#esp the “unfair” hug

[satanicspinosaurus]

If you haven't met Sorn yet....damn, this is a fine way to start. 23 glorious pages of these two! Honestly, Sorn gets so much love from me with how sincere he is about being affectionate. Very few characters "nuzzle" into someone's hands, but Sorn does and I love it!

this is 23 pages

[staarlight-snow]

Murky Waters - Island of the Slaughtered

TW: Gore, Horror

[Inspired by "last thoughts - Noah Mudaliar" by muridaecorps (on Ao3) and Island of the Slaughtered by @eavee-ry ]

Silence.

It was so silent it was as if nothing had happened. The wind blew gently against the leaves as the moonlight shone down into the pond. The crimson-tinted water glistened under the rays of the moon.

It was unfair. He would've enjoyed this view. The solitude and silence of the forest, the way the moonlight hit the water just right.

It was unfair. He could be sitting atop a rock, reading his favourite novel – far away from the nuisances and noise that was the camp and his peers but no. Instead of sitting in front of the serene view, enjoying his solitude and short-lived peace – his body floated lifelessly in the pond.

The only thing that ruined this ethereal and dream-like scenery was that of the body of a teenage boy that was cheated from his life. It was unfair. There was no denying, he was far different from other teenagers, yes but just like most of them – he had dreams, he had hopes and aspirations. Everyone did, of course.

So it was unfair. Everything was unfair. This isn't supposed to happen. No one was supposed to get hurt. If he could – he'd find Chris and make him pay for abandoning them on this goddamned island.

The silence in his surroundings was disturbed by the sudden rustling of bushes. The frantic sounds of someone's footsteps ran in closer to the pond. Then, there was a voice.

"Noah?" A voice called out, a tone of worry and fear. It continued to call his name, over and over again, getting louder by the second. What kind of fool would deliberately risk his life to find a snarky, sarcastic know-it-all?

"Noah! Please! Where are you?" It was Cody. His voice cracked as he shouted his friend's name more and louder. The lake came into his view and he stopped in his tracks. He gripped the blood-stained book in his hands harder as his eyes widened at the sight that unfolded before him. "A-ah.." His heart dropped and his breathing stopped for what seemed like a full minute.

A loud gut-wrenching scream erupted from the brunette. He fell to his knees – his eyes welled up with tears as he started to shakenly hyperventilate.

"Cody! Oh my god you're okay!" A person followed from behind, embracing the shorter in a hug. "I thought the killer got to you! Are you insane!? I know you're worried 'bout Noah but-" They were cut-off from their words when they caught a glimpse of the murky crimson stained water in front of them.

The person with him, Gwen, comforted the boy. They weren't close the first few days and she honestly found him like an annoying little brother but as the nights passed and the more murders took place – she found herself as an older sister figure to the other. She couldn't possibly imagine what Cody is going through but she knew how heart-broken he probably is right now.

"Cody… I'm sorry.." Gwen spoke, "But we can't stay here. It's not safe." She stood up, gesturing for the other to do so as well. Cody followed. His mind was clouded, it was empty but somehow it was full of thoughts. It was too much to process, it was too overwhelming.

It was unfair.

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Part 2

Sequel

i needed to practice more on my writing and im very obsessed w this au rn!! i dont rlly write fanfics esp on this acc but we'll let this one slide 🕴️

[httpiastri]

im the BIGGEST mclaren fan and oscar fan in the world ever and i dont even have the energy to celebrate oscar's first win (yes bc of the fucked up way mclaren did it but wtv not getting into that) bc of how devastated i am about paul. i just want to give him the biggest hug in the world and tell him its ok and that we all still love him. i hope he knows how much support he has and that making mistakes is ok, its only his rookie season no one expects him to be schumacher or senna or whoever, we just want you to be a happy paul aron :(

seeing him banging his head and looking out into the distance after the crash omfg i will jump off a cliff i swear. hes so hard on himself and i was legit sobbing thinking about how much harder he is on himself (probably) this year after what happened w merc and prema. he deserves so much more omg. the fact that kimi ended up winning the race just made me think of the lacy edits too and omfg i cannot. i love kimi dont get me wrong but what are the chances that paul's win became kimi's instead? i js cant.

and dont get me started on that fucking penalty. he already dnf'd i don't understand the point of them punishing him any further did u not see how mad he was at himself?? fuck you fia fuck. you. cz WHY WHAT WAS THE REASON??? i feel like ive never seen them do that to a driver, usually they cause a collision and dnf they just get time penalties but a TEN PLACE GRID PENALTY?? FOR THE NEXT RACE?? THIS LATE IN THE SEASON?? it just seems SO unfair and so harsh. not agreeing w the grid penalties at all esp when the driver alr suffered from their mistakes but the crash w maloney fine i can kind of understand, but ollie's? sorry but i didnt even see them crash that hard? (or was i half asleep? idk i js literally do not remember seeing it) seriously tho wtf.

