibility of it becoming a reality.

One evening, as Blitz worked on a particularly intense piece, Stolas approached him, a tentative smile on his face. "Hey," he said softly, not wanting to disturb the artist's flow. "Can I see?"

Blitz stepped back, his expression a mix of pride and vulnerability. "It's not finished," he warned, but the way his eyes searched Stolas's face told the demon he was eager for feedback.

Stolas nodded, his wings fluttering with excitement as he stepped closer. The painting was a whirlwind of color and emotion, a stark contrast to the darkness that had once dominated Blitz's work. It was a self-portrait, but instead of the usual snarling, feral demon, there was a softness to the features, a hint of peace in the eyes that hadn't been there before. "It's beautiful," Stolas murmured, the truth of his words resonating through him.

Blitz looked at him, his expression unreadable. "Thanks," he said, his voice gruff. "It's... different."

Stolas reached out, his hand hovering over the canvas. "It's a reflection of where you are now," he said, his eyes never leaving Blitz's. "You're growing, Blitz. We all are."

Blitz nodded, his eyes never leaving the painting. "I know," he murmured. "It's just... scary. Change is scary."

Stolas took a deep breath, his hand landing gently on Blitz's shoulder. "We're all here for you," he said. "We're in this together."

Brandon, who had been quietly observing from the doorway, stepped into the room, his presence a comforting warmth. "And we're not going anywhere," he added, his voice firm.

Blitz's gaze flicked to Brandon, and for a moment, Stolas saw the ghost of their past, the hurt and betrayal that had once driven them apart. But then Blitz took a deep breath, and the moment passed. "Thanks, guys," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

The three of them stood there, their eyes locked in a silent understanding. They had come so far, endured so much, and yet here they were—still standing, still fighting for a future filled with hope and love.

As the nights grew colder and the days shorter, the house grew more alive with the warmth of their shared experiences. They laughed together, cried together, and supported each other's dreams. Stolas watched as Brandon and Blitz grew closer, not as lovers, but as brothers. It was a bond he had never thought possible, but now it was as solid as the foundation of their home.

One particularly dreary afternoon, Stolas found Blitz sitting by the window, his eyes distant. "What's up?" Stolas asked, his voice soft.

Blitz sighed, his gaze still out the window. "Just thinking," he murmured. "I got an email from the school today. They're having an exhibition, and they want me to submit some of my work."

Stolas's heart swelled with excitement. "That's amazing, Blitz!" He knew how much art meant to the demon, how it was his lifeblood, his way of making sense of the chaos inside him. "You should totally do it."

Blitz's eyes searched Stolas's face, looking for reassurance. "Do you think I'm ready?"

Stolas's smile was unwavering. "You're more than ready. Your art is... it's incredible. The world deserves to see it."

The room was filled with the sound of Blitz's shaky exhale. "Okay," he said finally, turning back to the canvas before him. "I'll do it."

Stolas felt a surge of pride. "That's the spirit," he said, clapping Blitz on the back. "We'll all go to the exhibition together. It'll be a celebration of how far you've come."

The days leading up to the exhibition were a flurry of activity. Blitz worked tirelessly on his pieces, fueled by a mix of excitement and nerves. Stolas and Brandon did their part, offering help where they could and giving Blitz the space he needed to create. The house was a symphony of creativity, with paint splattered on the floor and canvas strewn across every available surface.

On the night of the exhibition, the trio stood before the mirror, each dressed to the nines. Stolas's tail swished anxiously as he straightened Brandon's tie, while Brandon checked Blitz's attire. They looked like a well-oiled machine, each one playing their role in the grand performance of their newfound life together.

The gallery was a cacophony of voices and color when they arrived. Stolas felt his heart race as he took in the sea of unfamiliar faces, each one a potential critic of Blitz's soul-baring art. But as they approached the section dedicated to Blitz's work, the chatter grew quieter, replaced by a sense of reverence.

The paintings on the wall were a testament to his growth, each one a snapshot of his journey from anger to acceptance. The vibrant colors and powerful brushstrokes spoke louder than any words could. Stolas felt his chest swell with pride as he watched Blitz's eyes dart around the room, searching for their reactions.

Brandon's hand found Stolas's, their fingers intertwining as they moved closer to the first piece. It was a portrait of the two of them, their faces illuminated by the soft glow of the fireplace, a scene from one of their many quiet nights together. Stolas felt his heart clench at the raw emotion in every detail—the love in Brandon's eyes, the understanding in his own.

