#everyone else is business as usual on socials tho

[mcflysohigh]

More shite from the sun.. new videos emerging too which I'm sure they've paid thousands for. I'm starting to think they sent someone to spy cause not even the average McFly fan would follow him around that much. Make it stop

[phagodyke]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[arouravis]

✳︎ 𝟶𝟷 𝙰𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝙻𝙾𝙶𝚈 𝙾𝙱𝚂𝙴𝚁𝚅𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂 : 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎! 

✦ note: this is my first ever astrology blog post. I'm so excited to see where this goes!

𝙼𝚘𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝙹𝚞𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚛:

having this placement is truly a blessing. Usually, this placement (if not within a tighter orb) tends to develop later in life. Or tends to be something deep and unconscious that isn’t unlocked until you do deep introspection on the self.

The tendency to bounce back through whatever situation and try and see the brighter side in things really helps. Tendency to be “too” optimistic at times. With this placement, make sure to think before speaking regarding certain situations. Sometimes, people don’t want to see the light at the end of the tunnel immediately.

Naturally artistically inclined, very polite people to a fault. Tends to have a type of elegancy and refinement to their artwork. Or if not, their artwork gives the viewer deep introspection. Truly a great aspect to have in the natal chart!!

𝙰𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙼𝚘𝚘𝚗:

GAGGELERS!! Very giggly, and have a face that replicates the Sun. Ex: Kamala Harris!

Very full face with a wonderful smile. Great friends to have, and I have a special place in my heart for these people. Genuinely, whenever they smile, I just get so soft like… the world is so cruel to my Aries moon babies PLEASE KEEP SMILING!!

Compared to an Aries Mars, these people tend to be more snappy/easily irritated and easier to handle regarding anger imo. Usually, the type of people to laugh off their frustration/anger with friends.

Ambiverts that lean more towards being introverted. The type to go completely non-verbal and then just giggle out of nowhere. Ex: Mort from Madagascar

They DONT play about their loved ones and will vouch for them no matter the situation. They can either be loud and wrong or loud and right!

It’s so sad to me because these people usually have so much warmth and light inside of them. But that light tends to be dim or completely put out due to mental issues/family behavior.

I LOVE ARIES MOONS!!

𝙼𝚞𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙼𝚘𝚘𝚗𝚜:

GET UP! Get up right now and get off of TikTok and whatever you use to doom scroll, and do what the hell you need to do. If it weren’t for my low attention span, I’d probably be Albert Einstein right about now. Procrastination WARRIORS!

Read, write, learn, and speak! These things truly help you out in the long run. For the mind, body, and spirit.

I will speak to you until you fall asleep, and I will stay up several hours later whilst everyone else is asleep. I believe people who have mutable moons (specifically speaking for a Gemini moon), have the love of staying up till the dawn of time. Sometimes, their minds are so busy from whatever they need to accomplish in the day, that their only time of solace and relaxation can be in the night.

It’ll be to the point where they want to stay up but yearn to fall asleep. But they wanna catch up on a book/music/social media that they potentially missed out on. I get it, and I see you, but please. Lay tf down, create a routine, and seize the day!

𝙻𝚒𝚋𝚛𝚊 𝙼𝚊𝚛𝚜:

people pleasers to a fault. But once they’ve jumped over that hurdle, they can be a beast. They don’t play about their boundaries nor their mental health. Can tend to be selfish, tho.

Speaking of people-pleasing, these people love giving out compliments! I believe they have a telepathic chip in their brain that lets them notice people's emotions, and they wanna help brighten their day! There’s an integral pleasure they get from making people's day better.

The type of waiter/waitress to get HELLA tips/ a star performer within the arts or things regarding community.

𝙼𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚢 𝚂𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚄𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚞𝚜:

very, very, very sleepy people. They can sleep anywhere, anytime, in any weather. They could sleep on top of a cement truck in the middle of Times Square with EASE and poise. Very forgetful individuals, and they genuinely can’t help it. Their minds are always somewhere… else. When they’re not sleeping on I-97, they are UP, energetic, and ready to go.

If they don’t have any strong mercury placements/well-aspected planets in mercurial houses. They can come off as a ditz, dumb blonde- you get it. Even if they do, they may seem dumb, but are incredibly smart and will use that to their advantage.

They are the grandparent of the friend group, literally. If they’re not sleeping, they aren’t the type of people to not be enveloped in social media that much, so they tend to be out of the loop on major pop culture trends/slang. And you’ll have to keep them up to speed like you’re teaching your meemaw how to start the microwave. Very sleepy/dream-like faces and very soft smiles that can make you melt <3 Love them, tho!

𝙻𝚎𝚘 𝚁𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜:

I'm sorry not to be rude, but you guys do not listen to a single thing anyone says lol. It's like you're in your own mini world at times, and it can be frustrating/upsetting when someone is trying to tell you something that you genuinely don't seem to care at all. You're aware of it, and you don't care to change, but if someone does it to you, you'll throw a fit, make it make sense :/

On a lighter note! Very, very funny people who have an adaptable sense of humor and are very easy conversationalists, which is something I really enjoy. These people, if having any other mercurial placements can talk for hours! Until they zone out completely and fall asleep, lmao.

✦ arouravis

[astrow1zar6]

Astro notes- 22

Having a Neptune in the 1st house can feel like your living in a dream. It’s harder for you to not get taken up by your imagination. This placement is known for dreaming with their eyes open. A lot struggle from Maladaptive Daydreaming. Meditation/ Breath work can help with grounding these people.

Aries placements (especially the moon & rising) have amazing eyebrows. They’re all so perfect arched and full. They’re eyebrows can sometimes make them look intimidating as well.

Libra in your big three usually have buck teeth or they just have really big teeth in the front.

People with Pluto risings cannot stand fake energy. Being around too many fake people can literally make them go insane & snap on everyone. These people normally March at the beat of their own drum which causes many people to flock to them for advice.

Aquarius moons emotions can come out really robotically. Like you don’t know if they really care when you vent to them. They act very nonchalantly and bored when people open up emotionally to them. I started crying in front of my aqua moon friend once and she just stared at me & patted me on the back😭😂 she tried tho. Also I notice aqua moons have a weird thing with physical affection. They are the times to give like 2 seconds hugs or just not like to be touched much in general.

Sagittarius suns have a habit of embarrassing themselves to make others laugh. They really have no shame. They will say and no the most outlandish shit just to get a giggle out of someone. They can sometimes embarrass others tho if they do too much. They can be really extra.

People with Gemini & Sagittarius in their big three we’re probably class clowns

Leo suns never wanted the same things as anyone when they were little. They always wanted something that made them stand out from the crowd. (Ex: everyone had pink tiaras for my cousins birthday and my Leo cousin threw a fit because she wanted purple instead so she didn’t look like everyone else) 😂

Aquarius suns are chameleons in social settings. They can fit into any group & usually have a big people pleaser personality. Not in a weak way however but they just understand what people like & how to engage certain people properly.

Capricorn stelliums can end up being rich or famous. These people are really hustlers. I’ve seen these people start businesses in their 20s with this it worked 3 jobs to get the life they need. One thing these people know how to do is work.

Cancer and Libra suns tend to loose themselves in partnerships the most. I’ve seen these people make their partners their world while they completely neglect other areas of their life. They are both really blinded by love.

Uk an Aries sun women likes you when they start teasing/bullying you. (Playfully!) arguing is foreplay to them bizarrely lol.

If Jupiter is prominently yet negatively aspected in the chart it can show narcissistic or sociopathic tendencies.

Virgo moons tend to like very fresh light scents. Like fresh linen, laundry smells, light floral scents. Nothing to heavy.

Taurus placements look best with minimal to no makeup & Libra placements normally look incredible with a full face of makeup or just glamour looks. It’s really interesting how the two sides of Venus play out. Taurus gives more of an earthy goddess vibe & Libra gives me a more chic fashionista insta model/influencer vibe. Both value beauty & aesthetics but in opposite ways.

[eveninggstar]

taste ⊹ ࣪ ˖

lando norris x celeb!ex!reader

28.08.24

୨ৎLando’s girlfriend finds herself constantly measuring herself against you, unable to escape the shadow of your presence in every interaction she has with him since their reconciliation. Every moment they share together is tainted by her preoccupation with you, as she struggles with the lingering comparisons and the haunting feeling that you’re always a part of their relationship.

i might make another one of these (not a lando one tho) more based on the music video but i love this so much <3

(also there isnt much lando x reader its more so julie-the girlfriend- losing her mind this is 3k words btw longs thing ive posted im pretty sure)

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Julie’s voice echoed from Lando’s bedroom as she rummaged through his closet. "Hey, Lando, where did your brown hoodie go?"

