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Was listening to Love in Paradise today and realized another thing I didn’t even touch on in the original post- if Calypso didn’t understand that what she was doing was wrong she wouldn’t have acted the way she did in that song. When Odysseus threatens her and rejects her she laughs at him and reveals herself to be a goddess. She is leveraging her power, she knows that she has the power in this situation and is trying to make it clear to him that it is pointless to say no, and you can literally hear the hopeless confusion in his voice when he responds to her. A character that is innocent and means well would not behave that way, end of discussion
Hey guys not to be rude or hate on anyone but I don’t understand people’s issue with understanding Calypso as a character. Like she’s sympathetic and simultaneously a terrible person- what’s hard to understand there??
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⚠️ mentions of rape, aggressive ranting (I am not being nice, I am not sorry)
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Is it new to people to discover that a character can be awful and irredeemable while also being understandable and sympathetic? She objectively sucks and is a bad person but having basic empathy for her is normal- you’re not supposed to stop seeing someone as a person when they do something shitty.
Like I have empathy for everything she’s gone through but going through bad things doesn’t give you the right to do bad things to others and whether she understood what was happening or not I do not think she deserves good things. Also her not knowing about consent or understanding proper behavior because she’s been alone for so long is only a valid excuse for so long?? Like yeah at first her being so intense can be explained that way but after Odysseus explicitly says “No, I am married” that doesn’t really work anymore.
Not sorry for loving you is classic manipulation and blame shifting and even if it’s unintentional, usually a person being so unable to see when they’ve done something wrong and should just own it is not the sign of a good person. Also again she’s not stupid Ody explicitly said no many times which means she knew he absolutely was not on board so… idk maybe we’re infantilizing her a bit because we feel sympathy and she has a pretty voice?
We all know that if the roles were reversed and it was a man acting this way towards a woman we would be so vehemently against him and would not want to feel empathy for him- the energy should not change because she’s a pretty lady voiced by an incredible singer.
A rapist is a rapist is a rapist and even if you don’t believe that she did that in Epic she still tries to coerce him into it despite knowing full well he doesn’t want to, that makes her an attempted rapist. Calypso is bad. Point blank period.
#fandom#epic the musical#odysseus#calypso hate#calypso#she sucks#if calypso has no haters im dead#they could never make me like you calypso#everyone stop apologizing for her#she’s so manipulative#and it’s so obvious#I would apologize for ranting about this topic but honestly I’m not sorry it needed to be said#fuck calypso#the odyssey#epic odysseus#epic calypso#rant post#rant
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GMMTV Outing 2024 out of context (not that it would make more sense with context) - part 2
#gmmtv#gmmtv outing 2024#the chaos of joong in his mermaid suit djkhfd i cant stop laughing#dunk dragging him across the floor and everyone just giving up at the end#also the second one with phuwin and nanon has vine energy and im living for it#even my markohm made an appearance 🥹#incredible#wish i was there#or#do i#kjdshfkd#debatable#also i apologize for the quality but yknow how it is lmao rip#i cant#*edit: adding descriptions to this one as well (from top left to bottom right)#1: Jan in some anime cosplay#2: phuwin getting lipgloss put on him while nanon looks confused and done w/ everything#3: Lady Off fixing her hair#4: dunk dragging mermaid joong across the floor#5: markohm twerking on each others asses#6: someone twerking#7: mermaid joong laying on dunks lap#8: fourth (and others) casting a spell in a hogwarts outfit and superman!mark jumping out scaring them
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Gay horse man looks like a princess
Gay horse man learns to respect trans butch lesbians and various other people who won't date him
#zephyr breeze#zephyr breeze redesign#rainbow dash#rainbow dash and zephyr breeze#mlp fanart#mlp redesign#skyscraper gods#shire draws mlp#listen he was clearly gay#shire draws#but kept hitting on rainbow dash and insisting she was in love with him#so therefore there must be some mistake#He seems the self absorbed type to decide he knows exactly who everyone is on sight if it suits his vanity#I dont see him as intentionally doing it to be phobbic#it just doesnt occur to him that people might be different from his headcanons#When it finally does get through his head he will respect it while pining about what could have been#he will never fully apologize but he will stop hitting on her at least#also rainbow likes men fine just not romantically#all of these headcanons are new as of this post and are just true because its funny