As they moved through the exhibition, they saw their lives reflected back at them through Blitz's art. The pain, the anger, the love—it was all there, a visual diary of their journey from hell to something that resembled a home. Each piece was a story, a testament to their resilience and the bonds that had formed between them.

The attendees whispered, their eyes drawn to the raw emotion that poured from the canvases. Stolas felt his cheeks heat up as he heard snippets of their conversations, praising the honesty and depth of Blitz's work. They talked about the transformation, the way the art spoke to them, and for the first time in his life, Stolas felt truly seen.

As they reached the final piece, a sculpture of all three of them standing together, Stolas couldn't hold back his tears. It was perfect, a tangible representation of their journey from hell to this moment of hope. Blitz had captured the strength in Brandon's arms as he held them both, the love in Stolas's eyes as he looked up at him, and the newfound peace in his own expression.

"It's... it's us," Stolas managed to choke out, his voice thick with emotion.

Brandon's hand tightened around his, and Stolas knew that he was feeling the same overwhelming wave of pride and awe. The sculpture was a masterpiece, a three-dimensional representation of their tumultuous journey that somehow managed to encapsulate the love and hope that had emerged from the ashes.

The night of the exhibition was a blur of handshakes, compliments, and questions about their unusual living situation. Blitz fielded them with a mix of his trademark sarcasm and a surprising openness, his cheeks flushing with pleasure at the genuine praise for his art. Stolas and Brandon hovered nearby, a silent support system that seemed to bolster Blitz's confidence with every shared smile and gentle touch.

As the evening drew to a close, the three of them found themselves standing before the sculpture once again. Blitz's hand hovered over the outstretched wing of the Stolas figure, his eyes shimmering with unshed tears. "This," he said, his voice choked with emotion, "this is what I want to remember."

Stolas stepped closer, his own eyes misty. "We'll always be here for you," he promised, his hand covering Blitz's. "No matter what."

Brandon wrapped an arm around both of them, his eyes shining with love. "We're in this together," he said, his voice firm. "Always."

The exhibition was a success, the three of them leaving the gallery with a sense of accomplishment and a newfound understanding of their place in the world. They had faced their demons, both literally and figuratively, and come out the other side stronger. The art had not only been a reflection of their past but a beacon of hope for their future.

[starcollectorsilas]

this is just a little yap because I don't know really who to talk to about something like this so I'm screaming into the void instead, feel free to ignore <3

today i finally got pain medication that should help with the chronic pain I've been dealing with for roughly three years. I'm very obviously not upset about that fact, I am incredibly relieved actually and I'm really excited to see how I feel tomorrow after it hopefully begins to take affect.

However, this just feels very anti-climactic. I'm unsure how to word it (hence my unusually pretentious way of wording my sentences, I think it's a defence mechanism in response to the vulnerability-- detaching myself through the use of formal language), but it feels as though there should be... more?

I think this is rooted in a few different places, somewhere between the sense of loneliness I have yet to address since my mum moved out, and my need to prove that I am actually sick. Usually through every step of this my mother has been there, not neccassarily to 'hold my hand', as I first thought to put it, but as an observer. She was at least there for it. Through all the things I have tried.

Now, it's just like it's a normal night. I've talked about it a lot, persistent in my attempts to share how excited/nervous I am out the possibility of what a new medication may cause-- both in terms of pain relief and in terms of side affects and how my mental health may improve/worsen (at least if it worsens y'all can get some of the GOOD Dazai angst lmao) as a result.

But everyone else has something more important to do. It feels childish to ask my dad to just sit with me while I take it, I'm 15 so I should be able to do this by myself but there's just nobody there. Nobody's here while I try it, nobody will be there if it makes me feel sick or tired and I doubt I'll be asked how I feel in the morning. It goes past the medication, deeper than I could ever hope to pick apart in a tumblr vent post but this just to happens to be the catalyst for all the Feelings to start building up. I don't want to call my mother so she can sit on the other end of a phone line not paying attention for three minutes while I take medication that really isn't a big deal to anyone but me.

There's just normally somebody there and there isn't this time. There hasn't been for more than a year now but it's just different this time. Uhmmm anyway vent over I am now going to stop being a baby and take my meds 👍 I'm going to have some apple juice with them :3

[yennefer-of-vengerbergs]

Rant under the cut, just because i need to get this out of my system 😖Feel free to ignore if you want.

