#descriptive of misery

[bleue-flora]

Ok, I recently wrote an essay [here] talking about the definition and duties of civil engineering as well as the ethics because of the brain rot @swordfright gave me with calling Dream Sam’s ultimate engineering project. So, because I actually am a civil engineer I took it upon myself to design the title and summary of quantities sheets just like I do at work for roads but with Dream as the project instead. And in honor of angst day sponsored by @sixteenth-day-event, I figured I’d share it because I feel like it kinda works for the prison of the mind prompt.

“Sam’s “ultimate engineering project” he deemed too damaged like a bumpy road or crumbling building that wasn’t worthy of patching and filling in the cracks or reinforcing, that’s too eroded to be fixed and preserved. So, Sam strived to tear him down to the bedrock so he could remake, remold, and reengineer Dream according to his design for the common safety, public health and well-fair.”

{These are very similar to the actual sheets I make day to day, which I shall not share for the sake of doxing my location, but yea pretty much everything has a significance. Some of it doesn’t necessarily make sense but that was because I was more so taking inventory of what we see in lore (so you know I counted ;) lol)}

[septemberlikestea]

big shadow of the erdtree final boss spoilerful thoughts. really long and rambly read!

a problem i have is that i LOVED how miquellas story unfolded and how well it fit in with most of my previous thoughts about him. like that hes kind and has truly noble and good intentions but doesnt completely refuse to use force if pushed (his charm to subdue any ill intent towards him, malenia serving to enact violence on his behalf), the curse extending beyond eternal youth to twist his fate into dangling his full potential just out of reach all the time (failing to save malenia from the scarlet rot, failing to either revive or fully kill godwyn, the haligtree failing to grow into a new erdtree, failing to bring in a new age because we kill him, etc) and that he truly does tend to make others do work for him (likely because of his eternal youth and therefore fragility). it was so compelling to me.

the fresh revelations about him i also enjoyed so thoroughly (how his charm actually works, st trina, how he truly sees the world the way a child does - there is injustice and thats unfair, everyone should be kind to everyone) and the way the messages of the crosses slowly went from him abandoning his flesh to abandoning aspects of his very being... i havent played dark sauce three but making him act as the lothric of the final boss is also very interesting because i do very much enjoy how these games take old concepts and play with them like dolls. its very fun and a unique way of storytelling that fromsoft can do with how rich their game history is.

somehow i did not find myself terribly upset with the lack of mentions of malenia (even though its still a bit.. hmm the way malenia cannot be mentioned without miquella but miquella... can. and is mentioned without malenia) due to how miquellas journey seems to have taken him to the rauh ruins and romina, who accepted and embraced the rot? im a little confused about how dryleaf dane is a summon for her even though hes on miquellas side but tbh the followers of miquella do some pretty misguided things because they want to be closer to him. im still inclined to believe romina could be an ally to miquella or at least agree with his philosophy - she guards the sealing tree that protects him in enir-ilim. she is compassionate, reaching out to the abandoned pests and aeonian butterflies to comfort them. miquellas statements on the order he intends to bring (the age of compassion and love) doesnt say anything about the rot, because the rot itself isnt inherently cruel or loving. it just is. and there isnt any obvious sign of conflict between miquella and romina that i found - and it ties in interestingly to how miquellas cut dialogue for malenias phase transition says "let all things flourish, whether graceful or malign." which always read to me like he is accepting that he cant help malenias scarlet rot beyond what he already did, now choosing to love and embrace her even as she becomes something other than herself. of course, cut dialogue is cut dialogue, but i find that it does offer some insight into the direction miquellas story could have taken and possibly did take.

...but i just cant get over how much of an asspull radahn 2 was like 😭 i did the questlines and i suspected he was going to be there from the dialogues (i still believed the leaks were fake because lets be real. he did look very modded) and i can KIND OF look back and see that there were things that MAYBE served as foreshadowing in the main game... like the st trina items in caelid or the lilies by redmane castle and that the true reason for the battle of aeonia was never wholly clear. i wont count the trailer whisper because that could have been anything. like i KIND OF can get behind the fact that radahn, being a sorcerer and a son of the greatest sorceress to ever live #1 queen rennala, would have a primal glintstone and therefore a soul that is quite friendly to being moved from body to body. we have at least two examples of this occurring, from characters with stories that involve quite a bit of body hopping and also are related to radahn being slain - ranni (his SISTER!!) and sellen (who is the character that introduces the concept of properly switching bodies).

