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(OC) Wisteria Fairfolk.
#art#digital art#oc#oc art#artists on tumblr#mad science#mad scientist#scientist oc#i don’t know what to tag this#seraph's simulacrums#wisteria is from my steampunk fantasy universe#she does morally dubious experiments in her illegal laboratory#i love her very dearly#i need to draw her more
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What are your headcanons about Marcille's mom if you have any? It's interesting that what drew Donato to her was cause she lived the history he studied, or that was said somewhere at least. She must've had an interesting life.
so this was going to be just a normal answer but then I realized I have a Lot of Things To Say. so here goes, a compilation of what we know for a fact from the canon, what I've extrapolated from the visual cues and details, and my theories based on all of that.
Things we know for a fact about Marcille's mother because they were explicitly stated in the manga and supplemental materials:
She was a court mage for a Tall-man kingdom at the southern part of the Northern Continent
Donato, a court historian, fell in love with her because she had lived through the history he was studying, and he courted her for 17 years (age 15 to 32) before getting married
She was a cheerful person who rarely showed extreme emotion and took things as they came
She always cooked a huge meal for Marcille on her birthdays
She remarried a gnome after Donato's death and a short distance away from Marcille's childhood home
Pipi, Marcille's pet bird, was actually older than Marcille and originally belonged to her mother (bird died at 62)
She was extremely heartbroken when Donato died and ultimately ended up instilling a deep fear of mortality in Marcille with her words
the only time she showed extreme emotion in front of her family was when Donato could no longer eat his favourite dish near the end of his life.
She scolded Marcille for being cruel to ants (implying she can have a stern side when needed)
Things that are explicitly shown but mostly through visual cues
She has a very distinctive style of dress always involving a ribbon choker (mirroring Marcille's habit of always wearing a matching choker with any of her outfits that don't cover her neck)
She was almost stereotypically good at housekeeping and traditionally "wifely" things (very frequently depicted wearing an apron or doing some domestic chore when not at work, seems to have been an avid cook).
She knits? (also, note the affectionate smile as she's looking at Donato and Marcille reading a book together in the full panel)
She was as excited for Marcille's milestones as Donato was.
She didn't tell Marcille much about elven food
(there are a couple things that this panel in particular implies:
She lived a good deal of her life (if not being born and raised) in a mainly elven country in the West, implied by her knowing enough of an elven region's cuisine to prefer Tall-man food over it
seems to have a pretty carefree and casual demeanour overall, if this is how she replied to Marcille asking her about it (sounds like she never gave her culinary preferences that much thought to begin with)
slightly related to number 2, it seems like she and Marcille had a fairly casual parent-child dynamic (especially in comparison to the Toudens' memory of their father)
(local elf tastes Italian food once and never goes back))
However, she seems a lot more... serious in most of the other times we see her? Almost like the very stereotypical archetype of a graceful elf.
Subsequent conclusions about her personality:
Usually pretty carefree and cheerful at home, has been a loving and attentive parent throughout Marcille's childhood (while not being so doting that she didn't discipline Marcille).
Slightly more conjectural theories on her personality:
Had a much more graceful and professional personality at work, which would explain the more serious portraits we see of her.
Given that both she and Donato had positions at the royal court, it seems a little odd that she'd go out of her way to do all the housework herself, so maybe she just enjoyed doing it?
Now taping all the evidence together and toeing the line between analysis and fanfiction:
It's clear that she loved Donato very much and was utterly devastated by losing him. But there's one thing that really stuck out to me in what little we see of her:
Doesn't she seem... angry? The way she's gritting her teeth, clutching the tablecloth, and how this is the first and only time we see her eyes opened that wide. In the following panel, you see her being quiet and dejected after her initial outburst. She's still crying very intensely, but her brows are furrowed, and she's not really responding to Donato's affection in her body language.
We're not told the details of how she felt about losing Donato other than that it upset her. But this, to me, implies that she was angry and resented that he was aging, that the end of his life was approaching. An "it's not fair" type of preemptive grief. And if this was the first and last time she cried like this in front of her family, she was either very good at coping in private... or very bad at letting herself feel unpleasant emotions until they become unavoidable and end up overwhelming her.
