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ihavealavalamp · 1 month ago

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Never Quite Free, The Mountain Goats [x]

#the mountain goats #all eternals deck #never quite free #john darnielle #i remember the first time i heard this song i was in a really bad depression moment #and i was listening to the tmg discography while on a walk and it made me feel so Hopeful #that the world is so beautiful actually.. it was autumn and sunny and the leaves were so brilliant!!!#my art #collage

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chrissy-kaos · 8 months ago

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So what you’re saying is.. I’m not good enough to wake up next to every morning.. cool got it bruh 😭

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heymacy · 10 months ago

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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

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super-nova5045 · 9 months ago

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sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)

#anti taylor swift #like she can be problematic that’s okay #there are SO many problematic artists i like #but she’s not even that good #like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo #aka her peers #and realise how much better they are #they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it #whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL #she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so #by romanticizing the most mundane #thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit #GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it!#fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back!#mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows!#lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression #all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab #Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd #todd anderson #AND JOE ALWYN #joe alwyn my favourite man ever #joe alwyn #dead poets society #anderperry #sylvia plath #virginia woolf #the bell jar #lana del rey #fiona apple #mitski

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silusvesuius · 7 months ago

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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils #but it's ok i just needed a nap #something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me #wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas #something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh #i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn #(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e #i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real #i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel #also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay #is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level #when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU #look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it #at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal

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lilliesand-valleys · 5 months ago

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#short prompt #spilled ink #spilled words #poetry riot #writers creed #excerpt from a book i'll never write #writing prompt #angst prompt #poets of tumblr #love quotes #lit #literature #inspiring quotes #depressing quotes #life quotes #quoteoftheday #quotes #beautiful quote

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p41nkillers · 12 days ago

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"I trust you, because I know you wouldn't hurt me and go that far."

IMAGINE IF KATE REALLY LOVES NATHAN ROMANTICALLY/PLATONICALLY AND SHE PUTS HER 100% TRUST ON HIM THINKING DEEP DOWN HES NOT THAT MESSED UP GUY ITS HEARTBREAKING BECAUSE U ALREADY KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN IN CANON MY WOMAN TRUSTS A WRONG MAN

but i do believe that nathan was looking for positive change (theres anger management book found in his room) maybe hes trying to be better for everyone's sake including himself but then that pieceofjeffersh-t came out nowhere and everything went downhill while hes trying to fix himself i just wish people in this fandom understand that its not entirely his fault for “ruining” her but i guess theres no point trying to valid your opinions and defend your own preferences when the entire fandom already hate you lol

#but thats fine i rather keep my circle small u cant force everyone #anyway this makes so much more tragic i think #im literally cryingggff #its messed up and depressing #but also im a sucker for emotional rollercoasters #idk if this count as masochist??#im torturing myself with all these delusional thoughts abt something that never even happened #but god its so oddly satisfying and enjoyable sometimes making lore for yourself while ignoring canon #everytime i draw them smiling it feels haunted like bittersweet and melancholic thinking abt what they couldve been #not just abt random ship im drawing but also imagining how their actions/interactions affect each other and-#its tragic(YES!! THATS THE WHOLE POINT)#but also beautiful?idk how to put it into words #and then reality hits u like a truck #and im like why did they hv to die in such tragic ways?#it sucks they never got to have happy moments #i’ll stop yapping now☝️🤓 thank u for reading #vent??#my artwork #marshscott

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softpine · 1 year ago

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she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

#we're so back baby #i think i'm finallyyyy through the worst of this awful depression i've been in for the past like. month and a half #i mean i woke up this morning and thought ''the sun is so beautiful'' so i think i'm good for now fjksjds #which is great because there's some heavy stuff coming up that i just couldn't handle in that mental state #so i'm hoping i'll be able to move things along a little quicker #but also i might be getting a job in retail against my better judgement so who knows #i've never actually worked in retail... i've done food service and i was a cashier at a pop up shop but nothing like an actual store #but i seriously can't find a job with my degree nor can i even find a desk job. so i'm. man. it's rough out here #i might have to move. but with what money?? lmao the eternal dilemma #SORRY this is a whole diary entry #i hope you guys are well 💖

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fictionadventurer · 1 month ago

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If Laura Ingalls Wilder had written The Wizard of Oz.

Kansas would be portrayed as a wondrous, beautiful place at least as good as--or better than--Oz.

Dorothy would come from a very devoted loving household.

Her father would be in the house with her when the tornado hit and would be her guide and protector through all their adventures.

Dorothy would absolutely still have a devoted dog.

Dorothy would not go to the Wizard to ask for help. The "kill the Witch" requirement (or some other quest) would be presented early on as the condition she had to fulfill to earn her way home.

Instead of giving life and backstories to inanimate objects (like the land of the porcelain figurines), the people and creatures Dorothy would meet would provide explanations for things that happen in nature (like, explain where the colors of sunset come from).

