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I'll be back later to check in on things! For now, I disappear again-

*Throws smokebomb and poofs*

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Hello @randommusicalfluff !! I'm your @squealing-santa for this year!!

(NSFM & MINORS DNI)

I haven't drawn for DR in a looong time, it felt so nice to be able to draw the characters again! x)

I hope you enjoy this as much as I enjoyed drawing it!!

And a super happy holidays to you!! :D

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ABUBUBU WAAAAHHHH!!! OMG!!!!! q_q HELP THIS IS SO SO SOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!

DH with the pointy ears....... PERFECTION! Honestly I couldn't be happier- I'm backflipping (in my head) GRRRRR THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

HIII @riisume !! It is I, your @squealing-santa for this year!!! :D

((NSFW & BLANK/AGELESS BLOGS PLEASE DNI))

((Click/Tap for better quality | Alt text/Image Desc is provided per image | Reblogs give me 💚motivation and serotonin💖))

I heard you liked that Daniel guy? 👀

Me too, me too :3c

I hope you enjoy this as much as I did!! This was super fun to draw, especially for drawing these characters for the first time! Have a happy holidays! <3

Textless version under the cut!!

I swear, every Squealing Santa I participate in, I get more and more ambitious LMAO like what's going on with me

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I've been doing a lot of thinking. And I need to think more.

Part of me both does and doesn't want to leave the community. At least here (I'm through with X and bluesky for posting tk art)

I know it hasn't been very long since I made my "I'm leaving" post, but staying logged out of this account and spending more time drawing non-tk stuff and posting what I want on main has been very liberating and fun.

But I know I would miss having a space to talk about tk stuff when I want and also post art (or the rare fic).

I have a really bad problem about pressuring myself to draw tk art and be more involved in the community cuz I know my stuff will do better than my normal art.

All I know is that part of me doesn't think giving up this account for good is a smart idea for me, but I don't want to spend as much time on here as I have been cuz I want to grow as an artist. And drawing tk stuff so much isn't helping me cuz I don't wanna put more effort into art like that.

So I'll probably keep using this account, but mostly stay off of it unless the desire to yap or create comes up I guess. Maybe I'll just designate this account as a lars-writes-fics only zone again so I can retry getting over my anxiety of writing. Who knows.

Chances are I'll stick around and create in some form. I just need to think about what that looks like.

Some related personal stuff under the cut if you wanna read it, but that's basically it. Gonna log again after I post this and respond to a DM.

Since this shit with my roommate has been happening, I've been really depressed and stressed. And managing all that without a hyperfixation as an escape was making things extremely difficult.

I got into a horrible art block because of it so I didn't have drawing as an outlet either. Gaming was helping for a bit until I started feeling self conscious about playing games too much. So most of the time I was just sitting at my desk, forcing myself to draw while I watched videos when I had this really bad block if I wasn't doing chores.

That made me feel worse towards my art cuz it's been like that mostly since late October. Which also lead me to feeling devoid of purpose since I couldn't draw.

Thanks to my irl bestie, I have a new hyperfixation on tr//nsf0rm//rs so I've been drawing a lot of self indulgent stuff on main and on my own for it when I haven't been chipping away at my SS. Things have felt a bit more secure for me art-wise.

And what's better is, I've always struggled drawing robots, so I feel like I have a reachable improvement-goal with my art again.

Still waiting for the depression and stress to pass, but the good thing is I think the roommate that's been giving us a hard time is moving out waaaay sooner than expected out of nowhere?? Like... Next week or next month types of soon- So hopefully we will have normalcy at home and I'll be completely better. Especially after my irl bestie comes to visit me (for the first time) for the New Year..! I'm very excited!

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!!!IMPORTANT!!!

I'm likely gonna be abandoning this account once I get my Squealing Santa done for my giftee. If you want to keep up with my NORMAL art/ALL my ocs, you can follow me at @rorimega I'll be posting them and fanart on there from now on.

If you want to keep up with my tk art, you can keep up with me on Deviantart (I'm keeping that account open for my use) you can follow that >>HERE<< (Just beware there will be light N$FW on there sometimes-)

Mainly, I want to feel less obligated to draw tk art but I'm taking a different approach by keeping my DA open for the times the urge strikes and if I want to take commissions.

I want my art to be so much more than just... This...

It's something I've been thinking on for a week or so and I think today was my breaking point.

Hopefully the Squealing Santa will be my only and last post after this.

I won't shut down my account, I'll keep it up so people can look at my shit, but I want to be done with this community for the most part. It doesn't bring me happiness anymore anywhere.

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I hate feeling like my art causes more people pain than joy-

I know it brings plenty of people joy and stuff, but the fact that some of the people who're closest to me don't seem happy when I show them what I drew or, if they don't know how to draw but want to learn, feel inferior and like they'll never amount to anything art-wise...