i hope his friends, family and team gave him the biggest hug ever. he'll come back stronger ik it! we'll get thru this u guys:(

paul nation family group hug 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

-🧸

this is very valid :(( it wouldve been easier to celebrate if it had been better with the team and whatever, but now it was so easily overshadowed by everything that happened in f2 and i just 😶

to me, most of my pain is based on (just like u said) the fact that i think he's hard on himself, and wants to prove so much after everything that has happened. i just hope he sees the reality; that he's doing super well, in his rookie season nonetheless, and we're all so proud of him. mistakes is okay, shit happens, even max verstappen made a bunch of mistakes yesterday!!

i didnt wanna look at the clips of him in the car nor hear his radio (ive seen the screenshot of him admitting that it was his fault tho) and i saw the clip of him after getting out of the car and i just...... nope. and esp w kimi winning aaaa it made me so happy but-

god i dont understand the penalties like. yes he made a mistake but zane was also going very very slow (on the slower tyres also) so it was hard for him to tell what zane was going to do. like these things happen within even a fraction of a second and you need to trust your instinct and sometimes it doesn't work out? like obvs i cant compare it to any personal experiences in racing but in my own sport i know the feeling of getting a bad pass etc, and something tiny can mess up the entire timing and feeling and everything? so zane just going slower makes a lot of difference :// it's not common that they do this but ive seen it sometimes but this is just so.... gAH!! esp with the thing with ollie because they didn't even show it, so it can't have been THAT important, right?? so stupid

pls everyone gather around for a group hug! with paul in the middle bcs he deserves all of the love!!!!!!! <3<3<3

(oh and just so you know. "we just want you to be a happy paul aron :("........... you actually broke me with that one, i hope you're happy that im crying bcs of you 😭)

[fairycosmos]

i rlly relate to the constantly grateful and suicidal part. like ik for me personally grief is a huge part of it. i had an amazing day wednesday and even now sitting in the afterglow i'm almost mad that i'm experiencing it? because something just feels "off" without someone i love here. and i'm mad that the world has the audacity to be wonderful - still - while missing someone so vital to it. idk you aren't alone. you aren't alone

yeah i totally understand this! i think a lot of the time when i experience anything even vaguely positive or peaceful these days im just wishing she was here to see it and i find it all so incredibly unfair and like. wish she had more of a chance to enjoy beautiful things and sights and feelings and there's all this weird guilt and pain and it's also just like. i know objectively i couldve been born into much worse circumstances - homelessness, deep poverty etc - and everyone says oh dont compare your pain to others but i really am glad to have a roof and food and and whenever im in the deep pits of despair i just feel like how can i feel so fucking painfully bad when i have the basics i have more than most ppl in history ever had in terms of comfort and convenience and still everything feels wrong and off and just heavy. i think a lot of it is grief, youre right. so many different versions of it but esp the grief for my sister just tainting everything. im so so sorry youre feeling it too and thank you for being kind and for making me feel understood. it's a complex and confusing emotion that i cant ever even articulate right so it can feel isolating. sending a big hug. x

[koipepo]

Hey I remember you from the Thramsay days. I used to be in the same discord server and I wanted to say what an amazing art style you have that always makes me happy to see and I hope you're keeping well.

Just wanted to send you a prompt I thought you'd like. It's post the spot attack on Miles and Peter B tries to calm Miles by singing the sunflower song to him but it doesn't work and Peter just wants to help but Miles is too shaken with his new trauma that he can't even speak. Peter tries to go in for a hug but even that is too much for Miles. Miles wants to be held but all he can feel is the Spot's phantom touch.

hey anon!! amazing taste in ships ;) i still love thramsay dearly, i don't think my creativity ever peaked up higher than with this ship.... ok gotta stop myself from gushing abt them bc if not i would never stop lol

re: prompt > omg yes YEEEESSSSSSS THATS THE SPECIFIC ANGST FLAVOR THAT I LOVE 💓i never thought abt inserting petermiles in this scenario, you genius! since Miles can't bring himself to tell anyone, esp to Peter who's his mentor figure, Peter keeps trying to reach out... he feels so desperate and helpless bc Miles won't open up to him😭

ORRR Miles did tell him about this, and Peter just fucking breaks. Peter never thought it would be something so violating, so cruel, so unfair to happen to Miles. he can't even say anything to comfort Miles, can't even hug him bc now the newfound terrible knowledge freezes him too. what can he possibly do?

