#doesnt fucking land for me actually
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But Also i do think. Expecting Crisp Ironed Clothes of someone in a fucking job interview is Unhinged. I think most professional dress standards are Stupid.
#toy txt post#i value the labor it to knownhow to do that. but i really queation Why the labor is required for so much low stakes shit#even high stakes shit?#its good to know how ti do and can be used to elevate an outfit. AND. a stupid arbitrary standard of fashion to uphold#especially as a judgement of like class /professionalism / i think professionalism is Largely Stupid. thats what im saying#good god who are you the fucking military? the god damn marines? you gonna drill sarge on me about wrinkles? fuck off#depending on the construction of the shirt and the material i think you can Get Away With a Lot of Not Ironing. but i suppose. obviously#getting away with can also require privilege! which sucks and is stupid#i think i could probably haphazardly figure out ironing based on figuring out how to hang shirts to dry to avoid wrinkles and#watching dad do it occasionally. might struggle with pants cos i dont think ive ever needed to iron pants OR bother with methods to avoid#wrinkling too much? would they look Better? yea probably i guess but i aint doin all that#anyway. while i have you hear i also despise menswear rules i think theyre all stupid arbitrary shit and i cannot imagine#thinking the menswear guy on twitters dunks are worth any salt even if hes dunking on ppl u hate ♡ thats my hot take#none of those guys suck bc they dont dress well they suck bc theyre fucking fascists and going teehee their suits are untailored!#doesnt fucking land for me actually#its giving 'well. all trump voters are fat' like???????? same energy#yes i know one of the critiques is about shit thats easier to change and not intrinsic to that persons appearance#but i still think it sucks for similar reasons#+ it really feels like it downplays the issue of the guys hes dunking on being like. fascists. idk. not to mention so many of those#menswear fashion rules are SO fucking conformative and stupid. do whatever you want forever. be unfashionable. mix leather colors.#idk. ig its valid to Know the fashion rules and Then break them on purpose but the tone always annoys the shit out of me too
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And this concludes the grand crossover event
(or does it?)
(it does but I was given a great idea for how to solve Gwen's problem :) )
the timeline of previous relevant comics:
[Jeff has a great fashion sense and Peter is the best hooker]
[Jeff is found and fucks are lost]
[bro landed up in the wrong universe and all he got out of it is a lousy bow]
#petvengers#spiderverse#Deadpool#Gwenpool#spiderman 99#wade wilson#gwen poole#miguel o'hara#jeff the land shark#i have a very simple sense of humor#and cute little floofballs swearing a lot is part of it#also i still remeber the ooooold long list of polish swearwords vs english that were mostly translated to just fuck fuck fuck this fuck tha#and still find it amusing#but maybe fuck doesnt make an impression on me since im not an native speaker#but anyway yes i still think the shock instead of fuck is bad#i know why they did it in comics and its actually smart#buuuuut#but in current world context it gets waaaay to close to tiktokification of language#and i fucking hate it#sure it makes sense miguel lives in ubercorporated distopia we are clearly going towards#but just fucking no#fuck fuck fuck#one fuck at a time#swearing
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i NEED to yap about personal shit i gotta get it out there somewhere
#AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#also i really have to shit but my brother is in the bathroom i am going to kill myself#OKAY OKAY UHH HHHHHGH UHHHHH#OKAY . MY DOG GOT HIT BY A CAR YESTERDAY RIGHT. CONTEXT. THERE IS A CREEK BY THE ROAD IN A RAVINE THAT I WAS SHOWING A FRIEND#AND THE DOG IS ALLOWED OUTSIDE CAUSE SHE NORMALLY DOESNT GO IN THE ROAD RIGHT?? SHE NORMALLY STAYS IN THE#BACK YARD WHICH IS. EXPANSIVE N THEFES A SHIT TON OF LAND WHERE SHE CAN RUN OFF SO I DIDNT THINK THE DOG WAS GONNA FOLLOW#DOWN TO THE CREEK. BUT SHE DID .? AND ENDED UP GOING IN THE ROAD BUT SHE LITERALLY NEVER GOES IN THE FUCKING ROAD#WHICH LEADS ME TO BELIEVE SOME1 PURPOSELY HIT HER BUT ANYWAYS. I TOLD MY MOM CAUSE I.LIVE WITH HER N I KIND OF HAVE TO#AND SHES JUST SO. ough. o don't even know how to explain it. AN ASSHOLE??#SHES ACTING LIKE THE ENTIRE THING IS MY FAULT AND BEING A HUGE DICK ABOUT EVERYTHING. .I ASKED IF THE DOG WAS OKAY THIS MORNING#AND SHE JUST FUCKIN WENT "no viktor of course she's not okay' AND LIKE ROLLED HER EYES?? WHAT THE FUCK????#SHE GOT MAD WHEN I WENT TO PET THE DOG N SAID SHE WAS SCARED OF ME?? SHE WASN'T????? SHE WAS ROLLING OVER SO I COULD PET HER#istg my mom thinks everything is my fault and shes just a huge dick all the time EVEN MY BROTHERS AGREE WITH THAT SOMETOMES#AND SHE CLEARLY FAVORS THEM#so long story short im very worried for my dog but too scared and pissed off at my mom to actually do anything about it
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ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.
