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i know that everyone and their mom and their grandmom and their neighbor and maybe even their dad has thought about it and maybe even the game has thought about and will discuss it, and yes it's primarily a neat mechanic that gives you a varied toolbox for solving little puzzles, but existentially what does it mean to be an echo in legend of zelda echoes of wisdom
#eleplays video games#i am making these shortlived copies of other creatures. when i create them they generally act in my interest#some even follow me around#when i can no longer sustain them they disappear#violence against them can also cause them to disappear#do they have consciousness?#are they being killed?#maybe it doesn't matter to zelda. she will create and destroy what she regards as non-sentient life to preserve what she regards as people#let's not look too hard at the bipedal wears-clothes uses-tools category of monster that is included in copy inventory#a monster type that has always been questionably present in loz as a series#anyway mostly asking bc i get attached to the two crow copies i always make to act as my guard dogs when exploring#and i get bummed when i have to swap them out for a different copy#am i killing them every time? am i gonna carry that weight?
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If stranger things was a comic (and I was the artist)
#EL AND MAX FOREVER#The vibe of season three cannot be beaten idc what anyone says#this was basically like the Ferris Bueller episode and I love it#please let them (consciously) reunite in season five I BEG#my art#stranger things#eleven#max mayfield#max stranger things#stranger things season 3#stranger things art#digital#also lmao excuse my colour work I really don’t have much experience and I literally do not understand how to use values with colour lmaooo
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If Timmy struggled with adjusting to magic because he was raised on earth, does that mean this is the reason Peri also struggles? Since in his early years he grew up on earth with his parents?
Yup! There's a multitude of reasons why Peri struggles so much, but they all lie in his origins. Peri was born from a wish! And Wishes, well. They're not meant to last long. Most wishes become unstable as the years go by, but Peri's persisted because he's an entire living being!
CosWan initially feared Peri wouldn't grow up properly, but he turned out nearly as fine as any other Fairy would! Probably!!
Growing up on Earth, being related to the VonStrangles, born from a 10 year old's wish, living past the lifespan of wishes, beyond that of humans... Each part is rather small, but when added together, it culminates into a very... very unstable baby.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop cosmo#cosmo#fop peri#peri#fop jorgen vonstrangle#fop jorgen#jorgen vonstrangle#fop wanda#wanda#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#asks#itty bitties fop au#ill have you know timmy held onto his consciousness until the moment jorgen bubbled peri and the baby boy fell asleep#timmy passed the FUCK out so fast afterwords haha. a bit too much of a blood loss that one.#ALSO YIPPIE END OF THIS SECOND BATCH#THERES 4 PARTS LEFT!!!#and then i can remove the 8 asks in my inbox about this aauhahehehe#man.#ough. slowly but surely im getting through them all guys!!!!#once all asks are cleared imma do a BIG celebration thingy when it opens up again !!!#ALSO ALSO#THE FORESHADOWS ARE SHADOWING#if you can pick up what im putting down
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Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.
Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao
Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..like…constantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.
In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho don’t take me seriously I’m not good with graphs
#maccadam#transformers#prowl#jazz#jazzprowl#fic fanart#momu fanart#I just#mmmmm#For the whole fic Prowl had to think twice about everything Jazz says#every information could end up being wrong#sometimes even without Jazz realising it#so when Prowl says#he’s trusting Jazz. it’s.#also it totally wasn’t me googling ‘believing and trusting nuance difference in english’#the moment I realised the difference I think my brain started rollercoaster loops#he can’t believe him but he found enough faith to trust him#while. YES. For the whole story Jazz couldn’t fucking be believed#list e n#Jazz did a lot of things for Prowl#fucktons of big and small gestures to show that yes he likes loves and appreciates Prowl#I’m so happy Prowl is returning this energy#like#remember that scene a while back when Jazz kissed Prowl? Cool cool okay. Did Prowl kiss him? nope. It was one sided gestures#*gesture. That kiss didn’t make me feel like it’s truly something precious because Jazz started it but Prowl didn’t do quite the same#but this👆. This feels so much more important for me. Because Prowl#who is for the whole story was mister I calculate every chance of possible betrayal. Prowl whos entire personality is to trust nobody#Prowl goes. Fuck that I trust you. You feel me?#it wouldn’t be the same if he said I love you. Because love is very much something you don’t have a lot of control over.#but to trust someone? It’s a choice Prowl had to consciously make. You see what I mean? I love it. oh fuck I ran out of tags..
