#feel free to ask any follow up questions!

[tofuo0]

dottore x gn reader headcanons

webttore edition !!

tags: fluff, touch of angst, that’s lwk it 😭

note: the zandik x reader series fic is in progress, it’s taking me a while to plan it out so bear with me 🙏 I’ll be making other Dottore content in the meantime (and other characters possibly), please feel free to send suggestions too :D

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- I’m 100% with the other Dottore fans who say he has a sweet tooth. If you enjoy baking, he’ll often come to you and suggest new recipes. He makes himself the first taste-tester of every dish you make 💗

- He’s actually internally insecure about his relationship with you - he’s worried you might end up leaving him or falling out of love because of the nature of his work. On these days, he’ll seem more distant, more engrossed in his inventions, all in an effort to avoid you. You inevitably need to drag him away and interrogate him, and while it takes a lot of convincing, he opens up about his concerns.

- He deeply appreciates it when you initiate a hug or even cuddle him during these times - it makes him feel like he deserves to be with you.

- A BIG fan of hand-holding. You gently sliding his gloves off after a hard day makes him giddy 🤭

- On a similar note, he also feels insecure if you have any interest in other segments or even Prime Dottore. Despite them all technically being the same person, he’s inclined to believe he’s superior to his doubles. Will huff and puff if he finds out you’ve spent time with them, even if it was to ask a simple question.

- He will LOSE IT if he finds you wearing anything of his, especially his coat, bow tie or mask. He teases you about ‘following in his footsteps’ - the whole thing is just a huge boost to his ego (if his ego can even get bigger)

- Will absolutely be down to help you create your own matching earring to his. He finds it endearing that you want to imitate him in a sense (ego boost once again), but it also shows that you take this relationship seriously and intend to stick around. :)

- Surprisingly easy to fluster - yes, he has his quips and teasing moments too, but if YOU start calling him pet-names or coo at him softly, it’s over. Red face, no eye contact, stuttering, the whole package. When his demeanour reverts back to normal, he demands that you don’t tell a soul about any of it.

- Despite disliking parties and similar social events, he’ll instantly be compelled to go knowing you’re accompanying him. He adores seeing you in formal wear, admiring how stunning you look all dolled up (not like you aren’t already perfection in his eyes).

[sysmedsaresexist]

do you mayhaps have advice on how to be out as a system to our psychotherapist?

we'd really want her to know

I wrote a post once that I really wanted to link here and I can't find it, I'm going to have to try again

Don't beat around it, I see so many posts that suggest being coy, testing the waters, and then letting the therapist come to the conclusion

Don't do that

I agree to an extent about testing the waters.

If you're concerned about whether your therapist is knowledgeable or a believer, ask them:

DO ASK: Do you have any experience with dissociation and dissociative disorders?

If you're uncomfortable with their response, find a different therapist

Easier said than done, but if you're not comfortable, don't tell them, wait

DO ASK: can you tell me about your experience and thoughts?

Again, if you're uncomfortable, wait

FEEL FREE TO COMPLETELY RE-INTERVIEW YOUR THERAPIST

Do it

DO ASK: What are your thoughts around healing? Do you think fusion is required? What does a road map of treatment look like going forward?

Once you've decided you're comfortable telling this person, just tell them

Your therapist isn't an idiot, they're waiting for you to say it as much as you're waiting for them to say it

The best way to have a clear, concise conversation is to get on the same page

If you're being coy and, "sometimes I feel like different people," Do you know how many things that could be? Do you know how many things that could mean?

Tell them: I am plural, I think I have a CDD, I have DID, I'm questioning, just be straight up

This is terrifying

I know, you've heard so many stories of people being forcefully committed, the horrors of psych wards--

That's not going to happen, especially if you've done your due diligence to find out where your therapist stands

That only happens when you're a clear danger to yourself or others

You're sitting in a therapist's office having a calm conversation

You're safe

And because I know the fear is going to sit in your head, if this DOES happen, stay calm

Stay calm, don't panic, once you're processed (if they even do process you, because why is this calm person being committed) you'll be able to make phone calls, call anyone and everyone, and get a number for a malpractice lawyer

The calmer you are, the more money you're going to get, because obviously you're not supposed to be there

STORY TIME

I was having a bad, bad time with one of my medications, it turned out I was allergic but I wouldn't learn that until weeks after this

I went to the hospital to get an emergency psych consult about coming off my medication immediately (many medications can't be stopped cold turkey)

The doctor that took my file had seen me before and was homophobic, I left his office part way through my session because he refused to call my abuser my "partner", instead continually referring to her as my "friend"

This doctor, without seeing me again, had me sanctioned and involuntarily admitted

STAY CALM

I was not calm

I worked the next morning, I'm a smoker and I was not allowed one last cigarette after finding out 3 hours into my visit that I was no longer allowed to leave the ward I was currently in

I panicked

I will never forget him finally coming to see me, late that night, and me crying, telling him I couldn't be there, I had to work, my job, and him SMIRKING at me and saying,

"Are you sure? Look at you right now."

Don't let them put you in that corner

In the end, this actually didn't affect much of anything, the nurses are usually pretty good at spotting these things

They calmed me down, gave me something to help me sleep, and in the morning, I made all my calls. My partner had called one of my old friends from my legal years, and by lunch, I had a meeting face to face with the same doctor

I explained we had a lawyer, that I was clearly not a danger, and that I needed to leave

And I was walked out of the hospital ten minutes later with new prescriptions and follow-up appointments with other psychiatrists

My file was later faxed to my GP and there was no information on my very brief hospital admittance

My doctor pursued a complaint, but I don't know what happened with it

If your doctor wanted to admit you, you'd already be admitted

You know who DIDN'T have me sanctioned?

My therapist, when I straight up told her I had DID

I promise, it's okay to tell them

***provided you're comfortable with their answers to your questions

[emperor-kumquat]

Sincere suggestions for commissioned artists, from a client's perspective

I am an artist myself, but I don't do commissions.

However I do commission artists and pay them $1000s of dollars USD every year! My project Transformers: Mercy has included around 100 artists and I look for new ones all the time on Tumblr. After all, I just couldn't complete my project without some help. In the Transformers fandom, I guess I could be a top fan artist employer! Screw AI art, right?!

(Feel free to DM me if you would like to be commissioned by me or volunteer art for my big Transformers: Prime sequel game.)

When everything goes well, I am a repeat commissioner and you have me as a permanent client. But what might turn me or another client away from commissioning you initially or a second time?

If you...

... Ask for email-only communication/ have any barriers to direct and fast communication [X]

If we're on Tumblr, I would just like to message you all the details for my comm and get quick updates here. Emailing is not swift! Or sometimes, you have a setting where only blogs you follow can message you. I'll try to leave a comment or an ask, but I might not be seen and the opportunity passes. Consider turning DMs on if you are looking for commissions!

I am also not a huge fan of downloading a comm question sheet, filling it out, and sending it back. It is so much faster for me to just dump all the details of my request (and by now, I know how to be specific). If anything is unclear, I would like the artist to just reach out and ask.

2. ... Give no regular communication and updates [X]

If someone has paid you for a service, please respect that. Give an estimated time for completion and if something comes up, update the client. Clients get nervous waiting days or weeks without updates and they should not have to reach out to ask about what they paid for. Give progress updates too... sketch phase, line art, flats, rendering, what have you. If the client wants changes, it is less grief for everyone to make the change before too much effort goes into the comm. Please, reassure your clients!

3. ... Don't refer to given instructions and reference pictures [X]

I give very specific instructions and reference pictures for my artists. Sometimes, time passes. They forget what the instructions were and send me a work in progress that is not what was requested. It's frustrating when with a scroll up, they would have seen all the instructions again. Please look back to your instructions constantly throughout the process, not just once. Double-check for details as you work.

Client story: Sometimes it's as silly as me asking for a night scene and getting sent a day scene. Sometimes it's characters doing the wrong action. Sometimes it's the wrong angle from what I asked for. Sometimes it's forgetting that I wanted a character to be holding a certain item. All the instructions were given, and the chunk of text which describes the scene, but they were not carefully read.

4. ... State "no changes" or "limited number of changes" in your comm sheet [X]

This worries a client like me. What does that mean, I wonder? What if I perfectly expressed my request but the artist didn't get it right? Will they get upset if I request a small change? I have come to understand some people mean "no major changes from the original request", but it can sound like I don't have a say in the production phase and I could be stuck with something I don't like.

