#dont get sick if you live in America

[arenabreadandbiscuits]

Bit of a rant but...

Honestly I often find myself despising existence here in the place I live which would be America. Tell me why healthcare isn't free yet?? I got a call from the hospital that I was in for MONTHS like last week and what do you mean I have an expected pay of over 200k dollars??? Like an I tripping??? Honestly I'm tempted to cry about it just typing it out because what?! I'm 21 and got sick out of the fucking blue and now after not being able to work or use my body like I could before ending up at the hospital I'm expected to pay that much in bill??

Lord help us, Lord help ME. Like I get so discouraged because I'm like why can't I just have the money? The funds I need? At most all I CAN do is write and draw for some loose change.

My mom is sleeping beside me rn so let me not have a break down immediately but Gods ... They stay saying America is the best country and I'm sure one more bad incident would leave me fucking homeless. Like it's not fair at all. Like you could get sick one good time and get fucked over from them on our.

Not to mention my mental health is shit. Granted it always has been but I've been stuck in a loop of getting super sad but never happy enough. Like I'm not allowed to be anything other than upset, or in pain some kind of way...like can't I just have money to get my dog to the vet when he needs it? How able money to keep food in my fridge for my family since it's not like I'm doing anything to help them??...

I'm sorry I did get lost in that but literally, I draw... I write.... Prices on art can be negotiable but prices on writing is set in stone.

Writing Commissions Post Here if you want to help. IDC how really, even if I have to write 20+ 500 word stories I don't care, I just need the dough...

[chartreuxcatz]

hm. I just realized how weird it was that every year in school we had to have a moment of silence on 9/11 to remember the victims, and everyone took it really seriously. But when we had a designated time set for going outside and having a few minutes for the Parkland shooting victims our teacher told us “I don’t want to see any of you leaving my class for that. You don’t even understand what you’re protesting.”

Not that I would have known where to go for it anyway. They didnt really tell us where outside we would be gathering.

I wish i had stepped out that day anyways.

We have a god damn school shooting every fucking day in this country and I couldnt even take 17 minutes one fucking time to mourn with my classmates because the gun owners would’ve felt attacked.

[pega-chan]

not to be like nationalistic or whatever but you can want to "escape" your country to live abroad bc you think it's better without generalizing the country, its government, the people, culture, etc. as an overall bad place and incapable of getting better

[funkopersonal]

Im quite literally so done with this shit. i keep on going back and forth between hiding all the i/p related tags, but then I realize that its seeped EVERYWHERE. It's in the motherhood tag, and jewish history tag, and everything else. I can't fucking escape it. I opened tiktok yesterday to see one of my favorite characters (iron man) weaponized to support the one group that wants to see me dead, the user saying that iron man would support palestine, and be an antizionist because he "spoke out against the public" and he wasn't like the sheep. It frustrates me to no end this horrible cycle of fucking misinformation that exists.

As a Gen Z, I simply do not understand how its reached this point? I can't even write all my feelings and information about how shitty this is in a single sitting because 1) it'd be too long and 2) my joints wont let me write that long. But how did it reach this point?

How did it reach the point where jewish/isreali stores are fucking marked to notify the public. Their windows are being broken and the stores are being robbed. How did it reach the point where jewish students on some campuses are told to stay home? how they're harassed out of specific areas, and campuses have been made unsafe? How did it reach the point that people literally have written "I ♡ Houthis & Hamas" and "no mercy for Jews."? How did it reach the point that there are nazi symbols, and hanging deadmans, and communist symbols being drawn on college campuses? How is it possible that students are calling for the end of jewish student unions and hillel international on campus? that'd be like calling for the end of the fucking muslim student organization, or disbanding an african-american affinity group. Which would never be acceptable, but apparently its fine when its jews.

