#fandom feelings

[proseinborderland]

I was elated when I joined this fandom!

I met great people.

I've made a couple of TRUE Friends!

I wrote some fiction and fangirled - for the first time ever - having been a lurker for almost 2 decades. And now I understand why most people lurk.

I am getting trolled by people from multiple accounts.

I am getting trolled by people asking me for very random and odd prompts, ignoring that my requests are closed, or I get weird DMs. This isn't what I signed up for.

I am too old for this shit.

I am almost ready to leave AIB Fandom indefinitely.

[allegorymetaphory]

Reading The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes reminded me again why the Hunger Games trilogy spawned an entire genre of copycats; because Suzanne Collins understands the philosophical underpinnings of her work. She's also a great writer.

This is a villain's origin story, we all know that going in. We've read The Hunger Games trilogy so we all know what Coriolanus Snow becomes, and yet...the story of how he became so hit me so hard I ugly-cried after finishing the book.

(Spoilers under the cut)

'His brush with love taught him never to love again,' and 'he loved her but he killed her' are squeezing my soul. You can feel him turn, out in the woods, feel him become a danger to her even before he thinks. Understand what is going to happen as he tells himself Lucy Gray targeted Wovey when we just saw her tell him she'd actually been targeting Coral and Wovey randomly found the bottle first. We see Coriolanus make her an enemy in his head because it saved his appearance and cleared his path to power.

Coryo is from a family that cares about appearance and power more than anything else. No matter what, no matter how, their goal is to land on top.

He sees Dr. Gaul's error in assuming everyone is vicious like her and takes only the lesson that one should not assume everyone is like you. In his case, he never once stops seeing himself as fundamentally good, even as he comes to believe that all other humans will murder each other willy-nilly if not controlled by a strong central government.

We know what his belief in control turns into...and now we know why Katniss, and 12, and Mockingjays specifically get under his skin. A girl from 12 like Lucy Gray, named after a plant Lucy Gray taught him about, not only defies his control but is titled Mockingjay and then sings a song written for him that becomes propaganda against him. Perhaps Plutarch learned something about Snow's past and knew calling Katniss "Mockingjay" would dig at him like sand at Anakin. I wonder if Plutarch knew that the hanging tree song was written for Coriolanus?

Snow goes from hating and fearing Dr. Gaul to enthusiastically furthering her aims...like she knew he would after feeling a few hardships. She forced him to become a killer, perhaps knowing his cognitive dissonance would enforce her perspective and draw him to her side.

Ultimately, this book is the story of Snow's first (and only) love and first four (of many) murders.

[arnab-factory]

Fascinated by this phenomenon

[color-ns]

Sometimes tweeter people know their stuff- this is the right kind of toxic angst I want to read.

[king-nyx]

Say it with me now

You are never late to a fandom. Your fic is never "invalid" for being "late". Your fic doesn't need a high word limit. Your fic does not need a high standard. Your fic does not need to be highly popular. Your fic isn't less valid than a popular author's fic. Your fic isn't inheritly bad. Your fic is amazing. Your fic is valid. The only thing that matters is that you're having fun. Fandom is not consumption and consumerism. Fandom is fun, free and for the people. Fandom is not a popularity contest. We're all nerds at the end of the day.

[serendippertyy]

I am so excited for ep 4 it's giving off krusty krab vibes and I'm losing my mind over it is SO funny to me 😭😭

and I absolutely love this brush so much it is a motivation lifesaver,,plus I've been working on pushing expressions and trying to not be a perfectionist and this is the result and I'm having so much fun! enjoy my silly doodles lol 🤭

[meyerlansky]

ON the subject of undernegotiated kink in fanfiction. i think we should talk more about how the concept of "not talking about it" is just as much wish fulfillment for some people as "in-depth, therapy-speak conversations where everyone is clear and understood" is for others

like yes, in reality the antidote to shame is open honest conversation with someone who will validate your feelings and wants blah blah blah but SOMETIMES what i want out of my fanfic is characters being understood without having to expose themselves in that way. SOMETIMES it's fun to not dismantle the shame and repression all the way and to instead treat that understanding-despite-not-being-clear as the fantasy

[toointojoelmiller]

better than drugs

[birbwell]

monku hatsune

[stealingpotatoes]

the illness post is still getting notes (???!! <3) and that means people are still telling me to get better soon, which is really nice but im gonna be too powerful if i get any better

[the-fyre-flie]

Every member of the batfamily owns a shitty old Nokia phone.

They all dropped their much more expensive modern-day phones from a few stories up mid Vigilante-ing at least once and now they're no longer allowed to have their Good Phones on their person during crime fighting.

At least one thug has been domed in the back of the head by a Nokia lol

[starii-void]

going to chb must be crazy like imagine sharing a camp with

-one of the strongest demigods ever who's saved the world like at least 3 times, fought multiple gods & titans and WON (and is a tartarus survivor)

-the literal main architect of OLYMPUS who's also saved the world multiple times (also tartarus survivor)

-THE lord of the wild who's also close friends with the first two (and has helped save the world multiple times)

-an emo kid from the 1930s who again helped save the world and is also a tartarus survivor (TWICE)

-a son of apollo who survived tartarus with nothing but cargo shorts and sheer will (pun intended)

-the main designer and builder for the argo II, also the first hephaestus kid to have fire powers since hundreds of years ago (did i mention killed gaea? no? yeah he did that too)

-a girl who somehow charmspeak-ed gaea into falling back asleep (also side note daughter of super famous actor because why not)

-pretty much everybody is a two-time war veteran

-THE GOD APOLLO who just sometimes comes down to visit in the form of a teenage boy

-did i mention dionysus, god of wine madness and theatre

-also chiron, trainer of pretty much every greek hero ever

[bebx]

people who use dog as a metaphor for love or loyalty or hunger or desperation or violence or devotion, I am kissing you on the mouth with tongue

[nouverx]

Louise never heard about puppy love, cause they don't know that term in France 💔

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Lyrics are from Louise by TV Girl ! I was listening to it yesterday and that specific line on the second page screamed Alastor I just had to draw something about it

[aphel1on]

AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be