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being polyam is so fun and great in theory until you're crushing on TWO people and it's literally just insanity all hours of the day but doubled
#insert damn bro fhis crush i have kn yiu is giving me brain damage#idek if one of them is a crush. i wpildnt want to pursue a romantic relationship with him#due to multiple reasons#but im over here giggljng and twirling my hair and#gah#thisnis cruel. fuck rhis baka world#mossy's mumblings
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#report writing!#these shots are excellent i love the cinematography#not watching any new episodes today sorry yall#multiple reasons including rl but also like. i havent slept more than four hours in a row since Monday night#literally just due to watching this show#so uh. im trying to calm it a bit#some more gifs coming though maybe#and im working on a fic...#a few fics...#watch this space...#s02e04#sleepless#x files#the x files#gillian anderson#dana scully#my gifs#the scientist speaks#notes: 200
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Some kind of creature, mayhaps... to me...
#Yes I'm going insane due to multiple factors#valak#valak conjuring#the conjuring 2#the conjuring universe#the nun 2018#the nun 2#horror movies#snake's art#On the other hand I have seen multiple people mention that her eyes were really pretty in The Nun 2 for seemingly no reason so that's funny
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Kinda in regards to the Empress & BodyGuard 2-
Is Zaphira (sorry if I spelled her name wrong) an elf or do humans have pointed ears in your universe? If no elves, how do the pointed ears happen? Are there different length of ears and if so do they mean somethin?
Love your art & use of colours!
Thank you! and thank you for asking! (this sketch took me way too long .. and the colors still look washed out on my desktop screen but im not editing a third time ..)
Zaphira is human, there are no elves, as such, in this world, though humans tend to live longer than IRL and have differently shaped ears-
the shapes are rather diverse (example above) and culturally (so far) they have no significance, they are merely a trait just like different nose shapes or fantasy hair colors
the worldbuilding reason is that these are extremely diluted demonic influences- in the past demons were frequently in the human world, though largely in secret/disguised, and long time exposure to demonic presences can have varying effects, the most immediate and common being a longer life or wounds healing faster than normal; there might have been other long time effects but the only trait that stayed even after their disappearance is the ear shapes
(there was a mass extinction event of demons that wiped out all above a certain age, since demons generally dont die of natural causes their life neither depends nor revolves around reproduction so there were extremely few left and those were too young to keep most of their knowledge and culture alive, as they rarely wrote anything down; Shargon is of the current oldest generation and witnessed it happen, just like most now adult demons, Thor and Eadrya are both a bit older than him and thus the oldest living demons, which doesnt mean much considering the technically endless lifespans of them)
and to explain me including Shargon in a human appearance- hes the only demon that spends as much time in the human world as at home, largely to escape the others since they are not interested in going there and would otherwise attack him any chance they get (the human world is rather uncomfortable for demons to be in and they have better things to do than to chase him that far), while hes generally very weak compared to them, something he is very good at is shape shifting, mainly the speed of which, being able to shift between full demon and the smaller more humanoid form extremely quickly, or even mid forms that are a mix of both - even in motion! while for the others it takes them quite a bit and forces them to stop which is the main reason he keeps escaping them not able to keep up with his rapid shape shifting (though it does take its toll .. also a reason hes so skinny)
he is the first (only?) one that at some point will learn how to shift into a much more human looking one (depicted in the sketch) too, but its rather dangerous since it involves supressing and compressing his demon heart and system... which is what keeps demons alive (its somewhat like holding your breath for way too long) so the only time he would make use of it is in extreme situations, like avoiding detection by maschines that can pick up demonic energy or escaping shackles made of celestial silver (which drains their energy and can scar/hurt them permanently, like silver to vampires(?werewolfs?) in a way)
....the point is that if he shifts into a human form he has very long ears, meaning that is basically the extreme form that doesnt occur in humans and hints at the origins for those ear shapes being demonic exposure in the past
#ganondoodles#art#original characters#original art#oc#ocs#oc lore#man i cant ever keep it short can i#its 1am again ............#welll i hope that answers your question njdflndflnjlsd#also as a sidenote- zaphira and midas are siblings but not biologically#she was adopted into the royal family and is good chunk older than midas as he was born a while after shes been there#he was supposed to take the throne after their parents died in an allegedly accidental fire but he was like ... 6 at the time#and begged her to take up the throne instead despite the people not being very fond of her due to her agressive nature#.... which was proven correct in a way given she waged war for many years after taking up the crown#(.. bc she found out their parents were killed by a neighbouring country and the fire placed to get rid of traces)#(no one but her and a few officials knew of that being the real reason she attacked that country and not just a lust for power)#(midas still doesnt know -even now)#( though it got out of control and she ended up taking over multiple countries .. hence her title)#(after her wife died she swore to never engage in war again and been spending the last .. 20?30? years trying to repair the damage she did)#just adding that again bc its kinda central to her entire problem of everyone and their grandmother wanting her dead#and her being determined to do as much as she can before midas has to take over and pick up the pieces#..............though none of it goes as planned of course#ANYWAY i need sleep#sorry for the long text spam#i cant help but yap about my special lil guys
