#does it guarantee happy ending? noooo

[thewayuarent]

Clothes in Only Friends

And how it let us know everything we need about Ray’s choice

God, do I love costume department working on Only Friends. There is so, so many fun and interesting things to notice - “talking” t-shirts (especially Boston’s), and Sand with yellow, and how TopMew started as “striped” couple - but one is vertical and the other is horizontal (is it about them being misreading each other? or is it about them crossing each other’s lives? idk), how Boeing appeared and we immediately see TopMew vibes all over him. How we can easily indicate each character individual style.

But my favorite thing is how the series uses style shifting to show what’s going on with characters without telling it out loud.

We have Nick, who was so obsessed in his jealousy, that he started to copy man he knew Boston was interested in. We see him coming back in terms with Boston, but we also see him learning to accept himself again - the way his style got back to his usual one, with green and blue colors and more boyish vibes. He’s not the same, because his experience changed him, but he is who he is, not a shadow of someone else.

We have Mew, who adapted Ray’s style and behavior because he was hurt, and he chooses to numb his pain, and he gets to the only person he thinks can help him with that. He’s coming back to his senses by the end of episode nine, but he’s still very Ray-coded, because he still didn’t figure out who he is or what he wants and he’s in the middle of his journey (I’m so waiting to see how it will turn out).

And we have Ray, and his example is so fascinating. Because if you look at Ray’s choices of clothing in episodes 8 and 9, you can actually predict everything happens. (I will exclude scenes from university cause, well, uniform)

His style screams Sand most part of the time, but it’s absolutely not about him wanting to adapt Sand’s life or look. It’s about him choosing Sand since the very beginning of his and Mew situationship. Because while Ray needs his time to realize everything about him and Mew and him and Sand, we know he already subconsciously made his choice. As well as we know Ray and Mew will never work out way before they are ready to admit it.

The talk. There a lot of things were said out loud for the first time in this scene that are every important. But this is also about what was shown to us - that the first time we see Ray and Mew as a “couple” is also the first time Ray chooses to wear something Sand-coded. Specifically something very similar to what Sand picked for him.

And there is something about Ray saying “I’m so happy when I’m with you” (can he hear himself? no, but really, it’s been two weeks and I’m still like, bro, for real?) while he stays here, wearing this shirt that looks like the one he wears at the night they were happy, and the night their relationship was damaged hard.

The bookshop. Here we see Ray way closer to his usual style, but not exactly. Ray is always extravagant, and attention grabbing, and using patterns, and lip gloss, and he is just that kind of person. But here he’s quiet. And monochrome. No make up, not patterns, no usual brightness. Mew looks more like Ray than Ray himself.

And this is indicating why their relationship with Mew is wrong - Ray is not fully himself, he adapts in a way Mew never asked him, actually, but he knows makes his presence more tolerable. He seems like himself, sure, but he doesn’t feels like himself.

The party. I made a post about is already - it’s just great example of Mew and Ray thinking they are on the same page while they are actually not even from the same book.

It’s all about toxicity, and pain, and dragging each other down instead of helping each other to stand.

The fight. This is my absolute favorite one. Because this whole conversation - absolutely unhealthy and terrible it is - is actually both of them realizing they will never work out.

And they try so, so hard. And I believe it’s really frustrating for both of them to accept they failed. And of course instead of talking it out they blames each other, and hurt each other. And of course they will manage thing well later - but this is their breaking point, right here.

And of course Ray, who is attentive enough to recognize Mew’s feelings for Top has no fucking idea about him spending this whole time with Sand written all over him. While Yo knows, and Mew knows, and everyone including my grandma knows - he himself is just not ready to allow himself to admit it.

The river. So, this scene, as well as next one, Ray wears not just Sand-coded clothes, but actual Sand’s clothes. But there is a difference.

Because this is the scene where Ray finally admits his feelings - but he’s able to do it only after Sand admits his. Because Ray is incredibly insecure, and incredibly drowned in self-hatred, because Ray always reaches towards people who give him attention and love. Because he can’t allow himself to go for such risk without assurance.

And he’s sitting here with Sand, and Sand is in bright blue color, while Ray is in his t-shirt, but dark, and black, and with “You Only Live Once” and he’s admitting - to Sand and himself - his feelings, but he doesn’t admit to himself that he’s already made his choice until the very next scene.

The choice. And they are sitting again, and that’s only two of them again, and Ray wears Sand’s t-shirt again, and this is very different.

Because this is not just occasional t-shirt. This is the one we saw Sand wears. This is the one that was on him the very same day Ray made an attempt to move on from Mew. The very same day Ray said “I want to know you better”, the very same day he invited himself in Sand’s life. The day they were probably very happy, even if way far from well communicated, the day that could become an indication of something new for them.

And he wears this t-shirt when he says something cheesy about “I will handle everything while I have you” and “Let me be the part of your dream” - the very same dream Sand told him about the very same day.

And it’s just painfully obvious that there is nothing about Mew on the picture anymore. Sand told him “I won’t wait for you” and Ray was like “You don’t need to, I’m already here”. Oh they’ll fuck it up so hard, won’t they?

The comeback. And like that, Ray’s style is back. Because Ray’s clothes don’t tell us story about trying to be someone else, but a story about wanting someone else.

And when he and Mew have this beautiful adult healthy conversation that I love the most we know that Ray is already accepted his choice - the one that Yo knows, and Mew knows, and everyone in this world actually kind of knows. And this is how we know that this painful arc of Ray and Mew being toxic disaster is finally over even before they say anything out loud. Just because Ray wears his style again.

[kusundei]

genuinelywhy does the worst shit have to happen to me when im already tweaking

like no i knew. i knew the conversation from yesterday w ellis wasnt enough. knew in my heart yet i ignored jt and chose to be happy. joyous because gof forbid all i know is doom and gloom. its just.? why? whyyyy is this still a problem?

i dont even care. i dont know why i keep bothering over and over again i know ill have to fold eventually im fighting a losing battle. “i need you to be honest with me” and then you lash me and use it against me when you get the honest truth. i. dont. want. to. go. on. birth. control. period

like? how hard is that? to understand? you bring up the shit i said ab the abortion like sorry??? what happened to my body my choice?,??? and god forbid she starts fucking implanting it into me herself because no im still jer kid. live under this roof she will make every decision. its fine i dont care at this point i dont know why im still fighting. i cant take the easy way out anymore its just sofrustrating? i feel fucking awful. again. god forbid i told her the reason i sont wanna go on birth control is mostly a mental health thing and she lashes me about how im not okay then. “everyone is depressed you think you have it any harder than the rest of us?” like did i fucking say that? itolf you i dont take medication anymore (cause of you) and also just because im choosing to deal with it naturally ajd i get lashed for even getting affected by things. like its just. why. did we.? have to talk about that? and you keep patronizing me over and over and over again and how i never do anythging right . god forbid i wish you could focus for once in your life oncthe smaller things because i am. trying. ive always tried. you just dont notice when its at par to your demand and also when i go back. i get lashed

its just heaaarring you complain ab the showering again is so. ugh. like. i told you i dont have an answer. its a habit? i suppose? but noooo. “ive told you this over and over. i dont want to hear the excuse of ‘its a habit’ because if you wanted to change you would’ve already” like are you hearing yourself??? do you want to apply that to yourself? jonathan maybe? but no im kind. theyre taking the door agajn i suppose and i dont fucking care jts fine. she knew i was getting upset because she started mocking me. i hate when people do that. when people act like im sofucking dumb. and she knows it and does it to get under my skin because she knows how easily she can and i wont ever do anythjnf about it. i just .? imso? upset? i guess? im upset but im also not. imjust so.? tired?

tired of fighting overr and over again. tired of this but maybe its what i get??? i am selfish. she has told me this shit over and over and i dont really change. i do but not enough i guess its just. i cant win. im stuck in that cycle and im trying sooo hard to not acknowledge it. but no it really will haunt me i suppose? stuck and bound to this life? bound to repeat the cycle of hurting over and over again??? i think im so weird right now because i feel so torn. i wanna be sad and i want to cry and be frustrated because i feel it but i also dont want to. or at least i cant? ill always give you the benefit of the doubt. maybe i am just frustrating. no because what you said??? “you wonder why im upset all the time? think about how i feel about you” and its just. ugh. i cant even try to back mtself up because i do feel bad. i feel bad but im also upset and i hate it because i feel so dumb to feel anything at all. im trying not to upset you and ive done it for so long i try to be small i try to not take up space i try to be understanding and helpful but it is. never. ever. enough. and mayhe its just me truly not trying

just. god. i cant. if i end up truly on birth control who cares at this point. theres no guarantee ill get worse but at this point i think ab it and maybe i aalllreaddyy am. but maybe thats the lack of sleep doomed evil sam talking. its weird because honestly the one main fear i have w the birth control is weight gain and that says enough does it not.? i cant eat. havent eaten. tried to eat earlier cuz sav was lashing me and i ate that one??? slice of pizza and i felt so sick after and i still do. not eating well. my pants today kept slipping and iiii know why. last time i checked i hit 141 i think and i dont think id be shocked if ive hit the 130s now. its concerning but also maybe im enabling myself a tad. its fine im not ill i just. am acting like it. but im not

iiii. just wanna talk to ajax maybe. reminds me of last night when i was so tired and delirious and just rambling but i sidnt feel bad because that wasnt affecting me in the moment. i dontknow if i can truly just tell him something like this while its happening because i cant shake that awful feeling ? im tryinggg but its hard. theyre taking the door off the hinge as i type and immm just getting more. evil. but i wont cry i wont show it im fine. tweakish but ill live. i do it to myself anyway the only person who can save me is me ^_^ but even thats hard

if its meant to be then it will be chat. if god so chooses to make me this way then maybe jts bound to happen. maybe hes lashing me because ive been evil lately or something. ive been happier but also all my tweaks have been worse than theyve been in a while and amybe thags what jt is. repenting cause im happy too much. hell even my mom acknowledges it all the time when im happy. wont ever stop being patronized. i just feel. doomed. again. i feel bad but i cant explain which way i do. just bad. heavy. evil. but ill liveee i always do. ill try and sleep a little earlier tonight since i know im probably tweaking as bad as i am because of the lack of sleep as always. but imfine ill. lock in a bit and text him maybe. or i wont and ill repent a little more and then get my phone taken away bht ill try to see the light and live. just have everything playing in my head overand over and over. its allll just so much but its fine illcope i alllwaaays do

[aazel-art]

I frequently see the popular take that Stede is completely blindsided by his romantic feelings for Ed until the kiss/Mary convo.

Although I enjoy the comedic affect of this, the reason it funny is because the idea of Stede's v romantic actions being completely subconscious is absolutely outrageous. To me, his revelation was more subtle.

I love Stede because I see in him, an older queer man who hasn't had a chance to have any past 'dalliances' and no experience recognizing the difference between like liking someone, and being in love.

Babe, I've been there. That's hard as fuck to recognize in yourself let alone accept from another person when your only exposure is ever second hand.

Coupled with Stede's self esteem struggles?

There are too many key moments where Stede is confronted by the fact to let it slide. From not contradicting Lucius' comment about the 'break up' to basically having the "We haven't had the 'past partners' talk yet" confrontation with Calico Jack.

In my opinion, Stede knew full well that he and Ed were in a romantic relationship.

Stede knows he has feelings for Ed. He knows Ed has feelings for him. He just doesn't know both of them are experiencing love.

It's okay for Stede to have his little harmless "crush" on Ed, because there's no way that it can last, right? He's repeatedly told that Ed's interest in him is incomprehensible. And Stede feels this. He thinks that eventually when Ed's bored of him, he'll move on. ( After all, he himself said he wasn't built for sitting idle- What happens when another Calico Jack pops up in their lives? There's no guarantee that he'll come back next time.)

"I'll let him set the pace. I'll take what he's willing to give and ask for nothing more- just enjoy this as long as I'm allowed to have it"

Stede fully expected Ed's interest would eventually run out and he'd be forced to let his little crush go.

Then Ed kisses him.

You know what Ed doesn't do? Explain what the heck that meant for him.

Because really, what does 'makes Ed happy' mean- what does a kiss mean? And more importantly, what does a kiss mean to the more experienced legendary Blackbeard? This is not the explicit clear declaration of love that we, the audience, know it is. Stede is simply too close to the situation to see it for what it really is.

Stede is visibly PROCESSING.

Ed asks him to run off with him.

And that's gotta be terrifying.

Cause of course it is! Throwing both their lives away on a gamble of a crush- that's insane. And how could he let Ed's legacy tumble for little old him?? Isn't this just another way that Stede is ruining him?

But Stede is remembering Mary's words,  'All we have is this one life...' So he says yeah, I think so, mmhm.

It's the most Stede's ever felt for someone before. And maybe Ed doesn't like Stede as much as Stede likes him, but he hasn't gotten bored of him yet. So yes, we have to try don't we?

Fast forward to the end of episode 10. Now we're finally here, the revelation with Mary.

You can see Stede's heart SWELL in that conversation. As my dear friend put it best: He's like a flower opening up.

And yeah, realizing you love someone is quite amazing.

But you know what's even better?

Realizing that someone loves you back.

That montage- it goes BOTH ways. Stede is not only seeing all the ways he loves Ed. He's seeing all the ways his feelings are reciprocated.

Oh. It's love. I love him.

A beat.

Oh. He loves me too.

And now he realizes what Ed was sacrificing his pirate persona for.

And heck.

Yeah, you do risk it all for love. You chase after it all for love. You gain everything for love.

End of season 1 Confident Stede isn't just because he realized he loved Ed. That's a man who knows he's loved in return.

Season 2, i'm begging you, give it to me-

Ed: i hate u, go away.

Stede: pft noooo shuddup, u love me

Ed: LIES

Stede: NUH UH, U LOVE ME, NOW GET BACK HERE AND APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT YOU DID TO MY CREW.

I want them both to be in love and furious.

[incorrectquotesconaisseur]

SO GUYSSSS I JUST FINISHED READING RULE OF WOLVES AND WHAT THE HELL???? I am a MESS

(so here are my thoughts that I had while reading it)

❗❗RULE OF WOLVES SPOILERS❗❗

• Lol Nikolai has a horse named Punchline, I love him so much

• Sankta Zoya Y E S

• Nina is sooo badass I love her - Brum needs to die btw

• Fjerda is a little shit

• "If not for Nina, their blessed termite eating at the heart of Fjerda’s government" - did I mention I love Nina?????

• Nikolai is a freaking mastermind and I love him

• OMG THEY HAVE AN ANTIDOTE FOR PAREM NOW???? HELL YEAH take THAT Fjerda!!!!

• Nina adopting Kaz's mindset when back at the Ice Court is what I live for

• UGH THE APPARAT

• Nikolai is soooo in love with Zoya I AM GOING CRAZY

• Zoya's "you forget that in Kerch greed is a virtue" gave me MAJOR Kaz vibes... I miss my crow babies

• Maybe it's an unpopular opinion, but I don't really like Ehri

• ZOYALAI NATION, HOW ARE WE??? ARE WE CRYING?

• I just REALLY love the found family trope and seeing everyone gathered in Zoya's rooms and Zoya curled up on the couch next to Genya I just AAAAAAAAA

• I absolutely adore the whole concept of the Darkling's prison and the CONSTANT sunlight he has to face HA - Alina vibes

• OMG "bring me Alina Starkov" WHAT THE FUCK I have literal chills ESPECIALLY after seeing the S&B trailer:)

• Nina being so confident in everything she learned from the Crows gives me so much serotonin I WANT MY BABIESSS

• Oh my god... I like prince Rasmus, he gives me major Nikolai vibes

• I draw immense satisfaction from Kaz and Zoya using "podge" as their preferred curse word :))))

• NIKOLAI CAN SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM HIS DEMON???? King behavior

• HOLY SHIT ALINA AGREED TO THE MEETING here we go again, fam

• I'm seeing Nikolai talking a lot about accepting his death and being undisturbed by the prospect of it and it feeaks me out - if he dies, I die with him

• Random, but: they need to get the thorn stuff from the Order of Sankt Feliks or whatever, right??? Maybe they have to steal it... and they would require expertise... MAYBE SOME CROWS PLS???????? (I am such a clown)

• Okay wait... so the letters that prove Nikolai is a bastard are in the druskelle sector... PLEASE TELL ME NINA HAS TO BREAK IN THE ICE COURT the fact that she is back there ALONE makes my heart clench so hard... I MISS MY CROWS

• FUCK ALINA SHOWED UP (also Oncat apparently and now I want to cry about Harshaw again)... AND MAL I can't take this I AM HYPERVENTILATING

• I AM LEGIT ON THE FLOOR Yuri is still there FINALLY understanding that the Darkling is evil AND NOW MY MAIN MAN GOT HIS POWERS BACK oh, I love the chaos

• NIKOLAI FUCKING CARRIES ZOYA'S RIBBON IN HIS POCKET nobody fucking touch me

• THE WEDDING IS FOR GENYA AND DAVID????? I AM SOOO CONFUSED what the heck

• Nikoali is the most fucking badass amazing cunning freakishly intelligent idiot I have ever seen in my entire life, my love for him is immesurable, I cannot put into words just how awesome his awesomeness is TAKE THAT MAKHI YOU BITCH

• OH HELL NO the demon is trying to escape SMACK THAT BITCH NIKOLAI BABY

• Oh wow, Rasmus is crazyyyy af he isn't anything like Nikolai my perfect boi SORRY

• OMG Nikolai's dad us a good guy??? I feel so sorry for him... SO NIKOLAI WAS RIGHT TO BE A ROMANTIC huh

• FUCKING HELL again with the nichevo’ya???? Darkling bby, what the HECK

• Nononononooo NO NOOOO NOT DAVID WHAT THE FUCK LEIGH

• "This is what love does" one of the most powerful quotes tbh

• Wait... they want to???? STEAL??? titanium from the Kerch??? .... DOES THIS MEAN.... C R O W S?????