the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,
but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.
It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.
#im kind of torn between 'no characters dont need to be 'punished' to be redeemed but also the characters just being so lenient with the#colonizers after we see far too many people being lenient if not supportive of the colonizers irl. well. it really blows afslkjfalkf and#yeah you can argue if they'd gone through with the garlemald expansion they would've had more time to go into this but the fact is that its#absent from what they did do and I especially think the patches when we go to garlemald and the EW role quests going 'hey maybe the#provinces can help us rebuild' as if they'd have any goddamn right to ask that just make me feel like they didnt stick the landing#seeing all the characters who have suffering time and time again bc of the garleans or seen the results of their actions having to clamp#their mouths shut every time someone said something xenophobic in EW isnt satisfying and it leaves so much unsaid!#also some people feel like the narrative didnt blame emet enough but ngl I think thats reductive even with his micromanaging scheming littl#ass and the intention of garlemald turning out a shitshow that doesnt make anyone else less complicit. most governments like this exaggerat#and lie and spread propaganda but I dont think most people here excuse the actions of a bigot because 'they were raised that way'#this is also my issue with gaius' writing. hes primarily upset that ascians were behind what he thought was his good old fashioned natural#conquering ideology :( and doesnt it suck so much he killed people for it. like yeah he seems pretty aware what he did was wrong but his#ideology remains bizarrely intact and unchallenged by the characters around him. no dude it wasnt just the ascians the system is a lot more#complex than that by this point aaaaaugh#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#siren says#I hope people are nice to me about this I dont think I said anything particularly controversial to the Tumblr crowd (twt maybe but fuck em)#ig my main point with this post is that the game isnt perfect at writing this and also that look. I actually liked the main arc in EW and I#like quite a few garlean characters but I completely understand why others didnt like it or any garleans esp if they have their own persona#experiences with colonialism and I dont get to tell them they're invalid for that. too many people get judgmental about this understandably#upsetting topic and you just gotta accept that this is a big line for many people
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love how i keep getting consumed by soul crushing homesickness only to be reminded that theres nothing there for me anymore anyway
#and idk why im feeling this why now cause technically i have lived here two years now (i dont count it cause it was school years where i#went back for summers/ breaks and also i was so depressed i didnt actually live life independently)#but now that i AM. i miss home so so much and i wish i could be there instead but theres no way for me to have my career there and my family#is falling apart and i lost all my friends except the new community i happened to find over the summers but theyre all spread across the cou#ntry too and im just missing it.#doesnt help that i may be losing my best friend here cause they might be going to my hometown for a job lmao we just switched places fr#im so scared im gonna be horribly depressed again and its either gonna fuck up my career or my last friendship here (with my roommate)#and its so much more#im trying so hard to keep hoing in an industry thats hostile towards me but i have nothing to fall back on when its too much#i just wanna be on the land again 😭😭😭😭😭#i have no rights here i dont know many people etc
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im convinced that people who actually want to live in cities and dont see the environmental and emotional trauma their inflicting on themselves by enabling those places to continue to grow have just the most severe brain damage
#saw a post that made me mad talking about slow living being Bad (in ways im not gonna write in tags and end up in thos spaces by accident)#but like......dropping a hut on a vacant lot and growing some veg and chickens is not nearly as#detrimental or colonizing as sprawling cities#also like who the fuck WANTS to live in a concrete jungle when trees and grass exist#yall are fucking sickos to lump wanting to be educated on herbal medicine and growing food and SPACE AWAY FROM LOUD NEIGHBORS#in with like trd wife and trf bullshit#cottagecore on twitter houses those type but like.....you know farms exist outside of northamerica too right#and some of us are better equipped for famr labour than retail?