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HELL YEAH IT'S MY BIRTHDAY
#happy bithday to me#don't wanna grow up#i never wanted to grow up but i have to😭#another year older#i'm crying#i hate getting older but i love my birthday#don't wanna get older#witch hat atelier#tongari boushi no atelier#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon
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Done trying to be someone I’m not
Welcome back old habits I have missed u so much…
#bpd problems#bpd mood#actually mentally ill#tw self destruction#actually bpd#bpd feels#give up#i am done#don't wanna get older#done trying#fuck this#tw s3lf harm#can't take it anymore#tw sh related#tw selfhate#tw self destructive thoughts
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Clone^2 - Separation Strikes
"Why do I have to go?" Damian asks, surly and accent-thick, it sounds more like a demand and a whine at the same time. Sitting on the kitchen table with his arms crossed, in a green t-shirt that Danny bought him at a whim when he was at a thrift shop, and black shorts, he's never looked more like a kid. There's a little backpack leaning against the table leg, Damian begrudgingly picked it out when they went shopping.
His English has grown in leaps and bounds since Danny found him -- er, or more accurately; since Damian was spat out in front of him. -- and very little did they have to use the translator on Danny's phone these days.
Which meant one thing: Damian can start attending school comfortably now. And 'go' was the Amity Smiles Child Care Center. Danny and Jazz went as kids until they were twelve, and Mom and Dad actually managed to convince the center director to let Damian enroll for the summer.
And it was summer; Damian starts today.
"Because," Danny says, trying and failing to hide the smile pulling on his face, his heart warm and soft, and also laughing at Damian's expense; "being cooped up in the house all day isn't good for you, and you're starting school in the Fall. And, in Jazz's words: you need to have interactions with other kids your age for the benefit of your social development. And besides, it's only for the morning."
Damian's nose scrunches up, and his eyes roll so violently that for a moment, Danny thinks about joking that he'll get his eyes stuck like that. He holds his tongue; his little brother already looks like he's five seconds away from committing an act of violence.
"I don't need social interaction." Damian sneers, his cheek in his hand; a neverend pool of pride. "I am--"
"The Blood of the Demon Heir, better than everyone else." Danny cuts off, waving his hand in dismissive circles, his voice mockingly deep. Damian's brown skin darkens in embarrassment, and he scowls at Danny. "I know, bud. But Jazz is right, -- don't tell her I said that, -- you should be around kids your age."
Especially when he starts First Grade in the Fall. Honestly -- Danny was a little nervous to send him to the center. Damian's long since cut the habit of trying to kill or otherwise maim people, his palms ache-burn with gentle reminder, but his tongue was as sharp and as cutting as his sword. He still struggles with trying to quell it when he's upset. Vicious child-weapon that he once was, and will never be again.
Danny knows that it comes from a place of fear and defense, that Damian lashes out because that's what he's been taught. That at the end of the day, he doesn't really mean what he says, and he's learning to express himself better. But the other kids don't know that, and kids can be unforgiving and cruel.
Danny just...
His slow beating heart sighs, melancholy settles behind his lungs.
He doesn't want Damian to be outcasted. He doesn't want him to be alone.
Not like he was.
Damian sneers again, but says nothing, his shoulders crawling up to hide his ears like a turtle receding into his shell. Danny watches him silently, leaning against the kitchen counter with his own arms crossed. The clock hanging on the wall ticks in their ears -- it's almost time to go.
He watches Damian, careful, and so he sees it when his little brother's stone-shell pride and petulance shudders, and cracks. The darkened furrow of Damian's brows weakens, and for a moment, slants back.
Ah, Danny thinks, his own shoulders slumping. Epiphany washes over him, and his sad-heart soothes in warm understanding. So that's what it is.
His head tilts, and his hair spills over his shoulders, messy and fluffy, tickling his neck. Some of his bangs fall into his face. "Hal 'ant easabiatan ya habibi?" He asks, voice low and soft. Just as Damian's English has improved, so has Danny's Arabic. He still stumbles over himself some days, and Damian says his accent is trash, but they can have whole conversations now in Damian's mothertongue.
