#especially when it intersects with adhd like this

[starberry-skies]

adhd/emotional permanence can be so confusing sometimes like. after i leave a hyperfixation for whatever reason i think haha that was cool but i didn't like it that much only to find playlists made for characters and complations of memes and videos about them and fanart and have every song for it memorized. what

[cerulity]

About Me

thought i would make this post because why not

My online pseudonym is Cerulity32K, casually Cerulity. Though, my preferred name is Kali.

Though my mental conditions are mild, I do have ADHD (inattentive) and am seeking an autism evaluation. I am also trans (she/they).

But let's get to the good stuff. I excel in computing, especially low-level stuff and graphics (webdev scares me) and math, advanced functions, calculus and linear algebra being the most useful to me. I like to intersect math and computing, and it leads to some pretty fun results, especially when dealing with graphics. My main languages are Rust, C, C++, CUDA, C#, and Python, though I am trying to understand Assembly for a few systems (my laptop [x86_64], NES [6502], and the Atari 2600 [6507]). The main libraries I go to are Raylib and Macroquad for 2D games, and for 3D I go for wgpu, Vulkan, or OpenGL, though wgpu may be the main one I use from now on.

I also do music. My favourite types of music are either loud, distorted songs (FREE.99), literally noise (Portal 2 OST), or electronic-jazz fusion (Creo). I also sometimes make music. It's usually remixes or covers, as I suck at melody crafting, but I have made a couple original songs. I specialize in industrial chiptune and what I like to call "rustcore". My two music environments are LMMS and Furnace, though the latter is the main one I use nowadays.

My favourite game genres are automation, puzzle, and platformer. Factorio, Exapunks, and Celeste are my favourites in those genres respectively.

Other than that, I like to do procedural or subdiv modelling in Blender.

All in all, I'm just a software catgirl :3

[genericpuff]

Was your Kore/Persephone portrayal inspired by dissociative disorders? I interpreted it more as her dark internal monologue that she was suppressing. Like when you have dark thoughts of know things inherently, but try to rationalize your way out of thinking them. I figured it was just a more dramatic way of portraying intrusive thoughts.

Ahh this isn't really a question I can answer with a simple "yes" or "no". Especially when considering everything you just listed are often inherently symptoms of many interlinked mental disorders like DID and BPD haha (especially when it comes to the suppressing).

As I mentioned in my previous post I've been writing these types of characters for years. Uzuki is a big one that comes to mind. I love writing conflicts of the self, mind vs. reality, identity vs. instinct, past vs. present, etc.

CW: BLOOD/GORE, GRAPHIC VIOLENCE, DEPICTION OF TRAUMATIC BREAKDOWNS AND DISSOCIATION AHEAD!!!

(note the black and grey pages are read right to left like a manga, this was from my weeb days LOL)

It wasn't until years later after I was diagnosed with ADHD and autism that I realized my love for those tropes was rooted in something far more internal. Sure, sometimes a trope is just a trope, but now I fully understand why I've found myself pulled back to that trope time and time again, because I myself have struggled with a lot of the same internal conflicts that characters like Uzuki and Kore have struggled with. It wasn't just me loving a trope, it was me finding solidarity and representation in characters who shared my experiences, even if they were largely hypothetical or for the sake of creative expression.

That realization came long before Rekindled, of course, but it hit me like a sack of bricks when it did, as any realization of an undiagnosed disorder tends to do after years of thinking you're just "broken". That said, it's allowed me to explore these topics with even more nuance and understanding, while also pointing out my own weaknesses and blind spots in the pre-conceived notions I had about myself that I was then able to challenge once I knew what was really going on. It was still challenging as it was so personal, but it ultimately made me a stronger person and a stronger writer.

Skip to the future though with Rekindled, everything I just explained is why I was so interested in LO's AoW plotline to begin with, because a lot of it played to my own interests in those sorts of characterizations - consequently, it was one of the plotlines I wanted to overhaul the most when I started coming up with the basis for Rekindled, as I was disappointed that it was forgotten about over the course of S2 and completely retconned by the trial arc. In a weird way, it almost feels like all the time I spent working with characters like Uzuki was preparing me for a character like Kore/Persephone. And conversely, writing about Kore/Persephone has helped me harness my skills more which I can take back with me when it comes time to continue Uzuki's story.

All that said, mental disorders and neurodiversity were never "inspiration" to me when I was learning how to write and/or designing these characters, but that didn't make them any less intersectional. It was more like something that just came naturally to me as someone who is neurotypical and has diagnosed mental disorders (I am my own worst inspirations LOL) and I wanted more characters like that who weren't just automatically "villains". I try to always treat them with care to ensure that I'm being kind to both the characters as well as myself as someone who heavily relates to these experiences, but I'm also not really afraid to express the more "ugly" sides of those experiences either. Especially with characters like Uzuki who are largely problematic to their core in their actions - much of those actions, as I would learn about myself in my own healing journey as well, are often spurred on by a lack of care, empathy, and understanding in their unique struggles.

There is so much I'd love to say about Kore and Persephone's characterizations and what led them to this point, but I got about a paragraph in before realizing that it would be WAY too massive of a spoiler LOL I'm really, really excited to get into it - though nervous too - but I hope that, at the very least, readers can have patience for her as she goes through everything that's on the horizon. There are times it may get ugly, even outright bleak, but that is simply one side of the coin that represents her duality as a goddess - the dreaded Bringer of Destruction, and the merciful Goddess of Spring.

[thatonebirdwrites]

You know me, I love ask games!

📥 🌙 💭 🍰

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

I'm not sure I have a favorite. I love hearing people's thoughts on anything I write. Getting a comment is like a surprise gift, and I delight in each one. I really like it when I get comments on chapters that were really tough to write -- like some of the more intense Korrasami chapters or emotional vulnerable Supercorp ones.

My WIPs on AO3 that I'm slowly updating (and almost finished) are Shared Moments: Book 3.5, Unraveling Realities, and Shattered. In case folks wish to read and comment. ;)

🌙  What time of day do you prefer to write? Why?

Early afternoon or late evening. Sometimes in the middle of the night. It's quieter. Less expectations.

💭 What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

I headcanon that Asami is autistic. (Wrote a whole post on it here.) I also headcanon that Bolin has ADHD, while Avatar Korra is likely the intersection of autism and ADHD.

I headcanon that Kara Zor El crafted her Kara Danvers persona as almost a separate entity from herself. (A bit like the Emanation bodies in Buddhism or Tulpas/'thoughtforms' in Western thought.) I also head canon that Kara Zor El had to have either J'onn (with Brainy's tech) or Nia (with her ability to find memories) help her integrate Red Daughter's memories into her own. This helped her understand Lena better.

I headcanon that Andrea and Lena did date or at least had friends with benefits.

I also headcanon that Sam is Lena's chosen family (as was Jack before he died).

Last but not least, I headcanon that Lena is also fractured like Kara Zor El due to trauma, but it's because of her 'boxes' mentality for dealing with emotions. She definitely has C-PTSD, and I suspect she struggles with understanding who exactly she is because she has all these protective layers and personas she uses to survive.

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

Here's my out of control bookmarks. I can't really choose one as it depends on my mood as to which comfort fic I may return to. So here's a list of ones I have fallen back on when life feels unbearable. All of them are fantastic and I do recommend them to others too.

Fics I've gone back to multiple times for comfort (where I either reread the whole thing, or specific chapters in it; in no real order):

Don't go slow cause you're gonna be someone by robie (Supercorp)

All of @pcrtifacts fics, especially make this place your home

It Belongs in a Museum by Lovedeathcats and Beneath the Surface (Korrasami)

Repairs, Retrofits, and Upgrades by Progman (Korrasami)

Korra, not alone by IslandofMe (Korrasami)

Place in the World by paxbanana (Korrasami)

South by FuzziFox (Korrasami)

one single thread of gold by @autisticlenaluthor and Fresh Pair of Eyes (Supercorp)

Darkness In All Things by @fazedlight (Supercorp)

Privileges by @rustingcat (I also go back to rustingcat's Of Science and Love) (Supercorp)

Lena's Space Log by @mycatismyeditor (Supercorp)

sam's supercorptober 2023 by @sssammichammich (Supercorp)

Hell was the journey (but it brought me heaven) by @luthordamnvers (Supercorp)

You're in my blood, like holy wine by @jazzfordshire and i want something just like this (Supercorp)

Captain Underpants by @asamiontop (Supercorp)

Of Kisses and Kara by TheUnforgivingMinute (Supercorp)

The Shape of Soup by @ekingston (Supercorp)

Permanence by @itllsetyoufree (Supercorp)

let me be easy to love series by @coffeeshib or lay with me (like a renaissance painting) (Supercorp)

See All the Marks of My Wounded Past by @luthordamnvers and @snowydragonscave (Supercorp)

Bury the Dead by @thornedrose44 (Supercorp)

ties that bind by sten06 (Rojarias)

Inhabit by Laetare (Supercorp)

The Magic of Constellations series by @snowydragonscave (Supercorp)

Restoring a Frozen World series by RainbowRosie (Korrasami)

I'll stop there.