I'm tired. I've tried so much to keep a positive attitude about my writing, trying to improve on my own, trying to appreciate what little notes on here and hits on ao3 I got, but I'm so tired of spending so days or weeks writing and editing something only for it to ultimately flop and be ignored. It's why I took a break from it. But then I decided to start writing again, even trying my hand at a longfic. I was so genuinely excited to start writing it and actually finish and post the first chapter for it. I was so damn hopeful that maybe this time, I'd hear something about it from someone. And it just...fizzled out. No comments. Barely any hits. I appreciate the lone like on here and the single bookmark it got on ao3, but I still feel like shit. It's so discouraging to spend time and effort on something, only for it to - as far as I can tell - go ignored. I have no idea what I'm doing wrong here. Is my writing that bad? Am I just posting at the wrong times? I've tried mornings, I've tried afternoons, early evenings, late nights, nothing works, it's always the same, no feedback, no comments, maybe some hits and likes, but other than that, it just feels like I'm throwing these fics into the void. Don't get me wrong, I'm not expecting to be showered in praise for everything I write by everyone who sees it even in passing, I'm perfectly aware that my writing isn't the best out there, but I'd like to think it's not THAT bad. Still, it goes completely ignored most of the times. I can accept that for my oneshots, they weren't as developed, what with them having a named character, with a specific background and people just won't be familiar with whatever went through my mind for them. But that first chapter of my longfic? I was genuinely proud of it. I have so many ideas for that fic that I wanted to share and talk about. I do want to write down all the stuff I came up with for my oc, I want my writing to improve, I want to develop my oc as much as possible and I want a whole lot more for this fic than for it to just be as dead as it is at the moment. I know it's only the first chapter, and that maybe it can still change if I continue to update it, but I can't help but feel discouraged and sad because of how things started off for it (and just how it's always been for my writing). How am I even supposed to improve anything, if nobody comments or gives any feedback? How am I supposed to know if anyone even likes the ideas I have? And how the hell am I supposed to know if it's even worth writing and sharing it in the first place, if I can't even know if anyone is actually reading it? It's bad enough I have an absolutely thankless job where nobody bothers to say something as basic as good job to me, no they just throw more work towards me, but to start to feel that same (or at least similar) way about something that's a hobby? That's supposed to be my moment of escapism? It sucks. It sucks and I hate it and I don't even know what to do anymore. I just know that I don't like this lack of interaction at all and it makes me feel like shit and today was the worst for it (it's genuinely been on my mind all day and even had me tearing up on and off since I saw the lack of notes and barely any hits and the no comments this morning, that's how bad it's gotten). I honestly wish it didn't affect me this much, but it does.

I don't know. Maybe I should just lower my expectations more than they already were. Maybe I should just quit writing altogether. Or at least stop posting and just keep it for myself. In any case, it's a horrible feeling.

😞

[boboteam]

This may contain Saha and Rebirth arc spoilers as well as the Day of Transcending Finality arc, read w caution!

This is a very sudden thing to post at 3am but am I the only one to genuinely feel surprised when people say that Senti's writing is "nulled down to a point of comedy relief"? There is a clear difference between just a comedy relief character who has no specific lore or traits, worries assigned to them / their lore is completely ignored in the story, and a character who is a comedy relief one BUT they still have unique traits and even worries shown throughout their actions and words. And Senti is EXACTLY that.

Take even the Saha and Rebirth arc. God did she make some of the moments in the chapter the funniest (but damn it was so needed throughout all the stress built up tbh) and not to mention the fact just how much of an impact she made on the story. Sure, she may not have done something outright crazy good, but as some examples :

She DID help with the connecting the anchor points bullshit, SHE was the one to actually head-on transfer Vita to her sentience space and launch a technical counter-attack on her, ALSO delaying Vita??? Sure it may not have changed that much but the fact itself?? Also the fact that she was the one to comfort Veliona when she was worried about Selee even willing to go to such lenghts as telling her the technical "limit" of sentience?

And if we talk about worries, do you not also see through the fact that she is genuinely worried about Hua during the arc? The fact that she pretends not to care yet she still helps others throughout the arc? And are we NOT going to talk about the moment when she technically finally got her own body? I think it's goddamn UNDERAPPRECIATED because she had been dealing with an existential crisis for so long, and despite not seeming to care as much anymore and moving on, she still had an internal conflict as literally described in the chapter. With herself. There has been a lot of metaphors and it's so mind blowing. And I quote :

You saw "you" being eaten away by the void that symbolized death. You saw "your" efforts destroyed by the light that obliterated all things. You saw "you" sunk into the darkness untill you heard rain.