#i see more people complain about cottagecore as an aesthetic than is actually has issues tbh#but maybe i just mind my own business and actually know what living on a farm entails#my body gave out on me but i literally used to work on a horse farm#i know how much work chickens are#anyway people really will complain about anything and fail to realize that their own lifestyle is a much bigger problem than some strawman#they created in their heads just because they saw one tradwife on instagram living on a homestead with her 8 children and cheating husband#sorry i dont want to contribute to mental illnesses and pollution by living in the city??#farm whether hobby or just partially self sustaining doesnt equal root of all evil#some of us are just better equipt to tend to the sheep in the scottish highlands were our ancestors started#and besides id rather see semi delusional tradwives stsrting homesteads than all that same 'vacant' land go to more housing developments#anyway tho#all this because some bad faith take someone had because someone had the audacity to talk about their experiences with transmisogyny#(which i still think is a dumb concept cause called a spade a spade its transphobia) and wasnt a transfemme#im begging yall to stop talking over transmasc and afab people#youre not more important because you identify as a woman stop giving yourselves victim complexes and shutting down important conversations
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Night shift or short attention span for the wip thing?
I’ll choose night shift basically Akihiko has this nightmare based on a real memory where he and Shinji got into a very heated fight that dissolved into like, chaos and angry beatings on Akihiko’s part and his nightmare is a warped version where he just keeps punching Shinji in a blind rage until there’s nothing left of him. He wakes up terrified and unsure of what’s happening and Shinji isn’t there BUT ITS OKAY HES FINE he’s just at work I think sadly unfortunately my man has to work a shitty convenience store job to make some money while trying to figure life out and he’s temporarily working night shifts so that’s why he’s gone and Aki does call him at work in the middle of the night for reassurance and asks if that incident really went down the way he remembers it (it didn’t). It’s kinda dark but has a nice ending at least
#ask#idk if ill ever like. finish and post that one hm#but what triggered this idea was like. the pain of a loved one crying and screaming over you but all you can do is sit there unfeeling#akihiko was mad at how removed shinji has become and how he just doesnt seem to care about anything anymore and its very upsetting#and aki gets really emotional and theyre fighting and hes crying and shaking but shinji isnt fighting back hes just letting it happen#hes just lying there and seeing his friend on top of him sobbing doesnt seem to affect him in any way cuz hes so emotionless#and akihiko just gets more mad at that and thats what causes him to freak out cuz why isnt shinji fighting back anymore#and then you know in the nightmare its warped with guilt and fear and ends with aki being so caught up in his reactions#that he doesnt notice how hes hurt shinji and its too late and hes killed him#cuz id say once everything settles down post canon theres a lot of lingering anxiety about everything#aki fears that he pushed too hard and drove shinji away and didnt notice his pain until it was too late#but when he calls shinji to get the real story it obviously isnt how aki remembers cuz he first off didnt kill shinji#what really happened was akihiko was sobbing and kinda just swinging haphazardly everywhere and landed some hits on shinji but not enough to#really fuck him up and it ends with him giving up and laying on top of shinji crying#shinji kinda awkwardly embraces him cuz what else can he do when he still cant feel anything but hates to see his friend upset#so the actual incident wasnt very pretty or happy but they made it out alive and are working things out now#very bittersweet very angsty shinji is so goddamn emotionally repressed i mean they both are actually#also on a lighter note shinji was just like on the phone with his bf during his shift and aki is like wait are you slacking off#and shinji is like bitch you literally called me??? and who cares id like to see these bitches try and fire me 😤#hes behind the register in a stupid uniform while horrible music plays theres like one customer there#theyre making direct eye contact the entire phone call
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I don't have any sense of national pride but I do actually have a sense of nationality in general. I was born here, I love the land I live on, I love *some* of the people, we have an evil evil history and present but I want so much to have a country that can take ownership of that and make real change and offer real reparations. Instead I live in a country where enough of the population has voted for a party who's campaign is solely based on hate to win even one seat in parliament, probably 10 or 12. Probably twice as many as the green party. Yes it's going to be a labour wipeout but look at that result and tell me you feel victorious. Tell me you feel proud. Tell me you don't feel disgusted right to the bottom of your heart that even one person you share an island with thought that Reform ideology was one they could get behind.
