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I really need some gravity falls friends I think :(
#idk im feeling annoying about talking to non gf friends about it again.#i just said a lot of stuff about stan and his memory loss in multiple discord servers im in today and nobody really. interacted with it in#any of them so i kinda feel stupid for wanting to talk about it ?#any time i feel like this i KNOW its because of how my ex treated me regarding it (can elaborate if asked) and its been hard to...#deal with on my own really.#ive been going through old gf content and such that ive forgotten about in the like? 6 or 7 years i kinda strayed away from it#BECAUSE of that one ex i mentioned#i tend to get on little tangents and talk a LOT about specific gravity falls things for paragraphs accidentally and... nobody who isnt into#the show rn like me isnt gonna like. read that. and respond to it.#i guess i need. conversation? instead of feeling like im talking AT people who just arent as interested as i am.#i think something that really got me down about how much i typed put earlier today is that in one server someone completely changed the#subject about it and the topic got changed without much interaction or discussion at all and in another it was kinda completely ignored#nobody talked over it or anything but nobody has said anything about it at all either. that channel has just kinda been dead and silent#since i stopped sending messages in it. its just#sad? i guess? disheartening.#to be super enthusiastic about something and just not have that enthusiasm met by anyone else. or even like. vaguely hyped up by anyone else
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While denial is common in Jamiyuu ships, Mayu has a very specific flavour of denial
#my art#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#jamil viper x yuu#twst oc#oc#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#girl who is really honest abt her own feelings but shy about others liking her#vs#guy who will be on the receiving end of all this#yet make every excuse along the lines of#maybe shes just being nice#maybe shes this way with me bc im the only person around thats demure and mindful and responsible and would never take things the wrong way#bye i cant deal with them#bet he fishes for compliments too
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Hi, I'm Canon. I'm a disabled artist with some kind of gender and homosexual tendencies. You might have seen my usernames around in posts about loving OCs, or complaining about video game inaccessibility, or attached to one of the worm-centric comics I made, like these ones:
I hate having to ask for help when there's already so much going on, but I am also At My Limit.
To make a long story short, I am very disabled in multiple ways and I am living in a very inaccessible (and often directly disability-hostile) home. While I live with family, they do not provide assistance (financial or otherwise) and our rural location and the glacial pace of Canada's social services have left me A Bit Fucked. (Whatever you think Canada's health care provides, either it doesn't, or it takes half a year to even book an appointment.)
I've asked for help in the past with smaller goals, but costs continue to add up - and this time, finally, I may be able to actually make permanent accessibility changes to the household... if I can fund it myself. On the amount I get from the disability support program in my province, I can't do that; I would have to stop eating for months to afford even one of the major renovations in that time, and, obviously, I can't do that.
What kind of accessibility updates would this be going towards?:
A wheelchair ramp at at least one exit of the house; there are four potential exits, and all of them are currently multiple sets of stairs without railings.
A stair lift (for upstairs access) or a walk in tub (for downstairs access), depending on what my family will agree to
Dressers / storage that I am physically capable of opening
HRT (guess what isn't covered by Canada's health care, apparently!)
A whole mess of medical appointments (vision, prescriptions, dental, infinite various symptom testings) and transportation to and from those appointments (guess what else isn't covered!!)
A functional freezer
Physiotherapy 👍
Food 👍👍👍
And how can you donate?:
Donate directly to my Ko-fi page
Pledge monthly to my Ko-fi membership tiers
Order a commission from me (you'll be added to a queue; I can't provide completion time estimates right now)
Buy my premade digital goods (TTRPG resources, bases, tattoo tickets, etc) through Ko-fi or itch.io
Buy my art on physical goods through Redbubble or INPRNT
Buy designs / adoptables I've made through Toyhouse
Buy things off of my Amazon accessibility wishlist
I'm trying to buy used and second-hand / go through free stuff groups where I can to save costs, so I don't have a fixed goal and genuinely every bit helps. I really want to be able to get back to functioning somewhat normally, and due to Circumstances - as embarrassing as it is - I can't do that on my own, and I can't keep struggling with it the way I have been.
