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[stillfrownyclownlol]

I'm making Tyler x Logan propaganda but for now take another ship ask thingy whatever (shoots my fucking brains out) <3

This is also...long... 🫠

PRE-RELATIONSHIP

1. How did they first meet?

They knew *of* each other since elementary school, but they met officially when they got grouped together for the Savannah project.

2. What was their first impression of each other?

Tyler: Nerd. Wished he'd stop mumbling all the time, it pisses him of.

Logan: internal crying. Jocks are scary lahdhosjdjd- (thought he was handsome tho)

3. Did any of their friends/family want them to get together?

They had never thought about them like that haha. Logan pretty much periodically told the whole squad except Tyler 💀 so they were all like very subtly encouraging him. Taylor was VERY excited. Aiden would be SO obvious about it but luckily Tyler is kind of oblivious. Ash and Ben are just watching the whole thing go down.

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

Tyleeeeeer. Dork.

5. Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

You know they would 🤡 Whatever let me have my angsty gay pining leave me alone 😭

6. If you had told one of them the other would be their soul mate, what would they think?

Logan: He would combust into flames and melt into a pile of stuttering and blushing.

Tyler: he'd probably punch you.

7. What would their lives be like if they had never met?

No phantom dimension! Tyler would probably get a baseball scholarship to some nice uni and Logan would get a scholarship cuz he's super smart. I think they'd be alright but probably a lot more emotionally stunted

GENERAL

1. Who initiated the relationship, and how did it go?

Tyler because Logan Gen/ thought he was straight so he'd legit never brought it up. Ngl Logan prob got injured and Tyler was just ranting and confessed on accident hihi ❤️

2. Did they have an official first date? What was it like?

I think yes. I think Logan would ask him and they'd do smth very low pressure :) Go out to eat somewhere (not a fancy place) and then walk around the park or smth until night time, so Logan can geek out about the constellations. Normal friend stuff...but they both know it's a date so they're freaking out. Then Tyler holds his hand and- *slams my head into a wall*

3. What was their first kiss like?

Awkward. They bumped their foreheads together since they tried to do it at the same time. Tyler instigated it :)

4. Were they each other's first anything?

Logan: Tyler's first kiss (with a boy) and first relationship

Tyler: Logan's first kiss (In general) and first relationship

5. What's their height and age difference?

Tyler is 187 cm (he did not get those short boy genes lol) and Logan is 164 cm, so I think that's like, 9 inches? Tyler was born in August 2000 and Logan in December 2000, so only 4 months.

6. What's their relationship with each other's families? Do they share a friendgroup?

You know they share a friend group lmao.

Logan gets along very well with Marianna :) she thinks he's super sweet and he doesn't mind her eccentricity. Taylor loooooves having Logan as a "brother in law" ^_^

Tyler's relationship with James and Mary is...testy 💀 they don't mind the fact that he's dating a boy but they HAVE heard Logan venting about how insecure he is in the friendship because he thinks Tyler hated him. Tyler doesn't really appreciate being reminded of all that and the fact that they might antagonize him. They're working on it for Logans sake.

7. Who takes the lead in social situations?

Tyler usually, he's not afraid to call somebody out on their shit :) Logan is better at mediating tho.

8. Who gets jealous easier?

Logan is more insecure than jealous. Tyler is just normal jealous 🤡 he's a little itty bitty bit possessive...👍🏽

9. Who whispers unsuitable things in the others ear?

Technically Tyler does, but not like, on purpose. They might just be out somewhere and some guy will be being mildly irritating or whatever and Tyler will mutter "this fucking clown" to Logan. Logan is always "!!! Ty!" Lmao

LOVE

1. Who said "I love you" first?

Logan! He definitely cried while saying it too haha. I think Tyler would say it back...after kissing him mwah mwah.

2. What are their primary love languages?

For Tyler absolutely acts of service. It's what he's used to haha. Likes to cook for Logan and help him around the shop (while James and Mary are watching him like a hawk) :) Receiving, tbh, he just likes when Logan wants to spend quality time with him.

Logan...also acts of service; for a long time he valued himself on how useful he was to somebody and its still how he evaluates his relationships. He helps Tyler with homework he doesn't understand, helps him with chores around the house, etc. He really appreciates words of affirmation, makes him feel more secure ^_^

3. Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

In the beginning it was Logan, he bought a book and everything 🤡 he always fumbles the delivery tho help him. After a while Tyler says them cuz he likes messing with Logan and watching him get flustered lol.

4. How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

It is 2016 in Georgia, they don't engage in any PDA 🤡 as if Logan needed another reason to get harassed. They like cuddling in the privacy of their houses tho, but just the standard amount ^_^

5. Who initiates kisses?

Tyler will generally ask Logan to kiss him, since he's a little awkward about initiating.

6. Who's the big and little spoon?

Tyler is pretty protective so he likes being the big spoon, but if Logan asks he's also fine with that. He likes rubbing Ty's stomach due to the injury he got there U_U

7. What are their favorite things to do together?

Logan: STARGAZINGGGG. Nothing makes him happier than infodumping :D Ty likes listening to him anyways so. He also likes going to Tyler's games cuz, you know, he wanna be supportive and all that. Plus he thinks he looks sooooo cool while playing.

Tyler: Something chill, he's like, consistently tired lmao. He just likes spending time with him, he doesn't mind if they're just laying down studying or listening to music, or just talking to each other.

8. Who's better at comforting the other?

Tyler is, surprisingly. When Tyler is upset he's just generally mad and needs to cool off alone, plus Logan isn't really good around people who are angry haha ":). When Logan's upset he tends to be more teary eyed, so Tyler just hugging him and reminding him to breathe is enough.

9. Who is more protective?

Tyler 🤡 I don't think I need to elaborate aldhoshd

10. Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

Tyler: physical because verbal affection flusters him a lot.

Logan: verbal because physical affection flusters him a lot.

....Help them, lol

11. What are some songs that apply to their relationship?

*Points to Red's Spotify playlist*

(This doesn't really make sense but Campus by Vampire Weekend reminds me of them by proxy because I was listening to it while I drew them lmao)

12. What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

Logan: Will usually call him Ty. "Babe" if he's up to it haha. When they're older he probably calls him the usual ones like honey or sweetie :)

Tyler: probably something real cringy considering that carrot-top nickname he gave Ash. I mentioned Starboy and Cielo before. I think he'd call him "Bizcochito" (porque le quiere comer a besos jajajajaj)

13. Who remembers the little things?

They're both very detail oriented so they remember all those things.

DOMESTIC LIFE

1. If they get married, who proposes?

Since gay marriage was legalized in June 2015, for most of his life Logan pretty much never thought he would be able to get married. So he proposed to Tyler. Was crying profusely the whole time and dropped his cards haha.

2. What's the wedding like?

They couldn't find a church that would bless their marriage even tho Mary and James had asked for it. So they just got married at city hall. BUT they did have a super big after party with all of Tyler's extended family >:) Logan has no idea what "gringo" means but he's not thinking about it too much.

3. How many kids do they have, if any?

It was really fucking hard to adopt one :") one girl because I said so and this is my list

4. Do they have any pets?

They have a few cats because for a long time they couldn't adopt any kids. It's good for Logan's enrichment, even though the cats don't really like Tyler lol

5. Who's the stricter parent?

Tyler loses his temper easier, but he's also way more likely to indulge their daughter so like, he is stricter, but he's not very consistent about it lmao. Logan is better at disciplining Tho.

6. Who worries the most?

They're both worrywarts kkkkk Tyler a little more tho, it's the ✨️anxiety✨️ kicking in.

7. Who kills the bugs in the house?

Tyler will scream if he sees a bug so 🤡 Logan is very used to bugs because there's usually a few in the plants, so he'll catch them and throw them outside.

8. How do they celebrate the holidays?

Tyler isn't really big on holidays, but he'll help Logan put up decorations and stuff if he wants to. They generally go visit their family and friends U_U

Tyler does celebrate Día de Los Muertos as an adult tho, he spends most of the day at his dad's ofrenda. Logan is there for moral support, and they'll call Taylor and Marianna if they can't come over for any reason.

9. Who's more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

Tyler's naturally an early bird and Logans a night owl, so Logan will pull him back into bed haha.

10. Who's the better cook?

Tyler's the better cook and Logan's the better baker.

11. Who likes to dance?

Tyler! He's a bit reluctant to admit it tho, but he's a good dancer and he loves pulling Logan by surprise to dance bachata or cumbia hihi

[polyhexian]

I love Gus and hunters friendship so much. Like Gus is pretty mature for his age, I'm sure because of skipping two grades and trying to keep up with his peers and having a single parent with a busy job, and hunter is obvious socially and emotionally stunted by his extremely isolated cult like childhood so both of them have had their own weird maturity traumas that leave them with weird difficulties matching exactly how they're "supposed" to be, which is why I think they both immediately connect on that basis of trauma and anxiety difficulty connecting with others. And so they're both weird fucking little nerds with each other geeking out about sci Fi and cosplay and everything. Little secret handshake god they're so sweet. hunter has terminal big brother disorder and it is most powerful with Gus, he is so protective of Gus, he would absolutely kill for him. At the same time theres this... Interesting character trait with Gus where despite the fact he's 3-4 years younger than hunter I think his more forced maturity trauma has him ALSO feeling weirdly protective of hunter sometimes. I think about that scene where he says "you've been smiling a lot lately" and "it's good to see you happy." And even the first couple interactions they have, giving him food and advice and then walking him through a panic attack. What a funny little dynamic they have. They're both good boys with their own weird issues meeting in the middle to be normal! To feel normal at least. And then cosplay star trek characters and yell beam us up at camila two minutes after nearly dying

[tsukkishinata]

I made this blog so I can rant about things without embarrassing myself, so here’s my ranking of the first year duos (not including Yachi sorry sweetie)

1) Tsukishima & Hinata

Obviously this is a tsukihina blog so I enjoy them as a ship, but even if I’m not looking at it romantically, those two are a lot of fun together. (See Miyagi Camp) We have sun and moon dynamics, the super hyped and energetic passionate heart versus the quiet thinker. I also call it the SquidBob dynamics lol. Also the fact that they are literally opposites physically, but are super jealous of each other. (*clenches fist* the way Tsukishima is always thinking about Hinata) 

2) Hinata & Yamaguchi

They’re not a common duo because both parties have their respective partners already but out of the other 3 first years, Yamaguchi is the least offensive one to Hinata. (Not including when S1 Guch would laugh at Tsuki’s mean comments.) Anyway, theyre a good bunch of boys who are teammates and friends and know how to not be at each others throats. Just seeing them go around during slow times in Nationals was cute and lots of fun.

3) Kageyama & Yamaguchi

Not saying this as a KageGuchi shipper but the fact that they don’t interact nearly as much (I’m anime mostly, I know About That but I’m not going to talk about it) as the other first years makes me want to see more of them. The fact that Yamaguchi (though not out right) isn’t afraid of Kageyama (doesn’t put a suffix on him, is casual enough to push him off the court when he had a nosebleed) while Kageyama doesn’t hold any animosity towards Guch, despite being attached to Tsuki’s hip.

