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Wait... You don't want to rant to/about me? You just want to talk?
This is where you can have a normal convo with me, about whatever you want! Feeling like you need to talk in normal, and nobody will judge you in this safe space of a post!
#emotions#safe space#just talking#express yourself!#peaceful post#you are loved#dump your emotions here#feel free to be who you are#share to who needs to hear it
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There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious. and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!" Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible. You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester. Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it? So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.
#I FEEL LIKE COMPLAINING RN in the context of this alternate universe these posts live in. that makes me evil rn. I may not even keep#the post up. but I Needed to complain about these bc I hate seeing them#really funny and good because it very much feeds into that part of the brain where you go wait am I stupid? am I horrible? am I annoying?#before you express any kind of personal feelings. from feeling insecure alll the way down the spectrum to feeling like your life is over#before anyone How Dare You Say We Piss On The Poor-s at me YES there is a nuanced version of this#which is. you can make someone feel like shit (A Fellow Sufferer Of The Mental Eelnesses) by using them as your dumping ground#in excess and usually with no regard for how they feel and without Regular conversations inbetween#and in a one-sided way where they can't do the same and complain with you as a sounding board in return#don't tell new friends you hardly know abt THE MOST personal shit you can possibly think of. there are steps being skipped here#right? we know this. we all know it. setting a boundary is a thing. overwhelming a person is a thing#on the other hand there is such a thing as a friend who IS okay to listen and wants to help. and friends who relate.#maybe talking abt personal stuff makes ppl feel closer sometimes. just a thought! maybe not everything is Emotional Labor. maybe just maybe#but like come on. these are almost intentionally unhelpful posts#long post
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Jensen Ackles single-handedly saved this fandom from complete irreversible collapse by changing his line to Cas in Goodbye Stranger (8x17) from "I love you" to "We're family." What a good little soldier. I salute you. 🫡
#seriously tho#he said it was out of character and he was right#this episode isn't even the first time cas has beat him up and they wanted to drop an “i love you” here?#that's absurd#dean didn't even say it to sam in swan song#and they wanted to put it here#ridiculous#even if d*stiel is your ship you have to admit this would be terrible timing#emotion dumps are for finales#8x17#goodbye stranger#supernatural#meta
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guys u do realise abuse can be accidental right. “cwilbur didn’t abuse ctommy he loved him he just lashed out and put his emotional burdens on him!” yeah that’s… abuse. cwilbur didn’t mean to do it but he did. abuse doesn’t need to be exile arc level to be abuse jfc
#The bad c!crimeboys takes continue even here#Please think about what you’re saying#dumping all your emotional problems onto a dependent is in fact a form of abuse.#like. abuse isn’t a bad guy evil nightmare thing it’s feeling Owed something or someone and acting on that#good people can also be abusers#This doesn’t mean c!crime is inherently unhealthy it means c!wilbur needs fucking help#I had this shit happen to me as a young child and going it isn’t abuse abuse is just exile! is obnoxious
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i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle
#auburn's rambles <3#i think about that time when people were shipping me w him a lot#and i don't think i ever really addressed how bad it made me feel#like i told people to stop yeah but now whenever i see idia i think about how upset and frustrated i was#like it keeps coming BACK i can't get it out of my HEAD#THIS GOT KINDA VENTISH WAIT#idk man it's late i should be asleep but Fuck i cannot stop thinking about how that got so out of hand#my poor lab partner had to deal w me that day LMAO i like. cried in front of her#and i don't know why my brain keeps coming back to it because nobody makes jokes like that anymore#and everyone who did sent me apologies which was so sweet#anyways hello ygys i think i just needed to get this off my chest goodnight#FOR CLARIFICATION I AM OK!!!! i think im just emotional rn and i did not expect to dump a whole ass essay here#muah muah love ygys thank u for being on my side i hope all of your pillows are cold and you have sweet dreams
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"I see.. Destruction and Despair . . .
. . . Gᴏᴏᴅ / Eᴠɪʟ the line blurs. . ."
