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HELL YEAH IT'S MY BIRTHDAY


#happy bithday to me#don't wanna grow up#i never wanted to grow up but i have to😭#another year older#i'm crying#i hate getting older but i love my birthday#don't wanna get older#witch hat atelier#tongari boushi no atelier#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon
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Done trying to be someone I’m not
Welcome back old habits I have missed u so much…


#bpd problems#bpd mood#actually mentally ill#tw self destruction#actually bpd#bpd feels#give up#i am done#don't wanna get older#done trying#fuck this#tw s3lf harm#can't take it anymore#tw sh related#tw selfhate#tw self destructive thoughts
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Prompt 84
Amity Park absolutely adores her little ghostling, her little Gatekeeper who was of her own ectoplasm, reborn from her own blood in the center of her new heart. She absolutely adores her baby, practically a newborn, being only a year dead!
So of course she had to gush and boast about her little phantom to the other city spirits! They all got together to gossip sometimes after all. And both Smallville and Fawcett started to gush about their own little ones back!
Gosh they should set up a playdate at some point, her little phantom could use some friends in the mortal realm. Well some more friends, three is obviously not enough. Oh, Gotham and Bludhaven have come over as well! It’s a playdate then!
Now if only each of their world’s timelines were synced up, but at least everyone is around the same age!
#dcxdp#dpxdc#City Children Au#Prompts#Each city is from a different timeline lol#Bruce is an angy 16 year old vigilante and was Not prepared to be the oldest#Dick hasn't told them his birthday#and isn't revealing he's older than this Bruce by a few months#Clark is just happy to make friends and he brought pie! his ma and him made it!#Dick is wheezing at these itty bitty versions of Bruce and Clark- this is great and hilarious and oh god he has to protect them#Billy is chanting to do it whenever someone has a Bad Idea- He's just become the Champion of Magic & the gods encourage it#Danny is delighted to have more friends and he's not the oldest Or the youngest so yay!#they're having fun#lots of fun in all their timelines and in the realms too#if they get in trouble they call their city-parents#“Alfred says I'm a polite young man. He also says that if someone tries to grab me to use my teeth”#“Sounds about right” “Mood” “Biting is always good” “But what about diseases??”#“Hey Danny you like alien stuff right- do you think you can help me and the others translate this it came from the ship i was on”#“Omg Billy you should teach us mortal magic and we can teach you are stuff”#Dick: I don't wanna be the responsible one so I'm going to encourage them all to be Worse :)#At some point the squad is going to end up in some other timeline and confuse the fuck out of the JL lol#dick grayson#danny fenton#billy batson#clark kent#bruce wayne
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Something something, one of my Pelle WIPs because I turned 22 today or whatever, twinning! 😁👍🏻
#my art#Mayhem#Pelle Ohlin#Per Yngve Ohlin#Dead#black metal#like that's my twin... not telling you in which way HEH#21 y. o. were SO BAD!!! I was like “Damn... I get it. I REALLY don't wanna be here either ha”#but we baaaaaall as always 😁#sometimes being just a liiiiittle bit curious (and lazy) is enough to go on lol#okay this became very grim LMFAO dw about me I'll be fine. I live on idk idc and idgaf 😎🤘🏻😈#I literally forgor it was my b-day btw I thought about Pelle's b-day more than I thought about MINE#the fucks I give sometimes... kkkkkk#I fucking hate getting older but I like becoming more mature ☝🏻🤓#but still! 22! then what? 23? 25??? 30?! 40???!!! I can't do this anymore.
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MORE OF SHARED CUSTODY WINTER! Ah… love watching this perfect little pretty boy go through his ugly cringefail phase, 💕. These doodles are kinda chronological... kinda... top 2 are in babyworld and bottom 3 are obviously in vampworld (also 4th one is a totally legit wow he was there the whooooole tiiiiime edited screenshot, hehe).