It's not too remarkable a detail on the surface. It's even reminiscent of what the audience has seen of Marcille. But... when it comes to the big picture, you'd think an elf who voluntarily chose to marry a tall-man and have a half-elf child would have been better prepared for this.
It kind of recontextualizes her cheerfulness to me.
"I'm sure everything's gonna be okay!" (or some variation thereof, depending on what translation you have).
And this is stated to contrast her extreme grief when finally confronting Donato's failing body and eventual death. But I'm wondering if... maybe this optimism was why she was so upset. What if she went into all of it thinking "everything's gonna be okay"? What if she was a little young by elven standards, and just followed her heart thinking that her own resilience would get her through anything?
Of course, only to get completely overwhelmed when she actually loses Donato. She turns into a completely different person. And that's heartbreaking on its own-- but what the audience sees is the effect it had on Marcille. Can you imagine being her, watching your invincible and upbeat mother suddenly lose all the light in her eyes in one go?
I've already made a huge post about how I think Marcille models her "work persona" off her mother, but another thing that stuck with me as I was looking for more details in the manga was this:
copy pasting from the other post i made about it lmao it's like... the second she resigns herself to lifelong pain and terror, there's another portrait of her mother facing her like this. with their heads bowed, in mirrored body language of resignation and despair and sorrow. Except it's posed like Marcille is still looking at her mother but her mother is looking away.
It took me a second to realize, but I think that it's a visual metaphor for the fact that Marcille's mother was the only long-lived role model she had-- and she failed to model healthy grief for her daughter. I don't say this as an accusation or to disparage her as a character, but just as a matter of fact. In her, Marcille was seeing herself older and losing a short-lived spouse or loved one of her own, and all she saw was hopelessness.
But her mother didn't mean to instill hopelessness and terror in her. She wasn't really thinking of how it would truly affect Marcille at all (at least, that's how I'm interpreting her looking down and away from Marcille in the metaphor), she was just sad. And she, in her own way, was trying to protect her daughter and help her prepare for future losses.
What she meant was "loss is inevitable, and you have to learn how to be in pain but live on anyway." What Marcille heard was "loss is inevitable, and you will be scared and hurt for the rest of your life."
Again. Marcille's mother doesn't feature explicitly in the story the way her father does -- but in so many ways, her shadow, her silhouette, her reflection is always hanging over Marcille.
All that to say... headcanon-wise (everything from here on is 100% without evidence lmao), I'd like to think that she matured and realized that she failed Marcille. I imagine her being regretful about it, wanting a chance to fix it but never finding a way to insert herself back into Marcille's life when Marcille is so so so busy becoming the most accomplished mage possible. I imagine her being herself again, now, so many years after her loss and after remarrying -- but with her cheerfulness tempered with a lot more wisdom and the pain of having gone through loss like that. I think the second Marcille actually tells her what happened in the dungeon, she'd want to go running to her daughter again -- if Marcille tells her the full truth instead of just being embarrassed she let things get that far. (oh, the tragedy of her wanting to be more like her mother and an accomplished adult who doesn't need to be babied... being embarrassed to actually tell her mother how much she fucked up...)
There's also the tension of her having remarried -- I know that there's at least a little bit of resentment that Marcille harbours about that, because she's childish like that at heart even if she makes an effort not to externalize it. I think that her mother would be aware of that, potentially adding to her sense of guilt and apprehension at trying to reappear/intrude on Marcille's life. I honestly don't think Marcille has met her stepfather -- or even considers him a stepfather rather than "mama's new husband" and kind of a total stranger. I think she and her mother actively don't talk about it in their correspondence, like an elephant in the room.
but, ultimately, I think her mother is on her side no matter what. Ancient magic? Dark necromancy? Sure, she'll feel guilty and like she was partially responsible for setting Marcille down such a painful path, but she wouldn't care. that's her daughter!! she would've moved back west and been petitioning for her at the court, buying a house right next to the Canaries barracks and visiting her every day that she wasn't on a mission. And if her husband had opinions on Marcille becoming a "dark arts user," he either gets over it or it's divorce with him. Yes, she might have had her optimism completely humbled by losing Donato like that -- but she's still headstrong and self-assured and she doesn't care what people think of her. It's her way or the highway and she's always going to be in Marcille's corner.