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the way people talk about and view mental illness has always been under this veil of sympathy and understanding but really when that energy is most needed it all just vanishes. we have 200 more specific terms for certain symptoms and 2000 more videos on how to stop procrastinating and how to deal with rejection sensitive dysphoria and 50000 new videos on how it's In Your Brain and it's Hereditary and it's Homemade by your Primary Caregivers but people still dont really ...get it. they just dont. the resources available are so hollow. its empty promises. suicide hotline that just gets you insta-detained. therapist you talk in circles with for a third of your income per session. housing program with a wait list that only gets longer. this insistence that you build up a support system with no support. this quietly depleting time frame you have (or feel you have, this very real pressure) in which to get your shit together before you're just another sad statistic. always having to wait until you're at the brink of complete self destruction to get help, and by then. how much damage is already done
it's all just casting shadows on the wall
#i do think healing is possible i have seen that in the world#i do think there ARE good resources but they are few and far between#i think the greatest resource at anyones disposal tends to be something thats hard to build from the ground up#which is: a stable foundation. family members you can fall back on#if we had stuff like ubi. guaranteed housing. i know people here know that already#but truly. truly that is one of the most key things second to the good family that a lot of ppl dont have#wouldnt fix everything but itd be such a good start#every couple decades we reinvent 'moral care' when we realize the institutions for mentally ill ppl are actually like. brutalizing them#the way they have since the beginning#and then those good intentions get bogged down by The System of it all all over again#at some point we have to reckon with the sheer amount of people struggling this way and prepare resources more adequately#have enough people so that everyone can get the amount of support they need and give that support without getting burnt out#thats why we end up wsith this stuff like friendships that cant handle your 'trauma dumping' and 'emotional labor' bc there is...a capacity#for everyone#which is why you need a whole host of people you can trust and confide in. which is hard to get!
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honestly. it's so fucking frustrating and disheartening. that the only thing making me hesitant to cleanly cut contact with my mom, the thing that still looms after cutting away from my dad........ is that when they both finally bite it, that's two houses to sell. that's money that may mean *i* get to have my own house someday.
the key to the security my parents failed to give me from the moment i was born lies in their deaths. the least they can do. the very fucking *least* is to leave me the means to build that security on my own. they owe me so much more than that, but realistically? that small act of restitution is all i can and will ask for.
until then? i want nothing to do with them.
#the comments of the article i'm reading involves people discussing their reasons for not going no contact with both parents#one of which being that they're not ready to be an orphan yet#and fuck. i know it's more complicated than this but. i've *always* been an orphan#i've wanted to let my parents go for a very long time#it took longer to do my due dilligence in giving my mom eight million chances but. those chances have come and gone#i don't want to do the work to whittle down our interactions. i don't think our relationship is worth carving it down to 'we can talk for 20#minutes once a month about light topics only. i don't want to hear about your sisters or my dad again thanks'#i get nothing out of that#i feel like now that i've Made Up My Mind (finally. it took so fucking long 😢) i'm obligated to give her one last chance#after outlining the New Rules#but she's an adult. as one commenter said '[s]he was always capable of respecting you.'#my mom is an adult. for all the work she's done on herself#she could've caught on that benting about her sisters every time we talk is not an appropriate topic of conversation#she could have noticed all the times i tried to interrupt her when she was here. not even to interrupt her to stop her from talking but#interrupting her so i could PARTICIPATE in the conversation#she is an ADULT and she is capable of looking at our interactions and seeing that they need improvement#there are certain boundaries that polite well adjusted people do not need to deliberately express to expect to have them respected#my mother is responsible for identifying those boundaries and that work. no i can't expect her to read my mind and intuit my boundaries#without me saying so. but i CAN expect her to ask my consent before discussing heavy topics. i CAN expect her to be self aware enough to#allow me to participate in conversations with her#i CAN expect her to manage her emotions to not be a volatile monster just waiting to trauma dump or explode#it is not my responsibility to teach her basic interpersonal decency#and i don't need to give her the eight million and one'th chance to prove she can be respectful this time#she was always capable of respecting me. she just chose not to#venting her feelings and being in her triggers is more important to her#and i sincerely hope she'll stay tangled in those feelings and not bring out the gaslighty 'i'll do anything to keep you in my life!!!!!!'#because. clearly. she will not.#she was always capable of respecting me. and emotional manipulation is not a part of that#personal#i just want to get my parents dying over with so i can afford a down payment on a fucking house
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I wish I could articulate my earnest and sincere feelings about the usage of "I'll Be Seeing You" in Deadpool and Wolverine but unfortunately I can't take myself seriously long enough to string my thoughts together.
