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SURRENDER
• I am not in control. If I ever try to make my own decisions without consulting God or decide against His plan I am betraying God and condemning my soul
SACRIFICE
• Do not cling to dreams, friends, health, nonbiblical inspiration, comfort, or hope that anything in this flesh life is ever going to be important or matter. Only serving God matters. And no it's not ok to care about unimportant things sometimes. Only care about pleasing God
SUFFER
• God is best pleased when you lose, when you deny, when another part of you dies, when you collapse in defeat after fighting Him and His will. Embrace suffering as a blessing and rejoice in it. Suffering should not be the opposite of happiness. It should be the cause.
HATE YOUR LOVES. KILL YOUR LIFE. MAY IT PLEASE THE LORD.
#have a new year's resolution i guess 🤷🏽♀️#happy new blah blah blah#random#personal#may it please the Lord#killing my heart to save my soul#do not enjoy temporary things#do not enjoy this life#spiritual warfare#spiritual maturity#you don't get what you want#your life is not your own#you belong to God#predetermined plan#God's plan#God's will not mine#give up everything#deny self#deny flesh#deny everything#God is the only thing that matters#God is the only thing that exists#nothing but God#only God#you must be holy#you must be perfect in Christ#lose your life to God#lose your life to save it#unquestioning obedience
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yayyy 1st art of my rubbermon sona finally done! inspired by @squeakitties' amazing work, it's a dragonair/reuniclus hybrid. the latex slime on the outside is kept in liquid form and can be breached. however its body inside the slime is very very sensitive! bc reuniclus is a psychic type and i love to talk, i think it would be able to 'speak' telepathically and potentially (with a lot of practice) move things with its mind :)
#foober post#rubbermon#furry#and yes u can fuck the slime. bc who am i to deny that#also it got its skin tattooed to match the flesh of the suit for dysphoria reasons
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my favorite character is lotr is the butch lesbian
(samwise gamgee)
#sorry him and frodo are lesbians i don’t make the rules#big arms and a kind heart??? my king in the flesh#i love him i can’t deny it#sam gamgee#samwise gamgee#the lord of the rings#lotr#lord of the rings#tolkien#hobbits#frodo baggins
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Yass Infection AU: A Special Guide!
(To all those who asked in the DC and on here if I could draw their sonas/OCs Yassified. With love ofc!)
(Am fine! Dw!)
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Intro/Main Comic
Batches
Pest's Demise
#regretevator#art#denis art#digital art#regretevator art#regretevator au#regretevator fanart#yass infection au#regretevator pest#regretevator fleshcousin#regretevator wallter#regretevator spud#regretevator reddy#regretevator poob#only tagging the characters I actually had to draw for this one since like almost every character is in this rjegdj#also there was supposed to be 11 images bur as always Tumblr is bein a dIck!!111#also this was originally supposed to be just for the discord butttt yeah#also ik Flesh Cousin looks different that was on purpose#they had a HUGE glowup tell me if y'all like it >:]
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since there's not much going on in my brain lately and my l&ds and ultraman rising obsession is stronger than ever, i have a few ideas lined up for you to choose and help me decide on what to pursue next <3
option #1
☆ the making of a mrs/the making of mrs.qin (fluffy, smutty, forced proximity mhmm, fake marriage, angsty, lots of crack scenes) the idea: stuck in the N109 zone and with no way of leaving until you figure out how to remove the aether core bond between you and sylus, you take up his offer (and begrudging help) to try and blend in with his high-stakes, high-rewards life. how? by learning struggling to be his wife
option #2
☆ dearest dead (angst, arranged marriage, second chances, u will want to slap zayne fr, not l&ds!mc) the idea: after the death of his beloved girlfriend, dr. zayne is offered a role in a secret project that promises to reverse her cruel fate - on the condition that he marries his boss' daughter. driven by grief and desperation, he accepts, willing to do whatever it takes to bring her back to life - even if it means sacrificing his marriage
option #3
☆ untitled wip (second life, second chances, isekai, kenji is so down bad, mystery, inspired by tswift's so high school, mighttt be a one shot idk) the idea: you met kenji sato when you were 15. ten years down the road, he's a famous baseball star and you're engaged. then, your fiance does the unthinkable - murdering you in cold blood. but, when you open your eyes in a different reality, this time as kenji's fiance, youre faced with the question of continuing this facade or trying to find him back in your original timeline
thank you <3
#i'll try my best to also write hopelessly devoted and entangled concurrently#it's all outlined i just need a bit more time to flesh it out#but inspo has taken over and who am i to deny her call#lads sylus#lads zayne#kenji sato#lnds x reader#ken sato x reader#ultraman rising#love and deepspace
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Wade trying on different hair systems
"I look like a long haired hippie!"