Then who am "I" now?

End quote.

Is that not literal self conflict to you?? It is both describing the process of technical "revival" from Selee's power, AND Senti's conflicting thoughts. This was such a big moment to me that I almost cried?? And YET

She still made the arc funny, she still had a lot of moments where her comedic side shined, god there is even something funny about being so self-righteous and (although only seemingly, sometimes) sure of herself. Even during the fighting. Even during the explanation of all the difficult stuff from the arc. Even the "all hail the Herrscher of Sentience!" moment. Yet this arc balances all the worries and topics of hers pretty much perfectly.

That is without even covering THE FINALITY ARC which honestly the fight with Kiana LITERALLY speaks for itself, girl had so much piled up on her mind since that battle methinks. And we won't even mention the Kevin fight and just HOW MUCH she helped and to WHAT LENGHTS she would go. The talk they had during AND AFTER the fight is so. How could you ignore it. She def wasn't just a comedy relief in that arc despite still being VERY funny here and there.

And I am not going to talk about how she manages to seem to have worries even in the goofy shenzhou spring festival, with basically her just wanting recognition but ending up in a misunderstanding and then giving everyone a chance to enjoy a good festival, although it might seem like a far strectch which I would aggree on.

But yeah. I had to ramble. Thanks to anyone who decided to read this! Feel free to share any thoughts or correct me <3

[srk8t]

hi, this is not something that i usually post, but I'd like to get it off from my chest since ive kept this for quite a long time and talking it on tumblr is my only hope to do so.

please don't stop talking about Palestine.

no matter where I go, what social media that i use, there are always consistently something that has been preventing me and thousands of others from speaking out our voices, and to my surprise, even ROBLOX. FUCKING ROBLOX. IS A VICTIM OF THIS.

STOP SILENCING OUR VOICES. STOP LYING TO THE PEOPLE FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR PATHETIC BLOOD MONEY WHEN INNOCENT CIVILIANS AND LOVING MOTHERS HAVE SUFFERED IN THIS GENOCIDE.

thousands and hundreds of money wasted for the sake of war instead of using it to help the homeless and those who are in need. Do you think the world is a big stage for you to sit down in your air conditioned room while crossing your legs on the couch, while watching others suffer?

I have never been more UPSET to see how selfish and brutal these "people" are, calling palestinians "human animals" and saying they are savages while hamas are terrorists when theyve released hostages, and have done nothing but be nice to the said hostages. WHILE THE WHITE AND BLUE STATE REFUSES TO TAKE THE SAID HOSTAGES BACK.

I am unable to speak with such anger and show my frustrations elsewhere, as that'll only result in my socials being banned or shadow banned. I've seen this story play itself out more times than one might assume, as i observed from afar just to see what people all around the world treat muslims and islam itself. It is different, I grew up in a country where a vast majority are muslims while other religions can peacefully coexist.

I grew up hearing about palestine and gaza ever since I was in elementary school. Malaysia has tried to speak upon this but perhaps at that time, people just didn't care enough or, our voices were silenced.

I've seen white men fighting against defenseless nations. I've seen westerners blaming how islam teaches its followers horrible things. I've seen americans calling countless muslims as terrorists. But i have yet to see anyone, LITERALLY anyone calling the one who is in the wrong the actual terroist.

"I'm not educated enough to talk about this!"

THEN EDUCATE YOURSELF.

"This doesn't affect me"

THEN EDUCATE YOURSELF.

"Both are in the wrong and it has nothing to do with me nor my country"

If you as human are willing to defend genocide and "stay neutral", you are a coward to wake up and face reality. You called us terrorists as if it's a word that can easily be used whenever you like. And why again, are these white supremacists fighting against people who have no army and are defenseless in power? Is it perhaps they as well are afraid if they go for a bigger target who has the same, equal power as them?

THIS IS A PUBLIC GENOCIDE, THEY WANT TO WIPE PALESTINE OFF THE MAP. EDUCATE YOURSELF.

I've seen a loooot of isnotreal dick riders, and willing to go on lengths of texts just to justify genocide... do you get paid to do so? do you feel a sense of relief by wasting your time instead of doing something more useful and educational? Or are you turning a blind eye to the real problem? Your eyes are clear as skies, but your heart is an empty void of ignorance.

