#exept its depression

[tunawithsoysauce]

Hiya!

Date: 14/4/24

Today I did barely anything. I slept until twelve, ate lunch, skipped breakfast and then just packed a bag and took the nearest bus.

I drew some jelly fish with my pastels. A Lady walked past me. She smiled so lovingly. I felt a tinge of happiness at that.

I bought groceries for the fam. Then I climbed up onto a little roof thingie.

Two security guards told me to get down. I ran away from them :3

I went home and just layed in my bed and cried. Idk. I can barely see my floor. I really wanted to cut myself, somehow I managed not to.

Skipped dinner, too.

Now here I am in my disgusting room.

Wtf is wrong with me?

[part-time-deranged]

Turns out that my almost fainting when i do physical activity may be because of vitamine deficiancy and not from an intrinsic fault in my character! The more you know

[badendfriendstournament]

Contestants submissions currently open!

Some rules and clarifications!

So, i think the criteria for this tournament needs to be shared, since its not only the classic bad end friends but we also got wayyy more characters here and i would like include your suggestions for the next year's poll.

Rules and basic criteria to count a character as a BEF

I decided to separate this characters in categories so its easier to explain:

"Main/secondary character is now evil!!!"

I think we all get this one. Certain characters end up on the other side of the battle, by choice or maybe bc he didn't have one!! Betraying their morals and everyone else. They maybe became crazy and/or are being mind controlled/ possessed

Now, this has its own subcategories to take account:

"Oh no! I got possesed or mind controlled!"

Very self-explanatory, character that is now controlled by the villain/antagonist.

"Multiversal typa shit"

CANONICAL AUs where the character has turned up evil/in an antagonistic role, by any reason

"TRAITOR!!!!"

When a character changes sides by "choice," they might still be themselves but felt betrayed/are being manipulated/they simply decided to betray the rest for their own benefit.

"Hell nah, they went feral"

Character that got turned into a monster/some kind of creature

"Evil alter ego takes control"

A second personality fully controls the character now.

"Ain't evil, just a failure"

As the tittle "bad end" suggests, we also include characters that ended up meeting a depressing fate without necessarily becoming evil

This one has some restrictions obviously:

The character needs some sort of appearance change

Something REALLY REALLY BAD has happened to them, a significant defeat.

DOPPLEGANGERS

To make it short, a character that is a replica/clone of the mc and their goal must be replaced/ defeat the original one. Its not necessarily required for them to be explicitly "evil," but if they wanna replace the og, they sure do count.

FANON BAD ENDINGS

There are lots of fanon bad endings on this AU, but the general rule is that it has to have some sort of logic on the character's original lore, or at least be based on a fate that is kinda plausible to happen. So we don't end up accepting every single Sans AU that comes across, lol.

These characters can't come out of nowhere. It needs a valid justification to make em accountable. "Theres a chapter where the villain tells the hero to become evil aswell bc they're their father, so in the canon says no, but the BEF is that he says yes." See? It was plausible and justified.

(There sure might be some exeptions to this rule such as Wirt and Marco, but at least Wirt making a deal with the beast doesnt come out of nowhere, technically talking Tom did curse marco on the original series, i know that their whole deal is too stretched but they have been here since the beginning so who are we to kick em off.)

NOT ALLOWED:

Creepypastas: we tryin to stick with canon here, you know? Creepypastas often just turn characters evil and into demons just because, thats not what we are going for!

Role swap AUs: Those definitely are not even considered. Since they're way too far from the actual canon.

Completely non-canon/very unlikely situations: "but he can get possessed by the villain!!" So as every other character, if its extremely rare for it to happen, don't even bring it up.

Robots (in a doppleganger sense): yeah obviously this rule doesn't talk about robot/android characters like murderdrones or something, but it's about robotic clones with not really their own conciousness Just, machines.

Fanon media in general: stuff like comics, fangames, or any fanmade product of any existing media with a bad ending will not be counted. No, you can't submit your fnf mods. im sorry

ABSOLUTELY NO OCS: no original characters, im being REALLY CLEAR WITH THIS ONE. No, your shadow2 the hedgehog original character do not steal cannot be counted.

NO PIBBY GLITCH.

Now that its all clear!

How do i submit a character?

Simple! You just have to send an ask with the character, their media, some of their backstory, and any detail you think is need to be mentioned!

So that would be it! Hope to see your submissions soon!

The submissions will end on april 1st 2025!

