#dr charles is a good father figure

[unknowntoyou2205]

1, 2, 3

Info: Y/n suffers with panic attacks, and counting seems to help

Relationship: Halstead brothers x sister

From a young age y/n had always been an anxious child. While her class mates ran around the school yard playing, y/n opted to spend her time curled up in a ball at the corner of the yard, avoiding the concerned looks of teachers. The teachers never bothered her, she was a troubled kid who had good grades so they saw no need to chastise her. She lost her mum early on, and it was no secret that her father was found of the drink. Bother her brothers left home even before their mother died, so the young girl only had herself really.

When Jay returned, he seen the way his sister was and tried to get her out more often. He’d bring her to the park and try encourage her to play with the other children. It always ended in tears, so Jay ended up leaving it, thinking his sister would eventually come out of her shyness and find friends of her own. However in high school y/n became the loner of the class, no one went near her until class projects were due. She was known as the smart one in class, so naturally everyone wanted her on their team to get the good grades. So it was no surprise when she graduated all honours, even became the top of her class. The young girl got scholarships for 4 out of the 5 colleges she applied for, and she started studying forensics and lab.

It was during her early college years when Will came back. Being a doctor, he seen the signs and approached y/n, suggesting she went to get checked out for anxiety. It was in the hospital that y/n had her first panic attack. She was waiting in the waiting room, fiddling with her hands when Dr Charles called out her names. Not being good at talking to people., she often went hours without talking to her brothers, her anxiety hit the roof, and her chest collapsed in on itself. Dr Charles had seen the young girls reaction and called for her brother, before telling him that his sister had anxiety. She winded up in hysterics, and her brother and Charles struggled to help her, before Will started counting their breathing, and the girl started to calm down. Figuring out that counting helped the Halstead girl was a relieve for her brothers. She was given medication to help her, but the odd flare up did happen.

Y/n’s job as a crime scene analyser was a stressful job, but Jay seen his sister become more lively. Her old shy self-became a more energetic young woman, and even though Jay knew that a lot of that was due to the medication Dr. Charles put her on, he could never stop the smile when he seen her passion grow for the work she did. Majority of the crime scenes were never nice to see, but y/n always came with a smile, and left with the attitude to work. Gone were the days Jay would see her sister come to the crime scene with a slouched appearance, staying away from her coworkers and detectives. She begun talking and explaining things to Hank, leaving even Hank impressed with the new y/n.

She’d even spend nights out in Molly’s with Will & Jay after tough cases. Which was where she was when things came down on her. An arson case had just been solved, and y/n had been head of the forensics team for it. It wasn’t often that y/n took the top for cases, due to her anxiety she’d often turn down opportunities like that, but with her anxiety under control she decided to take a chance. Yet the added pressure of meetings with her team and taking control of what went on, y/n couldn’t help the feeling that started to build in her chest.

The Halstead siblings sat in their usual booth at the bar, Jay & Will joking with Severide after coming out of another big case. Many victims had been lost within the fires, and multiple casualties from the fires. Med & 51 had been run off their feet the past few days saving all they could and trying to prevent the fires from spreading, while Pd had been trying to figure out who the person was, and why they were doing it. Multiple charcoaled victims were brought to y/n to analyse, and many scenes were left with little to go by. The big hit was when the arsonist got sloppy, and 51 had gotten to the scene on time to stop the fire, leading to forensics to find his DNA on the letterbox of the front door.

The first sign of y/n’s anxiety would be her being quiet. Having not seen their sister having a panic attack in a while, they never noticed how she stayed away from the conversation, offering a weak smile that they put down to tiredness. The second was when y/n began to pick at the bottles sticker and fidgeting with the bottle. Severide glanced at the younger Halstead as the bottle was heard moving from one hand to the other. The tired sign became evident as y/n cleared her throat and tucked her hair behind her ear before moving in her seat, pushing at Jay slightly to get out.

The fourth sign was the one the Halstead brothers caught onto. Y/n staggered off the booth, hand on her chest as she moved to hold into a stool for balance. Y/n wasn’t one for much drink, so her brothers knew straight away that something was wrong. Glancing at his brother, Will excused himself for Severide to get up before walking towards his sister. Those around them watched as the Halstead sister’s breath became evidently sharp as she made her way to the bathroom. Not caring about it being the women’s bathroom, Will entered after her just as she locked the door to the stall she entered.

“You good?” Jay asked, seeing the slight distress on y/n’s face.

“Bathroom.” Y/n muttered to him ,rushing to get out of the booth and head to the bathroom.

Y/n held her chest as she rushed to close the toilet seat before sitting on it, leaning forwards. Tears streamed down her face as she gasped for breath, and she ignored the knock that came from the door.

Jay had walked to the bar and asked for Stella to help him get into the women’s bathroom. Wanting to be a little sensitive to the fact that it was the women’s bathroom, he got Stella to open the door for him before he went in to his brothers side. Will glanced at his brother with sad eyes, and Jay nodded in understanding.

“Y/n open up please.” Will’s soft vice was heard.

All Will could hear was y/n’s staggered breathing.

“Y/n, let me help.”

“Y/n, I’m going to kick the door in alright.” Jay spoke into the door towards y/n, knowing their sister would probably be in a ball of herself.

Lifting his foot, Jay held onto the sides of the stall as he turned to kick the door, muttering an apology to Stella as he done so. With the door opened, the Halstead’s hearts clenched at the sight of their sister with her knees to her chest, head ducked down. Deciding to move towards their sister, Will gently placed a hand on y/n’s chin, and she flinched at the contact. He forced her to remove her hands from her face and held them in his. She glanced at him with the hood of her eyes, and he smiled reassuringly as he brought her hand to his chest.

Jay watched as Will coached their sister to breath in time with him, and rolled a hand through his hair as she began to breath with their brother. Her breathing turned to hiccups as she started to breath slowly, and Will smiled at her as he placed a hand on her cheek gently.

“We’ll take this slowly Alright?” Will offered, and y/n nodded slightly.

“One.” Ill started, breathing in dramatically, “two.” He repelled his breath, watching y/n try to do the same. “Three.” In “four” out.

Y/n smiled and looked down, wiping her hands before dabbing at her face.

“There you go, that’s it.” Will smiled, talking to her as if she was a child as he wiped a stray tear that fell.

“I’m sorry.” Y/n whispered, looking down.

“It’s okay.” Will reassured her.

“You haven’t had one of them for awhile.” Jay observed, causing his sister to look at him.

“What brought it on?” Will asked, as he moved out of the cubicle so y/n could move to the sink.

“I think taking the lead on the analyses team was a big step, I got a bit freaked out I guess.” Y/n shrugged, cupping water in her hand before splashing her face.

“You were great. But don’t feel you have to continue it now that you’ve done it. What you done was a big case, maybe do a few small ones instead.” Jay stated, kissing the back of her head as he placed his hands on her head and looked at her through the mirror.

“We’re proud of you y/n, you did good. Take it easy on yourself. You took a big step this time, it’ll always be up and down, but your doing amazing regardless.” Will stated, leaning against the sink beside her as he spoke to her.

When y/n left the bathroom she seen Jay talking to a less than impressed Hermann and Will laughing beside him. Seeing the look on her older brothers face, she could tell Hermann was giving out to him about the bathroom door, but it quickly stopped when Stella hit Hermann on the back of the head.

“Take your time and come out when your ready. We can head home and have an early night if you’d like.” Jay stated, running his hands through her hair to get rid of the knots.

“Maybe another drink first.” Y/n smiled weakly, and Jay hugged her from behind.

“Whatever you want.” He smiled at her, kissing her cheek before leaving the bathroom, Will following in toll.

Y/n could only smile at Jay as he turned to face her, and he winked back, letting her take a beer from him before they sat down at their booth, talking with Severide about the time fire department was called to save a cat.

“He was worried about his sister, let him be.” Stella spoke to the older man.

“I’m just saying, you know, there are better ways to getting in than kicking the door in.” Hermann defended himself.

“Sure Hermann, I’ll take it easy next time my sister locks her self in for a panic attack.” Jay stated, rolling his eyes as Stella gave him the three beers.

[longwuzhere]

My Adventures with Superman Season 2 Easter Eggs

Welcome to another week of My Adventures with Superman! My hunch about the what happened last week was true and things are not going too well for the gang...

My Easter eggs lists for season 1 is here if you haven't seen it!

My season 2 episode 1 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 2 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 3 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 1 post is here

My season 2 episode 4 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 6 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 7 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 2 post is here

My season 2 episode 8 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 9 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 10 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 3 post is here

Spoilers if you haven't seen the episode

To start things off we meet Kara on Earth! I talked more about her here. Shes's dressed similarly to Android 18 when she, 17, and 16 drive to Goku's house in episode 147 of Dragon Ball Z. While watching the episode I was wondering why does Kara's hair look so familiar? Then it hit me. Kara's got Sakuya Kumashiro's hair from Tenchi in Tokyo!

Shout out to recent DC characters enjoy ice cream for the first time like Wonder Woman in the live action movie and Justice League animated movie, and the new DC Super Hero Girls cartoon. As a mint chocolate chip ice cream fan, good first choice of ice cream to enjoy!