I'm sick and tired of all the horrible conditions of palestenian cities being blamed on israel. Palestine is its own country. They had their own government until they elected Hamas to lead them. Hamas, who diverted all their funds to the military. Hamas, who uses hospitals and public spaces as their bases. Hamas, who built miitary tunnels under cities so that when they're invaded, the cities will collapse on itself. Hamas, who steals all humanitarian aid from its citizens. Hamas, who controls palestenian media and teaches hatred to its children. Hamas, who wants their citizens to become martyrs for their country, to die for their goal. Hamas, whose number one goal is to eradicate all jews. Hamas, who denies the existence of the holocaust. Hamas, who enlists children as soldiers and suicide bombers. Hamas, who has has never expressed an interest in a 2 state solution.

Is this the organization you consider freedom fighters? because i dont think they should ever, in any context, be called that. Hamas is nothing but terrorists.

Yes, the deaths and treatment of palestenian citizens is horrible. but no, this is not a genocide. Israel is trying to rid them of Hamas, because quite literally, no country should ever be forced to live in "harmony" with a terrorist group. Especially one who denies their existence and actively wants to kill them all. Israel has been letting palestenians get jobs in the country, has let palestine use their resources and water, all for years. They've let hamas continously bomb them, they've gotten used to a life of bomb shelters in every residence. Hamas has done nothing but crippled their country's own economy and society.

None of the surrounding coutnries want to let in palestenians, or live with palestenians. Egypt wants to annex Gaza, and Jordan wants the West Bank. In fact, they did own that land for a part of history! Yet Israel has let palestenians govern themselves for years, even when Hamas originally came into power, they didn't interfere. Not until they were provoked.

Yes, Israel has flaws. But welcome to the fucking real world, princess. Every country has flaws. Even America, you dipshits. This is not a little fandom for you to play sides on. its not some fictional world that has a black and white solution. Yes theres going to be deaths, just like in any other WAR. But you really can't call for the destruction of a country on the basis that they're trying to make sure they're allowed to stay a country? Because guess what honey bunchkins? "from the river to the sea" really doesn't mean what you think it does. It just means that you want to kill all jews, or at best, forcefully remove them and scatter them around the middle east. (to countries that have killed them in swaths in the past. To countries that have emprisoned jews for helping others escape. To countries that avidly hate jews and want them dead). I don't understand how that would mean peace in any way shape or form?

Not only that, but half of "protestors" and "activists" for palestine, haven't even done basic research. They dont know what river or sea theyre talking about. They dont know that "palestine" was not a palestenian state in 1948, but it was instead a BRITISH MANDATE, that was NOT fully occupied by palestenians. In fact, "palestenians" weren't a thing. Palestenians are just muslims and arabs from countries like syria, who lived alongside jews and christians in the same land (which was largely uninhabited for the most part). Yeah, you heard me right.

Honestly my thoughts on this issue are so scattered its so hard to make a solid points when I can just keep on going forever.

Fact is, Israel deserves to be a country. No one should be supporting Hamas. Everyone should be supporting the eradication of Hamas (and I mean Hamas not palestenian citizens). I don't get how these are debated, and seriously don't understand how citizens of america are so quick to support a terrorist group, to resort to antisemitism.

Im so done with this all. I cant believe we have to tell you gentiles that stoning a 13-year old kid for being jewish is horrible. That throwing a brick through an israeli-owned cafe in New York is horrible. That students not being able to be on campuses because of their religion or ethnicity is horrible.

This has to end.

Do your research, or don't speak (and terrorist-controlled propoganda channels don't count).

[theotherhappyplace]

I want very badly to make a comic about my entire experience with endometriosis. I want more people to know how bad it is. 1 in 10 people with a uterus experience it and it is widely ignored and not understood due to prejudices and lack of awareness.

However I am also pretty severely traumatized. This has been the worst experience of my life and I feel like a giant monster of iron and flames ate up 4 years of my life and money and dreams and future. I have a desolate burning landscape to live in.

People don't know how bad it is to be sick in America. They think they are safer than they are. They don't see how if the system decides you are inhuman.

