#edlogic

[whodiditbeautier]

[fvneral-m00n]

I eat too much to die

And not enough to stay alive

I'm sitting in the middle waiting

Days since I last pissed, cheeks sunken and despaired

So gorgeous sunk to six stone, lose my only remaining home

See my third rib appear, a week later all my flesh disappear

Stretching taut, cling film on bone, I'm getting better

Karen says I've reached my target weight

Kate and Emma and Kristin know it's fake

Problem is diet's not a big enough word

I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view

I want to walk in the snow

And not leave a footprint

I wanna walk in the snow

And not soil it's purity

Stomach collapsed at five, lift up my skirt, my sex is gone

Naked and lovely and 5ft 2, may I bud and never flower

My vision's getting blurred but I can see my ribs and I feel fine

My hands are trembling stalks and I can feel my breasts are sinking

Mother tries to choke me with roast beef

And sits savoring her sole Ryvitta

"That's the way you're built?, my father said

But I can change, my cocoon shedding

I want to walk in the snow

And not leave a footprint

I want to walk in the snow

And not soil it's purity

Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat

All things I like looking at

Too weak to fuss, too weak to die

Choice is skeletal in everybody's life

I choose, my choice, I starve to frenzy

Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires

Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy

And I don't mind the horror that surrounds me

Self worth scatters, self esteems a bore

I long since moved to a higher plateau

This discipline's so rare, so please applaud

Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so

Yeah, 4st 7, an epilogue of youth

Such beautiful dignity in self abuse

I've finally come to understand life

Through staring blankly at my navel

[corymatthews]

estar sozinho não é estar solitário

Acho que desde que me entendo por gente, o estar sozinho sempre fez parte de mim. Sou filho único e por mais que na infância eu tivesse amigos próximos e primos visitando todo fim-de-semana, a solitude sempre me fez companhia acima de tudo e todos. Na adolescência, como todo o resto, esse sentimento ficou aflorado e demorei muito tempo para fazer as pazes com ele. Hoje somos um só, minha companhia me basta e acho que parti pro extremo de literalmente não querer outras pessoas interrompendo a rotina que criei pra mim mesmo. Meus horários, meus hobbbies, meus. Meus. Meus. Todos meus.

É claro que as vezes me sinto na necessidade de um carinho ou uma companhia qualquer, mas nos últimos anos confesso que acabei me isolando ainda mais. Parei de ir ao cinema com aquele amigo frequente, parei de tentar procurar "rolos", casinhos e aventuras românticas pra preencher algo dentro de mim. Não acho que eu seja contra relacionamentos mas é praticamente impossível pra mim, me imaginar compartilhando tanto com outro – sem contar nas obrigações sociais que um relacionamento implica na vida de uma pessoa como conhecer a família um do outro etc. Só o pensamento disso acontecer me causa calafrios de repulsa.

Ao menos nesse ano, me sinto muito trancado para a ideia de ficar conversando com alguém sobre qualquer coisa, perdi a prática. Me forcei a ser esse animal recluso, me sinto em paz na minha companhia e não trocaria isso por nada – a não ser pelos meus pais. Eu os amo tanto e queria muito ter a chance de poder mimá-los num futuro próximo. Fora eles, estou bem sozinho no meu quarto vendo minhas séries, revendo meus filmes e olhando os dias passarem pela janela. É muito bom ser meu melhor amigo.

[raspberryscals]

Edlog 7/8/24🪻🪺🪻🪺🪻

I had a pretty rough day today restricting wise, idk i feel pretty gross. My family made me eat dinner w them bc I was cut early from work so ://

7/8/24

Wi 157.6😞

9:00 - paced around my room for 30 (112)

11:30 - cottage cheese on toast (80ish)

12-1:30 - walking / stairs (301)

2:30 -protien chips w cottage cheese and some blackberries (250)

7:00 - turkey sandwich (200)

7:30 - almondmilk chai latte (240, forced to buy and drink)

NET::: 357 cal

my net is kinda low but idk i still feel gross like i feel like i did nothing but eat today. I want to fast this week but it always makes me so distracted at work and i always make so many mistakes :(

[shesbeentrying]

screaming at myself. have hovered in performative recovery at 129.5 for like. . . over a month. drinking enough tequila to get me to 1200, then starting again tomorrow

[smallmocha-blog]

day 3 (pic of thinspiration)

this has been my favorite recently. i love the thigh gap, and her waist.

[bangtancoffee99]

My pants are getting bigger but I can't see myself getting smaller so my thought is I probably "stretched them out with my fat" cuz #edlogic :')

[this-is-not-me-talking-blog]

me:"Am I binging because I was starving myself yesterday or because I'm PMSing?"

me:"It must be because I'm a failure and because I have no self control."

me:"My logic is so fine, ED is not messing with my mind AT ALL."

[lesstolove-blog1]

I literally can't eat at work because I promised my self I would fast those days. It's amazing and terrible at the same time because I'm distracted and the fast goes faster but I also stapled my finger to a customers receipt after having a panic attack today because I'm weak as shit when I'm starving and my brain stops working👏✌🏼️

[efroggyd]

Why did i gain 0.2kg when i ate 990cals yesterday qnd exercised?! Wtf is this shite imean it's prolly just bloat but still wtf

[seekfades]

After two minor binge days, I’m back baby! I’m terrified to weigh myself tho haha!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH!!!!!

[corymatthews]

o Brasil sem twt me fez voltar ao tumblr, a que ponto chegamos?

[raspberryscals]

Edlog 7/30🪻🪺🪻🪺🪻

Ok so see how i stopped logging then i gained and now ive been a pig??? Let me lock the fuck in omg.

7/30/24

Wi 159.9

2:00 - protein roll (220)

6:00 - pita (90)

8:00 - grilled chx with buffalo (300?)

10:30 - 1/2 quest bar (90)

NET 600

This isnt funny. Tomorrow im getting back in the groove. I cant keep being a fat fuck.

[calorie-shmalorie]

weighing myself daily

I ate two full dinners yesterday and didn't gain weight. That's pretty cool but weighing myself daily, still, after all these years, isn't. I went a long time without weighing myself at all but I got back in the habit when I moved a year ago. It doesn't reaaally affect me in any way so I wonder: Why do I need to know the number?

[smallmocha-blog]

i’ve been binging for a couple days now but i’m promising myself that i’m going to cut down again, especially if i want to wear a bikini this summer.

[alleydysmorphia]

FRIDAY DAY LOG // 31/07/2020 //

WEIGH IN // 2PM // 48KGS

Rockstar energy drink 342cals // sipped on periodically throughout day // otherwise I had water //

DINNER - optional // 1 meat // 500 limit

Pizza // meat option - Mayfair pizza topping from deli // 470cals // will post the recipe on my food acc @alleydysmorphiafood

All natural Juice 115cals per serve 250ml = I had 1servings

DESSERT ( not counted )

Half of a Gluten free raspberry brownie

Half of a dark chocolate dome

3 raspberries and half strawberry

Caramel sauce as topping

250ml serving size smoothie

INGREDIENTS

banana // 1 and a half) pineapple // ringsx3 ) 5tsp coconut dairy free yogurt ) topped with lactose free skim milk

My partner made this as a treat for us, was so yummy 😍🥤

EXTRAS

Drinks total // 454 calories

DAY COUNT // 924 cals // not including dessert & smoothie

SELF CARE

Moisturise

Paint nails after

Face & lip masks

animal crossing lol

LIP MASK// 1tsp honey //2tsp sugar// leave for 10minutes// rinse with warm water.

COCONUT OIL HAIR MASK // all day process // using raw cold pressed coconut oil melted down