#deleted scenes for the win!!!!

[luz-bi-love]

This was cut out of the episode where Luz comes out as Bi! Camila was supposed to also!

[cuntylouis]

'Uncut and uncensored version' you say

[elderwisp]

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Icarus: You mind?

Frances: Nope. I’m pretty sure my whole friend group has a nicotine addiction.

Icarus: I’m trying to quit.

Frances: Ah, see, that’s what they all say.

Icarus: [ snorts ]

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Icarus: Hey, are you doing alright? You’ve been a bit quiet all night. Frances? Woah- [ whispers ] We really shouldn’t.

Frances: No, yeah. Totally. We should go now. [ clears throat ] I have some things I need to take care of in the morning anyways.

[xxri]

maría for the ad astra zine! lc u will be missed T_T

[heuldoch7b]

rapid flow state

[waitmyturtles]

I was liveblogging episode 10 of Bad Buddy last night in desperate fury, and one of my posts honed in on Dissaya talking about "saving face".

As what ALWAYS HAPPENS whenever I'm watching and/or thinking about Bad Buddy, I had a further realization (this time while showering).

That hiding and saving face that Dissaya is talking about here....

"Saving face" is an automatic given, a structural social component of Asian life. I don't know an Asian culture that isn't at least partly centered on its citizens "saving face" at any given moment of time. "Saving face" is how Asian families stay together through the absolute worst of familial trauma (the news and the shame, say, of having a child run away from home would likely be hidden from friends and extended family so that a nuclear family could "save face"). Saving face is why Japanese and South Korean business workers show little to no emotion in the workplace -- it would be an embarrassment for them, AND for the company, if outbursts were to happen. Saving face is a modicum by which collectivist societies can maintain control over behavioral outbursts that may disrupt a general flow of life. (Filial piety is another example of an automatic social given.)

When Ming and Dissaya were in high school and dating, and Ming stole Dissaya's scholarship -- Dissaya had to figure out how to save face from the embarrassment of losing the scholarship, and her opportunity to go to university.

Ming stole the scholarship, because he had to save face for himself, AND for his father (AND, ostensibly, for his entire nuclear family), as it would have been a honor unto his family for Ming to go to university.

So those are the layers of saving face for Pat's and Pran's parental generation.

How does intergenerational trauma work? Those demands for saving face aren't just passed ONTO the children -- onto Pat and Pran.

Pat and Pran are expected to embody those same responsibilities. That's why Ming continually gets angry with Pat throughout the series about lying, about the secrets, about the architecture play and about rugby practice. And Dissaya says as much to Pran before her confrontation with Ming -- how could Pran date Pat? How could Pran forget "to save [Dissaya's] reputation?"

But most importantly to me, what Dissaya says above -- what really guts me as both an Asian child, and as an Asian parent...

... is that the hiding and saving face that Dissaya is referring to above?

She's also talking about the information that Ming and Dissaya have hidden from Pat and Pran themselves.

PAT AND PRAN'S OWN PARENTS were saving THEIR faces TO THEIR SONS. So that their OWN CHILDREN would respect them.

Ming and Dissaya needed to lie and to save face to Pat and Pran, so that Pat and Pran wouldn't stray from their loyalties to their families. Pat and Pran's OWN BEHAVIOR needed to be CONTROLLED by their families, so that Pat and Pran wouldn't bring embarrassment or disrespect to Ming and Dissaya -- so that THEN, Ming and Dissaya could keep up the façade of their family battle to save themselves from the individual embarrassment they had brought upon themselves and each other in high school. We don't even know if Ming's father had known that Ming stole the scholarship. What if Grandfather Jindapat knew that Ming had stolen the scholarship? Would that have brought shame to the family? Likely.

Episode 10 is SO heart-wrenching and painful for so many reasons. But especially to see the guys continue to hear, in conversation after conversation, from Uncle Chai to their high school teacher, the TRUTH of the hatred between Ming and Dissaya, and how Pat's and Pran's childhood understanding of the battle was based on lie after lie -- you could see the confusion, trauma, and anger building. The anger that bubbled out as Pat stormed out of his house. And the trauma that flowed out from Pran on the rooftop before the boys ran away.