No one helps.

I feel like I went into hell and heard the demons coming for YOU in particular. I left hell losing most of my soul and I desperately want to warn you with all I have left. I want to say "RUN RUN ITS GOING TO GET YOU DONT YOU UNDERSTAND??"

If someone was about to catch on fire

You'd want to warn them right?

[gayhenrycreel]

i want to demonstrate how fucked up america is compared to the rest of the world

this is all the types of leave in Aotearoa.

if you're wondering what bereavement leave is, its leave you get when someone in your life dies. the bereavement here is at minimum 3 days, and you also get it if you or a partner has a miscarriage.

thats right, if you are a man and your partner has a miscarriage out of wedlock you can get leave. ive heard about other countries not even letting men take parental leave.

everyone gets a maximum of 12 public holidays off, and if its is on a weekend you get monday off, and it only counts as one public holiday.

annual leave is 4 weeks and paid. you can choose when to take it. this is basically a requirement.

public holidays, annual leave, bereavement leave, and 10 days of sick leave, are the minimum amount of holidays we get.

assuming no one dies, its normal to get around 50 days off per year.

THIS IS NORMAL FOR MOST OF THE WORLD

americans need to know this so they know how much theyve been fucked over. im living in a utopia by comparison, and people still want more days off.

you dont know youre being abused if you think its normal. not everyone lives like that.

unionize. ask for a raise. call politicians and suggest more holidays (towns can have local holidays so dont forget the mayor). its also awesome to tell your boss to give a coworker a raise. if they do they might give everyone a raise, so you do have a selfish reason to be kind.

it is abuse to force you to work yourself to death under threat of death.

its slavery.

[deedala]

☀️ weekly 🌴 tag 🌴 wednesday 🌊

hello it is thursday!! not wednesday, alas, we persist. big thanks to a one lil miss ✨🌟🌙 @celestialmickey ✨🌟🌙 !!!! for writing this weeks game and for tagging me!! + @gallapiech @blue-disco-lights @heymrspatel @jrooc @mmmichyyy @too-schoolforcool @lingy910y @crossmydna @energievie @palepinkgoat 💖💖💖

name: deanna 🌱

pronouns: she/her

what year did you graduate high school? lets play a game actually, what do you think? did i graduate in 1998, 2002, or 2006?

tell me where you live without *telling* me where you live: woody harrelson and i know the same amusement park like the back of our respective hands

tell me what you do for work: digital coloring book

caffeine source of choice: brew my own hot coffee in which i pour oatmilk and french vanilla dairy-free creamer

do you have a skincare routine? super sensitive skin, had to do accutane in my 20s *and* back in 2019. dermatologist has me on a very strict routine of gentle salicylic acid facewash and oil-free fragrance-free sensitive-skin formulated facial moisturizer. nothing else allowed!!

how often do you do laundry? every single fucking day of life and if i dont i will be overcome and i will suffer

favorite flower: poppies!! (iykyk) but dandelions are a close second

your go-to karaoke song: i've never gotten to do karaoake for reals but i think it would be an absolute blast (and hysterically cringey) to sing wuthering heights by kate bush!!

what kind of phone do you have? mint green iphone 12

do you wear contacts/glasses? i wear a single contact lens because i had to have a bunch of surgery in my left eye in my 20s and one of them involved replacing my lens with an implant (hi im bionic, i have a serial number) that is a corrective lens giving me 20/20 vision (apart from the blind spots where my retina is destroyed) SOOOO i literally can only wear that one contact lens in my right eye to fix my (extremely bad) vision on that side. glasses dont work when you've got 20/20 in one eyeball and -7.25 in the other.

what color is your hair right now? its a 10

you’ve just been handed $10,000 cash, what are you spending it on? theres a lot of shit in my house that needs to be fixed. or maybe we can use it as a down payment for buying a new house? (probably not the market is so insane in my city because of the university and the landlords) but i guess...in fantasy world where this happens...yeah we use it to help ourselves buy a new house lol.