Thank you for your time, and any help you're able to provide. Reblogs are welcome and appreciated.
#not art#mutual aid#donations#i am about to owe a Lot in appointments money and if i cant even navigate my own home in the meantime im going to mcfreaking lose it#also ofc in the off chance that the support outpaces my needs ill pass it on to someone else who needs it#im just really stuck right now. and dealing with shit while disabled and in the middle of nowhere is uh Bad#thank u.
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I think the order of reasons Katniss gives for why Peeta shouldn't be mad at her for playing up their romance is so funny. Like she starts with the fact that they didn't know each other and she was trying to survive and that she doesn't understand what exists between her and Gale. But then she goes into "well I'm never going to get married and he'll just hate me for that!" and "I can't afford love that leads to children or family!"
Girl. Why are you thinking about marriage or children with a man you claim you have no feelings for? Did Peeta ever say he wanted to get married? Did he ever say he wanted children?
NO! Katniss is literally doing this all on her own! She's coming up with a happily-ever-after-domestic-bliss-married-with-kids fantasy in her head with absolutely no input from Peeta and then is like "I could never give him what he wants!"
What he wants? Or what you want, Katnsis?
She's down so bad for him and we're not even in Catching Fire yet.
#the hunger games#thg#suzanne collins#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#everlark#peeta x katniss#the hunger games reread#I CANNOT DEAL WITH HER RIGHT NOW#be so for real Katniss#denial is not just a river in egypt#she loves him so damn much#she doesn't realize it but she does#this is infuriating but in the best possible way#girl was over here imagining marriage and children at the end of the first book#she's all like “well of course marriage and children would be the goal with Peeta”#according to who Katniss?!#this is just happening in your own head!#she really saw him and went “I need to wife him up and give him babies”#“but no of course I don't love him don't be silly”#my post
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what’s your favorite clone and why? 😼
I gotta be that guy and say I really like them all. i loVE EACH ARCHETYPE THEY KINDA RESEMBLE
Sekido [in my head] has a mean exterior SO loud it makes you forget he's working with the others to actively protect the main body and has faith in their abilities. He gets annoyed at his younger counterparts cause he knows they're not using their full potential... I also really like how he's both very proper and improper, like a thug in a meeting or something... so cool.... Also, him taking the leader role and everyone going with it has big bro vibes.. oldest bro vibes.
cult leader loves tsundere guys.
Karaku [in my head] is the thrill seeker type who's more than willing to be the most annoying man around for the sake of his entertainment and living in the moment. He plays around rather than disposing of someone immediately like a fucking psychopath. Even if late, he knows when to get serious and when to tone down his antics. he still gets fucked over by playing with his opponents too much.. I like that he's not stupid, he's reckless. mega "cool big bro" aura.
cult leader loves shameless guys.
Urogi [in my head] is obnoxious and loud, boastful even especially when he's either screeching or talking, never entirely silent. While he does fight on his own, he'd drop everything if given an order and try his best to comply. also a troublemaker... like a younger bro who never really has responsibilities but does them when told so he can go back to doing wtv he was doing before. Like he's just there to have a good time. He's also not stupid, just excitable, then he gets cocky, then gets his shit rocked.
cult leader loves arrogant himbo guys.
Aizetsu [in my mind] is extremely sassy and gives passive aggressive vibes and prefers to deal with conflict swiftly because it's bothersome and makes him upset. He might look cute and weak, but he's scary. While he's sensitive, he's no pushover and will also cut pretty deep. He's definitely the younger brother who's trying to constantly get out of trouble by seeming like the angel.... It's also interesting because he never sugarcoats his words. He twists them in a way that makes him sound helpful and you, pitiful.
cult leader loves cute manipulative guys.
