#feel free to completely ignore this

[sillygoofyqueer]

Siiigh, ignore this vent, I just need to splurge my feelings somewhere

I am just really Not Feeling It™, guys. I'm literally about to go to bed and I just know that tomorrow if gonna be one of Those days. Y'know, the ones where you can't do anything and then immediately feel like shit because you just aren't doing anything? Sigh, I would stay in bed but education will await and I am nothing if not the child who doesn't complain in my family 🫡🫡

Being unmotivated sucks. I'm this close to genuinely crashing out and I just feel like there's this constant weight on me every time I try and do anything. Writing is literally my only hobby and without it I'm just sat staring mindlessly at my fucking laptop. I literally don't have a life outside of it right now, because education is sapping away all socialising I can physically manage.

This is genuinely just me whining but it's also hard to do literally anything if you're overworked n overwhelmed yet underappreciated. I set high expectations of myself, and when I don't meet them I just get this crushing weight of anxiety that people will be super disappointed in me for it. Nobody really wants to hear about what I have to say about those OCs I made because they aren't really all that special, are they? They're just taking my time away from other things.

I kind of pour my heart n soul into these creatures and I know it's wrong to hope that people will read any of my posts but when I'm talking about something and then it just becomes blatantly obvious that people haven't actually read my posts, it's just a bit upsetting. It's like I'm dragging myself through this haze of understimulation so I can keep dropping things for everyone, things that I care so much about and love to talk about, only to learn that nobody really cares about it, lmao.

It's a tad bit exhausting sometimes.

[dyinggoosenoises]

@her-stars um hi :) so your asks are closed but I wanted to say that uh your post (this one) is the reason me and my gf are together :) so um idk what you’re gonna do with this information but idk I kind of felt like saying it bc she and I are coming up on our 2 month anniversary

[whumpy-wyrms]

…i need a second opinion/ advice on something tllr related but i don’t wanna post about it just yet so

feels strange doing this but is anyone okay w me talking about this in dms or something? srry this is vague but its kinda important (nothing spoiler related at all) and i dunno if i’m overreacting or not so i want a second opinion

might delete this later idk

EDIT: ITS ALL FIGURED OUT NOW! 👍 ITS OKAY!

[free-to-be-no-one-but-mee]

Sunday Snippet

I was tagged by @dear-massacre thank you very much!

although it is monday in my world, i still will do this and today y’all are getting some more from my latest “calling out your name” (sterek) chapter!

“Close your eyes.” Stiles promptly did, expecting to get kissed, but Derek just drew a deep breath and said, “I've been to therapy… six times since I saw you last.”

Stiles opened his eyes and met his gaze. “Oh shit, really?” Then he remembered Derek had asked him to close his eyes, and he settled against the sheets, making a show of closing them again.

Derek's hand tentatively grazed Stiles' clavicle. “Really.”

“How is it?”

Derek moved the bed slightly, either adjusting or shrugging. “Terrible.”

“But…?” Stiles prompted. 

“But… I'm talking. A little.”

e x t e r m e l y  low pressure tags for @gloster​ @firefly124 @charlotte-frey​  all of which i don’t actually know, but i’m pretty sure are writers/want to write stuff

[dokukoi]

[monstroum]

amongst all the leather and extravagant makeup , louis had felt slightly out of place . watching the hysteria which lestat provoked upon a crowd felt both overwhelming and perfectly reasonable at the exact same time . he had always had a way about him ㅤ─ ㅤ and to have that amplified through the status of fame could generate enough force to birth a supernova . louis watched from a safe distance , keeping his hands in his jacket's pockets , smiling despite himself at the theatrics of the vampire lestat , clapping with the end of each song despite being alone in his celebration of him ... there , in the backstage's darkness , louis was allowed to admit to himself that he was proud of him .

and when it was over louis could not help but allow that pride to spill over ; at the sight of lestat , he wordlessly wrapped an arm around the other's shoulders , pulling him into a tight hug . and the kiss on the cheek , although unplanned , meant to press upon the others' skin what louis could not express through words ( if only lestat could read his thoughts and free louis from the embarrassment of speech ) . " you got people goin' crazy out there . " louis said , allowing one hand to linger on the other's shoulder . " i was in town . decided to pop by . not really my kinda scene but ㅤ─ ㅤ " louis wanted to tell lestat that he had really enjoyed the performance . " you looked good . " was what he said instead . a sheepish smile immediately flashed across his features . " you sounded good . "

he had to pull away to regain some space between both of them . they were taking things slow . trying to find some semblance of a self could not be done if louis was constantly chasing after what lestat and he had once had . nothing would change if he didn't change . still , louis could not help but curl his lips as he examined the other vampire's features . " looked happy . "