I've read an amazing array of fantastic stories. The above I turn to because something in their chapters or prose speaks to my soul when I'm a dark place or struggling with my health. Sometimes it's a way to get me to laugh again. Other times, it's a reminder that even in the darkest of places there is still light and hope. Or the healing journey wraps me up like a weighted blanket.

I don't want anyone to doubt their ability to write and share their stories -- us readers see you. We enjoy your words, and the beauty of your story cascades into our hearts.

Each story leaves its own footprints on our souls.

It's my hope that my own fics will someday end up on someone's else list of favorites.

Anyway, after that bit of sap, I'll end here. Thanks for asking!

[gaelic-symphony]

Please don't feel obligated to answer this publicly or at all... I was wondering how, if at all, do you think being Jewish and neurodivergent impact one another? Does one influence the other? Do they intersect? How does one inform your experience with the other?

So I've had this in my ask box for quite a while because I wanted to take some time to mull it over (and then I forgot about it. Whoops.), and it's a complicated question. I'm not sure I really have an answer to how my Jewishness and my ADHD intersect or inform my experiences with the other, but I do know that a lot of aspects of Judaism really seem to vibe with my neurodivergent brain.

The fact that Judaism has mandatory breaks built into the schedule of life feels like something very ADHD friendly. It's like the Pomodoro Method on a much more macro level: six days of work, one day of rest. And it really is rest. There is no rise and grind, no hustle culture, no veneration of productivity on Shabbat. Productivity is strictly forbidden. And sometimes the ADHD brain just needs that.

I also think the Jewish framework for sin and repentance has been so beneficial in accepting my brain's limitations as a former Twice Exceptional student with ADHD. Because smart kids with learning disabilities or neurodivergences frequently develop a really big fear of failure and inability to accept their own mistakes when pointed out to them, and a lot of that comes from anxiety and perfectionism that they have to develop in order to "reach their potential" and "overcome their disability"--which, of course, is bullshit. And if you grow up in a culture where sin and damnation are used to motivate people through fear, it's no wonder that neurodivergent kids--especially bright ones who do fairly well in school by punishing themselves into success--develop severe anxiety around failure.

But the Jewish concept of sin and repentance is very different. Sin is a part of life. It's something humans do because we are not perfect. Because we are living creatures with animal brains trying to make sense of our existence on this planet and figure out how to share it with others, and we don't always make the right decisions about it. Sure, you should try to avoid sin, but it's not something you have to fear, because you know what happens if you sin? You accept that you messed up, apologize to Hashem and to anyone you may have hurt, do your best to make amends, and try to do better next time. That's it. And I think that's been a very helpful approach to take when I experience failures or setbacks because of my ADHD. I am allowed to make mistakes because that is just part of being alive. And even if I make a really big, catastrophic mistake, there is no mistake I can make that will doom me forever. No matter what mistakes I make today, the sun will rise again tomorrow, and I will keep moving forward, making amends, and trying to do better.

I'd be really interested to hear from other neurodivergent Jews about their thoughts and experiences as well!

P.S. I started writing a Jewish Alex fic based on your earlier ask!

[thetrashthatsmilesback]

Idk who needs to hear this but the genetic and neurological factors behind eating disorders has been known for a while now so anyone who has an eating disorder is neurodivergent even if they miraculously don't have any comorbidities, and the fact that people outside the Ed community never spoke up about how mocking eds was a trend on tiktok for a good two years shows that many people who regularly talk about ableism actually don't care about ableism at all.

Like we could get into how OCD, autism, ADHD, and cluster B personality disorders are all heavily associated with eating disorders, but that's not necessary. Eating disorders themselves count as neurodivergence. But for some reason when people were making "go throw up" jokes on tiktok for two years straight all the accounts I followed which regularly called out ableism were fully silent. It was... Telling to say the least. Eating disorders are seen as okay to mock, especially those of us who purge, because we do it to ourselves right? It's just silly kids wanting to be skinny (not true, even in weight focused eating disorders weight is often not even close to what it's about and triggers to use Ed behaviors are often things like school difficulties, social rejection, abuse, etc) so mocking it is fine right?

And this has always been an issue in the nd community. I've seen people who speak up constantly about ableism use the term "delulu" as if people with psychotic spectrum disorders haven't been telling us to stop using that term since it got popularized. I've seen people who otherwise post about nd awareness suddenly tag something as "narcissistic abuse" as if people with NPD aren't more likely to be victims of abuse than purpetrators. I've known for a while that people who supposedly want to call out ableism don't acknowledge a lot of ableism that happens within their own community, but still. I feel like people don't even mention the fact that eating disorders are a form of neurodivergence. They're seen as something that you have to recover from and if you don't you're somehow in the wrong, when 1/3 of anorexics, and up to 1/2 of bulimics will continue to have symptoms of their disorder for the rest of their lives, and with research finding similar rates for OSFED disorders, ARFID, and BED. I've seen people on this app actually put in their bio "if you're not attempting recovery, don't follow" as if 1) that's any of your business and 2) eating disorders aren't a complex set of disorders primarily caused by the intersection of genetics, neurology, and society.

[bismutharts]

about me

i am Bis/Bismuth, i am in my early 20s and i am dutch. i use he/she pronouns, and i'm genderqueer, a woman, and something else.

besides my creative hobbies i really like history and some related topics, like theology and philosophy. also specifically fashion history has a special place in my heart

i am christian, protestant, i do not feel very connected to the teachings of any particular denomination, but i do strongly believe in universal reconciliation and that also informs some of my more actionable beliefs, like prison abolition.

speaking of beliefs, i am an intersectional feminist, i think transandrophobia and transmisogyny are both useful words, i am an inclusionist regarding the queer community and believe microlabels are useful for those who want to use them. self-diagnosis is useful and valid. i think that's about it for discourse i want to make my stances clear on

i am autistic and adhd and i have dyslexia. i sometimes make art related to these things

what i do

i have a number of creative hobbies i post about. in no particular order, with links to some of my favourites of the thing:

making small zines (1, 2 )

crochet ( 1, 2 )

digital drawing ( 1 , 2 )

circular gallifreyan ( 1 , 2 )

non digital drawing ( 1 , 2 )

poetry ( 1 )

knitting ( 1 )

embroidery, particularly blackwork. i discovered in the making of this post i never posted a finished blackwork piece on this blog, that may change, for now, look at this one

writing of prose, but i don't actually currently post about it. one day

boundaries + information for interaction

if we're having a tense discussion, do not call me Bis, call me Bismuth, or op or some such ofc

some artists don't enjoy when people like their art but don't reblog. while i of course like reblogs, i like any interaction with my art, including if you just leave a like.

do love of course when people leave comments on my art. feel absolutely free to make conjectures on the meanings of my art. i try to not say a lot about what my art means according to me because i want to leave it open to interpretation. so if you want to share yours with me i am overjoyed

i do not accept constructive criticism on anything unless i have stated explicitly in the post i'm looking for it

especially, do not correct my spelling.

[number1villainstan]

Ok you’ve mentioned before that you think everyone in the Hassaikai is autistic (except for Rappa who’s ADHD, rip Tengai) so do you have headcannons on special interests, stims and such for everyone? If so can we hear the ones you have?

A lot of the 8pods are actually AuDHD, so let's sort them out:

Autism only: Chisaki, Tengai, Tabe, Hojo, Nemoto, Katsukame, Irinaka

ADHD only: Rappa (rip)

Both: Kurono, Setsuno, Sakaki

You mentioned comfort items in a different ask, but I have very few headcanons for that--most of what I have are headcanons for special interests, so that's most of what you'll get lol.