"honestly, I'm not seeing it." You replied
"You look the same to me as you've always looked-"
you ruffle the wig because hair is weird
"hot."
"ughh.."
BASED ON THIS COMIC PANEL FROM SCOTT PILGRIM
#I need more variety from x readers#i need reader to be more fleshed out ok yeah j get it#making reader a simple character for a place holder for the actual reader is considerate#but please its just limiting to prepp#girlish#or even not inclusive to others aswell! am i complaining and being dramatic? yes but you cant deny that you wanna see yourself as-#an awesome bitch not just the cocksleeve for the character#I NEED VARIETY WITH PERSONALITY HERE PEOPLE#scott pilgrim reference???#scollace ahh#wade wilson x reader#wade wilson#deadpool and wolverine#marvel#deadpool x reader#deadpool#x reader#m!reader#gn!reader#writing
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“I’m not excited for loumand!” oh. how terrible... get well soon ig.
#listen man#i have waited my whole life for this#we were denied loumand in the movie#and now it’s happening in the flesh#i refuse to let anyone ruin this for me#respectfully and with love if you ain’t about it get away from me bc it’s all i’m gonna talk about once it’s happening okay?#i’m already seeing ship war tension and i have to laugh#it’s not about loustat vs loumand and it never was#ship wars are stupid and they’re all in love with each other anyway hope this helps#interview with the vampire#loumand
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There's just something so cathartic for me when it comes to writing from Astarion's POV. The parallels are hard to miss at times. That's why he feels so familiar.
I get inside his head only to find myself looking in the mirror. But I can find a way to handle it with him. Through him. He's a vessel for all the things I vow myself to be able to deal with one day. He's safe and easy to navigate around. He's the representation of something that hurts but causes no harm.
There's undeniable comfort and safety in what feels familiar, so I am naturally drawn to his mind. To how he works. To what fleshes him out as a character.
What an amazing character to explore in all his paths and forms.
#ruby rambles ‧͙⁺˚*・༓☾#I always wondered why I preferred writing from his POV and I guess I kept denying that there were some parallels between us#I just thought it felt easier cause he's more fleshed out than a reader insert#but no#this is something else entirely
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"Animal rights" people when you tell them that animal rights extend to mosquitos, wasps, rats, spiders, and other ""gross evil"" animals instead of just a cute puppy
#sp-rambles#eye contact#Watched a video of genetic testing on a female mosquito to cancel out its ability to piece human flesh#And a qrt of it talked about how fucked up it is to imagine having something you know intiutively be denied for reasons beyond comprehension#And people were like “errrmm but mosquitoes are evil and bad☝️☝️”#Like year they've harmed people and can carry diseases but be fr#It's a core component of the ecosystem#tw scopophobia#scopophobia
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Proverbs 4:27 — Today's Verse for Saturday, April 27, 2024
#God#Jesus#christianity#faith#steadfastness#focus on God#resist all sin#resist temptation#straight and narrow path#led by the spirit#deny flesh#deny self#kill the flesh#do not give in to temptation#you are weak#you are wicked#you are a sinner#bible verse#heartlight#(sorry I'm so weak and stupid and helpless and selfish and evil even when I'm trying my best Lord)
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I was thinking about how the run away with me au Robin and Steve "should we get divorced?" conversation comes about:
Theyre about 23 and Robin comes home in tears after another break up. The reason: Robin had asked her girlfriend of 8 months, Lorraine to move in with her and steve. Lorraine assumes this means steve is moving out and when Robin clarifys that no Steve is staying, he's an important part of her life theyre married for chists sake. Well Lorraine doesnt take that well, says she isnt going to spend her life playing second fiddle to Steve.
