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Jake “Hangman” Seresin: Passenger Princess
The general consensus in his class is that Jake must think he’s up there with royalty, and therefore deserves to be driven around. That’s where the whole “princess” thing came from, originally. Jake of course rolls with it, plays up the prim “driving is beneath someone like me”, chuckles at the good-natured eye-rolls, and hops into someone’s -anyone’s- front seat and immediately fiddles with the radio just to be a brat.
The true reason, one he will never utter out loud, is that driving terrifies him. He grew up in rural Texas with hundreds of miles of straight, flat roads from horizon to horizon. Roads that frequently were completely empty, maybe you’d meet a tractor once in a while. So 12 lanes of bottlenecked California traffic, horns honking, engines revving, cars swerving in and out of lanes, the bright sun making it hard to see, unnerves Jake more than anything. Up in the sky he’s fearless, but the planes, he reasons, aren’t crowding around you not caring if you live or die as long as they get to brunch with the girls on time.
Bradley clocked it first, naturally. They’d lived together for years, back when they were “Bradley and Jake”. How Jake would never ask to drive, never grab the keys on the way out, would always sweetly beg -“honey come grocery shopping with me, it’ll be fun!” - Bradley to accompany him anywhere he went. Bradley could never deny him anything, so off they would go, either in Bradley’s Bronco or Jake’s truck, him driving, Jake in the passenger seat. He always thought it was adorable, Jake hopping up beside him grinning like a loon when he got his way, grin wider when Bradley inevitably calls him Princess. But he started noticing subtle things that he wouldn’t have noticed years ago. How Jake closed his eyes and gripped the handle when someone swerved in front of them. How he fiddled and played with dials or his phone or the strings of a hoodie to avoid looking out the window. The film of sweat on his face that, thanks to the blaring AC, had nothing to do with the Cali heat. The knee that bounced until they arrived at their destination.
He’d tried bringing it up once or twice, Jake had always laughed and played it up, “baby I’m too cute to drive, we’ve established this.” So he drops it. But if he’s more engaging in animated conversations with Jake to distract him, if he sings just a little louder and dances in the drivers seat a little sillier to draw nervous green eyes his way and not the speeding line of traffic beside him, if he smiles a little sweeter and the “Princess” comes out a little more heated so Jake forgets the entire world around him for a time, well, he’d do anything for the boy in his passenger seat. When they break up -why did they break up again? He can’t even remember - he always worries about Jake, so much his heart hurts. Is he having to drive himself?
At the Hard Deck, with some secret mission looming over their heads, and Jake looking so damn good, so damn pissed off, so damn hurt -he’d really screwed up, hadn’t he? Jake had wanted to go home early - something about beauty sleep, Javy, please! - and Bradley, stopping his piano serenading immediately, without even thinking: “I got you, princess. I’ll take you home.”
And Bradley swears he can see every single emotion, from rage to relief, regret to guarded happiness, and so much fondness in those nervous green eyes he still loves so damn much.
(I won’t make Jake say “show me the way home, honey” because I guess it’s cliche by now, but I’ll still heavily imply he does with my whole chest)
#tg:m#hangster#sereshaw#bradley rooster bradshaw#jake hangman seresin#I’ve had this in my head for so long yall#head canon#they’re so in love#like 😭😭😭#ignore the bad grammar#top gun maverick#top gun
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Mc Inserts x TWST characters pt.3 pt.2 pt.1
Al-Asim!Mc x Riddle Rosehearts @/kyokills
UGH the one of many kids x only child dynamic is to die for!!! You’re his light, the only person who could be so contradictory to him, while understanding his circumstances fully. He fixes your hair when you mess it up, and you give him the confidence for what his “letting loose” is. It is total balance. The two of you make small talk over tea and biscuits a little too often to just be friendly, but you guys haven’t crossed that line yet- It drives everyone you know insane.
“Why are you here? I swore you were aware of study hall this evening..”
“Ah! Do you have room for one more? I wanted to see you in action! Pew pew”
Pomefiore!Mc x Ace Trappola (Anon suggestion!)
The two of you are bad people in very different ways, so the only solution is to suck together! SDC is the perfect opportunity, too bad both of you are terrible roommates. You’re a judgy little whiner, and he’s a skeezy prick- AKA a match made in heaven <3 The crux of the problem is your assholeish behaviour only multiples when you hang out. Everyone else hates you, so you supplement the lacking connection by getting ever closer,, Soon enough you’ll get the message and hook up. Just not yet.
“Ace! What did I tell you about taking my serums from the fridge??”
“Do I look like I listened? Ow!”
Savanaclaw!Mc x Jade Leech (Anon suggestion!)
Ahhh,, Those enhanced senses, fluffy tail, and downright violent demeaner makes you the perfect lab rat. So many possibilities from taste testing to psychology! Too bad you hate Jade’s guts, he’ll wear you down eventually :) His little test subject was only defending their friend against the big-bad housewarden, and as the nurturing vice, how could he ever turn a blind eye to your struggle? He tries to be magnanimous with you- if only you’d taken his deal in the first place,,, With his stalking loving badgering, in a few short weeks you’re practically domesticated! Those days where you threatened to “swallow him whole” are water under the bridge! Now what is he to do with his new pet?
“My, aren’t your canines impressive?”
“Well you don’t have to say it like that,,”
Civilian!Mc x Silver Vanrouge (Anon suggestion!)
Your poor, neglected (unofficial!) delivery boy being stuck in the rain is not something you want to watch all weekend, no matter how good he looks soaked. Your parents go out around this time anyways, and over the years of cozy meetups he wears down your walls with sweet smiles and even sweeter kisses <3 Silver is the perfect boyfriend, and while getting whisked away to briar valley makes you nervous, he’s worth it. Of course all the sneaking around right now hurts your feelings a bit, but doesn’t distance make the heart grow fonder?
“Aren’t you just darling! Are you sure I can’t keep you til’ dinner?”
