#except for this ENT PA

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I called the ENT office to leave a message to ask if I could get started on antibiotics or something because the pain is getting worse and I don't want to wait 6 days until my appointment, and the front desk person was like, "ok what's you're date of birth?" and I gave it to her and she kept trying to tell me happy birthday! And I was like oh yeah thank you that's very sweet but really not what I care about right now!

A diagnosis for my birthday? Could I be so lucky?

[myhealingera]

Two weeks after this photo was taken, I received a phone call that nobody ever wants to receive.

I was dealing with a slew of health issues: an inability to lose weight, hair loss, swollen lymph nodes, fatigue so intense that getting out of bed felt like a miracle, and severe brain fog. My joints were in so much pain that I found myself using a heating pad for most of the day.

I consulted my aunt, who is a pediatrician, and she reviewed my recent blood work. She observed that my TSH levels were consistently borderline high, often surpassing the normal threshold. Encouraged by her insight, I visited my OBGYN and shared my symptoms. She ordered hormone testing and referred me to a rheumatologist, given that lupus runs in my family. The results indicated elevated TSH, DHEA, and C-reactive protein levels.

I then saw a remarkable rheumatologist who conducted over 120 tests. All came back normal except for my thyroid antibodies, and I was diagnosed with arthritis in my hands. Around this time, my neck began to swell, feeling as though something was stuck in my throat. My primary care physician scheduled an ultrasound, which revealed swelling in my neck and a lymph node, and identified a nodule or "ectopic" tissue.

Returning to my primary care doctor, I was told my lab results were normal and advised to follow up in a year, despite continuing to experience swollen lymph nodes and being told that the neck nodule was unrelated to the swelling. At this point had been to urgent care 3 times, completed 3 rounds of steroids, a z-pack, and tested negative for mono, Covid, and strep.

Despite my tendency to avoid conflict, something felt off, and I knew I wasn't okay.

I requested a referral to an endocrinologist, which I received, but they couldn't see me until after Christmas. Not wanting to wait, I found another endocrinologist who could see me on Halloween. At my first appointment, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s thyroiditis and hypothyroidism. She ordered a biopsy "to be safe," emphasizing that a finding warrants investigation. Even at the hospital for my biopsy, the PA questioned its necessity given my primary care's advice to wait a year.

On 12/22, my endocrinologist informed me that the biopsy results were suspicious for thyroid carcinoma. I returned on 1/5 to discuss the findings.

They had sent my sample for Afirma testing, a genetic test for medullary thyroid cancer, due to the unusual results and the aggressive nature of the potential cancer.

I was then referred to an ENT, who suspected the nodule might actually be a lymph node. A CT scan confirmed this suspicion, revealing a lymph node suspicious for thyroid cancer, yet with no nodules on my thyroid itself.

The decision was made to remove the lymph node, with intraoperative pathology consultation to decide whether to also remove the thyroid.

On 2/24, the lymph node was removed, but pathology was indeterminate, leading to the decision not to remove the thyroid.

The following week, I was informed that my results had been sent to a larger university hospital for further analysis and a second opinion, an ominous sign according to my ENT.

Ultimately, it was confirmed as papillary thyroid cancer that had begun to metastasize to the lymph nodes, indicating occult thyroid cancer, typically undetected until it spreads to the lymph nodes. Likely, there are microcarcinomas on my thyroid undetectable by imaging. Thus, another surgery is required.

My complete thyroidectomy is scheduled for 4/24.

Honestly, none of this truly sank in until I received a call from the hospital's oncology department to schedule a radiation consultation for post-surgery RAI treatment.

It’s been an incredibly tough start to the year, to say the least.

[luzxii]

OMORICK AU REFS PART 2!!!! PLUS MORE I NFO ON THE REALWORLD GANG AS I HAV ENT REALLY TOUCHED ON THEM AS MUC H

- With the "three days left counter", it instead refers to the exact anniversary of Patty's pa ssing, the day after Halloween. Rick does not plan on moving. Instead of a sleepover, Streb er invites the gang to join him at the haunted house.

- The majority of the gang was not as deeply affected by Patty's death as the Omogang was of Mari's, they were not nearly as close with her and it was more the aftermath that caused change.

- Radford and Kevin changed the least out of the gang, except Radford now works at a DV D and videogame store rather then the theat re.

- Hanna was less affected by Patty (though she was of course sad about it and extremly worried for Rick) but was much more heavily affected by Rick's out of the blue breakup with her. Rick soon finds out after reuniting with the gang that she had already found a n ew partner. Rick taking that... not very well.

- Hanna hasn't at all moved on from Rick, ha ving forced herself to get a new partner in at tempts to stop how hurt the sudden departu re made her,she still doesn't have the same c onnection with her new girlfriend and is truly still in love with Rick deep down. Though Ric k saw this as her already having forgotten ab out him, not knowing the real context. Plus t he breakup was very impulsive on Rick's part and not something he wanted or thought thr ough in the slightest.

- Streber was affected the most by the event besides Rick. He deals with things differently then Basil. His personality is around the sam e, except theres a tense aura around him. His optimistic and carefree nature having disipat ed. The pressure of having to hide an act of manslaughter drove him to cope through his inventions, spending days alone in his house creating. He became less social and more clo sed off, not wanting to risk anything slipping out.

- Hanna still treats Rick with love and affecti on, she missed him dearly.

- Some of Radford's actions mirror Kel's role in some regard, though only to the extent of being the one to knock on Rick's door. He st ill sees Rick as a good pal even after years a part.

- Kevin, Rads and Rick used to be a trio of so rts, Kevin hadn't changed much at all since R ick isolated but seems to have a bit of anger towards him for ditching them for such a lon g time, though is interally more concerned t hen anything.

part 1 of the refs right here check em out!!

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Les temps du présent

Le présent de l'indicatif/présent simple

The indicative present is used to

describe what one is currently doing (présent d'énonciation): je travaille - I'm working (as we speak)

describe a fact (présent de vérité générale/historique): les chats sont des animaux - cats are animals

describe an ongoing fact that started in the past (présent duratif): il pleut depuis hier - It's been raining since yesterday

describe the scene (présent de description): le soleil est caché aujourd'hui - the sun is hiding today

describe a habit (présent d'habitude): je cours tous les dimanches - I run every sunday

describe what just happened (présent de passé proche): je viens d'arriver - I just got there

describe what is about to happen (présent de futur proche): je suis là dans une minute - I'll be there in a minute

give an order (présent d'injonction), alternative to the imperative present: tu rentres tout de suite ! - You get home immediately!

make a story feel real (présent de narration): il y a six ans déjà que mon ami s'en est allé avec son mouton. Si j'essaie ici de le décrire, c'est afin de ne pas l'oublier. - It has been six years since my friend left with his sheep. If I try to describe him here, it is so that I will not forget him. (Le Petit Prince)

express a possibility (présent d'hypothèse): si tu es gentil, tu auras un cadeau - if you're kind, you'll get a present

La conjugaison

First group (-er except Aller): je marche, tu marches, il/elle/on marche, nous marchons, vous marchez, ils/elles marchent

Second group (-ir with -iss- in the plural forms): je finis, tu finis, il/elle/on finit, nous finissons, vous finissez, ils/elles finissent

Third group (everything else): typically je cours, tu cours, il court, nous courons, vous courez, ils courent; long -oir verbs: je veux, tu veux, il veut, nous voulons, vous voulez, ils veulent; -indre/-soudre verbs: -s, -s, -t, -ons, -ez, -ent; other -dre verbs: -ds, -ds, -d, -dons, -dez, -dent; -ttre: -ts, -ts, -t, -tons, -tez, -tent; -rir, -llir: -e, -es, -e, -ons, -ez, -ent

Auxiliaries: je suis, tu es, il est, nous sommes, vous êtes, ils sont + j'ai, tu as, il a, nous avons, vous avez, ils ont

N.B. Many third-group verbs are irregular because they used to be two different verbs (ex: Être comes from both Essere - to be and Stare - to stand) that eventually became one and consequently have two bases and can have up to five stems. Always double-check for different, stems, extra letters, accents, etc.

Notable exceptions:

The vowel -i- cannot be between two other vowels in the first and second person plural so it will turn into -y- (vous croyez, nous voyons)

In -cer and -ger verbs, the first person plural changes to allow for the correct pronunciation (nous lançons, nous mangeons); c > ç, go > geo.

In -aître verbs, only the third person singular keeps the accent (elle naît).

Le présent progressif

The progressive present is an emphasized version of the enunciation present and is therefore used to describe an ongoing action that started recently and is actively being done as the narrator is speaking.

It is built by putting together the subject, the verb Être conjugated in the indicative present tense, the adverbial locution "en train de" (in the progress of), the infinitive form of the verb of action, and possibly an object.

Je suis en train de manger, j'ai bientôt fini - I'm eating, I'm almost done

Est-ce que tu es en train de travailler? - are you working?

Nous sommes en train de faire nos devoirs - we are doing homework

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Le conditionnel présent

The present conditional is used

to express a wish: j'aimerais retourner en Italie - I'd love to go back to Italy

a suggestion: tu devrais partir tôt - you should leave early

a hypothesis: il pourrait rentrer demain - he could come home tomorrow

to casually share one's opinion: je n'aimerais pas qu'on me dise ça ! - I wouldn't like it if someone told me that (can be a way to aggravate a situation)

to ask something politely: je voudrais un café - I'd like a coffee

to refer to the future in the past: elle a dit qu'elle arriverait tard - she said she'd arrive late

La conjugaison

Conjugating the present conditional is easy for the first two verbal groups: just add the terminations to the infinitive of the verb. If the verb ends in -e, remove it: prendre > je prendrais. Fun fact: you can build the imperfect tense by removing -er- for the first group and turning -ir- into -iss- for the second.

