#feel free to ignore this incoherent rambling

[cygnusposts]

not to rant about AI again but it's just genuinely sort of exhausting sometimes. I struggle with writing a lot, and an AI could do it in, like, five seconds. But it wouldn't even be good. I genuinely don't understand the point sometimes. Ignoring the ethics of it, if I have to put in just as much work getting it to write something coherent as I would just writing the thing myself, why would I not just write it myself?

[haifoct]

Xiao Zhuo, Li Lun, and Ying Lei adventures at Tianxiang Pavilion incoherent ramblings.

Anyways, I was rewatching FoF (as one does), and episode 21 — on a rewatch, when you know damn well Li Lun is possessing Bai Jiu's body — is hands down one of the funniest, pure comedy gold episodes that the series has to offer.

It's almost offensive how blatant they were about Bai Jiu being Li Lun here. Fashionista Li Lun woke up, and decided he's not going out in those EW clothes smelling of his cousins herbs. That vomit of every colour out there and a nest for hair are NOT sexy. All white for a dignified gentleman like himself.

They point out the change in his outfit, and we don't question it because Li Lun (despite people here claiming he doesn't understand humans) knows it would be a big deal for a teenage boy to visit a place like Tianxiang Pavilion. Dressing more maturely feels natural, and Li Lun gets to slay in all white yet again.

Li Lun: Must change. Li Lun: No one will notice. They will think this loser is excited, good plan.

Li Lun's face is priceless here. There are only two options: either Li Lun seeps through and is genuinely offended that this baby mountain god he remembers acts like this ("why crave attention from human? disgusting. ZHUO YICHEN LOOK AT ME"), or he understands the affections Bai Jiu holds for Xiao Zhuo-ge, acting his ass off even when no one is looking.

I like the first option as an explanation, because Li Lun DOES seep through quite often in this episode.

It looks fun, he said, like a fucking IDIOT.

"Oh shit."

"Shit. Did Zhuo Yichen notice? Shit shit shit shit."

And he continued to fuck up. Those were small details, but I genuinely couldn't stop laughing at his loser ass.

He tugged Xiao Zhuo's bells too hard, actually tugged Yichen back. His movements are harsher, stronger than Bai Jiu's. Bai Jiu tugs at Xiao Zhuo's sleeve or bells gently, and when it is in fact hard, it's usually Yichen trying to walk and Bai Jiu staying behind.

"FUCK. I tugged too hard." LI LUN, YOU DORK.

He tugged so hard Yichen's ribbon came undone. "I fix this. It will be alright it's part of my plan."

Unfortunately, ribbon does not stay put anymore.

Li Lun's honest reaction to this turn of events. No control over his face or strength whatsoever.

Ying Lei and Li Lun's moments have a very special place in my heart. They bounce off each other so nicely, and you can absolutely tell that Li Lun was having fun.

His shit eating grin. Sometimes I wonder if this is what Li Lun did when he was a baby.

Zhu Yan: Let's see human world! Li Lun: sure! Zhu Yan: Yaaaaay! Li Lun: Yaaaaaay! Zhu Yan, at the gates to the human world, turning to his bestie: Li Lun, this so exciting — Li Lun? Li Lun! Li Lun, back at Kunlun: snoozes, sunbathing.

Li Lun entered the pavilion as we know it, and saved his Ge, not forgetting to be a massive dork about it.

He once again pulled Xiao Zhuo real hard. Yichen went WOOOOOSH.

Well saved, Li Lun! Unfortunately, his precious Ge scolds him, but not without remembering to thank Li Lun for his hard work first.

I know for a fact that this was Li Lun seeping through yet again. "If it weren't for me, Zhuo Yichen!"

Yichen was utterly hilarious in that moment too. He took a moment to catch his breath, like being touched by a bunch of women was the worst nightmare he'd ever experienced. He's finally free, the worst day of his life. They're comedic duo we deserve, I will never shut up.

And I LOVE that Li Lun never forgets to hold his Ge by the...well, he does forget that he’s supposed to hold him by the bells, not Yichen’s fucking belt.

Xiao Zhuo: What the — ? Bai Jiu usually holds the bell, why is he holding the belt? *confused Zhuo Yichen noises*

Li Lun is such a DORK. They share one braincell for the three of them. One braincell dream team.

Previously, everyone ignored Ying Lei's attempts to high-five his friends, and isn’t it the cutest that Li Lun was the one to give him a high five? Although he was surely shocked to experience friendship: "*GASP* a high five from a friend?"

Well done, Li Lun! Thank you for your service, you little dork. I will never stop calling him that.

I just love the three of them together so much. It makes me happy that Li Lun got to experience what real friendship feels like, and these two were the perfect candidates to show him the light and welcome him into their home.

This episode is my comfort place now, a better world where they get to be friends and form a perfect one braincell dream team.

[gojo-mochi]

A/N: yeah I wrote half of this when I went to see a live show… (shoutout to gho/st file/s!) Non edited/proofread bleh it just my rambling anyways

MDNI

Getting fucked dumb by a bigger man. In mass, size, and length. By the time their cock enters you, you’re already halfway to being a drooling and mindless mess. He needed to prep you thoroughly before you could take his cock, he didn’t want to hurt you after all.

“Oh? What’s that? You think you can take me with no prep?”

“Oh, little one, maybe we can try that tomorrow. For now, just lay back against me and let me stretch you out on my fingers.”

 “Yes, I know they’re so big, aren’t they? Bet you never reached this deep in your own before.” “Bet those boys before couldn’t even dream of reaching this deep with their dicks, huh? I’ll show you what a real man is made of soon enough, darling.. “

You find purchase by holding on to his biceps while he fingers you, your arousal coating his palm while he smacks it against your puffy clit. The wet squelching noises made you try to cover your face and ears in embarrassment. But he couldn’t have that, oh no, no…

His free hand will pinch in your cheeks if you try to hide any of those sweet noises he loves. Scolding you gently for being embarrassed as his fingers plunged in faster and faster. If you still feel like fighting and escaping his hold on you. He’ll take it a step deeper, shoving two fingers in your mouth, pressing down on your tongue. He doesn’t care if you drool or even try to bite down on him. As long as you keep on making those cute and sweet whimpers and moans unhindered.

