#eddie dean more like eddie dead

[louisetaylor]

Obligatory Eddie Dean thirst post

Eddie Dean has adhd, he swears all the time, he has a brooklyn accent like the boys in newsies, he has shaggy black hair in a ponytail, he has wild fierce grinning gunslinger eyes, he shoots bad guys, HE LIKES THE HURT WHEN SUSANNAH PULLS HIS HAIR that one time in "The Wastelands", he canonically isn't okay unless he has someone to take care of, he has a narrow lean foxy face (which is literally my type but hardly ever gets written as "attractive"), he never shuts up, he's quite possibly the literal reincarnation of Cuthbert (who is also attractive as hell), he wants a dad and would have been such a good dad himself

[loveinhawkins]

The RV careens out of the trailer park and hits the open road with what pretty much amounts to ‘all speed, no grace.’ The turn Steve makes is, quite frankly, abysmal; he���s sure that if his driving instructor could see him now, the poor man would be weeping in distress.

Yet his passengers erupt into cheers as they pass the Leaving Hawkins sign, like he’s pulled some kind of James Bond move.

And, for all his insistence on being the absolute antithesis to so-called ‘jock culture’, Eddie rushes over to the driver’s seat, starts squeezing Steve’s shoulder with decidedly jock-like exuberance.

“Holy shit, holy shit, that was so fucking cool, Harrington.”

Oh, he’s definitely broken through the depression stage of the ‘finding out there’s an alternate dimension in Hawkins’ journey—landing firmly in the fuck it, might as well have some fun stage.

Steve could tell they’d reached that point even before the goddamn ‘big boy’ comment, when Eddie had taken one look at the Michael Myers mask, looked Max dead in the eye and said, “This is gonna be. So fuckin’ stupid. Let’s do it.”

Steve goes through a few seconds more of having his shoulder pummelled before saying, “Dude, you’re doing a shitty job at being undercover, stay down.”

“Like, do you have any idea,” Eddie says breathily, as if Steve hasn’t spoken, “just how perfect that was? That was, God, a childhood dream fully—”

“You dreamed of stealing an RV?” Steve says dubiously.

“Not in such crude literal terms, no. C’mon, Harrington, you must’ve had an imagination once—”

“Hey!”

“—didn’t you ever dream of, like, daring escapes, pulling the sword outta the stone, all that shit?”

Steve thinks about it. “I mean,” he says, “when I was a kid, I just kinda… climbed trees and stuff.”

Eddie sighs as if he can’t decide whether Steve’s done something especially annoying or endearing. “Of course you did.”

They reach a stop sign and Eddie finally flops into the passenger seat, facing Steve like he’s sitting side saddle on a horse.

“So,” Steve says, “I take a right after this, yeah?”

“Mm-hmm, well remembered, Mr Getaway Driver.”

Steve scoffs, glances over—finds Eddie framing him with his index finger and thumb, like a director trying to capture the perfect shot.

“James Dean,” Eddie says authoritatively, dropping his hands.

“What?”

“Was tryin’ to figure it out, your whole look, you know? Very Rebel Without a Cause.”

“Okay,” Steve says, “but I have a cause, we all do.”

Eddie just blinks at him, and Steve chuckles.

“You, idiot.”

“Oh.”

Steve has a moment to appreciate the way Eddie’s eyes go all soft and maybe just a little shiny, before he has to set off again. He takes the right turning.

“We should watch it,” Eddie says eventually. “Hell, I’ll take any movie. Just gimme, like, two hours of not having to think.”

“Tell me about it.”

Steve’s sure he’ll never complain about double VHS tapes ever again. Then a thought occurs to him.

“Shit.” He calls to the back. “Rob?”

“Yeah?”

“Y’know when we left Family Video, did we even lock up?”

“Yes,” Robin says followed immediately by, “No?”

Steve snorts. “God, we’re so fired.”

He hears Robin making her way up to the front, then Eddie saying, “Oof, Buckley, that was right in the ribs.”

“Why the sudden concern about our jobs, dingus?”

“I’m not concerned, I just got reminded of—Eddie was mentioning—”

“—Rebel Without a Cause,” Eddie finishes.

“Oh, Steve, I know you’ve seen it, I put it on last week!”

“Uh, maybe I was preoccupied doing, I dunno, my job.”

“It’s the one with—”

“James Dean,” Eddie cuts in.

“Yeah, I gathered, thanks,” Steve says sarcastically, but he can’t help smiling as he does so.

“—and it’s, you know,” Robin goes on, “troubled kid moves to a new town, and—”

“Aw,” Steve says, “you think I’m troubled, Munson?”

“It’s all in the eyes, Harrington. Such depths.”

“Right?” Robin says, and she’s laughing, tongue-in-cheek, “I’ve always said so.”

“You ever considered wearing a leather jacket?”

Steve laughs, too. “Tell ya what, Eddie, why don’t I just wear all your clothes?”

“Well, we know denim suits you.”

“If only you saw his last car-stealing outfit, Eddie.”

Steve sighs. “Robin, shut it.”

“Excuse me,” Eddie says, “d’you have form, Harrington? Grand theft auto form?”

“Literally once. Crazy circumstances.” Rest in peace, Todfather. “It was a Cadillac.”

“A Cadillac.” Eddie sighs dreamily. “Do you have any photos?”

“Uh, no, I was kinda busy.”

“I shall mourn the loss.”

“Take the next left here,” Nancy calls, which Steve is grateful for—the directions had gone completely out of his head.

“Wheeler, come up to the front,” Eddie says, “it’s a party.”

She must do, because her voice sounds much closer when she says, “Shit, I think I forgot to lock up, too.”

“Don’t worry,” Steve says, “no-one’s gonna ransack The Weekly Streak.”

Another stop sign—Steve looks over, smirks at how Eddie has ended up squished between Nancy and Robin, all of them sharing the one seat.

“They better not.” To Eddie, Nancy adds, “I think I gave your uncle the impression that I’m doing a big piece on you. Like, testimonials for an innocent man, stuff like that.”

For a flicker of a second, Eddie looks nauseated at the thought—Steve spots the shift, the decision to make a joke about it.

“Well, Wheeler, you better make me sound good.”

“Oh, I was going more for journalistic integrity.”

“Hey.”

Steve hears a couple of thumps behind him; without even glancing in the mirror, he says, “Sit your asses down, shitheads, don’t make me turn this thing around.”

“Don’t make me turn this thing around!” Lucas parrots.

Max scoffs playfully: “Nineteen going on forty.”

“Eddie was standing before!” Erica points out.

Steve rolls his eyes. “Yeah, well, Eddie’s a law unto himself. Look, just sit down and, like, make a list or something, I’ll stop off for food after we’ve—”

Dustin laughs. “You really are forty.”

“Uh-huh, one more wisecrack and you’re not getting any chocolate pudding.”

Steve’s hamming it up, he knows he is—smiles to himself as he hears a quartet of giggles.

“Can you believe they used to think I was cool?” he says.

“I dunno, Harrington,” Eddie says warmly, “at least one of them doth protest too much.”

Nancy stands in search of a pen, Robin following, insisting to Dustin that, “We’re getting one of those camp stoves, if I don’t eat something hot soon, I’m gonna die.”

“Yeah,” Steve says. Maybe it’s because they’ll soon be arriving at The War Zone; his levity slips just a little when he says, “It’s probably, like, a proximity thing. Henderson’ll have a scientific term for it.”

Eddie chuckles. “What, the Steve Harrington effect?”

Steve shrugs. “You get too close, the shine wears off eventually.”

He doesn’t realise until he’s said it that the joking, perhaps, has stopped somewhere along the way.

“Huh,” Eddie says. “I’m no scientist, but that doesn’t sound like the Steve Harrington effect to me.”

“No?” Steve says.

He can see the parking lot in the distance, and he gestures for Eddie to duck.

“Nope,” Eddie says. Steve can hear him moving, crouching to hide behind the driver’s seat.

He parks and everyone’s abruptly all business, deciding who’s staying in the RV, who’s going into The War Zone.

Steve hates it, has a sudden intense longing to keep talking about movies, to just be stupid.

And maybe Eddie can tell, because just before Steve heads out, he catches his eye, smiles.

“Hey, don’t worry, Harrington,” he says with a tiny, fleeting wink. “You’re still my leading man.”