“You’ll just have to get by with my jacket, I’ll be back next weekend :)”
Ignihyde!Mc x Sebek Zigvolt @/fidenciocryptidcreechur
Sure, your dorm’s not known for its diplomacy, and maybe you’re a little stunted by it, but you’ll be damned if you fail art. Anything taught by Crewel is a nightmare for the introverts of ignihyde, and for your information it does suck to suck! Self proclaimed “EASIEST” elective your butt (that you fully suck at btw! You really need this freaking credit!) newsflash, nothing about art is easy! It’s all in the interpretation, and the practice, and the reference, and- holy moly is that a muscular extrovert on a HORSE? It’s time to put your big boy pants on, and pay a fifteen year old for their time. + biceps. #lockedin
“MC! I’M READY TO BE DRAWN!”
“alright! Hold that pose..”
Vice president!Mc x Rollo Flamme
Every mysterious hero needs their roguishly annoying best friend, just guess which one you are! You hover around your pampered wittle boss for a couple hours a day in exchange for the elusive office wifi. Rollo insists magicam is rotting your brain. You just respond by his spamming his ancient phone with couple’s challenges, despite being immediately rejected on a daily basis. The student body says you’re “odd” on the best of days, but your office crush hasn’t kicked you out yet- so you must be doing something right! Right?
“Woah, that guy is beautiful!”
“I’d like to assume you aren’t referring to Malleus Draconia, but it seems all your romantic conquests are an effort to “bug” me.”
“I live to serve, sir :)”
#twst yuu#twst#twst x reader#disney twst#yuu twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#twst wonderland#riddle rosehearts x reader#riddle rosehearts#ace trappola x reader#ace trappola#jade leech x reader#jade leech#twst silver x reader#silver vanrouge#sebek zigvolt x reader#sebek zigvolt#rollo flamme#twst rollo#twisted wonderland rollo#rollo x reader#rollo flamme x reader
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Loving injuries pt.2
So so sorry ts look so long to make pt 2, but here it is!
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"Okay, just be gentle..?" You look at her with puppy eyes, not realizing what you were doing.
"Of course, princess, always." All Vi could think about is pulling your face close to hers to kiss you...
The eye contact between the two of you stayed like that for a moment. Vi is still holding your hand. You could feel the heating tension before Vi shook her head, focusing on what she needed to do again.
As Vi grabs the alcohol back up, she lets go of your hand to grab a cotton ball. You both felt that warmth turn into coldness.
You were a little disappointed, bringing you back to reality on what she was about to do.
She poors a small portion of the alcohol on the cotton, slowly coming closer to your side.
"You ready, pretty girl?"
You froze up but nodded your head hesitantly.
She placed her other hand back in yours, comforting you with the familiar warmth returning.
She was almost touching your skin, with you winceing your muscles in your face-
The door slamed open.
You both flinched at the loudness.
"Vi, stop!" Ekko yelled, dropping the pillows on the ground.
"What? What!" She froze in a panic.
"You can't just put alcohol on it open and infected! You need to clean it first dumbass!" Ekko argued with his hands moving in the air.
Your eyes are just wide at surprise with the level Ekkos voice was. He was a little scary when he's loud. He must have seen your emotions written on your face. He walks over to you, glaring at Vi, then turning his attention back at you.
"Damn it, I'm sorry, y/n. I didn't mean to scare you. I know that would've hurt like a bitch if I didn't say something though. I'm sorry."
"No... it's fine. I just wasn't expecting it. Or the door slamming." Eyes looking down at your hands, fiddling with your nails.
He looks at you with those eyes. Eyes you haven't seen in a really long time.
Ekko forgot how startled you got from loud noises. It was a whole thing when you were younger. The kids' Vi's age would make fun of you even though u were only a few years apart. Ekko and Powder were always there to calm you down, while Vi would yell or hit the other kids for making fun of you. When you would hear loud noises, you would go into a panic like state.
And you seemed to forget how bad Ekko and Vi got being protective of you. Reason on why they're acting the way they are now.
"Vi.. just let me handle her. Go help the others set up dinner." He sighed, closing his eyes to try and stay calm.
"Wha- Ekko, I was only trying to help!" Vi stands up from the seat, her body language defensive.
"Vi-"
"Vi." You interrupted ekko with a stearn voice, softened it up with a light sigh.
They stop bickering and turn their attention twords you.
"I dont wanna see you guys arguing about me. Please. We just got here."
Vi looks at little disappointed while Ekko has a smirk on his face.
"Hey. Stop it. She didn't know. Just because I told her to stop doesn't mean you get to act like you weren't part of the problem."
The silence in the room was so thick that you could legitimately cut it with a blade.
Both of their heads were looking twords the ground.
Vi opened her mouth and then closed it again for a moment before speaking.
"If you need me, princess, I'll be outside.."
"Thanks Vi. Ekko, when you're done, can you let her know to come back in?"
Vi walked out, shoving the pillows with her foot, moving them out of the way so she didn't step on them. Ekko just nodded his head, then looked back up at you.
"Can you do whatever it is that you and Vi were arguing about now?"
"Yeah yeah...I'm sorry. You know how we are.. especially when it comes to you.."
"I know...let's just get this over with please."
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Vi walks back into the room after helping set up dinner to see you sleeping, and Ekko sitting next to your bed knocked out in a chair.
As she walks up to him, putting her hand on his shoulder. "Hey, little man, I'll watch her for a little while. Go get some actual sleep."
He mumbled under his breath after opening his eyes all they way. "Fine. Just don't bother her too much."
"Yeah I know. "
He gets up after that, looking back at you, then walks out. Slaming the door a little to where Vi flinches.
You groan, moving over closer to the wall. Vi takes this chance to slowly and quietly lay down next to you. She covers you up with the blanket.
"Hmm? Vi?" You say in a groggy tone, still with your back turned to her. You slowly move to turn over, but with the slightest movement you wince.
"Hey hey, yeah, it's me, princess. It's me. Don't move, you'll hurt yourself mo- Hey wait- y/n I said don't move."