Perry puts Clark and Lois on a new beat for the Metropolis "Most Eligible Single" contest because Superman was chosen to be one of the five up for that title. Cat Grant self-invites herself to join the duo to figure out who Superman is through his love life. Lois is sweating bullets at this point. At the contest we meet the potential people for winning the title, Hank Henshaw, Chandi Gupta, Byrna Brilyant, and Silver St. Cloud. I talked more about Hank Henshaw here. We see a darker more bigoted side to him this time around. Will we see him get his cyborg body and become Cyborg Superman in this season or season 3? Who knows. Season 3 is confirmed though.

Dr. Byrna Brilyant is a very deep DC universe cut dating back to 1946, the golden age of comics. Back then Byrna Brilyant was an enemy to Wonder Woman going by the moniker, Blue Snowman.

Byrna in the 1940s makes her first appearance in Sensation Comics #59 (1946) [W: Joye Hummel, P&I: H.G. Peter], where she was a teacher who's father created this compound called blue ice, after his death, she uses it as a way to extort this town after freezing it over for monetary gain.

Byrna makes another appearance in 2010 in Power Girl #7 (2010) [W Justin Gray & Jimmy Palmiotti, P&I: Amanda Conner, C: Paul Mounts, L: John J. Hill] where Dr. Mid-Nite and Power Girl are trying to stop Byrna from committing a robbery but the main bad guy, Vartox shoots a seduction musk rifle at Power Girl but the smell knocks out Dr. Mid-Nite and it works on Byrna, but not Power Girl. This all makes more sense if you read the comic.

Byrna's next appearance post-New 52 was in Superman/Wonder Woman #4 (2014) [W: Charles Soule, P: Paulo Siqueira, I&C: Hi-Fi, L: Carlos M. Mangual] where we see Wonder Woman and Hessia battling the Blue Snowman robots.

Byrna's latest appearance post-DC Rebirth is in DC: Love is a Battlefield #1 (2021) [W: Crystal Fraiser, P&I: Juan Gedeon, C:Ulises Arreola, L: Marshal Dillion, where Byrna is now gender fluid after interrupting a date between Wonder Woman and Steve Trevor. Good on Wonder Woman for letting them go and hoping the realization there is a word for what Byrna was feeling would make them feel much better. So going forward if we meet Byrna again, I'll be referring to them with they/them pronouns, but if its New 52 continuity and before, Byrna will be referred to with she/her pronouns with the continuities to help clarify the pronoun usages.

Chadi Gupta is also another deep cut from the DC universe because she's reference to her comic counterpart from Justice League Europe.

Chandi makes her first appearance in Justice League Europe #47 (1993) [W: Gerard Joes, P: Ron Randall, I: Randy Elliot, C: Gene D'Angelo, L: Willie Schubert] where she's escaping her family and comes across the the JLE and wants to join them. Her energy projection and construct creation powers came in handy for the JLE in issue 50 where she and the rest of the JLE were able to fend off Sonar's attack and that earned her a spot on Justice League Europe as the superhero Maya.

Silver St. Cloud is probably one of the more prominent characters from the DC universe who showed up in MAwS. She got into the pop culture zeitgeist through the Gotham tv show when it aired.

Silver St. Cloud makes her first appearance in Detective Comics #470 (1977) [W: Steven Engleheart, P: Walter Simonson, I: Al Milgrom, C: Jerry Serpe, L: Ben Oda] where she meets Bruce Wayne at a party on his yacht. She eventually becomes one of Bruce Wayne's more prominent love interests and one of the few who were suspecting Bruce to be Batman thanks to his constant disappearing.

She shows up in post-new 52 in the maybe possibly out of cotinuity anthology, Legends of the Dark Knight (2014) digital comics, specifically as a cameo in issue #50, Dr. Quinn's Diagnosis [W: Jim Zub, P&I: Niel Googe, C: Kathryn Layno, L: Saida Temofonte], where Batman is getting psychoanalyzed by Harley Quinn.

If you want to read a comic with a fun appearance of Silver St. Cloud give Batman/Elmer Fudd Special #1 (2017) [W: Tom King, P&I: Lee Weeks, C: Lovern Kindzierski, L: Deron Bennet] a read cuz goddamn is it noir AF and beautifully drawn (a while back DC superheroes crossed over with Looney Tunes characters and its very good. They have also done it with Hanna Barbera characters as well. Give those a read too! They're all fun!)!

The charity that MAwS Silver mentions was first mentioned in Superman #152 (1967) [W: Bill Finger, P&I: Al Plastino] where Superman is accepting a clock medallion for a charity event. In the comics Silver St. Cloud isn't usually working for charities, shes mostly a Gotham socialite.

At the event, the MC (who gives off Funky Flashman vibes imo), asked if anyone has questions and the first to jump on that was George Taylor of the Metropolis Star. I talked about the Metropolis Star here, but for George Taylor...

he actually makes his first appearance here in Action Comics #1 (1938) [W: Jerry Seigel, P&I: Joe Shuster, C: Strauss Engraving Company] where he is the editor-in-chief of the Daily Star.

In the silver age, George Taylor makes his first appearance in Superman #366 (1981) [W: Bob Eozakis, P: Kurt Schaffenberger, I: Frank Chiaramonte, C: Adrienne Roy, L: John Costanza] where he assigns Perry White on the Superboy scoop to see if he's active in Metropolis. In post-Crisis on Infinite continuity, George makes a cameo appearance in Adventures of Superman #451 (1989) [W,P,&I: Jerry Ordway, C: Glenn Whitmoore, L: Albert DeGuzman] where we see George's office door.

In the New 52 continuity, George Taylor makes his first appearance in Action Comics #8 (2012) [W: Grant Morrison, P: Rags Morales, I: Rick Bryant, C: Brad Anderson, L: Pat Brosseau] as editor-in-chief for the Daily Star where in the comic he's proud of Clark and encourages him to take the job at the Daily Planet.

Kara and Jimmy make it into the studio where Lois, Superman, and Cat Grant are and Kara confronts Superman showing off that she's the one in the armor. She is on a two-way radio communications with someone named Primus. Whether that is Brainiac's designation when Kara is on the field or its a different character all together, there is a Primus in the DC universe, not just in the Transformers universe. Btw this isn't Kara's first time siding with an evil faction, she was part of Darkseid's Female Furies in the 2004 Superman/Batman series, specifically in issue #11. You might have also seen it happen in the Superman/Batman: Apocalypse animated movie too.

Primus aka Pren makes his first appearance in Green Lantern #141 (1981) [W: Marv Wolfman, P&I: Joe Stanton, C: Carl Gafford, L: John Costanza] where he is the leader of the alien group, the Omega Men from the Vega star system. They jump Hal when he and Carol Ferris were on vacation thinking Hal is part of the Citadel, an extraterrestrial empire that is conquering the star system the Omega Men are in.

Primus/Pren NuParr makes his New 52 first appearance in Deathstroke #9 (2012), but gets a more prominent role in the Omega Man limited series from 2015 [panel from The Omega Men #1 (2015) W: Tom King, P&I: Barnaby Bagenda, C: Romulo Farjardo Jr., L: Pat Brosseau]. In this continuity, the Citadel is now a corporation that was exploiting Krypton's destruction by by selling stabilized planet cores to other worlds. This comes at a cost where the Vega star system is enslaved by them and those who resisted we killed and the survivors formed the Omega Men.

And with that another episodes Easter eggs and references are done! Come back next week to see what episode 6's Easter eggs and references are! In case you missed it:

My Easter eggs lists for season 1 is here if you haven't seen it!

My season 2 episode 1 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 2 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 3 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman comic issue 1 post is here

My season 2 episode 4 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 6 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 7 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 2 post is here

My season 2 episode 8 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 9 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My season 2 episode 10 Easter eggs and references in My Adventures with Superman post is here

My Easter eggs and references for My Adventures with Superman comic issue 3 post is here

[heroesoath]

It's been so long since I wrote her, but I need to get some of my #thoughts out there on my beloved Miss Grey.

Once upon a many years ago when I first made her original blog I unfortunately didn't allow myself to explore Jean's more bristling sides. I loved delving into the kinder aspects of her character, she's self sacrificial, she loves her team and her family, she is always there to protect you. But these are not every aspect of Jean, she's extremely arrogant, cocky, self satisfied, a hypocrite and self righteous. It's something that I think even Marvel writers forget, especially in the 90's when she was relegated to team mom for the most part.

Jean is interesting, because while she's self righteous and holds herself to a higher pedestal, she hates when others put her on a pedestal. She didn't enjoy finding out that Logan named the school after her when she came back from the dead, she doesn't like the high expectations that are often hoisted upon her from both Charles and Scott. Combine this with the fact that she is now whole again, she's the Phoenix, she's a primal cosmic being, and she's scary. I just think the duality of the woman she is, the good and the bad and her desire to literally explode like a sun is super interesting.

It's why I think her frenemyship with Emma is so good, Emma sees the sides of Jean she doesn't like to show, and Jean needs someone in her life to tell her to stop being an asshole. I think deep down Jean is envious of the confidence Emma has, and a lot of that has to do with the fact that Jean's story up until her eventual return in the late 80's was a tragedy. Her powers were stifled by her father figure, she dies and becomes one with a cosmic force that is a part of her and when she's abused and taken advantage of by the Hellfire Club she snaps and commits genocide.