Client story: One time, an artist forgot a piece to a character's arm. It was a wing and blaster, clear on the reference sheet. I only noticed later after the comm was done, so that was on me. I reached out, hoping they could add in the missing piece even for a reasonable quick price because it took me so long to notice. They told me it would cost $40 USD to add in the piece of the arm. I declined. $40 USD, for a piece of an arm?? It was unreasonable. Because of that, I have not returned to this client and otherwise would have.

5. ... Ask for payment up front [X?]

It's a stand off! Because no one wants to be scammed. The artist is afraid of spending so much time and effort to not be paid; the client is afraid the artist is a fraud and will run away with the money.

Now I haven't been scammed yet and I have paid many artists up front many times. But I saw their blogs and they seem trustworthy. Whereas those bots on fanfiction.net, never trust them. But it is still uncomfortable as a client to pay upfront. Sometimes I pay an artist, then 6 months later, I get my art. If you need a lot of time to finish a piece, inform the client and consider getting your payment after. Care for your client and ease their worries. It isn't fun to pay someone then get radio silence for a quarter or half a year... imagine being in that position!

The best solution I've seen? The client pays full or half the payment after the rough sketch phase. The artist hasn't committed too much time yet and the client can see if the artist is capable or not of completing the request. I think it makes us all feel more at ease.

6. ... Are strict/inflexible with pricing [X]

An artist can decide their prices. This isn't about how to value art. But consider this story for nuance:

Client story: This artist I was working with, like most, had set prices per added character. However, I wanted some very tiny background characters who would be lower detail. Characters about the size of a pencil eraser. They wanted to charge full price for each character as though they were like those in detail in the foreground. We tried to negotiate a lower price, but I felt it was still ridiculously high for tiny background characters (around $25 each, if I recall). Because of this, I didn't return to this artist.

7. ... Want to be paid by the hour [X]

Look, I understand wanting to be paid minimum wage for your work. Art is a worthy job! Unfortunately, I have no way to monitor how many hours you actually worked on something. And what if you are slow on purpose? What if you personally are slow at art and not improving on your speed? I am not an employer at an animation studio or anything like that. This is too uncontrollable (and their estimated prices jump up to around $200+ USD for a scene that on average would otherwise cost me $50 USD). I think you should set your prices how you want then let people decide if that price suits them.

8. ... Want a signed contract [X]

Once again I understand not wanting to be scammed. I think the "pay upfront or pay after sketch" thing could protect you as an artist. Maybe you believe the contract comforts us both, but to me, it feels too suspicious or accusatory. No one wants to be treated as a scammer if they are sincere, right? It makes me too uncomfortable and the interaction too business-like. I prefer working with artists who are passionate about Transformers like me, which is why I only commission Transformers fan artists. That way we have real heart in the project. Let's not make it strictly about the money or a tight suspicious business interaction. If I see a contract to sign, I don't commission.

9. ... State "no posting or using the art" [X]

I commission art so that it can appear in my story game. If I pay an artist to make something that I can't show to others, it's a no go for me. I would like to reblog our commission or post it on social media while crediting the artist properly. Your clients are probably very excited to show their commissions (but the clients should never post the art without the credits and never sell that art for their own gain). I let my artists know what the art will be used for, but if I see a statement like this in a comm sheet, I don't reach out initially. It makes me think we'll have a conflict and aren't compatible.

10. ... Argue about how a scene or character should look [X]

This is an odd one, but here are two examples:

Client story: There were two characters in a scene. I asked if one of them could be smaller. The artist insisted they wanted the character to be larger (by this, I mean in height) because they liked big robots. I explained that this character wasn't particularly tall. For some reason, I had to push to get the character the height I wanted him for my story. It was unpleasant.

Client story: I like TFP Starscream without fangs. Some people like to add fangs. No biggie, until I'm the client paying you to draw him for me. They added fangs, I requested no fangs, it turned into an argument on why he should have fangs because he had jagged teeth in RID2015. Whatever it is, respect the client's preferences. Isn't the picture for them?

Please make your client happy and fulfill their requests.

11. ... Are rude or snappy! [X]

Client story: One time I reached out to an artist intending to do a huge commission. But I like to make the commission as fun as possible for my artists so I ask who their favourite Transformers characters are and if they prefer action or calm scenes. That way I can select a good scene for them off my giant list. And for this artist, I explained I had lots of options because it was a big story game. The artist demanded I just give my request, they said they just wanted to make money, then went on a rant that I was poorly organized. Well, we didn't do a commission and they missed out my $100 USD request.

Other suggestions to help you attract and retain clients:

Have someone proofread your comm sheet for typos and grammar (I have never turned someone down for this, it's just an idea)

Provide invoices that don't require addresses

Have a fun and positive comm sheet without passive aggressive statements. Do's and Don'ts are ok, but please don't seem bitter/fierce about something that may have happened in the past. Some terms and conditions really seemed to treat me like a troublemaker or threat!

Have a positive/non aggressive blog that avoids foul language

Appear open to discussion, flexible, and reasonable

These are just my suggestions: the suggestions of a client. It's up to you to accept or reject them as a paid artist. We all have our reasons. They are however, my secret reasons for not returning to certain artists or initially reaching out to them!

[k4is4rion]

In the Wake of Us - PROLOGUE

Parent!Bucky x Child!GN!Reader x Bob Reynolds

‼️⚠️TWs: Canon typical trauma+violence, brief allusions to SA, Brain washing, MCD (or so you think)⚠️‼️

HELLOOOOO MY NEW GAGGLE OF FOLLOWERS! YOU HAVE BEEN HEARD! Ask and you shall receive, I must give the people what they want. I’m still working out how I want this fic to go with how early or late in the timeline it starts, though I might mess around with the idea of flashbacks when they’re relevant. Bob’s not quite in this yet, but it felt necessary to provide a little somethin somethin beforehand. I hope I am up to Tumblr’s standards as a long time reader of fanfic, because I cranked this out over two days between prepping for finals and other activities (and wrote this entirely on my phone)

I am not very confident in this one because it is just providing basically a summary ofthe necessary information the best I can to set stuff up for the future, rest assure the normally paced story will be MUCH better 🙏

Feel free to comment suggestions or feedback (but please be nice to me I haven’t posted publicly since wattpad in 2019)

WC: 2540

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The faint buzz of the lights was the only sound in the room as a moment of silence passed between the two who sat across from one another. The woman with the clipboard looked up at you overtop her glasses, which now sat on the lower bridge of her nose. She shifted her position slightly, still looking at you with the usual intensity— or rather the lack thereof. She had an unsettling air of neutrality about her that always seemed to irk you.

“Barnes, for the last time, if you do not participate fully and truthfully in this session, you will not be given release. I don’t want to delay you any further, but rules are rules. I have to make a final report.” She spoke, her pen sat between her index and middle fingers as she gripped the clipboard. You meet her eyes for the first time as you slouch back in your chair.

“It’s been.. what, five years and you’re still calling me that? Even though I’ve told you that calling me anything else is fine? Barnes doesn’t belong to me. You wound me, Doc.”

“It’s what you selected to be put on your official documents.” She adjusted her glasses before looking back up at you. “Consider it for old time’s sake, then. But still, Y/n, you’re avoiding the question. In your own words, describe a brief history of your life. Including everything you’ve begrudgingly discussed within our sessions. We’re doing this so we can send a transcript to your next specialist. Wouldn’t you prefer to give your side of the story instead of just your records?” Taking in her reasoning, you glance at the microphone recording this session. They were usually recorded for security purposes but this in particular was for just for documentation. With a deep breath, you reluctantly began explaining your very.. humble beginnings.

Your conception was begun roughly around the late 60s, although conceptualized much earlier with the apparent success of the winter soldier program. A series of roughly twenty children were to be conceived from hand-selected pairs of up-and-coming male and female super soldiers, all based on their first and only success; the original Winter Soldier. You were lucky enough to receive your genetic makeup from the blueprint; as well as a promising young woman. It was an unfortunate truth that your conception was not a happy story. Genetic engineering was rudimentary at the time and they did not care to what extent their “donors” suffered. Even with this reluctant knowledge, the intimidating man with the metal arm has cared deeply for you even in the circumstances you both found yourself in. He said you were a beautiful little test tube baby from what he remembers. Hydra quickly introduced you to one another in hopes of forming an early bond between soldiers, primarily in pairs with their best-suited parent. This was to not only establish partners that functioned perfectly together but to have something to hold over these people even when they previously had nothing. You called this guardian of yours “Soldat”, but much like you, he had no real name.