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Pretty fucked up that timmy forgets the only positive influences in his life after his 18 birthday when you think about it
#like he losses the only family that loves him and friends and allies that respect him#outside of aj and chester he doesn't have a lot of good influences in his life#trixie could probably be his friend after she gets over the whole popularity thing but still#losing that muc of your memories is going to affect yoyr personality#if they were replaced he's probably going to think he was alone for most of his life with occasionally seeing some friends#and some good moments (him making frinds with chip and maybe might remember mark depends)#umm does Shirley count? doubt he would remember him unless he goes to his shop often#i doubt his relationship with his parents would improve hed probably move out not to long after he turns 18#i think the memory wipe would affect certain aspects of his personality too#like his interest in the arts would probably lesson due to the feeling of something being missing or just#straight up depression#i feel like he wouldn't persue a creative field due to multiple of reasons and settle for something more practical but will always have tha#what if oh timmy forgetting and losing himself is something so tragic#especially if he still miserable or in a bad place#imagine the angst#timmy turner
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“Rook is the worst protagonist of any game ever” LMFAO he’s literally my favorite DA protagonist
#played every game multiple times#I feel like people saying he “”didn’t feel bad for interrupting the ritual didn’t play the game / didn’t choose those dialogs with varric#it’s a free country & you are free to be wrong#dragon age veilguard#also it’s probably the fact that most of this game is underdeveloped babe lmao#pls fuck off if u hate rook for no reason#rook critiques are good but there’s so much of this game that is underdeveloped (likely due to time constraints)#I like that he’s a bit stupid and goofy and potentially naive but also headstrong#you must consider that not only rook is underdeveloped#the entire game is#dragon age rook
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Yes hello people going through my older kh art on this account because for some reason a shitload of them are getting notes again?? Are people leaving Twitter and coming back onto here? Anyway a reminder
#vena vents#not art#Also remembered to turn off reblogs because some of you are admittedly weird as hell and reblog personal posts#a lot of it is moonrocks do they have their own day now making interest spike or are you all the moonrocks fans from twitter lmao#Also I don���t have as much of an issue on here but I block rp accounts due to art theft issues#usually a larger problem on twitter#I will block for a variety of other reasons too but I would think those reasons are obvious#it’s just this one is plastered multiple places immediately on my blog#And that fambase has a lot more teenagers active in it than my current fandom
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kind of went insane and made a pressure self insert. she likes to lounge out in pools a lot. her poor hair is a damaged mess
#roblox pressure#pressure roblox#pressure oc#my art#2d#i didnt want to make her too much like sebastian but i also really liked his gimmick of merging multiple sea creatures together#grabbed some of my favorite beasties (seal+orca+lionfish+isopod) and tossed in vampire squid for ears and barreleye for fun bioluminescence#and the transparent forehead. it only really shows in the dark#kinda worked out that like 3.5 of these creatures are very deep underwater ones so i could make a decent lore reason for why they werechose#she is like 2-3 feet shorter than sebastian at his normal “standing” height but still much larger than a regular human due to her orca dna#also the font makes Z's look too much like 2's. Her name is Z-27#i got really really into pressure like 2 days ago because body horror is my favorite thing ever it makes me go crazyyyyyyyyy#will probably reblog this in the afternoon tomorrow im posting so late#her nickname is nerpy because baikal seals are also called nerpas
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... why he sit like this
#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little#rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo#cats#It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually#getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol#Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime#I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering#all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty#e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time#that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense#that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh#I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol#which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything#I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still#recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually#slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever#reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished#any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky#and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly#going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et#etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make#stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin#.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care#and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc#ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it#82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol
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Me? Well, I've... I've mostly been a loner.
