#diary2018

[grimini]

part 3 of ‘pages of my diary i am willing to share’

[tinfoilrose]

This months adventures.

December was quick, dark, and pretty.

This month i was depressed, disosciated, and agitated.

[kii-blog]

校正影片字幕時間軸

前幾周找到了喜歡的日劇Blu-ray版本+字幕，但其中一集的的字幕時間對不上，就決定來修正時間軸，順便修一些翻譯。

一開始，打算土法煉鋼，用note開了字幕檔，打算全手打，參考了網路上找到的另一個字幕的翻譯（時間正確但字體效果不喜歡），所以變得參考兩個字幕翻譯加上自己的日文能力修改翻譯內容。 這一個步驟還算快，畢竟只是內容校正，沒有需要改多少東西。

後來，開始校正時間軸才是地獄www 原本打算用貼的，然後一邊存檔，一邊用播放器確認時間，用播放器顯示的時間來調整，原本想說，嗯這個想法真是讚，好想罵那時的自己兩句www 花了一堆時間檢查、複製貼上，手指都痠痛了，才完成不到五分鐘。

隔天覺得這樣真的不行，於是走上了尋找字幕製作的軟體，看到srtedit，一開始只打算貼上比較正確的字幕的時間軸進去，然後稍微調整，但是前一天左手的複製貼上的疲勞依舊，所以還是很不舒服，進度也很慢，後來就被放置了幾天。

直到今天，想說新年前一定要完成，用了srtedit一兩個小時，進度依舊緩滿，決定用用看之前看到可以砍到音頻的聲波圖的Aegisub，因為感覺這樣速度會快很多。沒想到，真的沒有失望，只要右手按著滑鼠的左鍵右鍵+左手按空白鍵enter，就可以一個一個對著拉時間軸，根本超方便。

剩下十幾分鐘的時間軸了，看來今天一定可以完成，加油！

[softesthearts]

i’ve cried like 3 times today... anyone wanna listen to me rant so i can cry again

[raelzquinn]

Miss that moment.

[petilab]

📙A|G|E|N|D|E 📕Copertine illustrate a mano ✍🏻 #petilab #agenda #diary #diary2018 #fattoamano #handmade #handcrafted #handmadenotebook #paper #illustration #binding #bookbinding #craft #writing #madeinitaly #roma #rionemonti #viadeglizingari #officineadda

[nagsusulatnamais]

Over romanticizing leading me nowhere and making me feel left out

I always create imaginary scenarios in my head from having a condominium in makati seeing the city lights having sex to meeting someone who’ll make me stop my vices (drinking and smoking). I am really a sucker when it comes to romantic cliches of life, It’s inevitable not to do this. It’s a habit now. 

There’s this one scenic moment that happened to me recently. It felt like an out of a movie scene. I always fantasize watching sunrise with someone special, hopefully it’s with my SO. But, things will not go well as you planned it to be. 

The scenic moment happened when there are only two cigarettes left in the table sitting with boozes and pulutans. I asked Francis if I could have the last stick to smoke, he jokingly said that it’s for him and his mother. I laughed and then asked me if I want to watch the sunrise while smoking. I said Yes like it was a proposal.  

I realized that life imitates art or its the other way around. But, that moment was unforgettable. It was a moment out of a movie, I could imagine cameras panning to different angles, different filters were used, a lot of retakes, a terrible moment of silence, words afloat just like it’s supposed to be and a lot of adlibs too! It was so honest that I believed it’s a lie. Up until now I can vibrantly recall that moment. It was so pure that it’s etched in my heart, in my mind, written in the diary of the Universe. I am lucky to experience such purity of moment, being yourself, sitting comfortably with cigarettes in one hand and the other for just there. 

We sat comfortably in the cement garden-like of a bamboo plant. I’m in the right place and Francis was in left side, he was holding the box of Marlboro lights with lighter that has animated prints as its design and then offered it to me. The first hit was delicious and so was the following ones. In the middle of silence, my eyes were perch to the rising of sun, the changing of hues in the sky and the breeze of that morning - a question popped, “Anong plano mo pagkatapos nito?” (non verbatim). It struck me, left me speechless and I went blank -one organ did not, it was my heart, figuratively yelling what I really desire. It’s to help. I don’t know why, it just feels right. I answered it wholeheartedly, I got some things that stayed with me until now. It’s really hard finding your purpose, what you want and what you are. Like what Francis said, this is the crucial years of one’s life. This will determine what one will be like in the following years.  I think the confusion, fears, doubts, happiness, negativity and the package of positive shizzums is normal to feel because it’s just it is. We ended our session with a quote that Kiko lives by “Experience Life”  this was a quote from his professor in creative writing in UP. It’s simple yet broad. 