One by one, the adults failed the program or their children did. One by one there would be one less soldier. It was survival of the fittest, not only for being put against one another but for general survivability. Genetic modification was a large factor in many of the children’s deaths until few remained, then in your early childhood- only you. You were all that remained. In a desperate attempt to not have this all been for nothing, they put everything they could into you. Biomechanical enhancements to help your physical condition and functionality and a steady stream of serum to keep you healthy. For the first several years of your life, it was spent exclusively learning and training. Occasionally when the winter soldier was due for a mission, his break from cryostasis would be extended by higher-ups to train her. It was rough, of course, being a child training with such a violent force, but he cared whenever he could. For some reason, kneeling down before you to aid your wounds felt oddly familiar. Like he had done it routinely before to another little girl he cared deeply about. Hell, you even looked similar. But at the end of the day, his thoughts were irrelevant. His job was not to think, his job was to do as he was told. You learned this very quickly as it became clear that failure to understand this would result in something awful. You were a quick learner— you had to be if you were to continue surviving.

Once they decided you were adequate enough to be functional as a weapon, you began your cryogenic stints, only being woken up when it was time for another task. This wore heavily on your already fragile condition, even despite your inhuman strength. This also happens to cause another subsequent issue with you, your aging being incredibly messed up. Yes, you were conceived nearly 60 years ago, but you’ve only been conscious for a small part of that. In 2014 you were still practically a young teenager when the Winter Solider made his great escape. In his emotional distress, he made perhaps the most regretful decision of his life. He left you behind in the hands of the enemy, escaping without you. You only followed much later after being sent after him to end his life, but when you were met with the opportunity to, you simply couldn’t. You ran off, not back to Hydra, but going into hiding for the time being. You used what skills they taught you in case you needed to be self-sustainable until you could be recovered by backup, but it was hardly enough. It was incredibly challenging having to figure out how to get by on your own after being constantly monitored and treated by professionals. Not only that, but you were suffering from withdrawals due to Hydra forcing your dependency on the serum, as well as an injury from when you dug out your tracker from your bicep. You had a nasty infection by the time your “Soldat” found you, but he was joined by a strange new man who offered you help. His name was Steve Rodgers, that Captain America fellow you and the Winter Soldier were sent after a while ago. He was incredibly kind to you, even if you didn’t trust him. He was patient with not only you but him as well. The two seemed close- you hadn’t ever seen this side of him. This is also when you decided on your new name; Y/n Rebecca Barnes. Bucky chose your middle name, saying it was after someone special.

This is also when you learned a lot about the man you previously thought you knew. It turned out his name was James, James Buchanan Barnes. Even if his name was James, he seemed to prefer Bucky. He was also from New York City, where he grew up alongside Steve during the Great Depression. Over time you felt more and more distressed upon the realization that you didn’t know Bucky at all, let alone yourself. You realized early on that you were a reminder of a profound amount of trauma for a man who got mixed up with something he never deserved. You desperately tried making yourself better, especially for his sake, but there was only so much you could do. You still stuck to your habits, your purpose— to serve alongside the winter soldier.

You fought valiantly for your freedom, doing what you could to protect Bucky against these people who wished to get ahold of you both. Between half of the Avengers coming after you as well as the United States government, you were stretched pretty thin. Bucky swore that you both would get through this, that he would give you the life you deserved. He struggled to believe himself sometimes, but he knew he had to try. He would get better for you. He would atone for his sins by doing what he can for you. He had a life outside of Hydra before being captured, but you never got the chance. Without realizing it, you both became devoted to the safety of one another.

It would become apparent the world was against you both, as during a fight attempting to exit Siberia, you were wounded as you defended him from a harsh blow. Steve and Bucky were forced to decide between saving you or escaping, but you pleaded with them to follow through with the latter. They did, albeit begrudgingly, after Natasha promised Steve that she would look out for you until they could come back for you. Nat did this as best as she could and for as long as she could, but instead of going to the raft with the others, you were imprisoned in a top-secret base to be studied. You only got to experience freedom for a short time prior to this, so even if the conditions were considerably better than Hydra, it was still awful. You spent so long wondering if Bucky was alright, hoping your sacrifice wasn’t for nothing.

Nearly two years later, you were allowed visitation with Steve. It was a sweet reunion, almost immediately bringing your worry over Bucky to an end, but it ultimately was to discuss something very important. None other than your possible pardon. There was something brewing and all hands on deck were needed; including you. After all, you were a world-class assassin. Plus, Wakanda was developing a cure for Bucky whilst being a refugee there. It was nice to know he was somewhere safe even if he missed you as much as Steve said he did, based on what he’s heard from communicating with T’Challa and Shuri about his condition. With vague permission from the United States government, you headed out with Steve’s team to Wakanda. You and Bucky were going to be together again and fight together, just like it was for old time’s sake.

When you walked through the central part of Wakanda, your mind was elsewhere, not taking even a moment to admire your surroundings. You were only focused on getting back to him as you walked silently behind Steve. You weren’t used to being in foreign places without Bucky so you were completely on edge, even with Nat doing her best to make sure you didn’t freak out completely. Steve was the first one to greet Bucky as he was led by T’Chally. The two were happy to see one another again, Steve giving him a hug and exchanging fond remarks. Once they parted from the hug, Bucky saw you standing there. You had grown up slightly, a sight he wasn’t used to seeing. It made his heart ache as he took you into his arms as tightly as he could without harming you. It was hard not to allow the tears brimming your eyes to fall in front of your allies, but Bucky still held you close and buried his face into your hair as you instinctively nuzzled into his neck. Quiet exchanges of how much you missed one another were shared. As you both parted, he moved his hands to your shoulders. He looked at you with the most love you had ever seen before quietly remarking. “You’ve grown up. It’s good to see you, kid.” It was a very genuine sentiment he shared, as for the entirety of his time caring for you, your survival was not guaranteed. He never thought he’d be able to see the day when you look like you’ve gotten a chance to regroup yourself.

You spent what time you could together discussing what life had been like over the last two years for the both of you. He lived a peaceful life as a farmer, while you were under the care of the United States government. You both received very different treatments for your brainwashing, with his somewhat holistic treatment being more successful than your purely clinical and scientific one. Your brain was poked and prodded, while he received therapy. Bucky told you that once this was all over, the Wakandans said they could help you too. It gave you hope, more than you’ve had in a very long time. Soon after this conversation, it was time for what you came here for. Saving the world.

Loss was a thing you had become accustomed to a long time ago. But this felt incomparable. The fight was over, Thanos had won. He had successfully removed half of all life and with just the snap of his fingers, you watched the only person you’ve ever trusted turn to dust. He was gone and it felt like you had nothing left. With the chaos that followed this, you returned home with Steve. He did his best to console you but he was struggling with the loss of his best friend for the second time. Because of the aforementioned chaos of the situation, the government essentially went on lockdown while it attempted to regain control over the situation. This unfortunately meant your incarceration for the second time with no end in sight. You had no one left to fight for you. Steve certainly tried, as he knew that’s what Bucky would’ve wanted, but he could only do so much. He was spread thin after the blip and you fell through the cracks.

You would remain in prison for five years, with constant experimentation traded for frequent monitoring performed. It felt as though you were forgotten about and would never taste that sweet, sweet freedom again. You always thought you’d die alone and without any freedom, but after having it for such a brief moment in your life, it only seemed to twist the knife into the wound. You forced yourself to adjust and get used to it, just like you always had. You grew accustomed to the monotony of constant scheduling very quickly. It became a cycle of government-mandated therapy, frequent checkups, and doing what you could to use up the passage of time. You received permissions for good behavior that were enough to keep you somewhat sane for the most part. Steve visited you when he could, but one day he stopped coming. You learned why when you saw the news: the 50% that had been lost were returning.

Now here you were. About a month or two later, still in here. The only word you got was from the news on the television, making the theory you genuinely had been lost to time all the more real and fearful. That was until a week ago. You received mail for the first time in a long time— an official government document. Your case of a pardon was being reopened; alongside Bucky’s. That’s what brought you here. You were having your last mandatory session within your prison before you were being released, and boy were you thankful to get out of here.

“Well, aren’t we both glad I remembered to hit record? I believe we are just about out of time.” Doctor Miller spoke as she placed down her clipboard.

“What, no ‘same time next week’?”

