#low key vent

[cyberr-v0id]

If I fail all my exams then at least I still have my wit and poetic genius.

[northstararia]

I wish I could live in Moominvalley instead of our world. People would actually like me and want to be nice to me. I won’t have to be alone or perfect all the time. I could be at peace for once. Idk I think about it a lot. I hope it not alone

[ari-writes-things]

can I just say how hard it is to call yourself a writer?

I saw this post asking if nobody was around to ever read your writing, would you still write? and like?? I very rarely show anybody my writing anyway, not because I don't want to share or because I don't enjoy the external validation from others, but because I am so terrified to be proud of it.

I call myself a writer and I very much am, but that word (at least in my mind) carries so much weight and the connotation of quality that I am immediately hesitant to share what I write because what if I let down those expectations? I am literally unable to say "here, want to read my writing? I'm really proud of it" even if I truly do feel pride in what I've created because I cannot handle the shame of not living up to someone's expectations of what a writer should be.

I have been writing since I was seven years old and I never intend to stop, but I feel like a fraud calling myself a writer.

I don't want people to think I'm good at writing just in case I'm not.

[brightgreendandelions]

How do you think it would feel to disappear into the void and never return (positive)?

i wouldn't have to worry about reading all my tumblr, watching all my youtube, chronicling all my slugcats, packing all my clothes, transing all my genders, writing all my code, listing all my anime, noeing all my cities, backing all my ups, sewing all my plushies, unloading all my chores, eating all my food, drinking all my tea, loving all my friends, taking all my meds, opening all my sources, charging all my phones, making all my beds, looping all my songs, hoarding all my data, reading my jojo, ...

but sometimes i enjoy these things

[ill-fitting-parts]

Bleghhhh... why does my brain jump from one extreme to another and either gives me absolutely no sense of self or identity OR slaps multiple of them out

Can I PLEASE have a break??? My head hurts so bad, the pressure is unbearable, I just want to be normal like others and get headaches from normal stuff ( ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ)

[chatlote]

Not a moment of rest.

[that-gothic-glitterball]

As a teenager this is something that I need to remind myself so much. That it’s not my fault that these people are being assholes and homophobes ask transphobes. It’s not my fault that they can’t handle anyone being different, and it’s not my fault that they decided to make a big deal out of something tiny, even if they try and make it seem like it was. They are immature rat bags and it is perfectly acceptable of me to have a mental break down in maths after I have finally snapped and asked that guy to stop harassing me, only to have him defend his actions and act like nothing has happened. It is not my fault

Idk what teenager needs to hear this but you're not being too sensitive. It is fucked up and unconscionable to deliberately antagonize and provoke people as a joke. When you're an adult, people who do that are called "fucking assholes" and nobody gets weird about you not wanting to hang out w/ them because they don't wanna hang out w/ them either.

[st-dionysus]

Beating every cisbian over the head with a copy of Stone Butch Blues and Sons of the Movement.

[cyberr-v0id]

I’m so tired, I can’t be dealing with this for much longer. I shouldn’t always have to be the one to reach out. Heck- this situation shouldn’t happen at all, let alone have to be resolved by the person who didn’t cause it. I shouldn’t have to be the bigger person. It’s not fair on me

[absolutelybatty]

I've been here before

[diereinheits]

me when i want to make friends, but i also never text back and get bored of 90% of people after like a month and can't stick to commitments to save my life??

[teruwasright]

Yall should I post the little wip vent post I made about how fucking mad I get about how ridiculous it is when people say agreeing with Teru or "siding with the Minamotos" is some how "agreeing with Teru's abusers" and apparently "racist and oppressing minority people" to call the supernatural cast out on there bs??? (Cough cough NO.6...WHAT ARE YOU GUYS ON???)

It genuinely makes me so mad and I've blocked multiple people for this and literally how fucking petty do you have to be to start pulling scary words out of your ass just to scare people away from thinking more about it and looking at things from a different prospective all bc YOU don't like it???

And no...I'm not mad bc "oh they don't agree with me bc I'm so right" no.

Im mad bc these people disguise HATEFUL backhanded comments TARGETED at a certain group of people as "opinions".

There's a fucking difference between simply sharing your opinion and DELIBERATELY being hateful and backhanded to a certain group of people and saying "it's an opinion" to justify it.

[chatlote]

Overworked ...yet I make time for you.

[curscival]

Cover piece loosely tied to the first chapter of my fanfic that released today!

[inkperch]

....was desperately looking to see if anyone else had picked up on the vibes between two female characters in something I just watched, and the only post that had was one of those wankers using everything and everyone they could find to shit on Chaggie for 'Having no tension', fuck the internet I hate it here-

[cyberr-v0id]

So recently my girlfriend has told me a couple of times that she really like me eyes and that she finds them pretty. And I truly do not think she realised how much that means to me.

Because growing up, I was told a numerous amount of time by people that my eyes aren’t pretty, that they’re too small, they’re not as nice as other peoples, that they’re a flat and boring grey.

I was bullied a lot as a kid, and my eyes were one of the frequent targets. And I haven’t told her, or many of my friends this, because firstly a part of me is too damn proud to admit it. And secondly because whenever I have told someone in the past, they have just agreed with the bullies.

Eventually you learn to hide the pain, but it stings, when you open up to someone only to find that they are just as bad as everyone else.

So, Runestone, if you’re reading this, thank you. I cannot express how much it means to me