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you will burn and you will burn out; you will be healed and come back again // kasia niewiadoma
kasia would you accept this as a marriage proposal? (EDITED BECAUSE I’M STUPID AND FORGOT TO PUT IN A FEW IMAGES)
untitled - tumblr user @waitingforthesunrise // 'i lost the faith that i could still do it' - kasia niewiadoma conquers the 'mountain of emotions' for tour de france triumph - anne marije rook // pauliena rooijakkers and demi vollering - stage 8, tour de france femmes 2024 (gruber images) // kasia niewiadoma - stage 8, tour de france femmes 2024 (gruber images) // kasia niewiadoma and elisa longo borghini - tour of flanders 2024 (gruber images) // getting closer: kasia niewiadoma on remaining optimistic about her own victory after a promising flanders podium - rachel jary // kasia niewviadoma - strade bianche donne 2024 // kasia niewviadoma - stage 7, tour de france femmes 2023 (jojo harper nielsen) // kasia niewiadoma, elisa longo borghini and shirin van anrooij - tour of flanders 2024 // kasia niewiadoma - stage 7, tour de france femmes 2023 (jojo harper nielsen) // kasia niewiadoma - strade bianche donne 2024 // heartbroken katarzyna niewiadoma breaks down in tears after narrowly missing podium at strade bianche donne 2024 - kieran wood // kasia niewiadoma's results records - procyclingstats // kasia niewiadoma is cycling's latest example for why you should never give up - robyn davidson // kasia niewiadoma - la fleche wallonne feminine 2024 (getty images) // "i have failed many times... but i never stopped believing"-- emotional katarzyna niewiadoma finally gets much-deserved win at la fleche wallonne femmes - kieran wood // kasia niewiadoma - podium ceremony, la fleche wallonne feminine 2024 // kasia niewiadoma - uci gravel championships 2023 // kasia niewiadoma - stage 8, tour de france femmes 2024 (gruber images) // kasia niewiadoma wins closest four de france ever - andy mcgrath // stubbornness, soul, and spirit: kasia niewiadoma has earned the tour de france spotlight - rachel jary // kasia niewiadoma - stage 8, tour de france femmes 2024 (gruber images)
title is the brothers karamzov by fyodor dostoyevsky
#obligatory kasiaposting two days late because no one will ever ever ever do it like her#like i said when i make one i make at least 3 more… this might be my favorite one#apologies for the spam everyone i do indeed have a problem there’s another sepprogla one marinating somewhere#did you guys know that kasia podiumed 27 races in her 4 year road win drought? underdog narrative will never stop being insane#ALSO. PLEASE GO APPRECIATE @waitingforthesunrise ‘s AMAZING WRITING!! THIS IS LIKE MY FAVORITE POEM EVER#kasia niewiadoma#demi vollering#elisa longo borghini#tour de france#tour de france femmes#tdff#cycling#web weave#my art
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Ace Attorney crossover where, in very typical Phoenix Wright fashion, he's neglected to find out WHO IN HELL his newest client is until he's sitting right across from him at the detention center's visitation room, and he's forced to confront the fact that he's going to bat for a murderous clown who IS innocent this time around
Aka: Ace Attorney crossover, but ClownPierce is his client--
#yea so im cooking chat#can you SEE the vision#phoenix panicking bc clowns assassin status is a secret told with OPEN doors — everyone knows it but nobody can prove it#clown being the most respectful client phoenix has ever had and somehow STILL the most deranged#something something clownzy at some point bc these bad bitches cant be kept appart from each other#uhhhhhh the real killer isssss oh man idk. fuckin. uh#what would be the funniest option???#reddoons? ashswag?? minutetech maybe??? idk man I've not watched lifesteal enough to know the dynamics#in my head the real killer is branzy who gets away with it and only did it bc he was trying to court clown with that#(bc OFC he would)#and takes them all out on a dinner as an apology#maya is all in for whatever the fuck is this weird shit going on#she's having the time of her life#maya is like. using clown as a climbing gym and speaking to him and doing her weird medium tricks with him#he's probably teaching her how to use a knife and how to disarm a man thrice her size in 20 different ways#the only reason phoenie isn't stopping him is bc he's still kinda traumatized from the whole matt engarde debacle#i think the only infinitely funnier option to this is if BRANZY is the defendant#mostly bc clown bursting into the court waiting room to chastise branzy and make sure hes okay and be menacingly standing in a corner is-#-my personal peak comedy honestly#also just bc phoenix would get constant peeks at the bloodthirsty creature living in his veins...#also is it peek? peak? peek right???#fuck english#just.#imagine it#phoenix being mildly terrified of what everyone considers is a wet poodle lost in ikea#anyway#demon rambles™#ace attorney#ace attorney phoenix wright#clownpierce