“Not this time. Enjoy your long-awaited freedom, Y/n. It was good treating you.”

[theloganator101]

In a previous ask I made awhile back, I’d explained how Vaggie’s voice was just Vivziepop having Stephanie reusing Gina Cazador’s voice from Bojack Horseman, how Vaggie's voice should've been more like Gosalyn’s voice from DuckTales’ 2017, as well as how in my own rewrite of Vaggie, who I’d renamed to Violetta ‘Violey’ Torres, she's a Mexican American winner angel who lives a secret double life helping her girlfriend, Charlie, in their dream to bring back the Purgatory redemption system.

This is supposed to act as a follow up to that previous ask, as I want to say something that I forgot to mention in the previous one, particularly with how Violey would feel about her canon counterpart known as Vaggie.

To be honest, Violey wouldn't like her canon counterpart at all, especially with how she's been a massive hypocritical bitch who’d lied to Charlie about the fact that she was an exorcist who’d slaughtered thousands of her people for years.

The exorcist thing alone wouldn't sit well with Violey at all, especially considering that in my rewrite, as I've mentioned before, while she had been approached into joining the exorcists, she ended up passing them down due to a deep dark feeling in her gut telling her not to accept the offer, which she listened to. Remember folks, always pay attention to your intuition or instincts, as it might help you throughout life.

And not only that, but another thing that she dislikes about her canon self is the whole unhealthy codependency that she has on Charlie, and that especially includes the child coddling which Violey finds to be very disturbing.

Hell, even Violey's relationship with my rewrite of Charlie is much healthier than the relationship of their canon counterparts. This is because Violey is much more honest to Charlie, who knows that she's a winner angel. While with Charlie, she's a lot more mature and responsible, and not only that, but actually listens to Violey. And as a bonus, they actually know how to compromise.

Oh, and speaking of my version of Charlie, do not get me started on how she feels about her canon counterpart, as it's already hard enough working to bring back the Purgatory redemption system after it was wrongfully discarded for reasons unknown, it's even harder when the man-childish canon version of yourself is running around, claiming that she came up with the idea of redeeming sinners, even though Purgatory has been around for centuries.

(Also, if you happen to have any questions regarding my rewrite, my ask box is open, so feel free to ask and I'll be happy to answer them whenever I could get around to them)

Already your version of Charlie and Vaggie sounds like a VAST improvement from canon.

And Swap!Vox would be kind of the same way towards Canon!Vaggie since he takes her place in my story. He would NOT be sympathetic towards her for one bit, considering how she was going to KEEP lying and didn't even seem remorseful about it.

[babydipper]

Tim and Kon aren't speaking.

Well, technically they are speaking because Superboy and Red Robin are, but Red Robin talks to him the way he talks to the Justice League on the handful of times when Young Justice is called in as reinforcements. He talks to him like Kon is fucking stupid and not worth explaining RR's thought process. It's Tim's default setting, distinctively Batman all in all and Kon knows that this is how all the Bats operate; on this insane amount of blind trust and loyalty. He has seen it in each and every one of them, in different configurations: with Batman, with Nightwing, fuck, even sometimes with Red Hood when the Outsiders needed some help and Jason was focused enough to slip into subconscious reponses. It's their default and Kon isn't sure they even understand that this is how they work. It's so obvious for them that they are to be followed and not questioned that Kon doesn't think they understand it could be any other way.

Kon also knows that he is fucking stupid and quite literally made to take orders and not question them. It was a whole issue, back when he was still starting out, when Tim was learning the ropes of leadership. Kon was made to take orders, so he created a personality that would be his, that would never do anything someone told him to do, in this great attempt at freeing himself from CADMUS's phantom hands. Doing the exact opposite of what they made him to do was not a way to free himself, it turned out. It was not following his gut and trusting, it was a futile attempt to escape of a trashing animal. He has moved on from that, learned to ask how high after being told to jump by Tim. It took them hours and hours of talking, multiple life or death situations, to find a careful balance. Tim knows Kon needs to understand. Kon knows Tim needs to feel trusted and capable.

The point, though, is that they are not talking outside of giving and taking orders in the field because Kon is fucking stupid and ran his mouth instead of sticking it where it belonged, which is on Tim's mouth. Kon could apologise, but he doesn't exactly think he's wrong. He was wrong for saying it at all and not for what he said exactly.

Because being poisoned by Kryptonite is worse than getting beaten up.

Kon has done both, he knows what he's talking about. Tim countered that Kryptonians most likely have much lower pain tolerance than humans, especially under the yellow sun, due to being invulnerable. Kon took offence because what the fuck? His best quality is that he's a tank, he can take a beating. It's Tim who's a twig.

So, now they are not talking and Cassie is looking at them as if her parents were fighting and Bart is oblivious, so everybody is pretending that things are okay, so he doesn't find out. It's a whole thing and it's exhausting.

But it's the principle of the thing now. Kon isn't going to cower and neither is Tim.

you know these videos where men are connected to a thing so they can experience period cramps because they say being kicked in the balls is worse than having period? this but it's tim connecting kon because he ran his mouth that whatever the bats have on daily basis is terrible but still better than kryptonite and tim will prove that kryptonians have low pain tolerance even if it kills him (he has been running around with sensors on patrol and getting his ass kicked more than usual to have right data) (they are not talking for two weeks because tim hyperfixates)

[greatlyblessed]

Sorry not if you were ever asked this. For 03 what is your opinion on each of the boys?

Hey! I don't think I've been asked this on tumblr so, time to go on a Rant™️

('03 is my favorite turtle show. It's just so goooood but okay specifically about the turtles--)

oh right i got really long I should add in a readmore--

Gonna start with Mikey. Ah Mikey. I think I called him a gremlin troll of a turtle in some tags earlier and I stand by that. This turtle wakes up every day going 'how can I make someone else (mostly Raph) chose violence'. He is good at reading people and he makes that everyone else's problem. Weaponized Incompetence King. I love him so much. He was my favorite on my first watch through but I don't think I have a favorite any more.

But also he's a good boy!! He wants to help people out. I was rewatching the series but I didn't really get past season 1 so I'm just thinking about the first Turtle Titan episode. He got an idea on how they could be COOL but nobody else was down for it, so fine he'll do it on his own--

10/10 turtle. Menace to society. Probably the smartest Mikey in the turtle multiverse.

Raph. Oh sweetie. Boy has so many feelings and struggles with dealing with them. 😭Relatable. He learns and grows over the course of the series and I'm happy for him. Big softie on the inside, prickly cactus on the outside. Feel like a lot of his anger is just other feelings turning into anger because y'know. Emotions Hard.

He has his struggles and his problems but he loves his brothers. I love his dynamics with everyone. Fighting with Mikey, the way he manages to actually be Soft with Donnie. The way he manages to even out into someone that helps Leo keep his balance over just. Challenging him in a way that sets Leo off. (Remembering the fight over the sword Shredder gave Leo early on now--)

10/10 turtle too. Goober. Not as funny as he thinks he is (and that only makes him more endearing.)

Leo. Oh no honey. Sweetheart. Baby boy. This boy goes THROUGH IT. I've seen a meta about his Trauma and how he's a lot more laughing and joking around pre-Window and then we don't see him lightening up again till Fast Forwards/BTTS. And yeah I can see it. This boy thinks DEEP. Maybe a bit too much so. Internalization King. Give him a nice cup of tea, a warm blanket and a hug please.

He's just so weighted down with the task of keeping his brothers alive. Mikey's the one who wanted to be a superhero but Leo's probably the one who actually has the most 'heroic' temperament. Very keen sense of 'bad things are happening and we can do something about it'. But also 'bad things may happen to us if we meddle too much'. (Which, they do. And then they all almost die because of calls Leo made so of course he handles that extremely well.)

10/10 turtle. Daddy's boy got his Autistic Swag. Ninjitsu is his special interest.

Don. Ah, Donny. (Which is apparently how it's spelled in 03.) Kind soul. Sweetheart. Precious. Absolute menace. Do not let his mild manners fool you. This boy is insane. LEAST common sense out of the four of them. Thinks that playing a flight simulator makes him qualified to fly an actual helicopter. (If Raph had hair Don would absolutely be making it go grey.) Mikey is a menace on purpose. Don? Don thinks he's the sensible, rational one. Which just makes him even more terrifying.