4) Hinata & Kageyama

The fact that they are the prominent duo makes me not need to think about them since I’m over exposed to them in canon. They are funny though and I’m still not sure why I never jumped aboard them as a ship (I can point out a few reasons but we dont have to get into that) but I acknowledge that they are probably each other’s best partner on the court. Work husbands, as I like to say. (I also know about certain future teams, lets not get into that)

I mainly prefer these two from S2 and up, I think, because Hinata seems less afraid of Kageyama.

5) Tsukishima & Yamaguchi

Not a huge fan of childhood friend dynamics. (Even less when its turned romantic.) Yamaguchi, even though he’s learned to stand on his own in court, still feels very Tsuki orbiting to me. His initial appearance was supposed to be Tsukki’s lackey and yes he does mellow out and get his own growth, but even then he’s still stuck on Tsuki’s hip. (I don’t like how every time Guchi gets on the court, there’s always a scene that makes it looks like he’s doing it for Tsuki.)

I do like when Tsuki does acknowledge their friendship (When did you become so cool) but it makes me a little sad that he doesn’t do it as often and still calls him Yamaguchi (vs “Tsukki” and how close his is to Akiteru that he’s Tadashi)

6) Kageyama & Tsukishima

Theyre the lowest on my list despite both characters being my top favs (4 and 1 respectively) Their dynamics are just too... hostile for me. I compare it to the ZoSans/HijiGins/ImaNarus, the ones where theyre always butting heads but secretly and would never in front of the others’ face let them know that they actually respect each other. They’re just a little too snarky for me, and both pretty socially/emotionally stunted to have a nice pleasant moment.

[lemony-snickers]

Day 9:  (4) Calling Birds The Cat and the Hound (A03 Link Here)

this one is for an artist whose beautiful watercolors and meta analysis never fail to light up my day & my dash.  i am not going to tag him only because we’ve hardly ever interacted and i’m not sure how he’d feel about some rando linking him to a smut blog without warning, lol.  but i’m sure you all know who i’m talking about because how could you not also be an admirer of his work?

Summary:  Cat sits.  He waits.  He listens. Pairing:  None (Kakashi & Tenzo friendship bonds ftw) Word Count:  725 (hooray, a short one today!) Warnings:  none! .

Tenzo sat with his legs crossed, elbows balanced on his knees and masked face set atop his fists.

He sighed.

It wasn’t as though he wasn’t used to surveillance.  He’d been trained his whole life to sit in the shadows, to blend into his surroundings for hours and days at a time.

But that did not diminish the monotony of it.  Days of waiting on a tree branch without relief—no human interaction, no real food other than soldier pills—was lonely and cold and dull.

Coo-coocoo-coo.

Tenzo lifted his head, turning toward the source of the bird call; a location he could not see in the darkness of evening some fifty meters away where his Commander sat, likely just as unimpressed by their predicament.

It was a status check, asking if Tenzo had any updates from his position.

The young ANBU moved the Cat mask from his face, using it to brush his long brown hair out of his eyes as he cupped his gloved hands over his mouth and responded.

Keroo-keroo.

All quiet.

The pair had been assigned to a known location for several missing nin who had banded together. Mostly defectors from Kiri and Suna, responsible for a rash of robberies along a few prominent trade routes in the area. The hideout, as far as they could tell, had two main entrances and each man was posted someplace with a good view of one of them.

For Tenzo, that meant a tall, gnarled pine tree sticky with sap and dropping cones on his head when he tried to nap.  For Kakashi, it meant being wedged between two boulders in a craggy outcropping half-obscured by more of the dark conifers.

Caw-coco.

Tenzo snickered quietly.

The calls themselves shouldn’t have been funny; bō and circle.

But from the way Kakashi had drawn out the first caw, Tenzo knew the older man was not facing down a deadly ring of wooden staff-wielding thugs, but rather that he was making his feelings on their assignment known.

Booooring.

Tenzo’s response was quick.

Kuroow!

And as Cat slipped his mask back over his face, knowing Kakashi would not continue to engage in conversation for fear of drawing attention, he hoped his senpai would understand his meaning by using the directional call for right.

I agree.

Tenzo returned his attention to the mouth of the cave he’d been watching for four days and hoped he would soon be able to leave this mission behind, another memory he’d never need to revisit once the reports had been filed.

His thoughts drifted to the silver-haired man wearing a Hound mask fifty meters southwest of him, as they often did these days.

Tenzo had read Kakashi Hatake’s file, of course.  Mother dead, father killed by his own hand, friends killed in action, sensei lost against the Nine-Tailed Fox.  And Tenzo thought it would be easy for a man like that to be every ounce the cold-blooded killer many of his peers made him out to be.

But a man who had truly earned the title of Friend Killer wouldn’t make his subordinate laugh during a long stakeout using bird calls, would he?

Kakashi was often like that, cracking strange jokes.  Welcoming Tenzo into the locker room after he’d introduced himself using the false name bestowed upon him by the Foundation.

There was a kindness to his Senpai, a lightness dancing somewhere within the shadows that Tenzo had never seen in any of his other Commanders; that he did not see in most of the other ANBU Captains, even.

He was still trying to figure out how all the light and darkness fit inside the man who was slowly turning from soldier to savior to comrade to friend.  The more distance Tenzo put between himself and Danzo Shimura and ROOT, the closer he felt to Kakashi.

He hoped that might continue.

Scree-scree.

Movement.

Tenzo’s shoulders tensed and he stood, balanced precariously on the branch he’d been stationed on for seemingly endless hours.  He stretched his neck from left to right, listening to the soft popping of the tendons as he loosened himself for the coming fight.  Pulling his tanto from its sheath, he took off into the night, toward his senpai.  Toward his friend.

He didn’t need to respond with a bird call this time, he knew his Senpai would be expecting him.

[vannahfanfics]

Hiya! Could I get a Todobaku headcanons on how they came to be? I love the enemies/rivals/idiots to lovers! Lol

Yes, of course! <3 Idiots to lovers and rivals to lovers are definitely some of my favorite vibes... Love it when they’re combined~ I think there’s several ways these two could get together, but here’s a scenario that popped into my mind first <3

TodoBaku Confession Headcanons

The two most emotionally stunted boys on the planet trying to realize they’ve got feelings for one another? It’s a performance worthy of the big screen. In fact, their classmates have camped out with a bucket of popcorn more than once to watch these two poor confused souls try to navigate the unspoken thing between them. But they do come to realize it, even if it’s simultaneously painful and inspiring to witness. Yes, Ochako cried when it was finally all in the open. She’d been so invested. 

As Shoto began to come more and more out of his shell, he began to feel like he’d missed out on many years of having real friendships. So, he started making a concerted effort to hang out with all his classmates, Katsuki included. He wanted to find things he could use to bond with everyone; with Katsuki, this was cooking. 

Of course, Shoto’s not sly. He didn’t orchestrate little ways to trick Katsuki into cooking with him. He’s too blunt and a little socially inept for that. So he just went straight to him and asked him to teach him how to cook. 

He was able to sprinkle a little bit of truth into his chosen excuse as to why he wanted Katsuki to teach him how to cook. Shoto wanted to learn so he could help Fuyumi, who took on a lot for herself whenever she cooked for their family (which was gathering together more and more often these days). Combined with a little flattery—telling Katsuki that he was the best cook he knew in the dorm—it was enough for Katsuki to begrudgingly relent. 

“I’d rather teach you than have to suffer seeing you waste good ingredients fucking up,” he’d huffed to Shoto as he marched purposefully down to the kitchen. Given his sub-par performance on previous attempts at helping to cook, Shoto couldn’t exactly blame him. That didn’t stop him from “accidentally” whisking some eggs in Katsuki’s face, though. 

A few food fights and almost-fires later, though, Katsuki and Shoto fell into a regular routine of cooking together. Sometimes other members of the dorm would join in; other times, they were alone. Shoto liked it more when they were alone because Katsuki was calmer; a crowded kitchen stressed him out. With room to maneuver, he’d take the time to correct Shoto’s technique. It had amazed Shoto, how the rough and unrefined Katsuki could transform into someone who could be so delicate in his movements—chopping, mincing, mixing. When he was relaxed, that is. Add a few more people in the mix, and usually, more stuff ended up on the counters, floors, and walls than in the actual food. 

But also, he was more prone to praise. He didn’t really acknowledge Shoto’s efforts when other people were there beyond a grunt of approval or a gruff “It’ll do.” But when they were alone? He’d smirk—a different smirk, with something hidden in the edges that Shoto couldn’t quite tell—and softly tell him that he did a good job. The first time that Katsuki had said that Shoto had come a long way, Shoto had dropped the glass dish containing their latest meal and sent it splattering all over the floor. Katsuki didn’t get angry. He just laughed, really hard, to the point of tears. And Shoto had gotten a funny feeling in his chest. But he rather liked it, strange as it was. 

They did it so often that it came to a point where they’d just suddenly bust into one another’s rooms declaring they’d found a recipe they wanted to try cooking. Shoto made it a point to actively engage in everyone’s hobbies to keep developing their friendships, but when he was honest to himself, he realized that he looked forward to cooking with Katsuki, and every afternoon, he found himself hoping the blond would come traipsing into his room demanded he get his ass to the kitchen to start cooking whatever new thing that had caught his eye. He even more looked forward to the days Katsuki came with him to his family’s house, and they would all cook together. Because on those days, Katsuki smiled a lot, more than Shoto had ever seen. 

It was Ochako who’d pointed out to Shoto that it seemed Katsuki had begun choosing recipes that suited Shoto’s tastes. Katsuki denied it, of course, accusing Shoto of being “basic” and liking things that just happened to be staples. And though Shoto was a little inexperienced when it came to emotions and things, there was no denying the bright pink blush coloring Katsuki’s cheeks as he grumbled it. Or the way he started to skitter away from Shoto when they accidentally brushed hands or arms while maneuvering around the kitchen. Or the way Katsuki had nearly fainted when Natsuo had joked about he and Shoto being a married couple. 

But Shoto wasn’t quite sure, so he went to the one person who knew Katsuki best—Izuku. “Of all the people in this dorm, the only cooking he’s ever praised has been yours,” he’d smiled to Shoto. Though it was vague, it told Shoto everything he’d needed to know. 

Shoto had learned a lot over the past year, interacting with everyone and growing his friendships, but he still wasn’t savvy enough to lay a trap to get Katsuki to confess. So he just did what worked the first time. He walked straight into Katsuki’s room, told him that he liked him, and asked if Katsuki liked him too. It was honestly a little adorable, seeing Katsuki turn beet-red and splutter for a second. 

Katsuki had quickly recovered, though his face was still a deep pink when he looked Shoto in the eyes and snorted, “Of course I do, dumbass. I had taught you all the basics of cooking six months ago. I kept hanging out with you because I didn’t want it to stop.” 

Neither of them were used to handling such strong emotions, so they’d both clammed up at that point, blushing fiercely and unable to meet each other’s eyes. Katsuki had been the first to move; he got up and marched stiffly over to Shoto. However, when he took his hand, it was gentle. 

“What’s that look for, dumbass?” Katsuki huffed when Shoto looked at him with wide eyes, but his voice was laced with affection. “I told you about the new recipe I wanted to try yesterday, didn’t I? Let’s get going. Shit ain’t gonna cook itself.” 

