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It's a good thing Chuuya can't dream bc I think if he ever had a dream about Dazai he'd proceed to blow up an entire building about it
#bsd#shitposting#hed be so mad#doesnt matter what the dream's about#any dream featuring Dazai is an offence worthy of blowing up port mafia headquarters#the casualties in Yokohama so far are nothing#bungo stray dogs#chuuya bsd#bsd chuuya nakahara#dazai bsd#soukoku#this is such a stupid thought#entire city of Yokohama reduced to ash
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youve heard of sex flowers get ready for the flower that makes you into a celestial shoujo herione complete with particle effects you cannot turn the fuck off and creates a wifebeam so powerful it can incapacitate and maim and keeps making you burst into tears and fall on your ass which makes the wifebeam More Powerful and you also cannot turn this off either. and is also still, sort of, a sex flower
from one of my favorite fanfictions, Celestial Afterglow by elanor_pam, a fic that defies description in the best possible way
#arts#shen qingqiu#svsss#listen im not saying that ive spent a cumulative half a year reading this fic and then trying to make an arts for it#and then getting frustrated and stopping because i couldn't figure out how to make sqq shimmery enough#but like. im not NOT saying that#this is the FOURTH time ive started something for this bitch it haunts my fucking dreams and yet the opalescent glittery sqq evades me#perhaps you o unlearned fool look at this and say hmm that's too many colour layers and glowy effects but oh how wrong you are#if it doesnt make you literally fall over yourself at how otherworldly and radiant he is then there is room for improvement yet#perhaps you look at this and you think Wow!!! this gives me literally NO ideas what this fic is about#well Let Me Tell You. i have no fucking idea how to summarize this fic#its not often the tags in a fic give me pause but i saw this and as i read the tags i was increasingly just like What#but i have no idea how to describe it. the tags arent NOT accurate but i was SO unprepared for what happened in like an extremely pos way#if i were tagging this i think i would give it the no archive warnings apply label if that matters to you#the author seemed they wanted to leaned towards over caution rather than risk missing anything re tags because This Is A Weird Fic#but oh my fucking god#i am gripping you by the shoulders i cannot stress enough how charming it is#brilliant characterization especially with airplane in the first scene#and also so much fucking funnier than i thought possible for the general setting summary tags and buildup#its just. ough. its good
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stultifera navis rerun AKA thinking about Iberia hours again because a lot of the Iberians have such fascinating relationships with the concept of home but specifically Thorns and Lumen are eating at my brain. like where do you call home when the place that is your home Just Fucking Hates You? Elysium's rewinding breeze specifically makes a point to hammers home how differently Iberia treats its Liberi and its Aegir
(which is especially interesting since this comes right after a conversation where Purestream commented on how despite Leizi being a high ranking government official, there are still some experiences that are universal for all Yanese people - because the experience of what Iberia itself is like isnt universal for all Iberians)
But all that being said, Thorns also straight up states that Aegir is not his home, and yeah, how could it be? How could a place you've never been to, never truly known, ever be your home? How could it ever feel like a home?