He's such a kind, sweet soul. Loves building his vehicles lol. He's got the combo of being fairly even-tempered and also more mild mannered so he's good at not making any Bickers worse among his family. I love how they all dropped everything and went to check on him in that one episode where he was stressed out and yelled at everyone. 😭

10/10 turtle. Let's not forget this boy had his own PTSD arc in the Back to the Sewers season. Of all places.

[buzzingroyalty]

how to grub your karkat

or you can use this for any other plush or if you wanna make a whole new plush entirely or whatever

disclaimer im not a professional in any sense of the word and theres anything technical im doing wrong or you think you can do it better by all means dont hold back

Things you’ll need

sewing machine unless youre really dedicated but doing it by hand is gonna be an agonizing feat i promise. I just used a straight stitch for everything

Fabrics: for the main body i suggest a minky or something soft, for the inner lining something in the same color as the main body and ideally with some stretch, and anything black for the legs. Less than a yard of each will do

if youre using minky or anything furry get a lint roller. Trust me

stuffing, i used polyfil

threads that match your fabrics

good fabric scissors

sewing needle for hand sewing/fixes

karkat plush (optional)

Heres the pattern i came up with! They are numbered for your convenience and pieces with the same numbers are going to be part of the same row of segments. cut everything out on the black lines (Make sure when you’re printing to fit the image to the page size.) on the left we have the belly pieces, the right is the main body, and we have the foot in between

Im using a relatively thin minky fabric, im sure you can use whatever but something with some fluffiness kinda helps to mask any imperfections in the sewing. When drawing out your patterns keep in mind what direction your fibers settle in and try to keep it consistent

On the wrong side of the fabric measure out at least a half inch seam allowance around each piece of the pattern, i used a centimeter and that worked but had me sweatin a bit.

For the main body pieces fold your fabric in half before you cut so you can have 2 of each segment that are mirrored to each other, i also extended all of the #1 pieces an additional centimeter/half inch at the top so we can fold them over at the very end. I highly suggest numbering the insides of all the cut pieces, especially in a way where you will remember what direction they are each meant to sit

After you’ve numbered all your pieces, set them aside and start making your feet!

Each of the 6 legs is made of two pieces, but i because i only had a swatch of the black minky i made up for the rest with some random black scrap fabric from an old project. Try to keep your fabric consistent if you can lol

I didnt give these pieces any more seam allowance on the fabric but i recommend adding a centimeter or half inch to the base of it to extend the length and have some more wiggle room

like so

Instead of cutting out 12 individual pieces and struggling to stitch them all together i started with 6, then pinning each piece real tight with the right/furry side down onto my secondary fabric, and slowly stitching around the shape real close to the edges- DO NOT CLOSE THE FLAT SIDE as we are going to stuff the feet through here

Now cut the shape out of the fabric and repeat till you have 6 feet

Now flip those bad boys inside out, stuff up, and if you wanna you can match them to their best pairs

now grab a pair of feeties and your #1 pieces and line them up, in this picture my belly #1 piece is shorter bc i forgot to add the extra centimeter and i recut that once i realized. Line those sides up with the right/furry parts touching and with the feet in between, flip it around to make sure everything's sitting the way you want it

Note. i didnt realize until later but i sewed my feet in upside down. save yourself the time it takes to fix it and dont make the same mistake

Straight stitch these layers together and repeat with the next two segments our good friends #2 & #3

Repeat this for the #2 and #3 sections but NOT THE #4, that part doesnt need feet! just line those edges up right/furry sides together and sew

the secret to the squish of the suit is making this inner lining from another fabric and stuffing it! I used what i had leftover from a stretchy red fabric for a kanaya skirt. For this we need to make a new pattern for each section, making sure it follows the curve of the round edge but the piece itself is shorter, almost like youre removing the seam allowance you added. Mine is a centimeter shorter on the top and on the bottom and reaches to the middle

Make one of these for each numbered segment,you only need to make half the pattern and you can fold your fabric in half on a crease and you end up with one symmetrical piece (bars)

Now you need to pin these pieces right on top of the wrong side of your numbered furry sections and line up the straight edges like so (disclaimer for LOTS OF SCARY NEEDLES !!)

Admittedly i didnt estimate how long these pieces needed to be very accurately and overshot it a bit, if you start pinning it from the middle and continue outwards on either side thatll ensure its not too lose and you can cut off any excess after

The only exception is piece #1, if you recall we gave this #1 section extra seam allowance. This is so we can sew down that excess at the neck later and hide any of the inside that might show once its all put together. Do not connect the top edge to the inner lining! Since i added an extra centimeter earlier im gonna leave that hanging and pin + sew down the inner lining a centimeter lower than the top edge. LEAVE THE CURVED EDGES OPEN! DONT SEW THEM TOGETHER! those stay open to stuff

Straight stitch the lined up edges together

Now you have all these skinned pieces of little freak and we need to connect all these segments together making sure to sew UNDER the existing stitches so we dont see those on the outside when its all put together

Inside looks like a bit of a mess but thats fine bc its not the part that matters

Now stuff it! you might need a stick or pencil or something long and thin to get stuffing into the middle bits

Now thats its stuffed you can finally close those curved edges. Try not to sew over a thick mound of stuffing, push it in a little further to give yourself some space and you can fluff it back out after everythings closed. I cut off that excess lining fabric after sewing

Ough… they filleted my boy…

Finally, match up all the edges and lines and HAND SEW them right sides together. You will destroy your machine trying to work around that stuffing i promise. You also have an excuse to get up from your work desk and sew on a couch or smth. I used a standard backstitch for a tight finish and again, make sure you sew under any existing stitches so they arent visible on the outside!

Speaking of the outside, once you stitch everything together you can very gently flip this sucker inside out

This is @hatamonu’s cat Cocaina, aka Coco. Her perfectly square figure made it into my grub files somehow so shes essential to the tutorial

Check the fit and all thats left to do is roughly baste stitch down that excess neck fabric onto the stuffed lining and youre set! I gave the thread slight tugs as i went to tighten the opening a bit put dont tighten it too much

tadaaaaa

It fits pretty snug but starts to slip a bit with motion. Heres a bounce test

 If you do shake your baby make sure to safety pin the plush to the suit so he doesnt prematurely shed his exosekeleton

Now spread that baby fever and show your baby to the world

pics from the ALA 2025 homestuck meetup and supplied by para.dox.cos

Tysm for coming along this ride with me especially if you followed the prototype journey on twitter, much thanks to my more sewing savvy friend for the solution to my grub dilemma and for helping me design and build my dolorosa cosplay <3 much love and hopefully many more homestuck cosplays and meetups to come in the future!

[daughterofhecata]

Hello Kaj!

A while back you mentioned Sabaton, and i checked out some of their songs, but then i guess i forgot about them again... but the other day i found two Sabaton CDs at the charity shop for cheap, so i bought them - kind of indirectly on your recommendation :-D

Now i want to talk to someone who also knows the band! So, i really like their music, because it fucks! I like that it's fast, the guitars are sick and the choruses go hard, especially when they have shouting or a choir! But i'm less sure what to think about the lyrics of some of their songs, some are hard to parse out what the opinion of the song is, if that makes sense? (doesn't help that english isn't my native language and a lot of references or figure of speech probably go over my head) I've tried reading about the band a bit but i find all kinds of different opinions on them, and whether they glorify nazis and/or war in general and all that...

I'd love to hear some of your thoughts on their stuff, since you've known the band for a while, and also because you have a different perspective as a german and (i really hope i remember this correctly and don't confuse you with someone else!) have interest in that history and therefore probably know a lot!

I hope this doesn't come across as rude or intrusive, i just want to talk about it and am interested in your perspective! Also i'm pretty sure you've talked about it on here before, but tumblr search refuses to let me find anything (as usual)...

And just in case this isn't obvious (this is an anon ask on tumblr after all), i don't expect you to reassure or give me permission to listen to this band! i like critically engaging with things i enjoy and don't think any media is or should be considered completely good or evil!

sorry for the very long question, i hope you have a nice day!

Hey!

Cool shit! Congrats on the CD aquisition!

Very glad about you mentioning you're not looking for permission to listen to them, because even if I wanted to, I couldn't give you a clear yes or no there. Not least because, and please do consider my entire answer under that caveat, I haven't actively followed their music since uuuh The Great War album, so 2019. Still love the older albums, just sort of fell off the train. So I can't speak for anything that may have happened or come up after that.