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sorry these kinds of comments have been really pissing me off recently lol
#it's been kinda hard for me to pinpoint WHY exactly these sort of comments feel insulting#but i think it's mostly because it implies my original work is purposefully and inherently derivative of things i have no connection to#while i think being derivative in art is. kinda unavoidable in a sense (and something i'm aware i do consciously and unconsciously)#it feels like a slap in the face when people imply that my work cannot hold its own merit and need to be compared to#something in the popular conscious#and like sometimes people don't know it's original art which is fine#but it also doesn't hurt to ask if it's original instead of just. immediately assuming or comparing it to something else#i know this will only get more difficult as i continue to drift away from fanart and fan works#but i really want to be able to be proud of my original work and i want to share more! because it's a part of me!!#but its really hard when it feels like i'm always going to be compared to things people care about more!!!! AAAUGH#god. ok sorry i need to get that off my chest. if anyone compares computer angel to TMA again im gonna start eating drywall#fern's sketchbook
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I saw this from the female separatism subreddit & the responses are some of the biggest reasons for separatism et al (or extinction if I'm being candid here). Moids cant be reformed they are fully aware of the hell they force women to live in. MaIe achievement & happiness is rooted in female exploitation & life. Their glory days are based on our horrific days. No amount of love, kindness or facts will change maIes and we cannot happily or even neutrally coexist with them.
Main points across answers:
Many want to experiment but not permanently be women
They dont want to be in constant danger or lose their autonomy at the hands of maIes for merely existing
They dont want to deal with childbirth (& periods)
They dont want to have to share spaces with species much stronger than them with ulterior motives
It makes me go crazy seeing people give moids benefit of doubt for their evil like "maIes just dont understand", "we need to teach maIes", or claiming that maIe violence is a result of maIes struggling with (expressing) their feelings. I get that women love maIes and it can be hard to imagine that people can intentionally be so evil but it is what it is. MaIes have no problems expressing themselves, abusing women is what maIes choose to do because they enjoy & benefit from it - that is their expression.
MaIes see the same news of women being abused, raped, and killed like we do except rather than be disheartened or alarmed they're either apathetic or satisfied. It isn't aliens that's committing GBV it's maIes & maIes have no problem reminding women of this when women anger them (such as rape threats & threatening women they'll end up on the news/true crime). The victim blaming, denial, and derailment of misogyny is part of the game to keep the system alive, they know the events occured & are a systemic occurence they just dont care. Hell not only do they not care, they rejoice in it or get off on it.
MaIes set up environments that work in their favour which simultaneously ensures that women will lose. They know women are set up to live in damn near impossible conditions for us. It's normalised for women to defenselessly share personal & private spaces with beings much more stronger than them with ulterior motives for us, it's trap. It's interesting how these moids aren't saying that they'll just cover up and *poof* harrassment gone, or they'll just pick a nice guy & they'll be okay. MaIes know the net negative they are towards women.
MaIes know that childbirth is a painful process & what do they do? Demand it happens and make it even MORE painful for women. MaIes that impregnate women do not love or care for them. Pregnancy itself is dangerous & sometimes lethal, often comes with a range of health issues, to cause someone to be in that condition especially in a environment where abortions are illegal is reckless & unloving. Now imagine how sinister & full of hatred one has to be to impregnate someone and abuse them on top of that. Many women risk their health & lives to reproduce with a Y and they get abused by said Y instead of being taken care of. Deranged.
Realising that maIes are aware of the evil they inflict is one of the things that radicalised me. It isn't a miscommunication or ignorance issue, their violence is intended. They want control. The cruelty is the point. Instead of wasting time & energy trying to change maIes or hope that they "understand" one day, focus on yourself & other women (who prioritise women). Moids aren't oblivious to female pain they enjoy it. A lot of women treat maIe evil like it's a mistake on maIes part but it's calculated terrorism. I know that this will go over many womens heads as they refuse to hold strong negative sentiments about moids as a collective so if you're not a woman like that, take this post as a sanity check. You aren't crazy, it isn't all in your head.