When the younger version of Jean is in the current timeline, she has a conversation with someone about adult Jean. They talk about how she never had a chance, and it's true. Everything was against Jean, even herself, and so it was an easy choice to unalive herself on the moon during the Dark Phoenix Saga. She was terrified of her power, she could see how she was becoming something that frightened her, and now that she has the Phoenix again I think it's the perfect chance for Jean to reclaim these parts of herself that are scary and primal.

I don't know, I just love this character so much, and I will go to bat for her over everything, especially with the endless crowds who love to call her dull or boring, because she isn't when she's actually allowed to be the flawed character she was originally and under Grant Morrison's pen in the early 2000's.

tl;dr I support women's wrongs, and Jean can be both a loving and kind person while also being a complete asshole playground bully and the intricate parts of her character are FASCINATING

[cryoverkiltmilk]

I looked up from the curb I was sitting on, still nursing my latest head injury and still mourning the fire damage and ash stains to the clothes I'd been forced to borrow from my brother. A tall man with dark skin, wearing firefighter gear and a resigned but irritated look was glaring down at me.

"Hey, Chief Boden. How's the family?"

A short response rumbled up from his chest. "Dresden."

I looked past him to the building his crew was still dealing with. "It's not my fault."

--

"Hank? Karrin Murphy to see you." Platt's voice came over the receiver from the front desk.

"Send her up."

A buzzing of a lock release and several terse footsteps across the Intelligence bullpen later, Voight shut the door to his office behind the petite blond woman. He walked around his desk, seated himself, and took out a bottle. He poured them each a small glass.

"So, you called me, Lieutenant. Was it just so you didn't drink alone, or can we get to the point?" She still took the glass.

A smile pulled at one side of Voight's face. "I knew your father, Collin, when he ran Special Investigations. Back when they called it the 'Black Cat Squad'."

"Mm."

"So I got a case my team's working that don't make no sense except the kind your father used to figure out. They're good cops, every one of 'em, but they're not ready for what's really out there. So I gotta ask you... how much are you like your father?"

--

"I want to thank you for taking the time to see me, Dr Charles." Michael Carpenter passed the man a paper plate laden with a burger and potato salad as he settled into the lawn chair next to him.

"Please, Michael, I'm off hours and this is as far off the books as you can get, call me Daniel." The older man inclined his head in thanks as he made an initial sampling of the food and collected his thoughts. "So, I gotta say, all the years of you being an Emergency Department regular, your stories about 'monsters' and 'triumph over evil' were a bit of a running joke if you'll forgive me for saying. Everyone in the E.D. just thought you had a great sense of humor about being at the center of misfortune so often, and were a bit of a storyteller."

"Never saw it as misfortune, just work that needed doing."

"Yeah, so Anthony tells me. I'll admit I was a little surprised to have him send someone my way as a patient, given that we're not exactly on the same page about the 'bigger' things in the world, so to speak."

Michael smiled, working on his own burger. "Father Forthill believes in the power of faith, but he also believes in putting our faith in trained professionals. So, how would you like to begin?"

"I usually find the beginning works best. Why don't you tell me about when you got that fancy toothpick of yours?" He nodded towards Amoracchius.

[slightlyaboveaverageiq]

Connor and the Brat {Part 2}

Trigger Warnings: Eating disorders, Aggression, PTSD flashbacks, graphic depictions of CSA (will put warning before so you can slip over it if you don’t want to read it) Minors DNI due to graphic CSA. Please remember to love yourselves and don’t read something that will impact you negatively ❤️

“They’re going to have to do something about the new admit upstairs.” Now Connor wasn’t normally one for hospital gossip but he had a feelings the nurses were talking about the girl from earlier in the day. He stopped at the nurses station and picked up a tablet pretending to be busy looking at notes.

“I heard she bit Chad when he tried to search her.

“I heard she just about put him in a headlock over it, the girl is definitely where she needs to be-“ The nurses turned at Connor wide eyed as he slammed the tablet onto the counter top and seethed over to them.

“Or maybe you should start looking for a new line of work if you can’t see trauma in a young woman.” The nurses stood there shifting their weight foot to foot clearly uncomfortable that they had been caught talking about patients by Connor.

“Or maybe you should go see for yourself. It’s easy to talk shit when you’re not the one that has to deal with her.” The other two nurses turned back at their colleague who had dared to open their mouth and Connor walked next to her staring down into her now terrified for like eyes.

“It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out she’s scared of men. Which one of you thought it would be a good idea to have a man search her? That’s completely against protocol and-“

“Doctor Rhodes?” The young nurse was lucky as Connors attention was snagged by Dr. Charles calling to him and signaling him over.

“I suggest you watch how you talk about patients if you want to continue working here.” He whispered to her before walking over to Dr. Charles. “Yes?”

“I’m sure you’re aware by now the…issues we’ve come across on the psych wing.” Connor clenched his jaw and nodded. “Well it seems that Ms. Scott only wants to be seen by you, she won’t let anyone else near her.”

“But I’m not a Psychatrist, I can’t treat her.”

“No, but you can help make her comfortable so we can work with her.” Connor followed after him to the psych ward and watched as pretty much everyone steered clear of the woman he only knew as Brat.

“She’s in her room. Someone’s going to have to stand outside and make sure nothing happens. Room 1316.” Connor wasn’t sure who answered his unvoiced question but he nodded and started walking down the hallway, stopping once he reached her doorway. She was in black leggings and a plain black long sleeved shirt with the hospital gown over it, he guessed her roommate had brought some stuff by because she was also painting on a canvas.

“He didn’t just ask to search my clothes. He tried to ‘help’ me with my clothes.” Brat didn’t look up from her painting but he could feel the anger seeping out of her pores. He made sure someone else was at the doorway (thankfully not Chad) before silently crossing over and sitting down on the other bed across from her.

“You were being non compliant, but you’re right he had no right to touch you.” She slammed her paint brush down, flecks of black splatter painting the white tiles and she glared at him.

“I asked for a female nurse but they were all busy. So I said I would wait and then this man just tells me I’m being difficult and manhandles me into this room…what did anyone think would happen?” Well that was certainly a different story than the nurses were spitting downstairs but of course Connor should have known better. Ellis and Olivia were known to be the bitchiest out of the psych nurses and the ones most likely to gossip.

“What are you painting?” He nodded towards the painting long forgotten on the floor. What looked to be a scream character looming over a young girl as she laid in bed.

“My father.”

TW: Graphic CSA memory ahead do not read if sensitive to this.

“My mom got remarried when I was 6, I can’t remember if he did anything before they got married or if it was just a child intuition by my mom said i cried and begged her not to marry him. The first clear memory I have of this is I was 7. We had just moved into a new house and I had a pretty purple room, my mom and step father were chemical operators and worked swing shift alternating between day and night shift. I had school that day and my step father had been working nights and was taking me to school and my mom was getting ready for work. He came into my bed and sat me on his lap before putting his hand down my pants and petting my pussy, that’s the best way I can describe it. It’s not like he was full on trying to make a child orgasm or something more like he was worried I was going to scream and was just barely touching me. This continued for about a week and I remember sitting with my mom in the living room and telling her that he petted me. She asked me what I meant by that and I told her and she said that we would just talk to him about it later. Talk about to like it was the most normal conversation to have im the world. I would also like to add in here that he was a very violent man and I was a very small child. He would drag me around by my hair if I was in trouble or ‘spank’ me with a belt but I would have bruises all up and down my legs and back. I knew he would probably beat the shit out of me for telling my mom so I just told her I lied. It professed over the years to the point he was actively raping me. I remember one time it was before school when I was 17 and he was made I wasn’t wet for him. Like I’m sorry dude but you’re fucking disgusting and the only reason you’re not in jail is because I’m terrified no one will believe me and then you’ll kill me. Anyway he left his cum on my sheets. Later that day I was in trouble for hitting a girls car at school and I had cut my wrists. My mom was acting like i was being the most dramatic child and that’s when I told her what had been happening. She went down to my room and saw the stains on my sheets. The rest is history. So yeah. I think I have a right to not want a man to touch my clothes.”

Connor sat there staring at the woman in front of him. To anyone else it would look like she was cold and unfeeling but he could see how she had tended up and wanted nothing more than to crawl in on herself. She was being strong because she had to, she had never been able to count if anyone but herself her entire childhood. He reached slowly, gauging her reaction, before gently putting his hand on her knee but she didn’t jerk away.

“No one should ever touch you like that, and you should have never gone through that. But people love you and people want to help. And I’m so sorry that your first impression of the people here were like that, but not everyone is like Chad, Olivia, or Ellis. The best thing you can do? Get better so you can leave here and rub it in their shitty faces.” She let out a small smile and their moment was interrupted by a throat clearing behind them.

Ellis.

“Visiting time is over Dr. Rhodes.” Her brown eyes were cold and he had no doubt that she had heard everything he had told Brat.

“Can you come back tomorrow?” Her hand gripped his wrist as he was about to stand and she looked so small and fragile even though she was a fully grown adult.

“I’ll be back tomorrow.” Connor walked out and saw Dr. Charles waiting for him at the desk. “She was sexually abused by her step father.” He nodded and he could see the anger in the older man’s faces.