AAA THE ANGSTT

[dreamhot]

hi sorry but i am just so heartbroken over this entire situation because i've been a fan of dream's since august 2020 and of quackity's also for almost just as long. i've tried to stay neutral and just happy for both of them even when all that smp drama was going on (like what dream would have wanted) but this might just be the straw that breaks my back. i hate how dream chooses love even though he is essentially now the punching bag for youtube and despite everything quackity still chooses to be silent and is even encouraged to be silent when dream was not even allowed that grace when his fans were acting were acting out of control earlier in the pandemic. it's not only disrespectful but just downright cruel because they were friends. at least have the grace and dignity to acknowledge that your fans have been cruel and unreasonable not just to dream but to other CCs for a while.

hugs :( it's really rough, anon, esp for those of us who used to be fans of quackity. it feels heartbreaking and unfair. i want to believe this will be a wakeup call for q, but ... we'll have to see

[honeyhotteoks]

the most realistic part of tnt is men having the absolute worst timing when it comes to confessing their feelings for you. yunho and mingi had months, MONTHS, M O N T H S (i think three right? cause y/n gets her heat every 3months?)!!! to breach the topic of not wanting it to be a one time thing or maybe mentioning/talking through residual feelings. but they ignored y/n and then only broke the ice out of jealousy/fear over the dinner plans with hwa. then even after the reconnection said nothing? AND EVEN AFTER HER SECOND HEAT!!! WHERE THEY SPENT THE WHOLE TIME WORRIED ABOUT HER!!! the second the apologies are over yunho begins to suggest y/n call them about her next heat? which does not necessarily indicate actual feelings and more so could be read as just him wanting to sleep with her again!!!!!!! it's only after y/n admits to not spending it alone and after they find a it it was "with hwa" that either of them bothers to actually ADMIT WHAT THEY ARE FEEEEEEEELING!!! but also in their defense they do kind of have a point in the fact that y/n didn't go out of her way to talk to them either after that first heat. and she hasn't been forthcoming after her feelings either. so it's kind of unfair to blame everything solely on them esp since y/n has seemingly been in denial about her feelings from the start and very quick to blame everything on her omega instincts rather than acknowledge her heart's just as involved in all of this as her inner omega is but still I SUPPORT WOMEN'S WRONGS!!! so regardless i am on y/n's side it was so much scarier for her to try and come to them about her feelings than it was for them because they could at least talk through their complicated feelings to each other. they've known each other longer and live together and have worked together for years and just know each other so intricately. in this equation y/n is the outsider with more to lose. ugh there is just so much miscommunication here and it makes me want to tear my hair out (in a good way!!) cause i can honestly see it from both sides. also the mingi hail mary kiss followed by him at the end saying i shouldnt have kissed you and y/n agreeing with him that he shouldn't have KILLED ME!!!!!!!!!! like y/n you know damn well you enjoyed every moment of that kiss and were pouring just as much emotion into that as he was!!! also yunho pulling her into a hug and her calming down instantly only for her brain to kick back in and force those instincts to the back burner and pull away AND THEN THREATEN TO LEAVE THE COMPANY?!? like my jaw was on the floor. and if that wasn't enough to break my heart you had yunho run out into the hallway after her?!! GOD THAT HALLWAY SCENE IS GONNA HAUNT ME. i kept screaming at y/n to turn around and cave!!! but woo was right when he said she would still have the same questions haunting her if she did just cave. like there would always be a part of her that questioned whether their feelings were genuine or just hormones. so they need this time apart. like logistically i know that but my shippers heart is screaming crying and throwing up right now!!!

LMAOOOO wait this made me laugh so hard "the most realistic part of tnt is men having the absolute worst timing when it comes to confessing their feelings for you."

like YEP basically.

but to respond to your ask....... yes felt. honestly our MC didn't do the best job dealing with her emotions after heat either, and i've gotten some messages saying she's at fault not the boys........ but i think we all have to remember the power dynamics of her being NEW at the company. she's really dealing with a lot of pre-established dynamics and trying to figure this all out on her own (until woosanhwa) so i give her a little grace lol

i'm glad you're enjoying tho!! this one has been so fun to write.

[3rddimension]

That's super unfair actually, esp since if you've been here long enough you know that c got more physically affectionate w many of the cast once she started to be more comfortable with her body and her work environment which is actually very endearing. I hate people accusing her of being into Spencer just because of this, she was super touchy with Angela in the last jackbox and was always super touchy with Keith and Olivia. Amanda is always like this and always touches people and leans on them yet no one ships her with them. Same with Jackie

Everyone that ships her with Spencer is just projecting because they might not be a physically affectionate person so they can't imagine touching someone without it meaning something more but some people are that way. If two poeple set that boundary and know the it's platonic then they can be as affectionate as they want in their friendship. Spencer is also best friends with Kiana meaning just like s and many guys in the cast/crew he knows how to be just friends with girls and it's 2023 guys. Also Spencer apologizing for touching her tattoo shouldn't be the signifier to you that they're platonic btw. Also he apologized because she had just gotten that tattoo and it was probably healing when he poked it.

I think C is just someone who wears her heart on her sleeve and her emotions on her face that people just assume shes crushing on everyone, but please understand that c has just grown into a super affectionate person in general esp as of the last 4 years. The difference between us labeling her touchiness with S in the past as flirting vs not doing so now with Spencer for example is that in the past he was the only one she would frequently play fight with and she'd grab his arms and shove him all the time out of nowhere. It wasn't typical behavior for her (apart from occasionally hugging Keith, Noah and Olivia) in general she was more reserved and new to it and she went out of her way to tease him physically and he reciprocated once he got comfortable too.