This isnt the first time a relationship had ended for either of them because a partner hadnt been able to accept that Steve and Robin were a package deal. Things had been especially rough for them romantically in the first couple years of their marriage. It wasnt until a particularly awful screaming match between Robin, Steve and Steves first real boyfriend, that they were able to admit their relationship was incredibly codependent and unhealthy. Steves boyfriend had been upset when Steve had cancelled on him for the 3rd time in a row because of a Robin Emergency™️ and decided to confront Robin about it while Steve was in class. Things escalated quickly when Steve came home early from class to find them arguing and immediately took Robins side. The argument and Steves relationship ended with a slammed door, a lot of tears and a new rift in Robin and Steves relationship.
It took a lot of long conversations with Carina and Marjorie, Steve working through his toxic masculinity enough to go see a therapist - He and Robin made a deal that theyd both go talk to someone about, you know almost dieing "do you think me being fucked up by what happened at starcourt makes me weak steve?" "No of course not!" "Well then why would it make you weak?" - and a summer spent apart (Robin taking an internship in rome to study latin) for them to sit down and have a long conversation about boundaries and ground rules for how they would navigate their relationship as well as dating in the future.
Steve and Robin agreed to both take a break from dating while they worked through their respective traumas, and figured out how to navigate their relationship in a healthy way. Things werent easy, the both of them occasionally backsliding into unhealthy behaviors, more than a few nights where one of them spent the night with Carina and Marjorie in order to have space from eachother. But eventually they get their shit figured out and decide to brave the world of dating again. Steve and Robin both have their share of flings and short lived relationships but nothing so far seemed to stick. That is until Robin met Lorraine.
Lorraine was funny, sweet and a little bitchy. They had immediately clicked after being introduced by some mutual friends from school. Robin really thought things with Lorraine were going to work out. Steve and Lorraine had gotten on like a house on fire, she had slipped into Robin and Steves dynamic easily, trading jokes and light hearted jabs, cooking breakfast together on days Lorraine would stay at their apartment. Robin had fallen hard and fast, she thought she had finally found someone who accepted that her and Steve were a package deal. So 8 months in when Lorraines lease was ending Robin (with agreement from steve) asked Lorraine to move in. Things don't go to plan. Robins dreams of a future with lorraine are shattered. She goes home broken hearted.
After Robin has cried herself out, her and steve cuddled together on the couch Steve is the one to broach the topic. Robin immediately bursts back into tears before he calms her back down again saying he doesnt want a divorce but he also doesnt want to hold Robin back, doesnt want to be the reason she cant find happiness. Robin replys by saying if anyone is holding the other back its obviously her, steve gave up everything to protect her afterall. Steve calls bullshit -years of therapy and he can finally say that word without cringing- says he would do it all again in a heartbeat, that she doesn't owe him anything. They stay up all night talking about it, about what the both of them want from their futures. Neither can see a future without the other. they're platonic life partners, one day they'll find their someones who can accept that and if not well, they'll always have eachother.
Of course they do find their someones in the form of a charming if infuriating metal head and a brilliant, sweet, and badass reporter. Through trial and error the four of them figure out how to navigate life together. They all live happy ever after.
Robin and Steve celebrate 30 years of marriage with divorce papers. They'll always love eachother but now they dont need a marriage to keep eachother safe. They dont need a marriage to stay as platonic life partners. They have eachother and they have Eddie and Nancy. They have everything they need.
