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at long last i present... a proper starstruck dee reference sheet! 🎀✨ have a peruse and learn a little bit (but not too much!) about this totally normal waddle dee!
#starstruck dee#my art#🎀🔍#hey google how to make a complex reference sheet for the most basic character of all time. waddle dee in bow.#i do like making layouts and i really enjoyed squeezing a bunch of details and lil secrets in here!!#all bar one of the stickers at the bottom are from my tourney rpg! i think i've actually done some of my most on-model work of her there#dropping the cursed lore on you that like all my waddle dees she's Bald. Bald and Shiny#reblog to slap her bald empty head#also despite being quite simple she's also flexible. colours don't have to be exact. constellations simplified. details dropped. etc etc!#casually reminds folks multiple times that she's an adult! she's my sona so we're the same age and i'm an adult!!!! thanks#sorry to harp on about it but i've literally had people send me death threats about this! she's an adult and always has been#please please be normal about her! she's my sona! thank youuuuu! okay yay!
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i still need like $97 to get my testosterone + other meds + pay my upcoming phone bill. if you guys at least can help with that it would be a massive relief. if i could get like $150 it would give me some breathing room for stuff i gotta pay in 2-3 weeks as well
please help disabled transman + family stay housed
howdy, im nate and i hate to be doing this again but well. shits fucked. me n 3/4 of the other people that i live with are disabled, only one is on SSI (my mom), while the rest of us (me, my dad, and my brother) are still working on it. my brother is officially in a work training program, but it will be some time before he gets an income. the one abled person (my other sibling) IS working but lol. thats not enough for five of us. heres what i have right now - maybe enough for me to get my next refill of meds. (idk how much itll be without insurance/if ill still have it by then)
after almost two years i finally have a tentative diagnosis as fibromyalgia, but who knows if i can get on SSI or how long it will take, AND i am actively losing my insurance, either the end of this month (july) or next month (august) so I will need even more money to continue treatment....
As of now i have no income (if you want to commission me for writing/art/tarot reading/anything tbh those are just what i have experience in please please please send a message!) and need money for food, bills, medication, and to cover doc appointments.
ANYTHING HELPS but right now i am not setting any specific goal because I honestly don't know how long it will be until we are stable/how much we will need in the long run.
paypal.me/nat1172
cash.app/$natt1172
#idk. about like. The House longterm but apparently we r covered for next month?#idk where the money came from bc my parents refuse to discuss finances with me#despite me being a Literal Adult#and also being objectively better with money. like mom is an impulse buyer who came#home from work almost every day w $5-15 worth of knickknacks and random junk no one wants#and rhen she tries to give it to us as gifts like. clearly you do not know me or skerples very well#despite birthing us both. bc NONE of this is stuff we like#its sooo painfully obvious that shes just trying to feel less guilty abt her spending habits by giving the stuff as gifts#oh and lets not forget how they spend literally hundreds of dollars every couple weeks on we/ed even#when we literally dont have enough to eat every day.#but Apparently somehow we arent going to immediately go homeless. they just wont give details. lmao#like 3 weeks ago we were discussing rationing so everyone can eat every other day at least and now ???#wwhatever. im so fucing tired of it all.#i just want my T.#ive been getting BAD hot flashes for the last few weeks and generally feel like shit :(
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(this went on to be a longer ramble, talking about shrines and the abilities in totk i had more thoughts about the overworld repetition but im putting this into a separate post)
something i havent seen anyone mention before is also that it is a problem that you can skip nearly any puzzle in the totk "temples", some of which just by climbing walls ... and that wasnt possible in botw bc the titans were made of the same material as the shrines and prevented you from climbing on them, which feels like they knew making them climable would reduce the amount of puzzle you had to do and make it even less impactful, surely there are some glitches or movement tech that can make it easier, but at least you had to think about it a little?
but i guess that went against their newly adopted "more freedom equals better" way of thinking .. but then ..