[diaryof4fart]

Hi, my name isn't fart

but call me fart anyways. This blog is for people who get it only, if you dont then you're welcome to hate me but I won't pay any attention. anyways i'm fart im clinically depressed and have no ways of coping so im doing this instead of rotting on instagram reels. now that thats out of the way let me clear some things up.

i AM jewish and israeli, however i wouldn't exactly say im pro israel, i wouldn't say i'm pro palestine either. I would say im a Zionist though we deserve a mf country. I sincerely hope that netanyahu and those behind hamas will die a slow and painful death. I would elaborate more but i'm trying to keep this intro short.

DNI: ╰┈➤ Antisemites ╰┈➤ Anti LGBT ╰┈➤ Anti Israel ╰┈➤ Racists ╰┈➤ Fill in the blanks you can understand what i'm communicating ╰┈➤ Taylor Swift fans (i'm only half joking)

list of my stupid hobbies: જ⁀➴ drawing જ⁀➴ guitar જ⁀➴ piano જ⁀➴ knitting જ⁀➴ build battle જ⁀➴ skyblock જ⁀➴ just minecraft in general જ⁀➴ sewing જ⁀➴ baking જ⁀➴ writing જ⁀➴ idk petting stray cats

Fandom list exept im not active in any of them: ᯓ★Fullmetal Alchemist ᯓ★Hunter x Hunter ᯓ★VLD (yikes) ᯓ★Death Note ᯓ★Stardew Valley ᯓ★Vinland Saga ᯓ★Httyd ᯓ★Omori ᯓ★Brooklyn 99 ᯓ★Snow White with the Red Hair ᯓ★+a bunch more that don't matter

I've never done one of these intro posts so im gonna have fun w the tags!!: ᯓ★DiaryEntry: just random thoughts i guess ᯓ★(F)art: Farts Art ᯓ★FartFace: selfies/outfits ᯓ★GasLeak: venting idk

ᯓ★Fartbaby: stupid cat

ᯓ★fartbaby2: stupid dog

p.s. i wont actually kill myself joking about it just makes me feel better

p.s. p.s. ignore the fart theme with my blog its a funny word and im gonna continue saying it

[fadedfiu]

tvshow of my childhood: BERNDT DAS BROD

when i was maybe 4-5yo there was a german kid channel called kika. and there was this weird late evening show with this miserable depressive bread and his friends sheep and bush (back then i though that its fucked up sponge, giraffe and cactus). the whole family watched this show every day and i understood literally nothing bc its on german (nobody knew german exept for my dad and he told us that its a bread, not a sponge) yet i LOVED that shit. it was kind of like an arthouse movie, incomprehensible and very interesting

[awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands]

Halloween Headcanons 2023: Vampire Lost Boys! Vince Neil Headcanons

A/N: This is a vampire Au but specifically in the Lost Boys universe. It won't mirror the movie's story but instead its dynamics, with the only exeption of Max who is a character from the movie.

-He has Mexican origins but he’s a Santa Carla native and has been living there his whole life.

- Vince’s a playboy and his only goal in life is to become a famous singer. His parents don’t really pay that much attention to him so he moves out of his home at 18.

- He ends up couchsurfing, mostly using his girlfriend to buy clothes and party drugs. His surfer look and his charm make him quite known in Santa Carla, giving him again some unwanted attention.

- One day he meets a random woman after a house party and she takes him to her apartment. Once they finish round one, she starts to nibble Vince’s neck with passion, showing off her vampire teeth.

-  “You have such a pretty neck. Do you want to know what it feels like to die and be reborn?” Vince ponders for a moment before giving himself up to the woman.

- He doesn’t regret his choice even if he definitely goes through the five stage of grief: denying that it happened and thinking it was just a trip; getting angry at himself for making such a stupid decision;bargaining that maybe if he finds a job or pretend to ignore the hunger it will disappear; depression when the symptoms get too bad and finally acceptance by finally killing his victim.

- After various failed bands and attempts to work, he meets Tommy at a party and he gets introduced to Nikki and Mick. After some time, he decided to join them and Motley Crue was born, the first whole vampire band ( or so they say).

- The vampire ability he is the most skilled in is stamina. He can perform a three hour concert without missing a beat or breaking a sweat, which is perfect for his favorite hobby which is sex.

- His vampirism has a huge impact on his sex drive and charisma too: he makes love like a violent animal and never seems to get satisfied and rarely women can resist his advances ( especially when he uses hypnosis).

