#dont mind me idk

[credulouscanidae]

at the risk of sounding like an idiot (inner critic is telling me im obviously feeling this way because i want an explanation to shirk responsibility, even tho i know thats not true), the feeling/pondering of whether or not i have avoidant personality disorder has propped into my head again

my critic says "its just circumstantial atm youre just being mentally ill" but idk. its a disorder that i wondered if i had like 9-10 years ago too, and i feel like my current extreme isolation/withdrawal was something i kinda....knew? would happen? based on my history and feelings that have persisted for years. living on the other side of the world to my old life has just simply made those bad thoughts easier to give into. i had that inkling inside me...because i live in constant fear of rejection and just. a lot of fear

reading up on fearful attachment style has also made me go. damn.,

and i hate wondering this because i always feel so cringe when throwing out a psychology term, because i understand the complexities of this stuff. similar behaviours can be due to different reasons. but idk. i feel like the criteria describes me entirely, and my personality has always been one where...it would make sense if i developed that specific personality disorder ya know? it explains every single aspect of my line of thinking and how i perceive things.

i might consider bringing it up to my therapist but idk if shes just gonna assume im thinking this because of my current isolation, and i feel stupid trying to validate my case and being "no ive been like this for literally 10+ years, source: dude trust me" but eughghghghg....

trying to figure yourself out sux. and its not like im trying to black and white label myself as one thing so i can be like "welp i have avpd sooooooo lol <3" but moreso of like. wow if thats whats actually wrong with me then i can tackle it. i dont have to feel like a unsolvable puzzle thats doomed to these behaviour patterns forever.

i wish i could allow myself to start healing.

[jabberwick]

Human Bill Cipher

(Based on Alex Hirsch's "canon" design)

And just to be clear, writing dissertations at me justifying why he should instead be a conventionally attractive twink will involuntarily cause me to draw him with even fewer teeth.

[diadraws]

so, theres a cartoon. but, get this: i've drawn the characters as weird animals. i bet youve never seen me do that before

[corviiids]

in the one (1) month since i watched death note for the first time i sure have been doing a fucking posting

bonus:

[thatgothsamurai]

[ohposhers]

espio let silver hug him once and silver took that as an invitation to forget personal space is a thing people like to have <3 based off of that one comic panel if you know you know wink wonk

[yanderespamton78]

Edit since a lot of people seem confused - your "real" name is the name that you want to be referred to in real life. It doesn't have to be your legal name. So if you're trans and you have a different name to whats on your birth certificate, even if not many people call you by the name, it still counts as your real name.

Edit 2 : Holy shit guys please stop reblogging this post my poor inbox im getting like 20 notifs an hour asjfhkajshdkh /lh /srs

[boringwomanwithabook]

early morning blues

[derpycatsu]

icarus

[twipsai]

sega return my calls

(for those who dont know)

[puppyeared]

act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

[lenny-link]

Hopefully this doesn't come across as too weird, but I need to get femScout's Pa pregnant

im glad you enjoyed the dilf i created

[aropride]

if you ever think "why bother posting my spotify wrapped/apple music replay nobody really cares anyway" think of ME. I CARE. i love that shit i love seeing what music people like and how many minutes they listened to music etc. PLEASE post them i love it i love ittttt it's like a holiday for me

[hanjlsung]

for @shorelinnes ♡

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?

thank you so much !!

i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]

and the obligatory bonus:

[becauseplot]

qPhilza perching on people because bird

qFit: Mans is built like a brick shithouse—he can totally balance Phil’s additional weight. The first attempt is a bit shaky, sure, but nowadays Phil swoops down or hops up onto Fit’s shoulder and all Fit really has to do is jut out his elbow to give his friend a little more space for his talons to work with. Bam, he’s perched. Works out about 9.9 times out of 10, though Phil delights in trying to catch him off guard.

qEtoiles: He doesn’t have Fit’s bulk on his side, so he’s not as sturdy, but he is strong. The landing is usually a little rough since Etoiles has to work a bit harder to counterbalance the additional weight, but he always finds that center of gravity in no time flat. Phil usually perches with one talon on each of Etoiles’ shoulders since he’s not as w i d e, just so Phil can have a little extra grip. At some point, Etoiles tries fighting a mob while Phil is perched on him, and that goes exactly as well as you would expect.

qForever: Honestly, with all of the hard labor Forever does for his big builds, Phil was expecting him to do better, but the first (several) attempts end up with Forever stumbling over and knocking Phil off of him from his wild arm-pinwheeling. They eventually figure out it’s more doable if Forever himself has something to lean on (a wall, a chair, the butt of his pickaxe) and Phil puts one talon evenly spaced on each shoulder. Phil learns some new swears in Portuguese in the process.

qMissa: Flattened. Full-on face in the floor, mouth full of grass, wind knocked out of his lungs at Mach 5 the first time Phil tries. Phil apologizes profusely, but Missa—once he can breathe again—just rolls over onto his back and asks Phil if they can give it another try. It takes a long, LONG time, but they figure out that if Phil plants his talons on Missa’s shoulder pads and leans forward while Missa leans back, they have a small little window of time where they achieve balance. The best part? Phil gets a perfect view of Missa’s goofy little grin every single time.