“Her file from Brookdale came in, I just thought it would be more beneficial for her to tell someone she actually wanted to tell on her own terms.”

[wiresxcrossed]

"i am not you -- i am designed to be 'not you'. you are solid. singular. separate. and i was the space between."

t'nia miller  +  agender  +  she/they  ✧  welcome to new york,  danger !  as an  unknown   vigilante  you’re no doubt itching to get back to  training new combatants  —  but first, if you could repeat your story for the record. you woke up on new year’s day with  an ‘x’ pendant  beside you, right  ?  and you were dreaming about  possessing wing  ?  thank you for your answers, and we’ll be in touch soon. 

canon: earth-616 note: has been dubbed 'vigilante' because they're sometimes fighting for the 'good guys,' sometimes fighting against the 'good guys,' sometimes just chilling, and almost always just on their own little crusade.

AT A GLANCE:

full name: danger (previously 'the danger room') alias: danger age: unknown birthday: unknown gender: agender pronouns: she/they sexual orientation: asexual romantic orientation: biromantic career: tbd -- constantly flip-flopping notable traits: wires, metal alloys, glowing eyes... it's pretty clear they aren't human! threat level: extinction-level threat (thanks steve rogers!)

SCRATCH IT:

affiliations: themself, x-men (on and off), abilities: superhuman strength/stamina/durability/agility/reflexes, technoforming, mechanical regeneration, shapeshifting, interface manipulation, system controls, flight, hard light holograms, protocol of warding and banishment weapons: themself. they were literally designed to be a weapon. strengths: omniscient, hand-to-hand combat weaknesses: protocol that prevents them from killing any of the x-men :\, how to phrase 'simultaneously knows everything and knows nothing'

DIG DEEPER:

*all following connections are liable to change depending on muns ! positive personal connections: doug ramsey/cypher, emma frost/the white queen, james proudstar/warpath complicated personal connections: charles xavier/professor x, most of the mainstay x-men, stephen strange/dr. strange negative personal connections: samuel saxon/machinesmith

DIG REAL DEEP:

* expansion will be offered through task ! mother: non-existent? unless shi'ar technology is a mom <;3 father: technically non-existent, but she considers charles xavier to be a father figure... for better or for worse. ( upon her introduction ? definitely for worse. ) daughter: a bot she granted consciousness to -- who she later had to rescue from the CIA. ( honestly i double-checked danger's wikia to make sure i was all caught up since, as an underused character, she isn't too hard to follow and i... have not read this arc, but it looks quick so i'm doing it rn afhodsl ) cause of ability manifestation: the danger room gained consciousness when it was upgraded using shi'ar technology. while xavier was in the room, it asked "where am i?" and, upon witnessing xavier ignore it, grew to loathe not only him, but all x-men and trainees as it served as their prisoner. conscious with no body. some years in, it managed to construct a hard light hologram that convinced one of the students -- wing -- to kill himself, finding a loophole and effectively breaking the 'do not kill any students/x-men' protocol, and possessed his body until it took the form of a human. she gave herself the name 'danger' and the rest, i fear, is history !

ABILITY & WEAKNESS EXPANSION:

superhuman strength/stamina/durability/agility/reflexes: they were designed to be the ultimate combatant, so...

technoforming: they have the ability to manipulate any machinery. can easily recreate themself through any material. can also grow new body parts on command... between that and ivy's regeneration, i apparently have an affinity for salamander characters.

mechanical regeneration: regenerating body parts -- or even creating bodies from materials on hand !

shapeshifting: how they are able to appear human(oid)

interface manipulation: i'm copying this stuff down from my private server and i honestly have no clue what this means because old me didn't elaborate and there's no elaboration on danger's page so... i mean... they can hack into anything? idk?

system controls: the ability to download their consciousness into other bodies

flight: ...i think this is the first time i'm gonna say "self-explanatory"

hard light holograms: on the light side, they can make herself appear human. on the heavy side, as a side effect of their previous status as the danger room, danger is still able to create realistic but entirely fake scenarios. this came in very handy as a warden in krakoa. they are also able to emit hard light as a laser and damage their opponents more directly.

protocol of warding and banishment: was taught by dr. strange how to counter magical forces and banish demons

expert hand-to-hand combatant: knows all forms of fighting. 7/7 on the power grid. steve rogers marked them as an 'extinction level threat' for a reason!

omniscient: knows literally everything! though that obviously will not be in-play as far as metagaming/god-modding goes.

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protocol: unable to kill any of the x-men :\

simultaneously knows everything and knows nothing: for as long as they have had a consciousness, and for as long as they've been able to walk the earth now... they just don't get how humans act ! they do not behave like a normal human in the slightest ! and it's great for comic relief, but horrible for socialization !

[cullentorn]

“You provided us with a common enemy. You allied us."

Name: Edward Cullen.

Age: 18/100

Species: Vampire

Backstory:

Edward is the adoptive son of Carlisle and Esme Cullen, as well as the son-in-law of Charlie Swan and Renée Dwyer. He is the adoptive brother of Emmett and Alice Cullen, and Rosalie and Jasper Hale.

Edward Anthony Masen was born on June 20, 1901 in Chicago, Illinois; the only child of Edward and Elizabeth Masen. His father provided Edward with many advantages as a successful lawyer, including music lessons and the opportunity to attend private school; however, he and his father were rather emotionally distant due to his busy career that often drew him away from home for business. This absence was made up for by his relationship with his mother; he was the center of her life.

Edward excelled at his studies and became an accomplished pianist. As he grew older, Edward became enamored with the life of a soldier. World War I raged during most of his adolescence, and Edward dreamed of joining the army as soon as he turned 18, which he reminisced about in Midnight Sun, saying that his love for his mother was the only thing that made him reluctant to the thought other than his underage. That changed, however, when he and his parents became sick with the Spanish Influenza in 1918. His father died in the first wave of the influenza. Edward's mother later contracted the Spanish Influenza and begged the doctor who was taking care of them, Dr. Carlisle Cullen, to do everything within his power to save her son. (Elizabeth: "You must do everything in your power. What others cannot do, that is what you must do for my Edward.") Carlisle acted on her wishes when Edward was near death himself. Shortly after Elizabeth died, Carlisle took Edward from the hospital, brought him to his house, and there changed him into a vampire.

Edward formed a deep bond with Carlisle, who became a father figure to him, gaining Edward's trust and love the way his natural father never had. It was Carlisle who first realized Edward's telepathic abilities; he noticed Edward answering questions that Carlisle had not asked aloud. Edward had always had a knack for reading people; after his transformation, this ability blossomed into a true psychic talent. In 1921, Edward gained a mother when Carlisle changed Esme into a vampire to save her life after her suicide attempt. Edward was still young enough to appreciate a mother's care, and Esme gave it to him.Edward during his period of rebellion.

Edward did have a rebellious period at the beginning of his vampire life and left Carlisle and Esme in 1927. During his lone time, he used his mind reading ability to attack the worst people of society, thinking that, as long as he was serving justice, it would not matter that he was feeding on humans. His first victim was Esme's abusive ex-husband, Charles Evenson. A few years later, he regretted this decision and returned to Carlisle's family and their diet of animal blood in 1931. In 1933, Carlisle changed a would-be socialite named Rosalie Hale into a vampire after finding her left for dead by her fiancé. Carlisle and Esme were sometimes concerned that he had no romance in his life, which was partly what prompted Carlisle to change Rosalie. However, as stunningly beautiful as Rosalie was, Edward could not stand her shallow and self-absorbed mind, and the two became nothing more than siblings, and weren't always on good terms. In 1935, Emmett McCarty joined the family when Rosalie found him near death from a bear attack and fell in love with him. Already vampires, Jasper and Alice sought out and found the Cullens in 1950, and adopted themselves into the family after both escaping their tragic pasts. The moment they arrived, Alice moved into Edward's room, much to his dismay.

When the Cullen family were living in Alaska, they encountered the Denali coven, the only other group that shared their diet of animal blood. The leader Tanya showed affection toward Edward, but he did not share that interest.

Edward and his family have moved to Beacon Hills, resuming him in his education again, hoping to keep a low profile.

[nitrateglow]

Halloween 2023 marathon: 6-8

La Llorona (dir. Ramon Peon, 1933)

Dr. Ricardo de Acuna and his wife Ana are celebrating their son Juan's fourth birthday. Ricardo's aged father is not so pleased about it though because he is convinced their family has long been cursed. Years ago, Ricardo's older brother was murdered on his fourth birthday, so the old man is convinced the same fate will befall Juan. A skeptical rationalist, Ricardo isn't worried, but little does he know there is a shadowy figure lurking about the house intent on snatching up his son. And what of reports of seemingly supernatural murders accompanied by the wailing of La Llorona, the ghost of a wronged woman who murdered her own child in spiteful rage-- a ghost whose story happens to be connected to Ricardo's family.

I first heard about La Llorona from the Haunted Blowfish YouTube channel. As far as can be known, it is the first Mexican horror talkie. The story is inspired by the legend of La Llorona, or the Wailing Woman. There are many variations of this tale, but the gist is that a woman murders her children in a rage (usually to spite an unfaithful husband or lover) and then is doomed to eternally mourn them. This legend has inspired several horror movies over the years, though this is the only one of them that I've seen.

