#ex nihilo

[exnihilo-comic]

leap day

[bebemoon]

look for the name: DAPHNE

knwls asymmetrical "spira" mini dress in acid pink

miu miu dyed stole w/ grosgrain tie closure

gucci acrylic and crystal shell headpiece

ex nihilo "vesper glitz" eau de parfum

prada x james jean "fairy" wedge sandals, c. 2oo8

[the-helixverse]

ART DUMP

//Hey everyone! Sorry it's been a while, but here's some art I've made. Some of it is recent, some is from a few months ago and I don't think I ever shared it here

//Hope you enjoy!

[ragewrites]

my younger sister died by suicide the week before her fifteenth birthday. as a twenty-five year old, your poem (fifteen speaks to twenty five) resonnated with me deeply. i've been re-reading it in the hours since i came across it, and i guess i just wanted to say thank you for writing it <3 it's a really beautiful piece and it feels very stark and powerful.

(also - and this is absolutely not a condemnation of you in any way - but my family try to say 'died by suicide' rather than 'committed suicide', as the only other time you would use the word 'committed' is in the context of a crime, which implies the person in question is a criminal rather than someone who was hurting.)

Firstly—all my love to your little sister. Whether it was peace or oblivion she sought, I hope she has found it.

Secondly: I will try to be as clear as possible with my words, so by the end this post might be rather lengthy. Apologies. Know that none of it is a rebuke, only a response to the latter half of your message.

Using the word ‘committed’ was a deliberate, conscious choice. Not because I was trying to apply, or rather imply, any kind of moral connotation to the act of suicide, but because I wanted to provide you—General ‘You’, Reader-You—with the context in which the poem was written. This context being, as I was celebrating my twenty-fifth birthday, my thoughts kept returning to a decade ago, when I nearly killed myself not even halfway through October.

I believed this information essential; as it is both sensitive and extremely private, however, I wanted to be succinct when providing it.

You, general, reader ‘you’, needed to know that the poem is a conversation between myself at fifteen and myself at twenty-five: you also needed to know that I almost killed myself before I could grow to be either of them. You needed to know these two things, no less, no more.

I chose the word “committed” because it was, to me, a diplomatic enough compromise between the blunt impact of I nearly killed myself and a phrase I personally loathe, I nearly took my own life. A diplomatic enough compromise which nonetheless preserved some of that sense of violence the word ‘kill’ has.

Because it is a violent act: the word itself is a Modern Latin construct meaning self-murder, one which the poem tells you (general, reader ‘you’) I am incredibly glad I did not go through with. Frankly it never occurred to me that someone would assume I might be moralizing the act.

Granted, how an individual understands and uses language is deeply personal; you yourself are likely aware of this fact, given your conscious, careful phrasing of the subject. And I recognize the kindness behind your intention in sending this ask, recognize that you likely only meant I could / should be a little more careful with my phrasing in the interest of exercising compassion.

But that’s precisely the crux of what frustrates me.

“[...] the only other time you would use the word 'committed' is in the context of a crime, which implies the person in question is a criminal rather than someone who was hurting.”

This is a statement of generalization. One you are making to the very person who was discussing, however briefly, however veiled by the medium of poetry, her own history with suicidality.

You did not verbally condemn me for my phrasing, yes. Nonetheless, consciously or unconsciously, you did assume something about my stance on the morality of the matter. Not that almost dying myself of suicide, as you put it, precludes by default the belief that suicide is a ‘sin’ or otherwise somehow immoral, of course—and that’s the point.

You do not know me. I am a stranger whose poem you read and rather liked, and that poem, in isolation nothing more than a bizarre fragment of conversation, is all the information you have about me. You can infer from the text that I likely believe in God and that this God of mine probably roots in some flavour of Christianity, but that’s about it. Keeping the caption so short, I thought at most people would believe me pretentious. But moralizing?

Frankly speaking, the biases you assume implicit to the word are in this instance yours and yours alone. Not only because committed is perhaps more often used adjectivally, in its sense of “devoted to”, but because I was speaking strictly about myself, about my own acts and my own person. Even if I had been moralizing the act—isn’t this a little too presumptuous of you?

What right do you, a stranger, have to advise me? The very fact that you attempt to do so makes me assume that whether or not you are aware of it, you already believe your own moral position to be superior.

Again, I am giving you the benefit of the doubt by also assuming that you came to me in good faith. If true, I appreciate the kindness of your intentions; but you do not know me.

You know nothing of me as a person, of my social and religious background, of the web of circumstances which shaped me and affected me so profoundly so as to put me in that precarious a state of mind at the age of fourteen. You are a stranger, so you also have no way of knowing, for example, that as someone who has struggled with suicidal ideation since childhood, I actually abhor this sort of distant, passive verbiage. No way of knowing that to me all it does is reframe suicide as a sort of tragic accident. What kind of raw nerve that is for me.

And this is not a rebuke; it’s far from any actual anger, really. It’s simply a statement of fact. You do not know any of this and it is only natural that you don’t, because these are interior, intimate details, the sorts of things only my best friends are privy to.