@monstroum ( LOUIS ) said : ❛  21 .   a  kiss  on  the  cheek .

most would deem it pathetic , the way his slow beating heart flutters over the simplicity of this touch . but most have never known louis , nor loved him , nor have they —

they are taking things slow . a perfectly modern phrase for these perfectly modern times in which time now reigns in abundance . in the distance , the sounds of his thousands of fans is slow to dissipate , wholly uneager to let the grandness of the night go . and were it any other night he would be more than tempted to indulge them , but . . . louis is here , pressing a chaste kiss to the high arch of his cheek and smiling that little smile that makes the world feel as though it's just for the two of them . louis is here to offer his congratulations and nothing more , and lestat is ( will be ) alright with that . of course , this does not prevent his responding smile from being positively soppy nor does it keep his hand from lingering at the delightful curve of his elbow . " always kind to me , mon cher . "

[roseworth]

controversial opinion. transmasc cassie headcanons make no sense to me bc as a wonder woman character it’s kind of a significant part of her character that she’s a girl and cares about being a woman. so it kinda feels like people are saying “hm… wears pants 🤔 doesn’t wear skirt 😲 boy 🫵❓”

[hyperkitten224]

I haven't had the motivation to draw for a while so. here have a WIP I'll probably never finish lol

[nartothelar]

Any spare change? ToT

I've mentioned this already but I recently got an infected tooth I need to go to a specialist about it! I have some money saved up but it will cost about an estimated $1k-$3K (since I don't have insurance OTL) and since I have school coming up, I can't really work during that time...

So I'm linking my kofi for anyone who'd like to help? I only need a portion of the cost so that I don't go in the red OwO' Any help would be super appreciated!

And please only help if you can spare it; I wouldn't want to financially burden anyone with this! Also, anyone donating 4 or more kofis get a little thank you doodle request; just leave the prompt in a comment!

[secretsofthewilde]

I've got some more half-baked thoughts on Deadloch and how it presents colonialism that I'll come back to once I go find the specific reading I had for a uni assignment that relates to this at some point

...Margaret Curruthers and her relationship with white femininity... the maternal persona she presents being her weapon of choice to gain power over those around her... white woman acting maternal towards poc in order to infantilize and dehumanize them... something something the white matriarch hides the evils of colonialism with a smile and a fresh batch of cookies for you

Sharelle(!!) and her numerous jobs that she's forced to work just to make ends meet for her and her child. Her aggressive distrust of police which seems comedic only to later be revealed, is due to her mother's wrongful (likely racially motivated) imprisonment. The repeated breach of her restraining order against her aggressive (white) ex being ignored by those around her/meant to protect her.

The way the show emphasises the importance of forming relationships as a community and the power/positive change that can come from doing that. The respect for the land and people that is needed in order to achieve that properly... The gentrification of towns like Deadloch essentially being a form of modern colonisation...

[sherlock-is-ace]

Just some thoughts about DID Holmes in Sherlock & Co.

I need to preface this by saying I don't have DID, all I know about it is from reading and hearing people who do have DID talk about their experience. I can be wrong, I don't mean any harm by it and I encourage people to correct me (just please be kind).

Ok so in the Sherlock & Co. canon, Holmes has DID, amongst a variety of other things, which is a new and interesting thing to explore with this character. I'm not sure if we'll ever see it explored in the show, or if it'll just stay a part of a long list of what makes Sherlock neurodiverse. But I've been thinking about it and I'd like to dump my thoughts here.

I think it makes absolutely perfect sense for Sherlock Holmes to have DID. Even in the ACD canon, Holmes isn't known to have had a good childhood and a good relationship with his parents. Jeremy Brett liked to think Holmes didn't see his mother until he was like eight years old. Lots of neglect, coupled with the struggles of being a "difficult child" because of his perticular cocktail of disorders (ADHD, ASD, SPD, DMDD and ODD), is just the perfect recipe for repetitive childhood trauma that could very well develop into DID. There's no question in my mind that it was a good decision (at least an interesting one) to give Sherlock DID in this adaptation. And that got me thinking about how much he probably struggled with it.

I chose to believe that Sherlock achieved final fusion years before he met John. That's what makes the most sense to me. We know he's got official diagnoses for these things, so it would make sense to me that he got professional help for his DID as well. And based on his personality, and his need to be in control and know all the information available to him, I think final fusion would be the result he would have seeked, as opposed to functional multiplicity.

Now of course one can't logic their way out of neurodiversity, and one can't just logic their way into final fusion. But what works and doesn't work has to have some connection to the way someone is, and I think Sherlock Holmes would have worked his ass out in therapy to achieve final fusion because I think it would have been a horrible time for a man like him.