In general, I think Sabaton will always be followed by the accusation that they're glorifying war and the military. That just comes with the terrain, ie concept of their albums/lyrics. And one album I'm especially critical of in that regard is my beloved Carolus Rex, because, well, Sweden was a major player in that war, and they are naturally not impartial. I love the album to bits, but it's also extremely colored by, presumably, how Sweden perceives its own history.

However. I think they are by and large also aware of those tendencies in their topics. And it's the balance, that does it for me. Was Lauri Törni (Soldier of Three Armies) a hero one should look up to? Eeeh, probably not, considering he did fight with the nazis. Do I dislike Rorke's Drift for the weird imperialist/colonialist undertones? Absolutely. But on the other hand, you have songs like Inmate 4859, The Final Solution and Rise of Evil, that are very outright antifascist, and you have Stalingrad, The Great War, The End of the War to End War and - something that gives me particular chills - the cover of In the Army Now (if you haven't heard that one - go do it!) that do explicitly comment on how war is *not* glamorous and great.

As far as I'm concerned, I always got the impression that yeah, they kind of do have this obsession with war history and battles, but to me there has also always been this undercurrent of... idk, looking at humans in extreme situations and honoring them. Especially when we're talking about songs like No Bullets Fly, The Ballad of Bull, Resist and Bite (i know, i know, all of these are from Heroes but that was a formative album for me).

There are huge grey areas obviously, and like I said, haven't really followed them for a lot of years. I have no idea if/how Covid influenced them (bc lbr, quite some people went in.... interesting directions during/after that time) or if they are still working with Peter Tägtgren (he used to produce them & rumor has it, he's gone off the deep end conspiracy-wise), but in general, I think they have a certain level of awareness that they can be sort-of credibly "accused" of glorifying war and are at least partially trying not to do that.

[salt-baby]

As someone who is currently working in the healthcare field and looking at attended medical school, can you please elaborate on the ableism and doctors post you made? I’d very much like to avoid inadvertently falling into that category.

Somehow this missed my radar, my bad!

It's a difficult question to answer, although it is the right question to be asking.

You can find my other elaborations here and here, which will likely be helpful.

But to address your specific question, when I think about the ableism of practitioners, in some cases it is just bias, but in many it's just your run of the mill ignorance.

It takes experience to work well with disabled people - both because of the heterogeneity of them, and because the disabled experience is so far removed from the able bodied one.

Some people like myself call themselves disabled as an identity they're proud of, some people call themselves disabled but are uncomfortable with their condition to various degrees, and a lot of people would find it offensive for you to call them disabled because they would call themselves chronically ill or not impaired at all.

In your medical practice, "disabled" is going to be a legal term with a set definition, used to distribute benefits. You'll be taught an impairment model of disability, and your first instinct will likely be to try and fix the problem your patient is experiencing.

In a case like mine, that's not a mindset the patient is going to appreciate, as backwards as it sounds. Yes, I'm in a doctor's office to get treated, but the reality is that expert doctors have already evaluated my conditions and done all they can to help me. There's no quick fix - the fantasy of curing a difficult case is impossible with me, but it doesn't stop some young doctors from trying. My disability isn't one illness, but ten, and often what disables me is the environment around me rather than my actual illness (this is called the social model of disability, and that's where you should start studying).

I'm in a doctor's office to find relief from specific symptoms, or for a new problem (secondary to my existing conditions) that has popped up. Some residents have reviewed my entire medical file, and asked about things that weren't followed up on, and there's only so many times I can say "there's nothing we can do about it". Many premeds, when I mention the medications I'm taking, think that there must be some kind of better medication setup for me. Except there isn't, all of my meds are essential, and at this stage of illness, all medications have nasty side effects. I will never get better and will likely live the rest of my life on immunosuppressants and I'm okay with that, but that's very difficult for able bodied people, esp medical practitioners, to accept.

And in many cases, medical practitioners have put their foot in their mouth by just being ignorant. One person working at a rehab hospital asked if I slept in my orthotics - the answer is no, obviously, orthotics are painful to wear (it's also bad form to ask a disabled person about their disability just because you're curious). Someone told me it'll be okay, they used to wear wrist braces too and they're fine now - in reality, their supervisor just told me to consult surgeons, I was recommended casts, and my wrists remain permanently displaced to this day. I lost most of my ability to write. Our issues were not the same.

On another occasion, a premed picked up my orthotics and moved them away from me without asking - those are expensive (2000$ USD) and irreplaceable, and I need them to walk, I'm vulnerable without them. But to others, they wouldn't be aware that those braces are that valuable. Many disabled people, myself included, view mobility aids as an extension of their own body. For all intents and purposes, my orthotics are my "knees". I often compare it to a phone - it'd be really weird to take someone's phone and move it away from them, or even to touch it unannounced in the first place.

The reality of what a disabled life actually looks like is obscure to the vast majority of able bodied people. Let me be clear, I live a happy and satisfying life, where I enjoy my work and my friends and my family. My existence is not a tragedy, and when it's treated like one, it devalues my hard-won happiness in life and what I have to contribute to the world. But at the same time, every hour of every day is impacted by my disability. I have to change how I cook because I struggle with lifting a pot or standing on my feet for too long, my closet has to be adapted for my orthotics and nerve pain, a number of medications have to be kept basically within ten feet of me at all times, and I have to be very careful anytime I eat something I didn't prepare myself.

You may prescribe a medication which you know can cause nausea, and not realize to your patient, that side effect looks like being sick everyday, skipping meals, wearing a mask so a smell doesn't set you off, and not enjoying eating anymore. You may write a script for the test which is medically the correct option, but your patient may be sensitive to the specifics of the procedure (ie, for religious reasons, it may be difficult to strip down to a gown for some of the more involved imaging procedures). Cystometry and other urological procedures especially. I find this is where doctors sometimes inadvertently do harm. The best option for your patient isn't always the best option medically - it's what fits their priorities and improves their quality of life.

Understand that the current culture in medicine, for doctors, is often very callous and frustrated towards their patients. Recently I heard someone express that their patient needed to just accept their disability already and start being compliant with treatment - they had been disabled for three months. It took me a year to feel even remotely settled with becoming disabled, and my disability isn't nearly as severe as that patient's. Do not follow in your colleagues' footsteps.

If you spend the time trying to understand your patients (which may look like reading disability theory papers, memoirs, watching documentaries, possibly even volunteering, talking to some of your seniors with more experience, etc) then you're already miles better than most of your coworkers. Take the time to consider it from your patients point of view, and even though it's not what's in your textbook, appreciate the value of the information your patient brings to the table (their experience, their concerns, their gut feelings), and you've already done what most disabled people are desperately searching for in a practitioner.

The reality of a minority identity, is that for adults who have become accustomed to something like being disabled, it matters a lot more where your heart is than what you actually say. I don't care if someone is politically correct - I care if they're trying. Even if they're not quite there, that effort will pretty much always be seen and appreciated. I'd far rather someone call me "handicapped" but never view me as lesser, rather than someone who falls over themselves to "accommodate my limitations" and never actually intends to accommodate anything. Be sincere, and you can make mistakes, we'll know what the intention was.

Best of luck, my friend.

[pepperediris]

Idk your ocs, so could you tell me which one you love the best and which one is the most important for your plot/work? If you could explain why, that’d be great too :)

my favouritest boy is angel because he is sooo fucked up and i love projecting ! hes also the one i have the most story written about so hes sort of the main character ?! but dia is a close 2nd place i just dont have much of a backstory for him

the mostt important to the storyy is probably gabriel because he caused everything i think ! he bascially was the messenger angel for heaven and got really upset when they fired him and came up with the Evil Plan to overthrow heaven and basically make himself god

hes angels adopted dad! and he hates his son!!! thats why angel is the way he is

[nighttimenothings]

Hi!! I know this is random but how do you feel about pillow princesses or inexperienced girls?

hello lovely! thank you for the ask :) i'm a huge fan of pillow princesses! personally, i'm very much more of a giver, so pillow princesses are absolutely perfect! As as inexperience goes, there's nothing wrong with being inexperienced—everyone's got to start somewhere, right? so, really, it's all about creating a safe environment that everyone can have fun and a good time in. hopefully that answers your question; thanks for popping by <3

[apocalypticdemon]

I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.