You scratch and claw at his biceps as he flexes under your hands. Your pitiful attempts at damaging him barely did a dent to his muscular form. His mouth next to your ear, hot, heavy, laced with desire and need. Your pussy pulling in his fingers, sucking them in so sloppily.

“Fuck, maybe this slutty pussy can take me already. Look at how she’s crying out for me.”

Once he pulls one, two, maybe even three orgasms from just his fingers, your body quivering and twitching, only held down by his big encompassing arm around your waist. Depending on the mood he would pull out a small vibrartor bullet pressing down on your abused swollen clit, ignoring your cries to stop and attempts to push his hands away. His free hand trapping your wrists together, forcing your thighs to go over his own thick ones, spreading you out fully for his assault. Letting the vibrartor roam around your lips, just teasing you for a bit, he loves watching you twitch and struggle, licking the tears from your cheeks as he prods the bullet against your clit until the bed sheet underneath gets completely soaked. 

If he doesn't care for toys or is feeling a bit hungry that day, he would kneel down on the bed but keep his back straight, his height still towering over you even in this position as he flips you upside down. Throwing your legs over his broad shoulders as he delves down for his feast. HIs fat tongue lapping at your juices like a starved dog, his arm squeezing at your soft chest and waist, sometimes yanking you back up to crash into his mouth when you slip a bit. Sucking and rolling his tongue and mouth over your sensitive little nub unless your cries become voiceless and your head gets dizzy from the position. 

Then when you’re finally in that dumb state, nothing but incoherent babbles spilling from your lips, your body too exhausted to fight back. Turned into nothing but a toy for him to ram his cock into, He’ll pick you up once more, bringing your legs together and locking them in under one bicep. The other arm around your neck, not choking but pushing your head back so he can whisper filth in your ear as he lowers you down on his length. Your pussy so weak and wet, still struggles to fit him in all fully. Whines still come out when he’s halfway in, your breath gets hitch in your throat when he fully bottoms out. When he starts rutting into you, his balls slapping against your ass heavily with each bounce, he’ll press a hand down on the bulge protruding in your stomach. 

“Full enough yet, love?”

“Pussy still so fucking tight, gotta train her better.”

“Oh, little one, you’re nothing but a toy for me to fuck, aren’t cha?”

“So pliant, you’ll let me do whatever I want to you, right? Cause you love this cock so much..” 

[oneshlut]

Your writing is so good!!! I’m so happy to finally have found someone who writes for Flug! (And I feel like you capture his personality so well :,) ) Could I request some headcanons for Flug with a partner who gives him a lot of handmade gifts. From paintings or little sculptures, to poems/letters and songs. Basically a really artsy reader who just likes giving personal gifts to Flug! ^^ (and maybe even some to 505 as well, like handmade plushies) Thank you sm!

A/N: you are TOO sweet! i love hearing about how much you all love my writing, and flug is one of my favorites to write for!! i'll try my best to convey the reader's personality and all, thanksies for requesting! <33

Homemade Affection (Dr. Flug x Artistic!Reader) [Headcanons]

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Summary: Headcanons of Dr. Flug with an artistic S/O, who creates trinkets, paintings, letters, etc. as gifts. Extra meeting and confessing headcanons

Dr. Flug is hardly someone you'd describe as creative. His inventions were great! But the designs were.. well, practical, I suppose. They were made exactly how they were supposed to be, just to the extent for the machinery to work. So he had never put too much effort into designs when it came to his work.

His inventions also usually never had anything special added to them. Flug makes things exactly how they're asked to be made, and nothing else. He's a man of order and schedule, and honestly can't live without it. Which is why he forgets to add an off button to most of his inventions.

You, on the other hand, loved free-will. Especially when it came to your own creations, art, paintings, writings--everything! If you did care for order and all, you make sure to add your own personal color to your schedule. Doodles can be found all over any paper you're given, and in your spare time/all the time, you'd create plushies, sculptures, collages.. truly, anything artistic. Anything you were given, you incorporated some sort of pigment into it.

You had first met him when you joined Blackhat Org., for villainy and such. Surprisingly, you were a great addition to the company! Surprising to Dr. Flug, at least. Now, he's usually not one to judge, but you were practically radiating with color, so he kinda thought you were just a Demencia duplicate. Upon meeting you, he found himself pleasantly shocked.

Flug was intriguing to you. So incredibly different than you, yet somehow, you two clicked. He was a nervous wreck, yet somehow put together. Kinda like you! (jk)

The more time you spent with him, the more Dr. Flug got comfortable with your presence. When he was having a busy day, he'd sometimes ask you to do small things for him. You, most of the time, obliged. Unless you were busy as well--most likely busy painting something that doesn't need to be painted.

Confessions? Oh--yes! Right, right.. well, Flug kinda had this whole plan written out of how he'd admit his feelings for you. He would pace around his room for hours, mumbling incoherent, scrambled thoughts of what would be the uttermost perfect way to confess. He doesn't know what the term "Don't overthink it" means. His rambles, walking to nowhere, and planning usually came to a pause when you stopped by.

How ignorant he was, because as he was writing out a plan that reached to the floor, you were cooking up your own idea to confess aswell. Except, you weren't focused on making it perfect. You wanted it to seem like it came from you. Yup, you were writing a confession letter to Flug. And yes, it did have doodles all over it.

When Dr. Flug left his laboratory for a moment, you stood to leave. Not after leaving your letter there, though. When he returned, he was worried about where you went, before the letter caught his eye.

He chuckled staring at the small doodles that covered the page. Then he read what you wrote..