Lando, halfway through rifling the fridge for his meal prep, paused, raising an eyebrow. "Which one? I’ve got a ton of brown hoodies," he called back, finally grabbing a yogurt and tearing off the lid.

Julie appeared in the doorway, holding a hoodie up to inspect it. "Its just plain brown. I think you wore it for the chicken shop date thing?"

Lando froze, spoon mid-air, his eyes widening in recognition. The hoodie. The one you had practically claimed as your own during your time together. He could vividly remember the countless times you’d thrown it on, the sleeves always a little too long on you, but it became your favourite because it smelled like him. He cursed under his breath. "Son of a—"

Julie’s brow furrowed. "What?"

"Nothing, just... yogurt," Lando muttered, quickly shovelling a spoonful into his mouth to avoid further questions. But his mind was miles away, back to the days when you two were inseparable.

The buzz around the Grand Prix was electric, but as usual, social media had its own storm brewing. While Lando and Julie were busy with pre-race activities at the track, a new post began circulating online, quickly capturing everyone’s attention.

A fan had snapped a picture of you at the airport, casually dressed in leggings, sneakers, and a brown hoodie that was instantly recognizable to anyone who followed Lando Norris. It wasn’t just any brown hoodie—it was his brown hoodie from the video that everyone was complementing his boyfriend skills, the one that had become almost iconic. The photo showed you standing by the gate, luggage in hand, seemingly unaware of the stir you were causing.

Within minutes, the photo was everywhere. "is lando and y/n back together?" one tweet read, followed by countless others speculating about whether you and Lando were back together. "They must be seeing each other again. Why else would she have his hoodie?" someone commented, adding fuel to the fire.

Back at the GP, Julie was enjoying the day, blissfully unaware of the online frenzy. She and Lando had been photographed together several times, looking every bit the happy couple. But as she scrolled through her phone in between sessions, her smile faded. Her notifications were blowing up—fans tagging her, sending messages, and most of all, sharing that airport photo of you.

Her heart dropped as she recognized the hoodie immediately. There was no mistaking it. Lando had worn it countless times, and now, there you were, casually wearing it in public like it was yours. It was supposed to be her hoodie. She wanted to wear it, yet here you were strutting with it slinged on.

Julie’s mind raced with jealousy and frustration. She knew that you and Lando had a history, but this felt like a public reminder of something she couldn’t quite shake—a connection that still lingered between the two of you. People were already speculating that you and Lando were rekindling your romance, and the thought of it made her stomach churn.

Without thinking, Julie opened her camera roll and found a picture from earlier that morning. Both of them smiling with his arm draped around her shoulders. She quickly uploaded it to Instagram.

julie's inatagram

tagged: landonorris

liked by others

julie.love My forever ❤️

The post was live within seconds, and as the likes and comments started rolling in, Julie felt a brief sense of control. "You two are so perfect together!" someone commented. "Lando and Julie forever!" another wrote. But no matter how many compliments she received, the uneasy feeling in her gut remained.

Lando, on the other hand, was caught off guard when his teammate showed him the airport photo of you. "Hey, mate, isn’t this your hoodie?" they asked with a grin. Lando stared at the screen, a mix of surprise and nostalgia washing over him.

Neither of you had given any clothes back. It wasn't an agreement that you would go back to each other. Nothing like that. The pair of you were just too busy to drop the clothes off, mutually agreeing just keep them or get rid of them. However it reminded him of how intertwined your lives had been, and how some things, like that hoodie, had slipped through the cracks.

When Lando later saw Julie’s post, he felt a pang of guilt. He knew it was more than just a cute couple picture—it was a reaction, a way to claim him in the face of rumors and speculations. But even as he stood next to Julie, smiling for the cameras, he couldn’t help but feel the pull of the past, and the complications it brought into his present.

Julie’s post might have been an attempt to silence the rumours, but the truth was that the sight of you in his hoodie had stirred up more than just gossip. It was a reminder that some connections aren’t easily broken, and no matter how much time passes, there are pieces of the past that linger—no matter how hard you try to move on.

The night had settled quietly over the city, the noise of the race weekend fading into the background. Lando and Julie were lying in bed, the soft hum of the air conditioner the only sound in the room. Lando had drifted off quickly, his breathing steady and calm, completely relaxed after a long day at the track.

But Julie couldn’t sleep. She lay on her side, facing Lando, her thoughts racing. She stared at his peaceful face, the dim light from the street outside casting soft shadows across his features. He looked content, his usual easy smile tugging at the corners of his lips even in sleep. It was a sight that usually brought her comfort, but tonight, it only made the knot in her stomach tighten.

Julie’s mind was consumed with thoughts of you—your face, the hoodie, the way you seemed to still have a hold on parts of Lando that she couldn’t reach. She kept replaying the image of you at the airport, casually wearing his hoodie as if it were nothing, as if it didn’t mean something.

She wondered if Lando had thought about you at all when he saw the photo earlier, or if he had truly dismissed it as easily as he’d said he did. He had brushed off the rumors, laughing them away, saying it was just a hoodie, nothing more. But Julie couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something lingering beneath the surface.

As she lay there, watching Lando sleep, her heart ached with insecurity. She wondered if, even in his dreams, he was thinking of you. Did his mind wander back to the memories you shared, to the jokes and the late-night conversations that were once his world? Was there a part of him that still longed for what you had, even if he would never admit it?

Julie wanted to reach out, to touch his face, to reassure herself that he was hers, but her hand hesitated. The thought of you, still a presence in his life, made her doubt the closeness they shared. It felt like a shadow, something she couldn’t compete with, no matter how hard she tried.

She sighed softly, trying to push the thoughts away, but they lingered like a stubborn cloud, refusing to clear. Julie knew Lando loved her—he showed it in so many ways—but the fear of what he might still feel for you gnawed at her, making her question everything.

As Lando shifted slightly in his sleep, murmuring something unintelligible, Julie’s breath caught. Was he dreaming of you? Or was it just her own fears playing tricks on her? She closed her eyes, willing herself to believe that he was dreaming of nothing at all, that his mind was as peaceful as his expression.

But as she lay there, restless and wide awake, Julie couldn’t shake the haunting thought that maybe, just maybe, she wasn’t the only one thinking about you tonight.

It was a lazy afternoon at the hotel, with Lando and Julie lounging on the balcony, enjoying the view of the bustling city below. Julie leaned back in her chair, sipping on a cool drink, and looked over at Lando with a playful smile. "If you could do one crazy thing right now, what would it be?" she asked, curious to hear his answer.

Lando paused for a moment, thinking it over. A mischievous grin spread across his face as he replied, "I want to jump off a cliff into the ocean. I’ve never done that before."

Julie blinked in surprise, then burst into laughter. "What? Where did that come from?"

Lando laughed along with her. "It just sounds like a rush, doesn’t it? Plus, it’s one of those things you’ve got to try at least once."

Julie shook her head, still chuckling. "You're so weird sometimes."

Lando shrugged with a grin, enjoying the lighthearted moment. "Hey, there’s a first time for everything."

They spent the rest of the afternoon together, enjoying each other’s company, but as the day wore on, Julie found herself thinking about Lando’s unexpected response. It wasn’t that the idea of cliff diving was so out of character—Lando was always up for an adventure—but it was the way he said it, with a humor and boldness that seemed a little different from his usual demeanor.

Later that evening, back at the hotel, Julie was scrolling through TikTok while Lando was in the shower. As she mindlessly flipped through videos, one caught her attention. It was a compilation of funny moments from various celebrities, and the first clip was of you. The video showed you laughing, full of energy, as you spoke into the camera.

"If I could do anything right now, I’d totally jump off a cliff into the ocean," you said with a playful grin. "I’ve never done it before, and I’m kind of scared, but also, it’s on my bucket list. Who’s with me?"

Julie’s laughter died in her throat as she watched. Her stomach twisted as she realized that Lando’s earlier comment wasn’t just a random thought—it was something he had picked up from you. The way you said it, with that same mix of humor and excitement, was almost identical to how Lando had phrased it.

