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ganondoodle · 1 year ago

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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((

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oceanwithouthermoon · 5 months ago

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people who say that theyre "the only one right about this character" and then u open their page and its the most horrendous, twisted, far-fetched mischaracterization youve ever seen

#like genuinely who let you think that that was at all accurate im so dead #especially because they diss all the other people who talk about the character #but theyre talking about people who are actually right ?? or at least not SO far-fetched #a rare conundrum #it reeks of self obsession tbh like its one thing to make fun of people for how they see a character when the characterization is harmless #and another to make such bold claims about how ur the only right one #and then not even be right ??? u had one job #ugh its so annoying #jokingly saying u know everything abt ur character is different than being a straight up dick about it like wtf #if ur gonna make fun of other peoples takes and treat them like theyre dumb.. at LEAST make sure yours arent fucking dumb too #you smell bad btw #not tagging this i actually dont want people seeing this one lmao #meows post

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emdotcom · 4 months ago

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My brain is so full of Bees about Post-Shift 2.

It's a fan game that was delayed for 4 years -- by the time it released, fnaf fangames as a whole were not as popular as they had been, & most people in the scene had forgotten about Post-Shift 1, so not a lot of people heard about it/played it.

Worse still is the people who did talk about the game. Pretty unanimously, the consensus was this: this game is the craziest, most insane fnaf fangame. It's overly difficult with mechanics that have no rhyme or reason to them & tutorials that are wordy, unhelpful, & sometimes actively mislead the player, meaning you need to comb through a lot of text only to be misinformed. It's not as infamous as some other fangames, but it definitely was talked about very poorly.

In general, I think most of these criticisms were blown up out of proportion, but I can't really disagree with most people's problems -- it is difficult & wordy, & rather hard to understand. I think, however, that the game is still 1. Really fun, 2. Not a bad game at all, &, most importantly, 3. Is a free fucking game that was clearly a passion project. Most damn fangames never get off the fucking ground when made in groups because the creators will never make a red cent off the thing -- this game was made by one dude for 4 years & delivered to people for free. It didn't ask anything of you except to accept it as a difficult game & to not go in with wild expectations. The dev just wanted to make a game that was rough, but he also wanted to make a game that felt unique & was fun. & It is fun, too, is the damn thing.

#em.txt #ps2 post #post-shift 2 #i obviously am biased #i also obviously have more to say #but for now i think this is a start. i think this is fine so far.#i got counter arguments i was gonna type about the problems #bc tbh i think the difficulty isn't as big a problem as the difficult curve -- it starts very high for a fangame #bc it assumed you know what they're like. you know how fangames work. but it over assumes that all the mechanics #work at the same frequency as other fangame #the difficulty curve of night 1 is pretty tough place to start which turned a lot of people off #especially with how long & unclear th tutorials are & of course night 1's tutorial starting with a character that is unused in that night #it's rough. night 2 is even tougher. but night 3 is a cakewalk once you beat 2 bc it only adds 2 threats #so you might expect the next night to be as easy or even easier & in my eyes yeah -- night 4 is easier than 1 even #except that it's completely different & is asking the player to learn a new game entirely which is its own difficulty #but i can crank out a night 4 easy peasy no prolem. so you might expect night 5 to be even easier right? WRONG #WRONG WRONG WRRRONNNGG even people who know what they are doing struggle #because a mechanic in the game actively increases the difficulty as the difficulty is increased which is EVIL #& night 6 is even harder i have seen 3 people beat night 6 it is absurd #i sat in a call with another PS2 fan who clearly played thr game s lot & loved it but they could not beat the night normally #& this night has fucking optional difficulty modifiers when you finish that make it harder it is hell on earth #there is no checkpoints it is bad it is so bad I haven't beaten it i talk abt this game every day i play all the nights #i do not fucking play this night bc the way the tutorial works is unreal & unhelpful it wants you to remember #all this shit but it removes the 'walk around & click things before the night starts to see how they work/where they are'#& then it changes every 2 hours to something new so you won 12-2 but you hit 2 & forgot this one person's mechanic #but the only way to read the tutorial again is to close the game bc it automatically puts you back into the night #& will not take you to the home screen to view the booklet for night 6 it's insane #so yeah. there is difficulty. but the difficulty curve being this inconsistent is worse tbh #i get night 6 is meant to be like a 'everyone is here!' bossfight but it's overwhelming & there is too damn much