so where do you go when the place that you are from hates your people and the place your people are from is completely unfamiliar and alien to you? Thorns' answer at the end of the conversation with Aya is: my home is where i chose it to be. my home is where there are people I care about and people who care about me
in the complete opposite direction, Lumen's oprec asks: why do you still stay in a place that wants you gone? because the people of Gran Faro like Jordi well enough but when push comes to shove, they will want the only Aegir in town gone
and yet, when Rald the messenger offers him a chance to leave Jordi turns him down and when he's forced to escape Gran Faro after the people there literally try to send him to his death (or worse) at the hands of the Inquisitors he keeps trying to go back because like everyone in stultifera navis, Jordi is clinging to his own dreams of a golden age
but the shape of that dream is unique to every character and for Jordi, his dreams are deeply, inseparably bound to the Eye of Iberia, the legacy his parents left behind
and it's this dream of becoming someone great, of bringing about that golden age that his parents devoted their lives to help create that ties Jordi to this nothing town because despite everything, despite the mistrust of the townsfolk and the hostility of the Inquisition and the danger from the ocean, he simply cannot leave it behind
(or, because i personally dislike the official translation,)
"I just see this place as my home"
so yeah. not sure what overall point i was trying to make here i'm just. deeply in love with these stories about chosing what is and isn't your home, of saying you will not call a place your home because it has given you no reason to or saying you consider a place your home even though it has given you every reason not to. deeply unwell about them <3
#arknights#asto speaks#not much of an essay writer i just keep thinking about them and i need to force other people to think about them too#thorns story fucks me up bc like. this whole almost found family adjacent idea of like#maybe home isnt something decided by your birth but something you can chose based on what truly matters to you#it just gets to me. i guess.#jordi gets to me in a completely different direction there's nothing personal about it i just find his story *fascinating*#just a guy. a completely normal guy. an absolute nobody caught up in these dreams of greatness while also fully aware of his own normalcy#but never letting either of those overshadow the other. never losing that self awareness or that fuckin obsessive determination#god. what a Character#i love jordi so much like genuinely#i joke a lot about him being just a Guy but thats also kinda like the best thing about him#the fact that he is the way that he is and does all the things he does despite being just a Guy#gently holds#for context i was so hyped about new iberia lore when sn was announced i read the whole thing as soon as it dropped on cn server#cuz someone uploaded all the story sections to bilibili right after it came out#and '我只是把这里当作自己的故��啊' fucking hit me SO HARD#in like the greater context of elysium demanding to know why hes risking his life in like 5 different ways to return to gran faro#because yeah jordi just doesnt want to leave his home but like we the audience knows the full *weight* of what that home means to him#and the weight of the dreams that made him chose to see Gran Faro as his home and to refuse to let go of that#thats why i like the original a lot more than the translation i think like it really emphasises that active *choice*.#this is the place jordi has *decided* to see as his home and he knows what that means and what it means to him#side note the part on thorns might not actually age well depending on whether hg decides to ever release more aulus lore#i mean i'll gladly take the L if it means more aulus and/or thorns lore like#i just wanna know what (if anything) is tying him to iberia yknow#ak#iberiaposting
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LETS TALK ABOUT BECKY IVES FOR A MINUTE!
when you think about becky, you have to remember that she spent at least four years listening to terry’s “crazy theories” about hawkins lab, and the big bad man taking jane away. she knew terry took part in “hippie crap” and assumed that messed with her head. that those experiences combined with miscarrying in the third trimester had a terrible strain on her mental health, ultimately losing her connection to reality. she spent those years watching terry fight and lose legal battles against brenner and hawkins. she pleaded for her to stop, to get help, as their relationship grew stressed and strained because becky didn’t believe her, and terry hated her for it.
and then when terry’s mind was completely broken, she spent her days and nights caring for her. the show never touched on this. just what did becky think happened to terry? what story was she told? was terry put into a random hospital with doctors from hawkins lab, under a guise of caring for her, just to tell becky there was some kind of accident? maybe a car accident. did they claim the drugs used in the mk ultra testing from all those years ago took affect on her mind? probably not, because then becky would be in an opportunity to sue. i highly doubt there would have been any mention of the lab, opposed to some, "unfortunate accident." it really bugs me that there’s no story about what becky believed made terry catatonic. terry knew becky didn’t believe her, and as such, definitely did not tell her about her plans to break into the lab. so a story could have easily been concocted.
and then, one random day, a kid shows up at her doorstep, claiming to be the daughter she didn’t believe existed. immediately, by jane opening the door with her mind, becky held some kind of belief for she'd heard terry’s rants about her baby being used for experiments, experiments which gave her powers. and in comes jane, demanding to see her mother, able to open a locked door, blood dripping from her nose. all too soon she realises that there has so be some semblance of truth. the girl says her name is jane: she fits all the descriptions. the descriptions of the niece she never had. this child who her sister fought tooth and nail to get back. i can’t even imagine the guilt that would begin to fester for not believing terry, for thinking she was having a mental break, for trying to get her to see therapists and get her some real, serious help.