the thing that i find confusing is that the shrines interior in totk are once again, NOT climable, but similar sonau buildings in the overworld ARE climable, they even restrict how you can use the tech in shrines, so ... they arent actually against restrictions? but then dont restrict anything else? not even in the main dungeons?? its kinda inconsistent and conflicting (like everything else lmao)
and that kinda extends to the abilities too, both the ceiling jump and ultrahand make alot of puzzles obsolete bc theres always a way easier way to skip everything; i know they kidna based it around people doing crazy thigns in botw, but there it felt like you were actually kinda missusing the mechanic of stasis for example in a smart way, YOU came up with that and it felt rewarding creating your own solution to shrine puzzles bc there were multiple ways to do it in this engine (like isntead of aligning blocks to lead electritiy to one end to the other you put out your weapons and place them there instead, and it WORKS) it felt more non intended, even if they had thoguht about it, it still FELT like you just came up with that, and sometimes it really was the only way your mind worked with and everyone had their own way of thinking
while in totk, they kinda tried to encourage that way of thinking, but it doesnt feel like your own idea anymore really, and, while its not every single one, in alot of totk shrines .. or even overworld puzzles you were just .. literally given the puzzle pieces for you to put together, but the pieces were like .. in parts of 6 at most so putting together the picture was both obvious and also kinda boring, like you were treated like you are a 4 year old and they were giving you 4 piece puzzles over and over- and fine you CAN just glue the two fans together and stand on them to fly high enough to just glide over to the end instead of building the flying thing they gave you the pieces for BUT its still .. expected, like you dont feel like you are working on it your way but seeing what the devs obviously planned for and then knowingly circumventing it i dont think its good either that in combination with the ceiling jump you really can just skip almost anything, take out a fly thing and fly near the end to spam the jump until it works, instead of using the building blocks they gave you for the obvious solution you build some platform and just ceiling jump to it, theres a rocket here? fuse it to your shield and fly high enough to glide to the end, its both too easy and obvious for the intented way and then you can even entirely skip that too, and you dont even feel smart about it bc it doesnt feel like you came up with it on your own and instead feel like a child that is way too old for the toys its given and the adults giving them to you stare at you while they wait for you to solve the puzzle- and alot of the solutions were either build something with these three pieces or fight something with these pieces-
i still remember that one (or more?) botw shrines were it lead you to a button to press and once you stand on it the wall slides open and reveals some fun and unexpected challenge, over and over- there was a hallway you had to glide through but there were big moving spiky metal balls hanging from the ceiling, maybe one has a normal rope on it and you can shoot it down if you notice it but the others dont so what do you do, stasis them so you can avoid it in time, grab it with magnesis to make it swing harder and then hope for the best as you fly there or dont do anything of that and just jump in- the one were a spiked wall was chasing you and as you run more obstables are put in your way right before you get to it, you stand on a button and the wall opens greeting you with an immediate guardian laser to the face? it felt more creative and fun to me, tho granted i havent done all shrines in totk bc i grew too tired of the everything to play more
(at least thats how i felt like, like i was treated like i was stupid for alot of totk, not just in the shrines sometimes .. which were one of the more enjoyable things in it, but also in the story .. like you dont have to think at all to get everything before its said to your face over and over)
and that thing with the abilities and the tech also makes the world less like a world and more like a playground bc you can just skip to every point of interest, you dont have to walk or climb or fight your way anywhere really bc you can just go up and fly to whereever you want, the new weird ass towers only make it worse bc .. of course youd make use of them to get everywhere even quicker, its also kinda in the combat, they might give you the tools to be creative (with arguably very simple things .. like a wheel, a rocket a fan and flamethrower arent realyl that interesting to begin with) why would you build a laser firing tank maschine to fight some bokblins you can just .. clobber like you usually do way quicker and easier
i do like the abilities in botw more than in totk too, but its got multiple reasons, like the world felt built around it without putting it into your face all the time, and the shrines were more built around giving you fun challenges, or just .. a fun experience, with often more subtle puzzles and not always forcing you to make use of the shiekah stone runes, plus the totk abilities feel more like the same thing .. or less interesting? fuse and ultrahand really are one and the same thing but separated into two for .. some reason, the time reversal is like stasis but with less ways to apply and use it (and kinda clunky how everything freezes in place when you prime it), and both it and the ceiling jump are a skip button from one location to the next (even tho we already have the fast travel) so you dont even need to climb, like those weird towers in the underground i thoguht looked cool and interesting when i first saw them only to realize its just a way to get to the surface via ceiling jump and nothing more .. you could fast travel up with the same amount of loading time, and more often than not it wasnt even in an interesting spot or somewhere you couldnt get to otherwise; the autobuild too even lets you skip building!! the thing thats the supposedly focus! i know its annoying to build something for a long time with its clunky function but isnt it yet another skip button