She put her phone down, her mind racing. The connection was too clear to ignore. You were still influencing him, whether Lando realized it or not. It wasn’t just in the big things, but in the small, subtle ways that you had left a mark on him.

Julie glanced toward the bathroom, where the sound of the shower running echoed through the room. She felt a pang of insecurity, wondering if she would always be competing with the ghost of you—your humor, your quirks, the pieces of you that had woven themselves into Lando’s life and stayed there, even after you were gone.

As Lando emerged from the bathroom, toweling off his hair with that familiar, carefree smile, Julie tried to push the thoughts away. She didn’t want to spoil the moment or let her doubts show. But as she forced a smile, she couldn’t help but feel that your presence was still very much there, lingering between them, even now.

The night was alive with celebration. The pulsating beat of the music, the vibrant lights flashing across the packed dance floor, and the electric energy of the crowd all mixed together in a whirlwind of excitement. All of the drivers were having a night out in Monaco. Julie clung to Lando's side, basking in his happiness, proud and exhilarated. The night felt perfect, almost surreal.

As the night wore on, Julie excused herself to the bathroom, weaving through the crowd and slipping past the velvet ropes into the dimly lit hallway. The bathroom was a sanctuary from the chaos outside, quieter but still buzzing with the distant thump of the music.

Julie washed her hands, staring at her reflection in the mirror. She smiled to herself, thinking about Lando, how far he’d come, and how good they looked together tonight. She was about to turn the tap off when she felt a presence behind her, someone stepping close enough to brush against her.

Julie froze, her breath catching in her throat. Slowly, she looked up into the mirror and saw you standing directly behind her, your reflection clear as day. Your eyes locked onto hers through the glass, and a sly, knowing smile played on your lips.

Before Julie could react, you leaned in closer, your breath warm against her ear as you whispered, "Every time you close your eyes and feel his lips, you're feelin' mine. And every time you breathe his air, just know I was already there."

Julie’s heart pounded in her chest, her pulse echoing in her ears. She wanted to move, to say something, but she was rooted to the spot, mesmerized and terrified by your presence.

You continued, your voice soft but laced with a sharp edge, "You can have him if you like. I've been there, done that once or twice. And talkin' 'bout it don't mean I care. Yeah, I know I've been known to share."

As soon as the last word left your lips, Julie snapped out of her daze. She spun around, her breath coming in quick, shallow gasps. But the bathroom was empty. You were gone—vanished as if you had never been there at all.

Julie’s eyes darted around the small space, her hands trembling as she clutched the edge of the sink. Was it real? Had you actually been there, or was it some twisted trick of her mind? The encounter had felt so vivid, so real, but now she was alone, the silence of the bathroom pressing in around her.

She quickly turned back to the mirror, half-expecting to see you again, but there was nothing—just her own wide-eyed reflection staring back at her. The words you had whispered echoed in her mind, taunting her, making her question everything.

Julie took a shaky breath, trying to steady herself, but the unease wouldn’t leave her. She felt as though your presence had left a mark, something intangible yet undeniable, a reminder that no matter how much she tried to hold onto Lando, your shadow was always there, lurking in the corners of her mind.

Fighting back a wave of panic, Julie hurried out of the bathroom, back into the noisy, crowded club. She pushed through the throngs of people until she found Lando again, his carefree smile and bright eyes a stark contrast to the turmoil swirling inside her.

He pulled her close, wrapping an arm around her waist, and she tried to lose herself in the music, in the celebration. But no matter how hard she tried to shake it off, the memory of your words stayed with her, haunting her, and making her wonder if she would ever truly have him to herself.

The paddock was alive with the vibrant energy of race day at Zandvoort. The excitement was palpable as Lando prepared for his race, surrounded by cameras, fans, and a sea of media. Julie stood close to Lando, trying to stay calm amidst the chaos. She had been eagerly supporting him all weekend, but today, her nerves were frayed.

As Lando was about to enter the garage, he turned to Julie, pulling her into an embrace. “Hey, kiss of well done?” he asked with a soft smile, his voice barely audible over the ambient noise.

Julie managed a smile, trying to focus on the positive. “Well done,” she whispered, leaning in to kiss him. It was supposed to be a sweet moment after the race, a brief respite from the frenzy surrounding them.

But as their lips met, Julie’s perception shifted abruptly. The kiss, the closeness, the sensation—it felt strangely familiar, as if she were kissing someone else entirely. A cold shiver of panic raced through her, and in her mind, it wasn’t Lando she was kissing, but you.

Her eyes flew open, and the illusion was enough to send her into a spiral of distress. She pulled away from Lando, her fear manifesting in her voice. “Get away from me!” she screamed, her voice trembling with a mix of terror and anger. “Leave me alone, Y/N! Just leave me alone!”

The scene erupted into stunned silence as Julie’s outburst pierced through the crowd. The media, the fans, and even Lando looked on in shock. Julie’s face was flushed, her eyes wide with fear as she backed away from Lando, who looked utterly bewildered.

As Julie’s panic peaked, she turned and fled, running frantically through the paddock. Her eyes were clouded with tears, her breath coming in ragged gasps. In her haste, she collided hard with someone coming from the opposite direction.

It was you.

The shock of seeing you, the very person she thought she had just escaped, standing right in front of her, sent a fresh wave of terror coursing through her. "No! Get away from me!" Julie screamed again, her voice cracking as she staggered back, her eyes wide with fear. The panic in her voice echoed through the paddock, drawing even more attention as people turned to see what was happening.

You stood there, frozen in shock, your eyes locking with hers. You hadn’t done anything—you were just walking past as a guest of Mercedes, on your way to their hospitality area. But the intensity of Julie’s reaction left you momentarily speechless.

"Julie!" Lando’s voice cut through the chaos as he rushed over, his concern etched on his face. He reached out for her, but Julie was already spinning around, desperate to escape. She shoved past him and the onlookers, her breath coming in ragged gasps as she ran, trying to get away from the ghost she believed was haunting her.

As Julie disappeared into the crowd, the paddock buzzed with murmurs and confused glances. The cameras that had been trained on Lando’s celebratory moment now captured a scene of utter chaos and confusion.

Lando looked up, his eyes meeting yours across the paddock. His face was a mix of confusion, concern, and something else—something that told you this was far from over.

You quickly averted your gaze, turning away before you could get caught up in the drama that was unfolding. But as you walked away, you couldn’t help but feel the weight of what had just happened, and the realization that some things, no matter how much time passes, are never truly left behind.

Please don’t steal my work, much love ᡣ𐭩

taglist: (comment if you wanna be added)

i love this so much hope you do too <3

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃 eveninggstar

[mcytshipsandmore]

"And its just me myself and i" i sing, comfort zone (cut song from epic), as i sit alone in the gripearl tumblr community party... I'm the only member, and im also the creator... no one wants to have their cake and eat it with me :(

Anyway grian x pearl please i need

Theyre so exes

I made this whole au where. Idek anymore but

I think. Ok so its this high school au except

Evo is more so kindergarten, and then grian moved away at like the first years of elementary and everyone split up (grian and pearl were kindergarten sweethearts... COUGH kindergarten boyfriend from heathers)

Oh I should also. Probably mention. Scar and Pearl are bio siblings in this

In middle school (3rd life) we have the silly lil cast ofc.

Pearl changes to that school by start of high school (last life, first 2 years). We also have Lizzie as an exchange student then. Grian denies knowing Pearl per usual.. (per usual in my life series gripearl lore)

Lizzie leaves, we have the last two years (double life), drama ensues. Majormoon was actually kinda something by the end of sophomore year and start of junior year. The usual "you cheated on me so we're over!!" "What?? I didnt?? We just went to buy suits/dresses together??" Thingy ensues. All soulmates are pairs for the whole senior prom thing, and cheating on a soulmate implies going with someone else. Pearl and Martyn went dress and suit shopping together at the mall cause they wanted to look for options early and bc trying on funky stuff together was fun, but they got pictures taken by someone? And Scott and Cleo saw and thought they were getting stuff to go with eachother... Martyn again tries to win Cleo back, ends up going with Ren, cause BigB is going with Grian, and Scar and Pearl go together as family, mostly in solidarity cause they both got dumped.

then we get to college (limited life), and we have pearl making bad decisions after the whole dl fiasco. Rooms with BigB, tho not so convinced at first, but they make up for the whole prom thing (since yes Pearl's upset he went with Scar's partner??), but its okay cus Pearl and Cleo make up aswell... Scott and Pearl... kinda make up?? Anyways.

