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I fell in love with a golden retriver vampire...
*pairing: Idol vampire Jake x Enhypen human stylist
*trope: grumpy x sunshine
*synopsis: In an alternative future, vampires and humans live together peacefully thanks to a treaty that regulates their relations. Jake is a member of the Enhypen one of the most famous groups in the world and thousands of fans are fascinated by his being a vampire but at the same time representing the most human part and golden retriever of the group, in a moment full of successes of the career of Enhypen appears in the life of Jake his new stylist. They couldnât be more different than this: Jake is a vampire instead she is a human, Jake is a puppy in vampire format instead she thinks only of her work and is a little bit haughty and snobby, Jake loves fun and is a womanizer instead she is cynical about him and the charm of Jake does not perceive it as a beautiful thing but as a distraction. What will happen when Jakeâs powers with his favorite stylist donât work? And why is she the only one not to fall for his vampire charmsâŠ
*tags: A lot of humor, teased, jealousy, possession, Jake is a bit of a pervert, loves to touch and annoy his stylist, scenes where Jake bites his stylist, blood, unprotected sex (don't horny ppl), oral sex, fingering, a little degradation, multiple spicy scenes (pubblic), pet names (Good girl, baby) (Jackie,Golden retriever)+ 16, angst.
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(English is not my native language)
In an alternative future, vampires and humans live together peacefully thanks to a treaty that regulates their relations. Vampires are known for their unnatural beauty and superhuman abilities, which makes them highly sought after in the world of entertainment, fashion, and entertainment, especially in the world of Idols, Vampires are rarely tired and need a few hours of sleep so they are perfect for the endless hours of dance training, various events that make as models or even actors. However, despite the peaceful coexistence, there is still a subtle mutual prejudice between the two species, there is a peace treaty but things do not always go well for humans when they meet on their way vampires who have not accepted the rules of the treaty imposed by the magical world and that of the humans.
Jake, one of the members of Enhypen, is a vampire with a special power: emotional manipulation through touch. It can calm, confuse, or intensify a personâs feelings with a simple touch, an ability that makes him useful on stage but makes him appear a little weaker than others in routine everyday situations.
All 7 members have powers: Heeseung the oldest member of the group has the power of vocal hypnotism. He is the calmest and most rational person in the group, and he is often the peacemaker between Jake and the designer.
Jay can hypnotize people, controlling their minds, emotions, and thoughts with his gaze. This allows him to manipulate the actions of others and influence their thoughts. However, his power is limited when he is not emotionally balanced if he lets himself be overwhelmed by his darkest desires, or if he stands beside sensitive people.
Sunghoon has the power of super speed and is the "prince" of the group, with an elegant but competitive air.
Sunoo is empathic and can capture any emotion or tension with his natural aura, he can perceive the emotions of others without the need for physical contact. He is the first to notice the tension between Jake and the designer.
Jungwon is the first of the group to be able to transform into a bat and fly. He can also move objects with his mind. Its flying power makes it super fast, but it requires a lot of energy and can be affected by weather conditions.
Finally, we have Ni-Ki the smallest of the group has the power of mimetism (can make itself invisible for long periods). He is the most lively of the group and enjoys teasing Jake.
The studio is a chaotic mix of lights, and clothes hanging mono color with red references to remind that the Enhypen were vampires and they fed mostly blood and staff ran everywhere to prepare members for their next shooting with a well-known brand of Italian high-rise clothing. For Y/n the new designer, It was her first day and she had been waiting for a long time after finishing her studies in fashion design to work for a fashion house or to be someoneâs stylist when they accepted her for a year-paid trial she felt like, she was on top of the world. Y/n she could seem reserved, a little cynical, and maybe haughty but had struggled with herself to pay for her studies and learn everything there was to know about high fashion. Y/n found himself arranging a rack of perfectly ironed leather jackets and shirts. Itâs the first day with the group, and his goal is simple: do his job perfectly, show the department boss that she is good, and go away without a hitch, But she doesn't know that soon a vampire in the guise of golden retrievers would be upset all her life and all its uncertainties. Jake walked backstage like a thunderbolt, with an aura that canât go unnoticed: bright smile, relaxed posture, eyes that seemed to sparkle with pure charm wearing fake nerd glasses, and his artificial golden hair that gave him that aura even more as a non-human person. He observed the staff, 90% of the human people whom he had known well for 4 years now, but his eyes immediately turned to her, the girl with curly copper-colored hair who was putting their jackets away. He suddenly stopped to observe her, not that it was unusual for Jake to stop and look at a beautiful girl, both in vampire TV and in human TV was routine now was represent as a lover of adventure and did not make distinctions between vampire or human girls but this time... there was something different.
Jake with a smile like a book, the usual thing he did to get the attention that he loved to receive from women approached the new stylist. «Oh, hello. Are you new? Iâm Jake, nice to meet you.» Jake reached out to him because with that excuse he would have the way to touch her and feel what she felt at that moment with his magic power.
The designer heard a melodic voice coming from next to her and that voice had already been heard a billion times on TV or when she listened to their songs. " Yes, i know who you are. Youâre the one whoâs always late and ruining staff time, right?" Y/n looked up for a second and found himself next to Jake Sim the womanizer of the group with his slightly frizzy blonde hair, his classic smile made all the girls drool for him and his body toned for the countless hours spent in the gym and training. But after a few seconds, she concentrated back on the jackets and Jake stood for an instant speechless. She didnât even look at him. No smile, no blush, no nod of that typical "oh my god, itâs Jake from Enhypen" reaction.
«Wow, pungent. I like girls with character. Whatâs your name, honey? I bet that a girl like you will have a beautiful and particular name as your coppery blonde hair and your forest green eyes» Finally you look up and stare at him with a dry look. Jakeâs eyes meet yours, but something goes wrong. He canât read your emotions, or touch you for a second and itâs as if his usual power to manipulate the charm and feelings of others has disappeared. For the first time in hundreds of years, Jake feels... normal. "If you are done flirting with me i would be happy, i have to adjust your measurements for this jacket that i think is too big for you. Please stay still and try to keep it up until Iâm done with the job, then you can go flirt with the other staff girls!" Jake, a little upset, lets himself take the measurements for the thousandth time. As she takes the measurements of his bust and shoulders,he smells her perfume: sweet but with a pungent note, just like her attitude towards him at this moment.
Jake is a serial chatterbox and tries to break the silence with another of his little jokes «You havenât told me your name yet. I am always so irresistible with all the girls that i meet, what is it you have a magical power that you are particularly impervious to my charm?» Y/n looked at the vampire in front of her and looked up, God how self-centered this boy was.
"Well, maybe fate wanted you to meet for the first time a girl who does not find you irresistible to your charm, what if your little ego as a superstar is getting weaker because for the first time especially a human does not find you irresistible?" Jake looked at you slightly with his mouth open and felt his fangs become slightly longer and his eyes get darker than they should, why was he so excited about such a conversation? The little human was teasing him and seemed not to be afraid that there was a vampire in front of her who could temper or bleed her in an instant if she would not keep her mouth shut. As she continues to work, Jake realizes that not only canât he use his powers on her, but that his natural charm doesnât even seem to scratch her. This irritates him... and intrigues him.
It had been more than a month since your arrival in the world of Enhypen and you were always excited to discover and have adventures with them, In that month you were flying to Spain for a festival and had been able to design 2 dresses for members one for Sunghoon and the other for Jay and the department head was greatly surprised by the sketch and also how the set of the two vampire suits came out. With the other members, you had started to become less cynical and maybe even "friendly" but with the only one who could not get a professional and friendly relationship was Jake, he always made you some jokes inappropriate about how they dressed your jeans, how he loved seeing your beautiful legs while you were wearing skirts but at the same time he teased you about how you only became touchy when you were with him or how your cheeks warmed up when he whispered things a little dirty when you made it before you went out to sing on stage or when you were measuring him for a new suit. As it was happening at this exact moment: you had helped all the members to prepare and at the same time take photos that would go later on the various Fashion Blogs of the vampire world and human ones for the clothes worn by the 7 idols.
"Jake, itâs your turn to change the outfit," You said in a dry tone, trying to keep your cool as you were putting the sketch of the dress on the electronic board. Your heart is already agitated enough when Jake is near, with that mischievous smile and aura that seems to wrap around him. Jake came in and stood before you and looked at you with a puppy smile and slightly protruding lip and smiled at you with an expression that screamed amused and teasing. «Okay, but Iâm a little tired, can you help me? Never know these leather pants seem so tight and i wouldnât want to break them!» You ignored his words and pointed to the open shirt, leather jacket, and leather pants on the stand. âHurry up with your clothes, Jake. Weâre late." The vampire looked at his watch and had 10 minutes before he left for the event and of course, decided to complicate your life. With a languid smile, he pulls his shirt right in front of you, revealing his sculpted chest. You looked at him slightly amused but you were smoking out of anger because if they found you with only a finger too much put in a strange position for the department head they would fire you instantly, you shot to not look at it and not to let them see that you were slightly embarrassed, It wasnât the first time you saw a bare chest but Jake had seriously sexy and muscular physique at the right spot and his muscular crests that formed a perfect V made you think of things you should never have imagined.
"Really? Couldnât you change behind the partition like everyone else? What is it you have not yet understood that i'm not fascinated by you Jake" The vampire in front of you laughed and slipped his pants from the suit and remained only in boxers in front of you, were you cursing him in all possible languages because he wanted so much to embarrass you and tease you?
«Well, where is the fun if i went to change in knowing? Itâs nice to see you so cheeky looking at my beautiful physique and who knows maybe in your mind you imagine being over my legs or while licking these beautiful muscles!» You were so tired of his insolence that you threw his shirt and heard him laugh. "Jake! Put some clothes on, for Godâs sake!" «You are so boring Y/n, should you relax and have fun sometimes and why do you use words like Holy Heavens? i'm a vampire, not a priest or some clerical member». You sighed, trying to ignore it. But your work came before his stupid beats so you walked up and gently took his shirt. "Put this on. Right now, Jake. Otherwise, i'll send you out in just boxers." Jake took a step towards you, getting close enough to hold your breath. «Can you help me, right? Youâre the designer. Touch me as well. I donât bite... at least not without permission.»
You stared at him trying to keep calm. "Did anyone ever tell you that youâre unbearable?" Jake laughed softly as you might get slightly touchy, but when he felt her stylistâs little fingers touching his shoulder to fix his shirt, everything changed.
As your fingers touched his cold vampire skin, you both stiffened. There is something strange: an unexpected warmth spreads under your touch, as if only with your touch could feel the heat, something as unknown to a vampire. Jake was as amazed as he was, so he laid his big hand slightly over yours where you had just stopped for the heat shock you both received.
«You...you are hot Y/n» you laughed at his bat when you pushed your hand away to button the shirt buttons. "Wow what a scientific finding you just made Jake, of course, Iâm hot in my body circulates blood, i'm a human if you donât remember" Jake shook his head, it was seriously weird what was happening. For what reason did he feel the heat while touching it? Never happened. Then, with a more uncertain smile than usual, he looked at you, and you buttoned the last button and left two open to reveal his skin and toned physique. «No, you donât understand Y/n. Iâm a vampire i should be cold for you, you shouldnât feel heat when you touch me, that only happens...» You didnât want to hear his stupid comments anymore so you put the clothes on and made a sign to move âJake... You talk too much, move that the other members are waiting for you. Give a little help from the hairstylist and run into the studio" you ran away from his presence and went to the studio where the other members were already ready, you put near your cape that smiled at you and made her see all the photos you had done to the members and fortunately Jake had made hairstylist so nobody noticed anything.
The months passed quickly and Y/n always pretended not to feel what she felt every time she accidentally touched the vampire and was unaware of what he felt and went through Jakeâs head. You always tried to ignore what happened every time you touched Jake, but it wasnât easy. At first, it was just isolated episodes: a touch of the arm to fix his jacket, a contact while you were fixing his collar. But each time, that unexpected heat returned, and each time it seemed to become more intense. Jake, for his part, did everything to provoke those moments and have an excuse to feel that touch. He came deliberately, with banal excuses: "Can you fix this sleeve?" or "I need help with this zip." He did not need any help, but he wanted to feel that heat that made him crazy. This thing was noticed by his companions and not only, no more gossip or drama between him and the other girls, was seriously focused on the comeback that would be there soon Jake every weekend was in the company of some girl and instead a couple of time seemed to have no more want to touch or date other girls, the only touch he wanted and was obsessed with was Y/n.
They had all worn the various costumes for the new comeback and were preparing to shoot the new video, Jake was training with the band members, but the presence of the stylist backstage distracted him. She was there talking to another stylist while she was bent over a box full of accessories, trying to fit them into a costume they would use later for recording outdoors.
Jake watches her in secret, trying to ignore the growing desire that assailed him every time he was in the same room with her, in the same plane, in the same bar where all the employees stopped in the morning practically her smell was getting more and more into Jakeâs body and soul and it was strange because he had not yet felt or tasted her blood and seemed to attract him every day More and more.
Sunghoon gave him an elbow. <<Hey, what are you doing? Youâve missed the step for the third time. We have repeated this choreography a thousand times even the walls know it by heart>>
Jake clears his throat, trying to look natural. "Nothing, Iâm just tired."
Jay, who is watching everything carefully, looks at him with a suspicious look. «Tired? Distracted? Youâre a vampire we donât rest almost ever Jake, these are all excuses»
Sunghoon follows Jakeâs look and immediately understands. <<Oh, i see. Itâs for you, isnât it? Your favorite designer with whom you argue from morning to night, stop staring at her because besides us other people can follow your gaze right now. >>
Jakeâs eyes are up, trying to hide the embarrassment. "Donât be silly i wasnât staring at her. For that moment when my eyes leaned on her figure you looked where my gaze was... thatâs all." Jake was embarrassed and started to torture the fur of his hands
Jay with a mischievous grin looked at Jake. «Curious? How no. Your eyes are turning dark, brother. If you donât calm down, youâll make a vampire scene in front of everyone.»