I graduated college, passing the board exam is my top priority right now and after this I’ll find another dream. 

Good Night. 

[gtbeauty5]

Ever since I was young I have wanted to go to New York at Christmas so this November my Mum and I decided to go to New York for 5 days 🙂 We shopped in Bath and Body works and Sephora looking at their Christmas collections which I absolutely loved and also went to an outlet to shop for Christmas presents 🙂 We went to two different Broadway shows- Anastasia and Dear Even Hansen- both of which were amazing!! I went into a 7/11 and lived my best Heathers life, we went to the Spotlight Diner which was so much fun and I would highly recommend if you end up in New York that you go to because it was so much fun 🙂 We walked along the Brooklyn Bridge, along the Highline, found the Friends Apartment, sat on the Met Steps and went up the Rockafeller Tower at night which was so much fun and had such an amazing view as we managed to go up during the sunset! Finally we went to the Tree lighting ceremony at the Rockafeller centre 🙂

Let me know in the comments if you have ever been to New York and if you have if there is anywhere you would recommend I check out if I go back 🙂

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New York 2018 :) Ever since I was young I have wanted to go to New York at Christmas so this November my Mum and I decided to go to New York for 5 days 🙂 We shopped in Bath and Body works and Sephora looking at their Christmas collections which I absolutely loved and also went to an outlet to shop for Christmas presents 🙂 We went to two different Broadway shows- Anastasia and Dear Even Hansen- both of which were amazing!!

[tinfoilrose]

Went to London and saw the @thedresdendolls and it was the best ❤

[planet-michaels]

When you brother gives you his own Diary! Thanks John! 😘. #brotherlove #diary2018 #sanlam #namibia #100years #planetmichaels (at Windhoek, Namibia)

[softesthearts]

y’all i actually think my body is killing itself from the inside out ... alexa play another one bites the dust

[studythecatcus]

Exam season is over! All that sweet sweet green shows the completion of tasks and exams, creating an extremely satisfying week! I also got a new notebook for all of my university prep that I need to do!

[raelzquinn]

Dear god, please take care of him. He’s a wonderful person I had ever seen. Rest in peace, granpa. 19/2/2018 5 a.m. With love, your niece.

[kii-blog]

布丁

蛋液 全蛋 4顆 砂糖 35g,

牛奶 牛奶 600g 砂糖 25g 香草精 幾滴

步驟

鮮奶、砂糖和鮮奶放進鍋內加熱

煮到砂糖融化後關火，底部可能會有糖沒融化

雞蛋加入砂糖、香草精，用攪拌器打散

牛奶液慢慢倒入蛋液中，一邊加入一邊攪拌

攪拌均勻後，用濾網過篩兩次，確定沒有顆粒

液體倒入容器中，放上烤盤

烤盤倒入沸水，1.5到2公分

烤箱預熱150度C

放進烤箱，烤25到30分，直到筷子插入不會有液體流出

放進冰箱冷藏三到四個小時

[nagsusulatnamais]

Episode 11

I’ve been out for a really long time, haven’t updated anything in here. And here I am, ‘bout to tell you the weirdest, craziest past few weeks that happened to me! Sharing it to the world because I want to remember it as it is, not missing any detail and the rawness of what I’m about to share to you! 

When you read this post again, after many years of being hiatus, I hope that as you reminisce the event I hope you remember the feelings you felt too. Us by James Bay was playing. 

Actually, I’m broken. In a sense that I don’t know what I should do, I don’t have any plans, I feel like I’m out of tune and I’m disappointed with myself. It’s funny how I always plan things and then out of nowhere, my bottle of feelings got ruptured and did something that I thought I am unable to do until it’s done. I feel empty. I know that there’s something missing in my life. For me, it could be a person. Or maybe a feeling. I don’t know. I have to find out. 

Stepping out from a long-term relationship was hard, it was a long process. We talked for almost a week, a lot of people are cheering me up (some are helpful, some are just nah) despite of that I’ve come up with an individualistic decision for myself and it’s to finally let go.