(She also needs a name lol. I went with Juno, just to be cute about "Marcille"s closest real life equivalent being Marcella, which is the female version of Marcellus, which in turn is a diminutive of Marcus, which was derived from Mars. Absolutely in love with Marcille potentially being named after Ares/Mars the fucking god of war btw)
#asks#she could easily be interpreted as distant or neglectful after Donato's death too#with how little involvement she has in Marcille's life/the fact that Marcille doesn't even mention her when talking about her life prospect#and that's fair! I will argue to hell and back that she was a loving parent when Donato was alive#but there's nothing that suggests she remained a loving parent afterwards#I just think that like... parental relationships are so complicated in dungeon meshi#you cannot deny that the toudens' mother loved them dearly but that she failed them both miserably as a parent#and i think it'd be more compelling if Marcille's mother was a little like that too#not a totally and easily dismissable deadbeat#but someone who truly loves her daughter but was only human herself and couldn't be what Marcille needed at a crucial moment#and regrets it deeply#and that the distance between them is mutually self-imposed by complicated feelings of guilt and fear#and a little resentment from Marcille's side that she hasn't really properly processed#I don't know if I'll ever get around to writing it but i had this idea where Marcille does finally spill the beans to her mom and she just#immediately arrives in Melini#and its awkward for a bit but they do finally have a heart to heart and air it all out#and marcille starts freaking out that her marriage is rocky rn bc her new husband wants her to distance herself from marcille#on account of the crimes and all#marcille's like no you can't blow up your marriage for me and her mother just shuts that shit down#'you didn't choose to be born. i was the one who made that choice for you'#'i brought you into this world and i'll be damned if i don't take responsibility for that the entire way'#'you are entitled to *nothing less* than my unconditional love.'#and obviously that's not a sentiment that's exactly healthy as a universal statement about parenthood#but i think its what her mother would believe and what marcille needs to hear#and dungeon meshi does such a fantastic job at just... letting imperfect things just *be* without having to justify it immediately#it expects the audience to do their own critical thinking#and know that its not trying to make sweeping universal statements in every instance#marcilleposting#marcille donato#junoposting
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fucking stupid gay people and their stupid found family
“in this moment you are loved”
i’m gonna sob
#dile#frin like freaked out over that#boy does he have a lot to work on#frin#poor frin#frin go to therapy#(odile just called them all family)#stars above i love all of them#he’s so cute#from calling her bonbon again :(#mira brushing their hair. and complimenting them on it T-T frin finally getting care and love#they’re so fucking cute and happy rn#if the game takes this away im gonna kill it#also i love how just casually accommodating and unquestioning of each others needs#like they’ll poke fun at him a bit but everyone knows frin doesn’t like to be touched and so just don’t#and they even tell bonnie so that she doesn’t#like that’s so lovely#when platonic and familial love all mix together it’s actually so wonderful#< i’m lucky enough to experience this myself! in the real world! with the lights of my life!!#shoutout to them hiiii besties#i know y’all’re getting the ping for this cause y’all’re mean and turned on notifs for me and keep perceiving me#< i love them so dearly. they’ve truly changed my life#my lights <3#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers
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From a design standpoint it makes perfect sense that half of the purple clothing in Kyoko's outfit is slightly darker and actively looks nice, but I reject this reality finding boots, a jacket, gloves, and socks in nearly the same purple is like shooting a fish in a barrel idk How she got that fucking lucky. In my world every single purple article of clothing she owns is a slightly different shade that matches questionably and it happens to drive one fashionably-conscious gambler absolutely insane