(Danny was incredibly proud of himself for it.)
Damian's face darkens, his blush spreading across the rest of his face, and he ducks his head down. Grown-out curls, black-brown and springy, falls over his eyes. "La!" He yells, loud and indignant, and not at all convincingly. "La 'asheur bialtawaturi!"
He was nervous. Danny can see it now, in the hunch of his shoulders and the tightness of his face, and faintly, he can feel it too. In the ecto-rich air of the Fentonworks House, it thrums, barely-there, like a hummingbird behind his lungs.
Danny can't stop the little, fond smile that forces itself across his lips and upticks the corner of his mouth. "It's okay to be nervous, little brother." He says, he sounds like Jazz when he says that. He doesn't think she'll mind him borrowing the nickname.
He pushes himself off the counter, and Damian refuses to look at him, hiding behind his hair and in his shoulders. It takes three long strides for him to reach the table, and Danny turns, plants his hands on the ledge, and hoists himself up. Right next to Damian.
Damian leans into him easily when Danny's arm wraps around his shoulders and tucks him close to his heart. He can feel his ear against his ribs. Danny hunches over him, resting his chin on Damian's head. "It's so okay to be nervous, actually. I was nervous, Jazz was nervous." He tells him, scratching the blunt edge of his nails across his scalp. "Everyone gets nervous."
"'Ana last aljumiea." Damian mumbles, as small and feeble as he was the night on the OPS Center balcony, realizing that his mom and the League weren't coming for him. Realizing that he was replaceable.
Danny's half-working heart squeezes; in grief, in rage, and his faucet eyes sting. He breathes in carefully, and presses his nose into Damian's hair in a loving faux-kiss. "You're right, you're not everyone." He says, steady and strong, because if he's not a pillar for his family, who else is he?
He can feel Damian's eyes flick up to him, and Danny smiles into his black-brown curls. Tilts his head to squish his cheek against him instead, hand dropping to thumb below Damian's lashes. "You're Damian Fenton," Because the adoption went through a few weeks ago, and he's still riding that high, "You're my baby brother. O' Artist Extraordinaire, Kickass with a Sword, Vegetarian and Wonderful Co-Ghost Hunter."
Damian tries to stifle a smile, and fails. Score! Triumph gathers in Danny's gut, his smile grows wider. He squeezes Damian tight, and only releases him so he can look him in the eyes. "And if anyone gives you a hard time at school, and I mean anyone--"
Danny has bad memories of the teachers looking the other way when the other kids were bullying him, all because he was a Fenton.
And Danny, bleeding heart, bleeding hands, loves his family more than he will ever love himself, will never let Damian experience the same injustice. Not if he can help it.
His eyes narrow, and the buzzy-film of ectoplasm covers his eyes, making them glow, "--You tell me. And as your awesome great big brother-and-technically-dad-but-only-biologically, I will handle it."
Damian, wonderfully made, full of light, his little brother Damian, giggles weakly at him. A sound that's worth it's weight in gold. The scary eyes dissipate, and Danny matches the sound with a cock-eyed, impish grin, dragging Damian into a soul-crushing, too-tight hug. The kind that only annoying older brothers can give. "Got it?"
That gets a proper, if short, laugh out of Damian. He wriggles in Danny's arms, trying to break free. But Danny does calisthenics, his arms are as big as Damian's head, so it doesn't work. "Understood, now, daeni 'adhhab ya 'akhi!"
Danny laughs, loud and bright, and loosens his hold just a smidge, only so he can adjust his grip and hop off the table with Damian still in arm.
"Never!" He crows, hoisting Damian slightly. One eye flick at the clock, and in one quick move, he secures Damian under one arm like a football, and hooks his foot under the strap of his backpack. Kicking it up, he tosses it into the air and catches it with his free hand, and slings it over his shoulder. "Now, to the car, my boy! Before we're late and Mom and Dad get charged."
Damian groans, childish and dramatic and long, but his face is all squished up with a wide grin and glee. Danny can taste his joy beneath his tongue.