[federthenotsogreat]

I love how when Im watching M&L content Im mostly like :D

exept for when its about Superstar Saga

Then Im entering a depressive state that also feels like mania and Im jumping around the house laughing and giggling but Im also arguing with myself and Im crying and sobbing and I cant breathe and Im getting anxious but also Im

[libraryfag]

Heathers (1889)

my heathers obsession i think was what first got me into horror which quickly transformed into my gothic horror obsession so im honestly shocked i haven't made this earlier in the past 3 years.

Despite it being set in the 1980s, heathers literally has all of the gothic tropes and themes etc its so insane

Like!! The way the underlining theme is how young people's agency is repressed and how they aren't taken seriously and instead expected to obey their elders is literally the basis of Queen Victoria's beliefs. She and Reagan had SO MUCH IN COMMON. those facists are probaly fucking raw in the bottom layer of hell somewhere

ANYWAY the whole of the show/film really hits different if you think about it in the victorian era

I forgot to say: This version is absolutely set in England. Western society in America back then was more about themes of progress and such- although white people back their were just maintaining the same genocidal colonialist principals as the british (cuz they were), they thought they were being soooo cool and progressive which is thematically irrelevant to heathers

BACK TO THE TOPIC: in the musical most of the teen's emphasis in wanting to grow up. ie have autonomy vs Martha being accociated with childlike imagery- really emphasises the division between 'adults' and 'children' Victoria was so fond of

I don't actually know what age ppl were considered adults but i think Martha would wear more childish clothes like this- exept she would absolutely wear white representing her innocence

In contrast, the other girls would wear women's clothes

Jason Dean's black trenchcoat translates really well to Victorian era fashion

Veronica's heatherified outfit would have a prominant bustle- a newer style

In contrast Heather Chandler would wear a more traditional longer gown- like how she represents the older more bougeoise regime of Queen Victoria according to JD which needs to be destroyed

Speaking of which there are SO MANY parallels to heathers and picnic at hanging rock- (which is set 11 years later but whatever) JD is the rock

I do think Chandler's general vibe of the 'blonde popular girl who's doomed by the narrative' whose idolised after her death is 100% from Miranda btw

but also her position in the narritive reminds me of Mrs Appleyard

I think to make Heathers more gothic there has to be more of a clock motif than there already is

Also i can't belive i forgot to say this but the ideas of Madness and depression and shit. i can't spend all day writing these but they're There.

The one problem i have here is that schools in Victorian england were ABSOLUTELY not as diverse as schools in 80s america ie. ppl of different genders/class would never go to the same place

[beamzar]

30th November 2023

Open entry: 00:02

Today was very regular.

My media lesson was atrocious, the people that were in charge of teaching us only thought to diss the topic and act like children.

After it though, me and my friends went to sign up at the gym and were given short instructions on how to use everything. Im going to start next week. I wanted to tomorrow but ive got nothing prepared, and i dont like being unprepared at all.

Ive already have a timetable for myself of when to use the gym, just for an extra sense of security.

Monday: 12:25 - 2

Tues: 12:25-1:25/2

Thurs: 10-11:30

Fri: ???

(Thursday and Friday ill have to bring extra things to use the showers so i dont stink)

Wednesday is my free day, to let my muscle regenerate and expand propperly and to hang out with friends.

I dont have a set rep system down yet but i have a general iverview of what to do each day. I think the gym is great tbh, but if i coukd id rather do some sport or anything that would let me build that muscle through activity rather than just gym. I dunno, ive always kept fit and have banger legs from hiking and walking alot in general, so i guess thats why.

Well anyway, psychology went fine aswell, we got to draw stick people in our books.

Form was alright aswell, we didnt learn anything, i just got to chat to my bsf about things before we got out and went to mine.

We also hung out with our friend for a bit and strolled around our school before they set off. Fun stuff.

We sat and chatted about various things, aswell as making boards for our friends, which was fun,had to rack my mind for stuff.

After she left i didnt rly do much exept for lie down. My legs have been killing me lately for no reason. Theyve been getting weaker, and i believe its just joint fatigue from the cold and also my low bpm. My fingers have been getting more and more stiff too, im actually finding it hella difficult to even type this whole thing out. Well,good news though, sickness is gone oretty much. My eyes arent killing me as much, although theyre still stinging and hurting all the time. I might just be severely dehydrated. I think im out of my depressive phase for now, i hope it stays away for as long as possible.