I am tired of staying silent for long. How many lives would it take until it will make people finally be aware? Once a colonizer, you are always a colonizer. From the river to the sea, palestine will be free. I was a young and clueless girl when i first heard this story. But I've grown and learned the hard ways of life and its rules. this time, i will not stay silent.

this time, i will not let my voice go unspoken

and this time, i will keep on fighting and spread awareness about palestine and the thousands of years that they have suffered.

If you burn, you'll burn with us.

[pomefioredove]

hello hello miss dove ! congratulations on your 500 followers :)

if it's convenient for you, could i please exclude lilia and trey (not to be rude to them i just don't like trey and lilia is an old man basically)

i'm not the best with describing myself but i'll try (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

on the mbti personality test, i am an istp, so from that, i would guess that i'm pretty blunt? idk. i can't really handle situations well, so i practically just go into blunt blank slate mode where i'm just like "you do you ig"

when in the case i am handling the situation with mild proficiency or i like the subject, i can seem quite energized. i always move may hands around or am jumping (i think is how you would describe it? idk, sort of similar to when you're going like |┘^^|┘but up and down and also bouncing like wawawawa)

i am however, easily distracted and procrastinate often. it's not like i do it on purpose but things get boring and i want to do other things but i feel a moral obligations to do the boring things and then i get stuck in that cycle for half an hour (i'm not sure shy, i was told adhd but i'm not diagnosed) i still get straight A though (my mom says i was a stem kid (science technology engineering math))

i <333 sleep but sleep with another person in close proximity is a no no. personal space please and thank you

physical contact?? in theory yes, but actually no

sleep <3

lyney and furina?? i am literally a star trust i am furina and lyney combined that got isekaid to this world (trust)

interest (romance wise)? lyney <3

i am talking too much about myself im sorry

i enjoy video games (too much) like genshin, hsr, twst(trust) pjsk or visual novels, and I have a nice little kirara box from genshin that i made ^^ i like collecting things that i like (cute stuff), watching anime that interest me (cooking anime <3) and food, because food is good, but if i eat too much food i will feel ＞︿＜ and i don't like feeling nasty. baked goods taste good but not too sweet or else the nasty forms. i can also play instruments !! (violin, contrabass, piano, currently semi-learning viola and cello, i can hold a flute correctly)

sadly i get sick all of the time (my friends have said "you have no immune system" or "sickly victorian child" exact words) but that's a lie im too good to get sick (not real)

i almost had a black belt in taekwondo but i didn't like taekwondo so i left (also covid happened but that's not important)

should i also describe myself? i will, but please ignore this bit if you don't need it

im not tall, but not incredibly short (~160cm) i've been told that i have pretty eyes (hazel) but me personally i just think that they look like standard eyes, they do their job well enough (they are not good at their job my eyes cannot see and i need glasses (contacts are scary)) i have very dark black hair that fades into, you guessed it, dark dark brown hair. (my mom once described it as soft black but idk) its styled like gaming's hair from genshin but a little bit longer (i like to think i look very neutral but i look like a female)

my lifestyle i think is pretty normal. i go to school, go to weekly math or coding club, go home and do work, p r o c r a s t i n a t e, sleep repeat until weekend where i life is a void of forgetfulness and then FUWUASHSH!! monday again. in my free time i do enjoy occasionally baking and traveling (japan !!)

oh no its long i'm sorry i rambled on too much :( please don't take this request if you are too busy i don't want you to feel overwhelmed. if you do want to write for this, then i will be dutifully watchin your posts to see anything familiar (‘-‘*ゞ i'm sorry if everything in this request sounds weird, i am not good with my english. please take care of yourself and have a great happy awesome super delicous wonderhoy day !!

-person who loves your work

I match you with 𝐒𝐞𝐛𝐞𝐤 𝐙𝐢𝐠𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐭

The First Impression:

Sebek is... Sebek. He can be a little hard to get through to at times, even if his core intentions are good. And he doesn't exactly leave a good impression on a lot of people... not that he means to. Perhaps it's your bluntness, or your nonchalant attitude towards him, but for whatever reason, he doesn't immediately write you off.

Why He Fell:

You guys will kill me for this but Sebek is a little cutie. A little fanboy. He's also jumping up and down like wawawawa when he gets excited. He has a lot of growing to do, but if there's anything admirable about him, it's that once you're close to him, he will care about you forever. (Whether he'd like to admit that or not).

Though, truly, he admires you. You're obviously intelligent, you're honest (AKA blunt, but so is he), you have experience in martial arts... somehow, he finds himself watching his tone more around you, and shelving his boisterous, over-confident persona.