Oh yeah the example of Spencer touching her tattoo is not really the indicator of platonic but I think he still being respectful to Court because she just got that tattoo.

But yeah the rest is pretty much what you wrote.

[scribeoffate]

Alright, my thoughts on the Teen Wolf movie after a few hours and one watch.

The non-spoiler version is: that's the show I know and love with all its weird plots that make vague sense, way too many characters for the time they have, Scott whump (beloved), and complete inability to remember their own lore.

I had fun. If you're a fan of the show and like more than one or two characters, then you'll have a nice time. Is it great? That's a strong word. I do have some issues with things that happened.

Spoilery thoughts are behind the cut:

I am gonna start with the positive because tbh the negativity is grating on me.

Scott!!! And Pupppy!! Scot saves a puppy and a little girl and he has a shelter where Deaton has a vet practice and I can't evennnnn.

I love Lydia so much. And then the scydia of it all? Like that moment at Oakhurst is more than we got about them bonding over losing Allison in the entire series and that scene has my entire heart.

Jackson is the perfect little whiny bitch and I love him for it.

Deaton!!! OMG! HIm saving Chris got toooo mee. And the Deaton and Scott of it all? Ahhh.

The scallison of it just. My heart melted when he stabbed himself. And the fate conversation and the callback to Motel California and I think they were trying in a v teen wolf way to explore scott's depression and sucidal tendencies and i really want more. i may have to write a thing negl. i am high key obsessed with that. and then when he tells the nogitsune he isn't ready to die?

and just again. my scallison heart was so full of feelings

lydia screaming allison's name? and her get memories back????? ahhh! ahhh!!! ahhhh!!!

as an angst gremlin, i loved the way stydia played out.

i ended up really liking eli. he's just a little kid and a loner it seems like and i really want to write something where he loves the jeep so much because it belonged to his hero: scott

the scerek of the ending. OMG. I loved that. Derek did the self sacrifice. babbbby.

oh speaking of: Scott using his alpha roar to force Eli to HEAL is just sooo 🥺

The chris/melissa/peter polyship of it gave me fun feelings. im into it. bourne, bohen and ponzio understood that assignment

I loved that Mason was there! I love him. But I really wanted a lot more. And I'm pretty mad that we got no Liam and Mason hug. Unfair. To me.

We are clearly diving into some of my problems now I love Malia. I love Parrish. I am not sold on them together even if I really enjoyed their scenes. esp the "pep talk"

I wish I'd gotten more scalia closure, but their awkward scene was fun in its way

I'm not even a Liam fan and I'm pretty mad about how little he gets to do. Like. Why bring him back if he doesn't even get to exist hardly?

I am beyond irritated that they introduced Hikari and then gave her... nothing. No personality. No anything. Esp because Workman is talented! Let her do *something*! I am sad there wasn't at least one sciles moment. That's the fix it fic *I* need. I need sciles content so hard now. I will, I am sure, have a lot more thoughts after I rewatch. But I enjoyed myself and will again.

[kittyk4daver]

dear diary — ✩°｡⋆⸜ 🎧

being in a same sex relationship as a narc is so stressful esp when your partner has told you on several occasions that they love you and you are their main priority :/ i felt like even though she was telling me this that she was lying to me and was trying to replace me. i ended up ruining that when she had a guy friend over and i acted very impulsively. i just couldn’t help myself when he was coming on to me. i’m so disgusting and attention starved that i just took the bait and let myself get wrapped up into that. a guy made me feel special in bed. why am i so easy to persuade ? i broke my gf’s trust and had her feel like she had to push me aside, and the same guy that made me feel so good and hugged me the first night doesn’t even shoot me a second glance when he’s over. i fucked everything up. i downplayed what i was doing so much that i didn’t realize how unfair i was being to her. how selfish and inconsiderate i was being for even asking that after doing something like that to her. then i wonder why she doesn’t want me back as her partner.

in my sick twisted head, she broke up with me because she told me that she preferred boys as partners. this and the fact that this boy comes into your life and you say that he reminds you of a male version of me ? i felt inferior. inferiority soon turned into admiration when he came and hugged me and now i blew everything ! feelsbadman

here’s to hoping she’ll take me back in the future 💔🥀 maybe

[swiftful-thinking13]

there’s a 99% chance that your bad future therapist is in my cohort :DD

[fairycosmos]

do you ever get angry at positive posts? i keep seeing that "bad years are good years in disguise" post and it's pissing me off. I've been having a bad year for like four years. which might not seem like a lot but it is when you're only eighteen. anyways that post talks about how bad moments are always followed by good moments and it's like. no the fuck they are not lol. things just keep getting worse for me.