• Okay but... the Darkling's POV? POWER MOVE I love it!!! And the fact that he uses Aleksander as his name with zero reticence now is just *chef's kiss*

• I'm sorry but... I don't like Mayu's chapters I AM SO SORRY I DON'T

• Nina is my badass queen STEP ASIDE PEASANTS

• All these SoC Easter Eggs and mentions are driving me insane

• Idk why but imagining the Darkling drinking beer is sooo funny to me

• I AM LOSING MY SHIT they are in Ketterdam KETTERDAM does that mean ....DOES THAT MEAN ....I better see my Crows or I am throwing hands

• The Zoyalai conversations in this book are KILLING me

• OH MY FUCKING GOD so Kaz took the Emerald Palace over and renamed it THE SILVER SIX???? LIKE???? I AM LEGIT CRYING???

• Ummm...Zoya, honey, WHY do you want to VOLUNTARILY stay away from Nikolai, HUH?????

• THE ONLY REASON HE AGREED TO HELP NIKOLAI WAS BECAUSE HE GUARANTEES INEJ'S PROTECTION if that's not L O V E idk what is YAAASSS KANEJ

• FUCKING SHIT JESPER!!!! IT'S JESPER!!!! WYLAN!!!! I AM FAINTING MY BABIESS

• The Crows' banter is WHAT I LIVE FOR

• Kaz is the most cold, badass and calculating motherfucker on the planet, I love him soooo much

• No NO NOO JORAN IS THE ONE WHO KILLED MATTHIAS????? HOLY SHIT I am sooo scared LEIGH WHYYYY

• Kaz's reaction to Nikolai's demon is legit the funniest shit ever

• Kaz and Nikolai are bffs - THIS IS HEADCANON LEAVE ME BE

• Queen Leyti has severely disappointed me

• I am having waayyyyy too much fun reading about the Darkling among blindly faithful monks - this is the stuff of sitcoms

• (I know the Crows only had a cameo and they won't pop up again, but I can't help desperation wanting to see Nina reunite with them and PLEASE GIVE ME INEJ!!!)

• Honestly, it's pretty cool getting to have a look in the Darkling's head - it's SUPER fucked up

• OOOOO the blight vs the Darkling = the only confrontation I want to see

• FATHER AND SON REUNION

• I don't care much for Hanne x Nina, but I have to admit that they make a very cute couple

• FUCK THEY BROKE STURMHOND'S BLOCADE FUUUUCK

• WAIT NO it was their plan all along HOLY SHIT electricity RULEZZZZ who knew physics would prove THIS useful???

• UUUGHH FUCK THE APPARAT I am so sick of this guy - Zoya was right, they should have killed him

• I am really pissed at the Darkling- YOU FUCKING ACKNOWLEDGE HOW MUCH RAVKA NEEDS YOUR HELP, YOU SEE NIKOLAI'S BRAVERY, YOU KNOW YOU CAM HELP, AND YOU DO NOTHING??? BRO WHAT THE FUCK

• HELL YEAH ZOYA IS A DRAGOOON fuck some shit up sweety Y E S

• MY SKIN IS CLEARED AND MY CROPS ARE WATERED BY THE DARKLING RAISING A MOB TO CALL ZOYA "SANKTA"

• Also... the Darkling winking at Nikolai? FLERT

• WHAT THE FUCK???? HANNE DIED??? holy shit, why???? WHY CAN'T NINA BE HAPPY???????

• Nikolai is an absolute SAVAGE in a debate

• Idk what to think abt Rasmus... he was kinda badass for standing up against Brum

• SOLDIER. SUMMONER. SAINT. slap me and call me a hoe I SCREAMED WHEN I READ THAT

• ZOYA AS QUEEN, SIGN ME THE FUCK UP

• Okay I stan the Darkling again

• ZOYALAI IS CANON I REPEAT ZOYALAI IS CANONNNNN

• OKAY WOW HANNE IS A FULL-ON BADASS yep, I stan

• I really???? LOVE??? this ending for the Darkling??? Idk but it is VERY fitting

• ALINA!!!! AT ZOYA'S!!!! CORONATION!!!! my life is complete

• FUCKING SHIT INEJ!!! INEEEEEJJJJ my queen my love AAAAAA

• The conversation at the end between Alina, Zoya and Genya DESTROYED ME

• STEALING THE HEART OF SANKT FELIKS yes please BRING THE CROWS BACK!!!!! I NEED ANOTHER CROWS SEQUEL!!!!

• I fainted, I ascended, I DIED at the last page

• NOW I NEED A SEQUEL!!!

• Leigh, you ARE goig to write what happens next, right? RIGHT? RIGHT????

[semperama]

DTS Season 4, Ep 2

Live-blogging under the cut again. Mama, I'm scared.

We didn't even make it to the title card and I already want to bail out. This is gonna be rough.

I'll take Cyril and Christian and Zak all hyping Daniel up. I'll take it.

"By the end of this season, I do predict an array of podiums." LORD, I'M GONNA FUCKIN DIE.

Well, I guess now that [redacted] has had a speaking role in DTS, I can't complain about how inescapable he is.

Will saying that signing a race winning driver doesn't necessarily guarantee success and then cutting to a shot of Seb.....ouch.

Literally the only way I'm going to make it through this without going back to hating Lando is by reminding myself it's an understandable reaction to losing his boyfriend.

I feel like you can tell even P6 and outqualifying Lando isn't good enough for Daniel. Like yeah, maybe it's stating the obvious and probably true of every driver, but I don't he's really ever truly happy unless he's P1.

The lingering shot of Daniel's plate of carrots and hummus. Let the man eat, for fuck's sake.

"It's impossible to judge a new driver on the first race." Again, thank you, Will, for providing absolutely nothing of value.

"He's a lot better than that." We know, Christian. We know. D:

Daniel asking what the fine is for not doing media is truly like a kick in the gut. And his poor sad little face. "What if I'm just a cunt." I'm literally going to sob. This is awful. Awful.

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO WATCH MONACO, FUCK.

The juxtaposition between how well Charles and Carlos are getting along versus how Lando and Daniel were getting along.....I'm again trying not to read this as a flaw in Lando's character, but. It's difficult tbh.

Noooo, don't show footage of 2018, my heart can't take it.

I don't think I can ever be on the Daniel Return to Red Bull train, just because I really don't think he wants to be a number 2 driver, but I can see the appeal.

"I don't think any driver would feel sympathy for another driver." Well, Lando, we know THAT'S not true, since plenty of other drivers DID express sympathy, but whatever. Also most people learn you don't have to just say everything that crosses your mind, whether it's true or not, but WHATEVER. *deep breath*

Oh good, a time-out from being heartbroken for Daniel to feel heartbroken for Charles. D:

I just want to understand. Like, when Daniel says he's struggling on the radio, what does that even mean? Is it the setup of the car? This is one time I was DTS was less about drama and more about details, because WHY. I still want to understand whyyyyy.

I'm so distraught. That was difficult to watch.

[stonerbughead]

Maria watches friday night lights (#17)

wow 4x06 was such a rollercoaster ride! Here we go:

Okay this Matt and Julie scene with the two of them making out in the car demonstrates so much about why I love them —tho I’ve surmised there will be more trouble ahead before they get their happy ending. Julie remembers she has something to tell him; they banter about her being pregnant with twin aliens; and then she tells him she’d been meaning to surprise him with tickets to a music festival in Austin before his dad’s untimely death but is totally cool with not going if he doesn’t want to??? It’s like ugh these two are so cute and care so deeply for each other my heart 🥰😭 “The chapter said that when your dad dies, you should probably most likely go to a music festival.”

the rest of my flailing under the cut:

Omgggg that assistant coach who annoyed me earlier in the season is back with a vengeance making wild claims they can’t hold up ON CAMERA I am Eric Taylor in this scene

Damn I’ve always loved Tim and Lyla — I mean especially in season 3 and OOOOOH boy this reunion banter and make out sesh into Tim’s trailer had me fanning myself! super predictable when Lyla comes to see Tim at his TRAILER on “midterm break” but no less hot!

Oh shit Matt and his grandma got $$$ from the military? He gotta go to art school now, bish!

“I don’t understand why people keep asking me why I’m okay, I’m fine.” Honestly my partner started getting annoyed by people in this way after his dad died too, grief is WEIRD and hard!

I love watching a teen show where just taking off for a music festival for two days with her long term boyfriend is the big scandal.

Omg Landry you’re still talking about Tyra to Jess?! Stop doing this, bro! Lol Jess slaps him in the face right after I typed that. nice.

Lyla and Tim’s chemistry is still off the charts!!!!

Yeeeeesh that Becky and Lyla introduction was pretty yikes

Lol I love the assistant coach being tight-lipped with the reporters now re: the lions’ “guaranteed win.” did Eric chew him out lol

More in This Is That Shit I Like: Matt and Julie eating sandwiches on their car roof on the side of the road talking about how romantic it is! “Good sandwiches I put my heart and soul into.” Cutiessss but also sings to Saracen: ~you must deal with your grief, babe~

Jess’s relationship with Vince intrigues me. And I love the introduction of Jess’s dad’s bbq joint as another watering hole in East Dillon.

Becky, yikes, don’t go off on Luke, he was being so cute and respectful! Also he is much more age-appropriate than Tim and you are letting out your anger about your unrequited Riggins feelings on poor Luke!!! (Forreal am I supposed to like Becky? I have mixed feelings.)

baby Grace yelling “uh oh” as Tami leaves an angry voicemail for Julie lol

“Show them your ring, Tim.” Wow okay never change Billy Riggins (jk you should def change a lot of things)

“I think she asked me what it was like being pregnant.” Yes go off, Mindy, and Billy, don’t speak for your wife!! Lol Lyla’s gonna ride the bull? I love that Lyla and Mindy eventually got along.

awww Tim is so still in love with her, my heart! “You missed me.” “You had no idea.” Swoon

Omg this Becky and Lyla convo broke my heart and was super uncomfortable. Becky legit said, “You’re so lucky. You’re super pretty.” What does one say to that? Silently walking away with an awkward smile is all I could manage too, Lyla 🙈🤦🏻‍♀️

Are the panthers making fun of East Dillon players for watching game tape in Sears? Their blatant classism is gross, Oh wow, assistant coach finally steps up, nice! also obligatory fuck JD McCoy

Back to back Matt and Julie dancing in their hotel room and Tim and Lyla bedroom scene “thanks for coming back” “you’re welcome” my heart (you know the angst is coming but I love the soft moments we get first)

Awww vince’s mom wants to come to the game clean 🥺

Tami being unable to think about anything but Julie and not knowing where she is makes so much sense!! (oldest child vibe is reallll here) but damn she’ll have a rough transition if Julie goes away to school

Oh no Tim thinks Lyla will stay in Dillon baby noooo

“I know but I hate it, i don’t want her to go.” Oh Tami it’s so hard 🥺

WOW did not realize Matt didn’t know Julie wasn’t allowed to go to Austin until Landry called. It’s really cute that the reason saracen’s upset is bc he wants Eric and Tami to like him and that was not cool of Julie, at least let him decide if he wants to break the rules too!

Aw fuck there it is, what’s been bubbling under the surface all season: “the responsibility of having to stay in Dillon.”

Omg Vince’s mom actually showed up!!!

Oh whaatttttt they’re all sad they lost? Don’t be, babes! This is a sick underdog moment, y’all put up a fight against a team you thought was gonna slaughter you!!!

Gotta love the early 2000s indie band appearance concert trope!!! although yikes this fight, Julie desperately screaming “I love you” as the band plays!

Tim with the forehead kiss for Lyla at the bus stop fuck me up

Ohhh the thematic “stay” theme for both Tim/Lyla and Matt/Julie is just so *chef’s kiss* this show is a gift

“It was nice just to get away with you.” “I love you Julie.” “I love you Mattie.” Feels like a goodbye, man. Like they both know it’s not working right now by circumstance even tho they love each other 😭🥺

Julie breaking the fuck down when she gets inside yepppp! “I think he’s leaving” ME TOO 😭

Tami immediately putting her head on Julie’s shoulder is that good mom shit even tho she’s def gonna ground Julie’s ass later lol

“Do you have a broken heart?” “Was she the love of your life?” Why does Becky talk like the cringey Riverdale writers. I hope people won’t throw things at me but Becky annoys me and her soulmate speech is a stretch

“Becky.” “Yeah?” “Shut up. Please.” Lmao same tim 😂

Oh shit Matt issss leaving damnnnn! Dramatic Trauma Rama! feat pretty footage of matt driving away

BRING ON THE ANGST

[dakotacrisis]

Deal’s End (9)

Two steps forward and one step back cause Marinette and Felix are disasters.

(Read on AO3)

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More and more days went by and each day Marinette found another excuse not to ask Felix what she wanted to. More and more Adrien came closer to Marinette’s side. More and more Marinette and Felix spent laughing together, dancing around what they knew needed said. More and more Marinette could see the end in sight.

One day at school Adrien invited Marinette and Felix out to lunch to make up for the one that Felix missed before. Felix lied about having prior plans and told Marinette and Adrien to go on without him. Marinette knew what he was doing but it didn’t stop her from wishing he would actually join them for lunch.

They headed out together and spent the afternoon in pleasant conversation. “I can’t wait for summer vacation.” Adrien said. “I’ve been working with Nathalie to rework my schedule so I can actually have some time off.”

“It will be nice to have a break from school.” Marinette sighed dreamily thinking of all the time she could spend on other projects or with her friends during the break.

“All I’m hoping for is to spend time with my friends.” Adrien gave her a soft look, “Especially with you. I feel like we’ve gotten to be a lot closer as friends recently and it makes me really happy.”

“It makes me happy too.” Marinette said, “Before I was always so nervous around you that I could barely string a sentence together.” “I had noticed.” Adrien chuckled, “Why was that? We’ve known each other for two years now and I never understood why you always ducked away when I tried talking to you.”

“Well...that is…” Marinette poked her food around her plate. “I don’t wanna say.”

“Why not? Is it embarrassing?” Adrien asked.

“Kinda. I mean not really I suppose but I don’t know how you’d react and that’s primarily the reason why I’m hesitant to admit it.”

“If you’re not comfortable telling me that’s okay.” Adrien assured her. He laid a hand overtop of hers. “I hope one day you can and we can look back at this and laugh. I don’t want you to ever feel like I’d judge you or want to stop hanging out with you. No matter what your reasons are.”

“Thanks, Adrien, you don’t understand how much I needed to hear that.” One day down the line she’d tell him but for now she was content to sit and enjoy the rest of their lunch. They started the walk back to class hand in hand. Not that she thought much of it and she doubted Adrien read more into either. She held hands with her friends all the time.

“Oh, I almost forgot to tell you.” Adrien said, “Father picked out the photos that are going to go up for advertising. He really liked the whole sky and sun theme that Giuseppe did with the three of us.”

“I can’t believe I let you two talk me into that.” Marinette rolled her eyes, “And your dad was okay with me being in them? I mean I know I am rather pretty but I also know I’m not a professional model like you are.”

“You give yourself too little credit. I looked at the shots he picked and you look great!” Adrien blushed, “I also saw some of the shots that you and Felix took after I left. There’s one where he picked you up that father was really impressed with.” Adrien pulled out his phone and showed her a copy of the photo he was talking about.

Marinette knew what the moment was. It was when she called Felix her friend and he got excited and lifted her in the air. Even in a photo she could see the joy radiating off his face as he gazed up at her. Marinette’s own eyes were closed and she was holding tightly to Felix as she spun. It was a pocket of pure happiness captured on camera.