The Relationship:

No touching, no problem. Sebek is already getting used to this whole "dating" thing (not that he can't handle being eternally devoted to another person... look at the guy), and he might even breathe a sigh of relief when you say you don't have to sleep in the same bed.

Sebek is... protective, and that's an understatement. He loves people fiercely, and isn't shy about it. You can expect lots of attention and worry and care, especially as someone who gets sick a lot. He will insist on doing everything for you. He'll make an attempt to keep you on task when you need it, too, though he might not be as great at preventing you from overexerting yourself (as he is with himself!)

[dearweirdme]

https://www.tumblr.com/dearweirdme/734431102987616256/httpswwwtumblrcomdearweirdme7343672393625272

“As for jk's recent live, there's not even a hint of him missing anyone there.”

you and the anon both failed to remember that jimin had a music shoe performance not even 10 hours later so jk's case couldn't be helped. and he DID say he missed jimin (to the anon) just before he started the live he replied to jimin's "i miss you" post with "me too". and the very next day jimin went live after his music show performance ended and jk very eagerly tried inviting him over for food and asked to come see him. from a jkk's perspective, it makes total sense that workaholic jimin didn't focus on anything other than his solo debut during that time and so jk was barely seeing him and was missing him. it's really not that deep and not 'unhealthy' as tkkrs like to say. it's VERY healthy for partners to take breaks from each other especially if it's to focus on work. had jk been working too then he wouldn't have felt the void as much as he did, but he had too much free time on his hand and he barely saw jimin who was busy as hell.

and jimin made his boundaries when it comes to work very clear when he told jk (during the bed live) that he'd only come see him when his promotions has ended. jimin likes his space when he works and he likes for jk to do the same.

Hi again anon!

I seriously cannot believe I have to explain this. Jimin’s comment on weverse ‘I miss you’ was for army… Jk’s comment on that ‘me too’ was also for army.. like, how do you not get that? How do you make a public comment on them missing army about them missing each other? How 🤯?!

The way you explain their relationship does not actually make sense anon. You make it seem as though Jk had no time for Jk at all during the period he worked on Face and the promotions he did afterwards.. that is just not realistic anon. Sure he was super busy, and knowing Jm he took it super seriously and he put in way more work and practice than necessary. But, he would still have had to sleep and to eat and I think he probably would have been able to schedule in some downtime at times. And Jk wasn’t actually doing much around that time, so he would have been able to just go to him whenever it suited Jm best. Even from a Jkk perspective I’d say it’s weird. Why would Jm not want Jk ‘the love of his life” there with him? Does he not need support? Why were Yoongi and Hobi with him but not Jk?

What you describe does not seem healthy to me. What would be healthy, is Jm going around his business and Jk just doing his thing. But you describe a Jk who cannot deal with being without Jm. You describe a Jm who places his work above his partner for an extended period of time. Being apart from your partner is normal, but it’s the way you cope when you’re apart that also matters. You paint Jk as a lovesick, unable to deal, begging for attention person, and Jimin is the one who holds all the rights to decide when they meet.

But, as I also said (and which you ignored) Jk wasn’t sad and upset during that live.

I see you have also completely misread the ‘ in bed live’ which was banter.

You are correct though about Jm not making time for Jk and that he put his work before meeting up with him. I think they did indeed not see each other much for a longer time, and very little inbetween. It did not effect Jk the way you think it did though. Jk was not pining away in his home waiting for Jm. Jk was going through a bit of a rough time of his own. Feeling weird from not being busy as a group. Feeling weird from having a lot of free time. Feeling weird from not knowing what to do musically. Feeling weird because all he’s known for the last ten years had changed. Not everything is about relationships anon. Losing the ‘normalcy’ of your everyday life is very drastic and I think (if you allowed yourself to actually listen to Jk talk) you can really notice how Jk has been going through a bit of a personal journey.

Now I know what you all do is talk about this, and you all make yourself believe that what ‘happened’ between Jk and Jk ia totally normal and they’re still the same (which is actually true 😂), but if you think of them in a relationship then the whole last year does not make any sense. Please leave out all your number theories for a bit and truly look at what’s left.

[blackthorn-legion-irl]

welcome to Team Mall Santas Save The World i guess.