Here's where the gripearl comes in. Pearl goes out drinking and karaoke withhhh BigB, Cleo, Scar and Bdubs... they start shittalking everyone in campus cause BigB and Pearl got their lil nosy info, noses all up in other ppl's business, and the Clockers looove hearin all the drama they have to share... no one knows when exactly Etho and Cleo were a thing? Sometime between here and when they graduated and shit. And then they get to the Bad Boys (NAAATURALLY).... and Pearl, specially after discussing Scott and such, has taken a bit too many sips. And theyre like completely doing full on instagram checking business on these people, so they pull up Grian's socials and Joel's and Jimmy's where ofc he's tagged a lot. and she starts seeing him in a different way... and considers calling him.... but surely thats a bad idea. Scar is aroace in this au so him and Grian werent romantic partners, but at least best friends, at *most* qpps, still- DL, HUGE BETRAYAL, Pearl cannot do that. Moon tells the group- and they ALL agree its a terrible idea, and theyre horrified at the thought.... Scar knows they have history too from way before but- hey?? What the flippin fuck....

things happen, shenanigans ensue, and yes im aware this makes pearl a terrible sibling but- low and behold, moon ends up at suns dorm.... needless to say, next morning, pearls in the kitchen having breakfast, reconsidering life choices. Bad Boys (jim and joel) are- flabbergasted. Jimmy had a bit more of an idea of where this could come from (though its been SO LONG AGO????) but JOEL?? My man thinks the world is all upside down and messed up, he couldve sworn Pearl hated Grian's guts

Aaaand all of this was created after looping Bad Idea by Olivia Rodrigo btw. This is all I have of the au for now, I hope u liked it so far. It ends up in majormoon again btw but I LOVE the liml gripearl era and i miss gripearl, i dont talk abt it enough

imagine walking in and seeing the person your roommate says he hates is making breakfast.

-🍫

[nipuni]

Some various lighthearted life updates 🏃‍♀️

It's been a very busy last few months! in a good way mostly. We had a friend visiting us from overseas so we showed him around the city and took him to all our favourite places. We also met new people and were invited to a bunch of events so it's been very fun! We are all out of social battery tho so now we are slowing down a bit and getting back to work. Nicolas is on a short work trip to Berlin and I'm back to painting. We also started running! aaand we are also back to watching a bunch of shows and to me talking about it here to like five people 😌

Under the cut cause it's a lot as usual!

We finished watching S13 of Doctor Who! (we still have the specials to go but after that we are all caught up!) I haven't updated in ages so here are lot of opinions!

We really did not enjoy S11 😞 I was aware it wasn't very popular but we were hoping it was for all the wrong reasons, sadly we found many to be valid. Some of the episodes were baffling, Rosa? Kerblam?! the writing of the whole season in general felt like a rushed school assignment. The first part of Spyfall was a strong start for the next season but that ending in the second part was really not it. We did love Sacha Dhawan's Master tho!! and we really love Jodie too, 13th is adorable and reminded us of Ten at times! Jodie is such a fantastic actress that it makes the quality of the writing and everything else around her even more frustrating 😫 S12 was an improvement in general. In the last few episodes It felt like the writing team suddenly remembered the companions could have a personality and agency lmao. Highlights for us were Spyfall one, Fugitive of the Judoon and Haunting of villa Diodati, tho we did also enjoy most other episodes of the season despite their issues.

The timeless child plot reveal felt a bit underwhelming? The idea on itself has potential but it felt mishandled (and it had a bit of a Moffat flavour to it? and not in a good way). I think it was meant to add more depth to the Doctor's lore but in a way it ends up having the opposite effect. Then the flux was just a complete mess. It read like a Marvel sort of plot, very comic book like which is alright I suppose if that is something you enjoy but it felt out of place. But mostly it was just way too much, it got out of hand. Anyway we still have the specials to watch! and I think the Master is in them so we are looking forward to it 🥰

We also watched Broadchurch!! and we LOVED it. We ended up binging all three seasons. Chibnall's writing on this is surprisingly great and Jodie's acting is spectacular she really shines here. Olivia and David are always brilliant!! honestly everyone's acting was amazing. This series had us both tearing up every five scenes. The direction and the music are outstanding. I could watch Hardy and Miller solve crimes forever I really love their chemistry and dynamic. We went into it expecting the usual detective fiction but it ended up being a whole study on grief with such a focus on family and community and trauma and a ton of touching interconnected character arcs, just really really good!!

Then we also watched Taking over the Asylum!! MAN we were not expecting to have our hearts wrung out like laundry by this!! We thought it was a lighthearted show!! GOD we are still not over it, what the fuck!! It was so good we loved it!! but we were not prepared lmao what do you mean 'the end'?? we'll be thinking of this for months, I was expecting an extra scene after the credits or something. Excellent characters, refreshing depictions of mental illness and trauma and so crushingly realistic. Every character is so loveable I really wish this was longer 😭

And our quest to watch everything with David Tennant on it continues. We watched Decoy Bride on Valentines day too and it was terrible but such a hilarious fever dream kind of bad that it was fun, it has David on it and he never disappoints. I feel so lucky that Nicolas and I are both in love with him, get yourself a man who shares your celebrity crushes lmao it's so fun!! We feel like teens again chatting about him and drawing little hearts next to his pictures haha 🥰 We watched the BAFTAs just for him and speaking of the baftas!! I was not expecting that last drawing of his outfits to get that much attention oh my god 😭 thank you!! you are all insane and I appreciate it so much!! and thank you for all the support in general, about my art and photos and just everything. I feel very lucky and grateful 😭 anyway I'll end this before I get sappy, that is all for now! I hope this week is kind to you all, I'll be sharing some more art soon 😊

[girlwithateachercrush]

I owe you guys a MASSIVE apology 💀

I'm sososososo sorry for not being active for like a month I've been so busy with school life and studying that I've barely had a chance to use social media 😍

ANYWAYSSSS THE UPDATES:

• so HE IS TEACHING MEEEE and I'm sat DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF HIS DESK

• I've been studying and keeping up with the homework as well as contributing to the class, he praises me a lot for itttt!

• many of the english teachers know me and call me nicknames even tho they don't teach me (someone's been talking about me 😋)

•we've been flirting quite a lot with just little things like eye contact, body language, slight touching, standing just a little closer than appropriate

•He still calls me pet names!!!

•called me a good girl for absolutely no reason this morning all I did was say good morning to him

•I caught a cold from him a few weeks ago lmao it felt TERRIBLE.

•I've been cleaning up his classroom and sorting his stuff out and he cares very deeply for that since he is slowly losing his temper with everyone else like other students he literally told me he was sick of the other students haha

•I volunteered at a charity evening our school was doing like a week ago and he was bragging to the guests that I was his star student and in return I said he was my fav teacher and he blushed harddd

•everytime I work very hard and he sees this he comforts and tells me "you need to get some rest okay? Get time for yourself, I'd hate for you to burn out..." and this is so good bc he's usually pushing to the others to work harder so the fact he's telling just me to do the opposite just says I'm special hahaaa

•we've had little debates for example he think the nightmare before Christmas is a Christmas film but it is most DEF A HALLOWEEN FILM LIKE YALL PLEASE AGREE WITH ME ON THIS ONE

•He's very kind to me and I love doing jobs for him but he's very stern on everyone else atm lma, and the flirting literally is so much tension we are always like veryyy close when we have these conversations haha

I love receiving my daily dose of academic validation from him, I'll try to be more active from now!

Love you guys x

[blueopinions49]

Healthy/Unhealthy 7

Healthy Social 7

Bella Baxter (7w8 so/sp)- She begins the story with the brain fo a child and as she develops she becomes incredibly curious about the world around her. She craves freedom and looks to make the world a better place as she grows. Eventually becoming a doctor.

Mark Grayson (7w6 so/sx) - With the heavy weight of being omni mans son he looks to be helpful to others. As his journey goes on he struggles to keep his positive mindset.

Lucy Maclean (7w6 so/sx)- She starts the show bright eyed and trust full of everyone around her. As she develops we see her contrast with the ghoul. We see her integrate towards her 1 a bit more as the show goes on. While still keeping the golden rule.