You turn over so you're facing her, ignoring what she just said. You don't say anything, neither does she, but you both feel the tension between you too. Body's so close you can feel the warmth of hers on your skin.
"You're as stubborn as you used to be, you know that y/n?" You can hear the smile on her face when she says that laughing.
You stare at your hands between you two. She sees you fiddling with them, so she grabbed both of your hands with hers and intertwined them. You instantly turn pink. You think it's embarrassing, but Vi on the other hand, finds it so lovable. Finds you lovable.
"You don't need to be nervous or embarrassed. There's no one else here. Just you and me. Just us." You can feel her looking at you when she's talking, but you're not bold enough to look back. She releases one of the hands she was holding to cup your face and tilt your head up to look at her.
"Just us y/n." Her face slowly inches closer as her eyes move from yours to your lips. Your breaths fasten, and you can feel your heart beat through your entire body. Your breathing starts to get heavier.
"Shhh, princess, it's okay. Shh, it's alright." She moves her hand from your face to your heart and moves your hand to hers.
"Breathe with me, okay? You can feel my heartbeat, yeah? Good, baby, good. Breathe how I am. Just take a few deep breaths." She nods her head as you start to breathe, nodding with her.
You stare at her as your face softens. Your breathing starts to calm down now that you can feel her heartbeat. It's so soothing to you. So nostalgic.
"There you go baby, see? All better." She says, smiling but slowly droping it as you both stare into eachothers eyes.
This time, it's you leaning in, moving your hand to her cheek, then to the back of her neck pulling her in for a kiss.
You feel the whole world pause. Like it's just you and her in that moment. Slowly and loving. She moves her hands, one wrapping around your waist, pulling even you in closer than you had been before.
You panic a bit before she leans in, your eyes flickering back and forth between hers and then down to her lips.
When she kisses you, your eyes start to flutter shut as she rubs her thumb on your waist. The feeling of her hand on your waist makes your whole body tingle with heat.
You gasp when she pulls you to her where your chests are touching. The only thing keeping you apart is the clothing.
She slips her tongue in, causing you to whine, and the feeling of her hand moving from your waist to your lower back makes you moan, goosebumps running all over your body.
Her kiss distracted you from the pain. The way her mouth moved with yours. The way her hands explored your body, slowly moving up your back, getting under your shirt. Her hands where so warm compared to your cold back.
She pulled away from the kiss, making you whimper from the loss of her lips on yours. You move your face closer to hers, trying to kiss her again.
Vi's lips ghosted gently on yours, her thumb and your bottom lip, and her forehead on yours.
"I dont wanna go too fast, baby. If we keep moving like this, I dont know if I'll be able to hold back...I don't wanna hurt you." She said, looking down at your lips, her voice whispering as her thumb rubs your bottom lip.
You look at her with puppy eyes as she talks slowly. You respond with a slow nod.
"You know.. I've wanted you to do that since forever." You chuckle.
She looks you in the eyes and just smiles. She moves her thumb to rub the side of your cheek. You get flustered again, but don't look away this time. You bit your bottom lip, trying to hide the big smile on your face.
She chuckles and pulls your face back in for a kiss. Being as gentle with you as she can be. Slowly kissing you, moving her lips from your to your forehead.
"Baby, you got two choices. You can sleep for the rest of the day, or I can go get you some food, bring it up here, sit up her, and eat with you. Hmm? Which one sounds better?" She says, whispering against your head.
"Both" you both laugh lightly.
"Okay, we can do that."
There's a comfortable moment of silence. You close your eyes and nuzzle your head into her neck as she chuckles.
"Hey, y/n?"
You mumbled a yes into the crook of her neck, causing her to laugh at the tickle of your voice.
"I never told you but...I- i love you."
You could feel the speed of her heartbeat and her breath pacing. You lay your hand on her heart, slowly moving your thumb in circles. You kiss her neck at the same time. You can feel her body relaxing more as you do.
"You didn't need to tell me...I've always known. I love you too Vi. Always have, always will." You smile as you can feel her hand move to the back of your head gently rubbing your hair.
She can't get enough of you. Her heart fluttered when you said you loved her. She's been waiting for you to say those words.
___________________________________________a/n: i am so so sorry ts took 4ever. Also if I slept anything wrong please tell me. I'm dislexic so I might make a few slip ups. I hope you guys liked ts😭🙏🏼💗
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Ps:There was sb else that wanted to be tagged, but I couldn't find there tag😭
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Hey there would you like to try out these special perfumes? I can guarantee you will feel like a muscle daddy without even need to lift any weight. Some minor physical changes are just slight side effects don't worry about it.
"Some minor what? Sorry it's loud in here, I couldn't quite hear what you said."
I get on my top toes, trying to get closer to your level so I can hear you better.
"Some perfume? Oh... sure I might as well if it's free."
I grab the small black bottle of perfume and spray it on my wrist to test what it smells like.
"Oh god, that smells awful. Is that... sweat?"
I cough as the pungent smell engulfs me. I violently rub my wrist to get rid of the smell, but it only seems to be getting stronger.
*RIIIIIIIIPPP*
The sound of fabric ripping distracts me from the smell. The sound came from my sleeves, which are now torn to shreds.
"Is my arm... bigger than before?"
I poke and prod my now rock solid biceps as they continue to grow. I stare for a few seconds, mesmerized by the sight of my arms swelling, but I snap myself out of it.
"What is happening to me?"
Why am I growing? Why do I reek? Why can't I remember how I got here? All questions that are running through my mind. I can't think about that right now though. My clothes feel so tight.
*TEEEEAAAAARRRRRRR*
The sound of fabric tearing once again echoes around me. I look down to see my shirt has fallen to the floor in pieces, leaving me shirtless. Not that I mind showing off my bod, I've been hitting the gym so I could show it off. Wait, hold on a minute, I don't go to the gym. I look down at my swelling pecs and wonder how they got that big, and when did I get such a ripped six pack. It's because I earned it at the gym. Yeah, of course I go to the gym every day.