Hoon laughed at Jayâs joke and came even closer to Jake << Look here not to mention the tusks. They are growing you every time you approach her. Maybe itâs time to do something.>>
Jake walked away from his brothers and looked at them badly "Nothingâs happening. Thereâs nothing wrong if sometimes my fangs become longer, it always happens when iâm near girls is my instinct as a predator what i'm"
Jay looks at him with a piercing look, as only a vampire can do. «You know that the heat and intensity you feel are not random. If she causes you all this, she could be your soul mate and not say that you have never thought about it because it is for a good few weeks that no gossip comes out about you, i don't see you flirting with any girl, and always seem so lost in your thoughts»
Jake would like to fight back but he gets stuck. He canât deny it, but he doesnât even admit it. The idea that she might be his soul mate scares him more than anything else, there are so few pairs of humans and a vampire, that they were seriously banned but since the two worlds made peace and began to collaborate subspecies of marriages between vampires and humans had been celebrated but were still seen as decidedly out of place especially by older generations.
Slowly, the other members also began to notice that something was wrong. Ni-Ki in particular enjoyed teasing Jake whenever the stylist was around.
Jungwon watched the older boyâs hair get tangled up from the sensations he was feeling when he saw Y/n. "Hey, Jake, are you all right? It seems your brain goes haywire every time she enters the room." Another time Ni-Ki was in the company of the golden retriever and Y/n had spent a second showing him a newspaper of Vogue Korea where they were and Ni-Ki was wearing a dress she had designed and when he left Jake was definitely desperate because the smell of Y/n was driving him crazy.
<<Maybe we should ask her to stay a little further away from you next time. We wouldnât want Jake to lose control and throw himself at his neck, would we?>> Jake gave the groupâs little boy a hateful look and cursed him when they bit him, nobody told him how hard it could be to feel and want a person who at first did not even much with his arrogance but now he was seriously tired and would do anything to understand if Y/n was his soul mate or if it was all fruit of his sick mind because he could not have it like all the other girls.
Enhypen flew to Japan for a festival where the top 5 bands of the moment would perform, both male and female, had just finished performing after another group called Stray Kids and when he came back backstage he went to grab something to nibble on but his look after a few seconds stopped on Y/n and felt his anger grow second by second. The reason why? His stylist was chatting with another idol, for his bad luck with one of the most beautiful humans in circulation as well as Hyunjin who belonged to the Stray Kids. Hyunjin was the representation of the classic model but at the same time idol, he was enigmatic with his aura as an artist, with his hair slightly long, and with his charm fake emo. The scene was innocent: you were getting a drink and Hyunjin came to you and as gentlemanly as he was asked if you wanted to taste some Japanese snacks that he loved because he had seen you busy preparing all the members for the day and how he deduced you had eaten almost nothing, the smiles and accepted until you started talking about the more and less of the various tours that the two groups were to do and Hyunjin without malice had touched your side. After all, he wanted to take more food to the table but Jake when he saw this scene something inside him clicked.
After a while, Y/n saw Jake arrive haughtily and stand in front of Hyunjin. «Are you finished? We need her. Work to do, you know how she gets paid to be our stylist not to have conversations with other idols."
Hyunhin confused took a step back. "Oh, sorry, I didnât mean to disturb. I just wanted to let her discover some snacks that we humans love so much, things you vampires canât understand!" Y/n watched Jake tighten his hands around his jeans more and more and after a few seconds he took her away from Hyunjin until he pushed his stylist into a closet Jake looked immediately if there were cameras but that time was lucky because there were only him and the designer attached to the wall with arms crossed to the body to make them as baracer.
"What a scene, Jake. I didnât know you were my babysitter." Jake closed his eyes for a moment and when he opened them again there was no longer the golden retriever version that everyone knew but perhaps a darker and maybe true version of him. «I donât like it when you approach people you donât know.» But who did he think he was? had no control over you.
"Oh, i see. And why? Arenât you the one who flirts with everything that is human or not, since you are a vampire?"
Jakeâs jaw is tight. He was really tired of you, of your arrogance, of how you ignored that warmth you felt too, and wanted to teach you a lesson. «Don't compare me to them. You donât belong to this world of idols, you donât belong to anyone... except to me.»
His words made you jump. For a moment you are speechless, and then you decide to answer him with your usual sarcasm.
"Oh, really? And since when did you decide to become possessive? I thought you were the one-night stand, and so when i listened to the gossip news every weekend they would photograph or film you with one or maybe more different girls!"
Jake stepped towards you, his face a few inches from yours «Maybe i was. But you have changed everything fucking donât tell me that you don't feel what i feel, every time i'm near you when i touch you, i always feel that electric discharge of heat that for us vampires is almost impossible to perceive because we have no blood and no emanate heat.»
"Donât think your movie lines impress me, Jake. Iâm not one of your fans who faints as soon as you smile, Iâm not fascinated by you, I donât see in you the guy that is represented on all media and not." You didnât finish the sentence that Jakeâs lips crashed into yours, there was no hesitation, only physical need. Contact is an explosion of sensations: the heat that feels every time it touches you becomes almost unbearable, wrapping both.
You remain motionless, caught by surprise, but then you give in to the kiss, returning it with a passion that you did not think you had. Jake came even closer and lifted you off the floor and sat you down on the small table full of detergents that he dropped when he put his big hands around your ass to lean on you and then close again to him. «Baby fuck, youâre driving me crazy months i wanted to feel your lips in mine» you slightly pushed Jake away but he dived back into your lips and a little moan came out of your lips when you felt his canines close to your lip and without permission bit your lower lip lightly and when Jake saw the drops of your blood began to sucked and at the same time lifted the light shirt you had on, and when he saw you only with the bra and little drops that were pouring out of your mouth, his neck up to the breast was no longer controlled and began to lick and suck you every drop scattered in your little body around yours.
"I hate you Jake" Jake smiled when he licked and sucked the little wound he had made in your lip again, «Youâll make me crazy Y/n, this is definitely your end you will not be able to go back» you put your arms around his neck and kissed him again but this time it was you who taunted him and as he had done he bit his lip but from him no drop of blood came out but from his lips, a lot of groans and sighs of pleasure, still covered by the breast-rest to his body and at the same time you kissed desperately and after a while Jake licked the wound that had caused you with his tongue and you no longer felt pain because with his tongue could cure any injury with his powers.
You pushed him away and after a while, you pulled him to sit next to you and you put yourself on him, you didnât know if that table would hold your weight but you didnât care, You just wanted to feel Jakeâs lips again in your body and swung slightly along its length; Jake was seriously ecstatic. Who would have thought you had so much energy and desire to ride him? As you kissed, you felt his big hands slightly cold but when they touched your body they became slightly warm, one hand was behind your back to keep you balanced, and with a single gesture he took off your bra and with the other began to tighten a breast and took his lips from the you and bent slightly to suck an bud of your breast, You were so sensitive in that part of your body and all these new discoveries about you will go all into a part of his brain where he wrote down all the things you liked and those less. Your nipples harden in the cold air but are quickly warmed by Jakeâs fingers, he pinches and pulls the buds sharply, and the feeling makes you want to get aroused. He started to torture you both nipples slowly and pulled his hair slightly, "Jake pls, donât always be a jerk with me" A grin formed on his face, and licked you and suck the bud but his canines were driving you crazy because every time he sucked them you felt more and more in contact with your skin but Jake was not a mad lunatic as some people had painted him and not you would ever do harm, so with all his patience he never let out his teeth but only his tongue.
«Fuck stop little move so on my dick or Iâll come in these pants for thousands of dollars» A little moan came out from your lips and laughed at that sentence of Jake
"Thatâs the point, Jake, stop calling me a little girl because Iâm not one of the whores you fucked for no reason" Jake was really fucked by you, who were you really?
You wrapped your arms around his arms again and began to ride them lengthwise, and Jake leaned his head against the wall and wrapped his big hands around your hips covered in a light pull of black leggings, You were sending him off head whenever you rode his dick covered in jeans and after a few seconds he felt the flap of his pants wet and a finger intruded into your pussy still dressed in leggings and felt that you were completely wet. Fuck for the first time in hundreds of years, he came as a boy loser in his boxer shorts.
Jake drew you close to himself and pressed you to his body and he drew light circles above your leggings behind your back until he felt that you had calmed down, After a while he slightly moved away from you and took your face with his big hands and stroked your completely reddened cheeks.
"You really are a problem Jake" He smiled at you and passed his thumb around where he had bit you slightly with his canine.
«And you are mine. You know that, donât you?»
You did not answer, but the blush on your cheeks and the look in his eyes said it all.
After what had happened in the Japanese locker, it seemed to have made Jake more and more sensitive to the scent and smell of Y/n, tried in every way to throw a few glances, to visit her even for a few minutes between breaks of some intense choreography or in the morning he always arrived first and left him in his art studio some humanoid food that loved his human like a chocolate muffin or a smoothie. His companions or in short vampire brothers were mocking him a little but they were happy that the first to have found (hopefully) his soul mate was Jake, they were also tired of seeing him always with some girl different and knew that when he would find her would see his true cub nature as they called him "the golden retriever vampire" because he always loved to cuddle, Embrace or play with all members, especially with Ni-Ki who found herself in that world of the idol at a young age.
The autumn festival was on the plan in Seoul and Enhypen was invited as guest of honor, there were many other groups both vampires and humans and they were always a little alert because so many people would be perfect for "bad" vampires, creatures who did not accept the peace treaty with humans and were always hunting for some human to bite or even worse if they felt or knew that a vampire had eyes on a human wanted absolutely to make the vampire in question suffer. Their mission is clear: hit the stylist to hurt Jake and the rest of the group, because even if Y/n was the soul mate Jake had a subtle connection with the other 6 members, and if they hurt Jake would also hurt the others in some way.
While you were putting the accessories behind the scenes, a vampire suddenly appeared in front of you with red eyes and exposed tusks. You had seen some vampires lose control and even the Enhypen sometimes showed their canines to their fans or red eyes but this vampire in front of you looked literally scary and you went a little backward, They always told you that you shouldnât be afraid because they would hear it and they would feel even more with the heart and blood pumping more but at this moment you were really terrified until you saw his canines come out of your mouth and tried to touch you but Jake and the others immediately rushed to you.
Jay pushed you with a pussyfoot behind him, saying «Donât dare to come near her again or even worse touch her is ours.»
Sunghoon with his usual cold, calculating, and scornful look looked at the vampire still with eyes on you << Youâve chosen the wrong target, do not allow yourself to touch her or any other person without powers, Donât turn against me because if you donât remember Iâm of the royal family and I could send you to hell in an instant>>
Jake when he saw that it wasnât him who had saved you or alienated you from that vampire completely lost control. With a deep growl, face the vampire who had dared to approach you. Eyes as black as darkness tusks fully exposed. In a few seconds, the danger was eliminated.
But when you watched the scene of Jake biting and maybe killing that vampire in front of you, you became terrified and looked at everyone with scared eyes, especially Jake. You walked away from Jay looked at him and cried with tears "Stay away from me! All of you! Youâre monsters!"
Jake turns to you, his face still marked by anger and adrenaline, and yells «I saved you. You should be glad i got him out»
You backed away a little "From what? From other monsters like you? I donât want to have anything to do with you, your sick world full of malice"
Your words are like a dagger for Jake. His confident smile disappeared completely, giving way to a wounded expression, and lowered his head as he watched you move away from them but above all from him, and in a low voice he said «I... I am not like them.»
Sunghoon put his hand on Jakeâs shoulder and said << Jake. She just needs time. >
«And if that were not enough? for her, Iâm only a monster...»
The Enhypen were training without breaks for almost three hours until a man entered the rehearsal room. He is tall and elegant, but there is a menacing aura around him. His eyes glimmer with a dark red, and every movement seems calculated. Jake recognizes him immediately.
«Rex. What do you want?»
"Quiet Iâm not here to create problems Iâm here to warn you."
The other members stop, the air suddenly tenses and Jay immediately stands near Jake
<< Warn him of what?>>
Rex looked at Jake "You're... human. The stylist. She attracted unwanted attention. There are vampires who do not respect the treaty, and you are an easy target."
Jake clenches his fists, his body tense. «They will not touch her»
Rex raised an eyebrow, "I hope so for you. But protecting her while she lives alone is practically impossible. Itâs better if she comes live with you, at least until things calm down."
Jake remains silent for a long moment. The stylistâs words come to his mind: "You are all monsters." The thought of seeing her every day, knowing how much she fears him, makes him feel empty.
«No way.»
Jay stared at Jake << Rex is right. If something happens to her, you wonât forgive yourself. Let me convince her that you are... too involved. >>
Jake turns to Jay, face tense. «Do as you please. But donât ask me to talk to her.»
Jay meets you at the end of a long dayâs work, sitting in your studio surrounded by a pile of sketches, unfinished clothes, and several cups of coffee with deep dark circles, a sign of sleepless nights.
Jay came in unannounced << You donât look well>> You looked up and with surprise there was Jay
"What are you doing here? Youâre not the one who usually makes surprise visits."
Jay smiled slightly << For Jake it is... complicated. So Iâm the one to bring you the message, he knows that iâm half human like you so he thinks iâm the perfect candidate to tell you this bomb without you getting angry or scared even more>> you looked curious Jay and made with my hands the gesture of continuing to speak.
<< Youâre safe here but not at home, you have to come and live with us, at least for a while until things settle down between you and Jake>>
You raised an eyebrow "And why should I? I donât feel exactly comfortable with you... vampires"
Jay sighs, sitting in front of her. << Look, I know youâre angry and scared. And youâre right to be. But if you donât come with us, we canât guarantee your protection. Rex himself said youâre a target. And trust me, you donât want to know what happens if one of those vampires finds you. If you donât trust others of me you can trust i have the blood that flows under my skin and a little i can understand you, so now get up that i accompany you home, You take a nice hot shower and then we prepare a suitcase and come to stay with us for a while and then when things have settled you can decide whether to go back to your house or stay with Jake>> These words make you shiver and annuities without objecting.
When you arrived at their house you were warmly welcomed by everyone... except for Jake. Every time you met him in the hallways, he would just nod cold or look at you for a moment before leaving.
One night, however, terror took over. A sudden noise woke you up, and the memories of the attack at the festival came to mind. You looked at the time and without doing it on purpose were 3 o'clock in the night the time of the devil. Trembling, you slipped out of his room and headed for Jakeâs door.
Knocking slowly you felt your heart beat strong until after a few seconds the door opened and there in front of you was Jake in pajamas with black stripes, red and blue, and a bare chest; you felt the cheeks turn immediately red and married the look to his face «What do you want?»
"Canât i sleep, can i come in?"