“You and Felix have also become really good friends.” Adrien put his phone away. “I have to admit, it kinda looked like you didn’t like him when he first came to school.”

“Oh yeah,” Marinette shrugged, “He rubbed me the wrong way at first but we hung out more and while he can still annoy me to bits I’ve gotten used to him. He’s sort of an acquired taste you can say.”

“Well, I hope during the summer we can all hang out together. He seems cool.”

“He’s alright.” Marinette smiled.

Felix didn’t ask for details on how the lunch went beyond if it went well. Had he not been spying on them? Most of the time he loved nothing more than to silently watch from the sidelines. On more than one occasion he would insert himself invisibly to Adrien and try to distract her. This was the first time she could remember going out with Adrien and not seeing or hearing from Felix at all.

The rest of class Marinette kept catching Adrien glancing back at her. Alya nudged her when she noticed. “Adrien keeps looking at you.”

“Really? I hadn’t noticed.” Marinette scoffed. “We had a nice lunch. That’s it. I don’t know why he’s being weird.”

“Oh my god, girl, how can you be so smart yet so dense?” Alya groaned. “He’s not being weird, he’s checking you out, albeit in a shy schoolboy kinda way.”

“No he’s not...is he?”

“Next time he looks wink at him.” Almost on cue Adrien glanced back at her again. Marinette swallowed her nerves and winked at him. His face immediately flushed crimson and he almost stumbled out of his chair turning around again.

“Girl,” Alya whispered excitedly, “Did you see his reaction? I think your little crush may have a crush on you.”

“Noooo…” Marinette fought the coy smile that crept on her face, “You think?”

“Watch this.” Alya looked as devious as Felix did when he was plotting. “Also, I am sorry in advance.”

“For what?”

“For this.” Alya raised her voice, “Yeah, Marinette, I can help you go bikini shopping!”

BANG!

“Ow!” Adrien cradled his knee. “Sorry, ignore me. Hit the table.” Adrien hid his face behind his textbook.

“Alya!” Marinette stressed through clenched teeth. “What is wrong with you?”

“He definitely likes you. He may not be entirely aware of it right now but I can guarantee he is picturing you in a teeny weeny bikini right now and it is making it very hard for him to pay attention to the lesson.” Alya leaned closer, “Bet you money that’s not the only thing that’s hard for him right now.”

“Oh my god you’re worse than Felix.” Marinette laid her head down on the table. Classes finally ended and Marinette started packing up her materials.

“Um, Marinette?” Adrien approached her. He wasn’t looking directly at her and she had noticed that his blush from earlier had yet to fully clear. “I wanted to say sorry if I was distracting you during class. I don’t know what was going on with me.”

Marinette glanced over at Alya who gave her an encouraging wave before scampering out the door. It was just the two of them in the classroom now. “It’s okay. How’s your knee?”

“My knee?” His face flamed up again. “Oh right, yeah, it um--it’s fine! Totally fine!” He rubbed the back of his neck. “I don’t know what you’re doing tomorrow but I was hoping we could hang out. Is that okay?”

“Sure. That sounds like fun.” Adrien was asking her out! Not anyone else! Just her!

“Cool. Uh...I can’t be out too long but I thought maybe we could go to the park, take a walk. Is that lame?”

“No. I love walking.” I. Love. Walking. Why was she likes this?

“Great. It’s a date.” Adrien smacked himself, “I mean, not a date. Not like a romantic date. A date between friends. A friend date.”

“Alright.” Marinette was trying not to laugh, “See you tomorrow for our friend date then.” Marinette started to leave. She was at the door when she decided to do something either incredibly brave or insanely dumb.

“Adrien?” She looked back at him. “You know that thing I mentioned at lunch? What I was too embarrassed to say?”

“Yeah?”

“I was super nervous before because I had a crush on you.” She told him. He opened his mouth as if to say something but nothing came out. “Hope that’s not weird.”

She left him gaping like a fish in the classroom and skipped out into the hall. Felix was waiting outside the door for her. “Oh hi,” Marinette pulled him along with a giddy smile. “I told Adrien about my crush on him! I can’t believe I did that!”

“Certainly surprised me.” Felix smiled but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. “Congratulations, love, soon enough you won’t even need me.”

“Please, I would have never been able to say any of that without you encouraging me and boosting my confidence while talking to him.” Marinette couldn’t contain her excitement. “Also, I think Alya might be right. Maybe Adrien does have a crush on me.”

“Crush or not you’re stuck with me until you upgrade to girlfriend.” Felix messed her hair. “Now bring me my wingman payment of eclairs!”

“Five years of my life and eclairs. You demons are so greedy.” Marinette laughed. They went in through the bakery and grabbed their snacks that her parents had already prepared special. They had grown quite used to Felix popping in with Marinette all the time. Felix had even taken Marinette’s advice to come up to the door in the mornings so he could eat breakfast with them instead of Marinette sneaking him food after.

After work and dinner Marinette was tearing apart her closet to construct a perfect outfit for her outing with Adrien tomorrow. “Felix, what do you think?” Marinette held up two different looks, “The blue skirt with the white blouse or the overalls with the crop top?”

“Overalls and crop top.” Felix pointed. “But you should go with the black top instead of the pink. Has more allure.”

“Good call.” Marinette hung the outfit up near her changing screen and put the other away. Her phone beeped with an alert. “Pass it.”

Felix tossed her the phone.

“OOH!” Marinette set her phone down and scrambled for the trap door to her balcony. “I almost forgot!”

“Love?” Felix followed after her, “What are we doing out here?”

“There’s supposed to be a meteor shower tonight.” She told him, “I set a reminder on my phone about it forever ago.”

“Um, I don’t know how to break this to you but I doubt you’re gonna see any shooting stars out here.” Felix pointed to the sky. “Light pollution doesn’t help with that.”

“Oh…” Marinette stared at the sky in disappointment. “Right. I should have known that. That’s a bummer.” She started heading back down to her room when the lights died out. Did they blow a fuse?

“Love, come back up here.” Felix called. Marinette went back to the balcony. She gazed out over the city and noticed that all the lights had gone out.

“Is it a blackout?”

“Kinda.” Felix shrugged, “Electronics still work but all the lights are out.”

“Did...did you do this?” Marinette asked. She couldn’t believe that his powers could work like this. To stretch so far as to douse every light in the city.

“You wanted to watch the shower, didn’t you?” He tilted her head up towards the sky and she gasped.

Without all the lights the pollution was gone. She could see the stars! She could see the Milky Way with how clear it was! She was transfixed as she stared at the sky. A beam of light went streaking past. It was short but it had been there. Another followed not long after it.

“Thank you.” Marinette turned to Felix and was surprised to see him watching her. “I’m gonna go make us tea. I’ll be right back.” Marinette raced down to the kitchen with flashlight in hand to make them a pot of tea. She brought it back up and set it down on her spool table. She poured them both a cup and joined Felix at the railing to watch the shower.

It was getting to be late but Marinette couldn’t leave now. Not when the sky was alive and stars shot past every couple of seconds. It was such a beautiful night.

“Felix,” She said after they had been watching for a while. “You never finished that story you were telling me before. The one you started when I had that nightmare.”

“You fell asleep.” He laughed quietly, “Did you want to hear the end?”

“Yes, please.”

“Okay.” Felix cleared his throat. “You remember the poor man that loved the beautiful woman and how the woman was now engaged to a brute of a man to everyone’s sorrow.”

“I remember. That’s when you showed up, wasn’t it?”

“It was indeed.” Felix continued. “The man was in so much anguish about his love that his misery seeped down into Hell. I was the first to sense it and went to meet him sensing he may be easy pickings for a deal. Rules back in the old days were drastically different then they are now. Anyways, I found the man and approached him. I told him that I could feel his sorrow and pain and that I could make it better.”

“I told him that he could have whatever he wanted. He could wish for it to be him that the woman married instead. He could be rich and be married to the woman he loved. He could live a long life in comfort and all he had to do was ask.” Felix’s gaze became unfocused as he stared out over the city. His expression left a feeling of painful memories lurking below. “But the man said no. That was not what he wanted.”

“What did he want then?” Marinette asked.

“He looked me dead in the eyes and told me that all he wanted was for his love to be happy. That was all he had ever wanted. And so he asked me to make it so that the brute of a man she was to marry was instead a kind man. That he would make her happy and never hurt her. That the fiance would treat his bride with only kindness and gentility and love for all their days. At the time I did not understand. I couldn’t understand why he would choose that as his wish when I had the power to give him anything in the world. Why when he could have had everything, he chose to stay a poor man watching the woman he loved from a distance.” Felix gripped the railing tighter, “I asked him as much and he said that it was never about what was best for him. He only wanted to see her happy and to see her smile. That seeing that she was living in love and kindness was the only gift he wanted or needed out of life. And if he could ensure that she was well cared for and content then he would give anything in exchange.”

“What did it cost?” Marinette whispered, “His soul?”

Felix shook his head. “Nothing. What the man had said was true. His wish was selfless and his deepest desire. It was the one time I had ever made a deal without a price.”

Marinette yawned and leaned her head on his shoulder. “What happened then?”

“Overnight the brute the beautiful woman was to marry became a perfect gentleman that loved her dearly. She in turn fell in love with him and they lived many years together and raised a loving family.”

“And what of the poor man? What became of him?”

“It was not long after I had made the deal with the poor man that I went back to see him. He was on his death bed. An illness he contracted sleeping through the cold and not having enough to eat. He would not make it through the night.” Felix rested his head against the top of hers. “By this time the beautiful woman was now married to the former brute and had given birth to a child. I knelt next to the poor man as he lay dying and asked him if it had been worth it. Here he was lying in the dirt, slowly dying, all by himself. His love had no idea he existed and was living a wonderful life in luxury while he suffered here. Had it been worth it to waste his wish on making her husband kind when I could have given him everything?”

“This poor man. This man who would die without anyone else knowing or caring had the gall to look at me with pity in his eyes. He smiled at me and told me that because of his wish he got to see her smile every day. He smiled and said that though he was dying he would die knowing that she would live many more years and be happy. He smiled and said that yes, it had been worth it.”

“That’s really sad.” Marinette murmured, “Did the woman never find out about what he did for her?”

“There was never a reason to tell her.” Felix muttered, “Why would she believe it anyway?”

“I feel sorry for that man.” She said, “But his tale is also inspiring in a way. To imagine that someone could have that much love for someone else. It’s pure. It’s pure love.”

“It is. Isn’t it?” Felix sighed. His one hand left the railing and came to rest gently on Marinette’s back. “It’s late. You should go to bed, get your beauty sleep. Got a hot date tomorrow after all.”

Marinette let out another big yawn. “I guess so. Are you gonna turn the lights back on?”

“Yeah.” Felix waved his hand and all across the city the lights blinked back on. The change was so quick and drastic Marinette winced away from it. “Let there be light!”

“You are such a dork.” Marinette laughed. She set her cup on the table. She’d clean up their leftover tea in the morning. Felix was still at the railing looking out over the newly lit city. “Felix,” She tapped his shoulder.

“Yes?” he turned around.

“Thank you.” She stood on her toes and left a kiss on his cheek. “Good night.”

“Good night…” His voice was a hushed exhale. His eyes were blown wide as he stared down at her.

She bit back her smile and dropped down onto her bed. Her heart was racing and she couldn’t stop smiling to herself. She bundled under the blankets and clasped her pillow tight to her chest. “Well…” Marinette muttered to herself with a hysterical giggle. “I am so screwed.”

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[awhitehead17]

Family

TimKon. Kidfic, Fluff, Light Humour, Parenting, Slice of Life.

Summary: Kon gets slightly jealous when it appears to be Tim who’s the favourite parent and not him.

Enjoy! :D

Despite it being close to 3 o’clock in the morning Kon was still wide awake. It wasn’t often that he had nights where he couldn’t sleep, but like anyone else even he had restless nights. In result of this he’s propped up against the headboard of his bed on his phone.

Next to him Tim lies on his side, his back pressed against Kon’s thigh, deeply asleep. The other man had just come home from patrol under 30 minutes ago. As soon as Tim hit the pillow, for once, he was out like a light.

Kon keeps on mindlessly scrolling through his social media when he suddenly hears light footsteps heading towards their bedroom. He raises an eyebrow when those footsteps stop outside of the bedroom door, as if hesitating, before it starts to slowly be pushed opened.

Kon puts his phone down and watches as his son’s head peers around the door looking into the room with wide eyes. He stays silent as the kid walks into the room. He wonders what Ben’s up for, he then figures it must have been a nightmare that woke him up and now he can’t sleep.

As Ben starts to head for Tim’s side of the bed Kon intervenes him. “Hey bud, what you doing up?” He speaks softly and lowly just so he doesn’t disturb Tim.

Ben looks over at him guiltily before making a change in his direction, he quickly shuffles around the bed and comes to his side. His hands reach out and grab the cover as he avoids looking at Kon.

Kon hunches over so he’s near to the child’s level and reaches out to stroke his son’s hair, “What you doing up kiddo? It’s way past your bedtime?”

He speaks softly to him but it seems like Ben isn’t interested. His son keeps looking away from him, his gaze staying on Tim’s sleeping figure, and doesn’t answer.

Kon sighs and presses a kiss to Ben’s forehead. “Come on, lets get you back into bed.” He climbs off the bed and picks Ben up, his child weighing like nothing in his arms. This small, precious bundle that he just wants to cuddle and keep safe from everything in the world.

Ben fusses in his arms, trying to squirm free, “Noooo… papa, I want daddy!”

Kon keeps a good grip on him and starts walking towards the bedroom door, “Shhhh… Daddy’s asleep Ben okay.”

“Nooo..”

Just as he gets to the door there’s groaning behind him. He pauses and looks over to the bed where Tim was groggily sitting himself up. The other man yawns before climbing out of bed and walking towards them.

“It’s okay Kon, I’ll put him back.” Tim says basically looking at him with closed eyes.

Kon’s about to protest but then Ben is reaching out to Tim, his tiny arms thrusting forward towards his daddy. Tim smiles sleepily (an expression Kon adores) and grabs Ben out of his hands. Ben makes a happy noise before wrapping his arms tightly around Tim’s neck and burying his face into Tim’s.

“It’s alright Kon,” Tim whispers, rubbing a hand up and down Ben’s back, “I’ll handle it, go back to bed.”

Knowing he hasn’t won the fight Kon silently nods and presses a kiss to Ben’s head and allows his partner to go. He settles on the bed he goes back on his phone as he waits for Tim’s return. It’s about 20 minutes before Tim comes back. As the man walks into the room Kon shuts his phone off and pulls the covers up, allowing him to easily slide into bed.

They settle together, spooning, and Kon rests his head on Tim’s. “What was it?” He asks. “Nightmare? Lost Bat Bear? Just wanting some attention?”

Tim huffs a laugh. “Only if, no, he got frightened by the ‘monster’ under the bed again.”

Kon smiles at that, “It’s crazy what kids can imagine up isn’t it? Did you do the whole checking under the bed sequence?”

“Uh huh. Of course I did. He settled pretty quickly afterwards.”

“Sorry you had to get up, I could have done that, but he wanted you for some reason.”

Tim squeezes his hands that were wrapped around him. “Stop being jealous. You know that he prefers me at night.”

Kon grumpily pouts at that, only because it was true. “I know… but still. You’ve had a long night.”

Sighing tiredly Tim gives him another squeeze, “I don’t know Kon. He’s six, he’s going to have a favourite parent every now and again. Guarantee that tomorrow it’ll be you.”

“It might not be.”

Tim doesn’t answer him then. He takes the lack of response as the end of the conversation. He focuses on Tim’s breathing for a moment to find it slow and even in the way that means he’s fallen asleep. Kon lovingly smiles at that and settles against him again.

Their six year old son is the room next door, sleeping safe and soundly. His best friend and the love of his life is asleep right next to him, trusting him at his back in the most vulnerable of moments. Kon didn’t have a family growing up, (being made in a tube does that to you) but the one he has now is more than perfect and it’s one he’s going to cherish for the rest of his life.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #241

“where once a heart was beating, nothing but embers glow. our love, it serves as kindling to stoke this flame’s inferno.”