Zohakuten [in my mind] is a little hater who's most protective of everyone but, more importantly, the main body. He sees himself as a decent guy going against injustice for a man who's just trying to survive. Like a little bro who's stubbornly wrong about something he doesn't fully grasp. Also he's just so hilarious?? it was not necessary at all to insult your opponents looks then tell tanjiro to get over it cause the dead weren't relevant to him. How can someone so disrespectful come in a small package..
cult leader loves the brat trope.
Urami is pretty similar to hantengu, imo, just angrier 😔😔 not many opinions, but I do find it amusing to imagine he's very passionate 24/7
#null rot#hantengu clones#Hantengu#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#zohakuten#dizzieskizze#cloaked cult member#sighs whistfully... mostly everyone gravitated away because they haven't mastered the art of having absolutely no fucking content....SIGHSS#id try to list their traits in my mind to rank but id go in circles of 'but i love the gap of sekido..' or 'but karaku can be so petty'#or 'but urogi is so scarily excitable' or 'but aizetsu is like a brick shithouse trying to be cute'#or 'but zohakuten is the little terror wherever he goes...' AGH AGHHH AGHH I CANT CHOOSE. thEYRE ALL SO GOOD.#punches ceiling#ig the least favorite is urami bc i cant think of anything for him...... sorry big old man..........#they're all very cute in their own ways and I'm the mf who's always trying to find a harem route 😭#Aside from my simp brain theyre all really complex to me and i really fuckin like that. i cant choose orz#at least you know i put my heart into all of them#DO NOT SEPARATE#ILL FUCKING DIE BRO#ITS A BUY ONE GET ALL DEAL HERE
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“Inertia”
I wanted to do an illustration that pretty much captures the vibe of my AU. I think it comes across here!
#gravity falls#gravity falls au#domesticated ford#ford pines#stanford pines#my art#bill cipher#digital art#illustration#artists on tumblr#i listened to AJRs Inertia basically the whole time I was drawing this#I really don’t like shading but it does bring things together#bill is being very patient#my ford is pastel goth#not that he chooses his own clothes#but like the whole deal of this universe is very pastel goth#I don’t know how to explain it
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holy shit I did NOT realize how popular my "I will remove my teeth, for I want to remain kind despite my anger" quote is. I just googled it for fun to see what would come up, a bunch of people are quoting it not knowing who its from, an artist called Kuma made an album titled that, so bizzare
#also people are misatributing the quote to kuma and the first google result for the quote attributes it to them#which is kind of upsetting but not a huge deal whatever#its cool it seems to have entered culture like that#i get very mixed feelings about those instances where something I made got WAY more popular than i expected and#people are reposting it or using it without attributing it to me#i both feel bad when stuff isnt credited to me but also good that my art has expanded beyond my reach#its out of my control kind of and other people have it now#which IS what i want for my art and how i generally think art should be#but it is also obviously causes some anxiety to lose control and really full ownership of something that is yours#i think also there is anxiety about something of mine being taken by someone bigger than me#since they can just claim it as their own and most people will know them as the origin#not talking specifically about this quote btw just any of my work#ive definetly been thinking about that hbomberguy vid lol#i hope any of this made sense im a little high rn
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out of all the hollyleaf chapters, this one from outcast has always really stuck with me in the way it resonated in constantly being taught that finding a husband and settling down to have kids was an expectation or even a path to happiness. squirrelflight's response isn't to tell her that she doesn't have to have children, that she doesn't need to become a mother if she doesn't want to - instead it's to assure her that her "path is marked out" and "she can have kits and still return to the warrior's den". hollypaw's pov chapter comes after lionpaw's and jaypaw's, neither of which have to deal with these questions and struggles. i'd be curious to hear the author's intentions behind the scene- it's interesting characterization - one that resonated with me obviously - but it's so strange to see in a children's book, one by authors who at the very least hold milquetoast liberal politics, be unable to outright have their authority figure in the scene, the one whom the child readers are meant to look to as guidance, say "you don't need to have children if you don't want to, you're not any less for not wanting them" and instead don't acknowledge the idea of not having kits and instead try and say, albeit in a less blunt way, "you can still have babies and a career! you can find a way to have children and still pursue your goals!" which isn't the Good Message shit approach they think it is.
this isn't really meant to be an organized piece of analysis, i just wanted to revisit a scene that really stuck with me as a young kid struggling with my identity. surprisingly out of everything in po3, this is really what made me resonate with the idea of hollyleaf being a lesbian.