yeah sometimes. i think it's nice of ppl to want to soothe and encourage others but when you're in a chronically bad place or going through traumatising circumstances/living with the consequences of them being told to find the silver lining is never helpful, at least not to me. sometimes it's not romantic or poetic or ephiphany inspiring sometimes its just fucking brutal. it's like if someone is on fire you're not gonna tell them to learn to appreciate the warmth. it's probably natural to try to make sense of pain by viewing it through that lens of bad moments being followed by good moments and every hardship being a chance to learn and whatever else but sometimes you just need someone to sit with you and acknowledge just how bad it has been for so long. to tell you you're not crazy for being worn out by it (which you're not), to agree with you that it IS unfair and that you DO deserve better than having to survive life rather than actually live it. im really sorry that you've been going through such a hard time and yeah, it is fucked up and nonsensical and incredibly hard to deal with esp at such a young age. i really hope you have a good support system around you who you can talk to about this, and i hope it all starts feeling a bit lighter soon. sending a hug your way. X

[salvatoreren]

Vol2 Thoughts

Alright everybody welcome back and ill try to make this as clean and constructed as possible anyways

i suppose chapter eight was the calm before the storm despite many people have died already

max having her halloween mask tho lmao what was she going to do with it and those poor people who got their van stolen,

the way i screamed when nancy saw jason, and erica just seeing the rest, im so glad eddie and the others stayed in the van, like please, dude my jaw dropped when i saw some dude kissing vickie, like poor robin, she deserves better

the way all of them had their moments while on the grass making weapons, i love that, i feel erica about lucas lol, robin and steve just comforting each other and being the best and that dustin and eddie scene, i love when they were scuffling, god they're so wholesome, YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM, THE NEVER CHANGE UGHHH PLEASE IT HITS DIFF NOW

i cried when will was crying, he's been through so much and ik i have set my negative views regarding ships but like i said byler and mileven was cool okay? anyways im sure what he said to mike was his true feelings

ik it's just me but i wish brenner and el had more closure like a max and billy moment but i think like i said a month ago with hopper saying the need to surpass fathers and grow, it made sense actually because in order for el to grow she needs to defy and surpass him

ALSO WILL AND EL HUGGING

now

CHAPTER NINE REALLY WAS SO HEARTSTOPPING, I HAD A HEADACHE WATCHING IT, MY HANDS WERE SO COLD AND MY STOMACH WAS TWISTING AND SHIT, I WAS SO FUCKING SCARED BUT ANYWAYS

THAT BIT WHERE THEY TRY TO FORCE MIKE IN EATING PIZZA WITH PINEAPPLE, THAT WAS SO CUTE

THE LUMAX SCENES! THE HOW PRESUMPTUOUS OF YOU COMING BACK, I LOVE THEM THEY'RE SO CUTE UGHHH

THAT "CHRISSY THIS IS FOR YOU" HAD ME BAWLING AND SCREAMING, UGH I LOVE HIM, THOSE PEEPS WERE RIGHT ABOUT EDDIE PLAYING MASTER OF PUPPETS, HE WAS INSANE FOR THAT, UGH PLS

IM SORRY BUT I LAUGHED SO HARD WHEN DUSTIN AND EDDIE KEPT STABBING THE BATS LOL

THE WAY MY HEART BROKE WHEN EDDIE CUT OFF THE SHEET, DUSTIN SCREAMING, I HATE THIS

MY POOR BOY DUSTIN GETTING HIS LEG HURT

AND PROPS TO MURRAY, I LOVE HIM HE WAS CRAZY SHOOTING THAT FLAMETHROWER, MVP

THE SINCLAIRS BEATING THOSE TWO DOUCHES LMAO WHY WERE THEY ONLY TWO THO, ERICA KICKING HIM RIGHT IN THE NUTS AND HITTING HIM WITH A FLASHLIGHT QUEEN! ALSO LUCAS SAYING NORMAL IS A FUCKING PSYCHOPATH, YES HE RESIST CONFORMING

MIKE PULLED AN EREN ON ELEVEN UGH IN ASTONISHMENT BUT ALSO UGH IN DISGUST SINCE THEY REMIND ME OF MY NOTP, AND SAYING HOW HE LOVES HER, MILEVEN MAKES ME SOFT GOD