scared and confused for herself and her sister, and unable to fathom what is happening, what does she do? she comforts jane. there is distance, there’s awkwardness, but this girl is her blood and every moment that passed only proved that she could actually be jane ives. she makes her a sandwich, tries to comfort her, tells her that her mother is in a dream. probably a good dream. she comforts and tells her that terry never stopped believing.
she always believed you were out there. she always believed you’d come home one day. home? yeah, home.
she offered her, this strange little girl, a place in her home with her and her mother. she didn’t push, she didn’t need to know everything in that moment; she focused on jane and nothing else. the girl was obviously traumatised judging by the way she spoke, the way she sheltered herself. if everything terry claimed was indeed true, then becky couldn’t even begin to think about what she’d gone through.
i wanna help you, but to really do that, i need you to talk to me, okay? it doesn’t have to be now. it doesn’t have to be today. when you’re ready, okay?
she never moved a single thing in jane’s room. although she didn’t believe terry, she respected and loved her enough to keep it exactly as she’d planned. and at least she could give jane that, the vision her mother had for her, what the first steps of their wonderful life would have been like. becky claimed terry was “stuck” living the “same dream” over and over. where becky, too, was the one who was stuck. terry became 24/7 care, and unless she had helpers (which i highly doubt), becky would have given up her job, her out of home hobbies, her entire life to care for her sister. stuck in an endless routine until jane came along and struck her with the reality of it all.
as soon as jane contacts the void, you can see becky looks on edge and nervous. which, fair enough! she asks if she can sit and watch, but doesn’t interfere or distract jane. she even sits a little further away from her, perhaps out of fear (which would be completely justified. this girl physically moved things with her mind, who knows what else she can do) or just trying to take this all in within her own time and space. but the moment, the second jane departs the void and is in a state of distress, she moves to comfort her. she isn’t sure how, and doesn’t expect it to be returned, but offers it nonetheless. as far as she knows jane just spoke to her sister; she would be dying to know what happened, if she said anything. but remains silent and focuses on the child.
unfortunately we really don’t see much else of their dynamic on screen, but it is very justified that becky contacted hawkins and tried to get a hold of hopper. he and joyce were the only ones who seemed to have some kind of understanding; of course she would want to contact them. she put on a brave face in front of jane, focused on her and her needs. but as soon as she put the bed down and jane wanted some time alone in her room, becky had a moment to breathe. to think about her, her sister, all those wasted years because she didn’t believe. so, weeks later, when she gets a phone call from a weak sounding girl, saying she was sorry, the relief is immense. when recovered from her illness after closing the gate, the first thing jane wanted to do was call her aunt. hopper got on the line after the initial apology and asked if becky would come to hawkins, so they could work things out from there.
i just think becky is such a neat, complex character for the literal twenty minutes (probably less) screen time she gets. i adore the way she treats jane, and think she is such a good influence in her life. imagine all the stories becky could tell her about terry. things no one else could. her relationship with her aunt is one like no other, for both the sake of her mother, and that she is the only true family she has ever known, or as far as she knows, even has. becky never expects anything from jane (unlike a lot of the people in her life), and in that respect, jane does actually open up to her overtime. to becky, jane isn’t a girl who’s saved the world a few times. she’s the niece she didn’t believe in, and would spend the rest of her life making it up to her and terry.