[davidlikebowie-noturaccountant]

that reblog on tbe tlp and dps post i made had me pondering over it for 10 minutes and im about to explode PLEASE SHARE MORE OF YOUR THOUGHTS BECAUSE THEY ARE SO TRUE AAAA

oh my GOD happily i love yapping about this??????

okay first my credentials: i have watched dead poets society 200+ times (i stopped counting, but i have it completely memorised beat for beat), i’ve read the novelisation, i’ve watched the little prince 50+ times and it’s one of my comfort movies, watched it on the plane like two days ago, and i own eight copies of the book in five different languages <3 so

more thoughts below the cut

NOW

i will say there are more obvious parallels to draw between dps and the tlp movie BUT the book has the same innate messaging in a way that is very very special to me. gonna start off with the more obvious things and then get more niche and specific and i will TRY TO MAKE SENSE.

so movie-wise, the aviator serves as the keating figure without a doubt (i would argue this is true in the book as well, but as the book lacks the mother/daughter-little prince all grown up/weird silly second dimension plot line, this parallel is more nuanced and i need to explain it more deeply) and the little girl is neil (though. in the book. undoubtedly the little prince) and her mom is mr perry etc. TODD IS THE FOX IN BOTH THE MOVIE AND THE BOOK AND I WILL ELABORATE but for convenience sake im splitting this up into movie thoughts and book thoughts so they dont get muddled

movie:

one of my favourite things about the little prince movie even though it adds like a whole plot that is not in the children’s book is that it conveys the message of the book VERY well, and a message with THAT MUCH NUANCE is really hard to put through, especially in an animated children’s movie. that being said, i feel like a lot of people don’t really THINK about it, just in the sense of knowing there’s a vague message but not really dissecting it, especially not in the same way that people dissect dead poets society. which i think is really interesting because their messages are fundamentally REALLY similar, with the little prince talking a lot about keeping your mind from getting closed with age and never forgetting wonder and creativity and interest. letting yourself be propelled by knowledge but not in a way that prioritises practicality over pure joy, and then dead poets society specifically preaching (though i’m loathe to use that word) to OPEN your mind THROUGH wonder and creativity and interest, to actively prioritise the joy over practicality at any moment you CAN.

(emphasis on when you CAN, though, because as keating says, there’s a time to be cautious and a time to be daring. sucking the marrow out of life does not mean choking on the bone. which, incidentally, is very similar to something that the aviator mentions in the book, i’ll come back to that)

as such, both movies center a child who is bearing the burden of these undue expectations that for most of their lives up until the point in the movie, they’ve happily pushed themselves to meet in order to keep the peace in their lives. they were perfectly happy (to an extent) being the child they were being asked to be. that is, until someone ACTIVELY shows them there’s more to it than that.

in fact, while one of these is an animated face in which there is not a clear view of much but the eyes and the other is an actual person, these are screen grabs of both movies in the first moments in which they are exposed to that which is going to show them there’s more than that, and i’d be inclined to argue they’re very similar. mild shock overtaken by awe, fixed stare on what they’re consuming (as far as the first page of the little prince vs keating quoting whitman)

this is when they’re starting to realise that they are more than a machine to please the adults in their lives (who are also written very similarly, with, of course, one notable exception: the mother is the one who ultimately realises she was not being fair to her kid, whereas mr perry doubles down and… well. you know.)

this awe-riddled inspiration, the epiphany of the Creative World being real and something they’re allowed to explore and enjoy is facilitated by both the one who did the introduction (the aviator/keating) and support and camaraderie with someone else (the fox/the poets) (yes i know the fox does not technically talk, however, it is clearly a sentient creature in the movie that provides comfort and companionship to the little girl and therefore i will in fact argue that it counts)

NOW i know i said todd is the fox in both iterations but in the movie i dont think the fox is limited to parallels SOLELY with todd, for instance, it very much encourages the little girl to continue with the story, with the aviator, and while it is occasionally like, covering its eyes out of fright, it’s largely serving to push her out of her comfort zone. as such. the fox is both todd and charlie. (the other poets as well but less so in the sense that i can NAME them and draw specific parallels, so mostly todd and charlie)

it is absolutely no secret to us that charlie and todd are the ones closest to neil in the movie, and that charlie and neil’s closeness definitely pre-dates neil and todd’s, and charlie takes neil’s idea of doing the dead poets society and RUNS with it, (lovingly) bullies everyone into coming, gets it to happen and sort of yells over any doubt that neil could have had that he was doing something he wasn’t supposed to do. todd is supportive but wary, and while the fox in the movie is not in the same capacity as todd in this sense i think there are certainly scenes where we see it just sort of become overwhelmed with what’s going on (like the first time they mess with the plane)

i could go into depth about the whole grown up world thing but that would make this much much longer

the rest of my thoughts are very much related to both the book and the movie and thus i will continue but centre them on the book

book:

i mentioned the messages of the little prince compared to dead poets society above and i just think that’s such a big thing for me because they really do mirror each other and showcase similar thoughts, this idea of the aviator sort of being forced to pursue “practical” things (i think specifically the book cites arithmetic and geography? i can’t remember right this second but i know arithmetic is one of them) and how even though he WAS forced to sort of let go of his personality that was creative, he never really did. he just was careful with who he let see it. which is very keating coded tbh like let’s be real if nolan knew what he was like he NEVER would have gotten that job. but i think specifically because he knew this already and was sort of reminded of it by the little prince LEARNING it it’s very much neil and mr keating. this is why i really think todd is the fox, you have the whole conversation in the book about taming (which i know is kind of in the movie but the book centres it in a way that is slightly different)

to tame people is to change. i will be unique in all the world. to me you will be unique in all the world. you are responsible forever for what you have tamed. when you leave i will cry. etc etc etc

todd and neil tame EACH OTHER. obviously todd is not neil’s first friend, but they have a relationship clearly different from neil’s with the other poets (romantic headcanon or not) because they really have TAMED each other.

also. i think mr perry views neil as his rose. that’s a whole other dissertation.

but. i think the reality is that the movies/book both centre creativity and seeking to understand pure thought in a way that is like two sides of the same coin, but there’s such little overlap that maybe it doesn’t feel obvious?

at the end of the day, there’s really no convincing me that

“what is essential is invisible to the eye, it is only with the heart that one can see rightly”

is not in fact another iteration of

“we don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute…. medicine law business engineering…. poetry beauty romance love, these are what we stay alive for”

because they’re so similar at their hearts.

tldr: the little prince and dead poets society actually carry similar characterisation and messages and i think that speaks a lot about both pieces of media, especially considering that one is literally meant to be for children. it’s almost like tlp is a precursor to dps. a warning to which dps is the result of ignoring. if that makes sense. i’m not sure any of this made sense but THANK YOU FOR ASKING

[homicidal-awareness]

uh hi sorry if this is a dumb question but how would someone know if they experience homicidal ideation? is there like a test or specific criteria ;-; important note i am 14

Hello! I don't think this is a dumb question!

Forewarning, this is gonna be another long post...

There is no official test or diagnostic criteria for homicidal ideation. That's for a lot of reasons.

Namely, HI isn't a diagnosis. It's an official term used to describe a certain experience. It's similar to terms like suicidal ideation, hallucinations, intrusive thoughts, etc. There are no diagnostic criteria for those because they're just blanket terms used to describe a certain kind of experience. You have suicidal ideation if you want to kill yourself. You have hallucinations if you see, hear, feel, smell, or taste things that aren't really there. You have intrusive thoughts if you have uncomfortable, unwanted thoughts or images that invade your brain against your will. Similarly, you have homicidal ideation if you want to kill other people. There isn't a list of things you need to check off to qualify for HI, or other similar termed experiences.

That being said, there is quite a bit of complexity and nuance to each thing. What someone may think of as hallucinations may actually be alters in an undiagnosed system. What someone may think of as suicidal ideation may just be intrusive thoughts. And what someone may think of as homicidal ideation can be intrusive thoughts, a paraphilia, or even just a plain old fascination with death. There's complexity here too, if someone for instance has both homicidal ideation and intrusive thoughts. And things like paraphilias or an interest in death can turn into or influence or be influenced by homicidal ideation.

All this leads into the next issue: homicidal ideation is a very broad term that can be experienced in many different ways. Some people get flashes of anger or jealousy that manifest as a strong urge to kill. Some hate other people so much that they think they deserve to die (which can be a general antipathy or can be directed at specific people who've hurt them or people close to them). Some have murder as their go-to thought for any stressful situation. Some create meticulous plans for how to commit murder (of either a random or specific person). It varies greatly, and it all makes it even more difficult to try to create a list of criteria to try and categorize it.