Jake opened the door, his impassive expression, and saw you enter his shelter
«You shouldnât be here Y/n, the monster in front of you could bleed you dry and feed you to other monsters like me!» You watched his canines on display and a shiver ran through your body, bit your lip and you approached him and you leaned down where he was sitting in bed.
"Iâm sorry. I didnât mean what i said. I was scared, confused, and when I saw you so angry and hurt that being me."
Jake finally looked up at you and looked at you with a bitter smile
«You said it, and you thought it. Iâm nothing but a monster to you, am I?» You shook your head, unable to bear the distance that had been created between you and him by that event.
"Youâre not a monster to me. Youâre Jake. Youâre the guy who makes me lose my patience every day, who makes me laugh when I least expect it, who looks at me as if Iâm the only thing that matters in the world, who behaves a little bit of a pervert when I wear skirts or that always looks at me with that look you would like to claim yours and let everyone know! I was wrong, but... I donât really mean it."
Before Jake could answer you kissed him. His lips were soft against hers, full of a sweetness that tried to erase the pain it had caused him, you felt immediately the heat that you had missed in those days and for a moment Jake let go responding to the kiss, but then he brusquely walked away and looked at you with those half-brown eyes with red shades.
Jake got up from his bed and put some distance away from you. «A kiss is not enough to fix everything. Not when you said those words... You donât understand what it means to me to be seen like this by you, Y/n.»
You felt the tears burn your eyes, but he was not willing to give up.
"I didnât understand it before but i do now. I know i hurt you, and maybe i donât deserve your forgiveness. But... I want to make it right."
Jake stared at you, his eyes shining in the dim, full of conflict. Before he could answer you wrapped him in a sincere embrace, holding him as if it was something precious that maybe you had slowly understood that you too were feeling something for him.
"Please let me stay. I donât want to sleep alone tonight."
Jake stood still for a long time, his body stiff against yours. Then, with a trembling breath, his arms rose and surrounded you
«Youâre stubborn, you know? You drive me crazy»
You looked up, with a soft but provocative smile "Iâm learning from the best golden retriever who canât stop hugging people."
Jake laughed softly, shaking his head. His face became soft, and for the first time in those days, he seemed more serene.
«Do not make me regret this. Tomorrow when you wake up do the go away and donât come back the girl cynical and a little haughty who loved to make fun of me, letâs discover Y/n»
You nodded against his chest, finally feeling some peace. You had been hugging for almost half an hour but after a while, you felt Jakeâs belly growl with hunger and a little laugh came out of your mouths as you looked at each other, Jake broke away from you and took a small bottle of blood from under the bed and your face was at how much disgust but you saw immediately the expression of Jake become serious and maybe a little suffering? you bent slightly towards him and passed your little hand through his slightly long hair in the tuft "Whatâs wrong, Jake? Do you need a straw?"
Jake looked up at you exasperated «Donât repeat Y/n, where did the sweet girl from before?» You raised your hands in surrender "Iâm just saying. Youâre a vampire, I thought drinking blood was like... your favorite thing."
«Itâs not so simple Y/n, since i tasted yours, any blood sucks me and I have trouble feeding myself» you look at the boy next to you with a small grin
"Are you telling me that my blood is the best youâve ever tasted?"
Jake looked at you with his little red eyes «Itâs not funny.»
You said "He is a little bit. But hey, at least now I know that Iâm irreplaceable for someone!"
Jake looked at you intensely and his little smile had vanished «You are much more than irreplaceable Y/n, now you sleep that it is almost 4»
The days passed and between exhausting workouts, events, and live, fan meetings the days went by quickly and even your stay in the protected villa of Enhypen continued. Jake kept teasing you and you did the same, It seemed that since the first time you slept together, embraced as two young boys who were to discover each other and not as a vampire who was afraid of losing you and a human who did not understand this thing about soul mate, But Jake that night was definitely in abstinence of something he had tasted from Y/n and wanted absolutely to possess it but at the same time did not want to scare her and be seen a "monster" from her eyes.
Jake walked into your room with quiet steps, slightly ruffled hair, and an unreadable expression on his face. You noticed it immediately: the way his eyes looked even darker than usual, the evident tension in his shoulders.
You looked up and there was a puppy-looking Jake in front of you, who was looking at you and honestly didnât know what to do or say
"Canât sleep, or did you miss me already? We met like an hour ago!"
Jake looked at you with his intense gaze as if he was eating with his eyes. «I canât stay away from you.»
You were stuck for a moment, surprised by his sincerity," his voice was so serious, so vulnerable but you were literally a little bitch and loved to tease him and to hide the tension I said. " Oh, poor little golden retriever. Need a cuddle?"
Jake does not laugh. He comes slowly, until he sits on the edge of his bed, so close that you could feel the freshness of his skin. «Donât joke, please Y/n. I need you tonight.»
His low, almost pleading tone made you shiver, you had never seen a Jake so direct and you approached him.
âThen what do you want to do, Jake? Stand there staring at me or..." You canât finish the sentence that Jake moves suddenly, hands laying on the sides of your hips as he approaches you dangerously. His face is so close to you that he can feel his breath against your neck.
«Donât ask me questions youâre not ready to hear answered.»
You held your breath but did not want to back out. In fact, you raised your hand and deliberately placed it on his chest, feeling his muscles tense under his shirt. "What if i was ready?"
Jake stiffens as if his words have broken something inside him. Then, slowly, he lets himself fall beside her, lying on the bed. «I donât know if i can control myself tonight, you are too much Y/n for me.»
Youâre turning towards him, a smile that plays on your lips. "Who said you had to control yourself? I thought you were a vampire, not a puppy."
Jake closed his eyes for a moment, breathing heavily. When he opens them again, there is something different about him: a vulnerability he had never shown before. He rises up on an elbow and fixes you with such intensity that you feel your cheeks warm.
Jake said in a roaring voice, «If I bite you, everything will change. I canât risk hurting you.»
You bowed your head, your smile became a little more provocative. "What if i wanted to risk it?"
Jake doesnât answer. He just stares at you for an infinite moment, then slowly lowers his head towards his neck. When his cold lips touch your skin, you feel a shiver run down your back.
"Itâs not you who should be afraid, itâs me." Caress his cheeks and open your neck even more
Jake makes a low sound, almost a growl that sound was incredibly sexy and you would have wanted to hear it again forever. Then, without hesitation, gently sinks his fangs into your skin.
The pain is minimal, almost imperceptible, but the heat that follows is overwhelming. You felt the blood flow to him as if he was creating a bond that goes beyond the physical. Jake groans slowly, his body relaxing while he drinks with a sweetness that he would never have expected, he sucked gently but at the same time was unbridled by the heat that produced your body and the feeling of his lips around your neck and the taste that had your exquisite blood in his mouth. When he comes off, blood gushes from his lips and his eyes are dark, almost black. He took off your slightly stained shirt and little drops went into your body but he wanted to do something even dirtier with you.
Jake in a low voice, with a trembling smile, said to you «I know now why i canât stay away from you. Itâs you. It was always you.»
You touched your neck, still a little bit dizzy and sore, and felt Jake sit on his knees in front of your bed and take off your pajamas.
«You trust me, baby? I want to make you feel good but at the same time i too» watch Jake and to hide your nervousness you talked by doing one of your usual jokes." I just made you bite my neck and suck it, I think I do, Jake!"
Jake laughed softly, a deep guttural sound, and came close to touching your pussy, but he wanted to hear it with the tongue in which he had tasted you and still tasted your blood. He took off your already wet panties and you had the pussy totally stimulated because of his canines that sucked your blood and you were terribly excited, passed his tongue in your pussy and he moaned. «Youâre so wet for me eh.?» He kissed you for a few seconds the inside cosca «So wet for the guy that you said it did not fascinate you eh.?» presses his pinky on your completely wet core, rotating around your inlet without any additional pressure.
"Jake pls, Iâve been so good to you i let you bite me i need..." was starting to tease you, and this time he was the one who was ruining you not you. He took his little finger off the clitoris and suddenly started to lick a path from your entrance to your clitoris where it snaps and sucks hard. The feeling makes you tremble on your knees and you reach for a hand to get caught in his hair, pulling hard. Jake works your clitoris just as you like it and you can feel your upcoming orgasm grow but he had another thought and let his hands off your thighs and suddenly stood up and opened your eyes for the loss of his tongue on your pussy and with canines in plain sight You felt his tongue with your juices give you little kisses where he had previously bitten you, and bit you again but this time for a few seconds and the contact of his canines on the skin another time made you moan both from pleasure and pain "Jakie". Jake was ecstatic when he heard that nickname and with the blood flowing back to taste your pussy «This is the sweetest thing i have ever tasted.» Jake opened you again with one hand before collecting your slimy cum and teasing your entrance. Your back bows giving him a better access and you groan as he puts one finger and then another.
«Are you close baby?» Jake bites your clitoris and you scream as he presses the sweet gummy spot inside of you that makes you see the stars. Come strong enough to get you shed tears again, your hand pulls the vampire stronger on your clitoris before itâs too much and you have to let go. Jake walks away but not before licking you clean and letting you shudder for all the sensations you had felt.
Jake gave you his shirt and Iâll pull you to myself to never let you go because you were really his and no one else would have you.
Morning light filters through the curtains of the room, creating a soft and warm atmosphere. You wake up slowly but your first thought is not work or your daily worries but Jake.
You look at him, noticing how his body is lying beside you, his arms around you as if it were the most natural thing in the world. Jakeâs head is gently resting on your neck where a few hours before he bit you for the first time, you put your finger where he bit you but there was no visible sting but felt when you pressed lightly that it bothered you, His warm and regular breath made your neck tingle and you had never seen it so... Vulnerable. So human.
You smiled at the sight of him who didnât look like a vampire but as his brothers said: he looked literally like a golden retriever in person size, he was so attached to you and you passed your hand through his cheeks, and then into his slightly ruffled hair. But you wanted to tease him as he had done last night and without thinking, your hand moved slowly towards his abdomen, touching it with a light movement. Jakeâs skin is incredibly smooth, and you canât help but follow the toning muscles that relax under his hand.
Jake barely moved, a low sound coming from his lips as a shiver seemed to run through his skin. You smiled, traced his muscle ridges, and whispered "Who would have thought a vampire could look like this... peaceful."
Jake didnât answer, but his body reacts to your touch. The breath gets heavier, and he lifts his head slightly to look at you, his eyes are a little confused when he sees you looking at their muscles and touching them. «What are you doing?»
You bent forward and kissed him on the neck, letting your lips touch his cold skin. Donât expect the reaction that follows. Jake stiffens and an immediate heat wave runs under his skin. His hands are clenched around your hips, and he looks at you with darker eyes than before.
Jake with a rock voice said to you «I didnât think you liked playing with fire.»
You looked at yourself with a mischievous smile in front of you "Iâm not playing, Jake. And then... who said I donât like to take risks?"
Jake stared at you intensely, his body tense and incredibly close to yours. Then, without thinking too much, he comes even closer, his hands gently caressing your face before dropping down on your neck where it stops just uncertain.
«If I kiss you... I donât know if I can stop.»
You smile amusingly, but also slightly provocatively. "What are you afraid of losing control, Jakey?"
Jake doesnât answer, but the tension between you is palpable. It comes a little closer, his lips touch yours, and the intensity grows. «This time I will not stop if you keep teasing me like that Y/n, think carefully because you saw my two faces the one of vampire and Iâm not so kind and the one from the Jake golden retriever. What would you like if I made you mine?» You felt your cheeks warm and you put your hand in his chest and both felt that warm elliptricity between your bodies. âIâd like both of them" Jake with a moan crashed into your lips and gently leaned over the pillows and laid himself on top of you holding onto his muscles and vampire strength as you kissed, He pulled your hair and to tease you he rubbed his cock in your fine pajamas. He groans in your mouth before his big hand takes your breast and pinches your nipple.
"Jakie," groaning, throwing his head backward as he creeps into your core. He leans over to clip his lips to your intact breast, pinching you as he rolls his hips forward again.
«Fuck my little human is rubbing on my dick like a slut» You pulled his hair and with one shot he slipped your pants and you were left alone with your panties but also those ended badly when he tore them off, He stood up slowly without taking his eyes from yours and took off his pajamas and boxer shorts too. You watched Jake pass a hand on his hard, slimy cock waiting for you. He almost gave in to the feeling, his free hand wrapped around your thigh to pull you close to him. «Look at you, who is going to fuck you in a moment. The boy you couldnât stand» he whispers, taking his tip and dragging it between your wet folds.
"Jakie pls, I need you" Jake chuckled but did not move to slip inside you and was back to tease. «God had been dreaming of this moment for months, Y/n» sliding his cockâs head back and forth from your entrance to your clitoris waving your hips crying because you needed it inside you for the first time.
As he pushes in inch by inch, both groan quite loudly "fuck itâs so nice Jackie", was trying to slow down the pace but canât hold back with you sucking his dick off perfectly, You put your arms around his neck, and pulled him closer so as he came out again pumped on your entrance and hit your G-spot.
Jake touches the bottom by bending forward and bending down halfway before burying his nose in your neck to try to catch his breath, felt how your heart was pumping and how your blood was running at a thousand in your body and was so proud of you feeling like this; you were hers and at that moment he would have wanted to do you. You donât know how many dirty things: like biting you and fuck you at the same time but he knew it was too much for you so he hammered his cock in your pussy again and raised your leg to make it come in more and more and at the same time started to Tease your clitoris. You were beautiful under him moaning his name and looking at him with a face he had never seen, there was no more expression of a few days ago that you told him he was a monster, This was your true expression where with just a glance could see that you were slowly falling in love with him.
Eventually pushes you over the edge, coming strong around him, your eyes swirling towards the back of his head. Muscles tense and aching as he fucks you through your orgasm, sending shivers of pleasure all over your body. The cock was a little sloppy but kept pushing until you came in full and when it came out I held my breath.
He buries his face in your neck and kisses you again and again where yesterday he had you drooling, stabilizing your breath with his low moan coming out of your throat.
«I warn you, you are now completely mine. I will not let you go.» You looked up and embraced him.
"Stop being so possessive of me, maybe youâre my Jake. But for now, know that I like you a little... but I wonât tell you everything so easily."
Jake watched you, for a moment uncertain whether to believe what you said. Then he smiled, knowing that he would have his answer in his own way with time.
