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(Kind of a vent?)

ASPD + STPD culture is forcing yourself to be nice to pretty much everyone, even to the point of lies and being a bit of a doormat, because your paranoia tells you any person you upset or are too honest with could be the one to retaliate in a way that ruins your life and “exposes” you.

— Probably a shoutout to the childhood where, any time someone got mad in your vicinity, it put your life at risk. Now, you don't care about their feelings in the sympathetic sense, but you fear their anger and so are bombarded with violent thoughts and the urge to cut ties the first time (and every time after) a person gets angry with you around.

It's the belief that everyone would hurt you given the chance.

“But that's not fair,” people say, and you really don't care because interacting with others is something you merely have to do and, as such, have found a way to minimise its inherent dangers.

(Just putting this out there because I rarely see discussions on these two conditions overlapping and how the paranoia of everyone being a potential threat can actually cancel out or at least overpower the urge to break someone's face.)

Sent in: April 6, 2025

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Schizotypal culture is constantly putting in more effort than everyone around you to maintain relationships and keep contact with people just to appear to be doing the same or less than everyone else

Sent in: April 2, 2025

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schizotypal culture is having one single friend and lying to them about having a bunch of other friends so you don't sound like a loser.....

-☘️

Sent in: March 29, 2025

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suspecting stpd culture is oversharing knowledge or stories and then getting paranoid people will use that info to their advantage and then deleting your posts / messages / accounts out of fear because you can never truly be honest or feel safe being yourself. even playing into a persona is crushing because there's a "standard" to uphold of what people might expect from "you", even if you're not expressing "yourself" and you're just expressing bits and traits of other personalities. you want a space to feel safe, but no matter how much effort and energy you put into forming it, it all feels like a waste of your time when your synapses betray you for the sake of ringing those same ol'reliable alarm bells. the foundation crumbles at the slightest bit of instability and you'd wish you would've never tried to begin with.

Sent in: March 10, 2025

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Schizotypal culture is having had a phase of thinking you had SzPD because you were misinterpreting detachment with underlying anxiety as just being plain detachment.

Sent in: March 25, 2025

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Schizotypal culture is the desperation to be alone even as you're having a nice time with people.

Sent in: March 23, 2025

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Upset schizotypal culture is you believe the more you dwell on the people who hurt you, the more you’ll draw Negative Energy to them and something bad will happen to them as “karma”.

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Schizotypal culture is having a difficult time adjusting to the time change, not just from loosing or gaining an hour of sleep, but also because The Sunlight Is Off and it’s throwing me off. It keeps making everything feel fake because the brightness at 2pm is different than I’ve grown accustomed to!

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Schizotypal culture is being self-aware enough to describe your symptoms while in a controlled environment, and then people are shocked when you can't handle them and act "weird" or unpredictable. Yes I've been dealing with these symptoms almost all my life, no I don't know how to manage them.

Sent in: March 10, 2025

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hate when people are like "trust your gut! listen to your intuition!" like okay well my gut is telling me every person i lay eyes on is hunting me for sport and my intuition is saying i should find a secluded cave and live there forever so what do you suggest i do with that information

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Schizotypal culture is wondering who is following me only to learn it’s the echoes of my own footsteps.

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Schizotypal culture is that awkward moment when the hallucination isn’t actually a hallucination 😬

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Schizotypal culture is: I am lonely. I’m going to have an online presence. I’m going to be vulnerable in this space and make real connections. I no longer feel safe in this space. I’m going to restrict what I share. I no longer feel safe in this space. I’m going to restrict what I share. I no longer feel safe in this space. I’m going to restrict what I share. I no longer use the platform. I delete my online presence. I am lonely.

Twitter didn’t work. Instagram didn’t work. Snapchat didn’t work. Discord didn’t work. But Bluesky will be different!

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schizotypal culture is that every thought or experience has a sort of mental texture to it that changes how you feel and think about them. im trying to say brainfeel is a thing

Sent in: March 8, 2025

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Schizotypal culture is being tired of splitting on people. Either someone is Unsafe and I avoid them out of fear, anxiety and paranoia or they’re Safe and flock to them for safety and comfort. Why can’t I just see people as a Whole.

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stpd culture is "I am not schizophrenic/schizospec guys!" and on the same breath detailling my extensive plans for building bunkers, or watching videos about how to get off grid, or seeing how to survive after the apolapyse, or etc etc etc... sigh

-🔅

Feb. 10, 2025

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stpd is repeatedly asking someone else if they heard/seen it and when they respond ‘yes’ to trick you start FREAKING THE FUCK OUT.

(Can my anon sign off be -☀️)

Sent in: Feb. 9, 2025

(Yes, it’s been added to the list of claimed sign-offs!)