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I don't know if you'll ever see this, but i just binge reblogged almost your whole tumblr and i thought i should leave a little something before i go again. I already came and went, seeing your art around so many times that it didn't feel right to just close the door behind me once more. I've followed you around ever since i was 11 years old, from Deviantart and across the internet. I'm 24 now. Your art inspired me to draw. There were times when i forgort about your art and was suddenly reunited with it again through pinterest, through tumblr, through a post on Twitter and went "oh it's CanisAlbus again!" You may never know me. We may never talk or get to know each other, but isn't it so amazing that even without knowing, something so simple as a guy sketching silly dogs on the internet can influence other people's lifes across the globe? Never doubt yourself.
Thank you for taking the time to leave me a little note, I'm very moved by your words! It's always very sobering to hear that you or your creations have been a significant part of someone's life. I guess I've been posting art for a long-ish time now so it shouldn't be that big of a surprise that there are people that have known my work for a good while, but it's still hard to conceptualize.
#answered#solichi#for real though I've always been strongly introverted and wallfloverish so the thought of there being a whole lot of people#in other sountries and continents no less#that like and relate to what I make#despite never meeting me in person#it's just mind boggling sometimes#not to get too sappy on main I know this is a common concept especially in the modern internet age#but if you stop to actually think about it it feels unreal#thank you for your interest and support
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Blood Blossom Au: Baby's First Commissioner Meeting :)
TL:DR This Post: Danny (orphan) gets poisoned with blood blossom extract by Vlad. He runs away from him and ends up under the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman! Starry is loudly pushing her batdad agenda.
(Also known as "Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings" on my ao3!)
This was a fun rough idea I've been sitting on for weeks, thinking about how Commissioner Gordon and Nightingale's first meeting might go.
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Commissioner Gordon likes to think that he's adjusting to the new normal of Gotham very well, -- the new normal being grown men running around dressed like bats, in military-grade strength body armor, committing acts of vigilantism, -- and slowly, little by little, he was no longer being surprised when this new normal pops up out of the shadows like the world's most terrifying daisy. His shaving lifespan thanks him for it.
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The kid is a surprise though.
Granted, he seemed to be a surprise to the Bat too.
There's been a string of murders lately, -- which, in Gotham, is kind of like saying there's been another storm during monsoon season. And there's just been another; in some dilapidated building down in south Gotham, with the broken, boarded-up windows and mildew-crawling walls to match. The victim is a man in his thirties, multiple gunshot wounds to the chest, left in the center of the room for the blood to pool out around him.
The place is already secured when he arrives, the building swarmed with officers and the forensic detectives. The Bat emerges shortly after he does -- or, he might've been here the whole time, hiding someplace dark and shadowy. For his own sanity, Gordon doesn't think about it too hard.
The kid is a surprise, and he appears like a bolt of lightning.
He shows up in the middle of a conversation Gordon is having with the Bat.
A whistle, sharp and loud, slicing through the air, meant for open air rather than a confined space. Gordon's ears pierce and protest the sound, and the solemn, murmured chatter floating through the room abruptly cuts off like the swing of a gavel. As he turns towards the sound -- as they all do -- he swears, up and down, that he sees Batman's shoulders jump, just slightly.
At the source, perched on the window, is a boy. A boy in a gray-blue scarf and an oversized black hoodie, one that hangs off his frame and has ace bandages wrapped around the wrists in some attempt to cinch the sleeves. The hood is up, big like the rest of it, and threatens to swallow the upper half of the boy's face whole in the fabric. What upper half Gordon can see, is smeared with some kind of opaque, black face paint. He's holding onto the side of the frame with one hand, on his hip is a grappling hook. A familiar grappling hook.
Gordon has multiple questions, and his officers tense up.
Martinez puffs up, brows furrowing as his face shapes into a frown. Shoulders rolling back. "You can't be here, kid--"
The reaction is immediate, like a spark to gunpowder, the boy yanks his fingers from his mouth and his mouth twists into a scowl. Head snapping over to Officer Martinez, his hood manages to stay on but Gordon swears that as he bares his teeth, the glint makes them look sharper than they should be. His voice is rasp and quiet and harsh; snappish in its hissing; "Put a fuckin sock in it, Martinez. I'm not stayin."
Martinez reels back, and the boy immediately veers his attention off him. Like a switch, his demeanor drops. Despite half his face being covered, his mouth twists into a cringing, apologetic smile. Slanted and off-beat, embarrassed. It'd be disarming if this wasn't Gotham, and if he didn't just hiss at Martinez like he was about to bite his head off.