It was hard to cook while holding hands, but they made it work. They stopped cooking as often after that... but only because they started spending that time going on dates instead. 

[mxgilray]

I... have some thoughts on the Loki finale. It was not what I was expecting, but I'm still hopeful for season 2.

This felt like a meh finale, like how a lot of season finales felt in Spring 2020 when they unexpectedly quit filming and had to cut things short by a couple episodes thanks to the pandemic. Only this was the planned out finale, they should've given a bit more oomph. I'm quite a fan of exposition and character development usually, but all the dialog was centered on He Who Remains, so it felt like our main characters were just side pieces.

Plus, the final "cliffhanger" of Mobius not knowing Loki and the statue of HWR replacing the Time Keeper statues felt quite lackluster. Not sure how they could've made it hit harder, but it didn't deliver the "oh shit" vibes they intended, but maybe that's cuz Mobius not remembering Loki has been an expected plot line on tumblr for half the season so it wasn't a blindside.

I get the point of the Sylki kiss. From what I've seen on tumblr so far I feel like the nuance of Sylvies actions was lost to most people (both Sylki fans and antis just Didn't Get It). It wasn't a big declaration of love like the fans are grasping onto it as, and it wasn't shoving selfcest into the canon to keep the heternormativity like antis are accusing it of being; it was Sylvie using Loki's attachment to her to trick him. She needed Loki out of her way, and she knew the only way to get past him and get He Who Remains' tempad was through emotional distraction. She used his love against him and betrayed him, a kiss was simply the most efficient way to do it. I did a whole post last week about Sylvie's feelings towards Loki, but to sum up I firmly believe that while Loki harbors some romantic feelings for Sylvie, she feels strictly platonic towards him, but is very aware of his attraction. She took advantage of his care for her to get the upper hand during their fight. Heck she even foreshadowed it herself in ep 5. "There are more important things than friends" "like taking down the TVA" she told Loki that taking down whoever is behind the TVA comes before everything; it's priority #1 in her book, above friendship or love or trust. Loki proved that his priority now is the greater good of the universe not her revenge, so Sylvie has no use for him anymore (partners only when it's convenient, because she is a Loki and that's how emotionally stunted Lokis behave).

I would like to point out the irony of her being worried about Loki betraying her, only to turn around and betray him. It's in the realm of "people who cheat assuming their partner is cheating" / "not using a turn signal when changing planes to avoid being cut off because when you see someone else use their signal you tend to cut them off", it's assuming other people will behave like you do. Sylvie feared in ep 5 that Loki would betray her in the end because she knew if it came down to it she'd betray him. But the thing is, he's actually grown past that. Loki is finally thinking about how his actions can damage others, not just his own wants and needs. Sylvie saw this moral change in Loki, realized there was no chance of getting him back on the blind revenge boat, and decided to exploit his newfound selflessness and emotional attachment to get him out of her path.

This whole season Loki has been maturing emotionally and growing into the best, most heroic version of himself. Sylvie, on the other hand, still has that deceptive, selfish, can't trust anyone persona that every Loki develops to combat insecurity. She hasn't had the emotional growth needed to see the bigger picture, she's still trapped in her own self centered mindset. As such, she disregards the impact her betrayal will have on Loki, the impact killing HWR will have on the universe. She doesn't even take a beat to consider whether revenge is still the right path cuz she doesn't practice self reflection yet; revenge has always been the goal and she refuses to give herself a chance of changing her mind. I hope in season 2 she'll get some character growth, now that her 1 goal has been accomplished.

Now on to Mobius. I enjoyed his scenes, I wish we'd been shown more of what he did to reveal the truth to the rest of the TVA. Again, I feel like too much time was given to HWR's monologing and not enough was spent on the other characters so Mobius and B-15 got very little screen time to display their plan. I am happy Mobius got the opportunity to throw Ranslayers betrayal back in her face, and his attemp at attacking her...my boy you work a desk job you ain't no fighter, she used to work in the field collecting variants, you had no chance. Also, where the F did she go??? I kept expecting her to show up at the end of time but she didn't. Where did Miss Minutes send her??

I'm sad Mobius doesn't know Loki anymore, but I can't say I'm surprised. I've got a few different thoughts on what the heck is going on with him and the TVA:

Sylvie accidentally sent Loki way back to a time early on in the TVA before HWR created the Time Keepers for anonymity. As such, this is a past Mobius who has yet to meet Loki or even learn of Loki's existence. If this is the case, then I think Loki and Past!Mobius's interaction at the end of ep 6 will be the catalyst for him becoming a Loki expert. The 63 branching timelines Mobius and B-15 are discussing before Loki interrupts are from some currently unknown disaster that'll be a plot line in s2. (This is my least favorite theory, but nevertheless a possibility)

HWR was correct when he said that if Sylvie kills him and destroys the TVA then another variant of him will just start it all up again. This variant didn't care to remain anonymous, hence the big statue of him, but kept all the memory wiped variants working there. Because time is a chaotic bitch, the changeover from one HWR variant to another may have been near seamless at the TVA and just involved a quick memory wipe of anything relating to the Time Keepers, Loki and Sylvie, or knowledge that the TVA are all variants. The 63 branches may be thanks to something Renslayer is doing like killing all the HWR variants in existence in order to negate the need for the TVA. The branching could also be from Sylvie's revenge still, we have no idea how much time has passed between her killing HWR and a new HWR taking over so the branching she caused could still be an issue.

There have actually been multiple TVAs running simultaneously, each in their own multiverse. Each one employs memory wiped variants, each one is in charge of a certain subset of timelines, and all work under the one HWR. Sylvie used HWR's tempad to eject Loki back to the TVA, but she accidentally sent him to the TVA of a different multiverse not realizing that's a Thing. The 63 branching timelines Mobius and B-15 are discussing are indeed from Sylvie killing HWR, but there's only 63 as opposed to the countless we saw diverging from Sylvie's perspective because this TVA only sees branches on timelines within their own multiverse. Mobius doesn't know Loki because he isn't our Mobius and in the multiverse he works in maybe Loki's aren't as much of an issue because none of them ever escaped the TVA like Sylvie did (or none of them have Tom's face so he doesn't recognize him as a Loki). If this is the case, then Loki is gonna have to find his way back to his own multiverse in order to be reunited with his Mobius, and that could end up happening thanks to Renslayer. Miss Minutes gave her a file that I suspect only HWR should have access to. Maybe it was tempad coordinates for other multiverses? It took til the 31st century for the multiverses to be connected despite Tony figuring out time travel in the 21st century because travel between universes is much harder, maybe HWR is still the only one who knows how to do that. (If this theory is correct then all the time travel done during Endgame was through timelines within one multiverse) Also just thought of this but what if the reason there are so many extreme variations of loki that grew to adulthood is because the criteria of "sacred timeline" is different in each multiverse. Classic Loki and maybe President Loki and Kid Loki are from the same universe as MCU Loki, but red haired Loki, Croki, Boastful Loki, etc are all from other universes. Think about it, Classic Loki, 2012 Loki, and MCU Loki all have an exact identical path up until their nexus event (or death in MCU Loki's case). I think other than identifying as female, Sylvie's childhood was identical as well and that her nexus event was coming to terms with her adoption as a child, which erased the catalyst of 2011 Thor's plot and would've changed everything for her future path. Had her adoption remained a secret and she grew up on asgard, I believe her story would mirror MCU Loki's. It mildly hit me weird that there would be such wild variation amongst Lokis, even with him being a shapeshifter, because there's a rigid sacred timeline (that supposedly the MCU movies have all adhered to) and they all felt like too big of a divergence to have been left unchecked so long. If boastful Loki was telling the truth about getting all 6 infinity stones then he should've triggered a nexus event as soon as he got more than the 3 he is "supposed to" interact with, unless in his multiverse the sacred timeline criteria is different. Another theory: the agents employed in each TVA are from multiverses other than the one they're working in. It would make sense, keep them from running into their own past by fully detaching each agent from their home timeline/universe. So the Principal!Renslayer that B-15 found will never in any future become the TVA judge we know. The one we know maybe came from the universe Loki got sent to, and that's how the two of them will end up crossing paths again.

[fanfoolishness]

Interview with a Fic Writer

Tagged by @novantinuum, thank you!

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How many works do you have on AO3?

242 works. The actual fuck??? Wow, me. Of course, this does span about 9 years, so I guess that's not that insane?

What’s your total word count on AO3

549,737! But that averages out to only 2271 words per story, haha. You got me! I think I have less than 10 fics that have more than 1 chapter. I love one-shots, what can I say?

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Oh, you want to get into this? All right. We'll get into this:

The X-Files, proto-fandom, ur-fandom, first OTP ever... yeah, 15-year-old me went. WILD. Many horrible Mulder/Scully stories, and some Doggett/Scully and character study stories as well. Mostly not very good, but with occasional flashes of decent writing. Really had a difficult time writing romantic feelings between 30+ year-olds given a) I did not date in high school and b) was 17 and not an emotionally stunted FBI agent.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer - not a huge volume of stories, but definitely some very angsty Spuffy and Spike tales.

Harry Potter - just one published fic (Lupin grieving Sirius), and one with Snape and Harry having a heart to heart I could never quite get right.

Then came the dark times (vet school) where I was exhausted and hard at work for a few years and I thought, horribly, I might have outgrown fandom. Thank god for...

X-Men First Class and the undying love of Charles Xavier and Erik Lensherr! I'd never fallen for a slash ship before but my god I fell hard for this one and wrote my first fandom smut and my first real AU (mutants with zombies) that I never finished.

Then.... let's see...

Quantum Leap drabbles!

Two Avatar the Last Airbender fics!

Agents of SHIELD fics, mostly focused on Coulson and FitzSimmons, and super angsty.

Bioshock Infinite sads (god I love writing the sad bad dad)!

And then the juggernauts of Mass Effect (my longest fic to date with 30 chapters!) and Dragon Age, which were endlessly productive and are still productive given the variety of different protagonists you can create, different choices, and different relationships to canon characters. I'm still working on a Hawke/Varric fic in the back of my mind here.

There's one random Gravity Falls fic (wish I could have got a little more obsessed with it, or gotten into it while it aired) of Stan sads, and one tiny Avengers ficlet of a sad Tony and Peter.

There's one Wheel of Time fic! Dammit I wanted Rand and Tam to reunite so much sooner than they did.

40-odd Steven Universe fics! So many SU fics!

One random Schitt's Creek fic of David and Patrick!

And finally, The Mandalorian, with 47 fics. Phew!!!

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. The Invitation, The Mandalorian. Din Djarin finds himself in dreams that seem realer than real, reminding him of his loss, but he begins to find a sense of hope again. A promise is kept.

2. The Outstretched Hand, The Mandalorian. Din Djarin is a man of action, but sometimes, the quiet finds its way in. Din reckons with the aftermath of the events of Chapter 14, the Tragedy. (My very first Mando fic!)

3. Not the Sentimental Type, Steven Universe. Priyanka Maheswaran has long prided herself on keeping her emotions in check. But a mother's love can only grow, and sometimes it expands to people she never anticipated. Like the Universe boy.