#text#i forget shes a character thats designed to me she buys any purpleish thing she sees color coordination does Not exist to her#didnt even think abt it till now u know those sprites i did. thats just. how i imagine it looks like#and celes loves her so dearly but. might need to have an intervention the first time they dress for an event#kyokos like 'what do u mean i cant wear this lilac shirt w royal purple pants and a violet jacket'#prob will not sleep until she starts slowly fixing kyokos wardrobe w many gifts#dr1#celestia ludenberg#kyoko kirigiri#celesgiri
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some gals!! (indiv under cut)
feferi was my favourite, her fins r just so fun to shape 38D
feel free to use as icons w proper credit! <>
#alien.art#homestuck#beta trolls#aradia megido#hs aradia#nepeta leijon#hs nepeta#kanaya maryam#hs kanaya#terezi pyrope#hs terezi#vriska serket#hs vriska#feferi peixes#hs feferi#bright colors#cw bright colors#bright colors cw#i dont know i have reasoning for all the things though#aradia has dirt on her shirt from excavations (also dyed hair because yolo does not apply); nepeta's hair tips are red from killing prey#kanaya's paler because Rainbow Drinker;terezi has skin damage from the sun™;vriska is just confused about everything for some reason;and FEF#FEFERI WAS MY FAVE#she got freckles blush shading all the works#I FORGOT THE THING ON HER CROWN#BUT#i like her#i love them all dearly#also kn is the only one w the c3<#just a note to myself for laterrrrr :v:
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Positives of my friend knowing I'm still obsessing over utmv: She supports! Sometimes sends fun tiktoks! Cute art!
Negatives of my friend knowing I still like utmv: Occasional questionable art of these skeletons shirtless Jumpscare
#I love her SO dearly#it's like a ritual between us#every once in a while she'll send me something that's technically sfw because It's a skeleton#but it Really does not look like it#and I die every single time it happens#(it's also 90% of the time Fell which jumpscares me even more)#I just opened out messages up and immediately closed them again because she sent me a lovely piece of anatomy practice#and it has great posing/lighting/expression#but by the gods it immediately flustered me#she teases me#but I do not recall if she thinks I self-ship (our usual brand of fandom enjoyment) or if she knows I mostly ship#them with eachother#SHIT#hang on she knows I have a lil pillow with Fell on it this- ohhhh#right. she bought me the Killer Dakimura... I'm a fool... of course it's targeted...#anyways I forbade her from following this blog so she shouldn't see but like I just thought this was really funny#sorry for being insane y'all#spotatalk
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a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊
#holocene.txt#hlcn: story extras#consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :)#i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me#it really does mean a lot#it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/#i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues#i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing#and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it#and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything#i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned#i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels#i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice#and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly#i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox
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Ok so they still can't find any signs of injuries, but she does have a fever. So they're putting her on some meds stuff to hopefully help with that, and if she's not better by next Thursday, we're gonna do some blood tests for her. They think she has a virus, Could be the same one that gave June her cold earlier this month, but a different manifestation of it. So here's hoping the meds help her!!! It's the same stuff that the emergency vet gave me, except this time double checked to ensure that I don't get empty capsules (bc for some reason the packets come with half of them empty??? Weird af). And also a fluids thing that will help her in the short run with hydration and fever. She's a grumpy kitty for being manhandled so much (as much as Tally can get grumpy) but as soon as we got home, she jumped up to eat some dry food, which I think is a good sign!!! God Willing, she can beat this virus and get her health back up to what it should be. I miss my little chaos demon.