With any luck, in four years time we will have reduced poverty levels and an attempt at some genuine social infrastructure. But the roots of facisistic hate have woven themselves so deeply into our society that I don't think we have anything to cheer about. I don't think these results indicate any future worth looking forward to.
#and theres nowhere to escape it#even if i move to somewhere that doesnt have the same problems (which is almost impossible)#i will still be British#i think unfortunately thats a part of me forever#and i will still feel so much shame and so much sorrow watching what we do#and it sucks so much to know that this shouldn't be a surprise because its England.#we've been killing and fighting and colonising and siding with nazis and brutalising immigrants for as long as possible#and i know i was born into that legacy i know that#but it just hurts because the people that i know and love#and 99% of the people i see in my every day life#and meet and talk to and get to know#are just people#and yet as a nation we cant seem ro fucking help ourselves#idk man im just miserable#im not even that surprised im just shocked at the reality of it#and there are so many of us who fight so hard for change#and so many of us who are brutalised and dismissed as not belonging#and for tens and even hundreds of years weve been trying to change things#and the reality is that you can fix something thats rotten#but i live here i live in the rotten thing i love the land that the rot is sitting on#sobbing crying throwing up#i cant talk about it anymore man#I can't#like i actually just feel so utterly miserable about it#Fuck#al is talking#uk election
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when you agree to hang out with gale during the tiefling party in act 1 lae'zel says "ive no doubt hes as seductive as he is succint" but lae'zel. the whole using 300 words to express how he feels is so endearing lae'zel. lae'zel listen to me hes basically writing a book about how cool i am lae'zel
#ramblings#he doesnt have to be seductive but idk man i screenshotted several gale romance lines because my mind exploded#AND IM. AROMANTIC.#plus im always a sucker for old married couple behavior so the epilogue was basically just made for me#el getting to leave baldurs gate with someone who loves him & actually getting a family made me so grateful i eventually landed on gale#before the ps5 release i was thinking about what id do with el bc i made him like 3 weeks before launch#he was my designated gort fucker. but obviously if i wanted to play him id have to figure out what to do w him ingame#& after a TON of consideration i landed on gale#i dont remember WHY#but letting el be good after all this time and seeing just how the story ended for him because of who he romanced#bro its perfect#it suits him im still thinking about how fucking happy he becomes. in the end
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here with another song. this one makes me think of Vash
it's about the Exhaustion. the eternal work to keep going despite the weight on your soul. the way death can sound so sweet in comparison to the current horrors of your life... but you keep going anyways, because there are things left to do.
and you cant even let yourself show that sadness. that Fear. because it's not what's expected of you. you can't show that vulnerability to people, and so you put up a facade to hide it all away.
you're still going, you can still keep going, but you find yourself wondering how much longer this can continue.
not allowed to show it, you just keep moving on.
#speculation nation#trigun#vash the stampede#music#vash#fanny's trigun analysis#IM COUNTING IT...#honestly the way Vash doesn't hold value in his own life drives me fucking insane#we see it over and over and over again in the way he puts himself in harm's way to save people#and then we see things like. towards the end. when Legato says that Vash is *like him*. someone who doesnt see value in living#early on when Vash is contemplating to Kaite about whether it was a good thing humans landed on this planet#& his dream with Rem about wondering how people could go on living with this hopelessness...#his pursuit of Knives drives him. but beyond that? he doesn't really want to keep living.#MADE EVEN MORE CHILLING by the fact that as a child he literally attempted suicide. before Rem stopped him.#Vash is lowkey suicidal throughout the entire story. and basically his entire life. and that is just fucking gut-wrenching.#im. gonna need to make a post about that actually. a proper analysis post#Vash's lack of attachment to life & the way he keeps on living for Rem's sake alone for the LONGEST time...#and the way he finds reasons to live again in the people he loves...#kind of a digression from the original song post but i just have some fucking Thoughts about him. god.#suicide ment/#Spotify
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a lot of people overtype the 479 tritype because they have never done psychedelics or been in psychedelic culture where the actual 479s reside. its so obvious how many of yall in typology havent lived and that especially includes doing psychedelics which will open your eyes to so much.