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#this movie is incredible and is altering my brain chemistry as we speak#it is beautiful and soul crushing and inspiring and agonizing#its too relatable#spoilers incoming#i cannot stop thinking about the scene at the end where owen/isabelle is at work#screaming IM DYING HELP ME and everyone shuts down#just to apologize later and get ignored#and the chalk drawing with THERE IS STILL TIME written on it gave me chills#there is still time isabelle i promise there is still time#as i got to the final scene i thought please dont end here#and it ended there#this movie is a tragedy#and i dont remember the last time a film stuck with me like this#i wish i couldve punched through the screen and grabbed isabelles hand and guided her back to the pink opaque#its just such a good trans allegory and i wish i could have seen her thrive#i saw the tv glow#is probably one of my favorite movies now
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Today was an absolute dumpster fire at home. I can't wait for my roommate's ex to move out after what happened today holy shit...
I don't have many people on my shit list, but after today, she's definitely on there. The audacity of her saying some of the shit she said to me-
I wish I could go back to NYC and stay with my parents for a month or two and visit homies... but I don't want to give her that power.
#rii vents#I'm beyond frustrated#today was absolute dogwater#can't wait for this stupid bitch to move out#I'm tired of walking on eggshells and not having the space to adult#then she had the audacity to try and apologize to me after everything she said today#ON TOP of making cutting and snide remarks not even 5 mins before apologizing-#I'm normally not that assertive but I told her ass “I don't think you're actually sorry”#So fucking tired of this dumb bitch#everyone who's aware of the situation even agreed that it was fucking bully and violent behavior#I know I'm no saint but talk to me again like that and tell me that I'm self-centered and that I don't care about you#I'll make sure you know what me not caring about someone looks like#cuz that shit is NOT pretty#and blaming me for the reason you and my roommate broke up and you wanting to move out??? alright#holy fuck I'm so sorry I'm just so fucking pissed#there has been NO reprieve today#I just wanna chill and play ZZZ and stop being angry for 10 minutes. please-
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Live laugh love Kumonoue & Yuichiro’s straining relationship 💕
#skye’s-endless-imaganitories.txt#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#kimetsu gakuen#kimetsu academy#gotouge#demon slayer fanart#<—- i mean. I guess????????#I’ve already posted this on yt but i thought it would be nice to share it on tumblr with all of you!!#This interaction is hereby non-canon as Kumonoue is really 2 shy to actually do something like this#And the poor girl would really take two centuries to eat her food because omg. That girl is NOT normal ‼️‼️#I feel like Yuichiro would be the only one in her friendgroup(?) to actually notice the….. unhealthy. abnormal things she does sometimes#And blud would NOT be afraid to call her out on it!!#Like. They’ll be sitting down on the lunch table together and Yui turns to her with a sort of disgruntled yet concerned look on his face#And he’ll be like. “…I wish you stopped getting distracted and actually ate your food properly. Don’t you know that’s an unhealthy habit?”#And Kumonoue would look at Yui with a confused look on her face and go#“Is it?” While Yuichiro looks at her in disbelief + disappointment.#The neurodivergent lifestyle is just too confusing for a simpleton like Yui /j#The video might be a little fuzzy…….#If it is i apologize 4 that 💔#But i hope you all enjoy regardless!!#happy saturday everyone!!#Or maybe sunday if you’re not in my area!!#And happy lesbian visibility week!! I see you gay girlies!!! 💕💕
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omg how did you guess i think about her.....steps in front of username to cover it. ignore that
edit from after this was written: i am so sorry. i am so so so sorry for this. it's like a whole fic i have no one else to say this to bc no onecares about them HAJKDSAHKSJHD i am . shaking. so sorry. omg. don't hate me
anyway you are so correct ARHJHKS pathetic autistic lesbian who grew up alienated from her peers bc she was "weird" and ppl didn't wanna be friends with her....until zoey came along and actually tolerated her (used her) and turned her into a dog basically.