«Donât worry. Iâll show you, baby»
You didnât answer, but your heartbeat betrayed what you didnât want to admit: Jake had already managed to take a part of you. And neither of them knew what would happen next.
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the fastest driver part 3
summary: you are a young and talented driver, who begins your journey in Formula 1 with Ferrari. despite your undeniable ability, you are constantly relegated to the background due to the Scuderia's strategies, which always favor your teammate, Charles Leclerc
warnings: take of pills
word counter: 7364
author's note: english is not my first language, this is from an amazing request, thanks for the comments đ€
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Endless hours passed after the accident before the first clear update about your condition reached the media and the paddock. Everyone was anxiously waiting for news about your health. The uncertainty left fans, journalists, and especially those who truly knew you in a state of tense anticipation.
Finally, a statement from the hospital's medical team brought some relief: you were stable and conscious. While initial tests had ruled out serious spinal injuries or significant fractures, the impact had been severe, leaving you with a moderate concussion and several internal bruises that required monitoring. What concerned the doctors most were the potential psychological and emotional aftereffects: the nature of the crash, the impact, and all the built-up stress could take a toll later.
Hours later, you woke up in a hospital room softly lit by the afternoon light. Everything was quiet except for the rhythmic beeping of the monitor beside your bed. Your body felt heavy, like it was filled with lead, and the headache was sharp and constant. As your eyes adjusted to the light, you noticed someone sitting nearby.
It was Charles. He was there, his hands clasped in front of his mouth, as if praying or just trying to calm his own nerves. When he saw you stir slightly, he lifted his head, and his expression changed a mix of relief and worry crossed his face.
âYouâre awake,â he said softly, as if he didnât want to scare you. âThank God.â
You hadnât expected to see him there. In fact, you hadnât expected to see anyone. And yet, here he was.
âCharlesâŠâ you tried to speak, but your voice came out as barely a whisper.
âShhh, donât talk too much. The doctors said you need to rest.â
âWhat are you doing here?â you asked, ignoring his warning, even though just talking felt like needles stabbing your skull.
He shrugged, offering a light but sincere smile. Â
âSomeone had to make sure you were okay.â
Charles stayed by your side for hours, even when the doctors came in and out to check on you. He answered questions from the journalists crowding outside the hospital, desperate for a statement, and refused requests from photographers trying to get a shot of you. There was something unusually warm and protective about the way he acted.
As you lay back, eyes closed to avoid making the headache worse, you heard his voice.
âYou scared me, you know? Iâve never seen anything soâŠâ He paused, searching for the right word. âSo violent. Not since Jules. And when I saw the crash on the screen, I thought the worst.â
You opened your eyes and looked at him. There was sincerity in his face, something you hadnât expected.
âIâm okay⊠sort of.â You tried to joke, but the pain turned it into a grimace.
âNo, youâre not okay. But you will be. You have to be.â
As Charles stayed with you, messages started pouring in. Your phone sat on the bedside table, just out of reach, and Charles offered to read some.
âEveryoneâs worried about you. Hereâs one from Lando⊠and even one from Toto. Seems like the entire F1 world is waiting for you to get better.â
âWho else?â you asked, almost dreading the answer.
Charles scrolled through, his expression hardening briefly before softening again.
âMax,â he said simply.
Your heart stopped for a moment. You didnât know what to expect. Since the accident, youâd assumed Max was too caught up in his own world to care, but the fact that heâd written at all was enough to twist your stomach.
âWhat does it say?â you asked, trying to sound indifferent, though you knew Charles could see right through you.
He hesitated before answering.
ââHope youâre okay. Sorry I wasnât there sooner. Let me know if you need anything.ââ
The neutrality of the words didnât match the intensity of what you felt hearing them. You closed your eyes, trying to process it all. What did that message even mean? Was it just courtesy, or was there something more behind those words?
Charles noticed your discomfort and set the phone aside.
âYou donât have to reply if you donât want to.â
âI wonât,â you said quickly, though part of you knew that wasnât true.
As night fell, Charles finally said goodbye, promising to return the next day. There was something comforting about his presence, how heâd set aside any competitiveness or formality just to be there for you. Yet, when you were left alone, the thoughts began to overwhelm you.
The crash, the messages, the worries it all tangled into a mess of emotions you couldnât unravel. The only thing clear was that while you were physically stable, emotionally, you were far from okay.
After that day in the hospital, Charles became a constant presence in your life. His support wasnât limited to encouraging messages or occasional visits. He went beyond that. Where others saw a moral obligation or an opportunity to score points with the media, he saw something else: a chance to show you that you werenât alone. Â
The medical team made it clear you could return to racing, but not without certain restrictions. You had to stick to a strict combination of medications after every race: anti-inflammatories, painkillers, and supplements to manage the physical and mental stress you still felt after the accident. Charles was the first person to offer to help you with this. It wasnât his responsibility, but he seemed to take on the role without hesitation. Â
The first race after the accident was a mental and physical challenge. As you prepared to get back in the cockpit, fear swirled in your chest. The accident was fresh in your memory, and even though you knew you were capable, there was a shadow of doubt you couldnât shake. Â
The day before the race, Charles showed up at your hotel. He had a small bag in hand and a calm expression, almost as if it was meant to soothe you. Â
"I thought you might need this," he said, placing the bag on the table. Â
Inside, there was a box of relaxing tea, a small book about mental strategies in sports, and a handwritten note. When you opened it, you found a simple phrase: "Youâre stronger than you think."Â Â
"Thank u," you said, moved by the gesture. Â
"You donât have to thank me. I just want you to know Iâm here, okay? If you need to talk, if you need anything..."Â Â
You nodded, grateful for his sincerity. For a long time, youâd felt alone in this world. It was strange to realize someone was willing to stand by your side without asking for anything in return. Â
Race day was a whirlwind. Even though you tried to stay calm, every time you sat in the car, the memory of the crash resurfaced. You gripped the steering wheel tightly, reminding yourself youâd done this thousands of times before, that you were capableâone of the best. Â
The race wasnât easy, but you finished in a solid fifth place, a result any other driver wouldâve considered a success under the circumstances. When you got out of the car, exhausted but relieved, Charles was the first to approach you. Â
"Well done," he said, patting your shoulder. Â
After every race, Charles made sure you followed the medical protocol. Sometimes, when you forgot the pills, heâd show up holding the box, reminding you that your health came first. Â
"How do you even know I havenât taken them?" you asked one day, half-joking. Â
"Because I know you well enough to know you hate depending on this stuff," he said with a smile, handing you the water and pills. Â
It was strange how his presence had gone from sporadic to constant. He wasnât just there for the serious moments; he also found ways to make you laugh, to lighten the weight on your shoulders. Â
It wasnât something youâd planned or even imagined after everything youâd been through, but your friendship with Charles was good for you. So much so that you felt comfortable asking him something after noticing heâd been off for a while. Youâd seen his behavior become quieter than usual, even in the paddock, where he usually managed to keep up appearances in front of the cameras. Â
"Are you okay? You seem... off."Â Â
His response came almost immediately. Â
"Do you have time to talk?"Â Â
You invited him to your place, where you saw a different side of Charles. Heâd shed his usual composure and looked... vulnerable, almost like the facade he kept in public had cracked. Â
"Thanks for this," he said, sitting on the small couch as you handed him a bottle of water. Â
"You donât have to thank me, Charles. Whatâs going on?"Â Â
He sighed, fiddling with the cap of the bottle before speaking. Â
"Itâs... complicated. Ferrari doesnât feel like my team anymore."Â Â
You frowned, surprised by his words. Â
"What do you mean?"Â Â
"Since Lewis joined this year, everything changed. I knew it would be different, itâs Lewis Hamilton, of course but I didnât think itâd be like this," he confessed, his voice low, almost a whisper. "I feel like everything revolves around him. The strategies, the resources, even the engineersâ attention... Itâs like Iâm a shadow in my own team."Â Â
You felt a pang in your chest hearing that. It was almost an exact replica of what youâd felt when you shared a team with him at Ferrari. Â
"Charles... you donât know how much I get it," you said, sitting across from him. "That feeling of being invisible, like your efforts donât matter... I went through the same thing with you."Â Â
He looked up, surprised by your honesty. Â
"Really?"Â Â
"Yeah. Do you remember all those team orders? All those moments where no matter how fast I was, they always put me aside to favor you. Itâs... frustrating. It makes you question everything you do."Â Â
Charles nodded slowly, processing your words. Â
"I guess I never saw it from your perspective. I always thought the teamâs decisions were fair, but now... now I know what it feels like."Â Â
You leaned forward, resting your elbows on your knees. Â
"Charles, I know how hard this is. But what you need to remember is that your talent doesnât depend on them. Ferrari is just one team, one stage in your careerâit doesnât define who you are as a driver."Â Â
"How did you deal with it?" he asked, genuinely curious. Â
"At first, I didnât," you admitted. "I kept everything inside, let the frustration eat me up... until I couldnât take it anymore. But I learned something: you canât let them take away what you love about this sport. If Ferrari doesnât value you the way they should, then prove your worth on the track. Force them to see you."Â Â
Charles nodded slowly, as if your words were beginning to sink in. Â
"Itâs easier said than done," he said, with a bitter smile. Â
"I know. But I also know you have the talent to do it."Â Â
The conversation went on for hours, shifting from serious topics to shared memories and stories from your days at Ferrari. It was strange, but comforting, to share that space with him. Heâd gone from being the rival who overshadowed you at your lowest to someone you could fully trust. Â
When he finally stood to leave, Charles paused at the door and looked at you with an expression you hadnât seen before. Â
"Thank you for this. I donât know what I wouldâve done without you."Â Â
"Iâm always here. You know that."Â Â
As the door closed behind him, you couldnât help but smile. Charles was so much more than youâd ever thought. And somehow, heâd brought out the best in you too.
While you were helping Charles find his way in a team that relegated him to second place, you couldnât ignore the fact that your own demons were still lurking. And, as if that wasnât enough, Max remained a constant presence both on the track and in your personal life. Â
Since your move to McLaren, the rivalry with Max had reached a new level. If before you shared moments of camaraderie and confidences, now every interaction was loaded with tension. And not just on the track. Â
The championship was on fire. You and Max were leading the standings, swapping first and second place race after race. On every circuit, every corner, and every straight, it felt like only the two of you existed. It didnât matter who else made it to the podium; the battle was always between you and him. Â
During qualifying, both of you pushed to the limit, but an incident in Q3 left Max without a lap time. As soon as he got out of the car, Max stormed straight toward you, visibly furious. Â
âWhat the hell was that?â he snapped, his voice sharp as he closed the distance between you in the paddock. Â
âWhat was what?â you asked, raising an eyebrow, though you knew exactly what he was referring to. Â
âYou blocked me on my flying lap.â Â
âMax, you were too far behind when I started my lap. I didnât block you.â Â
âOf course you did!â he insisted, stepping even closer. His blue eyes burned with a mix of frustration and something else you couldnât quite place. Â
The argument caught the attention of journalists and members of both teams. You knew that one wrong word could make headlines the next day, so you chose to stay calm. Â
âIf you have a problem, take it up with the stewards, not me,â you said before turning and walking away, leaving Max with the words stuck in his throat. Â
But the tension wasnât confined to the track. It had started to bleed into your personal lives. Even though both of you tried to avoid each other outside of race weekends, coincidences were inevitable especially at sponsor events or official meetings. Â
At one of these events, an FIA gala in Monaco, Max couldnât resist looking for you in the crowd. When he finally spotted you, you were talking to Charles, laughing at something heâd said. The sight seemed to ignite something in Max, and he couldnât hold back as he approached. Â
âCan we talk?â he asked, cutting into the conversation. Â
Charles glanced at you, his expression a mix of curiosity and caution, before stepping back to let you decide. Â
âWhat do you want, Max?â you asked, trying to keep your voice neutral. Â
âYou and Charles, whatâs going on between you two?â he asked quietly, though his tone carried an accusatory edge. Â
âWhat kind of question is that?â you replied, crossing your arms. Â
âI donât know. Maybe Iâm losing it, but⊠every time I see you two together, I canât help thinking thatâŠâ Â
âThat what?â you interrupted, annoyed. âThat maybe someone else can actually support me and understand me in this chaos that you chose to ignore?â Â
Max pressed his lips together, clearly feeling the sting of your words. But instead of responding, he looked away and muttered:Â Â
âYou still know how to twist everything around.â Â
The conversation was left unfinished, but the night didnât end there. Later, as you tried to avoid him, you found Max alone on the terrace of the venue, staring out at the sea, his figure illuminated by the lights. Â
âWhy do you do this?â you asked, walking toward him. Your tone was no longer defiant but tired. Â
âDo what?â he asked without looking at you. Â
âShow up, disappear, demand things from me that you canât even give yourself. Youâre still with her, and yetâŠâ Â
Max closed his eyes, as if your words were too heavy to bear. Â