4. Translation, The Mandalorian. Din Djarin was a man of few words, but many languages. Some might have thought the Child had no language at all. Din Djarin and the Child grow to understand each other.

5. Full Disclosure, Steven Universe. Just as the world begins to recover from Spinel's attack, Steven starts having nightmares. The more he ignores his fears, the worse they become, until he's left with no other choice but to ask for help. (My thoughts on what would drive Steven Universe Future, and I wasn't far off.)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I really try to! Even sometimes years later if I realize I've missed some. I appreciate each and every one, and have definitely made friendships through comments <3

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh, hell... I'm too lazy to link these but if anyone wants to read them let me know or find them on my AO3!

A Stopped Clock from Bioshock Infinite has Booker DeWitt ravaged by Korsakoff's amnesia from his long-standing alcoholism. Is Columbia real or imagined? Hard to say.

The Viscount's Way shows Varric Tethras having become his parent, and a cruel, hard viscount of Kirkwall.

Songs in the Key of Red shows how Cullen fared under the dark future in Redcliffe in DAI, and they write happy endings, don't they? shows what happened to Varric. Both horribly depressing in different ways!

Two by Two, Hands of Blue shows a not unexpected end to lyrium addiction :( Poor Cullen, he got a lot of angsty developments, didn't he?

Do you write crossovers? If so, what’s the craziest thing you’ve ever written?

Never really got into crossovers or AUs. Just... meh for me!

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

No, I don't think so.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Charles/Erik, Shepard/Garrus, Shepard/Liara, Shepard/Tali, a mess of different f/f femShep drabbles, and most of my Dragon Age pairings have gotten sexytimes. On the other hand I helped start the NoRomo Mando tag for the Mandalorian to help find non-pairing Mandalorian content. Depends on the pairing and the fandom, for sure.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope, thank goodness!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I think so! There used to be a Spanish-language wiki linking to some of my old X-Files stories XD

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but friends and I definitely will beta each others' things to help with sticky points.

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

ALL-TIME? Just, why? So many ships I loved in years past turned out to have pretty damn problematic elements I didn't see at the time, so it's hard to say... Mulder/Scully actually has a ton of issues, Buffy/Spike obviously has issues... so maybe Hawke/Varric (except not canon!) or Garrus/Shepard or Brosca/Alistair.

What’s a WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Still need to finish my Hawke/Varric fic for after Adamant! I have 3 chapters written that I haven't posted. Maybe posting them will help inspire me....

What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and POV writing from different characters; I feel fantastic writing Steven and Greg, though totally at sea trying to write from Connie's POV, randomly. But I think my dialogue and emotional beats are what people tend to tune in for. When I do write romance, it's usually very sweet and silly and pulled from life. I also love writing nature scenes and settings to help establish mood. Mood and emotion and catharsis are my bread and butter, and I like my poetic prose.

What are your writing weaknesses?

What the hell is a long, well-thought-out plot? Like what even is that???? My longest fic with 30 chapters is basically "Shepard has PTSD and hangs out with her crew. They have some funerals." THAT'S IT. How the heck people actually come up with plot that ties into the lore of a fandom I genuinely have no idea and it's the biggest thing that's held me back from finishing original work. I can come up with a setting and characters and then trying to make them do stuff that's more than just talking to other characters and deepening their relationships with them... how the fuck???

I also definitely have 10-20 words that I am in constant danger of reusing like every other paragraph, LOL!

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I don't speak any other languages so I always avoid it as much as possible. I've seen people describe sign differently in fics and picked one way to depict it that made sense to me for Grogu, but that's about it.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

The X-Files, of course!

What’s your favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Towards Another Day, the tale of how Cullen went from being a templar in Kirkwall to commander of the Inquisition, is definitely up there.

Reverberations is one of my rare multi-chaptered fics and one of my favorite for the catharsis at the end. It makes me tear up every time. 5 times Din and Grogu encounter the Dark Side, and one time they find the Light.

Either a world for the birds (Steven develops a closer relationship with his Uncle Andy, learning birdwatching along the way) or on the subject of rocks (Steven and Jasper finally reach a peace) might take the prize for favorite SU fic.

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Tagging (if you’re super bored and would like a fun thing to do) fellow writers:

@lastwordbeforetheend, @runrundoyourstuff, @honestlyhufflepuff, @art3mys, and @fake-starwars-fan if you would like to play!

[deckerswheeler]

why you shouldn’t ship mileven

**disclaimer** im not gonna be using byler proof or mike’s bi coding as proof against mileven because they are both technically not canon. im only gonna be using canon facts and my opinions on canon situations :)

1. mike is projecting his feelings onto el- in season one, mike is hurt and missing his best friend- will. he is also scared that he may never see will again. because of this, when he meets eleven, he projects those feelings onto her, making her a potential “replacement” for will if turned out to be dead. he is mentally preparing himself for the worst by already building a new friendship with someone else. not to mention, el looks like a boy in the beginning of season one, so it is easier for mike to project those feelings towards will onto her. (again, i’m not referring to byler in a romantic way here, i am solely talking about their friendship). 

2. el attaches herself to anyone who shows her compassion- el has been abused and treated as a science experiment her whole childhood. she doesn’t know what real love feels like, so obviously she is going to emotionally attach herself to anyone who shows a slight interest in her or any type of kindness or platonic love. this can be seen through brenner in season one. despite him being her primary abuser, she still believes that he loves her and she therefore loves him. this can also be seen with terry, when el visits her in the void, she immediately gets attached to her despite not knowing for sure if terry even is her biological mother. as soon as terry disappears, el starts screaming “mama”. and finally in season three, el’s quick attachment to people can be seen with both max and hopper. in season one when el becomes attached to mike, it isn’t in a romantic way. she literally had no idea why it would be weird to take your sister to a school dance (meaning she originally thought of herself as mike’s sister). she has no clue how romantic relationships/feelings work... she barely knows how platonic feelings work.

3. neither are mentally fit for a relationship- continuing with el not knowing how romantic relationships work, she literally does not know what a friend is before lucas tells her. el has the mental capacity of a five year old (besides when using her powers and having survival skills). and i’m not saying that to bash el, i’m saying that because it’s a fact! eleven can barely speak in season one, she doesn’t know basic vocabulary, she has no concept of time, she acts younger than her age, etc. she is stunted mentally and stuck with the education level and maturity level of a young child. obviously she grows as the seasons progress and she is quite better in season three, but even then she is still probably at the educational level of a ten/eleven year old despite being fourteen. there is absolutely nothing about her in season one that makes me believe she was ready for a romantic relationship in any way. no one with her level of abuse and mental stunting should even be in a relationship. as for mike, he is a traumatized boy missing his best friend when he meets el. he barely has any friends to begin with and like lucas said, el is the only girl who isn’t grossed out by him. mike likes getting positive attention from a girl and in his immature twelve-year-old mind that translates to he must have feelings for her. 

4. mileven is not built to last- think about it, in seasons one and two mileven only had like three romantic scenes together in each season. their relationship is built on them both benefiting from one specific thing about the other person. for mike, el is the first girl to show any interest in him and he likes that, he is also looking for an escape from his feelings of stress about will, (seasons one/two). el provides that, whether it be in person, or when he calls her every night, convincing himself he still cares about her in a romantic way. for el, mike is the first person who has treated her as human, doesn’t call her names, or mistreat her, like most of the other people in her life did. in a way, she becomes addicted to the positive feeling of being treated better, and becomes dependent on mike for that. in season three, when max asks if mike is a good kisser, el replies “i don’t know. he’s my first boyfriend.” implying that she sees a future where she isn’t with mike, but with other boys/girls (?). also in season three, in the last episode, mike pretends he doesn’t remember saying “i love her” about el in the cabin when she confronts him about it. when el says she loves him too and kisses him, he literally keeps his eyes open and doesn’t kiss back or move. when el walks away he genuinely looks confused still. a lot of people say this is because he is in shock and excited that she feels the same, but when you think about it, it would make sense for him to be in shock but like... wouldn’t you think that he would at least crack a smile when she said it? and he doesn’t even kiss back or close his eyes, which surely he could’ve done even if he was in shock because if he truly loved her, it would just be natural instinct. and he could’ve smiled after she left if he was embarrassed by her seeing him be excited, but he didn’t. he still looked genuinely confused and not at all happy or excited. no. i truly believe mike had moved on from el by that time. it had been a couple of months since the battle at starcourt, and he and el weren’t even back together. he probably assumed that they would just remain friends, but then she brought up the “i love you” incident, and he was trying to deflect away from it by denying remembering what he said. finally, they were both twelve years old when they developed feelings for each other, (for the wrong reasons), and they probably both feel as though if they break up it will ruin their friendship, which neither of them want. 

that’s all for this one. i might make a part two soon, i just need to think of more points. i’d like to note that all of this is coming from a former mileven stan, so i know what it’s like to ship them. they really do have some cute scenes but when it comes down to it, they are just not a healthy couple. anyway, reblog or like if you want :)

[illogicallyinclined]

who is each player (of the core group) closest to? who gets along the least? (also how many players are on the team besides the Boys?)

Lets Talk About Some Boys

so. NCAA rules that you can have 19 skaters on your roster (+ up to 3 goalies); that said, there are 22 students in total, 8 of which are Our Main  Boys. (that highly uninterested freshman goalie is still there, but now he’s the back-up to the back-up goalie. he doesn’t care because, as mentioned before, he’s highly uninterested.)

BFFS

emile and remy are closest to each other. they’ve known each other since they were kids, are roommates, and – as mentioned in a previous ask – may or may not be in love.

likewise, D and remus are close and have been since high school. they have also slowly been trying to integrate logan into their shenanigans to form a trio, but he has Resisted because he is Emotionally Stunted and Afraid of Friendship. 

virgil and D are friends? or maybe enemies? they fell out HARD senior year of high school and this animosity carried on through their first year of college, but they seem to have reconciled somewhere along the way. now, they’re kind of mean to each other, but also would hide a body for one another, but also might hide each others bodies after mutually assured destruction. it doesn’t make any sense to anyone else but them.

roman is actually very popular because he is charming and funny and a lil bit dumb, but he doesn’t really have a best friend, per se. virgil’s the one that knows the most about him (save for remus, of course), but they’ve had their own issues to work out in the past, so who knows.

patton is friends with everybody. he won’t choose favorites, (but everyone knows he’s got a soft spot for virgil.)

virgil genuinely doesn’t have a best friend. he’s not sure he ever has. again, he has a pretty tight dyamic with roman and patton – and he’s grown fond of logan as well – but he hesitates to say that he’s “closest” to anyone. 

logan (begrudgingly) likes his teammates, and he is friends with them, but he doesn’t actually know that because he is Bad At Feelings and also strangely  insecure for someone who is so effortlessly good at things. (a lil secret: it isn’t effortless. he’s dying At All Hours.) he knows that the team needs him, and he knows that he is One Of if not The Most important factor in their wins – it isn’t vanity, it’s an objective fact – but he isn’t sure if anyone particularly likes him. (they do, you stupid nerd. fuckin,,, talk to someone.) that said, nobody knows ANYTHING about logan because he makes a valiant effort to remain as emotionally distant as possible despite actually being a Good Person who people Would Like To Know Better. (we stan a repression king.)