she'd do anything for zoey....anything..........they are so homoerotic codependent friendship coded. zoey is MOST DEFINITELY in love with hailey but in like a very unhealthy "my feelings for you make me look weak so i need to make you weak by treating you like this" (plus zoey is just a bitch to everyone in general)
and hailey just takes it. bc she admires zoey so much. like she canonically sees her as a mentor. even though they're likely the same age. and yes yes she is in love with zoey because who wouldn't be. who wouldn't fucking fall for the only person who ever like. talked to her. who sings so well and acts so well and controls every room she enters. who has the power over people hailey could only dream to have one day......and also she's SO hot
NOW. THOUGH. it is canon that they have a third roommate. what if i told you it was greenpeace girl herself - harmony jones. (not canon. not even hinted at)
i just think. harmony is soo passionate about the environment. passionate in general. also autistic. good at masking though. but takes no shit. she's the first person zoey can't manipulate or degrade and it SUCKS. she's like 5'10 to me and basically towers over zoey of she's wearing her huge thrifted black boots. and it makes her so flustered and SO angry
and like. it is pretty funny to intimidate hatchetfield's favorite knockoff regina george. zoey passes her in the hallway and actually has to look up to meet harmony's dumb stupid sparkly gorgeous eyes......and harmony just smirks.........and zoey like. regains her composure. tears her eyes away and hisses "get out of my way" and practically sprints to her room. slams the door. and harmony calls after her "sorry princess" and zoey is so angry and flustered she bites a pillow not to scream
hailey and harmony are soo special too. harmony sees hailey, because she's willing to. she likes listening to her ramble. she likes seeing her happy & not constantly hiding herself in fear of being abandoned again. she is soooo down bad for hailey she'd do anything for her.
sounds like a pretty weird roommate dynamic right. WRONG. polyamory beam.
hailey looks at harmony like she carries the stars in her eyes. harmony looks at her the same. zoey is added into this and feels a little out of place. for the FIRST TIME in her life, zoey chambers feels out of place.
hailey and harmony make a huge effort though. because they are also still very much down bad for this bitch.
harmony just has like.....zoey on a leash. a mean lesbian with an even meaner lesbian on a leash. zoey eventually leans into it. her new role of being harmony's pretty princess........
she starts being less cruel to hailey. she's still like a bitch, that's just in her nature, but there's sweetness to it.....she makes an effort to learn stuff about hailey. hobbies and favorite musicals and all that. she learns that hailey can actually be kinda sorta cool (in a lame way) if she's not constantly biting her tongue.
staring at you really hard like a cat. they (you) could never make me hate you zazz haileydilmore.
i am actually really obsessed with 'in love with her, but not as an equal'. princess and handmaid coded. fondness but its buried under so much scorn. you Could tell her. and it'd probably make her more devoted. but she'd already do anything for you, so why give her that leverage?
there's this specific feeling some people (especially like. popular hot girls. lol) give you where they make you feel important. like. just by being around you, by deeming you worth their time, they're calling you special. even if they aren't actually being nice to you. unspoken affection of letting you stay close to them. it's like a really fun addictive feeling and i think hailey is always chasing that from zoey
harmony teaching hailey that she deserves so so much better than how zoey treats her.......i don't think that would be immediate but it would be like. a slow build-up of being less and less comfortable w/ zoey's demands before she finally flat-out refuses to do something. probably with a "you aren't even nice to me, zoey. I don't think you ever have been."