THE WAY THE MUSIC SET AND SHOWED EACH BATTLE JUISFAHKJSAF, I LOVE NANCY SHOOTING AT VECNA UGH, SHE WAS SO BADASS

I CRIED SO MUCH WHEN MAX SAID SHE DIDN'T WANT TO DIE AND ALSO BACK WHEN SHE WAS IN THE SNOWBALL PART, HER CRIES WERE SO GENUINE, SADIE SINK DOING SUCH A GREAT JOB AGAIN

and now my thoughts on our beloved boy eddie's death

yeah i screamed and cried as twice as much, esp when dustin was holding him, like bro what, he can't die, i was saying it with dustin that he can't die and after that the disappointment, the unfairness set in, like steve got bit by a bat too but he lived, dont even get me started on max, IT'S SO UNFAIR, he had his MOMENT, IT WAS HIS YEAR, im just ugh really disappointed by his death, pretty numb about it, who knew one death could bring such a huge feeling of disappointment like the posts ive seen where brutal and really mad but i suppose they had the right since eddie had potential, him dying was unfair, it was just for shock value and it didn't really advance the plot unless they're using that for season five

the disappointment is really real, im really sad and beyond pained that it had to go that way, they're right eddie could've been kept around just like max and robin, we prayed for steve and robin too much, forgetting who we really should've prayed for but yeah im glad those two are alive, i feel really bad for his uncle though, his nephew missing, having his poster constantly vandalized then only told that he was dead ughh it's so unfair, i am in pain and i miss him already, i loved him like a child, he was amazing and fuckkk

RIP baby boy we will miss you

also i remember someone saying that if hopper and el reunite again and hopper says hey kid, they were going to lose it, i wonder how they're doing rn lmao

honestly im so happy that mike and hopper hugged, their relationship in season two was great but then forgotten and soiled at season three so yey

THAT ENDING THO WITH THE MUSIC AND SHIT, GOD I LOVE THAT

to be honest i really wish it ended with season four, idk this season felt like the end and for it to be succeeded feels wrong but all in all it was actually a great season finale, just eddie's death really did sour everyone's enjoyment, despite how i feel ill stick around because i love this show and am too attached to it, it's basically my comfort show

i have more to say regarding my favorite parts but i kinda forgot about them sorry, i watched the two in separate days

[ladystoneboobs]

incomplete list of girly girls often hated as spoiled, selfish brats but i love them and just wanna give them a hug, wrap ‘em in a blanket, and drink hot chocolate together

jackie taylor from yellowjackets

lyla garrity from friday night lights

sansa stark from asoiaf/early got

quinn fabray from glee

sam fraser from the netflix fear street trilogy (whose alleged selfishness is surviving and not trying to sacrifice herself until being pressured to do so)

ann walker from gentleman jack (people who watch it and for some reason don’t ship have such bad faith interpretations)

girly girl characters who fit the fandom hate criteria but with less of the broken bird in need of soothing and caretaking vibe

early seasons kelly taylor from bh90210 before the writers ruined her

beth harmon from the queen’s gambit (which you’d think wouldn’t apply bc the whole thing is about her but the hate is definitely there)

buffy summers from btvs (see above parentheses)

also cordelia from buffy tho, esp post-s1 (this is maybe less fandom as the narrative itself/joss whedon seeming to hate her)

nancy wheeler from stranger things

mary crawley from downton abbey

this is obviously not all the female characters i love or all those who get unfair hate, nor is it all the queen bee or soft femme types, but only those with hatebases. and then there are also those characters who could fit the category except i don’t care about them like julie taylor from fnl or marissa cooper from the oc.

[gayspock]

ds9 general thought dump hugs and kisses

i think ive hit a row of eps that im just not completely sold on! which is fine. but i also had to stop for a moment bc i just saw Second Sight which is perhaps... the first ep that i just outright dislike? HELP. like, i think there's been a lot of rough eps: some just need a bit more shine; some feel a bit too tng (esp with how formulaic tng can feel sometimes) to really work; and most feel like they're the show trying to find its footing tonally and whatnot and establish itself outside of tng.... BUT ive liked most things! take for example uhhhh!! move along home. i really didnt find that ep so interesting, but i did like how we saw more of quark. OR if wishes were horses... that also felt a bit filler-y, but i guess its kinda fun, even if its not totally to my taste fun? yeah?

but omg. i didnt find anything in Second Sight, remotely, to vibe with and so i guess that makes it like the first TRUE clunker for me even if as said theres been some rough ones.

BUT! IM SAYING THIS ALL with love in my heart bc like... okay im notgonna compare it tng properly bc i do think thats unfair. ds9 does have an advantage from the get, giving most of tng's worst years were when it had rlly bad bts issues so i dont think its fair to drag those up and pit them against each other. NONETHELESS. i do still think that ds9 is definitely... MORE to my liking? bc most of the rougher DS9 eps, i'd still prefer over a rougher TNG ep. if that makes any sense. along with a load of other things i do prefer with ds9. bc i feel like if i got to a rougher string of eps of tng i'd be screaming and crying and i'd ditch it for weeeeekssss.