"I'm having trouble thinking, but I must've just had a sick workout if I smell like this."
I giggle to myself, breathing in my own stench. Of course I'm proud of it, it's a sign of hard work dedication.
*POP!*
I watch as the button on my fly flings across the room. It distracts me from admiring my upper body. My thighs expand until my jeans are bursting at the seams, and I feel the pressure build as my ass perks up. It doesn't take long for my jeans to also end up on the floor in pieces.
"Why does this feel so good bro."
My now massive man hands slide down my crotch as my once average dick starts to grow. Adding inches by the second, it sticks straight up past my belly button. Finally settling at a monstrous 10 inches long and as girthy as a pop can.
*SNAAAPPPP*
With comic timing, my feet burst through my shoes as they grow from a modest size 10 to a hulking size 16. But the euphoria of watching my muscles expand in front of my eyes is interrupted by a sudden lethargic feeling. I'm not as spry as I was in my twenties. Wait no, I'm in my twenties now. Well that can't be right, I just celebrated my 45th birthday. Who gives a fuck how old I am if I'm built like this.
"I gotta check these gains out bro."
I turn to the mirror beside me, and flinch when I see my reflection. My face... it's different I think. I run my hand through my thinning hair and over my five o'clock shadow. It feels so new but so familiar. The square jaw, wide nose, and wrinkles show the years, no, decades I've worked to have a sick bod like this.
"You like what you see, son?"
My gruff voice echoes around the room as I start to show off my bulging muscles. I love showing off to pipsqueaks like you, you're the perfect height to stare at my muscle tits. Don't feel bad about it, most guys are.
"You got something for me? A cigar? Nah bro, that shits not for me."
I would never put poison like that in my body unless it made me bigger. My body is a temple. But... now that you mention it, I am kind of craving a cigar right now.
"Damn that shit smells kinda good tho. It's a Cuban cigar? Give me that."
I snatch the massive cigar from you and stick it into my mouth.
"Got a ligh-"
I'm interrupted as you pull out a match.
"Old fashioned, I respect that bro."
I take a deep breath in, really letting that smoke settle in my lungs. I don't smoke often, so I gotta make the high worth it. Though something feels different this time, I can feel the smoke coating my lungs.
"What is happening? Side effects?"
I look at the bottle of perfume and see written in bold, "Do not smoke or take any drugs while using this product." I continue reading.
"Side effects may include; weight gain-"
I feel my stomach drop as I'm reading it. I look down in horror as I see a distended muscle gut where my abs used to be.
"Hormone imbalance."
My pecs swell into a pair of man tits that hang over my gut and my nipples perk up, making them impossible to hide under a shirt. My ass also widens as it becomes more soft and rounded. Worst of all, I feel my balls shrivel up like prunes. I quickly grab a pair of gym shorts that are conveniently resting beside me. Not many men are 6"6 and 300 pounds like me, how lucky that there was a pair of shorts that fit me.
"Excessive body hair."
I can feel an intense itchiness as my once hairless body is covered head to toe in a thick forest of salt and pepper hair. Especially around my chest and gut. I can also feel my five o'clock shadow grow into a bushy goatee and mustache.
"Male pattern baldness."
A cold sensation engulfs my head as my hairline starts to rapidly recede, even more than it already had. My hairline moves further and further back until I'm left with a strip of short and thin hair on the back of my head.
"Addiction."
My body suddenly feels drained, like I have a severe fever. I instinctively pull my cigar to my mouth and take a deep breath in. The smoke fills my lungs, and just like that I feel great again.
"Why are you still staring, kid. You really want a piece of all this?"
I grab you by the collar, letting you smell smoke off my breath and the sweat from my skin.
"Only real men can handle me. So why don't we fix that."
I yank you closer to me before pulling out the perfume and spraying it into your face. It makes me smile when you try to brush away the pungent fragrance.
"The smell will grow on you, son."
#male tf#masculine#male transformation#hairy#reality change#male wg#muscle tf#age progression#cigar daddy
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i gotta get up in like 6 hrs but i can't sleep so here have the oh shit nnt thought of the night:
the only demon in THE demon hating club
this is a sentence my brain just came up with to describe Stigma Meliodas, and isn't that fucked up?? Like that was a very fucked up thing Meliodas put himself through. I feel like we as a fandom don't talk enough about how fucked up that was (shadowed by all the other fucked up things meli went through)
Because... not only did Meliodas' decision to join Stigma cause every demon to hate him, it also meant that he decided to spend his days around people who hated him or at the very least his race (that cannot have been good for his mental health which let's be honest probably was really shitty to begin with because of the dk and his childhood)
The goddess in the horn really wasn't that far off when she said he had no allies. Like obviously she wasn't right, but she wasn't entirely wrong either
Cause let's think about that in regard to Stigma Meliodas. We don't fully know how most of the members of Stigma felt about Meliodas, but considering they talked about slaughtering "every last one of the damned demon race" when Meli was literally RIGHT THERE (and none of them were like hey lucy maybe we shouldn't commit genocide) we can assume most of them wouldn't care if Meliodas died and probably only tolerated him being there because they had no choice (and if he was on their side then he wasn't on the enemy's side)
The way he responds to King (as Gloxinia) questioning his loyalty just seems so resigned, like he has been over this time and time; he knows Stigma don't trust him and he knows there's nothing he can say to change that, only his actions (him not betraying them) can prove he is actually on their side and not some deep undercover spy for the demons
Anyways I'm getting sidetracked- ALLIES! The only people in Stigma we know considered Meliodas an ally and friend are: Elizabeth (of course), Drole and Gloxinia, and then Rou
First let it sink in how fucking short that list is, and then let's think about each of those allies and what happens to them...