so rannis body is made in her mentors image (though likely the face isnt the snow crones) but even if it wasnt - its a manmade puppet that can be made into anything. it also doesnt look anything like rannis empyrean body, being small and blue. sellens bodies are also puppets and we see that they dont suddenly morph in appearance to fit her soul - her old and new body have different hair colors and facial features. they look like her because they were made to look like her!

so why!! does radahn 2 look absolutely nothing like mohg!! the tiny horns on his arms are the least mohg thing he could have - mohg didnt have horns there!! where are mohgs horns that poked out his eye? where are the wings?? why is he so yassified. like.. hello... we established with ranni and sellen that the newly inhabited body doesnt change to look like the soul. if anything the soul itself might change to fit the body - rannis spirit face doesnt match up with her empyrean bodys face. what the hell happened there.

miquella was not established to be able to give makeovers to people, i dont think. like thats not a thing he was ever stated to be able to do in main game? but he can do that now? what happened? the intent seems to be that radahn 2 is a younger version of radahn but why is that... is it miquellas eternal youth applying to him now too? is he doing some twin prince curse sharing that makes his and radahns age even out? why is he wearing his old armor though.. and if radahn 2 is the idealised version of radahn from miquellas childhood memories im just a little confused why that is. was war enthusiast radahn really so reclusive that miquella never saw him since then? was miquella too busy to go to caelid? were all paintings of radahn property of rykard, even though rykard also seems to have interacted with miquella to some degree? i feel like the reason why radahn 2 looks the way he does is very much lost on me.

i feel like the already bad perception of radahn 2: electric boogaloo i got from having the buildup be so scarce in comparison to the other final boss (elden beast admittedly is a little twist boss but radagon is VERY well established through your whole journey, you learn so much about him as you go) combined with the fact that hes literally being dragged from the grave of his pretty complete story to be here... was made so much worse with his design. wouldnt it have been so much more enjoyable if he was a little... you know... fromsoft freaky. like good ole ludwig the horse-man abomination. or the one reborn. or godrick. or putrescent knight. ???

like even the fact that shamans had flesh that had the property of being able to fuse with others contributes little to explaining why radahn 2 looks the way he does - there shouldnt be any radahn flesh? alexander ate it armor and all? its just his soul in there? argh.

and the fact that omen horns disappear on death (sometimes! aka with morgott, mohgs literal twin. doesnt seem to work this way for other cruicible horned beings?) doesnt seem to be related here because radahn 2 HAS horns. and also two eyes. did he just... always have little horns under all his armor? why is this being revealed now.

also what kind of kindness did radahn have... kindness towards sellia? towards his horsey? the cut description of his cat? he is described as a general, his armies love fighting and war. hes godfreys #1 stan, and godfrey killed soooo many giants for being.. giants. waging war was so central to godfreys being that losing the opportunity to fight made him worthless to marika. he is loving towards dead morgott and that doesnt make him a kind person. radahn being a person and capable of experiencing love doesnt make him a kind person!! what did i miss!! i dont really think there was a retcon but i definitely think that something is really really lacking with this specifc bit.

to close this off ill say that initially i full-on hated the boss reveal. both how it worked as our first meeting with miquella and radahn 2. my feelings have settled a lot since then! but while reviewing miquellas story made me feel satisfied with his arc, i am really really struggling to enjoy radahn being... there. and he definitely is just There. he exists. doesnt say anything. with how little influence he has on the dlc plot i feel like they could have just cut the middleman and kept mohg around. would have honestly worked well enough with the formless mother influence everywhere. though frejya would probably have to go with radahn and that would suck. is it worth having an unsatisfying boss in order to have a very enjoyable npc? i dont know what to think.

also the vessel and lord thing is really adding a new layer of "???" with godfrey. is he also possessing a body that wasnt his??? is there some deep lore about how godfrey is the soul but hoarah loux is the body??? god. i dont know. i dont know.

i do expect that my opinions will inevitably change somehow as time goes on and i find more connections between things... but after 2 weeks of digesting the lore im still not liking how this all turned out.

TL;DR: i love miquella but why is radahn there.

[areseebee]

misery by stephen king is such a book about writing.

[ndostairlyrium]

WIP Wednesday, but it's a Thursday

I was tagged by the awesome @greypetrel ✨thank you so much!! ;u;

Finally, I can draw something unrelated to Art Fight lmao that's so relieving!!