Oh. His bag immediately flushed a deep red.

When the two of you got together, you immediately started on little crafts to give him. Either for dates, valentines day, christmas, or any holiday! Maybe one day for your anniversary..

Oh, Dr. Flug adores them. Every little thing you give him goes on a shelf right next to his jet collection. He treasures them as if they were of his own creation--because they were of yours. Nothing will be able to beat the feeling of receiving a gift from you. His eyes never fail to light up at the sight of your artwork. Yeah, he's head over heels. Not saying he worships you like a god, but he definitely looks up to you.

That confession letter definitely wasn't your last letter. Occasionally, you'd write him notes or letters for him when you couldn't make it to his lab. Sometimes love poems! Flug definitely tripped over his shoes reading your first love poem to him. He still can't believe such romantic subjects that he usually saw in movies were being shown.. towards him, of all people.

If you wrote a song for him? Dr. Flug would cry. Sorry, no way around it, his heart would throb and suddenly all his love for you was just flowing out in the form of tears. Afterwards, if you gave him a recorded tape of the song, he'd listen to it daily. Sometimes on loop in the background when he's doing work. He'd get distracted often, though...

The plushies definitely tugged at his heartstrings, though. You once gave him a plush heart, and he kept it on his desk everyday. Until 5.0.5. got to it. Dr. Flug once checked up on him to see how he was doing, before seeing him sleeping soundly, cuddling the knit creation you gifted him. After Flug sent a photo of it to you, because he was practically close to breaking down due to how wholesome the scene was, you knew exactly what you had to do.

The next day, you came in to the lab with two small hand-knit stuffies for 5.0.5. One sunflower, and one little mini-5.0.5. You were proud with how they turned out! Part of you wanted to keep them because of how cute they were, but you knew they were a gift for 5.0.5.

As soon as Dr. Flug set his sight on the stuffed plushies, his heart immediately warmed up. It honestly baffled him that someone would do that for 5.0.5., but I guess you were a naturally kind person. He was so lucky to have you, he realizes. After wiping the slightest bit of tears from his goggles, he took them and put them carefully with the rest of 5.0.5.'s stuffed animals.

Dr. Flug will now occasionally ask you to help him with his inventions designs, spotting your eye for color and overall talent when it came to.. well, art.

The two of you work together well, as both work-partners and.. partners. Flug adores your colorful nature, and you adore his technical nature. You snap together like yin and yang, and Dr. Flug couldn't ask for anything more than who you are.

If things keep going the way they are, you may wind up soulmates.

[ship-ambrosia]

i need to hear all your thoughts on Theon and Theonsa. Please i need the deepest of dives. I’m also obsessed

Hello dear, thanks for the message!! I’m sorry it took me so long to respond, this week was pretty rough at work. I am of course ALWAYS happy to talk about Theonsa.

Delusional, incoherent rambling vibes incoming. You have been warned.

I feel like I have talk ad nauseam about this relationship and all the things I love about it, and if I haven’t mentioned it, I’ve written about it lmao

First of all, I was introduced to this ship by my lesbian best friend. Straight up literally one of the only het ships I can think of that she likes. Theonsa is for the girls and the gays, confirmed. I myself was so shook bcuz they were my favorite characters from the very little of the show that I had watched at that point, so to hear there was ship potential?? I was hooked instantly

Idk about yall but I have the clip of Theon returning to Winterfell and him and Sansa hugging while he’s basically ignoring dany there the whole time saved on my phone and I watch it SO much. Would offer my firstborn child to know what exactly Alfie Allen (and Sophie, but mostly Alfie) was thinking while that was being filmed because that’s the scene that convinced me they were IN LOVE especially that Theon loved her. It’s just the way his eyes flicker to Sansa even when he’s supposed to be addressing his “Queen”.

Honestly I’m a lot more forgiving toward season 8 than most of my friends but the one thing that pisses me off is that everyone leaves sansa alone at the end!! Wtf!!! Anyway if Theon had survived you can’t tell me he wouldn’t have stayed with her. He would have 100% dedicated the rest of his life to being at her side, whether anything came of their love or not. And god one day I need to write a scene of theon and Sansa reuniting immediately after the night king is killed!! Theon exiting the Godswood with Arya and bran and Sansa running over to all three of them!! Ugh my heart. Also, I feel like Dany would be so grief stricken over Jorah and to see Sansa happily reunited with Theon would make her absolutely furious which sounds very interesting to me

Umm what else. I think Theon should’ve gotten to kill his uncle. Why’d that kill go to Jaime? I had this fic idea a while ago where Baelish doesn’t bring the knights of the vale so Jon loses the battle of the bastards and Sansa ends up back with Ramsay but Theon’s already convinced Yara to go north to help (I know Yara would never do it but LET ME HAVE THIS) and then Euron hears his niece and nephew are going north so he decides to go north too. So basically three of the worst men converge at Winterfell to face off basically fighting over Sansa but surprise Theon and Yara break Jon out of prison to rescue her. And yeah Euron’s just like oh I want the Stark girl now because I know my nephew wants her. Then Theon can get to kill Euron or Ramsay or Baelish. Lmao. Most of my fics start as incoherent vibes like that

Uhhh if there’s any else you wanna know about specifically feel free to ask again! That’s about all I can think of right now thanks 🥰

[painterofhorizons]

Some incoherent rambling about tracing in art under the cut. And I'm not trying to start a fight on this, so depending on your own stand about this, just go ahead and don't read it.

I'm struggling a lot with seeing art that is clearly traced.

And I don't speak about the obvious "don't do that" thing of tracing someone else's art, which we hopefully can agree on that nope, don't be an asshole and don't trace someone else's art.

I mean seing art that is, let's say, fanart that is clearly traced from a photo. (And let's be hopeful and say it's a traced stock photo that was initially created for being used in any way, not like, some celebrity photo or picture from instagram or anything that was not created as a stock image.)