#study‚ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal.#long post /#also jane EXPLAINS the void best she can to becky.#she doesnt just say ‘be quiet’ when becky is talking to her and asking about it all / asking to apologise to terry for her.#she understands that she is not only meeting her mother. but her aunty too.#the only family she has in the whole world.#she understands it’s difficult for becky and allows her to ask questions. she isn’t short with her because she doesn’t understand.#jane knows what it’s like to not understand and just have people frustrated and sharp with her. so she Does NOT do that.#yeah this is just a Becky appreciation post!#she deserved so much better.#she could have been so good for jane.#i mean. she is. because she’s very very important in my portrayal.#also added those screencaps because it’s exactly what i talk about.#she starts off in her own space. has some time in complete silence while jane is in the void.#she would just be sitting there. on her own. just watching.#the first moment of the day to really think.#but then jane suddenly comes out of it.#and becky’s needs no longer matter.#and all focus is put on her niece again.#of course. majority of this is taken purely from the shows canon.#because becky is way more prominent in my own canon but.#yeah. stan the ives women for clear skin#!!!
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Getting into stuff that has a lot of pre-announced release dates is really good for me like vocal synthesizer products and new love live etc franchise music releases....I'll be lying in bed at like 2 AM with ur usual 20-something's fear and existentialism over time and the future and then I'll remember a piece of singing software or a new song related to cartoon characters I like is gonna come out like next month and I'm like 😌
#this keeps happening to me with the upcoming december#miki and kiyoteru sv.....im so excited...if they get delayed ill scream#jk jk ill be fine but i do hope we get some demos in November soon!#soyogi still doesnt have a concrete release date but hes also probably december#now if HE gets delayed i will actually explode. i will spontaneously burst into flames#the other night i had a dream about aivoice2 ryuusei coming out. which is a normal thing to happen#it literally was just like i went online and saw videos people made with him SHDBFBSJFNFN#premonition dream...this is what will happen in november#but it reminded me i wasnt as familiar with how aiv2 sounds with a2sync. i like the aiv1 kotonosync situation#BUT it is very noisy and the vocals usually sound like lalavoice with the slightly obvious looping#which is charming but not as versatile in the grand scheme of talk synths made to sing#just the nature of it. but a2sync sounds FANTASTIC i was really shocked. im curious how his#particularly deep voice will sound compared to a more medium gentle tone like iori but im excited#im really curious how he'll sound compared to vv humming ryuusei#now what weve seen of his design.....im not suuuper into quite yet. its not BAD and well see when its fully out#but i dont care for the blue hair bits. im picky about hair dye in alternate designs#i like his gray black default situation too much. also i DO like how slutty his design is looking#but also it might look um. a little too much for a talk synth? like brother whats going on here#why are u so dressed up to chat ....i guess for fun#then again his aiv1 design was also probably more appropriate for singing synths rather than talking But I like that one more LOL#doesnt matter too much for me though im more interested in the unofficial singing side stuff AHDBFHSHFBDJJD#which also reminds me i hope someday aiv1 vy series can get a aiv2 update#a full singing synth would be nicer but i wouldnt mind a talk turned singing synth. i know everyone hates the aiv vy designs#i dont hate them theyre not great but theyre fine for talk synths. i think nancy is hilarious. white woman jumpscare#im not a huge fan of the main fanon vy designs (theyre good but they dont fit to me) so i dont mind the aiv ones#even if its just two random people SHBFJFAJFJFJSJJF but yeah i hope they get a aiv2 someday#i think it would be fun to make em sing with a2sync hee hee#also on the ll end i am so excited for dia birthday album end of dec#AND all the new liella tunes. i still havent watched the new season because i havent been able to sit down and enjoy it yet#but soon....next week ill have time...sooooooon
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having lunch with mom today !!!!🍎🥪🥤