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shazleen · 9 months ago

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Is got a hair cut and now I have to like go through the struggle of acclimatising to them having slightly different hair

#i basically cant recognise my partners after they have like. a hair cut #this is not the first time its happened i would just like ???? whenever my ex got a haircut for like. sometimes weeks #like i joke about my bad facial recognition issues but like. im actually not kidding #its also especially bad with intimate partner idk why.#maybe its bc i spend a long time memorising their face and then a change happens and its shocking !! even tho i know theyre gettin haircut #tbh it does happen w friends too one friend cuts his hair dramattically nd im like damn ur a new person woaw #i think it doesnt matter if the hair is dyed tho. bc its the same shape #sometimes i type out these things and have to take a hard look at myself like damn whats going on here

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shdwtouch · 6 months ago

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not me openly admitting that shade lowkey takes after me. this was not intentional, I swear. uwu; she kinda just... ended up with an extra dose of who I am as a person, whereas most of my original characters receive much less.

I realized this when considering that shade is most likely homo leaning. and I was like, haha she's just like me ! an enby ace lesbian... and then the similarities just kept getting drawn. idk maybe I'm just overly tired.

also like. not gonna apologize ? she really isn't a self-insert. but its also like... creators are allowed to put themselves into what they make ! and I'm proud of shade, I really am. so I won't be made ashamed for traits we might share.

#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much #° mobile post !#° to be deleted !#tbh i dont know hoe people get off accusing people of making self inserts in the rpc like #how do you know ?? unless i explicitly state or draw comparisons ??#and why would i do that if my intent is to fool people ? like.#i understand that interacting with inserts can be uncomfortable. i do !#but unless you really know the person ? you arent in a place to say their characters are inserts #and tbh i feel like most of my discomfort comes from the prospect of being deceived #im okay with writing with inserts but im gonna draw boundaries #especially if youre writing them with the intent to live through them / fantasize.#while I think its valid its not something i am personally comfortable with. i dont consent to that as an rp partner.#but im also envisioning the worst possibility in which its someone getting off to how i interact with their oc #point being. to my mind. self inserts arent bad. they also arent easy to judge.#and even if i dont consent to interacting with an insert for the purpose of being wank material or emotional stimulus...#people could still use my content for wank or emotional stimulus by putting themselves in the shoes of whoever im writing with so #am i really one to judge? no. because again. i dont know.#and i honestly think anyone who can come out and say their oc is an insert or takes after them is #more trustworthy than someone who doesnt disclose it. idk just. there is no need for deception.#and if you do try to deceive me im gonna assume you have ill intent #whereas honesty is something that should be valued. especially in cases where the truth is so stigmatized.

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guinevereslancelot · 5 months ago

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so proud of myself for putting a big part of my last paycheck in my savings like an adult but now im gonna spend all my savings like an idiot 😵‍💫

#i mean i am paying cash for my first vehicle which is like...adulting pro level but....at what cost (the price) 😭#also its a very cheap rusty old car tbh but i need a truck for the farm basically #so even tho i could keep driving my dad's car to work since he works from home it makes sense #especially bc its three people sharing that car with me and my brother #and my little brother is a full time student w no job so im the full time employed one so i should be the one to get a car #but i was determined to not take out a loan so its not a super nice car #but i'm buying it from a friend of my mom at a steal basically #like who sells a decent working car for 1500 anymore #but thats literally my entire savings so.... 😬#no car payment tho which will be nice but aaaaaaaaa #and im worried its kind of a junky car and will need tons of repaira all the time and not be reliable #but my commute is really short and i never drive anywhere besides work which is good for an unreliable car #im not convinced its a great investment to put all my savings into an unreliable vehicle but my parents told me its a good investment so #😬👍#adulting yayyyyy #i am getting paid this friday tho so my savings wont be so alarmingly empty for long #but i have other big expenses so im stressed #however it is a nice christmassy red pickup truck which is good for a christmas tree farm #but last payday i was like why do i have so little money in my savings thats dumb and not very grown up im gonna put as much as i can spare #then a week later withdrew almost all of it for the car 🤡#possibly a stupid decision #but maybe a great one idk #and it saves my parents having to buy a trailer for my mom's car for farm stuff so they're gifting me $300 towards it #and it will be satisfying to buy it outright and have no debt on it #but oof it hurts so much to make big purchases #i've never spent this much money except on tuition #i dont know that its specially unreliable i just know its got rust and duct tape and they're selling it bc they'd rather have a car payment #bc they put more money into it than its worth #but its got new tires and brakes and passed inspection somehow with the rust sooo? maybe its not as bad as it looks 😂

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bonestrouslingbones · 1 year ago

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actually while im feeling sad about stupid bullshit (not being popular anymore oh woe is me) lets take a little summary of atbb's pre-hiatus inbox

someone trying to roleplay as sans because they didnt look at the blog for more than two seconds

someone saying the skeletons are cute and asking to hug them

someone asking to be friends with [Enter Skeleton Here]

someone asking what their brothers are like

How are you?