Don't get me wrong. I firmly want people to have fun with their hobbies. And my resentment about this topic definitely originates both in

a) my own frustrated relationship to drawing (aka used to draw a lot for 20 years, then fell out of it completely for 15 years, and now has a very difficult time getting back into it because of 15 years of lacking training) and

b) the fact that back in the day there still was a very clear mentality of "do not trace" that people strictly obeyed, or so it felt.

And yes, of course tracing is okay for practice - but the way I was artistically socialized is: you can totally trace - but do not post it, and IF you post it, do link the traced reference. STATE that it is traced. But best keep that to your sketchbook, it's something you did for practice, and you do not show it to anyone, because tracing is morally bad.

And now it feels like you see so much art that is clearly traced, because I know a thing or two about how hard it is to get proportions right, and it is very easy to tell if photographs are the traced basis of a drawing esp depending on the art skill.

It feels like you barely see art anymore where the proportions are off. And no one who is not a complete pro gets every proportion completely right, especially if going for a very realistic art style. Which, in itself, often is a sign for tracing.

And I think the reason it bothers me is that it feels like cheating, like, "back in the day" we had to learn proportions and all the hard way, by, like, looking at stuff and then just fucking up by drawing shit on our own freestyle. Or like drawing a grid on the reference picture and a grid on your own sheet of paper and trying to do it like a puzzle. But back in the just traditional day tracing was much harder anyways. (And yes, "we" means "I", but it also means a general "we".) And it feels like those folks who work the tracing way nowadays take the shortcut, they don't struggle the same we/I did, and it is unfair because of all the struggling you undergo when you do not take the shortcut.

And this sounds absolutely ridiculous, because basically it is saying "if I had to struggle, so do you" - or in a more gentle approach - "I wish I, too, didn't have to struggle so much".

Like, rationally, I would never say that to someone's face. Which is why I don't do it, like, I'm really trying to just ignore it and let folks do their thing. And I know not taking the shortcut gets you a much bigger learning outcome than taking shortcuts. You only learn shit by doing it, and getting proportions right ON YOUR OWN needs you to DO IT ON YOUR OWN.

And it bothers me so much that it bothers me!

But boy. It bothers me so much to see such art, especially when it is not stated that hey, this is a shortcut version of art, because it is traced.

It feels like, idk, betrayel towards art itself, as well as towards other artists. It feels dishonest.

Like, there's no such thing like this in writing! Because if you did that in writing, it is plagiarism, and that gets you shame, and shitstorms, and de-registrations.

And like, usually artists who use reference pictures but do it free hand usually even like/state the use of reference pictures, but those who *trace* don't even say they worked with references. And that feels so frigging wrong to me towards art.

And in the end, all of this is just my inner artist begging for me having fun with art the same way as all those other artists, and as much as those who trace but at least they draw and hopefully enjoy the process, right?

I just desperately want to draw and enjoy it again, just like my first two decades of life.

So yes, in the end, this is me being utterly jealous about folks who have such a relaxed and not-overthinking relationship with art that they see a nice photograph that inspires them and be like "I'm gonna trace this and make it my own and have fun".

This is me wishing I didn't have such high moral standards towards myself and others.

Just take it easy. Relax. Don't care so much.

But I can't. I see traced art that does not have the disclaimer of "oh yeah btw I did use a reference for this and I traced the general proportions" and my brain and my stomach go "wrongwrongwrongMORALFAILUREhowdareyou".

Yeah, this is a rant post that goes in different directions - but it is also an honest question to those of you who also used to feel strongly about the topic of tracing=bad and who learned to take it easier.

How did you do that?

Because no matter how much I try to rationally tell myself: relax, how others treat art is not your business - I still feel sick in my stomach about this matter when it occurs and I cannot help it - but I really wish I could help it.

[tojisun]

ive missed so many games, IM SORRY SUNSUN!!! I HAVE TO CATCH UP! ive been in a funk; only able to read, not yap. which makes me sad! i miss u cutie, but ill be yappin to u soon !!!!! i love you always🩷

omg love dont u worry about a thing!! im just glad to be talking to u :'> i missed u so so much and i hope u are doing well!! and pls, i cant wait for our yap sesh teehee <33

i love you always kai my star!!

hockey ramble (a long winded break down of the finals so far, from an oilers fan) under the cut so pls feel free to ignore again heheh

so the oilers win western conference and headed to finals, facing off with the panthers.

games one and two were played in the home ice of the panthers because during the regular seasons, after tallying each team's wins, the panthers had more wins than the oilers (104 EDM - 110 FLA)

the finals started really badly for the oilers. game one was a shutout (0 EDM - 3 FLA), game two wasn't any better (1 EDM - 4 FLA). game three saw oilers managing to shave the score difference to one point but they ended up losing too (3 EDM - 4 FLA). these three consecutive wins for the panthers means that they only need one more game to win the cup.

and then game four happened.

this was played in the edmonton home rink (so was game three), and because it was the final game that the panthers needed to win to get the cup, it was riddled with anxiety.

oilers scored first.

scoring first is necessary for shifting the momentum, but it was not a goal that really settled our nerves because game two started that way too, with the oilers scoring first only for the rest of their shots to be blocked by the great wall that bobrovsky (panthers' goaltender) makes.

but then they scored another one, and another one, and ended the first period with a two point lead (3 EDM - 1 FLA), with one of their goals this period made during the panthers' power play.

it was exhilarating. the flicker of hope grew and it turned into a whole blaze.

period two saw more beautiful progress for the oilers, with their captain and forward, and arguably the very heart of the team, connor mcdavid finally scoring his first goal in the finals of the playoffs.

not soon after, davo matched his goal with an assist to nurse, bringing up the score difference between the oilers and the panthers to four. it is by then that the panthers pulled their starting goaltender out, bobby, and subbed in stolarz who made his "first career playoff appearance" in this game.

