#evilsystemm

[plural-culture-is]

Plural culture is having two(+) alters who are very similar and having to write a list of differences between them in order to recognise switches. It's me I'm the alter >:)

- lucius 💎

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[evilsystemm]

Evil system blog information

We're a DID system of (fluctuating) 20-30 alters. We're bodily 17. 18+ interaction is fine. Below 15 is strange, just be mindful.

Simply plural: evilsystemm

Diagnosed with:

Autism spectrum disorder

Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder

Sensory processing disorder

Oppositional defiance disorder

Situational mutism

Self diagnosed:

Narcissistic personality disorder

Bipolar 1 (medically recognised, seeking diagnosis)

We will not be obligated to explain our self diagnoses to anyone.

Basic details on relevant alters

some may make their own introduction posts

[🌃] Liam | He/Him (#🌃)

[🎭] Vires | He/They (#🎭)

[💎] Luci | She/He (#💎🎩)

[🖇] Dazai | He/They (#📎)

[🌈] Remy | They/Bun/Zom (#🌈)

[🍏] Astra | She/Star/Paw/They (#🍏)

General beliefs, alignments I guess

I generally don't do DNIs because I think its important to not exist in an echo chamber, so if you disagree with me I'd honestly rather you interact so that both of us can learn more. Given that you are respectful.

Anti capitalist, marxist and/or communist.

Pro palestine.

Endo neutral – we have differing opinions on endogenic systems depending on the alter, but most of us wish to see endogenic systems have their own space away from traumagenic systems whether they exist or not. If you identify as endogenic you are welcome to interact with us. We will ensure that alters who may be disrespectful towards you are not enacting this.

Pro neo and xeno pronouns/genders.

Anti comship. Avoid interacting if you're a comshipper as it's incredibly triggering for some of us.

We don't believe singular alters can have PDs that the rest of the system does not, if you believe that, feel free to interact but I will be judging you. /hj /lh

Anti TransID; I see it as a form of self harm.

Anti Transmed.

Pro whatever the name is for the things like lesboys. Gender non conforming sexuality labels. Those are chill. Agree to disagree if you dont support them, you can interact idm.

Paraphilias – I support recovery. Indulging in harmful paraphilia online is something I frown upon but probably won't interact with and just block. I dont like it but shaming doesn't work. If real people are being harmed it becomes a different discussion.

Anti narc abuse rhetoric but honestly I just find it entertaining or sympathetic recently. If sending me stuff about how I'm an abuser makes you feel cathartic – go for it. I'd rather it be me than anyone else and I understand it comes from unresolved personal issues.

@galaxysystemm is my g like please just don't come near me if you don't fw him because he is everything (platonic)

[jackdawandicarus]

tag game Tag Game TAG GAME *disintegrates*

Tagging (no pressure obv ^^): @the-laws-of-physics-were-harmed @inevitable-pretty-chaos @otherkinberry @evilsystemm

i found a cool tag game on twitter and i really wanna import it (o^ ^o)

this picrew + the last song you listened to :]

no pressure tags: @blood-loving-leech @overtaken-boredom @lesbianthatyaps @kameonerd566 @hexedvampire @laczki @anonymous-shxtposter @fleurafae @flovqy + anyone who wants to do it <3

[schizotypal-culture-is]

am I the only one that doesn't understand the difference between

"suspicious or paranoid thoughts"

and

"excessive social anxiety that does not lessen with familiarity and is related mainly to paranoid fears"

they're the same thing?☹️

Sent in: Oct. 30, 2024

It can be hard to tell the difference, since the two do feed into each other and create a hellish feedback loop of doom!

But generally speaking, paranoia is specifically the belief that people are out to harm you in some way. A lot of times, paranoia is the vague, nebulous feeling that an unnamed and unknown someone or someones have ill intent towards you, and you have to Watch Out. It’s believing the worst in each individual human being you come across and automatically assuming they can’t be trusted and will hurt you the moment you give them a reason too. A personal example I have of paranoia is when someone is driving next to me on the road, especially if they come up from behind or go around me, I think they’re going to shoot me in the head. I dont know this person in the car next to me. I have no idea if they’re rage prone. I dont even think road rage has anything to do with me thinking this, I just panic and think they’re driving up next to me so they can shoot and kill me. My paranoia is completely unfounded. Me and my vehicle have been shot exactly 0 times in my life. As far as I know, I don’t have any enemies, none who want to kill me, anyways. But I just Know™️ when someone drives next to me on the road they’re going to shoot me, and I can’t relax until they turn off or drive far enough out ahead of me that I feel safe. This is paranoia without social anxiety. There’s no social interaction at all between me and the driver, but I’m still being paranoia.