... another random ramble, much more incoherent too, again i want to mention im not trying to hate on everything, jsut kinda communicate or ... spill out my thoughts and feelings; i do absolutely agree that ultrahand is a very impressive mechanic and i did have fun with all the abilities for a while ..... i still like botws more bc its more diverse and is more restricted (which i LIKE) while also having more ways to use them
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#totk#ganondoodles rants#sorry this got so long again#i DID have fun with totk shrines#but it was also less interesting in alot of them#like the dumb get crystal thing to shrine place where all so boring despite them being so similar to botws ball and pedestal shrines#there were alot more quests around them tho#like the one in kakariko or the guardian obsessed lady#the only crystal quest i remember from totk is the one in taburasa and the guy .. literally just sells it to you doesnt he#funnily enough i encountered that before i even saw one of the crystal shrines so i had no idea what it even was#also do NOT come at me with the argument that its a kids game#you know damn well most fans are adults#also kids arent stupid either#and the older games were arguably harder and more confusing#despite being made for kids too#so whats the hangup now#we can show entire bloody torture dungeons in oot(?) but you dont get a single drop of blood in totk were someone is murdered on screen#whats the use of weapons when people can just one punch the soul out of someone without even making them spit
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It’s always crazy to see black celebs spew this same rhetoric because it’s such a privileged take… like, they’ve been famous for so long and have gotten their money up, moved out of the projects or whatever tf, that they’ve forgotten what it’s like to be genuinely feel. It’s impossible for them to connect anymore. As far as the qrt, oh wow ☠️.
#it’s always the same shit with these negros bro#like even recently with lil Wayne and all of these idiots crying about the Super Bowl and how he didn’t get chosen to perform#and you got idiots like Nicki and others going on about ‘taking opportunities away from a young black man-‘ (the nigga is in his 40’s bro)#despite Kendrick being younger…. and as a black person why not just be happy for another instead of trying to use race and guilt trip peopl#into caring about you over another black person when it’s convenient for you#because i remember when this dude used to say that he doesn’t care about blm or politics and he’s getting money#and that it doesn’t affect him so why should he care? now you’re crying about opportunities being taken away from you as a black man#I’m getting off topic but it’s the same sentiments similar to what Pharrell’s coon ass is saying#he’s always been one actually#rambling#whenever someone goes on about being apolitical they’re already not worth listening to#especially since politics shapes our entire lives like do you not care about what will happen to you#and what’s happening to people across the seas and in other countries like what is the real reason why sm ppl chose to play apolitical#I don’t want anyone around me if I can’t talk about politics with them or know where they stand as far as politics go#at the end of the day who cares about what a celeb has to say on politics since#I always go back to that one section in Dave Chappell standup (I know this was before he became what he is today… he was so normal back#then holy shit🗿) where he was taking about how ppl are super private about their politics and also#him going on about how ‘who tf cares about what ja rule thinks’#😭…. that’s literally it!!!#but to an extent it’s relalr dangerous to see ppl with such gigantic platforms and notoriety spew shit like this as if it’s normal#it only helps tp further push anti intellectualism and so on#like how are you an adult and you don’t care about politics#that’s embarrassing
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as a brit who grew up up with the og horrible histories, it makes my life that the six idiots still work together and can still make the funniest shows on tv whilst also being the best of friends. and no matter what they do separately they always manage to come back together for something. comedy is so lucky to have people like them my god
#random emma thoughts#six idiots#ive grown up with them and its so good to still have them as an adult#rewatching bbc ghosts made me feel things#the fact they continue to work together despite it being years since hh#literally no one does it like them#WE are so lucky to have a group that get on so well and create comedy so well
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siiiiiiigh
#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here#my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another#she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something#upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this#and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it#today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i#had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything#and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin#myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission#and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless#i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down#even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me#but i also fucking hate it#maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily#i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already#and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there#i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me#i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao#people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something#nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why 👍#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me#i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics#i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it#one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly#all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't#have to go back#sealene.txt
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Can I just for a minute complain as someone dyslexic about how when I was young everyone would always be like "well look up the spelling in the dictionary"?