[feelingthedisaster]

so, me and my mom's bonding activity is to watch shows together, so this means i get to hear her live commentary and opinions. i made a list of my favourites

(disclaimer: this doesnt mean i agree/support what she said)

she talked about jared padalacki and jensen ackles's hotness through supernatural, but not like who's hotter or aged like wine/aged badly, she talked about it in an analytical sense: how the producers used their physical attributes for views and how it changed their portrait as the fans reacted/the actores aged (she says sam started as the 'pretty boy' of the show but as it progressed it stopped)

she insists the actor of eddie was going through some health issues during the filming of season six of 911. her reasoning is that they didnt show his abs as much as they did in the previus seasons so they were covering something up (yep, she went "im not seeing my regular order of firefighter abs, something is wrong")

on the same lane, she also says he got better bc they did show his abs more in season 7

"is this by netflix, right? the intros are all the same"

she diagnosed castiel with autism (she is a psychologist btw)

intense staring at me when rosa diaz came out as bi (which i obviusly ignored)

*watching the harry styles fanfiction movie* me: "dont you ever do that to me" / her: "all your faves are dead"

a lot of complains about the recycling and predictability of the plot of supernatural

an incredible awkard car conversation about lockwood's survivor guilt (we googled his backstory) as the reason of his reckless/almost suicidal actions [she clearly did not want to add to the conversation but i guess the psychologist in her had to]

spn s8, aaron flirting with dean scene "they are making dean gay, arent they?" (didnt tell her anything, there some things you gotta let them figure out on their own)

*edwin payne exists* "well, that's a repressed gay"

[context: we watch shows in english with english subtitles but we are not from a english speaking country, she learned english when she was young and i currently go to classes] me: "i dont need to study for the english test i have tomorrow, i just need to watch one more episode. in fact, tv is actively studying for the listening comphrension part" / her: "right, then im not procrastinating work, im just helping my daughter study for her test then" / "right" / "right"

[atrustfulplace]

looking at 911 and shows that queer bait makes me feel deranged. because like i’ve seen all the classic queer bait shows, some of which i ship (destiel), some of which i don’t (johnlock) and some i can go either way on (merlin/arthur). To me what makes me look at a story and decide whether i ship the characters is the question: would this make a better story if they were together? Usually i can see the straight explanation as possible but often i think it makes for a less intresting story. like dean could have had completely platonic feelings for cas and he just thought of him as a bestie, but the story and deans character become WAY more intresting if he was queer of some kind and in love with cas. Stuff that doesn’t have the same meaning for a straight person, can be world defining if the character is queer (ex: john having him kill the lesbian nuns). it’s that simple to me, destiel makes the story better.

now let’s look at 911, specifically eddie diaz. like i mentioned i can always see the straight explanation, stories can make sense without a character being queer, often they are just worse ones. eddie is my exception, i legitimately cannot see his story as anything other than that of a closeted gay man. like let’s take buck out of this, like the shipper goggles are off here, his and bucks relationship is fruity as fuck but it doesn’t even have to be counted to argue for a gay eddie.

like you have this character and he married the first woman he sleeps with because she gets pregnant and they are both catholic so they are pressured into marriage. he joins the army to get away from her and the responsibility. he would literally rather be SHOT AT than be married to his wife. when he finally gets back home he and his wife fight constantly, he will not give up the simplistic of things to support the needs of a woman who has put her life on hold for years so he could runaway from his family. she leaves, giving no phone number or address and the man is now a single father. years pass and they meet again, not because he wanted her in his life but because he needed her. she tells him that she’s pregnant again and he proposes to her again. she dies and he spends years using her as an excuse to no date women. (all the while growing incredibly close and co-dependent with his best friend who helps raise his child with him). when he finally starts dating again it is because everyone in his life is telling him he should, the relationship gets serious and when someone implies they have a serious future together he has a panic attack so bad he falls over and goes to the hospital. he breaks up with her because he was only dating her because his son loved her. again he spends years before dating again, saying when asked that why he isn’t dating is because his late wife was the love of his life, the woman who he spent LESS THAN A YEAR LIVING IN THE SAME SPACE WITH, WHO IN THAT TIME HE WOULD CONSTANTLY FIGHT WITH, but she was who he was meant to be with. ok eddie sure. when asked why he hates dates he says it’s because he has to pretend. he dates another woman after his family and friends pressure him again. he asks her to move in with him way to soon then quickly comes up with an excuse not to have sex with her, she moves out, they still date. he meets the carbon copy of his dead wife who he proceeds to have an emotional affair with, not physical at all, all his relationships implode from the fall out.

like this story doesn’t make sense for someone who is not gay. the pressure from the church, the denial about the realities of his marriage as an excuse not to date, HAVING A PANIC ATTACK WHEN HE THINKS ABOUT MARRYING A WOMAN, making exuses not to have sex. on its own maybe i could believe he is straight but together it literally does not make sense if he was. the stuff they add to make him seem more straight (dead wife obsession) is what convinces me the most that he is gay!!!!!

the funniest part is that if they actually made him gay they could have one of the most well written and authentic portrayals of deeply held internalized homophobia, repression, coming out later in life, and ultimately choosing happiness and love despite all of those challenges. like he makes me insane, i don’t even like him that much!!! like he’s tied with every other character on the show for me. but he confuses me in a way that none of the other characters come near touching. like eddie diaz I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE!!!!

tld r: eddie diaz as a character does not make sense as anything other than as a closeted gay man.

[brynnterpretations]

WHAT MUSIC THE LOSERS CLUB LISTENS TO ☻

Ben Hanscom

Ben loves sentimental ‘80s pop and boy bands, with his favorite artists being New Edition, New Kids on the Block, and The Jets. It sounds good, is catchy, and most of all, resonates with Ben — say what you want about that sort of music, but the tracks are undeniably well-written (even if corny in today’s standards), and Ben loves it for the artistry and sound. Plus, the singers always look really cool.

Beverly Marsh

Bev loves female-fronted classic rock, with her favorite artists being Blondie, Joan Jett & the Blackhearts, and The Runaways. After her mother passed of breast cancer when Bev was three, the only music record she’d left behind was The Runaways’ self-titled debut album, and she listened to  it religiously. Because of that, she developed a taste for rock and alternative music led by women, and her room is chock-full of Stevie Nicks posters. 

Bill Denbrough

Bill loves folk and psychedelia, with his favorite artists being Donovan, Jefferson Airplane, and Harry Nilsson. Bill likes music that he can appreciate the lyrics of yet still “turn off his brain to”, and especially enjoys ones that are intertwined with nature (whether it’s the songwriting or the “feel” of the song). 

Eddie Kaspbrak

Eddie loves ‘60s doo-wop, with his favorite artists being . Eddie. Because he’s so sheltered that even the radio is off limits to him, Eddie grew up on older music, but he likes it — it reminds him of Coca-Cola, summer bike rides with the rest of the Losers, and sunny days. Admittedly, Eddie also is a big fan of ‘60s girl bands like The Shirelles, but he tries to hide it due to Richie being an ass. 

Mike Hanlon 

Mike loves classic rock with blues influences, with his favorite artists being Howlin’ Wolf, John Lee Hooker, and Muddy Waters. Mike was raised on the 20th-century blues powerhouses by his family — AKA Charley Patton, Robert Johnson, and Son House — and his music taste reflects that. He is a huge music guy, and takes special care of all his vinyls. 

Richie Tozier

Richie loves funky, upbeat new wave, with his favorite artists being DEVO, Oingo Boingo, and Walls of Flesh. Basically, he likes fun, textured music that stimulates his thirteen-year-old brain, with interesting lyrics that range from humorous to absolutely nonsensical. In contrast to Mike, while Richie loves music, he does not take care of his equipment, and has fried his Sony CD player from the sheer force he used to blast “Dead Man’s Party” through it. 

Stan Uris

Stan loves “big band” and swing music, with his favorite artists being Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra, and Louis Armstrong. Stan-the-Man, ever prim and proper, has always been attracted to more sophisticated music, but still likes the fun, jazzy stuff that his favorite musicians offer — see “You Make Me Feel So Young” by Frank Sinatra, one of his all-time favorites.