âI donât know how to handle this,â he admitted finally, turning to face you. âYou and me⊠I donât know how to handle it.â Â
âThen maybe you should stop trying,â you said, though your voice cracked at the end. Â
The silence between you was deafening. Too many unsaid emotions, too many decisions both of you refused to make. Finally, Max stepped back. Â
âItâs easier said than done, isnât it?â Â
And with that, he left, leaving you alone on the terrace, feeling like the two of you were trapped in a vicious cycle neither of you knew how to escape. Â
In the days that followed, you tried to focus on racing and your friendship with Charles, who had become a kind of refuge in the chaos. But every time you saw Max, every time your eyes met in the paddock, you felt the storm lingering, waiting for the right moment to break again. Â
The rivalry on the track only grew more intense. Max and you raced as if every race was the last, as if the championship depended on who was stronger, more determined, more ruthless. But off the track, you both continued to grapple with the same internal conflict: what you felt for each other and what the world expected of you. Â
You and Max were the top contenders for the title, and every race turned into a war. The media called it âthe battle of the century,â comparing it to the legendary Senna-Prost rivalry. Every overtake, every strategy, every word in a press conference was scrutinized. Â
At the Brazilian Grand Prix, things came to a head. From the first lap, the fight between you and Max was fierce. You knew every one of his tricks, every weakness, every strength. There were moments when the cars seemed to touch, pushing the limits of competition to the extreme. Â
On lap 43, you attempted an overtake on the inside of Turn 1, but Max, in his trademark aggressive style, shut the door almost recklessly. Your front tires brushed his, and though both of you managed to maintain control, the incident was enough to set off commentators and social media. Â
âThis is unacceptable!â your engineer shouted over the radio. âWeâre reporting it.â Â
But you didnât want to win the championship through a penalty. Â
âLeave it. Iâll settle it on the track,â you said, with a determination that surprised even yourself. Â
In the end, you finished second, behind Max, but the battle was epic. Fans were divided, some siding with you, others defending Max. But in your mind, one thought started to take root: maybe youâd had enough of this world. Â
After that race, you decided to take a break. You flew back to your hometown to spend time with your family, seeking comfort in their presence. One night, sitting in the garden of your parentsâ house, you opened up to your mom. Â
âI donât know how much longer I can do this,â you admitted, staring at the stars. âEvery race feels like a battle not just on the track, but inside me, too.â Â
Your mom, always wise and patient, looked at you with gentle understanding. Â
âThen why do you keep going?â
You stayed silent for a moment, searching for the words. Â
âBecause itâs all Iâve ever known. Since I was a kid, my entire world has revolved around racing. But lately⊠lately, I feel like I want something more. I want a normal life, a family. I want to stop fighting all the time.â
âWhatâs stopping you?.â
âI donât know. Maybe itâs because I donât know what that life would look like, or who it would be with.â
It was the first time youâd said those words out loud. The idea of giving up Formula 1, of walking away from everything youâd worked so hard for, was terrifying but also freeing. Â
You couldnât help but think of Max. Even though your relationship was broken, and the rivalry had reached its peak, there was still something about him pulling you in. But the question that haunted you was: did he feel the same? Â
Max was still with his partner, at least publicly. But his actions, his looks, even his comments during races, hinted at something more. Could you build a life with someone who seemed incapable of facing his own feelings? Â
âMaybe itâs not Max,â you muttered to yourself that night, curled up on the couch in your childhood bedroom. âMaybe itâs someone else. Or maybe I just need to find myself first.â
When you returned to the paddock for the US Grand Prix, something had shifted inside you. You hadnât made any final decisions, but you knew this chapter of your life was nearing its end. Still, as long as you were in F1, you were going to give it everything you had. Â
In the pre-race interviews, journalists bombarded you with questions about your rivalry with Max. Â
âIs it personal?,â one of them asked with a sly grin. Â
âEverything in Formula 1 is personal,â you replied with a wry smile, offering no further explanation. Â
Max, sitting next to you at the press conference, shot you a sideways glance but said nothing. The tension between you two was palpable, even in front of the cameras. Â
That race turned into yet another head-to-head battle between the two of you. During the final laps, the radio chatter grew more intense. Â
âHeâs losing rear grip. Push him.â
âI already am!,â you snapped, pushing the car to its limit. Â
In the last lap, you pulled off a risky overtake that left everyone stunned. You won the race, and as you stepped out of the car, you felt a mix of euphoria and exhaustion. Â
While celebrating with your team, your thoughts drifted back to your conversation with your mom. Maybe this was the ending youâd been searching for, or maybe it was just the start of something new. Â
Max watched you from the podium, his blue eyes filled with something you couldnât decipher. In the crowd, you couldnât help but wonder: could you ever leave it all behind, even him? Â
The next race, under the scorching Qatar sun, felt heavier, both in the air and in the paddock. Everything about this second-to-last race of the season felt like a countdown to something inevitable. You and Max were tied in points, both neck and neck after a season of epic battles, controversies, and moments that had pushed you to the edge emotionally. Â
The tension in the McLaren garage was palpable. Though your relationship with your team was excellent, you knew the pressure was on you. Lando tried to lighten the mood with his usual sense of humor, but even his energy couldnât cut through the wall of your thoughts. Â
âCome on, donât be so serious. We could both use a win today,â he joked while adjusting his gloves. Â
âSure, but if you win, I wonât complain,â you replied with a faint smile, though you both knew that wasnât true. This race meant everything to you. Â
Meanwhile, Charles had sent a message that morning: âRemember, one race at a time. You can do this. Youâve already proven youâre the best.â His unwavering support had become one of the few things keeping you mentally afloat during this emotional rollercoaster. Â
From qualifying, it was clear this race would be another direct battle between you and Max. Both of you blocked every attempt the other made to set the fastest time, ending up on the front row: Max on pole, you in second. Â
The start was clean but intense. From the first corner, Max showed his usual aggression, shutting you out in an attempt to stay ahead. But you knew this game; he had taught you how to play it. You used the slipstream on the main straight, and on lap five, you overtook him with a surgical move in turn 6. Â
For a moment, the world seemed to stop as you led the race, but you knew the real battle had just begun. Â
Midway through the race, things heated up. Teams began to play with strategies, and tire choices became crucial. On lap 32, as you exited the pits after a tire change, Max appeared beside you. The overtake that followed was so tight the two cars brushed slightly, sparking an explosion of shouting over the radio. Â
âThat was way too close!,â your engineer protested, but you were too focused to respond. Â
Max didnât back down. In the following laps, he kept relentless pressure on you, looking for any weakness in your defense. On lap 48, he attempted an inside overtake on a tight corner, but you managed to hold your position with a move that left everyone on the edge of their seats. Â
In the final laps, your mind was torn between the adrenaline of the race and the mental exhaustion youâd been carrying all season. Max was glued to your diffuser, but he made a small mistake on the second-to-last corner, giving you just enough of a margin to cross the finish line first. Â
Your teamâs shout over the radio was deafening:Â Â
âVictory! Youâre incredible, what a race!.â
But you didnât have time to celebrate. As you parked the car in parc fermĂ©, reality hit you: this victory only meant you were still tied in points, and everything would come down to the final race. Â
The journalists were in a frenzy. In the post-race press conference, the questions came at you like bullets. Â
âHow do you handle the pressure heading into the last race?.â
âCalmly. One race at a time.â you replied, echoing Charlesâ words, even though calm was the last thing you felt. Â
Max, sitting beside you, spoke after you. Â
âI always knew this season would be decided in the end. Iâm ready for it.â
His gaze met yours for a second, and in that brief moment, the tension between you two felt more personal than ever. Â
Back at the hotel, you tried to disconnect, but it was impossible. Your mind raced, replaying every detail of the race and anticipating what was to come. Charles called to congratulate you but also to remind you to rest. Â
âDonât let this consume you, okay?,â he said, his tone serious but kind. âYouâve done an amazing job, and you have everything you need to win.â
âThanks, Charles. Really. I donât know what Iâd do without you.â
âI donât know what youâd do without me either,â he joked, managing to make you laugh.
However, when you hung up, you kept staring at the ceiling of your room, wondering if you were truly ready to face everything the final race was about to bring. Â
Even though you hadnât seen Max since the press conference, you knew he was just as restless as you. Despite everything that had happened between you two, you couldnât help but think about him, about how this rivalry had consumed everything you once shared. Â
Is this really what you wanted? To keep fighting, keep competing, keep losing yourself in the process? Â
You closed your eyes, trying to calm your thoughts. Just one race left. One final battle. And after that, maybe youâd finally have the answers youâd been searching for. Â
The last week of the season was a whirlwind of emotions, preparations, and a tension so thick you could cut it with a knife. The entire paddock was on edge. Everything would be decided in Abu Dhabi. Â
Escaping the mediaâs attention was impossible. Cameras followed you everywhere, looking for any reaction that could turn into a headline. The atmosphere at McLaren was optimistic but tense. Youâd brought the team to its highest point in years, and that was already a monumental achievement. But for you, it wasnât enough. You wanted that title. Â
During the press conferences, the questions were relentless. You and Max were the center of attention. Though both of you kept calm outwardly, the discomfort between you was obvious. Every word, every gesture was analyzed by the journalists. Â
âHow do you feel heading into this decisive race?â they asked you during one of the press rounds. Â
âFocused. This is what weâve worked for all year. I just want to do my job and see what happens,â you replied diplomatically, though inside your heart was racing. Â
Max, sitting next to you, simply said:Â Â
âIâm focused too. We both know whatâs at stake. May the best win.â Â
There was a moment when your eyes met, but it was fleeting. There were so many words left unsaid between you, and the weight of that silence felt unbearable. Â
In the final strategy meeting with your team, the tension was palpable. You knew every decision would matter, every detail could be the difference between winning and losing. Your race engineer, always meticulous, reviewed the plans calmly, but even you could tell he was nervous. Â
âI believe in you. Youâve proven you can do this,â he said, placing a hand on your shoulder before you left the garage. Â
Lando, on the other hand, tried to lighten the mood with a joke. Â
âIf you donât win, can I keep the consolation trophy?â he said with a cheeky grin. Â
âThere wonât be a consolation trophy,â you replied with a smirk. Â
That day, Yas Marina Circuit was lit up like a jewel in the desert, and the atmosphere was electric. Before getting in the car, you took a moment for yourself. You took a deep breath, closed your eyes, and visualized every corner, every move. You knew you had to give it everything. Â
The anthem played, and the world seemed to pause for a moment. Max was beside you on the grid. Though you didnât speak, you could feel his presence, his energy. You both knew this race wasnât just about the championship but also everything that had happened between you. Â
The start was flawless. From the first corner, you and Max were locked in an intense battle. Neither of you gave an inch. Every lap was a fight, every overtake a statement. The rest of the drivers might as well have been racing in a different category; it was as if this championship was meant to be decided between just the two of you. Â
On lap 35, a slow pit stop almost cost you the race, but you quickly recovered, overtaking Max in a spectacular move on lap 42. The crowd went wild. Â
But Max wasnât going to give up. On lap 50, he took the lead back, forcing you slightly off the track. It was an aggressive move, but cleanâclassic Max. Â
In the final five laps, both of you were at the limit. Your hands trembled slightly from the adrenaline, but your focus was unshakable. In the penultimate lap, you found a gap on the main straight and passed Max on the inside. This time, he had no answer. Â
When you crossed the finish line, the world seemed to stop for a moment before exploding in celebration. Youâd done it. You were a world champion. Â
Your team screamed over the radio, their voices full of tears and joy. Â
âYouâre the world champion! You did it!â Â
As you climbed out of the car, the emotions overwhelmed you. Your team surrounded you, celebrating. Lando was one of the first to hug you, shouting:Â Â
âI told you! I knew youâd do it!â Â
As you stood with your team, your eyes instinctively searched for Max. He was there, watching you from a distance. Slowly, he approached, his steps a mix of pride and resignation. Â
When he reached you, he extended his hand. Â
âCongratulations,â he said, his voice calm but heavy with emotion. Â
âThanks, Max,â you replied, shaking his hand. For a moment, his eyes reflected something that looked like regret, but he said nothing more. He turned and walked away, disappearing into the crowd. Â
That night was magical. There was laughter, tears, toasts. The tension of the entire season melted away in a whirlwind of emotions. Charles called to congratulate you, and his genuine happiness was like a balm to your heart. Â
âI knew you could do it. Iâm so proud of you,â he said, his voice full of sincerity. Â
As the celebration went on, you took a moment to reflect. Youâd reached the pinnacle of the world, but you knew this was just the beginning of a new chapter in your life. The future was full of uncertainty, but that night, you decided to enjoy the present, savoring every moment of your triumph. Â
The emotional hangover the next day was overwhelming. It wasnât physical, nor from the celebration, but a deep emptiness you hadnât expected to feel after achieving the dream of your life. Youâd won the Formula 1 World Championship, the peak of your career, but instead of feeling complete, you felt lost.