#speculation nation#animal sickness ment/#my bank account is now several hundred dollars lighter. between this and the emergency vet visit 😔#worth it for her though. i'll gladly pay thousands if it'll save her life. i was prepared to possibly have to last Saturday.#(when i didnt know what it was and felt like it could maybe be smth she might need surgery for)#thankfully doesnt seem like itll be That much. though if she does need the blood work thatll be another $200 gone 😔#so. hoping that the meds work so i wont have to lol#ive already spent like $300+ 😭😭😭#but it rly is so concerning seeing her so lethargic and in pain. she just does not feel good.#and given how dramatically my last cats' healths dipped... for Sammy and Cassy. yeah i didnt wanna risk it ending up like that.#wanna be proactive to make sure that i keep her around for as long as possible. bc i love her so so dearly.#she went from about 9 pounds to about 8 pounds in the last month tho... it really is so concerning#the vet wasnt the Most concerned bc 8 is still a healthy weight for her. so as long as she doesnt lose even More she should be okay.#she feels so light though... 😭😭😭 it feels so wrong. like shes just a little scrap. my poor little baby...#i hope i wont have to bring her in to the vet for at least another year. for a normal checkup. not anything else like this.#i will just do my best to take care of her.
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perhaps. new headcanon dropped. that cori stops wearing the fortemps sigil earrings during the stormblood patches. and shtola notices this. and maybe has a little hope.
#but also she's probably like they took the earrings off and now hien is flirting with them akldjfsa#HOWEVER#cori is having inklings. thoughts. that how she feels about shtola MIGHT be different. than what she thought. (there's a fic)#but barely bc i love her dearly but she does not know what's going on.#anyway this is all due to me picking out an outfit for a gpose aldfjsdaf#and i didnt want shtola's dream girl (gn) to be wearing another man's house on her earrings.#HOWEVER. PART 2.#would be funny if cori was still wearing them but shtola just blocks them out in her mind#i need a text post tag
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Guess who just got back to find two sets of muddy little paw prints. Let's see... Clafairy feet and a size 5 women's outdoor boot.
#from lucky#when I get my hands on that girl I Swear#'oh i'm so lucky living with roommates that don't cause trouble at all!' AND THEN.#Glads is also guilty of this but at least he MAKES AN EFFORT TO HIDE IT.#YES I KNOW WE LIVE OUT BASICALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WOODS I DONT CARE WE HAVE A DOOR MAT. IT IS PAW SHAPED YOU SIMPLETONS#IT HAS A DAMN RAINBOW ON IT#I love my sister dearly and I support her pursuits as a pkmn professor 100% but that dOES NOT MEAN YOU TRACK MUD ONTO OUR CARPET#This is why I am constantly reminding her to take a little bag of essentials with her. so she does not have to keep running in and out of#the house for the stuff she needs#Clefairy is an innocent party#rotomblr#pkmn irl#pokeblogging
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salma and todo: i know what u are megumi…
#I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE#this chapter is so silly btw#another day another moment of salma getting her ass beat#i love her dearly but she sucks#anyway#she literally grew up with megumi as her little brother (by two months.) and so she knows his ass is queer#bi/pan solidarity frfr#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#sabé does words#megumi fushiguro#todo aoi#oc x canon#jjk ocs#jjk oc#jujutsu kaisen ocs#jujutsu kaisen oc#jjk oc x canon#salma gojo (oc)
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#Um she told me she's in love with me and if anything happens to know I'm hot and she wants me#And then went into a lot of detail just repeating over and over the things she wants / fantasies about me incoherently#Which I'm sure means nothing right#I know this is complicated for her she hates being attracted to me but it is hard to have her be like this is bad when she says she wants m#I don't know what to do#personal#tbdeleted#Triggering for me yikes#messy messy messy#Honestly think she is just grieving so its latching onto me as a woman she can love in a safe way#And I am glad I can be that I guess like obviously she needs that and I want to keep her safe#But I know I can't and she even said it#Like I know she will go home and then be gone forever#I think I am already grieving her in a way#And she has hurt many people I love dearly#Hurt them in deeply upsetting triggering ways that aren't okay and don't make me feel safe#She really lacks understanding of consent and that hurts people but I know she does want me and i think if I tried to stop her I could#I shouldn't be in situations where I am unsure of that though but at the same time it's like if something happens it happens#Idk how much of this is my own issues and thinking I'm not deserving of safe respectful sex and intimacy and my own guilt for everything#And how much of it is her own issues and guilt and grief#But I know I can be safe and loving for her#And I do know there is genuine love there no matter what other factors there are#Anyways sorry if you read all that I am giving you the biggest forehead kisses#I just think about how different it might have been if I had *** **** *** ** *** *** ****** ** *****#I thought I couldn't cope if I had but how can I cope that I didnt#I should have *** *** *** when I could have#This is unrelated but its all tangled up and it's just been bad trauma day already#If I had **** * ****** **** if I had *** *** if I had **** ***** or#Anyways **** ***** ****** **