Chisaki Kai: Special interest is definitely anatomy/biochemistry, and it's lasted basically since he had the means to start learning about it. So--years. As for stims--he likes having something to chew. This oftentimes conflicts with the mysophobia--he can't just put something in his mouth, but once he's chewing on something he doesn't exactly want to stop. He also likes running his fingers through the fur of his coat. Sometimes he carries Irinaka around in plushie form because he needs something soft to carry and he knows that since it's Uncle Joi nobody can say a damn thing about it. Lots of tactile stims for Kai, although he may also use music as a stim sometimes, just put in some earbuds and listen to a specific song on repeat for hours. He does not do well when overstimulated, too, and hates overhead lights.

Kurono Hari: Special interest would be mechanical stuff and engineering--the lab that's featured in canon? He fucking built most of it while in the grip of a series of the unholy offspring of special interest and hyperfixation. He likes to play with gears and springs and pieces of metal that Kai often Overhauls into specific shapes for him (like joints and things). He also often has Kai weld together pieces of metal using Overhaul. He has a lot of motion stims, probably tends to get up and move around a lot, especially when he needs to think. He didn't do so well in school for this exact reason. Like Kai, he also likes to carry Uncle Joi around in plushie form.

Irinaka Joi: I don't have any specific stims in mind for him, but I do think he likes being in plushie mode in part because of species dysphoria but also because lights/sounds/All The Stimulation is blunted and lessened somewhat, and because plushie mode doesn't feel pain unless you handle it really roughly. (That's part of why he lets his nephews carry him around, because he's hard to hurt in that form and because they often really need it.) It's easy to imagine that he gets overstimulated really easily, or that he's photosensitive when in human form.

Nemoto Shin: Special interest is definitely psychology and sociology--he's very interested in learning how humans think and behave, in part because he needed to know stuff like that to survive as a teenager/young adult bouncing between gangs and living off of the money he got from conning people. That knowledge of psychology is really helpful as the leader of the Precepts as well. He also suppressed a lot of his stims during this time, and is still rediscovering them.

Sakaki Deidoro: I like to think that his special interest is linguistics. He knows several languages and often talks with Nemoto about the intersection of language and psychology. Possibly he stims with the fur on his vest the same way Kai stims with the fur on his jacket. He also likes the feeling of someone playing with his hair, but obviously only a select few are allowed to.

Setsuno Touya: His special interest is history. He can talk about various periods that he's studied for hours, and often goes looking for primary sources to confirm what secondary ones are saying. Recently he's been looking into the history of the yakuza. Like Kurono, he has trouble paying attention/absorbing information that he's not super interested in when he's sitting still, so he tends to fidget a lot and has developed some motion stims.

Hojo Yu: I said geology once for his special interest and I'm sticking with it.

Tabe: I don't have any specific special interest for him. I think he likes chewing on things too, when the hunger from his Quirk is more manageable. (Kai actually created some nontoxic very slowly dissolving pill-like-things that can last for a few hours in Tabe's gut to alleviate that hunger.)

Katsukame Rikiya: I'm stealing your headcanons for this guy--dogs, gorillas, and foxes.

Rappa Kendo: I decided that he liked bugs as a kid so now he likes bugs now. Chisaki has yelled at him several times for bringing them inside the compound.

Tengai Hekiji: Since he canonically lived most of his life in a Buddhist monastery, and I headcanon him as somewhere in his early 50s, he probably knows a lot about Buddhism and Buddhist history. You could say his special interest is Buddhism.

[yansurnummu]

Nine people you'd like to know better

tagged by @thana-topsy! thank you for this! <3

3 ships all of the ships that have me right now are eso and either oc/ oc or oc/canon lol oops Drals/Azandar: my catty old queens... ugh I just love how their dynamic is shaping up in my fic. I don't want to spoil too much since I still have a ton I haven't posted, but some of my favourite scenes I've written with them is weirdly the ones where they're having arguments and things get worse before they get better. It's just been so fun to explore Drals' inner conflict of not believing he deserves nice things, and then Azandar comes in with a fuckin sledgehammer like he's on HGTV like "ok we've gotta take down ALL THESE WALLS" Asha-ammu/Donobhan: they are so special to me <3 I love vampire/human dynamics in general, but so often the vampires are the smooth, sexy ones (not to say Asha isn't incredibly sexy, they're just Nervous) so it's been fun to explore how Asha being autistic and aromantic intersect with them being a vampire. Also Don is a sweetheart and I love him a lot. probably the healthiest dynamic of all my ships. Sadryn/Ember: honourable mention because I haven't really talked about them here at all, but my gf and I have talked a lot about them and they've been sneaking back into my thoughts again. it's one of those relationships where u just wanna grab her by the shoulders and go "GIRL WHAT ARE U THINKING, HE'S DUMB AS ROCKS & THE ONLY THING HE OWNS IS A DIRTY MATTRESS ON THE FLOOR" but she just thinks he's such a fun silly lil guy and wants to put him in a petri dish and study his red flags under a microscope I guess the pattern is that I loooove conflict & drama and when ships are messy and complicated!!

First ship good god... this is fitting because my gf and I were JUST talking about weeb phases and how I was a kid during that like 2006-2010 weaboo golden age of deviantart & pirating anime LOL. I can't remember exactly but I'm sure it was naruto? probably narusasu or something

Last song early sunsets over monroeville - my chemical romance (this is my comfort album and I'm not sorry)

Currently reading I finally started reading the Drizzt books, though so far I have mixed feelings about it. we'll see if I keep going!

Last film my parents made me watch Terminator because I'd never seen it LOL (I'm really bad when it comes to movies... there's a LOT I haven't seen, especially when it comes to the last 10 years or so)

Currently craving ough I want banh mi sooooo bad. I'm on week 3 of recovering from a slipped disk in my back and it's also been snowing here so I have not exactly been eating well :( (I will live I'm not like starving lol I'm just that flavour of ADHD where if I eat the same thing too often/ too many times in a row my brain tries to kill me)

I tag @tilliphont @aviel-the-trans-bucket @toastannas @sassyfahliil @sniperviper @shadylex and @caliblorn if y'all want to! and anyone else who feels like it :)

[microsuedemouse]

that whole thing about people making characters in fanfiction talk and think in modern social justice terminology or identify with hyperspecific microlabels or whatever... ties in a lot with many other issues we see in discourse around fiction, in general

the relationship to 'all my media must be Morally Pure' is pretty obvious, imo - making all of our characters talk as if they are fully versed in real-world 21st century intersectional politics, and also have had eight years of deep-reaching and successful therapy

but also, there's a strong connection with the notion of how like... so many people want all of their representation - especially queer and neurodivergent rep, from what I've seen - to be not only present but also *very explicitly stated and described.* which, to a certain degree, I understand, but also... it's just not realistic, nor is it necessarily even the best way to go

lots of people get through life quite happily without the specific language to describe their experience of the world - perhaps even without the full knowledge that their experience Can be described specifically. lots of people don't feel the need to apply labels to everything, or perhaps never find labels that feel entirely accurate or useful. you will see me self-describe with as 'ace, bi, and non-binary' - but I very genuinely do not feel any need to label the ways in which I am queer. I use these as shorthand to let others know roughly where I'm at, and to relate to other people and their experiences... but I don't need them. all three are, at best, vague indicators of where I fall with regards to gender and attraction. many folks will use different words because they're coming from another time, another place, another language. many people will never learn there are words that might fit them. many people won't really care.

in both fic and original work, over the years, I've written tons of characters who are ace, or bi, or autistic, or ADHD, or chronically ill, or mixed-race, or etc. etc., but never use any especially specific terms to refer to those experiences. a lot of them don't even spend that much time thinking about it. in fact, with many of them, it's at most only implied in-fiction - gestured at, alluded to, but never expressly described. frequently it's at least in part because the story just isn't really about that. but also, it's because finding that language isn't a priority for them, or else that they exist in a setting where it wouldn't make sense for them even to stumble across it. (it is, believe it or not, a very Online thing to be as obsessed with labels and language as many of us are in fandom spaces like tumblr and AO3. I'm not saying no one outside these circles cares about labels and stuff, but a LOT of people don't care that much, either.) on top of that, especially when you're talking about original work... leaving things up to interpretation allows your audience to fill things in themselves. I want to build in the space for headcanons. I want my readers to be able to see what they'd like to see. to me personally, the character that tons of audience members can see themselves in, all in different ways, is often better representation than a character who is Very Specifically One Thing. not always! but often.

this is pretty much just a stream of consciousness rn, and I'm definitely not covering all my bases, but it's just... something I find myself reflecting on in fandom lately. you can write a character to match all your headcanons and experience all the feelings you want them to experience without needing them to say all the applicable words.