how many pets do you have? none

have you ever been on a train? many many trains! some in america, most of them in europe

and finally, tell me something about yourself people might be surprised to know: god im so uninteresting... i love olives and pickles and cilantro and mint but not garlic and i cannot taste spicy things (i deeply wish i could, ive tried so many times and all i get is like bitter charcoal numb tongue)

and now i'll tag some folks under the cut who maybe?? havent played yet?? maybe want to play????? if not consider this me handing you a dandelion + poppy 💐 under the cut!!

@darlingian @spookygingerr @mybrainismelted @creepkinginc @suzy-queued

@sleepyheadgallavich @thepupperino @iansw0rld @gardenerian @ardent-fox

@catgrassplantdad @whatwouldmickeydo @gallawitchxx @wehangout @captainjowl

@the-rat-wins @loftec @spoonfulstar @callivich @sam-loves-seb

@howlinchickhowl @rereadanon @softmick @burninface @sickness-health-all-that-shit

@sleepyfacetoughguy @transmickey @lee-ow @themarchg1rl @vintagelacerosette

@xninetiestrendx @michellemisfit @steorie @samantitheos

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[perrysoup]

I can’t fully wrap my mind around the concept of hating a politician but craving their party so much.

The party is made of YOU. YOU can demand action and change in who represents you and people just refuse and accept what is handed to them.

They act as though people hate the idea of doing anything if it doesn’t revolve around the global genocides but they are all connected! Our taxes fund their deaths because that money goes to the military industrial complex that gives out fat stacks of money for the politicians we hate to get elected.

These aren’t separate issues! Stop trying to minimize how our lives, right now, IN AMERICA are guided not by the people and instead by profits. Is it so hard to believe that even the “less of two evils” presented is still a genocide supporting sociopath and you deserve better with everyone else? So you think we don’t believe you deserve better?

You hate us for speaking up, but your silence is why things don’t change.

Blame us all you want, but YOUR the one that is okay with the status quo being people killed with your money RIGHT NOW that could go to hospitals and aid and everything under the sun

WHY DONT YOU DEMAND MORE??? Why are you so satisfied with having a boot on your neck just cause you feel like you’ve got yours on someone else’s?

Some of y’all are to sick to see why Gaza and Sudan and Yemen and everything are a side effect of our current system, not independent of it

[footemoji]

I’m having a hard time understanding a lot about this conflict. Today, in the USA (Chicago Illinois, San Francisco California, and in New York) Pro-Palestinian activists decided to block the bridges to prevent people from entering or leaving. As a result, people waited for a minimum of 5 hours before the bridge was completely opened for them to cross. I’ve been reading stories of people who were transporting stem cells, sick people, etc who weren’t able to make it out.

According to the protestors, their goal was to cause an “economic blockade” by causing everyone to not be able to go anywhere

Shockingly a lot of Palestinians were supporting this saying that inconveniencing Americans is a good way to bring light to the situation happening in Gaza. I’ve even had some say that the few lives that were lost because of this were “fine” because it’s for the cause. I don’t want to believe that everyone is this cruel, so I will give my thought generally speaking.

I’m not an expert on these things, I don’t know much so im just using logic. Joe Biden is not the supreme authority over Israel. So let’s say that the USA stops sending aid to Israel completely. Let’s say they cut ties. Where will the protesting end up then? Will it move to another country who may support Israel? The way I see it is, Israeli government is going to do what it wants to do whether America sends it money or not.

Secondly, why is it that Americans have to suffer for what we cannot control? Blocking the bridge did nothing for the people in control. They were comfortably in their homes, meanwhile working mothers and fathers lost job time because of this. People have children to feed. How is what’s happening in Gaza somehow the fault of innocent civilians?