How you and your family, as the bereaved party, choose to approach and discuss suicide is strictly your business. I do not know how long it has been since your sister’s death, but I do know that the loss of a loved one, regardless of the circumstances in which it happened, is something we carry with us our whole life. I wish you all the best in navigating and managing your grief.

But you must understand that I myself represent the party which almost bereaved the person dearest to me, my mother. And it is from this position that I kindly ask you to perhaps think twice when you next find yourself reaching out to a stranger on the internet about such a charged topic.

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[juniuscallidus]

[forthegothicheroine]

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[vazaha-tya]

forgot to post this! this chapter was really cathartic to write and i'm happy to be moving on with the plot, harry's second year is getting really long

also if anyone doesn't mind spoilers and wants to discuss my plans for third year with me i would actually love that. the prisoner of azkaban plotline is going to be so different the whole thing will be uncharted territory so i'm hesitating on a lot of things

[disredspectful]

I was aware that the same perfume smelled different on different people, but it's absolutely wild to be trying out scent samples side by side with my partner and they smell like tropical freshness and I smell like grandmas :/

[exnihilo-comic]

Sanguis Ex Nihilo, Chapter Two: Zero Day

Webtoons

[ragewrites]

hello💗 love your writing and your blog, you’re so so talented

AND I just wanted to ask if you have any good court drama recs lmao

💕

Thank you! And oh yes 👀

At the time of those tags I was knee-deep in the waters of Chinese web novels (recs from that journey are The Rebirth of an Ill-Fated Consort, Eight Treasures Trousseau, Like Pearl and Jade; Your Mileage May Vary, however, since I like slow-paced things) but I also have some drama-proper recs, namely:

Magnificent Century (Turkish production, follows the ascent of Suleyman the Magnificent’s wife in the harem; liberties are taken, but it’s actually not that unfaithful to the truth, and Meryem Uzerli is...honestly a revelation)

Nirvana in Fire. Honestly I cannot recommend this one enough. It’s just so—so!!

Bossam: Steal the Fate is partly this. Other Korean recs include The Crowned Clown and Mr. Queen, and I heartily recommend watching them in that order, actually, because you will need the levity Mr. Queen has, particularly early on, to cope.

From the web novels (additional rec: The Remarried Empress. This is a Korean work, and is currently being serialized as a webtoon, also, with very pretty art) I went on to reading Katie Quinn’s series of books set in Rome, which were...sadly only decent, so not a particularly strong rec, just a mention. Instead I’ll rec Megan Whalen Turner’s sequels to The Thief, which turn into this: they are The Queen of Attolia; The King of Attolia; A Conspiracy of Kings & Thick as Thieves.

Also, last year Jacqueline Carey utterly rewired my brain, particularly with Phedre’s trilogy (Kushiel’s Dart, Kushiel’s Chosen, Kushiel’s Avatar) but while court drama features in these, it’s not the point, exactly.

Hopefully this is a wide enough net of things for you to find something you enjoy within it ^^

[chaoschenoo]

Theoretical title screen of the VN I'm conceptualizing.

[judahmaccabees]

- Eternity

[exnihilo-comic]

the vault

it’s a common misconception that maths is all theoretical; they actually keep the 0 in a vault in France and u can go look at it if u got connections.

[thebeautycove]

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The worship of speed. Speed seen as a symbol of strength and vitality, reflecting nowadays dynamism. A fragrance that fuels you with legendary aromas, an acceleration of pleasure, a vital impulse, a boost of adrenaline.

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Il culto della velocità. Velocità come simbolo di forza e vitalità, specchio del dinamismo dei tempi che stiamo attraversando.

Speed Legends, la nuova creazione di Ex Nihilo, mi offre lo spunto per parlare, rapidamente come l’argomento impone, di un movimento artistico tra i più rivoluzionari del XX secolo, il Futurismo.

Mi intriga l’idea che Jordi Fernandez possa aver trovato ispirazione in quell’enfasi di moto, azione, urgenza cara a Marinetti e Balla, maestri stregati dal progresso, affascinati dalla tensione del tempo veloce, da un dinamismo che tutto scuote e modifica allo sguardo, dalla velocità ritenuta parametro estetico della modernità.

E anche oggi noi qui si va veloci, spesso contro il tempo e ci piace questa sfida a sperimentare, ad osare il cambiamento, a volte repentino. Sì corriamo, forse non sappiamo bene dove, ma ci piace farlo. Che l’energia quella non ci manca. E ai sensi la massima allerta, sempre on point, ben affilati per cogliere ogni lampo di futuro.

Questa fragranza è spettacolare. Capolavoro di luce e dinamicità.  Morde il freno in freschezza, ha una marcia in più per armonia di note aromatiche. Si accende di flash citrini speziati, bergamotto, mandarino, pepe rosa, ecco l’esaltante abbrivio odoroso, come quando, a bordo di una spider, lasci che il vento ti scompigli i capelli.

Poi il motore si scalda, sale di giri nell’accelerazione fragrante, una trascinante miscela balsamo-adrenalinica di vetiver e salvia sclarea sollecita una scia vigorosa, calda, inossidabile, iniettata d��ambra e tonka.

Troppi la ameranno.

Creata da Jordi Fernandez.

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