"Sorry." He whispers, voice deceptively polite and softer now. Gordon has to strain his ears to hear him. "I was looking for him."
He points his finger towards-- Gordon? No, Gordon follows the direction, and finds himself looking at -- the Bat.
The Bat, who always looks stiff as a pole, now looks even stiffer. Somehow. Well, the explains the grappling hook attached to the boy's waist.
"What are you doing here?" The Bat says, gruff and unable to completely smother the stumble of surprise in his tone.
The boy still holds a sheepish smile, and slips off the window ledge. His feet hit the creaky boards with a near-silent thud, the Batman finds his feet and rapidly begins crossing the room.
Gordon notes the slight tremble in the boy's legs as he straightens. He adjusts his scarf, which droops close to his knees now that he's standing, and slings a backpack -- how long has had that? -- off his shoulders. When the Bat reaches his side, he does as he always does, and looms over the boy like a spectre. A threatening mass of shadows cloaked in all-consuming black. Standing next to him, the boy looks teeny in comparison.
The Bat is a man who terrifies even the most hardened criminals, Gordon has seen grown men shiver in fear at the mention of his name. And yet when the boy looks up at him, he doesn't even flinch.
Instead, his sheepish smile melts away like ice under the sun, holding only traces of his previous embarrassment. It remains as a shadow on his face, a small upturn at the corners of his mouth. The boy pushes his hood back just enough to reveal glinting, ice-flint eyes surrounded in tar-black face paint. He holds the backpack up with one arm. "You forgot this."
#I have never seen Batman (2022) so really I'm just using battinson and crew as templates for my fic. but hey what else is new lol#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fic#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc fanfic#i dont know shit about detective work or true crime so forgive me for any bad terminology or incorrect procedure for how these things work#just a fun rough idea for how i imagined gordon's first meeting with nightingale goes LMAO. im sticking to the idea that danny doesn't#officially join the field for a *while* due to more than just health reasons. so his first appearances are brief and usually to give B smth#danny: im only here as express delivery for vader's little brother over there. yall stay safe tho.#bruce: *kill bill sirens bass-boosted* ohmygodwhatishedoinghere#batman: how did you get here... | danny: you have so many spare grappling hooks it was pr easy to just grab one and go#also danny is whispering on purpose because he doesn't have his ghost form to fall back on as a secret identity. so he *is* actually taking#extra steps to keep his identity safe. and people usually sound different when they're whispering. he also has personal beef with#office martinez despite the fact that they've never met. Danny's HEARD of his ass. he hATES his ass.#Martinez: *to batman* freak | danny: im going to Bite Him. | batman (reluctantly): hmr. please don't. | danny: im going for his shins#Martinez and Nightingale have this whole thing going on between the two of them. danny WILL slap a sticky note on Martinez's back that says#'asshole' on it and its the one spot square on his spine that martinez can't reach.#someone: why are you beefing with like. an actual 12 year old | martinez: HE'S A LITTLE RAT. THAT'S WHY. he's here to torment me#battinson: *did you grapple the whole way here* | danny: yah. it was kinda fun. i would've gotten here faster but i kept having to stop#battinson: *hnnn* im driving you back | danny:.. are you sure? | battinson already pulling him out of the room: y e s#i've been thinking about this for literally WEEKS. what did bruce forget? good question! i'll figure that out if or when i get to this#danny has Issues behind the word freak so its like a mini beserker button for him regardless of who the word is aimed at lol. lmao#martinez calls batman a freak once while nightingale is within range and its just the doom ost as danny simply Disappears from sight#like oops. you are now. In Danger. rip couldn't be me.#blood blossom au
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That feeling when he can't stand to see you that way, no matter what you do, no matter what you say😩😭💔
#scott pilgrims precious little life#scott pilgrim vs the world#spvtw#spto#scott pilgrim#wallace wells#lisa miller#scollace#kim pine#natalie adams#envy adams#don't rlly know if I like how this turned out but oh well;;;#hope its obvious that this is based on the song “Scott Pilgrim” which the creation the comics were inspired from#the lyrics always make me think of Wallace and Lisa's feelings for Scott every time I hear it#ofc you could also relate it to Kim especially since the singers voice kind of reminds me of her#but overall the lyrics fit these two much better since Scott never truly “saw them that way” despite how long they've liked him#and they always seem happier to see him compared to Kim#Im surprised tho that I havent yet seen anyone draw these two together now that their dialogue parallels have been acknowledged more lately#also tho I wish more people pointed out that they both got cucked by red heads LOL#and Kim and Envy actually do look really similar when scott first meets them#makes me wonder if Scott subconsciously went for Envy since she reminded him of Kim (which would be fitting given that you could argue that#Envy dated Scott because he reminded her of Todd. Since he and Scott are confirmed to be meant to be seen as similar to one another#so much so that even their first and last names rhyme#last thing I'll add tho is that while Wallace and Lisa are very similar even personality wise#the one big difference is that despite that whole conclusion on vol4 of Scott not cheating on Ramona with Lisa because he loves her#the writers apparently think it would be “organically correct” for him to have an affair with wallace LMAO#but I guess we shouldn't be surprised since Wallace and Ramona are both in the front of the official valentines art which is clearly#a deptiction of Scotts wet dream or smth (oh and you could also argue that Wallace and Lisa parallel on that art since they're both#shirtless with white socks.. which could be a reference to how lisa wears skimpy clothes for Scott and Wallace often only wears boxers#to like sexually frustrate Scott for fun or smth
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thinking of zoro who doesn't buy flowers for sanji on valentines day but he comes back home with crates full of unique ingredients sanji's been hoping to taste for ages.