[dwobbitfromtheshire]

Rueleigh's Thoughts about Eddie being bisexual and/or pansexual again. It's under the cut. Ignore it if you want to, mostly me venting again.

I love the fact that Joseph Quinn just decided to have Eddie flirt with both Steve and Chrissy. He must have thought, "Ooh, what if Eddie was bisexual?" Now, I haven't seen any interviews where he says his character was flirting with Steve, but "big boy" is a dead give away, he's also said with Grace that Eddie and Chrissy would have hooked up. While his sexuality hasn't been stated in canon, it's more canon that he's bisexual. I think that's just a fact that people are just going to have to accept. Eddie Munson is so bisexual coded, and we need more bisexual men in media. I love how Heartstopper is actually open about that and has even corrected people on the show. And we spent 15 years with Supernatural, implying that Dean is bisexual but not actually saying it. It would be nice if they slipped that in next season, but considering they won't even get Robin to say lesbian, I doubt it will happen with Stranger Things. The other show that I watched that has a bisexual woman is Grey's Anatomy, who put her with a lesbian who made biphobic comments whenever they had an argument. I hated it. Even in this fandom, in this Steddie tag, on this site, we still have people who are so clearly biphobic. While it's not all people who headcanon Eddie as gay, it's quite a few who act like Eddie being bisexual is like choking down terrible food. Eddie being gay is a nice headcanon, but it's just a headcanon, and there's zero evidence that he's gay and more so that he's bi and/or pan. Eddie being gay is equally queer as him being bisexual and/or pansexual. Maybe I'm just frustrated by the lack of bisexuality in media and the rampant biphobia and panphobia that are on a site that's supposed to be so inclusive, but it's as exclusive as fuck. I just think there should be equal amounts of gay, bisexual, pansexual Eddie fics. Once in a blue moon, I'll see a bisexual Eddie fic, and I can't remember when I saw a pansexual Eddie fic. I would love to see more where he's also, bi and pan, which you can be at the same time. As I am bi and bi. I'm just curious why a lot of people don't like the idea of Eddie being into women.

[littlespacereader]

Haiii, I hope this request iss Oki:

I'm a trans male little who sometimes still has to deal with periods.. they make me feel very dysphoric and sad, often causing me to regress..

Could you write a fic with that theme?

I'm not set on one specific fandom, here are some options I'd love to see & you can choose wich one you want to go with!!

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[The little one would be a trans guy in every scenario.]

Stranger Things:

Steve and Eddie, both are flips in my hc, so it could be each way around.

Cg Argyle & little Jonathan Byers

Cg Nancy Wheeler & little Steve Harrington

Marvel:

Cg Wade Wilson & little Peter Parker

Cg Gwen Stacy & little Miles Morales

Criminal Minds:

Cg Jennifer Jareau & little Spencer Reid (other cg options: Penelope or Derek)

Teen Wolf:

Cg Noah Stilinski & little Stiles Stilinski (other cg options: Melissa or Scott)

Cg Boyd & little Isaac Lahey

Supernatural:

Cg Dean Winchester & little Sam Winchester

American Horror Story coven:

Cg Violet Harmon & little Kyle Spencer

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So, yeah.. any of those would be cool hehe

Thank you for reading!!

My first ever request!! Thank you so much!! I was so excited and intrigued by your idea! First off I would like to state that I am not trans myself but I am a HUGE Ally to anyone in the LGBTQ+ community! Know that you’re safe with me and I got your back💞 I absolutely loved the list of fandoms and pairings to chose from. I decided to go with Caregiver! JJ and make the Reader the Little with Spencer as an older brother Little. That being said if I don’t do this story justice I apologize from the bottom of my heart! I hope you enjoy this @dino-boyo-agere ! Thank you again for the request!!

Forever Mommy’s Little Boy

Caregiver! JJ & Trans Male Little! Reader with Big Brother Little! Spencer Reid

Tags: mentions of period, pull-ups, hurt and comfort. (Completely SFW)

Relationships: Caregiver! JJ, Uncle Derek Morgan, Big brother little! Spencer Reid, Aunt Penelope Garcia, & Trans male little! Reader.

Nicknames: baby, sweatheart, baby boy, kiddo

Breathe! Just breathe! It’s only about 10 minutes more and we’ll be going home. I can wait that long.

I sat at my desk and was waiting patiently for JJ or Morgan or literally any Caregiver in this office to announce we would be heading home. They would’ve been wrapping up everything by now…what’s taking so long?

The case, like every case before it, was long and exhausting. All I want to do is collapse into JJ’s arms and just be babied for the rest of the night but we were still stuck at work!

Regression played the devil on my shoulder, teasing and taunting me to regress at work. But I couldn’t, not yet. I had to remain big till we got to the car, then I could regress and finally relax for the weekend.

I checked again to see if any Caregivers had finished their files. Morgan sat at the desk across from me and he was still leaned down working, same went for JJ who I wanted more than anyone to finish her paperwork. The rest of the team looked the same, all expect Spencer who, like myself, finished his work early.

Spencer regresses as well. He acts as my older brother, watching out for me and creating all the creative pretend games. I’m so lucky to have him!

With a glance towards him I could see he was struggling to keep from regressing as well. At least I wasn’t alone.

Then suddenly I felt off, like weirdly off. It was a weird feeling I haven’t felt in- oh God no. I must be wrong. I have to be wrong. I quickly stood up from my desk and rushed off to the restroom. I walked in and quickly closed the stall door behind me before checking to see.

Sure enough my period arrived earlier and heavier than expected. And since I was unprepared my pants and underwear are stained noticeably. I tried my hardest to push back tears threatening to spill.

This is dead to me. This…this period, it’s just a nagging reminder of a life that didn’t feel whole. A life that wasn’t really mine, not like now. But this was just a hurtful reminder, one I definitely didn’t need right now.

This combined with my struggle to not regress was not a great combo. With a last ditch effort I cleaned myself up as best as I could before walking out and looking in the mirror. But sad and terrible thoughts plagued my mind.

Tears started to run down my face. There was no holding back my regression now. Immediately I started to just regress, feeling smaller and smaller every minute. I just wanted JJ. I wanted her to hold me and tell me it’s all okay. Tell me I’m her sweet little boy and not-

“Y/n?” Spencer asked before entering the large bathroom. He immediately froze upon seeing me.

“Hey, what’s wrong? What happened?” I must’ve caused a domino effect because I could see Spencer regressing along with me.

“Nothing, I’m fine Spence.” I tried to say, wiping away my tears as fast as possible. But Spencer wasn’t buying it. He also didn’t seem to notice the issue which I was grateful for.

“I know something’s wrong. Let me help! I want to make sure you’re okay…please.” He put a hand in my shoulder and looked me in the eyes.

“I’m fine I just-…. P-Please…get mommy.” I said, barley a whisper. Tears starts to flow again, running down my face as I started to cry.