Just now, I go to type a word and I spell it something like "erevicobly", which is obviously wrong, but... no idea
Well, I throw it in the search engine* and find out it's irrevocably (didn't spell it right there either, but got it close enough spellcheck could fix it)
Now you might notice something here, which is if I'd looked it up in the dictionary, I wouldn't have found it, no matter how long and hard I searched, because I'd be looking under "er" not "ir"
So do you see why that advice made me mad as hell as a kid, and I stand by my feelings today?
*literally one of the few ways search engines are a blessing is being a really great way to find spellings
#like my typing is great with very few mistakes; but my spelling while mostly alright these days isn't great#cause like... literal diagnosed dyslexia since I was a tiny kid#and let me tell you; no matter the reason; people will shit on you so much for poor spelling (no matter the age too)#fucker; we speak english; everything you said was a lie#there's not (consistent) rhyme or reason to it; and sounding it out is terrible advice cause we've all got fucking accents#and sometimes even if you don't the word is fucking worcestershire and you're fucked#actually gets me a bit heated how many good teachers I had who still acted like this#I actually have many strong opinions on linguistics and teaching despite not being a linguist or a teacher#give me descriptivism or give me death#prescriptivism can burn in hell where it belongs#and one thing that technology has 100% made better (at least for me as a dyslexic adult) is being able to spell well and quickly#it's an aid and an accommodation to me; we just don't look at it like that#I literally can't even spell accommodation; but you get to see the right word there#I have a vast vocabulary... I just can't fucking spell half of it#so prespellcheck you just kind of... had my writing look a lot worse and be a lot harder to parse#the main thing that helped with my spelling wasn't school or anything... it was everquest#you want to be able to type to people and be understood; there's no spellscheck or anything... you work to get it right quickly#mmos are a great way to teach typing if you don't have voice chat#similarly it's actually thanks to tumblr that I'm a quick typist; zero formal training with it and sucked through my teens#was a quick chicken scratch typist... pretty fast; but I pecked#through typing a lot of messages and asks to people on here and wanting to do it quickly I stumbled on something pretty...#close to what I think they teach; though I'm pretty sure there's gotta be some differences#it's nothing formal for one thing; it's all muscle memory; the fingers go where they go#but I can type pretty fast and accurately with my eyes closed#and it's just cause... I wanted to say things to people and say it quickly#eh... I hope I kill myself soon#... it seems out of nowhere; but that's just how my brain works; this is stream of consciousness more or less so... figured I'd leave it#anyway... there whatever this is... is#mm tag so i can find things later
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it's crazy how there have been protests every single day calling for a ceasefire. whether they're large demonstrations or a handful of people waiting outside of parliament buildings or events where politicians are in attendance. but they're happening everyday. our politicians are seeing this every single day. and yet no one is doing a god damn thing. no one is LISTENING. and god i hate that so fucking much. i hate how they can turn a blind eye to their responsibilities of listening to the people they're supposed to be representing, have absolutely no accountability, and face no consequences. it makes me feel so fucking powerless you know? like we'll never matter; our opinions will never matter. people in power will always just do whatever they want
#god i have always had a thing? idek what to call it#against authority#as a kid i used to act out a lot against adults who i felt like were not treating us fairly#teachers mainly#cause i just couldn't control my anger when i felt like adults were abusing their power#and i'm just feeling the same things now#they have a fucking responsibility to listen to us#but they can get away with not and it just makes me so mad#i have never felt so angry about politics#not that the genocide being committed by israel is a political issue#because its a fucking human rights issue#but i mean this whole thing about being in the west and literally seeing our countries support this#despite all the pressure and protests from us#current events
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Here it is :)
WOAH!!!! THE ELEANOR EVER!!!