Elizabeth. Well. She dies. Horribly. And like I'm not even talking about the whole curse thing, I'm talking about how goddess Elizabeth died and Meliodas had to continue living. HE WOKE UP NEXT TO HER DEAD BODY. That was another very very very fucked up thing that happened (that we also don't talk about enough me thinks - cause like... he died. but then he didn't. but then she was still dead right next to him. and he didn't even know about the curse. he thought she was dead dead and he was alive. she was gone forever. and he was still living and now alone. very fucked up)
And then we have Rou. Rou who befriended Meliodas. Rou who knew Meliodas was a demon and didn't care and still called him a friend. Rou who only joined Stigma to get revenge on Stigma. Like yeah Rou didn’t hate every demon but he still brought that kind of hate and violence (regardless of his reasons). And was then also killed (by one of Mel's allies no less)
Which brings us to Drole and Gloxinia. Who had every reason to hate Meliodas (being the kings of their respective races) but still saw Meliodas as an ally and friend. Drole and Gloxinia who Meliodas then lost. Not to death but to the very side Meliodas himself had left in order to join Stigma. Who then also got sealed away for 3,000 years (leaving Meliodas not only without Elizabeth but also without his friends). And thennnn 3,000 years later, the same allies/friends are now Meliodas' enemies. (Hell Gloxinia is one of the Commandments who actively attack Meliodas in the fight leading up to Meli's literal death
And
Yeah
It's fucked up
It's also now only 5 hrs until i gotta get up so...
TLDR; The First Holy War era deserved more attention in canon and Stigma Meliodas went through some really fucked up shit
#i have a thought she said and then spent an hour writing about it#(do i curse more when im tired or do i just care less about the words i choose? also this deserved every fuck i wrote!)#im tired... send help (preferably in the form of sleep i really need it)#okay tags...#nanatsu no taizai#seven deadly sins#nnt#sds#holy war era#first holy war#stigma meliodas#meliodas nnt#goddess elizabeth#rou nnt#drole nnt#gloxinia nnt
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sisters bf!sebastian - headcanon
sisters bf!sebastian who drops by your place unannounced and often grumbles when you tell him your sister isn't home yet. he could leave, but hey - why not watch another movie together like you always tend to. the house is empty; so is the couch; and it's not like anything is ever going to happen between the two of you.
sisters bf!sebastian who never forgets your birthday - even though it isn't something that should necessarily be on his calendar. this year he got you a cd of your favourite band. last year, it was a book that you'd been trying to find forever but was sold out all over town. the year before, your favourite candy bars which you could have sworn were out of production at the time.
sisters bf!sebastian that just so happens to leave the bathroom door ajar when he's showering. he knows you're curious - god damn merlin of course you sneak a peak in every now and again when you wander by. the way his hair when wet sits like an adorable mess; the low rise of the towel he has wrapped around his waist; the freckles and scars on his back that you're a little to eager to get up close and know in a more… intimate way.
the way that sisters bf!sebastian tells you to stay out of trouble and not do anything stupid when you advice your sister that you're heading out on a date. his eyes narrow, his voice becomes huskier, the gaze that washes over you when you greet your date at the door has an uncomfortable weight to it that you try not to read into; but can't help but wonder if there's not a tad inch of jealousy involved.
whenever you're in a tight space - hallway, kitchen, passing through the front door; and meet one another, sisters bf!sebastian does that infuriatingly innocent thing where he rests his hands on your hips and slides straight by you, his chest coming into contact with you every single time which makes your mouth dry. sometimes depending on proximity, his lips will skim across your hair or temple and you swear you hear him chuckle every - single - time, but perhaps you're just going crazy.
sisters bf!sebastian that drops a dirty joke or innuendo your way in conversation that sounds perfectly innocent but you definitely know better. you can't reach something on a shelf - 'need something to get up on?'; when you're trying to fit the dirty dishes in the diswasher but can't because the plate you've got in hand is bigger than the rest of them - 'here, don't worry; it might be larger than the rest but i can make it fit'. things would be totally fine if these lines weren't delivered with that mischievous smirk tugging at his lips or the playful glisten of his coffee coloured eyes you just happen to get lost in.
warmer weather - yeah sisters bf!sebastian is walking around without a shirt on because… well it's just his thing apparently. your sister just loooovesss raking her nails across his chest any chance she gets and you're more than aware of the bruises and hickeys she's left on him as claim that you wouldn't mind if you were the reason behind. when the weathers cooler? he does that attractive boyish thing of half rolling his sleeves before pushing them up. just when you think you've got yourself composed and under control, he'll comb a hand through his hair and watch as you practically melt in front of him.
rest of the boys coming soon xo
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i wish you would write a fic where, for whatever reason, Law’s been brainwashed/amnesia’d/mind-controlled and has to make his way out of it without having a premade plan in place.
I love that you said this, anon, because this is actually on my list to write already. A little snippet from the WIP:
“If you’re going to kill me, then just do it,” Law spat.
“Kill you?” Doflamingo repeated, putting on a feigned air of surprise. “Why would I kill you when I have you right where I want you, Law? The prodigal son returned and all that.”
“You can chain me to the damn Heart seat, but that won’t make me your Heart,” Law sneered.
“No,” Doflamingo said, seemingly unbothered. His lack of concern about Law’s refusal had alarm bells blaring in the back of Law’s mind. Something was wrong. “I suppose it doesn’t.”
Doflamingo nodded to the guard at the door. The guard bowed and opened the door. A tall man Law didn’t recognize stepped through and made his way across the room toward Doflamingo. He wore a long coat despite Dressrosa’s heat and carried a cane with a handle curved to look like a question mark. The king’s lips pulled back in a smirk as the man stopped at his side.
“Doflamingo,” the man greeted, inclining his head. His voice was low and melodic.
“Enigma.”
Law stiffened, and Doflamingo noticed. “Ah, I believe Law here has heard of you.”
Of course Law had heard of Enigma. He was a renowned hypnotist in the underworld. It was said he could hypnotize a fish into forgetting it could swim. He offered his services to anyone, pirate or Marine, who could pay—and his services were not cheap.
“Trafalgar Law,” Enigma said, turning to Law and eyeing him up and down. Law felt uncomfortably transparent under the man’s piercing gaze. “A member of the Worst Generation with a bounty of 400,000 berries before it was frozen upon becoming a Warlord.” He turned back to Doflamingo. “So, he is the one you brought me here for?”