#adventure time#atimers#winter king#simon petrikov#fionna and cake#fionna campbell#cake the cat#shared custody au#winter stowaway au#fan art#digital art#flat color#2023#the bottom two doodles are older but they happen chronologically after these so... they get a pass#I am NOT normal about him I wanna grab him by the arm and swing him around like a feral toddler with a lil plush toy#i love him. I want to watch him suffer#I don't remember what bubblegum in this universe is called...#oh yeah baby finn is there too ig
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Me, fully prepared to be a little ass: If I were a horrible person and killed a bunch of people, would you report me to the police? lol
My older brother: Even if you were a monster, i'd protect you. I wouldn't be able to bring myself to hate or punish you. You turning out that way would be my fault because I should've been a better sibling. In the end, you'll always be my responsibility, and more importantly, my younger brother. I'll always love you.
Me, about to fucking bawl my eyes out: Hey what the fuck
so anyways after careful consideration and recollecting, that's how i came to the devastating realization that my older brother was a yue qingyuan kinnie.
#it was smth like that#sometimes i'm like ''wow are peoples older brothers usually so rodrick-y or asshole-y??'' and i look at my older brother#who gets sad when i don't want him to buy anything for me#also it was things like#'im to blame so don't worry about it ok?' 'it was my fault so dont worry. do you want to eat out?' etc#and i was like ''man this sounds like some yqy dialogue'' and boom#yes he's the eldest#he's like... way older than me lol#anyways i love my big bro sm#hes a very good brother#last week he treated me out to ice cream and ramen#we're about to finish arcane together!!#those rare times when i don't wanna hang out with him he has the energy of a sopping wet puppy that just got kicked#yue qingyuan#svsss
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Something's deeply wrong with the fictional older siblings...
#it started out pretty normal didn't it?#as normal as giving up an arm to god to bind your brother's soul to a suit of armor can get anyway#edward elric#wei wuxian#illyasviel von einzbern#ragna the bloodedge#shigeo kageyama#ritsu kageyama#meanwhile the younger siblings are trying to defend their one time attempted fratricide<3#illya also committed fratricide. you can even say that she's the only one to succeed! good for her#but she died for shirou so it all evens out right???#lolol there's a fancier version of this in my head but i don't wanna waste more time than i already did for this#losing a limb or something more important than a limb is just what fictional older siblings do!
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(1) lia in her 2024 mu design and (2) lia's 2024 mu design but with her 2014 clothes! super old drawings of lia below for reference:


#monsters inc#monsters university#monsters at work#monsters inc oc#monsters university oc#monsters at work oc#mi#mu#maw#character design#oc#monstersona#art#fanart#pixar#disney#lia rosario#liana rosario#lia boggs#liana boggs#it's crazy to see how far she's come#in a not weird way when i gave her a furry body it was partially bc i wanted her to have less clothes 2 be less humanlike & more monsterlik#i didn't want her to look that different from her initial design but i wanted her to look normal if she doesn't have clothes/a top on#the choice to give her horns for the first time was notably such a big change but it felt right#ngl i don't really like the shirt i gave her but idk what default uni clothes i wanna give her without it being too basic or too much#ik she wears a lot of blue for someone already so blue and tho that's mostly bc that's how i designed her years ago and other colours#don't really work as well with her colour palette i think i'll have it so she wears a lot of blue in mu but wears other colours as she gets#older like she feels more confident to branch out of her comfort zone idk#btw her name was not lia back then (though lia still kinda references it) it was something much more... cringe 💀
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There is a horror in that moment
The kind that makes most folks look away
That moment
When you realize
The Pain
Will not be stopping.
I'm writing a book in which
The main character goes through the same thing
And I'm stuck because
How do you write a scene like that?
Where do you put it in the story?
When does it finally dawn on him?
Not only the knowledge that
dancing
running
skipping
jumping
walking
fucking
working
adventuring
Living
will never be the same.
But when will it dawn on him that his last day of painlessness was months ago, and he didn't even know it at the time? (didn't even get to say goodbye)
Maybe that's why they say dawn breaks.
Maybe I'm stuck because I've never seen it anywhere else.
