#evan buckley has a lot of feelings

[lyricfulloflight]

You know what I can’t get over? The episode were buck was trying to get Ts attention - it reminds me so much of that scene in 2x01 where buck and Eddie are in the gym and buck is trying to get eddies attention. Yes it’s passive aggressive but it’s giving that same sense of look at me - or maybe I’m just nuts lol

I think the parallels were deliberate. so I can completely understand why you are hung up on them!

The whole episode, s7e4, in my opinion is about Buck processing his feelings - and he has a lot of them. I think he is trying to get Eddie's attention back on him frequently in the episode and certainly in the gym scenes at the firehouse (Tommy isn't even there, so who else could he be trying to earn attention from other than Eddie?).

However, I think Buck is also drawn to Tommy and wants to get to know him, which we see in the opening scene when Buck seeks Tommy out and asks him about flying.

I think that episode is a good example for how two things can be true at once: Buck can be attracted to Tommy, that new fizzy-new-crush feeling, and he can also be deeply connected to his friendship with Eddie that might be more than friendship (though I am pretty sure Buck doesn't see it that way right now).

If the show didn't want these two truths to co-exist, I think they would have shot that episode, and frankly most of this season, quite differently.

[tenisperfection]

An underrated thing about the bachelor party scene where Tommy hugs Buck before going to work is Buck's small little "yeah, okay" when Tommy promises him that he'll try his damnedest to make it to the wedding. It is such a small moment but maybe because of his history of love interests putting work over him as well as his own abandonment issues, there is a part of Buck that doesn't look like he believes Tommy, that takes it as what someone says when they leave and don't come back or intend to come back, even when Buck waits and waits (I'm going to be right here when you come back, okay?). So the fact that Tommy literally ran from the fire to the hospital, still in his turnouts and covered in soot, all because he promised Buck he would try his best to show up and he meant it? I love that for Buck. I love the look on his face as he reads Tommy's text, because this might be new but it is good for him to finally feel like a priority in a romantic relationship in ways he's not experienced before.

[reqvlvs]

being a buddie stan with eddie as your favorite character is realizing that it feels like nobody ever really cared about buddie, only buck's happiness. despite it being buck and eddie, deep down people only ever really wanted it because it benefited buck, and now that tommy's there, eddie doesn't matter. its going back in fics and realizing that it was only ever really about buck. eddie atoning for his sins and chasing after buck, eddie taking care of buck, eddie getting the shovel talks to never hurt buck, and it was barely the other way around.

idk i like buck and i like this fandom but it just feels like no one ever really cared about eddie. bucktommy (i refuse to call it tevan and bummy is rude) is fine and all that, but its nothing exceptional and regardless of it i still ship buddie and always will. i just wish people care for eddie just a fraction of the way they cared about buck, or that they viewed buddie as an equal relationship (if they even still care about it) but it just doesn't seem that way. it feels like as long as buck is benefited, who he's shipped with doesnt matter, eddie be damned.

this is just my opinion, you don't have to agree, and the opinion might be skewed from the perspective of an eddie stan, it just feels weird now idk. i just wish the appreciation for both characters was more equal but i know that's not how it works. just some thoughts i wanted to share.

[wolvesofinnistrad]

I know Tommy is technically friends with Chimney and worked with everyone except Buck and Eddie, but I'd love it if Tommy just like... retroactively takes Buck's side in every past trauma Buck has had where he didn't have anyone truly on his side.

Aka Tommy being like "Chimney PUNCHED you?! They laughed when they found out your Therapist had SEX with you during a session!!? He called YOU exhausting??!"

[motherfracker]

Has anyone else thought about the fact that Maddie and Chimney make a big deal out of calling Buck "Uncle Buck" for the first time after Jee-Yun was born in 4x09? But by this point, he's already close with Eddie and Christopher, but no one assumes that that's what he'd be to Chris.

Considering the 118 have witnessed the argument in the grocery store, Buck planned Christmas for the 118 because of Christopher (Hen witnessed him asking if he could spend Christmas with Buck), Buck telling Maddie that he's not really a guest at Eddie's house, Eddie telling Chim that the 118 is the family they chose, helping to build a skateboard for Chris (which Eddie puts on his own Instagram account), and Buck talks about his concerns for Chris going away to camp in front of the 118. Like all of this happens before Jee is born.

But no one makes that assumption. Buck is not considered an uncle until Jee-Yun.

That just stood out to me on my rewatch. Even before we found out about the will at the end of season four, it was already established that everyone sees Buck as Eddie's co-parent to Chris. Before he even truly takes on that parental role after Eddie gets shot.