#Will women listen to any of this? Nope. But I will still speak anyways.#I say all of this as an osawoman so attraction is not an excuse. The time for reconciliation & reform has long gone.#And stop fucking creating more maIes ffs#While many women are under the impression that moids are clueless about our oppression; some want to believe so bc they dont want to come#to terms with evil moids actually are. Because if you want to reproduce or have a positive relationship w/ moids theres no way you can#consciously do that bearing in mind what moids are so many women push it away. Anyways#blackpill feminism#blackpill feminist#female separatism#female separatist#males know what they're doing they just dont care#radical feminism#radical feminist#feminism#moids are terrorists#feminist
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YOU'VE GOTTA LET IT GLOW ?!
YOU'VE GOTTA LET IT SHINE ?!
(available as stickers on shop)
#I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THEY'RE SCRAPPING THIS ENTIRE GEN#IM DOING A VIDEO ON MY “REWRITE” OR “AU” OR WHATEVER IT IS#very proud of how these came out...ive relearned how to draw ponies#also made my izzy HUGE like she could PUMMEL HITCH if she wasn't consciously nice#all inspo'ed in some way by their concept art...expect maybe pipp and zipp?? these took like over a year to finalize so i dont remember#one thing that mildly iffed me about their designs was...WHY DO ALL OF THEM EXPECT FOR IZZY AND MISTY HAVE THE SAME TAIL???#shumm's art#mlp#mlp g5#mlp make your mark#mlp tell your tale#sunny starscout#izzy moonbow#zipp storm#zephyrina storm#misty brightdawn#hitch trailblazer#pipp petals#sprout cloverleaf#mlp a new generation#artists on tumblr#my little pony#medibang paint#digital art#mlp g5 redesigns#mlp mym#mlp ang#mlp tyt
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revstar emu save me
#please watch revue starlight#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#Im so mad i wrote 8 million tags stream of consciousness style and then aposted this to the weong account#im not rewriting all that. you get NOTHING.#actually i will say again i have no idea why this kind of blee up on twit please WATCH TEVUE STAKRIGHTBTNGL#i KNOW 4 thiusand of you did not watch it Watch revue starlight Do not speak of yuri unless you partske in the revue#sorry. anyways#the jist of it was ahh the assignments -> making cosplay -> might post it here if i can take a bice photo for once in my life#because im proud of it. as mortifying as it is.#my best friend is cosplaying an im the clown Two lesbians walk into the metro convention centre(is that where toronto comicon is????)#Oh right i was thinking of making little drswings of pjsk charas or at least exs and printing them out in bulk on a dheet of paper#and coloring them in w markers and giving them to people at the pjsk meetup or vendors i get merch from..#i thought itd be fun. Also i swear to god i have a sheet of like MAGNET paper somewhere i want to make people emu magnets#Ok i fucking for real have to go to sleep i have to get up for class in 5 hours. wuit your college join my emo(daily affirmations)
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DP X DC PROMPT #26
(I'm feeling angsty today.)
(#) = Notes at the end of post
(*) = Just me building off of other ideas.
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Going Supernova
The GIW have discovered his identity, and they don't waste time on using this knowledge to their advantage. They spent the last six months creating a weapon that not only hurts ghosts but absolutely obliterates them down to their very cores. After testing it for so long on minor ghosts and then discovering the local ghostly menace's secret, they have the bright idea to make an example out of Danny.
They ambush him as he's fighting the invading ghost of the day. Their first shot misses and hits the ghost they're fighting. As soon as the shot lands, the ghost freezes in place with a look of dread and horror.
They look up at Danny with tears in their eyes and has only a few precious seconds to say, "Run," before their skin cracks and they shatter, the miniscule shards evaporating into nothingness.
Danny is petrified and grief-stricken over what he just witnessed that he doesn't have the time to even twitch before the GIW lock their sights back onto him and shoot him in the back.
Agony consumes him. His chest burns, and his ribs rattle with the effort it takes for him to breathe through the pain. The civilians who were still on the scene gasped in horror as they watched their local hero's chest start to crack and glow from within.