Idk- I'm always encouraging my friends (and even strangers or acquaintances) to do art and get excited when they draw things and show me. Even if they don't think it's good.

I guess I just got really sad about all that when I showed a really close friend a WIP of the fursona I've been designing and struggling with, but they didn't reply yesterday... Only for me to find out today that they were trying to get back into drawing, struggling with it, and got upset because I showed them...

I know it's not my fault cuz I had no idea and they said as much, but I still feel really bad... I don't want my art to make other's art journey more difficult.

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Grrr... The burning desire to get a cute comm of Maeve and Shiloh is real-

But Shiloh doesn't have a reference... Yet. Time to speedrun a fullbody drawing of him! >:^)

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The plan today is to continuing my new fursona on my ipad, start a sketch for my SS, and catch up on WWE (I NEED to see that Rhea Ripley and Liv Morgan beef in full so bad—)

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I have

Been fucking

Working on a new fursona for my Kitty Men cinematic universe (sideblog) FOR HOURS.................

I think I'm finally getting somewhere tho!

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Mistletoe {Caitlyn x Vi}

Advent Calendar Event!

A/N: so uhh. we all probably need this after that season. WOW... anyways i love these two and i hope i did them justice because they deserve the whole world imo and i love them to bits... hope y'all enjoy!! this is the first of what will hopefully be a few fics to celebrate the holidays so look forward to the rest! have a lovely day everyone! :D

Summary: Caitlyn and Vi are discussing their different holiday traditions...

Word Count: 1.2k (under the cut!)

Caitlyn laid down on her bed curled up on her side as she stared at Vi. They had been spending the day together and were winding down for bed, but Caitlyn was slightly worried about Vi.

Vi had been unusually quiet today, even for her. She had been taken around Piltover by Caitlyn, which she knew she would not be fond of, but had still helped her out with attending to what she needed to do for the upcoming holidays.

The holidays might have been what was bothering Vi, Caitlyn decided. There must be a difference in tradition between Piltover and the Undercity, one that she had not even recognized initially.

“What are some of the Undercity’s holiday traditions?” Caitlyn asked after a few moments of contemplation.

Vi peeked open one eye and then shrugged. “We don’t really do holidays down there, Cait.”

“Well, surely you celebrated something.”

Vi laughed at that. “You think we had anything to celebrate down there?” Caitlyn pulled her hand away from Vi slightly, worried that she had overstepped and also mildly annoyed at Vi’s bluntness. Vi quickly took Caitlyn’s hand in her own and gave it a light squeeze. “I’m sorry, that was–”

“Did you really never celebrate anything?”

Vi shook her head. “No, no… We did celebrate a few things. But not the way you do, not the way you do up here.”

Caitlyn pulled Vi’s hand toward her face and kissed the back of it gently, offering her a small smile of encouragement.

Vi smiled and continued. “One year, it was winter time, and Powder was running low on her art supplies. Ekko and I snuck into one of the nice art stores that was closer to Piltover and we stole a box of really nice crayons for her.”

Vi’s face changed, and Caitlyn could not quite place what exactly was going through her mind. She waited to see if Vi would continue her story, but she was silent. After a few more moments, she finally changed the subject. “What about you, Cait? What are some of the fancy Piltover traditions?”

Caitlyn wilted slightly at Vi’s subject change, but she did not say anything against it. She knew that it was difficult for Vi to talk about the past, about her sister that she had lost to a different world. So, instead of pushing Vi for more information, she told her about her own traditions in Piltover.

“Well, one of the classic traditions is mistletoe,” Caitlyn said with a soft smile, scooting a bit closer to Vi. She traced a hand down her back and pulled her a bit closer, making Vi smile.

“I think I’ve heard of this one… Remind me, though.”

Caitlyn hummed. “Mistletoe is normally hung in a doorway so people always end up under it. When you end up underneath it with someone, you have to kiss them!”

Vi laughed at that. “That’s so random!” Caitlyn nodded with a chuckle. Vi cupped Caitlyn’s cheek and smirked, eyeing her lips. “You know, I don’t think I’d need mistletoe as an excuse to kiss you.”

Caitlyn felt heat rise to her cheeks and she sputtered. “Vi–!”

Vi only chuckled and leaned forward, kissing Caitlyn’s lips gently. She pulled Caitlyn in a bit closer, wrapping a leg over her as their kiss deepened. Caitlyn hummed in content into the kiss and Vi cupped her cheek and kissed her with a gentle fervor.

They finally managed to pull away, but Vi pressed a few more kisses to Caitlyn’s face until she was swatted away with a giggle.

“Okay, you’ve had enough!”

“Sheesh! Do I have to get mistletoe so I can kiss you more, then?”

Caitlyn laughed and shook her head, rubbing her hand into Vi’s back gently. “No… But there’s a catch to mistletoe that I forgot to mention.”