This act today was just cruel and my heart hurt because of it. I in no way am turning a blind eye to the suffering of those in Israel, whether that be Israeli or Palestinian. But at some point we really have to think about where our actions will take us. I’m curious to know if anyone is sharing the same thoughts as I am. Again, I am not educated on the conflict to where I can speak confidently about it 100%, im just looking at this from a logical standpoint.

hi!! i’d love to try and explain but im not an expert i just can see whats right and whats wrong easily.

so protests are supposed to be seen so im assuming they did such an extreme act was to be noticed and to show the government the lengths they’re willing to go for this cause.

and the genocide in palestine is a HUGE cause. over 13,000 children have died. and 33000+ people in total. and the usa is funding the people committing the genocide, these protesters are trying to convince the government to stop funding israel’s mass killing.

it really goes to show that a couple people dying unjustly in america causes a bigger outrage than all the unjust deaths in gaza.

i dont get what you say that if the US stops funding israel nothing will change. A LOT WILL CHANGE!! the usa not funding israel will give them less power which is great!

Also, that last part i’d like to say. israel is not real. its stolen land from palestine. so don’t say “the suffering of those in israel” its the suffering of those in palestine.

[moonlightspencie]

important.

tumblr is my safe area when it comes to social media. i come here for escapism. but with my largest following being on tumblr, i no longer feel comfortable or right or even a tiny bit NOT like a piece of shit for not speaking at this point about what's happening in the world with palestine and israel.

babies and children are being slaughtered in palestine. children. thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. i dont give a shit who you think is 'right' in this war, anyone who is willfully and purposely murdering children is pure evil. if you disagree with that because you think it's somehow antisemitic you are insane and need to pull your head out of the sand. there is nothing right about killing babies.

and I do realize its more than just babies and children. obviously. but they are completely innocent, and if nothing else gets you to care, i dont know what will. they dont have political opinions that can harm anyone. they dont think this way or that about the conflict outside of what they hear from adults. they are innocent and they are being slaughtered.

i am begging you guys not to stand by and just watch. i know the climate in america right now. we feel hopeless. i'm sure those of you in other countries feel the same way. but as much as it feels like we can't make a difference, there are small ways we can help. vote. talk to your senators. talk to your friends and family. donate.

i donated to the PCRF (Palestine Children's Relief Fund) and am attaching a link on this post for you guys to donate as well. if you're not sure, i encourage you to also google other organizations. even if you only have a dollar to give, nothing is small or insignificant when it comes to helping the people saving lives of children and families and innocent people in what is undoubtedly a humanitarian crisis.

this is probably the only post i'll make here, but please let it be one that you take seriously. no matter your political stance, i beg you to see what is happening to innocents. think of your family. think of your friends. think of what this would feel like if it were YOU. dont turn a blind eye. no act of movement is too small.

and by the way: if any of you want to try to argue with me on this, save your breath and block me. genocides aren't political issues, they're human issues. if you feel happy supporting the slaughter of innocent people, keep it to yourself.

[little-shadow-club]

Canon nepo baby Suho makes me have so many ideas with local common guy Ryo, not in the "Rich guy who sugar daddies his economically struggling partner." but rather in the way where the rich guy has lived so comfortably Ryo gets constantly hit with realization that Suho doesnt know how to do even the most basic things ever.

God bless his heart he's not even that broke but who in their right mind thinks of going to Italy on a sunday just because his favorite restaurant is there like its a 40 min drive away. Ryo just casually starts talking on the phone about how he needs to do a cleanup for his room and Suho asks like "omg is your maid sick? you dont have a backup maid?" And Ryo's brain just stops working.

Suho on a friday night: I dont know whenever to go to Cardi B's concept or BTS concert."

Ryo who just finished pirating an albums worth of songs: Aren't they like, in america, right now?

Suho: yeah so what? Planes exists.

-

Suho: Ah shit my phone is lagging

Ryo: Oh I know a shop around here that can fix--

Suho: WElp time to buy the samsung 12XP+ limited gold edition one thats been on my mind for a while now.