#oz hbo#hbo oz#my gifs#miguel alvarez#cathy jo cutler#kirk acevedo#you know the first time i saw this show i was like I can't believe they gave miguel a love interest who's a nazi wife 💀 that's so darksided#but now i'm like eh i guess i get it.... she does have beautiful hair and face.....#i mean i still think it was darksided but lol whatev#I understand these are not angles the writers think about lol#anyway this answer continues to slay me for multiple reasons#Due to how long it takes miguel to FUCKING ANSWER#yeah he's down.... a ............guy......(succumbs to thought).........overdosed....... close friend? ..........ya know.......#the fic i'm working on rn is very much friendship building so just from that angle i'm like Ahghh#if i was writing the friendship building from His pov i guess it would be like: mostly* (*until recently. but now it's gone again maybe)#also perhaps the distance of saying A guy overdosed makes it less depressing or somethn i means he's already down i suppose why wallow.#mostly been a loner. up until quite recently. but then a guy overdosed. etc. bc if he was your friend that means your friend ODed :\
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i only recently got properly back into dbh recently and i cant lie i used to be really partial to the more father/son connor & hank but looking through your blog and takes and stuff rlly has made me more partial to the platoniconk side of things. 🫡
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BITCHES WE GOT ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
JOIN US JOIN US 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
(sorry if that was too much lmfao it's just @iwonderwh0 built this tag from the ground up literally like less than a year ago because it seemed like father-son or ship was an inescapable dichotomy with no room for them to just be literally anything else... im so glad we've affected someone slkdjfsldk 🥺🥺 welcome platoniconk fan)
#be warned i do rb a hankcon here and there every once in a while#so like maybe blacklist the tag if u wanna make absolutely sure u don't see it 🤷#i also used to be a father-son fan but i ended up closer to the other side due to multiple reasons dslfdfk#but primarily yeah. let them be friends that's all i want#thiriumhowls#platoniconk#technically the friendship dynamic has always been out there but it's never been searchable and always buried under the other two#connor rk800#hank anderson#also check out epicqtefail uwu theyre unhinged but all platoniconk (or whatever the fuck is going on over there <3)#i just love when they both (dis)respect each other as adults what can i say#sorry if this was incoherent im trying not to proofread too much lest i take 5 years to respond#and iwonderwh0 sorry for the @ if that bothers u skldfjsdlkfjsldf idr...
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Headcanon - Henry Stickmin got into the mess with the timelines in his game because of a time piece falling on his head. He's technically in a time rift going through the motions until Hat Kid fixes the rift, made all the worse by the fact he already had minor rewind powers that the time piece was able to amplify.
#yeah I was thinking about how I wanted to start the timeline shenanigans of Henry Stickmin and was just playing a Hat in Time#so I yeeted a time piece at Henry's head full force and cackled evilly as he lay there dazed and concussed#the full story is Hat has to find him somewhere in the time rift to fully close it and collect the last shard for fixing the time piece#crow brain Henry took a shard and still has it on him- she may need to fight him to get it back#I would pay to see that fight honestly someone make that fight happen. I have no clue who would win that fight#reason for siding with the Toppats is their better reach not to mention how many shards are in the airship and rocket#Hat's not having a fun time searching due to the large scale of the rift but at least she's not dealing with the worst criminal gang ever#don't worry Hat has multiple lives she doesn't die in the bad endings#a hat in time#ahit#hsc#thsc#henry stickmin#the henry stickmin collection#hsc headcanon#ahit headcanon#headcanon#hat kid#actually henry stickmin
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Moment of silence for the people starting gtn (after reading my comic) because I accidentally tricked them into thinking Gideon and Harrow have healthy communication skills and Domestic Intimacy when they do, in fact, have neither
#I’m sorry#I’m so sorry#gtn spoilers#htn spoilers#ntn spoilers#don’t read the tags here unless you want spoil#anyways#y’all are heading into this expecting these bitches to talk and be soft and shit#and I’m letting y’all. while knowing full well that they haven’t spoken a word to eachother in almost two years in canon#I mean. they want to talk#but they haven’t been able to At All due to extreme reasons. including multiple deaths of different kinds between the two of the#m#I feel bad but also not#I need to reread it btw but I’m currently working my way through aftg#which is fine so far. I’m obsessed with it when the book is in my hand but the moment I put it down I’m like ‘meh’#and then I pick it up again and I’m absorbed#love fucked up people#Gideon Nav#harrowhark nonagesimus#griddlehark#let the soft animal of your body want bitch
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sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)
but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!
so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"
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my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!
SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!
#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has#autistic#autism#actually autistic#adhd#neurodivergent#audhd#school#school problems#yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change#if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great!#but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities#ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you!#ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper!#(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back)#i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and#suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all#and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of#the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape#too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed#the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly#without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick#accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing#disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers#and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars#and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all#fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something!#offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling!#i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help!#THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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She doesn't really seem to grasp that i cant just "go do [thing i've never done before]" and tbh neither did roommate (explained what will be there/what to do; which did not actually help much)
Like ik "do it scared" was a thing for a little while here but it really feels like i need an emotional support human for basic tasks sometimes :/
#100% се��ретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#actuallyautistic#this is about going to the bank#... cause i need to pay my dues obviously. and i dont think? its open sundays??#and i have NO idea whether she wants to make me get the acceptance fee myself or if she's going to do it for me or ??????#i also can't get groceries for this exact reason#when we had kitten i had a brief period of getting used to the idea of 'buying things with moneys card' but then... well. yeah.#i ALSO might need gas in my car and guess what i cant do right now (despite knowing how&having done it alone multiple times already)#everything comes back to the 'not-social anxiety'-'social anxiety'#also erm. this is a really confusing and stressful situation to be in the DAY before practice like. what do u want me to do??#i have no fucking idea???? give me a hint???
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