#deer rambles#there's probably a better analysis to be made#but i think i just kiind of wanted to ramble about my own personal feelings#as i said. i just remember this scene so well#and i think it stuck with me for a reason ya know? not because it's good#but because it's a struggle that isn't really explored. the authors dont think of these concerns as society born#to them. this is just what young girls and women deal with. these concerns materialize by virtue of being a “woman”#they are not created they are not taught they are just values that exist nebulously
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they could never make me hate you, miss oranje
#disco elysium#de fanart#de#disco elysium fanart#quick sketch tht i just dressed up a little hah#ive been seeing klaasje hate recently in diff circles and it makes me so sad bc i really love her#she’s SO complicated and morally grey and i really feel like ppl forget just how much shit she’s already dealing with#and just focus on how harry feels when he finds out she lies… like YEAH i would too in her situation#trying to stay spoiler free for my buddies but its just like. ppl seem so hard on her. im not saying shes a good person#but shes not an evil master manipulator either. shes just trying to survive in her own way#my art#if klaasje has 100000 fans im one of them. if theres only one its me. if there are none im dead
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loop plush
DAY 98: if we get loop plush announcement i'm selling my firstborn
#codacheetah#isat#loop isat#im so exciteddddd i have monies i want to buy merch. i;ll eat my walls#i need loop plush.... oooooooh i want to pour so many liquids on them so they sink to the bottom of the ocean and die forever#it's not enough to make my own homunculus i need the real deal i can start sticking my needles into a vessel that is capable of feeling pai#im not sure if it comes across but i tried to go for that texture of that awful velvety material they make cheap plushes out of sometimes#itd be fitting if the loop plush had a texture that is harmful to human beings#what i really want is for them to make the loop plush out of short faux fur though. emulate the spikies that way#bc itd be funnyyyy
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the ghost of you 🤍🪻
#persona 3#p3#persona#junpei iori#chidori yoshino#jundori#persona 3 reload#persona 3 art#persona 3 fanart#persona fanart#rare occurence of me drawing something that isn't ryomina 😱😱#ive been feeling very angsty abt post p3 jundori. abt an amensia chidori acting different#abt junpei trying to deal with rebuilding a relationship with her but struggling to do so bc of how different she is#and not wanting to resurface bad memories but also mouring the chidori he lovedd#i thought abt this while listening to fob... hopd me tight or dont and i am my own muse is so themm#i really should draw chidori more so i cna get used to rendering long hairr
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What kind of fashion do you think Himiko(and Ochako) would wear? I have some ideas albeit they’re mostly self indulgent than anything, so I was wondering about your thoughts?
I LOVE THIS QUESTION 😫
HIMIKO:
likes to look dressed up all the time (v feminine
very school girl fashion choices (button ups, patterned skirts, bows, cardigans, long socks, dress shoes)
lovesss cutesy, warm clothes, big sweaters, short skirts, thrives in the winter
wears a lot of neutrals, yellows, pinks, and reds
I imagine she also copies other people's (if she likes them) styles/clothing choices
OCHAKO:
pretty casual, her typical going out fit is a pretty top, simple bottoms, & cool shoes
she owns. so many shorts. all types
her nicer clothes tend to be more cute and feminine, the clothes she usually wears are kinda masc and plain (tank tops, muscle shirts, gym shorts, tshirts, boxers, etc.)
her shoe game is unmatched. where is she getting them from.