Enemies

as mentioned before, D and virgil may or may not hate each other. it’s a mystery.

roman and remus have a very strained relationship that would be improved infinitely if they just TALKED to one another. 

everyone on the team used to just grin and bear remus’s presence because roman is 1) captain, and 2) a genuinely likeable guy, but now that remus has Calmed Down [Some!!!], the team is starting to genuinely accept him. that said, there are a few grudges that carried over from his freshman year.

when logan first joined the team, he and roman used to fight constantly, but one day, they were suddenly??? alright with each other???? (none of the team knows how they worked out their differences. logan and roman know, but haven’t talked about it because they genuinely didn’t think it was worth telling people about. i mean,,, nobody’s exactly asked them directly.)  

[rainyday-deer]

One more question... What do you like about Hector and Rapunzel? 😍💝

As a ship?? OHO BOY

So like-- First off, I do try to make it pretty obvious about why I like them in the lil scribbly scenarios I do for them, and the kind of dynamic I can see them having. Most of what I do isn’t even explicitly shippy, and can easily be read as a friendship. Which is a big thing for me, tbh. I want to make it seem plausible that these two could be friends, and then have them grow into something else.

I will be forward-- I really enjoy Heroine/Antagonist ships, especially for Rapunzel. Anyone who has followed me long enough, or knows me well enough, knows this to be true. I enjoy enemies to friends to lovers. It’s a very fun dynamic, and figuring out how it could work is a fun past-time lmao

A lot of this is based on context clues, speculation, and headcanons though, since Hector wasn’t touched on in depth in the show. C’est la vie.

Hector���s pretty interesting too, since while he’s an antagonist, he’s not necessarily a straight up bad guy. He’s doing what he thinks is right, even if it’s in an incredibly extreme manner. He believes he’s helping to keep the world safe, by keeping the moonstone a secret, and keeping everyone away from the dark kingdom. He could not have given less of a shit about Rapunzel, or the fact she MIGHT be the sundrop. Hell, he looks INCREDIBLY unimpressed with her when he finally gets close.

That said, when he shows up again, he’s still willing to fight on her side because it’s the right thing to do. It kind of reiterates that NO, he’s not a bad guy.

And that’s kind of the crux for me. Rapunzel has won over arguably worse people. The Pub Thugs were unapologetic thugs (and remained that way, even when chasing their dreams). Rapunzel won over Stalyan, who wasn’t above letting her father poison someone so she could force Eugene into marriage. Var and Cass both kind of count too; She forgave them after they BOTH committed treason and attempted murder because they were angry with her. She’s a very loving person who wants to see the best in people, and I don’t think Hector would be an exception.

And like-- They’re actually kind of similar. They’ve both got the long periods of isolation thing going for them. They both love animals (Did you see how Hector was comforting his Rhino?? He loves him, end of story), and they’re both incredibly loyal to the people they care about (arguably to extreme lengths). All these traits manifest in different ways, but they’re there. Sort of like a strange reflection of the other.

Even visually I kind of feel like they contrast against each other in a really pleasant way-- But that’s more of a personal opinion.

Also! There’s one subversion about them that is interesting (to me personally):

Rapunzel is technically more caught up in the world than Hector is. Rapunzel’s had about 2-3 years to learn about the modern world around her. New books, inventions, politics. She knows about most, if not all, of it. Hector’s knowledge is outdated, given his longer period of isolation. You’d think he’d be the more worldly one, and in some ways he is, but that doesn’t change the fact that Rapunzel is the one most up to date, so in a weird way, a little more knowledgeable.

Not about everything, mind you, but it’s an interesting note imo.

On a more emotional side: It’s pretty well regarded by Hector stans that he’s touch starved. Arguably, he’s a little socially and emotionally stunted too-- And so is Rapunzel! BUT, she’s a lot more willing to reach out and be compassionate. She’s genuine about it, and given their few similarities, I do think Hector would be willing to at least hear her out. And she does get it, which in turn, means he gets her too. I feel like they’d be able to notice easier if and when the other is overwhelmed.

(Also also on the touch starved thing: Rapunzel is a cuddlebug. She’s touchy. Hector would get SO many hugs, arm touches, kisses, etc)

Striking on the opposites thing though-- Hector is probably standoffish and grouchy with strangers. Rapunzel wants to be everyone’s friend and be liked. I feel like they’d help each other balance it out. Rapunzel would encourage Hector to try and make friends, and he might try to help her let it go and chill out if someone doesn’t like her (Because, lbr, she does struggle with it a lot.) Rapunzel is very forgiving. Hector is arguably more stingy with forgiveness and earning trust back (Not that he can’t-- He didn’t kill Adira, after all). They’d have a yin-yang dynamic, I think.

So I guess the bottom line is just... I think they’d have some interesting interactions, and I think their dynamic could be a lot of fun, be it romantic or platonic.

[hundredsunny]

one piece characters in fe3h

im basically just doing this for myself because i love merging things i love together and creating an even bigger dumpster fire 

luffy: do u know how hard luffy would turn the Fuck up with the golden deer house???? especially since claude would readily sell his soul just to have a baller feast????? sabo and ace found jobless this is claude’s brother now

zoro: would miss the entire war because he wouldnt be able to find his way around the monastery. sylvain and lorenz found dead in miami. Too Many Green Haired People, Call This A Family Reunion. intense stare offs with felix from across the training grounds because......”ah, you too are a man of the blade” 

usopp: did u say.......artsy sniper???????? cut to usopp and ignatz creating chalk masterpieces all throughout the monastery and giggling to each other about wild mysteries that lie within the library. please watch out tho cause luffy and usopp and claude would create the most disastrous schemes together 

chopper: UHHHHHHHHHHH PLEASE CHOPPER AND DEDUE WOULD B SO.....so pure together.....this Tough Kind Quiet Misunderstood Big Lad with a knack for gardening and a Little Dude......jus gardening together in the greenhouse. chefs kiss. add robin to the mix and u got urself the Best trio 

sabo: did u say emotionally stunted blond boys????? yes. find sabo and dimitri crammed in the library plotting the downfall of their enemies. giggling to each other. but also. cut to claude and sabo combining brainpower to make the most intense game plan of all time!!! and i feel like he would definitely have a soft friendship with marianne and i think that’s neat. a weird but fitting friendship with seteth as well. sabo KNOWS this man’s secret and will call him by his Real name just to get a reaction

sanji: Battle On The Quad At 3: Sanji VS Sylvain VS Lorenz. loves raphael bc raph will eat Anything he gives him. too many green haired folk on campus call the exterminator

[skzhabibi]

An Old Crush (A Long, Bittersweet Personal Storytime/Rant)

When I was in Junior High, I had really, REALLY low self esteem. I was still very much in the awkward phase of puberty and all of those hormones paired with the fact I was having lots of problems at home resulted in some pretty severe mental health issues (which I won’t get too much into, because I don’t wanna trigger anyone). Not only that, but I’m naturally pretty sensitive, so any negative comments people had made about my appearance in the past, whether they were trash talking my hand-me-down clothes, pale ass skin, acne, big nose, etc., it really stuck with me. I was a mess, basically. And I’m part Arab on my mom’s side, so seeing a psychiatrist was never really an option.

Anyways, I was 13 or 14 (8th grade) when I took my 1st Spanish class. This had a bunch of the more “popular” kids in it, because they were trying to get the credit out of the way before High School and there were only 2 teachers who taught Spanish at my school, so it was bound to happen. There was a popular boy in my class, called T for the sake of the story, who sat a seat in front and to the left. I don’t know how we first started talking, but it was probably because of many factors. I laughed at his jokes, he sat near me in Spanish and English which we had right after, I was pretty solid academically at the time and he wasn’t, we had a couple mutual friends/acquaintances, etc... I guess it’s also good to mention he was known for his good looks and the fact he was A-string quarterback on our shitty little football team while I was kind of a social floater; a decent amount of people knew of me, but not many people actually knew me well, if at all.

I didn’t really pay him any mind in a romantic way at first, to be honest. I just thought he was reasonably attractive, but I figured he’d think himself “too cool” to be associated with me since that’s the vibe a lot of the other popular boys in the class had given me if I ever tried making friends with them. People really just gave me the cold shoulder in general, which hurt my feelings, so I wasn’t gonna risk it anymore. But what really made that first little crush for him start was when one day as I was rushing to get out the door first after the bell rang (which I always did because I’m impatient as fUCK and hate that huge ass crowd you had to shove through or come out last), he rushed forward, squeezing through the door around the other jocks and practically pushing them out of the way, to catch up to me and ask me to walk to English together. As an inexperienced little simp, that shit really looked like something out of a movie. It gave me such a needed boost of confidence that I actually started beaming, which was REALLY out of character for me (I’ve always been known for my “resting bitch face”).

So this became such a regular thing, walking to English, that we actually began waiting for each other by our desks to pack our stuff up, and we were usually around the last 2 to leave the room. At some point I finally plucked up the courage to ask him for his number, which was TERRIFYING because I’d never done anything like that. I think I made some excuse that since we had 2 classes together if we forgot about the homework we could remind each other (holy shit I was such a nerd). We texted a few times, but it never got super deep that I remember. I never really initiated the conversations because I didn’t want to make it seem like I liked him even though at this point I REALLY did; I even told a couple of my friends, which I didn’t normally do either. I was always someone to bottle up that shit and bury it so it never saw the light of day because I was so fucking afraid of rejection (Fragile Ass Self Esteem wants to know your location).

I literally thought that I was unlikeable in every sense of the word, so a bunch of the signs that he liked me back at the time never dawned on me. He could’ve literally screamed in my face that he liked me and I’d probably be like “As a Friend, right???”

I guess I’ll just take this moment to tell you about a bunch of the things that should’ve bee HUGE ASS signs he liked me:

1.) This girl on the volleyball team at our table in English that T knew would make passes about how he was really sought-after by a shit ton of girls and then look at me. He also looked at me afterwards like he was shy but gauging my reaction. She had a sort of Jade from Victorious vibe to her so I figured she saw through me and was trying to embarrass me by getting a reaction, so I kept my face straight.

2.) He would compliment me more than anyone else I spoke to (which was uhhhh never. I never got complimented.) For example: He was always calling me smart or a “try hard” to joke with me. I took it as an expression of friendly jealousy. When I curled my hair one day he noticed and literally said, “Can we all take a moment to appreciate (my name)’s hair?” It made me blush so hard, but I thought he was making fun of me. He would also insist on reading my shit or me reading his when the English teacher made us peer review/journal check and would compliment the work I did or my handwriting or how organized it looked. Living that emotionally stunted Y/N life.

3.) The Spanish teacher made us partner up any time there was group work, and she moved his seat to right next to mine every routine seat change. I was gullible as shit thinking that that was coincidental when he had other friends in class. I figured it was cuz I was good and he sucked at Spanish lmaooo. I’ve since read posts on reddit where teachers have confirmed that they can tell when kids have crushes on each other and they’ll play wingman/woman. When I read that I was like WAIT A DAMN MINUTE. Mrs. G was a real one and I was so fucking oblivious to it.

