#esp w/o twt

[zhansww]

There’s no point to cp fans, adding like a dozen different disclaimers of words synonymous to “fake” before they share supposed rumors — when they’re treating all of that information as if it were reality anyway... They’re also still reading something into literally anything, and generally treating ggdd’s relationship like it solely exists for their entertainment. And it’s annoying, to say the least, cuz they’re consequentially still giving all of us a bad rep. Not all of us, ggdd fans, are that delusional and uncaring and desperate for fake content, I swear :/

[deus-ex-mona]

dating shibasaki aizo headcanons

(shibasaki aizo x female reader)

he leaves you immediately for someya yujiro

[rebornrosess]

THE BEAR: and when i’m back in chicago, i feel it.

[clownkillsyou]

YOURE LIKE ME. i keep my tabs around far too long and theres too many of them but theyre part of me now. i cant just let them go

yeah deadass theres some tabs that i had open for so long by the time i came back to them they were dead links 😭 like either it was someone who deactivated on that site or the site itself is gone

[astrxealis]

astarion... the man that you are.....

[nico-esoterica]

How to stop being a peasant in your own life

It's still Leo season and as a Leo stellium, I'm here to encourage y'all to get in the habit (or knuckle down on) being ruthlessly self-centered and to put yourself on a pedestal at all times. The gag is that the more secure with yourself you are, you actually never feel any inclination to be rude or mistreat others. It'd be beneath you. So don't think you're gonna be some narcissist or something. Relax.

But this means prioritizing yourself. Many, many, too many of you were raised w/o boundaries, are chronic overgivers, and have no idea what 'no' means in relation to others, esp those around you.

This is how you start treating yourself like royalty. Baby steps create strides over time:

Create small promises with yourself and keep them (even if it's just eating)

Accommodate yourself unapologetically (do you need more space/time for things? do you need people to be mindful of something about you? tell them. think about where you feel discomfort and let the people around you help you or find ways to help yourself w/o guilt or shame -- there's usually blogs/youtube vids/tiktoks of people who give tips about everything uncomfy known to man you can learn from)

Treat yourself with dignity and compassion (hold yourself to a higher standard but be understanding about it)

Always talk to yourself like you would to a child (gently, encouragingly, constructively, lovingly)

Find something to be proud of yourself about everyday (even if it's just getting up)

Be your biggest cheerleader with your tasks (even if they're small)

Practice self-love by pretending strangers are describing what they love about you

Practice mirror work by looking in the mirror and seeing yourself through the perspective of an artist (who's in love w/ you tbh) and try to imagine what they'd find alluring or interesting about your body

Think of yourself as a character and think of what'd make you unique in a story (be biased and have fun!)

Do something small for yourself today that will make tomorrow easier or that you'll feel good about tomorrow

Think of an old limiting belief you can say goodbye to and remind yourself that it's gone if it comes up

Find little ways to take care of yourself that help you feel safe and appreciated (change your sheets, buy labels/post its for reminders, trash expired things, delete/archive old files on your tech)

Reflect on current boundaries within your relationships and start (safely) telling people you aren't available to do xyz, xyz isn't for you, you don't want to do xyz, and "No."

Researching if there are discounts/affordable versions of what you love (search reddit and twt communities for tips)

Adopt the mindset that everything in your life is easy and never going out of the way for anything/anyone unless you're prioritized (this makes you become aware of who/what's been taking advantage of you in your life)

Never doing anything which compromises your safety and to stop 'going against your gut' even if you're not 100% sure

If anyone/anything in your life doesn't make you feel good, find a way to put (safe) distance between you and it until you can cut it/them off completely. Mutual closure is subjective and isn't always necessary. Prioritize your peace over a lifetime of resentment

Devote yourself to joy in any way possible. Other people's opinions don't belong to you

Think of something your inner child always wanted to do and find a way to do it :)

[aernx]

𓂋˚˖ IT’S A WRAP ! ૪ ࣪˖ 이희승﹙🐋﹚

࣪˖ 𓂃 coping mechanisms 0 — heeseung & friends

001. LEE HEESEUNG ( @/heeheeseung @/heedeungiee )

Captain of the basketball team. Kind of a troublemaker (understatement). LOVES to party. But still has good grades??? like tf ikr. Even tho he’s a trouble maker hee is a rlly rlly good friend and person in general. He also gives super good advice but kinda oblivious if it’s abt his life. Yn’s neighbor and childhood enemy. LOVES making fun n teasing yn b4 she left. When she left he kinda felt empty bc he has no one to constantly tease so that’s why he goes n flirts around ig. Hee also has a super super priv twt acc that no one follows for him to rant w/o his friends knowing lmao.