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VALAENYA TARGARYEN daughter of destiny (asoiaf) // (VALA)ENYA DAYNE sword of the morning (asoiaf)
IOVANNA DAYNE mistress of mists (hotd) // UNA NATHAIRA ULLER mistress of misery (hotd)
ELAENAERA TARGARYEN the lady of luna (hotd) // LAENAERA VELARYON siren of the sea (hotd)
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#oc: valaenya targaryen#oc: iovanna dayne#oc: una nathaira uller#oc: elaenaera targaryen#oc: laenaera velaryon#there she is!!!!!! baelors beloved! vannas daughter in law <3 my sea girl at last! 🌊🐉#leg.ocs#leg.tagged#t: picrews#lae is bonded to a dreamy dragon by the name of salokaniir 🕊🕯#her and baelor they have such a cute meeting and relationship dynamic i love them dearly! DEARLY!!!!!#they’ve been friends since they were babies! they were seen playing together at the tourney at harrenhal!#she was his (willing-ish) accomplice when they snuck into rhaes wedding! (she didn’t want him getting in trouble and caught alone✨🥺 preshy!)#(yes that DOES MEAN she’s there when baelor calls daemon (his dad) a stupid man KAJZJXJX ✨😂#i think they always just.. knew? and it came as no surprise when it was announced <3#(theres also a period where they almost married different people and una almost was betrothed to baelor WHICH THEN aeggy finds out ->#and glares at his bestie baelor the whole supper alsjjxjx even in spite of it not working and he didn’t even know una then thats uh….his 😵💫#SO UHHH THE DRAGON BOOK DRAGON SHOW BRAINROT GOT WORSE AND I GOT (almost) THE ENTIRE ASOIAF SERIES 🤍🕊😵💫#and im veeery excited for enya and her pirate boy to meet <3#sylvenna her mommas did a stint in the small council and she was like ‘hmm he would be lovely for my daughter’#AND MOMMAS MUST BE A DRAGON DREAMER HERSELF BC.. ksjzjxjx 🕊🤍😵💫🥴 iconic of her! she knew!#her targaryen looks and her sword of the morning looks <3 thats iovannas descendant! she’s iconic!#SPEAKING OF!!!!!! it’s giving when valerion introduced her to daemy!!!!!! that first meeting! he was head over heels!#he’s so real for that <3 AND IN SPEAKING OF HEAD OVER HEELS I mean UNA??? IM LOSING IT? she turned out lovely in this! ahh!#aeggy didn’t but her that dress that isn’t giving what she would wear in the fic at his coronation 🐍💚😌 GAHH#woo ur (not)witchy girl by gifting her works of art she can wear 💚💚 that or this would be GREAT for her introduction at the trial <3#ella my moon girl ella my dear ella you mean the world to me!!!!!! 🕊🤍 my woman in white!
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How do I get my dog to piss in the middle of her pee pads and not on the edge/next to don’t seeps under the damn thing and makes a whole entire mess 😤
#I love her dearly but she annoys the shit out of me when she does this like girl I KNOW you know how to use the pee pad#you just choose not to for whatever reason!#I need to train her to go outside but my god it’s proven more difficult#idk how my grandpa trained our other two dogs but this one just will not cooperate#she knows to poop outside tho so at least we have that
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found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?
#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now#sigh.. i dont know. i dont know.#at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him#no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow?#it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my#best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker.#i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time.#but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh#he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him.#im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to#say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more?#just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am#and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him#and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him.#she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on.#she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken#but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him#and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not#like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him?#so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her#and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all#the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess#like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea.#but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.
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