Would you care if your partner did drugs etc? If it was legal here and just for medical purposes, I'd be fine with just weed. Otherwise, I treat the idea the same way as I would a tobacco smoker: no. Has anyone lost their virginity to you? I guess in a gay context? For two females, when is it really... "lost?" Idk. Do you live near a beach? Like... two hours away. Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired? Ha ha, yeah... Do you enjoy going through the car wash? I do, actually. I'm still a little kid when it comes to the rainbow soap, ha ha. Have you done anything embarrassing lately? Oh, I'm sure. How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? One. Would you consider painting your bedroom purple? Noooo, it wouldn't be cute y'all. Do you actually wear every shirt in your drawer? Ha, no... mainly because there's a handful of them that I'm working to shrink back into. Then there's others I'm self-conscious of because of color and having hyperhidrosis out the ass. Just wearing black disguises sweat the best. Would you ever get a tattoo on your collar bone? I have one already, but I'm getting it covered at some point. I didn't put much thought into it and has no meaning to me now. I plan on getting the other collarbone tatted too, of course. Are you pregnant right now? Bitch fuck no. Do you still dress up for Halloween? Ugh, no, but only because I can't afford even things to put together my own costume. Not having anywhere to go only further discourages dressing up period. Who was the last male you talked to? My dad. Do you hate cuddling? Hell no, if I like you anyway. Do you have any bruises right now? No. Why did you take the last pill you took? They're my morning prescription meds. My last pill was for anxiety. Could you handle having kids? FUCK no. Nervous breakdowns would happen twice a week, I promise. What outfit makes you feel the most attractive? Attractive? In anything? What a concept. What do you think of people who always wear make-up? You do you, boo. What’s a smell that absolutely makes you gag? Gag, probably vomit. Or feces of some animals. Is there a smell that gives you headaches? GASOLINE. And fresh-cut grass. What do you do while you’re on campus but not in class? Sit in the library doing schoolwork or whatever on my laptop. Do you know anyone who has Autism/Asperger’s syndrome? Yes. Has anyone of the same sex ever hit on you? Yeah. Are you open to a same-sex relationship and why or why not? Yeah; been in one already and I'm still open to dating another girl. What do you think of people who litter and do you? I openly fucking despise you. So obviously not. How much time do you spend online daily? If I'm not in school, I can like... guarantee you I'm on the computer doing at least something. Not always the same site, but I'm somewhere. I absolutely hate how reliant I am on the Internet. Do you wear sunglasses regularly? I never do. I need prescription sunglasses. Who was the last person you called? My mom. Do you own a tablet of any kind? No. Do you tend to put things off until the last minute? OH YES INDEED. What are your parents’ natural hair colors? What is yours? Mom's is brown, and I cannot believe Dad was born with blond hair. HOW does that turn black. I was born dirty blonde. Are you afraid of getting shots? Nah, just the injection is kinda painful with how it burns. Do you hate it when people smoke around you? I very much so hate it. Have you ever wanted to vlog? Noooo, I'm too awkward for that. Always have been. What’s the last piercing you got? Tongue. Do you have a best friend? Ye. What’s your internet homepage? Google. Do you have a shower stall or a bath tub? A tub. When was the last time you saw someone attractive? In person? Idk. What do you hear right now? "I Am Hell" by Machine Head. This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Same person I like now. Did you speak with your father today? No. Are you currently frustrated with someone? No. Name one of your hobbies? Watch YouTube is high up there and like... the only thing I have motivation to do lately. I really hate it. I want my writing will to come back. What is your biggest worry in life right now? My lack of a job. Do you like hot or cold showers? Hot. Are you happy with your relationship status? I don't have a particular feeling about it. What colors would you like to have at your wedding? Depends on the season and the opinion of my spouse, too. How easy was it to get over the person you last dated? It didn't take too long, though it was really because the event left me believing we were, without question, getting back together once we are independent enough to live on our own/mutually move out. It's still possible we may, should life just play out where it works out, but it also was much easier to accept because we're still completely best friends. Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/boyfriend? Not on paper, but pretty much. How old were you when you first smoked weed? But I never have. What is one thing that you’ve done that a lot of people said you couldn’t? Idk; I don't have a lot of unsupportive people in my life. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Mom. What was the last reason you cried? I listened to a song that deeply triggered my PTSD. Have you ever hated a song, and then later on found that you liked it? Yup, however that works. Did you have a good childhood? It was mostly normal, I guess? Do you play games on your PC? Just World of Warcraft right now. I started Alien: Isolation and Resident Evil 6 FOREVER ago, I just haven't had the motivation to finish either. Do you have a formspring? It's familiar, but I'm actually not sure what that even is. Do you know anyone that is racist? Welcome to the South. Do you have an active sex life? No. Are you defensive about anything? Yes. Have you ever driven 80+ mph? No. Have you ever changed a lightbulb? Yes. Have you ever gotten a bullseye in darts/archery? Darts, possibly. Never done archery. Do you have a Wii? Yeah. Do you own any animals that absolutely hate you? No. What brand is the computer you’re currently on? Acer. Are there any piercings you want but you’re too afraid it will hurt? The pain factor doesn't keep me away from piercings, so no. Do you think ear gauging is gross? When it gets to a certain width, to me anyway, it's pretty ew. I don't judge at all about someone having them, but it can get to a point where it just isn't appealing imo. Are you afraid of anyone in your family? Who and why? No. What’s the last scary movie you saw? Ummmm idk. It's been a long-ass time. I'm sure something in theaters, but I really don't know. Why aren’t you friends with your last ex? We are friends. When did you last spend the night at a friend’s house? A year ago when I was at Sara's. Did you ever watch 2Girls1Cup? Fuck no, I've never even looked into what exactly it is, but I know enough to know I don't wanna fucking see it. Do you have anxiety or depression? *shrugs* Why not both? Have you ever lived in a mobile home? No. Have you ever had your bedroom in a basement? Never even had a basement to begin with lol. Friend asks you to hide drugs, booze etc for them, do you do it? lol no. Animal you like to watch but sort of creeps you out: Big spiders. I particularly like writing spiders/orb weavers though, and watching big spiders eat is just fascinating. Have you entered the Lays create a flavor contest? Oh man how long ago was that??? No. Bagels or English muffins? Bagels gotta win it for me. Who is a family member you look forward to seeing on a holiday? On Christmas especially, I love seeing my niece and nephew because they're just so excited. Brings me back to what it felt like as a little kid. Are Easter baskets only for kids? No. My sisters and I each had super cute baskets that Mom would fill until like... two years ago. Now that it's just me living with her, she'll just usually buy me a candy bar or something. Do you do anything to recognize St Patrick’s Day? No. Do you think nutcracker figurines are creepy or cool? No opinion. Speaking of nuts, do you like them? For the most part, no. There are instances however where I can enjoy like little pieces of them with other kinds of food, ex. chocolate. What do you do when you are nervous? Dead giveaway: I'm kneading/playing with my hands. I pace naturally, but I do so more frequently when I am nervous. I'll have a harder time making eye contact, too. Does your family have an SUV or pick up truck? No. Which of your parents do you laugh more with? Dad. Have you ever been to an open casket wake or funeral? Wake, yes. Who mows the lawn at your house? Some guy Mom knows through the dance studio. Where do you keep your phone at night? Usually to the right of my pillow, a bit far away, and up more towards the headboard. My bed's a queen-size and it's just me, so I have room where I won't hit it. If it has to charge though, then it's on the table beside my bed. Do you feel comfortable asking your parents or grandparents for money? No in almost every case. I'm only somewhat comfortable if it's Mom and I'm asking for like a snack from the gas station or something like that. What’s the last thing you lost? My phone, I think. If you could have your own car or an apartment, which would you choose? An apartment would be entirely useless as I am in no way competent enough to live alone yet, and a car wouldn't have much use seeing as I only have my permit and STILL pretty much never drive. It'd be more useful than an apartment, though. Last time you hid, and why: Uhhhhh. I have zero clue. How do you like your eggs? I'll only ever take them scrambled with cheese. Favorite Mexican food? Quesadillas. Upcoming event you are dreading? I'm happily enjoying it right now, but in another way, I'm dreading school break ending just because I am INCREDIBLY nervous about the effects of it on my legs with the whole muscle atrophy thing. I'm scared of regressing. Do you have a favorite pen? What kind? No. Do you do more surveys during the day or night? The day. Just shampoo, or shampoo + conditioner? Just shampoo. Conditioner adds oil to your hair, and trust me, my hair does NOT need any extra oil. Scariest driver you’ve ridden with: Dad the day he had to pick Nicole and me up from school and we had a 30-minute drive home. Basically, we got home in maybe 15 or less. He was in a fucking awful mood, speeding like hell, running red lights, passing illegally... I was entirely convinced we were going to die that day. Still one of the scariest of my life. Do you think you’re smarter than the average person? If so, why? It depends on the subject matter; in areas such as English, wisdom, stuff kinda like that, honestly yeah. In areas like common damn sense and mathematics, fuck no. What was the last topic you did thorough research on? Why? Paganism. I recently found that Neo-Paganism is the closest description for my spiritual beliefs; it covers such a broad spectrum, and it emphasizes the divinity of nature, free will (so long you are not inflicting harm upon another), the equality of man and woman (plus the beauty of humanity), and one of the concepts of the "ultimate being" includes not an actual deity, but just like this... source of energy and power. I don't even know if I believe it to be conscious, it's just like... the source, and it lies within nature. I'm still doing more and more research into it as I'm thoroughly intrigued, and I continue to feel more at home with its inclusiveness to an array of interpretations. What was the last thing to upset you? So beyond just an annoyance? Probably when this random fucking Facebook post of a father sharing just how proud he was of his son for killing wolves together and sharing purely evil photographs of them playing with/posing the bloody dead bodies (which included making them "snarl" at the camera, and mind you, their mouths were full of blood) popped up on my feed for no goddamn reason. Safe to say, I left a comment and got into a fight with a backwards son of a fuck who thought it was totally kosher to kill these "vermin" and used personal attacks versus logic to try in vain to prove his point, when all he did was accomplish me seeing him as the vermin. Where did you go to the last time you left your house? My sister's house. Do you wear something on your left hand/wrist/arm without fail? Friendship ring with Sara as well as the bracelet she gave me. What is an article of clothing you would never ever wear? Stealing the last answer of jumpsuits. Will you go outside today? Probably not. Are you doing everything you can to make yourself happy? Not everything. I know I could do more. What is a phrase or a saying you try to live by? I don't think I have a set one that I always look to. I refer more to ideas, such as to be unrelenting in your goals. What is something you lie to yourself about? I don't know. I'm not good at that. What has been the best job you’ve ever had? lol What is a holiday, that is NOT celebrated in your country, that you would like to celebrate? Day of the Dead. I know some do celebrate it here, but it's more of a holiday in Mexico. Which nation’s culture (excl. your own) do you find the most interesting? Germany's, from what I remember. We learned quite a bit about them while I took it as a language. They are very serious about honesty and manners. What is something you judge about other people? How you treat others, certain aspects of ones personality (ex., arrogance), and as the previous person stated, to a certain degree anyway, moral/political/religious beliefs. What is something you do not want to discuss? I get really uncomfortable talking about sex, and though no one in my "real" life knows about it (except perhaps Mom due to an outburst during the breakup), I don't like even looking back on the Joel situation. There are also some political things I just don't want to talk about. Do you enjoy solving problems? No, shit's stressful. Are you a kinesthetic, an auditory or a visual learner? Kinesthetic, 100%. Are you an introvert, an extrovert or an ambivert? I'm a pretty strong introvert, though not as much as I once was. I can get lonely kinda quickly now, but I still NEED my alone time. Are you socially anxious or awkward? OH BOY AM I!!!!!!! Do you actually think it’s gross to talk about body functions? NO!!!!!!! This needs needs needs to be normalized because it's stuff we all endure, so we should be comfortable talking about these things, asking questions, etc. Have you ever sent a love letter? Yeah. When you look up at the sky do you ever NOT see a plane or vapor trail? Yeah. Welcome to the country. Do you wear any shoes with holes because you can’t give them up? No. When you go out to breakfast, what do you order? Pretty much always pancakes, scrambled eggs, and bacon. What’s the best compliment you’ve gotten from a boss/teacher? That when she came back to teaching, I was the exact kind of student she hoped for. What’s a weird or interesting nickname you gave someone? lmao the first one that came to mind was Connie's "Einnoc." Is there a phrase or mantra you repeat when you are frightened? No. What are you most envious of? Successful photographers lmao. Do you have a friend with a habit that worries you? Yes. Would you rather have coffee, cocoa, tea, or soda? UGH soda. That's my weaknesses. You could take sweets from me, but I'm pretty reliant on soft drinks. When you walk into your best friend’s room, what do you smell? I don't remember, actually... I haven't been there enough. Have you ever purposely broken something that belonged to a sibling? Wow, no. Have you ever worked at the same place as your best friend? No. Do you like to visit famous people’s homes? I've never done that, and I find it disrespectful anyway. Give celebs their privacy, goddamn. Do you take days off from shaving when you can get away with it? The only thing I shave are my armpits, and considering I don't shower everyday, yes. Every time I do take one however, I always shave. Is there anything hanging on your bathroom walls? No. If your SO agreed, would you want an open relationship? No. Have you ever slept with three people in the same bed? When? Why? At some point, yeah, but not in a romantic context. It was with friends or family when we had limited space. Does your family regularly eat sit down meals together? Pretty much never. Who would you like to slow dance with? To what song? SOBS "The Only Exception" by Paramore w/ Sara continues to sob What’s your favorite pet name someone calls you? None that I have now. If you could talk to one species of animal what would it be? Good question. I guess cats, as I have one and would love to know what he thinks. What’s the largest animal you’ve ever seen in person? An elephant, strolling RIGHT by the fence at the zoo. Have you ever used the change counting machine at a store or mall? Ohhh, I remember those! Yes. Would you give mouth to mouth to your dog to save its life? We have a dog I honestly can't stand, and this is gonna get me mentally punched, but I don't know. NO, not BECAUSE I don't like him, but I don't love him enough to deal with those germs. I don't think I could stomach doing it. If you came with a warning label, what would it say? "Is going to be uncomfortable if you say one word to her but craves friendship anyway." Have you ever tried to learn a language on your own? No. Have you ever had a pet destroy something valuable or important? The thing that upset me the most was when Teddy tore up the corner of one of my art pieces I'm most proud of. I cried. It was weird considering he never really tore up stuff... but alright then. What’s the best burger EVER? UGH I'm weak for Wendy's Baconators. Did you ever show up late for an important event? Probably at some point?

[thebibliomancer]

Dark Crystal Age of Resistance ep 3 liveblog

“What was sundered and undone”

Just a stream of thoughts.

The Order of Lesser Service.

Everyone is dunking on Brea.

“The order of Lesser Service is not a punishment. Its an opportunity to lift yourself up by performing the lowliest of deeds.”

Its not a punishment but Brea can’t leave and a possible task is to chew up roots and spit it into baby Nebrie’s mouths. It SOUNDS like a punishment.

“I’ve never met a princess before. I imagined they’d have shinier hair.” EVERYONE is dunking on Brea.

So the Order of Lesser Service is TOTALLY not a punishment but you have to wear a jester hat and also this other Vapran gelfling girl Juni was sent to the Order for hanging out with a boy of a different clan. 

It really sounds like a punishment.

“I always thought I’d make a fantastic princess, I have the hair for it. Its very shiny.” I kind of like Juni.

So the service for the day is to swan into a Podling village and force cleaning on them.

They seem awfully happy throwing mud at each other. And bellyflopping into the mud. And eating the mud. And rolling in mud.

“There is no filthier creature in all of Thra than a Podling” cool cool cool cool racism, Gelflings.

Yeah it seems gross but its what they like? So don’t be dicks about it, geez, Gelflings.

They seriously seem upset by all this forced bathing. Leave them alone!

Theres a lot of paternalism here is what I’m getting at.

Seladon just spent five minutes complaining about Brea while Cool Sister Tavra is just trying to hone her sword and mind her business.

Tavra really is the Cool Sister. The Cool Very Patient Sister.

“I can’t be washing Podlings, I had a vision that the world was ending or beginning!”

“Sounds like heatstroke”

“FUCK YOU ITS NOT HEATSTROKE”

Brea cuts a deal with a Podling to not wash them and the Podling immediately dives into the dirt to make dirt angels.

Live your truth, Podling. Live your beautiful truth, you actual potato.

Deet: “What if we fail?”

The First Podling Paladin: “Pssh”

Hup has to explain to underground elf Deet that actually Gelflings are pretty racist against each other and may not listen to her just because she’s an underground elf.

“It may be hard at first but like anything else in life, it just takes time to adjust” -dramatically removes blindfold to make a point-

Rian knows that just because you’re on a quest to save the world and are carrying a plot critical item, doesn’t mean you can’t stop to do a random act of kindness sidequest.

“Thank the harvest we have the Skeksis to keep us safe” Dramatic ironyyyyyyy

Rian immediately gives up the game by protesting that the Skeksis killed Mira.

“We protect the lords. The lords protect the crystal of truth. All lies!”

And he ditches all his castle guard gear so he’s not so easily identified in the future.