#the song is a tender goodbye! what the fuck! in MY dick jokes movie???#the junk drawer where people who are deemed irrelevant to the narrative are dumped#the dragon bearing down evokes for me the wolf that swallows the sun at the end of the world in norse mythology#they're in a wasteland outside of time and meaning#and the two most significant people they find there are laura-- whose narrative purpose is over now other logan is dead#and cassandra-- who logan tells with complete conviction that charles would have rescued her if he knew she existed#like! i don't even GO here i don't even know these characters i came to this movie through deadpool NOT through wolverine#but i'm like. SO emotional about this even without having the full context#it's about how stories don't go away just because they end#and it's about a cosmic scrap bin where all your dolls can live together :) which speaks to my personal sensibilities re: fanfic#anyway hot take but this movie did the end of homestuck better than homestuck did#deadpool and wolverine#i feel like i need to apologize for this post. why am i being earnest and sentimental about this marvel movie.#well it's because i'm mentally ill
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#vent post essay ahead lol#having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad.#the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like#i mean im talking abou t me here obviously.#being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like.#it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help.#i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to#like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m#i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s#i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's#it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus#i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li#i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like#ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!!#because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know#and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like .#i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad.#my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik#my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine#makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS#it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well.#i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum#fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri#you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though#so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do#and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode#and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate.#i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day.#jane mary cry one tear
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Something something whilst I’m sure it’s annoying to have a friend who can’t take a compliment despite being obviously hungry for compliments, I did unfortunately spend most of my childhood and teenage years being told in no uncertain terms, from Many People in my life, that I was ugly and unlovable and a deeply annoying person who would never be enough and so that makes accepting compliments slightly difficult. Which is a me problem! I can admit this!! But still. It’s tough
#my post#when you spend most of your early years waiting for a hit that may or may not happen#and in fact happens randomly to the point of being unable to flinch away at the right time#it makes it hard to like. be a person. unfortunately#I know it’s annoying but it’s also like. shrugs. what can you do#something something prey animals were born afraid#sorry to all of my friends who have been witnessing emotion dumps constantly on here I Am Also embarrassed
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Realizing you cried for weeks over a guy you weren't actually that into at first, like the only reason you ended up going out was because he lived nearby and was more persistent than the other guys you were talking to. Absolutely wild. Humiliating.
#relationship#breakup#emotions#moving on#dating#embarrassing#online dating#dating in your 20s#bro was the one who wanted me#i was unimpressed by his profile#but here we are#he dumped me because he didnt like me like that#bro what the fuck#what do you mean by that#you're literally my boyfriend#not anymore#lmao#i still dont know how to tag
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just had a very intense moment of trans joy bc i just realized like. This week im gonna go to work with short hair wearing my binder and im gonna walk in and my coworkers are gonna say "hey lucien" and i'll put on my trans flag pin and my he/they pin and im gonna introduce myself as lucien and holy shit. man. this is real. i can do things like this. will it always be pleasant? no, i still get misgendered by customers constantly. will I be able to go home like this? no, i'll have to change out of my binder as soon as i get home and hide my pins before i even start my car. but i get to go out and wear them in the first place. people still call me by my name despite knowing my deadname. people call me they instead of she when they don't know my pronouns. i have queer coworkers. I feel safe. the other shoe will drop eventually, but until then, i'm going to bask in what i have
#sorry for the emotional dump everybody i was reading tsp fanfiction and just. almost started crying for no reason bc of this#i dont know its just. i didn't think i'd be able to get this far. its the small things#when youre alone so often you forget to look at the bigger picture and even when you do it seems so so far away#like you won't survive long enough to reach it#and you struggle and spiral and wonder if the trek there is even worth all the pain. that maybe itd be easier to submit#but sometimes you hit a place that's your own little safe haven and for once in your life you feel comfortable#and your brain feels a little lighter and suddenly the pain hurts a little less#and you can see that those things aren't so far away. what was once a galaxy away now feels like a mountain#its far away and hard to reach but by god it feels achievable#from a little trans flag sticker to a pin to a name change to voice therapy. i'll get there someday. i'm just happy i got here#i think this is probably one of the most personal posts ive made? eh. idk it might resonate w someone#mossy's rambles#luci's rambles#trans#transgender#trans positivity#lgbt#lgbtq#lgbtq+#queer#pride#i didn't really do anything for pride bc my hand was out of commission for the whole month oops- consider this your pride post
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We don't talk enough about what it's like to grieve a parent that's still alive.
