#edit: cleaned it up a little

[possamble]

do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up

i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.

she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.

never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-

i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:

okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.

the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page

she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later

so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions

"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"

"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"

Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.

I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.

On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.

Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.

And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.

Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.

Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it

and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks

And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.

(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)

The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.

And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)

I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.

and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured

In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.

(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)

[userarmand]

Assad Zaman: It was really scary, it was such a scary thing to do to be thrown into that episode, and it's the one I look back at and I have a bit of a out-of-body experience every time I watch it. I kind of don't recognise myself in it.

[bowenoke]

edit: btw it is not safe to wear contacts in the shower! the option is included for accuracy, but please consider throwing on an old pair of glasses or just going blind into that wet box instead.

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 169

this is it, the dynamic

[theultimateultimateweapon]

Been thinking about Little Buddies lately

[lovebunnie]

if erik had let him, charles wouldve told him not to remove the bullet.

he wasnt a doctor but he knew the basics. dressing wounds came with dealing with teenage mutants and it came with being the stepson of kurt marko. charles always knew where the first aid kit was.

a flicker of a memory came to him: raven standing in his doorway with her skin slightly shifting as she lost control over her tears. she had just torn one of her dolls and charles sat up quickly, reminding her in hushed tones as to not wake mother how to sew it up, asking nurse raven for the needle and thread while she giggled and called him dr charles like it was their own secret. he liked when she asked for his help, back when he could still give it and she was willing to listen. charles pushed the memory outwards but felt it drop like a lead balloon; raven was crying in his mind and in his memory.

there were simple steps to take that charles wouldve gladly shown erik through if this situation was happening to anyone but himself.

the bullet was lodged in his spine, it was keeping the blood at bay. one wrong move from untrained hands and charles would be lucky to pass quickly. no, it had to stay right where it was. but he was screaming and erik was sorry and the distant booms of falling missiles shook the beach and charles tried but-

erik wasnt there. he was cradling charles to himself but his mind was muted, completely lost to charles and if he has a voice that wasnt screaming he would have begged erik to keep the bullet there because it was all that was keeping him alive. erik wasnt listening. erik wasnt thinking. erik always struck first, he acted with passion when it came to what he cared about and charles knew erik loved him and how cruel it was to finally realize, here and now, how deeply erik loved him.

please, charles thought alongside his vocal scream, don’t let him remove the bullet, dont let him try, someone stop him, erik, erik, erik—!

but it wasn’t enough. charles felt the metal bullet shift and suddenly there was more blood on eriks hands, something in charles was severed and distantly he felt himself going cold.

that bullet, the one moira had fired and erik had manipulated, laid delicately in eriks shaking palm and charles felt so hopeless. if erik wasnt wearing that helmet, charles could have told him what he had just done.

but he couldnt do that. instead, charles told him the truth. there was nothing left for them, it didnt matter anymore what was happening between them, they didnt want the same things at all.

eriks face, usually so vivid and bright, turned cold. charles almost felt sorry but found himself beginning to lose any feeling at all.

adrenaline was a hell of a drug and once the lingering stench of sulfur was beginning to dissipate, charles realized how cold he still was under the blinding sun. he tried to move to stand on his own and found he couldn’t even twitch.

charles stuttered on his revelation to moira and he wondered if erik knew what he was doing all along, knew just what ripping the bullet he lodged into his spine would do to him.

but no, every twitch of eriks fingers to manipulate the metal bullet was done with love, even his punches to the face didnt feel hateful. erik was angry but he was so much more than his anger. charles knew erik would have never shot him on purpose, just like charles could never shoot erik in their training when he had asked. he loved erik even as he laid on the beach, and erik loved him as he ripped the bullet he put into his spine out of charles.

erik took the bullet with him as he left them all on the beach, and charles wondered what weapon the metal would be made into along the way.

[thebramblewood]

Neither yoga nor getting personal are Bonnie's strong suits.

Bonnie: I don't know about this, Lu.

Lu: Babe, you're literally frowning in your sleep. You'll have a heart attack if you don't release all that stress.

Bonnie: If anything, this is stressing my clumsy ass out even more! Nope, nope, nope, nope.

Lu: You could at least try taking your shoes off.

Bonnie: That isn't helping! My body's built for ridin' horses, Lu, not twistin' itself into a goddamn human pretzel!