Brea trying to hide. While wearing a jingly hat.

Tavra: “You ran away? Good.” Such the Cool Sister.

So news of Mira’s death has filtered to the Vapra by this point. And since Rian is of the Stonewood clan, ooo its time for factional tension I guess.

Cool Sister Tavra has to try to keep the peace between her sister.

Tavra: “I think you and Seladon are more alike than you realize.”

Brea: “That’s a mean thing to say!”

Tavra: “Well, you’re both very stubborn!”

Also both Brea and Seladon can tell from Tavra’s silence when she wants to say something.

“The bonds of sisterhood can be tested… but never broken” Awww, Tavra!

Deet, you’re the most sunny person possible considering you’re an underground elf.

There’s a cool ominous pillar full of swords and Hup wouldn’t let Deet ask someone about it.

“Look at that filthy green Gelfling” well fuck you too, background character.

The Stonewood Gelfling at the bar try to rearrange so there’s no room for Deet but she’s oblivious to bullying and just squeezes in anyway.

Apparently a Fizzgig are just fizzgigs. So Kira was like a pokemon trainer who names her dog Dog.

“Go crawl back into the nest you came from you dirty Grottan” and then they shove her. I think she’s less oblivious to bullying now. But also Hup doesn’t approve of that behavior and launched himself across the bar and beat up EVERYONE.

That’s what a paladin is, Avatar.

“Rascal hole” wut.

I was just thinking that there’s been a dearth of Skeksis so far and BAM scene: castle, in saunters SkekSil.

“Not talk. Just listen.” ‘Hey wanna know about this cool beetle that eats eyes?’

“Noooo never use on gelfling. Only on Skeksis who misbehave. Did you hear screams last night? Friend Scientist was naughty, so saw peeper beetle.”

Chamberlain is one of those people who uses friend ironically, I think. And the nicer the term of endearment the more worried you should be, Gurjin.

“Think Gelfing. If Skeksis do that to Skeksis, imagine what Skeksis do to Gelfling that will not talk.” 

“Tell Chamberlain where Rian is.”

“Never!”

-actual affronted gasp-

Librarian: “Weren’t you sent to the Order of Lesser Service?”

Brea: “I ran away. I gotta go steal from my mom”

Librarian: “You wut”

OH HEY FLYING SCENE! Wonder how they did that.

Seladon: “So the person Brea mindwiped is here. There’s been a murder at the castle. Creatures going mad. And there’s a bunch of Gelfling worried about the Blight.”

All-Maudra: “I had to send Tavra on a dangerous mission. And Brea to the Order of Lesser Service. My daughters… gone.”

Her other daughter Seladon: “.... wtf mom”

Seladon gives her mom a pep talk to break her out of her funk.

All-Maudra: “You’ll be a great All-Maudra some day. … Straighten your wings. You look like a lopsided unamoth.” 

It was almost positive reinforcement for a second but you just had to undermine it, huh?

And then Brea breaks into the room to do a Theft like right after they leave.

So the Brightest Jewel is part of the chandelier? Of what significance?

Scientist: “Treacherous, perfidious Skeksis! Oh, soon… soon they will all see!”

The guy was a Mad Scientist by default of being a lizard nightmare man but he’s going Mad Scientist “they laughed LAUGHED but I’ll show them all” from his default level of Already Mad Scientist.

He’s also saying all this out loud while Chamberlain is just standing behind him.

Chamberlain: “How is friend skekTek? Good? Mm?” You’re a card, SkekSil.

Oh, cool. Scientist replaced his eye with a cybernetic prosthetic. 

Chamberlain found some lab assistants for the Scientist called Gruenaks. I guess this is why the other Skeksis managed to put up with him for so long. He backstabs them all but then gives a shoulder rub and goes ‘lol sorry’ 

First he’s sour, then he’s sweet. Sour Patch SkekSil.

Chamberlain: “So, we are friends? All is forgiven?”

Scientist: -grudgingly- “It's a start”

Deet is off to see the Maudra Fara and is very tired of the myths that the Grottan Gelflings are all dead. Or bats.

And then Rian shows up. Holy crap, two of the protagonists in the same square mile!

Deet: “He’s much dirtier than me, why does he get to go in?”

Guard: “Because Rian is one of us! Unlike you!” Rude.

So the Rascal Hole is just an oubliette type prison dealie. And its right in the Maudra’s court, like she’s a Jabba.

Maudra Fara: “Your return puts the Stonewood clan in a dangerous position. The Skesis have declared you a traitor to Thra.”

I have to wonder how news travels so fast. Do they have female gelfling couriers sent out to all the clans to spread the word? Is there a fantasy telegraph? I guess even a courier on a landstrider would run fastere than Rian’s tiny little legs.

Rian: “The Skeksis are the traitors! They lied to us about everything!”

Fara: “I will not tolerate heresy from a murderer”

Will you tolerate heresy from a counterfeiter? Whats the crime threshold here that will allow you to tolerate heresy?

Heresy is “belief or opinion contrary to orthodox religious doctrine” so are the Skeksis literally the religion of the Gelfling? I guess the Crystal holds a massive spiritual significance to everyone of Thra and the Skeksis as the Lords of the Crystal would have a level of respect but heresy?

Rian: “I have soul goo that proves I didn’t kill Mira!”

Rian: “Dreamfast with me” which should solve everything but Rian’s dad arrived first and told Fara what the Skeksis told him that dreamfasting spreads the Madness.

Good job derailing this guaranteed plot resolution, Chamberlain.

“You are my father, why don’t you ever believe me?” I can’t wait for Rian and Brea to meet so they can commiserate over bad parents.

-Rian sees chandelier, sees rope, thinks Flynn-y thoughts-

Oh wow thats an awful lot of chandelier. And they’re full of fireflies instead of fire. Because you don’t want puppets anywhere near fire.

And Rian did do the thing where he cuts a rope and lets it carry him to escape.

Aughra: -sees the castle, reflexively- “Bah!”

Skeksis spa day???

Emperor: -applying cream and looking into a mirror- “Ah, beautiful!”

Aughra: “Skeksis?”

Emperor: “Oh shit mom’s home!”

Scroll-Keeper: “AHHH I’M NOT DECENT!”

Aughra: “PAH” -rinses her eye in his bath just because-

Aughra: “I’m unwell because Thra is unwell. I’ve come to see the Crystal, see what ails it.”

Skeksis: “NOPE CRYSTAL IS FINE EVERYTHING IS FINE”

Aughra: “Everything is well? You speak and know nothing! Or is it you know and speak nothing?” Well wordplayed, Aughra.

-starts poking the Scroll-Keeper’s belly with her staff so he has to splash her to get her to back off-

It turns out her interrupting their banquet by being kidnapped in the movie wasn’t her being upset. She’s just that rude at a constant level.

Show her the Crystal before she traumatizes the Scroll-Keeper more.

Wow, the Emperor tries a very daring guilt trip on Aughra. Having gotten her addicted to space, he criticizes her for neglecting Thra and leaving the Skeksis to take care of it. 

Emperor: “Then go back to your travels and we can go back to caring for the many you left behind.”

Emperor: “Guards. Throw this useless old crone out of our castle forever!”

The Gelfling guards of course do the “i thought she’d be taller” routine.

A Guard: “My grandfather said she cursed his village with ear mites because they forgot her birthday.”

B Guard: “Well I heard she sneezed and a mountain crumbled.”

Aughra: “Its all true so stay where you are or you’ll suffer the wrath of all eight and a half fingers! BAH!” -they flinch- “BAH!” -flinch again- “Ninny wheelers. Ingrates.”

And then the guards just let her wander off on her own.

-wanders past crystal. Stops. Wanders backwards-

She is not happy with how they redecorated the Crystal with EVIL.

Apparently Past Aughra recorded a message into the Crystal for Future/Present Aughra?

And Aughra tells Aughra “The moment Skeksis possessed the Crystal they abused it.” Aughra is a bad judge of character, apparently. 

So the corruption of the Crystal creates the Darkening. And the Crystal or Past Aughra also replays the footage of Mira getting turned into soul goo.

“Gelflings return to Thra when they die. That is the natural order. But when Skeksis consume essence cannot return home. Thra is out of balance, thus the Darkening spreads faster.”

Eating souls is bad for the environment. Gotcha.

“You have lost the Song of Thra.” So now Aughra is off on a quest too. Like Earthbound except singing to the Skeksis isn’t going to make them feel so bad they leave.

Deet is still trying to figure out a way to rescue Hup. By wandering around aimlessly.

What a cute random tree snake rabbit.  I keep expecting it to be actually huge and try to eat her.

Dammit Rian, you startled the random tree snake rabbit!

But hey, now two of the protagonists are in the same vicinity and ACTUALLY interacting. 

Of course, Rian is massively paranoid now.

Rian: “Who sent you? Maudra Fara?”

Deet: “Maudra Argot! Well, actually it was the Sanctuary Tree.”

Rian: “??? oh.”

Deet has decided that since Rian cut in line in front of her, he has to help her rescue Hup. But he can’t what with being on the run from everyone and having broken all of the chandelier at Maudra Fara’s throne room.

Rian: “It won’t light, the ground is too wet”

Deet: “We’ll see about that.” -instantly succeeds-

Castle living has made you a bad camper, Rian.

Rian: ‘Holy shit the one person who hasn’t heard the lie about me being a murderer!’ -Deet has an epiphany and runs off- “Aww =( .”

It was nice to have two whole protagonists in the same conversation for two whole minutes. =P

Brea returns with the Brightest Jewel. And finds that Onica is now Elder Onica.

Elder Onica: “I served as Cadia’s apprentice for many trine. His memory loss allowed me to give myself a long overdue promotion.” 

Hey, whatever works.

Brea was assuming, as I was, that the Brightest Jewel was payment. Which offends Onica because Stereotypes about Sifa. (Sifa Sea Faring? Boo) But the Brightest Jewel is actually a chrysalis and the answer. 

Brea: “Oh. …….. I don’t understand.”

Onica: “A great many things.”

EVERYONE dunking on Brea today.

“This is the chrysalis of an Imperial unamoth, the totem animal of your clan.”

Onica: “Ask your question”

Brea: “Ask the moth??????”

Oh thats a pretty moth. Annnnnd it just flew off.

Onica was pretty cool.

Sooooo, wait. Wait. Brea is trying to learn what a vision means and is following a moth.

Annnnnd the moth turned into the symbol on the All-Maudra’s throne and opened a secret passage. Thats some good good fantasy nonsense.

Although I thought the throne room was not on the ground floor so where could a secret throne passage lead?

Questions, questions. Too many questions...

[sweetblink]

Prompts list #1

- Riverdale 

- The Gifted

- Chicago Fire

- Chicago PD

- Chicago Med

#1. “Dude, what the hell?”… “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, it just came out.”

#2. “Tragic, that was just tragic.”

#3. “That reeks disaster… let’s do it.”

#4. “We’re so gonna get caught, and I’m blame it on you.”… “Hey, you said you wanted to do this, therefore it’s not my fault.”

#5. “Suck my d*ck.”… “I honestly don’t know what to tell you man, you keep saying suck your d*ck as an offensive line, but like, are you lowkey gay for them?”

#6.  "I have no soul, you should know this by now!“

#7. "Let’s work on a prank.”… “We’re gonna get caught.”

#8. “I wanna tell him/her how much I love them, but what difference would it make?”… “Don’t give up.”

#9. “Okay, you needa get over yourself, you ain’t that special hunnie.”

#10. “We’re not getting the f*cking onsies!”… *hour later* “We got the f*cking onsies.”

#11. “How DARE YOU! You…YOU MONSTER!”… “How am I the monster? Is this because I said I haven’t seen the Lion King?”

#12. “It’s pretty much guaranteed that I could trip on air, so yeah, I’m that clumsy.”… “That’s just cute, and sad.”

#13. “You should’ve came with a warning, cause it’s crazy how you make all these sexual jokes.”… “I actually did come with a warning.”

#14. “You started this series without me?”… “Uh, sorry?” … “I can’t even look at you.”

#15. “Hey, you know I love you, right?”… “Alright, what did you do?”

#16. “Babe, Marvel or DC?”

#17. “Either you leave this room, or shut up your trap and watch the show/movie in silence.”… “Geez, and you say I’m the mean one.”

#18. “Dude, you have a food baby.”… “Yeah, I know.”

#19. “What the hell is wrong with you! You don’t fucking skip Bohemian Rhapsody!”

#20. “Journey or Queen?”… “Honestly, I’m about to beat you up for even asking me that.”

#21. “I’m done with you!”… “What?” … “You just ruined my dramatic exit, thanks a lot.”

#22. “I sacrificed so much for you, and this is how you repay me?”… “I’m so sorry…”

#23. “Are you blushing?”… “Noooo, I just look like a bright red tomato, of course I am you idiot!”

#24. “Code Red, we have a code red.” … “What does Code Red, even mean?”… “See this is why you’re not my best friend.”

#25. “I still love her/him.”… “Yeah, kinda figured out when I caught you both locking lips together.”

#26. “I wish I can hurt you the same you hurt me, but I can’t, because this feeling is something I wish for no one to feel, ever!”

#27. “How did we even end up here.”… “I don’t know you said to run, and we ran like a chicken with no head.”

#28. “Oh yes, I’m bilingual. I speak bitch too.”

#29. “Usually it’s the girl stealing the guy’s shirt, so why are you stealing mine?”

#30. “Oh kaay, I’m pretend I didn’t see you dress like a girl, I am just, I’m just gonna go back to sleep.”

#31. “Why are you on the floor.” … “Oh I don’t know, maybe it’s because my bf/gf kicked me off the fucking bed!”

#32. “You walk out that door, and I promise you, I won’t be here when you come back.”

#33. “I’m fluent in Sarcasm, Cussing, and occasional French.”

#34. “Alright listen up losers, I hid Nerf guns all around, I made up a scavenger hunt to find them, when the clock says times up, we’re all meeting here, and we’re gonna have an epic Nerf gun fight.”

#35. “Come sit on my lap.”… “Or I can just sit on your face.”… “What?”… “Huh?”

#36. “I gave the most important day for you, only for you to deceive me, I’m so disappointed in myself. ”

#37. “I’m afraid that maybe one day, we’re gonna fall out of love. That one day I won’t be good enough for you.”

#38. “I will never be someone’s second, in fact if you even have have to think about who to pick, then don’t bother choosing me.”

#39. “My specialty is quoting songs, and movies in the most awkward situations ever.”

#40. “RuPaul called, and told me to tell you that your make up is a disgrace.”

#41. “So not only did you cheat on me, but you also lied and used me?”… “I’m sorry.”

#42. “Puh-lease, your go to karaoke song is Aqua’s Barbie Girl.”… “Shut up! We agreed that was a secret!”

#43. “She’s/He’s a mess.”… “Guuurl.”

#44. “Put the book down, and give me attention.”… “No, I’m in the best part of the book!”

#45. “She’s/He’s happy right now, and I’m not going to mess that up, simply because of what I feel. I rather sacrifice my happiness, than to see them in pain of knowing they can’t give me what I want.”

#46.“I still don’t understand why people think you’re some type of angel, you’re literally the devil.”… “Shut up, I’m a sweet innocent angel.”

#47. “Dude, why are you singing?”… “I’m bored, so leave me alone.”

#48. “Love is like a Russian Roulette game, it can either make you feel so alive, or kill you.”

#49. “I love paranormal things.”… “And this is why she/he, scare the living shit out of me.”

#50. “Here’s the thing that set us apart. You only know her/his favorite color, but I know why it’s her/his favorite color, you know her/his favorite movie, but I know why it’s her/his favorite movie, you may know what her/his favorite things are, but you’ll never exactly why its their favorite.”

[sserpente]

My Trickster God is back 😍

This post contains spoilers AFTER the cut!!!

& Please also be careful about spoilers in the notes!!!

Heyho there my lovelies! I am back home now, I almost cried when boarding the plane because I didn’t want to leave London and I miss England so much already. However, I had a great time as my personal culmination was watching the new Thor movie yesterday night.

I loved it. I loved it so, so much and I can guarantee you I will see it again really soon. Actually, I’ve accidentally just booked tickets to see the movie again on Halloween. Oops.

There even were three cosplayers working at the cinema. A Thor, a Hela and a Loki, so after the movie (this was so funny) I went to ask “Loki” for a picture. 😏 His reaction was hilarious. He was like “Just with me?” to which I replied “Well… you’re the king.” and then I turned to Thor and said: “Sorry.” The playful shocked expression he gave me was priceless and I’m telling you, this is what would happen if I ever met Thor and Loki on the street.

I got so much new inspiration. Starting from today, I’ll be working on new Imagines, my Loki multichapter fic and “Pleasing You” Part II, so stay tuned for some ragnaro[c]king new stuff.