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Lmk what you think! I'd love to have someone to scream with about this AU and bounce ideas off of :D
Tagging by request <3 @ramyayaya
#i think steve and eddie find eachother infuriating in a good way and also a sexy way and i love that for them#i wrote this instead of sleeping#i'll actually turn this into a fleshed out fic i swear. i just happened to see a post talking about how a lot of fics make steve and robin#imcredibly codependent and started thinking about how i would handle that in my fic and decided to write out my ideas#i dont want it to come off as magically theyre perfect and okay. i think things would be messy in the beginning. and still a bit messy#even after bc theyre only human you know. i think having elder queers to talk to would be so important to them for helping them figure#things out you know#i think eddie and nancy wouldnt enter the picture until Steve and robin are 27/28#im also still trying to figure out relationship dynamics bc the fruity 4 are in a polycule and how i think that would be for them#no matter which way you look at it the relationship between the 4 of them is inherently queer and thats beautiful#i hesitate to have eddie and nancy marry eachother in turn bc yknow heteronormativity#i think people assume theyre together and that eddie and nancy never confirm or deny why people make that assumption#but idk if they ever get married idk ill have to think about it#if you read this far in my tags feel free to hop in my dms and scream with me about this au#id love to have someone to bounce ideas off of#run away with me au#platonic stobbin#robin buckley#steve harrington#steddie#ronance#long post
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Sketch of a dream I had
#religious horror#digital art#monster#horror#dark art#it was in a dimly lit church#preacher was sayin a prayer and the words came out on the wall#everyone started freaking out#then the words turned into something that looked like one of those stains that people say looks like mother mary#except i recognised it as an image of a saint#then the preacher looked at it and it's eyes started glowing#and im askin him how he did this and he's vehemently denying causing it to happen#then this three headed flesh saint comes out of the wall#screaming like a banshee#and everyone falls to their knees#it floats up and forwards towards me#as im terrified crawling backwards to the church doors#it continues to scream as the preacher scrambles towards me and places his hand on my head#to bless or absolve me#and as im thinking about death i wake up#...#i've never been to a sermon in my entire life#dreams#i drew this#myart
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I’m so jealous of my alternate universe self who got to watch restoration as a three season arc
#rvb#like I don’t think restoration was horrible#there were some really good moments#but I can’t deny that some moments were p lame#if it was more fleshed out i think a good portion of my problems with it would have been solved#or at least like. five more minutes with Simmons running after grif
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could i bother u for more thoughts on faith and max in a mock apple orchard 🥺👉🏻👈🏻
@gayafsatan — I would absolutely LOVE to brainstorm some fun ideas of them in a mock apple orchard!!
I've been replaying again so they've been rotating around in my mind a lot extra hard and was especially thinking about mock apple picking bc the botanical labs also has a lil orchard where you can pick mock apples up off the ground! But I'm currently in Roseway so oughhh.. ideas....
I want you now I am going to ramble a LOT so please bear with me I swearsies it'll be more fun if we get the full lore dump from my brain 😩💖💕
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👇 ROSEWAY THOUGHTS 👇
(I AM GOING TO TALK ABT ROSEWAY THOUGHTS AS A WHOLE AND THEN EASE INTO SOME SILLY MOCK APPLE ORCHARD IDEAS AT THE END OKAY. OKAY ILY THANK YOU).
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My thoughts are very chaotic and rambly so let me try to walk though my ideas lmao
Roseway is typically where I peg Faith's death wish arc happening, and to summarize what all that entails, it's when the mask slips and the weight of everything finally hits her in full force.
I always envision this story happening over a long period of time so a lot of time has passed since first arriving at Edgewater and the Groundbreaker.
Halcyon. Her situation. Her identity. The life Phineas threw her into abruptly and his expectations for her. Making split second moral decisions where no matter what someone is going to get hurt. Being so alien and alone, no one to understand her or believe in her predicament but having to be the mysterious competent captain regardless.
It finally gets to her. Bad. And she makes some self destructive decisions. She gets sloppy, careless, hoping someone else will end this nightmare for her. Until they almost do.
I am swiftly brushing past many details so we don't get too lost in the sauce. But Max went after her, found her collapsed and injured bad, carried her back to the ship for Ellie to do whatever she could, and then stayed by her side for as long as it took for her to wake up.
This is such a key moment for them getting closer. Because there was a lot of frustration and emotion and being forced to confront the possibility of feelings existing, but nothing they fully understand or are ready to acknowledge as such yet.
She tries to brush past the subject of what happened, deflecting everything until he raises his voice in a way he hasn't since she gave him the journal and she threatened he never talk like that to her again. And it was enough to break through her facade, for her to show just how utterly broken and vulnerable she is, and they have a proper fucking conversation about where she's at mentally. He still isn't ready for the truth about her life before. But it's a step forward.
There is a lot of patience and understanding and just. Yeah. A lot happens here. Some walls come down. There grows some room for them to become softer and closer over more time.
All of this is important because a short piece I had written a long time ago took place in this area roughly after this incident.
It was a personal outlet vent piece, I will be honest. When I wrote it it was after I had a very bad panic attack after an awful scare. And I wrote it into Faith because I just wanted to get some feelings from that experience out of my system.