The boys were used as pawns in a family fight that never needed to go as far as it did. The boys realized that.

"I had to hate Pran... because of you?"

It was because Ming and Dissaya were far more concerned about saving face than about the happiness of their sons.

[bunbunbunni]

here, something that actually needs a mature label tumblr

Freaky

in Dungeon /j

[cherryblossomtimemachine]

Now I'm not sure I want them to release this scene because as they release each deleted scene my anger rises at the thought of these scenes not being in the show and I don’t know what I'll be capable of if I reach peak anger.

[damagedintellect]

Guys I just woke up from another bungo dream, idk about writing this one into a fic but,

it was 15Dazai&Chuuya and I was like Chuuya's secretary/older sister in the sheep but I was the same age as I am now (which didn't make sense why I was in the sheep but whatever) and it was like I was babysitting 15SKK throughout the whole Arahabaki/sheep situation & in the end Mori hired me to be their personal mediator

And like Chuuya treated me like an older sister that he also had a crush on and Dazai kept flirting with me to get a rise out of Chuuya

It was super uncomfortable bc 1 they were fighting over me while shit was happening and I had no ability but neither would allow me to get hurt but like I was still in the line of fire and 2, dream me was 27 having a midlife crisis that my little brother has the hots for me & this bandaged little shit has no sense of personal space but Mori was laughing his ass off at my expense

[luciality]

thought about amecan so much in the shower i literally threw up

[sharkneto]

I have found out that people are voting for the wrong duck in the duck poll because they miss my tags seeing the truth about how the Ring-necked duck is superior.

So. Immediately after this you are going to see a poll of The Best Duck: Canvasback vs Ring-necked duck. As my loyal followers, I need your help to bring justice and secure the Ring-necked duck that win. He is losing, badly, and as my favorite duck I cannot let him lose to a fucking canvasback lying down.

Remember: Ring-necked duck! He's black and white! He's got a fancy bill! His head isn't a fucked up shape! The best duck!

[hopefromadoomedtimeline]

Gotta say a guilty pleasure of mine is definitely enjoy the Sword of Hope scene WAAAAY more than I should.

Does it make sense? Not remotely

Is it unnecessary? Yeah pretty much

Did it result in a satisfying conclusion? Not remotely

Is it cool as shit? Absolutely

[ckygetsjobs]

how knox stan’s feel when they see him in viva la bam or peeks in cky is how I feel when I see dico in the jackass movie. Let y’all think about that.

[iphyslitterator]

And the winner is....Maddie!

Maddie beat Chim by a slim margin, and the Buckley-Han family collectively received over 50% of the vote. Rounding up propaganda from the notes because I love what everyone had to say:

Maddie

#i want tommy with maddie#ie future in-laws having a good convo#maybe waiting for their guys together

#Maddie is the only correct answer#we’ve seen him with mostly everyone else#but this is Buck’s sister and number one#they need to meet

Chimney

#everyone but especially#chimneyyyy#madney bucktommy double date when

#i said chim because the shenanigans would be *chef's kiss*

I would love to see Chimney's take on Buck/Tommy. Is Chimney gonna interrogate Tommy as well? Will he give Tommy the shovel talk too? Will he see right through Tommy? What's going on in Chim's head?

Hen

#HEN!!!!!!!#I need her to give him the side eye and be like………..#sooooooooooooooo#and I think it would be funny#but also like a heartfelt conversation of his apologizing and maybe acknowledging that his straight passing-ness and whiteness#gave him the ability to hide under Gerard’s rule#and him admitting that he looked up to Hen secretly and made some complaints that got Gerard reassigned I’m

#hen#i need that wlw mlm solidarity and i need them to talk about the differences of being openly vs closeted queer under gerard

Jee-Yun

(Honorary Award for Most Likely to Produce Fic in the Tags)

#okay jee yun just bc I think it would be cute#actually in my dream world we get a scene with all the kids ganging up on tommy at one of the get togethers

#instinctively went to karen before I saw jee-yun!!!#let that big man hold a child NOW#buck leaves them alone for two minutes and suddenly tommy is wearing a tiara and engaged in a very serious#discussion of stuffed animal political rivalries#I want him stoic and serious as he listens carefully and asks questions#he gets absolutely nonsense answers back but he he nods sternly like it’s the most important thing he’s ever heard#buck cries watching them and says I love you for the first time that night