[rose-from-ashes]

More thoughts about Cei's ancient self, Coeus / Deudalaphon!

Coeus was a gentle, friendly soul, with decent aetheric power and sight, but nothing special in comparison to other ancients in those regards. Due to their adhd, their focus was somewhat shot, and so they had to be fully hyperfocused on something to use complex creation abilities, which unfortunately left them barred from that particular career despite their interest in the subject- they wanted to create, but couldn't do it safely and reliably enough to hinge their income on it without entirely too much risk.

But, they would not be discouraged! Instead of creation of organic beings like we see a lot of throughout the msq (understandably, it's very impressive and interesting), they turned their attention on their other special interest, technology! Coeus was capable of making plans and blueprints of incredible technological concepts and theories, and they had a skill for putting together incredibly stable, complex things with their hands and simpler magic.

They especially had an interest in technology that could allow those who lacked certain abilities to catch up to their peers, such as scanners that could give aetheric readings comparable to (but not wholly the same as) soul sight, though these were still in the works and not yet publicly released by the time the final days approached and they were forced to pay attention to more urgent matters.

Their prodigious skills in the field of technology are what ultimately got Coeus elected to the seat of Deudalaphon, which, as it currently has no canon field, I will say was in charge of technology. As technology intersects with creation often (along with other fields like agriculture), they often worked closely with other seats of the convocation, a sort of 'back up' field to supplement when a single seat's expertise came up lacking.

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My 2023 Reading List

Here's the books and articles that I read in 2023 (a large part of which was a push to finish my dissertation). I thought it might also be useful to others to see what my workload looks like as a 7th year grad student in a PhD. program, especially since I'm unmedicated with severe ADHD. This is what I'm able to get done while fighting through that. I bring this up because I know that it can seem fucking impossible, most notably when we see our neurotypical colleagues churning through incredible amounts of research. A final note: two of the books I'm including in here are books that I started reading in 2022 (Kagan and Stock). Also, note that many of these are re-reads; I've marked these with an Asterisk, and a couple of the books I read around 90%, but dropped a couple chapters that weren't relevant for my projects. These are marked with two asterisks. Be aware that my citations here are of a pretty rough and ready style. Philosophy has weird disciplinary standards (read, almost every journal is different), so I just have a "here's what you need to know to find it" style here. CW: I work on some dark things involving death, suicide, sexual assault, sex, race, and trans rights, including actively fighting trans-exclusive theorists, so there's a lot of possibly triggering things in here.

Updated: Jan 4, 2024

Abdollah, Serajian, Ebrahim Khosrow, and Sajad Ahmadizad. 2014. “Comparison of Anthropometric and Functional Characteristics of Elite Male Iranian Fencers in Three Weapons.” International Journal of Applied Sport Sciences 26 (1): 11–17.

Alcoff, Linda. 1991. “The Problem of Speaking for Others.” Cultural Critique No. 20 5–32.

Alcoff, Linda. 2007. “Epistemologies of Ignorance: Three Types.” In Race and Epistemologies of Ignorance, edited by Shannon and Tuana Sullivan, Nancy, 39–50. Albany: State University of New York Press.

Anderson, Elizabeth. 2012. “Epistemic Justice as a Virtue of Social Institutions.” Social Epistemology 26 (2): 163–73.

Andler, Matthew. 2017. “Gender Identity and Exclusion: A Reply to Jenkins.” Ethics 

Ashley, Florence. 2023. “What is it Like to Have a Gender Identity.” Mind 132 (528): 1053–73.

Ballantyne, Nathan. 2019. “Epistemic Trespassing.” Mind 128 (510): 367–95.

Ballantyne, Nathan, Jared Celniker, and David Dunning. 2022. “Do Your Own Research.” Social Epistemology 

Barnett, Brian S, Ariana E Nesbit, and Reneé M Sorrentino. 2018. “The Transgender Bathroom Debate At the Intersection of Politics, Law, Ethics, and Science.” J Am Acad Psychiatry Law 46 (2): 232–41.*

Berg, Amy. 2022. “Is There a Duty to Read the News.” Journal of Moral Philosophy 20 (3-4): 243–67.

Bergero-Miguel, Trinidad, María A García-Encinas, Amelia Villena-Jimena, Lucía Pérez-Costillas, Nicolás Sánchez-Álvarez, Yolanda de Diego-Otero, and Jose Guzman-Parra. 2016. “Gender Dysphoria and Social Anxiety: An Exploratory Study in Spain.” J Sex Med 13 (8): 1270–78.*

Bettcher, Talia Mae. 2009. “Trans Identities and First-Person Authority.” In You’Ve Changed: Sex Reassignment and Personal Identity, edited by Laurie Shrage, 98–120. Oxford University Press.*

Biggs, Michael. Suicide By Trans-Identified Children in England and Wales. Transgender Trend.*

Blair, Karen L., and Rhea Ashley Hoskin. 2019. “Transgender Exclusion From the World of Dating: Patterns of Acceptance and Rejection of Hypothetical Trans Dating Partners as a Function of Sexual and Gender Identity.” Journal of Social and Personal Relationships 36 (7): 2074–95.

Blanchard, Matt, and Barry Farber. 2016. “Lying in Psychotherapy: Why and What Clients Don’t Tell Their Therapist About Therapy and Their Relationship.” Counselling Psychology Quarterly 29 (1): 90–112.

Blanchard, Matt, and Barry Farber. 2020. “”It is Never Okay to Talk About Suicide”: Patients’ Reasons for Concealing Suicidal Ideation in Psychotherapy.” Psychother Res 30 (1): 124–36.

Bochicchio, Lauren, Kelsey Reeder, Lauren Aronson, Charles McTavish, and Ana Stefancic. 2021. “Understanding Factors Associated With Suicidality Among Transgender and Gender-Diverse Identified Youth.” LGBT Health 8 (4): 245–53.

Bradley, Ben. 2012. “Doing Away With Harm.” Philosophy and Phenomenological Research 85, No. 2 390–412.*

Brown, Brookes. 2023. “Bearing Witness: The Duty of Non‐indifference and the Case for Reading the News.” Pacific Philosophical Quarterly 104 (2): 368–91.

Bustos, Valeria P, Samyd S Bustos, Andres Mascaro, Gabriel Del Corral, Antonio J Forte, Pedro Ciudad, Esther A Kim, Howard N Langstein, and Oscar J Manrique. 2021. “Regret After Gender-Affirmation Surgery: A Systematic Review and Meta-Analysis of Prevalence.” Plast Reconstr Surg Glob Open 9 (3): e3477.*

Byrne, Alex. 2020. “Are Women Adult Human Females.” Philosophical Studies 177 (12): 3783–803.

Carel, Havi, and Ian Kidd. 2014. “Epistemic Injustice in Healthcare: A Philosophical Analysis.” Med Health Care Philos 17 (4): 529–40.

Cattien, Jana. 2019. “Against “Transracialism”: Revisiting the Debate.” Hypatia 34 (4): 713–35.

Clements-Nolle, Kristen, Rani Marx, and Mitchell Katz. 2006. “Attempted Suicide Among Transgender Persons: The Influence of Gender-Based Discrimination and Victimization.” Journal of Homosexuality 51 (3): 53–69.*

Congdon, Matthew. 2018. ““Knower” as an Ethical Concept: From Epistemic Agency to Mutual Recognition.” Feminist Philosophy Quarterly 4 (4): 

Costa, Rosalia, and Marco Colizzi. 2016. “The Effect of Cross-Sex Hormonal Treatment on Gender Dysphoria Individuals’ Mental Health: A Systematic Review.” Neuropsychiatr Dis Treat 12 1953–66.*

Crichton, Carel, & Kidd. 2017. Epistemic Injustice in Psychiatry. BJPsych Bulletin. 41:65-70.

Crocker, David. 1991. “Insiders and Outsiders in International Development.” Ethics and International Affairs 5 149–73.