When they change. Either because they go through things in life and become different, or you just learn who they are outside of your clouded view from being their child.
When we're young, we rely on our parents. In my experience (and the experience of others I've talked to), it doesn't matter if they're good at parenting. It's our instinct to reveire them, to love them, to idolize them. And when they change, it's like you've lost them. In a way, you have. Because the person you knew, the one you loved, has disappeared in front of you. And only a shell of them remains. Someone with their face, their voice, the same scars, the same wrinkles by their eyes. But they aren't them.
And usually this happens in adolescence. When everything else in your life is already being questioned and changing. And the person you are supposed to turn to for support and guidance has abandoned you. And yet, they're still there. In your day to day, living with you, talking to you. But not there.
And you are left to grieve this relationship, this important person (maybe the most important person to you), this idol of yours. And nobody understands it. The parent you now have won't understand. Will feel attacked and defensive. And it's so incredibly isolating.
Maybe it's just me, but it is something so gut-wrenching and terrifying and emotional. In a time when you are naturally unable to properly regulate and understand those emotions. And we should just acknowledge it a little more.
#let me know your thoughts#does this make sense?#parents#parenting#grief#trauma#teenage years#childhood#loss of childhood#need i say more?#emotions?#never really figured out how to deal with those#re: this entire thing#doing my best out here#this is what happens when i bottle everything up#it comes out on a tumblr blog years later at 2 am#flying right out of that tightly packed bottle#making room for *new* traumas#check out the rest of my blog of you like this#and other info dumps of old wounds#sad vibes
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the thing about mass effect 3 is that if they’d just ended it with Shepard and Anderson sitting side by side and then it choosing your ending for you based on how many war assets you had, people wouldn’t have been half as pissed as they were
#like sure some still would have been mad but I think people would have been mad no matter the ending#simply because no ending could ever match up to the one people write in their heads#but like fundamentally. the problem with me3’s ending is that you Have your big emotional climax with Anderson#you beat the illusive man. Anderson dies. and then you have to Keep Going after that#(like. as much as I do kind of love the way Shepard gives fucking Everything in that moment and is beaten all to shit and yet Still Gets Up.#in execution it leaves a little to be desired.)#so like you’re fresh off the high of the illusive man/Anderson confrontation and they hit you with boom random starchild. exposition dump.#like the fact that there are those three (technically four) endings to me3? not really that big of a deal. should they be more nuanced? yes.#but come on. EA. it was never happening.#so like. without adding anything to the endings themselves. if you took away that final choice. if you emphasized them being Results.#I think that would fix a lot of things.#(also personal note but I’d reorder them by war assets needed. with control requiring the least. synthesis in the middle.#destroy needing the most. with destroy + Shepard living requiring All You Can Get.#just to drive home like. this was the goal. you are here to destroy the reapers. if you can’t get enough power to do so?#you will become like the illusive man. like saren. you will wield a power you do not understand and leave the ending in suspense of whether#Shepard is really the one in control. but with destroy? that’s it. you fucking did it. you won. take a nap Shepard. you won.)#(and okay I said no adding anything but final final note? if you get the Most War Asssets? edi & the geth should live.#like. okay listen. renegade playthrough should be able to get the war assets needed for Destroy + Shepard living easy.#but paragon should be harder. should take work. you can get there but you’ll struggle to remain true to your code. right?#but it is also only paragon that should be able to get those extra bits of war assets that allow for the Geth + EDI living ending.