#faking a smile

[kaorym]

[kybercrystals94]

Self

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Angstpril 2024 | Day 21 | Prompt 21: Faking a Smile

Rated: G | Words: 238 | Summary: Omega tries. | Character Focus: Omega

She is supposed to be happy. 

To be free, to be with her brothers again, to be home. She has Lula and Trooper. Her gunner’s mount room just as she left it before…all of it. Before they lost Tech, before they lost her. The Marauder hasn’t changed in her months away, not that she expected it to. It feels different. Empty and sad and lost. 

But she should be happy. 

Hunter and Wrecker want her to be happy. Desperately. They want their Omega back. So Omega tries to resurrect her, to stretch the mindset of her old self over the growth and pain and loss and grief and guilt…but it only tears and rips apart, jagged edges, a throbbing reminder that nothing will ever be the same again. She thinks that her brothers know that. That she can’t be the same. That they aren’t the same. That time and experiences have worn them all down to shadows of who they were before.  

But she wants to be happy. 

So she pulls on a new version of herself. It fits loosely, but she’ll grow into it. Happiness will come again when she has grieved. Guilt will ebb when she makes reparations. Grief will melt into the memories of happier times as they are remembered. Loss will become gains, and pain will be soothed. Because that is one thing Omega hasn’t lost, hasn’t given up, hasn’t forgotten. 

Hope. 

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[leonide-poet]

Faking and fetching

Those things you don't know

Chasing and tasting

Dark things that don't show

Seeming and being

Way far from yourself

-Leonide-

[girl-that-wants-to-die]

[descendinginto-madness]

faking a smile.

word count: 182

content warnings: N/A

summary: N/A

author's notes: i'm gonna be so honest i don't have much to write there LOL another shorter thing.sometimes i need to i wouldn't manage writing something long every day tbh

March kinda wishes she was better at hiding her emotions.

Well, maybe not all of them - only sometimes, whenever she’s feeling upset, or frustrated, or sad; especially when it’s seemingly without any reason. After all, if she doesn’t even know why she’s feeling that way herself, there’s no need to show it and trouble others with it, right? There’s no use taking up their time, because they won’t even be able to help her, and everyone will just end up frustrated, or so she thinks - so, she resorts to doing her best to act like nothing is happening at all.

…Most of the time, it doesn’t work, fortunately or not. Usually, sooner or later, she either lets something slip, or someone simply notices, even without that, and approaches her about it. Apparently, she’s not very good at acting, it's often quite obvious whenever she tries it.

She also has to admit, though, that… It's reassuring to know she can always go and talk to her friends when something is troubling her, no matter how small and unimportant it may seem to her.

divider by @/cafekitsune

[ladylucksrogue]

Some time after Kadavo, the 501st gets a rare opportunity to unwind on a beach and enjoy some downtime. Rex is genuinely trying but he is still dealing with the experiences he went through. He and Ahsoka have a much needed conversation.

[seamusicpoetry]

Words...

[autobot2001]

His Lie

Author: Autobot2001 Genre: Fanfiction Fandom: Transformers Rating: E Warning: None Pairing: None Description: Drift fakes being ok. @chaos-company angstpril day 21; faking a smile

Usually, the time at one of Cade and Vivian’s homes helps Drift relax. He’d still worry about Jamie, but not as he does at the base. While on vacation with friends in Florida, Drift cannot relax. He can’t stop worrying about Jamie. He’s not sure if it’s due to how bad her depression is, watching her lack of interest in anything and terrible eating habits, or he’d be this worried even if she was doing better.

Crosshairs finds Drift sitting on a chair on the deck. Even with Jamie napping, he finds it odd that Drift is out here. He knows he shouldn’t, but he does. “Hey,” Crosshairs gets his attention, “are you ok?” “Yeah,” Drift smiles, “thought I’d sit out here.” “Ok.” Crosshairs goes back into the house, uncertain if he should believe Drift. He can’t believe he’s questioning his friend’s response.

[wurld-wideweb]

fake episode idea where charlie and pim get kidnapped by the cartel

[hinamie]

big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up

[societys-failures]

I wish I had some profound and poetic way to describe my sadness but the truth is I have nothing.

I have no inspiration or anything I truely love to the core, Anything that brings a real smile to my face.

I have no real feelings because anything you see of me is just a facade, A facade I have spent over a decade perfecting.

I have the material possesions that some would dream of; Honestly I would give them up in a heartbeat just to have any feeling instead of this numbness.

You’ll never know if I’m mad and you’ll never know if I’m sad because I learnt a long time ago to just swallow any remnants of feelings because nobody will understand anyway.

A soulless body walking this earth just waiting for the time when the end is right.

So I don’t have a beautiful way to describe my sadness because there is nothing left, No feeling, No love and certainly no Happiness.

[nohappyaround]

FUCK

I WANT TO KILL MY FEELINGS

[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[mari-lair]

plan failed, guess we are sticking together

[girl-that-wants-to-die]

[faunandfloraas]

[Smiling] for @comflexing