He is his Buck. And his Buck is synonymous with dad.

[loosethreadsofyoursoul]

i just spent my morning learning the 9-1-1 magnet theory lore and now i can’t see straight

[redwhitebuddie]

looks like tommy is coming back for season 8

[buckleyseddie]

Eddie, I have been Ana. I know what it’s like to be in love with someone who is not all the way in. Deep down, you know and it hurts. It hurts worse than the truth. So if you don’t want to hurt Ana, you owe it to her to be honest.

[grapejuicegay]

Sometimes I just start thinking about this moment - paired with Maddie's "I just think that maybe you're not sure of your own feelings yet. And if there's something that you need to tell Eddie, you will. Just, in your own time" - and then don't stop thinking about it.

Maybe I'm just reading into it but the way this moment moves. Eddie steps forward, Tommy steps up to exactly where Eddie was, Buck turns to look where Eddie was, doesn't find what he was looking for but still finds something good. It's not just ep 4 and 5 where the focus on Eddie blows me away, it's also this.

[deluweil]

So obviously, my opinions this season are unpopular, but I'm actually good with that,

To those who stick with me, I have some thoughts I want to share regarding to the continuation of this season.

We see clear signs of other pairings from other shows in 911, this season I have yet to spot CF, but there is a LOT of The Rookie and Station 19 here.

Especially with the wedding, and the BuckTommy of it all.

Wedding - In the Rookie - Lopez gets kidnapped and Jackson (who was her rookie and they were very close) gets killed off. (I cried a LOT) - Now we're going to have a kidnapped groom instead of bride, and Lou says Tommy is going to play a part in the story, obviously neither Buck or Eddie were with Chimney when he was taken, but a death is a possibility here and I'm kind of dreading it, because the ideas between The Rookie and 911 this season are very similar.

The BuckTommy thing - Two schools of thought on this one -

The Rookie - In the WesleyLopez wedding Bradford and Lucy share a dance before they get together. And Bradford dates Ashley and Lucy dates Chris only for Chris to nearly get killed and Chenford to end up together. But it all gets kinda of jumpstarts at the wedding.

Station 19 - We have Vic and Theo in the Marina wedding, while Miller is very much in love with Vic but doesn't tell anyone except for Gibson, who tries to urge him to tell her. "He's just some guy, you're like her favorite person in the whole world." - Miller doesn't tell her, and ends up taking that love with him to his grave a few episodes later, and Vic realizes her feelings for him in retrospect - freaking heart breaking. In both options, we have a slow burn secret love and both end with a death - so you can see my concern here - either we get buddie as our endgame but may mourn Tommy in the process, or we get BuckTommy with an unrequited love that is taken to the grave and the new favorite pairing ends up in trouble like Vic and Theo in Station 19, and Buck has to live with the heartbreak of a love he never knew.

I hate this. I'm not ready to cry yet this season.

I hope that since Tim is not Shonda, we get the Rookie storyline (minus the death) and we end up with an eventual buddie. - Because the alternative is just too heartbreaking to consider.

[min-kit]

https://www.tumblr.com/min-kit/747586253787217920/lol-yeah-tommy-is-absolutely-sticking-around-by

I’m not saying he’s not staying longer than planed but with Oliver you have to also take his interviews with many grains of salt. Like love him to death but he also says things like this about every possible LI he gets. Just look at the last few interviews from season 6 where he was going on about the future of Buck and Natalia and how excited he was is to see it play out in season 7 and explore their dynamic etc. and then we all saw what happened with that lol.

to be fair, when he said those things, Fox hadn't cancelled 9-1-1 yet & ABC hadn't picked it up. for all he figured, Buck & Natalia could've been something in s7 had it been on fox and things didn't play out the way they did. & I don't blame him for saying things like this about every LI cuz I'm sure he prob hopes at least 1 will stick around for some time. Buck has certainly drawn the short end of the stick as far as LI's go, but Tommy is incredibly different than any of his past LI's and, frankly, whether you like BuckTommy or not, it'd be stupid to just brush him aside when this pairing allows for a ton of new, rich storylines that they can tell.

And isn't getting Buck off that hamster wheel Kristen put him on in seasons 5 & 6 the entire point of this?