“It’s gonna be okay. I’ll go get her.” Spencer right away said. As much as he didn’t want to leave, he knew there was only one person who could fix whatever was happening.

~~~

JJ sat at her desk finishing up the last details on her case file. Even though they were still at work her careful Caregiver eyes spotted Y/n leaving the bullpen, and then Spencer right after.

A sinking feeling fell upon her that something was wrong, call it a Caregiver’s Spidey sense. She wishes for once she was wrong. Spencer came rushing over to her, worried and sad.

“M-…JJ, something’s wrong with Y/n.” He tried to explain sounding like his normal adult self. But his regression was in full swing and JJ could easily see it.

“What’s going on? Where is he sweetheart?” Now she was worried. A thousand questions played in her mind.

“The bathroom. I walked in to see if he was okay and I found him crying by the sink. I tried to help but he only asked for you.” Spencer explained.

JJ stood up from her desk and placed a comforting hand on Spencer’s shoulder. “Thank you for looking out for your little brother and making sure he’s okay. I’m going to take care of this, and while I’m gone I want you to go to Aunt Penelope’s office and keep her company. Okay?”

Spencer nodded. “Okay…but just-.” He stopped for a moment, looking up at JJ with tears in his eyes. “Just make sure he’s okay. I’m worried about him.”

She smiled and kissed the top of his head. “I know you are sweetheart. I promise I’ll make sure Y/N’s okay.”

With that small reassurance Spencer nodded and left heading towards Garcia’s office. With Spencer taken care of JJ turned her attention to the bathroom.

When she arrived she could hear Y/n soft cries and sniffing. She knocked on the door, “Y/N? It’s me baby, it’s Mommy. Can I come in?”

Even though it was a public bathroom filled with different stalls and sinks, she wanted permission to enter his space instead of barging in.

If she wasn’t listening as closely she could’ve missed the soft “You can come in.”

JJ immediately walked in and closed the main bathroom door behind her, locking it. If someone needed the bathroom they could go to the one a floor down. For right now they needed this space, just the two of them.

Once JJ and Y/N made eye contact, it was as if the world paused so the two of them could have a moment alone together.

Her heart shattered seeing Y/N so broken and upset. She instantly made her way over to her boy and wrapped him into a tight comforting hug.

“My baby boy, what’s wrong sweetheart? What’s happened?” She asked but didn’t get much in the way of a response.

Y/N just cried into JJ shoulder, finally getting the comfort he’s wanted after this long case.

JJ decided to help Y/N along with figuring out why he was so upset. She rubbed his back with one hand and played with his hair in the other. She could tell he wasn’t in the mode to talk and that was okay. Yes and no questions it was then.

“Did someone hurt you?” She asked. He shook his head against her.

“Did someone say something to you?” Another no from him.

Thank God those were two no’s. Because if they weren’t, she would’ve killed someone.

“Sweetheart,” She said pulling them apart and looking into his teary eyes. “I want to help you as best I can right now. But I can only do it when I know what’s going on. You don’t have to talk if you don’t feel like it right now. But you have to give me an idea what’s going on.” She explained.

Y/N nodded wearily. He turned around and pointed to his pants which now sadly had a small red blood stain on the back.

Immediately it all clicked into place for JJ. “Oh sweetheart I’m so sorry this happened. You’re okay baby boy, you’re okay.” She pulled him back up against her, holding him in a tight hug once more.

“Baby boy?” He broke apart and looked at JJ.

Her heart shattered at the question. She caressed his face and placed a kiss to the crown of his head, “You will always be my baby boy. This will not change that. It never has and it never will.”

More tears started to run down Y/N’s face hearing those words. JJ almost fell backwards by the force of the next hug he gave her.

“It’s okay baby. You’re okay. Mommy’s going to make it all better.” JJ said, rubbing his back to comfort him so more.

When the tears dried and his breath started to slow to a normal rate, JJ broke apart from her boy and wiped the last of the tears away.

“Here’s what we’re gonna do, I’m going to get you set up in the stall over here. Then I’m going to grab your bag and get you changed into something clean and comfortable. After that we’re going to get your brother and head home. Sound good?” She asked only to get a nod and a small smile from Y/N.

“Okay let’s get you set up then.” Taking his hand in hers, she led him over the the big stall in the bathroom. Inside was your standard public bathroom only this time with a changing table made especially for Littles.

“There,” she smiled. “Now, I’m going to grab your bag from my office. Keep the door locked okay?” That got another small nod from Y/N. With a small kiss to his head she left the stall, hearing a small click of the lock on the way out.

~~~

After JJ left the bathroom I felt uncomfortable again. She just made everything so safe and comfortable. Now without her here everything felt overwhelming, scary again.

But she wouldn’t be long. She just went to grab my bag and then we would go home. I couldn’t wait to be home again, laying on the couch with my favorite stuffie on one side and JJ on the other.

But my beautiful daydream was interrupted by the sound of someone entering the bathroom. Despite my stall door being closed, I backed myself far away from the door, my back hitting the wall.

This was a restroom, it would be ignorant of me to think no one else would use it. But I want to just be alone with JJ. Now with strangers walking into the space I felt more exposed and scared.

But the person who walked in stayed by the sinks. They didn’t walk into a stall or wash their hands. Before I had a moment to really question it further, the man spoke up.

“Hey kiddo it’s just Uncle Derek. Your mom just sent me in here to stop anyone from coming in. You doing alright in there?”

A wave of relief washed over me. I let out a breath I didn’t realize I was holding and wiped a few stray tears.

“M’ doing okay.” I managed to say.

“That’s good to hear. You just let me know if you need anything okay?”

I nodded my head. But then I realized he couldn’t see it so I added a quick: “okay.”

Uncle Derek was a life saver! Not once but twice people tried to enter the bathroom but he redirected them away. I’m couldn’t have been more happy to have him there to protect me.

After what felt like years but was only really 15 minutes JJ returned and relieved Morgan of his guard duties. He knocked on the door before leaving.

“See you when you get out kiddo.” He added before leaving the bathroom to JJ and I once more.

I heard the main door to the bathroom lock before JJ knocked on the stall door. I quickly ran over and opened it to her only to see my favorite stuffie in her arms!

“I’m sorry I took so long. I thought your bag was in my office but it turns out it was in my car. But guess who was also in there waiting for you?”

I immediately grabbed the stuffie and brought him close. Between him and JJ being back, everything started to feel calm again.

“Alright baby boy, let’s get you all sorted out.”

JJ opened the changing table, quickly cleaned and placed a cover on. Then she went over to me and helped me and my stuffie up onto it.

With that she started to get to work, taking my shoes off, then my pants and underwear. Then she helped clean up and before I knew it she was sliding a fresh pull-up on me followed by my emergency set of pants.

“There you go,” she said rubbing my belly. “All fresh and clean.”

Suddenly a sad thought came across my head. “Mommy, I can’t wear a pull-up.”

“Why not? You’re too young not to wear one.” She pointed out, making me feeling smaller.

“No, it’s just that…it’s going to have blood on it.”

JJ sighed. She sat me up and held my hand in mine. “I want you to listen to me for a second Y/N. I don’t mind taking care of you whether you’re on or off your period. That changes nothing about the fact you’re my little boy. Do you understand? I still love you the same and I will never see you different. You are and will forever be my baby boy.”

More tears found their way to my eye as she pulled me into a hug once more. I felt so much better now that I was changed, but even more so now that I felt accepted. No matter what anyone said or what my body said, I’m her little boy. Forever.

“Now,” she said breaking apart. “We gotta go catch up with your brother. He’s very worried about you. I’d say he’s so worried he might let you chose the movie we watch tonight.” JJ winked.

“Really?!” I said shocked. Tonight was his movie night choice. But he was gonna let me chose?!

“Really! And if we’re really lucky we might be able to convince Uncle Derek and Aunt Penelope to stay and watch it with us.” JJ added as she helped me down.

Hand in hand the two of us walked out of that bathroom. Once out we went to Aunt Penelope’s office and met up with Spencer again.

He stood up and ran over to me “Y/n! Are you okay? I’ve been so worried!” He wrapped me in a tight hug.

I smiled against his shoulder, “I’m okay Spence.”

“While you were gone I thought of the coolest game we can play when we get home!” Spencer added excitedly once we broke apart.

“I can’t wait!” I smiled back.

“Come on boys, it’s time to go home.” JJ said after talking to Garcia.

Spencer took one hand and JJ took the other as we left the BAU. My little family always knew how to make me feel appreciated and accepted. Caregiver and Little boy. Forever and always.