stolarz struggled too, and, in the end, facing the spectacular plays made by the oilers, game four was snagged from a panthers sweep and extended the oilers' season. it was a tremendous victory (8 EDM - 1 FLA). historical, even.

non-fans called it a fluke, saying that the panthers just wanted to win the cup in home ice, while fans saw this as oilers finally waking up and playing how they usually do.

game five was played back in the panthers home ice. again, one more win for the panthers and they would be the cup winners, so tensions continue to mount and peak.

davo, in an interview, said that they will win this game and "drag them back to alberta." (talking about game 6).

dude, i can't even begin to explain how monumental yesterday's game was, but drag it back home they did. i'm still reeling over the final score so i'm still incoherent and pretty much in disbelief so do forgive me. but:

stuart skinner, the man he is.

i forgot which commentary youtuber said it but this is how they described skinner: he is average at best, especially against bobrovsky, but he is volatile. he is a beast when he gets in his groove. unshakable.

we saw that skinner yesterday. in a sport where goaltending amounts to the final score, stuart skinner made impossible saves yesterday. yes, it's not a shutout and yes, the panthers scored three goals more than comfortable, but the saves that skinner made were the tight and hard-hitting ones.

the momentum he carved out for the team in period one was kept consistent throughout the game.

connor brown and his shortie - a goal made during a panthers power play. it was the first goal of yesterday's game, during a crucial moment, and shot after an impossibly terrific of a pass from janmark.

connor mcdavid.

i may sound too biased but you have to understand where i'm coming from. davo is the best NHL player of this decade, and this sentiment is very much founded.

he has so many highlight moments from yesterday's game, but three of the monumental ones for me are: his second goal, his assist to perry's goal, and his clutch goal during the third period with only about less than twenty seconds left in the clock.

tkachuck was able to save the initial empty-netter goal. it was a tremendous save and cinematic, to be honest. he hooked the puck with his stick and used his full body to fling it out. he ended up caught in the net - cue the memes - but davo skated after the puck, took control of it, and amidst cheers for tkachuk's miracle save, he sent it back in the net, ending the game with a two point lead for the oilers (5 EDM - 3 FLA).

it was SOMETHING.

everyone knew it then - game five was a historical play.

and it was: the oilers are the "first team in a stanley cup final to win a game 5 on the road after trailing 3-0."

.

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im sorry for the hockey rant, its just that. what started as a passing interest for the team that beat my team (canucks) turned into a full-blown love because how can you not???

[fire-water-grass-core]

OOC

tl:dr i'm placing all my blogs on indefinite hiatus, i'll be putting that in my pinned posts as well.

Well. I made the decision. it's been coming for a while tbh, i've taken a lot of breaks in the last few months, and if i'm honest i never really wanted to stop these breaks. I'm not having fun roleplaying here anymore. It's an ugly truth, but its a truth.

I don't want to blame anyone but myself, please don't get this wrong. But i want to explain myself and i want to be honest. And also, i'm very sorry about incoherent rambling, i can't really help it right now.

I feel like i had no involvement in this community anymore. Which is... objectively false, but that doesn't help me feel better. All the people that made me join rotomblr either left themselves or they evolved so much and so fast that i can't keep up. There are new people as well, and there are many that i like a lot, but in the end, rotomblr is changing way too fast for me to keep up and it simply kills all my joy and motivation. (again, i don't blame anyone here. I want you to have fun. It's just sad that i can't be part of the fun)

I have tried a lot to bring my motivation back to rotomblr by making A LOT of blogs, some have been very well received, some are not getting any attention. And again, i understand that. I don't want anyone to force themself to be into something they're not. And i understand much much better that i can't just expect a blog i created 5 minutes ago to get asks and followers in the hundreds. But this is, in the end, another reason for me to feel left out.

I also tried to plan an event, i tried making a story and none of it really went anywhere. I don't know how you do it. I don't know how you can go and plan something like this, and how you work together with people like this, and i just can't keep it up anymore. It's gotten so bad that i actually fear opening the app on my phone. I don't read my favourite blogs anymore. And since i realized that, i also realized i need to make a change.

In addition, there is also real life, and other hobbies, and all of it is draining the limited time i have as well as my mental capacity and lately have been getting REALLY depressed. Not specifically because of rotomblr, but i think it's been a part of it.

So. I have made the decision to put all of my blogs on hiatus. I don't want to delete them, because i had it often that i just gave up on a hobby or a game or a book and came back to it after a long time. And honestly, i like a lot of the characters. They are very dear to me, and most of them only live through tumblr, and i don't want to lose them. But i don't have concrete plans to come back anytime soon.

On the other hand, i won't leave the few discord servers i'm in, mostly because i still really like the community and i consider quite a few of you people good friends by now.

PS: I am so incredibly upset with myself it's unbelievable. When i made the blog and started having really a lot of fun, i said to myself that i want to keep this hobby up for one year. That was my goal. And i failed. FUCK. On the other hand i have been ignoring rotomblr for a bit already and it's been kinda freeing. so... yeah... meh.

[vampcubus]

OK but like honestly? (Despite the fact that no one asked for my opinion....) I think I'd like to see and alpha woman with a cunt. Like I'm not opposed to the media where an alpha woman has a penis, but at the same time I'd like to see more where it's an alpha woman and she has a vagina... likeidk maybe I'm just reading too much into it but like sometimes that feels like another sorta sexist thing? Like a woman can't truly dominate unless she has a masculine part. Like domination is truly only a penetrative (is that a word?) act is what i sometimes feel like in fiction. So like I would be down for a bad alpha boss woman dominating a man with the power of her cunt. Like yes describe the pheromones that are making him incoherent. Describe the fact that he can't stop leaking and is super wet for her.~ idk again definitely not bashing anyone, intimacy and sex have so many different facets, but idk all the fics with omega verse readers make few readers be the omega and submissive. I think I'd like to flip the tables but with a twist.... idk feel free to ignore my rambles.

you are actually describing my exact feelings! like i would like to see more fem!alpha's with cunts, especially in reader insert fanfic!

i also feel like theres a lot of stigma around penetration = domination, which is so not true cus those things truly have nothing to do with one another. even if submissives are often also bottoms, and dominants are often also tops. i hate the idea that some ppl have that a woman has to have a dick/strap to dominate someone (as much as i love pegging <3)

i feel like i'd read more nsfw omegaverse if fem!alpha readers were portrayed with a pussy more often (not that i have an issue with fem!alpha readers with the traditional alpha genitalia) ah, most ABO fics feature a sub omega!reader so i feel i shouldn't complain too much.