"And, if my little pep talk didn't encourage you," He says, reaching the door to the garage, flipping Damian up onto his hip instead. "If you have a good day today, I'll make you bal mithai when you get back."
Like all kids at the promise of sweets, Damian's eyes widen and glitter. Danny loves seeing Damian be a kid, it's his favorite thing in the world. "I will!"
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc au#dpxdc fic#dpxdc ficlet#clone^2#clone danny fenton#MAN I LOVE THIS AU SM#clone danny#danny fenton is a clone#i lomv. them :((( SO MUCH. I'VE MISSED WRITING THEM. i had this idea since talking to purple-goo-writes abt clone danny last week#they mean everything to me. they are the brothers ever. so family coded. don't ask me about the timeline here it doesnt exist#its post-danny's hands getting permanently fucked up and thats it lol.#parent danny is great but 'big brother danny' is SO fucking fun to write. he's silly and goofy and annoying in the way only siblings are#smth about writing danny being so full of love and kindness and protective compassion. bleeding heart that he is. its like doing cocaine#chaotic danny is SO fun and silly but kIND danny is. holy shit its better than getting high. altho ive never been high so i can only guess#there's just smth addictive in writing him being affectionate and loving and caring. he's heartful and heart full.#he's sweet - not like sugar - but like caramel. fulfilling and chewy. a kindness that gets stuck in your teeth and melts on your tongue#he's such an annoying older brother. i love him#bal mithai is a type of pakistani dessert btw. since Nanda Parbat is based off the mountain nanga parbat which is in pakistan. i figured#that the food damian had in the league might've been pakistani-based. or at least heavily pakistani in orign. maybe. i just didn't wanna#look up 'arabic desserts' and pick the first one off the list. felt inauthentic that way alsdh#translations since you wont get it through google translate:#1. 'are you nervous beloved?' 2. 'no! I am not nervous!' 3. 'I'm not everyone' 4. 'let me go brother!'#while i dont usually use 'little brother' or 'brother' as terms of endearments between siblings. Jazz canonically calls Danny that and#i figured if i worded it in a way that sounded natural. it would sound less soul-crushingly cringy. look as someone wit THREE siblings.#i know exactly how siblings interact with one another. but this felt like a special exception. they don't say it often
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Prompt 84
Amity Park absolutely adores her little ghostling, her little Gatekeeper who was of her own ectoplasm, reborn from her own blood in the center of her new heart. She absolutely adores her baby, practically a newborn, being only a year dead!
So of course she had to gush and boast about her little phantom to the other city spirits! They all got together to gossip sometimes after all. And both Smallville and Fawcett started to gush about their own little ones back!
Gosh they should set up a playdate at some point, her little phantom could use some friends in the mortal realm. Well some more friends, three is obviously not enough. Oh, Gotham and Bludhaven have come over as well! It’s a playdate then!
Now if only each of their world’s timelines were synced up, but at least everyone is around the same age!
#dcxdp#dpxdc#City Children Au#Prompts#Each city is from a different timeline lol#Bruce is an angy 16 year old vigilante and was Not prepared to be the oldest#Dick hasn't told them his birthday#and isn't revealing he's older than this Bruce by a few months#Clark is just happy to make friends and he brought pie! his ma and him made it!#Dick is wheezing at these itty bitty versions of Bruce and Clark- this is great and hilarious and oh god he has to protect them#Billy is chanting to do it whenever someone has a Bad Idea- He's just become the Champion of Magic & the gods encourage it#Danny is delighted to have more friends and he's not the oldest Or the youngest so yay!#they're having fun#lots of fun in all their timelines and in the realms too#if they get in trouble they call their city-parents#“Alfred says I'm a polite young man. He also says that if someone tries to grab me to use my teeth”#“Sounds about right” “Mood” “Biting is always good” “But what about diseases??”#“Hey Danny you like alien stuff right- do you think you can help me and the others translate this it came from the ship i was on”#“Omg Billy you should teach us mortal magic and we can teach you are stuff”#Dick: I don't wanna be the responsible one so I'm going to encourage them all to be Worse :)#At some point the squad is going to end up in some other timeline and confuse the fuck out of the JL lol#dick grayson#danny fenton#billy batson#clark kent#bruce wayne
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MORE OF SHARED CUSTODY WINTER! Ah… love watching this perfect little pretty boy go through his ugly cringefail phase, 💕. These doodles are kinda chronological... kinda... top 2 are in babyworld and bottom 3 are obviously in vampworld (also 4th one is a totally legit wow he was there the whooooole tiiiiime edited screenshot, hehe).