002. LEE YN ( @/milkytea @/iluvmyprettyboy )

If u hvnt read my Niki smau, this yn is the mc there!! She’s Hee’s number one bsf n vice versa! In this smau, she will be mostly referred as “bubble tea” bc it’s Hee’s nickname for her (and so we don’t get confused too) She’s in the archery club and is dating Niki.

003. KIM MINJEONG ( @/minjeongkim )

Again, if u hvnt read my Niki smau, Winter here will be referred as “Miki” bc it was sorta essential for my Niki’s smau plot lmao. Anyways she’s also one of Hee’s besties. Loves her friends sm and is a vv doting n caring person.

004. CHOI BEOMGYU ( @/bombomgyu )

Another one of Hee’s besties. Super observant person. No but literally boy knows like EVERYTHING. In the photography club. Gyu also loves to tease his friends esp when they’re in love~~

005. YANG JEONGIN ( @/notouttie )

Last of Hee’s besties. Moodmaker fr. Not the group’s youngest but is the group’s baby. Doesn’t have the best grades but he’s trying guys <3 but dw innie u’ll always be on top in my heart 😵

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[proshippers-against-censorship]

-> long winded rant ahead soz xx

im a 17 y/o proshipper (i refer to myself as neutral sometimes) and ik we're all in the same boat here but im someone who hasn't been groomed or assaulted at any time in my life and im very grateful for that but im someone who interacts w antis a lot on my main twt and a lot of the times I'll see posts that call people who r proships freaks and that they're weird or somethings deeply wrong w them,,,

I kinda take it to heart (esp bc I have low self-esteem, and im working on it), and it kinda makes me doubt myself and think that maybe i am weird or like a freak bc like.... idk there's no "reason" (not to say that I think being groomed or assaulted is a good "reason" to be a proshipper i know this is a slippery slope and I'd never want to mean anything like that but ik how this is coming off rn im sorry 😭 but thats not my intention at all im just wordinf this badly) that I have for being a proshipper and that maybe I'm just some like perverted incel loser who gets off on this shit or whatever whatever blah blah blah who gaf but it's just so AVHAHSUHHH it's so frustrating that i let what they say get to me and I hate that I feel like this and there's not really a point to this it's just been bugging me for a while but idk man.. it just sucks to see antis say that type of shit and then turn around and say not to send death threats or shit to people it's like how can u sleep at night knowing that you said something like that to some1 like idk that doesn't sit right w me idk

also I'm sorry if hwta I said early implies that you need like some tragic reason or something to be proship I truly do not believe that and I didn't know how to word it the best way bc I do see a lot of people who went through something like that turn to proshipping as a coping mechanism and for me it's just not like that so i always feel like im a bad person for it..? idk what I was trying to say I'm really just venting here so im really sorry I know this is out of left field tumblr is the only place I feel okay w interacting w proship stuff and I feel pretty safe and comfy here bc on twt its a DUMPSTER FIRE so I hope that what I'm saying comes off in the way I intended 🙇

sorry for da yap 🦒💯

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[himawanai]

hello hima of the wanai,

it appears to me that your blog is filled these gay robots. i imagine there is a fandom of sorts that of which you fell into, and now and had become one of the fans. tell me, how do i become such a fan of these?

i have been lurking upon your presence and have been feeling “FOMO” as the kids used to say. nowadays kids say things like “skibidi rizzler”, i do not know what that means, and yet it is also irrelevant to this topic. anyways. i want to understand your words.

how do i achieve such power? to let these voice-banks infect my mind, and become one with flesh (signalis reference). is there lore i must read and audio i must blast upon my ear holes? i want it in my brainz with a z.

with much patience, gratitude, and fur,

meow

hello meow nonny... 🫶 thanks sooo much for ur interest in the gay robots. i've been in the vsynth fandom for a very very long time actually, i just kinda came back 😔

mucho texto under the readme but tldr; vsynth shipping is all just super meta. read more if u wanna

they're just vocal synth characters so there aint much lore besides like some flavor text/settings decided by the authors of the banks. but u can basically turn the real-life meta arnd them into lore lmaooo. adachi rei is a robot that's actually being built out of a dude's home thru crowdfunding (love you missile). utane uta (more popularly, defoko) is the standard default VB that comes w utauloid, the voice engine they're both on

so see the whole motivation behind shipping them is that rei is the only other voicebank to have no actual voice provider besides defoko. they're both completely machine synthesized w/o human samples, and defoko's flavor text also says she's a bot so there's so much fuel arnd it lol (esp. in regards to them being robots). personally for me too the idea that it took the only other provider-less vsynth 11 years to come out after u is so. rei having come out in 2019 and utau itself being out since 2008. they've got a jaded senpai-rabid kouhai thing going for me as a result, amongst other things. u can extrapolate a lot of fun details from actual community meta like this