First group (-er except Aller): je marcherais, tu marcherais, il marcherait, nous marcherions, vous marcheriez, ils marcheraient

Second group (-ir with -iss- in the plural forms): je finirais, tu finirais, il finirait, nous finirions, vous finiriez, ils finiraient

Third group (everything else): typically: je courrais, tu courrais, il courrait, nous courrions, vous courriez, ils courraient; auxiliaries: je serais, tu serais, il serait, nous serions, vous seriez, ils seraient + j'aurais, tu aurais, il aurait, nous aurions, vous auriez, ils auraient

Main irregular verbs: auxiliaries + aller - j'irais, devoir - je devrais, pouvoir - je pourrais, recevoir - je recevrais, savoir - je saurais, tenir - je tiendrais, venir - je viendrais, voir - je verrais, vouloir - je voudrais

N.B. Make sure to not mix it up with the simple future tense, they're similar!

L'impératif présent

The present imperative mood can only be conjugated in the second person singular and the first and second person plural. It is used

to give an order: viens ici tout de suite - come here right now

a suggestion: appelle-le tout de suite, non ? - maybe call him now?

a plea: s'il te plaît, pardonne-moi ! - please, forgive me

to ban someone from doing something: ne touche pas à ça ! - do not touch that

La conjugaison

Warning: it often looks like the indicative present - without a subject. If so, in the second person singular, the verb will require a final -s only if the current final letter is a consonant. Certain verbs cannot be conjugated, like vouloir.

être: sois, soyons, soyez; avoir: aie, ayons, ayez

va, allons, allez; finis, finissons, finissez; marche, marchons, marchez

N.B. Pronouns can be added: a reflexive verb will come with a tonic pronoun and a dash in a positive sentence: Lave-toi !, and a direct object pronoun in a negative sentence: Ne te vexe pas !; when referring to a portion -en: Prends-en un peu ! (an -s will be added for the liaison to be possible), and to a place, -y: Vas-y !

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L'infinitif présent

is the neutral form you find in dictionaries: courir, marcher, prendre

is found after prepositions À, De, Pour and Sans: c’est sans dire, viens à la maison pour dîner !, on part sans perdre de temps

is found after a conjugated verb: il voulait partir tôt (the second verb can be the first element of the sentence: courir nous fatigue)

expresses an order, advice, prohibition: frapper avant d’entrer

expresses anger, surprise or a wish: m'excuser, moi ? plutôt mourir !

expresses doubt in an interrogative sentence: que faire de ce garçon ?

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Le participe présent

The present participle works like an adverb and either expresses an action that happens at the same time as another action, that is possibly the consequence of that action, or describes the subject. It is built by removing the termination of the verb and replacing it by -ant.

Les employés possédant une voiture peuvent se garer dans la rue - the employees who own a car can park in the street

Étant déjà en retard, je décide de courir - being already late, I decide to run

N.B. To get the right pronunciation or avoid a mix-up with an adjective, it can be necessary to modify or add letters when building the present participle. For example: convaincre > convainquant (as convaincant is the adjective), diverger > divergeant ([ʒ], as divergant would be a [g] sound).

Movie: La Piscine - Jacques Deray, 1969

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S[Es]sion [No]t[Es]:

I’ve been o[U]t here a while exploring beyond [Th]e F[U]r[Th][Es]t Ring, [Th]e endl[Es]s [No][Th]ingn[Es]s of [Pa][Ra]dox S[Pa]ce between different S[Es]sion’s Medi[U]ms, [Th][At] I sometim[Es] don’t [Th]ink abo[U]t my own S[Es]sion for Wip[Es] [At] a time. It’s been [At] least 413 days since I last visited it, so I fig[U]red [No]w is as good a time as any for me to recap where I c[Am]e [Fr]om.

My n[Am]e is Hrisch Seprex, and I [Am] [Th]e Chief Explorer of Alternia’s Inter-Dimensional [Th]re[At] Ass[Es]sment te[Am]. When [Th]e Alternian Empire learned of [Th]e existence of [Pa][Ra]dox S[Pa]ce, Her Imperial Cond[Es]cension herself decided [Th][At] it m[U]st be inv[Es]tig[At]ed and f[U]lly [U]nderstood to find o[U]t if it was a new [Fr]ontier for Alternia to conq[U]er, or a new b[At]tle[Fr]ont [Th][At] m[U]st be defended against [At] all costs.

[Th][At] was over 612 Sweeps ago. Fo[U]r trolls [U]sed a piece of software masq[U]e[Ra]ding as a g[Am]e to gain acc[Es]s to [Pa][Ra]dox S[Pa]ce, ca[U]sing a massive meteor storm in [Th]e proc[Es]s. Fort[U]n[At]ely, [Th]e Planetary Defense Grid saved [Th]e planet [Fr]om [Th]is fiery s[Pa]ce-born c[At]aclysm, and [Th]e Cond[Es]ce’s military managed to stop [Th]e “G[Am]e” before all fo[U]r trolls co[U]ld enter.

[Th]is g[Am]e expr[Es]sed itself in [Th]e form of an inter-dimensional s[Pa]ce called [Th]e Medi[U]m. It was a planetary system wi[Th] seve[Ra]l planets all inhabited by fantastical alien [Ra]c[Es]. As [Th][Es]e fo[U]r rebel trolls fo[U]nd [Th]eir plans for dimensional crossing being [Th]warted by HIC’s troops, [Th]eir te[Am] coh[Es]ion snapped, and [Th]e goldblooded mastermind behind [Th]e g[Am]e code released a ~ATH vir[U]s [Th][At] killed every[Th]ing in [Th]eir Medi[U]m and [Pa]rtially c[Ra]shed [Th]eir S[Es]sion.

J[U]mping ahead to [Th]e pr[Es]ent, I was recr[U]ited for [Th]e Inter-Dimensional [Th]re[At] Ass[Es]sment te[Am] after discovering a robot [Th][At] had origin[At]ed [Fr]om [Pa][Ra]dox S[Pa]ce. I was told [Th][At] I wo[U]ld be modifying [Th]e g[Am]e code to r[Es]tart [Th]e failed S[Es]sion. On [Th]e orders of [Th]e Cond[Es]ce herself, I wo[U]ld [Th]en have to enter as a player along wi[Th] [Th]e Jadeblooded Hemophage [Fr]om [Th]e original fo[U]r (her Rebellio[U]s Dre[Am]s somewh[At] c[U]rbed after spending h[U]ndreds of Sweeps as a [Po]litical prisoner).

Over all [Th]ose sweeps, o[Th]er trolls had managed to [Pu]rge [Th]e ~ATH vir[U]s [Fr]om [Th]e S[Es]sion and even mapped o[U]t [Th]e Medi[U]m by expeditions [Th][At] made [U]se of a device called a t[Ra]ns[Po]rtalizer [Th][At] had been fo[U]nd in [Th]e r[U]ins of a temple near [Th]e hive of one of [Th]e rebels. [Th]ey were also able to g[At]her all [Th]e b[U]ilding m[At]erials released by [Th]is mass extinction event.

We also fo[U]nd o[U]t [Th][At] [Th]is g[Am]e had been played in m[U]ltiple timelin[Es], and we were somehow considered to be an offshoot b[Ra]nch of wh[At] was considered to be [Th]e “Alpha Timeline”. Except [Th][At] all divergent b[Ra]nch[Es] were s[U]p[Po]sed to wi[Th]er off and die o[U]t, and somehow o[U]rs hadn’t.

We didn’t have e[No][U]gh players to properly r[Es]tart [Th]e s[Es]sion however. [Th]e g[Am]e, which had to be modified to even consider me to be a candid[At]e for being a player, had classepected me as a Rog[U]e of Doom. [Th]e Hemophage prisoner who was to accom[Pa]ny me had originally been classpected as a Maid of Blood, b[U]t after my modific[At]ions, [Th]e g[Am]e was tre[At]ing her as a Knight of S[Pa]ce.

(Nei[Th]er of [Th][Es]e m[At]ched [Th]e classpect of her co[U]nter[Pa]rt in [Th]e “Alpha Timelime”. In fact, [No]ne of [Th]e fo[U]r players did. [Th]is co[U]ld be beca[U]se o[U]r Alternia was so vastly divergent [Fr]om [Th]e o[Th]er [Th]ey were effectively different trolls entirely. [Fr]om wh[At] I [U]nderstand, in [Th]e o[Th]er timeline [Th][At] we have d[At]a on, [Th]ey had a dozen players, instead of o[U]r q[U]artet of rebels.)

[Th]e Cond[Es]ce had forbidden anyone else b[U]t me and [Th]e Rebel Dre[Am]er of a Jadeblood [Fr]om being players in [Th]e r[Es]tart S[Es]sion, so I had to get cre[At]ive. [Th]ro[U]gh some shenanigans involving Time T[Ra]vel and Ectobiology, I was able to make a [Pa][Ra]dox Clone of myself whom [Th]e g[Am]e assigned [Th]e classpect of Prince of Time, giving o[U]r r[Es]tarted S[Es]sion a Time player to go along wi[Th] o[U]r S[Pa]ce player.

One [Th]ing I didn’t co[U]nt on wo[U]ld be my Prince of Time [Pa][Ra]dox Clone [Th]en [U]sing time t[Ra]vel to go back in time and set [U]p all [Th]e divergenc[Es] of o[U]r timeline [Fr]om [Th]e s[U]p[Po]sed “Alpha”, before ret[U]rning to join [Th]e S[Es]sion wi[Th] [U]s. A second [Th]ing I hadn’t seen coming was [Th]e fact [Th][At] [Th]e Ectobiology eq[U]ipment wo[U]ld a[U]tom[At]ically make a second [Pa][Ra]dox Clone, who ended [U]p being classpected as a Seer of Void.

[Th][At] backstory o[U]t of [Th]e way, let me get to [Th]e act[U]al d[Es]cription of my Medi[U]m. As I said, [Th]e Alternian Military had intervened before [Th]e original g[Am]e S[Es]sion was completely started, and all life in [Th]e Medi[U]m was wiped o[U]t.