Thats it really. Have a good night.

Pinch punch first of the month no returns.

Close entry: 00:36

[forzaferrariiiii]

i actually kinda like the race today

it was really bad for the ferraris, but it was weird, like no one was out

exept for hamilton-verstappen fight, the others were actually really close to each other

for the other hand, ferrari still bad, not only for the car, i started to think maybe charles it is kinda the problem? like dont get me wrong, i love him, but i think hes has been for a depressing side, and he blames too much the car...

i think its everyones fault, exept for Carlos, the engeiners, the team principal (ily vasseur, but u didnt did that much), charles, the car...

idkkk

*the picture ofc its not mine, + its old!!*

*i think i get it from the official sf ig*

[jatlokgwo]

gives you the ramble about her i sent to my therapist right before getting her 👍

tvis was for redesigns and then i got to silly with it and it wouldnt fit in an explanation for 1 charater anymore but it was to send to you so hands you

furina has sh scars on her arms from the stress of pretending to be soemthing shes not and the pressure she put onto herself to do it right not really leaving time or pride for healthy coping mechanismes(not changing anything else i love canon furina shes a brat she cares about worker rights and fair pay shes a medaphore for being queer or neurodivergent shes just a theatre kid being normal theres a scrapped concept for mac n cheese that we learned about from a leak of furina in the cooking menu with a note that says this charater can only cook macaroni her most powerful attack is the power of friendship shes so easy to project agere on that sometimes i wonder if it would be canon if it was more well known/accsepted she has hpd and npd shes a physical representation of godhood and personhood clashing and she has hetochromia its implied that shes actually an oceanid witch is an immortal water spirit its also implied that shes just a random normal human she shows up wherever wearing her dress/shorts/thing and a top hat and like 5 diffrent shades of blue she can walk on water and she has an idle antimation to hold up her seahorse friend that she made out if water and he blows bubbles around and to cuddle the seahorse her teaser was a meme flawless no notes)

after furina got outed as pretending to be the hydro archon she was shunned bady and has a hoodies and loose pants phase and added some scars on her legs seince it "didnt matter anymore" (depression✨️)(neuvi is still her closest friend but he couldnt be there for her because he had to take over as the hydro archon/ruler of fontaine because the real archon DIED while the nation was in a crisis (executed herself to stop the crisis by messing up a prophecy that needed her to be alive) and he still had his old job of being the only judge in the nation hes busy)

she has healng arc when ayato and ayaka visit from inazuma and convince her to be the director for a play witch put her back into a public spotlight and taught her that she actually does love acting when its for fun and shes allowed to mess up (combining canon and an event that i loved i wish i could play roses and muskets again is was SO good)

during the film (in public) she got a hydro vision and was accsepted back by most people because the whole reason she was shunned was for impersonating the god but if that god not only forgives her but favors her enough the give her magic powers then its not the resturant chefs place to keep hating her (the civilians dont know this but furina was actually doing it as a favor for focalor and having a vision guves you a chance to become an archon for real but history people have noticed that every archon was a vision holder first exept for morax who was a dragon and so hes already connected to the element he is the archin of and theres a debate about if venti and himmel are actaully the same person but vision holder himmel died the archon that looks like him (venti) is a wind sprite accending gave him enough power to shapeshift and he took himmels looks to remeber him by and so that anything in his likeness would be in himmels honor if somebody close to him asked he would explain that himmel is the 1 that got people to overthrow the tyrant anemo archon venti was just a supportive friend on the sidelines that was to small to pick up anything to protect his friend with)

CHAT

[roseprlnce]

is there anything more depressing than wall to wall carpeting. i have made this exact post before

[avaelangel]

Thoughts on Laura & Max.

Hiya, cubs!

Important disclaimer: you may think what you think. If you don't like this couple, you have a right to it. It just my thoughts and I need to spill 'em.

So, I think Laura & Max are a pretty good match.

You definitely can catch the vibe of ''over-ambitious girlfriend dragging her doofus boyfriend along'', but in my opinion, it's very surface-level.

Let's talk about Max, since we saw less of him.

The website and fan-wiki describe him as lacking ambition, airhead, class-clown, but also friendly and loyal. I really do think he would be more content working or having his own repair-shop or something near Laura's college and it doesn't make him any less of a great guy. He clearly loves Laura and believes in her.