Ryo:....

[softbutchthatlovesyou]

Hey if you aren't american can you have some fucking decency about trump wining my elecation thanks.

last time he was in office lives were lost. reportable lives. trackable lives.

I don't give a shit if you thibk he's got the power to hurt outside of his own country, my life as a black person is on danger every time he sits in that office.

Fuck you for downplaying people fear about this piece of shit.

us not being instant rounded up into death camps doesnt mean we dont have the right to be scared, uncomfortable, worried, or direstessed.

I am a black trans american who is about to end up with a sick fuck who is proud of how many right he took away last time. Lives have died because of policies he pushed.

"Haha I hate america and americans and all of them equally deserve to die fuck the poc and the natives and queer people who did get hurt last time they deserve it for being born there" ← how some of you sound today

[takami-takami]

LORD GOD IN HEAVEN ABOVE PRAY MOTIONLESS IN WHITE OPEN THEIR CONCERT WITH UNDEAD AHEAD 2 AGAIN AND PLAY BROADCASTING FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE DEATH INCORPORATED AND THEN EVERYONE MOSHES TO SOFT AND THEN THEY PLAY THOUGHTS & PRAYERS AND FINALLY FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD PLAY AMERICA AGAIN OR MAYBE THEY PLAY RED WHITE & BOOM FOR ONCE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD !!!

Like im fucking sorry but if I cant scream "RED !!!! WHITE !!!! BOOM !!!!!" and chris motionless doesnt put his hand to his ear and scream back "I CANT HEAR YOU!!!!!!" With a foot on the speaker before the second red white boom the crowd screams back i am going to fucking [REDACTED] :)

I think red white & boom is BUILT for concerts but they NEVER play it for some fucking reason. I mean, come on. "One two— fuck you" ??? Are we not supposed to chant that?

Same with America, though I understand why they dont wanna play that one. They detest infamous (album), and of course they're not proud of it.. I still love it.... you get to spell :( like? long live our ignorance? Home of the free? :( the sick and depraved??? No????

But anyway. Just thinking.

Songs MADE for concerts. It's good they play /<code a lot cuz that's a concert song, too.

[pixigels]

the demons have taken over me. heres my thread of romerica thoughts and incoherent rambling

america is an insomniac while romano is quite the opposite. america always tells himself that hes gonna fix his sleep schedule but he never does bcs he just cant... he'll always find himself wide eyed at 5am like always.

romerica did NOT meet and end in the 1920s. like canon says industrial revolution + economic growth in america aka the gilded for a reason guysss. now i dont think they were dating since then but they did not MEET in the start of the 20s. not rlly a hc its just a fleeting thought.

i do think they dated in the 1920s but throughout the whole time they never called it dating (because they are idiots) they were just gay and existing like a situationship ???? but like they were certainly not just friends if you know what i mean.

they didnt get back into their situationship activities until the 50s

30s they broke apart and then 40s was a complicated time that deserves its own post bcs a bullet point would not do its complexity justice.

romano bullies america for his taste in coffee food and everything else.

speaking of coffee their dynamic is so coffee au

america and roma are sun sign compatible bcs they are cancer and pisces. kinda like the moon and the tides of the ocean if you want to get all artistic (i ignore hetalia bdays when it comes to astrology hcs unless its convenient to me)

i personally find it so funny how in the manga romano seems to mentions that he lived with america like a decent amount of times like thats so silly to me and i like to think he does that way more often kinda like an old man who repeats a story over and over again and it makes everyone sick LIKE DAMN WE GET IT (alfred does this too)

i also like to think that they like to shit talk people. like i feel like alfred is kinda blunt/cant read the room and so is lovi but like in different ways but they are blunt with each other so they shit talk people together bcs thats what true couples do <3

i probably have more hcs but i either forgot atm or think its already too much of a common hc for me to mention yk. i pinky promise to make more romerica content. If romerica has a million fans, then I am one of them. If romerica has ten fans, then I am one of them. If romerica has only one fan then that is me. If romerica has no fans, then that means I am no longer on earth. If the world is against romerica, then I am against the world.