[sekhithefops]

The World is Run by Jerry Smiths

So, its a popular idea that there's a shadowy cabal of rulers running the world. The Illuminati, the Deep State, the Lizard People, what have you.

Personally, I have my own theory on this one.

They're not shadowy or secret.

They really don't run the world in any sense but running it into the ground.

They're all basically Jerry Smith from Rick & Morty.

Now hear me out.

In Rick & Morty, Jerry Smith is Morty's father. He is an insecure little tit who is forever trying and failing to prove his worth, because he doesn't realize he has no worth to prove. He's pretty pathetic.

He almost gets murdered by Meeseeks when he tries (and fails) to improve his golf game, the short-lived helper creatures realizing that they can be free of their existence if they get rid of him and (technically) fulfill his request by doing so ("we can't take two strokes off his game, but we can take all strokes off it!")

He gets used by the ruler of Pluto to try to get people to ignore the fact that their planet is being destroyed by their own abuses of it and goes along with it because his ego is getting stroked the entire way, to the point of humiliating his son on stage.

And he's such a man-child that he winds up in a literal daycare for Jerrys that an alternate version of Rick established to take care of them while a universe's Rick and Morty were off having adventures.

Every time I see Jerry, I'm reminded of... honestly a lot of political figures in the United States (probably other countries too, but I try to avoid political news that doesn't directly affect me as it would only stress me out horribly.)

Lately America has been on one of it's regular Moral Panics that will, more often than not, blow up in the GOP's face in the end. We've had the Satanic Panic, the Porn Rock hearings of the 80s, and the like... now we're on to Transpeople. Politicians are trying to mandate how gender works because... I dunno, they're afraid of getting cooties or something (or more likely the usual 'we're trying to incite a culture war to avoid the class war that will likely happen one day.')

One of the worst offenders of this is Ron DeSantis, governor of Florida. A little toad of a man who is so insecure that he wears stealth high heels in order to make himself appear taller than he is as he attacks anything and everything he considers "woke" in revenge for... well, whatever. Probably losing the 2024 nomination to a pile of Cheetos in an ill-fitting suit.

Moving away from the political sphere we can find Jerries in the leadership of the business world as well. A prime example is one of the reasons I reactivated my Tumblr account in the first place. Everyone's favorite little shit, Elon "Elongated Muskrat" Musk.

Elon is 100% what Jerry would be if he had a lot of money. He got laughed at on Twitter, so he bought it and bans everyone who looks at him funny. He buys up companies and claims he's a genius scientist for inventions he had no hand in designing (and that come out far worse for his involvement post-takeover.)

A closer to home example would be Tumblr's own Photomatt, who I didn't even know existed until recently and having found out about them I wish I could return to that happy place of ignorance.

Because a transperson was... honestly as far as I can tell existing to them for more than a few minutes they banned their account, then did so again when they made a burner account, then once more with feeling, then possibly a few more times (I lost count.)

Of course he's now getting dunked on from all sides and has only his millions of dollars and the ability to threaten siccing the FBI on offenders while screaming incoherently like a toddler who was told they can't have a cookie.

Again, Jerry Smith, but with money.

So yeah. Got a bit rambly there, but thats how I see the world really. Its not a bunch of tyrannical fascists, its a bunch of insecure little men who can't handle even the tiniest bits of criticism without having a panic attack.

Where's Rick when you need him?

[draculagerard]

if you would pretty please ignore the fact that i'm sending this 4 hours after I said I started the episode that'd be cool thanks <3 k so basically I took tiny notes while watching the episode (you gotta watch this stuff in moderation or else you're gonna turn to goop) so this is A: unfiltered Belle thoughts and B: the real life closest you'll get to me live blogging spn

Ok ok so I’ve seen the pilot before obviously but like actually what a traumatic start like fr even just thinking about it as it’s own thing it’s just woah wft

ADRIANNE PALICKI?!?!?!?! I FORGOT SHE WAS IN THIS I LOVE HER

Y'know what? Dean breaking in and fighting Sam in the middle of the night is realistic sibling representations me and my brother are like that too

“Dad’s been on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a few days” WHAA WHOMP

Yo fuck their dad actually

Ghost lady has her reasons. I trust her

Actually after consuming some media from like America I’ve realized the my understanding and usage of salt circles vastly varies from other people’s because in my culture when we put sal- [GUNSHOT] <- I’m protecting you from a whole spiel of random facts

Yeah ok when doors with locks like those lock it’s stupidly hard to unlock them without the button but it’s not impossible come on man

KILL HER WITH GUNS I GUESS (also she totally had her reasons I still trust her. God forbid women do anything)

Mmmmm gotta love that good old 2005 CGI

ADRIANNE PALICKI NOOOOOO

[end belle deranged ramblings I do have a meme tho 1 sec]

dont worry i feel that for rea. but also feel free to send me unfiltered thoguths i will enthusiastically read an essay of incoherent thoughts

YEAH !!! SHES HERE

for REAL oh my god

say the line Dean!!!!!