You're cute!

You're cool!

How have you been?

Nice outfit!

someone who does not understand the concept of dramatic irony who wants very badly to explain the full plot so far to characters who would never know that in any context otherwise as if that wouldnt be lame as hell for them to suddenly know

why is [thing that was a very big plot point]

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

YOU'RE CUTE

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

#AHHHHHHHHHH #LOOK. NONE OF THESE ARE INHERENTLY BAD. BUT WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THEM #IF I SCROLL FAR ENOUGH I CAN GET TO THE ACTUAL PLOT RELEVENT ONES. BUT OF COURSE THEY WERE SENT IN AFTER THE TOPIC CHANGED #ohhh and i didnt even MENTION the ones that i would always instantly delete #the “*walks in and smiles* well whats going on here?” just LOOK!!!! READ!!!!! FIND OUT YOURSELF #IT GOT TO A POINT WHERE I WOULD GET MORE OF THOSE THAN ACTUAL QUESTIONS #just. ugh. no wonder it stopped being fun #i get it. make art for myself and all that. i try to.#but i fucking hate being alone here man.#i know what its like to have other people have fun with it with me and it feels like thats so fucking rare now. i dont know #doesnt help that i can't form connections over the internet. especially since every time i've talked about this irl i've been laughed at <3 #this is all dumb as hell whatever. going to bed #probably just PMS tbh none of this matters who give a shit

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fagmegumi · 1 year ago

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THEY FUCKING CANCELED TBOYS CLUB LMAOOOOOOOOO

#im gonna fucking. oh my god.#after the TIME ive been having. i had ONE fucking thing i was looking forward to god fucking damn it #pride is literally the one thing that reliably brings me joy i wait for it all year . and i was out of rome during the week with all the #good non corporate inclusive etc events in LONDON with my cousing doing FUCKALL bc she was in a bad mood over arguing with her shitty bf (i #hope jakey dies)#then pride march yesterday was literally so terrible too overcrowded super mismanaged it was my SIXTH rome pride so I know how it usually #goes and it WASNT it . only highlight was hanging out w gio tbh #and the ONE fucking thing i was holding onto. thinking well at least i have this and itll give me that queer joy and communion I literally #hold onto to survive. especially the idea of being in a place where my correct gender is assumed for FUCKING ONCE which NEVER happens not #even in lgbt places. where I could cope with the knowledge i will probably not be able to transition for a couple years at LEAST and if/#when i ever do im in for a terrible hellish situation with my family. and celebrate the now and get hope that maybe its livable maybe i can #keep pulling on this rope until one day im safe and it wont snap in the meantime.#and its fucking GONE. GOD damnit.

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skrunksthatwunk · 1 year ago

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ok yakuza 6 spoilers and not a very insightful post but every time i remember how young haruka is when she has haruto i get sooo nervous lol. she's like NINETEEN. what the FUCKK

#i know conceptually that ppl have kids that young but.woah #i guess it didnt happen a lot in the ppl i went to school with/i didnt pay that much attention to it/stigma led to minimization of it #like she has to take care of a whole baby now. she has to be a mother and take on the kinda role kiryu had #while also kinda managing the orphanage relatively alone bc kiryu bailed. wtf wtf #idk. i think im kinda squeamish about pregnancy in general a little? but especially that young like.ough #good or bad wanted or not having a kid is a big fucking deal and it scares me a little idk. especially since haruto WAS unintentional #like whats she gonna do for a job. she probably cant do college soon (if ever) and shes probably blacklisted from showbiz entirely #so even if she wanted to do behind the scenes work she couldnt #even with yuta's help it'd be a stretch. and then theres rhe other orphans i just. hhhhh aughhhh #man taking care of a baby was hard enough for kiryu and he's like ok teenage daughter. im going hands off like WHAT #i think the ending choices of 6 are fascinating and theres a lotta reasons to criticize kiryu within that but leaving her with effectively #7 younger siblings and a baby is one i dont see talked about enough tbh #rgg #its SCARY. I'M SCARED.#im sooo fucking worried about my future and haruka's looks even more terrifying to me so it just activates shit in my brain