4.) Another girl on the volleyball team asked if he and I were dating. I was taken aback and said no, we weren’t (conveniently leaving out the “I wish”) and asked why she would think that. The reason she gave was that since people saw us walk together between classes, a lot of people figured we were together. I chalked it up to stupid gossip that had no roots in anything he said, so I laughed it off to keep from getting my hopes up.

5.) A similar thing happened AGAIN with a guy who was also on the football team. When he learned my name, he was like, “Wait, (my first and last)?” And I was like yeah wtf how did you know my last without me telling you? And he’s straight up like, “Oh, you’re the girl T has a thing for.” AND I WAS SO FUCKING BLIND OMFG I was just like well he’s never told me he likes me so even though multiple people at this point have said something I think that is completely baseless fake news.

6.) One of the MOST telling signs: he would always say hi to me outside of classes when I was alone. He found me outside my locker one day and started talking to me. The coaches would make the kids on sports teams run back to locker room, and one day he was doing that when he saw me at my locker (which was right by the sport locker rooms since I was in girls’ athletics). His teammates would glance at me while they ran by, and he told me to wait for him while he changed so we could walk to Spanish (1st period) together. Ngl, this really sealed the nail in the coffin for my huge ass crush on this kid. I was taken aback because I thought our friendship was just for convenience and he didn’t actually see me as a real friend he would be seen outside of class with. But in the end I still psyched myself out by saying I was just something to entertain him.

7.) One time in the library, I was working on printing out some paper. An annoying ass kid who was overly friendly and rode the bus with me was talking to me a lot, and I was pretty clearly not interested in my mind at least. T walked in for some reason and smiled and said “Hey, (my name)” pretty loudly. I wasn’t expecting to see him, so I was just like “Oh, hey, T,” because I lack social skills. He glanced at the kid and back at me and his face kinda dropped before he kept walking. I think the kid asked me to hang out with him and our mutual friend and I was basically like no thanks man I’m kinda busy.

8.) Other times he would do this as well. One time my girl friend and I were sitting across from each other at a lunch table in the morning after getting off the bus. Out of LITERALLY NOWHERE he just swoops in and sits next to my friend across from me and starts talking to me about some project in Spanish he finished, showing me excitedly what he wrote and asking if it was right. He pretty much ignored my friend, and she was hella socially anxious and knew about my crush on him so she kinda got huge eyes and shut down socially. He and I talked for a bit before it got awkward because we ran out of shit to say and it was awkward now that we had an extra person and we pretty much only talked to each other without anyone else in the conversation. He left after that and my friend and I freaked tf out.

9.) One time while I was waiting for the bus in the cafeteria after school, I was alone because my friends were taking too long. I was on my phone when he comes up and starts talking to me. I was hella fucking awkward because for some reason I‘m always a fucking stiff around the person I like. Then my guy friend who rode the same bus came up and cock blocked the shit out of T because he’s super fucking loud and just starts fucking around. He and I are super close even to this day and I guess T got intimidated by how easily we were joking around and kinda saw himself out before I could say anything.

10.) THIS LIST IS GETTING TOO LONG SKDJDJASKDJDJ BUT I FUCKIN FORGOT whenever we would walk between classes we would sometimes not even talk. Like whenever the conversation died we would just kinda stare into each other’s eyes �� I thought I was just being creepy, but he fucking smiled at me when it happened why am I so dUmB fUUUCK. Also sometimes the popular kids would run up behind us and fuck with him like make fun of him or make some sort of awkward pass that I wouldn’t react to before running down the hall ahead of us. My guess now is that he was meaning to make a move but my neutral reaction to whatever dumbass thing they said made it impossible to tell if I felt the same so he chickened out.

ANYWAYS I think our little friendship/mutual pining fizzled our after one time he made a more up front attempt because at this point he was probably fed up with waiting for me to get the hint but this exchange really fucking backfired:

Basically he got a girlfriend, this girl on GUESS WHAT??! THE VOLLEYBALL TEAM. I heard about it straight from him while we’re walking to English together and that shit hurted but I was like whatever I still want him as a friend and this pretty much confirmed in my mind that he NEVER liked me. So basically he’s talking about how he’s been seeing her to pass the time but he doesn’t actually like her. And I was like why not? She’s really cool/nice and REALLY pretty. But if you don’t like her then why date her? Seems like a waste of time. He’s like yeah well basically she said she liked me so I asked her out but tbh I think she’s annoying. And I’m like what did she do something on a date that was annoying? STILL UTTERLY CLUELESS AND HES DEADASS LIKE what are you jealous like in a flirty way and my DUMB. ASS. Is like.... WHATTTT PSHHH NO I MEAN WE’RE JUST BROSSS AHAHA.

Can I get an F in the chat pls?

Basically we just stopped talking after a while. I think my friend texting his brother officially knifed the shit out of that ship’s sail. Years later I confessed that I liked him back then and asked if he liked me back back then so I could stop worrying about gaslighting myself and he’s basically like yeah I would’ve tried something with you (came across really unenthusiastic). And then one time in like my freshman year of community college I was with my bio study group in the library going to where we were meeting up for a project when I felt eyes on me from the computers and literally LOCKED EYES WITH HIM AND HES JUST LIKE 👁👄👁

LMAO I PRETENDED LIKE I DIDNT KNOW THAT BITCH

OH TO SEE WITHOUT MY EYES

1 like = 1 smash of your head against the wall at my fucking idiocy

[clintbartonswife]

Archer’s Luck

Pairings: Clint Barton x Bucky Barnes, Steve x Sam if you squint Summary: Fallen from his perch and impaled by one of his own arrows, Clint would say that his day isn’t going too greatly.  @whumptober2019 #23 : Bleeding out Warning: clint’s a gay disaster, mutual pining masterlist  || whumptober masterpost

“Aw, gravity no”

Clint’s day has been pretty shitty even if he did say so himself. 

To start with, he had fallen asleep with his hearing aids in, leaving his ears feeling gammy and slightly sore and he didn’t even have any coffee in his apartment when he woke up, leaving him in a grouchy mood. 

Then while he was getting dressed to go get coffee he got a call from Nat telling him to come into the tower, meaning he didn't even have time to run to the shitty coffee shop down the street because Nat would know, and Clint didn't need to deal with that today. He knew how to pick his battles.

So, when Clint turns up to the Tower, coffee deprived and aching for sleep, who else would he run into but Bucky fucking Barnes wearing the sweater that makes Clint drool. Needless to say, he gets shouted at during the briefing for not paying attention (and receives multiple knowing smirks from Natasha, who by now was making Clint rethink their whole friendship) and is in an even worse mood by the time they’re set to jet off.

When Clint has a few spare minutes to get coffee, he gets distracted again by Bucky who decided that now would be a good time to do some pre-game stretches that send Clint’s mind down a very dirty hole which make him a little uncomfortable in the tight trousers of his uniform.

Clint gets on the jet without his damn coffee and sends Nat a glare as she snorts at his predicament, muttering under his breath about Bucky and ‘his stupid Adonis body’.

Of course the mission wouldn't have gone any better. Within the first few minutes he had already stubbed his toe on the side of a building (definitely not because he was distracted by Bucky putting his hair into a bun) and got hot in the shin by a flying piece of shrapnel.

Then there was the matter of climbing the 12 flights of stairs in the apartment building to get to his vantage point on the roof because Tony and Sam were ‘too busy to carry his fat ass up to the top and he could probably use the cardio anyway’. Clint had just flipped them both off before beginning the run up the stairs, scowling as he positioned himself on the roof.

From then on he got into his mission groove, hitting every shot and covering everyone’s six. That is, until a group of hostiles on the ground lock onto him, getting a lucky shot that destroys the piece of brickwork that he was standing on which sends him tumbling to the ground below.

Whilst falling from the incredibly tall height, Clint realises exactly 3 things. 

One: the arrow he had been about to shoot had become dislodged from his bow and  buried itself in Clint’s side and it hurt like hell. 

Two: his eyes seemed to have locked onto Bucky as he fell, watching as the man scrambled from his position to try and catch him. Clint was also vaguely aware of him shouting into his earpiece, something along the lines of ‘useless tin can’

Three: Clint still hadn’t had his fucking coffee.

Bucky had been having a generally good day which, for him, was an incredible feat in itself.

He had 5 hours sleep, untainted by nightmares, meaning that Steve slept through the whole night and gave him one of his ‘proud dad smiles’ that made him feel warm inside.

His favourite cereal was restocked in the kitchen, Sam was out with a friend and the floor was peaceful and quiet.

Then the alarm sounded for a mission, which would normally be a bad thing, but Natasha had called in Clint. That man had been the centre of Bucky’s affections for months, his clumsy nature never failing to lighten up his days.

He should’ve felt suspicious at how well everything was going - god forbid things go well for Bucky Barnes - because of course Clint decides today would be a good day to fall of a fucking roof.

“Tony, you useless tin can! Catch him” he shouted, finishing off the hostile he was fighting before rushing over to the building.

“Barnes I cant -“

“Fucking hell Stark!”

Bucky held back a scream as he watched Clint’s body hit the concrete with a heavy smack, instead speeding up, falling to his knees beside him.

“Clint - Clint” Bucky urged, hands falling on his arms, turning him on his back so that the arrow wasn’t digging into him any deeper, “c’mon”

The blond groaned, head turning to the side jerkily.

“Aw, gravity, no”

Bucky let out a wet laugh, putting pressure on the wound, trying to stem the blood that was gushing out of the hole in his side.

“You’re an idiot Clint”

“You flatter me Buck” he smiled weakly, eyes locking on to his face, “Wait - why are you crying?”

“I’m not”

“Yeah - your eyes are wet” Clint protested, hand reaching up to wipe the tears from his face, “stop it. Y’face is too pretty to cry”

Bucky felt a blush creep up his neck, the slightly slurred compliment surprising him.

“I think you might’ve hit your head”

“No, no. I didn’ get m’ coffee today, ‘s why ‘m tired” Clint explained earnestly, “I was gonna but y’ distract’d me with y’ stretches”

Tony took that time to appear, snorting at Clint’s confession.

“Well, that’s one way to confess his love I guess”

“What?”

“Oh come on Barnes, you two have been tiptoeing around that for months. Now move so I can get him to medical”

Bucky just stood back, hands slick with Clint’s blood, mind racing with this new information.

He was fucked.

Apparently falling from a roof is enough reason to be shouted at by an angry Natasha Romanoff.

“- third time this year Clint! I swear to god I’ll make you wear a parachute next time we go on a mission -“

Bucky had been sat outside the hospital room for a few hours, not wanting to intrude on the best friends while they were talking (well - Nat was shouting and Clint was forced to listen), waiting for an opportunity to talk to the archer.

Tony’s previous comment had been plaguing him ever since, distracting him for the rest of the battle, so much so that Steve had thought he’d been activated again and almost punched him.

Bucky felt nervous. Honest to god, pit in your stomach, nervous. Which, for a tortured assassin of 70 years, sounds absolutely ridiculous. Yet the idea of voicing his feelings to Clint made him want to run back to Russia and hide for years.

