#david.

[machinecatgirl]

If we make it through this, I’ll tell you.

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

JUNE: the way stories differ from life is the "ending". in real life, things just happen... there may be no exciting climax, no resolution, no answers.

JUNE: ...i’m helping someone move out and i poured 8 bottles of expired coke into the toilet, but when i flushed it nothing cool happened.

DAVE: coke expires??

[davidjordanphoenix]

Not allowing your children to socially transition should be considered child abuse.

Trapping your child in an identity that they feel uncomfortable in simply because you haven't done the research about transgender children should be considered a type of medical neglect at the very least.

I am literally going crazy being trapped in a gender I don't belong as. The people in my life call me woman and it is poisoning me. My desire to be seen as a man is so overpowering that I can't think of anything else.

It is KILLING ME to stay closeted. I am unwell because I have so few spaces to be a man. It is CRUEL to not let people transition.

Trans healthcare is lifesaving care. It is lifesaving care.

My need to be a man overwhelms every other desire in my life. I am losing my mind in the closet.

Trans healthcare is nonnegotiable care.

[ykaaarr]

damiano david attends the night of the zodiac fashion show in milan - sept 28th, 2024.

[lesbiancolumbo]

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[snailpebbles]

I genuinely can't tell if I want to be him or be with him.

[diabeticriddler]

balance always got actual laughter out of me but it was more of a chuckle, nothing has made me burst out into fullblown laughter like steeplechase does

[machetesquirrel]

I’m just going to leave this here

[hoopskirt]

Goodbye Mr. Lynch I’ll see you in my dreams

[reachartwork]

david lynch telling people in 2017 that you should accept trans people or kill yourself. he was so real for this.

[thornetabris]

rest in peace you fucking legend

[davidjordanphoenix]

I have so much internalized homophobia and transphobia.

I am angry at myself for having sexual attraction. I am angry at myself for being trans.

If I wasn't queer my mother would love me. My father wouldn't be disgusted by my identity. I wouldn't feel such pain at my body. I wouldn't feel so much shame for being attracted to people.

I've been taught my love was wrong since I was little.

I feel so much shame for being turned on by people I find attractive. I feel shame for my body responding to things I like. I can't control what turns me on and that disgusts me. I can't control who I am attracted to and that disgusts me.

My sexuality disgusts me. I feel repulsed by my body responding to things I like. I feel broken and wrong and disgusting.

I wish I wasn't gay. If I wasn't a man I wouldn't feel shame at being attracted to men. I feel shame and disgust for liking men because I want to be one of them and be socially accepted by them and men are uncomfortable when other men like them. Because it's wrong to be gay. That's what I grew up learning.

I feel like a creep for being sexually attracted to women. I feel like a danger to women because of my lust. My attraction to women feels inherently predatory because I am a man. My eyes are drawn to their bodies and I feel something in my body that I can't control. It makes me feel disgusting. It makes me feel like a predator.

I want to have sex. I like sex. Sex is one of my favorite parts of an intimate relationship. I enjoy sex. I feel disgusted by my enjoyment of sex. I feel shame that I want to have sex with people of all genders. I feel sickened by my thoughts of having sex with people I should not find attractive because I should be straight and cis.

I love sex. I love men. I want to have sex with men I like and I feel ashamed for wanting to have sex with men because men shouldn't want to have sex with other men. If I want to be seen as a man and accepted as a man then I shouldn't be sexually attracted to other men because that is gay and gross and wrong. Men are disgusted by my attraction. I feel shame for wanting to have sex with men who turn me on.

I love sex. I love the sex I have had with women. I love women's bodies. I love the feel of her skin. I miss having sex with her. I miss pulling her hair. I miss fingering her. I miss eating her out. I miss the feeling of my mouth on her. I miss the sounds she would make. I miss the way she would talk to me. I miss her mouth on mine. I miss her mouth on my body. I miss the way she turned me on. I miss the way we enjoyed each other.

I feel shame for enjoying her. I miss her. I feel disgusted by grieving the sex we had.

I miss sex. I feel shame for missing sex. I feel disgusted for missing sex that people who are dear to me find repulsive. I miss being touched. I want to be touched again. I feel unlovable because of my body. I feel unlovable because of my brain. I feel unlovable because of my sexuality.

She stopped loving me when I became a man. Was it coincidental? Or could she only love me as a woman? Did my masculinity disgust her?