i think....zoey hates seeing harmony and hailey happy together at all it makes her So Mad because she had hailey first. and she's been stolen. by what? being kind??
the Entire Time zoey is ruminating on this harmony and hailey are both trying to kind of invite her in and be like hey we arent mad at you we should probably all talk (The Polyamory Talk™. zoey does not know this i dont think). but zoey is both upset/jealous and maybe a little tiny bit worried that she'll fuck up whatever they have. because she does maybe feel the littlest bit bad about hurting hailey. a little bit. because there is actually something nice about this happier, more confident, more assertive hailey. maybe she feels a miniscule amount of guilt that she was the reason she was miserable for so long.
they do finally ask her out and shes so out of her element waugh......because yeah harmony has her whipped.
+ ur so right zoey is never nice, persay, but harmony definitely dulls some of her edges and she's a lot more able to say things with affection rather than spite. and harmony's reign ushers in clear communication (or else), so when zoey has issues with hailey there is no more passive-aggressive comments that leave her spiralling
ugh i think zoey wld still snap at hailey sometimes and harmony always mediates.....theres something kind of fun about hamony being a protector. maybe zoey feels a little left out sometimes because of this, like she's the third or the spare or the least wanted. not a feeling shes used to! of course they reassure her that this is not true. but maybe she makes a bit more of an effort with her temper, anyways. you understand
#sorry if its cringe but i do fully have to stim every time i get an ask from you#i just get excited i like lesbians.....i like talking to lesbians..... you Get It#i think im at a point where i will stop apologizing for giving u a billion word reply. and you should do the same. we both yap and thats ok#and also im so sorry if i severely misinterpreted your faves. my greatest fear#(halfway through ask) not canon not even hinted at is how i roll you know that........oh my god wait is this hpg#i finally get it. you are so fucking smart#hear me out. hailey treasured pet and zoey prized guard dog to harmony's. whatever. royalty#i think harmony holding hailey above zoey in status to make her jealous/make fun of her/be a little humiliating is. um#well. im thinking abt it#harmony/zoey talk is at a minimum because i dont think im capable of being normal about that dynamic rn /pos#also them doubling up affection on hailey when shes down to make her feel extra special and loved. sighhh#hot peace girls#asks#maybe i need a guide asks tag. hrm. will ponder#THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE A READMORE. sorry everyone its there now
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i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle
#auburn's rambles <3#i think about that time when people were shipping me w him a lot#and i don't think i ever really addressed how bad it made me feel#like i told people to stop yeah but now whenever i see idia i think about how upset and frustrated i was#like it keeps coming BACK i can't get it out of my HEAD#THIS GOT KINDA VENTISH WAIT#idk man it's late i should be asleep but Fuck i cannot stop thinking about how that got so out of hand#my poor lab partner had to deal w me that day LMAO i like. cried in front of her#and i don't know why my brain keeps coming back to it because nobody makes jokes like that anymore#and everyone who did sent me apologies which was so sweet#anyways hello ygys i think i just needed to get this off my chest goodnight#FOR CLARIFICATION I AM OK!!!! i think im just emotional rn and i did not expect to dump a whole ass essay here#muah muah love ygys thank u for being on my side i hope all of your pillows are cold and you have sweet dreams
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6 weeks of breathing clean air, I still miss the smoke…..