[saberlight1]

— who i write for

disclaimer: most of my stories are fem!reader, but i will write gender neutral, just let me know. i write angst, fluff, and smut. i am a bisexual female, so i will write about both female and male characters. i am mostly comfortable with writing anything, so don’t be afraid to send in whatever you’d like. my inbox is always open for anything, you can write your thoughts on characters, shows or movies, or my works! much love!

masterlist

arcane —

jinx / powder

vi

caitlyn kiramman

viktor

mel madarda

ekko

vander

silco

jayce talis

supernatural —

dean winchester

sam winchester

castiel

the hunger games —

peeta mellark

finnick odair

katniss everdeen

coriolanus snow

lucy gray baird

tigris snow

johanna mason

billy the kid —

billy bonney

jesse evans

harry potter —

remus lupin

sirius black

james potter

lily potter

bellatrix lestrange

blaise zabini

tom riddle

regulus black

yellowjackets —

lottie matthews

natalie scatorccio

taissa turner

shauna shipman

van palmer

travis martinez

jackie taylor

red dead redemption —

arthur morgan

sadie adler

john marston

charles smith

karen jones

star wars —

anakin skywalker

padme amidala skywalker

ahsoka tano

luke skywalker

leia organa skywalker

the last of us —

ellie williams

joel miller

tess servopoulos

dina phantasmagoria

jesse jeon

the walking dead —

maggie rhee

rick grimes

daryl dixon

shane walsh

michonne grimes

glenn rhee

rosita espinosa

negan smith

tara chambers

king ezekiel

sasha williams

magna

marvel —

wanda maximoff

pietro maximoff

natasha romanoff

yelena belova

bucky barnes

tony stark

scott lang

steve rogers

frank castle

bruce banner

ava ‘ghost’ starr

loki laufeyson

king valkyrie

sam wilson

marc spector

steven grant

layla abdallah el-faouly

matt murdock

miles morales

miguel o’hara

hobie brown

carol danvers

peter parker

gamora zen titan

peggy carter

king t’challa

game of thrones / house of the dragon —

daemon targaryen

rhaenyra targaryen

laena velaryon

jon snow

harwin strong

alicent hightower

sansa stark

helaena targaryen

criston cole

jacaerys velaryon

daenerys targaryen

euphoria —

rue bennett

jules vaughn

elliot hill

lexi howard

fezco o’neill

maddy perez

chris mckay

daisy jones and the six —

daisy jones

warren rhodes

graham dunne

eddie loving

camila dunne

karen sirko

outer banks —

jj maybank

john b routledge

kiara carrera

pope heyward

sarah cameron

cleo grant

shameless —

carl gallagher

fiona gallagher

lip gallagher

veronica fisher

kevin balls

svetlana yevgenivna

more to come!

[sugdenlovesdingle]

watching the new ep and

okay I feel like Athena would be so good at telling stories to kids, idk why, like I've got an image of her and Bobby tucking their son Buck into bed and she's reading him a bed time story

Poor Eddie :/ he just wanted to scare some kids.... :/

okay loving Eddie's expressions so far as a werewolf or whatever he is.

He misses his son and he's in a bad mood :/

it's weird how Bobby says Han rather than Hen when saying Hen

aww Buck :/ - also I feel like this is the first time we've seen Buck really go into spiral, like there are some other ones where Buck was talking to Bobby about how Marie Curie died of radiation (honestly that scene is my favourite cause I'm like that's me! )

also in one way, I can definitely relate to this how Buck just goes into research, but also that's so mean that Eddie and Tommy laughed :/ - I'm very biased to Buck

aww Tommy adjusting Buck's pillow and also saying it's time to put away the screen

okay firstly LOVE LOU'S ACTING, he needs to do these more roles, I have not seen his other films, but he needs to do more like tommy or similar idk. Just he'd be so good at it.

Buck's fingies/hands <3

also just a thought, is Oliver a nail biter?

Okay the scene where Eddie and Tommy are tending to Buck's boils, like is gold. This episode is gold.The delivery of lines.

ugh just want to kind of like in schitt's creek where Mutt shaves his beard and Alexis inspects his face.

Probably just allergies he said, probably clear up next shift he said, aww Buck

OUT OF THE CLOWN CAR

it's really hard to drink my tea with this episode cause I almost keep spitting it out lol

Give Henren a break challenge

I hope they're still together after this, this is quite traumatic for both of them :/

this episode got funny and then dramatic real fast

I kind of like how we're seeing this side of tommy, I think in one way he's like Eddie where it's like oh god, can he just get checked please. the curse isn't real.

ugh just want to kind of like in schitt's creek where Mutt shaves his beard and Alexis inspects his face.

Probably just allergies he said, probably clear up next shift he said, aww Buck, he's so cute, and I love how he quoted a meme, cause tha'ts what I'd do. - I'm very dean coded, and I guess in that sense it makes me buck coded.

OUT OF THE CLOWN CAR

it's really hard to drink my tea with this episode cause I almost keep spitting it out lol

Give Henren a break challenge

I hope they're still together after this, this is quite traumatic for both of them :/

this episode got funny and then dramatic real fast

I kind of like how we're seeing this side of tommy, I think in one way he's like Eddie where it's like oh god, can he just get checked please. the curse isn't real.

I know we talk about Tommy's reaction to Buck's boils when he discovers he's got billy's boil's boils. But can we just also talk about how Buck also gesticulates a lot as well (he just waves his hand at Tommy whilst calling him his boyfriend <3 )

aww Eddie, he needs Chris back

lol @ Tommy: please lift it.

Tommy running after Buck's power walk, he really is trying to keep up with Buck.

I agree with you about Lou's acting - he's so good at comedy and he seems to be having a blast playing Tommy. Someone who ISN'T the Big Strong Man With A Gun who does some crazy stunts and fighting to catch the bad guy like on SWAT (talk about copaganda - that show basically invented it!)

And honestly this whole ep was just showing how GONE for Buck Tommy is. He dislocated his shoulder and he's rambling about a curse and Tommy is there fluffing his pillow, giving him an ice pack for his shoulder, sleeping on his uncomfortable sofa under a tiny blanket to keep him company, and then when he wakes up covered in boils (and demands his phone!) Tommy is there the whole time, being the loving boyfriend even if he doesn't believe in the curse. He even dresses up in a suit to go to the funeral of a long dead cowboy just because Buck wanted him to.

he's down BAD.

He'd do anything if Buck just asked him and smiled at him sweetly.

[soaringeag1e]

Escape {55}

Detective!Dean x Victim!Reader

Warnings: Language, Mild Violence, Guns

Words: 1,767

Escape Masterlist - Main Masterlist - Patreon

The car chirped as he clicked the designated button, locking his car for the second time that morning. After getting word of a bank robbery in town, Bobby had sent out his best deputies but then turned to him and Dean to look up surveillance footage. 

His partner seemed to be pretty exhausted all morning. So much so that he kept spacing out and missing things that he would say to him. He had told him to go home, take the day off as it was clear he needed rest, but it was Dean. Eddie knew that even if he insisted Dean would refuse to go home. So, instead of pushing him for that, Eddie decided to go out and grab a good cup of coffee. One that he was able to add some extra shots to.

He gives a few officers a nod as he passes them on the steps and then enters the precinct, the two coffee's being balanced perfectly in one hand as he pulls one of the doors open. The workforce is busy, everyone working on something whether it be the robbery, traffic violations, probations and upcoming court dates, etc.

Making it to Deans office, he pushes the handle down with his elbow to let himself in, then knocks the door shut with his foot. When he sees his boss behind his desk just staring down at the surveillance photos still, he knows he made a good call on the coffee run. He still wishes he would just go home, though. 

"See anything that can help?" Eddie's question finally gets Dean to look up. He looks from his partner to the cup he just sat in front of him before reaching for the steaming styrofoam.

"Uh…" he pauses to take a drink and Eddie takes a seat across from him once again. "One of them has a tattoo on their wrist." 

"Anything you can make out?" 

"Not yet. Trying though." Dean takes another sip but then goes back to studying the picture in his hands. Eddie can't help but look over his friend, seeing the bags under his eyes and just the overall exhaustion as he's trying to do his job.

"Dean. With all due respect, I really…"

"No." He's used to the quick comebacks, but sometimes it still blows his mind that Dean knows where he was going with his statement.

"You look exhausted."

"Yeah, well I had trouble sleeping last night. Happens to all of us." Again, no use. But that never stopped Eddie from at least trying. "It looks like some kind of octopus arm or something."

"What?" Still soaking in Deans rejection of going home, hearing the word octopus definitely through him for a loop.

"The tattoo." Dean lifts the paper, waving it a moment before handing it over to his partner and standing from his seat. "I gotta hit the head. Be back in a sec." Styles glanced from the photo to his partner until he was out of sight, then put his full attention back into work.

-

Even after getting some more rest, Dean couldn't get that boy out of his head, which is most likely the outcome to how he was feeling. 

He lets his eyes rest for a moment, his thumb and middle finger coming up to massage the bridge of his nose as his feet continue to carry him to the bathroom. Of course the kid was there. Those same creepy eyes staring right back at him from behind his eyelids, and Dean didn't know what scared him more. Those eyes and the fact that it was a dead kid chasing him in the dream or what he had told him.

Save Her

Save who? Is someone around him in danger? Sarah? Mom? You? Or was something going to happen soon to some girl and it was his responsibility to save her? He had no idea. But yeah, he's pretty sure that is what scared him more.