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nthflower · 2 years ago

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Tumblr is always like social norms are evil and stupid and hurt people that doesn't fit in (which is extremely true and I say this all the time too)

But the moment someone do something here stupid everybody is like turn into hive mind and bully them.(not racism or bigoted stuff like terfs idk I am talking about just weird things)

Like people preach be yourself, current social norms are fucked up then mock you for not following Tumblr culture or whatever.

#people who make angry posts to other users about tumblr etiquette etc.#like how dare you spam liking my blog how can you not know this is wrong why are you not thinking #or how dare you asking them something because you cared you clowns go learn unwritten tumblr interaction etiquette rules #we love people who dont understand social norms easily tho 😌#ughhhhh i am angry #and this is not about me btw all my interactions in Tumblr was amazing following and follower #but some other post that u saw #like yeah they are annoying maybe why are you mocking or smugly mean about it just teach them whats wrong #like its my neurodivergency i know but i genuinely can't see sometimes not wrong i only can find patterns but not explain them #and if you tell me instead of mocking whats wrong here i can then see my problem and just fix it and also it would be amazing for me too #i would also develop as a person #this is my strategy irl tbh first i explain someone what's makes me feel wrong and bad about their thing #then if they don't understand after a while and its hurting me i just then be angry to them and say okay this persom is stupid/annoying #anyways i just especially after starting therapy stopped judging people even when how much weird weird they are #i cant know without asking and i can be same too #rant #long long tags #i should learn telepathy so much i want telepathy its only communication way that would satisfy me

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azurechicken · 1 year ago

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despite the awful ad attempt here, i gave it a go and finally finished watching one piece live action and uhhh its actually good?

#this is going to be very subjective so just a disclaimer #there were really good things they did. i even liked a few changes to the story a little better than the og #but some things were really bad imo. and they left out some core scenes that would change a lot about certain stories. at least for me #its kinda sad because most of them are relevant even now after years of ongoing content #for example koby and garp was done so well i loved to see more on how they got to the point they are #but they left out so many good lines that made the crews relationship in both mihawk fight and sanji's beginning etc #some lines being cut off made some scenes fall flat and felt a lot less emotional than it is supposed to be #i'm not trying to be negative because i think for a live adaptation it was great and i really enjoyed it #i even teared up at some points lmaooo (shanks and bellmere... are we even surprised)#though i think if you already know and enjoy one piece that makes it a whole lot better #i hope they continue filming this tbh i wanna see how they will handle future arcs especially knowing what is next from now on #one piece live action #murmurmur

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paigemathews · 2 years ago

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@fullybeautifultheorist replied to your post “I know I have some drafts that at least mention...”:

Tbh the fact that Cole was possessed doesn't really change much. Cole was egoistical and obsessed murderer in season 3 as well as in season 5. There is literally no meaningful change in his behavior during all 3 season. And even un season 7 he is playing peeping Tom

Hmm, honestly, I see your point, but I think I would disagree. I’m not a fan of Cole’s, by any means, but I think knowing that he did not purposefully become the Source of All Evil and he wasn’t in full control would change things for at least Phoebe. I don’t want to whitewash his sins, because there are many but there is at least some kind of inherent tragedy in his loss of agency and autonomy after he tried to redeem himself. He really was trying to become good, even if it was for flawed reasons. I also think that it could bring either more pain or comfort to Phoebe and the sisters, because on one hand, they hadn’t been tricked so badly that Cole had never actually changed sides but on the other, they’d still been manipulated enough that they thought he never did if that makes sense.