(maybe that's why I felt all alone in my mourning)
(maybe that's why I'm writing a book)
I've never seen a story where there were days of pain and days of ease, and then the days without pain got fewer and fewer until one day, it was just
Pain.
And of course my character, he waits
And waits
And waits
And works
And searches
And pleads
And yet the rest of his life
Suddenly stretches before him
Horrifically long, unthinkably long, with the knowledge that, from now on,
Every Day Will Be A Pain Day.
Every second
Of every minute
Of every hour day week month year
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
How many scenes do I write
of him mourning?
And - before he finds the acceptance that even allows for mourning -
How many scenes of that horrific slow-sudden frantic-panicked suspicion of the truth?
How does one draw (it's a graphic novel) the face of a man (his name is David)
struck with that kind of strangling grief?that choking half-denial?
That silent scream of horror given sound?
How many people tell him they are sure it will be fine even as he feels himself falling further?
How many of them fail to understand until they are gone from his life?
How many times does he blame himself?
How many times is he right?
Don't get me wrong
It's a hopeful story
Really.
It has a happy ending
And that happy ending happens
On a pain day.
I just hope I can tell my story good enough to show
What that means and
Why it matters.
I just hope we can be seen.
#original#The Blacksmith#my ocs#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#chronic illness#disability#fibromyalgia#poetry#poem#i basically only ever wanna hang w disabled folks bc i found a lotta abled folks DO NOT GET IT and as a result become dismissive & demandin#it was a very jarring realization to be like Oh My Older Sister Thinks I'm Being Dramatic like damn y'all#i don't think i could tell a story that could possibly reach her tho. same w a lot of ableists. so i won't try. it'd be miserable to do so.#i will tell a story that makes people like me feel seen. as well as all kinds of disabled folk. there's a LOT of disabled characters#w a wide variety of disabilities. but the protagonist has severe fibro brought on by repeated severe trauma like i do. and he has to cope#and yet he remains the hero of the story rather than a sad background character who used to do things worthy of the plot#bc i had never seen a story where that happened and i needed it#hastily written poetry
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happy birthday! 💕🎉🌻
I really hope it’s a lovely one!!!
Oh thank you! ;-; 🧡
#answered#cursehole#the latter part is an idiom so you don't need to listen to this but let me ramble a little since it's been on my mind all day#birthdays always unnerve me for some reason#it's not even the getting older part#I just get hella tense about the pressure to make the day *special* in some way because that's how it's supposed to go#and I often just don't wanna do anything too out of the ordinary I'm pretty happy with mundane forms of enrichment#but I can't enjoy those boring things I actually like to do since they don't have that “special once-in-a-year” feel to them#so it's more of an annual mandatory “survive through the executive dysfunction" day#I know the curse will be lifted overnight so maybe tomorrow will be better
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#actually mentally ill#can't take it anymore#bpd feels#don't wanna get older#tw self destruction#tw s3lf harm#feelings#right in the feels#not again#stop it#done trying#tragedy#sad truth#truth#girls who do pills#tw drugs#take your meds#actually bpd#bpd mood#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#actually cptsd#living with cptsd#ptsd#complex ptsd#actually ptsd#tw ptsd#mental illness#mentally fucked
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I love him so much
#doukyuusei#doukyusei movie#kusakabe hikaru#it's serious idk why I'm so attached to fictional characters and I see myself in them or I want them to be in my life#this is so embarrassing why am I not growing up I feel like I'm 10 but I'm almost 21 and I'm refusing to admit it#and I wanna cry to death I don't wanna get older I wanna be 10 forever I hate being an adult I still sleep with my plushies#and I want a dinosaur toy so badly
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Buncha women and some green losers
#expanding the world of my silly ppg au sequel reboot whatever this is#thinking of having bellum be the mayor now idk she deserves it#keane is still a preschool teacher rip keane hope u get a raise someday#the gangreens r also older maybe young adults now idk they're still menaces but older#sedusa is there#man i wanna draw more characters from the show but i don't remember them all so sad#powerpuff girls#ppg#ppg ms bellum#ppg ms keane#ppg gangreen gang#i don't remember any of their names n i don't care not tagging them individually they're just the green gang#ppg sedusa#blue's doodles
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More Perfumer!AU babies! Now featuring the character it was named after and Warrington twins :]
Kept these 3 a secret bc their stories are one of my most fav (and most tragic I'd say lol)
Kind of funny how this all started because I got and really like the wheel outfit that made me go "haha Melly is such a Vera Nair kinnie" and now we're here. Full on AU with it's own separate plot. Over an outfit on account I lost access to. Rip 💔
Part 1 (Daniel, Morgan and Lottie + explanation behind this AU)
Elma Carroll is a mysterious new shop keeper on Diagon Alley, who sells unique perfumes, capable of magically changing their scent. Some claim to have known her back at Hogwarts, seeing her walk through the hallways on occasions, but her past still remains a mystery. A secret she never discloses.