FUCK their dad. i hate John Winchester fuck his stupid ass

yeah

NOO not my random facts........ Belle...... i need to know

YEAH SDKJDSKJF

FAIR WARNING. this is literally the entire fucking show. hold on i have a post about this too

DFJFJDS yeah it's so funky

YEAAAHHH RIP TO HER FOR REAL

episode one comes to an end <3

[proudly-a-killjoy]

hi! feel free to completely ignore me haha

so recently some things have been happening that is making me feel like something or someone is watching over me and giving me a hand with things in life. nothing major, just like continuous small favours and things going my way when by all means they shouldn’t have. i was raised very loosely as christian (i went to a slightly christian primary school and was part of a church group for girls, but my family never went to church and my dad is staunchly atheist. my mum is more “meh” when it comes to religion). because of my own complicated thoughts about a monotheistic deity i don’t believe that’s what has been helping me. intuitively i’m feeling like it’s polytheistic.

i also have the MOST base level knowledge of polytheism. i enjoy ancient greek media and really love history (i read pjo as a kid 😭 trust me i’m well aware as fun as it was it isn’t really a reliable source) and when i was asking for some sort of sign (cliche ik) i started seeing a LOT of owls. like way more than i normally would. but i don’t know if that’s like a confirmation bias thing. i’m also from a country that before colonisation was celtic polytheism so maybe that has something to do with it?

this is such a ramble but i was basically wondering if you had any tips for how to identify what or who this feeling is or how to thank them? again if this is weird or you don’t know how to help feel free to. i’m also well aware how ignorant i sound, as like i said i know literally nothing about paganism.

thank you for at least listening to my incoherent ramblings!

I would recommend researching deities that have owls as one of their sacred animals to get started. That could at least help to identify which deity has been helping you out. To thank them you could probably do something simple like just saying thank you or leaving a small offering to them after you identify who they are. If you have trouble figuring out which one it is (I’m a chronic over thinker so every time I feel like I’m getting signs I have to get an abundance of them to feel secure enough to believe that they’re actually signs 😭) just say a general thank you. This could also easily open the door to polytheistic worship if you are interested. It doesn’t have to be complicated, just speaking to, leaving small offerings, or doing devotional acts.

This ask has crazy timing for me I’m not gonna lie, because recently in my life I’ve basically stopped practicing my pagan worship and kinda felt like I was leaning into being agnostic, but after about a week of signs from Apollo I decided to start polytheistic worship again literally last night. So this ask really is the biggest sign to me that I made the right choice

[lysallana]

Its been about a week since I posted this and I think it took about this long for me to fully collect my thoughts and feelings surrounding this decision that was... outwardly to my friends and gf a sudden and deliberate twist that it really wasn't and I do want to elaborate because I do think it's important to explain the full context here.

I was a whale. I spent a ton of money on gachas constantly. I have very low impulse control. My history with gachas is starting them up, spending money and playing for a week or a month. But never longer. Because honestly, most gacha games suck. They are mostly boring trash, terrible gameplay, and mostly serviceable stories.

I got into FGO cause IRL friends were into it. Having a consistent thing to talk about, speculate about, and theory craft about was really fun. My spending was out of control. I needed every new servant. I wanted every servant I missed. Any chance I had to get someone was taken, and most of it was buying quartz, not saving.

After lb6 released, and the hype surrounding that died down the discussions with my friends turned. No longer was the discussion tinged with excitement everything was turning negative. A sign of the rough patch of the games foreseeable future. But every New bit of info from the JP side of the game was met with hostility or indifference. The game and its future broke something.

In the months leading up to the new year, playing the game was a chore. I started looking away from the app icon on my phone and trying not to think about logging in. Events were done out of obligation. And there I sat, new years day. Having hit pity of a character I didn't want. Didn't need. But I had koyan dark and I was miserable. All of my excuses I typically gone to weren't working.

The day I deleted the app, was caused by a friend from a different group of friends posting into discord how she was done with her gacha of choice and deleted the app and in solidarity I decided enough was enough and did the same with mine. It felt like excising a demon.

I'm not going to sit here and shame anyone their vices. I'm not better than you because I've managed to symbolically get out, and I may even relapse who knows. But I do encourage every one to look at the games that you are playing and really take the time to wrestle with the questions about why you are still playing. Gacha games are predatory and even if you have good impulse control, they are still doing everything in their power to get you to break and start spending. If you aren't enjoying it, if it consistently angers you, if it feels like a chore. Stop playing. Stop engaging. Build up the strength to ignore it and move on. Please. It really isn't worth it. The best part of these games can be consumed for free by reading through the stories through YouTube.

I really needed to get this off of my chest and into some tangible form. If you read this far, hey thanks for reading my rambling incoherent mess, I swear this was more structurally sound last night when I couldn't stop thinking about posting my thoughts while laying in bed at 1 am.

I love you all but as an spending addict, don't be like me.

Enough is enough

[drbtinglecannon]

Anyway here's wonderwall (a list of my "worries" for S3 tonight) (really only 1 is a legit worry)

1. Flapjack dies (please no please I can't even entertain the idea of this)(legitimate fear for this birb)(it won't happen)(BUTWHATIFITDOES)(it won't)(BUTWHA--)

2. Hunter becomes a Noceda, thus Dadrius never happens (I'll be so disappointed but I know logically from a writing standpoint it won't be a bad or 'unexpected twist' ending for him, but AHH I'll be so disappointed. I also wonder how that'd work in terms of like.. Hunter isn't gonna live in the human realm with Camila, right? That seems like an unusual turn, especially since I don't even imagine Luz will live at home full-time by the series end and instead comes and goes between Camila & Eda)(That said I think Hunter is already family with Luz & that Camila is one of the most important adults in his life & always will be, but actually having their name before we see Vee get it would be :/ )(This is just my very specific fandom brainrot that'd leave me bummed even tho I know it wouldn't even really be a bad thing)