But let’s talk about the movie, shall we?! I really want to share my thoughts with you guys, so IF YOU HAVEN’T SEEN THE MOVIE YET, DO NOT KEEP READING! MASSIVE SPOILER ALERT!!!

Let’s start at the very beginning, yes? It all happened so fast I am almost surprised Thor saw right through Loki when he came back to Asgard but given the way “Odin” behaved, I think everyone would have seen through it at that point (how did the Aesir not notice, like what). It was hilarious. Technically, Loki doesn’t need anyone to worship him, he’s fine doing that himself even though I am still a little irked they made him a “bad” king. I almost screamed when he finally came on screen though and damn, does he look hot or what?! 😍 Please let me kneel before him and feed him those grapes, for Fuck’s sake.

Loki in his black suit killed me, so a part of my soul is still in that cinema in Leicester Square. It’s hilarious how Loki dropped Odin off at a homeless shelter, my God of Mischief is so ridiculously wicked, seriously. 😏 And oh my god, you guys, Loki attempting to lunge at Strange is literally what I imagined what would happen after his epic fall. It’s part of my fanfic already, it’ll be such fun. 😏

So… I think I have told you that I was so hoping Odin would finally die in this movie and now it has finally happened! 💪 If you ask me, that dick got what he deserved. I mean, Hela was the villain in this movie (and I bloody love her character, she’s amazing) but she actually showed the audience (which didn’t ever root for Loki at that point) that Odin has in fact always been an arsehole. It still touched me though how he kept saying “my sons” when talking to them for the last time.

And when Thor “prayed” for Odin in the spooky circle? (Shoutout to Kork, he’s amazing too) Loki appearing behind him, joining him, them saying the last words together? Can we please point out that Loki has a good heart deep inside? You could see it there clearly, everyone did. ☝️

Alright. So… Hela is Thor’s sister. OMG. I recall our theory of Hela being Loki’s birth mother and I still support that headcanon but it wasn’t that far-fetched, actually. They are related, in a way. My reaction in the cinema was like: 😱

However, I am really glad nothing happened between Loki and Valkyrie (unlike what many people assumed). She’s a great character and I mostly relate to her cocky attitude but on the other hand… I still want to punch her in the face?! You get what I mean, right? And, considering the looks Thor and Val (I can call her that right) gave each other at some point, I think we all know where this will be going. I’m glad. Loki is mine anyway. 😌

Also, I didn’t know Loki could look into people’s past by touching their forehead? I mean… this is some good stuff for new Imagines, is there anything our Trickster God can’t do?! 🤤

I have to admit, I was a little scared of Loki being “the butt of the joke” in this movie. I feared they would downplay his complex character but in my opinion, they did a great job and even if he didn’t end up being the king (friendly reminder that I would still kneel before him), I’m mostly happy about how he got treated in the movie. Except for Thor being a violent little shit. Everytime everyone went like “har har” in the cinema, I went like “noooo”. 😥

By the way, we now also have the information that Marvel!Loki can in fact shapeshift. I mean, we never knew for sure, we know he can create illusions of himself but now it’s offically canon he can shapeshift into animals. Shoutout to Thor for bringing up Loki turning into a snake as a child to scare Thor. Did you see that smirk when he told that story?! Did you see it?! 😍

Also, I almost started crying when Loki said “It hurts, doesn’t it, being lied to.” OMG. In your face, Thor. My poor Loki. Throughout the whole movie, I just wanted to hug him over and over. 😭 Among other things… but that’s not the point. 😈

Even though I hated Thor being so violent (leave Loki alone, you giant oaf), I loved how he kept throwing things at him to make sure he was real, especially in the end when he caught what he threw at him, naaaw. Brother love. In the end, they kind of found each other again, perhaps because Asgard being destroyed connected them somehow? What do I know but I love how it all turned out, even if Loki didn’t end up on the throne… for now. 🤔

Can we talk about that post credit scene as well?! Hey, if Thor wants to bring Loki back to Earth, he’s most welcome to crash at my place. Besides, 10 quid says Loki took the Tesseract, which brings me to my next point; I am beyond content we will be getting even more of Loki in May next year already. I bet that was Thanos’ ship. Avengers: Infinity War is going to kill me yet again. How many times am I supposed to die for this brilliant character?!

I cannot possibly describe how much I loved this movie and I cannot wait to see it once more and fangirl again. What did you guys think about it? Personally, I didn’t read any of the countless “official” reviews because most of those self-proclaimed movie experts tend to critisise every little detail and ruin it for me.

So, what are your thoughts? Tell me you were as thrilled as I was? 😜

[pureparadigm]

December 24 2019

Are you “with” the very last person you kissed?No, I’m single right now

Ever kissed a someone with the name Casey, Tyler, Ryan, Jordan or Colton? Yes

Was your last kiss, standing up, sitting down, or lying down? Standing up

Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?

I’m proud of where I am and the choices that have gotten me here

Are you excited for anything?
Tomorrow is Christmas!!! :)

Do you hate the last person you kissed? no

You’re stuck in an elevator with one of your worst enemies, what do you do? I don’t think I have any enemies. But I guarantee I’d try to talk about my feelings

Will this weekend be a good one? I hope so, but I don’t think I have any plans

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone? Yes

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I doubt it. I would be surprised

Are you mad at someone right now? No :)

Do you like to listen to the radio in the car? I just listen to Spotify for the most part

Do you sleep with a fan on? Almost always

How is your hair right now? Its up in a messy ponytail, I haven’t brushed it today

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? My Willow girl 🖤

Have you ever broken up with someone for someone else? Yeah but I was young

How many windows are open on your computer? I'm on my phone

How tall are you? 5′6"

Is something bothering you? I feel content. I'm a little tired, I’m excited for Christmas with my family tomorrow (even though half of us are sick). I’m watching the Grinch right now 💚

Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before? Yeah

Have you ever laughed at something that wasn’t meant to be funny? Yes haha

Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex “Fuck you”? Yes, both jokingly and seriously

Do you like to cuddle? It’s probably my favorite thing to do (this hasn't changed)

Have you done anything sneaky lately? Sneakily gotten presents and wrapped them :) Christmas is more fun with surprises

Is your hair clean? Yes

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling? I was listening to music and fell asleep

Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes

What are you drinking right now? water, no ice

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? yes. Especially if i’m driving

Did you reject or accept your last friend request? I think I accepted it

How many people have feelings for you? Umm two that I know of for sure?

Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.

Are you hard to please? I don’t think so, it seems like I’m pretty easy to please

What are you craving right now? I was craving something sweet but I had some of my mommas fudge and now I’m content

How are you feeling right now? I would say peaceful...happy. I’m watching a movie I love with people and animals I love

What are you sick of? Nothing

Are you missing anyone/something? Yes

Do you love the last person you called? Yes, I love my momma

Could you date someone taller than you?
Yes

Is there anybody you just wish would fall of the planet? I’m sure I could think of someone (RT)

Did you hold hands with anyone today? no :(

Do you wear glasses? no

Where did you sleep last night? In my bed

Do you straighten your hair? no. Too much effort

Do you love the last person you called? Yes, I love my momma

What color shirt are you wearing? Tie dye

Do you have a best friend? I am blessed with several. Chris, Taylor, Victoria, Grace

Do you wish you had the chance to tell someone something right now? No I’m good right now :)

Who is the last person you got a text from? Karen

Are you texting anyone? Not right now

Are you excited for winter? it’s already winter!

When are you at your happiest? With Willow/cuddling, or eating good food

Do you find that you’re attracted to people who aren’t “right” for you? Sometimes

Do you prefer to spend your time indoors or outdoors? outdoors

What were you doing before you started this survey? Watching the grinch

Can you honestly say that you love yourself? Yes!

How many people have you kissed? I don’t know. I haven’t counted. But not too many

Do you just feel awkward when you dance? not usually because i don't really feel awkward about anything (RT)

Do you think you spend too much time feeling upset? No, most of the time I’m happy! (RT)

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? I don't really care enough to punch anyone

Do you own a pair of uggs? No

What are your plans for tomorrow? Christmas!!! Cinnamon rolls in the morning and gifts with my fam

Has the person you have feelings for ever told you that you’re attractive? Who do I have feelings for? The guy that came to mind first..no. He doesn’t know I like him

Can you get over people easily? noooo

Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay? No H

How was your weekend? I worked Friday Saturday and Sunday

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yeah my best friend

How do you feel right now? Sleepy

Do you hide your feelings or show them? show them

Do you like to have long hair or short hair? Long hair

What is the last thing you cooked today? We had steak and potatoes for dinner

What do you always take with you? my phone/cards, my keys, my backpack

Have you dated the person you texted last? No

Is good grammar attractive? not particularly, it doesn’t drive me crazy like it does some people

Last person you drove around in a car with? Just myself

Do you think relationships are hard? Yes. Very.

What color shirt are you wearing? still gray

What are your plans for tonight? I’m finishing the Grinch and then probably going to bed :)

Any friends who are constantly venting about their boyfriend? No

Have you ever been ice-skating? yes! I like it but I’m not very good

Does the sound of rain at night help you sleep? I like to listen to it, probably

Have you ever seen an albino person, in person? Yes

Do you like Fuze drinks? never had one

Did the end of Public Enemies make you sad? Idk what that is

Have you ever worn a pair of scrubs? Yes

Do you obsessively apply lip-gloss or lip balm? no but I use chap stick basically every day in the winter

Anything in your room that you’re hiding from your parents or someone else? No

Do you think you’d have what it takes to shoot someone if you had to protect yourself? no..

What’s your most noticeable flaw? I’m overweight...maybe my teeth?

And what’s your best feature? Physically my eyes, or my kindness

Have you ever walked into a massive cobweb? YES. eeek

When you can tell that someone’s lying, do you call them out on it? depends

Have you ever hallucinated? No

Do you find serial killers fascinating? I mean, a little bit.

Do you like Young the Giant? I do

Is your hair damaged? No

Do you live with anyone that you try to avoid at all costs? No

Who was the last person you threw out of your life? “Threw out”? I have no idea

Are you wearing socks? Yes

Do you regret something you did yesterday? No

When was the last time you cried? Today

Why were you crying? Something to do with Christmas magic and the movie I was watching this afternoon

Whats the last thing you ate? Fudge

What kind of bottoms are you wearing? Fuzzy pj pants

How many windows are open on your computer? still zero

What do you hear right now? The Grinch

How many hours did you sleep last night? 8-9ish

Is something bothering you right now? No

Who’s the last person you talked on the phone with? Mama

In the past week have you gotten sick? No, thank goodness

In the past week have you felt stupid? No

In the past week have you got your hair cut? no

What were you doing at 9 AM this morning? Sleeping

In the past week have you felt sad? I don't think so

Has someone disappointed you recently? yes

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? yes, they definitely are

If you could pack up and move, would you? yes probably 


Do you hate when people smoke around you? Yes

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours? Idk like 15 people

[kellykadesperate]

the fake dating au

(which must be actually written properly by me very soon) 

~ robert is this really hard working business man who just isn’t given the break by his boss (aka lawrence white) who just hates him for never following through with a proposal with chrissie and basically dumping her arse 

~ rob’s like a free little bird and basically has no real ties, no home (he rents), no family, and it’s not good for lawrence because he could up and leave any second 

~ and also robert is robert so builds up a great rapport with clients and it only pisses lawrence off further basically 

~ anyways so robert has vic and it’s her wedding day, he goes alone and everyone’s dishing out the whole “when will you settle down love” talk to him (especially diane) and he just isn’t having any of it 

~ then he clocks eyes with the bloke recording the wedding there and it’s all awkward because vic is like pressing for them to talk because the camera guy is adam’s best mate, is gay and well she is dying for her brother to just settle the hell down with someone 

~ aaron is like … Charmed and gets all weirdly smitten by robert in the space of like one night and it’s all really cute and awkward 

~ robert records a message for vic and adam and says something like “hopefully i’ll find an idiot to marry one day too” and aaron is all cute and tries to ask him out for a drink but robert just doesn’t get the subtleties at all and just thinks aaron is banging on about living in yorkshire and travelling down to london for the wedding

~ and then comes the whole throwing the bouquet thing and vic thinks it’s funny to throw it at rob and he catches it, everyone starts laughing and then aaron’s like shoved on his knee and it’s so Awkward and then someone takes a picture of them looking at each other weirdly loved up

~ anyway so a few days later … robert wants a higher position (naturally) but soon realises that he won’t be given one because of his lifestyle and the fact that lawrence can’t guarantee he would stick around for years because it’s not like he needs to support a family, or pay off a mortgage or whatever 

~ he’s like hellllaaaa pissed and then all of a sudden, lawrence is like “fine then, i won’t judge, you can have the raise and the office and a better title”

~  robert is like ??? and then it turns out that they all think that he’s engaged … to wedding video guy all because of vic and her big mouth and the fact that she showed lawrence the picture of them looking like they actually liked each other 

~ it’s all mad but at least robert has the job and then a girl from the office below them ~ let’s say her name’s lola for the lols ~ starts becoming interested in him out of nowhere and he realises it’s because he’s sort of off limits now and that’s somehow dangerous to her and he’s a proper bad boy now 

~ so they start sleeping together, her fully knowing that everyone thinks he’s seeing this bloke who he’s made out is like some hot shot ‘film maker’ and of course everyone just believes him

~ then bang, shit hits the fan because aaron goes and bloody makes himself a hero, he’s suddenly on the news because whilst filming a wedding, a fire broke out and he managed to save a little girl’s life and everyone is like what!a!hero!

~ robert loses his shit completely because everyone starts asking him questions about his brave hero fiancé and he’s just like … noooo oh my gosh noooo

~ vic is all apoplectic and starts saying that she had no idea it would be so public, that it will die down but then lawrence is all like “the owners of harding and ryle are really interested in this, they’ve offered to buy you and aaron dinner whenever you’re free” and robert can’t do anything about it 

~ so he ends up meeting up with aaron and aaron is just the same, sort of hates all the attention and pats on the backs he receives from people around, and he is like so happy to see robert again but he suppresses it as best he can and gives robert the chance to say why he’s rocked up

~ so robert is all like “well uh - a lie sort of got out of hand and now i really need you to come down to london with me and pretend that we’re engaged for just like one dinner and then you can break up with me really epically and you’ll never have to see me again. please?”

~ he offers to pay for everything as well and that’s when aaron gets all sad and annoyed about it because he’s like “mate, keep your money, i was thinking about going down to london anyway, asking vic for your number and seeing if you want a drink so… don’t worry about it”

~ and robert’s all stunned and a little bit flattered by it but ignores that and just thanks aaron for sort of agreeing 

~ so then aaron like fully comes down to london, comes right into the office and robert does the whole snog your face off with aaron in front of everyone to prove how much they love each other and even whisper something like “grab my arse and pull me into the office” and it’s just Insane

~  shows him around his flat, shows him the sofa he’ll have to sleep on because it’s only a one bedroom flat, and it’s all cute and sweet and aaron is like enjoying himself a little too much if he’s honest 

~ robert is robert and gives him this manual to look over and it’s got everything he needs to know about their 'relationship’ and then he leaves for 'work’ (lola rings him - booty call basically) and he goes running, but it gets interrupted when aaron shows up out of the blue and sort of makes a show of rob in the middle of the hotel 

~ aaron’s all like “she’s your girlfriend? why am i even here?” and rob has to tell him to chill the hell out because it’s not a big deal and he needs to stop making out like it is - and aaron hates that he's bloody jealous ??