or zoro who takes mental note of every little thing sanji touches in the market but regretfully doesn't buy, every piece of fruit or expensive grain his fingers graze over, and doesn't care that his debt with nami will drive him into an early grave – because when sanji isn't looking, he buys them for him.
or the zoro who Does buy flowers. but not for sanji. the zoro who bestows a bouquet of lilies, chrysanthemums, and carnations every year into sanji's hands as delicately as he would lay his swords to rest for the night. they're never really arranged in the most aesthetic way. he only finds the flowers and ties them together with twine and the occasional ribbon.
zoro who buys a valentines bouquet for sanji's mother – who has never gotten a single flower from her husband her whole life and not even on the day she died. the zoro who sanji knows sora would adore. he buys the flowers sanji wishes he gave her and he keeps them in a vase in the galley until the petals aren't as vibrant as the day he got them.
#happy valentines day this came about because my mom called me her forever valentine#after my dad passed away i was always very sad that she will never have a special valentine#so every year i buy her flowers so that even if she doesnt have a romantic valentine#she has me#i think zoro would do the same for sora despite never meeting her#because his form of devotion is not just Knowing what sanji loves#but showing respect for the person sanji loves the most#zosan#roronoa zoro#sanji#vinsmoke sora#niki's fics: flowers
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my meet cutes with every boy ive liked since i was 15 were all so good its not fair i hope i find a relationship with a nice story & it doesnt just end up being from tinder lol
#like if i meet the love of my life on tinder i will not complain. i wld just like a better story than that </3#my ex boyfriend was the first person my age i met after moving to england the day before when i was 11 years old. we sat together in all ou#classes in early secondary school bc our names were alphabetically after each other. and he was the only kid who wld keep talking to me and#not treat me like an invisible alien even though i was a selective mute and never responded to him. then i fell in love w him when we were#15 on the school trip to paris bc we sat together on the coach and it was the first time we had a proper conversation despite knowing each#other for years at that point#but i dont get to tell anyone that story bc he dumped meeeeee -_-
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i think what hits most about nobara's backstory is everything that's left unsaid and peaks from between the lines. it's the fact you can easily infer that something was wrong without ever having clear answers on what exactly was wrong. but if you can relate to the feeling of wanting to escape a place and the alienation from everyone around you, especially when you're brought up in small communities, then you can certainly understand, if not fully then partially, nobara herself and the struggles she might have had to face all by herself for a very long time; maybe even the importance fumi and saori had in her life and the pain from having to part from them; and, perhaps the selectiveness in letting people in that she later on develops as well.