Unhealthy Social 7

Tanya (7w8 so/sp) While her desire for freedom for Edenia can be seen as good hearted she usually manipulates people to get her way. She schemes and uses other for her self gain rarely if ever caring of the colateral damage.

Hugo De Rune (7w6 so/sx)- Due to him being a child and infected with the Macula he tends to lash out and cause distraction. Even tho he has a general love and appreciation for life.

Luis Serra (7w6 so/sx)- When he left the village he set out to do some good in the world. Eventually leading him to umbrella and commit atrocities. In RE4 we see him trying to redeem himself.

Healthy SelfPreservation 7

Gambit (7w8 sp/sx)- While he started a bit apathetic to anyones needs he integrated well into his 1 and eventually joining the xmen.

Prince Naveen (7w6 sp/sx)- Meeting Tiana made him snap into place and start focusing on the longevity of his life and purpose. Best example of a 7 moving into 1.

Samantha Jones (7w8 sp/sx)- While she doesn't have any drastic development in the show. Samantha proves that you can still be kind, generous and a good friend without having to integrate. She is just happily enjoying life and its pleasures.

Unhealthy Self Preservation 7

Frank Gallagher (7w8 sp/sx)- The over indulgent of the life he lives ends with him essentially never taking into consideration anyone else's needs but his own. Eventually passing away in the end.

Frank Reynolds (7w8 sp/sx)- While he started like an organized business man in the show. We see how he devolves into a slob of a person who indulges in everything. Frank is basically the epitome of the 7s gluttony.

Ridby (7w6 sp/sx)- He is very immature and even the little development he gets in the show isn't enough. He doesn't really take into consideration Mordecai's feelings allot of the time and usually is the one to ruin things and cause trouble.

Healthy Sexual 7

Lucy Gray Baird (7w6 sx/so)- Always firm on her beliefs and where she stands morally. While she craves love and connection she doesn't let those idealist view of romance get in the way of reality.

Saga Anderson (7w6 sx/so)- Upbeat and caring, Saga learns to deal with the dark place and the how the story changes in AW2. We see her fall into pits of despair in the end a bit. But she remembers who she truly is and gets out of the dark place.

Harley Quinn DCEU (7w6 sx/p)- In the start of the DCEU we see Harley using relationships as a distraction usually ignoring reality in order to suit jokers. In BOP we see her fully detach herself and be happy being alone. Later on in SS 2020? we see her fully independent and not letting love get in the way of reality.

Unhealthy Sexual 7

Roman Roy (7w6 sx/sp)- Looking for love and connection in others. He tries to connect with his father and eventually Gerri. This connection not lasting long. In the end we see Roman step down as CEO and finding peace within himself.

Jobu Tupkai (7w8 sx/so)- This is what a 7 disintegrating towards 4 looks like. Jobu wants to find joy (no pun intended) and love with the relationship with her mother. However, throughout the movie she disintegrates towards 4 and believe that nothing matters. In the end she repurposes the idea nihilism into something more positive.

Mr. Peanut Butter (7w6 sx/so)- While he grows a bit through out the show we see how he doesn't out grow of his cycle of looking for relationships to ignore reality.

[astroyongie]

Hiiii can you do Blackpink when drunk pls? <3

Blackpink When Drunk

astrology based

Jisoo

𖤓 Jisoo is the random type of random, who doesn't shut up, like she would start talking about sci-fi, AI, and the meaning of life and she is expecting people to understand how her brain is working

𖤓 Somehow still sounds smart and put together, even when hammered. Some people don't even notice that she is drunk because of how well she looks

𖤓 she might get jealous if her crush is flirting with someone else tho and that's usually when you know she is drunk, because Jisoo is finally showing what bothers and upsets her.

𖤓 Jisoo will argue about conspiracy theories while drunk, thats really something that comes out a lot from her chart, she would say stuff like “You guys don’t understand, aliens are REAL.”

Jennie

𖤓 Jennie is the type that can make you super scared because she will stare into your soul and say, “Tell me your deepest fear.” and you can't escape her until you spill

𖤓 what's funny is that her chart also points that Jennie would come up with a million dollar business idea while wasted and the worst is that she would really make it happen

𖤓 She is also the type to go missing for a bit during the party, only to return saying, “I just needed to be alone with the stars.” that mostly due to her social battery. she gets easily overwhelmed

𖤓 Jennie might overanalyze everyone's words and behaviors and she would get nervous about how people are acting around her. she is the type to be paranoid drunk

Rose

𖤓 Rose is honestly dangerous when she is drunk, as she would aggressively hype up her friends to take terrible decisions with her. “TAKE ANOTHER SHOT, YOU COWARD!”

𖤓 Just like Jennie, she too, sometimes would randomly leave the party to “go on a walk and think.” and that's because either she is feeling overwhelmed or she is doing a side quest

𖤓 However when she does randomly disappears from the party and everyone is looking out for her, she would text you with a simple “I’m on the roof, come find me.”

𖤓 Rose is the type who would avoid fights when she is drunk but she would love stirring up drama for fun. so she basically does shit and dips when she sees how serious it gets

Lisa

𖤓 If Lisa like you, she would become very touchy and deep intense with you. If she doesn’t however, she would be the type to ignore you like you don’t exist.

𖤓 Lisa has no filter when she is drunk. If she think it, she will say it with zero hesitation. Probably starts a fight without realizing it and well it can often become complicated.

𖤓 She is also super competitive with others for 0 reasons. she will challenge people to drinking games just to prove dominance and again, she can get aggressive with it

𖤓 based on her chart, Lisa can also suddenly go on a rant about something weirdly specific. “Let me tell you why this drink is poorly made.” and she starts explaining atoms or some

[majorasnightmare]

💢,💔, ☀️ !

!!!!! HIYA!!!

I LOVE seein you on the dash+ in my activities its always such a delight !!! I dont know much about drow society outside of what ive picked up from mutuals and mintharas character, but what ive managed to see about vhaerun from your stuff looks so cool!!!!!

thank you for indulging me in smacking around my favorite pinata 💜 ask game from here!

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

If you want to be around Dirge you're just going to have to do some mental gymnastics to be okay with the killing. He isn't going to stop, just slow it down or redirect it onto better targets.

Besides that he doesn't intuitively grok the idea of a personal bubble, he's touch starved and affectionate, hes a recreational biter+chewer, he enjoys blood and will lick it off of you as a grooming behavior, hes a social mimic so anything you do to him he'll mimic back to you so unless you want a 6'5" tiefling with an extra 6 inches of horns to twist himself around you koala style while sitting on your lap think twice about asking to sit on his, and above all he does all of this with a genuine earnestness that betrays that he has zero idea what normal body language or social interaction is like.

💔 BROKEN HEART - what could their partner do that would absolutely break their heart?

Call him a monster with genuine disdain and contempt. Dirge puts a lot of effort into making sure his loved ones are heard, acknowledged, and cared for, and he pushes himself to breaking multiple times to try and keep everyone safe from himself. He handles himself like hes a constant threat, like a disaster about to happen, he considers it his own problem and no one elses and doesn't involve them, only warns them, and he constantly tries to prove himself worth of his loved ones attention by dedicating all of his time and energy to helping them.

To be called and treated as a monster anyways ruins him. Important to note that this exact circumstance does happen in game. Multiple times.

Thankfully never from Minthara 💜 To hear it from her might shatter him beyond repair.

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

ABSOLUTELY NOT LMAOOOO

Dirge USED to be a morning person, tho not like. Happily. Bhaalist era Dirge used to pass out at 2 am and wake up at 6 am. He hated being idle and he had horrible insomnia from the Urge nightmares, so he just slept as little as possible. Work with the temple usually kept him busy, so he just stayed occupied.

Nowadays though? The sun is his mortal enemy and he fantasizes about blowing it up. He wakes up at the crack of dawn (not voluntarily) regardless of when he goes to sleep but he takes a few hours to actually come alive again. Hes a late sleeper in general, and he sleeps better without the sun.

The first thing Dirge does in the morning is puke. He has brain damage induced chronic migraines and sunlight is a major trigger, and one of his primary symptoms is nausea. The sun coming up over the horizon for dawn is strong and sudden enough that it stabs into his skull and intensifies his nausea so bad he ends up throwing up. He doesn't have a camp tent, and he has to sleep outside for most of the game, so he has no real sun protection. So its a mandatory trip to puke and headache city!! After that he crawls back into his bed and is an immobile shivery lump for several hours before he chokes down something to eat and gets ready for the day.