SHE LOOKS SO UNHINGED AND COOL I LOVE IT :000000
THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE HER!! YOUR ART IS AMAZING /gen
also completely expected it to be a fragment so am really happy to be so surprised!!! she looks terrifying in your style!! /pos
#artsy's post#artsy's ocs#artsy's moot sillies#artsy's asks#artsy's fabrication#artsy's eleanor#artsy's fabrication: asks#artsy's woah#i have too many tags#BUT SHE'S AWESOME??? HOW DO YOU DO THESE THINGS#those eyes. those eyes are so desperate and crazed and it's brilliant :DDD#the makeup is a super nice touch too! the purple and the eyelashes especially; they're sharp and make her seem even more crazed somehow#and the heart-like tongue is super unnerving bc she seems so nice and friendly!! wanna hug her!! she'll also kill me!!#plus her pose is so telling too!! relaxed and elegant but also certain and murdery#also the parasol being used as a murder weapon is SUCH a cool idea!!! didn't even think of that but she SO would use it like that :D#am glad for both our sakes i decided to make the ring of black roses at the bottom of her dress like a cloud rather than detailed lol#drawing each individual rose could kill us both before SHE does so hooray for black puffy scribbles instead of detailed stuff!#also again your way of drawing shoes is brilliant! idk why but the shapes tickle my brain in a good way :)#PFFT- zoomed in on the art and her hands are in a similar position to holding a gun and now i'm imagining her parasol secretly being a one#lock and load the parasol. fire the umbrellas#i made up eleanor while watching some ppl play hitman and listening to 'the dismemberment song' and she looks EXACTLY like how i pictured!!#also this is a massive help visualising her outside her reference tysm :0#she's like a baby. literally only started existing a few weeks back. despite being an adult in a world mainly made of kids she is young AF#so haven't got around to drawing her in my usual style yet; this is a brilliant drawing AND it helps me visualise her better!! tysm!!!#tldr i love everything about this!!! thank you so much for creating it for me#you're the best :DDD#as always have a great timezone and tysm again!!! you've made my night /gen :)
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how do you feel about when writers used Roy and Wally’s as mouth pieces for the fans that wanted Garth removed from the team?
well to be honest, i don't think roy and wally were ever mouthpieces for fans who didn't like garth? like garth was never the Most popular but he was also never hated by any means. and while i wasn't alive during the time, i'm pretty sure garth was fairly well-liked during the silver age and bronze age, at least among aquafam and teen titans fans.
i think it's important to remember that wally and roy weren't like,, specifically targeting garth when they acted up. they were literally just like that. like wally using nicknames for garth was something that he did for all of them (and actually they all did it - it was just a Thing at the time). wally occasionally looked down on him or doubted him but again, he did that to dick and donna too.
similarly, roy was just going through his asshole teenager phase, and while he certainly didn't like garth, he didn't like the others at first either. roy and dick even had a (short lived) rivalry and wally had to break them up multiple times. roy came around after some time, and honestly, if garth had stuck around, i think they probably would've become actual friends.
but anyway them treating garth badly was really just,,, them being them, as shitty as it sounds. wally wasn't trying to be a bully - he was just a little insensitive at times. and roy was just in his little shit phase and treating everyone like that.
so while it's possible that some fans wanted garth gone, i really don't think wally or roy were used as mouthpieces for that. they were treating everyone like that.
#as much as i shit on wally (cause its funny alhdg) him and garth were never actually enemies#like dont get me wrong wally definitely hurt his feelings at times#but also again remember what decade the og comics were taking place in#calling each names and being little shitheads to each other was just what they were all doing#like it was more rare for them to use their actual hero names aldhg#and garth at the time didnt have an issue with this! he was joining in!#he absolutely saw wally as a friend and vice versa despite some of their arguments#roy on the other hand was Not a friend to garth but Again he was being like that to everyone#like it was never Garth Specifically yknow?#the only reason their relationship looks so bad compared to the others is just because garth left and they never bonded#so as adults theyre still acting weird around each other#but even then roy was never a mouthpiece for fans who didnt like garth. he was just like that#it was literally just their relationship#not every relationship is good!! sometimes its a toxic cesspool!!! alhgdlja#answered
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one of the things i’m most tired of in the mxtx fandom is how she is able to craft, and i dare say it’s actually her best skill, exceptionally rich and fresh feeling characters, full of virtues and vices, that can adapt to both tragic and comic stories
the fandom somehow manages to strip all this richness and turn the characters into kindergarten children, but the fact that they are silly doesn’t mean that they are not still adults and should be talking and reasoning like adults
#like i realize a lot of the fandom it's likely composed by kids despite this being a book for adults#which reminds me of that time someone on reddit asked if 14 was too early to read the book#and i answered that i thought it was too early because apart from the violence there were hidden political themes that would be lost on#a 14 years old#and i was swarmed by 14 years olds that told me 'there is nothing that a 14 years old wouldn't understand! there are no political themes!'#which made me facepalm because they literally were just admitting they had not noticed the political themes i said would be lost on them
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#oh my god this week is from hell i’m convinced#i have not been this sick in a YEAR 😭😭#and i am not a functioning adult i haven’t taken any medicine despite being sick for four days. what’s wrong with me#literally have not gotten out of bed for two days now. the productivity guilt is guilting.#hana’s babbles
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i think the frankenstein version of dracula daily has arrived at the "justine is framed for murder and as such gets executed for it" portion which makes the petty part of me gloriously happy that a lot of people are going to finally realize that the creature is not, in fact, uwu soft baby and that he actively planted evidence on an innocent woman to get her arrested and then convicted and then executed for murder for absolutely no reason other than he felt like it because he's an asshole. and i'll finally get to see the death of "the creature did nothing wrong he's a sweet boy!" takes within my lifetime.