Social anxiety on the other hand often comes about being put in a situation that makes you afraid you’ll be judged badly in some way, often about being perceived as “stupid” or “weird”. People with social anxiety tend to be hyperaware of themselves and their actions while socializing with others and judge themselves critically. Sometimes, socially anxious people don’t come off in the way they fear they do, other times, social anxiety came make someone behave in a way that’s restrictive or visibly anxious, and that can put others off. The social anxiety then becomes a perpetuating cycle. Social isolation can also perpetuate social anxiety! A personal example is I go to the gas station every week. During the holiday break, it threw off my driving schedule because I wasn’t at work, so I went a week without going to the gas station. By the time I go back to the gas station, I get social anxiety with the clerk, because too much time has gone by since I last interacted with her, and that tolerance I built up went away. I check three times to make sure I know what pump I’m at, and I make sure I have my money out so I dont annoy her and customers digging around in my wallet for it. I don’t want to look like a fumbling bumbling idiot and ruin everyone’s day by making them wait on me. But what if I forget the pump number. What if I drop my cash. What if the pump doesn’t work and I have to come back in, but there wasn’t a problem with the pump and it was just me and then the clerk hates me because I made her go outside and-

Of course, in StPD, social anxiety feeds paranoia, which turns around and feeds social anxiety. PwStPD split on being perceived as Weird/Odd/Strange and therefore being Ostracized vs feeling as though we’re Accepted and Safe. This is because social anxiety feeds paranoia, and we believe being Bad At Socializing makes us Unsafe, that people Want To Hurt Us. This innate paranoia of people then makes it harder to “act normal” and not be socially anxious.

Using the had station as an example. Say I go up to the counter, and I ask for the clerk to put the money on the pump, and I tell her the correct pump. Then she asks how much I want and I forget the amount I have in my hand. I can either shove the money at her awkwardly or count the money again. I choose to count the money but I’m nervous and have to count twice because there’s a line behind me. I tell her the amount and hand her the cash. She finishes the transaction. By the time I finish pumping the gas, the guy who was in line behind me has come out of the store. I get in my vehicle, and I start to pull out. The guy who was behind me in the store is pulling out behind me. Now I’m paranoia he wants to Do Something because I took too long in the line. I peel out of the gas station parking lot as fast as I can, but it doesn’t matter because the guy is going the other way down the road. I think maybe he was just giving me a warning with intimidation, but I’m at least safe for now.

Another example would be social anxiety at work with coworkers, or online friends. Sometimes I think they all have a secret group chat that everyone but me is in so they can talk about how cringey I am and how much they hate me. Interacting with my coworkers or online friends with the belief that they monitor and mock me for everything I do compounds the social anxiety. Feeling that I can socialize wrong feeds the paranoia, because of this bullying I believe is going on behind my back. The more paranoid I get, the more socially anxious I get. The more socially anxious I get, the more paranoid I get. Once I think there’s no hope of me ever fitting in, I isolate, because I’ve split. I don’t want to waste my time trying to prove myself worthy of acceptable if I’m just never going to Fit In, so id rather stay by myself. This way, I can stop being concerned about whatever group chat may or may not exist, and the more I limit my interaction with my coworkers and online friends, the less they have to talk about me.

I hope this info helps! It can be hard to tell the difference in StPD because these two symptoms do very much intertwine and feed off one another. Also, given the egosyntonic nature of personality disorders, it can be hard to imagine someone having social anxiety without paranoia, and paranoia without social anxiety.

[schizotypal-culture-is]

I really really love your blog its so informative and helps me understand pwstpd and even schizospec disorders in general. aahhh :(( holding the blog in my hands carefully and patting it

Thank you for the kind words 🥰

[myrmidon-hearts]

@evilsystemm :3

Decided to start a picrew tag game!

This is me!

Tags(no pressure!): @of-the-faerie-folk @crenna @his-littlefox @insomnya777 @lavful @smoozie @justhereforteamrancher @harpoonsnotspoons @neck-thats-made-for-bruising @olithewitch @arjtogruta @astralazuli @peace-love-and-french-toast @mystical-cinnamoon @3guineapigsinatrenchcoat @snailonurface @k1meoo +anyone who wants to join in!