#adventure time#atimers#winter king#simon petrikov#fionna and cake#fionna campbell#cake the cat#shared custody au#winter stowaway au#fan art#digital art#flat color#2023#the bottom two doodles are older but they happen chronologically after these so... they get a pass#I am NOT normal about him I wanna grab him by the arm and swing him around like a feral toddler with a lil plush toy#i love him. I want to watch him suffer#I don't remember what bubblegum in this universe is called...#oh yeah baby finn is there too ig
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Me, fully prepared to be a little ass: If I were a horrible person and killed a bunch of people, would you report me to the police? lol
My older brother: Even if you were a monster, i'd protect you. I wouldn't be able to bring myself to hate or punish you. You turning out that way would be my fault because I should've been a better sibling. In the end, you'll always be my responsibility, and more importantly, my younger brother. I'll always love you.
Me, about to fucking bawl my eyes out: Hey what the fuck
so anyways after careful consideration and recollecting, that's how i came to the devastating realization that my older brother was a yue qingyuan kinnie.
#it was smth like that#sometimes i'm like ''wow are peoples older brothers usually so rodrick-y or asshole-y??'' and i look at my older brother#who gets sad when i don't want him to buy anything for me#also it was things like#'im to blame so don't worry about it ok?' 'it was my fault so dont worry. do you want to eat out?' etc#and i was like ''man this sounds like some yqy dialogue'' and boom#yes he's the eldest#he's like... way older than me lol#anyways i love my big bro sm#hes a very good brother#last week he treated me out to ice cream and ramen#we're about to finish arcane together!!#those rare times when i don't wanna hang out with him he has the energy of a sopping wet puppy that just got kicked#yue qingyuan#svsss
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Something's deeply wrong with the fictional older siblings...
#it started out pretty normal didn't it?#as normal as giving up an arm to god to bind your brother's soul to a suit of armor can get anyway#edward elric#wei wuxian#illyasviel von einzbern#ragna the bloodedge#shigeo kageyama#ritsu kageyama#meanwhile the younger siblings are trying to defend their one time attempted fratricide<3#illya also committed fratricide. you can even say that she's the only one to succeed! good for her#but she died for shirou so it all evens out right???#lolol there's a fancier version of this in my head but i don't wanna waste more time than i already did for this#losing a limb or something more important than a limb is just what fictional older siblings do!
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happy birthday! 💕🎉🌻
I really hope it’s a lovely one!!!
Oh thank you! ;-; 🧡
#answered#cursehole#the latter part is an idiom so you don't need to listen to this but let me ramble a little since it's been on my mind all day#birthdays always unnerve me for some reason#it's not even the getting older part#I just get hella tense about the pressure to make the day *special* in some way because that's how it's supposed to go#and I often just don't wanna do anything too out of the ordinary I'm pretty happy with mundane forms of enrichment#but I can't enjoy those boring things I actually like to do since they don't have that “special once-in-a-year” feel to them#so it's more of an annual mandatory “survive through the executive dysfunction" day#I know the curse will be lifted overnight so maybe tomorrow will be better
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I love him so much
#doukyuusei#doukyusei movie#kusakabe hikaru#it's serious idk why I'm so attached to fictional characters and I see myself in them or I want them to be in my life#this is so embarrassing why am I not growing up I feel like I'm 10 but I'm almost 21 and I'm refusing to admit it#and I wanna cry to death I don't wanna get older I wanna be 10 forever I hate being an adult I still sleep with my plushies#and I want a dinosaur toy so badly
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ok, people who've read erha, help me out here: are there any moments in volume 6 and 7 in particular that you'd warn someone for?