You woke up in your hotel room, sunlight streaming through the curtains. Around you, there were remnants of the celebration: a half-empty champagne glass on the table, the dress you wore last night carelessly thrown over a chair. The trophy, shiny and imposing, sat on the nightstand, but as you looked at it, you didnât feel the euphoria youâd imagined for years. Â
You got up and walked to the mirror. The reflection staring back at you was different from the one you were used to. It wasnât just the physical exhaustion from the season; it was something deeper a sense of disconnect with yourself. Â
You spent the morning avoiding your phone, even though you knew the notifications had to be flooding in. Messages of congratulations, articles from the media, videos of the highlights... but you werenât ready to face it yet. Instead of feeling celebrated, you felt isolated. Â
The idea had been lingering in your mind for weeks, maybe even months. The crash, the endless emotional struggles, the pressure to always be the best... it had all left its mark. And now, after achieving what youâd always dreamed of, you realized something: you didnât want to keep going anymore. Â
During breakfast with your parents, you decided to share your thoughts. Youâd avoided bringing it up before, afraid of their reactions, but now felt like the right time. Â
âIâve been thinking about something... important,â you said, breaking the silence while fiddling with your coffee mug. Â
Your mom looked at you with concern. Â
âAre you okay? Does this have to do with Formula 1?â Â
You shook your head. Â
âNo⊠well, partly, yes. Like I said, Iâve been reflecting, and I think... I donât want to keep racing anymore.â Â
The silence that followed was heavy. Your dad, ever the pragmatic one, was the first to speak. Â
âAre you sure? Youâve worked your whole life for this.â Â
âI know, Dad. But Iâve also given it everything I had. And now I feel like if I keep going, itâll just be out of habit, not because I really want to.â Â
Your mom took your hand. Â
âWeâve always wanted you to be happy, no matter what you do. If you feel this is the time to stop, weâll support you.â Â
That conversation was the turning point. Over the following days, you talked to your team, Lando, and even Charles, who, although surprised, understood your decision. Lando tried to convince you to stay for one more year. Â
âAre you really going to leave me here alone? We were just starting to have fun!â he joked, though there was genuine sadness in his eyes. Â
âItâs your time, Lando. Iâm sure youâll do amazing things,â you replied, hugging him. Â
Charles, on the other hand, was more serious. Â
âI didnât see this coming, but I get it. Just⊠promise me you wonât disappear completely.â Â
âI wonât. Iâll always be here, even if itâs just as a spectator.â Â
That same night, after hours of figuring out how to word it, you sat in front of the camera in your room. You were nervous, not about the decision, but about how the world would react. You wore a simple t-shirt, your hair tied back. You wanted the message to be honest, without distractions. Â
âHi, everyone. I know this isnât the video you were expecting after the incredible season we just had, but I wanted to share something important with you...â
You took a deep breath before continuing. Â
âIâve decided to retire from Formula 1. This year has been the most exciting but also the most exhausting of my life. Winning the championship was a dream come true, but it also made me realize itâs time to close this chapter and start a new one.â
You paused, letting your words sink in. Â
âThis wasnât an easy decision. Formula 1 has been my life for so many years that I barely remember what it was like before. But I also know I want other things. I want time for myself, for my family, to explore who I am outside of this sport.â
Your voice wavered slightly, but you kept going. Â
âI want to thank my team, my teammates, my rivals, and, of course, the fans. Without your support, none of this wouldâve been possible.â
When you finished, you turned off the camera and fell onto the bed. It wasnât immediate relief, but there was something freeing about putting an end to that chapter. Â
The video was released the next day and, as expected, caused a storm. The media debated your decision, fans flooded social media with messages of support and gratitude, and some even expressed disbelief. Â
Charles sent you a text:Â Â
âI saw it. Iâm proud of you. Youâll do amazing things, no matter where you go.â Â
And Max, who had avoided talking to you since the last race, also sent a short message:Â Â
âYou were the best. I always knew it. I hope you find what youâre looking for and that you forgive me.â Â
Even though his words were few, they left a lump in your throat. Â
That night, while staring at the stars from your balcony, you realized that, even though the future was uncertain, you were ready to face it. Â
Weeks passed since your decision, and life finally seemed to find its rhythm. The constant noise of racing and the pressure to be the best slowly faded. But deep down, you felt like something or someone was still missing. Â
Your house, now quieter than ever, became your sanctuary. You spent those days focusing on yourself, resting, discovering what you truly liked outside the track. But even in the peace of your own thoughts, Max lingered in your mind. He wasnât a constant thought, but youâd remember him, especially when news of his breakup with his girlfriend started circulating. That, unexpectedly, stirred something in you, a knot in your stomach. Â
Late one night, your phone buzzed. The name on the screen made you hesitate for a second. Max. Â
The message was short, direct. Â
âCan I see you? I need to talk to you.â Â
You didnât think much about it. You knew this conversation needed to happen eventually. Youâd been avoiding it, but now it felt like the universe was putting it in your path. Â
You agreed to meet at your house the next day, and when the door opened, there he was. Max, with that intense, direct gaze that had known you for years. Now, though, there was something different something more vulnerable. Â
âHi,â he said, his voice softer than usual. Â
You invited him in, and he settled on the couch like it was his own home. The silence between you was heavy, filled with unresolved emotions. Â
âI donât know where to start,â he began, with a nervous smile. Â
âNeither do I,â you replied, sitting across from him. Â
The two of you just sat there, watching each other, waiting for the other to make the first move. Finally, Max spoke. Â
âBreaking up with her... wasnât easy. I knew it wasnât fair, but I couldnât keep lying to myself. The truth is⊠I never stopped thinking about you.â Â
Your heart skipped a beat, and a lump formed in your throat. You didnât know what to say. Max, always so sure of himself, seemed completely different now. Â
âMax... I donât know what you want me to say. Weâve been on such different paths. You⊠always so focused on F1, on competing⊠and me too. Things were never easy between us, and now⊠I donât know if any of this makes sense.â Â
He nodded, understanding what you meant. Â
âI know. Iâve been an idiot. I thought I could keep everything under control, but in the end⊠I lost what mattered most.â Â
He looked at you intently, and in his eyes was a sincerity that made you question everything youâd been thinking until that moment. Â
âBut that doesnât mean I forgot about you. It doesnât mean I donât care about what we had. If anything, itâs taken me time to realize that⊠maybe thereâs something here we never really figured out.â Â
You stayed silent, processing his words. The tension was thick, but something in his voice made you want to listen, even though you knew the situation was complicated. Â
âAnd what is it that you want, Max?â you asked, your voice a bit shaky. Â
âI donât know,â he admitted with a small, sad smile. âIâm not asking you to forgive me or to go back to what we had. But I think⊠we should at least try. Not now, not right away, but⊠maybe we can see what happens, without the pressures of F1, without everything that kept us apart.â Â
You got up and walked to the window, staring outside without really seeing anything. Max watched you from the couch, waiting for your response. The atmosphere between you had shifted somehow, and for the first time, it felt like you had both let go of the fight to always be the best. Â
You turned to look at him. Â
âIâm not sure Iâm ready to start something new. After all, I made the decision to retire for a reason, Max. Iâve spent so much time on F1 that now I need to rediscover myself. And I donât know what I want.â Â
Max got up from the couch, slowly approaching you. Â
âI get it. Iâm not expecting it to be easy, or for everything to be resolved right now. But I want you to know Iâm not pressuring you. I just⊠wanted you to know that, no matter what happens, Iâll be here. And if someday you decide what we had is worth another shot, Iâll be ready to try, no matter the past.â Â
A deep silence followed his words. You knew there was still so much to figure out between the two of you, but something about his attitude, about his willingness to wait, struck a chord within you. Â
You didnât say anything else. You walked toward him, and for a moment, words werenât necessary. The look in your eyes said it all. Still, there were no promises, no certainties just a silent understanding that, maybe, the future could be different. Maybe even together. Â
âWeâll see what happens,â you finally said. Â
Max nodded, not pushing, knowing that time would have to decide the course for both of you. And with that response, the future remained suspended between you, open, uncertain, but carrying a possibility that hadnât existed before.
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I'll add that this games refusal to address what happened in previous games, specifically regarding the mages/templars, made Ivenci's decision to 'betray' Treviso to the Antaam...the only real choice to prevent outright slaughter? Or at the very least an understandable, if bitter, choice to make?
I'm not even going to get into why there was apparently no Exalted March to free Antiva/Rivain since they are nations who follow the Orlesian Chantry - you know, that Chantry that the devs avoid talking about like the plague? The Chantry that would have absolutely declared an Exalted March against the Antaam - like they did to the Qun when they invaded Rivain in the Storm Age???? The double blight that nuked southern thedas hadn't started when this all happened - there absolutely should have been some response!!!
We can compare the situation to Kirkwall in DA2 - which had the stranded Qunari (not even all the Antaam!) fighting the City of Kirkwall - which included the Kirkwall City Guard, the local Templar Order, the Circle of Magi, and Hawke.
Kirkwall had the City Guard, which acted like a militia - having the numbers to patrol all areas of Kirkwall, from Hightown to Lowtown. Also going on patrols on the Wounded Coast and lands on the outskirts of the city itself. We already know that Antiva has no military - they were reliant on the threat of the Antivan Crows to serve as a repellent from invasion. They are skilled, no doubt, but lack the numbers of a proper armed forces - especially when faced with the Antaam.
(I'm going to assume that Antiva has some form of city guard - but the lack of mention/presence implies their numbers are comparatively small to Kirkwall?)
Kirkwall also had the Templar Order - a religious military of highly trained warriors with ample amounts of resources at their disposal. Templars are some of the most highly trained and educated warriors in all of Thedas - as Antiva follows the Orlesian Chantry (despite what this game wants you to believe) if the Order were around they would have access to the abilities granted to them by lyrium. We already know that there is a large chantry in Treviso - but we can't have templars in this game so it's essentially a shiny set-piece for all of two minutes.
Kirkwall also had the Circle of Magi, Mages, who could potentially called to action in the worst case scenario - eg. Orsino and Circle Mages assist during the Arishok's attack in DA2. We know that there is a Circle of Magi in Antiva City from dialogue between Zevran and Wynne. The game has already ruled them out as being a possible aid though - they're either all dead or being confined to the Circle, supposedly.
The mages and templars cannot be referenced in this game, because to reference them would require the writers to address previous decisions in game regarding the mage/templar war at its outcome -> not to mention the current Divine of the Chantry. So, the writers have written themselves into hole - leaving the sole fighting force available to be the Crows against the might of the Antaam.
The Antaam have access to portable fire canons, gaatlock, and qamek from what we see in-game. Who had already proved their willingness to slaughter whoever came into their path if it meant they gained territory - because the Antaam have been reduced to nothing but brutish thugs in this game.
Governor Ivenci - "You know what the Antaam did elsewhere in Antiva. And in every other city they occupied. You and your troupe of fools would have gladly provoked the Antaam to slaughter! I gave them the Crows so that they would not take the rest of the city. I gave them an inch, so they would not take a mile." Antivan Crow Rook - "You're still a traitor who gave up on the fight - and gave up on us. You didn't prevent a slaughter. You just postponed it."
Why are you saying that like it's a bad thing, Rook?! WTF?!!
(One of the most brain-dead fucking responses from a protagonist I've played in a long time lmao)
"You just postponed it". What a wild choice to have Rook criticize this decision. No nuance. No reflection or acknowledgement that they were in a shit situation that had no happy resolution. It's not as if Treviso was on the cusp of victory - there's no evidence of that. There's no guarantee that even if they managed to win Treviso that the Antaam would not simply sent more troops.
All of Antiva - all of Treviso - was in a situation that was far worse than the attack on Kirkwall. Unlike Kirkwall, who had an entire militia of guardsmen and a small army of templars, they had nothing. Because your shitty assassins guild made everyone complacent to the point where Antiva had no standing army -> Ivenci was not wrong about a stronger civil government allowing them to be stronger, rather than solely relying on "a bunch of circus criminals". The writers refusing to talk about the Mages or Templars just makes Ivenci's decision seem all the more reasonable.
And yet I'm still supposed to consider them the villain?
"I did what I did to help this city. To save it. To keep my people from being slaughtered like cattle by the Antaam!" - Governor Ivenci
Ivenci 'doing an Orsino' with the last resort qamek at the end of the game was intended to drive in the fact that they're a 'villain'...apparently. Someone willing to do whatever it takes to come out on top, to survive - to keep Treviso alive another day. The game treats Ivenci as this delusional individual, one so focused on their goal that they've lost sight of what's important.
Ironically, BioWare potentially had a good story and character here - one that challenged the Crows and spat straight facts about how their guild led to complacency. An individual put in an impossible situation because this game refused to give them any other options - no templars, no mages, no exalted march or chantry aid. If the Crows, if Rook, was allowed to be the tiniest bit reflective and have some nuance (acknowledge the Crows are absolute trash, canonically - just like Ivenci), then this could have been compelling. But instead they have them double down on being almost cartoonishly evil with their qamek plan. Because the Crows are the 'good guys' who never gave up on their city, unlike Ivenci...apparently.
Ivenci - "You must be so proud. Leaving this city in the grip of murderers." Rook - "You say you did all this for Treviso, Ivenci. To protect it. But you never really believed in it. Ivenci - "What would you know about the city I love?"
That's right, Rook. Let's get out magic pixie dust and hold hands - let's fucking believe that we can do it. Forgive me for not disagreeing with Ivenci's perspective that putting all our hope/faith in a guild of hired thugs/human traffickers/murderers against the might of an army like the Antaam was a recipe for disaster. I'm sure if Ivenci just believed in the Crows a little more it would be all sunshine and rainbows - the Antaam would have just surrendered lmao.
I'm sure if I had never played a previous Dragon Age game I could possibly agree with this - but unfortunately for BioWare, I have, and it makes this stupidity stand out all the more.
the funniest thing about how badly veilguard fucked up the crows - trying to turn it into some anti-hero, good guy faction that cares so much about antiva - is that as a contrast they had to write governor ivenci to be the most flat, comic villain ever like all of the game's villains cuz we cant have nuance but thats another post to make sure you the player know that Crows Good, Government Bad
but like!! they still had a point!!! you tried to make them sooo unlikeable and yet!!!
bitches hate to see a They/Them call out the guild of literal human trafficking, child abusing murderers that have control over the the country đ
#why are you booing them? they're right! - me to anyone criticising ivenci#âpatriots? you're a flock of hired killers.â#DING DING DING!#we have a winnnnnnner!#THEY DID YOU DIRTY IVENCI - SAME AS ORSINO#bioware can't make me hate you - not when you spit so many straight facts lmao#âyou just needed to believe a little more!â oh fuck off what is this disney channel nonsense lmao#they are literally in a way worse situation than kirkwall and the game wants me to hate Ivenci because they did their best to minimize#the damage and slaughter when they had the example of the rest of Antiva/Rivain to show how the antaam treated those who opposed them#Ivenci wouldn't have let Jacobus join the fucking Crows -> that's all I need to fucking know#datv critical#veilguard critical#bioware critical#governor ivenci
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Not sure if fandom events are your thing, but the Secret Solenoid event is open for sign-ups. Itâs a Secret Santa-type gift exchange, and I think it would be awesome to have some keferon magic over there.
You got me curious at first but then I looked at their rules and
Ah hell no
If they can't handle me at my worst (weird rough sketches) they don't deserve me at my best (weird rough sketches)
Jokes aside. Don't take me seriously here please. I don't do polished art. I do fast and rough and sketchy and simple art and I'm proud of it being that way. I hope you'll have fun drawing/writing those neat and polished pieces for each otherđ
#my adhd brain would suffer so bad If I try to draw something neat and polished#i mean I can technically do it#twice a year#but never âon commandâ#So yeah all those fandom things like zines or secret santa or art challenges. they aren't for me#especially if they have rules and requirements#I'm so bad at following them haha
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I love tornado survival guides. "Shelter in a basement or interior room without any windows. But if you're in a mobile home, just fucking die I guess lol"
#did you know over half of deaths caused by tornados are residents of mobile homes?#which also means that they're primarily poor and elderly and disabled people#most places have absolutely no requirements for trailer parks to have safe shelter for residents during a tornado#personal tornado shelters cost $5000+ and many of them can't be installed in trailer parks because of neighborhood rules#and many parks are so isolated that going to find shelter somewhere else isn't safe or possible#it's safer to shelter inside a ditch outside than to stay in a mobile home during a tornado#and yet there's next to no effort to change laws to make trailer parks safer especially in emergencies#or even make other housing more accessible and available so people don't have to live in homes made of tissue paper#there's no tornado happening i'm just stressed
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Maybe I could just [square bracket trick] these revisions and leave them for future me...
Future me is gonna be so mad hehe
#wipvii#I feel like I can't write the next few scenes without doing the revisions for the scenes I've already edited#but going back and changing things after a pass goes against my most important drafting rule#also it's been a hot second since I've written those scenes - do I even remember what is important?#am I just going to be overwhelmed by all the information I've forgotten and by the sheer amount of work#that fitting these revisions in is going to require?#especially because I know I will be making cuts to keep my word count in range - which is going to mean rewriting and reshuffling stuff#and knowing what to cut in the first place#it just seems like too many steps at once and I don't have the energy/brainpower for that#maybe I'll just [] the stuff I need to add in the correct places to get it started#then in draft 4 when I am reshuffling and line editing my scenes anyway it will be easier#than trying to do it all right now when it's been a while since I've read the scenes before it#man that's a lot of tags
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Going back into my cave after this but Wyllstarion x The Princess Diaries au. Wyll as Mia, Astarion as Nicholas, Tav as Andrew. You understand.