3. Huntlow becomes canon or strongly implied it's inevitable, and people get all mad about it (I think regardless how people feel about a ship that fandom shouldn't make it the crew's problem, after everything the show has been through I promise one side ship isn't gonna ruin everything. I know only a small % of the haters of this ship act this way but I am genuinely dreading it getting worse & TOH getting that "is bad queer rep now" label that a lot of other media have been tossed under like SU & SPOP & LoK, over both this ship & if the ending is rushed in any way)(Like. Jfc that would be So Exhausting to see)

4. We don't get anymore clarified Wittebros lore, and especially we don't ever learn the name of Caleb's wife or if he married into the Clawthorne family (Cannot express enough how awful it is when media won't name the dead wives of characters)(I'd be SHOCKED if we didn't get the lore but I do wonder if the lore will include wittewife's name since it'll probably be told via Belos who probably didn't care to remember such information)

5. We see the adults in the Boiling Isles and none of them have any kind of design changes (this is just plain superficial, but it's one of those things that's lame as heck. Obviously kids' appearances change a lot quicker than a fully grown adult's but also the BI is in total chaos rn give them new outfits or hairstyles please)

6. The wait for the 2nd episode is really long. (Good time for the brain to marinate over everything, but also the wait will be so difficult, but also also I don't want the show to end)

7. Remember how Zeno said that the best acting he's done was a scene in this episode? And his other favorite scenes were in Eclipse Lake and Hollow Mind? So it's Highly Likely the Hunter moment that's his favorite is Devastating? (This is just point 1 again)(But also gd this kid has suffered)

8. Camila doesn't beat the shit out of Belos with the baseball bat (idk who I think deserves the killing blow but I want Camila to at least knock a few teeth out)

[deus-ex-mona]

how do you talk to people

[illariosundereyecircles]

Okay coming back to this to like try and expand on my thoughts- bear with me here because I am rambly as all hell.

So like. It's Northern Thedas. Hypothetically the choices we made in earlier games aren't relevant because they all took place in Southern Thedas and that just isn't gonna have much of an effect on anything that's going on in the North.

And if that were Genuinely The Case in this game I would be fine with it! But the thing is it's. Absolutely not. There's so many threads from the previous games present that feel glaringly ignored or just lightly glossed over.

Surprisingly enough, DAO and DA2 are the games that feel like. The most relevant. To everything going on in DATV in spite of it being a very direct sequel to DAI. Like don't get me wrong there's still definitely so much stuff in DAI that was dropped in DATV that feels like it should be massively more relevant but like.

DAO: Zevran & Sten! Like there have been so many posts talking about how sanitized the Crows feel and how disappointing it is, and how Zevran's absence from the narrative is so nonsensical given everything going on. Same goes for Sten??? Like???? If you recruited him and befriended him apparently he becomes the arishok that the antaam rebelled against! The antaam are now in! Antiva! Where Zevran has been systemically dismantling the Crows on his own! If you recruited him! In DAO! And this is all just kind of waved away with really vague statements from NPCs, if you're lucky you'll get a noncommittal vague codex entry that you can construe to maybe be referencing something about this. Sten can literally invite the Warden to come back to Par Vollen with him. Their friendship can be that strong. And you're trying to convince me that none of this is relevant to one of the central conflicts you created in this game??? My Warden romanced Zev and was besties with Sten! And you're trying to convince me that none of that is relevant to the events in Treviso? And this isn't even getting into the fact that this is the first ever double Blight which is coming practically right on the heels of the Fifth Blight- and the Hero of Ferelden. Who if they are still alive in your world state. Wouldn't be relevant in the slightest. To what's going on??

AND KIERAN- you're telling me!!! That the old god baby my Warden had!!! With Morrigan!!! Isn't! Relevant! He would be!! In his 20s now! You're telling me. That the child of Morrigan. And the Hero of Fereldan. Would be. Content. With staying out of the thick of things? Really?

And then there's DA2. Which is relevant for so so many reasons but also they make it more relevant by shoe horning in Isabela. Hi if Hawke romanced Isabela. And also didn't stay in the fade. Where the absolute fuck are they? Why aren't they spending any time with their pirate lover??? What the fuck?

And like Isabela isn't even one of the DA2 companions most relevant to this game. In spite of being the only one that made it in. Merrill???? Eluvians???? MERRILL?????

I am... getting more incoherent the further along I get in this but it's. Fine.

And. Fenris. This post did it better than I ever could so please go read that. But like we are in Tevinter. We know from the Blue Wraith comics that he is actively in Tevinter working to free slaves(depending on your worldstate obviously). Hm. Does that maybe sound. Like. The premise. Of an entire faction in this game? Perhaps? And we don't even get a passing acknowledgment of his. Existence. Even.

I wanted so badly to see specifically Fenris and Zevran with Veilguard level graphics but that's irrelevant.

And Hawke. You guys remember Hawke right? Varric's BEST FRIEND HAWKE? Who was either. STUCK IN THE FADE. Or went to WEISSHAUPT at the end of DAI??? You're telling me? None of that matters? In this game? That is? Half set in the fade? When the Seige of Weisshaupt is like a big plot point? And. Y'know. Everything going on with. Varric. You don't think maybe an alive Hawke would have... opinions. On that. Maybe? Perhaps? Just a thought?

And then there's the whole "haha remember how you poured hours into the first three games that took place in Southern Thedas? And how you fell in love with those games and the settings and characters and stories they told? Well JOKES ON YOU ALL OF SOUTHERN THEDAS IS BLIGHTED AND BASICALLY GONE! Don't you feel stupid for loving things now?" Like seriously who the fuck thought that was. A good idea. What the hell. Like they're trying to forcibly make the first 3 games completely irrelevant while also having so so so many active glaring holes where they should be.

Thinking about how none of our choices carried over to Veilguard. And how I was disappointed but like okay with it because yeah sure I can see it not being relevant in Northern Thedas. But then playing the actual game and it really feels like there's this gaping hole where all of the actually incredibly fucking relevant things from the past games should be.