What the GIW didn't know was that Danny had just recently elevated to Ancient status due to helping Clockwork with the timestream. That and with his status as a halfa, what they did will end in nothing but disaster. (1)
Danny spots his parents, sister, and friends in the crowd. His parents watched in awe and excitement while his Jazz, Sam, and Tucker looked at him with horror-stricken disbelief. Knowing what's to come and not having enough time to explain, he gives them a wobbly smile.
"I'm so sorry."
He whips around and rockets straight up into the sky. He breaks through the atmosphere in a matter of seconds and continues to fly at breakneck speed away from the little green-blue planet he calls home. He has to get away. He can't destabilize so close to them. He has to go even further.
His form is steadily breaking off into pieces as his human and ghost half fight and fail to keep him together. He can feel his human half dying and his ghost half barely holding on by a thread. He can't stop, though. If he stops here, the Earth will be destroyed from the backlash.
He had no worry for himself. After all, stars die all the time. That doesn't mean that's the end for them. They just take on a new form or even help breathe new planets and galaxies into life.
'A star's death is not the end!' He comforts himself.
He only makes it a few light-years further before his energy fades out to nothing, and he slows to a halt. It's only then that Danny starts to panic alone in the vacuum of space. The furthest he's even been from home and the comfort of his friends and family.
"No. No, no, no, no." He repeats over and over. "Not far enough. Not far enough! I'm still too close!!" (2)
His stuttering heart rabbits inside his chest along with his crumbling core. He hugs himself tight with the false hope that maybe that would stop himself from falling apart. He cries for his family, his friends, his planet. His life and lives he's about to take through no fault of his own.
Because for a star to give life, they must first destroy. (3)
"I'm sorry. I-I'm so sorry! Please!"
He sobs into his hands as the light of his core pulses one final time.
"Please." He whispers brokenly.
His core shatters, and he screams for the entire cosmos to hear. His form expands with immeasurable force and shakes the very foundations of creation. His desperate attempt to spare the Earth from his self-destruction was in vain as the waves of his shattered core ravaged the solar system and destroyed everything within its path.
The countless people and other creatures on Earth didn't even have time to blink before they were completely eradicated. Quick and painless but nonetheless gone.
It took centuries for everything to settle again.
It wasn't until countless millennium passed that the solar system began to take shape again. However, everything was reshaped and put back together as though with a child's memory of what it used to be from so long ago. Some things were bound to be different, like how Mars gained its own population of intelligent humanoid creatures. How Earth's own population started to develop extraordinary abilities and magic was able to be used more freely outside of supernatural species.
Soon, there were heroes popping up all over the universe of all shapes, sizes, and species. Some people were even reborn. They started remembering a life that, as far as they knew, never actually existed. How could it? None of the people they were before showed up in any records. There were records, of course. They just, unfortunately, no longer existed.
No one knew why, either. At least not until a magic user stumbled upon a tome belonging to what they knew as the Underworld. It told the story of a young boy who died too young and was destroyed from what he became afterward. How his destruction also destroyed the world despite the boy's efforts to save it.
This story was shared with the masses of people experiencing these memories of other lives, including the heroes who took up the mantle of keeping the Earth and other corners of the galaxy safe. They mourned the loss of a life so young, so bright and full of potential. They hoped that wherever the child ended up, that they were at peace.
Little did they know, the child was part of the universe itself, his very being woven into the fabric that makes up the night sky and everything that lays beyond. They can't see or hear him, but that precious child--the Ancient of Space--laid curled around the Milky Way itself with Earth cradled gently in his trembling hands.
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(1) Because of his status as the new Ancient of Space and the fact that he is half human/alive is the reason his destabilization took longer than the ghost he was previously fighting. An Ancient has immense power of the aspect of reality they control, and his human half was desperately trying to keep him alive. He can't live without his ghost half, though. It was also the power of his Ancient status that made his destabilization so explosive and damaging. However, him being a halfa is also what saved his existence in the end and allows him to still continue to be the Ancient of Space, as Space itself is always in a state of dying and rebirth. It just took several thousands of years to pull himself back into a semblance of what he previously was, but obviously irrevocably changed.
(2) According to scientists a supernova would have to be within 30-50 light-years to trigger a mass extinction on Earth. To be actually completely safe from one, however, it'd have to be 160 or more light-years away. Danny didn't even make it to 20 light-years before his core self-destructed, which is why he was panicking.