The shortened version of that one is Faith recovering from a bad episode, trying to calm her breathing, waiting for her ears to stop ringing and for her vision to come back. Her legs gave out on her and she was sitting under the mock apple trees. Her voice locks up on her when she's seriously distressed. Yadda yadda yadda, Max had brought along his datapad so she could communicate anything important and she was incredibly confused because she knows he doesn't like using his datapad ever and then rendered even more speechless to know he brought it specifically for her in case something like this were to happen again. It ends with her just asking if he would keep talking to her, and they sit there under the mock apple trees for a while, in no particular rush to get anywhere.
And after this point, I think the mock apple orchards become a really peaceful, therapeutic spot for her when she just wants a moment to herself. Sits there, breathes, takes in the Roseway scenery and collects herself before jumping back into the horrors of Halcyon. Spends some time picking mock apples to take back to the ship.
I've been having a lot of ideas of her asking Max to go with her. I'm of the mind if she'd ask directly that he'd either decline, or at least pretend to be uninterested but she's the one who asked so he accepts the offer.
But I can see her being vague and just saying that she's heading out if he'd join her and she leads him to the orchards. By this point they're already often in each other's company, she indulges his interests often, letting him be the one who is finally listened to. But in general, they get along very well in conversation when it comes to a handful of similar interests and their personalities and attitudes bounce off of each other well.
(In my story anyway, since she spends an extended amount of time in Edgewater and the Vale, there was also a lot of time spent doing some early bonding with Max. So do with that info what you will. They're not likeee besties yet but they're much more than strangers by this point, ya'know? Just to get an idea of where their familiarity with each other is at and why there's enough respect and trust to some extent already existing. Not to mention how much time they had spent on the Groundbreaker).
They'd be having such a peaceful time away from the rest of the crew.
Oughhh hear me out, okay, Faith loves to bake. She doesn't even ask, she just makes Max hold her bag open while she starts collecting mock apples and after they finally head back to the ship she figures out how to make mock apple pie for the crew 😭 we already know Max doesn't care much for sweets (I wonder how sweet or tart a mock apple pie would be.. Faith girl what all Halcyon ingredients are you adding to that bad boy) but.. what if.... After everyone goes to bed...... He tries some anyway........ Because she made it..........
Most of what's bouncing around in my brain is them early on having wholesome bonding time in a spot just for the two of them. Just enjoying each other's company. Realizing they have genuine respect for each other, Faith feeling like she found a genuine friend who went to lengths further than anyone had in her entire life to make sure she survived. I am specifying Faith's feelings here intentionally. I write Max in a more complicated spot very blinded by his revenge scheme more or less unaware for a long while just how much the lines start blurring between his faith and his Faith. To put it succinctly. (Look I know I'm always drawing The Good Stuff™️ but in actuality their relationship is suchhhh a slow burn. They are not the most romantically inclined people lmao).
But also.. once she realizes she can talk to him when she needs to. I think coming back to this spot, off the ship, away from the crew, she just likes it there. She likes being there with him. She finds comfort in that spot.
OKAY BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE WOULD BE CUTE.... they should come back here.. post-scylla and post-gorgon...... Ya'know......... The first being when they establish not wanting to be apart and the second being when they want to make that partnership a permanent one......... ASKING HER IN THE MOCK APPLE ORCHARDS WOULDN'T THAT BE DARLING ough okay I need a minute my brain is going too fast to comprehend
My Roseway ideas aren't the most cleaned up I know BUT so many important bonding moments exist and oughhhh LOOSE IDEAS ARE STILL WORTH TALKING ABOUT OKAYYYYY
I just want them to go mock apple picking together and learn how to get smiles out of each other and not understand why it makes their chests hurt but they know they need to do it again
ACTUALLYYYYY post-scylla when he's much more mellowed out and they're the closest they've been I think would be so so nice. they'd be so much softer and he'd probably be so much more involved in wanting to enjoy silly lil activities with her.....
Currently imagining him reading out loud to her, all the conversations they'd have, maybe he brings his tossball cards to show her, maybe they bring one of the lil games, have a lil makeshift picnic....
Godddd the transition between just how much enthusiasm he shows spending time with her is enough to make me explode. Can you see my vision. The reluctance, to the hesitancy, to becoming absolutely inseparable.