#fullybeautifultheorist #abi speaks #cole turner #anti cole turner #charmed #i have a LOT of issues with cole and his storylines and ESPECIALLY the way his fans treat him #but at the same time i do think that it still mattered. do i necessarily think he's redeemable? ehhh #but i still think that the fact that he did not voluntarily betray the sisters and try to take power #is something that would be important for the sisters to know #like yeah he was a bad person and abusive and it was of his own volition #but at the same time i dont really think its fair that what they see as one of his biggest betrayals was something he had no agency over #or even limited agency over. i dont really know how much agency he had over the source tbh bc they dont really show us but #but it's like. maybe you fail but your choices still MATTERED yknow?#idk if that makes sense #my original post is more about how the sisters deserved to know more than it really changed anything for cole tho like #idgaf about him like sticking the happy ending or whatever but i think that phoebe (and the sisters) deserved to know #idk man i have a lot of thoughts about cole and phoebe and s4 and 5 and they change all the time so #bc i actually never had that much beef with him when i first watched the show (at like fucking. thirteen lmao)#i only started actively disliking him bc of his fans and tbh a decent portion of it still is how so many people act like he was an innocent #when he still had that blood on his hands #and i also havent really rewatched like s3 thru s5 for a hot hot minute especially not consecutively so like #my opinions may do a complete 180 in either direction once i actually. do that #(we're ignoring that i've been saying that for literally two or three years at this point life is time consuming)#annnnnd we're back to tags being longer than the post whoops lmao

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hwanswerland · 1 year ago

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can we stop putting celebrities on horses for aesthetic reasons when they can't ride for shit

#fio.txt #ignore this very specific rant lmao #but the amount of times i just want to scream when i see they've used another horse to make something look cool.........#yes this is about h*rry st*les #didnt even know he had a new mv but saw gifs on here #and like #deep breaths #i am weeping inside #his posture is bad first of all but not actually as horrible as it could have been #but even so he's not actually moving with the horse and that's just 😭#the tack looks cool yeah but why the fuck would you give a rider with unsteady and therefore harsh hands #the reins that are attached to a leverage bit where basically the entire point is to NOT have constant contact #LOOSE REINS being a keyword here #like that's gonna cause pain every time he yanks on the reins #which isnt even his fault tbh like yeah friesians are gorgeous horses but theyre literally bred to look flashy nowadays #and theyre not very nice and easy to sit on for that reason esp not in trot when youre not used to such gaits #so please can we just get doubles that wont fall into the horses back with every step #this isnt just about him its about almost every scene where they just put random people on a horse #especially with either ill fitting or bits that are not suited for how unsteady the riders hands are #and its just painful to look at #at least they opted out of giving him spurs #but like for the love of god when you have so much money then put it to use somehow. take some lessons or pay someone who has actual skills #not even getting into the horse girl tv shows where i just want to rip my hair out bc so often thats just not how its done #thats not how it works and thats definitely not fucking bits you give to beginners ever unless youre a cruel human being who hates animals #well anyway. enough ranting

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verytendou · 1 year ago

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how was the new little mermaid movie did u like it

I liked it!! And as a certified live action disney hater that really surprised me! I genuinely cannot think of the last disney remake i saw in theaters that wasn’t just like soul eating but this one was super fun and very cute and really makes you root for the characters! Its a bit tone deaf at parts but like tbh its disney so like honestly the rest of it was fine! I cannot defend most of the cgi but i can say you get used to it and flounder is far and away the worst character in terms of design and all the ocean scenery was genuinely beautiful and cool to see on the big screen!

#there is one scene thats meant to be like touching and heartfelt and i need you to know the theater burst out laughing #like its been a while since ive heard a theater reaction like that so it was definitely memorable #she was on screen crying and literally the theater could not stop laughing 😭😭#i do think the middle was fucking great though #i think the beginning and end are a little weaker but tbh the middle was soooooo fun and funky fresh and cool so i liked it lots #oh and i love halle okay i do i had ungodly hour on repeat for like two years but smfnkdjssk i am also a musical lover…#and she is not BAD at singing but the problem is she is GOOD at it and is good at it in the way a like album singer is vs a musical singer #bc its DIFFERENT and that definitely came through and its not BAD but its not musical either so that threw me off a bit #i genuinely think its unnoticeable if you dont have issues like i do bc none of the ppl i watched it with said anything #one of them is a disney adult basically though so lmfao maybe they dont count but NO ONE ELSE said anything #its so so so so fun though like i cannot overstate that enough like i am a genUINE hater people know this i can and will hate anything #i barely need a reason i can just do it and this movie had me laughing and having a good time before we even hit the halfway mark #so that was very impressive to me bc as mentioned i 1. love to hate and 2. was prepared to hate this so i liked it thumbs up #i definitely have thoughts on some of the new music…. but once again i have problems. i liked it 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍#v.txt #genuinely everyone slayed actually wait awkwafina was weird that was a weird bad choice casting her but EVERYTHING ELSE good 👍#melissa mccarthy especially came out swinging but also i dont like the tag here bc why are there more gifsets of the random white girl than #there are of halle 🥴🥴🥴 but whatever thats unrelated MOVIE I LIKED AND WAS FUN!!!