Left: Two potatoes being very pink <3 I'm taking my time with this one because I want to achieve a certain effect but I need to study a couple of things rendering-wise before putting more stuff on paper <<

Right: A wild Luca appears! In the form of rough sketches. I'm torn between two options (we're going for nobiliar / high status costumes), but I do really want to draw a toga so... um... I'll ponder for a moment before finalizing a sketch

Tagging: @herearedragons @dreadfutures @underneathestars & whoever wants to share their stuff <3

[gilliontidestriderchampionoftheu]

writing descriptions for my playlists is so fun. chip is just not having a good time whatsoever

[naranjapetrificada]

Oh nooooooo not even 24 hours after reading In Favor With Their Stars for the first time I just thought of a devastating future fic idea that would completely rip my heart out to write and the idea won't leave me alone. Pray to the ADHD gods that I get distracted instead of actually writing it because the only think worse than putting myself through the pain of writing it would be putting it out there to hurt everyone else too.

(although even this hurts less than the prospect of reckoning with the unsettling questions about existence and cosmic-level loneliness that I haven't been able to shake since finishing, even though it had a "happy" ending)

[bg3thots]

The Worst People You Know Are In Love | Briar(DUrge)/Enver Gortash playlist Run - Hozier | I Know That He Loves Me - Autoheart | Tongues & Teeth - The Crane Wives | Baby Come Home - Scissor Sisters | Le Bien qui fait mal - Mozart Opera Rock | The Horror Of Our Love - Ludo | Slowly - Susanne Sundfør | Swamp Time! - mmmonika | Make Me Happy - 35MM

[sixeye-sketch]

[crimeronan]

hiiii i think i sent you an anon a while ago about how i read ur fics + followed you before cdth and i genuinely came into the fandom thinking hennessey was a major player and who got baited like a mouse w cheese into that (+ overall premise of messy girls being terrible, which i thought u were exaggerating and was delighted to find out you were not at all). i am still someone who pretty much only reads ur writing for trc ever atp because. god. yeah.

re-entering trc fandom and seeing a character who was 1/2 of that series (and who i adored so deeply) was completely erased was... something, and cannot imagining seeing it as someone who was actively in that fandom. this is not to say much except that i am very very glad about ur dedication to women who suck and make horrible messy choices, and also i am so glad her arc in canon was well-done !!!!!

thanks for this!! i think like 90% of hennessy posts in the fandom were/are made by me LOL. the nice thing is that the dozen hennessy enjoyers on tumblr have a kind of close-knit small fandom vibe (when we don't have each other blocked bc all of us have very annoying personalities), but she SHOULD have a bigger fandom.

[ev]

M*A*S*H REFERENCE SPOTTED

[dlstmxkakwldrlarchive]

SHINee tells the story of love after a breakup

Sweet Misery: electronic pop song with a signature synth sound, combined with SHINee's cool vocals. The Lyrics talk about a situation of recalling happy memories after a breakup while missing your past lover, the ambivalent feeling of a "sweet misery"

Insomnia: mid-tempo R&B hip-hop song with a groovy guitar riff, piano performance, and various vocal effects. SHINee delicate vocals give the song a deeper emotional feeling, the lyrics describe the emotions after a breakup through the theme of 'insomnia'

[insanepoll]

INSANE CHARACTER TOURNAMENT: PRE-MATCH VII

[ID: Background is a gradient of blue, purple, and pink. On top, there's the pictures of the contestants, separated by a “VS” sign. Above it, reads “PRE-MATCH VII” in bold black letters. /End ID.]

[lucianinsanity-only-art]

Oc Kiss Week Day 7: Sloppy (Random and Rovvena)

ID: a watercolor illustration of Random and Rovvena, two original characters, over a purple background. Random is a small thin white man with shoulder length pink hair. He is wearing a blue t-shirt. His hands are on Rovvena's chest while she kisses him, he has a pleading expression. Rovvena is a tall fat demon woman, she has brown skin with a tinge of red, large horns and freckles covering her face, hands and the tip of her horns. Her hair is long spiky and pink, covering her eyes and parting in two over her nose. She is wearing a purple turtleneck. Her hands are squishing Random closer to her, one in his hair and the other in his back. Their tongues are visible in their kiss, with some drool spilling. End ID.

[superat626]

So a very delightful FPS happened today and I had lots of fun listening to it after it was posted and hearing about my favourite creepy puppet man be himself as he was interviewed on air.

Here's a moment from the end of it.

[justiceburst]

Human Values Test

Goro's strongest values are Achievement and Self-Direction.

[makerscockandballs]

I forgot how dramatic Whyborne was. Dude mentally monologues about how he shan't even THINK about touching another man ever and how Griffin could not possibly find him attractive or interesting. Meanwhile Griffin is busy picturing whichever way he wants to get railed first