I'm thinking about how he would handle the amnesia (we know his views in memory and identity), the loss of control when a different alter fronted, the confusion of "waking up" in a completely different part of town, disassociating in the middle of important (or interesting) tasks, etc. etc. I also think that perhaps, his addiction could have been a result of a persecutor alter.

As someone who struggles with communication because of his autism, I think perhaps that could also affect Holmes' communication with his alters. I genuinely don't know if that could be a thing or not, I've never met anyone who had DID and autism so I'm not sure how correct that assumption is. But if that communication was also a struggle, it would explain why functional multiplicity wouldn't work as well.

And I don't know, perhaps we'll have more glimpses into Sherlock's past in the podcast, and we'll learn more about his DID diagnosis, perhaps he hasn't achieved final fusion, perhaps he very much still struggles with switches and memory loss. We don't know, but I do hope we get to explore it more! It ads a new layer of complexity to the character that we haven't seen in other adaptations, and I really love that!

We know that Sherlock Holmes is always neurodivergent, whether that is explicitly diagnosed in canon or not. The whole point of Sherlock Holmes as a character, from ACD canon to any modern version, is that he doesn't think like everyone else. That is literally the definition of neurodiversity. To take that away from Holmes is to destroy the character. But what this adaptation did, by giving a name to each and every trait of Holmes is very interesting and I hope they can handle it well! So far I've been very pleasently surprised by the way they have handled Sherlock's autism. It is very much a part of him and it informs his actions, but it is not all that he is. And maybe it's because Joel Emery's daughter is autistic so he has more knowledge about it than the other disorders, but I still hope we get to see more of that as well, especially Sherlock's DID.

Alright that's all kdjfhg

As I said, I don't have DID so take everything I said with a grain of salt. But if anyone has thoughts they'd like to share please come talk to me! :D And if anyone has DID and wants to share their thoughts about Sherlock & Co. thought the lense of someone with the disorder please do! I'd be very happy to read about it. (Also my ask is always open if anon is more comfy)

[mygoodfriendjohnathanharker]

Fixed the door that Johnathan had slipped through, not letting that happen again!

[boycritter]

sometimes it feels like my dad forgets he has two kids.

[quintessenceofdust88]

venting a little bilingual frustration, feel free to ignore it but in Portuguese (at least Brazilian Portuguese, but I think European Portuguese is the same) we have two different translations for 'you':

for people you're intimate with/are the same age as you, we use 'você' (Ex: 'Você tá bem?'/'Are you okay?')

for older people/people you're not too familiar with, we use 'o senhor'/'a senhora' (Ex: 'A senhora precisa de ajuda?/'Do you need help?', when talking to an older lady, for example) AND I'M MISSING THIS DISTINCTION SO MUCH WHEN WRITING MY NONNA FIC, cause it feels SO wrong to have Buck call her 'you' I feel like the closest English equivalent would be him adding 'ma'am' at the end of the sentence, but doesn't feel quite the same.

[samijey]

Let me act unwise for a little bit about the tragedy of Jey Uso at this point in the storyline:

This is not a “I will beat you up to the point of ending you” even though I promised Roman I would finish the Sami Zayn problem for good so he would expect us to beat you up so badly you’d never come close to the Bloodline ever again;

This is a “why won’t you quit” because I want this match to be over so I don’t have to feel torn anymore;

This isn’t a "you should have never joined the Bloodline" even though I didn’t trust you for months and kept twisting myself into knots to interpret everything you did as betrayal or weakness;

It's a "you should never have left the Bloodline" because you saw the good in me the whole time and never gave up on me even while I saw enemies around every corner after being beaten and manipulated into valuing power and status above friendship and respect yet your decision to leave is forcing me to hurt you to protect my family, even though I grew to love you as if you were part of it too and having us end up here is better than for it to have never happened at all; The more Sami refuses to stand down, the more Jey feels obligated to hurt him and the more he hurts the person who in Jey’s own words “saw the good in him” at a time where Jey likely didn’t see it himself as he’d been playing the role of Roman’s henchman for so long - a role he fought against until he literally couldn’t anymore.

Jey is still not ready to face the fact that Roman is the real enemy in this situation (although his reactions to Sami’s recent accusations make it abundantly clear that he knows) and the one who has put Jey in the position that he's in - he's protecting his family FROM his family and the day he finally comes to terms with how wrong that situation is and decides to act on it... it’s over for Roman and the tale of main event Jey Uso will hopefully come full circle. Roman vs Jey 3 has to happen and when it does Jey should have his family backing him up... Jimmy, Solo AND Sami.