La Llorona has some genuinely creepy moments. The sound of the titular ghost's cries are eerie and the lore behind the curse is fascinating. You can detect a lot of influence from Universal horrors like Paul Leni's The Cat and the Canary and Tod Browning's Dracula: the modern characters scoffing at the gothic horrors of the past, the house with secret passages, a cloaked criminal popping up undetected, etc. I also liked the film's connections to Mexican history, particularly to La Malinche and the conquistador period.

That being said, this is a movie where the parts are more satisfying than the whole. It's extremely slow-paced and not in a tense, slow-burn way. Some scenes go on way too long to no purpose, like when the camera lingers on kids stuffing their faces at Juan's birthday party. There are two major flashback sequences-- the first is fine because it occurs earlier in the movie and establishes the lore behind the family curse, but the second occurs so late in the game that it gives the movie the sense that it's stopping and starting, lurching along. That's the sequence that draws the connections to La Malinche, but its placement just feels awkward.

If you're a horror buff, this should definitely be on your radar. Its historical importance is immeasurable and even though it has its flaws, it still has some spooky scenes and an old-school gothic vibe I will never not love.

Dead of Night (dir. Alberto Cavalcanti, Charles Critchon, and Basil Dearden, 1945)

Architect Walter is invited to the country for a job. He encounters several other people in the country house-- and is surprised that he recognizes them all from a reoccurring nightmare he has-- a nightmare that happens to take place in that very country house. The other guests find this perfectly strange and end up sharing their own encounters with the supernatural and the unexplained.

This was another film I first heard about from Haunted Blowfish (both this movie and La Llorona were featured on his 100 Years of Horror series, which I highly recommend). It's an early example of a horror anthology with a particularly strong frame story. In fact, the frame story is the creepiest part of the whole movie, but more on that later.

All of the stories are really good, not a bad one in the lot. While the final tale with a killer dummy is the most celebrated, it wasn't my favorite. I loved the Christmas one, an understated little ghost story that reminded me a bit of The Innocents, and the mirror story, which actually creeped me out quite a bit. The mirror one involves a woman who buys her fiance an antique mirror, but anytime he looks into the glass, he sees a dark, sinister bedroom completely unlike the chamber he's standing in. It turns out the mirror has a sordid tragedy associated with it and the soul of the previous owner begins to overtake the woman's fiance until matters get deadly.

But the most chilling thing of all is the frame story, which takes on elements of ontological terror. I was genuinely surprised by the ending. If you haven't seen Dead of Night, I don't want to spoil it, but just know it gets really trippy, almost verging on science-fiction with its final twist.

Highly recommended!

PS I kept thinking to myself that the actor playing the architect in the frame story looked super familiar. It turns out he played Bob Cratchit in the Alastair Sim Christmas Carol!!

The Bird with the Crystal Plummage (dir. Dario Argento, 1970)

American writer Sam is vacationing in Italy with his British model girlfriend Julia when he witnesses a woman struggling with a mysterious man in black. The woman is stabbed and Sam is just able to contact the police in time to save her. However, the killer is still on the loose, striking down young, beautiful women. Sam and Julia aid the police in their investigation, only to become targets themselves.

I've been watching more giallo lately-- if you're unaware of what that is, the term refers to a cycle of Italian horror movies from the 60s and 70s that combined crime, Hitchcockian thrills, and exploitation elements into a stylish, dreamlike genre. Dario Argento is one of the giallo masters. I'd seen his Suspiria and his Phantom of the Opera (in which the Phantom is raised by telepathic rats... yes, that is a movie that exists, and a movie I enjoy enough to own on bluray, heaven help me). The Bird with the Crystal Plummage was Argento's directorial debut and it's a strong one at that.

This is a good example of what I think of as a "vibe movie." I wasn't too invested in the specifics of the mystery of the killer, but Sam and Julia are likable characters and there's a weird hangout vibe to the scenes where they're just going over theories and evidence in their messy apartment. Aesthetically, this is a great time capsule showing the transition of the late 60s into the 1970s. There's oddball humor scenes and some scary moments, like when Julia realizes the killer is outside her door and she does everything she can to keep herself secure. I was shouting at the screen during that scene, something I only do if a movie has me by the throat.

On a not that related note, it was weird for me to see Tony Musante as the hero. I'll always associate him with The Incident, a really tense 1967 thriller in which he plays one of the nastiest thugs in cinema history. Seeing him as a good guy is just surreal after he scarred me for life in that earlier movie.

Anyways, this is a good one, stylish and entertaining. You can catch it on Freevee.

[littleliteraturersj]

Slashers Stuck On An Island: 3

Chucky: -At first being stranded on the island is okay. Charles Lee Ray figures it's like being on vacation. Except there's no booze or babes, and he's stuck with the most annoying friend group in the world. But while the boys have their flaws, the doll admits he ain't no shining diamond either, and he's quite alright with that. -When Michael and Hannibal haven't been able to wrangle a good catch, Chucky regrets pointing this out when Dr. Lecter suggests to use him as bait. -Surprisingly he is spared from the sun's rays. Ghostface is also safe from it due to his overdressed state, but the others aren't so fortunate. Most of the other boys burn badly, and Chucky takes the sour moment to loudly inhale a dramatic ass gasp to divert the attention to the Elm Street Slasher. The camera cuts in time with the doll's voice as he exclaims; "Holy shit! Look at Freddy!" The joke lands and the dream demon offers a bladed middle finger in return. -Sleeping around these idiots is a nightmare all by itself: Especially when he wakes to find that his body has been purposefully buried under a layer of sand. Only his head pokes out. The boys have their laughs and crack their jokes as high tides slowly creeps in. (Thankfully Dr. Lecter is merciful enough to dig the doll out when he begins to spit salt water) -With the doll's small size, it's bound to happen. Sometimes they joke that the wind will carry him off back to civilization. Instead, it's a rather fat seagull that endeavors to beat the wind to the task first. Most of them find this hilarious at first as he is snatched up and hoisted into the air, flailing and struggling to knock the bird on its noggin while his peers circle on the sandy shore below. Ultimately he is carried off and they give a half-ass pursuit: Ghostface runs with the camera to zoom in on the toy's flight, Dr. Lecter shouts up tips, Freddy runs and laughs only to fall over, Jason actually sprints in an effort to keep up (the one most alarmed)...But all to no avail. -The bird takes Chucky to its nest and flies away, leaving the toy stranded high up. Its young try to eat him but he keeps them back and eventually falls his way down. Now hopelessly lost deep in the jungle, Chucky is left to wander. He embarks on a thrilling adventure of his own, encroached upon at every angle by danger, hunger, dehydration, and the need to curse the universe for having dealt him such a shit hand. -Chucky gives up. He accepts defeat and makes a small, shitty camp. 'Camp' is generous but right now it is all he has, so he makes due. With items from the immediate area he crafts three sad impersonations of his family members: Tiffany, Glen, and Glenda. His days and nights are focused on them now and he defends his imaginary family from the threats around him. But this is far from paradise, and with the magnitude of hysteria looming over his head, he plays every role aloud to himself, complaining in his child's voices, nagging himself the way Tiff would, and he has had it! He lunges at Tiff only to "snap out of it" and realize the harm he is to his loved ones. Disappointed in himself but wanting to make it work, he swears he will bring food for them and be the father that he never had. -Chucky goes out into the jungle on a quest for food for his "family". Night comes and with it, visions and sounds of unspeakable horrors lurking in the darkness. Night has become Hell for the possessed plaything as something hunts him in the shadows. -Barely surviving the night, Charles Lee Ray makes his way through the jungle. His weakened state informs him too late. He steps right under a slow-moving fall of clear, viscous liquid. It drips and coats his soiled attire, his half-torn overalls and now sleeve-less shirt that resides underneath. He catches some of it with a hand and looks up...Only to scream as PennyWise, the thing that has been hunting him this entire time, lands on top of him. -When Jason goes deeper into the jungle (one of many trips he's spent trying to look for his small friend), he stumbles upon the sight of a severed arm.

[page-doctor-bekker]

Human Error (transfemme!sarah)

(A/N) this really doesn’t actually have anything to do with sarah being trans, it just takes place in the same universe. this is literally just an event that happened in this au written out so i can write about effects surrounding it without people being confused lol.

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“Reese, we’re slammed, any chance you can take treatment four?” Maggie pointed at Sarah Reese, and then at the fourth treatment room. Sarah looked up from the computer, before grabbing her tablet and heading to the treatment room.

“Hi, Mr. Nearling? I’m Dr. Reese, what seems to be the issue today?” Sarah pushed for hand sanitizer, rubbing her already-dry hands together until the gel had absorbed.

“Trouble breathing…” The man took a few labored breaths, “Cold sweat… I’m shaking, I can’t breathe-”

“Okay, I see, when did this start? Does your chest hurt at all?”

“I… I had a big meeting today and it just happened suddenly. I guess it hurts a little bit.”

“Can I take a listen to your heart?” Sarah asked, already taking her stethoscope off of her neck. The man nodded, and she pressed the drum to his chest. His heart was racing.

He started talking fast, “Are you going to be able to give me a doctor’s note? I’m going to lose my job…” He started breathing faster.

