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diwtara · 7 months ago

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I have a very specific image in my head of Zeff reading little Sanji a bedtime story, but the story is The Very Hungry Caterpillar, and tiny Sanji is sitting up in bed looking stressed af

#one piece #sanji #black leg sanji #red leg zeff #dont know if its because its so hungry #or because its an insect #but sanji has nightmares

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fox-guardian · 4 days ago

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I have stayed up far too late and am being punished for my hubris. found a bug on my pillow

#ramblings with major #vent #it is 100% not a bed bug but i dont know what it is and its a generic enough description that if i look up anything #im just going to scare myself further #so i just have to sit and wait until i can wash my sheets and vacuum my floor #because im juuuust sleep deprived enough to fear this one random definitely-just-snuck-in-from-outside bug #is actually a sign of a horrific infestation that will Crawl Into My Ears #its fine. its nothing. its a fluke. but my brain won't let me believe that once the lights are off.#good morning bad morning hhhh #this is JUST like the magnus archives akhsknsljs #i have also stayed up so long that i am Very Hungry Now #hhhh

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toddtakefive · 8 months ago

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btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage

#and him trying to stop neil from asking if todd not reading at the meetings is okay isn’t him wanting not to go #its him not wanting neil to ask because (as someone with social anxiety) it’s EMBARRASSING ASF for someone to ask for things on your behalf #literally just think about it as the meme of ‘when i tell my friend im hungry and he tells his mom that *i* want food instead of both of us’#and the whole ‘neil not knowing how to take no for an answer’ thing…… dont get me fucking started #the kid who’s had to take no for an answer his whole life? the kid whose first proper scene IS him taking no for an answer? are you serious?#being encouraging and accommodating and (admittedly) a little pushy when he’s got his mind set on something—#—is NAWT the same as not being able to take no for an answer or bulldozing through conversations with people #he and todd DO listen to each other in those conversations theyre just on opposing sides—#—because their understandings of the world don’t fully align at that point in time/the movie #which is totally fucking normal?????? because later on they DO properly align?????????#i feel so crazy about this every time i see someone say todd didn’t want to go the dead poets meetings because it’s so obvious he DID #he was just scared #and you know what maybe it IS a little forceful #but given how dedicated todd is to shutting off and hating and isolating himself he NEEDS a little forceful to be broken through to #if no one ever pushed me to do things when i was scared (as irritated as it can make me) i’d never do SHIT dude #and obviously todd is the same way because he ALL BUT OUTRIGHT SAYS AS MUCH #‘i appreciate this concern but i’m not like you’ IS about neil’s voice and opinions mattering to people but it’s ALSO about—#—him being outgoing and trying new things and putting himself out there #WHICH TODD WANTS TO BE ABLE TO DO!!!!!!!!#the moral you take away from todds growth is NOT that he has to change to be accepted because he DOESNT #its that he has to gain the confidence and belief in himself to grow and become the version of himself he WANTS to be #he NEVER changes on a fundamental level to make others happy (although his growth does make others happy) he just opens up more #and i dont know WHY some people think his arc is becoming a completely different person #like yall PLEASE #this isnt even an anderperry thing this is an issue even if you read them completely platonic #i blame the FUCKASS novelization…. dps book you will always be hated by ME #dps #dead poets society #neil perry #todd anderson

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months ago

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Remembering that the black parade’s 18th anniversary is oct 24th and then the rgg drama and sonic x shadow generations is coming out the 25th and then halloween’s the 31st means im imploding at the end of october this year

#snap chats #23rd for europeans but wharever POINT IS its MY week #got reminded of this because three cheers’ 20th anniversay is today … like. THE album for understanding my as an individual #all the shadow posting on twitter nearly distracted me but i listen to the album every day so itd be illegal if i forgot #i love acting like i dont treat the entire month of october as halloween #listen ik i just made this post without the MCR bit but this is a warning four months down the line #theres just a lot of things to look forward to i fear ….#i will be posting about everything so long as i can make it rgg related and since Tha Drama comin out that week. TRUST ill find a way #as of right now ill go back to rgg posting. maybe. idk im kinda hungry maybe ill eat dinner #maybe ill write for once i was inspired listening to music today. ironically not a three cheers song #FOB song so like same topical vein ig but we all know how my writing goes #BUT ILL AT LEAST SHARE THE IDEA ? maybe. ill decide next post. after i decide if i eat or not #bye bye for now ill be back in an hour

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tamagotchikgs · 2 days ago

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big portions stress me out so much

#i ate until i couldnt anymoe earlier n theres still like 3 time that amount n im hungry again but what if im just hungry because its There..#n i eat too much...#im not restricting but also i dont want to overeat #i dont know how to be normal #i dont have the natural hunger vibe check i lost it to years of calorie counting #i need packaged food so im Contained #homemade food my beloathed my enemy

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dzozef · 12 days ago

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i got offered the promotion at work.... why am i every business owners wettest dream damn....