[Th]e first player to enter was [Th]e goldblooded “Mastermind” behind [Th]e g[Am]e. His split personality manif[Es]ted into two different dre[Am]selv[Es] wi[Th] differing classpects, Heir of Mind and [Pa]ge of [Ra]ge. His planet was [Th]e Land of Flare and Calcite, comprised of clear crystals [Th][At] do[U]ble-re[Fr]act any light. He prototyped his Kernalsprite wi[Th] a dead serverhive. [Th]is had [Th]e effect of making [Th]e [U]nderlings and King and Q[U]een [No]n-mobile, b[U]t if yo[U] got too close to [Th]em yo[U] co[U]ld still be st[U]ng by be[Es].

He was followed by [Th]e rebels’ “M[Es]siah” fig[U]re, a m[U]tant-blooded Mage of Heart. His planet was [Th]e Land of Cherri[Es] and Longing, which s[Po]rted for[Es]ts of cherry-blossom tre[Es]. He prototyped his Kernalsprite wi[Th] [Th]e Blood of his similarly rebellio[U]s Anc[Es]tor, a s[Am]ple of which had been reverse-alchemitized by [Th]e “Mastermind” o[U]t of [Th]e inexplicably tall [Pa]ir of [Pa]nts [Th]e heretical seer of an Anc[Es]tor been wearing [At] his exec[U]tion. Re[Po]rtedly [Th]e plan was to try to [U]se [Th][At] blood to be able to acc[Es]s [Th]ose seer [Po]wers in some way.

[Th]e [Th]ird and final entry of [Th]e original S[Es]sion was [Th]e rebels’ leader, an Oliveblood whom styled herself as “[Th]e Lion[Es]s”. Her classpect was Witch of Bre[At]h, and in an [U]n[U]s[U]al de[Pa]rt[U]re [Fr]om [Th]e p[At]tern for Bre[At]h players, her planet was [Th]e Land of Rivers and Savannah. ([Th]e prevailing [Th]eory [Fr]om [Th]e analysis te[Am] is [Th][At] [Th]e Rivers are standing in for [Th]e [U]s[U]al meteorological phe[No]me[No]n, beca[U]se [Th]ey’re still a close metaphor for Bre[At]h’s [U]nrelenting drive and direction of [Pu]r[Po]se.) She prototyped her Kernalsprite wi[Th] a “Magic C[U]e Ball”, an artifact associ[At]ed wi[Th] [Th]e Green Moonman’s failed rebellion, [Th]e one r[Es][Po]nsible for HIC banning ad[U]lts [Fr]om [Th]e Alternain Homeworld.

Many aspects of [Th]e SGR[U]B Rebellion tried to borrow historical weight [Fr]om [Th]e t[Ra]itors [Th][At] had come before. In addition to [Th]e m[U]tant-blood anc[Es]tor mentioned above, and [Th]eir ti[Es] to [Th]e Green Moonman fig[U]re, [Th]e fact [Th][At] [Th]ere were fo[U]r core conspir[At]ors was an echo of [Th]e Tet[Ra]rchs’ Rebellion [Th][At] had immedi[At]ely preceded [Th]em.

As I had mentioned, [Th]e fo[U]r[Th] player was stopped before she co[U]ld enter. Had my Rebel Dre[Am]er com[Pa]nion, who [At] [Th]e time called herself “[Th]e Primagen” entered, [Th]ere were plans to [U]se a dead M[At]riorb for her Kernalsprite’s prototyping.

When I r[Es]tarted [Th]e S[Es]sion after modifying [Th]e g[Am]e’s code, my initial entry as [Th]e Rog[U]e of Doom gave me [Th]e Land of F[U]sion and Enigmas, a planet littered wi[Th] c[Ra]zy [Am]alg[Am]s of items [Th][At] have been haphazardly combined via [Pu]nchcard alchemy. [Th]is land is also [No]table for [Th]e n[U]mero[U]s faeri[Es] darting [Th]ro[U]gh [Th]e air.

My Jadeblood Rebel Dre[Am]er of a [Pa]rtner was given [Th]e Land of Cobbl[Es]ton[Es] and Pen[U]mb[Ra], an a[Es][Th]etic [Th][At] I feel might better have s[U]ited [Th]e Maid of Blood classpect [Th][At] she’d been originally assigned. As a S[Pa]ce Player, she sho[U]ld have had a land wi[Th] [Fr]ogs instead; [Th]is was [Th]e first evidence [Th][At] my g[Am]e modding had beg[U]n to ca[U]se glitch[Es] in [Th]e g[Am]e’s systems.

For my [Pa][Ra]dox Clone, [Th]e Prince of Time, his planet was [Th]e Land of M[U]shrooms and Perc[U]ssion, a landscape of tree-sized m[U]shrooms, inters[Pa]ced wi[Th] b[U]ilding-sized dr[U]ms, cymbals, and be[At]box[Es] of all kinds, incl[U]ding a snare dr[U]m [Th]e size of a small city. [Th]is is a [Pa]rtic[U]larly hostile planet, as hidden in [Th]e crown of each of [Th]ose giant m[U]shrooms is an explosive [At]omic device, and sho[U]ld a tree topple [Fr]om [Th]e vibr[At]ions of nearby dr[U]mming, [Th]e device deton[At][Es]. Even so, [Th]is Land gave my mission vital inform[At]ion for o[U]r initial navig[At]ion beyond [Th]e F[U]r[Th][Es]t Ring.

As for [Th]e second [Pa][Ra]dox Clone, [Th]e Seer of Void, [Th]e g[Am]e glitched o[U]t entirely when trying to gener[At]e [Th]e planet for his entry, likely [Th]e r[Es][U]lt of all my t[Am]pering wi[Th] [Th]e codebase. Instead of a proper land, he was given a planet-sized Perfectly Generic C[U]be, which [Th]e g[Am]e labelled as [Th]e Land of Perfection and Genericisim.

Yo[U]’ll [No]tice [Th][At] I haven’t mentioned wh[At] prototyp[Es] we gave any of o[U]r Kernelsprit[Es]. [Th][At]’s beca[U]se we waited [U]ntil [Po]st-entry for [Th]e prototyping proc[Es]s. Everyone was in agreement [Th][At] [Th]ree Seprex[Es] were two too many, and we [U]sed a chain of self-prototyping shenanigans to fix [Th][At] problem:

1. All of Seprex’s Dre[Am]selv[Es] were killed. 2. Two of [Th]e Dre[Am]selv[Es] were [U]sed to prototype [Th]e Jadeblood’s Sprite, and [Th]e remaining Dre[Am]self was [U]sed as [Th]e first tier prototype on one of [Th]e Seprex[Es]’ Kernelsprit[Es]. 3. [Th]e Jadeblood’s f[U]lly prototyped Sprite^2 was [Th]en [U]sed as [Th]e second tier prototyping on Seprex’s Sprite, merging all [Th]ree dre[Am]selv[Es] into a com[Po]site Sprite^3. 4. [Th]e Rog[U]e of Doom, Prince of Time, and Seer of Void all were allowed to achieve God Tier, merging wi[Th] [Th]eir dre[Am]selv[Es] into one re[U]nified persona (Yo[U]rs tr[U]ly.)

[Th]is still left two [U][Np]rototyped Kernelsprit[Es]. [Th]e dead singly-prototyped Sprit[Es] [Fr]om [Th]e first s[Es]sion were collected. [Th]e Serverhive Sprite and Magic C[U]e Ball Sprite were prototyped on one of Seprex’s remaining Kernelsprit[Es], reviving [Th]em, incl[U]ding [Th]e fact [Th][At] [Th]ey each had tier two prototyping slots open. [Th]ose two open slots were [Th]en [U]sed to prototype a f[U]lly [U]pg[Ra]ded “[U]ltim[At]e” Alchimeter (wi[Th] integr[At]ed t[Ra]ns[Po]rtalizer & ectobiology f[U]nctions) in [Th]e first slot, and in [Th]e second, [Th]e hardware for AI-DARA (Artificially Intelligent D[At]a Analysis Rec[U]rsive Algori[Th]m) v.2.35, [Th]e Artificial Intelligence reverse engineered [Fr]om two identical robots, one fo[U]nd by [Th]e original SGR[U]B rebels and [Th]en capt[U]red by [Th]e Cond[Es]ce’s troops, and [Th]e o[Th]er one [Th][At] I had fo[U]nd prior to being recr[U]ited.

As for [Th]e final Kernalsprite, it remains [U]n-prototyped back on LOPAG. RD has been promised [Th][At] for her co-oper[At]ion on [Th]e mission, when it is complete, [Th][At] final sprite will be prototyped wi[Th] [Th]e dead sprite belonging to “[Th]e M[Es]siah” of her original player gro[U]p, as well as [Th]e dead m[At]riorb [Th][At] she’d originally wanted to [U]se. It hasn’t yet been decided wh[At] she will be allowed to [Pu]t into [Th]e final prototyping slot [Th][At] will be open. AI-DARA has s[U]gg[Es]ted [Th][At] her newly [U]pg[Ra]ded Sprite form wo[U]ld be [Th]e optimal choice, b[U]t as wi[Th] many [Th]ings abo[U]t my exploring com[Pa]nion, [Th][At]’s [No]t a decision I’m a[U][Th]orized to make.

By ab[U]sing [Th]e prototyping mechanic as we have, we’ve managed to achieve seve[Ra]l [U]sef[U]l benefits. As I [Am] technically RD’s Sprite, she can s[U]mmon me wi[Th] her Sprite Pendant. Similarly, as AI-DARA is technically my sprite, she can be be stored in My Sprite Pendant, giving me [U]lt[Ra]-[Po]rtable acc[Es]s to bo[Th] her k[No]wledge base and predictive f[U]nctions, as well as a whole Phernalia Registry’s wor[Th] of eq[U]ipment.

One o[Th]er c[U]rio[U]s property abo[U]t my home Medi[U]m: While [Th]ere are 7 Planets total in [Th]e system, [No]t co[U]nting Derse and Prospit, [Th]ey are s[Pa]ced in [Th]eir orbits between Skaia and Veil as if [Th]ere were 8. RD has taken [Th]is as a sign [Th][At] o[U]r s[Es]sion was meant to have a Land of {something} and [Fr]ogs, b[U]t we have to find one and bring it back. I do [No]t disco[U][Ra]ge her independent search for [Th]is, as s[U]ch activity still aligns wi[Th] o[U]r mission.