likes button ups, denim, cutesy jewelry, big sweaters & jackets, leggings
#love the (and Ochako) part of this ask#i probably would've done both either way they're a package deal for me#I PUT SO MUCH THOUGHT INTO THIS clothing choices for characters are really interesting to me#i kept going back and forth because i kinda wanted to show their general range w outfits#himiko gave me. so much trouble.#btw Himiko's favorite color is pink i feel very strongly about this#ochako and her tanktops and boyshorts against the world#togachako#bnha#mha#toga himiko#toga#uraraka ochako#my hero academia#ask#val talks#ALSO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TELL ME ABOUT YOUR OWN HCS i wanna hear what other ppl think ☹️
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no thoughts head empty mr. m au
bros being both brainwashed but!!! theyre still very loyal to each other even if they dont remember each other and think theyre just allies ejhfjfk. i like to think the actual reason mr. l hates mario in spm is bc it was needed to twist his love for his brother around and any amount of respect otherwise would make him hesitant to attack him. here, well... mr. l is still loyal to the count first, but mr. m himself is loyal only to mr. l
basically, mr. l takes the lead. mr. m doesnt care at all about being the leader of their duo, he doesnt have the drive nor thinks he's suited for it so he leaves it at for mr. l since he seems to like the role and he's way smarter than mr. m is. i mean, if it depended on him alone, he'd just throw hands at peach and bowser until he won. but if mr. l thinks they need a plan, sure, he'll go with it. he doesn't get why they need a robot or the need for a monologue, but sure sure, if mr. l deems it important then it's fine (as long as he doesnt have to speak, then monologues are fine)
and alas:
he's so so so so interested in peach. from the first time he saw her, he was like "oh im interested" immediately. a beautiful tall princess with silky blonde hair and soft features courageously traveling to save the world? oh sign him up! and then after she manages to defeat him in battle, he's like "oh im VERY interested" cuz besides all these qualities, she can even beat him up??? shit, he's in love!! yeah let's go!!!
peach obviously doesnt reciprocate. seriously, who's this guy?? (nevermind he resembles mario so much it hurts, but UGHHH she must be strong it's not him dont be swooned by his charming smile aaaa)
and please consider the scenario of peach rejecting mr. m with "i'm already interested in someone else" and mr. m angrily assumes he has a rival somewhere that he gotta defeat (that just happens to be himself idhjfkglf)
(maybe i'll make a post on a roleswap aka super paper luigi later, woo yeah)
#super mario bros#mario#luigi#mr. m#mr. l#princess peach#mareach#doodle#mr. l changed my brain chemicals back when i was a kid and i always wanted to a version with mario there#yet i never made anything bc i was like.. 10. and i was as creative as a rock#bUT I CAN BE GOOFY ABOUT HIM NOW YEAH YAY YAY#mr. m's cockiness is totally inspired on the recurring joke that every woman in pm 'verse wants mario#except that while mario is awkward about it; mr. m revels in it#i just really like the whole deal with mr. l and when ppl throw in a brainwashed mario. here's my own take hahah
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I dont think most non black people actually want to face their own (personal and communal) anti blackness. Black people are not seeing enough of yall doing shit that actually matters like, cutting contact with your anti black family, giving up work promotions and giving the to black people, opening up your homes to poor/homeless black people, doing more than just casually reading vauge black leftist theory online and being "friends" with black people because you know itll boost your political capital.
I dont believe in black people giving our energy to non black people or their issues until we can give this level of support to our own communities. Most non black people do not care that we exist and the ones who do are falling short of what it means to truly be a friend and co conspirator. I dont believe in solidarity anymore, it literally cant exist if non black people do not choose to put a large organized sustained effort into combating anti blackness in their hearts, homes and communities.