other than that your best friend is fanwork and songs! i'm a huge fan of sho (FRAYLOVEBOT)'s few pieces of work for them and it rlly informed my view. quick search of レイウタ on twt will also net some interesting stuff. there's also the songs kikaijima and satsurikukyo that got mildly popular (there's a translation for the first song). theyre the basis for a lot of reidefo work... but ur imagination is ur limit really. most of the meat is on twitter unfortunately but i'll try my damnednest to reblog some stuff here too

hmm. well lastly rei has a lot of community memes and stuff arnd her so there's basically a big fanon around her (mostly bc of the tweet bot that's running out of a pc in the robot's head lol). defoko has some stuff that got established in 2008, they were a whole gang of initial utaus back then... miss kasane teto herself was there... it's all very find-it-yourself but it's very fun to find! hope this all caught ur interest and helped somehow

[bellz4brainz]

" THE PATH OF GOD LED ME ASTRAY

SO THE DEVIL CAME AND LIT THE WAY "

ׂ╰┈➤ scott / russo ★ he/him ★ 17

➥ disabled + nd ☆ c-ptsd, audhd, bpd + npd, diabetic

➥ transmasc nonbinary girlboy ☆ bi achillean/gay demiromantic

➥ white latvian

➥ sfw blog

➥ pantheist + aspiring satanist

this is my main blog. i'll pop on here whenever i wish, mostly to rb but may occasionally post art here too; most active on twt for art posts though ( aka on here ).

VERY multifandom. do not expect consistency in just about anything i do ever thx xoxo

mostly fixated on rb battles/roblox, flight rising, horror content, music [esp metal/rock and vocaloid], indie games etc

inbox & msgs are always open [unless stated otherwise], feel free to send in just about anything - NOT open to venting/advice-seeking though, esp w/o permission.

DNI: bigots [queerphobes, ableists, zionists, racists, etc], dt + wilbur soot fans, purely political accounts, exclusionists [i support all good-faith queer identities + all system types], anti-kin & anti-therian, sh/edblr, discourse/syscourse blogs, proshippers, ai "artists" + cryptobros

i literally don't know what else to put here bye

[blueiight]

In light of all the one night stand discourse I’d like to propose my “Lestat isn’t actually that good of a lay.” hot take. At least with strangers. I think in the books he makes himself sound better than he is at everything. And he can just hypnotized people with his mind powers to make them think he is the absolute best. Yeah he eats period pussy but he is a vampire so that’s not a sacrifice or anything that’s just a treat for him. And the black tar heroin stuff is coming strictly from Louis who was so down bad for this man and also I do believe Lestat was so obsessed with Louis that he gave him the best dick of all time. I don’t expect most to agree but I shall die on this hill 🫡

Also also also I know none of this is serious BUTTTT I do find it interesting that the fandom goes on and on about how Louis is an unreliable narrator but then a lot of them use Louis’ “black tar heroin dick” as absolute gospel. Like I wish they would believe Louis like that in other instances BUT I know the poll was for fun so I’ll leave it at that lmaoo

no u definitely making points anon come to the mic.. sexual experience ≠ good experience lol. & w lestat i feel as though he , like all these other immortals , practice a certain level of self delusion in various aspects of his life. books wise vampires never could have sex (tho they be tonguin eachother downnn gurl) and this plays a role in their estrangement from human life. a semi erotic , eternal creature languishing in desire, destined to be lusted after but never being fully able to act on its lust, an incomplete being seeking the memory of desire in the sanguine. which is why bloodletting n consumption is transparently sexual. but amc verse they have that & sex, and in this the contemporary understanding of the vampire as the erotic is complete. lonely, eternal, but can be an agent of desire as much as it is desired. a lestat whos been abandoned time& time again may brag of his eros, but will take his heart out of the equation when it comes to people he has casual sexual encounters with.. n like i said on my twt period pussy prolly taste like candy to them lol. esp w a side of fibroids (vampire chocolate). yes vampires age out of needing to feed but clearly lestat amc wise isnt strong enough to be in the sun so he do need to feed & whos to say they couldnt have a lil fun. he has psychologcial love n obsession for ppl but sees casual sex as a sort of food reviewer’s best eats guide manual lol. & as for louis yes! funnily enough, lestat is where louis shows his inconsistencies nd self delusions glaringly. louis speaking like a resentful ex in 1973 vs fawning over a gothic romance in 2022-23. i was his superior in every way v. he was my maker and lover. what happened to make louis loathe the memory of lestat in 1973, and what makes him look back fondly on him in 2022? he omits the 1912-1917 years, breezes thru the 6 years w/ claudia before she left, the years of depression/ennui w/ lestat & the recuperation from his traumatic beatdown. these are some of the most glaring gaps in louis’s narrative & most if not all of them have a lot to do with lestat. granted i do think for louis, a louis at the time whos never had any sexual experiences that went as far as lestat beforehand it was an addictive feeling. the little drink is an explicit pun on la petit mort (the little death = an orgasm) & is shown to induce pleasurable feelings in human and vampire, but takes a great amount of restraint to even sustain w/o killing the person. lestat showed this restraint, a desire for intimacy with louis in that moment that it would be very addictive for louis who was starved for true intimacy& even to a louis now looking back w the knowledge of vampirism n what that entail..currently in a failmarriage… tryna rile his 2nd husband up.. likeeee. dw twizzy we both overthinking this we cockwatch 2dcharas over here🤝