(3) As I'm sure most of you know, supernovae are essential to creating life, but that life is preceded by the death of said star.
(*) I haven't really thought of who would be reborn into which character. I originally thought of Jack Fenton being reborn as Bruce Wayne, but Bruce only disguises himself as a himbo while Jack actually is one. The only reason I thought it would work out it because 1) Jack's paranoia about ghosts and translating into Bruce's own paranoia 2) him regaining his past memories would explain his propensity to collect black-haired, blue eyed children because of his loss of Danny and 3) him and his relationship with Jason after he came back as Red Hood.
Other than that, I can't think of who any of the other characters might be. You can decide!
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#danny goes supernova#the giw fuck up#but when don't they#ancient of space danny#danny's destruction destroys the universe and everyone in it#time passes and he eventually regains enough of a form and consciousness to put it back together#but not a 1:1 recreation#several millennium of existence is bound to make the memory foggy#and thus the DCU is born!#some but not all characters have memories of their past lives before the universe was destroyed#they're yours to decide#danny did self destruct but he is NOT permanently gone#space has a natural cycle of death and rebirth#danny is still the ancient of space#the people sympathize and mourn what happened to danny#they think he's gone but he's not#your decision if they do discover he's still around tho!#danny phantom crossover#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#writing prompt#prompt#sleepy writes stuff
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Can you imagine how fucking angry Neil was when he heard Jean say “So Drake’s not a biter then.”
Because I can.
In that one sentence Neil learned 2 things.
1) That Jean was sexually assaulted
2) What he (Jean) went through was something akin to what Andrew went through with Drake.
I also think that reminded him of everything (that he knows) Drake did to Andrew. I think it reminded him of the time when Drake ambushed him and was paid by Riko to do so. I think it reminded Neil that both of those bastards got of way too fucking easily.
I think Neil put a hit on Grayson not only for Jean, but also for Andrew, Kevin, himself and anyone else who was hurt by Riko, Grayson and Drake (that last one might be a stretch but you get my point).
I think Neil felt so angry and helpless at that point and when he was presented with an opportunity to properly get rid of someone’s abuser, he took it.
#do you think after that moment Neil starts thinking maybe he was sexually assaulted during his time at the nest#I do#subconsciously if not consciously#I think he worries about it at least#if he tells Andrew about what Jean said and his situation with Grayson then Andrew would definitely start thinking Neil might have been#aftg#all for the game#nora sakavic#the sunshine court#aftg thoughts#neil josten#jean moreau#andrew minyard
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You are spontaneous, both in character and in origin. You set out on a mission to discover the world and discover yourself, and you have completed that mission with aplomb. So. Now I ask you...what do you want now?
I— want to help my friends.
#the adventure zone#the adventure zone ethersea#taz ethersea#taz#ethersea#taz fanart#romeo’s flowers#this was a very stream of consciousness drawing I didn’t have many ideas going into it shbdjs#but I like doing that a lot…I like Feeling a certain way abt something & then just drawing something to extrapolate on that feeling#that post that’s like ‘sometimes I just be saying shit’ but for me it’s ’sometimes i just be drawing shit’#I mostly wanted to do a study of the photo that inspired this bg & then merged it with a half formed Zoox piece idea I had in my drafts#overall I like how it came out!!#zoox anthellae#devo la main#amber gris#id in alt text
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He was about to kill you, Lex. Or divulge something you didn't want me to know.