#ordered ahead and paid the price for Second Best since our favorite place shut down#i think its gonna come back and she thinks its gonna come back and theres not much sign of this being true#usually it doesnt take so long before we have fun things to talk about and we default to arguing about some things that dont matter#and some that really do#but i had a dream last night that everything went to shit for good or at least good enough to feel like its for certain#so i invited her for lunch and i think we’ll be drunk on gluttony and forget how to be mean when we’re scared of all the change around us#and i feel bad for hiding an objective behind seeing my own mother but i cant help it#i want a nice afternoon with my mom#thats what i hope#hooliganry
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im at a point where any word no matter what it is reminds me of re:kinder ... "them's the breaks?! re:kinder reference much?!" is an example of how my brain operates on a daily basis www
it's gotten to the point I can't even be sad without it happening I'll be stressing out over my own sorrows which leads to me using a particular combination of words and suddenly my feelings are a re:kinder reference
it even happened on a dream today where it was so deeply engaging and saddening and suddenly my neuron activates in the middle of it like. "RE:KINDER REFERENCE?!?!?!" i became very aware in the middle of a dream just because I said the word impossible i can't make this shit up😭😭😭 like. "yeah re:kinder reference it's like that one scene... (vivid memory of it here) anyway back to the dream"
#its kinda funny actually#my dream can be in there being the most off putting dive into the depressing factors of my life#but no matter what is going on I'll pause everything if a word even remotely reminds me of my main interest its so dumb WWWW#Its just like real life now that i think about it its exactly like it in real life#i could be having a meltdown and still be reminded of rekinder it has happened multiple times#doesnt make it any less funny
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guess who officially is going as a v*i*p with jeff and The Legend to the conference at the end of the month? ;____;
#I might cry#Between this and meeting everybody on monday and the gallery yesterday and then the event next week#Im just half terrified i will wake up and its all a dream#Journal shit#I genuinely consider The Legend to be a friend too#You know when someone is just a natural storyteller that they are just interesting to talk to no matter what they are talking about?#And he's got that sly sense of humor and big easy smile#And he's always wearing a hat always#Thats why he notices my hats and i think why he started remembering me 🤣 it took a few meetings#I am VERY GLAD he doesnt remember the first time he met me i got his autograph and i was shaking so bad i could barely talk#We were hanging out at lghtb*x and a woman came up and was all shy and nervous and wanted a photograph#And i was sympathetic with her but he was all oh dont be nervous im nobody#and i was laughing and told him that i was the same way before i got to know him better#and that was how i found out he had no memory of that first meeting 🤣🤣🤣 good!!!
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who is your favorite one piece character. *staring intently no pressure no pressure no pres (´灬⊙ω⊙灬`)♡
Idk some fucking guy that showed up on screen for a bit he was kinda cool
#luffy is a character that i feel everybody including the viewer is meant to kind of underestimate at first#to chalk him up to a naive fucking idiot that's gonna get himself killed by something more powerful because he overestimated himself#you keep waiting until he bites off more than he can chew#yknow you wait until he finally meets that match that makes him hesitate and think ''i'm not strong enough‚ i need to improve''#like so many shonen do nowadays where the main character gets humbled by someone more powerful than the level they're at#but with luffy that just.... doesnt happen#no matter how fucking awful and horrifying the series gets sometimes and how high the stakes rise with more genocidal villains#luffy acts as the humanized force of unshakable freedom that cant be silenced for good#luffy is a protagonist but he is also an all-encompassing metaphor that seeps from every pore of the series#and i feel extremely strongly about what he represents and the way he can change YOU and make u feel the hope u thought u lost#he is a character but he is most importantly a vessel for a story that‚ at heart‚ wants you to laugh and dream and love unabashedly#he is not a mascot lil shonen protag created for the sake of telling the viewer ''killing bad! friendship important!''#that motherfucker is built to inspire you to be shamelessly happy to fucking live and laugh and dream big idiot dreams#its hard to describe what he fucking Does to your brain to people used to consuming trash anime with basic niceguy protags#but luffy isnt just a protag. he is a feeling that you learn to adopt. but the depth of that cant be described until you feel it#its a shame people get so scared of the episode count because theyll never experience one of the most soul-changing series ever made#luffy is just one guy in a series full of characters so nuanced and fleshed out they could have their own damn shows