~ that night rob sort of opens up about what he’s written in the lil manual and it gets all deep because he mentions his dad and his mum and the watch he always regretted pawning after he left home because his dad gave it to him he doesn’t even know why he’s telling aaron but it’s like so easy and he just starts realising how soft aaron is and it’s so fluffy 

~ by the next day aaron is like an official member of robert’s fan club and he knows all about robert’s life, his favourite colour, how he likes his coffee, and literally just everything and he is just fully Ready for this nice little date night dinner they’re having 

~  robert gets a lil awkward because it’s like aaron doesn’t remember what’s happening that night … the whole breaking up thing and he has to remind aaron before they leave 

~ and aaron’s all like “yeah of course” about it as he just can’t stop making heart eyes at robert and then robert’s all like “nice acting there, save it for the table though pls” and aaron has to shrug it off with a laugh when he’s really dying inside because the last thing he wants to do is stop seeing robert 

~ so they have this nice dinner and everyone is like full of compliments for them and how amazing they look together and everyone LOVES aaron, one client even says “you can see how much he thinks of you” to robert about aaron and robert is like flawed because he doesn’t want #feelings over aaron at all

~ like the night keeps going on and on and robert is almost waiting for aaron to start banging on about how robert works too much and that he isn’t committed but it just doesn’t happen, aaron keeps shifting the conversation and then they’re all dancing and aaron feels all tingly when robert holds his waist just … because 

~ and so he plucks up the courage to actually say “you know i don’t mind coming down a few weekends, maybe you don’t need to end this tonight …” and robert gets all pissed like “this is why i should have paid you!” because the last thing he wants right now is to see aaron for any longer 

~ they go back to the table and then robert starts really messing with things like saying “oh aaron by the way i can’t come to your family thing because of work sorry” but aaron is just like all smiles and really not letting robert break it off so easily 

~ so robert has to step it up a gear and pretends that someone’s called aaron and it’s his 'bit on the side’ suddenly everyone is like tut tut maybe this bloke isn’t amazing anymore and robert says something like “i’m sorry but you went against our - commitment to each other, our deal and - if i’m honest, you’re not as nice as i first thought you were”

~ aaron sees through it and like internally just says 'fine’ and starts letting rip, banging on about how he doesn’t give a toss about him, how robert never even tried to understand him just a little because all he cares about is work … robert thinks he’s just acting and then he says something like “to think i was actually fallen in -” and aaron turns so red that he has to just run out of the restaurant because he’s so embarrassed 

~ robert finds him later and tries joking about it all, saying that aaron deserves an oscar for his performance and aaron tries to laugh it off but it’s so clear that he meant what he said

~ rob’s all like “maybe i could buy you a drink before you leave …” but when aaron actually goes to actually accept suddenly lola parks up and robert’s all like “i’ll see ya back at the flat later yeah?" 

~ rob’s with lola and proper trying to get into it but then he’s like … "i need to go, sorry” because he feels so bad ?? because he’s made aaron look like a dick in front of important people and it’s not fair at all

~ when he gets back, aaron is like already packing his things away and when robert tries to explain to him that he’s sorry, aaron’s all cut off and reserved 

~  then the phone rings and it’s diane who is dying to have a word with aaron, robert tries to make an excuse and then aaron actually speaks to her and he’s so soft and warm with her and robert is like Charmed and it takes him by surprise 

~ he’s all like … “listen maybe you were right about … about you know, you coming down a few weekends” and aaron gets this hopeful look in his eyes and promises to sleep on it 

~ robert’s all happy, almost giddy about it and he tells vic that maybe aaron’s actually going to stick around for a lil longer … lawrence overhears and he’s all like - “i’ve checked into this aaron and it’s not pretty, he might be a hero but he wasn’t always like that trust me, if you carry on with him then - there’s the door”

~ and robert is like crushed ??? because he doesn’t know what to do but then he’s robert so he blocks out his feelings and sort of lets aaron know that lawrence knows about his criminal charges and doesn’t want someone from his business with someone like that and he can see how hurt aaron looks

~ but aaron just shakes it off and goes like “well we weren’t really dating so it doesn’t matter, look i’m going now okay?”

~ and then things get all Emotional and robert blocks the door all like “you were always just supposed to go away … don’t make it hard now" and aaron just pushes past him, won’t accept the money and leaves 

~ robert is the definition of a #kicked puppy™ and he goes around acting like one until he has to present this new business venture idea in front of a new client and then he finds that aaron found the watch his dad gave him - the one he pawned when he left home and it’s like the most Sweetest thing anyone has ever done for him and he is just blown away 

~ so he goes up on stage and is just like "i can’t present today … because - because of aaron, i lied about everything” and everyone is so shocked about it and lola is like wtf but he doesn’t even care because he just knows that he’s going to be sacked so he starts collecting all his stuff but lawrence actually stops him!!

~ lawrence is all like “it’ll take a few days to smooth this over … why don’t you go up to yorkshire and sort things out”

~ and robert actually goes because he can’t stop thinking about aaron and he finds out where he leaves and it’s so damn dainty and cute and he doesn’t know what else to say but “thanks for the watch" 

~ and aaron tries telling him to leave him alone because he doesn’t like being messed about but robert’s all like pls just listen but aaron just won't 

~ in comes chas who lets robert know that aaron’s working in the local church that night and that he should go and see him because "he hasn’t stopped banging on about investment banking and it must have something to do with you judging from your suit”

~ so robert is like all awkward, standing behind aaron who is filming this wedding and he won’t leave his side until the reception and he explains himself 

~ cue mushy shit like: “yeah i’m an idiot, and i’m manipulative and i don’t care about anyone’s feelings but my own and i’m - i’m so stupid for letting you go like that. but i miss you, i miss seeing you sleeping on my sofa and - well i don’t want you on my sofa anymore if you know what i mean”

~ and aaron’s all shy suddenly and doesn’t know what to say but, “i really really like ya, so this - i can’t do this i’m sorry” and he knows it doesn’t make sense but robert seems to get it because he says “i wouldn’t hurt you" 

~ aaron doesn’t say anything, just looks away and then robert sighs and says "okay yeah i probably would, more than once if i’m honest, but - but you make me want to be good and - maybe you’ll be the idiot i want to marry one day”

~ that makes aaron look up, eyes all watery and then he just marches towards robert and snogs the lights out of him and robert pulls away and says “i could love you” and then aaron just shrugs like “maybe i already do” and robert is just like stunned completely because someone might love him, someone good might love him and it’s everything he needs to know 

~  and then it finishes and we DIE

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Homestuck Liveblog #165

UPDATE 165: Catching Up in the New Timeline

Last time the retcon had been officially finished, since the fruits of this endeavor were shown. Things are better now, in more ways than one. In other news, the Wonderkids are going to be sealed in Caliborn’s juju at some point in the futurepast. So let’s continue!

So, everyone is gathered at Skaia, or more concretely right underneath it, on the platform where the door to the new universe tends to be. This can’t be endgame, because it’d be an anticlimactic ending, so it’s kind of a strange spot to gather at. What are you doing, guys?

Let’s see...Jane and Jade are still unconscious. Tavrosprite – yeah, that’s a thing, courtesy of Vriska. Maybe a good move? – is with Jake, Terezi and Vriska are to a side, Rose and Kanaya are over there, Dave and Karkaroni are over here...oh, good, the Vagabond isn’t child-sized anymore. Those are the current groups, so it isn’t like there’s a strategy discussion right now unless they’re shouting it as loud as possible. Maybe they’re just waiting for Jane and Jade to wake up.

Someone should take the tiara off Jane’s head.

Vriska and Dave manage to have a conversation from opposite sides of the platform, so I’m choosing to believe they’re really shouting as loud as they can.

DAVE: is it time yet  VRISKA: No.  DAVE: oh  DAVE: how about now  VRISKA: No!!!!!!!!  VRISKA: Dave, we've 8een w8ing for three years. 

I can’t believe they all have been sitting here for three years! Haha, no, I get it. So they’re waiting for John to appear, and since it’s unlikely he and his huge-ass planet are going to plop right in middle of this tiny platform and crash against Skaia in a cataclysm of universal proportions, he’s going to appear somewhere else, so it’s a matter of waiting for John to fly over here. Wonder if they know Roxy is going to come with him?

They know. Vriska seems to have found facts and stuff. Guess it comes with the territory of being a Light player, and since Terezi is a Seer...yeah, it makes sense.

VRISKA: I don't know the full extent of John's alt-reality experiences either. 8ut apparently things went raw for them in a8out as many ways as you can imagine.  VRISKA: Presuma8ly 8ecause I wasn't around to keep everyone's shit in order.

Oh, shut your trap. She’s not wrong, but let’s not pour all the credit on her. Partial credit is fine.

Tavrosprite continues singing the Praises of Vriska. Hm, I guess the Tavros this sprite is forming is a different Tavros from the one that went away flying from the ship in those dead bubble antics, which doesn’t make much sense, now that I think about it. I’m not sure how the whole soul thing is supposed to work, but I suppose that, since Vriska never died and dead Tavros never had the chance to look for rings and swab decks then he experienced a completely different dream bubble experience, separate from the Tavros that did go through all that. Uh, what I’m trying to say is that it seems two Tavros spawned from the same corpse, maybe because these are now different timelines. Yeah. Look, it’s complicated, okay? It’s Homestuck. Every time a complicated question is asked maybe that should be the default answer.

Karkaroni requests an infodump for the sake of the readers, so we are all brought up to speed on how the decisions about the sprites are like in this timeline. Oh, now that I think about it, does that mean there are two empty kernelsprites? Make sure they don’t prototype each other, guys, this session doesn’t need a black hole.

The circumstances regarding void sessions haven’t changed at all, but what I’m curious about is why Tavros was prototyped. What reason would Vriska have to encourage that? An apology for killing him, perhaps? It doesn’t strike to me like it’s a move to win the session.

ROSE: I was making extensive notes in my journal. When I looked away for a moment, you and Dave wrested the tome away, and began scribbling phalluses in it while giggling like children. 

Oh, that was still a thing. The fun times were preserved. Since making charts about spending time with Terezi was unneeded, I want to believe it was a chart about times to make ‘ill beats’ or something.

So yeah, what’s the deal with the sprites nowadays, Karkaroni still wonders. Vriska explains that she gathered all the bodies while they all turned their backs on them – like it’s Homestuck tradition – and stashed them somewhere, and just like I thought, she made Tavrosprite as a way to make amends. ARquius was a tactical move, since he’s a good strategist. And maybe because that’s necessary for the timeline to stay intact, given that ARquius is necessary for Lord English to exist. Say, you know what this means? That half of Lord English is “a fucking tactical genius. VRISKA: Totally conniving and calcul8ting, and unafraid to use methods that are just a 8IT morally du8ious to achieve his o8jectives.” What a wonderful thought.

VRISKA: And since I can't stick around for too long, your party is going to need someone like that. 

Where is she going? She’s not dying again, that much I’m sure.

The tiaratop is being disabled, good! That was something that needed to be done. Now if there was a way to guarantee Jade can’t be controlled again in any way...

Nobody else is going to be revived with the sprites, so they’re all staying dead. Too bad, Nepeta, Sollux, Feferi and Eridan! You are permanently dead. At least Vriska won’t condemn anyone to live as a bizarre amalgamation of personalities. Terezi is arguing Nepeta and Feferi should be brought back, since they did nothing wrong and Eridan did everything wrong, but Vriska won’t budge. She’s saving the sprites as a resurrection backup in case someone dies. That’s...hm...would a god tier player prototyped in a sprite have any of the god tier powers? I don’t know if this is a good idea.

Vriska proceeds to manipulate Terezi so she does what Vriska wants: not contradict her plans. Augh.

Dave attempts to argue about Vriska’s status as the leader because she kind of sat on the throne and proclaimed herself the leader. Nobody is really arguing that, but Dave tries to make sure Karkaroni is okay with being ousted. Maybe he is? He didn’t seem enthused about leadership after how everything ended for the trolls in the meteor, what with five dead in horrible ways.

KARKAT: ALRIGHT SERKET, THEN I'LL MAKE THIS A LOT EASIER FOR YOU, AND THE TEAM AS A WHOLE.  KARKAT: STARTING NOW, I HEREBY RENOUNCE MY ROLE AS A LEADER OF THIS GROUP, OR ANY, FOREVER!  KARKAT: VRISKA ALONG WITH HER TACTICAL VIRTUOUSITY AND MONSTROUS EGO ARE MORE THAN SUITED FOR THE ROLE.  KARKAT: AND IF, WHEN, AND TO *WHEREVER* SHE EVENTUALLY DECIDES TO FUCK OFF FOR MYSTERIOUS, YET-TO-BE-EXPLAINED REASONS, THEN ANYBODY ELSE WHO FEELS INCLINED CAN SLIDE RIGHT INTO THAT POSITION, SO LONG AS IT ISN'T ME!!!

It’s a bit disheartening to see Karkat renouncing to leadership like that. I don’t think he was doing a half-bad job, murderous people aside.

There they are! John and Roxy arrived. Perfect! John is more than happy to see everyone again, even those he doesn’t know at all. Roxy can just stare and stammer, notably bashful. Must be because Rose is right there. About time for a mother/daughter and mother/daughter reunion, I’d say!

There we go! That was long overdue. This should help Roxy come to terms with the horrors of the other timeline.

The first thing John does upon landing is give Terezi credit for fixing the timeline and ask about how the dragon plush affected anything. Turns out it was Terezi trolling John once again. You’re too easy of a target, John! Then again, it wasn’t like he could afford not following the instructions. He was dealt a lousy hand since the beginning, hah! Once again Terezi proves to be the one competent troll-as-in-trolling in this story.

VRISKA: I've received quite a few 8eatings in my time, and not only did I have each one coming, 8ut they all led to 8ig changes for me, on the road to 8ecoming the impecca8ly evolved person I am now. 

Well she still has the ridiculously inflated ego and the attitude I’m sure like half of the Homestuck readers loathe, but it doesn’t seem like she has gotten worse. I’ll just...be satisfied with that.

Rose seems to be having a bit of a hard time not calling Roxy mom, she’s just happy to have her. The sentiment is mutual, too. Jake is shy, Tavrosprite is conversational and makes John keep walking, and there are the guys John was going to. Hello, Dave, Karkaroni. Have fistbumps.

Nobody should be woken up yet, not until the brainwashing problem is solved, but yeah, Jade is going to be very happy once she sees John again. It can’t have been easy to spend three years alone in a battleship. True, she had the chess people and the consorts, but that doesn’t replace human interaction, does it? Then again, she...she spent like nine years or so living alone in the island. Hopefully that helped dull a bit the pain of losing John.

JOHN: hey, what about dave sprite?  DAVE: dead  JOHN: noooo! 

And the Davesprite from the other timeline didn’t come with them, unless he was conveniently roosting somewhere in John’s planet. Guess he’s out of the story now.

Now that John and Roxy arrived, it’s time to do stuff! Hah, okay, no, they’re going to continue sitting around and wait. This session is filled with waiting. Now they wait for the bad guys to arrive to the session, since they all had been thrown outside. Would that mean the end of Homestuck? Defeating all the villains? And they need to wait for Dirk, too. He may be vital for whatever’s going to happen.

Eight options?! Oh god, this is going to take me like five updates, won’t it? Guess this liveblog is going to come to a standstill, plot-wise. Well what’s one going to do, I don’t think there’s merit in skipping any of this, so I better buckle up and start going. The sooner I start; the sooner I’ll be done.

Karkaroni, John and Dave are the first ones in the list. Let’s see what’s to see over here.

KARKAT: YES. YES!  KARKAT: I LOVE THIS.  KARKAT: CAN WE SPEND OUR WHOLE REMINISCENCE JUST DESTROYING VRISKA, SLIGHTLY ABOVE AUDIBLE LEVEL?  VRISKA: Slightly?  VRISKA: Karkat, you only have one volume setting.  KARKAT: WOW, FUCK YOU?!  DAVE: ok dude maybe lets not spend our paltime trash talking serket if only cus theres no way youre not getting repeatedly trounced exactly just like that  KARKAT: FFFFFFFFFFFFFYEAH.  KARKAT: YEAH, YOU'RE RIGHT. 

Alright, that was a good one. Hah, Karkat simply can’t get away with something without being made fun of at least once. He also apologizes to John for all the shouting through the chat client, it may have been because he was nervous and flustered, and because, you know, he was crushing on John – and these are all teenagers, that can’t have helped. John doesn’t even remember any of that, so all Karkaroni is doing is once again embarrass himself. Really, he can’t catch a break.

I don’t think rapping about the previous black romance feelings is going to be of much help, Dave. On the other hand, does this mean Dave has been teaching Karkaroni to rap? Huh.

I had forgotten how hard it was for me to find the main idea in Dave’s ramblings. This is like...college-grade interpretative literary analysis challenges. I’m not completely positive about what I’m reading, but I think John may be hitting the nail on the head here.

JOHN: i think i mostly agree?  JOHN: but...  JOHN: ummmm, how do i put this.  JOHN: are you...  JOHN: are you gay now?  DAVE: what no  KARKAT: (THE WORDS. WHY WON'T THE WORDS STOP. DEAR GOD.)  JOHN: i dunno, it sounds to me like you're trying tell me something here! 

Well, congratulations for sharing that, Dave. Perhaps you should talk it with Dirk.

JOHN: um, were you and karkat...  JOHN: ARE you and karkat, like.  JOHN: hmm.

Well they seem to be rather close now, that’s for sure. It’s not really dating until both say or admit to each other they’re dating, and trust me on this: there’s no way Dave or Karkat are going to say they’re dating. Their personalities and stubbornness are too ingrained for that.

KARKAT: NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO.  KARKAT: I RETREAT TO MY SAFE PLACE, AND YET THE WORDS. THE STUPID FUCKING PRATTLE JOCKEYING LIKE ROWDY BARNBEASTS UP AGAINST THE PARTITIONS OF GOOD FUCKING SENSE AND THE MOST BASIC OF PERSONAL BOUNDARIES. 