[enfrancaismaintenant]

Réponse 1 Quiz "quizz" 1.2.3 Module Orthographe

Bonjour à toutes et à tous

Cette semaine, je vous ai proposé 3 quizz issus de notre module, Le Français Pas à Pas: Module orthographe.

Voici les réponses aux quizz et quelques explications.

Quiz 1

La question : Quels sont les mots masculins.

Liste de mots proposés:

A. Eclair. B. Avion C. Omoplate. D. Pétale. Apostrophe.

Explications

Eclair: Le mot éclair est un mot masculin. Généralement les mots se terminant par air et quelques fois aire sont des mots masculins.

Avion: Le mot avion est masculin. Les mots se terminant par une consonne sont généralement masculin. Il existe bien évidemment des exception : une région.

Omoplate: Le mot omoplate est un mot féminin La majorité des mots qui se terminent par "e" sont féminins

Pétale : Le mot pétale se termine par un "e". Mais attention c'est un mot masculin. Ce mot apparait dans le dictionnaire français au 18ème siècle. Le genre n'est pas fixé. Il sera donc défini comme masculin par l'Académie Française.

Apostrophe : Le mot "apostrophe" est féminin comme la majorité des mots qui se terminent par "e"

Pour ce quizz : Les mots masculins sont A. B. D

Quiz 2 :

La question : Quels sont les mots féminins ?

La liste de mots : A. Antidote, B. Acné, C. Horaire D. Algèbre. E. Argent

A. Antidote: Le mot "antidote" se termine par un "e" mais il est bien masculin. On parle d'un antidote.

B. Acné: Le mot acné est bien féminin. Il se termine en "é". La majorité des mots qui se terminent en "é" sont féminins.

C. Horaire: Le mot "horaire" est masculin. La majorité des mots qui se terminent en "aire" est masculin. Un exemple: dictionnaire

D. Algèbre : Ce mot est bien féminin. Il se termine par "e"

E. Argent : Ce mot est bien masculin. Il se termine par une consonne. et par "ent".

Les mots féminins sont B et D

Quiz 3.

La langue française nous offre de nombreuses surprises. Certains mots changent de sens en fonction du genre

Questions: Quels mots changent de sens en fonction de leur genre ?

Liste de mots

A. Voile. B. Manche. C. Acre. D Perce-neige. E. Merci.

A. Voile :

Sens féminin : Une voile est une partie d'un bateau. Un bateau à voile

Sens masculin : Un voile est un morceau de tissus cachant une partie du corps ou un objet

B. Manche

Sens féminin. Une manche est une partie de vêtement. Il existe aussi un autre sens mais nous allons l'expliquer ensuite

Sens masculin. C'est une partie d'un objet. Le manche du marteau.

C. Acre: Il existe en réalité deux mots. Un adjectif : piquant qui peut se mettre au féminin ou au masculin. C'est un adjectif épicène. C'est à dire que sa forme ne change pas au féminin ou au masculin. Voir le cours sur le genre et le nombre des adjectifs. Si c'est un nom: il est au masculin. Il s'agit alors d'une unité de mesure.

D. Perce-neige. Cette fleur est au masculin. un perce-neige

E. Merci.

Sens Masculin : Un merci est un remerciement : Merci de lire ce texte.

Sens féminin : Sens de pitié. il est à la merci de son agresseur.

Les mots qui changent de sens en fonction du genre sont

A. B. E

C: tout dépend de la fonction du mot :

Si c'est un nom il est masculin. Un acre est une unité de mesure

Si c'est un adjectif : cela dépend du nom.

Voici les réponses de ces différents Quizz. N'hésitez pas à me contacter pour plus d'explications.

Je vous invite à vous abonner à mes réseaux sociaux et à mes sites pour suivre toute mon actualité et faire de nombreuses activités

A très bientôt

@enfrancaismaintenant

[lascldynamic]

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To summarize, the solution is (in Windows 7): That functionality probably assigns the number keys to different layouts, so Win7 is swallowing CTRL + SHIFT + 0 and trying to change my keyboard layout (I don't have any non-default layouts set) instead of passing the shortcut to Excel.Īfter following the resolution in that KB article, the issue is fixed, and unhiding columns via the keyboard in Excel 2010 works as expected. That thread eventually comes up with this Microsoft KB article, revealing that, in Vista (and apparently Win7 as well), CTRL + SHIFT is hooked by the Regional/Language settings to change keyboard layouts. Googling "Excel Ctrl Shift 0" brought me to this thread on the ExtremeVBTalk forum.

[mentalhorticulture]

How It Began - Now

Well, I figure if I’m going to keep recording my experiences on here, I should probably establish my Origin Story of my bullshit experience with this illness.

After moving back to my hometown to help take care of my mother in September of 2017, I started working a new job and moving into my new place. One morning I woke up and was extremely dizzy. I felt like I was wasted or had a horrible hangover. I shrugged it off for a bit, thinking that maybe it was the stress from all of the commotion, but as I was starting to get settled into my new job while managing the dizziness, I would have episodic periods of feeling extremely lightheaded, nauseous, and like I could not think or stand or see straight. During my first week, I left in the middle of the day and called my mother to come pick me up, since I did not trust myself driving. We called the doctor and I saw a PA in the office who told me I either have Lyme or a viral ear infection. They did a full blood work-up, including 6 tests for Lyme, and nothing came back positive. He told me it was probably a viral ear infection, and that it would just go away on its own. I struggled for almost a month before it fizzled out and I shrugged it off, thinking it must have been an ear infection.

Then around Valentine’s Day, I had to make a long drive to pick up my partner who was attending school at the time, and go visit where we used to live to see friends and go to a concert. The morning I had to leave, I woke up, and the dizziness was back. I was so mad, but I had to keep going. I worked all day, left work, drove all night to pick up my partner and go to the concert. I was weak and dizzy, but eager to see my loved ones. I had a beer at the concert, but could not stay out dancing or drinking like I usually would have done if I were feeling better. The next morning I woke up and the vertigo/dizziness was all consuming. I was so nauseous, and could not lift my head up. I fell multiple times as I was trying to get dressed or go to the bathroom. I eventually ended up in what I can only describe as a “gravity vortex” where I cannot do anything except lie flat on the ground and feel like I am getting sucked into the floor. I can’t move my head, arms, legs, and I can barely speak. After a while we decided that I should not drive back, and my partner had to cancel class the next day to drive me home.

Every day, the dizziness, light&sound sensitivity, confusion, fatigue, floaters, disorientation, EXHAUSTION, etc. etc. etc. continued until I decided to call my doc again. I was getting lost on my way to work. I was mixing up words. I was passing out on the floor whenever I exerted any amount of extra energy. I was fucked up. I saw the same PA as before, and he told me I must have been taking too many supplements (I told him I wasn’t taking any), and that all my blood work was clear, so it must be something in my environment that I am ingesting. He rolled his eyes and said, “If you really want to, you can go see an ENT, but I would just keep a journal of what you’ve been doing/ingesting.” The next day I called back and got a referral to an ENT. 

My ENT was great! Super informative and wonderful. Gave me a bunch of options of what it could be and was my first beacon of hope. Maybe it was just a bunch of lose crystals in my inner ear! Maybe all I would need is an MRI to confirm that and some physical therapy and I’m golden! Maybe it’s a vestibular tumor, but who knows! Alright, let’s get this MRI done, STAT then!

Well, my inner ear was crystal clear, but the nurse called me back and said,

“You don’t have anything in your inner ear, but you do have 6 non-distinct white matter lesions. With someone of your age, this is usually indicative of Multiple Sclerosis. We are referring you to a neurologist, STAT.”

I have family members with MS. They are both quadriplegics, one was bedridden, and the other operates her motor chair with her mouth. I knew what MS looked like. I was on lunch at work, went into the next room, closed the door, and asked the nurse to repeat everything back to me on the report again. I hung up the phone, went outside, drove to Hannaford for some reason, and had a massive breakdown in the parking lot.

Fast forward, the neurologist dicks me around and decides my MRI is not urgent enough to be seen right away, because my lesions are benign. I see my neurologist two months later, and he says the same thing to me he had his nurse tell me over the phone. “Could be migraines. Could be MS. Does it look like MS? Not necessarily. Could it be? Yes.” And proceeded to order another MRI of my brain and cervical spine WITH contrast this time to see if there is any new inflammation. However, their office is so backed up, that I can’t get an MRI for another month. So, I just got my second MRI (first with contrast) this past Monday, June 18th... after experiencing a relapse of all of this bullshit since February. It has been nothing short of maddening.

IF this MRI shows any changes from the last one, it is possible that I can be diagnosed with MS without a spinal tap, which would simultaneously be horrible and a relief.

I fucking hate being in this state of limbo.

I fucking hate not knowing if it’s migraines, Lyme, some fucked up autoimmune, etc. etc. or Multiple Sclerosis.

For now, they’re just throwing meds at me and seeing which ones work. I’m on Meclizine and Diazepam for the dizziness, and they started me on Topamax (some sort of GABA inhibitor/anticonvulsant, I believe), but had to immediately take me off of it since it was quite literally making me lose my mind. Now I’m on Nortriptyline as a maintenance med (an SSRI), which has been giving me some relief. I have also started reading The Wahls Protocol, and have been adhering to a nutrient-dense paleo&keto diet, which has also been pretty helpful. Moreso than the meds at this point, actually.

Right now, my dizziness level has subsided to about a 2 or 3 daily, my confusion/focus issues are waining, my fatigue is improving, but NOW my muscles are fucking with me. It’s hard to carry my laptop bag from the car to my office - my shoulder starts to give out. My back is in a constant muscle spasm. My arms and legs get extremely tired and crampy by the end of the day. And, at times, my feet and fingers go numb or burn, like I have just touched a hot stove.

My neuro never made a follow up appointment, but I see my primary on Monday. Perhaps I will have more direction then. Maybe my MRIs will have answers for me. Just maybe.