I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT BUT I'M GETTING SLEEPY SO SENDING IT!!!!!!
Literally feel free to add on or share your own thoughts I'm begging you lmao I promise there is so much room for ideas to be fleshed out and better put together, I'm mostly just spitballing what all I think would be incredibly fun ideas to work with. Plus I'm kind of thinking across the timeline and how much their relationship would change between each visit. And how over time they would enjoy it more and more and make each visit more special than the last.
WAIT BEFORE I LOSE THE THOUGHT!! They make a stop RIGHT BEFORE HEADING TO SCYLLA TO GO TO THE HERMIT'S LODGE!! Oh that could hurt so good omgggg. Okay okay I need to stop now I NEED TO STOP.
#MY DEAR FRIEND I WROTE SO MUCH I APOLOGIZE AHEAD OF TIME#I had a LOT of roseway thoughts I needed to get out of my system#that lead into why the mock apple orchards would be such a special spot they'd want to keep returning to 😭#my thoughts are all a mess tho I know I know I have a lot that's needs cleaning up and better fleshed out#but hey! what's the point of having ideas if you can't talk about them no matter what stage of development they're at!!#enjoy my long winded roseway ramble#I really do think the orchards would make such a lovely spot to just be alone and bond#not that it was ever their intention. it certainly wasn't supposed to happen he'd think.#yet there he is. unable to deny her invitation and realizing all too late how many details about her he has committed to memory#always so collected and calculated. never stumbling on his words. always knowing just what to say.#until it comes to her. until she days his name. until her voice like a siren song has his tongue tied in knots.#'vicar max if you prefer brevity' he tells her. yet maximillian she'll call him. letting his name linger on her lips for as long as possible#I think I need to go lay down#faith and max#my writing#long post#says*
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Another rapid answer post for all your asks on my main fic
Time travel? Ehhh... I don't much care for time traveling in fics.
No plans on it
I mean, that question does spoil a lot if that was my plan.
What spoilers? My answer is still the same from the last time I was asked this.
Yeah I remember that in the comics. No that will not be in the direction I am taking the main fic.
It's mildly radioactive. Spicy, but as harmless as a banana.
a) Corpsefucker-bot of course. b) Hard time coming up with on here, but he would call him that "Statue-of-Liberty-lookin' motherfucker." c) Starscream doesn't need a nickname, but instead would be accented with "Starscream, that fuck." or something of the like. d) Edgelord-bot, Baby-bitch-simpy-bot, Parasocial-bot (when He's feeling particularly scholarly). e) None. There are few that Alan wouldn't fuck with. Overlord would be one of them.
#anon asks#Shyspider answers#When Flesh Gives#When Metal Bends#When Sparks burn#Please please PLEASE stop asking for spoilers - I'm not giving out any#Even when I get comments that are like “I bet THIS is going to happen” - I'm not going to confirm or deny or even respond#Peace and love Peace and love
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feel trapped
#I don't like her like that anymore#I can't like her like that#she asked if we could kiss once I said sure and found out I don't have feelings for her in the way she likes me#But she's not letting me end things 😭#Then she gets all sad#Cries#And the guilt I feel is so shit#Another thing is that I can't fucking handle physical touch and she won't understand#It's her main love language and it's not even in the top of mine#There are whole weeks where I cannot be touched without feeling burnt or like I'm going to throw up or like I want to rip the skin off#My flesh my bones#But she can't fucking understand why#I've explained everything to her and she just fucking forgets#Like the shit I go through is nothing#I do still give her hugs and shit but she's all like “are you mad at me” “do you hate me” when j physically can't touch her#I've explained it to her time and time again and she just fucking forgets#And even worse they all expect me to feel OK with touch again by the end of the day#That's not how it works#Like asking me 29 times a day “are u OK with touch can I hug you” and I have to deny them every time because i don't want to vomit on them#And it makes me feel like shit for denying them#They look all upset like I've denied them a basic aspect to friendship I'm sorry it sounds rude#But it's not a necessity#Especially if you can receive that kind of affection from other members of the friend group more regularly than me#There's so much more that makes the bile rise to my throat#But I just#Feel done#I don't want to talk to any of them anymore#Especially her#It suffocates me#And i can't be around people who make me feel trapped
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