"Whoa!" A chuckle followed the surprise expression, and just the sound alone alerted Dean to who it was before he dropped his hand and opened his eyes. "Looking a little tired there, Winchester."

"Looking a little old there, Cassidy." The older officer laughs off the hit, letting the insult run off like water. Dean intended to continue on into the restroom, but of course the man Dean despised most in the office stopped him from doing just that.

"Hey! I heard that there's a congratulations in order." Resting his hand on the doorframe of the bathroom, Dean tried so hard not to roll his eyes at the fact that Cassidy was pretending to care about his life.

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah. Heard you and that little damsel of yours are getting hitched." Deans jaw clenches at the nickname, his fingers digging into the wood and making his hand cramp. "What's her name again?" Cassidy takes a second to think and the detective only glares at him. "Y/N, right? That pretty little thing and I met a few months back in your shotgun seat." An irritated and uncomfortable chuckle spills from the detective, his teeth scraping against his lips as if his body is fighting with him to keep his mouth shut. 

"You stay away from her." Dean warns outfront, no sugar-coating the conversation in any way.

"Whoa! I was just giving a compliment." Cassidy's hands are up in defense, but Dean knows better. Even without that sickening smirk on his face.

"Just like you were giving Cassie a compliment at the new years party in 2012?"

"Oh man…I was just trying to be nice and get acquainted with her."

"Acquainted, my ass!" Dean growls, letting go of the doorframe and glancing around the area for possible eavesdroppers. "She told me what you did." Dean snarled, getting probably a little too close to his coworker, but he didn't care anymore. "How you got handsy with her." 

"I did no such thing." 

"You can lie to yourself all you want, but I know the truth. Cassie would never lie to me about that." Dean stared the man down, hoping he was getting the message loud and clear. "So I'll say it again. Stay away from Y/N. Because if you don't, I won't hold back from kicking your ass this time."

-

"Oh my God! Look at these!" Sarah grips her magazine and moves around the table to sit next to you. "They're so pretty." She points to the picture of centerpieces, small round bowls filled halfway with white sand then topped with a beautiful carnation. 

"That is really pretty." You agree, looking over the simple pieces.

"We could easily do this and for cheap if you wanted." A soft smile rests on your lips as you gaze at the beautiful pink flower, a color that hasn't always been on the top of your list as a favorite, but it's definitely a color you can appreciate.

"Um…" you hesitate and Sarah easily picks it up.

"What is it?" She asks sweetly, dipping her head a bit to catch your gaze.

"It's nothing." Your head shakes from side to side but you never lift your eyes from the page.

"Y/N…" Sarah turns in her seat, focusing solely on you. "It's your wedding. What do you want?"

"Well...this is beautiful!" You press, finally looking up at your friend. "It really is, but...I've kind of always wanted a fall wedding and this is more…" 

"Summer like." She finishes your sentence earning a soft nod. "Okay. Fall centerpieces, here we come!" 

-

"I can't believe you thought it was an octopus." 

"Shut up." Dean glared at his partner, the two of them waiting for the owner of the house in front of them to open the door. "How was I supposed to know it was a snake's tail from the little bit off that photo?"

"Because you're the all knowing, Dean Winchester." 

"Shut up." The two detectives share a nice laugh before the latch on the door clicks and it slowly peels open, giving them just a glimpse into the house as the woman is taking up most of the view.

"Hi, ma’am." Styles greets the older woman while both men pull out their badges and display them for her to see. "My name's Detective Styles and this is my partner, Detective Winchester. We were wondering if Shawn Ramirez was here?" 

"My son? Um...no. I haven't seen him for a few weeks."

"Well, do you know where he's been staying? Or do you have a recent phone number for him?" As Styles interrogates, Dean studies the woman, watching as her eyes keep darting around nervously. She keeps looking out at the street and then between the two detectives.

He knows she's hiding something.

"I uh...I'm not sure what to tell you. He hangs out with multiple friends, stays with them on and off. He could be anywhere." 

"Well do you have your sons phone number, ma’am?" She slowly shakes her head and Dean catches her swallow, her nerves even more heightened than before. 

"You're telling me that you don't have your only sons phone number?" Styles pushes while Dean backs away from the door, his neck craning a bit as he tries to look around the side of the house.

Just as he does, he hears a noise. One that prompts him to not be so subtle and he walks across the porch, stretching his neck so he can peer over the fence. Just as he does, he catches a younger man darting across the backyard, his head turning back at Dean just before he goes to jump the neighbors fence. 

"Styles!" He yells out, interrupting the two at the door before taking off towards the back, bursting through the gate before following the same path as his suspect.

Even at his age, Dean hurdles over the fence like it's nothing and within just a minute or two Dean is practically on the kids heels, dropping to the ground only a few seconds after him.

After the fourth or fifth house, the kid jumps over a locked gate, heading back for the street. Again, the seasoned detective is right behind him. He launches himself over with ease, but this time when his feet hit the ground, a loud noise echoes through the neighborhood. 

Dean feels a sharp pain in his left shoulder after an unknown force pushes him back against the gate and he looks up just in time to see the kid frozen in his spot, holding a black, polished piece in his hand.

Dean had just been shot.

[daniwib]

Hiiii 💕💕💕

For the fic never have I ever:

1) have you ever written anything about buddie and sleeping (like an insomnia fic, nightmares, cuddling and falling asleep, etc)?

2) have you ever written anything about buddie and chronic pain?

3.) have you ever written anything about buddie and hurt/comfort? What about angst?

4) have you ever written any sort of buddie AU?

-❤️🪐

Hey, hii!

(Me, holy shit, someone actually sent me an ask? Stay cool, stay cool, it’s cool everyone!)

(Also me, oh shit, I did not realise that this means I have to remember what I’ve written. Hmm. This may have been a mistake, I have the worst memory, I really do. Goes and checks out own ao3 profile for the answers…)

Ok here we go.

Nightmares. Oh hey look at that! I’ve actually got a fic with the word in its title, who knew! A spell for nightmares & fractured hearts is a short and fluffy lil fic about Buck helping Chris heal after the tsunami, and then Chris (and Eddie) helping Buck do the same. And because I’m allergic to fluff, I followed it up with part 2 in that series being long, whumpy and angsty. As for falling asleep, cuddling or insomnia, I can’t find anything in my quick search but I think I’ve written all of those in several of my fics, just not as a major part of the plot, more as part of the comfort part after the hurt usually.

Similar answer for chronic pain, I think? I’ve referenced it here and there in various fics but haven’t written on just about that. It’s a little bit too close to home for me, my dad has had 3 hip replacements (first because of major injury as a firefighter when I was 10, he fell through 3 floors in a burning building) so having lived with someone experiencing it, it doesn’t really appeal to me to write.

Buddie and hurt/comfort – um. Pretty much every single one of my Buddie fics?! I filtered my works with that tag and got 30 hits, so…. Here’s one I’m posting right now that I’m kinda proud of Pictures of You, in which Abuela dies post season 6, Eddie hurts and Buck comforts.

Buddie and angst – refer to above answer lol. If I had to choose a favourite, I think I’d choose empty, broken, lonely, hoping, my beloved presumed dead fic where Buck and Christopher are thought to have perished when Buck’s apartment building burns down and Eddie goes through several chapters of angst. It’s unrelenting really, poor guy. 4. Buddie AU – again, I’ve got several depending on your definition.

If you want a truly Alternate Universe, try I Once Was Lost. It’s a Peter Pan fusion where Buck is Peter, Eddie is Wendy Darling and almost all of the other characters feature in Neverland too. It covers from their childhood up until the end of season 5 and I have a particular soft spot in my heart for it.

If you prefer Canon Divergence, try There Walks Darkness. It’s basically What If Maddie didn’t kill Doug and he was arrested instead – and was one of the prisoners who took Buck and Eddie hostage in season 5? It features a lot of hurt Buck, Buck whump, worried Eddie and the 118, some of my favourite tropes to write.

And lastly, if you prefer supernatural AU, try Returned for a shorter read, which perhaps unsurprisingly is based on the movie and tv show… Returned.