I plan to make a post in the future going more in-depth on different experiences of homicidality (talking about things like impulsive vs meticulous HI, different emotions and sensations HI can be tied to, how different levels of empathy affect HI, etc), but still, every person who experiences HI feels it differently from the rest.

And, the final biggest reason there are no diagnostic criteria for HI is because it's simply too understudied and not properly understood.

I consulted a few sources for their input on how homicidal ideation is identified in patients. Most of the books I have access to discuss violence more than homicidal ideation, and many do not discuss identification of violent ideation at all, so what I have is limited and inexact. But I wanted to provide external sources.

Malmquist, C. P. (1996). Homicide: A Psychiatric Perspective.

"A common misconception among nonpsychiatric professionals, including some attorneys, is that the psychiatrist performs in a manner analogous to other medical specialists, in which the specialist (e.g., a surgeon, an internist) performs a procedure on a patient or assesses the patient's condition through inspection, palpation, or tests, after which the specialist arrives at a diagnosis. Apart from questions about the degree of validity of applying such thinking to other medical specialties, this approach bypasses the essential reasoning processes followed in psychiatrically assessing a patient. These processes include reviewing information from several sources, such as reports from places of employment, schools, and hospitals; medical histories; probation reports; statements of witnesses; psychological testing; investigatory reports by police officers and detectives; and so on. Only when the patient's reported signs and symptoms are put together with his or her social and historical background can the diagnostic impression, and possible incapacities contributing toward homicidal violence, be adequately assessed." (pg. 333).

This book focuses on analyzing the psychology of homicide as an act, and less as an ideation, so it focuses on past reports of violent behaviour in assessing previous indicators of homicidality and current risk level. It has additional notes on how violent behaviour in a legal setting can either be used to prosecute a person more severely, or be used to label them with a diagnosis of some kind and thus grant them some sort of insanity plea.

Ferguson, C. J. (2010). Violent Crime: Clinical and Social Implications.

"Indeed, in one sense we all know what violence is, yet defining it satisfactorily may be difficult. Attempting to measure violent and aggressive behaviors can be even more complex. For instance, most of us would likely agree that hitting another person is “aggression,” but what about two children who are playing “cops and robbers” using toy guns? Are they behaving aggressively? ...

Aggression and violence can both be difficult to measure. There are certain ethical constraints that are probably rather obvious. It’s simply not ethical in experimental settings to provoke people into engaging in behaviors that would be violently criminal. In experimental settings, the solution has been to employ proxy or ad hoc measures of aggression, which can vary widely from experiment to experiment (the white noise machine described above is one of them). When considering an individual experimental study, it’s always worth knowing what kind of measure of aggression was used, particularly because many have been criticized for having low validity (Tedeschi & Quigley, 1996). In other words, does the measure of aggression reasonably look anything like aggressive behavior?

In nonexperimental (or correlational) research, a number of different outcomes may be employed: arrest records, victim reports, self-reports of perpetration, or psychological measures of antisocial tendencies or externalizing behaviors. Arguably, all of these forms of data have weaknesses. For instance, arrest data is largely contingent (with the obvious exception of homicides) on people reporting their victimization to the police. It is widely understood that for many violent crimes, such as rape, only a fraction of victims report being victimized to police (Tjaden & Thoennes, 2006). As such, arrest records may tend to underestimate overall perpetration of crimes." (pg. 11).

This book points out the nuance in how people define aggression and violence, which creates difficulty in pinning down a specific critera that can be applied to everyone. Additionally, it describes the flaws in identifying a violent or at-risk person. Most are identified after already having committed crimes, and before then, victims often don't come forward, violent but non-criminal people lie, and many people do not understand what really indicates violent or criminal behaviour.

Wikipedia (2024). Homicidal Ideation.

"Homicidal ideation is a common medical term for thoughts about homicide. There is a range of homicidal thoughts which spans from vague ideas of revenge to detailed and fully formulated plans without the act itself.[1] Most people who have homicidal ideation do not commit homicide. 50–91% of people surveyed on university grounds in various places in the United States admit to having had a homicidal fantasy.[2] ...

Homicidal ideation is not a disease itself, but may result from other illnesses such as delirium and psychosis. Psychosis, which accounts for 89% of admissions with homicidal ideation in one US study,[3] includes substance-induced psychosis (e.g. amphetamine psychosis) and the psychoses related to schizophreniform disorder and schizophrenia. Delirium is often drug induced or secondary to general medical illness(es).

It may arise in association with personality disorders or it may occur in people who do not have any detectable illness. In fact, surveys have shown that the majority of people have had homicidal fantasies at some stage in their life.[2]"

And of course, I felt I should add some example of a widely accepted definition of homicidal ideation. Wikipedia itself notes that homicidal ideation is firstly a term used to describe an experience, and secondarily a potential indicator, symptom, or result of a disorder (but that homicidal thoughts are common in the general population).

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Overall, I struggled to find descriptions of homicidal ideation without actual commitment of homicide. It's mentioned, but usually only as a symptom of a disorder or an indicator or risk factor for a future violent offender. It's often identified in criminals by looking at past offenses or reported violent behaviour, thus making many of its historical diagnostic functions only useful in creating a psychological profile for violent criminals, rather than any sort of treatable diagnosis. Otherwise, it's treated as a facet of the psychological profile of a high-risk person, and/or as a symptom of a disorder.

In my research for this question, I did find a few proposed assessments meant to gauge homicidality on harmresearch.org.

They note, "versions of the S-HTS have not yet been psychometrically validated in a study against another standardized homicide ideation and behavior scale, because there is no other comparable validated homicidality tracking scale against which to validate it at this time."

At a glance, the scales are fairly comprehensive, and well written! I'm pleasantly surprised by how well they're done! Though, they do note that each scale must be summed up and evaluated by a clinician, and that there are no notes on how to sum up someone's total answers to determine the existence or level of homicidality. It seems more like a list of experiences to consider for patient and clinician reference, and a way to easily sum up the severity and lean of homicidal ideation so a clinician can respond accordingly.

I may make a post in the future going further in depth on these assessments and scales, and again, I also plan on making a post (or several) some time discussing different experiences of homicidality. Because I do think it's important to be able to categorize it, since each experience will require different treatment strategies. While I personally don't think homicidal ideation as a term and a concept should be very standardized or 'gatekept', I do think there should be effort put into creating specific sublabels or 'profiles' of homicidality for use in treatment plans, since it is such a vast term.

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To sum up this entire post, homicidal ideation is not a diagnosis, so it does not have any standardized assessments or diagnostic criteria. There is no strict experiential list you must meet to be identified as having homicidal ideation. There is nuance and some important conflicting psychological conditions to consider, but it's overall a very loose term that can apply to a wide range of experiences. The functions of identifying a person as having homicidal ideation are generally limited to gauging existing or potential future violent behaviour, and there is still a lack of research into treatment, which urgently needs to be rectified.

Sources:

Ferguson, C. J. (2010). Violent Crime: Clinical and Social Implications.

Malmquist, C. P. (1996). Homicide: A Psychiatric Perspective. American Psychiatric Press, Inc.

Sheehan, D. V., Giddens, J. M. (2025). Structured Diagnostic Interviews & Scales: Homicidality. Harm Research. https://harmresearch.org/homicidality-2/

Wikipedia (2024). Homicidal Ideation. Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homicidal_ideation

[agentlizardofowca]

Hey sorry since this is like super off topic from what you usually get asked but do you like more fandoms? Like I’ve seen a lot of people who like P&F also like stuff like Lazytown (btw also off topic my mom knows someone who helped puppeteer on that show he’s really cool) ((which also btw if you don’t like Lazytown totally chill I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea))

But I’m just really interested to know what other shows/movies/books you like since mine can very pretty widely like from P&F and Lazytown to Good Omens and Hellboy

Hi Frenchfry~

I've been on tumblr since 2011, and I was in fandom even before then. So yes! I'm in a lot of fandoms

I pretty much only write fanfiction for PnF because this is the fandom I have a lot of friends in. Big fandoms scare me a little, and I dislike drama. Luckily the only drama in this fandom is that some people dislike the human!PerryAU and feel the need to be loud about it ����

Fandoms I also enjoy include: ATLA Back to the future lord of the rings/ the hobbit the muppets star trek (season 1) Marvel (mostly spiderman) DC (mostly batman) Danny phantom Disney in general (don't ask me about theme parks, I'll never shut up I LOVE THEME PARKS)

And many, many more tbh

I have only seen a few episodes of Lazy town, but I did really like it! I love puppeteering~