what im saying is ill die for romerica and will make self indulgent content just bcs i like it sm

if theres any inconsistencies in hcs, in specific the historical ones,pls correct me im not a history major ive only had a special interest in history (prior to hetalia bcs im a LOSER) for years so i end up bringing it up alot everywhere even in non hetalia related conversations O<-<

[i-see-ur-sins]

finding grown ass american adults living in america who say ‘thank god they caught that killer!! i feel really bad for the bad press toward mcdonalds they dont deserve to have such an evil human being in their establishment :/’ is wild because its like ?????? you live here. you get sick here. you know now this shit works. What Are You Talking About ??????????????

like if you don’t outright Support the killing (which is already a stretch to me personally but ok) its still wild to me that you would SUPPORT the ceo ?????

[surgeonirl]

hey gang... hey gaaang... heres my take on jack sato's life growing up idc if you dont like it its called 'my take' for a reason! enjoy :3

he was born to his mother and father, and for the first bit of his life, he lived in japan. they were fine until his mother had a psychopathic episode, which gave his father the opportunity to get out of there with jack (they didn’t actually need to, but he pleaded that his wife obviously enough wasn’t stable to be left alone with a child and due to his wife’s obvious instability, the court sided with him and that gave him whole custody.) jack’s father moved himself and jack to america when he was around ten. until this point, jack only knew smaller bits of english, and even then he struggled with those pronounciations, this was the start of people teasing and picking on him consistantly. he was isolated for how he spoke and how he looked (he looked like a girl).

his home situation wasn’t any better because his dad’s a fucking bop, bringing home new girlfriend every second day but along with being a bop he was also really just not there emotionally, so whenever jack started begging and crying to go back ‘home’ he told him to fuck off and of course, eventually his dad got sick and tired of jack begging to go home, so he said something along the lines of “grow up, you’re not going back because there’s nothing left for some kid like you. your mother is dead, and i would never go with you. do you want to be out on the streets”. that impacted jack more than anything said beforehand, because the only actual reason he wanted to go back was for his mother.

over time that longing for his mom ended up becoming some anger that he just had deep down 24/7, so by the time he got into highschool, not only was he in the deep end of his health going to shit and having to deal with his father, he had to deal with expectations and standards. the bullying from when he’d originally moved there was consistent until he ended up dropping out in his senior year (he knew he was never going to graduate, and he’d rather drop out than spend any minute longer with his classmates). the bullying he dealt with was mainly shaming him for his body, where he was from and his temper.

during all of this, he obviously met elijah in high school (this did happen), but after jack dropped out, their interactions became less frequent because they simply just didn’t have any time to talk anymore.

when he dropped out, his dad flipped his lid and he threatened that if jack didn’t do something worthwhile and pay rent, he’d be kicked out. jack argued with this, and it went back and forth, it was easily one of their worse arguments, but the ‘doing something worthwhile’ and the ‘paying rent’ wasn’t necessary as his father kicked him out.

jack was homeless, pretty much. he’d either sleep in his car (which he gave up after a while due to barely being able to afford food), crash on a friend’s (bandmate, they didn’t want their vocalist/bassist dead) couch or just sleeping out on the street.

at some point he did try a homeless shelter, but after a month he was kicked out due to an outburst he had. that’s when he met garrett after the first time in ages.

while he stayed with garrett, he basically was able to get back on his feet and get his own small apartment. it was an absolute shithole, there was mold and probably even a rat, but yk it was a roof pver his head. so with his minimum wage pizza delivery job, he was just barely making enough to pay rent. he got significantly thinner during this time due to not being able to buy food at times, and he couldn’t manage two jobs at once. he picked up any and every shift he could just to do all of that.