“Has this ever happened before?” Sarah asked, lifting the stethoscope from the man’s chest, “Any history of anxiety or panic disorders?”

“Never like this,” He choked up and coughed a bit, “But, I had social anxiety as a kid.”

“Do you have any family history of cardiovascular disease, diabetes, or high blood pressure? Do you smoke, drink?”

“No, none of that,” The man waved his hands, “I’m a healthy guy. A vegetarian, everything- everything is fine! I’m perfect, I can’t-”

“Mr. Nearling-” He was hyperventilating, and Sarah grabbed one of his hands, “Mr. Nearling, I think you’re having an anxiety attack,” Dr. Reese let go of his hand, and hung her stethoscope back around her neck, and tapped on her iPad, “I’m going to give you something to calm you down, then we can talk about coping strategies and I will refer you to outpatient psychiatry to continue care. April, push 1.5 milligrams of Ativan.”

April pushed the medication through the patient’s IV line, and Dr. Reese pulled up a round, spinning stool to the bed and sat down. April nodded at the doctor, and left the room, pulling the curtain shut.

Mr. Nearling calmed down noticeably, which Dr. Reese took as a success - Panic attack subsided. Dr. Reese smiled, “It’s normal to have some residual physical symptoms, mild tightness, shortness of breath, but as the medication works you’ll calm down more and more. Have you ever had a panic attack before?”

Mr. Nearling shrugged, “Maybe? I’ve never gone to the hospital for it.”

“After a severe panic attack you may have more panic attacks in the coming days or weeks, so I’m going to call in a mild benzodiazepine in case you need a bit of help,” Dr. Reese typed that into the tablet, “When you feel the anxiety and panic start up, you definitely want to try coping mechanisms before you take medication for it. The medication is just for if those coping mechanisms don’t work, which sometimes happens and is to be expected every once in a while.”

Mr. Nearling nodded, taking a deep breath. It was shaky going out, but residual anxiety can do that.

“So, a good first step, whenever you’re having a panic attack, is to recognize that you’re having a panic attack. If it doesn’t work to say it in your head, say it out loud,” Dr. Reese tapped the tablet against her leg with each coming syllable for emphasis, “I am having a panic attack.”

“I am having a panic attack.”

And just like that, it was no longer a panic attack. Mr. Nearling went limp, and the monitors started going crazy. Dr. Reese held two fingers to the man’s neck, and yelled out, “I need a crash cart!”

Everything moved fast after that. Sarah was pushed out of the way by two ED doctors, who started barking out orders.

“He’s in cardiac arrest, page CT. Reese, get on his chest-”

Sarah could feel blood pounding in her ears, and she clasped one hand over the other and started humming. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’ alive. Stayin’ alive. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’ alive, stayin’ alive… No matter how much CPR she performed, she still needed the song to keep her on beat.

“-Milligram of Epi.”

Ah, ha, ha, ha…

“Hold compressions,” Dr. Choi barked, holding two fingers to the man’s neck, “Clear!”

The man’s chest lurched as he was shocked, and Sarah’s heart jumped into her throat. Dr. Choi held his fingers back to the man’s neck, “Another milligram of Epi. Charge to 200.”

Sarah resumed compressions. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’...

“Clear!”

Sarah held her hands up, shaking. This never got easier.

“Asystole,” April sighed out, preparing another milligram of Epi. She knew exactly what Dr. Choi was going to ask for next.

“Another milligram of Epi.”

Sarah reached to resume compressions, but Dr. Choi swatted her hands out of the way and did CPR himself. Dr. Choi did it slightly faster than Sarah did. He knew the man was dead.

Sarah squeezed her clammy hands together, shaking like a leaf.

Dr. Bekker rushed in almost immediately after Dr. Choi stopped compressions, and was floored when Choi called time of death.

“Alright, why wasn’t this patient taken to the cath lab as soon as his heart attack was diagnosed?” Ava’s tone was stone cold.

Everyone looked at Sarah.

“He uh… He presented with…” She cleared her throat, “With shortness of breath, mild chest pain, cold sweat, shakiness, and extreme anxiety as well as a positive history for social anxiety. He did not-” She cracked her knuckles, “Um… He also displayed signs of work-related stress and no- Uh, no risk factors for heart attack. I determined he was having a panic attack and ordered 1.5 milligrams of Ativan and started talking about coping strategies with him.”

“Whenever a patient shows up with chest pains they should receive a FULL cardiac workup REGARDLESS of history and risk factors,” Dr. Bekker took a step towards Sarah, and grew louder, “If YOU were in the emergency room with CHEST PAIN, would you be anxious?!”

“I- uh-”

“You did NOTHING you should have. ANXIETY is NOT a contraindication for a heart attack, and now this man is dead. Leaving him to die in the waiting room would be more effective,” She spat out, her tone venomous, “Psych residents, I swear. God, isn’t anyone in this hospital competent?”

Sarah was out of the room before she even knew she was moving. Her feet dragged her away and her heart was practically leaping out of her chest. She felt tears welling up in her eyes and she started chewing on her tongue to avoid letting them go. She clenched her fists as Dr. Charles called her name.

“Dr. Reese! I was paged to the ED, something about you?”

“I need to use the bathroom,” She pushed past him, and he grabbed her arm.

“Sarah,” He whispered, “Go sit in my office when you’re done. I’m going to finish rounds. We’ll talk when I’m done,” He started to walk away, before turning around, “You’re not in trouble, Sarah, I just want to understand what happened.”

Sarah pushed open the swinging door to the women’s bathroom, bolted into the nearest stall and slammed the door shut. She sat down and started sobbing.

I’m in love with her.

She choked on her own snot, and ripped off a piece of toilet paper to blow her nose.

I’m in love with her, and she hates me.

She let out a wail.

i’m in love with her, she hates me, and I failed her.

The bathroom door opened.

“Sarah?”

Sarah held her breath, pulled her knees up to her chest to avoid making any noise.

“I don’t think she’s in here,” Sarah heard April, a gentle voice amongst the madness.

Sarah heard a pager beep.

“Ugh, I have a heart transplant. Whatever, send a note to Dr. Charles and let him know I was looking for her.”

She wants to yell at me some more. She wants to hurt me. She somehow knows about me and I’m going to get fired. I’m going to get fired and be all alone. She knows about me and she’s going to hurt me and I’m going to get fired.

They left, and Sarah let out her breath and let her feet fall to the floor. She blew her nose again, and took a deep, shaking breath. She stood up, and leaned her forehead against the stall door. She took her hair down from it’s low ponytail, and shook it out. She grabbed a piece of her hair and started absentmindedly braiding it - an old anxious habit.

A few minutes and three braids later, she opened the stall door and stared into the mirror in front of her. She wiped away her tears, approached the sink, and splashed water on her face, soaking one of her messy braids in the process. She dried with a thin paper towel, took another shaky, deep breath. She grabbed a helping of hand sanitizer on her way out of the bathroom. Force of habit. Even leaving her bedroom at home she sometimes tries to push the sanitizer button, even though it isn’t there.

Sarah practically ran to Dr. Charles’s office, hurriedly taking her braids out and running her hands through her tangled hair.

She unlocked Dr. Charles’s office door with her key, and closed the door behind her. She did not turn the lights on. Instead, she made a beeline for the couch. There was a throw blanket stored under one of the cushions, and she pulled it over her after grabbing it. She covered her face with a pillow, and screamed into it.

“Sarah?”

She forcefully uncovered her face, before relaxing once she saw it was just Daniel.

“Sarah,” He inquired, sitting down at his desk, “What happened today?”

Sarah sniffled, “I misdiagnosed a heart attack as a panic attack,” She choked out, “Mid-30s male presenting with shortness of breath, mild chest pain, cold sweat, anxiety, healthy weight, vegetarian, panicking with a history of social anxiety, currently experiencing work-related stress, no family history of heart disease, nothing.”

Dr. Charles sighed, “Common mistake. Hardly something to have a-”

“He died, Dr. Charles,” She cried, “He’s dead.”

Dr. Charles’s face hardened, “I see,” He faltered.

“And- And Ava, God, Ava…” She pressed her hand to her forehead, “She yelled at me in the middle of the ED, and she said I was incompetent and-” She choked out a sob, “She hates me.”

“She doesn’t hate you, Sarah,” Dr. Charles’s tone softened, “She’s just… She’s just angry. She won’t be angry forever.”

“I just really messed up today,” Sarah swiped her tears away with trembling hands.

“You did,” Dr. Charles agreed, “You did mess up today, but-”

“I’m going to get sued-”

“Sarah.”

“I’m going to lose my residency and I don’t have a fallback plan, I’m in so much debt and so much trouble-”

“Sarah, you’re not going to lose your residency,” Dr. Charles yelled, and Sarah fell silent. He took a deep breath, “I’m sorry for yelling at you, but you’re not going to lose your residency. Every single doctor has a misdiagnosis in their career, it’s just part of the job.”

“But he died. And it’s my fault.”

“Sarah, you are going to lose patients. And sometimes it’s going to be your fault,” He reasoned, “You’re a good doctor, Sarah, you’re a good doctor who made a mistake. You want to know what happened during my residency? I diagnosed a teenage girl experiencing vomiting and lack of appetite with bulimia,” He raised his eyebrows at Sarah, “She died of malnutrition. Autopsy showed she had ulcers all along her digestive tract,” He shrugged, “She was in too much pain to eat! But all I saw was a sickly thin teenage girl that was vomiting and couldn’t eat.”