Truth is, she's a metamorphmagus who used I to go by Melly Anscombe. After realizing she can't keep on living as Melly, yet not wanting to become her real self (Willow Varian)again, she takes an opportunity to fake her death to run away once again to live as brand new identity, hoping that this time, things will be ok.
Ivy Warrington is an amnesiac young baker, still youthful and fun in her behavior, despite looking older than her age. Once a talented spellcaster, right before she graduated, her memory was almost fully wiped, now not remembering anything from her past, unaware of why people around her look at her with such sorrow.
However, there's still something deep inside her that can recall some faint memories from her past. She feels safe and around her family, her redheaded healer, an artistic journalist, her sister's coworker and the fancy looking, nice smelling lady who comes to her humble bakery every single day.
Winifred Warrington is a guarded auror, working alongside Cassandra Vole. Incredibly talented at charms, her emotions get better of her sometimes, especially whenever she recalls the terrible experiences of her past.
After her final conversation with Ivy in Year 4, she decided to cut all ties with her family the moment she graduates, staying by Cassandra's side to stay away from family that she no longer felt like she belonged to or felt safe with. However, after Ivy lost her memories completely, a part of her feels guilty for not being there to be the one to protect her, for not giving her a second chance. She stays with Ivy sometimes, trying to make up for all the lost moments, now that she understands that what happened between them wasn't Ivy's fault.
#it's all nana's fault in case you're wondering lol#also! in this AU Warrington twins gave naturally wheat blonde hair!#however the more their memories are tampered by the more their hairs turn white/grey#Ivy's supposed to be looking older for that reason: bc good chunk of her hair is grey/white#although I def should've given her more wrinkles#the wrinklier the better-//gets shot/#anyway yeah this AU is a compilation of ideas I had for character development/arcs that didn't fit in any other universe of mine#so they're mixed together now#hpma oc#magic awakened#melly anscombe#ivy warrington#winifred warrington#perfumer!au#my art#also the next update might take a while bc I don't have any clear ideas for any other characters yet#I wanna do 1 oc + 2 canon characters so um. it'll take some brain juices brewing before I could do anything#again it's a compilation of ranfom ideas I wanna explore but that don't fit with my main/canon universes#so it's a question of when my 1 am inspo will occur/j
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Birthday is in exactly one month, I'm freaking out😭😭😭
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Another boring "guy just standing there" doodle but I'm posting it anyways. Another pokeworld bronze age oc, Prince Boadicea of Galar, also called Boadicea the Undying, or Son of Zacian as a fancy title. He's Leon and Hop's ancestor 🙏🏾
I've vaguely mentioned it a few times, but in my personal lore AZ became Kalos' first king after a war against Galar earlier on on the regions history. Boadicea was called The Undying because of how he seemed invincible in battle... but AZ challenges him, and wins. (AZ was younger and weaker at the time, but Boadicea sorta underestimated the level of rage-based determination AZ held 😭)
#Sketch tag#Boadicea the Undying#AZ was so pissed at him bc Boadicea killed one of his older stepbrothers earlier on in the war#But that's more convoluted personal lore so I don't wanna get into too much detail rn 😭😭
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