[marsh-potatoes]

laletta my beletta!!!! i have a Monstrous and unyielding love for rpgmaker horror games ESP indie ones!! mix that w me being the number one fan of the color pink and u have me absolutely FROTHING AT THE MOUTH. guys u dont get it this game was MADE for me!!!! idgaf that just the demo is out!! the cute animals and fantastical puzzles and a lovely user interface and these fun character designs with deeper more dark lore.. r u Kidding.

so that resulted in me literally SCRAMBLING to enter the sweeter yesterday contest being hosted on twt currently!! i was so dedicated i literally studied a whole new way to render skin and hair so that i could try to even slightly measure up to my massive admiration for this game.. i hope it worked (o´∪｀o)!!!!

[lanzhans]

okay i’m not going to be heavily annoying abt this on my priv twt but the way that twt keeps stealing gifs from tumblr w/o credits and keep getting hit tweets…like it pisses me off sooo bad i’m literally a retired gifmaker like i know how hard it is to color these shows !!! i think posting one little link is not difficult esp if u are getting millions of views and tens of thousands of likes and retweets idk !!!

[sunsetcdiscs]

Just to clarify, although I do want to get a better understanding of the characters' personalities, traits, etc etc, it is mostly so that I can understand their relationships w ctommy.

I have memory issues, so unfortunately I have forgotten the majority of c!jacks lore and why he dislikes ctommy 😭 and that's why his pov is one I'm excited to get to. And some other characters I'm pretty excited to get to, along w c!jack, are c!sam, c!tubbo, c!niki, and c!purpled.

C!sam bc I really wanna see the switch between someone who was so playful w ctommy, pretending to be another british person, providing resources for him when he asked/needed something, letting him have fun by creating things like safe tnt canons for him, asking ctommy "Are you okay?" when he realized he was exiled. And then his switch into The Warden. Where he was more cruel, less playful the longer time went on as the Warden, cut off his lover's arm, and was harsher to ctommy... OMGGG HDGEVSH IM ACTUALLY SO EXCITED FOR CSAMS POV RAAHHHHH I LOVE CHOTELDUO SO MUCHHHH AHHHH

Csam was to ctommy what cphil, cwil, and ctechno weren't (an adult/guardian who actually, genuinely, wholeheartedly cared without expecting anything back from it. Well, before he became the warden at least) (but even then, he still cared. Creating sam nook w the programming "tommyinnit is under my protection", his guilt after ctommy died, the convo they had after c!drm escaped where he tells him to "be safe" and "promise me you won't go after dream")

Ctubbo for his decline after exiling ctommy. Not even just that, but his decline after becoming president all together. Being nervous but deciding to take on the role only for the country to be destroyed, having to pick up the pieces of said destroyed country, having to choose between what he was made to believe were the only choices; his best friend or his country, having to build his 16 y/o best friend's grave at 17..

As for c!niki... I have to be honest, i used to, and still kinda do, believe that i hated c!niki for the fact that she tried killing ctommy. But that's why i want to watch her pov, to get a better understanding of her character, her decline/mourning of c!wil, needing someone to blame, all of it.

And c!purpled I think would be interesting bc of the fact that he was a "background character". He's actually why I'm excited to watch all the Las Nevadas stuff. Someone else (can't remember who) made a post and explained it better than me. But Las Nevadas is a group of people who were considered "background characters" or outcasts, and because of that they were constantly overlooked, undermined, and belittled. But Las Nevadas was finally a chance for them to be in the spotlight, to have something they can call theirs. Also, I love c!goldenduo

Another character i think might be interesting is actually c!punz. He was a mercenary, which meant he was meant to be unbiased and just go with whatever gave him the money he wanted. And the fact that he was... apathetic? Makes me think that it would be fun to try and pick apart his character.