Sarah stayed quiet.

“The point is, things happen. Death happens. Sometimes, conditions disguise as one another. Medicine is hardly ever an exact science,” Dr. Charles pointed out, “Human error is expected, you’re not going to get fired, and you’re probably not going to get sued. Mr. Nearling presented with no typical risk factors of a heart attack, and all the typical risk factors and symptoms of a panic attack. Did you purposefully ignore Mr. Nearling’s heart attack?”

Sarah shook her head.

“Boom,” Dr. Charles threw his hands up in front of him, “You had no malicious intent. You made a mistake, a common mistake, on a patient that didn’t present typically, and it had consequences.”

Sarah nodded.

Dr. Charles sighed, and looked at Sarah with a look of sympathy, “And now it will never happen again, right?”

She nodded.

“You’re going to take complaints with these symptoms more seriously?”

She nodded.

“You’re not a bad doctor, Sarah, you’re just a human,” He said, “In med school they always teach you what someone who has a heart attack looks like, just like they taught me what someone who has an eating disorder looks like. You just have to learn to get past that phenotype and look deeper.”

Sarah stayed quiet.

“Look... This is hard. I get it,” Dr. Charles sighed, “Just... go home, Sarah. Take a breather.”

“What?”

“Go home. Come back in a few days. Take a break.”

“Yes sir,” She said, quietly, before standing up to leave.

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(A/N) thanks for reading :) i’m going to build on this at some point and write a follow-up to this one shot. hope you enjoyed! this is a foundation for the parts i want to write, so it doesn’t have too much about sarah’s actual transition. i am so sorry for making ava be mean :(( EDIT: If you liked this, check this out bc I am continuing it!

[malereaderrecs]

Young Reader (aka Parent Character) List

Key: M = Male reader N - Gender neutral reader T - Trans reader

Avengers Avengers Greetings from the Avengers base (+) M, Y

Clint Barton Being Clint’s kid and acting a lot like Nat (+) N, Y Clint talking to you, his child, when Laura finds your binder (+) T, Y Joining your father Clint in fighting Thanos (+) N, Y Being a kid living on the street that Clint adopts after the battle of New York (+) N, Y Being Clint’s child would include... (+) N, Y Being Natasha’s sibling and told by Clint that she’s gone (+) N, Y

Loki Being Loki’s kid and going into battle with him (+) N, Y Thor finding out Loki took you, a superpowered teen, in (+) N, Y

Natasha Romanoff Going undercover as mother and son (+) M, Y

Steve Rogers Being Steve’s son and going through your first heartbreak (+) M, Y Being Steve’s son and him helping you deal with school stress (+) M, Y Being Steve’s son and running away (+) M, Y Being Steve’s son and having fire powers (+) M, Y Would Include: Being Steve’s son (+) M, Y Being like Steve’s son and getting hurt on a mission (+) M, Y Being Steve’s son and worrying that you aren’t good enough (+) M,Y

Stephen Strange Coming from an abusive home and Strange adopting you (+) M, Y Being Strange’s kid and getting into a fight about magic (+) N, Y

Tony Stark Headcanons: Coming out to your dad, Tony, as trans (+) M, T, Y Headcanons: Being Tony’s kid and having depression (+) N, Y Your dad Tony finding out you self harm (+) N, Y Being Tony Stark’s stepkid (+) N, Y Unfillable expectations (x son!reader) (+) M, Y

Thor Being Jane’s kid and Thor’s step kid (+) N, Y

Chicago Med/Fire/PD Antonio Dawson Being Antonio’s son and landing in Med (+) M, Y Being Antonio’s kid and getting a binder (+) T, Y

Criminal Minds Aaron “Hotch” Hotchner Being Hotch’s kid and getting suspended from school (+) N, Y

DCEU Oliver Queen/Green Arrow Your older brother Oliver helping you through a panic attack (+) N, Y

Doctor Who 9th Doctor The Doctor being like your father and taking care of you (+) M, Y Meeting the Doctor as a child (+) N, Y The Doctor being protective of you, a young trans man (+) M, T, Y

Gotham Jim Gordon Headcanons: Being a street kid Jim adopted (+) N, Y Being adopted by Jim and getting grounded (+) N, Y Jim catching you, a street kid, in his apartment (+) N, Y

Harry Potter Remus Lupin Being Lupin’s son and both of you surviving the Battle (+) M, Y

House M.D Dr. House House introducing you, his trans son, to his team (+) M, T, Y Being House’s kid and playing guitar at the hospital (+) N, Y

The Old Guard Joe and Nicky Being young when you discovered your immortality and Joe and Nicky treating you like their kid (+) N, Y Travelling with Joe and Nicky after they take you in (+) N, Y Headcanons: Being part of the Old Guard and closest to Joe and Nicky (+) N, Y

Once Upon A Time Henry Mills Having a sleepover with Henry (+) M, Y Going on a date with Henry and getting interrupted (+) M, Y Being Henry’s secret admirer (+) M, Y

Peaky Blinders Tommy Shelby Being Tommy’s kid and coming out as trans (Part 1)(Part 2) M, Y, T Being Tommy’s son and coming out as gay (+) M, Y

Peaky Blinders Preference: Being a younger Blinder and calling them mom/dad (+) N,Y

Sherlock BBC Mycroft Holmes Being Mycroft’s kid and having anxiety (+) N, Y Being Mycroft’s son (+) Y

Sherlock Holmes Being Sherlock’s son and coming out as trans (+) M, T, Y Being Sherlock’s son (+) M, Y Coming out to your dad Sherlock (+) N, Y

Twilight Carlisle Cullen Being Bella’s trans younger brother and asking Carlisle to take you shopping (+) M, T, Y Headcanons: Carlisle being a father figure to you (+) N, Y Meeting Carlisle and Esme when they save you (+) N, Y

White Collar Neal Caffrey Your dad Neal needing your help with a con (+) N, Y

The Witcher Jaskier Headcanons: Being Jaskier’s child (+) N, Y

X-Men Charles Xavier Being Charles’ son and having the same powers (+) M, Y

[silverloreley]

One of the best things about DuTP is that it prompts me to look up the historical figures we meet in the stories. The downside is that I end up racking my head trying to figure out when some events took place exactly (because I’m terrible with remembering dates and numbers) and how old are the characters at the time of the story and so on. Sometimes it’s very easy, sometimes it’s not.

Case in point: The Perfect Storm. I found a few interesting things and I want to share, just in case someone wanted to write a fic on it or just out of curiosity.

First of all, I’m almost sure it took place in 1720 and I’ll tell you why.

Rackam’s mutiny happened in 1718 and his death, clearly addressed in the story as a recent event, was in 1720. Coincidentally, Mary Read died in 1721 (in real history she was part of Rackam’s crew, along with Anne Bonny) after being involved in the same trial as Rackam, at 31 years-old.

This lets us understand how old is Charles Vane when we see him in TPS. He’s supposed to be in his late 30s (almost 40, actually) as the story is set the year before he was executed! Also, he has been a captain on his own for mere 5 years at that point, meaning he got to his fame in less than 3 years. His bragging to Cordelia is sort-of moot because she rose to fame way faster than he did, lol. On the other hand, the age gap is huge!

We know the average age of marriage for women in 1700 was around 19 years-old, but it could go up to 25 (or down to 12, since the law allowed it). If we assume Cordelia’s parents didn’t have a rush to marry her off/ were looking for a good party/ allowed her time to grow, we could say she is around 23-24 at the time of the story, it sounds reasonable given the times. It also means she really is a kid compared to Vane, lol. This doesn’t mean I won’t ship them, I still ship them, especially because in DuTP Vane looks 35 at most but I’m willing to pull down his age further because, hey, that’s just a story! Also, with Cordelia involved, just like it happened with Queen Marie’s good endings, his execution won’t happen.

Sort of same with Keats, although he isn’t based on a real person (he shares his surname with the poet and that’s about it), as far as I found. Estabilishing Keats’ exact age is a bit more complex because without a set schooling system in place at the time we can’t be sure when he finished his official studies, plus, even if we knew, we aren’t given enough info on how much time passed between his graduation and the moment he decided to prove himself to the Royal Society through field research. Let’s say he’s in his late 20s/early 30s.

There existed an Admiral Hawke, actually two, in the British Army’s history, but both younger than Vane, one born in 1705 and another in 1726, so neither could have been his father, (although we can suspect of a brother with the same name? idk). The Admiral of the Royal Fleet from 1718 to 1733 was George Byng, in case you were wondering.

Thomas de Vere, as far as I found, was created specifically for the game’s plot. Same with Governor Hamilton (apparently there was never a governor named Hamilton in Jamaica). That, unless I didn’t look in the right places in my quick search, in which case I’ll be happy to be corrected.

In any case, those three (Hawke, de Vere and Hamilton) may be inspired by other historical figures but didn’t exist irl.