#the way her story is told from fumi's point of view is quite interesting#nobara's backstory is like a silent whisper without a lot of obvious context and told from someone else's perspective#someone who until the end never really understood her fully despite their obvious close bond#someone who we weren't even aware was part of her life#and nobara's peak emotional moment and the last person she thinks as her life is in danger is her and the promise she didn't accomplish#a promise to reunite with the friends that shaped her and her life#ah.#i find her last line so... powerful?#she definitely struggled growing up and the only two people she kept in her heart from her life before jujutsu were people that#moved to where she lived. saori didn't even stay in that place for long. and then she moves somewhere new and she meets people#and a group that actually feels like home a community where she fits in and suddenly they kind of break through making place in her heart#just for everything to come to a halt. to turn to shit. for her to see that shatter away little by little. and in the end she's put in a#position where she knows she will not be able to hold on to what she cares for the most. that she will hurt people that truly cared for her#for not being able to go back to fumi and rekindle the friendship with saori and for being forced to be another punch in the guts for yuuji#and everyone else that up until that point were forced to go through losses already and traumatic events#and she decides to encourage yuuji to go on a good note and she truly believes the people she met made it worth it#even if it was for a brief moment in her life#i am not being coherent right now but it pains me :')#she deserved so much better#and i will hang on tightly to the line saying that she had a small chance of survival until the end#because she deserves it she deserves to live 😭#i'm taking her from that stupid anime and putting her in a slice of life anime watch me#yuuji too. and everyone else. i'm taking the kaisen out of the jujutsu and you can't stop me#jjk spoilers#nobara kugisaki#jujutsu kaisen#jjk 💭#my post
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Is it truly a narcissistic high to feel confident about it, if you're just objectively better at something than someone?
Like lets be honest here.. sometimes the confidence is just fucking deserved
#i dont have the capacity to care about people all the time but at least i actually try to be there for them#instead of claiming to care so much and then never once being there despite promising to be and arguing about it instead of anything good..#when someone tells me “i only do this when i need you because you help me” and i promise I'll be there with them.. i do it?#its not fucking hard to accommodate monophobia by just sitting with someone or letting them know ur there instead of just blowing them off.#maybe dont promise something if you're never going to actually do it even once. instead of claiming to be some hyper-sympathetic saint#and arguing about if ur meeting the persons accommodations or not. with them. how can you argue that WITH THEM#are you stupid#anyways#awsten.txt#actually npd#actually narcissistic#narcissistic personality disorder#npd safe#npd
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the LOTUS team celebrating RONNIE PETERSON's victory at the 1978 AUSTRIAN GRAND PRIX
#does anyone have that person who you think you'd have some crazy beef with despite never meeting#me with colin chapman. we would have a brawl on sight.#and i like the guy!!!! i think he's pretty cool. but i still wanna fight him.#but that is as far as i am going with that because we have our golden boy here who would not even hurt a fly !!!!!!!!!#i'm so proud of him.... king....#classic f1#f1#formula 1#1970s#ronnie peterson#colin chapman#yeah i guess i'll add him
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listen,, i am Not defending all of sky's actions or his personality but he's genuinely just not as bad as the fandom makes him out to be.
a lot of y'all forget that sky is a prince with extremely overbearing and downright abusive parents that refuse to listen to him or treat him with any ounce of respect. and that the whole diaspro vs bloom situation was started directly because his parents forced an arranged marriage between diaspro and sky, constantly telling her parents that it would work out and never listening to sky the hundreds of times he tried to stop it. like again, he's not great, he's my least favorite specialist. but that situation was never in his favor. he was a 16 year old that dealt with strict, emotionally abusive parents his entire life and got forced into an arranged marriage with someone he never loved and was constantly told that it Needed to happen for the kingdom. trying to play it out like he's a serial cheater with some nefarious master plan is like,, really weird. again! not a great person he does a lot of shitty things. but blaming that specific situation on him, a teen with absolutely no say in his life who just met someone he genuinely likes and could love, instead of his parents is incredibly weird to me.