🏝️🤙🏄🏾♀️🏄🏼♂️💔
#seemed appropriate to use t swift lyrics since I associated so many of her songs with them &haven’t been able to listen to any of them sinc#I don’t even want to say their names#if you know you know#purging them from my life has been depressing as hell#I’m so fucking sick of behind the scenes bullshit ruining my favourite ships#this is the THIRD TIME this has happened to me btw#I’ve genuinely been in mourning#I’m not even exaggerating when I say that finale triggered a days long anxiety attack for me#it’s so ridiculous how something that wasn’t even real caused me to have physical symptoms of distress but it’s true#my heart wouldn’t stop racing. chest was tight. started shaking a few times. felt lightheaded. couldn’t sleep. eating made me sick#it was awful#but now I’ve mostly moved on to anger#I’m angry at a lot of people involved for different reasons#I’m also angry because I’ve lost my inspiration to write#I was solely committed to writing about them the past few years and now that they’re over I have no desire to write for them or another shi#I’m crushed that I’ve lost my joy for writing those ficlets but it’s too painful now. probably always will be tbh#feeling pretty lost creatively…#thank god I made a new friend on here before shit hit the fan#she and I have been venting out our sadness and frustrations together and it’s helped a lot#I hope everyone else in the fandom was able to find support like I did#I know my exit from the fandom was abrupt but I had just finished watching and was reacting purley on raw emotion#but I still think it was my best way to cope with it all#apologies for the rant and to everyone following me who don’t know wtf I’m talkimg about but I was thinking about them today#and I needed to unload a bit#I’m not going to tag anything but I do miss this fandom terribly#I’m still at a point where I don’t want to hear anything about this show or ship ever again… but yeah… I really miss those good times#take me back to the season 3 hype#THIS is the bad place#personal#laura says things
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it's kind of wild that jessie gender used the word transandrophobia in a youtube video. i've never seen that happen before. people gotchaing you know who for blatantly misgendering rebecca sugar and nate stevenson was the most callout of actual transmasc or afab transneutral erasure i've seen from the video essay space in memory, and even that was mostly just to pad out the callout post
#it's nice to hear literally one transfeminine person self-reflect on the way people talk over trans men in the youtube literati sphere#but. to be fair. a LOT of people called the lack of visible trans men out during hbomb's mermaids charity stream years back#there was a lot of scrambling to find transmasc guests towards the end. like.. irrc just tweeting out for guests#and then idk i don't think it moved the needle at all after that#(but also i stopped watching cpoints during the middle of her 'being cancelled for nonbinary erasure' era so idk if she changed)#other than that... in the mask off vid in l.e.'s final yt days she apologized for saying trans men have it easier than trans women#citing (as everyone seems to) elliot page finally showing the world that trans men are treated like dogshit#which uh. hm. i get that saying that doesn't call anyone of lesser visibility out#but frankly i'm shocked that she spent so much time in HER fandoms seemingly without ever encountering trans men lmao#(that's a joak. i remember it was way less visible a decade ago. fandom spaces were very girls club back then)#i'm rambling now lol#it's... a little wild that the misgendering was assigned to misogyny alone if i'm being honest. it was literally in the misogyny section#and it was about classing them as women to say that they were ALLOWED to show 'nonthreatening' wlw stories
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Day three of holding everyone’s laundry hostage until my father takes a shower.
The last of my father’s beloved white socks have fallen to the filth. There is little hope, and even less in terms of rest. The battle is ongoing, and it feels often that I am fighting alone. Morale is low; my ally in this conflict, mother, is injured. I long for the days when I can rest. When this war will cease, and all will be clean again. The dishes done, the people bathed, the laundry washed and folded. Alas. We know the struggle will never end.
I am Sisyphus, and my father’s horrid stench and apathy are forever my boulder.
My father is a war profiteer, and I am a hapless young recruit greeting a doomed mission.