[pumpkinsy0]

I’m kind of freaking out about the state of the government right now. Mainly because my dad is really worried. Now I have to carry around my birth certificate and social security number. Cause my dad is worried about what might happen due to everything.

So…to make things a bit lighter

Got any Two-Bit,Dallas, and Tim Shenanigans HC’s that might make things a bit better?

tbh i get where ur coming from, from the campaign there was alread anti haitian things spreading *cough cough* cats and dogs thing *cough* and i am very scared what will happen w that guy now in charge but we will get through it all together im sure!!! i still have some hope!!! just take my hand,,,

•two bits spanish is kinda ass (no sabo two bit perchance????), but he will still have nicknames for everyone on spanish he will not b stopped!! he has yet to find nicknames for tim and dally tho, so everytime he sees them, hes pretty much testing the water and kinda risking getting punched AND looked at weird by a fluent spanish speaker for his pronunciation lol

•when tim moved to america and met them, he had nicknames for them in kreyòl as well, but years later hes just completely forgot them which upsets him bc he knows it was funny as hell, itll come back to him in a dream tho just give him time

•when they all walk together, tim HATESSSS when they walk in 3’s side by side, it feels so claustrophobic so he tends to push them away in a somewhat joking manner, but its always usually into something like a pole for dally or a bush/grass for two bit

•dally is the smallest out of the 3 sjze wise not byba LOT but by enough, tim knows his strength while two bit kinnndddaaa doesnt, so when they roughhouse dally by punching him a lil or shoving him it can have dally stumbling, so he prefers standing away from them. butttt that wont tim from picking him up or two bit doing a “random trust fall” on him (he will squash that winston like a BUG)

•two bit has never been outside of oklahoma let alone tulsa, while dally and tim have lived in a couple states before settling down in tulsa, they dont mind telling two bit what its like in cali, or florida, or nyc, its fun answering his questions hes like a kid whos opening presents on christmas

•never let them play card games together when theres money involved in it, it will most likely b poker and, it WILL go on for over an hour, theyre all cheating trying to call each other out for every little thing, at some point its not even fun and theyre so exhausted that they give up and one of em just steals more money than what they put down

•speaking of money, when two goes to give them a hug, two bit rlly only goes for a hug bc that way he can steal whatever is in their pocket. he PLANS on giving it back, but they pushed him off of them and walked away before he could so now their wallet is his for the time being. to give it back he just says he found it on the floor, luckily tho hes not a VILLAIN, he doesnt spend their money, everything is given back in prestins condition, he just likes making them worry for it

•two and dally talking to tim is like talking using a carrier pigeon, they almost never have full on conversations that start AND end in one place bc tim is so busy, so they hear what tim has to say from what he told someone else, one big game of telephone!!! does this cause arguments??? totally but its mainly bc they misheard somethin

•tim forgets two has an actual name, everytime he hears it he cringes a little, two bit dont look like a keith to him. alternatively, he forgets that dally/dallas is dallys REAL name, like its not just a nickname for whatever reason, hes so used to the curtis gang having odd names that he cant tell whats a nickname vs actual name

[eloise175]

Profile and Masterlist info ^^

𖤐 ̊⁎+˳✧༺ Welcome to my blog! ༻𖤐 ̊⁎+˳✧

Who am I and what do I do?

I go by El for short (most used), Eloise, or even Eli if that’s what you’d prefer (though not very used); she/her prononouns.

Mostly a VADTD-centric blog. My main focus most of the time are Callisto and Penelope, I love them so so much and have made it a mission to yap about them constantly <3

I post lots of my personal headcanons, AUs, memes and even episode/character/series analyses. Novel reader so beware of spoilers, there are plenty on my page!!

I'm a VADTD fanfic writer and artist, tho I rarely post my art. You can find my fanfics on Ao3 (I'll link my profile down below) ^^

➠ Callisto and/or Penelope haters DNI with me or my posts, you will be blocked. Yes, I will block even if see random hate for no reason—most of all misinformation.

What fandoms am I in—manhwas/webtoons I've read?

(These are obviously not all of them, but mostly the main ones);

Villains Are Destined to Die (VADTD/VADD) — my longtime favorite and hyperfixation

Genshin Impact: EU sever; AR 60; Yelan main

Honkai Star Rail (HSR): EU server; TL 67; Acheron main

Sailor Moon — mostly SM Crystal

How to Win My Husband Over — quickly became one of my favorites, may or may not be because I have a thing for men with red eyes (what can I say I’m a woman of culture)

The Siren: Becoming the Villain's Family

A Business Proposal — comfort manhwa, I watched and enjoyed the kdrama too but the manhwa is pure greatness and I will die on this hill

Daytime Star — comfort manhwa yet again, it’s sooo cute

Positively Yours — comfort manhwa pt.3 :))

Unholy Blood — another one of my longtime favs, Euntae and Hayan my beloved <3

Where can you find me?

I have pages on a few other socials, and I'm usually pretty active except stated otherwise. All of my profiles are still very much dedicated to VADTD or underwent changes to conform:

Read my fanfics on Ao3 — For now I only post my fanfics on Ao3 so if you see them posted somewhere else, that is not me! Please let me know if you come across anything like that, or any sort of plagiarism of my works (yes, it has happened before, on a whole different site too *sobs*)

Eloise_175 on X/Twitter — Quite active on there lately, sometimes I post things I don't end up posting on here, like threads and whatnot

VADTD Discord server — I tend to be pretty active on discord and consequently on the VADTD server too, everyone is welcomed to join! (please make sure to read the rules carefully ^^)

calliopeys_ on Instagram — I don’t really post much on there as I’m not an Instagram person, but hopefully I’ll get around to posting more on there as well. Created a new account from scratch to maybe post my art and fanfic updates. If I see an influx of people from here on there, I may do some of those quick asks in the stories :))

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[solitaireships]

Friendly Banter - Part 5

The final bit of this little series of ficlets! Thank you to everyone who's been reading them (and you can catch up with the fics in this series here: part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4), tho once again, these fics can all stand alone. This final one is about Minala and Harding chatting while doing some gardening, and it takes place after the other fics in the series

Rating: Teen

Genre: Fluff

Words: 695 words

Divider by saradika

Content warning: suggestive implications, discussion of a large age gap (between 30+ year old adults)

“Hey, Minala? Are you doing okay?” Harding asks one day while she and Minala are gardening in her room. 

Minala turns to look down at her, a confused expression on her face. “Yes? Why wouldn’t I be?”

“I don’t know. You’re busy with being our leader and all, but it seems like you’ve been a little distracted lately,” she says. 

“Sorry if I have been,” Minala says. 

Though Harding is right that she’s been busy. There are a lot of moving parts that she has to manage, alliances that have to be made and supported, jobs that need to be done throughout northern Thedas while she has to hope that the former-Inquisitor and her allies are doing everything they can to support the South. And that’s not even getting into her own social life. As much as she adores every second she spends with Bellara and Emmrich, it can be hard to find time for them with everything else she has going on. They take whatever moments together they can, and Minala clings to each of those moments as a reminder of what she’s fighting for. But maybe that’s been making it harder for to make all the time she needs for the rest of the team. 

“No, no, you don’t need to apologize. I was just worried,” Harding reassures.

“Well, I appreciate the thought either way. There’s a lot going on all the time, so it’s nice to have someone care,” Minala says. 

“Of course.” Harding pauses, and when Minala glances back at her before watering one of the plants, she swears she can practically see her turning over thoughts in her head, trying to figure out how she wants to say something next. “I wasn’t just worried about that, though. But I might be overstepping?”

“You know I’m always glad to hear what you’ve got to say,” Minala replies. A good leader should be willing to listen to the rest of their team, and that’s something that she always tries to do. 

“Sorry, I just… are you sure that Emmrich’s not a little too old for you and Bellara?” Harding says after another pause.

Minala frowns. “Of course not.”

“He’s in his fifties,” she points out.

“I know.”

“Late fifties.”

“I don’t know if I’d say fifty-six is late fifties, it’s more in the middle.”

“And that doesn’t bother you?”

“Not really.” If anything, Minala likes that Emmrich is older. She’s always found older people to be attractive, and she thinks that his gray hair and wrinkles only serve to add to his good looks. “We’re all adults, and it was me and Bellara who decided to seek out anything with Emmrich, not the other way around.”