My 13 year old sister is reading the series – which. she probably shouldn't. But I'm not her mom and I remember what it was like being 13 so I'm not snitching to our actual mom either – but we did have a talk about the content that would be too much for her to handle and she said that she knows it's an 18+ book and there's rape in it, but that all happens in the first 2 or 3 volumes so she skipped those.
(the way she consumes media is very spoiler-forward. She'll often know most of a story's plot via summaries or internet posts before actually starting it, so she gets the gist of what happened in earlier volumes without having to read them)
Now, she'll be getting volume 6 and 7 as gifts this christmas, and she told me she actually hasn't seen many spoilers for that part of the story yet. So I just want to know if she's correct in her assumtpion that those two won't contain any noncon. I haven't read erha, I'm only familiar with it through fandom osmosis, so I wanted to ask someone who did. I trust her to stop if she needs to, but it'd be useful to give her a heads up for what to look out for and where because she is still a kid.
#erha#2ha#the husky and his white cat shizun#cw rape mention#the conversation was very embarassing for both of us. i don't think she expected me to know what it was#she was complaining about not being able to read the volumes until christmas and showing me fanart#at which point i clocked that it was tagged ranwan#i was also reading books that were very much not age appropiate when i was 13 so i don't want to stop or control her#but when she told me she genuinely doesn't wanna read the 18+ stuff she just really likes the rest of the story i think that was true#rather than just her being embarassed and trying to get an older family member of her back#(which would be understandable! but I know my sister pretty well and i think she was telling the truth)#so i'd like to help her skip the stuff she doesn't want to read
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There is a horror in that moment
The kind that makes most folks look away
That moment
When you realize
The Pain
Will not be stopping.
I'm writing a book in which
The main character goes through the same thing
And I'm stuck because
How do you write a scene like that?
Where do you put it in the story?
When does it finally dawn on him?
Not only the knowledge that
dancing
running
skipping
jumping
walking
fucking
working
adventuring
Living
will never be the same.
But when will it dawn on him that his last day of painlessness was months ago, and he didn't even know it at the time? (didn't even get to say goodbye)
Maybe that's why they say dawn breaks.
Maybe I'm stuck because I've never seen it anywhere else.
(maybe that's why I felt all alone in my mourning)
(maybe that's why I'm writing a book)
I've never seen a story where there were days of pain and days of ease, and then the days without pain got fewer and fewer until one day, it was just
Pain.
And of course my character, he waits
And waits
And waits
And works
And searches
And pleads
And yet the rest of his life
Suddenly stretches before him
Horrifically long, unthinkably long, with the knowledge that from now on,
Every Day Will Be A Pain Day.
Every second
Of every minute
Of every hour day week month year
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
For forever
How many scenes do I write
of him mourning?
And - before he finds the acceptance that even allows for mourning -
How many scenes of that horrific slow-sudden frantic-panicked suspicion of the truth?
How does one draw (it's a graphic novel) the face of a man (his name is David)
struck with that kind of strangling grief?that choking half-denial?
That silent scream of horror given sound?
How many people tell him they are sure it will be fine even as he feels himself falling further?
How many of them fail to understand until they are gone from his life?
How many times does he blame himself?
How many times is he right?
Don't get me wrong
It's a hopeful story
Really.
It has a happy ending
And that happy ending happens
On a pain day.
I just hope I can tell my story good enough to show
What that means and
Why it matters.
I just hope we can be seen.