Told you. But yeah, it seems Dave’s rambling is mostly because being around trolls has made him more susceptible to troll concepts, or so I understand. John would have gone through the same if he had been on the meteor, and that includes maybe understanding black romance.

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...Karkaroni just told John the feelings of frustration and being annoyed and all, and also considering Terezi a good friend with traits to admire despite all that, are the landmarks of a black romance crush. Hah! Now that’s something unseen! Congratulations on your newlyfound black feelings, John! You’re officially multicultural!

KARKAT: YEAH, THAT'S IT, RIGHT THERE!!!  KARKAT: THE "BUT" IS ALWAYS PART OF IT.  KARKAT: WHAT YOU'RE *TRYING* TO SAY IS, YOU HAD FRUSTRATED, NEGATIVE EMOTIONS TOWARD HER, BUT THEY DON'T COMPREHENSIVELY ACCOUNT FOR YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARD HER.  KARKAT: MEANING, THERE ARE SOME THINGS ABOUT HER YOU ACTUALLY LIKE, BUT THE NEGATIVE FEELINGS MAKE IT HARD FOR YOU TO PUT YOUR FINGER ON THEM, OR EVEN WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE THEM.  KARKAT: THAT IS ABSOLUTELY STANDARD. WHAT GOOD WOULD IT BE HAVING A KISMESIS WHO DIDN'T POSSESS QUALITIES YOU ACTUALLY ADMIRED ON SOME LEVEL?  KARKAT: THAT WOULD BE BORING, AND IT WOULDN'T EVEN WORK. THERE'D BE NO TENSION, NO PUSH AND PULL IN THE TURBULENT EMOTIONAL LANDSCAPE. THE SUBTLE POSITIVES ADD FUEL TO THE NEGATIVE FEELINGS, OFTEN GIVING THEM A REASON TO EXIST AT ALL. THEY INFLAME THE AGGRAVATING FACTORS, REMINDING YOU DEEP DOWN HOW MUCH YOU WOULD LIKE AND ADMIRE THIS PERSON IF IT WASN'T FOR ALL THEIR INFURIATING FLAWS, AND THE INCREDIBLE SENSE OF FRUSTRATION THAT CAUSES ALONG WITH ALL THE ASSOCIATED HOT-HEADED FEELINGS, THAT'S THE ESSENCE OF BLACK ROMANCE.  KARKAT: AND THE POSITIVE QUALITIES YOU SEE DEEP DOWN IN A KISMESIS ALSO SERVE AS THE BASIS FOR RED FEELINGS TOWARD THAT PERSON, ASSUMING THE RELATIONSHIP EVER STARTS TO VACILLATE.  KARKAT: IT'S ALL PRETTY STRAIGHTFORWARD, REALLY. 

That actually makes sense! It would never be a romance like trolls picture it, but it’s not unheard it could propel a love relationship. Rivalries based on mutual respect can grow into friendship and something further than that, that much is true. John is in complete denial about all that. If it makes you feel better, John, I really, really doubt Terezi feels the same way about you. She’s just messing with you because you’re a gullible dork who gets tangled in her pranks.

The discussion about Davesprite and Jade’s romance will have to wait for later, for when she’s awake and prepared to listen to all of that. Given that Davesprite exploded horribly too in John’s planet...that may be a touchy topic for her.

About Roxy:

DAVE: it sounds like you like her  JOHN: i do!  DAVE: no i mean  DAVE: actually like her  JOHN: oh.  JOHN: ... uh, hm.  JOHN: i don't know.  JOHN: maybe.  DAVE: wow dude after one day maybe you should slow your roll 

At this point that’s pretty much a trait John has, I haven’t forgotten he is Mr. I Want to Date Vriska After One Day of Knowing Her.

Speaking of Rose and Roxy reunion, I’ll go for that now. They’re very excited, but can’t think of any meaningful discussions, the enjoyment of seeing each other is too much for them. There’s nothing wrong with being in comfortable silence, don’t be afraid of doing that. But after a moment of just going in circles, Rose decides this is a prime chance of getting some answers about Mom Lalonde.

ROSE: Do...  ROSE: You really like wizards? 

The answer is not a surprise. There you go, Rose, it wasn’t an ironic passive-aggressive way of spiting you. How does that make you feel?

ROSE: But I've come to see that as mostly my fault. I was too young to understand her. 

You were too young, too paranoid and too smart for your own good. Mom Lalonde was a good-natured woman who had a very hard time connecting with her daughter and also had a serious drinking problem, you two are equally at fault, I’d say, but it’s not because any of you was malicious about it.

Kanaya is interested in Rose’s purple-prose filled wizard books. The bonding culminates in Rose and Roxy agreeing to share the rough drafts of their stories. That’s sweet, this is the kind of content I was waiting for regarding Rose and Roxy. They even have the chance to talk about the grieving they felt when the doomed counterparts died.

The drinking habits were an attempt to connect with their deceased mothers. A lot of these characters’ problems are an attempt to connect with other people, I’d say.

That was a nice chain of dialogue, I really liked it. There’s something nice in seeing people bond. Okay, next, Tavrosprite and Jake. Curious combination, huh. They’re getting along because they’re shy people.

JAKE: You have always been the one ray of light shining through the clouds in what has otherwise been an emotionally stormy game experience for me.  JAKE: Im so grateful that you found it in your ghostly bosom to drift over to lomax now and then to cheer me up.  JAKE: Often enough to give me a real pickmeup when feeling blue over friend problems but just seldom enough to feel like a rare delight when you did. 

Unlike Erisolsprite? This timeline is truly better than the other one.

The problem Jake has is that he feels too chained by his guilt to feel brave about talking to people right now, because he doesn’t feel ready to talk about his mistakes, whether it’s because they’re knocked out, or somewhere away in the session, or currently enjoying time with her mother/daughter. I’m sure many can relate to that.

I didn’t expect Tavros to actually be a supportive pillar for Jake. That’s nice, and lots better than the Tavros who let confidence get to his head. Good!

TAVROSPRITE: yOUR BRAIN IS COMPLICATED THEN,  TAVROSPRITE: i'M GUESSING IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE SOME SORT OF GENIUS,

...uh, maybe? In some vague way, maybe, because in other ways Jake is as dumb as a bag of nails. Tavros continues being supportive, and then brings up something I really didn’t see coming.

TAVROSPRITE: nOT RELATED TO THAT, hAVE i MENTIONED,  TAVROSPRITE: yOU'RE ACTUALLY QUITE HANDSOME FOR A HUMAN, 

That’s kind of a random comment in this support session. Tavros, what’s going through that mind of yours, exactly? Don’t tell me you have somehow fallen in love with Jake. Really.

Shut up, Vriska, your contribution wasn’t needed here.

Well I think I’m stopping for now, now it’s Terezi and Vriska’s turn. Leaving that for next time. I’m breezing through these options quicker than I expected, maybe in the next update I’ll be done with them!

Next update: two updates

[mrs-entwistle]

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1:Full name?I don’t feel comfortable putting my full name on the Internet, sorry!2:Age?21.3:3 Fears?Dying young/alone, insects, and heights. 😣4:3 things I love?Video games, Christmas, and antique stores! 5:4 turn ons?A bright mind, a kind heart, a good sense of humor, and beautiful blue eyes.6:4 turn offs?Rudeness/disrespect, no communication, lack of affection, and caring only about sex. 7:My best friend?Jeremy and my bf Stephen :’)8:Sexual orientation?Pansexual!9:My best first date?I honestly don’t even know? 10:How tall am I?About 5'2", I think.11:What do I miss?Stephen while he’s at work!12:What time was I born?I’m actually not 100% sure? I wanna say sometime around 6-7 am but I’m not positive.13:Favorite color?Blue! 💙14:Do I have a crush?Yes, on my boyfriend 😎15:Favorite quote?I’m never good at answering this question, I can never really think of any quotes 😅🙈16:Favorite place?Antique stores are guaranteed to be a favorite place of mine, no matter what. 17:Favorite food?Anything involving chicken and cheese, tbh. But my favorite treat is always brownies. 😍18:Do I use sarcasm?Quite heavily, yes 😂19:What am I listening to right now?Don’t Fear The Reaper - Blue Oyster Cult20:First thing I notice in new person?I tend to notice everything at once. I’m a quick judge of character and I’m very good at taking things in.21:Shoe size?6.22:Eye color?Brown.23:Hair color?Also brown!24:Favorite style of clothing?Anything that looks like it came directly from Stevie Nicks or Marc Bolan. 😎 I love ‘60s and '70s-esque clothing. It’s the best!25:Kiss someone that starts with the letter “R”?Nope. 27:Meaning behind my URL?I’m John Entwistle’s wife 😘28:Kiss someone that starts with the letter “M”?Nope again.29:Favorite song?That’s waaaaaay too hard of a question, my dude. 😂 Anything by The Who, I’ll just say that.30:Favorite band?The Who, for sure 🤗❤️31:How I feel right now?Very nice! I’m super cozy and content and quite happy. :’) 32:Someone I love?Stephen 😊33:My current relationship status?In a relationship 🌈💕34:My relationship with my parentsMy relationship with my mom is great, we’re as close as can be- but I essentially have no relationship at all with my dad. 35:Favorite holiday?Halloween and Christmas are tied, I can’t pick between them. 😎🎃🎄36:Tattoos and piercing I have?None at all.37:Tattoos and piercing I want?I want a little crescent moon tattoo for sure, and maybe a tiny feather as well.38:The reason I joined Tumblr?It was in 2012 when I was going through an extremely tough time and I had started homeschooling due to an unfortunate decline in my health. I lost all my friends at school and was looking for a way to meet new people with similar interests and occupy my time. 39:Do I and my last ex hate each other?Hate is a strong word. I don’t think he hates me, and I don’t hate him. But I don’t have anything good to say about him though; I’m pretty bitter about how things ended. 40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?Whenever I’m not physically with my bf, he always sends me those and vice versa. :’)41:Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?Noooo, lmao.42:When did I last hold hands?Yesterday. 43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?Lmaoooo oh boy. It tends to take me at least an hour and a half to two hours. 😅😂🙈44:Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?Yeah.45:Where am I right now?On Stephen’s couch with one of his sisters while she helps assist me on a difficult part of BOTW 😂46:If I were drunk and can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?Probably Stephen m and his family, honestly.47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?Depends on how I’m feeling, but usually I prefer it loud. B)48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad?I live with my mom. But as of lately, more than half of the time I’ve been staying with Stephen and his family. 😌💕49:Am I excited for anything?My future. :’) 50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Yes! A couple people.51:How often do I wear a fake smile?I try not to, but I do sometimes.52:When was the last time I hugged someone?Early this morning. 53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?I would be more than devastated. But I don’t need to worry about that because that would never happen.54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Probably… 55:What is something I disliked about today?My day has just begun, so nothing yet!56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?John Entwistle, even though he isn’t alive anymore. 57:What do I think about most?Stephen and our future. 58:What’s my strangest talent?My excellent impressions. 59:Do I have any strange phobias?I have a phobia of ants that most people think is strange and “funny”.60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?I am fine with either, actually. I love being the subject and also the photographer. I don’t have a preference. 😁61:What was the last lie I told?Probably that I’m fine. 62:Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Depends on the person! Probably talking on the phone, though. 63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?I 100% believe in ghosts. And I love to ponder the idea of aliens, but I’m not 100% sold on the idea. I love reading about the concept of them though. 64:Do I believe in magic?Nah. 65:Do I believe in luck?Sort of!66:What’s the weather like right now?Sunny as FUCK I hate Florida lmao67:What was the last book I’ve read?Gyo by Junji Ito 68:Do I like the smell of gasoline?Yessss, it’s gr8 👌🏼69:Do I have any nicknames?Everybody calls me Kait. And Stephen has a bunch of personal nicknames for me 😊70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?A fractured ankle, I’d say.71:Do I spend money or save it?I definitely spend it….. 😅72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue?Nope, I can’t.73:Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? I don’t think so :o74:Favorite animal?Cats and bats and red pandas 😎75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Cuddling with Stephen.76:What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Trump LOL77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Kokomo by The Beach Boys78:How can you win my heart?You can’t, it’s already won 😘79:What would I want to be written on my tombstone?“She has returned to the cosmos from whence she came” 80:What is my favorite word?Groovy.81:My top 5 blogs on Tumblr?I don’t wanna list just 5 because I love so many blogs, and I don’t like playing favorites 😭82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Something rambly about peace, I’m sure.83:Do I have any relatives in jail?Not that I know of!84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Probably invisibility.85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?I’m actually not sure? I’m openly honest about most things but I would probably be afraid to discuss my sexual ventures with my family if they were to ask, for example… 😅86:What is my current desktop picture?I don’t have an actual computer but my background on my iPad is a picture of John Entwistle smiling, and my background on my phone is a photo of me and Stephen at the beach that my mom took of us.87:Had sex?Yes.88:Bought condoms?Also yes.89:Gotten pregnant?Definitely not!90:Failed a class?Yes lmao 😅91:Kissed a boy?Yessss.92:Kissed a girl?Nope.93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?Not yet!94:Had job?Yes. 95:Left the house without my wallet?Many times, lmao.96:Bullied someone on the internet?When I was very young; it’s not something I’m proud of. 97:Had sex in public?Nooooo, lmao.98:Played on a sports team?When I was in school, yes- the basketball team 😎99:Smoked weed?Nope.100:Did drugs?Also nope.101:Smoked cigarettes?Yeah.102:Drank alcohol?Mhm. 103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan?No I’m not. 104:Been overweight?Not really? Maybe a little when I was a preteen.105:Been underweight?Nah.106:Been to a wedding?Yes!107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?Most likely LOL.108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight?Also definitely a yes, especially in the past when I’ve been sick.109:Been outside my home country?Not yet!110:Gotten my heart broken?Many times.111:Been to a professional sports game?I think so?112:Broken a bone?Nah.113:Cut myself?Yes.114:Been to prom?No.115:Been in airplane?Not yet, I’m kinda scared to. 😅116:Fly by helicopter?Also no 😅117:What concerts have I been to?Art Garfunkel twice, Paul McCartney three times, The Who, The Beach Boys two or three times, Brian Wilson twice, Air Supply, Joan Jett (she opened for The Who), Ringo Starr twice, The Monkees, a Led Zeppelin tribute band, a Beatles tribute band a few times, Stevie Nicks, and I’m seeing Paul Simon in a few months 😎118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex?Yes lmao119:Learned another language?Yes!120:Wore make up?Also yes.121:Lost my virginity before I was 18?Nope. 122:Had oral sex?Yesss 👌🏼123:Dyed my hair?I used to dye it black for a few years. 124:Voted in a presidential election? No, actually.125:Rode in an ambulance?Yes :(126:Had a surgery?Thankfully not.127:Met someone famous?Yes, Ringo Starr 😎🌟128:Stalked someone on a social network?I think everyone has at some point to some extent 😅129:Peed outside?Lmao no 😂130:Been fishing?Actually, I have not!131:Helped with charity?Yes.132:Been rejected by a crush?So many times lmao 133:Broken a mirror?Accidentally! 134:What do I want for my birthday?I actually am not sure tbh? I haven’t really thought about it…as long as I get to spend it with the people I love, I’m happy :’) 135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names?At least one or two, but I haven’t thought of names, really 😌136:Was I named after anyone?My middle name is in honor of my great grandma.137:Do I like my handwriting?Yes, it’s decent sometimes! 138:What was my favorite toy as a child? Nintendo 64 LMAO I have always loved it 😎139:Favorite TV show?That '70s Show and Always Sunny.140:Where do I want to live when older?I dunno, wherever my life takes me! It would be rad to live in England though 😎141:Play any musical instrument?Sadly not, lmao.142:One of my scars, how did I get it?I fell down onto the driveway when I was little and scraped my elbow and the scar is still visible. 143:Favorite pizza toping?Pineapple ;;;;;;)144:Am I afraid of the dark?Nah.145:Am I afraid of heights?Oh yes, absolutely 😅146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?Lmaooooo kinda? 😂147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?Yup, happens all the time.148:What I’m really bad at?Living 😅149:What my greatest achievments are?Getting my art to Pete Townshend and Roger Daltrey tbh 150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me?People say mean shit to me often, I don’t know what the worst thing has been though honestly 😅🙈151:What I’d do if I won the lottery?I would grab Stephen and my family and go shoppin 💃🏻152:What do I like about myself? I like my artistic talents and capabilities and I especially like my fashion sense and music taste 😎153:My closest Tumblr friend?Jeremy 😁154:Something I fantasise about?My future, yo! ✨

Thanks v much!!! This took awhile 😅💕