#personal#as i've said the fact that people rag on victor during this part of the book is insane#no he absolutely is not at fault#the creature has adult intelligence at this point he's just being borderline sociopathic#apparently having a moral compass isn't biological because despite being built to be perfect he's MISSING ONE#as most normal people know that killing children and framing innocent women for it so they'll be murdered by the state as a result#is an incredibly fucked up thing to do#but no no his feelings got hurt one time so this is an acceptable thing to do apparently#nuh uh no fucking way this was the creature's moral event horizon for me he ain't ever coming back from that#motherfucker deserved to die alone at this point#(and i mean there's probably something to justine's class status being involved in all of this)#anyway fuck the creature this part literally makes me so angry and the woobification he gets makes me so angry#i am ready to Throttle with my bare hands
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Do you ever feel like every interaction with a member of your family is directly leading to the "destruction" of the "family" ?
#and what does it say of the family that it can be destroyed by demands for respect between various members#and efforts made for the protection of the physical safety of actual literal children#and what does it say of me that the consequences wrought by my demand to be seen and treated as an adult#and my demand that my suggestions be considered with the same attentiveness as other adults#is met with such heated ridicule or patronizing condescension#that I still fight for it anyway that I still see value in these relationships#despite constantly being spit on for trying#like jesus fucking christ#god fucking forbid that I see something worth salvaging here#but in trying to do so I somehow become the thing they need salvaging fro.#GOD
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Bro my dad didn't know I can't swim 💀
#LIKE BRO HOW DID U MISS THAT???#If we were in a video game that would b like fact 3 on my character bio#Like logically I know how he missed that (largely absent my whole life despite literally living in the same house) but bro????#It's been like a whole Thing my whole life#He literally said 'weren't you in swimming lessons?' like yeah dude that doesn't mean they taught me 💀#I liked being in the water but the school teachers were awful to me about it#and it culminated i me nearly drowning bc they forced me into a swimming race I told them I couldn't do#AND THEY STILL MADE ME FINISH THE RACE#so then I got like. Issues. About it and begged off of swimming lessons and I lost my genuine love of being in the water#so when I moved to the next school I had like an actual panic response to them trying to teach me#Which wasn't helped by the fact that I was a 5'7" 12 year old in lessons for 6 year olds and a pool that didn't even reach my hips#Damn now I'm sad :(#I miss being in the water but no one ever wanted to like. Go to the river w me#I can be in water i just can't swim. Hell I doubt I can even still float#I'll find some adult classes at some point or something
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Lmao I was told in third grade that my states standardized tests would affect my college acceptance. Lol
I think that when we tell teenagers that their lives will be over if they don't have the most perfect possible trajectory through the education system, that this is, perhaps, if I may be bold, not good for them,
#it was so good to tell that to a nine year old that takes things literally#well things like that told to me by an adult at the time#i actually cant tell you if the lady was joking or legitimately believed that#tbf i havent stepped foot inside of my elementary school since the last day of fifth grade#but i dont think she works there anymore#i toootaaalllllyyyy turned out fine because of that and dont have issues making decisions at all!!!!#but yeah i have some feelings about standardized testing despite being fairly decent at them :/
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