Last shower date: December 25th, 2023
#collective tag#it spoke#i’m venting#but like… only half serious#god I am so so so so tired.#I’m so pissed man#at just. everything#this house is falling apart around me and It’s like I can’t do anything#I have begged and begged and begged this fucking man to take a goddamn shower.#I cry about this#because he just doesn’t fucking care#I CANT DO EVERYTHING!!!!!#NOT FOREVER#huge ass ants everywhere? sure. fuck it. why not#piles and piles of laundry? okay. I can do that.#not paying the mortgage until our shit gets shut down and mom and I yell at you?#cooking halfassed meals that are only barely tolerable to you and inedible to everyone else#and then complaining when we don’t eat them despite how much we’ve all told you?#and leaving the whole kitchen to rot?#PISSING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY AND NOT CHANGING YOUR PANTS BECAUSE YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT AND NEVER SHOWERING FOR MONTHS ON END?#I’m just… words cannot describe how tired I am right now.#mom has a broken foot too so I also have to take care of her even more than normal#how did baby me handle this all the time on top of school?#‘yeah sure i can take care of two fucked up angry disabled adults on top of my crippling childhood trauma and schoolwork!’#—>#‘I swear to fucking god I will telepathically make my heart stop beating by sheer force of fucking will if I hear you call for me again’#deepest apologies to any poor soul that reads this#i really just needed to cry and scream and cry harder again until I throw up#and maybe a hug
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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.
#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out#not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her#like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool#it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun#i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again#but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too#to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together#thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all#like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad#and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do#and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends#im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for#but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen#to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it#i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and#decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen#and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree#but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most#and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen#and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway#so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me#which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its#crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it#idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her#i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of#resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different#and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has
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I love Jo so much so far. Everyone is so mean to her bc she’s not that smart but she’s literally so cool.
#She needs to stop letting people walk all over her#Yates? told her to stop being childish and she APOLOGIZED#Girl he should apologize to you#The master literally hypnotized her and everyone gets mad at her for that#Hope she helps the doctor with his outfits bc she’s so slay and he’s so nay#terror of the autons#jo grant#doctor who#j watches drwho
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everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn
#self#for instance.....my mom wants me to cut off everyone who is still tied to the school#and im so mad at myself for feeling a certain type of way when the campus manager called me not too long ago basically to tell me she doesnt#trust the girl who did this shit and she wasnt mad at me but was also mad at me for bringing her to her dads house#for reference we were trying to get a cat from the campus managers dads house LMFAO#and i honestly cannot wait to speak to her again and be like 😔 god dammit you were right like you were every single time#i just dont understand the wiring in her head to think the shit she says and does to people is normal and okay and how she doesnt realize it#is literally a mental health break. when i finally told my mom the first thing she said was shes probably off her medication#which.....probably isnt wrong sadly coming from someone who has borderline and very easily can lose it#but the difference is i dont give in to the urges to try to hurt everyone around me in every way i can#and me and her have said before that we thought she might also have borderline because we were very similar#but god damn does she love proving that if she has it its extremely severe or its something else entirely#on an honest note. shes incredibly narcissistic and i know her mom is part of the reason shes that way bc she was given princess treatment#her entire fucking life and then doesnt understand when other people dont treat her the same way#i hate rambling about this and i hate it that it is bothering me so fucking bad but like ???#if youre going to decide that you can put our past aside period and move on then fucking do that and stop bringing the past up as a way to#hurt me and the people around you???? she acts like shes not done horrible fucking things to people. so sorry i wrote a letter that was very#honest at the time. so sorry that when you found out i apologized for it and said i regret it because 2 weeks after my apology i no longer#regret writing it. if its making school a living hell for you....theres probably a reason for that girlfriend#i am not the person who put that shit in your folder#though i seriously fucking doubt its actually in her folder shes probably assuming it is#and youre the one who made a complete ass of yourself to every educator that ever stepped foot in that building#that has nothing to do with me that you are a literal warning given to every new educator!!!! i havent even been in school there in months#yet IM the problem??? how am i the problem when i graduated in fucking january???? everything since then falls on you#AND YET AGAIN! MIGHT I MENTION! IT IS NOT JUST MY LETTER!!! THERES AT LEAST 2 OTHER ONES!!!!!#BECAUSE IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON SHE DOES THIS SHIT TO!!!!#god sometimes i sit back and realize that theres a reason she regresses as a person and i do not#im not going to sit still anymore and let someone walk all over me and she can thank herself for that#shes who taught me that blocking and running as fast as i can doesnt fix anything#so here we are bitch. youre not blocked and im sure youre sitting at home thinking about how youre right about everything
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