And let's be clear, he's so dorky. Him trying to scare Travis when sheriff's the one in the cell? So stupid. But he's okay wearing Laura's clothes and i take it as him being completely okay with his sexuality. That means we get another Ryan\Dylan stan, folks. He's not a full golden retriever, he get's annoyed with Laura, but still, doesn't like fighting. He also keeps his emotions and failures deep down, untill he forgets about them, maybe or they just come out. I think he hid the rejection letter because he's afraid to loose Laura.

There is also his quickness to give up. He does try to lighten up the situation first, but he does come to a conclusion that they gonna be stuck in the jail forever. Prone to depression? Maybe, he's not so upset about grad school itself, because college took a huge toll on him.

Let's speculate on the past a bit. They kind of seem like if they were together at school, Max would be bullied and some point Laura would fend off his or their bullies. Laura is not only hardheaded, she generally seems meaner than Max. Sister of multiple brothers\daughter of a strict\toxic parents and an only child of an over-bearing mother?

She cuts him off and corrects him during Chapter 7. But I feel like he have done it too, but in a different sence. Maybe, when she's being too mean in a group setting? Over selling a crude joke to its fullest extent? Play-fighting too hard? She does go full monster-hunter in two months, because she's so fed up with everything and just wants to help her boyfriend. She must know how to shoot and there's nothing wrong in winning plushies for your boyfriend.

They are very comfortable with each other. I don't really think that they were each other's firsts, but it does seem that they've been together for at least like a couple of years. College sweethearts? You can't deny that Max's rejection letter is from a graduate program. Laura, in my opinion, must be a biology major or something, and she would go to a vet school. She very much can be CPR-certified or something like that. Also, don't qoute me on that, not American. Maybe, they both didn't find the college scene amusing and just vibed together. It's sounds super nice, actualy.

I'm gonna go as far as saying that their families might not understand them to the extent they need. So, they just exept each other as much as possible and love each other very much. There might be a way to reunite them, when they both have blood on their hands. Story-wise, it's great both ways. Either way, they are tied together, issues or not. So. Much. Potential.

Considering everything, especially their (alleged) age being in early 20s, Laura and Max would be the most functional couple at camp. Max for sure would get along with everyone, when Laura might spook people like Abi, Nick or Jacob a bit. Kaitlyn or Ryan would take to her attitude a bit better, I think. We might not even have Jacob\Emma drama in the world where Laura & Max reached the camp in time. And just imagine kids crushing on them both, that would be so funny. Ten year olds trying to challenge Max for Laura? Or girls saying that Laura is too old for Max? I kinda hate kids while thinking about it, but it would make for a funny story.

In conclusion, they just seems as nice couple that doesn't really need to be broken up. So much was left to the fandom's imagination, everything can happen, but still. As Siobhan said in an interview, their backstory isn't set in stone. Do what you will!

I also might be a tad obsessive or...a good writer? I don't know. I just need to rid myself of a lot of Quarry speculation, but I someone enjoys reading my weird shi..stuff.

[humntrash]

I have this rly bad habit of consuming media that just pisses me of so I hope writing it all down will help a bit.

1. "Sex (and gender) are binary":

Yes human sex is binary. Sex is defined by the gamets an organism produces, not the SRY, the genitals or anything that usually comes with ones sex but the gamets. Which is also why we have the same binary sex as plants even though we dont share the same biology. So it's binary the same way we humans are bipedal. Usually yes and the exeptions are "overlooked" so we can even talk bout biology. But not everyone produces gamets and thats no problem we have more accurate language than sex. After all what does ones sex given at birth tell us? Just that a doctor looked at ur junk at to them it looked like a vagina/dick. And because of this güevedoce, people with PAIS, etc are either ignored or used to promote ones opion. We have more accurate language just use it pls.

2. "Trans athletes should never compete against cis woman"

Yes a male and female body have differences that do matter in top athletes which is why regulations exist and we can and should talk about those regulations and if they should be stricter. However first of all trans women do not dominate womans sports. Every time I hear that "examples" are given which are usually college level athletes not professionals, some random trans woman who broke 1 record in the age range of like 50+ and lost a fuck ton, someone who didnt meet the regulations and shouldnt have been allowed to compete in the first place and than some trans woman who are pretty good and were pretty good while they competed against men as well. Again regulations are good but u will NEVER reach 100% fairness. People from kenya have a bio advantage in regards to running which is okay, rich people have an advantage over poor people since they can affort all the help they could need, etc. Regulations yes, discrimination no. Its that simple

3. "Trans woman are a risk to womens save spaces"

If ANYONE is being inapropriate that should be taken seariously. If a trans woman is a creep she should be in jail, if a gay guy sexually assaults people in a gay bar he should be in jail, if a trans woman goes into a womans restroom and takes a shit that is not a problem. It's that simple. It is quite telling that even cis woman who are deemed to look too "manly" are being harrased. JUST LET PEOPLE USE THE FCKING BATHROOM. I'm sry to tell u but if a man wants to be a creep he doesn't have to play dress up first. A creep is a creep and should be dealed with accordingly.