[baillawyer]

OFFENCE OF TRESPASS

Section 362 Whoever, entering into the immovable property belonging to the other person so as to takepossession of such property in whole or in any part or entering into such property to do anyact  disturbing the  peaceful  possession  of  such  person,  shall  be imprisoned  not  out  of  oneyear or fined not out of two thousand Baht, or both.

Section 363 Whoever,  so  as  to take  hold of the immovable property  belonging  to  the  other person  foroneself or  the third person, removing or destroying the boundary mark or such property inwhole  or  in  any  party,  shall  be  imprisoned  not  out  of  three  years  or  fined  not  out  of  sixthousand Baht, or both.

Section 364 Whoever, without reasonable cause, enters or hides himself in a dwelling place, store-houseor  office  under  the  possession  of  the  other  person,  or  refuses  to  leave  such  place  afterhaving been  told to do  so by the person having the right to forbid him  from ent ering, shallbe punished with imprisonment not exceeding one year or fined not exceeding two thousandBaht, or both.

Section 365 If the offence under Section 362, Section 363 or Section 364 be committed:

By an act of violence or threat to commit an act of violence;

By a person carrying arms or by two persons upwards pa rticipating; or

By  night,  the  offender  shall  be  punished  with  imprisonment  not  exceeding  fiveyears or fined not exceeding ten thousand Baht, or both.

Section 366 The offences  in  this  Chapter,  excepting the offence under Section 365,  are  compoundableoffences.

[eventuallyme]

my life ends at 21:

honestly, where do we go from here?

you don’t know what you want to do.

this whole year

these past few years

you’ve been trapped in your head

chasing the little goals that fill you with brief purposes

that distracted you from the inner emptiness.

that was your life.

you’ve lost sight of the future.

living day by day

trying to be happy

appearing as happy

and yet

there’s an inner void inside of you

A DREAD

why?

but why?

you follow all the steps

of self development;

therapy, diet, exercise

and yet

something in you

is broken?

you’re not in turmoil with your inner self

the denial and conflict that held you back before

now, maybe just a little grudge

a disagreement

“it’s gonna be okay”

but will it?

you keep hoping

you’ve addressed the despair

but nothing seems to pull you out

except company; pure escapism.

but that all goes when you go

when you graduate

when you’re no longer relevant.

those you’ve left behind

for the greater good

will have turned their bitter backs on you

but you were just following protocol

but the blame is on you.

down you sink

with the weights and expectations

“you should’ve listened”

“it’s all your fault”

“lazy, ungrateful, unloved”

you’re now alone.

no passion

no friends

no happiness

no one

pure emptiness

e m p t i n e s s

you don’t want to die

but you don’t want to live

withering away in a purgatory

that forever chases happiness

is this the life that you chose?

is this who you are?

[jbgravereaux]

La Mémoire et la Mer,                        de Léo Ferré

Fleury , Le Quichotte, 22 juillet 2014 : ...La Mémoire et la Mer, titre trouvé par Jean-Pierre Chabrol un jour où Ferré lui avait livré chanson nouvelle en sa contrée cévenole, une portion d’un vaste poème où il piocha d’autres fois encore.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            En voici le premier couplet-refrain :                                                                                                                               La marée, je l’ai dans le cœur Qui me remonte comme un signe. Je meurs de ma petite sœur, De mon enfant et de mon cygne. Un bateau, ça dépend comment On l’arrime au port de justesse. Il pleure de mon firmament Des années-lumière et j’en laisse. Je suis le fantôme Jersey, Celui qui vient les soirs de frime Te lancer la brume en baisers Et te ramasser dans ses rimes, Comme le trémail de juillet Où luisait le loup solitaire, Celui que je voyais briller Aux doigts du sable de la terre.                                                                                                                               Il y aurait beaucoup à dire sur cette simple strophe. Par exemple sur le type de rimes.                                                                                                                                                                                            On y trouve des rimes riches (trois phonèmes ou plus : signe / cygne, etc.), suffisantes (deux phonèmes : cœur / sœur, etc.).                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Je ne vois pas ici à proprement parler de rimes pauvres mais je note que Ferré fait rimer « Jersey » (il s’agit de l’île anglo-normande) qu’il prononce « jèrzé ») avec « baisers » et juillet (jüiyé) avec « briller ».                                                                                                                                                                                          Ce méridional, sans doute par souci d’hypercorrectisme, ferme à tort des sons « è » en « é ». La tendance du Midi est d’ouvrir les voyelles et ainsi de mettre des « è » là où il y a des « é » dans le français courant. Il en met donc mais trop, à tort...                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 ...Mais à la rigueur on peut dire que « Jersey » rime avec « juillet » et « baisers » avec « briller ».                                                                                                                               Je note que par rapport à la versification totalement classique, Ferré ne se préoccupe pas de l’alternance rime féminine/rime masculine. Moi aussi j’y déroge. L’important étant de rester globalement cohérent au moins au sein d’une même poésie. Quitte à déroger d’y déroger franchement mais pas comme en exception.                                                                                                                                                            Par contre j’évite de déroger à la règle de la finale féminine devant une consonne. Cela dit, dès le XIXe siècle, il existait chez certains auteurs des types d’alexandrins à six+un pieds (e final) plus six pieds. Je n’ai pas d’exemple présentement.                                                                                                                             Mais je rappelle ici que l’alexandrin originel (cf. mon petit livre sur le sujet, disponible pour qui le demande : Causerie sur l’alexandrin épique, le « e » dit « muet », etc.) était en fait un raccourcissement de l’octosyllabe traditionnel. L’alexandrin était moins un vers de douze pieds que deux fois un vers de six pieds, ces vers pouvant être aussi bien à rimes féminines que masculines. Mais le jour où il remplaça le décasyllabe (à césure quatre plus six pieds) comme vers noble en français, il avait perdu cet aspect.                                                                                                                             En clair, à ses débuts le premier hémistiche de l’alexandrin était soit de la forme classique à six pieds (sans « e » au sixième pied) soit de la forme six pieds + un (un « e » ou « es » etc. final , de rime féminine). Pour le dire autrement, ce septième pied surnuméraire exista du temps où, pour gagner de la place sur les parchemins, ou pour pouvoir utiliser des parchemins pas trop larges, on disposait l’alexandrin sur deux lignes. Il semble donc que dans la prononciation l’on faisait fi de l’éventuel « e » muet à l’hémistiche comme on faisait fi déjà d’un éventuel « e » à la fin du vers.                                                                                                                             Mais revenons à Ferré, où il n’est pas question d’hémistiche mais simplement du « e » en cours de vers. Dans la strophe précédente il déroge deux fois à la règle du e final devant consonne qui connaît des tolérances classiques ou post-classiques, mais pas celle-là, tolérances quasi archéologiques de nos jours où tout part en morceaux, dans : « La marée je l’ai dans le cœur » ; « Des années-lumière et j’en laisse ».                                                                                                                               Je veux bien ­ façon de parler ­ intégrer aux exceptions un mot comme « années-lumière » en compagnie, par exemple, des présents en « -ent » et des imparfaits en « aient ». Mais, par contre, « marée » est un peu différent dans le sens que dans « année-lumière », « année » ne peut être dissocié de « lumière » mais que « marée » peut être suivi des mots les plus divers. Question de travail ou de talent pour remédier à l’imperfection. Certes, il est également si facile de passer sur de tels « e », en relecture rapide, édition rapide. Il m’est arrivé cela.                                                                                                                           Cela dit, lorsque l’on fait « sauter » autant de « e » du corps des mots, on se préoccupe peu des « -e » et « -es » qui suivent une voyelle en finale de mots. Mais on peut noter qu’ici, par ailleurs, Ferré n’élimine aucun e final derrière consonne (petit-e, pleur-e…).                                                                                                                                                                                      Jouer avec les « e muets » à sa guise facile d’autant l’écriture, surtout dans la chanson, chanson contemporaine avant tout car dans la chanson d’avant, jusqu’aux années quarante, une bonne partie des paroles respectaient le e instable. Y compris dans la chanson la plus populaire. Respect des mots aussi avec peu d’emprunts, du moins peu d’emprunts récents ou de mode aux langues étrangères.                                                                                                   Personnellement, je pense qu’à défaut de garder le même nombre de syllabes sur une mélodie, il conviendrait de faire comme en italien ou en espagnol, etc., tant dans les livrets et chansons que poésie normée et sans soutien de musique. Quand nécessaire, rajouter des notes, sans briser le rythme. Dans la chanson, quitte à s’adapter, mieux vaudrait jouer, je pense, sur la musique et les notes que sur l’exactitude du nombre de pieds.                                                                                                                             Si la rime appelle le sens et renforce en même temps la musique poétique, de même la mélodie et le juste rythme musical devraient conforter non pas le bon nombre de pieds d’un poème, mais l’exactitude d’une bonne diction, d’une diction soignée des mots. Je parle de la chanson dite de qualité.                                                                                                                         Mais venons en présentement à quelques « déformations » de Lamé, Moiré, l’Amer (sic) :                                                                                                                               À : La marée, je l’ai dans le cœur Qui me remonte comme un signe… Fera écho : L’amarré gelait dans le chœur… Kim, heureux, monte comme un cygne… Le cygne de Léda bien évidemment...                                                                                                                         Boby Lapointe - Méli-mélodie - YouTube Léo Ferré - La mémoire et la mer - YouTube                                                                                                                                                  quelques réflexions à propos de la poésie de léo ferré. - lequichotte                                                                                                                                                                                                                

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Hai hai Tumblr. Meskipun gue tau cara buat buka Tumblr pakai VPN/DNS proxy, tapi tetep aja fakta bahwa Tumblr lagi diblok Kemkominfo bikin hasrat menulis merosot sot sot ke dasar palung rasa malas yang terdalam. Ini serius banget pemerintah mesti dikaji lagi sih kebijakan blokir-blokir situs ini. Iya, memang betul di Tumblr ada konten pornografinya. Tapi tolonglah di Twitter atau Instagram juga ada. Mungkin lebih bijak cari cara buat filter kontennya, jangan cuma mau cari gampang blokir situsnya sekalian. Semoga para bapak pejabat di Kemkominfo sana makin bijak dan kreatif deh. Jangan sampe gue yang harus turun tangan deh ini hahahaha (ngarep dipekerjakan).