#yapping #yes my ocd is horrible for my mental health but boy is it good for my wallet !!!!#its not OFFICIAL yet #but it was offered to me and i accepted so theyre seeing how they want to proceed now #cause its not just about me theres a shit ton of changes they want to make that include switching like 5 peoples schedules around #but my team leader said that most of those changes being possible depended on whether i would accept this or not #so well see #id be a team leader myself now #the feminine urge to become a power hungry dictator control freak at work.......#id be switching from my current early morning shifts to late night shifts which is much less healthy on paper #but my body is made for sleeping late i physically can not go to bed before 3am even now when i wake up at 5:30 #i might have the money to renovate my apartment now cause i think this comes with a 20% pay increase which is a lotttt #i basically will be earning two incomes myself now 😭#dani said he fully believes Ace Of Spades exists at this point cause everything always ends up going my way in the end #i know it may seem like im flexing but please be aware when i started this job a year and a half ago i was borderline homeless 😐#so its a huge deal for me 😭 and really quickly done as well which is why its so insane #like. in a year and a half only i went from borderline homeless and my parents keeping me on constant phonecalls #cause they were worried id off myself if i hung up #to being a homeowner that earns two incomes by herself while working from home #i feel like in most companies hard work doesnt rly pay off tbh i was just lucky to get into one of the few companies where they do value it #the literal CEO is my biggest dickrider 😭 but i do appreciate him giving me raises randomly cause he feels like i deserve it #but yeah !!!! apparently life altering anxiety that forces you to compulsively do perfect work at any job you ever do #because making mistakes and not giving it your 110% feels like a moral failure so you feel sick at the very thought of it #is apparently what makes the dream worker #if only they knew i dont actually care about this in any capacity.... i am just fucked in the head in a way that works im their favour 😭#this is why all of my ex bosses begged me to stay when i quit teehee #im yapping too much but yeah !! heall yeah money !!

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br1ghtestlight · 3 months ago

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i feel like im blocked by at least half of ii tumblr which idc about really but i do think its funny that i know FOR A FACT the only reason people have me blocked is bcuz i dared to post positively about Inanimate insanity the show this community is literally dedicated to. and give the benefit of the doubt to the creators who btw i was proven right about. like they literally hate me for liking the show that all of our blogs are focused on they cannot fucking STAND me

#its annoying though cuz i cant reblog posts from most of ii tumblr cuz everyone has me fucking blocked even though theres some good art #everyone is so damn negative on tumblr especially #people on twitter also have me blocked obvs but thats for a variety of reasons like bcuz of an annoying post i made/they dont like my art #i used to follow or be mutuals with someone they disliked etc #i would never deny that im extremely annoying and i have blocked people for a lot less so i get it 100%#but i also know that people blocked me for defending ii bcuz thats when i started getting a lot of anon hate about it #shouldnt even have to say this but like.... im not talking about defending racism ableism or transphobia from the crew #or in the history of the show i think talking about that constructively is a good thing. they removed most of it now but there were like #slurs in season one!!! multiple of them!!!!#i always support discussing that stuff and how it impacted the show and the community but people just like hate season 3 hate the crew #think theyre money-hungry people who dont care about art and are trying to exploit their fans and community #and that every episode of inanimate insanity is awful even though THEY CONTINUE TO STAY IN THE COMMUNITY??#its gotten a lot better since season 3 ended cuz i think that was a big problem for a lot of people but im still blocked :(#anyway i dont reblog much in general but i especially dont reblog from osc creators because i literally cant lmfao #txt

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cvsette · 4 months ago

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this week was so fucking long and i straight up feel like i dont have any executive functioning left and its making me feel insane. objectively everything is fine and nothing is actually wrong its just i dont have energy to work as hard as i have to on doing basic tasks of existence. which reminds me that i have to work really really hard at keeping up with the basic tasks of existence. which makes me want to crawl into a hole and never come out ever again.