#original#The Blacksmith#my ocs#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#chronic illness#disability#fibromyalgia#poetry#poem#i basically only ever wanna hang w disabled folks bc i found a lotta abled folks DO NOT GET IT and as a result become dismissive & demandin#it was a very jarring realization to be like Oh My Older Sister Thinks I'm Being Dramatic like damn y'all#i don't think i could tell a story that could possibly reach her tho. same w a lot of ableists. so i won't try. it'd be miserable to do so.#i will tell a story that makes people like me feel seen. as well as all kinds of disabled folk. there's a LOT of disabled characters#w a wide variety of disabilities. but the protagonist has severe fibro brought on by repeated severe trauma like i do. and he has to cope#and yet he remains the hero of the story rather than a sad background character who used to do things worthy of the plot#bc i had never seen a story where that happened and i needed it#hastily written poetry
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#actually mentally ill#can't take it anymore#bpd feels#don't wanna get older#tw self destruction#tw s3lf harm#feelings#right in the feels#not again#stop it#done trying#tragedy#sad truth#truth#girls who do pills#tw drugs#take your meds#actually bpd#bpd mood#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#actually cptsd#living with cptsd#ptsd#complex ptsd#actually ptsd#tw ptsd#mental illness#mentally fucked
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Buncha women and some green losers
#expanding the world of my silly ppg au sequel reboot whatever this is#thinking of having bellum be the mayor now idk she deserves it#keane is still a preschool teacher rip keane hope u get a raise someday#the gangreens r also older maybe young adults now idk they're still menaces but older#sedusa is there#man i wanna draw more characters from the show but i don't remember them all so sad#powerpuff girls#ppg#ppg ms bellum#ppg ms keane#ppg gangreen gang#i don't remember any of their names n i don't care not tagging them individually they're just the green gang#ppg sedusa#blue's doodles
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More Perfumer!AU babies! Now featuring the character it was named after and Warrington twins :]
Kept these 3 a secret bc their stories are one of my most fav (and most tragic I'd say lol)
Kind of funny how this all started because I got and really like the wheel outfit that made me go "haha Melly is such a Vera Nair kinnie" and now we're here. Full on AU with it's own separate plot. Over an outfit on account I lost access to. Rip 💔
Part 1 (Daniel, Morgan and Lottie + explanation behind this AU)
Elma Carroll is a mysterious new shop keeper on Diagon Alley, who sells unique perfumes, capable of magically changing their scent. Some claim to have known her back at Hogwarts, seeing her walk through the hallways on occasions, but her past still remains a mystery. A secret she never discloses.
Truth is, she's a metamorphmagus who used I to go by Melly Anscombe. After realizing she can't keep on living as Melly, yet not wanting to become her real self (Willow Varian)again, she takes an opportunity to fake her death to run away once again to live as brand new identity, hoping that this time, things will be ok.
Ivy Warrington is an amnesiac young baker, still youthful and fun in her behavior, despite looking older than her age. Once a talented spellcaster, right before she graduated, her memory was almost fully wiped, now not remembering anything from her past, unaware of why people around her look at her with such sorrow.
However, there's still something deep inside her that can recall some faint memories from her past. She feels safe and around her family, her redheaded healer, an artistic journalist, her sister's coworker and the fancy looking, nice smelling lady who comes to her humble bakery every single day.
Winifred Warrington is a guarded auror, working alongside Cassandra Vole. Incredibly talented at charms, her emotions get better of her sometimes, especially whenever she recalls the terrible experiences of her past.
After her final conversation with Ivy in Year 4, she decided to cut all ties with her family the moment she graduates, staying by Cassandra's side to stay away from family that she no longer felt like she belonged to or felt safe with. However, after Ivy lost her memories completely, a part of her feels guilty for not being there to be the one to protect her, for not giving her a second chance. She stays with Ivy sometimes, trying to make up for all the lost moments, now that she understands that what happened between them wasn't Ivy's fault.