#because a renegade Shepard wouldn’t share that goal. they are ruthless. they win and they got the job done and the cost was worth it.#paragon is no man left behind. idk I’m rambling. I just wanted edi & the geth to live. I think it spits in the face of the whole point#of the geth & quarian part of me3 that the geth don’t survive destroy. like. god maybe give Shepard an option to go ‘hey legion implanting#every geth with reaper tech seems sketchy? you sure about that?’ like we could have at least had that lmao. idk. idk.#I guess that’s what synthesis is. going for? kind of? but then it misses the mark by nullifying the conflict of organica and synthetics that#makes their chosen cooperation so meaningful to begin with.)#okay nooow I’m done I swear. sorry. I’m tired.#mass effect
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Listen I'm all for seeing Sada and Turo realize how they neglected Arven before their death and/or going a no death au route with it, and/or the AIs stepping in to help fill the parental rolls that he didn't have.
But personally it doesn't sit well to gloss over the neglect and emotional abuse entirely. I'm not saying to clarify that's a known fact every time they're talked about, I'm just saying to understand that they were neglectful and emotionally abusive parents, and that a good chunk of Arven's character arc was about realizing he wasn't just an afterthought in their lives and that he's his own person with his own thoughts/feelings/dreams/etc.
#i know i've talked about this before#but seeing a post that glossed that over and really excused how he was treated made me genuinely uncomfortable#considering how i was emotionally neglected by my parents and in some points neglected straight up-#it made me uncomfortable seeing how easily explained away arven's trauma was#i really want to leave it up to it was some misreading but at this point the posts defending the behavior of the professors-#just really downsize the trauma that we see in arven and take away what made him even more relatable to the majority of people#no his parents didn't just suddenly neglect him when they died it was back when he was a child#and how the last time he saw them in person was when they took back the giant lizard they dumped on him#like bulbapedia literally has all the quotes he says come on it's really hard to give the benefit of the doubt#like misreading while playing yeah but after it's all online it's hard excuse the ignorance#like i'm not saying 'oh i misread it my mistake' it's the 'i've seen all this stuff and i'm still gonna say he was pretty ok' things#he literally even says he hated the lizards because his parents took them back after escaping and he felt like he got replaced#like that's really hard to ignore as part of the trauma#thing is i block people who gloss that over because it's like-#it's very clear neglect and emotional abuse being excused and being portrayed in a way that's very 'hey sympathize with your trauma here'#which is awesome considering how that gets steamrolled or made fun of in most media#but looking at that and saying 'no he wasn't neglected at all it just started when the emails stopped' is like just...idk#'well he had food and books and his dog had a bed and-' those are very basic necessities#listen i always think back to my guidance class in elementary school and the lovely lady who taught it#and i always think about the videos we were shown explaining abuse and neglect and her telling us about it#and the story of neglect that stuck to me was this little girl who would be left at home for days on end with just a bowl of oranges#and then she would get passed from home to home#and i look at arven and think 'he's just like that little girl'#and then i think 'a lot of that was how i got treated'#i wasn't left at home for days on end but i was emotionally neglected in favor of my parents wanting to always argue-#and a lot of times we wouldn't have dinner because they would argue instead and i'd be too afraid to get food because of it#and seeing arven's trauma being excused/downplayed/ignored/etc is like 'where do you draw the line with that'#where do you draw the line that a child was neglected and emotionally abused and abandoned?#is it because his parents are somewhat attractive? because ai squeaked out a very personally forced 'they loved you'?#just because he wasn't physically abused doesn't make his trauma any less valid or his parents any less of shitty people
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