#once some people were like UHM GRIMES IS THE MOST OBVIOUS 749 EVER SHE MAKES FAIRY MUSIC !!#its like... er... honey#I dont think you've gone outside your weirdo comfort zone enough to ever encounter actual fairy music#like literally there are some things in this world... some tritypes#that you WILL NOT ENCOUNTER if you stay in dumbass attachment normie land forever#mainly stuff of the 478 variety#478 combos stand out so you will see them but like unless you live life#you wont understand how to identify each of these types individually#and you will encounter less individuals of these types#cuz they tend to be the ones most often on the outskirts of society outside the normie comfort zones#typology groups that take a pure observer approach piss me the fuck off#grimes is 748 btw#ppl r like shes awkward!! 9 fix!!#no.#shes a 7w6 core you idiots ofc she will be awkward#ppl have a dramatized view of 8 that simply doesnt exist in reality#even take the most Obvious 8 tm 8w7 karen and get to know them#THEY ARE NOT THESE INVULNERABLE COMPETENCY ROBOTS THAT YALL THINK 8S ARE#they are a mess and usually aux Fi and most of yall would type them cp6 (fake type) as soon as you saw them lose control of a situation
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Guess who's broken a new sims record (played the same sims family on TWO separate days)
#the duck quacks#i usually suffer from making new families over and over but now im actually having fun#im on the second gen rn altho the third gen are toddlers!#i started with whats the name. uhh those sims who hate jobs and want to live of the land#i actually..forgot my own sims name but she had that trait + vegan + focused on family. lived in evergreen harbor and ate from the trash#up until she had kids and it became kjnda impractical. especially for toddlers. so she got a fridge#the house was still of the grid tho and she was very green. also she had 6 kids. only one had the happy infant trait. the othrrs had unhappy#i kinda stopped focusing her when the oldest/heir grew up into a kid! her name is robin and she was rll fun to play with!#she maxed out social butterfly and even scouts she was v skilled which was suprising for me when i have short lifespan#as a teen she did get hit by a meteor snd died but i added her ghodt to the fam! i planned to continue as a ghost eith her but she couldnt#age to an adult so i just decided to revive her after a little while#as an adult she moved out. she was still besties with her entire family and honeslyy. that girl helped raise those kids ALOT#all teens judt got appointed to infant duty#good for them that the sims doesnt gave a trauma system bc raising hr siblings after ur mom passed out again is probably.#not good for a teenager. hm . yeah.#anyways robin moved to the city where she still libes today! she is. so fucking talented i LOVE her#she has responsibility emphathy and politeness maxed out she makes instant friends and has lke 20+ at this point#she is on the charity branch of the politica and almost at lvl 10#she completed worlds friends and currently working on the art aspiration! she is at lvl 10 in cha and art#she also married today! i forgor her husbands nsme but hes just a chill clumsy dude who loves to garden and kids#they were v romantic. got toghether on love day. engaged during love festival. married in a 6x3 room in their apartment.#(their wedding was so silly. the apartment is v cramped and full so the routing was SUFFERING)#speaking of routing issues. they got twins! Starling and Sparrow! i lofe them but dear lord is Robin a bad parent#rheir room was small bc apartemenr and the routing was the WORST AND SHE KEPT STARING AT HER BABY WHILE SHE SOBBED ON THE FLOOR EVEN THOUFH#I TOLD HER TO PUT HER INTO THE XRIB 3 FUCKINF HOURS AGO#i gave up soon and aged them up. Sparrow has the unhappy baby trair RIP. honestly before this i thought they would be WAY too doting parents#but ig not.#rn im veru curious to see how the twins grow up bc i alwaus randomize traits n stuff. also! they got a cat and dog! and will get a new rat#when the todds age up. the dog was avtuallt rll impractical bc it cant ride the eleveator alone and pees in the house all the time ..oops#anyways this is the first time in genuinely excited to play again. rip my studies i gotta grind on the hunderd family!!
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how many moons are there in trigun. ive always just assumed it was five but now i have no clue.