“I know, and I’m not saying that he’d do anything— I don’t know, untoward? He’s my friend too. I just thought it must be a little odd to be in a relationship with someone twenty years older than you,” Harding says.

Minala shrugs. “It’s not usually. You know Emmrich. He’s sweet. His age does come up sometimes, but usually it’s not a problem.”

“But it can be a problem?”

“I mean, his hip bothers him sometimes when he’s been too active, so we have to slow down a little when that happens. And that’s a shame, but it’s not that big of an issue.”

It’s only after she sees Harding’s eyes widen that she realizes that may have come out wrong. 

“Oh. You three are—” Harding starts.

“No. No, we’re— I mean, we are intimate but we’re not— I meant when he’s been on his feet a long time. Like walking around and when we go out together.”

“Right,” Harding replies, sounding thoroughly unconvinced that that’s all that Minala had meant. “Just… don’t get too rough with him.”

Minala sighs. She knows that there’s no way that she’ll be able to talk her way out of the hole she dug for herself. “I won’t. But thanks for the concern.”

She supposes that it’s a good thing that her friends all care about how her relationship is. But she does hope that they’ll keep at least some of their thoughts on them to themselves in the future. 

[aroaceweirdos101]

IM FINALLY BACK, and with another finished OC ref!

"Our silent but Handee Mechanic, who's hard work is always appreciated by the town's residents. Marcus is also a part-time plumber!"

(this should've been posted a few weeks ago but I was stuck on what to write for the relationship part, which is also why their kinda short-)

In the show:

Marcus was a background character who would appear in a few episodes from time to time(one they're only major roles was in the episode 'Jake Hopper and the Mangled Maroon Bandit'), xer usually seen fixing people's cars or sinks.

Outside of the show:

Xe was one of many puppets Owen made to fill in the immersion of the show and was puppeteered by a guy named Caleb J. Johnson(who was basically referred to as Marcus's real life counterpart).

After the fireside chat scandal, Caleb quit the show as he finally had enough of Owen's terrible management(Caleb is now a full time mechanic with his own business and is unaware of what happened to his former coworkers, or former boss...).

Relationships with the Handeemen(show counterpart):

- Rosco: Like almost everyone else, Marcus is fond of the good boi, he reminds Xem of their childhood puppy(who sadly passed away due to a dieases).

- Riley: She's a regular client of xeirs, mostly because her lab keeps blowing up alot(either because of her or from other people messing around in it). They both are hardworkers, and they respect eachothers different professions.

- Nick: They're pretty neutral with him. Xe visits his art gallery from time to time(ususally out of boredom), they find his artwork nice to look at.

- Daisy: She is also a regular client of theirs, her sinks keep clogging up with random stuff(one time they found a rubber ducky inside the pipes, nobody know how the hell it even got there in the first place). Xe thinks she's nice, although their social battery usually gets drained when talking with her.

Daisy sometimes bakes them pies as a thank you, Marcus appreciates the gesture alot.

- Mortimer: Marcus respects the old man, they like listening to his stories and watch his magic shows.

More info about them:

- Again, due to the show being produced in the 80s, their representation was never outright said. However, the team managed to find a small loophole by not referring to Marcus with ANY pronouns(they also managed to show Xem wearing a dress in the background of one special episode).

- Xe likes to wear dresses, they usually wear them on special occasion(might draw this later).

- They're pretty asocial and rarely interact with people, tho xe did managed to become friends with Duke and join his little friend group.

- Xe has selective mutism and is rarely seen talking, xe usually uses sign language to communicate. This led to them getting another major role in an episode about sign language(I headcanon that the Handeemen knows sign language).

[avpdpossum]

Hi. After following a hyperfixation rabbit hole (thank you, ADHD and Autism) I have been wondering if I have AvPD. I've been obsessively researching it for a while now, and it would make a lot of sense for the struggles i've been facing that just aren't really explained by my other diagnoses but also aren't really *normal* per se, but I'm scared I'm wrong or just looking for something else to be "wrong" (i put wrong in quotes bc i dont think any disability/mental illness is actually something wrong, but that's how a lot of the people around me perceive it) with me so I feel like my suffering is more valid. My thoughts and hang ups are this:

I feel like my avoidance isn't severe enough to qualify (also me: hasn't made a follow-up appointment with either my neurologist or psychiatrist bc the idea of making the phone call "wrong" is crushing; changes the time I eat lunch so I don't have to either ask to sit with the people I know would let me sit with them bc they consider me or a friend or have them see me sitting alone even tho I literally like them and want them to be my friends; still haven't applied for my college housing accoms that I literally need bc I'm too scared i'll get turned down; feels crushing embarrassment even existing in the same space as my roommate; has a grand total of 1 friend)

It could just be my social anxiety/autism/agoraphobia. I feel like none of these really explain how deeply I feel rejection (my best friend was too busy to eat dinner with me like we usually do bc finals season and I nearly threw up bc of how much it hurt, and I ended up in tears for almost an hour) or just how crushingly embarrassing I find being perceived by others/existing to be (I literally can't make phone calls unless I'm locked in my dorm without my roommate there because I feel like people will judge me for doing a normal human activity like answering my mom's phone call; can't brush my teeth in the morning bc what if people see and only do it at night when most of the dorm hall is asleep), the constant reassurance I need from people (I'm constantly asking my best friend (only friend really) if I'm annoying them/too much work/going to get left by them/actually welcome to hang out with them).

I also wonder if my self-esteem is too high since I know low self-esteem is a key part of AvPD? I don't feel like I'm inferior academically/intelligence wise, hell I'm kind of arrogant in that respect, but also feel like I'm not good enough/interesting enough/pretty enough/funny enough for someone to want to be around me and have struggled with suicidal ideation because of it. I sometimes (by that I mean almost weekly) have meltdowns where I end up just wallowing in my own self-hatred for hours and ignoring people's texts/my homework bc I feel like i'm not good enough to have friends/long term partners.

I'm also not particularly quiet when I *am* in social situations. I tend to blurt out whatever's on my mind, even though I immediately regret it 99.9999% of the time, and my ADHD impulsivity results in me interrupting people a lot even tho it makes me feel like a horrible person. I always feel like I've overshared to everyone (tho my best friend, the only person I can be around all the time and not have a meltdown, says I actually under-share and should open up more to people).

I don't have any childhood trauma that could have caused it, at least I don't think? Like. My parents are amazing, they've always been there for me emotionally and physically. I was kind of bullied in pre-school through elementary school (people would take stuff from my bag and throw it and make me "fetch like a dog," I was really short so they'd hold stuff out of my reach) and never really had friends in middle school, just these three girls who let me hang out with them when I was around but would ignore my texts a lot, not invite me places they were going, etc, and after I moved away just before high school i didn't really bother to try making friends bc even tho i was lonely it just didn't seem like it was worth it bc they wouldn't like me anyway and I was just gonna go to college soon and they'd leave me then but none of that's really traumatizing?

I don't know. I feel like it really fits but also like if it were actually a big enough problem to qualify as a personality disorder my therapist would have caught it by now? And I'm scared to bring it up bc if she thinks i'm wrong i'll probably never want to talk to her again bc i'd be so embarrassed. Sorry, this was really long. If you actually read all of this, I guess I just want to ask if you think it's even possible I could have it.

i'll give you the short answer first: yes, it's absolutely possible that you could have it. i can't tell you if you do or not, but i can tell you that all of the doubts you mentioned are things i've personally struggled with while figuring my avpd out.

i'll put a much more in-depth answer addressing each of your concerns under the cut:

I'm scared I'm wrong

here's the thing: being wrong doesn't hurt anyone. people will act like researching your own potential diagnoses and coming to the wrong conclusion is the end of the world, but the reality is, there's very little actual harm that could come from a self-misdiagnosis.

with a clinical diagnosis, if the doctor is wrong, that could end with consequences like taking the wrong medication or doing therapies that do more harm than good to you. but just doing your own research and coming to your own conclusion? the worst that happens is you use the wrong word for a while and then eventually realize it doesn't fit as well as you thought it did, or you ask a doctor about it and they decide it's not a good fit and (if they're a good doctor) help guide you toward a more accurate explanation of what you're experiencing. either way, there's no harm done!

or just looking for something else to be "wrong" with me so I feel like my suffering is more valid

here's the thing: whether avpd is the answer or not, you're suffering. and if you're suffering and you want to better understand why that's happening, you're allowed to do that! your suffering is valid whether there's a name attached to it or not, but that doesn't mean it's wrong to want a name for it. it's only natural to want to understand why you feel the way you do and find people like you.

and if you're worried about a "psychology student syndrome" kind of thing – that you might just be projecting symptoms onto yourself that you don't really experience – the best thing you can do for that is to take some time to really look at yourself and your life and see if you see those things taking place. don't worry about if they're "as bad" as other people's; if you see examples of those things in your life and you're suffering because of them, that's all it takes to know you're genuinely experiencing it.