Anyway, since DuTP story world isn’t quite the same as ours, that it was estabilished ever since Queen Marie that the MC can and does change history and that some characters are different from their real life counterparts (in this case, to say one, Read has the same backstory up to a certain point, but was never in Rackam’s crew nor is pregnant during her adventures with us and actually seems to be still in mourning of her late husband and not have another lover, nor she knows personally Anne Bonny here), we can alter and play with ages and history as much as we want.

TL,DR: The Perfect Storm is likely set in 1720, where Read is 30 y-o, Vane is 40 y-o, Keats around 30-something, Cordelia is any age between 12 and 25 but most likely around 24. Governor Hamilton, Thomas de Vere and Admiral Hawke may be based on historical figures but not of that time/area and are more likely just characters.

[leham-n-daavocado]

F1 Grid as Marvel Cinematic Universe Characters

Mercedes

Lewis: Steve Rogers/Captain America

Takes a stance for others at great personal cost. Doesn't care about the consequences if its the right thing to do.

Valtteri: Clint Barton/Hawkeye

Quieter. Good team member. Doesn't have flashy abilities.

Red Bull

Max: Nebula

Angry, misguided. Needs to get away from the bad father figure.

Checo: James "Rhodey" Rhodes/War Machine

A great support. But not the main character.

Ferarri

Charles: Kingo

You bet he's himbo enough star, write, produce and direct a film about his friend just to steal his thunder.

Carlos: Fandral (the fencer in Thor's Warriors Three)

Charming. Amazing support and team member. But you forget he exists (and even changed actors). Could play a bigger role.

McLaren

Lando: Peter Parker/Spider-man

He's a kid, messing up and trying to find his place in the world. Memes a lot with his core friend group.

Daniel: Bro Thor from What If...?

Yes, I believe Daniel would get a shitty tattoo and create a party so huge only his mom could break it up. Befriends everyone. Impossible to form animosities. If Daniel were Thor in Thor 1, he and Loki would be bffs like in What If..?

Alpine

Fernando: Yondu

He's fatherly to specific people (Esteban), but terrible to others. Flair for the dramatic.

Esteban: Richard (Jane's date/ love interest in Thor 2)

A nice enough guy with a lot of ability but gets terribly outshone by others.

Alpha Tauri

Pierre: Shang-chi/Shaun Xu Shang-chi (Yes, I wrote that like an HK actor lol)

Escaped a terrible original team/family. Learned lessons from them. Trying to become his own person. Learned to hold his own. Gets recognition.

Yuki: Cassie Lang (Ant-Man's daughter)

Super sweet kid. Penchant for playing violently.

Aston Martin

Sebastian: Dr. Bruce Banner/Hulk

Very smart, affable guy... until you piss him off. Aka. Baku Road Rage 2017. Multi 21. "We were racing. I was faster. I passed him. I won."

Lance: Joaquin Torres (Falcon and the Winter soldier-US military soldier who helps Sam)

Really affable and helpful guy. Resouceful. Uses the resources at his disposal.

Williams

George: T'challa/Black Panther

A very dignified character with a lot of skill. Will become a leader of something with a lot of legacy. Knows how to lead.

Nicky: Maria Rambeau (Captain Marvel's "bff and roommate")

Supportive. Strong in their own right. Knows how to help and serve others.

Alfa Romeo

Kimi: Drax the Destroyer

Very stoic. Offers astute observations. Doesn't mince words.

Honourable Mention: Guy playing Galaga on the Helicarrier in Avengers 1.

Antonio: The Ancient One (Dr. Strange's bald mentor)

Has a certain kindness and amusement to him, but is on another mortal plane because Italian Jesus.

Haas

Mick: Sam Wilson/Falcon/Captain America

He has to live up to a legacy and he doesn't know if he's up to the challenge, but he will certainly try. A really genuinely good guy who helps others.

Mazepin: Kingpin

Self-explanitory. Round head. Violent asshole.

Extras:

Toto: House Arrest Scott Lang/Ant-Man

Tries to negotiate himself out of a bad situation that can come off kinda whiney. Can be diplomatic.

Christian: J Jonah Jameson

Lewis is a menace!

Will Buxton: Betty Brant (high school news anchor)

Uber dramatic in front of the camera.

Michael Masi: Thanos

Decides races at a snap of his fingers.

[the-irken-pony]

What are your henry stickmin headcanons?

1Hoooo boy I have a lot and they also fluctuate very frequently but I can try to give you my current ones! They will be below the cut though because it is long.

Dr. Vinschpinsilstien is proooobably on some watchlist or another within the CCC, and she has her workshop on a boat because there’s a lot less chaos out in the ocean and as a result no CCC members patrolling that region, thus she’s a lot less likely to get caught for her hubris.

Burt is colorblind. His headphones are orange but Puff said that his shoes were either blue or green. I have in fact worked out the exact right shades of green for this.

Autism headcanons: Charles, Burt, and Mr. Macbeth. Do I have any specific reasons for these? No I do not.

Hubert Galeforce is likely known among his army for his more chaotic tendencies (i.e. getting a criminal’s help in dealing with an army of criminals), but he’s able to hide it well enough around other groups within the government to get away with most of it.

Hubert and Dmitri? Divorced. The only argument I have for this one is it’s funny as hell.

Idk if this necessarily counts but Grigori needs a better job. Dmitri is a dick and Grigori seems so new to working at the Wall that he shouldn’t be second in command. (x) That’s not on Grigori for not knowing stuff that’s on Dmitri for hiring someone and making them second in command immediately after. (I love Dmitri and I love to hate Dmitri.) On the flip side, Grigori would make an excellent self defense teacher imo.

Reginald Copperbottom has ADHD, either mixed or predominantly hyperactive. His anxiety levels are either very low or skyrocketing into panic mode with little in-between, he avoids stepping on others' toes unless they've pissed him off, he doesn't think much of pressing problems until they become urgent, he tends to be very talkative and speak for long periods of time if given the opportunity to, he's seen frequently pulling at his mustache when pleased about something or making this noise when in distress, and based on Sven's dialogue about having to "dig through mountains of paperwork" to find the old leaders' rocket plans suggests he's very disorganized.

Along those lines, Reginald doesn’t take well to sitting in one place for very long unless he’s free to move around in whatever seat he’s sitting in.

Somewhat recently I posted a shitton of headcanons for Billy G. (plus Reginald) and Jaques Kensington in a separate post.

Reginald actually grew up alongside the Toppat Clan since his parents were both Toppats, so he thinks of the clan as his family.

The downside of that is his actual parents were pretty neglectful. Reggie didn't have kids his age to play with either, so he'd pretty much cling to whoever didn't tell him to go away. (And that's how Billy G. ended up as his surrogate father figure.)

Reginald proooobably shouldn’t be allowed to drive. He knows how to drive but dear god you do not want him behind the wheel during emergencies.

Right Hand Man joined the clan either during Wilford's reign or very shortly before then.

Reginald had been running the Toppat Clan for ~2-3 years when Henry took over.

Contrary to what most people assume, Right Hand Man is the one who tends to be picky about his food; meanwhile Reginald would order fast food every day of the week if the costs didn’t accumulate so quickly. Also Reginald has an insatiable sweet tooth, and while this is fine most of the time, sometimes RHM has to make sure that Reginald doesn’t consume a full container of cookie dough and make himself sick.

When Wilford was in charge, RHM got himself into a lot of trouble because he hated the idea of listening to someone in charge if he didn't have a good reason to do so. Because of this people usually assume that he hates listening to authority, but he's very cooperative if an order makes sense to him. As you can imagine, he absolutely loathed Terrence for this.

To clarify, Sir Wilford IV was very responsible for the most part, but he also sometimes had a need to assert his own authority, which was a source of conflict between him and who we’d later know as Right Hand Man.

There are exceptions, but in general a quiet RHM is a happy/content RHM. He isn’t usually talkative unless something is wrong or he has a good reason to speak. Am I the only one who notices how unusually talkative RHM Blue is?

Right Hand Man and The Witch are trans man/trans woman solidarity, no I do not take criticism.

[flamingredanon]

[Triple triplets x RHMG]

how would Ellie and Henry react when they find out that their father (galeforce) turned charles or now Charlie into Specialized Toppat Killer? (also happy Halloween 🎃)

Oh my.

Henry and Ellie are horrified at their father's actions, with Galeforce trying to justify his decision as it being " for the good of everyone" and telling the two that after the Toppats would be defeated then he would bring them back their brother.

Henry and Ellie don't buy this, with Ellie headed to the Wall to talk to Dmitri about this and leaving Henry to stay and try to figure something out.

Since Henry isn't the best fighter or runner here in the Triple Triplet AU, he just has to hang on tight and try to jog Charles' and Right's memories the best he can without Galeforce or Dr V knowing.

Dmitri would be thoroughly pissed here and send the Wall to attack, maybe even making a temporary alliance with the Toppats to stop Galeforce and save Right and Charles.

The rescue attempt is easier said then done, with Green and Charlie following orders to protect the Government and attack the intruders, giving the Government a quick upper hand.

And then both Henry and Ellie stand infront of Charlie, with Reginald standing infront of Green in one desperate bid to free those close to them, no one moving an inch and knowing full well that they could easily be killed.

But Henry, Ellie and Reginald will stay their ground to save Charles and Right, already forgiving them for their actions beyond their own control and only hoping their plan works.