[subtlehaz]

can I share something that might be an unpopular opinion? is this a safe space?

so obvs The Lawsuit™️ gets talked about all the time. and while I understand Buck’s thinking… do I necessarily agree a whole lawsuit was the way to go? depends on the day. but! what I wanna know that I don’t see a ton of discourse about, is do we think Buck forgave Bobby too quickly with the treatment he gave post-lawsuit (and the treatment that led to the lawsuit in the first place tbh)?

the whole reason the lawsuit happened is because of what Buck essentially considered as Bobby’s betrayal. we know about the Divorce Era with Eddie that happened BECAUSE OF the lawsuit, we know Hen was the only one to properly welcome Buck back with a cupcake and not really hold the lawsuit against him, but we also know Bobby was still kind of a d!ck and influenced the behaviors of the rest of the 118 after the lawsuit.

we really just see Buck at the hospital after getting checked out because he cut his arm saving those people on Halloween, and Bobby showing up and being like, ‘hm, maybe you are ready to come back’ and Buck is like ‘wanna get breakfast’ 🤨

am I the only one that kind of wishes Buck like. acknowledged Bobby’s behavior? like I get he was just so grateful to have it all over, to be back to properly working etc. but NOTHING?! I mean maybe he felt so bad about the lawsuit he didn’t care? Idk someone talk this out with me

[youregonnabeokay-kid]

ADHD information for fanfic writers:

Diagnostic Process:

the diagnostic process is different in every country, but this is a basic overview

- an ADHD referral can come from any type of doctor, unlike referrals for other neurodivergences

- the wait list depends on where you live and how old you are. typically the younger you are, the shorter the wait

- ADHD has to be diagnosed by a psychiatrist or by a doctor who has taken a specialized course to be certified in diagnosing and handling ADHD

- most doctors will make you fill out a questionnaire about your mental health. these questionnaires involves sections about family history, personal history, and statements that you have to agree or disagree with

- a good psychiatrist won’t diagnose you with ADHD during your first visit. they will instead spend the first few visits getting to know you and the state of your mental health

- most people are assessed for depression when being assessed for ADHD. this is because depression can present itself in similar ways. if diagnosed with depression and open to medication, the psychiatrist will first prescribe antidepressants and see how those affect you before moving on with the ADHD assessment

Meds:

- most ADHD meds are taken in the morning since they normally wear off after 8-12 hours

- when meds wear off we go through what’s known as a “crash” or “medication rebound”

- ADHD crashes are pure hell which is why some people with ADHD choose to only take meds during the week or they do nothing on the weekend as a reset of sorts

- basically, when our meds wear off all of our symptoms come back at the same time and we get overstimulated to the point of exhaustion

- some people have smaller doses of their meds that they take at the beginning of the crash. this means they can prolong the crash by a couple hours

- for some people, the first time taking meds is hell. the change is very noticeable and abrupt. i wouldn’t stop talking because it was “too quiet” (it being my mind)

- your dosage is not based on body type or weight and just because you take a high dose in one drug doesn’t mean you take a high dose in all others (my ADHD meds are 10mg higher than the highest prescribed amount but my antipsychotics are .5mg lower than the lowest prescribed dose)

- vyvanse is most often prescribed to people with combo ADHD, ritalin to those with hyperactive ADHD (especially those with impulsivity issues), and adderall for inattentive (no, this is not something that is typically disclosed or well-known but if you’ve talked to enough people w/ ADHD you begin to see a pattern) other ADHD meds are available but less likely to be prescribed

- other meds are also taken into account when getting a prescription for ADHD. vyvanse is the most versatile and is usually the one prescribed if you’re on other medications

- ADHD meds are stimulants which means doctors will never give you refills (if they do, they could lose their license)

- since they’re stimulants, for the first year you have to go to the psychiatrist’s bi-weekly for the first few months, then monthly after that so they can see how you are doing

- ADHD meds are known for lowering sex drives and increasing hunger (sometimes the opposite may happen, as with most drugs, but these are most common)

- it takes about 1/2 hour to an hour for meds to kick in and many of us are able to tell the exact moment they start working

Other Substances:

- the neurons and chemicals in the body of an ADHD person are fucked. this means that many substances and medications have either no effect on us, or the opposite effect of what they are intended for

speaking from personal experience:

- caffeine makes me tired

- melatonin and other sleeping aids like dextromethorphan, which can be found in many cough syrups, make me hyper

- weed makes me feel lighter, but it never affects me more than that. i never get a “proper high” like other people (ie; i find no more joy or fascination in bright colours or moving objects than i usually do)

- while “sugar highs” in general are a myth, they’re real for people with ADHD! they stimulate our dopamine and opioid receptors which gives us a burst of energy

- additionally, people with ADHD are more likely to be addicted to illegal stimulants like cocaine because it calms them down (yup, you read that right. when someone with ADHD does cocaine their mind quiets and they mellow down instead of the usual hyper-active high that neurotypicals get)