I feel like my avoidance isn't severe enough to qualify

it seems like you already know this on some level, but yeah, all of the things you listed after this sentence absolutely sound like some pretty significant avoidance to me. again, i can't tell you if it's avpd or not, but those do sound like the kinds of things i would count toward my own self-diagnosis if it were me.

there's no hard line of how severe your avoidance has to be, or any real way to objectively measure severity in the first place. if those things are getting in the way of you living your life and/or causing you to suffer emotionally, that means they're bad enough to be taken into consideration.

the secret is, almost no one feels like what they're experiencing is bad enough. i've had times in my life where my avoidance literally almost killed me, and i still wonder if it's "bad enough". don't let that imposter syndrome feeling stop you from better understanding your brain and getting the support you need.

It could just be my social anxiety/autism/agoraphobia. I feel like none of these really explain how deeply I feel rejection or just how crushingly embarrassing I find being perceived by others/existing to be, the constant reassurance I need from people.

this feeling was actually exactly what started me on the path that led to me realizing i had avpd. i knew that i was autistic and socially anxious, and i thought for a long time that those explained what i was experiencing, but the more i interacted with people around me who were also socially anxious autistics, the more i realized i was dealing with something none of them seemed to understand.

and all of the things you described – intense emotional dysregulation caused by rejection and embarrassment and needing constant reassurance to function in social situations – are classic avpd things. so i would say, if your gut tells you those things aren't being explained well enough by the words you already have to describe yourself, avpd is definitely worth considering.

I don't feel like I'm inferior academically/intelligence wise, hell I'm kind of arrogant in that respect, but also feel like I'm not good enough/interesting enough/pretty enough/funny enough for someone to want to be around me and have struggled with suicidal ideation because of it. I sometimes (by that I mean almost weekly) have meltdowns where I end up just wallowing in my own self-hatred for hours and ignoring people's texts/my homework bc I feel like i'm not good enough to have friends/long term partners.

hey, you're talking to the guy who's not just avoidant but also a narcissist. avpd can absolutely coexist with being highly confident (or even overconfident) in certain parts of yourself.

it also sounds like that confidence is an exception to the rule. feeling like you're "not X enough" for other people to the point of having self-isolation spirals or suicidal ideation because of it are really common forms of low self-esteem in avpd. if you ever here an avoidant refer to having an "avpd spiral" or "shame spiral", the experience they're talking about is a lot like what you described.

I'm also not particularly quiet when I *am* in social situations. I tend to blurt out whatever's on my mind, even though I immediately regret it 99.9999% of the time, and my ADHD impulsivity results in me interrupting people a lot even tho it makes me feel like a horrible person. I always feel like I've overshared to everyone

the stereotype of avpd is a super shy and quiet person, and some of us definitely are like that (myself included), but not all avoidants are. there are some who mask their avoidance by coming off as incredibly social and talking to people a lot, and others who (like you described) talk a lot even if they don't want to because of other aspects of their neurotype.

i think those feelings of regret and shame that you feel in response to what you're saying are really the important thing here. those internal experiences are much more fundamental to what avpd is than how they present externally, so the fact that you're experiencing them means i definitely wouldn't count avpd out just because you're not as quiet as some of us are.

I don't have any childhood trauma that could have caused it, at least I don't think? Like. My parents are amazing, they've always been there for me emotionally and physically. I was kind of bullied in pre-school through elementary school and never really had friends in middle school, just these three girls who let me hang out with them when I was around but would ignore my texts a lot, not invite me places they were going, etc

first of all, a history of trauma isn't actually required to have avpd. it's often assumed that personality disorders are also trauma disorders because they are often associated with trauma, but there's nothing suggesting that's always the case.

there's also research that has shown some people are born predisposed to avpd. it tends to cluster in families along with social anxiety, suggesting there's some sort of heritable aspect, and some research suggests avpd might start in childhood with a person having a nervous system that's naturally hypersensitive to certain triggers.

it's also important to remember that the kinds of trauma that can lead to something like avpd aren't always things we would look at as obvious trauma. for example, one paper i found said that a possible form of trauma that could lead to avpd is having an overprotective parent – the parent projects their fears onto the child and, despite just trying to keep them safe out of genuine love and care, ends up teaching their child that the world is dangerous. we might not look at that kind of parenting and automatically see it as traumatizing, and it's hard to fault that parent for trying to keep their child safe, bu the result for the child is the same. especially if we are born with more sensitive nervous systems than the average person, things that seem totally mundane could have a significant impact on how our brains develop.

all of that to say, it is possible that the experiences you described –being bullied in school and excluded by your friends – had enough of an impact to cause the struggles you're experiencing now, even if they don't feel like trauma. it's also possible that they're unrelated, because avpd (if that is what you're experiencing) can develop even in the absence of trauma.

I feel like it really fits but also like if it were actually a big enough problem to qualify as a personality disorder my therapist would have caught it by now?

you'd be surprised what therapists don't catch, especially if there's a much more common and less "scary" label (like social anxiety) that can, on the surface, explain away what you're experiencing. i've been seeing my therapist for 8 or 9 years now and she's very aware of my avoidant tendencies, including how much they get in the way of my life, but she still never brought up avpd with me. whether it’s because they just don’t hear about avpd enough to think of it, because they avoid diagnosing personality in general, because they don’t know “do with” avpd and would rather assume it’s something they do know how to handle, or because they think avpd is just another word for severe social anxiety, a lot of therapists will see all the signs of avpd in a patient but never actually bring up avpd as a possibility.

at the end of the day, you know better than anyone how much of a problem these struggles are for you. if you think this really could be the explanation, don't worry about what she did or didn't catch. therapists aren't infallible; they're human, and they can miss things.

I'm scared to bring it up bc if she thinks i'm wrong i'll probably never want to talk to her again bc i'd be so embarrassed

i 100% get that fear. i actually had that happen to me with my therapist – i brought up a few theories of mine to her, she shot them all down, and i ended up stopping our sessions and eventually going to a different therapist for a while because i felt like i couldn't trust her anymore. ultimately, i went back to her (mostly because the second therapist was an incredibly condescending asshole and my parents didn’t know of any other options), but i honestly still haven't brought avpd up to her to this day because of that.

so i can't blame you at all, and it's okay if you feel like you need to work up to bringing this up with her. try doing some more research and getting more confident in your theory so you feel like you can explain it well to her, and maybe even put together a collection of the evidence you have for it – examples of how you feel like you exhibit the symptoms, things like that – so you have something to hand to her instead of having to explain it on the spot. once you've looked into it more on your own, you can reevaluate how confident you feel in the theory and decide if it's time to talk to her.

in the meantime, you could try testing the waters to see how she might respond to you bringing up a theory. there are some therapists who are super against patients doing their own research and having their own ideas about what's going on, so it’s good to know if your therapist is one of those people ahead of time instead of finding out the hard way.

i would also recommend telling her that exact fear if/when you do bring this up to her. that sentiment of "one somewhat negative interaction is all it takes for my embarrassment to be so bad that i can never talk to you again" is a really common thing with avpd, and is one of the reasons a lot of avoidants struggle with therapy. so being honest about that fear can both help her understand that she needs to be cautious in her approach if she does disagree with you and could actually make her more likely to agree.

I guess I just want to ask if you think it's even possible I could have it.

so yeah, like i said at the beginning of this, i think it's very possible that you could have avpd. i can't tell you for sure, but pretty much everything you've described here sounds very familiar to me as an avoidant person, so at the very least i think it's definitely worth looking into further and seeing if it continues to feel accurate as you learn more.

i hope this helps! and whether you end up concluding that you're avoidant or that there's something else going on, i hope you're able to find the understanding and support that you need.