— SMALLVILLE, "Forever" (4.21)
+ bonus from "Arctic" (7.20):
#smallville#smallvilleedit#svedit#lex luthor#jason teague#lionel luthor#clark isn't in these scenes but they're still very much#clex#sv 4x21#sv 7x20#dcmultiverse#my gifs#'why can't you see what's right in front of your face lex?' god. god. godddd.#I think there's a really interesting discussion to be had (with many potential viewpoints)#re: to what extent lex actually knew the truth either consciously or subconsciously at any particular time#and how much he was just in denial about it (and why)#I'm not really prepared to have that discussion in these tags but like#let's face it - lex figured out that clark had powers all the way back in 1x12#just because clark convinced him he was wrong at the time doesn't mean he just forgot that whole thing#and yet it seemed like the more seasons went on and the more obvious the truth became#especially the fact that clark was so heavily tied to all the alien weirdness of smallville#the more lex seemed to (subconsciously?) push back against accepting or recognizing that truth#I mean that's literally what he's doing in the 4x21 scene with jason#so it's like he both desperately wanted to know clark's secret but also didn't want to know at all#and that's just SO interesting#I mean jesus the 7x20 scene is supposed to be peak evil lex and yet he STILL has to be pushed into accepting the truth#and he does so with his eyes glistening because yeah he wanted to know clark's secret once upon a time but he never wanted THIS#(remember when lex told jonathan in s1 that he just wanted clark to have a happy normal life bc clark was such a good person?#and then he's told in 7x20 that to save the world he has to KILL clark and take that life away from him hahaha [crying] it's fine I'm FINE)#wow I really said 'I'm not prepared to have this discussion' and then just. proceeded to have it anyway huh. lmao oops
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So, a changeling is sort of like a p-zombie?
(For the unaware, “p-zombie” stands for “philosophical zombie”. It’s a thought experiment in philosophy that describes a being that’s outwardly identical to a human, but does not have a consciousness; that is, a p-zombie does not think whatsoever, although it looks like it thinks to an outsider observer. There’s a whole wikipedia article on it that explains the concept better than I can!)
They don't exactly think, as in "I dont want this" "I like that". But, Changelings do have a form of "Consciousness". It's just that their consciousness is more like a series of commands or tasks than actual formulated thoughts.
Timmy's Changeling has a very advanced "consciousness". It can predict future actions and reroute its tasks to pick only the best options for its situation.
We fill their heads with static to ensure that the Changeling does not form thoughts about anything. Thoughts leads to opinions, and opinions leads to incorrect actions. A proper Changeling should have more static in their mind than a TV screen on a defunct channel!
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#chimmy changa#asks#itty bitties fop au#changelings are like. a mix between puppetry and pre-programmed coding#because i like the idea of mixing the two genres of fantasy pinocchio-like creature with sci-fi machinery#(<- watched the pinocchio 3000 movie as a kid and it changed my brain chemistry)#the bigger and louder the static the less theyre capable of creating thoughts!!!!#man its a good thing we can increase the amount of static a changeling has. good thing static is all powerful and can never ever be ignored#hahahahahhahahaha#fun fact the simplier the changeling the less static it needs#hazel's changeling doesnt even have a set of commands#it like. it doesnt even have a consciousness. nothing but pure vibes and movement. and space.#'but cubs! chimmy has likes and dislikes! doesnt that count as thoughts??' i hear you ask#and the answer to that is.#hrm. it shouldnt be doing that.
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Just thinking about Joel silently admiring his pregnant wife doing her belly care routine like putting a bunch of lotions and oils on her skin to make sure the skin is healthy and to avoid stretch marks from scratching it and sometimes she’d let him rub the oils and shea butter over her tummy because that’s a way for him to bond with his baby and have his hands on her so it’s a win win situation.
And afterwards he’ll start talking to his baby just whispering sweet nothings and try to feel the fluttering kicks in response to his voice and just kiss along the newly moisturized skin and tell his wife affirmations so she knows she’s doing a good job and will be a good momma.
I’m emotional okay leave me alone.
#joel miller#joel miller x reader#joel miller headcanon#bye I want a baby#I have so many girl dad headcanons of Joel with Sarah#I can’t do this right now#enjoy my run on stream of consciousness
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most of us have heard of the red car game. you’re on a road trip, you’re bored, you start looking for red cars to do something.
and then they’re everywhere. you notice them nearly every few minutes.
there aren’t suddenly more red cars now, of course. you were seeing them already, but you weren’t noticing. you weren’t looking.
I am noticing things.
there is a plant I notice everywhere now, a small bushy plant in suburbs, along streets, by shops on the highways. dwarf umbrella bush is what the internet tells me when I look for it’s name. I did this because I wanted to know why,
every time I ever saw it, every place,
it was always dying. always the leaves turning yellow, the branches small and scraggly. inside out - nitrogen deficiency. their soil drained.