4. "Transitioning is not beneficial but harmful"

I'm annoyed by this one since it always makes me read thise stupid article who just butcher the actual research paper. Like the beautiful article "transitioning procedures dont help mental health, largest dataset Shows". The actual research paper "reduction in mental health treatment utilization among transgender individuals after gender affirming surgeries: a total population study". I dont think I have to explain the contents of the article but lets sum up the paper. The study takes a look at diagnosed trans people who transitioned and who didnt and how high their suicide, depression, anxiety, etc rates were. And than it compared that to the rest of the population (Aka not-trans people) and to no ones suprise the rates for trans people were higher. Like yeah no shit. No one ever claimed transitioning was the cure all. It just showes that trans people have more mental health problems, not where they come from or whether transitioning helped. It does say that hormone treatment didnt have a significant effect in those rates. Which is important to note but neither proves not diporves anything. And also it did show a significant decrease regarding to surgery. Which implies that surgery did in fact help.

So in short the paper used to discredit transitioning actually implies some benefits. And this is why I hate humans so much. Yes trans people have more mental health problems EVERYONE knows that. Queer people in general do. I'm not claming that transitioning is even right for everyone it is not. Which is why we need better access to information not banning procedures that can help certain people.

Thats all I have the energy to write. I could go on about more studies, even stuff like the "trans-brain" study which is also just nonsense but I wont. If anyone has question ill gladly answer them but I doubt that this will actually change anyone mind since people hate critical thinking

[lostsoulau-ask]

This make me feel like the crown was made for like a ‘ritual of passage’ for the ancients for a title of guardian of the planet and/or king of it (if there a royalty that is already in charge, it can fontion has a figure-head preventing assasination attempt on the real ruler). Probably at the time the Crown was made (and whatever was inside was sealed in) it would feed on the soul (or life-force its about the same thing in the kirby universe i think) of its host if it felt unfit for rulership, like a living failsafe in case someone would try to destroy/conquer the universe. After the last known rightfull guardian of halcandra Landia had been “crowned” , the planet was destroid by an unknown other source. (like i don’t know hmmm a massive volcano eruption purgaps?) And landia set their duty to guard the crown from thieves (how the dragon didn’t get possesed by the crown is either Landia was that pure, the four heads take turns wearing the arctefact, or there was an “uneasy truce” going on) And many years later Magolor tried to “crown” himself has king but he was saw has “unfit for rulership” by the crown (or it was desesperate to have a new host) and was promptly possesed by it.          ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ...The implication that Magolor was “unfit for rulership” can mean that he would get possesed either way (no mater if he win or lose) and/or that hes incapable or running a kingdom. If he managed to have a kingdom of his. he can be the “tryrant egosentrical douche-bag” kind of king, that would lead to him being stressed almost 24/7 and when he get possed by the crown over years, would either lead him to wonder PopStars/the universe has a shel of himself and a scary legend.  Or the much less depressing way. he’ll be like Dedede, he would be all scary and mean at first sight but if someone dared to cause trouble in HIS kingdom, he’ll be the first on the scene to kick you to the curb.(Almost no one has heard of him being the ‘overlord of the universe/popstar’ but they play the game since it makes him happy). And the waddle dees still take care of the castle, exept that Magolor had taken them under his wing because Dedede has bein dededead for sometime and he got guilty over that. Yes, sometime he got his tamper tantrums, if theres not any Bandee, MetaKnight (Shard maybe) or Kirby equivalent. The crown will just stop him from continuing his ego trip (or if hes to much of an idiot). If he get possesed, there would be a big moment of panic before everything setlling down. (if the crown is broken and he goes back to cat boy, if hes back to his overlord form, stay in his soul form, if either the crown or him is in control or both is a good writhing prompt)

Did everyone know that when gemstones are cut certain ways, they have names for those styles?