“That’s right,” Doflamingo said, smirk growing as Law’s eyes widened.
“Very well,” Enigma said. “Let’s begin.”
“No,” Law said, panic rising in his chest as Enigma stepped toward him. He didn’t know exactly what Doflamingo wanted Enigma to do, but whatever it was, it would change him in some foundational way. Despite wielding what some called the ultimate devil fruit, Law’s greatest weapon was his mind. Even when his body had failed him as a child, he’d still had his mind. And Doflamingo, it seemed, intended to take that from him. He looked past the hypnotist to Doflamingo and pleaded, “Just kill me.”
“Fufufu, and lose my Corazon after all these years? I think not.”
Law’s eyes widened, and he shook his head. “No.”
Enigma reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a pocket watch. He held onto the chain and let the watch drop to hang in midair.
“Keep your eyes on the watch, Trafalgar.”
Law screwed his eyes shut. He couldn’t let this happen. Cora-san had given his life so Law could be free; he couldn’t let his sacrifice be for nothing. A sharp pain erupted around his eyes, and Law cried out as strings dug into his eyelids and pulled them open. He thrashed in the Heart throne as his eyes were sewn open and blood dripped down his cheeks in a facsimile of tears.
Doflamingo, who was now standing next to the Heart throne, grabbed Law’s chin and held it firm. He made a shushing sound. “Now, now, none of that. Don’t worry, little bird. It’ll be over soon.”
“No,” Law moaned as he cast his eyes around the room to avoid looking at the hypnotist in front of him. “Please, no.” His breath hitched when he caught sight of Luffy standing in the window on the far side of the room, eyes wide and concern splashed across his features. Next to him, Violet had a hand on his arm, holding him back. For a brief moment, their gazes locked and Law could only think, I’m sorry for bringing you into this.
And then Enigma stepped into his line of vision, and Law couldn’t help but look at the swinging watch in front of him. The moment he caught sight of the watch, his body became heavy and his thoughts turned fuzzy. He slumped in the Heart throne, unable to move anything but his eyes as they followed the moving watch.
“Good,” Enigma said, his melodic voice further lulling Law into a trance. “Can you hear me, Trafalgar?”
“Yes,” Law mumbled.
“Very good. Now, I want you go to back thirteen years…”
Send me an anymous (or not) summary of the fic you wish I would write. (maybe I will write a tidbit)
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He wasn't the only one who could smell the pheromones, it was like a summoning call for all drones who were near. Each one buzzing over to see the queen in question and if the drone was good enough to keep his queen for another 3 to 4 years.
Lucifers eyes narrowed while he gripped Adams hips close, another drone was making their way over. Adam wasn't paying attention already being overtaken by lust and the need to produce eggs. Lucifer however was very much aware of the other drones, it was custom for them to flock to the queen so she could choose a new king or keep the one she had. It was all decided through gifts which meant Lucifer couldn't touch Adam till he had chosen him again. Lucifer however wasn't above killing the other drones to make Adams' decision easier.
Drone: why hello there my queen
Adam shifted to see who was calling him, he whimpered at the sight of the other drones. His legs could sense the arousal they all felt for him, his honey dripping down his legs.
Drone: my name is Alastor~ pleased to meet you
Adam frowned as Alastor took one of his hands and kissed it, Adam could feel Lucifer's death glare even without looking. Alastor however paid him no mind as he smiled up at Adam.
Alastor: my what beautiful eyes you have, I'm sure your drone is too hungry for sex to truly worship you my queen
Adam squeaked when Lucifer pulled him closer, a happy buzzing was radiating off of Adam. His mate was holding him close.
Lucifer: why don't you find a different queen to seduce this one is taken
Drone: oh don't be like that Luci you know damn well you got into this hive by pure luck
Lucifer grit his teeth: Michael
A blonde drone emerged from the group, he looked exactly like Lucifer maybe a few differences in coloring but they were practically twins. Adams insides twitched in interest, it was obvious his body had a type.
Michael: it's quite unfortunate that you have to compete against me for his snatch
Lucifer had left Adams side to get in Michael's face, they were chest to chest buzzing with anger. Since they had no stinger there was no fear of someone accidentally being stung.
Adam: what are they talking about Luci?
Adam was shifting his thighs he wanted to get back into bed and get fucked to next winter, he had no idea what was going on and if this was just normal.
Michael: oh he didn't fill you in, of course he wouldn't.
Lucifer glared at Michael then softened his look as he walked back up to Adam.
Lucifer: every time you enter your heat for your offspring, other drones sense your heat and come to court you. Even I have to try and court you once more.
Michael: yes and it starts now
Michael walked up to Adam and gifted him a flower, it was beautiful and it smelt amazing all the drones watched and smelt how Adams pheromones grew stronger. A smirk lined Michaels face while he turned his gaze back towards Lucifer. Lucifer however planned for this and got some of Adams favorite plants to nibble on when he wasn't eating honey.
Lucifer: here my love
Adam eagerly took it and started to eat, the courting had just begun and Lucifer was sure to narrow down his competition for his Adam.
(I hope this makes sense idk I kinda had this brewing from the beginning when I saw yandere Lucifer)
I have an idea, Yandere King Bee Lucifer with Human Adam 👀
With a forced transformation/curse for Adam to become a Queen Bee /nf /suggestion
Just some food for thought! Anyways, have a good rest of your day/afternoon/night!
Skadoodles back into the abyss
Well a King needs his Queen 👑💖
@sir-tater-of-the-tot 👀
Since he's a King, there aren't many bees anymore so he needs to repopulate his kingdom.