#everything i eat is going straight through me in a bad way but im nauseous or dont want to eat most of the day #so im just constantly hungry but not able to eat anything #ive been on my period for the past week and a half because i tried to skip one w birth control and that didnt work #so now im having period...2! with cramps and etc #my room is disgusting and my trash is overflowing and dirty dishes are piled on my nightstand #im tired but i cant sleep well or get to sleep or stay asleep #and i cant ask for help because i wouldnt even know where to start or what to start with or even how i could get help #whatever its fine. at least i dont have covid anymore #personal #oh and im broke! cool

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genekies · 1 year ago

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screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

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halfdeadwallfly · 8 months ago

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i was just sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast, having greek yogurt with grape nuts - which i thought was perfectly normal - and my mom cam in and with complete sincerity told me that i needed to have some fruit with it because otherwise i was basically eating plain sugar. am i going insane here

#boink #i went grocery shopping for her the other day and apparently i got the wrong yogurt bc it has too much sugar and fat in it #idk #anyway she got mad at me for eating yogurt the other day too #i had had one spoon of it after stirring it up out of the fridge #and she got all prickly and asked if i ever check the serving size on food #and that i should pay attention to how much i was eating and put it in a bowl instead of eating it out of the container #which i was notable not doing #anyway #she also got upset when she noticed it was the wrong kind and said that i needed to be careful eating it because it's basically candy #and THEN when i got upset abt this she said not to get mad at her for caring #which #ok #but i just #god #i dont know #im the fattest person in my family #when i was a kid one of the traits that i sort of adopted bc people said it abt me was that i was 'always hungry'#even though that wasnt true #that im not picky and ill eat anything which /again/ is not true #and now that im older i can just tell. that people look at me and think i'm gluttonous. like it's a sin right #and i know especially with my family that that's what theyre thinking about me #i already have so much guilt about wanting things and enjoying things #like this year at school i feel like i was doing so well with that kind of thing #and i gained weight of course i did of course #and thats shitty and whatever the fuck but also i didnt hate myself for it a lot of the time?#and now im back in my house and its just like. i dont know #i need to work through things one step at a time #and i just cant #i mean not with everyone watching

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totallyawesome123 · 5 months ago

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rediscovering I have empathy? craaaazyyyyy

#beanie babbles #okay so this is gonna be a vent post but all in the yags #tw pet death #tw death #i hope dont think this is ablest language but its not precise language #Here we go #I never really doubted I have a capacity for empathy. It can be kind of hit or miss- amd even when I dont understand I try to be compassion #-ate. all that good stuff blah blah #Whats a lot more accurate to say is I dont really feel bad for dead people #I'll feel bad at the idea of somone dying maybe. I dont want living people to suffer and die just because.#I get upset when my friends are suicidal or when somone goes out and kills other people or even when a fictional charecter dies sometimes #but the mourning isnt about their death. it sucks that i cant hang out with them any more or that they cant experiance shit any more #but im not crying at a casket #But I did cry when I found my housemates pet bird limp on the floor of the cage today- the other one not seeming to even realize #This is the second time. The first one the birds were closer and the loving one wouldnt stop making noise tryong to get our attention #this one didnt mind as much- was just hungry and looking for some more feed. The feeders were empty and water gross #I stay with the birds every day and make sure they get excerize and enrichment because my housemate cant do that part #but i dont check the nessicities #so that was a shock. I refilled the food compartment after taking the dead bird out and putting them in a box #I dont think thats why they died. These birds have their wongs clipped before purchase and cant flay very well at all #But this bird practiced and was able to get a lot of height and distance as feathers grew back. But didnt know how to stop #Constantly crashing into floors and walls. Thats the main culprit I think #Its just weird that I cry easier over birds and fictional charecters and material things than my family. I feel guilty about it #Not that guilty i got all that angst out in 2020 #vent post #not really actually this turned into an explination of events more #anyway #the actual post had nothing to do w9th anything bru

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dysphoroboros · 6 months ago

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how i feel rn

#i have a headache i cant talk about my problems i feel unloved and i cant have fun without someone or something ruining it #im probably thirsty or hungry (i cant feckin' tell anymore) and if i stay in this state any longer im gonna die #(still not gonna talk about my problems to anyone around me tho bc i cant let them know.#because if i do itll make me feel worse + wont solve anything bc they wont listen + its opening up to some1 i distrust)#(but i dont have anyone else (and probably never will since the pandemic is over(ish)) so ig ill just slowly rot away or whatev on my own)#(also based on those taking care of pet games bc everyone who was supposed to take care of me failed #and if i die because of it #its all their fault.)

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atypi-cals · 8 months ago

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this is so me rn honestly. sometimes. people have dinner at 12 am and get angry that they're hungry at 9:45 the next morning. Like hello? A year ago i would be fine waiting from dinner time to breakfast time. but noooo now my stomach wants food as soon as I get out of bed. be fucking patient man who the fuck wants to eat at 9:45 am!?