#how many moons does gunsmoke fucking have?!? and do i have to draw all of them!!!! wtf do they look like i cannot find pictures anywhere!!!#other than like. fifth moon but that doesnt HELP ME.#i need like. dnd style worldbuilding for nomans land please . ALSO??? IS IT NOMANS LAND OR IS IT GUNSMOKE??!?!#i kind of use them interchangeably but i dont know what it actually is.#trigun mutuals please i need you#critrole has spoiled me with its worldbuilding and moon lore. i need 2 know the names of all the moons and their positions in the sky and#what colors they are pleaseeeee .#nightow can we get moon lore for your 30 year old anime please
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i asked the IT guy what the hell went wrong with my computer yesterday and he really said "i could tell you but you probably wouldn't understand" 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 OH I AM STILL SO PISSED OFF ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!
#personal#BUDDY WHICH ONE OF US ACTUALLY HAS A WEBSITE RIGHT NOW AND NOT JUST A FUCKING LANDING PAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#he literally doesnt know me are you fucking joking literally why the fuck are you assuming i dont know shit#and when it ended up being that notification i saw every day since january that i emailed him twice about which he ignored!!!!!!!#ABSOLUTE PIECE OF SHIT MAN I CANT FUCKING STAND HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#bitch i may not know everything about networks and servers but i could learn faster and MORE than you know right now#i taught myself how to build a whole website from NOTHING with NO OUTSIDE HELP OR SCHOOLING WHATSOEVER!!!!! JUST FOR FUN!!!!!!#and i have taught myself everything about those damn printers bc no one else gave a damn about them!!!!!!!#you wouldnt understand.... GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE WITH THAT???????? fucking garbage sad excuse of a man#nah im so mad i didnt even ask for details i just wanted a damn recap 😭💔 fuck you
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people should start inventing their own numerologies and comparing notes. slash s r s
#slovo talks#otherwise i will not tag this because frankly what do i say#numerology#? im not insane /lie#yes yes im not insane. im just autistic which is Normal. anyway the number 4 is our lucky one atm because its everywhere and it means death#in japan or somewhere#i like death. i want to court it so when it comes for my ass again i can bat my lash all gross like and it freaks out and leaves#or fucks me. and leaves. like a bad husband#this because im deranged. i like it this way#did u know im ukrainian btw ? did u know ukraine is a meltin pot of Yikes. did u know i love this land and its people#did u know i wont stay here under threat of death. anyway even numbers are the only correct numbers an 5 is the only one that passes#the vibe check#otherwise#i like the number five. number seventeen is a funny one because it is TWO uneven numbers. the most problematic uneven numbers at that#but seven adds up to 14 which makes it kinda sexy#OH did u know imagination an creativity are muscles u can train ? thank u professor vujadinovic#i love u mr old man who is old enough to be my granfather. why are u montenegrin. u should stop#im fairly sure he doesnt have tumblr. hes Old. but hes hip with the kids on account of hes a teacher so ig we never know ! hi professor#im sorry i was Weird and Unwell and Scary. and very worrying indeed. this is because i am multiple and the multiple never fuckin agree on#NOTHING.#for fun#also im just a baby so its okay for me to be worryin actually cause im young an adaptable an will figure it out. bats lashes in Irradiated#that one is for our first ex instead of our montenegro-based prof. i think i need to sleep cause this is not numerology anymore#oh well !#bye bye#im gon be busy reviving old gods- OH MY GOD I FORGOT- yeah bye we have Business to attend to suddenly
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gender feelings are happening again. scary.
#bats squeaks#scary-ish#i dont like change hehddb#ive considered that maybe im genderfluid for a while now#bc how i feel swings pretty far between like. and excuse this jumble of thoughts rq im Very tired. but like. between mostly masc to extreme#femme. most of the time i land somewhere just to the fem side of no gender#but my friends recently have been calling me aryn more often and using my pronouns right and it feels??? off????? and that makes me feel#absolutely horrible#like ive spent so much energy and made so many people call me they/them and had So Many People get stressed about misgendering me#and here i come going ACTUALLY maybe my pronouns are they/she!#AAUUUGGHHHHHHH#like. i know its my gender and thats the most important part and maybe im just desensitized to being called my legal name + she/her#but. i really really dont mind it anymore#like yeah i respond to both names and my legal name doesnt exactly feel like me but my chosen name doesnt feel quite right either anymore???#maybe bc i havent gotten the opportunity to get used to being called it??#bc i fucking love the name i picked. i adore the name aryn and i see it and i think THATS ME!! IM ARYN!!#but at the same time hearing it is!!! off!!!!!#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#just gonna. privately contemplate the they/she for a while.
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