He had told Steve this (after a lot of very concerned questions from the man) and had just received a hearty laugh and pat on the back, which didn’t help him in the slightest. Sam had overheard and snorted, muttering something about ‘emotionally stunted supersoldiers’, though he felt like that wasn’t entirely aimed at him. 

The shouting had finally stopped, door swinging open to reveal Nat in all her angry glory. She nodded curtly to Bucky before walking away, jaw clenched and eyes misty.

“You gonna come in or not?” Clint called, “I could use the company”

Bucky huffed a laugh, hauling himself off of the chair and into the room, eyes immediately dragging over his body for any injuries he might have missed earlier.

“You scared us today” he said, eyes finally landing on Clint’s face, “falling like that. You said some interesting stuff though”

A faint blush coloured Clint’s cheeks, “Oh yeah? What did I say that was so interesting”

Bucky felt a surge of confidence at Clint’s embarrassment, a small smirk pulling at his lips as he leaned against the hospital bed.

“Oh, you know, you called me pretty and - what was it again - oh yeah! My stretches were distracting”

A small wounded noise escaped from the man, the blush spreading down his neck as he avoided eye contact.

“Are you sure I said that?”

“Yep” Bucky grinned, his reaction giving him the final push he needed, “question is: did you mean it?”

Taking a deep breath, Bucky moved so that he was near Clint’s head, leaning down so that their lips were brushing.

“So, tell me Barton” he said, voice low, “am I reading this right?”

No words were needed as Clint lifted his head up slightly, connecting their lips in a soft kiss. A small noise escaping the back of Bucky’s throat as Clint’s hands tangled in to his hair, pulling slightly on the silky strands.

“Fuck” Clint murmured as they pulled apart, lips swollen, “About time you did that Buck”

Bucky laughed, pressing another quick kiss to his lips, before resting their foreheads against each other.

“No fucking in the hospital beds! Rogers, your boy should know better”

“Leave them alone Tony, they’re having a moment”

“You’re not the one who’ll have to pay the dry cleaning bill-“

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[dekus-competitive-ass]

disclaimer: anime-only here, about to read the manga

ochako is the first one who realized her feelings and was immediately able to put it aside because she knows her crush really doesn't have it in mind, and there are other more pressing matters.

...but what about izuku?

izuku obviously has a crush on ochako-- probably since the first time they met, and is only developing since.

these are the stages or the ways it could happen. both/either?

1. "it hits him like a truck and whAT THE FUCK?"

he and ochako are just friends, what are you talking about? she's his best friend and nothing can ever change that. that's why he's always in awe when ochako trains diligently. that's why he's one of the loudest cheerers when she beats someone in sparring, or had the loudest reactions when she goes down. he treats her the same as tenya and the others, what are you talking about?

but now that's inside his head, it's all that he can think about. did ochako always look this cute? why does he feel so light around her? because she's his best friend, right? RIGHT??? cue izuku melting down every five seconds at mention of ochako's name and fleeing at the sight of her shadow. tenya asks him if he's sick. todoroki is emotionally stunted and couldn't understand what's going on with him. the first one who catches a whiff of what's going on is mineta, though he thinks its much more dirty and izuku practically screams himself horase. for a second, bakugou thinks its about him again until izuku uses HIM to hide from ochako. he obviously explodes izuku's ass into the spotlight and ochako gives him a quick hi until izuku babbles off another excuse and runs off. the girls figure out what's going on. sero, kaminari and kirishima also figure out what's going on and it quickly spreads to the whole of class 1-a. ochako and izuku can't look each other in the eye for a very long time.

2. "the emo anime protagonist approach"

let's face it. midoriya izuku is just as emo as todoroki and fumikage. we all saw him stare off and narrate with intense poetry. if he realizes his feelings this way, he would barely freak out (for about three days) and would immediately clam up. he would go back to normal. except around ochako. he would be all morose and emo. he would stare off at ochako with that look in his eye, that intense look when he's narrating. you know what i'm talking about. in his head he'd be like "in my quest to become a hero, i can not be found with any weaknesses--" and ochako is just confused of why izuku is just staring at her all the time and is kind of flustered. tenya is confused too and suspects that he's up to something. he confronts izuku at the dorms and izuku briefly has flashbacks. tenya asks him whats going on. there's even that anime lightning and anime tension. tenya only relents when izuku admits that he's not feeling well, but even then he's still keeping an eye out. izuku isn't exactly trustworthy. tenya only lets go after a week of no incidents. coincidentally, around this time ochako gets fed up and tells izuku to quit being so weird and compromising their friendship. she sits with tsuyu that day. with tsuyu's insistence, they were able to talk and sort their feelings out.

3. "knowledge is half the battle."

he decides he wants to court ochako. only that he doesn't know how to. so with the same intensity and determination on his journey to become a hero, he sets out to ask everyone on how to court a girl. after all, gathering information is important to not jeopardize the mission. todoroki tells him about the different japanese traditions and izuku writes it down. smack dab in the middle of his hero notebooks, with strategies, known hero moves, known hero weaknesses-- is ancient japanese courting rituals. izuku almost rips his notebook and breaks his pencil with his speed. todoroki thinks that he activated full cowl at one point. mineta walks into the room and plagues their conversation of what a crush can do to a male person's body and other mineta trademarked stuff. todoroki and izuku are scandalized. todoroki sets the table on fire. izuku wants to strangle mineta because how dare he say those things about ochako (though she isnt exactly named, just a random girl) but at the same time, his mind was just opened to a new realm of possibilities and izuku was just a weak, weak teenage boy. izuku actually activates full cowl this time and kicks himself in the face.

mineta goes, "don't pretend you're innocent, midoriya. we all know what happened at the provisonal hero license exam."

izuku wanted to melt.

todoroki went stone cold silent. "...what did he do?"

class 1-a wasn't able to talk about this because straight after the exam, deku vs kacchan 2 quickly overshadowed that incident.

"todoroki, please don't." izuku begs.

mineta starts telling the story. it was much more graphic and dirty that izuku had to disagree every five seconds. sero unceromoniously walks in and tells the real story, then someone else walks in and sero has to re-tell it again, and izuku was right there, staring, suffering with being dealt with his own shoot style.

at the tenth retelling of the story, bakugou stares at izuku approvingly, and before izuku can disagree, he says, "no wonder deku was so energized at our fight."

"KACCHAN PLEASE--"

mina was cooing and teasing along with them, jirou was heatedly defending izuku and the girl because "it's just her quirk!" and inwardly thinks about yaoyorozu. she jabs kaminari at least five times but he was still smiling manically.

he walks up to ochako, the only other person who was actually there and knew what happened. he just. leans on her. he babbles out something that might have been words. ochako just laughs and lets him rest there. for one moment, he forgets about his dilemma about her.

tenya and yaoyorozu cut in and the conversation finally stops and just changes into what happened to the provisional exam in general.

when the night ends, he was left with only a handful of people left. ochako had already retired for the night. he asks mina how to court a girl because she is a girl, but she just teases and asks him if his crush was the girl from the exam. she says that she'll doll him up and be the best wingman-- but she was cut off by shoji, who had an inkling on who it would be.

"just tell her the truth, midoriya."

izuku suddenly has that mile away stare. the anime stare. the narration stare.

he would have already started narrating but then jirou flings him his forgotten notebook. she tells him that he had some rather strange techniques. the page was opened to what todoroki taught him about traditional courting rituals.

izuku then clams up and flees for his room. mina and jirou exchange a knowing look. the girls had gossip for tomorrow.

[butterfly--empress]

Fix it Headcanons...

After sitting here writing a really tldr post to get things off my chest, I felt like it just wasn’t worth the post because a lot of you are already saying things that I totally agree with and yeah...it’s not worth it so I’m just going to move on and conjure up headcanons because I need to cope with that ending. 

So instead, I will in tumblr traditon make a reaction gif post on my feelings with some commentary about the characters. 

The New Organization XIII

I wish a bit more was done with you guys??? I’m half and half on their role in this game, *shrugs* Also I am assuming Nomura pretty much confirms that Demyx is also from the past and now I’m wondering if we will get a story update for him in KHUX. 

Actually, I wouldn’t be surprised if all the story content we need before KH4 is going to be handled through the mobile game...eh...great..........just...fucking swell.

Can we petition for the Kingdom Hearts manga to continue? I think I rather have a physical boxset collection of the Kingdom Hearts manga, because at LEAST in the manga, characters actually get some goddamn growth......I’m not going to rant about Kairi just yet...

Disney Worlds and Characters

Nothing like Nostalgia and good old fashion pandering with a dash of Disney films having a consistent foreshadowing theme of love, hope, loss, pain and SACRIFICE TO GET THE BLOOD PUMPING!

What do you mean I’m bitter, I told you, I’m not! 

Wayfinder Trio

I have nothing awful to say about these three to be perfectly honest. I saw nothing wrong with Aqua and Ven getting bodied like some were because as much as I love Aqua and know she’s OP my girl was doing nothing but fighting in the realm of darkness and really had no time to recover, and then girlfriend fights my delightful little shit of a son,  and then girlfriend is STILL FIGHTING! I’ll let her being one-shotted by Terranort slide...

I will also let her running in front of Ven to shield Vanitas’ blast from hurting him go, because, honestly one could argue she probably was still exhausted and didn’t have time to react to put up another shield??? 

Ehh, this argument can go either way, really but I didn’t have a problem with any of it. 

I just really loved everything about these three, they acted like friends/family who missed each other for YEARS...they hugged and cried together and then despite the fuckery of their Master/Father figure, I think they forgave him for his apology and I just started bawling my eyes out....AGAIN. 

I really am not exaggerating and I wish I was but from the Aqua/Ventus reunion to the secret ending, I cried so hard. 

I didn’t cry for him or his bald boyfriend...*twitches eye* I cried because those three children didn’t deserve any of this! None of these children deserved any of this! TT_TT That reunion was all I wanted.

Vanitas

My poor fledging child, I knew your ultimate demise was nigh so I tried not to be too sad about it. Not gonna lie, Sully dragging your ass through that door and then multiple doors and then shredding that door was hella funny! 

It can be confirmed tomorrow that you dead and I would resurrect you and all your glorious edginess and tsundere tendencies in my fanfics because if you don’t come back to be your own person, a sass master and the anti-hero that likes to stir trouble cause he can, to help get Sora back, while gloating about it in the same breath, than I don’t know what even is the fucking point of another game. 

I do wish a bit more something meaningful was done with your supposed ‘redemption arc’??? I guess I’m suppose to assume that was a redemption arc...but it was handled so choppy I don’t know what to really make of it tbh...

Eraqus and Xehanort

People think ya’ll going to heaven...nahh bruh you two fucked up! And I refuse to believe anything else. Yeah you two was real cute in the past before I’m assuming things went to complete shit but you two FUCKED UP! 

I don’t know what the fuck Xehanort did to make Eraqus so jaded but because Eraqus felt jaded he indirectly dismisses Terra because ‘darkness’....BOI! 

We already know Xehanort’s rep sheet we don’t even have to review it. 

I don’t have any sadness for you two. Eraqus gives me mixed feelings I don’t like how he was the cause of Terra being norted, Aqua being lost in the realm of darkness and Ventus falling into a ten year magic coma but at least he didn’t rip a child’s soul in half to create some damn keyblade and control Kingdom Hearts so i guess he gets kudos???