Cullison, Andrew. 2010. “On the Nature of Testimony.” Episteme 

Daniels, Norman. 2015. “Why We Should Care About the Social Determinants of Health.” Am J Bioeth 15 (3): 37–38.

Davey, Amanda, Walter Pierre Bouman, Caroline Meyer, and Jon Arcelus. 2015. “Interpersonal Functioning Among Treatment-Seeking Trans Individuals.” J Clin Psychol 71 (12): 1173–85.*

Davey, Amanda, Walter Pierre Bouman, Jon Arcelus, and Caroline Meyer. 2014. “Social Support and Psychological Well-Being in Gender Dysphoria: A Comparison of Patients With Matched Controls.” J Sex Med 11 (12): 2976–85.*

Davis, Emmalon. 2016. “Typecasts, Tokens, and Spokespersons: A Case for Credibility Excess as Testimonial Injustice.” Hypatia 31 (3): 485–501.

Dees, Richard H. 2019. “Primum Non Nocere Mortuis: Bioethics and the Lives of the Dead.” Journal of Medicine and Philosophy 44 (6): 732–55.

Dembroff, Robin. 2020. “Beyond Binary: Genderqueer as Critical Gender Kind.” Philosophers’ Imprint 20 (9): 1–23.*

Dembroff, Robin, and Dennis Whitcomb. Forthcoming. “Content-Focused Epistemic Injustice.” Oxford Studies in Epistemology*

DiPaolo, Joshua. 2022. “What’s Wrong With Epistemic Trespassing.” Philosophical Studies 179 (1): 223–43.

DiPaolo, Joshua. Forthcoming. “”I’m, Like, a Very Smart Person” on Self-Licensing and Perils of Reflection.” Oxford Studies in Epistemology 

Dormandy, Katherine. 2018. “Epistemic Authority: Preemption or Proper Basing.” Erkenntnis 83 (4): 773–91.

Dotson, Kristie. 2008. “In Search of Tanzania: Are Effective Epistemic Practices Sufficient for Just Epistemic Practices?” Southern Journal of Philosophy 46 (S1): 52–64.*

Dotson, Kristie. 2011. “Tracking Epistemic Violence, Tracking Practices of Silencing.” Hypatia 26 (2): 236–57.*

Dotson, Kristie. 2012. “A Cautionary Tale: On Limiting Epistemic Oppression.” Frontiers: A Journal of Women Studies 33 (1): 24–47.*

Dotson, Kristie. 2014. “Conceptualizing Epistemic Oppression.” Social Epistemology 28 (2): 115–38.*

Frost-Arnold, Karen. 2014a. “Imposters, Tricksters, and Trustworthiness as an Epistemic Virtue.” Hypatia 29 (4): 790–807.

Frost-Arnold, Karen. 2014b. “The Cognitive Attitude of Rational Trust.” Synthese 191 (9): 1957–74.

Frost-Arnold, Karen. 2014c. “Trustworthiness and Truth: The Epistemic Pitfalls of Internet Accountability.” Episteme 11 (1): 63–81.

Funkhouser, Eric. 2017. “Beliefs as Signals: A New Function for Belief.” Philosophical Psychology 30 (6): 809–31.

Gardner, Molly. 2015. “A Harm-Based Solution to the Non-Identity Problem.” Ergo 2 427–44.*

Gardner, Molly. 2019. “When Good Things Happen to Harmed People.” Ethical Theory and Moral Practice 22 (4): 893–908.

Gijs, Luk, and Anne Brewaeys. 2007. “Surgical Treatment of Gender Dysphoria in Adults and Adolescents: Recent Developments, Effectiveness, and Challenges.” Annual Review of Sex Research 18 (1): 178–224.*

Goldman, Alvin I. 2001. “Experts: Which Ones Should You Trust.” Philosophy and Phenomenological Research 63 (1): 85–110.

Harcourt, Edward. 2021. “Epistemic Injustice, Children and Mental Illness.” J Med Ethics 47 (11): 729–35.

Hardwig, John. 1985. “Epistemic Dependence.” The Journal of Philosophy 82 (7): 335–49.

Harvin, Cassandra Byers. 1996. “Conversations I Can’t Have.” One the Issues: The Progressive Women’s Quartery 5 (2): 15–16.

Hookway, Christopher. 2010. “Some Varieties of Epistemic Injustice: Reflections on Fricker.” Episteme 7 (2): 151–63.

Intemann, Kristen. 2010. “25 Years of Feminist Empiricism and Standpoint Theory: Where Are We Now.” Hypatia 25 (4): 778–96.

Jaggar, Alison M. 1998. “Globalizing Feminist Ethics.” Hypatia 13 (2): 7–31.

Jenkins, Katharine. 2016. “Amelioration and Inclusion: Gender Identity and the Concept of Woman.” Ethics 126 (2): 394–421.*

Jenkins, Katharine. 2018. “Toward an Account of Gender Identity.” Ergo, an Open Access Journal of Philosophy 5 (20201214): 

Jenness, Valerie, Cheryl L. Maxson, Kristy N Matsuda, and Jennifer Macy Sumner. 2007. “Violence in California Correctional Facilities: An Empirical Examination of Sexual Assault.” The Bulletin 2 (2): 1–4.

Joshi, Hrishikesh. 2022a. “Debunking Creedal Beliefs.” Synthese 200 (6): 

Joshi, Hrishikesh. 2022b. “The Epistemic Significance of Social Pressure.” Canadian Journal of Philosophy 52 (4): 396–410.

Kaltial-Heino, Rittakerttu, Maria Sumia, Marja Työläjärvi, and Nina Lindberg. 2015. “Two Years of Gender Identity Service for Minors: Overrepresentation of Natal Girls With Severe Problems in Adolescent Development.” Child and Adolescent Psychiatry and Mental Health 9 (9): *

Kidd, Ian James, Lucienne Spencer, and Havi Carel. 2023. “Epistemic Injustice in Psychiatric Research and Practice.” Philosophical Psychology 1–29.

Kukla, Rebecca. 2007. “Objectivity and Perspective in Empirical Knowledge.” Episteme 3 (1-2): 80–95.

Kurs, Rena, and Alexander Grinshpoon. 2018. “Vulnerability of Individuals With Mental Disorders to Epistemic Injustice in Both Clinical and Social Domains.” Ethics &amp; Behavior 28 (4): 336–46.

Larbalestier, Jan. 1990. “The Politics of Representation: Australian Aboriginal Women and Feminism.” Anthropological Forum 6 (2): 143–57.

Lee, J. Y. 2021. “Anticipatory Epistemic Injustice.” Social Epistemology 35 (6): 564–76.

Levy, Andrea, Aaron Scherer, Brian Zikmund-Fisher, Knoll Larkin, Geoffrey Barnes, and Angela Fagerlin. 2018. “Prevalence of and Factors Associated With Patient Nondisclosure of Medically Relevant Information to Clinicians.” JAMA Netw Open 1 (7): e185293.

Lin, Eden. 2021. “The Experience Requirement on Well-Being.” Philosophical Studies 178 (3): 867–86.

Longino, Helen E. 1990. Science as Social Knowledge. Princeton: Princeton University Press.

Love, Heather A., and Preston C. Morgan. 2021. “You Can Tell Me Anything: Disclosure of Suicidal Thoughts and Behaviors in Psychotherapy.” Psychotherapy (Chic) 58 (4): 533–43.

Love, Melanie, and Barry A. Farber. 2019. “Honesty in Psychotherapy: Results of an Online Survey Comparing High Vs. Low Self-Concealers.” Psychother Res 29 (5): 607–20.

Lugones, María. 1987. “Playfulness, “world”-Travelling, and Loving Perception.” Hypatia 2 (2): 3–19.

Lugones, María C., and Elizabeth V. Spelman. 1983. “Have We Got a Theory for You! Feminist Theory, Cultural Imperialism and the Demand for ‘the Woman’s Voice’.” Women’s Studies Int. Forum 6 (6): 573–81.

Marquis, Don. 1989. “Why Abortion is Immoral.” The Journal of Philosophy 86 (4): 183.*

Medina, José. 2011. “The Relevance of Credibility Excess in a Proportional View of Epistemic Injustice: Differential Epistemic Authority and the Social Imaginary.” Social Epistemology 25 (1): 15–35.

Meier, Lukas J. 2022. “Systemising Triage: Covid-19 Guidelines and Their Underlying Theories of Distributive Justice.” Med Health Care Philos 25 (4): 703–14.