Oke jadi hari ini gue ulang tahun. Yang ke berapa, you ask? Yang ke-24 sodara-sodara sekalian. Ya ya yang mau ngasih kado silakan taro di pojokan situ ya. Tak terasa sudah hampir setengah jalan diri ini menempuh masa-masa umur dua puluhan, yang artinya tak terasa juga diri ini semakin menua. Di usia yang bisa dibilang cukup matang ini gue masih dalam perjalanan, sodara-sodara sekalian. Perjalanan menemukan jati diri (cailah) dan menemukan jalan dimana gue bisa bermanfaat bagi orang lain sambil living my life to the fullest. And this is exactly the topic I wanna blabber about in this post.

Sampai saat ini, hal yang paling gue takutkan adalah kematian. Mati, hilang, no longer exist in the world of the living. Mikirin gimana gue kalo mati muda adalah salah satu hal yang bisa bikin gue susah tidur di malam hari, selain mikirin gimana caranya biar besok berangkat kerja pas nyampe Stasiun Pocin pas ada KRL tujuan Angke yang pemberangkatan Depok. Atau mikirin gimana caranya tidur gak gerah tapi gak mau kena kipas angin. Hmm memang banyak sekali ya hal-hal problematis dalam hidup ini.

Gue yakin ketakutan gue terhadap kematian dirasakan juga oleh orang lain. Mungkin ada yang takut mati karena merasa belum cukup pahala dan masih banyak dosa (sama, gue juga sering mikirnya gitu). Mungkin ada juga yang takut mati karena gak mau berpisah dengan orang-orang yang disayangi. Ibu, ayah, anak, istri, tukang nasi bebek di Kukel, mba-mba SPG yang suka ngasih Yuzu gratis di Stasiun Sudirman, sahabat-sahabat terdekat. Dan semuanya gue kira berakar dari satu hal: kecintaan terhadap dunia. Don’t get me wrong, I’m totally one of those guys. Gue memang cinta dunia ini, karena dari kecil gue gak pernah menemukan alasan untuk membenci dunia ini (aselole). Seenggaknya dunia bagian tanah tempat gue berpijak dan tinggal. Bagi sebagian orang yang mungkin lebih relijius, mungkin masa-masa ketakutan terhadap kematian ini sudah lewat bagi mereka, dan digantikan dengan rasa ikhlas dan kelapangan dengan berserah diri ke Yang Maha Kuasa. See, I know the way to overcome the fear, but I just don’t see the way to do it. Not yet.

Oke jadi ngapain nih bahas-bahas ketakutan terhadap kematian? Oh gue nggak mau ngelantur soal itu. Yang pengen gue utarakan di post ini adalah hal yang paling gue takutkan nomor dua setelah kematian: kegagalan, dengan bumbu menjadi orang yang palsu.

Di suatu sore yang berkabut, gue bersama beberapa sahabat terbaik gue nongkrong-nongkrong di Panyaweuyan, salah satu objek wisata paling hits di Majalengka saat ini. Saat itu kami ngobrol-ngobrol, berbagi cerita. Saat itu gue bilang ke mereka bahwa gue punya keinginan untuk lanjut sekolah lagi ke luar negeri. Saat itu lah Iyey, bilang ke gue:

“Enya, alus, Jek. Ente mah memang beda dude. Aing yakin maneh pasti bisa”

Saat itu pula gue tertegun sejenak.

You see, semenjak kecil (masa-masa TK dan SD) gue adalah anak yang patuh, penurut, dan lumayan pintar. I do almost everything right. Di sekolah selalu ranking 1, ikut lomba ini itu, rajin ngaji ke surau di kala senja, bergaul main bola, main egrang, main kelereng, main PS, berenang di sungai. I was a good boy. Emphasis on ‘good’, not ‘exceptional’. More on this later.

Beranjak ke jenjang pendidikan menengah di SMP, gue masih si anak baik dan pintar. Namun di SMP persaingan akademis lebih sulit ketika bertemu anak-anak dari SD favorit. Gue cuma bisa puas dengan ranking 10 besar di kelas. Namun di masa SMP ini juga gue mulai melihat dunia. Gue mulai mengenal komputer, novel barat, musik, komik, dan tentu saja Internet. Saat itu juga gue menyadari bahwa gue, si anak desa, tertinggal. Gue saat itu adalah anak SMP yang gak pernah tau buat mainin alat musik, gak pernah les bimbingan belajar, dan juga gak pernah jalan sendiri ke tempat rental komik buat baca. Saat itulah keinginan gue menggebu untuk catch up dengan dunia. It’s not that I’m blaming my family for not had me signed up to music lesson or something, we never had the resources anyway.

Di SMA pergaulan gue makin luas. Gue selalu ingin terlibat. Jadi anak OSIS, pengurus di ekskul, ikutan lomba komputer, dan tentu aja mengenal game online. Lanjut kuliah pun begitu. Ingin jadi ini ingin jadi itu banyak sekali.

The point is, I’m picking my skills along the way while also considering myself an ‘above average’ person. Gue mempelajari banyak hal dari orang-orang sekitar gue dengan pikiran semacam “wah gue juga mesti bisa nih main gitar” atau “gue mesti banget sih jadi asisten lab”. Gue sadar bahwa inilah jalan gue untuk terus berkembang: menjadi seseorang yang adaptif dan fleksibel. Gue ikut dan bisa semua, almost jack of all trades-ish and I always want to do everything better than the other. But, as far as jack of all trades go, the title of master of none come along. I’ve never been in the group of the ‘stellar performers’.

I’ve done some feats, but rather than growing from ‘above average’ to ‘exceptional’ or ‘outstanding’ most of the times I feel that I’m declining, deteriorating to just ‘ordinary’. Hal ini tak lepas dari terbangkitnya sisi negatif dalam diri gue yang, tak lain dan tak bukan dipicu oleh lingkungan luar biasa yang membantu gue berkembang: sisi minder dan gak yakin.

Hidup di ibu kota, berkesempatan menuntut ilmu di salah satu perguruan tinggi terbaik, gue bertemu dengan orang-orang yang luar biasa. Orang-orang berbakat, jenius, berwawasan luas. Di satu sisi hal ini memicu gue untuk berkembang, namun di satu sisi gue, yang tak seberapa ini, semakin terbiasa menolerir kesalahan dan ketidakmampuan. Bahkan kadang gue sempat berpikiran, ketika membandingkan diri gue dengan teman gue yang seorang jenius “apakah sejauh ini perbedaan kemampuan gue dengan dia?”. I know, orang-orang mungkin bilang “kalo hidup ngebandingin diri sendiri sama orang lain mulu susah bahagianya”. But it’s the way I grow, man. I’m looking to what’s around me, learn, and grow. It’s the external motivations that have the most impact on me, that push me further, not the internal ones.

Kembali ke perkataan si Iyey tadi, gue jadi bertanya-tanya, am I special? Do I’ve got what it takes to be a person that I want to be? Apakah sebenarnya ya gue cuma orang biasa aja yang kalo di ruang lingkup yang lebih besar gak bisa jadi orang yang ngasih manfaat ke banyak orang? Apakah gue ini memang bisa jadi orang yang hebat di masa depan?

Di satu sisi mimpi gue besar; ingin bermanfaat buat banyak orang, bagi bangsa dan negara. On the other side, insecurity, the feeling of incompetence, and uncertainty are teaming up. 

Hal lain yang memperbesar rasa risau ini adalah selain gagal, gue takut terlihat baik namun sebenernya nggak, terlihat berhasil namun sebenernya nggak. I feared of being a fraud. It’s one of the worst feelings when people think you’ve accomplished something but you’re actually not. 

It bugged me, really. Ketika ada orang “wah Ozy hebat ya jadi anak sulung perhatian sama adik-adiknya”. Gue bahkan baru beliin adik gue crayon buat gambar setelah gue kerja lebih dari dua tahun. Things doesn’t always what they seem. Seorang temen adek gue di kampusnya pernah bilang kalo adek gue bangga banget punya gue sebagai kakaknya. Pinter ini itu. Padahal gue kerja aja seringnya malas-malasan datang ke tempat client. Nyiapin materi buat training, dokumen migrasi, seringnya H-1. It’s sad, really.

Ya intinya dengan bertambahnya usia ini semoga ini jadi kesempatan buat gue untuk melihat lagi ke dalam diri ini. Apakah sudah sesuai dengan yang baik-baik seperti yang orang kira, apakah masih ada keinginan untuk terus tumbuh dan berkembang, apakah gue siap untuk mewujudkan cita-cita besar, yang mungkin masih gak jelas juga. Gue percaya kalau hal-hal besar di masa depan membutuhkan seseorang yang ‘exceptional’, cause’ above average is never good enough for big things.

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Anyone can be a leader

You know, the moment I enter the classroom where the screening of candidates was held, I am very nervous. The next thing I knew is that I finished my turn laughing my ass all the way ‘round. Heto, heto yung moment na binabalik balikan ko nung tumatakbo ako bilang College Representative ng AFBA. I just left some sentiments in that room na, I need to develop my character by helping my ppl in ENT. Win-win situation kumbaga cyst.

August 3, 2019

For a glance, this is my AFBA Family,

They are the one who first handed believed in my capacity to represent the AFBA in the council. Hays. I lab dem berimats tho hindi lang halata hahahahah!

And time flies. Next thing I knew again is that I am seating in the Cultural Building at nakikinig sa Leadership Training Seminar—the second to the council’s bucketlist this year—sometimes murmuring, pero madalas nakikinig because the speaker was very very good! Her words are treasure to mine. I learned, more deeply than I usually heard, the line, “You never stop learning”. Yea cyst, kahit pa nakatapos ka ng doctoral degree mo, still, sobrang dami mo pang hindi alam sa mundo at jan na papasok yung sa leadership attainability mo. What I mean is, as a leader, or even as an individual, kailangan nag gogrow tayo holistically. Hindi pedeng, “I know what I know”. Kasi di tayo nan uunlad! hahahha. Marami nang pilipinong ganan kaya please, wag na u dumagdag!