#me#personal#vent#im personally gonna be moving more of own work into supporting more of my own bc im not really seeing that happening atm#I am just very done with dealing with trying to support and be supported by non black people who dont even care about black people#Niggas its time to be selfish! if you are giving to these non black people and theyre leaving your cup dry then its not cool!! be selfish#personally im gonna try to make more of my support efforts go to communal fridges in my neighborhood and giving to haiti sudan and the cong#I suggest that we start being more selective with who we are giving our energies too bc we need to help other black people first
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listen I know it’s kind of corny and inaccurate to act like every single person in the dc universe knows each other and is besties but it IS endlessly funny to me to follow the web of connections and see how many degrees removed from each other everyone is.
like look at the arrowfam okay. ollie and dinah are together, ollie is homoerotic best friends with hal, dinah is homoerotic best friends with babs. roy is dating dick, has a kid with jade, and is basically an adoptive father to both grant emerson and rose wilson. connor is dating kyle and is constantly followed around by eddie fyers. mia is friends with a lot of the second gen teen titans kids, had an on-again-off-again thing going on with steph for a while, and is currently dating sienna. emiko is besties with courtney and some of the other recent teen titans. sin has a small army of protective aunts from the birds of prey. the real question is how far does it go before ollie puts a cap on the number of people who are invited to family brunch on sundays
#arrowfam#LIKE. PLSSSS#can you imagine them all in one room.#roy: hey ollie can garth come to brunch this week.. he’s in town and i never get to see him and he really wants to try your pancakes#ollie: idk roy we’re already at max capacity..#roy: please dad🥺🥺🥺🥺#ollie: …..fine. someone will have to be uninvited then#mia: why? what’s one more person?#ollie: bc I have Very Strict Rules!!! If I don’t follow the invite limit then the whole town’ll show up every week!#connor what about axing kyle#connor: …dad. I am not disinviting my boyfriend and Only Guest to brunch bc of your arbritrary rules.#ollie: fine that’s fair. um…#mia: what about grant#ollie: for the last time mia we are not banning your nephew from family brunch because he allegedly#ate some of your bacon one time. it was not a big deal and you need to get over it#mia: UMM‼️‼️ it was a big deal TO ME🗣️🗣️and I don’t appreciate you INVALIDATING my emotions like this‼️‼️#ollie: uhhh emiko what about courtney. she comes over like every week will she be fine sitting this one out#emiko: I can’t believe this. how dare you deny my ONLY FRIEND IN THE WORLD an invitation to brunch. it’s like you hate me#ollie: EMI I KNOW YOU PATENTLY HAVE MORE FRIENDS. who have BEEN TO BRUNCH BEFORE.#emiko: YOU CAN’T TAKE COURTNEY FROM MEEEEEE#ollie: FINE ok.#roy: why don’t you just tell hal not to come all the way down here for brunch I mean he’s here every week anyway#ollie: bc it’s hal okay. mind your own business.#roy: fine. but we’re running out of people#connor: I mean………. what about eddie#ollie: ………….. yeah ok I’m sold. that works. meeting adjourned good job team#mia: why are you so worked up about keeping attendance low anyway#ollie: MY KITCHEN TABLE CAN ONLY FIT SO MANY SUPERHEROES MIA
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Raphael is the funniest antagonist in the game to me, he's a powerful devil trying to steal your soul and speaks to you in rhymes that he probably practices in the mirror, he has his own incubus that says he's a bottom only and bad in bed, and then you can call him out. You can go and rob him blind and then kick his ass in his own house.
You can ask some guy he had you kill if he wants to help you kick his ass, and if you convince him he'll go 'yeah sure I bet you'll win' while Raphael is standing right there.
#bg3 raphael#bg3 spoilers#bg3#He sings his own theme song#Actual cartoon villain#I've seen his new hair color and my new head-cannon for it is that he dyed it after finding a single grey hair#When Harleep takes Raphaels form he keeps the original brown color just to fuck with him#Wicked witch of the west energy except Dorothy is just some rando who fell from a tentacle ship and has a brain worm for ruby slippers#I saw a reddit post that described him as a sleazy cars sales man and the black hair really sells that image now#Only thing I wish in game is that you could spare him after beating him and make a deal with him in your favor#come full circle with Tav pulling a 'You still have the unconditional freedom to choose the only option you have left'
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