Mohanty, Chandra Talpade. 1988. “Under Western Eyes: Feminist Scholarship and Colonial Discourses.” Feminist Review 30 61–88.

Mustanski, Brian, and Richard T Liu. 2013. “A Longitudinal Study of Predictors of Suicide Attempts Among Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender Youth.” Archives of Sex Behavior 42 (3): 437–48.*

Neus, Nora. Trans Women Are Still Incarcerated With Men and it’s Putting Their Lives At Risk. CNN.

Nguyen, C. Thi. 2020a. “Cognitive Islands and Runaway Echo Chambers: Problems for Epistemic Dependence on Experts.” Synthese 197 (7): 2803–21.

Nguyen, C. Thi. 2020b. “Echo Chambers and Epistemic Bubbles.” Episteme 17 (2): 141–61.

Nicholls, Tracey. 2011. “Should I Speak for My Sister? Solidarity and Silence in Feminist Struggles.” PhaenEx 6 (1): 12–41.

Origgi, Gloria. 2012. “Epistemic Injustice and Epistemic Trust.” Social Epistemology 26 (2): 221–35.

Pardue, Angela, Bruce A. Arrigo, and Daniel S. Murphy. 2011. “Sex and Sexuality in Women’s Prisons.” The Prison Journal 91 (3): 279–304.

Perry, Stephen. 2003. “Harm, History, and Counterfactuals.” San Diego Law Review 40 1283–313.

Phipps, Alison. 2016. “Whose Personal is More Political? Experience in Contemporary Feminist Politics.” Feminist Theory 17 (3): 303–21.

Pitcher, George. 1984. “The Misfortunes of the Dead.” American Philosophical Quarterly 21, No. 2 183–88.

Pohlhaus Jr., Gaile. 2012. “Relational Knowing and Epistemic Injustice: Toward a Theory of “willful Hermeneutical Ignorance”.” Hypatia 27 (4): 715–35.

Pohlhaus Jr., Gaile. 2014. “Discerning the Primary Epistemic Harm in Cases of Testimonial Injustice.” Social Epistemology 28 (2): 99–114.*

Preda, Adina, and Kristin Voigt. 2015. “The Social Determinants of Health: Why Should We Care.” Am J Bioeth 15 (3): 25–36.

Russell, Camisha. 2019. “On Black Women, “in Defense of Transracialism,” and Imperial Harm.” Hypatia 34 (2): 176–94.

Russell, Stephen T, Amanda M Pollitt, Gu Li, and Arnold H Grossman. 2018. “Chosen Name Use is Linked to Reduced Depressive Symptoms, Suicidal Ideation, and Suicidal Behavior Among Transgender Youth.” J Adolesc Health 63 (4): 503–5.

Salkin, Wendy. 2021. “The Conscription of Informal Political Representatives.” Journal of Political Philosophy 29 (4): 429–55.

Sanati, A, and M Kyratsous. 2015. “Epistemic Injustice in Assessment of Delusions.” J Eval Clin Pract 21 (3): 479–85.

Sanati, Abdi & Kyratsous Michalis. 2017. Epistemic Injustice and Responsibility in Borderline Personality Disorder. Journal of Evaluation in Clinical Practice. 23:974-980

Sartre, Jean Paul. 1946. trans. Philip Mairet. "Existentialism is a Humanism."

Satta, Mark. 2022. “Epistemic Trepassing and Expert Witness Testimony.” Journal of Ethics and Social Philosophy 22 (2): 212–38.

Schutte, Ofelia. 1986. “Notes on the Issue of Cultural Imperialism.” Proceedings and Addresses of the American Philosophical Association 59 (5): 757–59.

Schwan, B. 2021. “Responsibility Amid the Social Determinants of Health.” Bioethics 35 (1): 6–14.

Scott, Joan W. 1991. “The Evidence of Experience.” Critical Inquiry 17 (4): 773–97.

Shaw, Danny. 2020. Eleven Transgender Inmates Sexually Assaulted in Male Prisons Last Year. BBC.

Sheeks, Meredith. 2023. “The Myth of the Good Epistemic Bubble.” Episteme 20 (3): 685–700.

Shiffrin, Seana Valentine. 1999. “Wrongful Life, Procreative Responsibility, and the Significance of Harm.” Legal Theory 5 (02): 117–48.*

Shiffrin, Seana Valentine. 2012. “Harm and Its Moral Significance.” Legal Theory 18 (3): 357–98.*

Simester, A P, and Andreas von Hirsch. 2011. Crimes, Harms, and Wrongs: On the Principles of Criminalisation. Portland, Oregon: Hart Publishing.

Spivak, Gayatri Chakravorty. 1988. “Can the Subaltern Speak?” In Marxism and the Interpretation of Culture, edited by Cary Nelson, and Lawrence Grossberg, 271–313. Basingstoke: Macmillan Education.

Stacey, Judith. 1988. “Can There be a Feminist Ethnography?” Women’s Studies Int. Forum 11 (1): 21–27.

Steers-McCrum, Alex R. 2020. “Don’t Put Words in My Mouth: Self-Appointed Speaking-for is Testimonial Injustice Without Prejudice.” Social Epistemology 34 (3): 241–52.

Stock, Kathleen. 2018a. Changing the Concept of ‘Woman’ Will Cause Unintended Harms. The Economist.*

Stock, Kathleen. 2018b. Why Self-Identification Should Not Legally Make You a Woman. The Conversation.*

Stock, Kathleen. 2019. Ignoring Differences Between Men and Women is the Wrong Way to Address Gender Dysphoria. Quilette.*

Sullivan, Shannon. 2004. “Feminist Spaces.” Hypatia 19 (3): 209–16.

Tadros, Victor. 2014. “What Might Have Been.” In Philosophical Foundations of the Law of Torts, edited by John Oberdiek, 171–92. Oxford University Press.

Taylor, James Stacey. 2005. “The Myth of Posthumous Harm.” American Philosophical Quarterly 42 (4): 311–22.*

Taylor, James Stacey. 2021. “Promises to the Dead.” Royal Institute of Philosophy Supplement 90 81–103.*

Thomson, Judith Jarvis. 1971. “A Defense of Abortion.” Philosophy and Public Affairs 1 (1): 47–66.*

Tobi, Abraham. 2023. “Intra-Group Epistemic Injustice.” Social Epistemology 37 (6): 798–809.

Toole, Briana. 2022. “Demarginalizing Standpoint Epistemology.” Episteme 19 (1): 47–65.*

Townsend, Leo, and Dina Lupin. 2021. “Representation and Epistemic Violence.” International Journal of Philosophical Studies 29 (4): 577–94.

Trebilcot, Joyce. 1988. “Dyke Methods or Principles for the Discovery/creation of the Withstanding.” Hypatia 3, No. 2 1–13.

Tuvel, Rebecca. 2017. “In Defense of Transracialism.” Hypatia 32 (2): 263–78.*

Vance, Stanley R. 2018. “The Importance of Getting the Name Right for Transgender and Other Gender Expansive Youth.” J Adolesc Health 63 (4): 379–80.*

Vigny-Pau, Myriam, Nelson Pang, Hamad Alkhenaini, and Alex Abramovich. 2021. “Suicidality and Non-Suicidal Self-Injury Among Transgender Populations: A Systematic Review.” Journal of Gay & Lesbian Mental Health 25 (4): 358–82.*

Wanderer, Jeremy. 2012. “Addressing Testimonial Injustice: Being Ignored and Being Rejected.” The Philosophical Quarterly 62 (246): 148–69.

Watson, Jamie Carlin. 2022. “Epistemic Neighbors: Trespassing and the Range of Expert Authority.” Synthese 200 (5): 408.

Weatherall, James Owen, and Cailin O’Connor. 2021. “Conformity in Scientific Networks.” Synthese 198 (8): 7257–78.

Wellman, Christopher Heath. 2001. “Toward a Liberal Theory of Political Obligation.” Ethics 111 735–59.*

Williams, Daniel. 2021a. “Motivated Ignorance, Rationality, and Democratic Politics.” Synthese 198 (8): 7807–27.

Williams, Daniel. 2021b. “Socially Adaptive Belief.” Mind & Language 36 (3): 333–54.

Williams, Daniel. 2023. “The Marketplace of Rationalizations.” Economics and Philosophy 39 (1): 99–123.