Which reminds me of another supernatural AU that I can’t believe I forgot because I adore it! Trust Me, Darlin’ is my first collab, with the lovely @hella-cious! It's a Supernatural / 911 crossover in which Buck runs into an old hook up (Dean Winchester ofc) at a scene in LA and is promptly kidnapped before the 118’s eyes. Lots of angst and whump in this one and while there is Buck/Dean because lets face it, those two are far too hot not to ship together, it ends in Buddie (and Destiel too, for SPN fans!)

So, wow. There you go. This was a lot longer than I expected it to be but then I’ve never done one of these before. Thanks for being my first ask @steadfastsaturnsrings !!

[telekineticseance]

Just letting y'all know I make character playlists in my free time as well. So if y'all wanna check those out here they are. <3 You can also follow me if you’d like on my profile and check out my other playlists as well!

MATTREY CHARACTERS:

JOE YOUNG - ORGAZMO

DAVE THE LIGHTING GUY - ORGAZMO

JOE COOPER - BASEKETBALL

DOUG REMER - BASEKETBALL

ALFERD PACKER - CANNIBAL! THE MUSICAL

TV SHOW CHARACTERS:

EDDIE MUNSON (MORE LIKE HIS MIXTAPE) - STRANGER THINGS

CARMEN BERZATTO - THE BEAR

AZIRAPHALE - GOOD OMENS

CROWLEY - GOOD OMENS

LESTAT DE LIONCOURT - INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE

LOUIS DE POINTE DU LAC - INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE

DANIEL MOLLOY - INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE

DEAN WINCHESTER - SUPERNATURAL

HUGHIE CAMPBELL - THE BOYS

KLAUS HARGREEVES - THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY

MOVIE CHARACTERS:

ASH WILLIAMS - EVIL DEAD

EDWARD SCISSORHANDS - EDWARD SCISSORHANDS

PATRICK BATEMAN - AMERICAN PSYCHO

ART THE CLOWN - TERRIFIER

ERIC DRAVEN - THE CROW

CHAINSHIPPING - SAW

WADE WILSON - DEADPOOL

JAMES “LOGAN” HOWLETT / WOLVERINE - X-MEN

[clowngirlpony]

Stephen King Books I've Read With My Thoughts in the Approximate Order I've Read/Listened to Them

Revival

This is the first Stephen King book I read. It didn't amaze me at the time but being more familiar with King's writing style and looking back on it now I think of it more fondly.

I think the dynamic between the 2 main characters, Jamie Morton, a musician heroin addict, and Reverend Charles Jacob, Jamie's childhood priest turned semi-mad scientist/showman. They disconnect for a while but Jamie and Charles find each other later, both hollowed out. Charles uses his strange science to cure Jamie's addiction, and in return Jamie feels he owes it to the Reverend to help him with his experiments.

The end goal of the Reverend is to find proof of the soul, the afterlife, and that his wife and child are somewhere happy after death. He ends up proving that this is definitely NOT the case lol. Like many Stephen King books, I didn't like the ending until later when I thought on it more.

The Dark Tower: The Gunslinger

The first book of The Dark Tower series and the beginning of my multiyear long spanning hyper fixation on this author. I find Roland to be endlessly compelling as a protagonist, truly a lesser evil, a mindless weapon, a hopeless romantic, and endlessly cold.

In this first book you only get to see the worst parts of his being. He kills anything that can stop him from getting to the tower, no matter who, no matter if there are more peaceful solutions, because he is a weapon with a quest and nothing more right now. In this book he finds a boy who is a fellow victim of Walter, the man he is currently hunting to kill. He slowly grows close to this boy only to realize that the boy was a trap set out by Walter to force Roland into a situation where he either sacrifices his quest for the tower to save the boy, or sacrifice the boy for his quest. He continues his quest, sacrificing the boy, and shattering his soul.

The world is clearly a post-apocalyptic version of our own, 10s of thousands of years in the future. The universe is dying, many worlds are dead already.

The Dark Tower: The Drawing of Three

Roland immediately loses most of the fingers on his right hand to giant lobsters in this book and immediately comforts himself with the thought that he doesn't jerk off with that hand. This book is amazing and truly sets the groundwork for the rest of this book series as a multi-universal epic that spans universes and eras.

The secondary main characters are introduced in this book, Eddie Dean and Susannah. Eddie is one of the best characters King has ever written and is a constant source of light in the series. Susannah is also a really good character but her story starts with a lot of stuff about racism and honestly Stephen King does not have the delicacy to properly handle these subjects so it can be a hard read. Not to mention she has DID which as we all know, is very awkwardly misrepresented in many medias, with this not being an exception. What he does different is that in her arc she is not "cured", she is merely made aware of her state of being and makes peace with her alters. She is also wheelchair bound but still treated as just as strong and capable as anyone else, help is offered to her almost always on a respectful level.

This book's story consists of Roland walking down a beach and dying from infection. He occasionally finds a door to our world at different times of the 20th century. He kidnaps Susannah and Eddie from these worlds against their will by possessing them with these doors.

The evolution of the relationship between the Gunslinger and these 2 is amazing. He sees them as merely pawns for his quest at first, until he slowly respects them more and more, and even learns to love them later on. They see him of course, as their inter-dimensional kidnapper and both try to kill him and each other over the course of the book.

The Dark Tower: Into the Wastelands

The third book in this series. This is where the world building starts to really pop off. You learn about the intersection of magic and technology by a group known as "The Old Ones", which is most likely the human civilization who ended the world and started the slow death of the universes. At this point Stephen starts to lean a lot more into his writings being interconnected, and that this story is the intersection of all his world's and stories.

In this book the boy Roland regrets sacrificing, Jake, is brought back by through ✨shenanigans✨and joins the group, in this same book they also adopt a badger dog like creature called a billybumbler. With these 2 this completes their group which they refer to as a "ka-tet", which is basically a group of people brought together by "ka" which is basically what they call fate but it has further nuance than that.

Main setting of this book is a ruined city called "Lud" which is supposed to be a parallel of New York. In this city is a civil war between 2 groups of dying people who forgot why they're fighting and the Ka-tet gets caught up a lot in this. The relationships of the group deepen a lot in this book and you get to see Roland slowly become a person again to his extreme dismay. He starts to worry that next time he will sacrifice his quest for the tower.

There is a sentient evil super computer that inhabits a train in this book and I want to have sex with it so bad it's insane.

The Dark Tower: Wizard and Glass

"Ka is a wheel, it always turns back to the same place" is a common held belief by people in Roland's world but especially by Roland, because his life is endless tragedy and he's become aware of how Ka repeats itself. He starts to notice similarities between his new and old ka-tet and it starts to really bother him as he can't help but think about things he never wished to think about again.

Most of this book ends up being Roland telling the others an important story from his past, one about his old ka-tet and the events that ended them. The amount of depth this gives to Roland completely changes his character as you start to understand what truly motivates him and why. There's too much to go over in this post but it's amazing.

I forgot to mention this but Susannah fucked a demon last book and is now demon pregnant so a side story about that is starting around this book.

The Dark Tower: The Wolves of Calla

The demon pregnancy sub-story starts to really ramp up. It's slowly revealed that there is a new person in Susannah's mind. At first it's assumed to be another alter but it's eventually revealed it is a demon possessing her body to carry out her pregnancy. This sub-story is still secondary to the current main story in this book.

In this book they find a rice farming town called "Calla". This is one of the first settlements they've found that seems truly intact and still thriving.... somewhat. This town is invaded by a group they call "wolves" every 20 something years to kidnap the oldest children of each family. They are coming again soon so the town asks for the help of Roland's ka-tet. They accept because they think doing so will bring them closer to the tower.

This book is really nice because it shows life in a way we can recognize for the first time in Roland's world that we see. This village is so full of life and culture and community, I just love the side characters we get in this book.