I crave masculinity. I crave sleeping with a man who sees me as a man. I crave queer sex. I crave sex that makes me feel like a queer man.

I want to love a man but I am afraid I won't be able to find a man who can see me as a man. All the sex I have had has been sapphic, before I realized my true gender. Sapphic sex makes me feel like a woman. I want to have sex that makes me feel comfortable in my gender identity.

My body looks like a woman. I'm afraid I will be unable to find a man who sees my heart over my body. I'm afraid I won't be able to find a man who sees me as the same gender as himself.

I'm afraid of dating a woman who calls me a man but sees me as the same gender as herself. I feel like I have to prove my masculinity to be taken seriously. I want to have sex with women as a man, but I don't want to have straight sex. I am queer and I want to have queer sex that affirms my identity.

I am tired of being seen as a woman. I'm tired of not being taken seriously as a man. I'm tired of feeling like I have to prove my masculinity. I'm tired of the femininity the world has labeled me with.

I feel disgusting. I feel wrong. I feel unlovable. I feel broken. I feel dirty. My body responds whether I want it to or not. I feel attraction whether I want to or not. I feel attraction to men and people I dearly love say that proves I'm a woman. I am angry that I am attracted to men because I feel like it would be easier to prove my masculinity if I wasn't sexually attracted to them.

I am ashamed because I identify as a bottom. I feel like my masculinity is taken less seriously because I prefer to receive. I feel like women won't see me as a man because I prefer to receive. I want to be seen as masculine and there is a part of me that feels that bottoming is tied to femininity. I don't want to have a straight relationship with a woman where I am seen as the dominant man and she the submissive woman. I don't want a straight relationship.

I feel guilty for my sexual identity. I feel shame for wanting queer sex. I feel difficult to love because of my sexual needs. I feel shame for not being able to participate in sex in the way society depicts men participating. I feel like being sexually submissive inherently makes me less masculine. I struggle to figure out how to understand my desire for masculinity along with my desire to receive. I feel broken for my sexual identity seeming to not align with my gender identity.

I feel so much overwhelming shame at the complexities of being queer. I feel so much overwhelming shame for having needs and desires that conflict with what is expected from me from society. I feel broken and monstrous for having desires that are seen as sinful and disgusting by the people I love.

Anyone who thinks we live in a society where queerness is fully accepted is wrong. It has been traumatizing to grow up queer. I have been traumatized by society's treatment of my desire. I have been called a dyke as an insult. I have been called a lesbian in a derogatory and shaming manner. I have been called a "virgin slut" because of my hypersexuality. I have been called confused. I have been told my gender identity and sexuality are a result of childhood trauma instead of joy at discovering myself. I have had sexual rumors spread about me sleeping with other girls before I even knew what sex was. I have been repeatedly shamed and bullied for my sexuality and gender identity.

I am a boy. I am a man. I am a bisexual man with a high sex drive. I am easily aroused and that makes me feel wrong. I am attracted to many people and that makes me feel wrong. I engage with certain kinks and that makes me feel wrong. I enjoy sex and kink as my favorite form of touch and that makes me feel wrong.

It is traumatizing to grow up queer in our society. I live in an area where my queerness is blatantly ignored at best and criticized and challenged at worst. I am discriminated against for my sexuality and gender identity. It is dangerous for me to be openly queer in the town I live in.

Queer trauma is real. Queer trauma is very real. We are not past such an experience in our society even though many people might think we are. There are still areas where it is dangerous to be queer. I still struggle to accept my own identity because of the shame I have been brought up with.

I want to be free. I want to be free to love who I love. I don't want to feel shame for having a body that is easily aroused. I don't want to feel predatory for being aroused by men and women and nonbinary people I am attracted to. I don't want to feel pressured into a feminine role that doesn't fit me. I don't want to feel like I have to hide my bisexuality or my masculinity. I want to live in a place where I have the freedom to express myself, express my wants, express my needs, express my likes and dislikes, express my desire, express my queerness without being shamed for any of it.

I want to be out. I want to be queer. I want to be free.

I want to be free.

[ykaaarr]

damiano david attends the 2024 VMAs.

[beguilingcorpse]

[marisatomay]

People might bring up Vincent van Gogh as an example of a painter who did great work in spite of, or because of, his suffering. I like to think that van Gogh would have been even more prolific and even greater if he wasn't so restricted by the things tormenting him. I don't think it was pain that made him so great, I think painting brought him whatever happiness he had.

—David Lynch