Vi raised an eyebrow in curiosity. “Oh? Do tell.”

Caitlyn chuckled. “Well, if you end up under the mistletoe with someone you really don’t want to kiss, one way to get out of it is to tickle them instead.”

Vi rolled her eyes and snickered, then leaned into Caitlyn again, brushing their lips together gently before she spoke. “Aww… Then what do you want to do to me, cupcake? Kiss or tickle?”

Caitlyn pressed their lips together, making Vi hum softly in content as she let her hands get tangled in Caitlyn’s hair. Caitlyn gently guided herself to straddle Vi, kissing her the whole time as she went. Caitlyn gently traced her fingers along Vi’s stomach, making her fidget slightly as they continued to kiss.

“Mmm… Cait…” Vi whined softly when Caitlyn pulled away, her eyes heavy lidded. Caitlyn continued to trace Vi’s stomach, grinning softly.

“There’s no mistletoe rule that says I can’t do both,” Caitlyn teased.

Vi took a moment to process what Caitlyn was saying before her eyes widened and she began to giggle nervously. She wiggled under Caitlyn, and her breath hitched when Caitlyn’s hands found their way to her sides, drumming along them gently.

“Cahait–!” Vi snickered softly in anticipation, watching Caitlyn’s hands.

Caitlyn grinned and leaned forward, kissing Vi again. But before Vi could fully melt into the kiss, Caitlyn let her fingers begin to skitter along Vi’s sides, making her burst into a fit of bright giggles.

“Cahahahait!! That– Thahahat tickles!” Vi laughed against Caitlyn’s lips.

Caitlyn only chuckled at Vi. “That’s the point, Vi.”

Caitlyn eventually gave up on trying to kiss Vi while she tickled her, as she was too giggly and squirmy to successfully smooch. Instead, Caitlyn nuzzled her face into the crook of Vi’s neck and kissed along her tattoos, making her whine and protest as she laughed.

Caitlyn crept her hands upward and let her fingers dance all over Vi’s ribs. Vi clamped her arms down and squealed, throwing her head back and bursting into a stream of laughter as she tried to squirm away.

“C’mohohon! Cahait, please– I– I– Gahahahaa!!”

“Hmm? Use your words, Vi. I can’t understand you when you’re laughing.”

“You’re so mehehehean!!”

Caitlyn raised an eyebrow. “Oh, I’m mean, am I?” Vi shook her head frantically, trying to backtrack, but there was not much she could do at this point. “I’ll show you mean, Violet.”

Vi could not say anything in protest before Caitlyn shoved her hands under her arms, wiggling her fingers and sending Vi into a long stream of bubbling laughter. She kicked her feet weakly and tried to decide between pushing Caitlyn away and clamping her arms. This only caused Vi to make an awkward little shoving motion that did not actually shove Caitlyn away at all.

“Caitlyn!!! Cahahahait– Cait, plehehease!! No mohohore!”

Caitlyn shrugged and decided to let up, knowing that Vi could only handle so much tickling before she would exact proper revenge. She would prefer to avoid being tickled to bits herself, as Vi was much less merciful than she was when it came to tickling. She was an older sister, after all.

Vi wheezed and Caitlyn curled up on top of her, kissing her jawline and eventually finding her lips, making Vi moan softly.

“Th-that’s much better…” Vi said softly, still catching her breath when Caitlyn pulled away from the kiss. Vi chuckled, grabbing Caitlyn’s hip and propping her up more on her so she could continue to kiss her. There was no mistletoe in sight, but these two did not really need an excuse to kiss each other…

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I won’t spoil anything but I’m finally watching the final act of Arcane finally and I’m in sPAIN from the first episode of act III— 😭😭😭

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When my stupid, shitty roommate's ex moves out, I'm gonna start making it a point to get fit and work out more!

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There’s no saving my (old) gbf sona I fear.

So I might take Lars’ female counterpart (Lara) and use her instead for my gbf selfships.

Designing a new outfit/class and figuring out a personality for her that’ll work with my ships might be a bit difficult, but I at least have a bit of an idea on what I can do class/personality-wise!

It’ll probably help make Maeve’s deal with the way she acts make lightbulbs go off in people’s heads! (By people, I mean mine)

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I'm wondering if my art block is because I haven't been taking my ADHD meds-

Last month I went a while without my meds until the end of the month. Art came back to me okay at the end of the month.

This month my routine's been so fucked because of the shit with my roommate's ex and I've been forgetting to take all my meds, even with an alarm.

I remembered to take my meds today because I took them as soon as I woke up instead of waiting until mid-morning... And I've been doing art with no problem once they kicked in... And my brain is quiet...

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Shoutout to my goated homies for helping me out with a fun and easy activity that'll help me draw a little today ;v;