Lu: [sighs heavily] Fine. Have it your way. You know, we might be able to sell some of this old junk. It's just taking up space. Wait a minute. This isn't junk. Whose instruments are these?

Bonnie: [uneasily] They were my parents'. From back when they tried to make it as a country duo.

Lu: Bonnie, your parents had a band? How did I not know that? You barely tell me anything about them. We should dust this baby off. Start a band of our own.

Bonnie: Can you even play?

Lu: Sorta.

Bonnie: Good luck bookin' that stage, hon.

[yoshizawaviolet]

I trust in haru-senpai's power to carry you. I think she can chuck anyone at the speed at light tbh. I would let her do that to me huh who said that

anyways, let's talk abt the other version of picking up: pick up lines. how susceptible are the others to pick up lines. this is also for important reasons

i totally agree!!! that she could, i mean, not that she would. i don't think she would! right?

... ohhh ... not pickup lines!! ... that's really not my thing..... ( 〃-〃) but it's worth a good honest try, i suppose.

akira-senpai: ........... i looked up a bunch of pickup lines to give it a shot.

".......Sumire, give me a warning before you say something like that, would you?" "Why though?"

i think he takes what i say pretty seriously, so it caught him off-guard (?) not sure if this means it "worked" though ...

goro-senpai: ............ so then i thought maybe it'd work better on goro-senpai, but ...

( Goro just quietly cleaned up the spilled coffee, and Sumire hurriedly scurried back to a cafe to buy him a new one. )

.... it didn't go much better. ah, i offered to buy him a replacement coffee, though. and he's right, i really should get a new phone ...

anyway ..... i think pickup lines are definitely a bust. i'll leave all of that to akira-senpai.

[miyagi-hokarate]

Alternative version of Robby's "Second Place" Mental Spiral I would have liked to see

[aquarius-cookie-jar]

Life long lessons...

Inspired by @janayuga's designs.

Finally redesigned Caramel Arrow. I think she looks better as a hybrid instead of just a pegasus, which I initially depicted her as.

Also idk why I made Carrow look nervous. Actually, I do. It's because I dunno how to draw detailed wings but also follow the same logic as mlp wings that bend like second hands. Carrow was supposed to look younger and more confident, but I also dunno how to draw tween/teen ponies. I don't remember if they've been depicted in the mlp canon, but I digress.

I'd like to think Dark Choco trained both Carrow and Crunchy before his fall. He was always close to his soldiers, and these two were his best students.

Also btw, I'm planning on posting the Cacao cast their brand new redesigns for the au. I'm just working on the ramblings and lore. Cacao, Choco, Carrow, Crunchy and Affo's design sheets are on their way.

[fightingwithallreality]

A Horse Named Paris (1986) written by Lynn Sonberg, photography by Ken Robbins

[updatingranboo]

updatingranboo’s tagging system

hiya! it’s been a while since i updated my tagging system so here’s a whole new post about it :D if you’ve ever wondered “man, admin sure uses a lot of tags, how do i know how to find stuff using those tags?” you’re gonna wanna check this post out!

all updates are tagged with “#ranboo” and “#ranboo update” for searchability.

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all posts including generation loss across all platforms are tagged with “#generation loss” and “#generation loss update".

generation loss posts are also separated by specific projects, including: #the social experiments - #the founders cut - #chronicle 0 - #the story of lostfield

some notable events like weeks, cons, and trips also have tags, including: #twitchcon paris 2023 - #twitchcon las vegas 2023 - #vidcon baltimore 2023 - #spooky week 2023 - #ranboo rebrand 2023 - #ranbathon2024 - #the streamer awards 2024 - #austrailia trip 2024 - #genloss prop auction - #vidcon anaheim 2024 - #fallout fridays

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i'll continue to update this as i find more tags i frequently use!

[flclarchives]

Illustrations by Hajime Ueda

[sunshades]

Dear god, those Cathys are cute

THANK U DEAR 💖 i've never done sprite editing, i didn't think it would be so fun... i have unlimited power. check this out

[hollowsart]

@coryiswanted

Acedia is always amused by her cringefail boyfriend <3

(not much for 'seduction', but this is still good!!)

[gailytine]

Make the guy more cuntier

aye aye 🫡