Another point is that when she came in and start talking, she made a compelling stand na, hindi raw siya ang pinakamagaling na speaker na maririnig namin, or makikilala namin, so on and so forth. But I know what she meant, anyone can disguised as a leader and as a mock leader. I mean, sa typical na LTS, syempre diba mapaguusapan do’n ‘yung characteristics ng kung sino ang tunay na leader and the likes, how to manage BEYOND. She rest her case by saying that no leader can be a leader just for a title; a true leader do not consider the title, he/she cares how to influence/change/motivate one’s perspective in life. And by that, she left me with locked-jaw. 

That was everything. Totoo nga, leadership is not a label nor a title, it is about how you influence someone else’s life.

Actually, bago magstart ang forum, hahahaha, may pagkakataon lang kaming magselfie ng bestfriend ko, si Pat. 

Madalang lang kaming magkita kasi di tugma sked namin. Haha, dahil lang sa lts na ‘to, nagkita kami. yieeeeeee. 

After LTS, may pakulo ang council haha, teambuilding daw. Pero alam mo ba huhu nawalan kami ng pagasang ituloy yung LTS dahil una,nagsuspend na ng klase at panaka-nakang ang pag-ulan. But stilll, look who’s unbreakable and unstopabble. Edi kame. charot, syempre yung mga SLCDs din no hahaha, Saya nila kasama

Despite the adversities(wow deep word) natuloy kami haha

Flex ko lang yung grupong na hinawakan ko hahaha. Sad lang dahil di na nakapag announce of winners dahil ‘tong team na ‘to, ewan ko ba, di ko sila kinakitaan ng arte nung nasa NIPS station na kame HAHAHAHAHAH. Kaya raw nila ganon ganyan and by result, natapos nila nang maaga. Anyway, nanalo sila sa lahat ng team. I can attest to the teamwork of this group, sobrang present. 

Natapos ang seminar and teambuilding sa school at lilipat naman kami sa resort somewhere in San Felix. Do’n nangyari yung chibugan hahaha

Anywayyyyyy. Further discussion went through when CSC Officers from PUP Main came in. Ginising nila ang mga makabayang adhikain ng aming mga damdamin sa mga isyung kinakaharap ng aming pamantasan. 

Yan, dito ko sila unang nakilala. They actually stayed and prepared themselves beside us (Pat and I). Naguusap lang kami ni Pat abt sa mga buhay buhay namin na namiss namin bec we can’t catch up each other’s time then they introduced their selves. Yung nasa kaliwa, si Kuya Wesley, Presidente ng Student Council ng CCSIS (diko sure! haha) basta IT/Computer lol yon so next is si Kuya Geron, VP ng CSC who tackled NPU Bill then right ay si Kuya Jonero, ang Presidente ng CSC. Alam mo yung nastarstruck ka sa kanila kasi of all the ppl, syempre except kay ate les, kaming dalawa ni Pat ang unang kinausap at nakipagkilala silaaaa. Katuwa, 

So yun. Akala ko tapos na lahat lahat nung Aug 3 then Ate Les asked me on thursday if I wanted to go to LTS again, on the next saturday, August 10. Naalala ko shox, may quiz kami kay Sir Filipinolohiya. E kaso dahil maraming nagudjok na katamaran sa katawan ko ring magreview, hala sige, loaded ako. Friday, nasa trabaho ako non nung nakapagdecide kaya paguwi ko mejo pagod pa ako non hahahhaa. Tas heto na!!!!

August 10, 2019, 10:39

I was waiting for the next train to arrive. Time check, 10:39 na mga cyst. Malinaw ang usapan namin sa GC na ang calltime ay 5:40 HAHAHHAHAHA AND LOOK WHO’S GOING TO MANILA BY 10:39???????? I woke up late as I failed to recognized that I turned on my Ultra Power Saving Mode on my phone, this discharges the usage of apps, only those who are selected apps will run KASO, kaso di ko napili yung alarm clock na mag-run. so ayun, walang alarm na naganap. Luckily nagising pa ako HAHHAHAHH pero shet that was 7 something and last update sa GC, nasa Sta Mesa na sila HAHA. Nakakahiya kay Direk kasi siya talaga yung maghahatid samin. (Bale sabe ay GG daw sya sa mga wala haha) 

Heto pa cyst major problem ko. So wala akong pera nung umalis so sabi ko magwiwithdraw na lang ako kaso nagtry ako, kaso failed transaction kasi di pa approve yung cheque ko!!!!!!! in short? i left calamba with only 250 something in my wallet. God saved me when all the food expenses was paid off by the event and only expenditures i have accumulated was transpo fee. Sabi ko nga e, parang pinipigilan ako ng tadhanang di umalis ng Calamba.

Time check: 12:02

When I arrived at PUP Main, I contacted Ate Les and said na I need to go to bank muna to consult my inquiry so dahil baguhan tayo sa Manila at walang kaalam alam, I used google map, very reliable. Sa haba ng nilakad ko, as in, pagdating ko sa banko, sarado. Windang talaga ako. Sabi ko, bahala na. So I travalled to Purezza to go to the Graduate School of PUP in Hasmin Building, don kasi ginanap yung LTS. 

Pagdating ko ro’n, nagsisimula na nga. I see through the wide clear window yung iba’t ibang student leaders from different PUP Branches and Campuses. And there I got my seat with them.

Natawa lang ako dito sa dalawa naming JCO na sina Vixen at Lex na parehas bagsak HHAHAHAHAHA pero at least, maaga sila unlike me. Pero wellllll, iba pa rin ang may 8hrs of sleep! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

So moving onnnnn... the seminar with our speaker (in which i forgot the name) is very fruitful. More on leadership den. I can lend you my notes

This lesson has been taught to us by Ate Les. Paulit ulit na nga e pero never siyang magagasgas kasi heto talaga dapat. When serving ppl, despite all your indispensable ideas, strategic planning on events, managing your constituents, kung may attitude ka, waley ka cyst. The concept of attitude first applies to all, hindi lang dapat sa mga tao mo, kundi sa mga kasama mo. What is your defense mechanism when this kind of situation happens. 

Sa totoo lang, I cannot catch up Ma’am because nakikita niyo naman HAHA ang arte ko sa notes ko. Habang nagtatalk sya, ako naman design and take down notes. Wala lang, masaya ako sa ginagawa ko e haha. Basahin niyo na lang yung nakasulat. Ganda ng handwriting ko no, gagawa na nga ako ng font style nyan e. HAHAHHAHAHAH char!

The talk was not that boring. She attacked with different aspects e. I must say, effective syang speaker, same with ma’am na nagtalk samin last LTS sa STB

So this is the Photo Op with Mam together with the CSC Officers from PUP Parañaque

and finally, ours...

And the ultimate one-time groufie of United CSCs from different Bs&Cs

ang nostalgic bruh

So yun na, after that groufie syempre kainan na at tuwang tuwa si kuya mo dahil hindi nabawasan budget ko HAHAHHAHAH

Moving on. Heto na. Si Kuya Dhel na nagsalita a.k.a. “KD” He talked about Crash Course on Public Speaking. Syempre, if you are a leader, dapat, at talaga, na may knowledge ka sa pagsasalita sa unahan. It is more on communicating with your constituents kung ano nang ganap sa paaralan or dun sa mga tinatarbaho niyo ang the likes. 

Ako naman, since head ako ng committee sa PR&C, ako nangangalaga ng soc-med esp, twitter. I may not communicate before the thousands of iskolars but I can deliver a brawling issues and trends thru twitter. Anyway, lumilihis na ako sa topic ng public speaking hahahhaa.

This is my note again

And that ends the Seminar with Kuya Dhel. After that, may iilang activities pa na pinagsaluhan namin and finally, bonding. 

Alam mo yung feeling na nakausap mo ‘tong mga taong ‘to na madalas sila yung humaharap sa media, ganito ganyan. Na meet mo rin yung mga nakisali, nakidiscourse para lang maipasa yung mga certain bills like Universal Health Care, Tax Tobacco To The Max, and all! nakakastarstruck!

One thing that I’ve learned is that, as a PUPian, we should know that we are one of the critical thinkers in the society. Binansagan tayong, “Balon ng kritikal na Masa,” because we never stop pushing each other’s extreme to meet the desirable result that we want. What I meant is, may mga ipaglabang di dapat ikinukulong lang sa kokote ng bawat isa. Kailangang i-materialized ang mga ito upang maging posible ang mga adhikaing ninanais para sa PUP at para sa bayan,

Natalakay din ang mga isyung SHB Revision at NPU Bill. Dahil dito sa LTS na ito, mas naging firm pa talaga ako sa stand ko. Mas naging sure ako kung saan dapat ako tatayo at sino dapat ang makikinabang ng aking boses. 

Hays. anyway, enough for that. Kasi pagkatapos talagang magtalk ay pumunta na kaming 7th floor cyst. ang taas, walang elevator!!!!

Everything happened under the moon. Lahat nagsaya, lahat may bagong kakilala at bagong kaalaman. Lahat umunlad ang pagkatao.

Marami pang nangyari and I must uhm say that, everything was history. 

Last words ko is that, sabi ko nga roon sa title ko, everyone can be a leader but not everyone can be a leader.

Ps. Im sleepyhead na while im typing this. dami kasing tigil. diko na rin ipo-proof read. bahala na kasi gusto ko na rin matapos to hahahhahaha

//sinulat ng 08/22/19, 22:00 something, natapos ng 08/23/19, 00:29

pps.

Night at the Manila, kuha mula sa rooftop ng Hasmin Building. Bawal talagang tumambay do’n hahahhaa. Naging maingat kaming lahat na di magpakita don sa guard sa baba haha baka masaway kami

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Who I Write For: Idols, Artists, K-Drama Roles // Last Updated: 28.08.2017

If you don’t see the person you’re looking for in the list, feel free to hit me up and ask whether I’d write for them. Because I don’t really keep track of new groups, I might need to have a rock thrown at me with their name written on it in order for me to check them out.