#it's all nana's fault in case you're wondering lol#also! in this AU Warrington twins gave naturally wheat blonde hair!#however the more their memories are tampered by the more their hairs turn white/grey#Ivy's supposed to be looking older for that reason: bc good chunk of her hair is grey/white#although I def should've given her more wrinkles#the wrinklier the better-//gets shot/#anyway yeah this AU is a compilation of ideas I had for character development/arcs that didn't fit in any other universe of mine#so they're mixed together now#hpma oc#magic awakened#melly anscombe#ivy warrington#winifred warrington#perfumer!au#my art#also the next update might take a while bc I don't have any clear ideas for any other characters yet#I wanna do 1 oc + 2 canon characters so um. it'll take some brain juices brewing before I could do anything#again it's a compilation of ranfom ideas I wanna explore but that don't fit with my main/canon universes#so it's a question of when my 1 am inspo will occur/j
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Insane over the awakening trio again. We fought a war together, saved each other multiple times, and I know for a fact I can trust you with my life. We have never learned to socialize normally so we can't interact in a normal environment for five seconds without dunking on each other. I would follow you through time and space and abandon everything with you. You are the living reminder of every awful thing that have ever happened to me. Our traumas make us hurt each other at every turn. We're the only ones who know what lead to each other becoming Like That. Our jobs are barely in the same area and we don't even hang out that much outside of necessities. You are all I have left. I cannot fucking understand you. I am the only one in this entire world who has the ability to even try to.
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#my text#asks#fe13#This ask is so good I wanna publish it first without any of my commentary and then i'll rb it with my own comments later#this is just fun to read#thinking of this line in particular:#'Our jobs are barely in the same area and we don't even hang out that much outside of necessities. '#i don't show it enough in my fics because a lot of my fics are fates focused or au focused for convenience sake so i want the awakening tri#to be hanging out way more and have had their growth but canonically before awakening they really like. Do Not Associate.#i think of this for so many of the awakening kids in general but like. they all travel through time together. they go through something lik#the future past DLC together. their lives depend on each other so much. most of them cannot stand each other.#inigo and owain Do Not fucking get along and never have really until fates when they're both adults and even then they're ribbing each othe#there's no doubt to me that they have gotten into a physical fight at least once before. or they avoid each other and are extremely rude#when forced to work together outside life or death scenarios. especially pre-awakening.#in their supports owain tries to be nice to severa repeatedly and she goes out of her way to be extra rude to the point#that he has a crises about being weird. and even if their s support isnt' canon#severa notes that owain was always nice to her and she struggled with being nice back throughout their lives#inigo and severa don't get along either. inigo is trying to be “nice”/build his confidence of talking to others with compliments#but he's genuinely condescending and quite rude and doesn't listen to severa telling him to stop talking to her like that.#note: severa actively goes out of her way to be mean to a lot of people back then. she's not easy to get along with.#(interestingly she tells noire she only does this to take people down a peg and doesn't do it to people with no self esteem like noire.#(similar to niles in a way. to be explored later.)#These people are Not Close and they are not each other's first choices to hang out. and they probably were aware of each other in#childhood but much more aware when they're older. owain's childhood friends were probably the Justice Cabal.#severa canonically hung with noire tot he point where noire grew up relying on her. i suspect she hung with the girls most of all#inigo... i'm not sure he has any close childhood friends. which could be attributed to maybe (a) living in Regna Ferox with Olivia#if you believe they went with basilio after the first war#or maybe learning early on to hide his real self early on so he never lets anyone get close. he clearly Cares about everyone in a#'won't let anyone die if he can help it/won't let them die alone (gerome/owain)' kind of way#but is he Close with them? I don't think so. not until Awakening and he has A supports
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behold! a kakaobi painting from literally months ago!
#I wanna draw more obighost#very fun#but also it kills me sometimes to think about how devastating it was for little kks to deal with growing older while obito never got to#and especially when he reaches the age obito was when he died....#I imagine this is placed on that birthday#I dunno...#think I was thinking about the idea of Obito slipping through Kakashi's fingers#he's aging and feeling as he leaves Obito behind#He fell in love with Obito and Obito died before he got to be anything more than a child#and now it's really sinking in that Obito's /gone/#and he's never going to get older#Dead kids don't age#nurt#yeah I just think this would utterly break Kks again#as a bonus to everything else ofc!!#kakaobi#Not to mention by this point it's both Kakashi's teammates that will never grow old...#hatake kakashi#uchiha obito#obikaka fanart#chearts
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