//picrew source link

yeah if angy's gonna make me dress up i'm at LEAST taking a photo of him being a mall santa too. and pixie's just vibing. (i swear if people just try and flirt with him. simon started as a joke and it's. actually kinda funny but---)

anyway. tl;dr i've gotta be on this job for a while. it's a long story, but i won't be online as much for... about a month if i'm guessing? i'll probably be on for least a bit every day, so i can get to messages and pings and stuff in okay time, but can't guarantee much else... probably will just queue some cute stuff when i see it.

so uh. yeah. stay safe out there, if you need anything that's not time-sensitive (or is something i can just run in the background) let me know, all that sorta thing.

//ooc under the cut

so this is an ic explanation for me not being around much for the next month. ooc i'm going on holiday and visiting my partner but blackthorn's aroace so get wrecked she has to dress as a reindeer B) i can post a more detailed ic explanation if asked, but since this is an overall explanatory post i want to make it also be viable for people who ignore multiversal stuff (pixie can easily just be her name and the wings dress-up so)

i'll probably be /technically/ online a lot more than she is, but not necessarily responsive. i don't know if tumblr says you're online if you have the tab open but haven't touched it in a bit, so if you need an answer to something more urgently feel free to drop me a dm on the main @demifiendcruithne since i'll be more likely to be checking in on there, or on discord if you got me

some preemptive approval for 'hey i talked to blackthorn and got this going' interactions, only request is that you do ping me in the post so i see it

basic talking to a friend about issues to try and work through it if there's no one around to or you'd rather not RP it with someone

basic hacking requests so long as they fit her ethics (for example, tracking down people causing Actual Trouble / who are lost, or getting dirt to blackmail the cops)

any hacking requests from the following people as we've interacted enough that they'd know if it fits, this includes 'hey could you help out my friend' even if i don't know said friend:

· · anyone involved in taskforce distortion (including pyrite and topaz even though they're not members just hang out in the chat)

· · any member of the pokemart household (ESPECIALLY if it involves rescuing nya)

· · sprite, indigo, kittsu (since we hung out. void and andrea OK too)

· · i am probably forgetting people and i am sorry about that. if you ask something and i'm like 'oh yeah i thought you were on the list' consider yourself on it

legion interactions: requesting things such as: homemade bread and soup, cooling pads, baby poochy pictures; dimensional travellers stopping by if they need somewhere to rest (this explicitly includes nya. yes you can mention hecking with simon)

probably more i'm overlooking, but - if it's not 'i need this immediately' then i should get to it within the day with an answer, and if it is urgent and within both ethics and capabilities then i'll be okay with it. magic anons are off for the duration; pelipper mail is still on though (sorry whoever sent the switcheroo one. i will get to it eventually...)

stay safe, happy whichever holidays you may celebrate, if you have to deal with heckers for relatives may someone blow an airhorn every time they say something stupid.

[callofdudes]

Is it okay if i share a lil rant? If not then feel free to ignore this!

So lately on twitter (X) there has been numerous commentaries/complaints from the same account named makarovmw or just Владимир Макаров as in user. They're essentially a porn addict like account that has been going around on multiple posts that sometimes talk about GhostSoap, their interpreted sexualities by various fans and this person has just been unhinged to say that least, arguing with others because they deem that 99% of the fanbase is all about GhostSoap, and how there is a lack of erotic sexy Ghost x Female OCs/YNs/readers. They essentially blame and insult people by calling them out that "just because I don't like Ghost x male doesn't mean i are homophobic" as per their words, whereas the understones they've been going on with their consistent whining gives me the exact opposite idea. Don't get me wrong i am a massive GhostSoap lover AND i also enjoy pairing Ghost with fem OCs and readers but i never went out of my way harassing and demanding that people bring out more Ghost x fem content, this porn addict of a person takes it to another level really. But the moment they said that Ghost would look hot with Milena all just to spite Soap i stopped taking them seriously. 😭

Hope this ain't too much but yeah, beware of some CoD "fans" y'all, they'll attack you unprovoked and unwarranted.

Ah yes, I believe I saw the post about what they said with Milena. And honestly I just hate it. Porn in and of itself has caused massive problems for both genders. Massive, massive problems.

I was around the fandom when GhostSoap was just a little ship and it wasn't as terribly hyped as it is now, but new people in the fandom are just... What the fuck.

I enjoy GhostSoap, but demanding work (as it sounds) from people or getting mad they can't find some very specific thing to get off to that no one else wants to make.

The way the brain works when people get deep into porn, or even just surface level, is they find something that interests them. Whatever that may be. And they stick with that for a bit until that same thing gets boring and they look for something else they could deam as exciting. It's really just a bottomless pit of sadness and it ruins a lot of lives.