Wilson, Liz. 1997. “Who is Authorized to Speak? Katherine Mayo and the Politics of Imperial Feminism in British India.” Journal of Indian Philosophy 25 139–51.

Wolff, Nancy, Cynthia L Blitz, Jing Shi, Ronet Bachman, and Jane A Siegel. 2006. “Sexual Violence Inside Prisons: Rates of Victimization.” J Urban Health 83 (5): 835–48.

Wolff, Nancy, Jing Shi, and Jane A Siegel. 2009. “Patterns of Victimization Among Male and Female Inmates: Evidence of an Enduring Legacy.” Violence Vict 24 (4): 469–84.

Woodward, James. 1986. “The Non-Identity Problem.” Ethics 96 (4): 804–31.*

Worsnip, Alex. 2019. “The Obligation to Diversify One’s Sources: Against Epistemic Partisanship in the Consumption of News Media.” In Media Ethics: Free Speech and the Requirements of Democracy, edited by Carl Fox, and Joe Saunders, 240–64. London: Routledge.

Wylie, Alison. 2003. “Why Standpoint Matters.” In Science and Other Cultures: Issues in Philosophies of Science and Technology, edited by Robert Figueroa, and Sandra Harding, 26–48. New York: Routledge.*

Yang, Xin, Jason Parton, Dwight Lewis, Ning Yang, and Matthew Hudnall. 2020. “Effect of Patient-Physician Relationship on Withholding Information Behavior: Analysis of Health Information National Trends Survey (2011-2018) Data.” Journal of Medical Internet Research 22 (1): e16713.

Books

Camus, Albert. 1955 [1942]. Trans Justin O'Brien. The Myth of Sisysphus and Other Essays. Hamish and Hamilton.*

Farber, Barry A., Matt Blanchard, and Melanie Love. 2019. Secrets and Lies in Psychotherapy. Washington: American Psychological Association.**

Fricker, Miranda. 2007. Epistemic Injustice: Power and the Ethics of Knowing. Oxford University Press.

Kagan, Shelly. 2012. The Geometry of Desert. Oxford: Oxford University Press.

Kidd, Ian James, José Medina, and Gaile Pohlhaus Jr., eds. 2017. The Routledge Handbook of Epistemic Injustice. London, New York: Routledge.**

Sherman, Benjamin and Gouguen, Stacy, eds. 2019. Overcoming Epistemic Injustice: Social and Psycholofical perspectives. Rowman and Littlefield.

Stock, Kathleen. 2021. Material Girls: Why Reality Matters for Feminism. Fleet.

Book Chapters

Ballantyne, Nathan. 2022. “Novices and Expert Disagreement.” In Reason, Bias, and Inquiry, edited by Nathan Ballantyne, and David Dunning, 227–53. Oxford University Press.

Collins, Patricia Hill. 2000. Chapter 5: The Power of Self-Definition. in Black Feminist Thought: Knowledge, Consciousness, and the Politics of Empowerment. Second Edition. Routledge. 97-121.

Crenshaw, Kimberlé. 1997. “Intersectionality and Identity Politics: Learning From Violence Against Women of Color.” In Reconstructing Political Theory: Feminist Perspectives, edited by Mary Lyndon Shanley, and Uma Narayan, 178–93. University Park, Pennsylvania: Penn State Press.

Feinberg, Joel. 1993. “Harm to Others.” In The Metaphysics of Death, edited by John Martin Fischer, 169–90. Stanford: Stanford University Press.

Fricker, Elizabeth. 2006. “Testimony and Epistemic Autonomy.” In The Epistemology of Testimony, edited by Jennifer Lackey, and Ernest Sosa, 225–50. Oxford University Press.

Gardner, Molly. 2021. “What is Harming?” In Principles and Persons, edited by Jeff McMahan, Tim Campbell, James Goodrich, and Ketan Ramakrishnan, Oxford University Press.

Kierkegaard, Søren. 2004 [1843]. trans. Howard V. and Edna H. Hong. "Problema I." in Basic Writings of Existentialism, edited by Gordon Marino. The Modern Library. 7-23.*

Kierkegaard, Søren. 2003 [1843]. trans. Howard V. and Edna H. Hong. "Problema II." in Basic Writings of Existentialism, edited by Gordon Marino. The Modern Library. 24-39.*

Phelan, Shane. 1989. Chapter 4: Definition and Community. in Identity Politics. Temple University Press. 59-80.

Phelan, Shane. 1989. Chapter 7: The Limits of Community. in Identity Politics. Temple University Press. 135-151.

Sartre, Jean Paul. 1993 [1943]. trans. Hazel Barnes. "Introduction: The Pursuit of Being." in. Being and Nothingness. Washington Square Press. xlv-lxvii.*

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Addressing Depression in Adults with ADHD

Being an adult with ADHD can feel like living with each foot in a different timeline – one where focus is a luxury seldom experienced, and one where even the simplest tasks can feel like a hurdle. But when those struggles lead to a persistent feeling of emptiness, hopelessness, or affect your daily routine, what you might be fighting isn't just a symptom of ADHD. It could be depression, another formidable opponent that needs recognition and management on its own terms.

In this comprehensive guide, we will deep-dive into the nuanced interplay between ADHD and depression in adults, exploring symptoms, coping mechanisms, and the path to a brighter horizon. Because understanding your battlefield, and the weapons at your disposal, is the first step in winning the war against the shadows that threaten your mental well-being.

Understanding ADHD and Depression

ADHD, or attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder, is a neurodevelopmental disorder that affects the ability to concentrate and control impulses. In many adults, the consequences of living with undiagnosed or untreated ADHD during childhood can set the stage for a host of challenges – and sometimes, depression takes the stage.

Studies have found that adults with ADHD often experience a higher rate of depressive symptoms than the general adult population. The challenge for those with both conditions is akin to fighting a fire while immersed in water – the contradictory natures of ADHD and depression can make symptoms difficult to parse and address.

The Challenges Faced by Adults with ADHD

The unique challenges faced by adults with ADHD are vast. Day-to-day life is often a symphony of unfinished tasks, forgotten responsibilities, and difficulty in sustaining relationships. These struggles, while rooted in ADHD, can also serve as fertile ground for the development of depressive episodes.

The disheartening reality for many is that the very coping mechanisms that might ease the immediate burdens of ADHD, such as isolation, can eventually lead to a deepening of a depressive state. It's a delicate dance where the wrong moves can lead to a fall into a dark and uninviting pit.

Signs and Symptoms of Depression in Adults with ADHD

Recognizing the signs of depression in the context of ADHD can be akin to isolating thunder amidst a storm. Low mood, loss of interest, fatigue – these symptoms are common to both conditions, making a clear diagnosis challenging.

However, the persistence of these symptoms, especially when seen alongside the core markers of ADHD, can serve as important red flags. The compounding effect of two such powerful forces working in tandem necessitates vigilance and, most importantly, action.

Treatment Approaches

When tackling the complexities of ADHD and depression, a multi-faceted approach is often the most effective. Therapy, both individual and group, can be a lifeline to untangling the web of thoughts and behaviors that these conditions weave. Medications, when deemed appropriate by professionals, can provide the clarity and stability needed to begin the ascent out of the abyss.

But it's not just about what medications you take – it's about the lifestyle changes and auxiliary therapies that support them. From meditation to exercise, and from art therapy to support groups, the path to healing is a mosaic of strategies that one must selectively, or simultaneously, wield.

Coping Strategies

In the realm of mental health, coping strategies are akin to armor – they don’t prevent battles, but they significantly lower the stakes. For adults managing ADHD and depression, strategies can range from setting strict routines to ensure stability, to engaging in creative outlets that serve both as an escape and an outlet for emotion.

Journaling, mindfulness, and regulated sleep patterns can provide the pillars upon which a brighter future can be built. These are not cures, but supports. They're the steady intersections where the overwhelming streams of ADHD and depression find balance.

Support Systems

One of the most crucial aspects of managing the dual burden of ADHD and depression is the cultivation of a robust support system. From friends who understand without judgment, to family members rediscovering empathy, the people around you can be the lighthouses that guide you home when your internal compass is spinning wildly.

Professional help in the form of psychiatrists and therapists is a necessity, but often, the most resilient bridge out of despair is the one crafted by human hands, out of trust, understanding, and love.

Conclusion

For adults waging a war against depression under the banner of ADHD, the battle can often feel endless. But rest assured, there is hope to be found in the coherence and continuity of everyday strategies and support systems.