To be honest, from my view, the relationship was really a toxic one na, not just to me but to my partner as well. I don’t see us growing together in a good way, we always had our own ways. Yes, we did a lot of compromising but there’s just something missing and it’s the basic, the most important thing in any relationship, it’s trust. It was hard for the both of us, but, it would be a lot harder if we push it, we’ll just end up hurting each other even more and I’m not happy na din talaga, I don’t feel the fire burning anymore. Yes, I’m in a relationship but I don’t feel the connection, the commitment anymore. We’ve had our ups and downs, our laughs and cries, we fought hard for each other but enough is just enough. We had our own issues and let’s face it, we’re not facing anything together, we were too independent to depend to each other. 

I don’t deserve this kind of love anymore. I think what I need is self-love. I was too focus on loving another person that loving myself became an option. Love caught me off guard, as always in all ways. 

This is just the part where a story ends. We see each other, talk to each other but not often like before. I believe that this is a part of the process of being apart. I am indeed a funny girl. 

[gtbeauty5]

Take graduation photos (5.7.18)- Although Hannah and I were not at the same university we decided to take some photos together in our graduation dresses in tribute to some of the American youtubers we watch who do graduation photoshoots with their friends 🙂 

Go on a flat night out and take a flat photo (14.4.18)- On the 14th of April as a flat we went on a night out for my flatmate Chiara’s birthday 🙂 Despite living together since September this was the first time we had been on a night out together 🙂 

Have a flat dinner (11.12.17)- I always get so excited for christmas so as a flat we decided to get together and have a flat christmas dinner 🙂 We split up the cooking, spent the day listening to christmas songs and laughing which was so much fun 🙂

Visit a friend at their university (11-12 of November 2017)- In November Hannah and I jumped on a train to go and visit our friend Anna at university in Durham for the weekend 🙂 I had never been to Durham before so it was really cool being shown around by someone who really knew the city 🙂

Buy my universities merchandise (6.3.18)-I decided to buy my universities hoodie as I am always wearing hoodies in the winter as it is constantly freezing in the UK and hoodies are so comfortable!  

Have a drink at my university bar (9.3.18) This part of my senior year bucket list actually happened really spontaneously where after a meeting about my dissertation the person I was Workington suggested we go for a drink and talk about stuff other than the dissertation 😂 we got on really well and she was really sweet so I’m really glad I said yes.

Go to the Hawkshead Farm (25.1.18) My university at its hawk head campus has a farm where they keep cattle, sheep and pigs for the veterinary students to work with to practice basic handling techniques, and observe a running farm. Going to this farm I had only ever worked with sheep and cattle so working with pigs was great fun and a completely different experience for me.

See the changing of the guard at Buckingham Palace (13.6.18). On the 13th of June my friend Hannah and I did a day out in London where we went to see the changing of the guard at Buckingham palace which was something I had never seen and Hannah’s had only seen once when she was younger. I would recommend this experience but make sure to get there early to get a good view and it is definitely worth going in the summer if you can as you may be waiting around for a while!

Go to see a university play (5.2.18) although not my university I feel like UCL sort of adopted me at times as in first year my halls was located very near to the UCL campus so there were a lot of UCL students there and most of my friends from my halls went to UCL I would often end up going to UCL events with them. Rent is a fantastic musical which I had never seen before so when my friend told me UCL were putting on a production I knew it was the perfect opportunity to go see this amazing show 😊

Pull an all nighter- Although I don’t have a specific date for this there were definitely a few all nighters when it came to exam and dissertation time!

Bake cookies for my flatmates 🙂 (20.3.18)I personally love baking so once all of my exams were done I thought I would do some baking so make chocolate chip cookies and triple chocolate chip cookies 😊

Wear pink on a Wednesday (6.6.18) After exams my friend Dorothy and I went out for brunch and cake to this amazing cafe which has pink decor and I then realised that it was a Wednesday it felt like fate!

Go to my Uni’s graduation party 🙂 (6.7.18) My friends Ellie, Ria and I decided to go to our university’s grad ball and it was a lot of fun 😊 it was an evening of laughter, dancing and good food and company 💕

Have a sleepover with Ellie and Ria (16.12.17) On the 16th of December I met up with Ria and Ellie for an evening we have dubbed Currymas because we celebrated Christmas together, exchanged presents, watched the greatest showman and ordered a curry 😊

Graduate! (5.7.18) On the 5th of July I officially became a graduate!!!!!! It was amazing but also really scary and I have now officially finished my education!!

Let me know in the comments whats on your Senior Year bucketlist 🙂

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Look back at my senior year bucket list :) Take graduation photos (5.7.18)- Although Hannah and I were not at the same university we decided to take some photos together in our graduation dresses in tribute to some of the American youtubers we watch who do graduation photoshoots with their friends 🙂