[pottersmiracle]

masterlist 【!】

• Harry Potter

- harry potter - ron weasley - hermione granger - draco malfoy - pansy parkinson - blaise zabini - tom riddle - fred and george weasley - sirius black - remus lupin

• Euphoria

- rue bennett - cassie howard - jules vaughn - maddy perez - kat hernandez - fezco - nate jacobs - lexi howard - elliot - chris mckay - ashtray

• Life is Strange 1 2 True Colors & Before the Storm

- max caulfield - chloe price - nathan prescott - victoria chase - rachel amber - warren graham - kate marsh - frank bowers - sean diaz - alex chen - gabe chen - steph gingrich - ryan lucan

• The Umbrella Academy

- luther hargreeves - diego hargreeves - allison hargreeevs - klaus hargreeves - five hargreeves - ben hargeeves - viktor hargeeves - lila pitts

• The Sparrow Academy

- marcus hargreeves - ben hargreeves - fei hargreeves - alphonso hargreeves - sloane hargreeves - jayme hargreeves

• Supernatural

- dean winchester - sam winchester - castiel - crowley - jack kline - rowena macleod - lucifer - gabriel

• Stranger Things

mike wheeler - jane hopper - lucas sinclair - erica sinclair (platonic) - will byers - dustin henderson - max mayfield - billy hargrove - steve harrington - robin buckley - nancy wheeler - jonathan byers - eddie munson - joyce byers - jim hopper

• The Walking Dead

- daryl dixon - rick grimes - maggie greene - negan - michonne grimes - carl grimes - glenn rhee - rosita espinosa - king ezekiel - jesus - abraham ford - shane walsh

• Outer Banks

- jj maybank - john b routledge - sarah cameron - pope heyward - kiara carrera - rafe cameron

• 13 Reasons Why

- clay jensen - hannah baker - jessica davis - justin foley - tony padilla - zach dempsey - alex standall - tyler down - skye miller

•Slashers/horror

- stu macher - billy loomis - jennifer check - colin gray - ethan landry - [will be adding more i just dont know how to write for some other movies cause i dont know all the lore for them 😭]

•Jackass/Viva La Bam

- bam margera - johnny knoxville - ryan dunn - chris pontius - chris raab - brandon dicamillo

• Pitch Perfect 1 and 2 (i don't like 3 i apologize)

- beca - emily junk - chloe beale - stacie conrad - ashley - cynthia rose - jesse - bumper - benji - pieter kramer - kommissar

The Vampire Diaries/The Originals

-damon salvatore - stefan salvatore - elena gilbert - klaus mikealson - elijah mikealson - rebekah mikealson - kol mikealson - bonnie bennet - jeremey gilbert - caroline forbes - kai parker -

• Avengers (+Loki and Valkyrie)

- tony stark - steve rogers - peter parker - natasha romanoff- thor odinson - bruce banner - loki laufeyson - valkyrie

• Guardians of the Galaxy

-peter quill - gamora - nebula - rocket raccoon - drax - mantis

• ATSV/ITSV

- miguel o’hara - hobie brown - miles morales - peter b. parker - gwen stacy - pavitr prabhakar -

• Youtubers

- colby brock - sam golbach - jake webber - johnnie guilbert - tarayummy - anthony padilla - ian hecox - damien haas - shayne topp -

• Wednesday

- wednesday addams - enid sinclair - ajax petropolus - xavier thorpe - bianca barclay -

• Miscellaneous

- theodore finch - pete davidson - david wooderson - joel miller (show & game) - jake peralta - tate langdon - willy wonka (timothee chalamet) - felix catton - oliver quick - joe goldberg - spencer shay - freddie benson

[will probably update in the future!]

[sorrowful-sparrow]

Imagine a cross over in which Eddie meets Dean and Sam.

Dean and Eddie would 100% have a relationship like Dean and Charlie did. Eddie’s DND stuff at first boggles deans mind and Dean is like, “that’s so lame…” but then totally gets into world building Eddie, comments on things that don’t make sense ..

“LET HIM CAST FIREBALL. BURN THAT ORGE TO THE GROUND. FORGET TO THE DIMENSIONS OF THE ROOM YA TWERP”

“Excuse me! That’s DM TO YOU!”

“*grumble grumble* Son of a bitch..”

“I’d seduce the barmaid”

“…she’s irrelevant to the story, she’s already told you what you need to carry on”

“don’t make me repeat myself.. Dungeon mastaaa” *air quotes sarcastically*

IMAGINE THEM LISTENING TO METALLICA TOGETHER.

It’s totally new to Eddie but Deans been listening for years and they both just vibe

Dean makes a comment about how Metallica calms him down

Eddie is like, flailing and pointing and slap-clapping his hands together like, “YES. DUDE. Finally someone gets it!!”

Sam is just thinking to himself “oh my god no now there’s two of them”

Eddie sees baby and it just VIBRATING with a need to drive her. Dean is dead set against it. Absolutely not. He’d seen the insane way Eddie drove that van. Not a chance in hell.

Dean totally helps Eddie fix up the van 😭😭

Okay so this just turned into Eddie and Dean meeting and Sam feeling like a third wheel and being the only one trying to actually work on the case. Til’ Steve gets there

And there’s a comment made from Dean or Eddie under the hood of the van about Sam and Steve talking about hair care.

Steve is like “who tf are these guys Munson?”

“Just some wayward travellers here to provide aid in our time of need, Harrington”

“Pft. Like these guys have a single clue about what’s going on and what to do”

Sam like, “you call these… demodogs? Demogorgons? Sounds more like…” and goes on into some brainstorm/explaination

Steve is just in awe that they aren’t fazed by the danger, and are just willing to help and have made a plan just like THAT.

Ugh. I didn’t know I needed that. It would be so cute imagine my babies meeting my other babies and just bonding together. I don’t ask for much.. but.. ❤️

[randomvarious]

Today’s compilation:

James Dean: Tribute to a Rebel 1991 Rock & Roll / Pop-Rock / Hot Rod / Instrumental Rock / Teen Tragedies

Well, this album definitely felt a bit weird and ham-fisted. Normally, tribute albums are made in order to celebrate and honor the legacy of a certain artist or band, but in this case, Capitol-EMI sublabel CEMA Special Markets thought it a good idea to celebrate and honor the legacy of someone who *was not* a musician: the posterchild for mid-50s male youth rebellion himself, James Dean.

But only a few of the songs on this album actually seem to make any reference to the guy at all: the opening classic bit of minimalist 1974 brilliance, David Essex's "Rock On," mentions Dean's name directly; the closing somber a cappella done by The Beach Boys, "A Young Man Is Gone," is a lyrically revised version of The Four Freshmen's rendition of a song called "Their Hearts Were Full of Spring," and is a clear ode to Dean himself; and an obscure, sweltering, mid-60s hot rod instrumental in the middle that feels like it was made for the open road, by Davie Allan & The Arrows, shares the same name as the film that Dean was most famous for starring in: "The Rebel (Without a Cause)."

And before that Arrows one made its way onto this comp, the only other place you could've found it was on an Arrows LP called Apache '65, which was released in, you guessed it, 1965. It wasn't a hit, wasn't released as a single, and it wasn't on any other V/A comp either, so props to whoever was ultimately responsible for compiling this thing for including it, because although it shares the same name as Dean's most famous film, it's also probably the most obscure song on this album. Go figure!

But the rest of these songs don't really seem to have anything to do with James Dean, besides carrying the same themes that wound up defining his persona and story: cars, racing those cars, ungrounded rebelliousness, and tragic motor accidents.

And there are a whole lot of songs out there that are about all of those subjects, so I guess I really just find it kinda odd and crass to try to cash in on this dude's legacy by retrofitting a bunch of songs onto a compilation and then claiming that they somehow specifically represent his very own essence. Can't say that I'm particularly a huge fan of this strange angle.

But still, every song on here, on its own, is nothing short of great. Had CEMA tried to market this collection as something more vague, with a title that's more clever, but basically means the same thing as Songs for and About Cool Dudes😎, this album definitely wouldn't have left as sour of a taste in my mouth as it did.

Great collection of pop and rock oldies that span the 50s through 70s, but an awkward theme to unite them all under, I think. There’s gotta be a classier and more authentic way of celebrating and honoring James Dean than this.

Highlights:

David Essex - "Rock On" Duane Eddy - "Rebel Rouser" The Shangri-Las - "Leader of the Pack" Eddie Cochran - "My Way" Chuck Berry - "No Particular Place to Go" Dion - "The Wanderer" The Arrows - "The Rebel (Without a Cause)" The Allman Brothers Band - "Ramblin' Man" The Beach Boys - "Shut Down" Link Wray - "Rumble" The Rip Chords - "Hey Little Cobra" Gene Vincent - "Race With the Devil" Jan & Dean - "Dead Man's Curve" The Beach Boys - "A Young Man Is Gone"