#wyllstarion#My sister made me watch this with her on her bday and I could only think âomg like wyllstarionâ the entire time#Wyll having to find himself a spouse in order to rule bc of some dumb old baldur's gate tradition#His father had to marry his mother to rule but she died in childbirth and his father ruled the rest of the time alone#Wyll was cast out for the same reasons as in Bg3 but instead of him returning to save his father his father realises his mistakes first#Cause Wyll deserves it#Lady Tav is the most eligible royal for Wyll to wed because she's the duchess of Waterdeep or something#And they were friends#But Wyll loves Astarion#Obviously I'm spinning this like within the Bg3 universe not a modern au or anything so some things are different#Holy shit what if ulder ravengard had a boyfriend a man he was in love with but couldn't ever be with. For fun. Like queen clarisse#Idk who it would be but wouldn't that be funny#WAIT what if instead of a dumb baldur's gate tradition demanding that Wyll marries it's actually because#His pact with Mizora requires that he have a âlevel headedâ spouse to âprotect him from the devil's influenceâ#Guys I'm a genius#And no one wants Astarion to be Wyll's lover bc Astarion is a vampire spawn and they especially don't trust him#Astarion romances Wyll on the order of Cazador bc Cazador wants control of baldur's gate & astarion is the perfect candidate to seduce Wyll#But then Astarion falls in love with Wyll#I just want a scene with Lady Tav and Wyll discussing their marriage after Wyll is caught with Astarion#Where Tav tells Wyll he'll make an amazing king and she's a lady who never backs out of her word#They're friends so they're both understanding that love between them isn't happening#When Wyll returns the ring during the ceremony Tav is like oh thank fuck because Karlach is looking real gorgeous tonight#Etc etc#Bg3#Wyll Ravengard#astarion ancunin#Bloodpact#I fucking love that ship name BTW it's genius
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been having so much fun making jewelry lately. i have so many pieces now that i can't feasibly wear all the things i've made in any kind of timely manner. got bracelets coming out of my ears
#i wanna sell my jewelry but i know that market is oversaturated#maybe i am dreaming too small. i have a knack for it because im creative inherently#its less tiring to me than hunching over a drawing for hours or writing#its a nice busy bee hobby. it requires just the right amount of concentration so that i dont get mentally fatigued#with long covid i get really bad mental fatigue when i concentrate + my eyes get tired easily so its nice that its something to do#that lacks a screen#im just rambling lmfao#i dont reach for my phone near as much lately with meds. i just find it can sour my mood a lot sometimes#so i have been very in tune with my creative side lately :3 its cathartic and makes me feel more like myself#especially because with jewelry it yields a wearable piece of your art#it rules. low effort high reward methinks#honey's words
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Getting distracted from the main plot of three jedi to focus on the history of bacta.
#chit chat#bacta is only made on ONE planet in the whole galaxy#which in light of the clone wars means that either the Separatists did not have bacta as a general rule#or that somehow in the 20 years between the bacta war and the clone wars someone figured out how to make artificial bacta#and then artificial bacta got outlawed after the war because itâs explicitly mentioned that during the Empire all bacta came from Thyferra#and it was expensive as hell#i am going with the headcanon of artificial bacta#because i simply do not think that one planet could keep up with the bacta demands of a galactic war#even if they were only providing to the republic#because i have not seen a single episode dealing with bacta scarcity much less a theme of it in tcw#and a singular point of bacta would be a HELL of a military target#especially. y'know. if only one side of the war requires bacta to treat their troops#anyway#paw notes
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dating sim (VN or CYOA... hmmm) with a mostly/exclusively fat character cast... with lots of cool gender + poly inclusive... this would be nice. mayhaps time to put my RenPy or Twine love to use... idk what sort of thing. just. might be nice to stretch the coding muscles again.
#i am very tired with how many awesome dating sim concepts i keep coming across#and the datable characters are all or almost entirely thin#and are almost always 100% straight sized#especially for games that are inspired by / like stardew valley#I look through all the romance options like... ah#idk doing something like this would require a LOT of time and energy#and my health is not so good rn#but maybe it'd be nice to try...#I have no idea what genre we'd be talking. probably something kinda cottagecore?#just cos i know how to draw it best#I'd also wanna make something poly inclusive#also aro inclusive? idk my acearo ass always craves games where u can kiss characters but it doesn't have to be A Thing#covid is makin me so sleepy eeby so this is all sleepy musing#cryptidspeaks#oh but shout out to validate#ive never played it but it has awesome cast diversity#from the looks of things#there are definitely exceptions to this rule#but none i know of that kinda include all my check boxes#which is to say acearo vibes#poly positive and fat positive#aaaand with gender characters#i am a cryptid of many needs haha#I'm saying this after getting sleepy from 4 hours of piccrew fiddling#so. we'll see if i'm cut out for an even BIGGER project haha
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âïž for the To Be series đ
Anything I want, you say? The To Be (One With the Garden) series of mine they are referring to is...a lot. It's intended to be very open-ended, with a lot of things never being outright stated, and if you read any given fic with a given assumption about Olimar's unfortunate situation, said fic(s) can easily be made more or less horrifying. Add in the fact that neither Olimar nor the Pikmin are always entirely what you'd call a very reliable narrator (no matter how much the former likes to think he is, for the most part), especially as time goes on, and well...things can get tricky, to put it mildly.
As a result, it can be kinda hard to talk about this series, because I don't want people to take my own reading as fact on too many things. It's more fun seeing what kind of interpretations people come to on their own, at least, in my opinion as the author of these four things.
So hm...What to talk about, what to talk about...Do I point out that one bit where I fucked up how much oxygen is in the Earth's atmosphere that's been driving me a little crazy? It's 21% not 70%...Wait! This is probably going to be one of the only times I get to share some language factoids about the Pikminish language I've imagined the characters speaking that I have been writing with in mind! Check what I wrote in Discord convos... remove parts that are kinda spoilery to that huge knife twist in the "back half" I've been planning since the beginning...Place cut for my non-Pikmin followers and here!
Generally speaking, Pikminish outright lacks pronouns. Where pronouns would be in English is generally something most would understand in context. It is generally assumed that plural takes precedent, unless stated to be otherwise (so the word that would most closely resemble "I" and "you" when one must state the topic would most literally translate as "this one" and "that one"). Referring to a third person is referenced through hand gestures like pointing, or through the use of titles (like "Leader", that is ever present). The thing about the Pikmin, you see, is that referring to the group is taken to be the norm due to their odd eusocial structure (For those not familiar with it, eusociality refers to the sort of social structure things like ant nests and bee hives have, although the version in "To Be" is more a cliffnotes version). This is why the default pronoun for the Pikmin is "We" in these fics with "I" being emphasized, due to the fact that they find it unnatural to refers to themselves as individuals. There's, unfortunately, no real way to communicate this in English, but if you are familiar with languages like Japanese, it's kinda like that except Worse.
Adding onto this is the fact that the Pikmin, lacking a social concept of gender, naturally lack a language feature for gender. This is why they refer to Olimar with they/them pronouns, which is something I've mentioned before I think. However, something I haven't mentioned is that I tend to think of Hocotatian as a language with quite a few similarities to Pikminish, one feature of such being that it is similarly context based, although Hocotatian is more just average pronoun avoidant as opposed to outright lacking in pronouns. This is why Olimar never so much as remarks on it when he probably would've otherwise: gender in Hocotatian is typically conveyed through gendered nouns applied to people (think "salesman" or "actress"). As the situation he's found himself in is one in which use of nouns that would be gendered in Hocotatian are few and far between, it's not something he ever really has any opportunity to pick up on, and so it goes unremarked upon. Naturally, English, being a very pronoun heavy language, this kinda makes conveying that specific detail nigh-impossible outside of something like this. Curse you English, you broken broken language.
I like to imagine Pikminish as one of those languages where common words tend to translate to something flowery in another. Not bad for a language where sentences tend to be fast and words are stuffed with as much information as they can be! (Never know when predators might be on the prowl, after all.) This ties into the very musical way I like to imagine them talking, but you already know that, and this thingy is for things I can't convey in fic.
Word order is more than likely SOV in both Pikminish and Hocotatian. (Subject -> Object -> Verb order for those unaware). It's a very common order for words to flow in general out in the real word though, right next to SVO. I just thought this detail was interesting. (English is SVO, so this would've been impossible for me to convey). I like to imagine Pikminish as having pitch accent as well, due to a lack of varied sounds to create various different combinations of words with.
I would've killed to explain any of this in fic, but as you can kinda observe, Olimar is not a language nerd (and therefore would have no reason to take note of any of these things...Though I imagine his notes would've been very extensive if he was lol), and the Pikmin sure as hell aren't. So unfortunately, a lot of this had to go unexplained, even though I was writing these fics with that in mind.
Sorry if this isn't the most interesting director's commentary, but I really wanted to get this bit out there somewhere considering I couldn't write any exposition on it in naturally. But I had fun writing this out, so I hope that counts for something!
#ask and you shall receive#to be (one with the garden)#I tend to write my fics under the assumption that the use of English#is just as a convention#as a writer who can write English#writing for an audience who can predominantly understand English#but the *actual* language of the fic#is not actually English typically#it's Japanese in my Len'en fics#but in my Pikmin fics (not just âTo Beâ) that requires more thought#and so...language rules#do not ask me about actual words or sounds though#I don't wanna think about those#I'm not creative enough for that lol#I may have left a hint or two to the knife twist I totally don't have planned in this#but good luck finding it#especially if you are not a linguistics nerd#heh heh heh#(but then again language is in and of itself a clue no?)#(after all)#(Olimar's vocal chords tend to give him hell in these fics)#(...What does all this mean?)#(Are these tags in and of themselves a hint?)#(...Maybe)#(But where's the fun in saying as much?)
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it remains just so incredible to me that there are literally laws locked behind paywalls in the US
like the law is fully in effect and enforceable but you have to pay sometimes hundreds of dollars to even know what it is
#squiggalicious#itâs p common in safety laws for them to do whatâs called adoption by reference#basically instead of having a whole long explanation of an extremely specific part of one single thing#they just point at the rules written by some other industry guiding force and say âfollow their guidelinesâ#so those guidelines Are the legal requirement.#but get this!#that industry leader is not required to provide those guidelines for free! nor do they usually!#so an osha standard will say like âdo a b and c; and also follow guidelines of ASTM xyzâ#then you look up ASTM xyz and you have to pay $90-$400 to view them#you can still be cited by osha for not following those laws even though you literally do not have free access to them#isnât that neat?#itâs especially pernicious that this is common in workplace safety law of all places#where employees often have to cite specific laws just to get their employers to comply with minimum safety requirements#yknow. so the employee doesnt get hurt or killed by their employerâs negligence.#anyway for anyone struggling with this: see if your local library has an inter-library loan program and try to get it through there#i was able to get multiple paywallâd guideline documents this way. itâs slow but itâs free
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There is easy low hanging fruit here, especially about the US and salty tea. And I'm so SO tempted.
But also I'm super in to tea and I'm bored.
The perfect cup of tea is how you want to drink it, and if you do not LIKE tea then drinking it a different way, or a different kind of tea, vastly changes it.
A pinch of salt makes things less bitter, this trick also works with coffee. But other things that affect taste are tempriture, length of time it brews, where the tea was grown, the climate, the soil, and how big the leaves are. Some of the cheapest tea has little more than dust in the tea bag while more expensive teas you will notice have more structure to the leaves.
Tea brewed in colder tempeitures needs longer and creates a different taste. It may require more tea to get the specific flavour you want, and generally it is less bitter for it. Similar thing to spices where if you cook them, use them hot, toast them first, etc, you get a different set of flavours to using them cold.
Like wine, tea can have lots of flavour profiles and colours. Assam for example is very dark, malty, and strong, it can get quite bitter. Ceylon is much lighter. Darjeeling is good with lemon, but Assam is better with milk, in my humble opinion. Lapsang Sushong is very smokey. Earl Grey
Most people will drink a mix. English breakfast is usually a mix of Assam, Ceylon, and Kenyan. Earl Grey is flavoured with bergamot.
White, green, and black tea all come from the same plant, just different parts of it, treated differently. Black tea can take a higher tempriture, but boiling water on green and white tea will scorch the leaves and make it very bitter. Agitating the tea can also have this effect as it releases more tannin.
As a general rule there is a tea for everyone, and a way to drink it that you will enjoy, whether that's hot, cold, mixing it with spices, flavourings, fruit, milk, sugar, lemon, and yes, even a pinch of salt.
I would not, however, recommend tea that has been in the Boston harbour.
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A Guide to Some of the Best Queer Asian Shows
The guide includes a showâs basic summary; main genres/tropes/themes and official streaming links (additional info on how to watch at the end of this post)! You can find some content warnings in the reply section of this post. Shows are listed by countries, numbered by the order I recommend watching in, not by rating. All shows have happy endings unless specified otherwise. The list will hopefully be updated regularly (last updated on 04/04/2024, 98 queer shows in total).
Most shows are about mlm, I specify with coloured notes those that are focused on wlw, polyamory, aromantism/asexuality, etc.
Tumblr does not allow large texts or more than 30 images per post at the moment, so you can click on every countryâs list to expand them and view them fully in a separate post. You can access this guide in a google doc here.
Thailand đčđ (full list here)
1. KinnPorsche mafia boss/bodyguard; action; kidnapper/kidnapee side couple
Kinn, a son of a prominent mafia head, is ambushed by an enemy, and meets Porsche, a bartender who comes to his rescue for a price, thus beginning their reluctant relationship as boss and bodyguard, which soon turns into something more.
iQIYI
2. Bed Friend friends with benefits; office setting; trauma
King and Uea work in the same office. After a company outing ends in a drunken hook-up between them, Uea and King agree to keep seeing each other on a strictly physical basis. With no strings attached, will these two be able to keep things between them simple and carefree or will their emotions eventually get the better of them?