Additional Information:

- we’re lacking some of the neurotransmitters in our brains so it takes us longer to process information, and we have “more” thoughts than neurotypicals since our additional thoughts aren’t processed out

- we get what’s called “executive dysfunction” or “ADHD paralysis” where we are physically unable to do things despite no real physical limitations (for non-ADHD folks: try putting your hand in fire. you’ll notice that you are either physically unable to or that your body somewhat restrains you from doing it. this is what executive dysfunction is like. for ADHD folks: do not try this since we’re also less likely to have self-preservation instincts)

- basically, i can sit for hours thinking about doing the dishes, screaming at myself in my head to just do them, but i’m still unable to

- we leave trails! we have so many thoughts going through our head that we forget them all the time, so when we get a thought like “i think the printer is low on paper, i should check” we abandon all tasks in favour of the new thought. however, the remains of those tasks stay where we left them, and thus, an ADHD trail is made

- we have both the worst and best memory of anyone you will ever meet. i might be able to tell you the exact outfit you wore on a specific day five years ago but i won’t remember what i ate for breakfast

- when we get bored, we get depressed. like, life is meaningless and i want to curl up in a ball and die depressed. sometimes we need someone to physically force us out of bed to get us out of our funk (and sometimes all it takes to get out of the funk is doing something fun which makes us feel ridiculous when we think about how depressed we were prior)

- since boredom is detrimental to us, we have to constantly be having fun which, in and of itself, is not fun. this is also why a lot of us end up doing shift work or working dangerous jobs

- we’re adrenaline junkies. this isn’t even a “most of us” situation, it’s all of us. the only difference is how we get that adrenaline. (some get it by jumping out of a plane, others get it by working on assignments in a time crunch)

- we’re social beings. even if we’re introverts, we thrive on social interactions. without them our dopamine plummets and we, once again, get depressed

- all silences are awkward to us. it doesn’t matter if you’re the person we’re most comfortable with in the world, silence is always awkward. or, more specifically, we feel like we need to fill it which is why we often ramble

obviously there’s far more to ADHD than just this and everything can change person by person but i hope this helps to gain a bit more of a general understanding on ADHD

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Actually, yeah I’m still stuck on the rug that Eddie is trapped under. Eddie trapped under a rug half on a couch and trapped by a fridge.

So we have a couch which we know is the metaphor for both family  and romance. We have fridge theory which is tied into family, dynamics how they change and how they grow. The fridge theory is also about love, love being found in the fridge and or on the fridge. Fridge theory connects into food is love and preparing meals for your family.

And then we have Eddie trapped under a rug by these two items - literally trapped by these two metaphors that are so clearly about family - about building a family. Eddie who hasn’t uttered a word about the will and what it means for him, for Buck, for Christopher and the three of them as an entity since he was shot. Sweeping it under the rug might have worked so far in the not having/ wanting to talk about ‘because that means facing up to and reckoning with his feelings about Buck’ game but Eddie is going to have to come out from that rug in order to save himself and save others. He’s at risk of being caught up in an explosion from the propane canister that is leaking - an unintentional bomb which is active and on a countdown and off Eddie runs out of time the explosion would take out more than just himself.

[insecuregodcomplex]

I would also just like to take a chance to say that, while I didn’t like Oliver’s approach or answer either, to me, it’s not coming from a place of biphobia. I think he made a mistake, and it came across poorly and at a bad time. He’s proven since that first kiss that he cares deeply about Buck’s sexuality — from the start, when he took to his Instagram stories to tell off people who were being rude about it, to recently, with his polite and specific correction to the interviewer who said Buck’s sexuality had changed — and about Buck as a whole. I have my own feelings about the breakup, about how things have been handled, and all of it. But I’ve been seeing more people say that he doesn’t actually care, or never did, and of course I don’t begrudge anyone their anger or sadness or frustration. But personally, this flub does not make me rescind my appreciation for his work.

[nicoleacedit]

I keep remembering that Buck is now canonically bi and I have to like mentally process it all over again. I honestly thought we'd never actually get this. I think I speak for most of us when I say that we've been burned before, scrambling for all the breadcrumbs they'll tease us with but getting 0 follow through. But 911 went there. And as much as this is what I so desperately wanted, I kind of don't know what to do with it because it still seems fake, like I dreamed it up. Like I'll tune in to next week's episode only to find that we just mass hallucinated the whole thing. I'm just not used to shows actually daring to give us the stories we've been begging to see for years.