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legitimately what the fuck was that
#ig im dissapointed lmao#sorry most of it i just kind of expected (bram regaining his body and stopping the vampires. fyodor dying bc there isnt really anything els#you can do with him. dazai and chuuya both alive)#mostly i wish aya awakened an ability give her oneee also i want to see how they manifest#idk we'll see soon where this goes ig but 1. i really wish fukuzawa had just died alongside fukuchi and 2. that there would be some calmer#chapters more focused on political repercussions rather than more fighting but the 2 hours later thing isnt really pointing to that huh#ill have to reread this arc at some point bc fukuchis and fyodors plan got so convoluted i was barely following it#and also 1. what abt sigma do they just. leave her there#i mean surely not bc she has info on fyodor but dazai really just did not care#and 2. yeah i wish fukuzawa died but now that he didnt. does he???? just keep the one order#and wheres that fucking page#and whats exactly on it#bc i dont think they can just rewrite anything 1. they dont know how much space is on it and theyll need a lot to fix this mess#2. god knows if they even can do anything or if theres some condition written in already thatd stop them#also asagiri for the love of god get into anticapitalism bc you cant just go into criticing states and military without talking about it#and i still need the hunting dogs dead even if i know its likely not going to happen#but how are you going to go all “absolute power corrupts” and “omg fukuci dont create a military state” and then just leave the super cops#running around and getting redeemed bc “they mean well” yeah they do but it doesnt matter#they are complicit in the state violence THEY ARE state violence#asagiri pls i can show you theory you havent even dreamed of#txt.
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another thing about taylor swift is she is absolutely terrified of the things she says and does being misconstrued and used as weapons. which has been done to her and using her voice so so many times. like all around. this is not a ridiculous fear for her to have. no matter how articulate she is that will happen. however, she has a massive platform unlike nearly anyone on the planet which is why that potential harm exists, and she needs to not be paralysed with fear of being capable of standing up for what she believes when the stakes are high. like being against trump was terrifying to her and did in fact cost her a lot but that's. one of the most mainstream things she could have done. she needs to not be so scared of what happens when she speaks up that she just. doesn't.
#incoherents#I GET IT. i really really do. no matter how articulate she is it DOESNT MATTER. i get it.#people hate her because she's sooooo scared to stand for something that she comes off standing for nothing but like#god can you IMAGINE growing up with the amount of cultural power she did#she is soooo over exposed and she has been her entire life. she has been picked apart and stalked she was scared the president would go a#after her. she gets written about in international news sources and mentioned by people with extreme power across the world#it's not ridiculous it doesn't mean she doesn't have principles or a lot to her#but like that doesn't mean that she shouldn't! still do what she can when the situations are so so dire!#when she has power that most people could only ever dream of. like#she is NOT made to be an activist and I don't fault her for that but she needs to not be so terrified she can't do anything.#like -_- there's a genocide happening right now she could at least use words to support a ceasefire than going to like 1 event or whatever#taylor swift
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yes yes this is probably the "depressed and angry about it 20 smth" in me talking but it makes me explosively angry when people have the gaul to look me in the face and be like "be nicer to yourself" "it makes other people uncomfortable" yada yada yada, so on and so forth. What that feels like is that I cant be honest with you, and maybe so and thats okay I guess.
I can recgonize the bits that are truly unreasonable, but what do you expect me to do about the bits that I feel deep in my core are the truth? bitch, im uncomfortable too thats why im upset abt it. I do the "fake it", ive done the change in vocabulary, doesn't change the fact that the whole time I was hitting rock bottoms I'd never seen before.