Cabochon, Asscher, Princess, Baguette, Swiss, Trillion…

And a cut that is known as the king/royal cut…

(image yanked ungracefully from fivmagazine.com)

[killthe-illusionarydreams]

Chronic Emptiness

Fred x reader

After the war

Summary: Y/N having a depressive episode & Fred trying to help her through it. Basically me living vicariously through her. Soft moment.

Warning: Mentions of depression & plainly feeling like shit

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Y/N was exhausted. Not by her job or work, just mentally drained. This sort of thing happened sometimes. One moment she was okay, the next it all came crashing down on her & she’d feel pure hatred for the world she was living in. Fred had gotten used to it by now, he’d be the ever so caring boyfriend & try to help her through it however he could. Exept he really couldnt do much but reassure Y/N that he was there for her.

And of course Y/N appreciated him & all his efforts, she loved Fred more than life itself & everyone knew that. But sometimes she just needed space. Like today.

They were at a bar with George & Angelina and several other mates after their shifts had all ended from their various occupations. George & Fred at their joke shop, Angelia at the Ministry, Y/N at St Mungos.

Y/N never truly felt like she belonged, not growing up at home, not at Hogwarts, & certainly not in St Mungos where she was working as a nurse. Its not that she hated the job, more like it didn’t particularly cause her immediate joy. She just did it. She got on with it & did what she had to.

As her friends were dancing to the music Y/N leant into her boyfriends ear so he’d hear her say “Hey Fred I think I’m gonna head home early today, I’m tired.”

The man looked up at her, as if trying to read her thoughts “D’you want me to come with love?”

Y/N shook her head, declining the offer “No dont worry. I’ll go through the park, I need some fresh air anyway.” Fred nodded & bid her goodbye with a kiss, telling her to stay safe. “I’ll see you at home.”

It was already dark outside, the tall streetlamps being the main source of light for the woman, but she wasnt really paying attention to where she way going, not caring enough to look. Y/N got to the park near the flat where her & Fred lived, deciding to make a pitstop there she sat on one of the wooden benches that overlooked a small river.

Letting out a heavy sigh she put her head into the palms of her hands, it was feeling all too heavy lately. “Dear Merlin I’m so tired.” Mumbling, the woman rolled her head in her hands before sitting back up and gazing at the sky. Oh how beautiful it looked tonight.

Lighting up a cigarette, she put it to her lips & took a long inhale. She was supposed to be quitting smoking, Fred always got on her about continuing the habbit. In all honesty Y/N didnt care enough to stop, at this point she wasnt even sure if she still got the same boost of seratonin from smoking as she used to. But again, it didnt bother her.

“Fuck me why is life so draining?” She asked no one in particular, she knew why it was draining, the abundance of issues with her brain promptly being the answer. She just wished it were easier. Easier to deal with things.

Realistically Y/N had nothing to be unhappy about anymore, there was no war, she had a good life, an amazing boyfriend, a stable job, decent friends. But there was a permanent void in her heart that could never be filled. Ever since she was a child it stayed with her. Maybe her cold & harsh, unloving parents brought it on, or maybe how she didnt let herself feel love & would distance herself from anyone that ever got close to her. But it was there. Unmovable.

The woman let the smoke out from her mouth, sighing at why she was having another one of her episodes, feeling shitty about having said episode. Yet, there was nothing she could do to stop it from occuring. “Fuck off brain.” She mumbled to herself, cursing her biology & upbringing “Stop feeling so Shit.”

“I keep you alive you ungrateful idiot.” She huffed to herself “And I’m doing a pretty good job, so stop making me feel like its my fault.” It wasnt her fault. If it were, Y/N would know how to fix it & evidently stop feeing this way.

Some would say the war brought this Y/N on, but people knew that she was like this way before. However, before she was better at hiding it. Better at hiding the dark circles, the restlessness, the ‘I dont care what happens to me’ attitude. In all honesty it didnt bother Y/N that people knew she was like this, she didnt do it on purpose. And when she could- she’d be happy- the life of the party, in those instances she could hide her feelings. But sometimes they just got too overwhelming to bare.

“You’re being such a selfish prick.” She sighed and puffed on yet another cigarette “Go home Y/N. Go to the man who loves you.” Yet she made no motion to move. It’d probably been two hours since she left the bar, she wasnt keeping track of time, not feeling the need to.