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perenlop · 1 year ago

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well i finished renegade. i sure was renegading all over the place

#it was alriiiight.... but man i hate to say it but i think i have more complaints than praises #i DID like florins new execution route and i liked talons deal. the entire end of night spell deal was horrifying and i loved it #i love that genre of horror like ''you die twice when you get forgotten after death''#so seeing it play out here was horrifying in a good way. talon and amber's deaths were both so fucking good like goddamn #they were just as heartbreaking as they needed to be. especially ambers like when you go talk to tesla after #but. man i dont think meta games are for me cause ngl i was sorta just like ''aight.'' to most of the meta here #like that was the one thing about talon i didnt care for. i thought ''everyone i know and love is going to die and god is screaming at me''#was a fine enough motivation to go crazy and become a rift. i thought it was compelling and tragic and a good thing to do #with a new character. but then he started going ''in older versions of the game i wasnt even there i was just a prop for the backstory''#and thats sorta when i started tuning out. like i cant explain why but i feel it made the scene more... cheap?#i think just cause personally ive seen that motivation a lot in meta games before and its gotten old to me #tbh the entire meta angle is whats really dragging this down to me. dont get me wrong i love eizen and his scenes #but i dont see why we have to canonize the game's update cycles as like a critical part of the world #and then theres m2 who i have mixed feelings on. cause i love the character type of ''ive been through so much shit idc anymore''#and they end up being kinda goofy and saying inappropriate/out of pocket things while trying not to discuss The Horrors #ive written more than one of those types of characters. but with m2 its like she doesnt know how to turn that off #like spacea and tiempa's deaths being a tera raid parody where they joke about being in a crashing plane and get bashed by extra melias #it just felt like. unfitting. (also a nitpick but goddamn that scene made my head hurt with how much the screen wobbled)#like really? this is the sendoff they get in the fucked up and evil route? and idk i just dont think m2 was all that funny.#she was more grating than anything tbh. and i just feel like her existence and the bad timeline is just Too Much #like there were already so many plotlines and arcs and do we Really need a new-ish character right before the climax #idk. im hoping v14 is more cohesive in this department #for now im taking a much needed break from this game lol

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andragoras-in-vanity · 2 months ago

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god i love james wans movies, theyre so bad but so good

#like some of them are bad at being horror but good at being drama and im here for it #i have mixed feelings about the warrens irl but them in the movies 😭😭 i need a husband like that #i hate them they made me attracted to patrick wilson and thats not okay #but fuck by the third movie lorraine knowing him so well she keeps his heart medication in her locket😭😭😭#because he goes running without thought to save her even when she doesnt need saving #even when she CAN handle it herslef she never needs to push through the worry or fear #because he just always instantly there #but as for the annabelle movies i still think the real doll is creepier than the dead silence leftover prop BUT he or someone on his team #knows not only horror but ghosts #and its impressive to me all the things they split between annabelle and the nun/valak that are legitimate haunting experiences #its the room turning darker the longer you look into it amd the horned things smile #and the yellow eyes that they onlt gave to the nun #because i honestly believe that showing it in its true form with all of these traits would give it power #and like...release it #anyway the two movies i wanted to watch arent up for streaming ans im too lazy to get my laptop out for it #cause im actually maybe gonna play a game on it duh #but fuck i do think james wan doesnt pull punches with jumpscares while also creating compelling characters #especially if those characters are fully damned from the beginning #idk maybe i feel this way because of my paranormal experiences but i genuinely do like jumpscare horror when its done well #becayse his is #and also he know how just Bad malignant was and he did it anyway😭#annabell creation was the best by far tho horrorwise #plotwise i do love the conjuring 2 even though they werent involved with the enfield haunting #after their initial interview they werw told to fuck off by the family ans morris rosse was the main investigator #but valak was sexy and it was such a lovely portrayal of their relationship #tbh annabelle is good but it just makes me a little sad because she nearly loses her baby #that stuff kinda gets to me not as horror but as like a personal thing #ill still watch it tho im not a baby i can deal with that shit but just i know i probably cant have kids and wouldnt survive if i tried so #anyway james wan haters get fucked his movies are good when hes the one directing them

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