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YESSS I SO AGREE!! omggggg she’s such a productive queen. and after she finishes her trilogy, mailing a signed copy to her man, duh, she’s already working on her fourth. but this one is a standalone, i think. “the diaries of the soldier’s lover,” she titles this one. and she writes about how simon essentially saved her from losing her mind in year 10 and how she wishes she could be like a little angel on his shoulder, following him always. she names herself his guardian angel and thanks him deeply for the love that he has helped to grow, like a rose blooming with no thorns.
and she mails him a copy of this, too. and i like to think that for her first trilogy (some fantasy story she conjured) she used a pseudonym. but this one has her name written all over it. because she’s just so proud of him!! and she’s signed his copy, with big frilly letters and a heartwarming message.
price is like, “damn, simon, gettin’ a lot of mail lately, aye?” whenever simon comes to get his weekly mail from price’s office, and simon is too choked up to even say anything. did a tear just stain the page? no, surely it’s raining in here. or the ceiling is leaking! surely.
he reads this book like his gospel, and he’s sure that with this one, the book that he inspired, she’s touched the hearts of many wives out there. his wife is a famous author. all things that will be true within due time.
he writes her a letter, a simple diamond ring tapped haphazardly inside the envelope. “does it count if i ask you to marry me through parcel?” he writes, messy scrawl and silly little arrows and correction markings.
she cries, too. and yes, of course it counts, you oaf. she wears that ring everywhere. her husband is a lieutenant, she finds out in his next letter. he is a leader. and a damn good one.
she wears this ring even after price has shown up at her door, metal necklaces dangling from his fingers and his boonie hat long forgotten — his head bowed in shame.
AGHHGGHHH this au is eating at my brain and im not even mad i dont even caaaaare, they’re so precious and broken and they fit together. and im so sorry for the angst it just kinda happened…… 😣
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NO YOU DIDNT. NO ANON HOW COULD YOU, YOU KILLED SIMON OMG.
In all seriousness that’s a damn good idea, anon, you should actually write it out, it’s sweet and it sounds really nice and it’s so so warm.
God, I almost cried on the part with him typing in a ring and asking her hand in marriage, god, of course Reader would marry him, how could she not. God, actually, step aside Reader I’m gonna marry this man. Oh my god.
And Price showing at her doorstep with Simon’s dogtags because it’s not the first soldier he’s buried but damn, if this wasn’t a special one. And I’d imagine your Reader wearing his dogtags until the day she dies, talking about him like he’s still alive.
She’d probably say things along the lines of “Yeah, my husband is really proud of this one, thank you so much” or “Yeah, I’m sorry, I’m not available. I’m married” and people always get a little worried when they find out Simon is no longer alive.
Because she keeps on living and she still talks about him like he’s there. And maybe for her he really is. Maybe that’s the way she keeps herself tethered to reality, joining the support club and writing another book — talking to the spouses of other military personnel through them. Sharing their pain, extending her hand through the pages and kind of saying “hey, I feel it too. I know your pain. You aren’t alone. I’m here”.
And she never judges other spouses for their ways of coping because hey, she gets that. She knows how it feels to choke on tears when the love of your life is lowered into the ground.
She knows how it feels to write to someone who can never answer, she knows how it feels to turn to talk to someone who’s not there anymore, how it feels to forget sometimes that hey, he’s dead.
Someone once wrote that when their spouse died they felt so shocked and overwhelmed that their first subconscious instinct was to call the said spouse and share news with them. Their first instinct was to go for comfort to the person they lost.
That’s how (i think) your Reader would feel in lieu of Simon’s death.
Luckily for the rest of you, who aren’t me and strawberry anon, im not gonna kill Simon. I have fragile heart, I wouldn’t do that to you, guys *pats your backs* death is too finite for me.
And I like to get real creative with suffering (damn that sounded ominous)
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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people who are hyper critical of aang are super fucking weird and we should say so.
#aang#pro aang#avatar#atla#atla aang#avatar the last airbender#it’s just like when he acts like the 12 year old he is people who hate him are like wow he’s really acting like that#like bitch what???#he’s fucking 12 lmfao#of course he’s immature#but aang grows so damn much over the series and they just turn a blind eye to it#he’s trying to be a child while also grappling with his duties as avatar and his teachings as an air nomad#being told constantly that he has to kill someone despite that going against his teachings#anyway aang is great and yeah there were times he was annoying like any 12 year old can be#but he also matures a lot which is super sad cause of the weight placed upon his shoulders#anyway the people i see who criticize him to the point where it’s just like just say you don’t like him and go are zutara shippers of course#some zutara fans are so fucking demented i swear#and mostly all of them are annoying#even when i watched avatar as a pre teen i didn’t ship zutara
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The brainworms are winning, clearly (Patreon)
#Doodles#Osmosis Jones#Ozzy#Drix#Thrax#As if it wasn't bad enough when it was just Doran oh no - I knew I'd want a separate tag for this in earnest at some point ahhhh#Damned#Alright sure lol good enough - I'll go back and edit the tag in a bit#I just can't help it wahh the Institute is such a fun and interesting setting it scratches my brain in Such a way#It's been really fun poking around to see who's there but there are some who I'm like ''Why wasn't [x] there? :0''#Some make sense lol like characters that didn't exist/come into the cultural vogue until after the game started or ended#Totally understand that - and it's still really fun to speculate how they'd react! Very enjoyable!#But others - like the above - I'm just like But they existed before the game and are such fun characters! Why!#Neverminding that Osmosis Jones was yet another box office flop in an impressive lineup of likewise siblings oof lol#It'd be such a good movie......if only (lol) Like I love it! But yeah it's still pretty rough haha#Gosh if the animated sections aren't beautiful tho hh <3#The show's even rougher - like why choose a nearly PG-13 movie to turn into a Y-10 (at the Most) cartoon? The tone shift is so jarring lol#So yeah! Why weren't these characters a more popular draw five years later! That's practically still pop culture! Lolol#No I'm well aware I'm probably The entire pool of people interested in this crossover but hey - I offer >:3c#Obviously I had to have Ozzy judging me for subjecting him to the Institute - this is what you get for being a fave Oz <3#Thrax is All over him (a criminal) and Ozzy (a cop) being equalized in the same prison uniform lol - I mean yes but actually no#It's an escape game of course he wants out#I have way too much fun making ''real person'' profiles wagh I've already made a bunch of backstory stuff helpppp#The names are pulled around from the various voice actors/real names based on character names which was Quite fun#And of course Oz had to get punched :) That meme's not completely dead yet is it lol#But really it was just fun posing ahhh I'm really rather pleased with it <3 Excited to scene-stitch that one together too#Drix fussing over Oz is my favourite ahhhh yesss <3 <3#Can you tell that hunched-over Thrax was my first pass? Here's a hint - he doesn't have a burned finger there!#I wrote up his profile after that one and forgot to add it afterwards haha but yeah! Just barely touched on in-fic so far lol#And then him in his proper clothes.... Look all I'm saying is that I was uniquely primed in my media diet to enjoy Vargas lol