(which? omg im not trying to drag tng, btw, just help... ik comparisons get made a lot. i think tng is just like. season 5 doctor who to me you know? i recognise that its good tv, and i even have fun watching it, and i'd even say hey! this is one of the better seasons of nuwho if we're talking objectively, and i GET why ppl love it a lot ... but when it comes to personal faves... i simply just dont vibe<3 that's what tng kinda is? which is strange omg. i think again i might just need to let it sit for a lot longer before i try to pick at it again bc i was stuck on it FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER and i think it just feels like my evil little shadow now help anyways off track)

and i think theres just a lot of other things i prefer with ds9. i think i had more to say but im struggling to put it into words zomg... i think i just really much prefer the level of plot. i'm absolutely ready and fine for it to get more plot heavy (which i presume it does?) but this is a very good base level for sth like this and i which tng was a bit more like this in that regard too. esp bc like... the uh? trilogy of eps that opened s2? I LIKED THOSE A LOT! like with tng, whenever they did a multi-part episode thing it always just kinda.... even when they were good, so many of them existed in a vacuum and whilst they worked a LOT of them would have just. benefited so much damn more if they didnt and they actually were playing off of pre-established situations and then would have consequences later on. not even BIG ones just... SOMETHING yknow? i actually felt myself way more engaged with the opening eps of s2 of ds9, even if it wasn't necessarily amazing and bombastic BUT YEAH. YKNOW.

also goodddasoifspdg I LOVE everyone so much btw like. sisko. nog. odo. kira. i feel are my favourites so far. literally any episode based on odo or kira somehow jsut.... IS a favourite. kira bc i feel like there's many concepts that are good to explore with her. odo bc idk there's just sth i love so much abt his character that feels like it salvages stuff- like, the ep dramatis personae is one i didnt rlly rate well, EXCEPT odo was rlly good in it which cinched it for me. and sisko and nog i just like. :o)

FLIPSIDE. I WILL SAY. quark i also do find entertaining as a character but funnily enough eps that centre him usually feel weaker to me. i think he works better as a secondary in my opinion. or maybe its just bc a lot of his eps have just been kinda week, conceptually? UNSURE. also- strangely it feels like he's had a lot of eps focussed on him? im not sure... why that feels like the case. i dont know if thats actually true if i go back and count but yeah. idk i LIKE being showed more of the ferengi from, like, their pov, and maybe if there is more of him thats why there is: bc yknow, we havent got much ferengi yet other than them just cropping up at random in tng. but idk. i think just quark as a character doesnt always carry an episode as a focal point and i think showing more moments of him being more genuine as, like, a supplement to other characters would be more... constructive? to building a character for him? idk idk idk im NOT. always the best with words you see omg

and oh! i think dax is maybe the one character im O_O at bc i feel like i could soooo love her and i AM obsessed with her concept so much SO SO much it kills me but idk? i feel like i dont always get enough of her and i WANT MORE to rlly latch onto her. please? pweaase? bc i feel like a lot of her-centric eps, too... they've been VERY much abt the symbiont but not always? in a way that actually centres HER narrative? and theyve been GOOD and interesting eps, so far- there was the court one in the first season, and the slightly weaker one this season were someone tried to steal dax, BUT in the first one everyone was talking for her and in the second she was like. literally out the whole ep. and theyre both interesting avenues to explore with the trills and i want those in the show but i do also rlly hope we see more of her personally soon! you kno?

one last thing i think i had on my mind... miles. help. i do like him! there's some moments where i do feel a little frustrated but i think its just? YOU KNOW, HE IS SOME GUY LIKE SERIOUSLY SOME GUY. and i do appreciate that because it does ground a lot of it. like he has a very genuine reaction to a lot of stuff and i think thats a necessary insight: a starfleet officer whos just some dude, and his opinions and reactions to the political stuff ... yknow thats worth something and important when you are trying to do some of these stories. that being said. i know- I KNOW this isnt so much a tumblr thing, but ive heard whisper of keiko being disliked a lot in other parts of the star trek fanbase and by GOD does that make me bristle a bit. bc NOW whenever i see scenes with her i can just feel ppl disliking her for some things that i know personally are justified as hell! BUT i cant stop thinking hypothetical ppl getting annoyed OMG. i need to clear my mind<3 recentre<3 but i'll defend that woman to the grave, damn it. like shes wonderful and sincere as hell. and there's some moments with miles- and i DO respect miles, bc i think its usually a realistic reaction from him- where im like OMG. PLEASE listen to keiko but anywaayys adfspdjsdpg

anyways end of all the little rambles in my brain. i think im gonna watch another ep and then sleep snnzzz.

[jack-antonoff]

get to know me tag

tagged by @njaems

tagging: anyone who wants to do it!

What day is your birthday? July 20th

What is your favorite color? Mint green, and pastel pink as a close second

What’s your lucky number? 24. Vietnamese students get assigned a number each year and mine typically was 24

Do you have any pets? A mixed hound pup named Ginny 

How tall are you? 158cm / 5′2 :(

How many pairs of shoes do you own? ~ 9-10 I think

Favorite song? I have too many but Such Great Heights by The Postal Service always make me feel so warm and fuzzy inside so maybe that song?