I don’t care about Xehanort, NOT ONE CARE! 

I’m glad that motherfucker is gone! Buh bye!

The Sea Salt Trio

Axel/Xion/Roxas...you three did NOTHING WRONG! 

That’s it, I sobbed and they reunited and they hugged and then they hugged Saix and then Saix is good again, they cried and shared Ice Cream with the Twilight Town Trio and it was great. It was all I asked for.

Namine

You’re a precious delight, i wished we had more screen time of you in the game but c’est la vie. At least your character wasn’t ruined like someone’s I know. 

The obvious Riku/Namine ship still surprises me but I totally dig it...still side-eyeing my green-eyed white haired son for some of his fuckery...but we about to get into that in a bit...

The Destiny Trio...BOI I am about to lose my fucking shit because really WTF WAS THAT?! You did everyone else right...except for these three?! the same three you started this glorious shitshow with?!

THESE THREE!?

Sora: I have no issues with my baby here, if Nomura got one thing right, it was Sora. I still don’t like what you did to him and Kairi but as for as the writing for his character, that shit was on point so you get kudos Nomura...you get the fucking kudos!

Riku: ....What the fuck happened to the very close friendship between he and Kairi??? Like WTF?! I’m confused how we went from KH1 Riku giving into the darkness because he thought it would save Kairi to KH2 Riku looking out for Kairi and encouraging her to fight by giving her destiny’s embrace and crying when she recognized it was him, despite he looked like Ansem, to KH2.8 Riku having playful banter with her before he left off on his mission with Mickey to KH3 Riku who, outside of anyone not Sora, Mickey, Namine (because suddenly Nomura wants that to be canon obviously...) and to an extent, Aqua being this distant stoic character...

EXCUSE ME...but where was Riku’s usual anger and sadness when Kairi was taken by Xemnas and just outright killed?! IN FRONT OF HIM?!!

Say what you want about SoKai becoming canon, a close friend is still a close friend! 

There was no reason to make Riku distant at all, like I don’t mind the SoKai sharing the paopu fruit scene but I still feel like that scene should have included all three of them. That should have been a call back to them having a bit of reprieve together like the ending of KH2. It would not have taken any time to have Riku have a moment with Repliku and have Kairi call him over after Sora asked ‘why he’s over there?’

I mean, damn! Even Sora was like, our group dynamic is off by -1???

Kairi: First of all, I am going to put it out there that, Kairi did not need to be overly super strong. Not for a girl that just started training to fight in the final battle and for what we did get, it was more than I had expected at all. I mean for a novice, girl did pretty damn decent with keeping up with berserker!Xion.

No, my annoyance is not at the lack of Kairi fighting, it’s being used as an unfortunate plot device and feeling like nobody except Sora cared enough about her. At times it did feel like my girl was treated as a burden that nobody wanted there because she was such an easy target to distract Sora....

And boi! When she got taken and then obliterated in front of Sora and the others I was both angry and sad, at this point I was already sobbing because Sora was sobbing and I felt that and my hate for Xemnas went from 100 to 1000 real fucking quick. 

But like I already said, I started to get frustrated because Riku continued to seem like he was suddenly emotionally stunted when it came to Kairi, like my dude! YOUR FRIEND JUST DIED?! WHY AM I MORE ANGRIER THAN YOU?!? DO SOMETHING!! GO WITH SORA TO BRING HER BACK THAT’S YOUR FRIEND..YOU’RE NOT THE RIKU I REMEMBER WTF!?

Just jadlkfjflkajdjakdjk! *inhales than slowly exhales* Nomura, Nomura my dude, my pal, my senpai! There were a lot of ways you could have made SoKai canon that did not include sacrificing the deep, close 12yr bond that was Kairi’s and Riku’s friendship. The wasted potential...

You mean to tell me i waited for a DECADE, a freaking DECADE hoping that to have some real friendship bonding between Riku and Kairi and see nothing done with it!?

And speaking of SoKai...I know some people find it lackluster because unfortunately, Nomura never gave Kairi satisfying character growth that didn’t make it seem like she satellites around Sora and nothing else. But I more or less was never really bothered by how it developed, yea it could have used more work but I’m on very neutral ground. My only complaint is that I don’t like how at times it can seem a bit forced or rushed in 3 and I don’t like that Nomura thought it was a cool idea to make it seem like Kairi and Riku were never friends or that Riku never cared about Kairi. 

I...I guess Nomura wants to fuel the ridiculous SoKai vs Soriku shipwars??? Because that is what your doing and those dumbass wars don’t need unfortunate implications from the actual game for people who didn’t get their ship canon to further hate Kairi because you decided that Riku needed to be ‘distant’...with HER, poor girl can’t catch a break because you promised character growth but you take one step forward, two steps back and she can’t break the damsel in distress trope. My poor baby. 

I knew once I went to the Tangled world I knew KH was dealing with the consistent theme of Love, Pain, Hope, Loss and Sacrifice. This became more apparent when you get to PotC and I knew deep down that Kairi and Sora were bound to end up doing something to sacrifice their own lives for one another and yet, they have done this before and it turned out alright. 

I hoped it would have been akin to KH1 but fuck me, how goddamn naive was I, amirite?! Nomura goes and does EXACTLY what I was wishing he wouldn’t do and he did it anyway, and I was no more good after that.

And then, AND THEN TO HAVE THE BALLS to make it look like Sora was there after all at the very end only to have him fade away. A part of my heart still aches from that and I’m surprised I didn’t wake up my household at 8am because I was sobbing that loud!

Yes I know Sora is alive but again, my heart and mind are in conflict. My mind wants to let go and update and reboot the phone but my heart is still stuck on a refresh/poor battery loop...

...............................................If Kairi is not out there with Riku to go find and save Sora in KH4 someone is going to feel my motherfucking wrath!

No, I’m serious! No more of this shafting Kairi bullshit! This is the perfect setup for a full on Kairi character growth arc. If I have to play that shit on a handheld or mobile well fucker bring it on! 

Nomura, you have the story, Kairi could start out feeling loss and regret and guilt, blaming herself and thinking the other’s blame her for Sora not being there with them. And then she goes on a journey, hell she and Riku go on a journey together to reconnect and Riku, being a Keyblade Master could mentor Kairi in her training and she has some self discovery as she’s getting stronger and confident again in herself and it would be great because she’s finally getting to save Sora like she’s always wanted too!

You know what? YOU KNOW WHAT??!

FUCK IT! 

Because Nomura will never give me this and I will not hope for anything concerning Kairi’s character growth. 

So I guess I have to fanfiction that shit my damn self...I think I will...

At least the gameplay for fucking fantastic and Yoko-san delievered with the music, when is that KH3 OST dropping again? 

I need to eargasm to Anti-Aqua battle theme and the other promise/vector to the heavens one million times. 

Also I’m legit done ranting, I got this off my chest so I can move on. 

[livenudebigfoot]

Exchange of Interest Letter

Really excited to not only be participating in but helping to mod @exchange-of-interest this year! You can sign up here, and sign ups are open until April 7. I urge you to jump in and sign up; it’s gonna be really fun.

Future anonymous gifter, thank you so much! I know I’m a huge weirdo, but I hope I’m also a fun weirdo. My askbox is open to anonymous messages, so feel free to hit me up if you have any questions (if you’re not my gifter but you have questions about the exchange, hit me and other, smarter mods up at @exchange-of-interest)!

Likes, dislikes, and a whole bunch of information under the cut:

GENERAL INFORMATION

DNWs/dislikes: character bashing, unrequested non-canon ships, unasked-for poly, non-canon major character death, A/B/O dynamics, AUs that make the characters dramatically younger (i.e. high school or college AUs), crossovers

Likes: emotionally stunted people trying to connect with each other, fix-it fics or other forms of canon divergence AU, wild or fantastical setting AUs that maintain characterization, silliness, big swings (in the daring narrative choices kind of way, not necessarily in the sense of a literal large swing)

REQUESTS

1. Reese/Fusco: I love the evolution of their relationship over 5 seasons, and how it grows from this really dark, kinda twisted relationship to something that’s very sweet and based in mutual trust and love. I feel like a lot of Reese/Fusco fic (including my own) is from that early dark era but I'd really love to read more stuff that makes use of their warmer dynamic from towards the end of the show. You know: Fusco being increasingly comfortable with Reese because he knows him really well now, Reese being increasingly comfortable with expressing the fact that he’d actually be pretty upset if Fusco died, the two of them busting each other’s balls while actually being extremely fond of one another, taking bullets for each other, bowling, terrible food, rough-yet-tender sex, silent and fraught intimacy, fleeing to a remote location to retire under assumed names in some sort of post-canon fix-it scenario. Regular relationship stuff.

2. Lionel Fusco & Sameen Shaw: Their friendship is so heartwarming and good. I’d love some serious post-canon stuff about the two of them continuing to maintain their friendship/crime-fighting partnership maybe in the wake of tragedy. But I would also like some goofy stuff about them going on some kind of low-stakes comedy adventure together. Platonic ideal of this would be some kind of cross-country road trip where they’re arguing about music choices the entire time. They stop to see the World’s Largest Ball of String. Bear rides shotgun.

3. Joss Carter/Sameen Shaw: I really loved what little we got of Shaw and Carter's dynamic and I always wished they had more time together to really develop their relationship. I liked that Shaw's crush on Carter made her a little goofy and I like the idea of Carter getting sucked into Shaw's risky, high-stakes shenanigans and having an opportunity to loosen up and have a little fun. 

4. Logan Pierce/Leon Tao: These two never actually got a chance to meet because Ken Leung had the AUDACITY to get cast on a different show like some sort of JERK. I think their personalities are a perfect match and they would have The Best Time fighting crime together and maybe smooching together too. Maybe Leon gets brought onto Logan’s team post-canon? Or Leon gets rescued by Logan’s team post-canon? IDK go wild. I don’t even need it to be romance, I just want them to meet and like each other because I think they’d get along really well. 

5. Lionel Fusco/Andre Cooper: I understand that this is a long shot, but consider the following: 1. Wingman was a really cute episode, 2. Lionel and Andre have a sweet little arc together, and 3. they should smooch. This episode cries out for a gay romcom follow-up where Andre's trying to set Lionel up and they're both catching feelings and Andre's like "oh no he's my client" and Fusco's like "oh no he's just trying to do his job" and there's ridiculous pining and it's total tropey nonsense.

6. Character: Lionel Fusco: He’s my favorite boy. This is no secret. I love this stubby lil’ ball of grit, determination, and loyalty so darn much. If you want to write about Lionel having a gruff-yet-tender platonic time with any of his pals at Team Machine, I’d be into that. Also, I recognize this is, uhhhhhh, niche, but I have a weird affection for AUs where Fusco is either slightly magical in some way or besieged by slightly magical nonsense. I’m talking “Fusco is a time traveler trying to play it cool”. I’m talking “Fusco deals with some kind of bizarre, fantastical being the same way you might a pigeon or a dude talking to himself on the subway because [shrug] NYC”. If you write or draw something based on this dumb text post I made, you will greatly excite me.