Uncut 18+ on iQIYI or GagaOOLala or cut on YouTube
3. The Sign reincarnated lovers; fantasy; thai mythology; police
The story of the love between Phaya and Tharn who used to be mythological creatures Naga and Garuda in their past lives, and were forced apart. But fate intervened, and two men were reincarnated in new bodies. Now, they work together as partners in the Special Investigations Unit to uncover violent crimes and supernatural mysteries while their love is tested by mystical forces and past enemies.
YouTube
4. I Feel You Linger In The Air period drama; time travel; bittersweet
Jom, an architect overseeing the renovation of a rundown villa, continuously dreams of a man he's never met. When a twist of fate transports Jom to Chiang Mai in the 1920s, he assumes the role of a servant to the affluent young master Yai, the mysterious man from his dreams.
GagaOOLala or YouTube
5. You're My Sky sports; university setting; coming of age
Thorn, a young basketball player follows his senior Fah to university as a result of the promise theyâd made â to become national basketball champions. However, to his dismay, he finds that Fah has already given up on basketball. --- Aai has to work in pairs throughout the semester with San, 1 year footballer; in order to receive a scholarship to study in Japan, Ai must be willing to do everything to get an A grade. --- Track running requires the compatibility of the team members to be very high. Vee, who became the new racquet 4, has to speed up training to fit in with the team as quickly as possible, especially with Dome, spending extra time together to train. Is love actually a major obstacle on the path of being an athlete?
Viki
> more tv shows from Thailand
GMMTV Thailand đčđ (full list here)
1. My School President high school setting; secret crush; school president/rebel musician
Gun is the head of his high school music club. Tinn is a school president and Gun's long-term rival. The Principal wants to disband some of the schoolâs âuselessâ after-school clubs, especially the music club. Per school rules, the student council president is the one who has the power to dissolve clubs. Gun is now at Tinnâs mercy, so he attempts to do whatever he can to persuade his rival not to cancel the music club. Little does he know, Tinn actually has a secret crush on him. Could romance brew as Gun makes a desperate attempt to secure the future of his band?
Viki (MSP) & YouTube (Our Skyy special 33-40) & YouTube (special)
2. Moonlight Chicken adult romance; age gap; deaf character
Jim is an ordinary guy running a chicken rice diner. One night, he meets Wen when he stays past closing drunk. Brought together by fate that night, intangible feelings arise. Neither can stop thinking about the other despite Jim's efforts to remain unattached. Jim also takes care of his nephew Li Ming, who is falling in love with Heart, a deaf teenager who is practically kept under house arrest by his affluent parents.
YouTube
3. Not Me revolution; freedom fighters; secret twins
When his twin Black is viciously attacked and subsequently left hospitalised in unconsciousness, White is unable to endure the harm done to his brother in silence. He learns Black was a part of a gang of anti-capitalist freedom fighters, and it was one of them who betrayed him. White disguises himself as Black to discover which one of them betrayed him and put him in a coma.
YouTube
4. 23.5 wlw; high school setting; secret admirer
Ongsa moves to a new school and meets Sun, a cute popular girl who she immediately falls for. However, she decides to approach Sun in instagram dms under the pseudonym Earth, leading Sun to believe she's talking to a guy. But Ongsa does not want to lose the opportunity to talk to Sun, so she decides to keep the fact that she is a girl a secret and continue talking as Earth.
YouTube
> more tv shows from GMMTV Thailand
Japan đŻđ” (full list here)
1. Cherry Magic!  mind reading; secret crush; office setting
By still being a vŃrgin at 30, Adachi gains a magical power â the ability to read other people's minds by touching them. At first, heâs overwhelmed by his new ability, and itâs not proving to be helpful to him. But that all changes when he accidentally touches their officeâs most perfect guy Kurosawa, who he learns has romantic feelings for him.
WeTV (Cherry Magic) & no international streaming of Cherry Magic The Movie is available to my knowledge, so watch on bilibili or KissKH
2. Kieta Hatsukoi (My Love Mix-Up!)  misunderstanding; high school setting
Aoki has a crush on Hashimoto, the girl in the seat next to him in class. But he despairs when he borrows her eraser and sees she's written the name of another boy â Ida â on it. To make matters more confusing, Ida sees Aoki holding that very eraser and thinks Aoki has a crush on him!
Viki
3. Our Dining Table food; child character
Salaryman Yutaka finds it difficult to share meals with other people. However, his life starts to change when one day, his cooking attracts the attention of a young boy named Tane and his older brother Minoru. The two brothers are impressed by Yutaka's cooking skill and invite him to their house to cook together. Yutaka's dreary life begins to change, and soon he finds himself looking forward to the meals he shares with the Ueda siblings together, as well as developing a taste for romantic feelings.
GagaOOLala
4. She Loves to Cook and She Loves to Eat wlw; neighbours; self-discovery; food
Nomoto loves to cook, but tends to make too much food and has no one to share it with. Luckily for her, turns out her neighbor Kasuga has a big enough appetite for the both of them.
No international streaming available, translated to english by Furritsubs, S1 & S2, watching instructions provided, please support translator on kofi.
5. Takara-kun to Amagi-kun high school setting; relationship exploration
Takara is a good-looking popular guy in class, while Amagi is a simple but bright and pure fellow classmate. The two begin to date in secret after Amagi's blurted out confession.
Viki or GagaOOLala
> more tv shows from Japan
China đšđł (full list here)
Most chinese shows are adapted from explicitly queer novels, the shows are undeniably and obviously queer, but nevertheless the queer romance part is censured. The only exception is number 4 on the list, it is not censored.
1. The Untamed period drama; fantasy
An epic fantasy led by a problem child who comes back from the dead 16 years later in order to fix the broken world he left behind â and finally unite with his soulmate.
YouTube
2. Word of Honor period drama; fantasy
The leader of assassin organisation Zhou Zishu quits his position in pursuit of freedom with drastic measures. In his travels, he meets Wen Kexing, the leader of Ghost Valley who wants nothing but revenge. The two become entangled in various machinations within the martial arts world, and eventually become soulmates instrumental in each other's redemption.
YouTube & Special Episode on Tumblr or DailyMotion
3. Couple of Mirrors wlw; period drama; socialite/assassin
You Yi is a kind-hearted socialite and a successful author. Her perfect life is turned upside-down when she discovers a betrayal by the two most trusted people in her life. With no one left to turn to, she finds refuge in the friendship and support of Yan Wei, a lonely female killer disguised as the owner of a photo studio.
YouTube. the show doesnât have a happy ending, but it can be a happy ending for you if you stop watching at episode 12 timestamp 28:02.
4. Stay With Me enemies to lovers; high school setting; unconventional families; slow burn
Su Yu is a high school student who lives with his single poor father. Su Yu gets a new classmate Wu Bi. The two clash right from the start, and after getting off on the wrong foot, their explosive relationship takes a turn.
YouTube or GagaOOLala. the show doesnât have a happy ending, but it can be a happy ending for you if you stop watching at episode 24 timestamp 05:00. OR watch the full thing and look at this post after
5. The Spirealm inside of a video game; mystery; fantasy; horror-ish; hopeful ending
A game designer Lin Qiushi is transported inside of a game he recently played, and now he must go through 12 horrifying survivor game doors to survive in the real world. Inside his first door he meets Ruan Nanzhu, a mysterious man who offers him to team up.
The show was taken down from streaming, download files here and subtitles here.
Various WLW mini web-dramas here.
Various WLW short films here.
South Korea đ°đ· (full list here)
1. Love for Love's Sake inside of a video game; high school setting; healing
At the age of 29 Tae Myungha finds himself transported into a fictional video game, and now 19 years old, he meets Cha Yeowoon, who is in the darkest moment of his life. And a translucent window appears where he receives a mission â to make Cha Yeowoon happy.
iQIYI (better subtitles) or GagaOOLala
2. Semantic Error enemies to lovers; university setting
A serious programmer and a rebellious artist clash over a school project. Their animosity keeps escalating to new extremes, defined by petty pranks and feisty arguments.
Viki
3. Love Tractor farm setting; farmer/city musician
Sunyeol, a city man with zero ability to survive in the countryside, comes to his grandfather's rural home. In front of him appears Yechan, a passionate and kind young farmer. While learning about rural life and assisting with farming tasks, Sunyeol gradually finds himself drawn to Yechan's warm and straightforward nature, while Yechan helplessly falls for Sunyeol.
iQIYI
4. Our Dating Sim high school friends to lovers; office setting
After 7 years, Lee Wan meets his first love, Shin Kitae, in a gaming company. When they were best friends in high school, Lee Wan was in love with Kitae. But he ran away and disappeared after confessing his feelings to Kitae after graduation. When the two of them begin working on a new dating simulation game and get more immersed in the project, old feelings are rekindled.
Viki or GagaOOLala
5. She Makes My Heart Flutter wlw; bar setting; niece and aunt dynamic
The extroverted Gang Seol is hired by her aunt Jung at her only-women bar. Even though they are both lesbians, they seem to be worlds apart and have very different love stories.
YouTube
> more tv shows from South Korea
Taiwan đčđŒ (full list here)
1. History3: Trapped mafia boss/policeman
The story of a police officer who becomes trapped in the underworld, as he develops feelings for a gang leader.
YouTube or Viki
2. Kiseki: Dear to Me mafia; age gap
Bai Zongyi, an exemplary high school student with dreams of becoming a doctor, is one day unexpectedly drawn into the world of a charismatic and mischievous gangster Fan Zerui, who blackmails him into taking him in and treating his wounds. Just as their love story begins to unfold, Fan Ze Rui's criminal life catches up with him. On the other hand, Chen Yi and Ai Di are two orphans who grew up in the gang together. Ai Di has always loved Chen Yi, but Chen Yi only notices their boss.
Viki or GagaOOLala or YouTube
3. My Tooth Your Love dentist/chef; trauma healing
Bai Lang is a successful bistro owner with an severe fear of visiting the dentist... until a toothache forces him to come face to face with the handsome yet cold dentist Jin Xunan.
Viki
4. Anti Reset android/human
When Chu Yi Ping, an emotionless man, dislocates his hand in an accident at school, his uncle gives him Ever 9 as a caretaker, an experimental intelligent robot that his company is secretly testing.
Viki or iQIYI or GagaOOLala
5. History2: Crossing the Line sports; high school setting
When an injury sidelines a high school senior from the volleyball team, he develops feelings for a recruit.
YouTube or Viki
> more tv shows from Taiwan
Philippines đ”đ
1. Sleep With Me wlw; radio; disabled character in a wheelchair
A science textbook writer with a sleep disorder meets a wheelchair-using radio host who runs the midnight shift. This chance encounter at the radio station quickly sparks their interest in each other.
GagaOOLala
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You can watch many shows for free on YouTube, and watch others on the streaming websites by setting VPN to one of the countries in the list. In other cases I recommend paying for subscriptions to show appreciation and support of content in order to get more of it in the future, but if you canât, watch on KissKH (better quality), Dramacool or get files from MkvDrama. Enjoy! đłïžâđđłïžââ§ïž
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This battery draining issue really is increasingly getting on my nerves
#did an error report to samsung#got two requirements. use it in safe mode to see if a third party app is the issue (it wasnt my battery still drained)#and if the issue persisted in the safe mode to reset my phone to rule out the operating system#but i reeeeaaly dont want to reset my phone đđ the hassle is one thing but i donnnnt want to update shit#especially not tumblr & twitter (which is still twitter on my phone)#my sister pointed and laughed âčïž idk it's an issue to me#last resort i got told if neither solve my issue to get my phone checked at a samsung service center#my sister was like if u dont reset your phone it'll have to get done at maintenance (but idk how true that is??? i can imagine it tho)#i shouldve gotten an s22 instead of being greedy with my money#idk opinions??????#nesi rants
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Comment Bingo: Old Fic Edition
Very simple rules: connect 5 squares in a line by commenting on fics that suit the task in each square
Very simple goals: encourage readers to comment on older fics; encourage fandom writers to KEEP WRITING
STEPS:
Download Bingo Card HERE (png) or HERE (jpg) or HERE (pdf)
Complete the tasks on the card, marking off each as you go, until you've completed 5 in a line (vertical, horizontal, or diagonal; NO double-dipping; center â„ïž is a free space)
POST your winning card (or list your filled squares) and tag @feedthefandomfest! Glory in your victory.
SEARCH TIPS:
This card requires some familiarity with AO3's search filters. Once you've narrowed your results according to fandom/ship/additional tags, certain squares require you to sort the results by Date Updated, which is the default. Other squares require you to search for fics posted within a certain range of years, which you can do by scrolling on the search menu to More Options:
Note that to enter a date range, you must format the date as shown.
REWARD:
âš victory badges âš
New badge for this card, but here are examples from previous cards:
Tag me when you earn a bingo (or double, triple, quadruple... FULL CARD bingo) and I'll reblog a shiny badge with your name on it to commemorate the win.
FAQ:
Can I comment on tumblr or only on AO3?
Either one is great! This card especially is more designed with AO3 in mind, but some can be adjusted to suit tumblr as well, so I say go for it. Tumblr fics deserve love, too.
Can one comment count toward multiple squares if the fic fits more than one category?
Since the goal is for as many fics to receive comments as possible, try to comment on a different fic for each square.
Is there a time limit?
Nope! Take your time or set your own deadline, whatever works for you. This blog is still in its early experimental stage, so feedback welcome. Play around and let me know what you like and what might be added/changedâincluding ideas for squares on future cards!
Do I have to record progress on the actual card?
Nope! If itâs easier to keep track in a different way, thatâs fine. This is all very honor system, so if you say you earned a Bingo, weâll call it a win đ
Some people have been tracking not just completed tasks, but the fics they read along the way, so that when they post a bingo, they can also promote the fics/authors in a little rec list. Not required, but definitely cool to see!
Can I adjust the task in a particular square to suit my comfort level?
Of course! If you deliver something in the spirit of the task, then itâs all good. Use your best judgement in constructing a comment that will make the author smile, and you can consider it a job well done.
In general, so long as each square has produced at least one comment, youâre golden and I salute you đ«Ą
Happy commenting!!
#comment bingo#old fic edition#feed the fandom fest#this one is for the ambitious#more of a scavenger hunt than other cards#please note that you can narrow your search field however you wish before sorting according the task in the square!#i've added searching/filtering tips under the cut
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