I am noticing how many of these landscaping plants are yellowing, how small and sickly they look in just a few years. I am noticing how often the grass outside the house is replaced when it once again turns brown and dry, how the type never changes and the cycle starts again. I am noticing how the unmowed, unkempt spaces on lakesides and roadsides look more alive than this. how the preserve I grew up next to was miles of “messy” unmanicured nature and the ground was covered in leaves instead of grass and there was life.
I am noticing the birds that come by the lake. there was a flash of blue wings and red chest - eastern bluebird, male, relatively common. I had never seen one before. there is a family of ducks that appear every spring; i cannot say if it’s successive generations or different ducks, but I can always look forward to ducklings. there are little brown birds with white heads whose names I do not know - are they some kind of piper? why don’t I already know?
why is it so hard to learn about my native plants (accurately, that is)? why are so many gardening sites littered with people who think a plants value is based on how pretty or useful it is to them, who think a tree shedding leaves is “messy”?
why is knowing about the world we live in so… odd? why is it a hobby and not vital knowledge? I learned about polar equations. I taught myself about mycorrhizal networks and species of insects.
(did you know there are shiny green bees? a special species of wasp pollinating figs? that white flowers bloom at night for moths? do you know? have you looked?)
I cannot look at a lawn and see life anymore. it is a wasteland, devoid of life, dying slowly itself. everywhere is grass, grass, doused in water that runs over into storm drains, soaked in fertilizer and pesticides and a hundred other poisons and sending one clear message:
this is a place of death. life is not welcome here.
I do not think I could live in a city. too loud, yes, too busy, yes, too many people, yes, but the plants would bother me. a tree allotted only a convenient square, surrounded by dead stone and metal.
a forest cleared for this, for burning asphalt streets and racing cars and shops whose bathrooms are “for paying customers only”.
this is a place of death. life is not welcome here.
and now I am noticing.
#it speaks#idk man this is stream of consciousness and it’s midnight lol#I’m having thoughts about plants and people and how much I hate lawns#anti lawn#firmly believe that nature knowledge should be taught in school#yeah there’s biology but biology won’t teach you what plants are edible or deadly#or what birds live/migrate in your area and what they depend on#they teach civics bc even if you’re not politically active you should know how the government works#if you live in a world you should know how it works#bc even if it feels like it doesn’t matter. it does. it will. and if you notice it now you can do something about it
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stop going through nd blogs trying to know HOW to MATERIALISE shit. you want to DO that? stick to loass. nd isn’t inherently about that. you don’t DO anything with it. not even CHANGE your identity!!
if you want to manifest something, it means that you are conceiving Self, “ ”, whatever the fuck u want to be a person. you are limiting what you actually are.
which is not inherently wrong or right as nothing is. it is up to you. do the fuck you want. you want to live your happiest life? go with the law of assumption, manifestation, the fuck makes you feel better. just know that with the fulfilment of a desire, there will really often be another, so it’s kind of a cycle. you do you. if you want to go beyond everything, read about nd, then do what you want with it. but truly stop asking shit that is already answered in the posts themselves. the main takeaway is that ND is!! not!!! a method!!! and if you’re not ready for that to sink in you should just probably take a step back.
are you going through a mental psychosis trying to understand what to do? you should probably shut off your phone. you should probably call up a friend and ask them to go out. you should probably go cuddle with your pet.
want a new perspective on life? want to free yourself from the shreds of desire? -> advaita vedanta -> drop it (THIS IS NOT A METHOD!!!!!!!)
want to fulfill yourself as a person? want to materialise shit? -> manifestation (law of assumption is a law, but with nd you go beyond that), methods, etc.
do the shit you want, but do it in the spaces in which that shit is done. do not ramble about ND if you see it as a method or a way of materialising things (because that is not what nd is about!!!). this is why i will post about the things i want to talk about in my blog, i will repost things about what i want, i will even reblog nd pointers, but i will not talk about it when i see myself as a person wanting shit. bye!!!
P.S. If any advaita vedanta blog goes through this and sees any errors, pls tell me and educate me!!
#law of assumption#loassumption#manifestation#law of attraction#nonduality#nondualism#advaita vedanta#loassblog#loa methods#neville goddard#3d reality#4d reality#consciousness#brahman#i use hashtags just for people to read my posts they do not have any rational connection don’t bite me
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