Note: I DO NOT write for idols / artists that already have significant others or spouses. Okay? Okay.

Extra Note: I don’t do smut. I do write stuff with suggestive content but nothing more than that.

Extra extra note: I only write for male idols / artists / characters. IT’S NOT BECAUSE I ONLY PAY ATTENTION TO GUY GROUPS OKAY.

Lastly: I also write for k-drama characters ((not actors, but characters)). The list will probably be short because I watch very few k-dramas mainly because I have no patience or time lol but I’m planning to watch more once I graduate so yay. Scenarios for these people can be related or unrelated to the drama and need not be paired with their significant other in the drama so yeah

Group Name // Bias // Members I Write For

24K // Daeil, Jinhong // All

(New!) A.C.E // TBA lmao idk yet // All

Astro // Moonbin, Sanha // All

BAP // Daehyun, Youngjae // All

Block B // B-Bomb, Kyung // All EXCEPT U-Kwon ((damn how long have they been together? #goals))

BTS // V // All

BTOB // Sungjae, Ilhoon // All

C-Clown (my babies) // Rome, Kangjun // All

EXO // Lay, Kai // All 

FT Island // Seunghyun, Jaejin // All

Got7 // Jinyoung, Mark // All

High4 // Alex // All

Highlight ((Formerly known as Beast because Cube Ent is a snake)) // Gikwang // All

iKon // Donghyuk, B.I // All

Infinite // Hoya // All

K.A.R.D // J.Seph // Both Male Members

KNK // Youjin, Heejun // All 

Monsta X // Shownu, Hyungwon // All

Myname // Seyong, JunQ // All

NCT // Taeyong, Ten, Haechan // All

Nuest // JR, Baekho // All

(New!) SF9 // Rowoon, Zuho // All

Seventeen // S.coups, Vernon // All

Shinee // Taemin, Minho // All

Teen Top // Niel, L.Joe (I’m not okay) // All

Topp Dogg // Xero // All

Up10tion // Jinhoo, Wei // All

VIXX // N, Hongbin // All

(New!) Wanna One // Bae Jinyoung, Woojin // All

Winner // Jinwoo, Mino // All

Labels // Fav // Who I Write For

AOMG // Ugly Duck // All Except Hoody

Brand New Music // San E, Rudals // San E, Rudals, Candle, iWill / Champagne, Hanhae

Just Music // Nochang // Nochang, Giriboy, CJamm

Others

Andup // Babylon // Crush // Dean // Dok2 // i11vn // Jaewon (One) // Kangnam // Sik-K // Supreme Boi // Reddy // Okasian // Hyunseung // (New!) Samuel

(New!) PD 101 Contestants - Those I Write For (Excluding Wanna One members and those whose names/groups are already in the list above) 

Taehyun (Fav) // Kim Dong Hyun // Im Young Min (Fav) // Kim Yongguk (Fav) // Seon Ho (Fav) // Yoo Hoe Seung // Eun Ki (Fav) // Kim Taemin // Woo Jinyoung (Mitcheoji My Favvv) // Kim Dong Han (Favvv) // Hwanwoong (My fav fav fav k bye) // Takada Kenta // Jung Sewoon // Kim Tae Dong // Jung Joong Ji // Kwon Hyun Bin // Ahn Hyeongseob (Fav) // Lee Euiwoong (Favvv) // Justin //

K-Drama // Characters I Write For

Cheese in the Trap // Jung Yoo, Baek In Ho, Eun Taek

Descendants of the Sun // Yoo Shi Jin, Seo Dae Young, Gi Bum

Divorce Lawyers in Love // Jung Woo

Doctors // Ji Hong, Yoon Do, Soo Chul ((will Ji Soo ever be main)), Kang Soo ((okay but I’m lowkey trash for min seok tho)), Yeong Kook, Pa Ran

Doctor Stranger // Park Hoon, Han Jae Joon

Flower Boy Ramen Shop // Chi Soo, Gang Hyuk, Ba Eul, Woo Hyun Woo ((ya’ll have no idea how crazy I was over him back when I was watching the drama))

Goblin ((I’m still not okay)) // Goblin, Grim Reaper, Wang Yeo, Tae Hee ((okay but he was lowkey my fav though despite only being in 2 episodes lol I crei))

Healer // Jung Hoo

Heartstrings ((this one hit home for me)) // Lee Shin, Yeo Joon Hee ((he was so darn cute oml)), 

I Hear Your Voice // Soo Ha

Kill Me, Heal Me ((hands down my all-time fav)) // Cha Do Hyun, Shin Se Gi, Oh Ri On, Ki Joon

Oh My Venus // Young Ho, Woo Shik, Joon Sung ((HE WAS MY FAV THO)), Kim Ji Woong

Pinocchio // Dal Po aka Ha Myeong

Reply 1997 // Yoon Jae

Sassy Go Go ((so fluffy, so cute, my achy breaky heart)) // Kim Yeol, Dong Jae, Ha Joon

To The Beautiful You // Tae Joon, Eun Gyeol, Hyun Jae

W // Kang Chul, Do Yoon ((fav I swear)), 

Yong Pal // Tae Hyun

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Things I've learned on surgery, Colorectal Week 2

Always keep in your car: a clean blouse, a clean pair of trousers, spare underwear, extra pair of sneakers that you don’t care about, extra pair of socks, at least 3 plastic bags.

Mondays will be hard, no matter if you’ve been working for the entire week

When you get more patients, you need to get here earlier to preround and write notes, and stay later to read up on your expectant patients tomorrow and finish your notes.

Some Little Caesar’s have a drive thru. Know where those are.

You will find even a gunner nurse/tech/PA, and they will try to push you out of the work line. You have to let them do their job, even when they start taking liberties with boundaries in addition to their job. So,find something that they’re not doing and keep yourself busy. I spent it talking the patient through the procedure, something neither of the other staff was doing because they were so used to it. 

Patients aren’t put under general anesthesia for colonoscopy anymore. They have to remember lots of gross details. 

 You will encounter a level of paternalism in medicine that can make you intensely uncomfortable. If you’re not uncomfortable at least once, you’ll probably be a great pathologist, and your patients will thank you. 

(Did you get the Pathology joke?)

The dopamine rush of being the first in the workroom is my caffeine 

 After you finish with a syringe, keep it in your pocket (Not the needles, obviously, but I wanted to make this distinction because a lot of people think the syringe refers to the instrument and the needle). Patients may get their foley pulled at any time and you’ll look like you’re actually prepared in front of your supervisors. 

Other stuff to keep in your white coat pockets: scissors for cutting sutures, a grabber (Addisons recommended), gauze, barriers to put over IV’s or gauze for dressings (I.e. Tegaderm), alcohol prep pads, padded bandages of choice for your service, 

If the patient room smells funny, 9 times out of 10 the patient is a smoker. 

Life doesn’t stop for surgery, and figuring out fourth year away rotations stuff like vaccination paperwork will throw off the vibe of your entire day. And that’s how I found out a lot of schools had relatively lax standards on vaccination documentation. Or, they don’t accept a history of chicken pox via clinical diagnosis as proof of a second varicella shot. 

Get your hep b titers done early. They take a long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long time. 

 You’ll surprise yourself with how quickly you can get out of bed and to the hospital 

You’ll surprise yourself with how quickly you stop showering. 

If you're on colorectal service and scrubbing in to a fistula case, know Goodsall's rule. That is the lowest hanging pimp question. 

Goodsall's rule: any rectocutaneous fistula opening anterior to the transverse anal line will form a linear path and open usually at the anterior midline of the rectum; any fistula opening posterior to the line can have a linear, curved, or even serpiginous path and open at the posterior midline of the rectum. 

Nothing will haunt you quite like the sight of a prolapsed rectum. 

Well, maybe except for the image of your attending putting nearly his entire hand into the recital cavity in order to search for and optimally position the rest of the colon before he sews the non prolapsing colon back to the anus 

You get used to going for longer periods without eating than periods spent sleeping (I eat every 8 hours, sleep for maybe 6 per night).

 If surgery is in your future, start asking to help your intern more now; any scut they need to do, you offer to do for them. You'll be in their shoes in less than 2 years from now, and you'd better know how to do what they're doing now. Also it really impresses them when you volunteer like that. 

 Your residents and attending will try to "help" you answer pimp questions by dropping very oblique hints. They don't help. I usually say, "I don't know, but I will read about it right after this." It doesn't save any face, but it usually moves the conversation on.

There is a thing as being “too pro-patient autonomy.” In a simulated case with a standardized patient, I was told to provide  counseling about the patient’s alcoholism. After asking the CAGE questions and asking their thoughts on quitting drinking, I got the impression that the patient wasn’t very motivated to quit and so opted for a more outpatient basis of treatment and regular followup. I was told at the end of it, the patient didn’t feel listened to when I wasn’t admitting him immediately. From the story that I got, he seemed reluctantly going along with it because his wife threatened divorce and had poor insight about drinking at work (his story is, he got fired a few months ago for showing up to work looking and acting drunk). Maybe I wasn’t convinced with the acting, but the patient looked to be on a self destructive track even after I had discussed why he shouldn’t continue drinking. I think it comes back to my reluctance to completely take over a patient’s life and admit them. Gotta learn to walk that line.

Oh, but do pay close attention to the vitals given to you in standardized patient encounters; anything unstable-looking but the patient is asymptomatic can warrant admission. 

That provided me with more insight on why I want to do ear-nose-throat surgery; I don’t deal well with low-motivated people and don’t do the paternalism thing, I don’t want to play politics and bargain adherence for treatment. I’m not going to pester them like the parent or teacher they hated, I want to make a joint decision with my patients and be able to trust them to address the problems in their life as I focus on the medical side of their treatment. ENT, the patients are generally self-motivated to get better, I get to talk about smoking cessation and Gardasil vaccination (two of my passionate rant talks that I’ll never tire of), and the work is stimulating and I can see results instantly. 

Also, I can’t handle a specialty that rounds for hours in the morning and then hours in the afternoon. One-day surgery, one-month follow up, and quick rounds has to be in my future.