Which consequently, when they get to the place where they need really taboo, lower produced things to stimulate them, they start to act like this. Getting angry and frustrating and demanding because there's one specific little thing that no one wants to do but they just need something. So they'll explode about it and make their predicament everyone's problem.

Now, some people are just assholes, this person is both. But porn has truly ruined us and ruins the brain.

Coming out in relationships as well where porn addicts have to think about something they watched when being with a partner because they can't be stimulated by regular passion and love. It's all lust and comes out in the form of anger and frustration when they can't act like a normal human being anymore.

If that person is looking for crazy stuff they shouldn't be going around Twitter (X) harassing people about it.

So yeah, those are kind of my whole thoughts. People are crazy and when it comes to things like this, the chronically being online and porn are to blame.

People don't get consequences on the Internet as much so they think they can do whatever they want. And artists putting their beautiful work of what they want to create out into the world does not mean that anyone other than themselves or someone commissioning them is entitled to their time and their resources.

Also, don't feel afraid to come rant, I also want to scream into the void like this but ranting to people sometimes gets it out nicely.

Keep supporting artists and don't be psychos ghostsoapers ♥️

[mdhwrites]

10 Years In And My Biggest Mistake As a Writer

I let my writing fear the void all of me is terrified of.

This isn't going to be a fun one about cancelled works or bad ideas. This is your reminder that I've been a writer for ten years. I've been in therapy for 8 3/4s and depressed for roughly half a year before that. But if I look upon the failures of me as a writer, especially with how I am now, it's kind of impossible to ignore.

I fear silence in all things. I compulsively check everywhere I post when I post because my brain is terrified of having done something wrong. For this to be when I lose everything because of a mistake. It perceives everything I do as a mistake waiting to collapse in on itself. I have Avoidant Personality Disorder and that's just kind of a part of that. I am a MUCH more scared person than I probably come across as in these blogs.

With my writing though... The only fanfics I've written since getting on Ao3, with the exception of one I want to convert still, I haven't posted are because I have to brace myself when I post my works and for these works, I just never found the strength despite liking them. It was so bad at one point that I would be in essentially meltdown mode for an entire day after posting something because of the standards my brain had for what should be a success. What even could be a success. What meant that the work had not been thrown into the void.

What meant the time had not been a waste and only done more damage. And yes, this has affected my content. I've talked in my Discord about how it's MUCH harder for me to even consider writing erotica because that's not the audience I have. I know if I made a big erotic work again and was really open about it, pushed it like my other books, I would lose a not insignificant amount of people with 'NSFW DNI' in their bios. The silence I'd get is almost as terrifying as the backlash I'd potentially get, even if I have ALWAYS had this twin nature to my writing.

So how do I ever fight that? Well... Essentially with manic energy. I have described most of my books as having been written in sprints. These periods where an idea is so strong in my head that it fills the void. I don't hear it because ALL of my being needs to be working on the project. I have trouble doing literally anything else and just work and work until the story is done. Of course, any crack during these time periods becomes MUCH worse as it's holding back the void, not eliminating it. My worst nights always come when I'm manic.

And in terms of my analytical blogs, well... There's a reason I do TOH mostly. I can get emotional enough talking about TOH that even if it doesn't always come across in the blog, that annoyance and anger manages to block out the void as well. To help me remember that I know what I'm talking about and can do something with that fact, just like I know I'm a good writer who people enjoy when my inspiration for a story takes hold. But have you ever wondered why I don't do more blogs for Star Rail? I just feel so much more uncertain, for a lot of reasons, when it comes to my opinions with that game and don't usually have the fervor to help coalesce those into something more concrete or strong enough to get on the page without panicking and shelving it.

And I want to make something clear about all of this: It is good to understand your audience. It's good to be open and inviting to criticism so as to make yourself better at what you do. You shouldn't let that make you afraid to do what you want to do. You should meet your creative passions with the enthusiasm of a fanfic writer just wanting to explore the thing they love, regardless of reaction or attention or reward. You should be happy to be cringe in your creation as that will set you free.

I just wish I knew how to make it so my mind could accept that wisdom instead of saying, "Okay but not for you."

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I have a public Discord for any and all who want to join!

I also have an Amazon page for all of my original works in various forms of character focused romances from cute, teenage romance to erotica series of my past. I have an Ao3 for my fanfiction projects as well if that catches your fancy instead. If you want to hang out with me, I stream from time to time and love to chat with chat.

A Twitter you can follow too

And a Kofi if you like what I do and want to help out with the fact that disability doesn’t pay much.