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Hi late-night crew!! Have some doodles of Maeve's younger half-brother, Shiloh (affectionately nicknamed 'Shy' by Maeve).

He's literally the exact opposite of how Maeve projects herself; Introverted, quiet, reserved... But he speaks very directly, even if it makes him come off cold.. Shiloh likes coffee. He's probably addicted to it and needs it every morning or else he'll get migraines...

Maeve dotes on him a lot and teases him (she has a daily annoyance quota she has to meet as the older sister). Shiloh gets annoyed easily by it, but he cares about her.

I'll say more about him some other time. I'm tired and it's 1AM-

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I remembered last night that Maeve has a younger brother (she's in her 20s and he's not that much younger than her, probably 18 or 19 the youngest)

I never designed him, so I'm doing some doodles of him now.....

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I think the vow of reason deserves to have his resolve tested by seeing how long he can resist being tickled

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What sigma alpha gamer +1,000 aura thing has got you brainrotted?

Arcane—

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I have an Arcane s2 tk thought but I’m trying to turn it into an ACTUAL fic that’s not just a thought dump—

I might continue it tonight uwaa—

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ok so one of my friends got me into ZZZ and i've watched like half of chapter one and oh my god you have to hear me out on this.

ler!Nicole.

Ayoooo! Welcome to the ZZZ train! 👀 The Cunning Hares are my favorite (so far) so I'll GLADLY hear anything you have to say about them, hehe!!

BUT YES!!! Ler!Nicole YES! I love that- 👏👏👏

One thing I think about with ler!Nicole is her "convincing" Belle or Wise (whoever your choice of player character is!) to waive her debts that she owes them... Through tickling of course!

Once she finds out how receptive they are to her "persuasiveness" she can't help but use it again down the line. '-'

A stingy business genius like her I feel would stoop to those levels if it benefitted her ! ! !

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Would you be interested in making art of Maeve being tickled in the future?

*gently grabs you by the shoulders*

ABSOLUTELY-

I know I don't talk about lee!Maeve as much but it crosses my mind a LOT....... I definitely have it on my bucket list ! ! I just need the motivation and to stop redesigning my ocs;;;

But yes! I'm very interested drawing her getting tickled soon. >:^) It'll happen. This I swear ! ! !

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spreading my play it cool guys propaganda to tickle community members I think would enjoy it

please enjoy this offering of a cute giggling redhead ❤️

Omg wait those clips were adorable!! qvq He's so giggly and precious!

Consider your propoganda spread successfully! 'v' I am interested in giving the anime a peek for sure! The blond guy surprisingly caught my interest hehehe...

Thank you for sharing omg!!! Hopefully spreading the propaganda will lead to some noice content from people in the community... 👀 That'd be a dope bonus!

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My brain chemistry changed so Brawler Mama's got a new look. Maeve's ready to catch people off guard again with cute pet names before she folds them into pretzels in the arena! :^)

MINORS DNI

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Laying in bed thinking about how absolutely FUCKED Lars would be if him and Maeve were part of the same universe.

And here’s why under the cut (tho it should be obvious for anyone who knows them)

Women make Lars nervous especially if they’re pretty, taller than him, or muscular.

Well, Maeve is all three of those; pretty (to him), taller (he’s 5’ 6” and she’s 5’ 9”), and muscular.

The minute Maeve saunters up to him and utters a “Hey, pretty kitty~!” his soul will leave his body. And by that I mean, he’ll probably freeze up, start sweating, and blue screen.

God forbid Maeve’s feeling playful and starts poking or tickling him- The shade of red that man would turn would put tomatoes to shame.

Once she got an understanding of how quiet, reserved, and skittish he is, she would adore teasing him.

Hearing Lars sputter and stutter in indignation, flush all sorts of shades of scarlet, and giggle and squeal when she explores his tickle spots…

Lars would be in a mix of heaven and hell. Being tickled, teased, and interacted with by pretty woman! ♥️ But also… being tickled, teased, and interacted with a pretty woman….. 💦💦😳

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My brain chemistry changed so Brawler Mama's got a new look. Maeve's ready to catch people off guard again with cute pet names before she folds them into pretzels in the arena! :^)

MINORS DNI

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I might post the finished Maeve in a bit... if not tonight then tomorrow.........

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WORK IN PROGRESS...

Brawler Maeve spoke to me and started telling me what she wanted for a redesign.🧍 I have a vision... She's so beautiful and I wish she'd snap me in half

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I fuckin' GOT him~🤭 He loves it really, I promise!!

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So sorry for the previous post— I ate and got high to chill out so I feel better;;

Thank you for the comments and asks. ; ; I probably won’t reply cuz I don’t want to start thinking about it again and spiral. But I appreciate the kind words;;! I might DM one or two of you to try and talk. ; ;

I’m likely gonna refund my commissioners in the coming weeks so I can go on another journey to find art fun again and break out of this art block without the worry of having to complete comms looming over me. 🙇🏽‍♂️ (Also got Squealing Santa coming up and I wanna focus on that since it’s my first time participating!)

I apologize for the inconvenience..! I’ll talk to commissioners directly in the coming days.

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The motivation to draw has been at an all time low

I fr need more artist friends to talk to because being in my own bubble with my art, ocs, sonas, selfshipping stuff, whatever is so isolating... But I'm scared.

My friend who I used to talk about my Granblue selfshipping stuff with essentially forgot about me and replaced me with a different friend.

My friend who I started talking about oc and sona stuff with again stopped talking to me about them (and kind of in general) because I shut down his crush on me.

My irls don't really draw anymore and the one who does sometimes is in a completely different k/nk community and I don't like talking to them about ocs too much cuz they misinterpret mine like crazy.

My partner's sweet and let's me talk but a lot of the time he talks over me and my brain starts screaming at me that he doesn't actually care about what I'm saying.

I'm too socially anxious to make friends online and maintaining them is even MORE of a struggle now because of all the bullshit that's happening with my roommate.

I feel so fucking alone in the art world and just in general...

I'm drawing things and for what? It's not fun right now. I don't know what I want for my art anymore because I have no one to comfortably share it with. I've just been going through the motions with art and doing commissions cuz the only thing fueling me wanting to draw right now is getting paid and making other's happy which always feels nice.

But I also want art to be fun for me when I draw for myself. I feel like what I make for myself is time being wasted. Sometimes I feel like even drawing my ocs is also a waste of time. It doesn't spark joy because looking at most of my ocs or sonas makes me sad. So then I make new ones and hope those will make me happy only to get nervous that people will get upset at my inconsistency and because I make too many ocs (it's happened before).

I'm also tired of feeling like my (personal) art's only desirable when it's tickle art. It makes me want to leave the tk community so bad... but I always come back. I told myself I wouldn't leave again this time cuz I like having a space to talk about tk stuff... But I'm feeling sore about the whole thing again.

I wish my art was good enough for me to be an FFXIV artist. But being devoid of passion for art for the past couple of months and wanting validation for my art from the tk community who's way more supportive is making it super hard to just... Draw normal, non-tk stuff.

Most of the time I like my art and my style. But I want to be better... And idk why I hate the thought of getting better and wasting it on tickle art. So I'm just stuck doing the same shit.

I want to sell at conventions. I want to be part of a fandom's community. I want my art to be liked outside of tickle art...

I know I went through 60 different topics in this read more and I'm so sorry if you read all of it, but I just feel so trapped... I'm not even sure if it's seasonal depression anymore cuz these problems keep popping up too often.