Favorite movie? Clueless. Emma is my favorite Austen book and both Clueless & Emma (2009) are my go-to comfort movie/ show (my url when I first became active on tumblr was knightley-woodhouse haha)

Who would be your ideal partner? Someone who I can banter well with 

Do you want children? I think I would like to adopt one someday? Pregnancy/ giving birth scares the shit out of me but I think I might wanna have children

Have you ever got into trouble with the law? Nope

Baths or showers? Showers. I just don’t have enough patient for a bath though ngl those bubble bath/ bath bombs do seem alluring

What color socks are you wearing? None

What type of music do you like? Well the 4 playlist that are divided by genres on my Spotify are: bubblegum bops, infectious indie, alternative anthems, and grungy gems. I also have a playlist called ethereal for dreampop/ shoegazey songs. I do have an rnb playlist but I’m still organizing that one so it’s not public yet

How many pillows do you sleep with? 2. One to lay my head on and one to hug

What position do you usually sleep in? On the side, hugging my pillow like a shrimp

What you don’t like when you’re sleeping? When sleeping with others it’s the sound of snoring. When sleeping alone it’s the sound of mosquitoes/ flies/ bees zooming around. So I guess just noise in general

What do you typically have for breakfast? When I stay with my mom she cooks traditional Vietnamese breakfast like noodles or rice. When I’m on my own during the school year it’s typically just toast/ cereal/ granola bar

Have you ever tried archery? Nope, it looks cool tho!

Favorite fruit? Vietnam has this fruit called sapodilla that is super delicious but I can’t find it here. I also like dragonfruits, watermelons, mangoes, cherries (Basically sweet fruits) 

Favorite swear word? Can’t go wrong with fuck. A classic. Fuck off and Get fucked are my go-to

Do you have any scars? Not anymore. I got run over by a motorbike in elementary school and got 3 scars on my stomach but they all faded now

Are you a good liar? Not really. But since I’m a bad liar I typically tell the truth, which ends up making ppl trust me during the rare times I lie :p

What is your personality type? Well I got a different ones everytime I do the quiz so I just ended up google what each letter stands for and sorted myself lol. I align myself with ISFJ the most

What is your favorite type of girls? Fictional? Emma Woodhouse/ Cher Horowitz along with Ai Haibara from Detective Conan are my favorite heroines of all time (Snarky bitches with heats of gold). Irl? Girls with great sense of humor

Are you an innie or an outie? Innie

Left or right handed? Right

Favorite food? Vietnamese, Japanese, and Korean food

Favorite foreign food? Sushi/ poke, Korean bbq and fried chicken (In fact I just had a Korean cheese fried chicken earlier lol), tacos (esp fish tacos)

Are you a clean or messy person? Messy in terms of organization but I can’t stand actual dirt/ sticky substance

Most used phrase? “Well I guess...” or “Yeah...”

How long does it take for you to get ready? 15 mins normally, 45 mins when I wanna be more dressed up

Do you talk to yourself? Yeah. She makes a lot of good points!

Do you sing to yourself? Yes

Are you a good singer? Nope, I can’t hold a tune to save my life

Biggest fear? I have severe flight anxiety and always imagine what if the plane crashes when I get on a flight. Otherwise just typical stuff like ghosts or getting murdered

Are you a gossip? Not really irl but I do enjoy lurking online drama from time to time. Highly recommend the subreddit r/hobbydrama I have wasted a lot of times reading things on there haha

Do you like long or short hair? I typically cut my hair to chin length, let it grow to around my boobs & then cut again

Favorite school subject? From K-12: English (as a foreign language when I was in VN), French (when I move here, but I already forgot most of my french by now rip), History, Literature. So typical social studies stuff. I also enjoy math from time to time

Extrovert or Introvert? Mostly introvert but going to concerts is one my favorite activities ever and I do enjoy being in the crowd during those times. Also HCMC/ Saigon population is like 9 million so even though I cherish my own space I am kinda used to crowded places in general

What makes you nervous? Flights as mentioned above, public speaking, confrontations

Who was your first real crush? That one kid in elementary school who I can’t remember the name of but was really good at drawing

How many piercings do you have? Just 2, one on each ear. I haven’t worn earrings in a while tho I hope they haven’t closed yet...

How fast can you run? I’m terribly out of shape so not very fast lol

What color is your hair? Black. Had I been able to fly back to VN this summer I think I would have dyed it to a brown-pink color (think Jisung during Boom, but maybe more brown)

What color are your eyes? Black (although I read that black irises technically don’t exist, it’s actually a very deep brown color instead)

What makes you angry? Lots of things but unfairness & hypocrisy in general

Do you like your own name? Yeah. I like that it’s unisex, short, and easy to spell/ pronounce for people of all backgrounds (although some still misspell it as Ming...). It also means bright/ light which I think is cool. I also like my full name as a whole, kinda long but pretty unique

Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? I think a girl but I’m open to both

What are your strengths? Straightforwardness and I’m pretty self-aware

What are your weaknesses? My lack of patience and my tendency to procrastinate lol

Color of your bedspread? Mint

Color of your room? White