It is vital to remember that these are not fights to be faced alone, nor are they battles without victory. The key to emerging triumphant lies in the understanding that your conditions, while formidable, do not define you. Seek help, cultivate the tools of balance, and remember – to be managing both ADHD and depression is not a sign of weakness, but a testament to the indomitable strength of the human spirit. When life seems colored in shades of grey, it is possible to find the vivid hues of happiness once again.

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The intersections between different neurodivergencies are just. So.

I have to keep my door closed to sleep (in case the house spontaneously catches fire) (but also as a kid I sleep-talked a lot and what if I like come out to my dad in my sleep cause I have gayass dreams and he wakes up at like 4 to ho to work) (plus it’s just weird like. No, I’m not leaving my door open while I’m unconscious that sounds like serial killer behavior)

And I need the window opened a little bit even if it’s really cold (in case of carbon monoxide, obviously) (can you tell I have an anxiety disorder?)

(The only way to my second floor window is to climb a freak and loud set of stairs then jump three feet to a slippery and even louder metal roof and once you fo that it’s a 50/50 shot whether they go for my room or my moms and I can shove a man off the roof but I can’t shove a poisonous gas.)

And I always have my ceiling fan on because not having moving air around me stresses me out (that one is a long story revolving bees and my various coping mechanisms for dealing with my fear of them from ptsd. Long story short for a long time the only way I felt safe outside was if it was incredibly windy because it blocked out the sound of bugs buzzing)

But that makes my room really cold so i need like seven blankets + bonus points for essentially being the “we have weighted blanket at home”

And things keep getting lost in my blankets and randomly poking me when I’m trying to sleep

And I need to make sure I changed my phone before I go to bed because the charger is plugged into a surge protector that’s strapped to the back of my headboard and I can just barely hear the electricity cause we’re double dipping with the adhd too

and sometimes in the depths of insomnia I feel like it’s gonna explode even though there’s no good reason for it to do that and it’s literally designed to prevent that from happening but that doesn’t matter in my brain so I need to turn it off to sleep which I’m sure is better for me and the equipment anyway I’m sure that charging your phone for ten hours isn’t good for it especially in your bed.

And I’ll set alarms literally every time I close my eyes with intent to sleep because once in a blue moon I get like, reverse sleep paralysis shit where I know I’m asleep and can’t open my fucking eyes and then I get those “wake up in a dream over and over” fuvking things and it’s DOGSHIT and I wake up feeling MORE TIRED so now I can’t fall asleep unless I either set an alarm or a timer because 9/10 times it’s fine but if I get caught with my pants down that 10th time I’m literally held hostage by my own subconscious

[shitpostingkats]

I don’t know if anyone’s mentioned this before but I think it just makes sense for Judai to be naturally nocturnal. Like boy is legit the embodiment of the gentle *darkness* and canonically sleeps a lot during class. I genuinely think the only reason this boi can function during the day is due to years spent having to adapt to how society works around him. I can just imagine once he leaves duel academy he naturally reverts back to this system now that he doesn’t have such a need to conform. I can just see one of the gang walking downstairs in the middle of the night, finding these golden eyes staring at them from the darkness and just thinking “oh, Judai needed a place to recuperate after one of his Judai adventures” without fucking questioning it.

Oh, absolutely.

Again, Jaden to me is such a fascinating intersection between neurodiversity and genuinely non-human. Because when I first started watching GX, I immediately clocked this over-sleeping, daytime-catnap boi as a comrade in adhd; many of us naturally have circadian rhythms that are not in line with the rest of diurnal society. I for one can remember plenty of high school classes I slept through and, just like Jaden, managed to squeak out a passing grade through a combo of natural smarts and last minute panic.

So the idea that he's not only naturally like that not only due to his amazing cocktail of mental oddness, but also it's a deep part of the magic part of him, is so wonderful and comes with so many intricacies. It just feels. So nice, to see a character as chaotic and messy and against the grain as he is, traits nd viewers can relate to, while still making them deeply consequential to his life and his protagonistdom.

I headcanon that sleep is something he doesn't really need, especially after his fusion with Yubel, but he got into the habit as a kid (Again, projecting, but he was that kid that absolutely didn't want to go to bed and didn't understand all this "just lie down, you'll fall asleep :)" talk) So post-highschool, eventually when he's doing whatever he's doing in europe in bbt, he tends to travel at night and then explore and chat with people during the day, and catches small naps when he feels like it: On nice benches, log bus rides, that sort of thing.

And yes yes DOUBLE yes to his eyes reflecting in the dark like a cats. Glad to know we're all thinking it because it is 100% correct. He has freaked out many a person driving down the highway at night. Hassleberry probably has a similar thing, but only when his eyes are dino-ey. Jaden has it full time after his fusion with Yubel, and this not only makes it very easy to know when he's riffling through your kitchen at 3am, but also is one of the reasons the yearbook staff had such a hard time getting a nice picture of him. In every single photo he's just

[neon-sunsets]

how to write disabled characters in a not ableist way

(a very incomplete guide by one singular disabled person who cannot possibly cover the vastly diverse range of disabled experiences and opinions)

for some quick background: i am neurodivergent (autistic/adhd, ocd) and mentally ill. i have chronic pain (fibromyalgia and migraines), me/cfs, and i’m currently using a cane for good old fashioned Mystery Illness reasons. this post is mainly directed at people writing viktor from arcane since he’s really the only canonically disabled character from the. two whole fandoms i’m in (at least, the only one i routinely see being mishandled), but a lot of these points can apply to any character or fandom. so, without further ado:

disability is an inherently neutral state of existence. there are both good and bad things about being disabled, but ultimately it is a state of existence just like any other individual marginalized state of existence. most of the issues we face come from lack of access to resources, systemic and social ableism, and the intersection of disability both with class and with other marginalized identities. that’s not to say that we don’t struggle in and of ourselves, but it is to say that in a perfect society our disability would have a different impact on us. 

please don’t write magical fantasy cures. i understand where the desire comes from, believe me. but as a nondisabled person, it’s insensitive and ableist to remove this important aspect of a character’s identity. we get so little representation in general, and so taking this away from a character just stings. also, the idea that all disabled people need or want to be cured stems from deeply ingrained ableism that impacts us on a daily basis. 

this goes for all groups you aren’t part of, but do your research. even as a disabled writer, my insight only extends to my own disability and that of my disabled friends and family. so i do research! it’s not hard — there are plenty of disabled people on the internet who talk about their experiences, as well as countless factual articles about various disabilities. i would suggest finding multiple perspectives, and please seek out disabled voices!! this will make your fic more accurate — you have no idea how many times i’ve laughed at a fic where a character with back pain sits in a soft chair to supposedly help the pain, when that’s not what you should be doing at all! in this specific instance, hard chairs or lying down is generally a much less painful option. this information exists and you can find it!

don’t ignore the character’s disability. being disabled is only one aspect of a character or person’s identity, but it should not be ignored or erased. consider all of the ways that their disability impacts them and work them into the story in subtle everyday ways. 

similarly, don’t make it their only personality trait. this one seems pretty self explanatory, but there’s a balance between acknowledging that a character is disabled and making that all you talk about. 

don’t infantilize the character. disabled adults are adults. they should not be treated like children or less capable purely because they’re disabled. disabled adults do pretty much everything that abled adults do. don’t make other characters constantly have to take care of them. this is especially relevant for neurodivergent disabled characters, because neurodivergent people are more likely to be infantilized. 

don’t use AUs as an excuse to erase disability. be creative with your fantasy and sci-fi AUs. some good places to look for inspiration might be table-top rpg disability projects — i can think of @/dnd.disability on instagram off the top of my head, but a quick google search tells me there are definitely others. also, there are some things that are fairly consistent, regardless of universe: most mobility aids can be translated easily into different aesthetics, and potions or elixirs can substitute for medication. 

final note: this post is meant to educate, not accuse or “cancel” anyone. we’re always learning, and there’s no shame in not having known something. if you’ve done any of the negative portrayals that i’ve listed, that doesn’t make you a horrible person nor does it make you inherently ableist. it makes you a human being who lives in a society full of ingrained ableism. there’s always room to learn. 

disabled folks please comment additions!! if i’ve missed anything or misrepresented anything please let me know - this is only based on my own experience and other folks may have different insights!