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fuck >:/
#i forgot they FUCKING AVERAGE THE TWO EXAM GRADES#so my barely there d dropped to a damn e (my uni's f grade)#which means..... failed! and!!! wont have enough units with just next semester to keep particular scholarships#so!! i will very much be looking at whether or not i can take courses over the summer (bc my advisor suggested not taking winter)#to ensure i reach the minimum 30 units per school year needed to keep that scholarship money#would have been FINE if the exams werent AVERAGED TOGETHER#but nooooooo#like even if i take max units next semester (19) i wouldnt make the min required (30) bc of 1 damn unit#damn i just checked i completely missed one extra credit opportunity they posted that was due yesterday (equivalent to 3 quizzes)#ugjdhdjdjdjd#im gonna have to either retake this course too or just. fill this gen ed requirement with another one (BECAUSE OF COURSE ITS A GEN ED)#soon as summer enrollment appears im fuckin jumping on that and meeting with my advisor ASAP#amber's shit you can ignore
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making a collection
making another collection with a threatening aura
#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo#HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there#FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend#usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase#nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls#i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki#luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg#cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy#zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over#zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn#komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom#luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk#it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also#was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe#zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her#that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme#fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems#foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests#now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby#the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies#kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs
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I'm still thinking about how out of all of the crimes that he has committed, Childe went to prison for something that not only did he not do but something that he physically could not have done
#I don't think we have a canon age for Childe but I think it's most likely that he's in his early to mid twenties#so it would've been physically impossible for him to have caused the disappearance of several women in Fontaine over the course of 20 years#because he would've been in Snezhnaya and also an elementary schooler#(Childe voice) Luckily I had a good alibi because I was in Snezhnaya and 5#no but seriously how did he even get accused of the disappearances in the first place#what evidence could they possibly have had that would even link him to the disappearances at all#let alone pointing to him as the culprit#even if they were just going off of him being a Harbinger did nobody think to ask how old he was?#then again Lyney also got accused of being behind the disappearances and honestly I'd be surprised if he was older then 20 so#genshin impact#childe#tartagila#genshin impact ajax#childe tartaglia ajax#genshin impact childe#I don't mean to clog up tags but why does this man have so many damn names#genshin impact spoilers#fontaine spoilers#just in case
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i will never forget the time I was hanging out with two other people who were new friends and they were like "let's do a sonic fandub" and one of them started looking up sonic game footage on youtube for us to dub while we discussed who would speak for who and we decided I'd voice tails. But also I knew nothing about sonic at the time, i'd only seen the snapcube fandubs because I'd heard they were good and funny, I didn't know the plot or characters very well. I couldn't remember what they sounded like so while the other two started to say silly things in sonic and amy's voices I asked "what does tails sound like again?" And I was laughing because I was embarrassed and also shocked by how quickly they had started commiting to the bit of trying to do some voice acting and my friend just said "he sounds like a twink" and I could not stop laughing and I could not take the idea seriously and I just told them that I couldn't do the voice oops. And so we moved onto a different topic pretty quickly and just enjoyed the pizza we had while we waited for our other three friends to get back from the store
anyways all of this is to say that Tails is NOT a twink, he is an 8 year old little boy and my friend was misguided.
#Can you tell that I'm mentally unwell and also that I had a falling out with these friends and also that I miss them dearly#I actually went to see the sonic 3 movie today on christmas day and I saw a group of people that I know- one guy in the group was one of#The three that was at the store while we were doing the dub. I had a falling out with all five of those friends after that.#That day was really great. It was like a year ago now. I feel like that was the first time where I was really vulnerable with friends#And I had never been so honest about my interests and thoughts before with a group of people and it. It was nice. But after that day it...#I think it was all my fault. Or at least mostly my fault. I was honest with them but no one else#So I couldn't accept the truth of myself and I wasn't ready for everyone i know to know me that way so I tried to hide it and ignore it#And in doing so I stopped being honest with them and I started avoiding them. And I regret it. I could have just been a weirdo with them#I could have spent every tuesday afternoon hanging out and talking about life with them over pizza. But instead I ran away.#And of course they kept asking about me and wondering why I was being weird but I couldn't face it. And I kept running away#And they kept trying to chase after me. I even left for like two months and completely went no contact and no explanation#But then I came back because I had nowhere else to go and it... it was so awkward. It was too much. And now I'm overthinking#everything. I was so jealous of them. All of them. And when I got to be friend with them it was too much for me. My brain couldn't accept i#I'm not allowed to be happy unless it's in secret. That's what my brain thinks#That's the mantra I've been living by recently. For like the past 3-5 years. That's just how I was raised I suppose#Um. Oops I ranted too much in the tags. Sorry if you read all of this. But also thank you if you did. I hope you're well#Rant in tags#rant#personal#Why is this literally just my journal. Goodness gracious#I'm so sorry. Everything I post here is like completely dumb and irrelevant and stupid and pointless and matters very little.#I am just mentally unwell and I can barely think clearly. I am sorry. I hope you look elsewhere for actually important or meaningful words#Dang I just had a dramatic soundtrack melody start playing in my head but I have no idea where this song is from or what it's called. Damn
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