#i just think that entire situation was extremely unfair for everyone involved#and its really weird when people try to make it out like sky was some serial cheater mastermind#like dude no he's a child with horrible parents and no control over his personal life#and yeah absolutely he shouldnt have lied or led bloom on. but also remember that Technically he was in disguise because#Apparently assassins are constantly after him (ignoring that winx does a piss poor job at showing that)#like idk this little boy who never had a say in his life suddenly meeting this little firecracker of a girl that has A Lot To Say#and isn't afraid of running her mouth or expressing herself. And even encouraging him to do the same?#like? yeah id fall in love with bloom too tf#and i feel like people forget that sky told both his parents And diaspro that he didnt love her like. multiple times.#anyway. i still hate sky.#but i hate him for like. actual reasons instead of He Fell In Love With Bloom Despite Being In A Forced Engagement Oh No#like we could criticize him for not trusting bloom or for projecting all of his own faults onto other characters#but trying to say he was at blame for just being like. a teen in love is Extremely weird to me#like i dont think it would be fair to say that he should just. never fall in love with anyone and should just be happy marrying someone he-#-never loved or had any romantic feelings toward#like you guys Can understand aisha hating her arranged marriage and falling in love with 'ophir' despite it#but you Can't understand sky hating his arranged marriage and falling in love with bloom despite it#its so much easier to say you dont like sky please just say that
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/3.11.24
#it’s incredible how i feel tired just by the thought of swiping peoples profiles on a friend/meet app#like I really have to force myself#I forced myself to say to a girl I saw in july if she wanted to meet and she couldn’t back then and now I’m like okay I tried it I’m#I whine to myself I’m lonely yet looking for people is not a thing I fancy#I am convinced the people who would matter wouldn’t be found like this anyway#but chances of meeting people are 0#still clinging on to this person I met at the only friends of friend group thing which is almost sci -fi for me#despite I probably shouldn’t#and on top ov everything I always mess everything up because I can’t communicate well what I feel or actually I don’t really know that anywa#colleague added to me to a chat group pf expats here it doesn’t look exciting but I imagined that#I should see a high school mate after xmas#i am genuinely glad about it#although I am kinda thinking I should probably pretend it’s all fine#last time was..2020 which feels like yesterday but is 4 years ago#Jesus cjrist#maybe I should still reply to that girl who gave me depression but her and the sister were quite into me#asked like in may if i wanted to hang out and do creative stuff (3rd time#and I had told myself after the second time which was also major depression time and winter#blues#that I was done with it although always pretending it was fun#but god I was getting depression from them#would take pics of us where I think I never forced a smile more than that time#and my policy is just b clear and polite#but I swear I don’t have energies to just text and say sorry we don’t match
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#personal#i find myself questioning my life again... i think i am afraid.#never think aboit your life after 9 pm.#thats the shadow demon on my shoulder talking to me. its trying to rile me up.#i should finish our headmate ref.#the demons deserve a face. even if its a shadow#sigh.#i just want to make more money! wurely more money will make me really happy#thats not true of course...#mm... perhaps i feel useless. somehow.#despite. trying very hard to have a meaning in my life. to be acceptable to be alive.#i dont think im meeting my own requirements.#... isnt being alive enough though#... do you think this will last?#i really. really. hope so.#.... i havent thought about this in a while#getting sick and making no money really fucked me.#i feel useless
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You know I thought for awhile that I was just a rare type of person who sure, liked people well enough but was okay being alone didn't necessarily need anyone and NO. NO. NO. OH MY GOD . YOU GIANT DUMBASS. NO HAHAHA NOOO NOPE
#tide of consciousness#See what was confusing me is usually when people talk about life partner they mean romantically sexually#And also I have yet to meet someone who gets me in the way I want someone to get me <- I think <- good chance I have and squandered it#<- that may be the evil brain talking though#But anyway so I was misconstruing the fact that the people I know and like currently are not people I want to spend my life with#With the idea that there is no one and no chance I will ever want that#And also heteronormative allo society despite my best efforts Is in my brain#And I'm only just realizing how badly I would really like to find a person or maybe people who do make me feel like. I could want that#The idea that there could be someone out there that I would want to spend my time and space with forever is mind blowing#Because honestly and this is of course the mental illness but I have kind of been under the assumption that maybe I am just like. Weeell#Evil and broken and cruel and selfish and HAHA. you know. The usual#Because you know only recently I got my first taste of 'a person is actively choosing you and wants you over all things'#And then I fucked that up because that was my first time believing anyone could care about me and you know you always fuck that one up#And that sucked and is still in the process of sucking but it has also made me realize#That there is actually a way that I would want that. Maybe#Like in a way that worked. I'd really like to have a person like that maybe#And honestly that's a nightmare to have to realize#Because before it was like hey! I guess I just don't have to worry about that!#And now I'm like FUCK. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS#because special secret I've never actively tried to connect to people in my life ever#I don't know how you do that! I don't know how to actively form relationships!#I just wait for someone to grab me and pull me along! It's terrifying to think about trying to discover that#AT 20!#I know it's not unusual especially in this day and age in fact it's kind of an epidemic#But you're supposed to learn how to socialize when you're a little tiny baby!!! I don't want to figure this out now I can't even get a job!#Fucking shit that's a lot of words um#Every 6 months I remember that I'm deeply deeply deeply lonely and it's the worst and then I wilfully ignore it until I rediscover it again#Every day I discover a new layer to how utterly wretchedly self loathing my brain is and its the worst#Peeling back a layer of paint and surprise! You've subconsciously thought you were fine being alone because secretly you believe#That it is impossible for you to be anything but alone! Yay!