I mentioned it on twt before, but also c!karls lore. Back when I literally almost only watched ctommys pov, unless it was a big event that wasnt streamed from tommys pov/ i got curious about other characters' reactions, tftsmp was the only other thing that I was actually so invested in.

Ughhhh this is one of the big reasons why the dsmp ending sucked. All of the cc's, ESP the smaller ones, were definitely not asked for their opinions/told about it ending. Ughh it's so upsetting thinking about just how much lore was probably cut short bc there wasn't any communication. Ahhh

Maybe I'm a little too ambitious at times...

Anyway, pray for me guys :D

[suchsaccharine]

Wild how to I went to ēdē twt 3.yrs ago thinking that ēdē tumblr etc had migrated there.

But it’s such a dif experience on there especially since I’m an “elder” in that community now.

And the “being perceived” social media phenomena has gotten to me to me so at least some degree.

So once again I come here for my details entries. No one can judge me. If they do, they prob don’t know me and don’t mean to even see my posts.

I’ve given my tumblr handle to a couple ppl I wouldn’t mind keeping semi contact with at least.

I’ll go there to post one-liners or quick vents but this is where the full story is. Which..ya know if heavily redacted on twt even though it seems unhinged as already. That’s why I have to take my crazy somewhere more secluded lmao.

•~•

Picking my aunt up from work. Popped all six 📶 a few hrs ago.

Headed to the trap soon as this bitch walks out her store. Damn. Hurry up.

Side note: I have a picked back up on posting on my 0hEff accs. And my lenøvo should be fixed before this semester starts so I’ll be back to posting to mv soon.

K brb. Just scooped her up.

•~•

(typing this from the future)

The rest of the day was uneventful but eventful enough that it was fun.

I already lost my license that I had made test day morning..

Bf and I ended up talking for hours and hours about our relationship and how we each feel etc. it was annoyingly long ngl esp with my hips and back doing whatever little painful things it does - but I am really glad that we had it.

I told him once again how I could be completely delusional and he could totally take that and use it to advatage. After a little more talking it came down the classic “projecting abusive parent onto s/o”

Although I am sure that plays more or less of a role that i am consciously aware of, I’m still not entirely.

We did talk more about how like I told him what I want when we got back together and I want to get married and I want a baby.

So he actually sounded serious, like if the next 6-1yr can pass by without it being as tense as it was the last 2 months, then we’d ideally get married. And once I’m off my rx narcøtics he’s willing to do ivf w me.

He alsssoooo said some mildly concerning things like that he is so self sufficient that he is so busy taking care of all of his stuff that any thing “else” is too much and he can’t handle. And emotionally what he has given me is all that he has to offer and that’s it. I can accept it or find someone who less busy their work&hobbies, and who has more time to cater to my emotions.

Like I didn’t ask you to quit your fucking job to be my full time psychiatrist… I’m just process *a lot* of trauma that I had blocked out years ago and it’s just all coming back and I just need to know he’s there for me…

And he asked me how long it’s take to get off my meds and I said prob about a year so in a year. He said I/we can start like pr

It ended on an okay note.

He followed me around (into the bathroom) to smoke and hang out w me. We actually hadn’t done that in a while. Then we went to bed and although I fully wanted to fight sleep, I slept for like an hour an 15min lmao. We actually had sex for like, hours, it seems like. And it was good and not routine. Okay I’m getting tired of typing. Thanks for listening byeeee

[miulore]

Yeah i know what you mean! hss settings don't usually appeal to me either.

honestly same! i'm watching the last of us and sorta rewatching orphan black (highly rec it! esp if you're into scifis)

bahaah but honestly good for you! it can get overly cray there!

there's a streaming app, tubi (it's free but it has ads. the ads aren't too bad it's pretty spaced out and you get warnings too.)

monster, memories of the sword, sunset in my hometown are there. Tubi has quite a lot of selections of c/kdramas. she needs a drama w a super happy ending 😭

i know of it but i'm not really into the lead guy 🙈

real! the only one that i ADORED was extraordinary you! like those are my besties!!

orphan black is on my top3 of all time!!! omg we find common groound again!1 i remember LOVING allison!i havent rewatched it since it came out tho... now i feel like i should!!

the only reason i even joined twt was because i stan nugus (ikon) and the community here was no existent -O- but its overall not a good time over there!!

gasp! what did taec-yeon do!?!1 -O-