#i dont care what senshi tells me i fucking. HATE eating food in the morning it makes me SO tired #like i need the energy that would be going to digestion to jump start my morning otherwise i just get too eepy #i know foods is supposed to give you energy but whenever i eat something i get SUPER SUPER tired for like 30-60 minutes afterwards #anyways ill tag this as #disordered eating #just because ive been there i know ED behaviors arent always triggered by ED related stuff sometimes its just talking abt food awkwardly #but like its not ED related i promise i just went from living in a house where you ate at meal times and if you missed brekkie you missed it #to. idk buy your own groceries eat what you like when you like #and im pissed off that doing that makes me physically hungry when i have no appetite #i usually eat brekkie at lunch tho and lunch at dinner and dinner at midnight

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pears-trinkets · 9 months ago

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everything sucks so hard rn idk

#mischa isnt eating again all while screaming because shes hungry and pulling every single piece of plastic out of my shelves #all my bags straps and backpacks have saliva stains from her #she will jump into shelves and pull out dvds to lick #and there's no other food i can try #my paycheck lacks 500 euro because i was sick and im still 200 euro in the red after getting my paycheck today #and tomorrow is the tooth surgery and ive been trying to call my dentist because he only applied for 2 of 3 teeth #at my insurance #and these 2 will be over 1k already after my insurance will pay their part #at least the sedation isnt as strong as i thought so i can go home by myself and dont have to rely on any unreliable people #after my mom accused me of making mischa have diarrhea on purpose because the food company changed the recipe and i gave her 1 bag #she hasnt talked to me and im definitely not going to be the one to start a conversation with her because im usually better off without her #so its nice that i dont have to ask her for her assistance tomorrow #just gonna do everything alone like usual #also work is so UUUGGGHHHHH and sucks so hard all my coworkers ignore what i say and just go to other people behind my back to do my job #im stress eating so much all my favorite clothes dont fit anymore and i hate looking in the mirror #i wanna go swimming but i just dont have the energy i just wanna curl up and dont have a body #also i have a comic idea written down for several months now and i wanna finish it for mothers day but i feel so discouraged #wehh #im also so stressed i clawed so much at my face its full of bloody spots i look so bad #every morning my neighbors i dont even share a wall with turn on their super broken washingmachine at 7 am #and it sounds so broken and its so loud it sounds like someone is drilling a hole into the wall for 40 -120 ?>#mins #i haven't been able to sleep properly for like a month #when i go into work everyone is just like oof you dont look good #thanks i know

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martyrbat · 2 years ago

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the homoeroticism of sharing a cigarette while overlooking a city you both want to save and are willing to sacrifice everything to do so while desperately clinging to the hope you both can somehow still live to see another sunrise.

#shoutout to batgordon gotta be one of my favourite pairs that makes my mutuals annoyed <33 #its about having that boundary and barrier that literal mask staring you in the face every single time you talk — the painful reminder you #will never know the man underneath it entirely! yet still that trust to uphold his secret identity! to not peek or rip it off! to not turn #around when he uncowls himself behind you in a theatrical show of HIS trust! its about not opening your eyes while bandaging his injuries #and as your fingers graze the skin that you dont allow yourself to see! its about seeing this mask and accepting it as part of the man and #something he must do and have! its about finding the other person that actually cares about this city as much as you do!#everyone around you is telling you its hopeless yet you remain that hope! you remain dedicated to it and your sisyphus labour because #theres such a small possibility that one day things WILL get better and that's enough to keep you going! its about finding the other person #that has sacrificed and sabotaged their own happiness and life for this city!#its about the smoke burning in your lungs and the cold air you two will always share — if youre lucky.#its about having a consensual workplace relationship that neither of you will acknowledge!#and why should you! theree no point! its never going to happen; gotham and your family is always going to the priority for both of you #but god the stars are beautiful tonight and its so nice to have a friend that actually understands why youre bleeding for this city #its also about sad old men sex & bittersweet heartache memories shared of watching this hungry city shift and change as your blood feeds it

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berah-ronah · 2 years ago

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Man, it was great to hang out and make out with a friend last Saturday, but it HAS made me even more aware of how I basically always want to touch and be touched, and now, I know EXACTLY what I'm missing

#its like how some labs are born with a mutation that makes them Always Hungry #because their body doesnt produce enough of the hormone that makes you feel full #i am SO needy!!!! and basically always want to be engaging in some sort of intimate touch!!#but i dont know anyone in ann arbor proper who'd be down to casually cuddle or make out and its KILLING me #personal

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