#Maybe its individualism or whatever idk#but i can never take any conversation abt mental health seriously anymo4e whenever someone is like#''but what abt xyz person🥺'' man fuck idk are they the ones having dreams abt self immolation??#not that i am anymore but as an example#and its not that i dont care about the feelings of others because thats not true#but you have to be happy with yourself it frankly doesnt fucking matter what anyone else thinks if your not happy with your own life#but when i say that to someone its quiet worried stares and I dont pay my therapist to pity me so#instead i get angry at no on tumblr because thats atleast free#char.txt
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why does my brain do this to me
#i had a dream about a goth gamerboy dateable and now im tempted to make him real#i have a spot for him technically But. I DONT WANNA KEEP MAKING DATEABLES . I HAVE TOO MANY RAUUUHHHHG#i cant remember what he had for a head for some reason my brain keeps saying it was either sticks of dynamite or like. half a skateboard#also he was friends with vinnie she was there in the dream#we were living in a minecraft house together but that doesnt matter#dialogue
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there's something incredibly funny about the dynamic between me, fandomed your bible made them queers but has no actual extreme opinions about christianity because i think it's all made up and you can believe in whatever pleases you, and my best friend, somewhat orthodox (with a natural hatred for the church any actual christian should have), very lowkey and respectful towards everything, frowns at me when i slander the apostle john, but straight up believes with his whole chest paul was the antichrist and will argue with your 80 year old christian grandmother about it
#🧅#AND I CANT EVEN THROW IT BACK AT HIM WHEN HE CALLS /ME/ A HERETIC CAUSE LOWKEY? YEAH.#we hate paul. if paul has 100 haters i am one of them if paul has 10 haters i am one of them if paul has 2 haters i am one of them if paul#has one hater i am dead and it's my friend#''if youre mad at paul you should be mad at peter'' LEAVE PETER ALONE his rabbi just got crucified#mans was going through it its all paul's evil scheming#im mad at peter for other things. like hating women.#but fuck paul#peter was there he went through it he knows all about jesus#yknow what paul was doing while jesus was getting crucified instead ? killing the first christian martyr#and then he just went on to spew some bullshit and say that jesus came to him in a dream and told him so#while jesus' BROTHER was like ''actually thats bullshit he'd never say that''. and paul was like no he did <3 im a prophet <3#and then went on to spew more bullshit#and im not talking random obscure christian bullshit americans would create a whole new dogma over that doesnt even matter im talking#harmful bullshit#im talking ''hey jesus came to me in a dream and said we should convert everyone to christianity or they'll go to hell''#and james was like ''hey i dont think jesus said that exactly''#and paul was like ''no he did <3''#i fucking hate paul
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how come whenever i see cool sonic frontiers stuff i feel jealous
#like it feels like im not even a sonic (video games) fan anymore#you know. and im mad about it when i cant get nice things for what i like (archie sonic. pipe dream(#whateevr ultimately it doesnt matter sonic frontiers still looks baller and i still want to play it. but i know itll be more melancholy
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wait i might have actually lucid dreamed. wait.
so i was having this dream and it started at work. after a bit I began to notice something where the furniture wasnt right, like two coffee machines or my literal own personal wardrobe just. standing there. then, somehow they said it was friday evening, which isnt possible since i KNOW i have important irl stuff then. So i was trying to figure out if i was correct in the incorrectness. i started telling the supervisors that this wasnt correct and that the dates are wrong (not really the best decision in hindsight i think). they were looking at me like i was stupid and insane, so i just tried to wake up. which actually worked. wth.
#during the furniture realization i tried to make levi come in for. reasons :). but that didnt work.#i only really tried to manipulate it at that moment i think. after that it all became too hectic unfortunately =w=pp#i couldnt actually controle anything i think. maybe that takes practise/time. i wont even know if/when it happens agian. i'll see.#i dont have a mind eye; if i try to imagine an apple or whetever i can think about it but it doesnt form an image. if you get that.#aphantasia. if your familiar with that#thats what makes me scared bc. maybe i just cannot change the dream due to my lack of visualisation. no matter how hard i try.#i have never actually tried to lucid dream so this is a fucking suprise.#it feels SO real i thought i was going irl insane bc. maybe i just took my wardrobe to work or something idk??#maybe i just didnt go to my own graduation??#i was already crazy bc the 'workload' i was given was actually WAY to much for just me.#sillyposting#WILD to experience. let me tell you#i can also recall everything very well (which i rarely can). idk if thats bc of the lucidness or bc i just woke up...#... during the dreamcycle-segment that makes remembering easier.#maybe its a combo where i was able to wake up thanks to the lucidness + it being in the remembering part of the cycle#idk =w=b
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