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2 for your big boy and 20 for you !!
2- If your character could choose, would they be a different size?
I have Clyde in sO many au’s, so it depends, but overall in most if not all universes, if he could choose he’d want to be a regular human height.
20- Hot take about g/t?
It’s neat! I’ve always liked size difference stuff. I’d mostly daydream and make related art and stories. I only recently (in the last few years) learned there was a fandom surrounding it. I love finding stories to read! Since I discovered this was a thing I’ve been consuming g/t literature like crazy! I’m super open to recommendations for more things to read! I also love learning about others gt ocs and in-universe lore! I’m definitely open to chatting, doing art trades and any fun oc-related stuff! I just tend to be shy about interacting online 🥲 so, it’s really nice when others initiate stuff! Thank you for your ask 🥰
#asks#g/t#kinda boring/personal/somber addition I’ll tuck here in the tags…#I’m also curious to hear others perspectives and personal reasons about why they’re hyper-fixated on this semi-mutual scenario.#I have several thoughts about how my experience as an AuDHDer with POTS and fibromyalgia relates to my specific fascination with gt.#Being disabled but not looking disabled subconsciously lead to#a desire to be visibly smaller/weaker to physically look more accurate to how I feel most of the time…#to avoid having allistic able-bodied expectations thrust on me that I’ll never be able to meet.#Not to mention the overall fluffy concepts of not being made to feel lesser#despite not being able to do as much as a potential partner and still being loved 🥺 those kinda stories are my favorite#(sorry this went on forever and makes little to no sense 😭)
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Feeling deeply sad about uhmmm uhm. Not havijg an easy time connecting with people and not being resourceful. How are losers like me supposed to make it in life.
#just deeply sad and i need to get a job and maintain that job forever#and talk to more people and find something genuine and fucking install tinder despite my wishes i wouldnt have to do it anddddd#sell all the things that no longer serve me this summer or give them away#and start rebuilding from the scraps of a person ive been through my teenagerhood#and accept i will just grow up instantly one day and perhaps never have as much fun as everyone else unless#regret drives me to insane things in my thirties#and i should volounteer at this food bank because i love food and cooking bad at it as i might be sometimes#and i should go back to ceramics and#should go to the meetings of the 2 science clubs i kind of abandoned this year
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When you meet a new person, how bad would it be to be like “hi, wanna tell me everything you hate and like then I’ll tell you about what we have in common” or smt? 😂😭 I wanna make new friends but self-introducing literally turns my stomach from the anxiety GKAKVKA what if the other person hates what I love? 😭 it’d be so awkward… at best…
#personal#personal af#minoririn posting#meeting new people be like#I can’t GKAKVKA I wanna but 😭😭😭#I’m having a panic attack fr…#it’s possible to get along with someone with some shared interests but if they passionately hate something you like🤔🤔💦 probably not#I’ve never experienced it… it’s honestly a miracle I made ANY friends and the ones I have I’ve known for years :’D#getting to know me takes time… my socials def best place … Irl I’m even MORE shy and awkward orz#despite everything I am an adult???#This Sorta thing is why I can’t go to cons#the idea of meeting someone who I seem to get along with then finding out via their twitter or smt that it rlyy isn’t like that😰😰
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It's angst on a new level tbh
#there was a school shooting today#words cannot express how fucked up it is that this is even an issue#or how fucked up it is that when the news broke me and the second grade team were in a data meeting with RTI#and the teacher who was leading the meeting saw the news and told us and then we went on talking about data#bc there's nothing we could say or do despite being just a few hours away#and so we just went on with our meeting#i never dreamed this would be the world I'm teaching in#talked to a friend today who said he was glad his mom only had a year left before retirement#just one more year in what should be a safe place but could turn into a combat zone at any moment#I've thought a lot about my kiddos today#people talk about how teachers without personal children just Don't Get It in a lot of ways#but as dramatic as it sounds i honestly cant imagine loving my personal child any more than i love these kids. not that I wouldnt love them#just...that i really love my kiddos#and I can honestly say that i think i would do anything for them#im going to go cry some more#and then plan for tomorrow as best as i can#and im going to cherish every second tomorrow. even the ones that are not the best. because they're seconds we get.#just my ramblings#cw vent#personal vent#teacher sadie rides the struggle bus#student teacher sadie ✨
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