#jee-yun#i want tommy seeing uncle buck with his niece#and have feelings about it#and then buck thrusts jee in tommy's arms because he needs to go do something#and jee starts explaining to tommy how to fly a helicopter or something#something tommy knows he told buck#and apparently buck told jee#and jee is very excited to teach this man who makes her uncle buck smile a lot something#jfc i need to go to sleep not start a whole new fic in tags

#jee#i need uncle Tommy and adorable jee together#and Buck melts on the background ready to give Tommy kids

Eddie

#eddie. for normal reasons. (Note: op ultimately went with this)

#I NEED TEDDIE#I'M BEING ROBBED

#eddie!#i’d love to see that friendship now that Tommy is dating his best friend

#eddie because I think they could really support each other particularly about army related PTSD

#i want to see what chaos the boys get up to

#sorry but i so need eddietommy friendship back

Bobby

#bobby#i need a 'what are your intentions with my son' moment

#i wanna see dad bobby

Karen

#karen because I think they’d be besties

Josh

#i need live slug reaction from josh about everything tommy does#we were robbed this last season

#girl anyways I want him and Josh to queen out together

Christopher

#Christopher because i think they’d have like a parallel play neurodivergent thing going on#Like Buck and Eddie are excitedly discussing something in the corner#meanwhile chris and Tommy are silently but comfortably playing video games or building a Lego set

Write-in: Gerrard (2)

#angsty evil version: gerrard

#I think Gerrard actually#I would just love to see more of the vulnerable Tommy that we got a glimpse of after the award ceremony#Or maybe him finally standing up for himself (or even better for Buck)#Yeah I need Gerrard to be awful to Buck and Tommy being all protective even though he couldn't find the strength to stand up for himself#He will do it for Buck

Write-in: Sal (1)

#sal please I crave it#I want Tommy to have stayed in contact with him#I want him to be a person trying to be better#I want Tommy to have friends#and I want sal to be those friends#I want og 118 to reunite and talk things out#minus gerrard#cause ew#I want Tommy and sal to be guilted into a 118 cookout and feel like they don’t belong#until they are brought in regaling tales of 118 pre-Eddie pre-buck pre-Bobby even pre-hen and chimney#bonus points if it’s a madney wedding reception redo and Eli is there

Do feel free to elaborate even if you pick the last one :)

[justaz]

that one deleted scene where merlin compliments percival and arthur takes him down, then merlin compliments gwaine and arthur takes him down, the merlin insinuates they’re letting him win so arthur challenges elyan and wins. merlin laughs after arthur stomps away and then lancelot comes over to chide him and complain and merlin laughs and says that arthur is just so predictable. out of the corner of his eye he can see the king returning so he flutters his eyelashes and places his hands on lancelot’s arms to squeeze his muscles and goes “and you’re all big, strong men. i’m sure you can take it” lancelot stares, confused, but can’t say anything before arthur plows right through them and grabs a weapon before dragging lancelot onto the field with him. lancelot turns to look over his shoulder with a betrayed look and merlin just waves back with a grin. arthur wins. leon sighs tiredly from beside merlin, scaring him bc he didn’t see the knight make his way over to him. leon doesn’t say anything but just gives merlin his Disappointed Mom stare and merlin mutters an apology

[yellowpamonha]

so I read someone talking about a merlin deleted scene where merlin compliments the knights and arthur gets pissy and goes fight them to prove that he is better, and I thought it was an exaggeration but it ISNT AT ALL

scene includes:

Arthur says that Percival is strong but not agile, he isn’t the whole package. Merlin agrees and says that GWAINE is the whole package

Arthur goes off to fight Gwaine, who takes his shirt and gives it to Percival??? akjdjda

(we were robbed of shirtless gwaine with a sword)

Arthur then goes fight Elyan, wins, and goes brag to merlin saying, and I quote, “Elyan has got concentration, strength, the whole package, and still I win! What do you have to say about that?” while being dangerously close to him

They had to take it out because it’s the gayest scene I’ve ever watched in my whole fucking life they wouldn’t be able to beat the merthur allegations after it

EDIT: the video is in this post