Sometimes she thought that Fred didnt love her, not because he said something or did something, but because she thought that Fred puts up with her. Which wasn’t true, the man loved her to death, she made him feel alive. Y/N was a risk taker, an adventurer, someone that kept you on your toes- & he admired that about her. Y/N was smart & funny & the most gorgeous person Fred had ever seen, but he knew that behind her sarcasm & faux narcissistic comments, she didnt believe it. Oh what he’d give for the woman to see herself through his eyes.

A few more minutes passed & the woman got up with a sigh, throwing the butt of her cigarette down, she made her way home.

The door creaked open, a little too loudly for Y/N’s taste, she winced at the sound, hoping it wouldnt wake Fred.

“Where were you?” The light flicked on. Before her stood a dischevelled Fred, arms crossed “I got home and you werent here.”

“I was in the park.” She mumbled, taking her coat off “Lost track of time, sorry.”

Fred looked at the woman before him, he noticed the dark circles that she tried to cover prefousley with makeup, noticed the ash on her jacket and faint aroma of smoke mixed with sadness.

“Its fine.” He reassured her and went to hug her, pretending to not notice her cold body & how she stiffened when he touched her “Just let me know next time alright?”

The woman hummed in agreement and walked into the living room, as she sat on the couch she put the tv on to play some sort of muggle program but not really paying attention to it. She just didnt fancy Fred interrogating her about her feelings. She hated talking about them, normally just botteling them up. Maybe that was the cause of her unhappiness.

A few moments went by & she thought Fred had went to bed, but then she felt the couch sink next to her. “Here” he placed a blanket around her & handed her a hot mug of tea “You’re freezing.” Mumbling a thanks she sipped on her drink, not really feeling like talking she waited for him to say something, anything.

And he did “Is it getting bad again?” Oh. Was it? Probably. Most definitely.

“I’m fine.” She lied “I’ll be fine.” Y/N wasnt convincing anyone.

Fred watched her, not knowing what to say or do. He wished he could help, just magically cheer up the love of his life. But thats not how life worked. “You’re good enough.” He blurted out “You deserve to feel happy.”

Y/N didnt look up at him, she knew Fred was trying to help. But was he? I dont know.

“Do I though, do I really?” She finally asked with a sigh, those seemed to be coming from her a lot lately “Because I know I do, I just dont feel it coming to me and its so draining to get on with life when you feel worthless.”

Fred took in what she just said, pausing before trying to come up with a reasonable response “I know.” He sighed “I want to help you Y/N, what can I do?” What could he do though? Realistically?

“I dont know. Nothing. This’ll pass soon enough and I’ll be okay.”

Fred knew that, Y/N was always ‘okay’ or ‘fine’ or ‘just tired’ “But I want you to be better than okay. I want you to be happy, to enjoy life and all its moments.”

Y/N scoffed “And you think I dont want that?” There was a tense silence

“Why dont we take the day off tomorrow and go out somewhere? We havent done that in a while.” Fred suggested. It was true, with both of them being bombarded by work they hardly saw eachother in the last few months.

“Sure.” Y/N smiled sickly and set her tea down “Yeah alright I’ll just sack my job off to have a fun little date with you eh? Why not risk getting fired just because I’m feeling a little moody huh?”

Fred was taken aback by her words and immediately went back on what he said “If you dont want to thats fine I-“

“Im sorry” she cut him off “I’m sorry, that was a dick move I didnt mean it, just everythings gotten so much-“ she put her feet up on the couch to hug them “Im sorry.” A few stray tears fell onto her knees

Fred moved closer to her “Hey, its okay, its okay dont worry. I understand.” Oh sweet understanding Fred, Fred who gave you unconditional love and support. Fred who you keep snapping at.

Moments pass as he embraces you, your body leaning against his heavily. Not sure whether its the exhaustion or something else “I dont deserve you.” You mumble into his chest. He frowns cups your face in his hands, you lean in to his warm touch.

“Dont say that” you let out a quiet sob “Y/N you deserve the absolute world, and I wish I could give it to you & more. If I could take away your pain, I would. In an instant I would. You dont deserve to feel like this, to think like this. But I’m here for you okay. I love you, so fucking much you don’t understand.” He gazed into her eyes, wishing she could feel how much he meant it “You’re the best thing that happened to me & I’m going to prove it to you, whatever it takes Y/N.” He kissed your nose before letting you hug him tighter, relieved that you no longer shrunk away from his touch “Words cant express how much I love you.”

After a few more tears fall, Y/N laughs into his chest “Good because you’re stuck with me.”

Fred grins to himself “I wouldnt have it any other way.”