#the wonderful wizard of oz #laura ingalls wilder #books #the fun thing about ideas coming to me when i'm busy #is that you get the thoughts filtered through four layers of association #this started out when it hit me that it was super weird #that baum made dorothy's most intrinsic goal to be getting home to kansas #but portrayed kansas as 'it's gray and depressing and they're dirt poor and her aunt and uncle tolerate her at best'#and i compared that to how wilder made kansas seem beautiful #(yes she was writing this from nostalgia in the thirties)#(rather than in the immediate aftermath of the '90s depression)#(but even when she was living through that '90s depression)#(she saw parts of kansas she thought were gorgeous)#and then it hit me that wilder also wrote fantasy #so here's the post #and it's making me realize how much more of a fairy tale tone wilder's work has in some ways compared to baum's #she wrote a much more romantic but still very american fairy tale #never thought i'd place those two authors in the same category but there it is

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thewaitingluna · 8 months ago

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Nothing feels real anymore.

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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Why is Erik taking a shower and is fully prepared to fight naked in that panel 😭

my man turning into a baby is a typical tuesday activity but the second he wanna little naked shower fight NOW its suspicious 🤨

#snap chats #cant a man be a lil hostile and naked in his home ... 'his' home ... w/e ...#this is the part where i reward tag readers CONTEXT TIME #i mean. it's not crazy context but anyway #erik went for a swim and As You Do went to shower off once he was done. cant have chlorine in the hair.... gon damage his beautiful locks..#he was shavin in the shower when he hears someone come in so Naturally he assumes the worst as this is Xavier's School For Gifted Youngster #never a moment of peace not even to shower and shave ..#'whyd he go for a swim' I Dont Know he really just decides on that. maybe it was a complex way to give him a weapon #maybe they just wanted to draw him naked and in a speedo I Dont Know 2x sounds like something id do frankly #the context is pretty much isolated from the story- like it's more of a scene starter and reintroduces tom and sharon into the plot #CONTEXT: tom and sharon are Effectively erik's coworkers at the school who caught one of emma's students- empath- acting a fool on site #empath- as it may be assumed- has the ability to mess with people's emotions and so. how we say.#'had tom and sharon distract each other' for a few hours while he fucked around the mansion and more specifically #fucked with erik's emotions to make him depressed enough to give up the new mutants to emma #Hence the mansion was virtually empty bar danielle and warlock which probably didnt help make erik Less paranoid of sudden noises #hence .... razorblade combat time ... but yeah once he realizes its just tom and sharon he's like Oh Fuck The Hell Happened #and then he gets super pissed once he realizes empath kinda tricked him into giving up his kids 🥰#god i love this issue i really do .. cant wait til next month where i can read what happens next ..#'snap you have the internet' OK AND I LIKE MY PHYSICAL MEDIA. plus i like this arc so far i want a physical of it ...#but yeah thats why eriks naked and prepared to cut someone with a razor. you can learn more in The New Mutants number 39 :]

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arytha · 16 days ago

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[ID from ALT: A digital fullbody drawing of my new mer OC, Llyr. He is contorted weightlessly in deep water, as if sitting. Llyr looks at the camera morosely, his ice blue eyes have white pupils. His tail and scales on his arms are inspired by Longfin morph Neon Tetras, with a tail that starts blue a little above his waist with a white stripe that continues on his arm scales, with a bright flash of red coloring the lower half of his tail. His transparent pectoral fins drape from the sides of his upper body, covering his clawed hand. His hair is white, flowing softly down his back, and he is wearing a simple light blue crop top with short sleeves. Four flowy transparent fins float in their places down his tail, ending in a wide transparent caudal fin stained red in the middle like his fish body. A blue ring frames his upper body, and he's glowing faintly. End ID]

A name he chose for himself, Llyr.

#mara's art #Llyr #neon tetra merman #!!!! im so fucking happy how this came out holy shit!!!#i was able to use the filters to make his scales look super pretty and real looking too without overwhelming the rest of him #and the glowies really bring him to life eeeeee #general gist of his story (subject to change) is that he was either the result of a mer breeding program for pets or part of a show-class #of mer. like oo look at how pretty he is etc. the owning of intelligent life is banned under the UC but that doesnt stop #black market trading of 'beautiful specimens'. Llyud (birdman)'s race also gets targetted for this too #relatively low on the totem of UC planets capable of interstellar travel etc so easily targettabke #and human trafficking will never stop unfortunately.#anyways he manages to free himself from that but ends up alone and sorely needing help from others #he's frightened and alone and that makes him depressed and even more skittish so its gonna be a wonder how xena recruits him #find it funny that i now have llyud and llyr. did not mean to do it this way but it works

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waywardspicy · 7 months ago

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u know motherfuckin well these bitches wanna sound like TINA 👊💥

#gojo satoru #geto suguru #megan thee stallion #otaku hot girl #I’ve tried to draw Megan before and I can never properly capture her beauty #but I had to try when I heard this song #this pussy depressed is so getocore too

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wordsbyt · 9 months ago

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The Beauty and the Poet

Because his words were like pictures. They could form images in her brain. His words could touch her in ways she needed. Because, she needed. His words carressed her, not her body, but her mind. That’s exactly what she wanted. The Poet loved the Beauty with his words. The Beauty loved the Poet for his words.

That was enough.

#excerpt from a book i'll never write #excerpt from a story i'll never write #spilled ink #love quotes #depressing quotes #love notes #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled tears #quotes #poet #poets on tumblr #beauty

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lunarharp · 1 year ago

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